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Helen Levin

Copyright © 2012 by Helen Levin All Rights Reserved ISBN: 978-1-937739-06-5 Published by Deadly Chaps New York, NY 2012 DCs3HL|2| Cover & Book Design by Joseph A. W. Quintela http://www.deadlychaps.com

Timeline:

1: 3 Oct 10 2: 3 Nov 10

3: 15 Dec 10 4: 7 Jan 11

5: 28 Apr 11 6: 29 Apr 11

7: 4 Jul 11 8: 11 Jul 11 9: 22 Jul 11

10: 24 Jul 11 11: 24 Jul 11 12: 25 Jul 11 13: 26 Jul 11 14: 28 Jul 11 15: 29 Jul 11 16: 31 Jul 11 17: 6 Aug 11

18: 12 Aug 11 19: 13 Aug 11 20: 26 Aug 11 21: 26 Aug 11 22: 26 Aug 11 23: 30 Aug 11

24: 4 Sep 11 25: 6 Sep 11

26: 8 Sep 11 27: 10 Sep 11

28: 10 Sep 11 29: 10 Sep 11 30: 22 Sep 11

31: 24 Sep 11 32: 26 Sep 11

33: 1 Oct 11 34: 1 Oct 11 35: 1 Oct 11 36: 4 Oct 11 37: 5 Oct 11 38: 8 Oct 11 39: 9 Oct 11

40: 9 Oct 11

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I don't want to be so needy but I am glad I am human.

#love #selfish #affirmations #stayPostitive #sorry #mightBeTired

#mightBeAlone #iFeelOkay #im25

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Keep y ur ph ne n “n silen ” during y ur re i al s I an ex you. Just wanna be part of u, I mean, part of the show.

#ilu #love #selfie #selfish #FAVs #myFAVs #ideas #jokes

#spacePhobic #im25

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e Drawing, gnawing at a hangnail, doodling ur face on the back of a paper ha ’s a ually a paper I g a gi e s me ne la er.

#ilu #luv #love #FAVs #iFeelGud #jokes #im25

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7 Jan 11 We’ll be he nes inside f he jus -set-down snow globe, but ins ead f feeling shaken agi a ed dizzy, we’ll feel s serene.

#143 #ilu #luv #love #ideas #iFeelGud #spacePhobic

#mightfallOffThisSpaceEdge #mightBeReallyGudYouKno #iFeel #im25

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Five [5]

pr Ripping off a band aid while wishing there was more of a metaphor to ripping off this band aid, but it's just a ur average band aid.

#selfConscious #FAVs #POW #playOnWords #WORDplay #wh0A

#calmDown #losingPotential #itsOkay #iFeelOkay #im25

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pr Sometimes life gives you lemons, but those lemons are lemons, so when you try to make lemonade out of those lemons you get another lemon.

#selfConscious #FAVs #POW #playOnWords #WORDplay #wh0A #calmDown losingPotential #itsOkay #iFeelOkay #im25

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ul Looking for that feeling that feels "like heely's racing up my spine."+ ll I’ e g is a swea dripping d wn mine.

#toDo #losingPotential #iFeelOkay #midTwentiesRage #im25 + http://tinyurl.com/cemhw97

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ul Phone is frozen but it is cooling me off on this hot day

#playOnWords #mightBeReallyGudYouKno #iFeelGud #im25

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ul Corona with sugar?+ Good idea? Bad idea? Not so good? Not so bad? Replace Corona with apple juice?

#calmDown #ideas #mightBeReallyGudYouKno #iFeelGud #midTwentiesRage #im25

+ http://tinyurl.com/bsvu3nj

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ul He took all the kitchen utensils except for the ice-cream scoop, "you'll need this more than I will."

#love #itsOkay #wh0A #calmDown #losingPotential

#urbanFairyTales #iFeelOkay #im25

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ul Wearing that all white outfit that house painters wear+ to prove to the world that I never spill food, coffee or beer on myself, ever. Jk.

#ideas #jokes #iFeelGud #im25 + http://tinyurl.com/d8aptl

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ul Dust bunny following me around my apt, should I get attached to it? Pet it? Name it? Love it? Buy a leash and collar and go on a walk?

#143 #ilu #luv #toDo #calmDown #ideas #stayPositive#jokes

#spacePhobic #mightBeAlone #iFeelOkay #im25

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ul If life is too bitter for bitters, have Stoli O instead of Campari! Have an orange instead of Stoli O! Smile instead?

#affirmations #ideas #mightBeReallyGudYouKno #iFeelOkay #im25

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ul Tried doodling was drawing a cat the ears looked like devil ears so I freakd & burned the paper & inhaled the smoke is the devil in me now??

#selfConscious #urFAVs#wh0A #mightfallOffThisEdge #detectMyFeelings #im25

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ul I remember every low point; see me shifting around in my seat, pulling out a hair,+ wiping nothing off of my face.

#FAVs #detectMyFeelings #midTwentiesRage #im25 + http://tinyurl.com/yobvwe

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ul Something about opening this ream of paper turning me into an unapologetic Neanderthal, real chance to use "the claws."

#FAVs #myFAVs #iFeelGud #midTwentiesRage #im25

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ug B ugh a " up f i e” pu ranges da in i was s ne n I pu n shades drink i was s ld i f ggd he shades I uldn’ see i spilld on me

#FAVs #myFAVs #iFeelGud #im25

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ug Brought my houseplant on a field trip to school, now I'm on a trip lying on the floor at home

#itsOkay #urbanFairyTales #detectMyFeelings #mightfallOffThisEdge #mightBeAlone #mightBeTired #iFeelOkay

#midTwentiesRage #im25

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Nineteen [19]

ug Kinda always feel like Jul. Binoche in Chocolat+ when I'm unpacking but with less mysticism magic wonder witchcraft n so much more chocolate.

#iFeelGud #im25 + http://tinyurl.com/2dnmvxd

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ug Sleepin beauties wa8in 4 the train I wan wake them, sumtimes that persons me but im not wa8in 4 the train im home jus wan sum1 2 wake me

#toDo #FAVs #ideas #mightfallOffThisEdge #iFeelOkay #midTwentiesRage #im26

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ug Finally k being “s me ne wh lis ens a s ng n repea ” bu worried that it's not the "right" song.

#itsOkay #mightfallOffThisEdge #detectMyFeelings #im26

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ug Re: K-Y ads on hulu,+ don't talk about sex in code words don't make the world think that's ok i'll just getmore confusd h8 sex related tears

#iFeelOkay #im26 + http://tinyurl.com/3jd8pe7

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ug Biggest fear: being trapped underground in the train in a bla k u well maybe n m s ly I really d n’ ha e n n appearance based fears.

#urbanFairyTales #mightfallOffThisEdge #iFeelOkay#im26

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Twenty-four [24]

ep Reading the back of the Pine Sol bottle and thinking backwards about my pining soul.

#POW #playOnWords #WORDplay #detectMyFeelings #im26

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ep I ’s k le s me ne pen a d r f r u remind u ha u exist IRL (physical door, not metaphorical door representing “ pp r uni y”).

#affirmations #ideas #detectMyFeelings #im26

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ep Lying in bed googling doodling drooling severely losing.

#mightfallOffThisEdge #detectMyFeelings #im26

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Twenty-seven [27]

ep Used 2 straighten my hair with a flat iron it kept frizzin back out kinda tellin me off kinda tellin me don try so hard just give up already

#detectMyFeelings #im26

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Twenty-Eight [28]

ep Can't believe I was so optimistic about it being Sat. night like 1hr ago I'm on the flr wishing I cld leave even tho im already 2hrs late.

#mightfallOffThisEdge #iFeel #im26

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ep Most of JB's songs are about buying his gf's things all day,+ I don't know if I know what love means anymore I think he gets it more than me.

#143 #ilu #luv #ideas #iFeelOkay #im26

+ http://tinyurl.com/yhdyq8o; http://tinyurl.com/bujbuyb

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Thirty [30]

ep Shazam for the chick u jus met n forgot her name immediately b u were mplimen ing her gli er shad w, u kn he shad w’s name+ tho.

#selfie #selfish #selfConscious #sorry #iFeel #im26 + http://tinyurl.com/bqhdsqo

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Thirty-one [31]

ep Just crossed my legs and wound up on the other side of the street, un r ssed my eyes and I’m ba k.

#ideas #mightfallOffThisEdge #iFeelGud #im26

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Thirty-two [32]

ep When the dentist puts the chair back I mumble thru the sucking straw "this is my favorite part."

#urFAVs #jokes #iFeelGud #im26

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Thirty-three [33]

Keep breaking out in a cold sweat, cool, chill, freezer burn, burrr, print, 3, D.+

#toDo #calmDown #iFeelGud #im26 + http://tinyurl.com/2c6th33

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1 Oct 11 Spilled water all over my bed, thinking of sleeping in a chair or the floor or maybe trying out that thing called bootycall lol w/e sad nope

#ideas #mightfallOffThisEdge #iFeelOkay #midTwentiesRage

#im26

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Thirty-five [35]

Head buried in a pint glass of budlite, drinking through a straw, n e in awhile I'm bl wing bumbles, didn’ ge arded un il n w.

#midTwentiesRage #iFeelOkay #im26

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Thirty-six [36]

A List called FUN STUFF: -When Todd Barry is eating on Louie [all times]. -Pon de Flr vid [still]. -opening energy drink tabs.+

#affirmations #toDo #FAVs #recipesToFeelGud #calmDown #losingPotential #stayPositive #mightfallOffThisEdge

#mightBeAlone #mightBeTired #mightBeReallyGudYouKno #detectMyFeelings #im26

+ http://tinyurl.com/cy68x7f

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Thirty-seven [37]

Trying this thing where I don't correct autocorrects in text messages anymore, hoping it makes some good stories for my friends later ♥+

#recipesToFeelGud #ideas #jokes #iFeelGud #im26 + http://tinyurl.com/bsxjtwq

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Thirty-Eight [38]

Coffee hi going on about 4hrs now, mite need that intervention ppl wh ake mu h Viagra d "defla e.”+

#calmDown #ideas #jokes #iFeelGud #im26 + http://tinyurl.com/c4rc87b

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Ask yourself "was that therapeutic?" each time you return from zoning out, my answer is usually yes. #recipes #recipesToFeelGud #affirmations #myFAVs #calmDown

#stayPositive #spacePhobic #mightfallOffThisEdge #iFeel #iFeelGud #im26

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Smacked into a dog. I feel really bad but the dog can't hear me so I'll send this apology to this world. I’m s s rry.+

#sorry #iFeel #im26

+ http://tinyurl.com/ct9n2sa

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Index of Tags

#143 4,12.29 #affirmations 1,13,25,36,39 #calmDown 5,6,9,10,12,33,36,38,39 #clausterphobic #detectMyFeelings 14,15,18,21,24,25,26,27,36 #FAVs 2,3,5,6,15,16,17,20,36 #ideas 2,4,9,11,12,13,20,25,29,31,34,37,38 #iFeel 4,30,39,40 #iFeelGud 3,4,8,9,11,16,17,19,31,32,33,37,38,39 #iFeelOkay 1,5,6,7,10,12,13,18,20,22,23,28,29,34,35 #ilu 2,3,4,12,29 #im25 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12,13,14,15,16,17,18,19 #im26 20,21,22,23,24,25,26,27,28,29,30,31,32,33,34,35,36,37, 38,39,40 #itsOkay 5,6,10,18,21 #jokes 2,3,11,12,32,37,38 #losingPotential 5,6,7,10,36 #love 1,2,3,4,10 #luv 3,4,12,29 #midTwentiesRage 7,9,15,16,18,20,34,35 #mightBeAlone 1,12,18,36 #mightBeReallyGudYouKno 4,8,9,13,36 #mightBeTired 1,18,36 #mightfallOffThisEdge 4,14,18,20,21,23,26,28,31,34,36,39 #myFAVs 2,16,17,39 #playOnWords 5,6,8,24 #POW 5,6,24

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#recipes 39 #recipesToFeelGud 36,37,39 #selfConscious 5,6,14,30 #selfie 2,30 #selfish 1,2,30 #sorry 1,30,40 #spacePhobic 2,4,12,39 #stayPositive 1,12,36,39 #toDo 7,12,20,33,36 #urbanFairyTales 10,18,23 #urFAVs 14,32 #wh0A 5,6 #WORDplay 5,6,24

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About the Author

Helen Levin makes space, creating possible new realities in the digital world. She writes to stay positive about the world known as “ear h,” “ he physi al,” r “IRL.”

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