60571417 confessions of two broken hearts

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"Edward, you're not going to believe this! We have 3 classed together, not including lunch! Isn't that great?" shehugged me. Whaaaaat? NO. No way. I wanted to curse at the school. I sighed and clenched my fist into a ball. To myrescue, the second bell rang, which means it was time for class. Paige wasn't paying attention to the teacher at all. Shwas staring at me the whole time, which made me utterly uncomfortable.

The bell rang. I got up as quickly as I could, and tried to head out the door before Paige. I was successful, for I wasalways the fastest of the family.

"Hey Edward, wait up!" she called behind me; I pretended that I didn't hear her and walked as fast as I could in thehallway. I went through the most difficult route that I could think of to get to my next class, hoping that the school dawould end soon.

Please tell me what you think of the first chapter so far. I finished the second chapter and I'll update it soon if you likeit. And please, be honest. Second chapter, is where Edward meets well, you'll see!

Chapter Two

It took forever for school to end. I wasn't sure if I was sane with that midget-like voice around me all the time. Edwardthis Edward that The girl just doesn't shut her mouth. "So Edward, want to hang out after school?" she asked. "No.I relied coldly. I sighed. Can't she sense that resentment at all? No. She's way too pigheaded for that.

"Alice, I'm going to hit the bookstore today. It's been a while since I've read some good, decent books. I'll be back

before 6:00." I needed some peace and quiet. Alice shot me a dead look. "I hate you Edward. Leaving me with thisUgh"I shrugged. "Great! Can I tag along?" Paige asked. "No." I said loudly. "Well, see ya Alice," I said to her,completely ignoring Paige. Alice smiled sourly and walked to her car and murmured something about me. "Bye EdwardSee you later!" Paige said, feeling a little down that I had rejected her. Be nice Edward, be nice, I reminded myself. Ididn't even bother to turn around and say goodbye, so I just simply just raised my hand.

I got in my Volvo, put on some music, and tried to enjoy the moment that I have alone. Ever since Paige moved in, thhouse was always filled with her obnoxious noise. We didn't agree when she asked us if it was okay to move in with usfor none of us enjoyed having her around; except for Rose of course. We told her it would be okay, if it was temporaryfor Carlisle didn't want to hurt her feelings and put her on the streets. But I don't see her planning to move outanytime soon. The thought of her staying forever made me shudder.

New Haven's not a big town, so bookstores weren't that hard to find. I saw a little bookstore around the campus, anddecided to see if they have anything interesting. I walked in, and the clerk greeted me a little more than necessary."Welcome" she smiled warmly. I nodded at her and went for the Classic selection. Hey, I'm all about old fashion. Iwent through all the books on the shelves. Even though I've read them all, but I decided to pick one to read, just so Ican have something to do, instead of going home. I didn't want to go home; I mean, I seriously can't take it havingPaige knocking on my door every five seconds. The thought of it angered me.

I grabbed Pride andPrejudice off the shelf. There was a sitting area hidden behind the shelves in the corner. I went tothe sofa, sat down and tried to get in with the story. It wasn't that hard, without the noise maker. Then, the dooropened again, and a strong scent hit me. It smelled too good, too tempting. I got up and tried to put the book back onthe shelf. I didn't want to lose control, didn't want to do anything foolish with all these innocent humans in the store.So I decided that the best thing to do was to leave. As I was about to put the book back to its original place, therestanding in front of the shelves where I found Pride andPrejudice, I saw someone that I never expected to see. Bella.

She didn't notice me, for she had her head down, reading a book. Pride andPrejudice, how ironic. I stared at her. She

had her hair down, with a blue, knitted hat over her head. She was wearing a long, brown, coat; brown snow bootsand a blue scarf around her neck. I walked toward her, but then after taking three steps, I stopped. Will she be happyto see me? After all, I did leave her, without the real explanation. She will probably hate me for entering her life againBut she was standing there, it was tempting. I wanted to talk to her, tell her how much I missed her, see herbeautiful blush, look into her eyes, and have her in my arms. I know that I must have been day dreaming, for it willnever happen in reality.

No Edward. You can't do this to her. It'll be better if you just leave her alone. You can't do this; you have to put yourselfishness aside, in order to protect Bella. I bit my lips; will I really let this opportunity past? This might be the lasttime that I'll get to see her. It was hard, just walking away from her when she was right there, standing a few feetaway from me. I tried to decide, balance out my options. But, it was too late. Bella turned her head around, makingher way to the reading area. Then, she dropped her book as soon as she saw me. She was as white as a stone, "EdEdward" she whispered.


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Chapter Three

Bella's point of view

I got out of class, and wanted to relax myself a little. Bookstore was the first thing that popped into my mind. I walkedto the bookstore that I usually go to, for it was only a few minutes away from the campus. It was very cold outside;I'm guessing that it will snow tonight. I walked in, and felt instantly relaxed as soon as I entered the bookstore. Theheater made the room very warm and I was so grateful for that. I didn't really have a particular book that I wanted toread in mind, so I just wandered around. Then, I found myself in the Classic selection. Why am I not surprised? I was

always soft for the classics. I skimmed through all the titles and found one of my favorites, Pride andPrejudice.

I picked it up, skimmed through the pages, and made up my mind that I'll stay in the bookstore until I get warmed upI decided to read in the reading area, and perhaps get a cup of coffee. As I turned around, I saw a figure that I neverexpected to see. I was too stunned to say anything at first; then I dropped my jaw, stared like a complete idiot at themost gorgeous looking creature alive, Edward Cullen.

"Ed Edward," I stuttered quietly.

My voice was almost inaudible, but I know that he could hear me with the perfect hearing of his. I pulled myselftogether and stared at him. Am I imagining this? Is this some kind of a trick that my minds playing with me? I closedmy eyes, hoping that the mirage would disappear.

"Bella?" said a musical voice.

I opened my eyes and found Edward staring at me, looking concerned. He was standing only a few inches away fromme, I could feel his cold breath against my skin. I can't believe this, it's really Edward.

Back to Edward's point of view

"Ed Edward."

I could see shock across Bella's angelic face. She looked the same, after two years. Perhaps even more beautiful, ifpossible. Then I reminded myself to respond, instead of staring at her, speechlessly. She closed her eyes as I walkedup to her.

"Bella?"

Then she opened her beautiful eyes, and they were locked in mine. We were only a few inches apart, I wanted to justpick her up, and hug her. Only this time, I'll never let go.

"Edward," she pronounced my name clearly again.

"Hello Bella," I didn't know what else to say.

She wasn't the only one in shock. Then to my surprise, she wrapped her arms around me and hugged me tightly; it felike the most wonderful thing. I too, wrapped my arms around her. After a few seconds, she unwrapped hers andlooked away, blushing. "Sorry" she said apologetically. Why was she apologizing? I wanted to say something, but I

found everyone, the clerk included, staring at us in awe. Bella seemed slightly embarrassed, so I held her hand gentlyand lead her out of the store.

As soon as we stepped out to the cold, Bella shuddered. It made me chuckle, to see her human expressions. I took offmy jacket, and put it over her. "Oh Edward, you don't have to"

"It's fine, don't worry about it," I smiled.

"Thanks," she smiled back, it was good to see.

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"Sure. I don't see why not," she smiled warmly.

We found a park bench, and sat down.

"So, what are you doing here?" she asked, looking down at feet.

"We decided to move here a few days ago, we were pushing our ages back in Toronto. I was surprised to see you hereBella," I said truthfully.

She looked up, "Yeah me too. I didn't expect you guys to come to New Haven," she said casually. It surprised me tosee her so calm, as if nothing has happened.

"So how old are you now Bella?"

"I just turned 20," there was sadness hidden behind the voice.

"I guess it's pointless to ask the same thing about you," she smiled. I laughed, I was glad to see her so cheerful.

"I suppose you enrolled yourselves as juniors?" she asked curiously.

"Yeah. How did you know?" She rolled her eyes, "Just because I can't read minds Edward, doesn't mean that I'mclueless," she said sarcastically.

"So what about you? Why are you here in New Haven?"

"I'm a student here," she replied, not wanting to press on the details

"Here as in?"

"Yale University." She looked away, blushing again.

"Oh Bella, that's incredible! I'm happy for you." I hugged her, and she shivered.

"Thanks. I was surprised, I mean, I didn't expect to get in when I first applied."

"Why not? There was no reason for them not to accept you. They're lucky to have you," It was true. She was moretalented than anyone else in Forks High. I was proud of her, happy for her.

Bella's Point of View

We sat on the park bench, and we talked about our current state. He found out that I'm a student at Yale and heseemed happy for me. It was freezing outside. I couldn't help but shiver. Edward noticed.

"Bella, I think it's too cold for you. Do you mind if I take you home?" he asked.

"Thanks Edward. I think that will be nice," I replied. It was really sweet of him.

We stood up, as he put his arm around my shoulders, trying to block the wind with his body. It helped, even though hwas as cold as a popsicle, but he did manage to block the wind. We walked to his car, it was the shiniest one around, silver Jaguar. He opened the door for me, helped me get in safely, and he was in the car before I even knew it.

"So where to?" he asked with his hands on the steering wheel. He turned on the heater to full blast, and waited forme to reply. "Turn right on 3rd street, and just keep going. It's a red-bricked apartment." I said, still shivering. Hechuckled, and drove us away.

His driving was still as crazy as before, I was scared the whole time, hoping that I'll survive. We were there in a briefsecond.


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"Would you like to come in?" The words left my mouth before I even knew it myself. I hoped that I wasn't being tooforward or anything.

"Yes. If that's alright," he replied politely. Then we got out of the car, and walked to the front porch. I dug in my pursefor the key, and opened the door.

Chapter Four

Edward's Point of View

Bella turned on the lights as soon as we walked in. The apartment was pretty big for herself. "Nice place," Icommented. "Thanks," she smiled sweetly. "Um Could you give me a second to change?" "Of course. Take all thetime you need." Then she disappeared to her bedroom.

I walked around the house. I saw pictures of her and some other people laughing in the pictures. I recognized some othem as Angela, Jessica, Charlie, Renee, and Jacob Black. There were tons of them hanging on the wall. She lookedhappy, and I was glad. But then, suddenly, guilt kicked in my stomach. I was the only one that made her upset, thatput her through all the danger. I don't deserve to be standing here in her living room as if nothing has happened. She'suppose to hate me with all of her guts. "My friend did that," she called from behind. She was in a blue sweater andsome blue jeans, she looked amazing.

I was staring at her like a moron, when she asked me, "What?" I shook my head. "Nothing, it's just that you look,

beautiful that's all," I replied. She smiled and blushed.

I sat down on the sofa, as Bella walked in the kitchen and made herself some coffee. "Would you like something todrink?" she asked politely. "Oh sorry. I forgot," she said apologetically, and felt embarrassed. "You forgot that I was avampire?" I asked sarcastically. "Well, it's been two years since I've been around one. It's natural for me to forget,after all, I am only human." she shrugged.

She sat down across from me. "So, you kept in touch with all the people from Forks, huh?" I asked conversationally."Yeah. Well, some of my friends" then she looked down at her lap. "You didn't keep in touch Edward," she whisperedI could see tears in her eyes, but she was holding it, as if she was afraid to cry in front of me.

"I'm so sorry Bella; I know it was rude but it was the right thing to do. Please grasp that."

"Edward, I understand why you had to leave. I waited Edward, but no phone calls, no letters, nothing. You tookeverything away. All of our memories together it wasn't fair." A drop of tear slid down her cheeks. I felt horrible.Once again, I made Bella cry for me. I don't deserve her tears.

"I thought that it would make it easier for you, if we just pretend that I never existed. Human memories fade away.You will forget me" I knew that wasn't an excuse, but it was the truth.

"How is it possible for me to forget someone that I love?" she interrupted me. She blushed, I heard her mutteredsomething to herself about saying too much. I was stunned by her answer. Does she still love me?

"Don't you hate me Bella? For what I've done?"

"No, I tried to, but I can't. It wasn't your fault Edward, you warned me from the beginning to stay away from you, but

I was too stubborn to listen." She sighed.

Then there was silence. She looked down again, trying to avoid my eyes.

"Bella, did you really believe me that day on the trail, when I told you that I didn't want you?"

"What what are you talking about?" she whispered.

"I had to lie to you Bella, saying that I didn't want you in my life. I said that hoping that you'll believe me and move owith your life. But of course I didn't feel that way. I love you Bella, more than anything else. But I can't just keepruining your life. My very existence puts you in danger every second! You would have been better without me," I tried


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to keep my voice calm, but it was hard for I was frustrated with myself. I despised myself for being born, for hurtingher, for putting her in grave danger every brief second.

Her mouth fell wide opened. "You mean it's wasn't because you didn't love me?"

I shook my head. "Of course not. How can I not love you? As warm and trusting as you are, you were the best thingthat ever happened to me. Please forgive me Bella," I whispered.

Then all of a sudden, she came up to me, and punched my shoulder. "Ouch," I heard her mutter. Then, she was in my

arms. She leaned against my chest, put her arms around me, and had her eyes closed. I saw tears brushing down hercheeks. I wrapped my arms around her and kissed her hair. Then, suddenly, she started sobbing.

"I'm so soorry Edwaaard I'm getting your shirt all wet" she was still crying, I tried to comfort her. "It's fine, donworry about it," I replied softly.

"How's the hand doing?" I whispered in her ear a few minutes later, after she stopped sobbing. "It'll be bruised" shehiccupped. I chuckled; I missed her cute human expressions. "I wish that I can hurt you, physically, but that doesn'tseem possible at the moment," She sighed.

"I'm sorry, I really am for everything" I apologized sincerely. I know those words won't make up for what I've donebut it was the least that I can do.

Then, she looked up at me; our eyes were locked in each others. We were so close; I could see her watery eyes withher beautiful eyelashes, I could feel her lips trembling, and without my own approval, I kissed her. She didn't push meaway; she was playing with my hair with her hands, pulling me closer to her. I could feel her gasping for air, but Ididn't want to stop. Finally, our lips pulled apart from each others as I reminded myself that she needed to breathe.

"So apology accepted?" I asked playfully, trying to lighten up the mood.

She sighed, "It's not fair but," she paused, "Apology accepted." she smiled wholeheartedly. Then, we searched for eacother's lips again.

Chapter Five

I felt relief and happiness as soon as our lips were in contact. Her blood was still very tempting for me of course, but I

love her enough to put all of those worries behind. I didn't realize that we have been on the couch, kissing, for a longamount of time. Then, my cell phone had to ring to ruin the perfect moment.

"Aren't you going to answer it?" Bella asked innocently.

"No, not really. I prefer this more," then I gave her a kiss on the cheeks.

"Edward!" she blushed.

"Alright, I'll answer it. If that makes you happy," I rolled my eyes, and she laughed.

I picked it up, "Hello?" It wasn't my fault that I sounded utterly bored as I answered the phone. I wanted to get back

to Bella, as quickly as I can.

"Edward? Where are you? I miss you It's already 6:00 Why aren't you home?" I sighed. It was Paige. I heard herrambling on and on about how much she misses me, asking about my current locationI shut the phone, and hung upon her, hoping there won't be any other interruptions. I threw the phone on the counter. Then I noticed that it was6:10.

"Who was that?" Bella chuckled. She could tell from my expression that I was frustrated. "No one just someoneannoying." I answered.

"Am I keeping you from something?" she asked worriedly. "No, no. Even if you are, I'd be happily to skip whatever Ihad scheduled," I kissed her forehead. She smiled; it was the same smile that I saw when I first met her in Forks. Itbrought back so many memories.


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"But I, on the other hand, am keeping YOU from something important," I said cheerfully.

"What?" her innocent human expression was so darling, which caused me to chuckle once more. "Dinner, silly girl," Ianswered in a casual tone. She rolled her eyes, "Honestly, I'm not hungry Edward," she muttered.

"Oh yeah? Humor me." I grinned and smiled.

Bella's point of View

I went in my bedroom to put on some more layers of clothing; Edward constantly reminded me that I needed twice asmuch as any other human being, for I was twice as fragile. He insisted on taking me out to dinner. I had a feeling thatI won't get much say in this, so I had no choice but to leave the house and enter the artic, outside world. He asked mwhere I wanted to go as soon as we got in his car, I told him that any fast food restaurant will do, but unsurprisingly,he didn't listen. Instead, he took me to this big, fancy restaurant, about 15 or 20 miles off campus.

"Edward, I told you, I'll be happy with just a hamburger from Burger King," I sighed.

"You didn't say anything against restaurants," he raised his eyebrow. I was about to protest, but he put his icy fingerover my lower lip.

"Please don't be difficult Bella, a nice dinner won't do any harm," he pleaded.

"Fine," I pouted. He knew I was always against him spending money on me. But since when does he ever listen? Ireminded myself that this IS Edward that I'm dealing with.

He opened the door for me as soon as he parked. I couldn't help but shiver when I set my foot on the parking lot. Heheld my hand, and walked me over to the restaurant.

"Hello, how are we doing this evening?" the waitress greeted us warmly at the front desk. I'm sure it was all becauseof Edward, for she was only eyeing him the whole time, completely ignoring my presence.

"Fine, thank you. Would you get us a place by the window?" he asked in an irresistible voice. "Of course, this wayplease," she said politely. We sat down at a booth next to the window; it was warm enough for me to take off my

jacket. She handed us the menu, "I'll be back to take your order," I knew she was only talking to Edward.

"How did you know about this place?"

"Built in radar might have something to do with this," he smirked. I grinned at him.

"Fine, you caught me," he put his hands up, "I heard some kids thinking about this place as we drove by. Well, I saw in their minds It seemed like a good place to talk." He smiled.

"Oh" That was all that I could say.

The waitress came back a few minutes later, "Are we ready to order?" she was looking at Edward, of course.

"Yes. What would you like Bella?" then, unwillingly, she turned her head to face me. "Umm I'll have Chicken

Spaghetti,"

"And for you?" she turned to smile wholeheartedly at Edward, "Oh, nothing for me." He chuckled. She looked a tadconfused, like she was missing the inside joke, but I knew EXACTLY what's going on.

"Some drinks maybe?" she suggested. "Bella?" once again, she turned to face ME. "Umm water's fine, thank you.""Make that two," Edward added. "I'll be back with your order," she said, feeling a bit disappointed to see that Edwardwasn't interested in her. As soon as she was out of sight, Edward started laughing hysterically.

"What?" I asked innocently.

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"Gee, don't we all?" I said sarcastically.

"Oh sorry." He scratched his head.

"Well, what was she thinking?" I demanded.

"She was thinking of how she could push you out of the picture, and continue your date for you," he smiled.

"Would you have liked that?" I raised my eyebrow.

"Don't be ridiculous," he shook his head.

We stared at each other for a minute, and burst into laughters.

"Poor girl, she's probably in the kitchen right now, crying" I chuckled.

"Well, it's not my fault that she was standing next to the most beautiful girl in the world," he leaned over to touch mycheeks. I blushed, and looked away from him.

"I missed this so much," he whispered to himself.

Afew minutes later

The waitress came back with our drinks. She stiffened slightly as she set the waters in front of me. "Enjoy," she smiledwidely again at Edward. Edward simply nodded at her. I took a sip, and didn't take my eyes off him.

"So does Alice know about THIS?"

"I'm not sure I would love to know, why she had been keeping it a secret if she does," he said in a disapproval tone.

"Maybe she doesn't want to upset you" I whispered. "Yeah, maybe." I took another sip.

"Bella!" I heard someone calling my name from behind. I turned around and found my friend from Yale, Megan wavingat me. "Hey what's up?" she hugged me as she reached our table. "Hey Meg," I greeted her back.

"Who's this?" she looked at Edward, suspiciously.

"An old friend of mine. Edward, this is my friend Megan from class. Megan, Edward." I introduced them to each other.

"Hi," Megan said shyly, while shaking Edward's hand. "Hello," Edward answered politely.

"Oh Bella, I'm sorry. Am I interrupting something?" she asked.

"Umm no. Would you like to join us?" I didn't want to be rude.

"That's fine, I came with my family. Well, I'll let you get back to your date. It was nice meeting you Edward. Bye Bells,

she waved goodbye and went back to her table.

"So you've met some nice friends here huh?" he asked casually.

"They're okay." I admitted.

"Chicken Spaghetti," the waitress announced. Then she placed the dish in front of me. "Did you change your mind?"she asked flirtatiously. "No. I'm fine, thank you." Edward replied without even looking at her. "Oh okay. Enjoy," thenshe left.

"Do you think she meant something else, when she asked you if you had changed your mind?" I asked humorly. "Justeat Bella," he rolled his eyes. He laughed as I took a bite out of the chicken.


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Chapter Six


Edward paid the waitress, and we were out of the restaurant. He held my hand tightly, as we walked to his Jaguar. Heasked me if I wanted to go over to his house, I was so excited by the idea.

"Will I really get to see them?"

"Of course, if you want to" he smiled. I was practically bouncing up and down in my seat. I'm going to see Alice, mybest friend! I could feel my heart beating faster and faster every second.

His house wasn't far away from the restaurant. We made it in less than 10 minutes, thanks to his driving. As soon aswe entered the driveway, Alice ran up to me and gave me a warm hug. Well, leaped at me is more like it. "Bella! OhI'm so happy to see you!" she held my hand as we jumped up and down with excitement. "Well, let her in Alice, she'sfreezing." Edward said thoughtfully. "Oh right. Sorry Bella, come on." She pulled me in the mansion.

Then, I saw Edward's family sitting in the living room. Esme was the first one to greet me. "Oh Bella! It's so wonderfulto see you," she kissed my cheeks and hugged me. Esme was always the kindest one in the family.

"Hello Bella, it's such a pleasant surprise to see you," Carlisle said blissfully as he gave me a hug.

"Hey Bella! What's up? I missed ya!" Emmett gave me one of his infamous bear-choke hugs "Emmett can'tbreathe human my bones" Those were all the words that I managed to choke out. "Oh sorry are you okay?" heput me down as gently as he could. "Yeah, I'll be okay in a few weeks" I muttered. I heard his booming laugh. "Ha!You haven't changed a bit!" then the rest of the family joined him.

"Hello Bella, nice to see you again," Jasper smiled as he hugged me gently. I was stunned. Jasper has always kept hidistance in the past, afraid that he might lose control around me. It was a surprise to see him act so normal aroundme. I smiled, "Hey Jasper."

Then they all turned to look at Rosalie. That was when I noticed, that there was someone unfamiliar standing next toher.

"Bella," Rosalie said coldly, and unwillingly.

"Hi Rosalie," I replied politely.

"Who's this Edward?" asked the beautiful girl standing next to her.

"Bella, how rude of me not to introduce you to the newest member of our family. Bella, this is Paige. Paige, this isBella." Carlisle introduced us. Edward growled. I studied the girl. She was one of the most beautiful vampires that Ihave ever seen. She could probably even match up to Rosalie, in my opinion. She had long, blonde hair, pale skin,(Umm duh?) dark, blue eyes, and some very nice cheekbones. She was slim and tall, I felt like I was standing next ta Runway Model. I felt utterly bad about the comparison.

I gulped, "Hi Paige," she didn't reply. She studied me and she looked at Edward.

"She's human," she said, disgusted.

"Do you have a problem with that?" he growled.

"No I just expected her to be something more," she shrugged. Edward growled again.

"So Edward, where were you?" she asked flirtatiously as she wrapped her arms around him. "I was out with Bella," heshrugged it off and pulled me closer to him. He stared at her, in an unfriendly way. He was probably reading herthoughts.


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Carlisle was the one who broke the awkward atmosphere. "Well, let's all have a seat," he motioned us to sit on thesofa. I sat next to Alice. Edward was going to sit next to me, but Paige was a step ahead of him. She sat right betweeEdward and me, closer to Edward of course. I noticed Paige's spiteful glances were still on me. I couldn't help but feeluncomfortable. I heard Edward mutter something under his breath that was too low for me to hear.

"So Bella, how have you been?" Alice asked.

"I've been okay," I smiled.

"Bella is a student at Yale University," Edward said proudly. Jasper smiled, and Alice winked at me.

"Is that so?" Carlisle looked amused. I nodded my head and blushed.

"Hell yeah! I knew you could do it!" I grinned at Emmett.

"Wow! Bella, that is wonderful just wonderful," Esme lips were trembling as if she was about to cry. "Thanks" Myvoice was almost inaudible.

"Yale? I would prefer Harvard or Oxford" Paige said arrogantly. Alice shot her a dead look, as Paige continued, "OhEdward, did you tell her that that you were accepted in Dartmouth?" she leaned against him, batting her eyelashes.

He pushed her away, "That's nothing. I had several tries Besides, Yale is one of the best schools around the world,

I'm proud of you Bella," he smiled warmly at me. Paige looked like as if she had been slapped on the face. Her facefell, as she straightened herself. She looked at me belligerently, as if she was about to start World War III against me.I tried to avoid looking at her.

"So Bella What are you doing tomorrow?" Alice asked optimistically.

"I have a class in the morning Otherwise, I don't think I'm doing anything" I knew what was coming even withoutEdward's mind-reading ability.

"Greeat! WE are going shopping! I need to fill up my winter's closet" her eyes sparkled at the word shopping.

"Don't you already have a whole closet full of winter clothes?" Jasper asked innocently.

"Oh shut up Jasper," she said disapprovingly. I gulped, oh perfect. Shopping was the last thing that I have on my mindright now.

"Alice, perhaps Bella is busy studying for exams right now, after all, this IS her first time in college," Carlisle addedthoughtfully. As I was about to answer, I saw Alice's face literally collapse. I sighed; I wouldn't dare to disappoint mybest friend. She was so excited about it, and I wasn't about to crush her heart.

"What time Alice?" I sighed. She bounced up and kissed my cheeks. "Oh Bella! Thank you thank you thank you..You are the best friend that a girl would dream of," she hugged me.

"You can't really DREAM, Alice," Emmett pointed out humorly.

"Mind your own business Emmett," she replied cheerfully as we were all bursting into laughters. Except for the newgirl, Paige, who was staring at me, with a face full of hatred and dislike.

Chapter Seven


The night went by fast. Emmett told us some of his new jokes about "grizzlies". They were so "unfunny" that welaughed. He was pleased

"Okay okay Here's another one this one is SOO funny, I guarantee that your head will explode" he excitedly.


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"Emmett, if you KEEP going with the lame grizzly jokes, yeah you're right, my head WILL explode." Jasper grinned.

"Aww Jazzy! Don't be jealous! Just because you don't have a sense of humor, doesn't mean you have to take it out onthe rest of the family," Emmett challenged him while making a face. I couldn't help but snicker.

"If you keep on going Emmett, I'll make sure personally, that" Jasper was getting frustrated.

"You know that you can't beat me Jazz," Emmett interrupted. "So don't try before you hurt yourself. And if I do hurtyou accidentally, I'm gonna have to face Alice, and god knows what will happen?" he pretended to shudder.

"You wanna take this outside?" Jasper got up.

"My pleasure, I was bored anyways" Emmett got up too.

"Boys boys sit back down. Stop this we have a guest present," Esme said looking at Bella's direction.

"We don't consider Bella as "guest", she's practically family," Emmett replied in an as-matter-of-fact tone. It was verynice of him. I could tell Bella was pleased with that, she smiled widely. Paige pouted.

Carlisle stepped in to stop the madness, "Listen to your mother. You two are just bored to death aren't you? Picking oneach other every day" he shook his head.

"We don't pick on each other every day; we pick on Edward too" Emmett said proudly. I grinned at him.

Then we just stared in silence. "Sorry mom," Jasper and Emmett apologized automatically. This is part of their dailyroutine. "Just don't start it again," Esme was too forgiving. We all laughed. They were laughing along as they smackedeach other on the back of their heads.

Bella yawned. "Oh it's already 11:30," Bella stared at her watch.

"I'll take you home, come on Bella," I helped her up.

"It was nice to see you. AGAIN." She smiled. "You too Bella, the family hasn't been the same without you, visit againsoon," Carlisle said animatedly.

"Yes, Bella, do come back" Esme planted another kiss on her cheeks.

"Don't worry I will. I'll probably visit you guys so often, you'll just get tired of me and kick me out," she joked.

Paige made a face and pretended to gag.

"I doubt that we will Bella, we might just keep you here and tie you to a tree, so you won't leave," Alice said humorly.Bella chuckled.

"Night Bella, hope we didn't scare you," Jasper said playfully as he hi-fived Emmett who let out another booming laug

"Don't worry Jasper, I've seen scarier things," she rolled her eyes. I suppose she's right. With all the near-death

experiences, truly, I don't know what she's afraid of.

"Later sis," Emmett gave her another hug. She choked out, "Goodnight Emmett" then he put her back down,suddenly remembering what happened a while ago. "Oops," he scratched his head.

"Bye Bella, See you tomorrow! Don't forget, 9:30!" Alice winked.

"Don't you have school tomorrow?" Bella asked innocently.

Alice snorted, "Shopping is WAY more important than education." Bella grinned.

"I'm sure Edward's skipping tomorrow, he's going to go hunting" Bella looked at me and I nodded.


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"Bye guys" then we were out of the house.

We got in the car, I reminded her to buckle up. "I'm not going to lose you like this," I joked. She snorted.

"So, you didn't tell me there was a new addition to your family," she said conversationally, a few minutes after wedrove away.

"Does it bother you?" I asked worriedly.

"No silly, I just don't think she likes me very much," she admitted, looking out in the window.

"Don't worry Bella; she doesn't like ANYONE in the family but Rosalie. I guess you could see why," I rolled my eyes.

She laughed, "She likes you too," she said quietly, still smiling at me.

"How's that suppose to be good news? Do you have ANY idea how obnoxious she can be?" The thought of her annoyedme.

"No I don't. Hopefully I'll see it next time," she said playfully.

"Yeah, that'll be great," I answered sarcastically. We stared at each other's face and laughed.

"Shopping with Alice tomorrow huh?"

"Yep." she smiled.

"You look happy for the first time. I thought you had this thing against shopping."

"No, I have this thing against any of the Cullens spending money on me." She replied in a protesting tone.

"So what do you guys do besides shopping? I mean you can't possibly look at cloths over and over again for hours," Iwas always curious. But I didn't want to hear it from Alice, who would have probably given me a speech about therules of "shopping".

"Don't worry, nothing dangerous," she rolled her eyes. I could tell that she was hiding something.

"What do you do? Tell me please?" I leaned closer to her. I could feel her heart beating faster by the second. Sheblushed and finally gave up.

"We chat about our lives and"

I looked at her, "There's an 'and'?" I asked suspiciously.

"And you." She finished casually.

"Really?" I said, impressed.

She blushed, "Of course," she said feeling slightly embarrassed.

"By the way, thanks for saying yes to Alice. That was nice of you, and you, Bella, are the life savior for the family.Imagine what would have happened if you hadn't, I mean she would be pouting for days" I chuckled.

"You're welcome. I love to hang out with her, as long as it doesn't involve makeup" she shuddered.

"How can someone so small be so annoying?" I sighed.

"Well, that's Alice." She smiled, helplessly.


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It was a short ride. We were there in her apartment, and she didn't even notice it at first.

"The night went by so quick, it's utterly unfair," Bella complained softly.

"Don't worry; I'll always be here for you Bella. I don't think that I can stay away from you anymore, now that I'vebroken my promise to myself," I sighed.

"Your promise to yourself?" she asked.

"I promised myself that I would never, ever, hurt you in any way again after we left Forks. A while ago, when you criefor me, it broke my heart" I admitted.

"Then don't stay away," Bella whispered.

"I'm the most selfish creature aren't I? Risking your safety for my own desire," I shook my head. She threw her armsaround me.

"No you're not. You are simply granting my wish," she smiled sheepishly and kissed me on the cheeks.

"Thank you," I whispered to her.

"Edward, can I have a selfish request?" she asked softly.

"Anything Bella," I replied.

"Stay with me tonight," she leaned against my shoulder as she wrapped her hands around my arm.

"My pleasure," I kissed her hair.

She kissed my cheeks and gave me a hug to thank me. I could picture myself with a huge smile across my face,grinning like a complete nitwit.

Then, I got out of the car and held the car door for her. She practically ran to the door for it was incredibly cold. Shetook out her keys, but just like the Bella that I knew, she dropped them on the ground. I caught it and handed to her,

before she even moved an inch.

"Thanks" she trembled.

"Anytime," I smiled. How I missed her lovable klutziness.

Chapter Eight


I asked Edward to spend the night with me. I couldn't believe that he said yes! I was too jubilant to say anything. Ijust hugged him and kissed him on the cheeks to show my gratitude. He was very pleased. I ran to my apartment,

wanting to get in as soon as I could, for it was awfully icy outside. My clumsiness did the best of me. As I was held oumy keys, it slipped out of my hand but Edward caught it just in time with his unbelievably, incredible reflexes. How Iwish to be a vampire They're good at everything.

I went in the closet and grabbed a pair of pajamas. I suddenly regret not packing those silky pajamas that Renee gaveme last Christmas. I didn't think that I'll need them. I took a warm shower. It took longer than usual for the water towarm, or was it because I was too anxious to be in the arms of Edward Cullen? I could feel my heart thump I stillcan't get over the fact that he's somewhere in my apartment, waiting for me. I put on a long-sleeved shirt, and a pairof sweatpants. I blow-dried my hair, not wanting to get his shirt wet, and then I went in the bedroom and found himsitting there, looking like a Greek God, leaning against my bed.

"Edward!" I ran to him and leaned against his cold, hard chest. Even though I can't find warmth from it, but it hadalways been my favorite place to be in. It was a little piece of heaven to me.


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"Hey, welcome back," he chuckled. He kissed my hair, and then slowly along my jaw. I could feel the static as soon ashis cool lips touched my skin.

"Aww!" he groaned.

"What's what's wrong?" I could hear the worry in my voice.

"You smell WAY too good," he groaned again, smiling this time.

"So good that you would eat me?" I joked.

"Not funny Bella," he snapped back at me. I puckered up my face to see if I was forgiven, apparently I was.

"So are you going hunting tomorrow?" I asked casually.

"Since, I'm gonna be around you, I'm gonna take all the precocious. You'll be alright won't you?" he kissed my hair.

"Yeah. I have a shopping trip with Alice tomorrow. Don't you remember? " He nodded and smiled. I rolled my eyes.

Then, he leaned down to kiss me on my lips. He broke away a few seconds later, allowing me to grasp for air and catcmy breath. His eyes darkened, and I know what that means.

"You're thirsty" I whispered while I ran my fingertips along his jaw.

"It's nothing unmanageable. I'll be fine," he shrugged.

"Is it hard for you? Me being this close?" my voice was gentle.

"You have no idea, but don't worry. I will never, ever hurt you Bella," his promise was sincere.

"I'm not worried, I trust you Edward, and you know that. I just don't want to put you in pain, I don't want to make itharder for you than it already is," I whispered.

"This is hardly any pain," he whispered in my ear.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, I am sure. Now go to sleep my angel" Edward hummed a familiar lullaby. His soothing, musical voice was likethe bell chimes from heaven. I was in his arms, cradled like a little girl. I closed my eyes, wanting to enjoy the cozymoment.


I watched Bella's face as she closed her lovely brown eyes. She had a flawless smile on her face, which just made mewant to lean down and kiss her. But I didn't want to wake her; she'll need all the energy tomorrow, if she is going togo shopping with Alice. She was sound asleep a few minutes later. The room was quiet. The only thing that I couldhear was her gentle breath. I rubbed her cheeks every now and then, to distract myself from my desire to kiss her.

She muttered my name a few times throughout the night. It made me content just to hear her beautiful voice,whispering my name. Everything sounds so heartwarming coming from the lips of an angel. I still can't believe that thwonderful creature lying next to me was meant for a monster like me. I don't know what I have done to deserve her. was nothing more but a danger, a menace to her. Of all the reasons to hate me, she still loved me. I have never beenmore grateful in my life.

"I love you Edward" her soothing voice mumbled gently. Even though she was asleep, but the way she feels meant awhole world to me.

"I love you too Bella, I love you," I whispered in the darkness, and kissed her softly on her forehead. Her pure, serenesmile stayed on her angelic face throughout the whole night.


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I woke up, and the previous night flooded back to me. I was so sure that it was all a dream; I mean could I possiblyhave Edward Cullen back in my life again? I opened my eyes and found the beautiful creature, sitting next to me,smiling my favorite crooked smile. I couldn't believe it at first; I reached for him, waited for him to disappear in a puffof smoke. But he didn't.

"Good morning my angel, how was your night?" he kissed me softly on the cheeks, as he held my hand.

"Edward? I'm dreaming aren't I?" I sighed.

"Don't worry, you're not THAT creative" he scoffed. I grinned at him.

He leaned down to kiss me again, my collarbone, my nose, my jawMy heart was beating like crazy the whole time ouskins were in contact.

"So did I convince you?" he whispered softly in my ear.

"Yes You convinced me that this was too good to be reality," I whispered back.

"I love you," he said gently.

"I love you too," I replied softly, while looking into his gorgeous, topaz eyes.

He chuckled, "Yes. You did mention that last night, a few hundred times while you were asleep," he joked.

"Aww! Are you serious?" I groaned.

He chuckled again, "Don't worry; it was quite enjoyable for me. I didn't think that you would still talk in your sleepafter all these years, but I'm glad you do. I really don't want to miss out on all the funs So I thank you for that," hismusical voice turned into a whisper.

I blushed. The truth is, after all these years, my dreams have always been about him. Some of them were merelypainful for me to have. There were scenes of us at the meadow, in my old bedroom back in Forks then when I wake

up the next morning, everything disappears. It almost pained for me to sleep, not knowing how I might feel in themorning. But it was worth it. I could see his face in my dreams, I could hear his voice yes. It was worth it.

I sat up, leaning against the bed like Edward. I rested my head against his shoulders, then suddenly remembering thaI might have morning breath, and my hair is probably a mess.

"A minute for the human?" I looked up at him.

"Of course," he nodded.

I went in the bathroom and saw a reflection of myself in the mirror. Yes indeed, my hair was a mess. I untangled itwith my brush, and tried to brush it out as smoothly as I can. I brushed my teeth, and then I hopped back to the bed.He was still leaning there, like the way that I have left him.

He smiled at me, while I wrapped my hands around his arm. I rested next to him, as he closed his eyes. It was quiet. could hear the birds chirping from the outside, the cars driving by every now and then it was very peaceful. I nevertook the time to appreciate it, not until today. I realized that I never took the time to appreciate or enjoy other thingswhen I didn't have Edward. There has always been a hole in my chest, waiting to be filled. I pretended that everythingwas okay around Charlie and Jacob, but it had never been okay. We all hoped that I would move on. But how can Iever get over Edward? He was my life and my soul. No. He will always be a life and my soul. He took my heart awaywith him when he left Forks. I can't live happily without him.

I sniffed and I smelled something amazing. Edward noticed and he chuckled, "Time for breakfast," he picked me upgently, and held me with one of his arms. It looked so effortless, the way he picks me up. As if I have no weight at allHe carried me to the dining room, and I found a set of warm breakfast sitting there on the table, with a beautiful redrose inside a small, elegant vase beside it.


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"You cooked me breakfast?" I choked out, too surprised too talk.

"It's no big deal. Remember, I can't taste human food so I have no idea whether it's good or not." He replied modestly

"It smells amazing, thank you Edward," I kissed his neck.

He chuckled, "Don't thank me just yet, you might not find it to your liking," I rolled my eyes. I know it would tasteperfect. After all, he was a perfectionist at everything. He sat me down on the chair, and sat across from me. I pickedup the fork, and closed my eyes again to smell the food.

There were scrambled eggs; pancakes, waffles, with lots of fresh fruits cut up in tiny chomps and syrup over them. Healso made coffee, with a tiny glass of orange juice next to it. It looked absolutely delicious. I cut up a piece of pancakestuffed it in my mouth, and it was AMAZING, better than any of the pancakes that I have had in the restaurants.

"Oh Edward, this tastes amazing thank you," I smiled sincerely at him.

"You're welcome, glad you liked it," he smiled back.

"So when did you do all this? I mean, this must have taken a long time,"

"Oh, I did it a little while ago before you were awake. I called Alice to drop off the ingredients; I didn't want to leaveyou alone in the house. She wanted to help, but I know with both of us quarreling in the kitchen, it would have waked

you," he snickered.

"You are a really good cook Edward," he WAS a very good cook. Great, other thing that he is better than me at,cooking. And this time, he can't even taste the food!

"Ever thought of opening a restaurant?" I joked.

"Yeah maybe when I graduate from High School, but then again, I'm going to have to start over again as a junior,"he smirked.

I laughed. I have never found breakfast to be so enjoyable. It was perfect, just like the boy sitting in front of me.

Chapter Nine


"I better change into something acceptable for Alice, or she'll give me another lecture on how to dress," Bella saidhelplessly, after she finished breakfast.

I laughed, "I'm sorry that you had to do this,"

She sighed. "That's okay. I just hope that she doesn't go overboard with the whole shopping thing. But knowing Alice,that is impossible," she shook her head. Then she headed to her bedroom to change.

"Alice? Listen. I'm going to drop Bella off at our house so you don't have to pick her up alright? And please, go easy oher today. We don't want to scare her off," I called Alice on my cell phone. I wanted to spend more time with Bella,even for a few more minutes in the car, since I'm going to be away for the rest of the weekend. I heard Alice poutingon the phone but she agreed with me at the end.

Bella came out with a pink turtleneck, which would match perfectly with her blush, and a pair of thick blue jeans. Shelooked as amazing as always. I couldn't help but stare. Bella looked away quickly as soon as her eyes met mine. Shewas blushing again, which was perfect. It matched her turtleneck the way that I had hoped.

I walked toward her and held her hand tightly. I kissed her softly on the lips and walked her to the car, with my armsaround her waist. She smelled really good which was a good reason for me to go hunting today.

We pulled up in the driveway at my house, and found Alice sitting on the doorsteps waiting.


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"Bella! Edward! " She greeted us warmly as she skipped over to hug Bella. "Thanks for doing this. I promise, notorture," she winked at me.

"Thanks Alice. Just remember your promise at the mall," Bella chuckled.

"Well, come in. I don't want Edward to scowl me if you catch a cold," she said sarcastically. I grinned at her as I heldBella in my arms.

We walked in the house and found Carlisle, Jasper, and Emmett sitting on the couch. "Morning Bella," said Carlisle and

Jasper. Bella smiled, "Good morning."

"Hey Bella, hey Edward," Emmett said optimistically.

"Hey Emmett," we replied.

"Bella, honey, how are you this morning?" Esme came out from the kitchen and kissed her cheeks. "I'm fine Esme, andyou?" Bella replied politely.

"I'm pretty joyful myself. So Edward, I take it that you stayed at Bella's last night? You didn't make it back home,"Esme smiled.

Emmett laughed loudly, "Way to go bro, nice work!" Emmett high-fived me. Bella was blushing. I kissed her hands and

wrapped my arms around her waist.

"Where's Rose and" I didn't want to say her name. It's bad enough that she's going hunting with us. It's going to betorture.

"They're upstairs "dressing up"," Alice put her hands up in the air to do the quotation marks. "It's really stupid. They'rgoing to get dirty anyways," she said disgustedly.

I nodded, "True."

Then I saw Rose and Paige walking down the stairs. Great, I thought to myself sarcastically. Paige leaped at me.

"Hey honey! I can't believe that we are going to spend the weekend together. Isn't it great? Just the two of us Youdon't mind if I ride with you do you? I'm feeling kind of lazy today, so I really don't want to drive my Mercedes It'sgoing to be fun we'll have plenty of privacy in the forest" she winked at me and smiled sheepishly.

"Please don't call me "honey" or any other names that you have for me. In fact, don't call me anything at all. And no,you are riding with Rosalie, and we have nothing and please, leave me alone in the forest," I said disgusted, turningmy head away.

I noticed that she was staring at Bella the whole time that she was talking to me. Bella looked clueless in a way, as ifshe was afraid of what might happen. But after my reply, the worry on her face was gone.

"Edward" Carlisle warned me in a low voice.

"What?" I snapped back sharply.

Be nice Edward; remember what I said before.

I sighed, "I'm sorry Paige. But I still mean what I said beforehand," I warned her. She pouted.

"Fine but that's alright. We'll still have plenty of time in the forest" she said enthusiastically. Before I could protestshe was out of the house.

Emmett and Jasper looked at each other and started snickering. "Man, aren't YOU gonna have fun in the forest withPaige?" Emmett said sarcastically.


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"Oh shut up Emmett, and you better stop laughing Jasper," I said frustratingly. "Thanks Carlisle," I scowled. Heshrugged.

"Alright, we're fixing to leave, get whatever you need and get in the car," Carlisle instructed. "Bye Bella," my familywaved at her and headed out the door. Except for Rosalie of course, who ignored her with her arrogant attitude.

I wrapped my arms around Bella one last time, and kissed her passionately on the lips. She kissed me back andwrapped her arms around my neck. I could feel us moving backwards, pushing against the wall.

Alice cleared her throat. We completely forgot about her presence. We looked at her apologetically. "Sorry Alice," wesaid.

"Next time Edward, save some more times for your goodbyes," she replied helplessly. Bella and I laughed.

"I'll be back soon," I whispered as I gave her a soft kiss on the lips.

"I'll miss you," she whispered back.

"Me too, and please, be safe," I chuckled. "Oh Alice? Remember what I said about going easy on Bella? Don't forget," called out to Alice warningly. Bella gave me an appreciative look. I smiled at her, and head out the door to find myfamily.

Paige's Point of View

Edward came home with the Bella girl. He was there the whole night, with the little weasel. She's not even that prettyNo, she's not pretty at all. She was shorter than me, and she lacks some curves. Her hair wasn't beautifully blonde likemine, it was dirty brown. The whole family's really nice to her. Too nice, it's more than she deserve. For god's sake,she's human! Agh But oh well, I guess that they are just feeling sorry for her, Edward included. I mean, why wouldhe want her, when he can have ME? The queen of all beauty?

The way that she looks at Edward, it's disgusting. She pretends to be all "pure" and "innocent", it's sick! First of all, shneeds to learn a lot more when it comes to flirting. And second of all, he is WAY out of her league. I mean, Edward isone of the hottest vampires that I have ever seen. And she's going for him? It's almost like beauty and the beast.

She better not think that she can pull a fast one on me, that little filthy monster. Not that she's much of a competition

but she's doing something to Edward that's keeping him by her sides. I WANT EDWARD and I will do whatever it takesto get him. If she's gonna stand in my way? Then good luck to her because I will crush her if necessary. I'll teach herwhat it feels like to mess with the unbelievable, indescribable, beautiful, and perfect PAIGE RYANS! I hate her. I hateher. I hate her! Stupid, little, scummy human girl. Agh!


"Ready Bella?" Alice asked cheerfully.

"Yes, let's get this over with Alice," I smiled.

"Alright, WE are going to Hartford. They have this really cute swim suit that I'm just DYING to get," she winked. I

laughed.

"Sure Alice, let's go to Hartford and get it!" I tried to sound enthusiastic.

Alice shook her head, "Seriously Bella, I think you actually sound better when you're against shopping," she saidhumorly. We laughed.

"Nice car," I spotted a yellow Porsche sitting in the garage.

"Thanks. It's a gift from Jasper last Christmas, I love it almost as much as I love him," she joked. I opened thepassenger door, and sat down to buckle up. I know Alice drives just as insanely as Edward, so if I wanted to live, theseatbelts might help.


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"So why aren't you going hunting with them?" I asked innocently.

"I went with Jasper two days ago. I'm fine. Besides, I need some peace and quiet from Miss. Blabbermouth," she saidjoyfully.

"Alright! Take off!" she said perkily. We back out from the garage, and were on the highway in approximately 2minutes. She turned on the stereo and tuned on a pop station.

"Bella, you have no idea how much I missed the Girl's Night Out! Well, in our case, Girl's Day Out," she added

lightheartedly.

"Me too Alice! I can just talk to you about ANYTHING You have always been my best friend. I'm so glad that we canhang out again," I smiled sincerely.

"And Bella? Do me a favor? Please try not to get hurt you know, trip over the escalators, get a bruise from the racksyou know, the usual. Edward would literally murder me if I don't take good care of you," she pretended to shudder.

"Alright Alice, I'll try," I rolled my eyes.

"Please. Remember, my life is at stake here," she said spiritedly. I laughed after watching her funny expression. It's seasy to be myself with Alice, she's so darling, so sweet she has always been like a sister to me. I'm so glad thatthings are going back to the way they were. I'm glad that I, Isabella Swan, am happy again.

Chapter Ten


We sat in the car and sang along with the songs that we know. Alice's voice was as chirpy and joyful as always, I don'know how anyone can feel gloomy around her.

"Alice?" I asked.

"Yes Bella?"

"Edward and I were discussing about something last night Did you see me here at all in your visions?"

She took a deep breath, "I'm going to be honest Bella. Yes, I did see you. But it was shortly after we arrived in NewHaven. I didn't want to tell Edward, because I know how much it'll hurt him if he knows. He would have wanted to seeyou. But you could have moved on Bella, you could have happily married someone; you could have even beenpregnant for god's sake!"

"Alice! I'm only twenty years old! Besides, you know me well enough to know that I wouldn't move on or GETPREGNANT for that matter!" I exclaimed.

"Sorry, just a thought. Anyway, I don't know how Edward would take it. If you had moved on, I'm sure he would havepretended to be happy. After all, that's what he wanted. But I know deep down inside, he'll always live with guilt andregret for the rest of eternity. And we have to live with him Bella," she chuckled. "Imagine what that would have done

to poor Jasper," she continued.

She took another breath, "Another reason is that I wasn't sure if you would have wanted him back. Whether youmoved on or not. You could have simply hated him for leaving, and for hurting you. I was afraid to let Edward and youboth suffer the pain. I knew if I don't tell Edward, you two probably would never have to see each other, after all, NewHaven IS pretty big for a town. Then either one of you would have to suffer that much. But who knew? You two HAD tbump into each other at the bookstore," she grinned. "But I'm glad you did. Thank you very much Bella, for taking mybrother back in your life," she looked appreciative.

"I love him Alice; I did it for no one but myself. True, I have always given myself all the reasons to hate him, but Iguess I love him too much to do so," I smiled.

"He's not happy with me is he?" Alice sighed after a short pause.


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I shook my head, "He'll want to know why you didn't tell him," I replied gently.

"Great! More explaining to do when he gets back," she murmured.

"Alice? How could he not know? Before we met each other at the bookstore I mean? He CAN read your mind," I askedsuspiciously.

"Oh Bella! You have no idea how hard it was! I mean, I had to be careful with my thoughts around him all the time! Ihad been avoiding him in the past couple of days actually. I didn't even tell Jasper, afraid that he might slip up, not

that I don't trust him. So it's a good thing that you two are back together, or I would have to avoid him for the rest ofeternity! Thank heavens for that! Phew," she finished, smiling at me now.

"So did you know that we were going to meet in the bookstore?"

"No, actually I didn't. I had no idea what you were doing in New Haven, at first I thought you might be visiting a friendor something but I wasn't sure. Which was another reason of why I didn't tell him," she said cheerfully. "Besides, NewHaven isn't exactly Forks-like, who would know that you two would be there at the same exact bookstore? It's fateBella, you two belong together even god knows that," she sighed.

I was speechless for a few minutes.

"Sorry about the ambush Alice," I said apologetically.

"Don't worry about it Bella, you had every right to know," she smiled.

"I guess you're curious about Paige too huh?" she asked innocently, after a brief pause. I nodded my head.

"She joined us two years ago, a little after we left. She went to Tanya's Clan at first, and then Tanya told her about usWe didn't permit her to live with us, but she simply won't leave us alone. And you know Carlisle and Esme; they feltsorry for her... So we came up with a compromise, she can stay with us temporarily, but I don't think that she'splanning on to leave any time soon," she scoffed.

"So did Edward show any interest in her at all? And please, be honest," I gulped, feeling slightly embarrassed. This wathe question that I wanted to know the most. Then to my surprise, Alice started laughing so hard, it was almost rude.

"Sorry about that Bella, it's just the thought of Edward and Paige together It's hilarious! Of course not silly! Edwardhates her more than anything else, perhaps even more than vile Mike Newton," she smirked.

I felt relieved after hearing that from Alice. I realized that we were stopping in front of an outlet, in the parking lot."Alright Bella! Get out of the car and begin today's work!" she winked at me and pulled me out of the Porsche.

We walked in an elegant store, kind of old-fashioned. I saw a tremendous amount of shirts on the shelves. It was builtin a Victorian style. The ceilings had beautiful laces hanging, and even the lights were absolutely stunning.

"Oh Bella? Don't you just fancy this store?" Alice sighed in satisfactory.

"It's great Alice," I said as I stared in awe.

She looked through lots of clothes, and found lots of them to her liking.

"Bella! Look at this! This will look perfect on you," she handed me a baby blue dress.

It was sleeveless, and I have to admit, it had a certain charm. It didn't look like something "from the rack" as Alicewould have put it; it was captivating and ravishing looking. I couldn't help but stare at the price tag, "Alice, it's $109!I exclaimed.

"I know, it's on sale, isn't it great?" she took my exclamation for another.


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"No. That's not exactly what I meant. I'm not letting you pay $109 for something that I would probably only wear oncein a lifetime," I insisted.

"Oh Bella, lighten up! I'm doing this for Edward. Imagine how pleased him would be if he sees you in this," she saidoptimistically.

"Alice" I groaned.

"No buts Bella, go try it on," she gave me the "I'm-not-gonna-let-it-rest" look. I sighed as I headed to the dressing

room.

I came out from the dressing room and found both Alice and the clerk staring at me with their jaws dropped.

"Oh my gosh Bella, you HAVE to get it. It looks absolutely amazing on you, as if it was made just for you and no oneelse! You just HAVE to get it," she squealed.

"Alice, have you not noticed how cold it was outside? It's winter Alice. And we ARE in Connecticut. And this issleeveless," I waved my hand down my body.

"No problem, I'll get you a little sweater to put over, here try this," said Alice as she handed me a darker blue sweateIt matched perfectly, but I wouldn't say that out loud for Alice to hear, which would have just categorize as anotherpersuasive reason for her to spend $109 for this dress.

"Please Bella! Put it on, we can do this the easy way, or the hard way," Alice threatened. Doesn't look like I have muchof a choice huh? I sighed and put on the blue sweater, it was very comfortable and warm, I liked it. But I would neveradmit it in front of Alice.

She nodded with excitement, "It's decided, you're getting it," she smiled.

"Oh Alice! You promised Edward to go easy on me today!" I groaned.

"I guess I'm just going to have to break it don't I? Besides, I AM going easy on you Bella," she smirked. I pouted. Shegave me one of her infamous "I'm-gonna-get-my-way-no-matter-what" look. I gave up. It's pointless to argue withAlice when she's on her shopping mode.

We were wandering around in the same store for several hours. She found a whole stack of shirt that she's decided toget. She bought me 3 pullovers and turtlenecks; they were all in soft colors: lavender, baby blue, tan which Iwouldn't object too much to. Alice came out with 5 or 6 shopping bags in each hand. They were filled with clothes, andthey looked pretty heavy. We decided to drop them off in her Porsche first, so we can go for the second round. Well,she decided anyway.

"Oh! Lunch for the human!" she exclaimed suddenly as we walked in the mall. "Edward reminded me to feed you foodso you won't die from hunger," she joked. I rolled my eyes, and then I bent down to look at my watch. It was 12:30. Ican't believe that we had been in the same store for over 3 hours! But I guess that's pretty normal for Alice.

"What do you want for lunch Bella?" she asked chirpily.

"Doesn't matter, whatever we can find," I was still full from the breakfast that Edward had cooked me. I found a

hotdog stand in the mall; I told her that's what I wanted. I didn't want her to make a big deal over lunch. Surprisinglyshe didn't oppose on me getting a hotdog for lunch. I told her that I would pay for it myself, but she wouldn't let me.

"Not a chance Bella, I'm ordering," then she skipped to the line as I waited on the bench. Minutes later, she came backwith a gigantic hotdog. An extra, super, large perhaps.

"Geez Alice, that's not all for me!" I exclaimed loudly.

"Of course not, some for me too," she joked. I rolled my eyes as she handed the hotdog to me.

She sat next to me on the bench, and watched me took a bite out of the humongous hotdog. "What are you staring atAlice?" I asked innocently.


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I found a gigantic closet. It was pink, to match the room. She opened it up for me, "My masterpiece," she introduced.There must have been dozens of sweaters. They were all lined up according to their colors.

"I thought you lacked winter clothes Alice," I asked suspiciously.

"I do lack winter cloth," she smiled childishly. I rolled my eyes.

She hung up all the clothes that she bought today in a brief minute. It would have taken me hours to do so She's avampire Bella, I constantly reminded myself. It's just that she's so quick at everything, compare to me, the klutzy

human. I felt bad just looking at her abnormal abilities.

"I'm going to go and change into something comfortable, I'm getting kind of tired of this shirt," Alice made a disgusteface.

"Sure Alice," I replied. She came out from the bathroom in a red t-shirt. She had her cell phone in her hand.

"Bella? It's Edward," she handed her cell phone to me. I ran for it and grabbed the phone from her as quickly as Icould.

"You really miss him don't you? He's only been gone for half a day Bella," she giggled. I nodded my head and smiled.

"Hello?" I called out to the phone.

"Bella, it's so good to hear your voice," Edward's soothing voice sighed.

"Edward! Where are you?" I asked cheerfully.

"I'm in Canada. How was your trip with Alice?" he asked politely. His voice was still so smooth over the phone.

"It was fun so how was dinner?" I joked.

"Not as tempting as you, but they were some good mountain lions," he joked back.

"I miss you," I whispered, wondering if he could hear me through the phone.

"I'm miserable without you myself. I'll be back soon," he promised.

"Okay. I love you Edward," I said passionately.

"I love you too. See you in couple of days."

I handed Alice back the phone.

"How did he manage to get service in the middle of nowhere?" I chuckled.

"Who knows? My brother is the craziest person that I know when it comes to you Bella, he'll do whatever it takes toget whatever he wants," she grinned. We started giggling as we stared at the phone.

"So, what do you want for dinner Bella?" we skipped down to the dining room and sat down on the chairs.

"Doesn't matter, I CAN go out and buy something," then I realized that I didn't have a car.

"Hmm what do humans eat when they have a sleepover?" she tickled her chin. "I know," she exclaimed brightly asshe snapped her finger. "Pizza!" she picked up the phone book and dialed.

"Hi I want a" she began to talk animatedly as she gave them our address. I stared at her the whole time, I didn'tknow why but I find it funny to see a vampire order a bunch food for someone else.


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"Okay now that's settled what movie do you want to watch?" she motioned me to follow her to a clear, glass shelvewith over hundreds of titles to choose from.

"They're all Emmett's, wanna watch Mean Girls?" she asked.

"Sure," I looked at her suspiciously. Emmett has Mean Girls? I thought he would be more interested in Spider Man,Fantastic Four, Transformers you know. Action movies. With a bunch of killing, hitting, fighting But come on MeaGirls? I just can't picture Emmett watching it. Alice must have read my thoughts, "I know. But Emmett loves thismovie. It's one of his all time favorites, it frustrates Rosalie," she snickered.

We watched the movie and I ate the pizza. Alice ordered a bunch of sides to go with it. I was SOO FULL! I couldn'teven move an inch. Then, I started to yawn. I slightly was distracted from the movie for my eyelids wouldn't work withme. I was fast asleep in the middle in the middle of Mean Girls. Who knew that shopping can be so tiresome?


After talking to Bella, for the first time in my life I felt homesick. It's ridiculous seeing that most of my family was herwith me. I'm glad that Bella and Alice had fun. Alice probably tortured her again regardless her promise to me. But yetI felt relieved after talking to Bella on the phone. She was safe and sound in our house. That's what's important. But Ialso felt the urge to just rush back right now, and hold her in my arms but I know that I must inform my family first. '

"Edward? Oh Edward?" Paige sang from somewhere close. Her voice was sharp too sharp. Oh crap! I better run. I do

not want to face her right now at this moment. If I lose my temper again, it would upset Carlisle. I tried to move asquickly and quietly as possible in the woods. But she probably caught my scent.

"Edward? Is that you?" she asked happily. I ignored her and continued to run. It's a good thing that I'm the fastest onof the family. She was behind my trails, I looked to see if any of my families were close by but they weren't. I turnedmy head and lost sights of her behind me, perhaps she got lost or she gave up. I sighed in relief.

"Hey Edward!" her annoying face popped up all of a sudden as I turned my head back around. Crap, crap, crap! I fellbackwards, startled by her unannounced appearance.

"What in the world are you doing here?" I asked breathlessly.

"I was looking for you. I called you but you didn't turn around. I thought perhaps you were looking for me as well," sh

batted her eyelashes as she wrapped her arms around my waist. I pushed her away and started walking south.

"Where are you going? Edward! Oh I get it you want to go DEEP in the woods to give us some privacy. You naughtyboy you!" she pinched my face and patted my head as if I were a 5-year-old.

"Quit it Paige! I'm not going anywhere with you. Please, leave me. The. Hell. Alone!" I screamed at her. I threw a darklook at her, but she, the unobservant pain in the butt, took it for something else. How can someone be so clueless?

"Aww Edward, don't be shy! Your family's not around. We can do whatever we want with no interruptions ordistractions, you might as well as just drop the act," she winked at me as she moved slowly towards me. I fastened m

jaws; I had this desire to punch that midget face of hers. Doesn't she get it? I hate her. I never say that in front of hebut I have shown it in countless amounts of times. Why doesn't she get it? Was she trying to act dumb? No. Thatwouldn't be it, because for her, it wouldn't require any acting at all. She reached out to hold my arm; I shook it off and

ran away from her. I didn't want to argue with her, it was pointless. In that thick head of hers, she just can't acceptthe fact that I am not interested in her. The best way is to ignore her, to avoid her.

I saw Carlisle and Esme in a near distance. "Carlisle! Esme!" I waved at them and suddenly regretted yelling. Paigeheard and rushed right over.

"Edward! There you are! Don't be shy!" she smiled idiotically and ran to my side. Carlisle and Esme chuckled. I glaredat them and shook my head, trying to ignore Paige.

"Carlisle, I'm going back to New Haven. I'm done for this week," he nodded probably knowing what I was thinking. Iwanted to get back to Bella. I missed her and I'm anxious to see her. It bothered me knowing that she's somewhere inthe house waiting for me to return. I wanted to hear her laugh, I wanted to have her in my arms, I wanted see her


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smiled I missed her too much. I know it's pretty ridiculous for me to feel this way for I just saw her this morning, buwe have a lot to talk about, a lot to make up, for the past two years that I was gone.

"Why the rush sweetheart? We have the whole weekend! Are you nervous about the Geometry test on Monday? Don'tworry; I'll help you study A test like that doesn't stand against someone smart like me!" she winked. I shook myhead. She's even more clueless than I thought. I gave her WAY too much credit.

"I'm not worried about the test PAIGE," I said sourly. "There's just something that I need to take care of back home," looked at Carlisle and he nodded at me. He was glad that my temper was still in control.

"Fine, I'll come with you. I'm done anyway," she shrugged.

"No!" I answered quickly. "Stay with the family," I said sharply.

"But" she began to protest.

"I'm gone, bye Carlisle, Esme. Tell Emmett and Jasper for me will you? Tell them that I'm not competing with them thtime," I started to head out of the forest. Emmett, Jasper, and I had this little game of ours every time we go hunting.We would see who can hunt the most animals in the shortest amount of time. It's stupid, I know.

"Drive safely Edward!" Esme called from behind. I nodded and heard another unwanted comment, "Bye honey! I'll seeyou at home," Agh. It was from Paige. I would tell her to shut her mouth but I didn't want to waste any time. The

sooner I leave the forest, the sooner that I can get back to New Haven. The sooner that I could see my angel.

"Yo Edward!" Emmett screamed from behind.

"What?" I turned around to face him.

"I'm coming with you. Rosalie and Paige are talking about hair products again," he shuddered. I sighed. I know howhe's feeling.

"Fine Emmett," we ran toward our cars and began our journey back home.

Chapter Twelve


I woke up on a soft, comfortable bed. I knew that I wasn't in Alice's room for this room had a different structure andstyle. The room was bright and inviting. The curtains were drawn, as the sunlight shone through the window. Therewere lots of artistic shelves standing against the wall. Some of them had CDs lined up neatly against them. On theother side of the wall, there were books, classic novels, standing orderly on the shelves. It looked like a mini library.There were famous quotes placed in frames and they were hung on the wall. It was the perfect decoration. Irecognized some of them written by my favorite poets. I knew that this had to be Edward's room.

There was a black, leathered couch in the middle of the room. In front of it, was an exquisite fire place. There was adelicate table in the corner. It made me curious as I spotted a familiar photo in a crystal picture frame. I walked up toit and recognized it immediately. It was a picture of me and Edward in our meadow. I was leaning against his chest as

he had his arms around me. He was smiling my favorite breath-taking crooked smile. That was two years ago. Iwonder why he had it in his bedroom. The picture brought back so many memories. I held it against my heart, as Iclosed my eyes, and lied on the bed to think back.

"Bella? I thought I heard you upstairs awake," Alice knocked and entered the bedroom to sit next to me on the bed.

"Good morning Alice," I smiled. She saw the picture in my hand and chuckled.

"I took that picture one day as I followed you guys to your hideout. I knew that you two would never carry a camerawith you, so I had to play photographer," she grinned.

"Did he always have this picture in his room?" I asked softly, my voice was almost inaudible.


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She nodded, "Yes Bella. It was one of the most precious things to him. He would lock himself in the bedroom and lookat it every night. It was hard on him Bella, he blamed himself for everything," she sighed. We were both speechless foa moment. Neither of us knew what to say.

"Wait! There's something that I would like to show you," she pulled out an astounding photo album from the shelves.On the cover, the word Memories was engraved in a golden color. She handed it to me and smiled. I opened thealbum.

The sound of your voice

Is like a butterfly

It guides along

Swiftly, lovely

The words slide off your lips

Like a butterfly flutters its wings

Voice as lovely as gliding in wind

The sound of your voice makes me smile

But this moment soon fades away

And all Ihave is nothing

I flipped the page and I felt tears brushing down my cheeks. My heart ached when I saw they were all pictures of meand him.

Edward Cullen

Isabella Swan

2006

The first one was taken when we first met. We were sitting in his bedroom back in Forks, he had me in his arms andwe were both smiling then there was our junior prom he was in a beautiful tuxedo while I was in my cast, imaginethe awful comparison. The next one was taken when both of us were sitting in his shiny Volvo; we were on our way toschool I flipped through the pages and found the photos to get blurrier and blurrier since I'm eyes were now filledwith tears.

"The one in the photo frame was his favorite. He said that he could almost relive the day when he looks at it. Hetreasured everything that reminded him of you," she sighed.

I felt guilty and gloomed as I closed the album. How could I ever doubt his love for me in the past 2 years? He had

always missed me and loved me. I remembered how I felt. My life was blank when he left me. I pretended to be happfor Charlie, Renee, and Jake, while deep down inside, there was always a hole that was never filled. I was never happyAll of my memories involved Edward. Now that I think back, I have no idea what I was doing in the past two years. Iwent to school, got accepted in Yale, but I never felt the joy. I was lifelessI couldn't help but let out a sob. Alicehanded me a tissue and gave me a sympathetic hug.

"Bella, honey, are you okay?" Alice asked gently. I nodded my head.

"Sorry Alice. I got to emotional over the photo album," I tried to force a smile.

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"So what's the agenda for today?" she said cheerfully as she handed me a brand new box of cereals and a jar of milk.

"I have to study for an exam tomorrow," I said in an as-matter-of-fact tone. She pouted. She was hoping that we coulgo on another shopping trip.

"Aww! No shopping?" she said, disappointed.

"Sorry Alice, I don't have photographic memory like you do," I said sarcastically. I was glad that I have to study; itallowed me to escape from whatever Alice had planned in mind.

After breakfast, she dropped me off at my apartment.

"Want to come in?" I asked politely.

"Sure, I'll help you study." She said, smiling warmly at me.

I carried all of my books to the living room. She would ask me questions about the books and I would answer them.She was a great test maker; all of the questions were professional.

"Alright. What was Alexander Pope's first contribution?"

"That would beAn Essay on Criticism," I almost screamed out the answer. She nodded.

"Next. Who did William Shakespeare marry on November 28, 1582?" the rest of the afternoon went on like this. I had lot of fun with Alice though; she made studying interesting as she made funny faces throughout the whole studyingsession.

I yawned after a few hours. "Bella, why don't you take a break? You have everything memorized Relax, you'll dogreat," she gave me a pat on the shoulder.

"Thanks Alice. I think I'll take you up on that," I yawned again. Then, the phone rang. I ran for it, hoping that it wouldbe Edward. Then I remembered if he wanted to talk to me, he would have called Alice on her cell phone.

"Hello?" I sounded a bit disappointed as I answered the phone. I reminded myself that it wasn't whoever on thephone's fault that they're not Edward.

"Hey Bella, it's Meagan. Listen, we have a little gathering at Dylan's place, want to come? We're going to talk about thpresentation for American Literature next week. Maybe we can work on it today. So are you interested?" she askedpolitely.

"Umm sure Meg," I tried to sound enthusiastic.

"Great! Pick you up at six!" I didn't have a choice. Meagan was my partner for that class. If we don't get it done beforethis upcoming Thursday, we would fail the class.

"Who was that?" Alice asked cheerfully.

"My friend Meagan. We have a studying session tonight at six," I informed her. He made a face,

"Seriously Bella, don't you get tired of studying? We've been doing this all day!" she exclaimed.

I sighed, "If I don't Alice, I'll get kicked out of school. This isn't exactly High School," I reminded her.

"Oh that's right" she murmured.

"Well, get some rest. I'll see you later!" she smiled and pecked me on the cheeks. She was out of the door in a briefsecond, I heard the Porsche driving away


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I almost collapsed on my bed. Was I still tired from shopping yesterday? My eye lids were heavier by the second; I waasleep before I even knew it myself.

I saw Edward in his bedroom. He was laughing That's when I noticed that there was a girl in his arms she wassitting on his laps. The girl had beautiful blonde hair, I couldn't see her face for she was facing me with her back; hervoice was high and chirpy. He was rubbing her back as she leaned against his chest. Edward didn't notice me, neitherdid the girl. They were still talking animatedly, flirtatiously, completely ignoring my presence. Edward leaned closer tokiss the girl on the lips. I felt anger and jealously building up over me as I got closer to see who the girl was. It wasPaige. I screamed and screamed but they still didn't sense my presence.

Chapter Thirteen

"Ahh!" I woke up and realized that it was only a dream. It was only a dream Bella, I tried to calm myself. I laughednervously. That was silly; you know Edward will never choose her over you. I tried to catch my breath. I was stillpanting and sweating from all the chaos in my dream. I decided to take a shower to relax myself since I still had timebefore Meagan comes to pick me up.

Bonk! Bonk! "Bella!" I heard Meagan honking as I came out from the shower.

"Coming Meg," I yelled while grabbing my jacket from the counter. It was still very cold outside.

"Hey Meagan," I greeted her as I went in her car.

"Hey Bella," she smiled.

Dylan's place was about 20 miles off campus. We drove up to a big house. The music as booming loud.

"This is Dylan's place," she said as she turned off the engine. There were college kids standing outside of the housewith beers in their hands, they were laughing insanely as we walked pass them. "Hey Meagan! Who's the girl?" a guyshouted from behind. I followed Meagan uncomfortably into the house.

We entered the house and I saw people on the dance floor, dancing. "Meagan? I thought this was a small gathering!" Iyelled for the music was very loud.

"It is!" she said excitedly.

"Wasn't it supposed to be a study session?" I yelled again.

"That's what Dylan told me," she replied excitedly again. This was no studying session. This was a party hosted bysome wild college kids.

"Oh lighten up Bella, have some fun once in a while! It won't hurt!" she exclaimed as she ran off with some other guy."Hey Jason!" then she disappeared into the crowd.

I panicked. I tried to look for a phone. I wanted to call Alice and ask her to pick me up. I would walk home, but it wasdark and icy outside. I would get lost, not that it's any worse than this. I walked upstairs into the bedroom and found phone lying on a table. I dialed for her phone numbers. My fingers were shaking, I told myself to calm down. It will albe over when Alice comes.

"Hello?" she answered. Oh Alice! Thank god!

"Alice? Can you come and pick me up?" my voice was hoarse.

"Bella? What happened? Are you okay?" she asked, her voice was alerted. I explained everything to her and gave herthe directions of how to get here. She tried to do the best that she could to calm me down.

"Bella, stay put. I'll be right there," she promised and she hung up.


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I headed out of the bedroom. I walked down stairs and tried to get past all the people on the dance floor. I wouldrather wait outside in the cold than to stay in this death trap. "Bella?" I turned around and saw Chris Parker standingthere, smiling at me. Chris was one of my classmates from Yale.

"Hey Chris," I replied politely.

"Hey." He eyed me from head to toe. It made me utterly uncomfortable.

"You want to dance?' he asked.

"No thank you. I'm on my way home," I replied once again, almost too quickly.

"Aww come on Bella, a dance," he moved toward me as I backed up against the wall. I tried to run away but he caughmy arm.

"Bella, honey, I know you like me. Stop acting like you don't and come on," he pulled me closer as he tried to kiss meon the lips. I pushed him away with all of my strength,

"No Chris! I don't! Back OFF!" I screamed as I struggled against him. He was strong he pulled me closer as he triedto kiss me again

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