benefit of the doubt - by myra a dorsey
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No one ever expects their dream of getting married, buying the perfect house, and profound professional success, to collapse due to one misguided decision and uncontrolled misfortune. However, that's just what happened to Kendal Sweeney. She endured things so horrific, it might push her over the edge. It certainly could end in her ultimate destruction. Will a powerful ancient philosophy and her strong faith and perseverance be enough to save her? Find out. The story, inspired by actual events, takes a look at some of life's toughest lessons and teaches...TRANSCRIPT
BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT
by Myra A. Dorsey
ISBN: 978-1-4685-7408-1 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-4685-7407-4 (hc)
ISBN: 978-1-4685-7409-8 (e)
@ 2012 by Myra A.Dorsey. All rights reserved.
No part of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted by any
means without the written permission of the author.
TABLE OF CONTENTS
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Postlogue ........................................................................................................
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A Kinder Kendall ..............................................
For I Was Hungry .............................................
Meet the Family ................................................
Kick In The Pants .............................................
Down Zion Way ................................................
A Real Date ........................................................
Sea Monkeys ......................................................
Juice ....................................................................
Wheels And Deals ............................................
When The Car’s Away .....................................
Unwilling Volunteers .......................................
Shifting Perspectives .......................................
The Perfect Place .............................................
Juggling Acts ....................................................
The Big Day .......................................................
Protective Custody ..........................................
Sucker Punch ....................................................
How Low Can You Go? ...................................
Daddy’s Wisdom ..............................................
Trials And Tribulations ..................................
Life-Saving Gifts ...............................................
What Comes Around .......................................
Vivian and Calvin Dorsey, the only people I have ever loved unconditionally
For my parents,
Chapter One
A KINDER KENDALL
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I’m the kind of woman who stands out in a crowd, literally. My best feature has always been
my legs; well-muscled, sensually chocolate, and sexy. I’ve had perfect strangers approach me
in public restrooms just to compliment my legs.
I’d like to claim the credit for them. After all, I’ve spent countless hours throughout my twenties,
and thirties, on the soccer field and volleyball court, toning them to perfection. Not to mention,
the great sacrifices I’ve made foregoing supersized fries, extra cheesy pasta, and decadent triple-
layer fudge cake. But, the real credit goes to my parents. Without them, nothing would have been
possible.
I wasn’t prideful about my legs. That would be sinful; rather they were my source of confidence.
They helped define me as me. When I walked down a hall, the stares I got made me feel like a pow-
erful, beautiful, woman. As that person, I was smart and self-assured. I could do anything I set my
mind to, and I usually did. Little did I know a single, misguided decision was just about to cost me
those perfect legs and a hell of a lot more, not once, but twice.
I always wanted to be well-established before I settled down and started a family. About five
years ago, I realized that I had to make a change if I wanted that dream to come true. I had a good
career in marketing, made plenty of money, owned my own condo, and had two cars, but that one
special person in my life was missing.
I’d dated plenty, but no one ever seemed to measure up.
“Kendall Sweeney, what are you waiting for?” asked my cousin and best-friend, Lola. She
pointed the carrot she had been peeling at me like a conductor’s baton, “Ryan is a smoking
hottie. I would be working that hard. That man is fine husband material.”
“I kind of broke up with him,” I mumbled.
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Lola snapped the carrot in half. “You didn’t!”
“He started it,” I said unapologetically. I pulled a pot of potatoes off the stove and slammed it on
the counter. “You should have heard the way he laughed at me when I told him I didn’t want him
drinking any more.”
“How much had he had?” asked Lola.
“It was only his second, but we had a long night ahead of us and I didn’t want him getting plas-
tered.”
“Did you bother to mention that before you left the house?”
I scowled. “He’s a grown man. He should have known better. Besides you should have seen the
way he teased me, calling me a teetotaler. So I told him where to go,” I said dumping the potatoes
in a bowl. “How to get there,” I added, squirting mustard at the offending potatoes like a fire hose.
“And that I’d be more than happy to show him the way,” I blazed, slamming globs of mayonnaise
on the mixture.
Lola gently slid the bowl from my grasp. “Mmm hmm,” she said stirring the potato salad.
“Don’t look at me like that! I can finish those,” I said grabbing for the bowl.
“Oh no you don’t.” She cradled it like a baby. “I like whole chunks of potato in my salad, thank
you very much. What did he do when you cussed him?”
“He left with his friends and I caught a cab home. Who needs him, anyway?” I shrugged and
sank down on a counter stool. “Too bad…I really liked him.”
“Kendall, did you ever stop to think, that you could avoid these unfortunate break-ups, if you
were a little…a little more…” she paused, “you know?”
“What?” I dared her.
Lola rolled her eyes. “You need to give people the benefit of the doubt.”
“I don’t trust anyone until they give me a reason to.”
She sighed. “That’s just it, most people trust others until they’re given a reason not to.”
I snorted. “My way has always worked just fine.”
Lola stopped cooking and looked at me. “Be honest. Has it really?”
I grabbed a carrot and munched on it in thought. This wasn’t the first time, family or friends
had pointed out my seemingly fatal flaw. Their voices echoed in my head as I thought back over
the years:
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“Kendall, you’re much too quick to cut people off.”
“Kendall, you need to have a little more compassion.”
“Kendall, why don’t you put the shoe on the other foot and give people a chance?”
I had a quicksilver smile that charmed perfect strangers, but I was equally swift to light into any-
one who dared look at me wrong. In fact, I was the spitting image of Daddy, a natural born curser.
By the time I was old enough to speak, I knew words that peeled paint off walls. Pity to the person
who did me wrong, I turned on them as soon as I looked at them. The epitaphs that spewed from
my mouth, made them wish they were never born. I didn’t just put people in their place; I crushed
them and dared them to leave. No one messed with me and that’s the way I liked it.
“Maybe it’s time to try a new approach,” said Lola. “Be the change you wish to see in the world
and all that good stuff. You’re too smart and pretty not to have the man of your dreams. If I had
your killer legs and Coke bottle waist, I’d work them big time. Heck, I’d set my sights high on
someone like Denzel Washington or better yet that hottie from Criminal Minds, Shemar Moore.”
I laughed and caught a reflection of myself in the mirror. I was petite, not nearly tall enough to
be one of the angular, super-models, with high cheekbones men of that caliber dated. I was more
the all-American, girl next-door, sweetly pretty, shoulder length brown hair, with shining dark
eyes, and a perfect Crest-white smile. More than one man had told me I possessed something ir-
resistible they couldn’t quite put their finger on. But in the end that’s exactly what they all seemed
to want—to put their fingers, hands and other parts on me, and little else. I was sick of that scene.
I wanted a real man. Someone who stepped up to the plate and delivered a total package, uncondi-
tional love, a soulmate and best friend. If he was cute and good in bed, all the better.
That night in bed, I thought hard about what Lola said. I’d been wondering about it a lot lately.
I closed my eyes and scenes from my ugly break-up with Ryan came flooding back to me. I’d really
blown it.
Am I really a horrible person? I wondered. Am I really that selfish? Do I really only care about
myself?
I’d always pictured the perfect relationship with a man being much like my relationship with my
parents. As an only child, I was the center of their universe and they were mine. Everyone knew
the Sweeneys were like the Three Musketeers. We did everything together, couldn’t wait to be in
each other’s company. Sure we had some knock down drag out fights, but our love for each other
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was unconditional no matter what.
“God,” I whispered into the quiet, darkness of my room. “Do I really have the capacity to love
somebody unconditionally, the way I love Mama and Daddy?”
I’d had several relationships where I thought I might be in love. But when it came right down
to it, if they were trapped in a burning building, I wouldn’t have gone in after them. That couldn’t
possibly reflect well on me.
“Please help me have a more open heart,” I whispered again. “Let me be more compassionate.
Show me how to give others the benefit of the doubt.”
It wasn’t long after that, that Lola dragged Percy Spencer to my doorstep—or at least the idea of
him. Like a cat with her prized catch, she proudly laid her scheme at my feet. Unlike me, she never
could resist a good charity case.
“Who is this guy exactly?” I asked.
“Just someone who came into The Center. He’s trying to get a job right now and I thought you’d
be perfect for him.”
I arched a brow at her, “Perfect for what?”
She laughed. “To help him sell himself. I thought with you being in marketing and all, who better
to get him ready for his interview?”
“Aha…I don’t do charity work, no thank you.”
“I thought you were going to try to be more compassionate?”
I bit my lip. She had me there. “Are you sure it’s just for work?”
She looked at me innocently. “What else would it be?”
I snorted. Lola was notorious for trying to set me up on dates.
She scowled. “It’s not that kind of meeting, I swear.”
“It better not be.”
“Then you’ll do it?” she grinned.
I nodded. “Fine, I’ll help your loser friend.”
“You’re compassion is astounding,” she said placing a card with the date and time of the meeting
in front of me.
“You knew I’d do this!”
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She kissed my cheek. “Contrary to popular belief, Ms. Grinch, I know your heart really isn’t two
sizes too small. Besides, you know you want to, you really, really want to,” she sang as she left.
“He’s probably going to be too cute for his own good,” I grumbled. She knew I was a sucker for
pretty boys. That was something else I was asking God to help with. Pretty boys were nothing but
trouble. I couldn’t help being attracted to those kinds of men, but I figured maybe God could help
me find a happy medium between them and the not-so-cute, blah guys with an extra helping of
boring on the side.
Of course Percy was exactly what I hoped he wouldn’t be; tall, with a rich mocha complexion,
chiseled features, and a smile that could charm killer bees. I picked him out from across the room
at Starbucks. At least Lola’s got good taste, I thought as I walked over to him. “Percy?” I asked.
He held up a hand to silence me, then pointed to the headset, I hadn’t seen in his ear.
Oh no he didn’t, I thought. No one asks for my help, then brushes me off like…I caught myself.
Remember, you’re becoming a kinder, gentler Kendall. Give him a break, you’re five minutes
early.
I smoothed my blouse and motioned to the seat next to Percy.
He nodded and spoke into his headset. “I understand, but that’s not going to be possible. Yes,
I understand. I’ll see what I can do.” He tapped the headset and turned a bright smile on me.
“Sorry about that, I didn’t expect you quite yet. I really appreciate this. Lola says you’re quite the
miracle worker.”
“I don’t know about that, but I do know a few things about marketing.”
“I’m afraid you have your work cut out with me. Can I at least buy you a cup of coffee?”
“Thank you, that would be nice.” I set about spreading a notebook, pens, and folder of interview
tips on the tiny table. He might be good-looking, but I’m not the least attracted to him, I lied to
myself as I arranged my “desk.” I stole a peek at his butt as he waited for my order and inhaled
sharply.
Figures it would have to be nice too, I glowered then folded my hands in front of me and stared
hard at them. Damn Lola! Why was she always putting me in these situations?
“Everything all right?” asked Percy.
I nodded.
“You looked kind of angry with someone just then. I hope it wasn’t me.”
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I flashed him one of my famous smiles. “Sorry, you’re fine. It’s nothing.”
He set a cup of coffee in front of me. “Oh, I almost forgot. I didn’t ask how you took it, so I
brought these too.” He dumped several pink, white, and blue packets of sugar and artificial sweet-
ener in front of me, then pulled mini tubs of cream from his pocket.
“Thanks,” I laughed and selected my favorites. “If you don’t mind me asking, why do you need
my help? You look like someone who can take care of himself.”
He laughed. “Looks can be deceiving. I was in the Marines for a decade. From there, I went
straight into a job I had for the last six years. I’ve never interviewed for anything in my life. The
Commander arranged my civilian position.”
“Sounds like you’ve had it cushy.”
“If you call sleeping out in the rain, living in the desert, and answering to a commanding officer
for everything you do cushy.”
“Sorry, I didn’t mean your military career, just that you’ve been lucky. Most adults have had to
interview at least once by the time they’re…they’re…whatever you are.”
“Thirty-seven.”
“Excuse me?”
“I’m 37. Isn’t that what you wanted to know?”
I felt my cheeks growing warm. “I, no, I was just making an observation.”
“Well, my luck’s run out anyway. I got laid off about five months ago. Haven’t been able to find
anything since. That’s where you come in.”
“I’ll do my best. Let’s start with a resume…”
We talked for almost two hours. By the time we finished, it was dark. He walked me to the park-
ing garage.
“Thanks, this has been very helpful Kendall. I don’t know what I would do without you.”
I took a step back, not sure what to make of him. “No problem, we’ve got a good start. I’m sure
we’ll get a lot more accomplished tomorrow,” I said getting into my car.
“Thanks again,” he wrapped twice on my hood before walking away.
I started the engine and was just about to back out when I caught sight of Percy in my rear view
mirror. He walked back out the street exit. That’s strange, I thought. There were plenty of empty
parking spaces in the lot. I wonder were he parked?
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I eased onto the street and drove in Percy’s direction. He’d pulled the collar of his peacoat up
against the brisk, March wind.
I rolled down my window, “Hey, need a ride?”
He looked over his shoulder and kept walking.
“Percy,” I shouted again. “Do you need a ride?”
He stopped and smiled. “Sorry, I didn’t recognize you. Are you sure? You’ve already helped me
so much tonight. I’d hate to take up any more of your time.”
“No problem,” I said popping the passenger side lock. “Hop in.”
“Thanks,” he said folding himself into the seat next to me. “It’s cold out there.”
“Which way?”
“Just head down North, left on Chicago, then I’ll tell you where to turn.”
“So, where’s your car?”
“It’s kind of a long story,” he said giving me a sideways glance.
“We’ve got a few minutes.”
“It needed a lot of work, so it’s been in the shop for awhile. You need to turn right up here.”
“That’s rough.”
“I’m tough. I’ve been through a lot worse than this.”
“Yes, with sleeping out in the rain and training in the deserts and all,” I quipped.
“Are you making fun of me?” he grinned.
“Maybe a little, He-Man.”
“Oh, He-Man? I see how it is,” he chuckled. “Stop up here.”
I hadn’t realized we’d driven straight into Cabrini-Green. It was easy to forget one of the most
dangerous neighborhoods in Chicago was planted between two of the best. I tried not to react
and said a silent prayer of thanks that I’d driven my Sonata instead of my Lexus. “How’s this?” I
stopped in front of a rundown, red brick, row house.
“Perfect, thanks,” he said and hopped out. Then he leaned back in. “Be sure to lock your doors
after I leave.”
I smiled. “Don’t worry He-Man. I can take care of myself too.”
“I’m sure you can. But lock them anyway.”
“Hey, He-Man, let me know if you need a ride tomorrow.”