covert narcissism: signs of a covert narcissist, ways to protect yourself from their manipulation...
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CovertNarcissism:SignsofaCovertNarcissist,WaystoProtectYourselffromTheirManipulationandHowtoDealWith
TheirNarcissism
LouisaCox
PublishedbyEscapeTheNarcissist,2019.
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Whileeveryprecautionhasbeentakeninthepreparationofthisbook,thepublisherassumesnoresponsibilityforerrorsoromissions,orfordamagesresultingfromtheuseoftheinformationcontainedherein.
COVERTNARCISSISM:SIGNSOFACOVERTNARCISSIST,WAYSTOPROTECTYOURSELFFROMTHEIRMANIPULATIONANDHOWTODEALWITHTHEIRNARCISSISM
Firstedition.February8,2019.
Copyright©2019LouisaCox.
WrittenbyLouisaCox.
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TableofContentsTitlePage
CopyrightPage
CovertNarcissism:SignsofaCovertNarcissist,WaystoProtectYourselfFromTheirManipulationandHowtoDealWithTheirNarcissism
WhatisaCovertNarcissist?TheSixGiveawaySignsofaCovertNarcissist
CanaCovertNarcissistLove?
ConfusingConversationswithaCovertNarcissist
TheEffectsCovertNarcissismHasonYou
SettingBoundariesandInteractingwithaCovertNarcissist
LookingAfterYou-WaystoLeaveaVulnerableNarcissist
AboutthePublisher
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CovertNarcissism:SignsofaCovertNarcissist,WaystoProtectYourselffromTheir
ManipulationandHowtoDealWithTheirNarcissismByLouisaCox
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FORADECADEOFMYlife,Iwastrappedintoxic,manipulativeandconfidence-crushingrelationships.Iusetheword‘trapped’todescribethistime,asI’dbeenconditionedtothinkthatIwasunlovable,stupidandnotworthyofanythinggood.Infact,becausemyabusersmademefeelsodevalued,I’doftenfeelthankfultowardsthemforbeingwithme.Theymademefeelasiftheywereloweringtheirhighstandardstobewithme,andthiscreatedacycleofmeconstantlychasinglove.Thiswas,asyoumayknow,utterlypointless.
Youcan’tmakeanarcissistloveyou.
WhenImetmymostrecentex,hecameacrossasquiet,introvertedandhardworking.Hehadadry,wittysenseofhumorthatwasreservedforonlyafewpeopleclosetohim.Everyoneelsesawhimasprofessionalandpolite,albeitslightlyquiet.Hisseeminglycalmpersonalityandquiet,inappropriatehumordrewmetowardshim,alongwiththeintelligenceheexuberated.Ofcourse,atthistimeIdidn'tseehimforwhathetrulywas:acovertnarcissist.AndhowcouldI?Inthebeginninghewascharming,affectionate,fullofadorationformeandseemedliketheperfectpartner.
ThepersonI’dbeeninarelationshipbeforethiscouldn’thavebeenmoredifferent;hewassadistic,blatantlycruelandwouldhumiliatemewithhisantisocial,aggressivebehavior.Meetingthisnew,quietandintrovertedpersonseemedlikeabreathoffreshairatthetime.Icouldn’tbelievemyluck.Hemanagedtosweepmeoffmyfeetinnotimeatall.
Howeveridealandpicture-perfectthisseemedatthetime,thisisalsohowacovertnarcissistinitiatestheirrelationships.It'susuallyveryintenseinthe
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covertnarcissistinitiatestheirrelationships.It'susuallyveryintenseinthebeginning,veryquickandsomewhatofawhirlwind.That'snottosaythatallromancesthatdevelopquicklyarewithnarcissists,butitshouldserveassomethingofaredflag.Forsomeonelikemewholikestogivethebenefitofthedoubt,andassomeonewhousedtogivemytrustquitefreely,Iwasasittingduckformyex-partner.Iwascompletelydrawninbyhisfacade.
Eventually,themaskdoesslip,andthecovertnarcissistrevealstheirtrueself.Bythispointyou'resoemotionallyinvestedandenamoredbythisperson,nottomentionconfusedbytheirhurtfulbehavior,therelationshipbecomesanamalgamationofupset,uncertaintyandconstantpacificationoftheabuser.
Thefairytalehappy-ever-afterlovestoryyouwerepromisedturnsintosomethingmoresinisterandcovertlytoxicthanyoucouldeverimaginepossible.Soon,thelinesbetweenrealityandfabricationbecomeblurred,yoursenseofselfbecomesdistorted,andyoubecomeashellofyourformerself.Youbecomeengulfedinthenarcissistsblackholeofcloakanddaggerabuse.
InthisbookI'dliketohelpyouunderstandwhatacovertnarcissistis,howtheyexerttheirabuse,theeffectsthishasonyouandwaysyoucanmanagethis.I'dalsoliketoguideyouonsettingboundarieswiththecovertnarcissistandutilizingtechniquestomakesuretheinteractionsyouhavearen’tonesidedorsimplycontrolledbythenarc.Thefinalchapterofthisbookalsoincludesadviceonleavinganarcissist.Evenifthisisn'tsomethingyou'relookingtodo,orifyoucan'tcomprehendthatideaatthemoment,Iwouldstillrecommendreadingitover.Itcouldserveassomehandyinformationforthefuture.
ThemainthingIwantyoutogetoutofthisbookissomeinspiration.Evenifthatinspirationissimplynotacceptingcertainbehaviorsfromthenarcissistorhavingmoretoolsinyourarsenaltocommunicatemoreeffectively,Ihopethisbookgivesyousomegoodtakeawaystoutilize.
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WhatisaCovertNarcissist?TheSixGiveawaySignsofaCovertNarcissist
arcissisticbehaviorisusuallyassociatedwithoverthetop,attention-seekingandmanipulativetraits.Formostpeople,iftheyweretotellyou
whatanarcissistwas,they’dsaytheywereaegotisticalyetcharmingpersonwhothinktheworldrevolvesaroundthem.Whilstthisisn’tincorrect,it’saveryblackandwhiteviewofanarcissistandthebehaviorstheydisplay.There’smorethanonetypeofnarcissist,anddespitethewordbeingverycommonlyusedthesedays,notallnarcissistsconformtoonespecificbehavioralpattern.Narcissismisaverycomplexformofabusethatdoesn’thavea‘onesizefitsall’setofcharacteristics.
Covertnarcissistsareatypeofnarcissistwhodon’tfitthestereotypical,over-the-top,‘lookatme,theworldrevolvesaroundme’personalitythatisusuallyattachedtoanarcissist.Insomeways,covertnarcissismcanbemoredifficulttospotduetotheintrovertedcharacterofthenarcissist.Whilstit’sjustasdangerousasitsextrovertedcounterpart,theintroverted,covertnarcissistisamorehiddenformoftheabuseandthereforeitcanbetrickiertopinpoint.
Themainthingacovertnarcissisthasincommonwithanextrovertedoneisthattheybothusesuperiority(howeversubtleorblatant)tocoveruptheirinternalvulnerability.This,inturn,isalsousedtomaketheirvictimfeelinsecureoroffbalanceaboutthemselvesorthesituation.Whilstsomenarcissistsmayoutrightsay,‘I’mbetterthanyou,soplaybymyrules’,acovertnarcissistwillinsteadstronglyhintatit-theywon’tbedirectaboutit,butyou’llstillfeelthesamedegradationasifthey’dsaiditdirectly.
AsI’vementioned,thereisno‘cutandpaste’setoftraitsforanarcissist,butI’veoutlinedthesevenbehaviorsacovertnarcissistcanexhibitinthischapter.Whilsttheymaynotdisplayallseven,acovertnarcissistwillexhibitsomeofthefollowingthroughoutthecourseoftheirrelationshipwithyou.Youmayfindthatthecovertnarcissistinyourlifedisplaysseveralofthesetraits,oryoumayfindthattheyonlyshowthesebehaviorsfromtimetotime.Regardless,thewaysofbehavingoutlinedhereshouldactasawarning,attheveryleast,andofferyoutheabilitytospotwhenyou’rethevictimofanarcissist.
Smugness
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Smugness
‘Nonearesoemptyasthosewhoarefullofthemselves’
Beingquietlyobservant,judgmentalandshowinggesturesofsuperiorityarecharacteristicsyou’llfindinacovertnarcissist.Theytendtodothiswithanairofsmugness,whichcanleaveyoufeelingbelittled,confusedandoftenlikeyou’resimplynotgoodenough.
Thequieter,stealthysuperioritycomplexshowsitselfviaaloof,detachedbehaviorthatjustexudesnegativityyourway.Theirnonverbalcues,suchassighs,eyerollsandaboredlookontheirfacewhentalkingtoyouwillbetraytheirhalf-heartedattempttoassureyouthatthey’reinterestedinwhatyouhavetosay.Thisreassuranceoftenfeelslikeit’sdesignedtomakeyoufeelevenmoreconfusedbecausetheiractionsarecompletelycontradictingwhatthey’retellingyou.
Whenyou’retalkingortaking‘centerstage’inasocialsetting,orevenifit’sjustyouandthem,theywillofferthisdistantanduninterestedbehavior.However,whenthey’respeaking,youmayfindthataswellastheconversationfocusingonthemandtheirviews,they’llalsoattempttobelittleyouandyouropinion.Theircritical,judgmentalcommentsare,ofcourse,veryhurtfulandhumiliating.
MynarcissisticexwouldalwaysswitchofffrommewhenIwasspeaking,oftenbeingeasilydistractedaswellasactingblatantlyuninterestedinwhatIhadtosay.Anyobservationhewouldmakeduringtheconversationwouldbetousedtojudgeme.Whenhedidlisten,howeverhalf-heartedly,hewouldonlydosotobecriticalandjudgmentalofwhatIhadtosay.
Thissmugsuperiorityservesasafronttomaskthevulnerabilitythenarcissistfeels.Thissmugnesscanfeelimpenetrable,soitcanbeagoodideatoremindyourselfthattheirself-satisfying,superiorfrontisn’tanythingtodowithyou.
Whistit’sdirectedtowardsyou,thecorereasonofthistoxictreatmentofyouisdowntotheirowninsecurityandfearofbeingexposedasvulnerable.I’mnotaskingyoutoremindyourselfofthissoyoucanofferpitytothenarcissist,butrathertohelpyouunderstandthatthishurtfulbehaviordoesn’tstemfromanythingyou’vesaidordone.Theproblemistheirs,notyours.
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HIGHLYSENSITIVE
‘Somepeoplecan’tendurecriticismwithoutresentment’
Communicatingwithacovertnarcissistislikewalkingoneggshells.You’reworriedaboutsayingthewrongthingthatmayupset,offendorannoy.
Covertnarcissiststendtohandlecriticism,orperceivedcriticism,verypoorly.Theydeemnegativefeedbackorconstructivecriticismapersonalattacktowardsthem.Theirreactiontothisisn’talwaysgracefulnorisitfromaplaceofwantingtotakethatconstructivecriticismanduseittoimprove.Instead,theyreactinoneoftwoways:theyeithergethighlydefensive,andusethesmugsuperioritydescribedabovetodismissanyunwantedfeedback,ortheywillsulkilywithdrawfromthesituation.
MyexperiencewithacovertnarcissistensuredthatIdidn’tspeakupwhenhewasdoingsomethingupsetting,orifhewasbehavinginahurtfulwaytowardsme.Iwasafraidofinjuringhisfragileegoanddidn’twanttofacethedireconsequencesofupsettinghim.IwouldevenhavetowatchwhatIsaidineverydayconversation,asseeminglyunimportantthingsIwouldsaywouldendupbotheringhim.
Forexample,onetimeImentionedhowI’dliketovisitanItalianrestaurantthatI’dbeentobeforeandaddedthatthefoodthereisbetterandmuchmoreauthenticthanthelastItalianwe’dtried.Ofcourse,Iregrettedmentioningthisimmediately;myexassumedI’dbeentherewithanotherex-partner,andassuchwentinasilentmood.Hisaloofnessanddisconnectionfrommewashurtful,andIdidn’tunderstandwhatI’dsaidsowronguntilheaskedifIhad‘anyothersuggestionsofplaceswecangothatremindmeofmyex’afewdayslater.Asyoucanimagine,Iwastakenabackbyhiscomments,andhurtbythealoofnesshe’dtreatedmetoforseveraldays.
Typically,acovertnarcissistwon’ttellyououtrightwhatisbotheringthembutwillinsteadlettheircoldbehaviortowardsyouletyouknowsomethingisup.
PassiveAggressiveness
‘Ifyou’resureofyourself,youdon’tneedtobepettyorhurtful’
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Passiveaggressivenessinacovertnarcissistcanbeseenviathenarcissistbecomingangry,hostile,andthey’lloftenofferafakehelpfulnesswithnointentionofeverhelpingyou.Thesepassiveaggressivebehaviorsareexpressedincovertways,whichareusedtogivethenarcissistanunderhandedadvantageoverthesituation.Ifacovertnarcissistfeelsthreatened,they’llusepassiveaggressivebehaviortoensuretheyareincontrolofthesituation.Thesepassiveaggressivetacticsareastealthywaytoexactpunishmentonthosewhodaretohurttheirfragileego.
Withacovertnarcissist,thispassiveaggressionwillofferathinlydisguisedsenseofsuperiority,entitlement,andisainadvertentwaytoshowcasetheirconceitedviewoftheworld.Acovertnarcissistisinclinedtobecomehostileiftheydon'tgettheirownway.Eveniftheirrequestsordemandsareunreasonable,they’lldevisestealthyyetdestructivewaystomakeyoumiserableforhurtingtheirdelicatesenseofentitlement.
I'lloffersomeexamplesofpassiveaggressivenessbelow:
Verbalhostility:Foracovertnarcissist,puttingotherpeopledownmakesthemfeelself-assuredandsuperior.Makingyoufeelinadequateandinsecureaboutyourselfhelpsthenarcissistrelievetheirowninsecuritiesanddeficiencies.Thishelpsthemseekandobtainafalsesenseofimportance,andtheircriticalandhostilewayofspeakingtoyouwillfueltheirnarcissisticfire.
Youmaybeawareofthephrase‘miserylovescompany’,andthiscouldn'tbetruerforacovertnarcissist.Theywill,eitherconsciouslyorunconsciously,spreadtheirmiseryandunhappinesstothoseclosesttothem.
Myex-partnerwouldusehisverbalhostilitytoputmedownatanygivenchance.WhenIcookedhistea,thechickenwouldbetoodry,andhe'dmockmycookingskills.IfIgotapromotionatwork,hewouldaskwhyIhadn'tachievedthissoonerandberatemefornotgettingabigenoughpayrise.IfIhadanideaoraplantotakeupanewhobbyorlearnsomethingnew,hewouldcriticizethis;hewouldmakemefeeldoubtfulthatIwouldhavethecapabilitiestolearnthisnewskillorhobby.
Inanutshellthispassiveaggressiveverbalhostilityfromthenarcissististheirhabitualcriticismofyourideas,experiencesandfeelings.
Hostilehumor:Verythinlyveiledhostilebanterorjokingisoftenfollowedbythephrase‘Iwasjustkidding’or‘can'tyoutakeajoke?’Sarcastic,hostile
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humorofferedfromacovertnarcissististheirwayofexpressingtheirinternalanger,rejectionand/ordisapprovaltowardsyou.
However,withacovertnarcissist,nothingiseverupfront.Insteadofoutrighttellingyouthatthey’refeelingnegativelytowardsyou,they'llusehumorasaseeminglyplayfulwaytomakeyoufeellesscredible,doubtfulandstupid.
Thehiddenintentionsbehindthehumorarequitesinister.Thenarcissistuseshumorasoneoftheirmanyweaponstoberateyoucovertly.Whenthisisdoneinpublicorinfrontofanaudience,especiallywhenthosearoundyoulaughatthenarcissist’scomments,youwillundoubtedlyfeeldiscredited,rejectedanddownrightsilly.
Blaming:Acovertnarcissistwillblameothersfortheirownfailures,irresponsibilityandnegligence.Ifthenarcissistfailsto(orisunwillingto)followreasonablerequests,showprofessionalconductorevenabidebysocialnorms,thisisnevertheirfault;someoneelsewillalwaysgettheblame.
Blamingisaformofgaslighting*,forwhichnarcissistsarerenownedfor.Theintentionbehindtheblamefulbehavioristoavoidanyresponsibilitybymanipulatingthefactsofthesituation.Acovertnarcissistwilldistortyourperceptionofasituationorconversation,thereforemakingiteasiertoplaceblameelsewhere.Oftenthecovertnarcissistwillmisdirecttheblameontoyou,thustakingthefocusofftherealissueathand:theirownfailuresandbadbehavior.
Assomeonewhospentalmostadecadeinnarcissistic,abusiverelationships,Ifelttheheavyburdenofblameonmyshouldersquitefrequently.Forexample,ifmyexwentoutdrinkinganddidn'treturnuntilthenextday,thiswouldbemyfaultforstressinghimouttothepointhedidn'twanttocomehome.Ifmyexdidn'tsuccessfullygetthejobheappliedfor,thiswouldbemyfaultfornotsupportinghimenoughandhelpinghimsucceed.Ifhewaslateforwork,thiswouldbemyfaultfornotwakinghimupearlier.Icouldgoonandon,butIsuspectyougetthepoint.It'sverylikely,sinceyou'rereadingthisbook,thatyou'realsosusceptibletohavingblameheapedonyoufromthenarcissistinyourlife.
CovertSabotage:Covertsabotageisthenarcissist’swayofsneakilyadministeringtheirpunishmentonyouinaverydisguisedway.
Examplesofthiscouldbethenarcissistdeliberatelydisclosinghurtfulandharmfulinformation,ordeliberatelyobstructinganypositiveendeavorsor
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harmfulinformation,ordeliberatelyobstructinganypositiveendeavorsorcommunications.Otherexamplescouldbethenarcissistdeliberatelyundermininganyagreementsyou'vemadewiththem.Thenarcissistcouldalsopurposelyoverspendyouragreedbudget,thiscausingyoufinancialdifficulty-butofcourse,you’dbethepersonwhowashandedtheblameforthis.
Theseexamplesareawayofsummarizingthecovertnarcissistsintentions:topunishyou.
Theabovedescriptionsofpassiveaggressivebehaviorareallwaysforthenarcissisttomanipulateandassertcontroloveryourrelationship.Passiveaggressioncanbeseeninvariousway,notallofthemsoobvious.Becauseofthis,it’simportanttoalwaystrytobeawareofanyfalsehoodsyourpartneristryingtoconvinceyouof,andtoensurethatblamefulbehaviorfromthecovertnarcissistismetwithassertiveawarenessofthetruefactsofthesituation.
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*GASLIGHTINGDEFINITION:tomanipulatesomeonebypsychologicalmeansintodoubtingtheirownsanity.
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LACKOFEMPATHY
“Onedoesn’thavetooperatewithgreatmalicetodogreatharm.Theabsenceofempathyandunderstandingaresufficient”
Adistinctlackofempathyisatraitthecovertnarcissistshareswithanextrovertednarcissist.Bothtypesofnarcissistaresoself-absorbedandself-servingthattheyaredismissiveofotherpeople'sfeelings.Often,theirapparentdismissivenessofyourthoughtsandfeelingsisinfacttheircompleteobliviousnesstoyourfeelings.
Frustratingly,evenwhenyoutellthenarcissistthattheirbehaviororattitudeisupsettingyou,orthatit’llresultindireconsequences,theirresponsewilloftenberevertedtobeaboutthem.Yourneeds,wants,thoughtsandfeelingsaren’tthenarcissist’smainpriority.
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Forexample,IrecallbeingsopoorlywithfoodpoisoningthatIwasunabletoattendapre-bookedmealwithmyex.Atthetime,Iwasbedriddenandthethoughtofanyfoodpassingmylipsmademewanttovomit.Insteadofbeingconcernedaboutmywellbeing,myexwasmoreconcernedaboutlosingthedeposithehadplaceddowninordertosecureourreservation.AsIwaslyinginbed,visiblyverysick,myexstoodabovemeaskingme‘Itakeityou'renotbotheredaboutthe£50I'velostwiththedeposit?’,andgettingflusteredthathehadtocalltherestauranttocancel.
Eveninmyhazystate,Iwasmostapologetictomyexandofferedtoreimbursehimthe£50helost,towhichheaccepted.
‘I’mSpecial’Complex
“Self-importanceishumanity'sgreatestenemy”
Acovertnarcissist,althoughintroverted,canstillhavea‘specialperson’complex.Theymayheavilyhinttowardsbeingmisunderstood,almostlikethey'resoevolvednobodycanunderstandtheirgeniusoruniqueness.This‘specialperson’complexcanbesomethingthecovertnarcissistusesasa‘woeisme’story:theymayclaimtheyfeelisolatedandmisunderstoodbecausethey'resoone-of-a-kindthatnobodycanpossiblyunderstandthem.
‘I'msoheadofmytime’,wassomethingmyex-partnerusedtosayfrequently.Itwasoneofhiscovertnarcissisticstatementsthatwouldshowcasehisquietsuperiorityanduniqueness.Hiscovertbeliefthathewasanundiscoveredgeniuswasthesuperficialwayofreassuringhimselfofhisownimportance.
Ofcourse,thiscomplexisjustanotherwayforthenarcissisttoburyhisvulnerableandfearfultrueself.
ImpersonalRelationships
“Narcissistsseeothersasimpersonalobjectstobemanipulatedfortheirowngain”
Covertnarcissistsaredeeplyinsecureabouttheirinabilitytoconnectwithpeopleinameaningfulway.Someofthebehaviorsandcharacteristicsofanarcissistareputinplacetoactasadefensemechanismtokeeppeopleawayoratadistance.Thereasonthattheywanttodothisistoavoidbeingexposedfortheirinterpersonalinadequaciesandhidetheirincapabilitytoforgedeeprelationshipswithothers.
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relationshipswithothers.
Itcanbefoundthatsomecovertnarcissists,duetotheiroften-introvertednature,willfocusonworkorhobbiesthatrequirelesshumaninteraction,forexamplevideogames,booksandfilms.Theirjobscanoftenalsoreflecttheirlackofinterpersonalskills,althoughthisisn’talwaysthecase.
Whilstacovertnarcissistcanhavefriends,it'softenseenthatthistypeofnarcissistdoesn'tformdeepfriendships,andtheyfinditeasiertocutpeopleoutoftheirlifewithoutanyrealregard.Acovertnarcissistwilloftenhavefriendsthattheyonlyconnectwithonasurfacelevel,andanythingmorethanthatwouldputthenarcissisticindangerofbeing‘exposed’.
Self-Absorbed
“Ifyouliveyourlifeasifeverythingisaboutyou,you’llbeleftwithjustthat:justyou”
Self-centerednessandself-absorptionareverycommoncharacteristicsofacovertnarcissist.Theseintrovertednarcissistsareverypoorlisteners,andassuchformquickopinionsonpeopleandsituations.
Quietpeoplearewidelyassumedtobegoodlisteners,althoughforacovertnarcissistthisisn'tthecase;theoppositeistrue.Becauseoftheirself-absorption,theyoftenfindthingsthataren'taboutthem(orthingsthatwilldirectlyaffectthem)uninterestingandunworthyoftheirattention.
It'sironictothinkthatsuchself-absorbedpeople,likethecovertnarcissist,alsolacktheself-awarenessthattherestofuspossess.Whilstwearefortunatetobeabletohavetheabilitytoreflectonouractionsandbehavior,thenarcissistisunable(orunwillingalotofcases),tofullyrecognizejusthowself-absorbedtheyare.
Mostofusareabletorecognizethenuancesofsituationsandunderstandthatnoteverythingcanalwaysgoourway.However,covertnarcissistsgenerallyonlyfocusontheirwantsand,selfishly,whattheydeemtobeagreeable.Anythingelseisuninterestingtothemorawasteoftime.
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HOPEFULLYTHEABOVEexplanationshavehelpedyouunderstandwhatacovertnarcissistis,andnowyouhavesomeideaofthebehaviorsandcharacteristicsthatoutlinethistypeofnarcissist.Whilstthisishelpfulinunderstandingthistypeofabuse,actuallypinpointingwhenyou’rethevictimofanarcissistcanbequitehardtodo,especiallywithoutanyguidance.
It'simportanttorememberthatthecovertnarcissistispossiblythehardesttypeofabusetospot.Generally,theylookforhighlyempatheticpeople,whowilllistentotheirsobstoriesandgivethenarcissistthebenefitofthedoubt.Oncethevictimthenbeginstofeelasenseofresponsibilityfortheirnarcissisticpartner,that'swhentheabuserknowsthattheyhavethemreeledinandthenampsuptheirabuseintherelationship.
Thevictimisthentrappedinthisabusivecycle.Overtime,thecovertnarcissistwillmakethevictimquestiontheirperceptionofreality,doubtthemselvesandmakethemacceptblamereadily.Becauseofthis,thenarcissisthasensuredthattheywon'tbeheldaccountablefortheirbehaviorbythevictim.
Aswithallnarcissists,covertnarcissistsdohaveapredictablepatternofbehaviorwhenitcomestoromanticpartners.Inthebeginning,theymayappeartoidealizetheirpartner.Thisactsasbaitforthevictim.Oncethevictimishookedin,thenarcissistwillthendevaluetheirpartner,and(asyousadlymaybealltooaware),thisthencausesthevictimtochasetheloveandadorationtheyreceivedfromtheirabuserpreviously.
Thevictimisunawarethatthisdevaluationfromtheabuserisdonewithsinisterandpurposefulintent.Afterthis,thenarcissistwillthendiscardtheirpartner.
Thecovertnarcissistmayappearasacalm,quietandpolitepersontomostpeople.However,whenyou'reinarelationshipwithone,they’reoftencold,distantabusiveanddemeaning.JekyllandHydecanbeagoodwayofdescribingtheirpersonalityandtreatmentofyou.
Often,acovertnarcissistisseeminglyquietandcanusuallybedescribedasbeingmeekandinoffensivebymostpeople,butbehindcloseddoorsitcanbeaverydifferentstory.Theythriveoftheirpartnersfailuresandupset.It'snotanuncommongameforacovertnarcissisttosetyouupforfailureorupset.Thecrazy-makingthingaboutthisisthatthenarcissistwillthenpunishyoufortheaforementionedfailure.Introvertednarcissistsarealsorenownedformakingemptypromises,withouteverhavinganyintentionofdelivering.Theywillthengetatwistedkickoutofyourreactionwhentheyfailtodeliver,oftenmaking
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getatwistedkickoutofyourreactionwhentheyfailtodeliver,oftenmakingthemselveslooklikethevictim,andmakingyoulookunreasonableandselfishwithunbearableexpectations.
Ahurtfulandfrustratingaspecttothisbehaviorofmakingpromiseswithoutdeliveringiswhenthenarcissistwilldenyevermakingthatpromiseinthefirstplace.Thisgaslightingbehaviorcanoftenmakeyouthinkyou'relosingyourmind,andmakeyouquestionyourperceptionofreality.Thisisknownas‘percepticide*’.
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THEBESTWAYTODESCRIBEacovertnarcissistsinternalfeelingswouldbe‘conflicted’.Whilstthenarcissistwantstobeworshippedandadored,andtheydothinkquitealotaboutthemselves,theyarealsoincrediblyinsecureaboutthemselves.Thisinternalconflictcreatestheunbalanced,manipulativeandwillfulconfidence-suckerthatisthecovertnarcissist.
Foralongtime,IaskedmyselfwhyIevergotinvolvedwithsomeonewhohadallofthesetraits.Foranevenlongertime,thosearoundmewouldaskmewhyIwasstillwiththisperson,andwhatIwasthinkingofbynotsimplywalkingaway.Ofcourse,youandIbothknowthatit'smuchmorecomplicatedthanthat.Covertnarcissistsareveryskilledatdrawingusinwiththeirsobstories.They’rehighlypracticedandadeptatfindingtherightvictim,andthesevictimsareoftenpeoplewhoofferlotofempathyandkindness.
I'mahighlyempatheticperson,andifyou’resomeonewhoisorhasbeeninanarcissisticrelationship,I'mgoingtogooutonalimbandguessthatyouaretoo.Thisisbecausethenarcissistwillseeourcompassionate,forgivingandempatheticnatureasaweakness,anduseittotheirwickedadvantage.
Acovertnarcissistessentiallywormstheirwayintoyourheart.theydothiswithtalesofmisfortuneandwoe.Forexample,they’llsaytheirexmistreatedthem,
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talesofmisfortuneandwoe.Forexample,they’llsaytheirexmistreatedthem,previousrelationshipsweren'tkindtothemorthattheirfriendsbackstabbedthem.Thenarcissistmayalsoofferastoryofanabusivechildhoodwhichstillcausesthemagreatdealofpain.Spinningtalessuchasthiswillcertainlytriggerushighlyempatheticpeopletofeelsorryforthenarcissist,andweeventuallydevelopasenseofresponsibilityforthem.Aswellasfeelingsorryforthem,duetoour‘benefitofthedoubt’nature,wealsofeeltiedtotheirunfulfilledpotential.
Inmycase,mynarcissisticexmanipulatedmyempathyinwaysthatwerehardtoignore.Hewouldoftenthreatensuicide,orsomeformofself-destructivebehavior,thatwouldmakeitimpossibleformetosimplywalkaway.ThismeantIwasconditionedintoasenseoffear,aswellasanaccountabilityforthewellbeingofmypartner.Thisheavyburdenwasoffsetwiththeassurancethathe'd‘neverfeltthiswayaboutanybodybefore’.NowIknowthiswasjustanotherstatement,notfromtheheart,butratheramanipulativestatementthatensuredIwasresponsiblefortakingcareofhim.YetanotherformofmanipulationthatalsoensuredIbecameisolatedfromfamilyandfriends.
Frustratingly,covertnarcissistsliketoensurethattheiremotionsandfeelingsareparamount,buttheirvictim’sfeelingsandneedsupfordispute.Evenifyou'vebeenthroughsomedifficulttimesandhadsomehorriblethingshappentoyouinyourlife,nothingthatyou'vebeenthroughwillevencompetewithwhatthecovertnarcissisthasbeenthrough;thedeathofoneoftheirfamilymemberswhoalwayshavehitthemharderthanthedeathofoneofyourfamilymembers.Theirexperienceofanillnesswillalwaysbemorepainfulandtraumaticthanyours.
Anythingthatlookstothreatenacovertnarcissistssuperiorityisseenasadirectattacktowardsthem.Thisleadsthemtohavingaveryhighcontemptforotherpeople,andit'salsowhatensurestheirconstantneedtobesuperiortoeveryoneelse.Forexample,myexcouldn'tcontainhisjealousyaboutanyonewhowasabovehiminanyway,particularlyfinancially.Thosewhohadbettercareers,cars,houses,watchesorholidaysweredismissedasbeing‘privileged’,‘fromarichfamily’orsimply‘undeserving’.
Thisjealousinsecurityalsomeansthecovertnarcissistwilltellliesabouttheirpast.Fromthebeautifulgirlfriendsthattheydumped,thejobopportunitiestheychosetoturndown,theexoticplacesthatthey'vebeenonholidayandthesportstheyusedtobeprofessionalatbeforeaninjuryretiredthem-thenarcissistusesthesefibstoensurethatnobodyovershadowsthem.
Iunderstandit'seasiertospotacovertnarcissistwiththeabilityofhindsight,
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Iunderstandit'seasiertospotacovertnarcissistwiththeabilityofhindsight,howeverhopefullytheabovetraitsandcharacteristicsofthistypeofnarcissistwillhelpyouidentifyifyou'reinarelationshipwithone.Whenyou'reinarelationshipwithsomebodylikethis,itcanbehardtoadmittoyourselfthatyouareinfactthevictim.
Theword‘victim’wassomethingIstruggledwithforquitesometime,asithadimplicationsofmebeingweakandvulnerable.However,ittakesgreatstrengthtocometotermswiththefactthatthisiswhatthecovertnarcissistturnedyouinto,andtheworddoesn'tdefineyouasapersonbutrathershowstheimpactandramificationsarelationshipwithanarcissistcanhave.
Withtheacceptancethatyouareinanabusiverelationshipcomesandundeniablepower:thispowershouldbeusedtoarmyourselfwiththementaltoolstodealwithanarcissist,healtherelationshipyouhavewithyourself,andinalotofcasesmoveonfromthetoxicrelationship.
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WCanaCovertNarcissistLove?
henIfirstcametotermswithbeinginanarcissisticrelationship,myfirstthoughtswerescrambled,panickedanddesperateonesthat
focusedonthehopethatanarcissistcaninfactlove.ThethoughtthatI'dbeeninarelationshipwithsomeoneIadored,yettheywouldneverbeabletooffermethesameinreturn,washeartbreaking.Iscouredtheinternetlookingforwebsites,blogs,books...anythingthatwouldoffermesomecomfortandletmeknowthatnarcissistcanindeedloveanotherperson.
Ofcourse,thisisaverydifficultquestiontoanswer,andvarioussourcesgivevaryinganswers.Somepeoplebelievethatanarcissistcannevertrulyloveanyonebutthemselves.Othersbelievethatwiththerapyandsomeself-developmentwork,thenarcissistcanlearntofallinlove,andthattheyareindeedcapableoftruelove.
Toanswerthisquestion,Iinitiallyonlyhadmyownexperiencewithacovertnarcissisttogooff.IfIweretoanswerthisquestionbasedsolelyonmyownexperience,Iwouldhavetosaythatacovertnarcissistisn'tcapableofgenuine,selflesslove.Iwouldhavestatedthattheyseekoutadmiration,adorationandconstantlove,andtheyareincapableofofferingthesameback.
However,asIknownarcissismisn'tasblackandwhiteasthat,Ididsomeresearchonthis,andIdidfindsomepeoplewhowereabletogivemeamorefullyformedviewoftheanswertothiscomplexquestion.Iwilloffertheirstoriesandexperienceslateronthischapter,buttobeginwithIwillrelaymyownexperiencesthathelpedshapemyopiniononthistopic.
Anarcissistcanbehaveinwaysthatmakesitseemliketheyloveyou.Anarcissistcanofferwordsandgesturesoflove,andIdothinkthatnarcissistcanactuallythinkitslove.However,abetterwordforthiswouldbeentanglement.Ifyou’reinarelationshipwithanarcissistIdon'tbelieveyou’reunconditionallyloved,butratherentangledintheirfacadeoflove.
Inthisunusualrelationship,itcanbehardtoidentifywhat'shappeningtoyou.Iusethewordentanglementpurposefully,asthecovertnarcissistviewsyouasanextensionofthemselves.You’resnaredbythenarcissistandentangledinthecomplexrelationship.Whilstmostpeopleenterarelationshipandcanretaintheirindividuality,thecovertnarcissistisalmostunawarethatyouexistasyour
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theirindividuality,thecovertnarcissistisalmostunawarethatyouexistasyourownentity.Ahealthyrelationshipseestwoseparateindividualsmergetoconnect,whilststillretainingtheirindividuality.Opinions,beliefs,desires,needsandwantsarealltakenintoconsiderationequallybybothpartiesinahealthyrelationship.That’swhatloveis.
Unfortunately,thisisakeyingredientmissingfromarelationshipwithacovertnarcissist.
WhenIbegansearchingforotherpeople'sviewsandexperiencesonthistopic,Iwasluckyenoughtomeetanumberofindividualsonlinewhohadbeenthrough,orweregoingthrough,anabusiverelationship.Theywerehappytohearmyviewonthisquestion,andIwasthankfultoheartheirdifferingopiniononthissubjecttoo.Whilstwemaynotagreeontheanswertothisquestion,weallagreedthatitwasaverycomplexquestionthathadanumberofvariablesthatwouldn'tallowforoneclear-cutansweranyway.
I’vechangedthenamesofthepeoplewhowerekindenoughtooffertheiropiniononthisquestion.
ImetCarolineinanarcissismFacebookgroup.Carolinebelievesthatacovertnarcissistisverymuchcapableoflove.HereisherreplywhenIaskedherthisverycomplexquestion:
Ofcourse,acovertnarcissistcanfallinlove.Peopletendtomakeassumptionsandformincorrectopinionsaboutcovertnarcissists,justbecausethey'veneverhadtheopportunity(orthoughtabouttrying)toseetheworldthroughtheireyes.I'minarelationshipwithanarcissistandI'mconfidentthatIamloved.It’sadifferentkindoflovethanyouseeinthemovies,andit'sadifferentkindoflovethatmostpeopleprobablyreceive.
Ifyouthinkanarcissistcan'tlovethenyou'reassumingthattheycan'tgive,whichIcantellyouisn'ttrue.
Ibelievenarcissistsarecapableoflovingyoubecausetheyarecapableoflovingthemselves,thereforetheyarecapableoflove.Idobelievetheyfallinlovewhentheybelievetheyhavefounda‘catch’:someonewhoisdeservingenoughtobeinarelationshipwiththem.Theydohaveverybigegos,sotheywantsomeonevaluableenoughtocomplimentthat.
Iunderstandit'sprobablymoredifficultformetokeepmypartnerinterested;IdoneedtoensurethatImaintainmylevelsofself-care,socialstatusandjobin
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doneedtoensurethatImaintainmylevelsofself-care,socialstatusandjobinorderforhimtoremainsatisfied,butthisdoesn'tmeanhelovesmeanyless,ordoesn'tlovemeatall.It'ssimplyanotherkindoflove.BecauseI'mawareofhisnarcissism,Iaminalessvulnerableposition,andtherearethingsIcandoinordertoensuremyneedsarealsogettingthatmyneedsarealsogettingmet.
WhilstCarolineandIagreetodisagreeonherthoughtsaboutanarcissistbeingabletolove,shedidmakeapointthatresonatedwithme:thattheycanlovethemselves,sowhynotanyoneelse?Whilsttheirself-loveisbornfrominsecurityandafearofbeingunmaskedasafraud,it’sstillaformoflove,albeitanunhealthyone.
Whenresearchingthisquestion,IwasadamantIwantedtogetasmanyviewpointsonitasIcould,tohelpmeformasbestananswerasIcould.Isoughtoutthehelpfromforums,Facebookgroups,andevenconnectedtopeopleviatheirwebsites.Manywerehappytodiscussthistopicwithme,including,tomysurprise,aself-confessedcovertnarcissist.MarkreachedoutviaFacebookonceheheardIwasseekingsomestories,opinionsandideasaboutthissubject,andwashappytoofferhisowntakeonthis.
Here’shisreplytothequestion:
Iabsolutelythinkthatnarcissistscanfallinlove.Ifellinlovewiththemotherofmychildrenoveradecadeago.
ItjustsohappensthatIalsofellinloveweirdabouthalfadozenotherwomenduringthecourseofourtwelve-yearrelationship.Myphilanderingbehavior,ofcourse,hurtmanypeople,notleastmyex.However,thataside,Icanattesttothefactthatanarcissistcanfallinlove.Abittooreadilyinmycase,butstill.
Forthosewhoarewillingtojudgemeformydiscretionsandblamemynarcissismformybehavior,I'dliketopointoutthatmeandthemotherofmychildrenarenowgreatfriends.AndIcanhonestlysaythatIstillloveher,althoughit'sadifferentkindoflovethesedays.Ialsostillloveacoupleofmyexes.It'snotalovethatgrowsmoreeveryday,butratheraretrospectiveloveofthepeopleIwaswithatthetime.Itdoesn’tbothermethatthesewomenhavemovedonwiththeirlives.IcanhonestlysayeachandeveryrelationshipIhad,althoughIdidn'talwaystreatthemthewayIshouldhave,wasmeaningfultome.
Mark,nowinhis40’swithtwoteenagechildren,seemslikehehasagrasponhisnarcissisticbehavior,andunderstandsandacceptsthepainhe’scaused.However,hisreplywasn’tenoughtoconvincemethatacovertnarcissistcanfallinlove.
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inlove.
Thereweremorepeoplewhosharedmyopinionthatanarcissistcan’tgenuinelylovetheirspouse(atleastuntilallnarcissisticbehaviorhasbeenaddressedandrelinquished,withthehelpoftherapy),thanthosewhothoughtthattheyarecapableoflove.
Kerry,whogotintouchviasocialmedia,hadsomestrongopinionswhenitcametoanarcissistabilitytolove.Shewasinanabusive,narcissisticrelationshipforsixyears,andaftergoingno-contact*lastyear,she’srebuildingherconfidenceandself-esteem.Here’swhatshethinks:
No,anarcissistcannotloveatallinthewaytrueloveshouldbe.Trueloveisnotdevaluing,abusive,objectifying,manipulative,selfishorfullofpassiveaggressiveness.It'snotdehumanizing,withtheintenttohurtorharmyourpartner.Anarcissistcanonlyoffershallowandcruellovethatisconditional-soifyoudon’tmeetthoseconditions,it’sgone.Ican'tbelievethisisevenaquestion.
Anarcissist,despiteanyfakeaffectionandemptywords,isincapableofthegenuinebondthat'srequiredwhenfallinginlove.Anarcissistandlovearemilesapartfromeachother,andIamfindingitdifficulttocomprehendwhytheyarebeingusedinthesamesentence.
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IALSOSPOKETOEVE,whowasfirmlyoftheopinionthatnarcissistwillneverhavethecapabilitiestolovecompletely.Sheisnowinahealthylongtermrelationshipandhasayoungchild,butstillhasissueswiththewayher
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narcissisticextreatedher,andassuchhassometrustissuesthatshe’sworkingon.Here’shertakeonthisquestion:
Absolutelynot.Anarcissistcanlovesomeonesomewhat,butthatsoondisappearsoncethenoveltywearsoff.Insteadofbreakingitoffwiththeirsufferingpartner,theychoosetobeunfaithful.Theywon'tleavetheirvictimuntiltheyfindsomeonemoresuitableor‘better’whowillbelievetheirliesandmanipulation.
Covertnarcissists,fromwhatI’vefound,tendtohavequiteshortrelationshipsbutalonglistofinfidelities.
IalsoreceivedamessagefromPaula,whohashadatoughtimewithhernarcissisticboyfriend,andshe’shopingtherapyandhersupportwillhelphimfindtheabilitytogenuinelyofferlove:
I’llgivealittlebackstorytomysituation:Ihaveknownmynarcissisticboyfriendfor16years.We'vebeenonandoffagainthroughoutthistime,startingoutasfriendsinitially,thenmovingontoa‘nostrings’typeofrelationship.Soonafterthatheintroducedmetodrugs.ThisensuredthatIlosteverything:friends,familyandmyjob,allinthespaceoftenmonths.
WhilstIwasatrockbottom,mynarcissisticboyfriendleftmeoutoftheblue.Ihadnochoicebuttopickupthepieces,ashardasitwastodo,andItriedtorebuildmylifewithouthim.Ididmanagetosomehowclawmywaybackupandkickthehabitsheintroducedmeto,buthissuddenleavingdidleavemequiteemotionallyscarred.
Aboutayearandahalflater,hesuddenlyreappearedintomylifeandIcouldn'thelpbutgetclosetohimonceagain.Ofcourse,therewasaverylittletrustonmypart,butIcouldn'thelpmyselfgettinginvolvedagain.Hehadgirlsleft,rightandcenter,andalthoughitwasbreakingmeknowingthis,Icouldn'tbeartobewithouthimagain.Thestrawthatbrokethecamel'sbackwaswhenmyfatherpassedawaythreeyearsago.Icouldn’tdealwiththataswellasmyboyfriend’shorribletreatmentofme.Icompletelybrokedown.
Icollapsedemotionally,physicallyandmentally.Itwasonlywhenmyboyfriendseenmeinmypitiful,lowebb,thathecouldrecognizeexactlyhowhisbehaviorhadaffectedme.Hiswordswere‘amIthathorribleofaperson?’
Thedarkesttimeofmylifealsoturnedintothemostlife-changingtimeofmylife.Myboyfriendfinallyseenhowhisnarcissisticbehaviorhadaffectedmeand
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life.Myboyfriendfinallyseenhowhisnarcissisticbehaviorhadaffectedmeanditsparkedchangeinhim.Although,ofcourse,isstilldisplaysnarcissistictendencies,justthefactthatheisnowawarehowthisaffectsmeisastepintherightdirection.
Heagreedtogototherapywithme,wherehewasalsodiagnosedwithpartialnarcissism,andourtherapysessionsreallydoseemtobehavingapositiveimpactonmyboyfriend.I'lladmitthereisnocurefornarcissism,anditisadailystruggle,butthesetherapysessionsandmyboyfriend'sacknowledgementofhisillnesshavegonealongwayinshowingmethatanarcissistcanlove.Soyes,Idothinktheycanlove.
Asyoucansee,differentpeoplehavedifferentanswersdependingontheirexperiences.However,whenIdidaskthisquestioninitially,theanswerwasaresounding‘no’.Iwantedtodigalittledeeperandfindoutthereasonwhymostofusbelieveanarcissistcan'tlove.Whilststudyingtheanswertothisquestion,Ifoundsomeresearchpapersdedicatedtothistopic.I'llcondensethefindingsofthesepapersbelow:
Thefindingsagreedthatnarcissistsshowpassionintheveryearlyofbeginningstagesofdating.However,thispassionisalwaysdirectedtowardstheirownexpectationsandfantasiesinregardtotherelationship.Thelove,therefore,isnotofanotherperson,butdirectedtowardsthenarcissistthemselves.
Arelationshipwithanarcissistprovidesthemwiththepositiveattention,sexualsatisfactionandtheboosttotheirself-esteemandegothattheyneed.Inshort,anarcissistviewsandtreatsarelationshipastransactional.
Thefindingsalsonotedthatnarcissistlosesinterestintheirpartnerastheexpectationofintimacyincreasesfromtheirspouse.Whilstinahealthyrelationship,anincreasedexpectationofintimacyisthenormastherelationshipprogresses,thisissomethingthatcausesthenarcissisttobecomeuninterested.Manynarcissistshaveissueswhensustainingarelationshipmorethansixmonthstoacoupleofyears.Theirpriorityisn'tintimacy,butratherpower,andaneedtodisguiseanyvulnerabilityontheirpart.Thistiesinwiththeirneedtobesuperiortoothers,includingthepersonthey’reinarelationshipwith.
Inorderforanarcissisttogettheirneedsmet,theyliketokeeptheiroptionsopen,whichcanseethemdatingmultiplepeopleatonceorcheatingontheircurrentspouse.Quiteoften,thiscanleadtoaverysuddenandunexpectedbreakup,whichleavesthevictimofthenarcissistbewilderedbytheirsuddenchangeoffeelings.Anarcissistcanquiteeasilyprofesstheirloveonedayandexitfrom
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offeelings.Anarcissistcanquiteeasilyprofesstheirloveonedayandexitfromtherelationshipthenext.Ofcourse,thevictimthenfeelshighlybetrayed,confused,discardedandcrushedbytheirnarcissisticpartnersbehavior.
Narcissistscanbequitepragmaticintheirapproachtorelationships.Theyseerelationshipsasawayofachievinggoals.Whilsttheymayalsodevelopsomepositivefeelingsfortheirspouse,thisismoreonafriendshiporsharedinterests’basis.Astherelationshipgoeson,thenarcissistdoesn'thavetheneedormotivationtomaintaintheirfacade,andtheyutilizetheirdefensesinordertopreventtheirpartnergettinganycloser.Thiswillseethenarcissistdisplayingangry,criticalandcoldbehavior,especiallyiftheirpartnerchallengesthemormakesanyrequestsforthemtochangetheirbehavior.
Afteranarcissisthasdevaluedtheirpartner,thistriggerstheneedforthemtogoandlookelsewhereinorderforthemtopropuptheegotisticalneeds.Theyneedsomemorenarcissisticsupply*andwillnowlookelsewheretogetit.
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*NARCISSISTICSUPPLYDEFINITION:Narcissisticsupplyisawaytodescribeatypeofadmiration,interpersonalsupportorsustenancedrawnbyanindividualfromtheirenvironmentandessentialtotheirself-esteem.
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LOVEREQUIRESCOMPASSION,acceptance,respect,attentionandsupport,andagenuinecaringforthepersonwearewith.Italsorequiresustoreallywanttounderstandourspouse,andthisissomethingthatnarcissistsaren'treallymotivatedtodo.Peoplewhoareinlovewithanarcissistastarvedofmanyofthebasicexpressionsoflove.
Intheaforementionedresearchpaper,itendedwithastatementthatsuggestedthequestion‘cananarcissistlove’isawrongquestiontobeasking.Thepapersuggestedthatinsteadofaskingyourselfthisquestion,whichisdetrimentaltothenarcissist,askyourselfwhetheryoufeelcaredfor,valuedandrespected,andevaluatehowyourneedsarebeingmet.Inanutshell,thispapersuggestedthatyoulookathowtherelationshipisaffectingyouandyouresteemandfocusonthisprobleminstead.
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Thisquestionisopenended,andit’ssomethingthatweallofferavariedordifferentanswerfor,basedonourownexperience.ThereisonethingIdidagreewith,however,anditwasthesummaryoftheresearchpaper:tofocusonyourselfandyourneeds,asthisissomethingthatiswellwithinyourcontrol.
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ConfusingConversationswithaCovertNarcissist
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WEBOTHKNOWTHATBEINGinarelationshipwithacovertnarcissistmeansthatweencounterquitealotofmanipulativecommunicationfromthem.Itcanbequitedifficulttocommunicatewithacovertnarcissist,becausemuchofthetimewefindourselvestryingtofigureouthowtoeffectivelyconversewiththem,aswellastryingtodeciphertheirtrueintentions,whichcandifferfromwhattheyactuallytellingus.
You'reprobablyalltooawareofthepainstakinglengthswehavetogotototryandgetourpartnertounderstandwherewe’recomingfrom.Often,it'sjustsodifficulttogetthemtounderstandthatwhatthey'resaying,orsometimeswhatthey'renotsaying,canbeextremelyhurtful.Conversationswithacovertnarcissistcanoftenseemquiteone-sided,andthislackofbalanceintherelationshipcanbefrustratingtosaytheleast.
InthischapterI'mgoingtogiveyousome(probablyveryfamiliar)covertnarcissist‘speak’,andhelpyouunderstandwhattheirtrueintentionsarebehindthisnarcissisticwayofcommunicating.Thenarcissistic‘speak’I'mgoingtodiscussisdesignedtostripyouofyoursanity,confuseyouandgetyoutoquestionyourownrecollectionofevents.AlotofthecommunicationI'mgoingtooutlinebelowcanhappenwhenyoudaretoconfrontthenarcissistabouttheirbehavior;theexamplesinthischapteristhecovertnarcissistswayofgaslighting,althoughit'sworthrememberingthatthenarcissistcanutilizethisformofmanipulationatanygiventime.
Repetition:Conversationswithacovertnarcissistareoftenveryrepetitive,andrarelydotheyendinanykindofsolutionorresolve.
Whenacovertnarcissistisconfrontedabouttheirbehavior,it'softenfoundthattheywillbecomedefensive,utilizingthisrepetitivecommunicationinordertobringupotherunrelatedtopics.Thisisintendedtoeventuallyexhaustyouintodroppingtheconversationaltogether.Thisdefensemechanismofrepetitionisalsoputinplacetomakeyouquestionyourselfforevenbringingupthetopic;
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alsoputinplacetomakeyouquestionyourselfforevenbringingupthetopic;thenarcissistwillmakeyoufeellikeyouarebeingdifficultandhaveahardtimeoflettingthingsdrop.
Thiscirculartypeofconversationcanalsobeseenwhenthecovertnarcissistinstigatesaconversation.Theseconversationswilloftenbeaboutthesametopic,oftenaddressinsomethingyoumayhavedonetoupsetthem,evenifitwasyearsago.Aswithalotofcovertnarcissisticbehavior,it'soneruleforthenarcissistandacompletelydifferentruleforyou.
Patronization:Acovertnarcissistfrequentlyusesapatronizingandcondescendingtonetoevokeaintensereactionfromyou.Whilstyoubecomeflusteredandupset,oftentimesthecovertnarcissistwillremaincalm,collectedandentirelycool.Ofcourse,thislackofemotionalresponsefromthenarcissistwillalsofrustrateandenrageyou,asit’sdesignedtodo.Thelackofemotionalresponsefromthemwillleaveyoufeelinglikeyou’rebeingirrational,andyouwillfeelinsultedbytheirlackoffeelingsinthissituation.
Thispatronizingtoneusedbythecovertnarcissistcanbeusedtodiscardyou,youremotionsandyourthoughts.Thispatronizing,crazy-making*tonethatyou'reonthereceivingendofcanoftenserveasagoodplaceforthenarcissisttostarttheirsmearcampaign**againstyou.
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*CRAZY-MAKINGDEFINITION:Beingpurposefullycontradictory,manipulative,untruthfulandblamefulenoughtomakesomeonedoubttheirownsanity.
**SMEARCAMPAIGNDEFINITION:Asmearcampaign,alsosometimesreferredtoasa‘smeartactic’orjusta‘smear’,isaneffortoraplantodamageorcallintoquestionsomeone'sreputation.Theindividualcarryingoutthesmearcampaigndoesthisbytoutingnegativestories,ideasandtheoriesabouttheirvictimtoothers.
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ASMEARCAMPAIGN,DESIGNEDandputintoactionbythenarcissist,oftenentailsthenarcissistinformingvariousotherpeopleoutsideoftherelationshipaboutyourcrazybehavior,anduncontrollabletemper.Thenarcissistcanoftenmakeyoubelievethatthisisthecasetoo,astheirpatronizingandcondescendingtonewilloftenevokeahighlyemotionalresponse,thusprovingtheiraccusationsare‘true’.
Projection:Ifthere'sonethingthatanarcissistishighlyadeptat,it'sprojection.Theywilloftenaccuseyouofdoingthingsthattheythemselvesaredoing.Thisusuallyhappensduringaconfrontation,andtodeflectthenarcissistwillusuallyprojecttheirbehaviorontoyou.
Whatmakesitallthemorefrustratingisthefactthatbeingonthereceivingendofthis,weknowthatwearen’tguiltyofthebehaviorwearebeingaccusedof.Thiscrazy-makingtacticfromthenarcissistisfilledwithhypocrisythatthenarcseemsobliviousto.Thisfrustratingironywillinvariablycausethevictimtorespondwiththeemotional,agitatedreactionthatthenarcissistseeks(whichisagain,somegoodcannonfodderforthenarctouseagainstyou).
Maskswitching:Acovertnarcissist,likemostnarcissists,haveanumberofmasksthattheyutilizedependingonanygivensituation.Ifthenarcfeelsthattheyarelosingpowerorcontrol,theymayfeeltheneedtoswitchmasksinordertoregaintheupperhandinthesituation.
Asthevictim,youmayseevariousmasks,suchasthegoodguy(theonewhowillmakepromisesofabrighterfuture,andexpresstheirloveforyou),thebadguy(theonewhodishesoutblametowardsyouanddevaluesyou)andachildlikemask.Thechildlikemaskwillseethenarcactliketheydidn'tknowwhattheyweredoing,liketheydidn'tfullyunderstandtheconsequencesoftheiractions,andtheirfacialexpressionwillalsoattempttorecreatethatofachildlikeone.
Ifanarcissistfeelsliketheyhavelostcontrol,theywillscramblethroughtheircollectionofmasksandweartheonethatfitsbestinaccordancetothatparticularsituation.Thisfranticattemptofclawingbackcontrolcanoftenleaveyoufeelingscared,andlikeyoureallydon'tknowthepersoninfrontofyouatall.Thesadtruthis,really,youdon’tknowwhotherealpersonisbehindthemasks.
Howcouldyou?Whichoneisreal?Areanyofthemreal?
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Playingthevictim:Thecovertnarcissistisaneternalvictim.Theirbehavior,theirliesandtheircheatingways,whenconfrontedabout,tendtoalwaysbearesultofsomethingtraumaticthathashappenedintheirlife.
Forexample,astrugglewithaddiction,anabusivechildhood,apsychoticex,pressuresatworkandparentalstressesareallcommonthemesthatisnarcusestogarnersympathy.
AsI'vementionedpreviously,thecovertnarcissistwillseekoutahighlyempatheticpartner,andassuchwillusethistotheiradvantage.Thevictimwillundoubtedlyfeelbadforthenarcissist,evenwhenthey'vedonesomethinghorriblywrongorunforgivable,becausetheyfeelcompassiontowardsthemduetotheirtraumaticexperiences.Thisisidealforthenarcissist,especiallywhenthevictimfeelsthattheyare‘gettingsomewhere’withthenarc,andthattheconversationsthey'vehadinregardtothenarcissist’spastistherapeuticfortheabuser.
Needlesstosay,thisfalsesenseofbondingwiththenarcissistisjustthat:fabricated.Nomatterhowintenseaconversationwithacovertnarcis,includingtalkingaboutprevioustraumaandabuse,andnomatterhowhonesttheabuserappears,thisisjustanotherformofmanipulation.
Duetothevictimusuallyhavingaveryempatheticnature,theywilloftenthinkthatanarcissistopeninguptothemistherelationshipgettingrealandmovingontoadeeperlevel.This‘victimization’waytomanipulateisironic,asinrealityit'sthosearoundthenarcissistthatarethevictims.
Needingbasicthingsexplainingtothem:Beinginarelationshipwithacovertnarcissistmeansthatyoumayfindyourselfquitefrequentlyexplainingbasichumanbehaviorsandemotions.
Forexample,withmynarcissisticex,Iwassurprisedtofindmyselfhavingtoexplainwhatitmeanttobenicetosomeone.Whenhewasgettingtoveryclosewithacolleague,andIfoundoutaboutthis,Ihadtoexplainwhatflirtingwasandhowhurtfulthiswasforanotherperson.Ialsohadtoexplainwhatconstitutesas‘cheating’.However,ironically,sixmonthspriortothis,myexstoppedspeakingtomefor4daysafterheaccusedmeofflirtingwithoneofhisfriends.Atthetime,itdidn'toccurtomethatofcourseheknowshowhurtfulflirtingis,becausehe'daccusedmeofthesamethingsixmonthsprior-Isimplysathimdownandexplainedtohimthedefinitionandconsequencesofflirting.
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Oftenthecovertnarcexpectsyoutojustexplainthisbehaviortothemandthat’llpreventitfromhappeningagain.Asyou'reprobablyaware,thisbehaviordoesn'tjustsimplystopbecauseyou'veexplainedittothem.Youverylikelyhavecontinuedtoseethesamebehaviorandissuesoverandover,regardlessofhowmanytimesyou'veexplainedhowthismakesyoufeel.
Yetanotherironicfactortothisisthattherepetitionofhavingtoexplainyourselfgetsyoufrustratedandemotional.Thisthenevokesflusteredandhot-headedreactions,whichoffersthecovertnarcissistsomemoreammunitionforasmearcampaign.
Fullofexcuses:Becauseacovertnarcissistisneveraccountablefortheirbehavior,theyuseexcusesasawaytoexplaintheiractions.Theseexcusesthemselvesareenoughtodriveyouinsane,butthefactthattheirwordsrarelymatchtheirbehaviorsisenoughtoenrageyou.
Whatcanalsoantagonizeyouisthatthenarcwilloftengiveyoudifferentversionsofanexcuse,orafewdifferentaccountsofwhathappened.Thiscangountilyoueitheracceptoneoftheversions,oryoubecomesoemotionallyexhaustedthatyoustopdigging.
Mynarcissisticexwouldoftenstayoutuntiltheearlyhours,notreturninghomeuntil5a.m.afteradrinkingbinge.Duringthesetimes,Iwouldneverknowwherehewas,whohewaswithorwhathewasdoing.Hewouldrarelyreplytomytextsorcalls,andanycommunicationIgotfromhimwouldbefullofexcuses.Ifhedidn'treplytomeallnighthewouldtellmehisphonebatteryhaddied,eventhoughIknewfullwellithadn'tbecausewhenIwascallingthephonewasringing.WhenIaskedhimwherehewas,hewouldtellmehewasathisfriendJake’shouse,althoughIknewthatwasaliebecauseJakeworknightsandhewasatworkthatevening.Whenconfrontedwiththisundeniablefact,myexwouldthenmakeanexcuseaboutbeingsodrunkhecan'trememberwherewewentafterthat.WhenIwouldthenprobewhyhedranksomuchhecouldn'tremember,hewouldtellmehewassostressedouthewasdrinkingtodealwiththepressure.
Asyoucansee,thisconversationwithmyexturnedfromsomethinghehaddonetoupsetme,tosomethingIshouldbefeelingpitytowardshimfor.Whenhisexcuses,towhichthereweremany,weren'tdupingme,hewouldresorttovictimizationtactics.
Myexwasalsoaserialphilanderer.Whenhewouldgetcaughtcheating,thesituationwouldoftengolikethis:
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situationwouldoftengolikethis:
Iwouldfindoutabouthisinfidelity,andhewouldimmediatelydenythis.However,whenmoreevidencewouldthensurface,hewouldadmittothebareminimumbyconfessingthatithappened-butonlyonce.Hischeatingwouldthenbeblamedonme,ashewouldaccusemeofnotgivinghimasmuchattentionasheneededandnotbeingathomeasmuchasIshould.
MoreinformationabouthisindiscretionwouldcomeoutandIwouldfindoutaboutit.Hewouldthenusuallyblametheotherwoman,sayinghewasverydrunkandthatshecameontohim.Yetmoreincriminatinginformationwouldsurface,andhisexcuseswouldkeepshiftingandchanging.
Conversationsgoingnowhere:Thesearethemostdrainingtypesofinteractionswithacovertnarc.Afterthistypeofinteraction,youoftenquestiontoyourself‘whatwasthepointinthatconversation?’,andyou'llrealizeyou'vejustspentthelastfewhoursinasenselessconversationthatachievednothing.
Thesedrainingconversationswillalsooftenmeanthatyouspendthenextfewhours,orevendays,goingoverwhatwassaid,inafutileattempttountanglesomemeaningfromit.Theseconversationsareusuallyclutteredwithunrelatedpointsandtopics,meaningit'shardtoarticulatewhatexactlythenarcwastryingtoachievefromtheinteraction.
Inanutshell,it'sverycommontohavelengthyconversationswithacovertnarcwithoutitgoinganywhereatall.
Denialofbadbehavior:Withnothingeverbeingtheirfault,thenarcissistwilldenytheirpoorbehaviorandinsteadfocusonyours.
Iftheirbehaviorisinquestion,theywilltrytomakethisinvalidbybringingupyourbehaviororanyissuestheyhavewithyou.Theseissuesthatthecovertnarchasdon'tevenneedtoberealproblems,andtheyareoftensomethingthatthenarcissisthasimaginedormadeuptouseagainstyou.
Forexample,youmayhavemadearequesttoyourpartnerthatyou'dliketostopthemcontactingtheirexfiancé.Thismaythenevokearesponsethatdeniesanywrongdoingontheirpart,whilstthenblamingyoufordoingsomethingsimilarorworse.Whenconfrontedaboutcuttingtieswiththeirex,thenarcissistmayrespondwithsomethingalongthelinesof‘youstilltalktoyourex-husband,sowhat'stheproblem?’
Evenifyouthenreassureyourpartnerthatyouhavetospeaktoyourex-husband
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Evenifyouthenreassureyourpartnerthatyouhavetospeaktoyourex-husbandbecauseyoucoparentyourchildrenwithhim,andit'sonlyonthatbasis,youmaybemetwithanaccusatoryresponsefromthenarcissist.Itcouldgoalongthelinesof‘howcanItrustyou?HowcanIbesosure?ForallIknowyou'recheatingonmewithhim.’
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THEEXAMPLESOUTLINEDabovemaybesomethingthat'sveryfamiliartoyou,andIhopeitwentsomewayinhelpingyoudecipherthenarcissiststrueintentionsfromtheconversation.Iunderstandjusthowfrustratingandangeringitcanbetodealwithacovertnarcissist,buttherearewaysthatyoucantakebackcontroloftheconversationandstopthenarcissistdeadinhistracks.
Thiscantakesomeworkonyourpartbyactuallysettingtheseboundariesinplaceandrefusingtoletthenarccontroltheconversation.I’llcoverthatshortly,butnowI’llmoveontothenextchapter,whichdetailsthesideeffectsofbeingwithacovertnarcissist.
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TheEffectsCovertNarcissismHasonYou
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NARCISSISTICABUSEisjustthat:abuse.Whenweendureanyformofabuse,weareundeniablyleftwithnegativeemotionaleffects,althoughoftenwedon'trecognizethatthesenegativethoughtsandbehaviorsareadirectresultoftheabusewewentthrough.
Inthischapter,I'llgothroughsomeofthecommonlyassociatedeffectsnarcissismhasonitsvictims.Youmaynotfindthatyouhavebeenleftwithalloftheseeffects,butassomeonewhohasenduredthetoxicityandabuseofanarcissist,I'msureyou'reresonatewithalotoftheseaftereffectsofabuse.
ThefirsteffectIwillmentionisthefeelingofdoubt.Thevictimofanarcissist,whethertheyarestillinanarcissisticrelationshiporhaveescapedit,willbeleftfeelingcopiousamountsofself-doubt.
Youmayfindthatyouconstantlyseekclarificationorassurancethatyouhaven'tmadeamistake,andthat,alotofthetime,you’reuncertainofyourself.Thisisaverycommoneffectofnarcissisticabuse,becausetheabuserconditionstheirvictimtocarrytheburdenofblameandarealwaysquicktopointfingersatthem,thuscausingtheeffectofself-doubt.
EvenafterI’descapedmynarcissisticrelationships,IstillfoundthatIwasfullofself-doubt.Iwasuncertainofmyselfandmyabilitytomaketherightchoices.Ialwaysfeltguiltandblameforthingsthatwereveryoftennotmyfaultoroutofmycontrol,andthereisnomistakethatmydoubtfulfeelingstowardsmyselfreallyheldmebackfromfindinganyenjoymentinlife.IwouldseekvalidationfromothersthatIwasdoingtherightthing,orthatmychoicesweretherightonestomake.Icameacrosstootherpeopleasbeingasveryuncertainofmyself,andthisreallyhinderedmyprogressatworkandwhenIwastryingtoforgerelationshipswithnewpeople.Itmademeappearneedyandunstable.
Thisnegativeaftereffectoftheabusewasbornfromthefactthat,duringtherelationship,IhadtoacceptresponsibilityforthethingsIdidn'tsayordo.ItwasalmostaborrowedhumiliationfromthenarcissistthatIstillcarriedwithmeaftertherelationshipended.
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aftertherelationshipended.
Anotheraftereffectyoumaybeleftwithisdissociation.Victimstendtodetachordisassociatefromtheirsurroundings,emotionsandeventheirownbody.Thisisacopingmechanismtohelpsurvivetheoverwhelming,hurtfulandconfusingemotionalabusethattheyendure.
I'vedonequiteabitofresearchondisassociation,andIfoundthiswassomethingIdidquitewelltohelpmyselfcopewithmyabuser.Disassociationplaysapivotalpartintraumaticsituations.Becausemysituationwassoemotionallyoverwhelming,mybrainautomaticallynumbedmyemotionstohelpmeendurethetoxiccircumstances.Emotionalrepressionalmostbecomesawayoflifeinordertoescapefromthehorrificreality.Idoadmirethebrain'swayofutilizingcopingstrategiesandhowitcanalteryourrealitytoblockoutpain,althoughdissociation,ofcourse,isn'tideal.
Anothereffectofbeinginanarcissisticrelationshipisyouputyourownneeds,wantsanddesiresonthebackburner.Whilstyou'reinarelationshipwithanarcissist,itcanoftenfeellikeyou’resimplytherejusttofulfilltheirneedsandhelpthemwiththeirownagenda.Ifyouthinkbacktowhenyoufirstmetyournarcissisticpartner,itmayseemliketheydotedonyouandtheworldrevolvedaroundyou.Ofcourse,realitysoonhits,andyourealizethatyouwillnevertrulysatisfythemnomatterhowhardyoutry.
Inthemeantime,you'vehadtoforgetaboutyourownneedsandwantsforthemostpart,justtoensureyoupacifytheabuser.Youmayhavestoppedpartakinginhobbies,youmayhavesacrificedsomefriendships,oryoumayhaveforgottenaboutyourlifegoalsinyourmissiontosatisfythenarcissist.
Oneofthemoreunspokeneffectsofnarcissisticabuseisthedetrimentithastoyourphysicalhealth.Whilstnarcissisticabuseisassociatedwiththeemotionalandmentaltraumayouandendure,there'snodenyingtheimpactitcanhaveonyourphysicalhealthaswell.
ThechronicabuseIsufferedatthehandsofmyex-partnerensuredIlostasignificantamountofweight.Iwassoanxious,nervousandapprehensivethatIsimplydidn'twanttoeatanymore.Anyfoodthatpassedmylipsmademegag,andthethoughtofeatingmademeretch.TheanxietythatriddledmewasthereassoonasIwokeup,untilIwenttosleep.
IfIdidmanagetogettosleep,itwouldbeaverybrokensleep.I’dhavehorriblenightmares,driftinginandoutofterribledreams.Iwouldusuallywakeup
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nightmares,driftinginandoutofterribledreams.Iwouldusuallywakeuparound4a.m.andbeunabletogetbacktosleep.Iwouldthembelyingawakethinkingaboutallofthenarcissisticthingsmyexhaddonetome,tryingtoworkoutwhatwassowrongwithme,andhowIcouldmakeitright.
Anothersideeffectofnarcissismisahugesenseofmistrust.Thisusuallycomesaftertherelationshiphasended,whereyouthenseeeverypersonasathreat.Becauseofyourexperiencewiththenarcissist,youbegintoworryabouttheintentionofotherpeople,evenonesyou'veknownforquitesometime.
Whereanormalpersonwouldbenaturallycautious,avictimofnarcissisticabusebecomeshyperdiligentwhenitcomestovettingpeople.Sinceyouweredupedbeforebysomebodywhoappearedtohaveyourbestinterestsatheart,younowhaveahardtimetrustinganyone.Sadly,alltoooften,youalsobegintohaveahardtimetrustingyourself.Youwerefooledbefore,what'stosaywon'tbefooledagain,evenwithyourhypervigilantmistrust?
Aswellastheanxietythatcomeswithbeinginanarcissisticrelationship,oftendepressionandasenseofhopelessnessaccompaniesthis.Unbearableandinescapablecircumstancesenvelopyou,andyoudon'tseeawayout.Thishelplessness,whichislearnedfromthewaythenarcissisttreatsyou,makesday-to-daylivingastruggle.Unfortunately,thiscanseesomeabusevictimsengageinself-harmasacopingmechanism.
Manynarcissisticabusersisolatetheirvictim.However,somevictimswillalsoisolatethemselves,duetofeelingembarrassedandashamedaboutwhatthey'regoingthrough.Fromexperience,Iunderstandthefearofvictimblaming,andtheblackandwhitemisconceptionsofmanypeoplewhodon'tunderstandabuseoritseffects.Ididn'twanttoputmyselfthroughthetraumaofbeinginvalidatedbythosewhohadnoideaofwhatIwasgoingthrough,soIisolatedmyself.
Icouldn'tbeartheideaoftraumatizingmyselfbyopeninguptosomebodyaboutmytoxicandabusiverelationship,onlyforthemtodismissitasbeingmyfault:myfaultforstaying,myfaultforenteringarelationshipwithsomebodylikethat,myfaultfornotmakingmypartnerhappyenoughtotreatmewithrespect...thelistofresponsesIwasfearfulofreceivingwentonandon.Thiscultivatedaneedformetoself-isolate.
Youmayfindthatthissoundsfamiliartoyou;isolatingyourselfsonobodyknowsthetrueextentofwhatyou'regoingthrough.Thefearofjudgementstoppingyoufromreachingoutforhelp.Iunderstandtheneedtowithdrawfromotherstoavoidthis,andself-isolationisanothersadsideeffectofnarcissistic
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otherstoavoidthis,andself-isolationisanothersadsideeffectofnarcissisticabuse.
Victimsofcovertnarcissismtendtoadoptself-destructivethoughtsandbehaviors.Youmightfindthatyouruminateoverthethingsyourabuserhassaidordone,replayingtheirnegativewordstoyouoverandoverinyourhead.Thisthengeneratesapatternofnegativeself-talk,whichcanleadtoself-destructiveorself-sabotagingbehavior.Thecovertnarcissistprogramsanegativethoughtpatternintotheirvictim,leadingthemdownapathofunhealthyself-talkandself-perception.
Becauseofthecovertputdownsandhypercriticismtheyareexposedto,aswellasthenarcissistinstillingasenseofshameintothem,thevictimcanhaveatendencytopunishthemselves.Theycandothisbysabotagingtheirdreams,goals,aspirationsoracademicachievements.Thereasonforthisisbecausetheabuserhasensuredthevictimfeelssoworthlessthattheydon’tfeeltheydeserveanythinggood.
This,inturn,canleavevictimswillbetrepidanttodothethingstheylove,forfearofachievingsuccesswiththem.Covertnarcissistsarequiteoftenenviousoftheirvictims,andanythingthatmakesthemfeelinferiortotheirvictimwillresultinthembeingjealousandbitter.Thisnegativereactionfromtheabuserregardingtheirvictims’talents,interestsandhobbiesconditionsthevictimtoassociatethesethingswithresentfulandcruelbehaviourfromthenarcissist.
Thisbegrudgingconditioningmakesthevictimavoidanysuccesses,hobbiesoractivitiesthatmakesthemhappy,forfearthey'llbemetwithspitefulandcallusreactionsfromtheirabuser.Thiscanresultinthevictimbecominganxious,depressedandseverelylackinginconfidence.Thevictimmaynowtrytobeawallflower,avoidanykindofspotlightandavoidchasinganysuccessesforfearofreprisal.
Asasidenotehere,I’djustliketosay:ifthissoundslikesomethingyou'regoingthroughorhavebeenthrough,justrememberthattheabuseritisn'tresentfulandcriticalofyourgiftsorsuccessesbecausetheythinkyou'reincompetentorinferior-it’sbecausetheyfeelthreatenedbythem.Anythingthatthreatenstheircontrolandego,they'lltrytodestroy.
Anotherverysad,yetprevalent,effectofcovertnarcissismiswherethevictimprotectstheirabuser.Thevictimmayeventrytodenytheabusersbehaviorsomuchthattheyendupgaslightingthemselves.Thisminimizingandrationalizingoftheabusersbehavioractsasasurvivalmechanismforthevictim.Inorderto
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oftheabusersbehavioractsasasurvivalmechanismforthevictim.Inordertoplaydowntheemotionaldissonancethatappearswhensomeonewho'ssupposedtoloveyoumistreatsyou,victimsofcovertnarcissismcanoftenconvincethemselvesthattheabuse‘isn'treallythatbad’,orthatthey‘musthavedonesomething’toprovoketheirmistreatment.
Iwouldliketostresstheimportanceinreducingthismentaldissonance.Agoodexampleofdoingthatisbyreadingthisbookrightnow;you'reactivelylookingintotheirbehaviorandseekingtounderstandhowtohandleit.Bydoingthisyou'reabletoreconcileyourrealityagainstthefalsitiesthatyourabuseristryingtoportray.thiscanhelpyouavoidself-gaslightingandkeepyourrealityincheck.
Thisneedtoimplementsurvivaltacticstoavoidfacingtheharshrealityofabusecanoftenbeoverwhelming.Thisisespeciallythecaseininstanceswherethevictimistraumabonded*totheirabuser.Thevictimwilleventrytoportrayahappyimagetotheoutsideworld,andwhenconfrontedbyothersabouttheirpartnerstoxicbehavior,they’lltakesoletheblamefortheabuse.
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SettingBoundariesandInteractingwithaCovertNarcissist
neofthekeythingsyouneedtodototakebackcontrolfromthenarcissististosetboundaries.Settingboundarieswithatoxicpersoncan
helpyouensurethatyoudeflectanydisrespectfulcommunicationandalsohelpyouavoidexploitativebehaviorfromthenarc.
Boundariesareessentiallyameasureofyourself-esteem.Theyareawayofsettinglimitsforthebehaviorsyou’rewillingtoaccept.Onceyousuccessfullyimplementboundaries(whichtakeseffortonyourparttoensureyouareconsistentwithyourboundarysetting),you’retakingbackcontrol.Youaredeterminingwhetherornotsomeoneelsecanmakeyoufeelputdownordevalued,andyoucanuseboundariestostopthenarcintheirtracksfromtakingadvantageofyourkindheartedness.
Atthemoment,it'slikelyyouhavesomeweakboundariesinplace.Weakboundariesopenyouuptobeingdisrespected,emotionallydamagedandmentallyhurt,andanarcissistcanspotweakboundariesamileoff,soit'sprobablethatthesefrailboundariesarebeingusedtothenarcsadvantage.
Replacingtheboundariesyoualreadyhavewithstronger,morerobustonesdoestakealittletimeandeffort.WhenIfirstsetaboutdoingthis,oneofthehardestthingsIfoundtodowastobeconsistentwithmyboundarysetting.It'sallwellandgoodtosay‘no’toanunreasonablerequestoneday,butthekeytosuccessfulboundarysettingistoensureyousay‘no’everytimeanunreasonabledemandcomesyourway.Ifoundthisdifficultbecausemynarcissisticexwasverygoodatwearingmedownemotionally,tothepointwhereIwouldjustgivein.Ican'tstresshowimportantitistomaintainconsistencywhenyou'redoingthis.
ThefirstthingIwouldrecommenddoingistotakesometimetoresetyourboundaries.Takesometimeasidetowritedownthespecificwords,phrases,actions(orlackofactions)andsituationsthatmakeyoufeelhurt,unhappyanddevalued.Whenyou'rewritingthesethingsdown,itcanalsobequitebeneficialtoconsiderwhatthenarcissistsmotivationbehindthesewordsareactionsare.Thiscangosomewayintohelpingmotivateyoutosticktotheboundariesyou'regoingtosetinplace.
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goingtosetinplace.
Thislittleexercisewillalsohelpyouidentifytheweaknessesofyourcurrentboundaries.
ThefirstboundaryIwouldsuggestthinkaboutisknowingwheretodrawtheline.Whichbehaviorsareyouwillingtoaccept,whichonesaren'tyou?Forexample,myexwouldreferredtomewithoneparticularderogatorytermthatIhated,andwhenIwasthinkingaboutwhatIwasn'tgoingtotolerateanymore,thisparticularwordwasthefirstthingonmy(ratherlengthy)list.
Iunderstandit'sonethingtosayyou'renotgoingtoacceptaparticularbehavioranymore,butit'squiteanothertogoaheadandpreventthatfromhappening.Figuringoutwhereyou'regoingtodrawthelineistheeasypart,thehardpartisactuallydrawingtheline.
ToensureIwasrefusedtotoleratethathurtful,derogatoryword,Ihadmyownretorttothatinsult.Itwasstraighttothepoint,itclearlystatedmyboundaries,anditpreventedmynarcissisticexfromhavingcontrolovertheconversation.Itwasassimpleasthis:
‘Ifyoucontinuetocallmethatname,Iwillendthisconversationuntilyoucantalktomewithrespect’
Ididn'tgetssuckedintohisgoading,Ididn'treportwithanyname-callingandIdidn'tfeeltheneedtoexplainmyreasoning.Thisstripsthenarcissistofanyemotiontouseagainstme,aswellasthepowertheywanttohaveovertheconversation.Iunderstandthiscanfrustratethenarcissist,andthere'sachancethattheymaycontinuename-calling,arguingorabusivebehavior.Inthisinstance,IwouldrepeatwhatI'dsaidinthefirstplace,thistimeputtingintoactionwhatI'dwarnedmyexwouldhappen:
‘AsIsaid,ifyoucontinuedtocallmethatnameIwouldendtheconversation,sothat'swhatI'mdoing.’
AndthispointIwouldeitherleave,hangupthephone,orI'dgetmyselftoaplacewheremyexwasn't,dependingonthesituation.Iwouldn'tstandaroundorlingerforaresponse;IwouldensurethatIwascarryingoutmyboundarysettingnomatterhowdifficultitfelt.Nomattertheconsequenceshewouldthreaten.NomatterhowmuchIwantedtocavein.Ihadtobeconsistent.
Youmustremindyourselfthatyourboundariesarenotupfordiscussionordebatable.Keepinmindwhyyouaresettingtheseboundariesinthefirstplace:
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debatable.Keepinmindwhyyouaresettingtheseboundariesinthefirstplace:tomakeyoufeellessoverwhelmed,calmerandmoreincontrol.You'redoingthisforyouremotionalhealth.
If,whilstyou'resettingboundaries,youfeeltheatmospherehasbecometoounhealthyortoxic,it'swisetohaveanexitplanupyoursleeve.Youhavetherighttoleaveatanytime;youdon'tneedpermission.However,Iunderstandthiscanbehardtoinitiate,especiallyifthenarcissistisbeingabusive,butthisshouldmakeitallthemorenecessaryforyoutoleave.
Yourexitplancanbeassimpleassayingyouneedtoleavetheroomtomakeacalloryou’relateforsomething-itdoesn'tmatter.Ifneedsbe,youmightwanttomessageafriendtoaskthemtocallyou,soyoucanremoveyourselffromthetoxicsituation.Ifthisisn'tpossible,youcanlookatyourphoneandsay,‘Ineedtoanswerthis’,whichwillalsoservetotakeyouawayfromtheunpleasantsituation.
Youdon'tneedtogiveanymoredetailthanthis;itdoesn'tmatterwho'scallingyou,whatyou’relatefororwhereelseyouneedtobe.Thisisofnoconcerntothenarcissist,sodon'tfeellikeyouhavetoofferupanyreasoningwiththenarc.Whereveryou'regoingorwhateveryou'relatefor,thedestinationisself-care,andthisissomethingthenarcissistwon'tcomprehend,sowhytrytoreasonwiththem?
Agreattactictoutilizewhensettingboundariesistouseoneofthenarcissistsgreatestassetsagainstthem:conversationmanipulation.It'snotascomplexasitsounds,noristhereanyunderlyingmaliceasthereiswithanarcissistdoingthis.thisissimplysteeringanuncomfortableorunpleasantconversationintoadifferentdirection.Thedirectionyou'llbesteeringthisisthenarcissistsgreatesttopic:themselves.
Forexample,shouldyoubeaskedaquestionthatleavesyoufeelinguncomfortable,you'renotrequiredtostayontopic.Althoughyoumayfeelbackedintoacorner,youcanbeincontrolofhowyouretorttoanynarcissisticjibing.Forinstance,ifthenarcissistquestionswhatyou'redoingwithyourmoney,youdon'tneedtodirectlyanswerthatquestion.Chancesareitwillonlyleadtoyoubeingmadetofeelinadequateorstupidbythenarcissist.Instead,shifttheconversationintoanotherdirection,preferablysomethingthatbumpsupthenarc’sego.Perhapsaskthemwhattheirsecrettricksareforbeingsogoodwithmoneyorhowtheymanagetosavesomuchmoneywhilstmakingitlookeasy.
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easy.
Iknowfromtheoutsidelookinginitseemslikethis‘conversationmanipulation’onlyservesthenarcissist,andfluffstheirego,butit'satechniquetoensurethefocusistakenoffyouandplacedontothenarcissist.
Tofurtheraddtothis,it'simportanttonotethatyoudon'tdeservetobeinterrogated.It'sasadtruththatthelessyousharewithanarcissist,thelessinformationor‘ammunition’theyhavetouseagainstyou.Whenyou’rebeingcriticized,oryouractionsarebeingquestioned,don'tfeeltheneedtoexplainorjustifyyourself.Keepyourrepliesshortandtothepoint.
Forexample,ifthenarcissistiscondemningyou,forwhateverreason,insteadofgettingflustered,agitatedandwantingtoretortwithyourjustifications,understandthatyou’resimplytakingtheirbait.Instead,youcouldsaysomethinglike,‘thankyouforyouropinion,I'llcertainlykeepthatinmind’.Iftheyarecritiquingyourchoicesordecisions,insteadoftryingtogetthemtounderstandyourreasoning,simplysaysomethinglike‘I'mquiteconfidentaboutthatidea’.Youcanstillthankthemfortheirconcernandinput,butthisshortandtothepointreplystripsthenarcissistofanypowerovertheconversation.
Rememberthatyoudon'tdeservetobeinterrogated.
Anothergreatwaytosetboundariesistocalloutthenarcissisticbehaviorthatisbeingexhibited.It'snotwisetooutrightname-callandaccuseyourabuserofbeinganarcissistorevil(evenifthisisthetruth),asthiswilljustcauseanunpleasantatmosphere.Ontopofthat,itwilllikelygivethenarcissistsomeammunitiontouseagainstyou;theymaysayyou’remean,nasty,hurtfulorabully.Thiscanthenbeusedagainstyouinasmearcampaign,ortostartanargumentatalaterdate.Don'tstooptothenarcissistslevel.Youcanbematteroffact,straighttothepointandhonestwithoutbeingaggressiveoraccusatory.
Asyou'reprobablyalltooawarenarcissistsdotendtopushthelimitsofrelationships.Theyliketotesttoseewhattheycangetawaywithandgothatonestepfurthertomakesuretheyfeeloneuponyouorothersaroundthem.Whenyoustraightupcalloutthebehaviorofanarcissist,inanon-confrontationalway,theaimistodefusetheirlimitpushing.
Forexample,ifthenarcissistsayssomethingnegativeaboutyouordepreciatesanideayoumayhave,insteadofbiting,youcansaysomethinglike:‘thatcommentsoundedlikeyouwereputtingmedown’,or‘thatcommentwasquitehurtful.Didyoumeantoputmedown?’
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Tailoryourreplytomatchtheinteraction.Myex-partnerusedtofrequentlyinterruptmewhenIwastalking.IfIwastalkingaboutsomethingthatwashappeningatwork,anewprojectIwantedtostartoranythingthatmayseemepotentiallyimprovingmylife,hewouldinterruptandtalkabouthimself.OneofthefirstboundariesIsetwastocalloutthisbehavior.
Iwouldsaytohim‘IseethateverytimeIbegintotalkaboutmyself,youinterruptandreverttheconversationbacktoyou’,andmystraight-to-thepointtruthfulnesswoulddiffusehisattemptstodrawtheconversationbacktohim.Mytruthfulnesswouldalmoststartlehim,asifthethoughtIwouldn’tpickuponthefacthewasalwaysrevertingpositiveconversationsaboutmebacktowardshimself.
Don'tfeeltheneedtoofferupanythingelseafteryou'vecalledouttheirbehaviororgetintoalengthyconversationaboutit.Keepsettingplaceholderslikethisduringnegativeinteractionswiththenarc,anddon'tbedrawniniftheirresponseisn'tasreasonableasyou'dlike.Settingboundariestakestime,asdoesreapingtherewardsfromthem.
Attentionisoneofthenarcissistsbiggestdesires;evenwithacovertnarcissist,whocanappearmeekandintroverted,yououghttobeundernoillusionthatthecravingforattentionisstillthere.Whatevertheybelieve,say,orneedistheirmainpriorityinthatmoment,andtheydoexpectittobeyourpriorityaswell.Thishungerforattentionisultimatelydraining,andtostopyourselfbeingsuckedintotheirnarcissistic,ego-inflatingneeds,makesurethatyou'recheckinginwithyourself.
Mentallyreturnyourfocustoyourself.Whatdoyouwant?Whatdoyouneed?Howareyoufeeling?Takethetimetoaskyourselftheseimportantquestions.
Iunderstandthiscanbehardtodointhemiddleofaninteractionwithanarcissist,butyoucanstilldothisretrospectivelyaftertheevent.Thismaybehelpfulinidentifyingyourthoughtsaboutthesituation,andperhapshelpyouthinkabouthowyouwouldliketohandlethesituationdifferentlyinthefuture.It'sagreatwaytoidentifyboundariesyouwishtosetaswell.
Bydoingthisonaregularbasis,you’reincreasingyourself-awareness,andallowingyourselftobecomemoreawareofhowthenarcissistsbehavioraffectsyou.Themoreyoudothis,themoreself-awarenessyouhave,andovertimethiswilllessenthepowerthenarcissisthasoveryou.Withamoreassuredself-awareness,thenarcissistsagendawillnolongeroverwhelmyou.
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awareness,thenarcissistsagendawillnolongeroverwhelmyou.
Thisisagoodplacetodescribetheterm‘greyrock’.Thistermisawaytoapproachdissociation,temporarily,whenyou'reinanemotionallyvulnerablesituation.Itmeansdialingdownhowmuchyouallowyourselftocareaboutthenarcissist.Youtemporarilymakeyourselfasimpenetrableasarock,disassociatingyourselfemotionally,andprotectingyourselffromunsafesituations.
Essentiallythistechniqueisallowingyoutotakeastepback,andnotfeellikeyouhavetofendoffanyunwantedaggressionorgoadingfromthenarcissist.You’renotemotionallyinvested,andthereforetheirwordscan’tpenetrateyou.Allowyourrepliesandresponsestobemundaneanddull,almostmakingyourselfpartofthescenery.
Thistechniquecanhelpyouremindyourselfthatyouneedtoreservesomeenergyforyourself,andforpeoplewhogenuinelycareaboutyou.Bynotfullyengagingwiththenarcissist,you’rereservingthatpreciousenergyformoremeaningfulthings.Greyrockalsostopsyoufromshowingasmuchvulnerabilityandofferingupasmuchemotion,whicharethingsanarcissistusuallyclingsonto.Thegreyrocktechniquedecreasesthelikelihoodthattheywillbeabletodothis,helpingdiminishtheputdownsandcritiquesthattheywouldusuallyofferupinasituation.
Covertnarcissistsrelishingettingareactionoutofotherpeople.It'stheirperversewayofreassuringthemselvesthattheyareimportant,theirpresencematters,andtheyhavetheabilityto‘getto’people.Ifyoudobiteorshowemotionwhentheyprovokeyou,althoughunintentionally,you'rereinforcingthennegativeandunhealthybehavior.You’regivingthemthereactiontheyneed.
Iknowaswellasyoudothatnarcissistsareadeptatgettingariseoutofothers,soIunderstandthatsometimesyouwillreact,despiteyouknowingthatit'sprobablybetternotto.But,wherepossible,trytosetthatemotionalreactiontoonesideuntillater,Manipulatetheconversationtorevertitbacktothemandexcuseyourselfwhenpossible.Onceyou'reoutofthatunpleasantandunhealthyenvironment,youcangoaheadandprocesshowyoufeelinamuchsaferway.Thisway,youwon’tofferupanyemotionalvulnerabilitytothenarcissist.Andthatleavesyouawinnerinthisfightforpowerthatthenarcissistisinsistentonwinning.
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It'smucheasiertoreadabouttheideaofsettingboundariesandtothinkabouttheboundariesyouwanttosetthanitistoactuallyputthemintoaction.Settingboundariesisn'tjustaone-timething:it'ssomethingthatyouhavetoconsciouslycontinuetoputinplace.Inordertohelpyoubestimplementtheseinawaythatwillensureyoudon'tsliporgivein;self-compassionisagoodthingtodevelop.
Compassionforourselvesissomethingthatournarcissisticpartnersdon'tencourage.Infact,inmostcases,it'ssomethingtheystronglydiscourage,intheircovert,patronizingway.
Ifyoutrytoimplementaboundaryandit'snotgoneassuccessfullyasyou'dhoped,orifyou'vebeentooemotionalorifyou'veallowedyourselftobemanipulatedyetagain,giveyourselfsomecompassion.Understandthatyouareonlyhuman,askyourselfwhatyouwanttododifferentlynexttimeandmoveon.Neverbeatyourselfupaboutmistakesormishaps;youandIbothknowthatotherpeoplecanbequicktoputusdown,sodon’tjointhem.Weneedtobeourownchampionandgiveourselvesavoteofconfidence.
Ifyoufindthatyou'reoverwhelmedbythewaythecovertnarcissistmakesyoufeel,rememberthatyoudon'tneedtobethatpersonwhosaysyestoeverydemandormeetsthereeverydesire.Youcanchoosewhoyouwanttobearoundthem,youcanchoosewhetherornotyouwanttobetheirsourceofnarcissisticsupply.
Ifyou'refeelingshortonself-compassion,askyourselfthesequestions:
DoIwanttofeelsmallbelittledandoverwhelmed,arestrongconfidentandrespected?
HowdootherpeopleseemewhatdoIstandfor?IsthathowIwanttobeperceived?
Youranswerstothesequestionswillhelpyoudecidethepersonyouwanttobeandhelpguideyouinthatdirection.Thecontextthatyoufindintheanswerstothosequestionswillalsohelpembedthefactthatyounolongerwanttobesomebody'sdoormatorverbalpunchingbag.Visualizingthepersonyouwanttobewillhelpyougetthere.
Whilstcovertnarcissistscanbemean,spiteful,patronizingandcanstealthilyintimidatepeople,rememberthattheydofeelinferiorandemptyontheinside.I'mnotsayingthistoyoufeelpityforthenarcissist,butrathersothatyoucanseetheminamorerealisticlight.Ifyouthinkaboutit,itmustbequitedifficult
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seetheminamorerealisticlight.Ifyouthinkaboutit,itmustbequitedifficulttobeconstantlyneedingthatnarcissisticsupplyandcravingvalidationfromothersallthetime.
Underneaththatbullyingknow-it-allexterior,there'sascared,needypersonwhoutilizestoxicandabusivebehaviortohelpthemgetthroughlife.Covertnarcissistsaregenerallyquitewoundedovertheirlimitationsasaperson,butthisdoesn'texcusethey'reabusiveorcontrollingbehavior.
Keepinmindtheirlimitationstohelpyounottaketheirbehaviorpersonally.I'mnotsuggestingyouofferthemempathybecauseofthisoruseitasawaytoexplaintheiractions.Justrememberthattheirinsecuritiesandlimitationsdon'tjustifytheirnarcissisticbehavior.
BeforeIdrawthischaptertoacloseIdowanttomentionsomethingelseI'dlikeyoutokeepinmind:good,solidboundariescanalsoincludeconsequences,andyouneedtofollowthroughwiththeseconsequences.Idon'twantyoutobefearfulofthis,butratherusethisknowledgetounderstandwhatyou’repreparedtodoifyourboundariesareviolated.
Asanexample,ifyou’reinsultedbythenarcissistwhenyouareimplementingaboundary,I'dlikeyoutohaveaconsequenceofwhatwillhappeninyourmindbeforethesituationhappens-youdon'twanttohavetofigureitoutintheheatofthemoment.Iwouldsuggestonlycommunicatingyourdesiredconsequenceonetimebeforecarryingitout.Noexplanationisnecessary.Oncetheconsequencehasbeencommunicated,andthishasbeenignoredandyourboundaryviolated,youmusttakeaction-straightaway,everysingletime.Ifyoudon'tdothisit'snevergoingtobeaseffectiveasifyouareconsistent.InconsistentboundarysettingmeansyoulosecredibilityandremainintheCatandMousegameofthenarcissist.
It'salsoimportanttoknowthatwheneveryousethealthyboundaries,thenarcissistmayuptheanteontheirthreats,verbalattacksandgossipspreading.Thisisoneofthesadrisksofhavinganarcissistinyourlife;beingwithanarcissistdoescomeataprice.Youcanattemptahealthyrelationshipwithanarcissist,butyou'llalwaysbehavingtopickyourbattlesandinteractwithyournarcissistinamoremindfulwaythanyouwouldifyouwereinanon-toxicrelationship.
NowthatI'vegotyouthinkingaboutinteractingwiththenarcissist,itmaybesomethingthatyou'relookingtoimplementandtryyourself,oritmaybesomethingthatyou'renowquestioningyouevenwanttodo.Youmaybe
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somethingthatyou'renowquestioningyouevenwanttodo.Youmaybethinking‘atwhatcostamImaintainingcontactwiththisnarcissist?’
InthisnextchapterI'mgoingtotalkaboutconsideringadifferentpath;aonethatisadmittedlyquitedifficultinthebeginning,butultimatelyturnedoneofthebestchoicesI'veevermade:leavinganarcissisticrelationship.
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I
LookingAfterYou-WaystoLeaveaVulnerableNarcissist
understandjusthowharditistoleavesomeoneyoulove.Althoughournarcissisticspousesundoubtedlytormentuswiththeirmentalandemotional
torture,there'snoquestionastowhetherornotwelovethem.Wemayfeelsillyforlovingsomeonewhotreatsussobadly,butitcan'tbedeniedthatleavingthemisahardthingforustodo,largelybecausewefeelsomuchforthem.
Youmaynotyetbereadytofacetheideaofleavingyourpartner.Youmaybefeellikeyoucan'tlivewiththem,butyoucan'tlivewithoutthemeither,andyou'reinastateofconfusionaboutwhatyou'regoingtodo.Perhapsyou'vedecidedthatyou’regoingtoleaveyourabuser,butyou'rejustwaitingfortherighttime.Itcouldalsobethatyouknowforafactyou'reendingthisrelationship,butyoujustdon'tknowhoworwheretostart.
Ihavefledtwoabusiverelationships,andIcantellyoufromfirst-handexperiencethatit'snoteasy.Leavingmyrelationships,andenduringtheemotionallydrainingmonthsthatfollowed,weresomeofthehardesttimesI’veeverbeenthrough.
Clichéasitmaysound,onceyouleaveatoxicrelationship,andyoucomeoutoftheotherside,you’llwonderhowandwhyyoueverenduredtheemotionaltraumathatyourexputyouthrough.
Thisisprobablythebiggestpieceofadvicethatyoushouldtakeawayfromthischapter:youneedtogonocontact.Thiswasoneofthethingsthatkeptmeinthecycleofabuse;Iwouldleavetherelationship,onlytomaintaincontact,andeventuallybepersuadedtoreturntotherelationship.Forwhateverreason,wealwaysseemtobelievethatitwillbebetterwhenwereturn,ortheabusewillcease.
Thebestwaytoescapeanarcissisticrelationshipistogonocontact.Blocktheirnumber.Blocktheiremailaddress.Anysocialmediayoumayhave,makesurethey'reblockedontheretoo.Iwentasfarasactuallydeletingmysocialmediaprofilesforawhile,justtoavoidmyexkeepingtabsonmeviaotherpeople.Ifyouleaveanarcissist,theiregossimplywon'tbeabletodealwithit;theywill
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trytocontactyou.Theyneedtheirnarcissisticsupplyandthat'syou.Withyougonetheirknee-jerkreactionistogetthatbackatallcosts.
Ofcourse,Iunderstandifyouhavechildrenwiththenarcissist,thisisn'tassimpleasnocontact.Thiswasn'tsomethingIeverhadtodealwith,butIhavespokentoothervictimsofnarcissismwhohadchildrenwiththeirabusivespouse.Someofthemwenttotherapywiththeirexinordertoworkoutaparentingplan,butforthosewhoweredealingwithamoreaggressivenarcissist,ithadtogodownalegalroute.WhilstIcan'tadviseonthedetailsofthis,asthisisn'tsomethingIhadtogothrough,Iwouldadviseimmediatelyworkoutaparentingplan,andifthisisrebuffedbyyourex,youcanconsiderthealternateroutestogodown.
WhenyouleaveIwouldadviseyoutojustgo.Nolongtalkorlingeringgoodbyes-ifyoudothis,you’llbeconvincedtostay,andthenpunishedlaterforwantingtoleave.Ifyoufeellikeit’ssafertodoso,youmayneedtobreakupwithyourabuserviaphoneoreventext.Beclearthatyouaredonewiththerelationship,bestraighttothepoint,andyoumayevenwanttowishthemthebestforthefutureifyoufeelit'sappropriate.Afterthatmybestadviceistoblocktheirnumber.Iwouldthendeletethisstraightaway,soifyouevergettheurgetogetbackintouch,asthatoptionisnowstrippedawayfromyou.It'saformoftoughself-love;itmayhurtyouatthetime,butit'swhat'sbestforyouinthelongrun.
Donotallowyourselftobehooveredbackintotherelationship.Youknowyou'donlybetoldthingsthattheyknowyouwanttohear;rememberyouneedtoendthiscycleoftoxicity.Ifyou'veleftbelongingsorsentimentalitemsattheirplace,ifpossible,cutyourlossesandforgetaboutthem.Whilstmostthingscanbereplaced,it’smuchhardertoreplaceyoursanityandemotionalstability.
Ifyourrelationshipwasquitealengthyone,it'slikelyyouhavefriendsincommon.Infact,yourentirefriendshipcirclemaybethesameasyourex.Iwouldconsiderblockingordetachingyourselffromfriendyouhaveincommon,especiallyoneswhocangobacktothenarcissistandupdateyourexonyourlife.Somefriendsmayeventrytoconvinceyoutogetbackwithyourex.Yourmentalandemotionalhealthisdependentonyourabilitytoremoveyourselfasmuchaspossiblefromthenarcissist.Thismaymeancuttingcertainpeopleoutofyourlife.Doingthisalsoavoidsyougettinganyupdatesonyourexwhichmaytriggeryouwantingtoregaincontact.
Onceyou'reoutoftherelationship,andspendingmoretimealone,thiscanoften
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Onceyou'reoutoftherelationship,andspendingmoretimealone,thiscanoftencauseyoutolookbackontherelationshipwithrosetintedspectacles.Yourreflectionoftherelationshipmaybegintojustbeonthegoodtimes,andyoubegintoforget,orbury,thereasonswhyyouendedtherelationship.duringtimeslikethiswhenyou'refeelingespeciallyweak,Iwouldsuggestwritingdownalistofreasonswhyyouleft.it'svitaltorememberthepartsofyourrelationshipthatcausedyourself-esteemtoplummet,yourself-doubttorise,yoursanitytobequestionedandyourpaintobeusedastheirnarcissisticfuel.
Wereyoucutofffromfamilyandfriendsduringtherelationship?Weretherethingsyouwereunabletodobecauseoftherelationshipthatyou'renowfreetodo?Wasthereaparticularwordorphrasethatwouldbeespeciallyhurtfulwhenyoucalledit?Doyourecallanyspecificpassiveaggressivebehaviorsthataffectedthewayyoureactedtothings?Writeitalldown.Themoreyouwritedown,themoreyoucanthinkof,themoreyourememberanditalmostsnowballsintoalistofreasonswhyyouarebetteroffoutoftherelationship.Itcanbequitecatharticandtherapeutictodothisaswell.
WhenIwrotemylistofreasonswhyIleft,IfoundalotofthelistwasremindingmyselfthatIhavebeenliedtoquitealotthroughouttherelationship.ThiscausedmealotofpainbecauseIknewIwasbeingliedtodeepdown,butmynarcissisticexconvincedmeIwasimaginingthingsorrememberingthingsincorrectly.IwouldlookbackonmyselfintherelationshipandfeelutterlystupidforallowingmyselftobegaslightedandabusedthewayIwas.Iwouldbeatmyselfupforacceptinghisfeebleliesasthetruth.Ofcourse,thisself-blamingbehaviorisn'thelpful,butIjustwanttoletyouknowthatit'sdefinitelyanaturalfeelingafterthedemiseoftherelationship.Allowyourselftofeelthenegativityforjustamoment,andthenmoveon.
It'salsowisetoassumethatthenarcissistwillmoveonprettyquickly.Providingyousticktothenocontactruleandavoidbeingsuckedbackinbythenarcissist,thenarcissistwillneedtofindanothersourceofsupply.Alotoftimes,thenarcissistevenhasabackupplanifanythingweretoeverhappeninyourrelationship.Somebodymayalreadybewaitinginthewings.Whilstthisisundeniablyhurtful,andeventhoughyou'renolongerwiththenarcissist,youstillfeelthesamepainandbetrayal.Howcouldtheymoveonsoquickly?Howdidn'tIrealizetherewassomebodyalreadywaitingtakemyplace?
Don'ttakethisbehaviorpersonally.Thisistheonlywaythenarcissistknowshowtosurvive,andhowtomaintainthatimportantnarcissisticsupply.
However,itcanstillcomeasquiteashocktofindoutthatyournarcissisticex
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However,itcanstillcomeasquiteashocktofindoutthatyournarcissisticexhasswiftlymovedonwithsomeoneelse.Inmycase,ittookmyexanentireninehourstogetsomebodyelsebackintothebedweshared.Ittookhimtwoweekstomakethatpersonhisnewgirlfriend.Inowunderstandthatthispersonwasalreadyinthebackgroundofourrelationship,andsomebodyhewasalreadybeingintimatewithbehindmyback.Whilstitwasn'tafull-blownaffair,theyhadbeenintermittentlyseeingeachotherforaboutsixmonthsbeforeIleft.AsIcametofindout,hewouldvisitherwheneverwehadanargument,orhecouldn'tgethisownway.Whenhewouldsayhewas‘stayingatafriend'shousetogetsomespace’,hewasactuallystayingoverathers.
Ididn'tfindoutaboutthisuntilafewmonthsafterthebreakup.Bythispoint,I'dcomealongwayinregainingsomeself-esteem,self-compassionandunderstandingthatmytoxicrelationshipwasn'tmyfault.However,tofindoutaboutthisotherwomanandallofthesordiddetailsstillfeltlikeadaggerinthegut.I'msureitwouldhavehurtmemuchmoreifIfoundoutmonthsprior,butthefactthatitgottomereallybotheredme.IthoughtIwasoverhim.IntruthIwasoverhim,buttheeffectsoftheabusestilllingered,andthat'swhatwascausingthepain.Inlongrun,himmovingonquicklygivememoreclosure.ItassuredmethatIwasdisposabletohim,andjustanotherformofnarcissisticsupply.Iwasbetterthanthat,andIwasworthmorethanhecouldeverofferme.Despitetheinitialpain,himmovingonliberatedme.
Withallbreakups,youdoneedtogiveyourselftimetogrieve.It'sallthemoredifficult,Ibelieve,togrieveanabusiveex.Notonlyareyoumourningthedemiseoftherelationship,you'regrievingthepersonyouthoughtyourexwas.Theremayalsobeasenseofoverwhelmingshock,asthenarcissistrevealsevenmoreevilandsadisticbehaviorspostbreakup.
Mostnarcissistswilllovebomb*atthebeginningofarelationship.Youmayfeelsweptoffyourfeetandliketheluckiestpersonintheworldduringthebeginningstagesofyourrelationship.Theshockandsadnessthatcomeswiththerealizationthatthisisn'tatruereflectionofthatpersoncanbeearthshattering.
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*LOVEBOMBDEFINITION:Lovebombingisanattempttoinfluenceapersonbydemonstrationsofattentionandaffection.Itcanoftenbeusedwithnegative
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BYTHETIMEYOU'VEfallenforthischarmer,you'vealreadyformedanemotionalbond.Whentherelationshipendsyouareremovingyourselffromthispersonwhothere'sabigpartofyourlife.Youneedtogrievethat.
I'mabigadvocateforlisteningtoyouremotions,askingyourselfhowyou’refeeling,andmakingsureyouhaveplentiful‘you’time.Allowyourselftofeelthemirageofemotionsthatcomewiththebreakup.Inthesamebreath,don'tallowyourselftodwell.It'safinelinethatyouneedtokeepaneyeon.Ifyoufeellikeyou’redwelling,it'simportanttofindthingstokeepyouoccupied.Giveyourselfsomedistractions.Dothethingsthatyouwereunabletododuringtherelationship.Learnnewhobbies,getupanddosomeexercise,meetupwithfriends,findwaystomakenewfriends...whateveryoudo,makeitsomethingthatwillnourishyou,evenifyoudon'treallyfeellikedoingit.
You'llthankyourselflater.
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