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Excerpts from “Awakening of the Consciousness” and “The
Miracle of Consciousness””
The Mystery of Daily Consciousness
Authored by Frank M. Wanderer
The “pressing” issues and events of our daily life
occupy our attention so much that very often we
forget about the miracle of our human essence, about
the Miracle of Consciousness.
Our culture concentrates our attention almost
exclusively on the forms and shapes, so wherever we
look, we only see objects: a table and chairs in the
room, then our attention sweeps across all the other
items of furniture. At the same time we disregard the
”emptiness”, the space that makes it possible to forms
and shapes to exist at all. Similarly, if we examine our
mind, we only take notice of its contents–forms and
shapes: bodily sensations, emotions and thoughts, but
not the conscious space in which the forms and
shapes appear.
In our usual state of consciousness we stay
submerged in the multitude of forms and shapes. In
this state of consciousness we play the scenario of the
film of our life. We look around and see objects that
are desirable to us, we wish to possess them, and we
also see objects that scare us and we want to stay
away from those. We are carried away by the
colourful, noisy and scented whirling of life, and we
fully abandon ourselves in this whirlpool. In this
”troubled,” mind-dominated state our identity is
determined by the beliefs, thoughts, emotions and
feelings whirling in us, everything we have learnt in
the course of our life. That is how the Miracle of
Consciousness has sunk into oblivion, and it is now
covered with the grey veil of ordinariness.
The Miracle of Consciousness remains there, shining
in the background of the identities that are lost in the
daily dreams of forms and shapes, in our vanished
consciousness.
The Levels of Daily Consciousness
In an ordinary sense, being conscious means the
simultaneous presence of three levels in our
Consciousness.
The first level is that of the present. It means that at
the present moment we are awake, capable of reacting
to stimuli from the external world. We sense our
external and internal environments at the same time.
When we feel hungry, we find some food in the
fridge. If it starts raining, we open our umbrellas. The
second level is that of the past. We are able to
remember who we are, what our personal life story is,
we can recall a smaller or larger part of the
information we have learnt at school or read at books
in our life. The third level of daily consciousness
takes us to the future, as there are the objectives we
intend to achieve in the rest of our life. The second
two levels constitute the level of psychological time,
in which the film of our life is playing.
These three levels are present in every person who is
conscious in the ordinary sense. If any one of the
three is missing, we believe that there is something
wrong with the person concerned, and (s)he should
seek medical assistance.
Some people live largely in the past, dealing a lot
with the memories of the past, whereas others are
preoccupied by the future, they keep thinking about
their future plans, phantasies, or fears of the future.
These people rarely visit the level of the present, they
only use it when they satisfy their physical needs or
perform activities that they are only able to do in the
present. Most people in Earth live either in the past or
the future, they mostly stay in the psychological
levels of time, and not so much in the present.
In our days, however, more and more people are able
to detach themselves from the psychological levels of
time, they no longer deal so much with the future and
the past, but discover present, and find peace of mind
in the tranquility of the here and now. They have
realized that past and future only exist in their mind,
as psychological time, and the cornerstone of their
life is found in the ”here and now.”
Our Distorted Image of Reality
Whichever level of the ordinary consciousness,
turned away from the Miracle of Consciousness,
dominates one’s life, we are all convinced that our
ordinary consciousness faithfully reflects the reality
that surrounds us and in which we live.
Well, psychologists tend to disagree with that wide-
spread belief. The findings of psychological research
suggest that ordinary consciousness only represent the
tip of the iceberg, because people are aware of 5-10%
of the functions of their personality.
When, for instance during the weekly shopping you
notice a new technical gadget in the shopping centre,
the desire to possess it arises in you, and you pass by
the shelves with flour on them, because you forget
that you have actually left home in order to buy flour.
At such an occassion what you see is not the reality,
you are lost in the products of your mind. Human life
is largely governed by desires and actions the person
is unaware of, that belong to the unconscious
functions of the personality.
As a consequence, the reality appearing in the
background of Consciousness is distorted at almost
any human being, everybody lives their life as a
captive of this distorted image of reality. It is the
same regardless of which level of ordinary
consciousness we live our life on. The image is the
clearest with those who live on the level of the
present, but not even the attention focused on the
present is fully able to eliminate all the distorting
effects.
How is that possible?
The explanation is that the distortion is in connection
with the functions of the mind, the Ego. It does not
mean that the Ego is bad, it is evil and intentionally
distorts reality. The Ego is working hard to help our
personality in adapting to the constantly changing
circumstances of life, to enable us to do that without
any serious injuries. One of the most important
responsibilities of ego is to curb the desires and
emotions that keep the mind under constant siege.
These desires and emotions demand immediate
satisfaction, to gain as much pleasure and joy as
possible and to avoid unpleasant situations. Another
task of the Ego is to meet the continuous social
expectations that oblige the individual to observe the
rules of the community and to lead a decent and
ethical life. The individual is supposed to make the
ethics of the society as the foundation of their life,
and not the continual pursue of pleasure and joy. The
third major function of the Ego is to adapt to the
conditions of the moment in which exists in any given
time.
The Ego is therefore making efforts to somehow
manage the present moment, the present reality in the
eternal crossfire of desires, emotions and ethical
warnings. In this way, reality is a menacing problem
towering in front of the Ego. It is not surprising that
poor Ego is in the state of constant anxiety. The
lasting anxiety would prevent it from effectively
fulfilling its mission. In order to reduce the anxiety
and in the defence of the personality, the Ego distorts
reality and creates an image of the reality in which
anxiety either drops to a tolerable level or is
completely eliminated.
The Mechanisms of Distortion
The scientists of the soul, psychologists point out that
the Ego-dominated mind, formerly identified with
ordinary consciousness, works on a much broader
range than we previously supposed. It works both in
the spheres of conscious and unconscious.
The Ego therefore attempts to protect its conscious
part against the anxiety radiating from the
unconscious part. How does the Ego accomplish
that? It uses mechanisms referred to as self-protecting
mechanisms. These are functions that fend off anxiety
and work outside the Self, in the realm of the
unconscious.
Everybody has heard of hypnosis. When a person is
hypnotized by a psychologist, because for instance
the individual wishes to give up smoking, the
psychologist may issue a so-called post-hypnotic
instruction to the hypnotized person. After the
hypnosis the instruction sinks into the subconscious
of the person. E. g. the psychologist instructs the
person that when the psychologist removes his
glasses, the hypnotized person should stand up and
open the window. The following day, when they have
a chat about the weather before the treatment, the
psychologist suddenly takes off his glasses. In the
patient an inner urge, a desire arises that he must open
the window. If the patient fails to satisfy this inner
desire, he will be overcome by anxiety. So he asks the
psychologist, ”It is so stuffy in here, isn’t it?” Not
even waiting for an answer, he walks up to the
window and opens it.
This is one of the most common self-protecting
mechanism, termed in psychology as rationalization.
It means that people do most of the things they do not
because what they believe is the reason of their
actions, but there may be something entirely different
in the background. There may an unconscious desire,
an unconscious emotion or an unconscious program
(a post-hypnotic instruction installed into the
subconscious part of the Ego by their parents or
teachers). With the help of rationalization, the person
will seek an acceptable reason for his behaviour
which is satisfactory for both themselves and society.
Another common self-protecting mechanism is
suppression. It means that the individual forces
unpleasant experience and memories that are the
source of anxienty into subconscious, that is, forgets
about them. This is, however, not the natural
forgetting that is part of human life. This process is
selective, which means that we tend to ignore things
which are subject to suppression. It can be so
powerful that it may even influence us in detecting
the physical objects of our environment. E. g.
somebody may not find an object for days, though it
is there openly in from of the person, but it invokes
negative memories in the individual.
A person may believe that nobody in the whole wide
world loves him/her, everybody is against him/her,
everybody wants to hurt him/her. If such thoughts do
not only appear occassionally, but permanently
preoccupy the person, may be signs of a self-
protecting mechanism. It is called projection. The
individual projects unacceptable emotions and
thoughts to those in their environment and these
emotions and thoughts appear as external threats.
External threats are easier to handle and overcome for
the person than to deal with their own internal
emotions. For an individual the idea that their
environment is hostile and hateful is a more
acceptable than supposing the same about themselves.
There is a wide range of other self-protecting,
anxiety-diverting mechanisms as well, which are
present in everybody to a smaller or larger extent, so
nobody is able to escape the reality distorting effects
of these mechanisms, not even those who place the
focus of their existence in the Present.
Beyond Ordinary Consciousness
We must therefore profoundly understand that
everything we perceive of the outside world is just an
inner image distorted by the Ego-dominated mind.
This image of reality only contains a fragment of the
potential ”totality;” it comprises what our conscious
attention selects and separates from it for us, and the
unconscious operation of the Ego distorts this image.
With our ordinary consciousness we are identical
with our life story, career and convinctions. These
are, however, only contents we identify with
ourselves, while these contents are projected out into
the realm of the Consciousness, of the Miracle. We
are aware of what we think and know about our
emotions.
All this would not be possible without a knower of all
the contents. When we shift the emphasis from our life
story, from the forms and shapes to a quest for this
knower, the Consciousness, formerly hidden from us,
we have reached beyond ordinary consciousness.
This quest will take us to the recognition of the
Miracle of Consciousness, which means that our
image of the world is just content inside the space of
the Consciousness. We ourselves are the space of the
pure Consciousness, and the concepts, emotions and
ideas that we formerly erroneously identified our
entire Self, are in fact inside us. We wake up to the
fact that we are ourselves the Miracle!
It is possible to directly experience this Miracle, this
pure space of Consciousness. It is a new dimension
which escaped our attention before. The truth is that
it is the only existing dimension, into which the forms
and shapes of the external world are projected, and
here we experience our bodily sensations, emotions
and ideas which are not more than the phenomena of
this dimension.
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We therefore discover ourselves a new dimension,
and this new dimension, this Miracle is an ancient,
undescribable but sensible, living and infinite space,
emptiness in which bodily sensations, emotions, ideas
and physical forms emerge and vanish, like waves on
the surface of the ocean. We know that this Miracle
exists; It is the only existing Life.
It exists, as an ancient, living empty space, a
Consciousness conscious of itself, comprising
everything. There is nothing outside it, everything
that exists is born inside it, within its space, as its
manifestations. This state is characterized by
tranqulity, deep silence, peace and eternal love.
We experience that this Miracle, this mysterious
”something” is beyond time, it has no beginning and
end, it was never born and will never die. If no forms
and shapes appear inside, then it will not be conscious
of itself, it just exists ”passively,” sleeping without
dreams. Once forms and shapes are created, it awakes
to the existence of those forms and shapes, and
recognizes itself as the creator of the forms, it awakes
to its own existence.
If a person does not only experience the more
conscious Self emerging in the present moment as an
assumed role, but is able to fully submit to the
Miracle unfolding in the ”Here and Now,” this space
in the Consciousness, the person will live in that
space to an increasing extent.
If the cornerstone of our life is in the Present, in the
”Here and Now,” our attention will gradually turn
away from the whirlpool of forms and shapes, and we
discover the Miracle of Consciousness. We find the
source of our existence in that Miracle, and no longer
in the world of forms and shapes.
Drowning in the Sea of Expectations
Authored by Frank M. Wanderer
It must have occured a number of times in our life
that we were supposed to meet so many expectations
at a time that we almost drowned in the sea of
expectations. At our job our boss wants us to be good
employees, good workforce, our colleagues want us
to be good colleagues and our subordinates want us to
be a good boss. In addition to all this, there are the
expectations of the family members, who want us to
be a good husband, a good wife, a good child. And
we have not yet talked about our own expectations in
connection with ourselves. It is not surprising that we
find it virtually impossible to meet all the
expectations.
Put all the expectations in the light of Consciousness,
and examine where they come from and why they
have such a powerful compelling force in our life.
The Power of the Situation
All the expectations mentioned above emerge from
the immense social space which surrounds us, and is
commonly referred to as society. It is thus fully
justified to call our expectations social expectations,
irrespective of whether they are in connection with a
specific situation or a person.
The more complex a society is, the more space a
specific member of it is supposed to occupy in the
complicated system of human relationship. These
spaces are called social statuses. Such a status can be
of gender (man or woman), family (husband, wife,
child, sibling, relative etc.), occupation (teacher,
policeman etc.) and of occassion (customer, patient
etc.).
Every such occupied status involves a set of rules, the
system of expectations that dictate how the individual
occupying the status is supposed to behave in a
specific situation, how to behave as a man, a father, a
doctor etc.
These expectations tell us how we must and how we
must not behave in a specific situation and in
connection with a specific person.
In the majority of cases, these expectations work
unconsciously, almost like automatic programs
running in our life. These deep programs have
become a part of our mind in the course of our
upbringing, and they are activated by a specific
situation in which we are or a person we get into
contact with. Then we put on the appropriate mask,
tailored to the specific situation or person.
We occupy several statuses at the same time, so it
seems that we drown in the sea of expectations. It is
also common that the various expectations attached
to various statuses collide with each other, generating
further anxiety and stress for us.
The Programs of Internal Expectations
As our personality develops, some of the external
social expectations become internal ones, and merge
into our personality and appear as expectations
towards ourselves in our daily life.
Our scruples are derived from these social
expectations turned inner ones. Scruples start working
when we infringe a rule acquired from our parents or
teachers, we do not behave as are supposed to.
Everybody knows the unpleasant and compelling
feeling that drives us back to the track originally
dictated to us by the social expectations turned inner
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Another social expectation that becomes an integral
part of our inner value system appears at the level of
requirements and demands in our life. Our parents
and teachers wanted us to meet the expectations of a
specific status as well as we could. Our desire to meet
the expectations is a demand on our side.
Often we set very high goals and strive to do
something perfectly in order to meet our inner
demand, that level of requirements. If we perform
below our standard requirements, the compelling
force appears again, and the unpleasant feeling spurs
us to achieve a higher performance, so as to reach at
least our standard level.
Since we are unable to be perfect in all areas of life,
the unpleasant feelings may become permanent.
The Involuntary Track Dictated by the Expectations
What keeps us on the forced track of expectations,
why do not we simply leave it behind?
The dynamizing power of the social expectations is
provided by our identification with the internal and
external expectations, and base our identity on them.
We identify with our social statuses, with the masks
of our roles in our gender, family and occupation.
These masks are attached to us so closely that we
would not be able to exist without them. We indentify
ourselves with our internal expectations, and our
scruples and level of demands often constitute the
cornerstone of our identity.
We are so deeply identified with these social
expectations, we do not notice that these very
expectations convert us into replicas, fake
personalities. The pages of our personal history are
written by these external forces imposed upon us by
society, they determine how to see the world, how to
think about the world, how to think about it, what to
believe in, what is good for us and what we should
avoid.
That is how we have lost our individuality over the
years and became unconsciously the victims of a
manipulation based upon public agreement. The
social expectations have been shaped through a
general agreement over the centuries, and became
manipulative because we insisted on our
identification with separate state of consciousness.
That is how we jointly sustain this identity, rooted in
isolation, this social ”creatureness,” because, due to
our ignorance, we stick to the world of forms and
shapes. We are only able to imagine our personal
existence in the here and now.
Existence without Expectations
When we look at the social expectations in the light
of Consciousness, we must ask the question: are we
able to live without expectations, what is a life
without expectations like?
The problem does not lie with the expectations. The
expectations are natural parts of our existence in the
world of forms and shapes, just as it would be
impossible to live as a form without our body.
Without expectations we would be unable to exist as
a part of the social space in which we live at present.
The compelling force of the expectations is rooted in
our identification with the expectations, the fact that
we cling to our personal identity and the masks that
come with it, and the expectations are a natural part
of all this.
The proper question to ask is, whether we exist at all
beyond our personal identity, beyond our masks?
Our world appears in the space of Consciousness, and
the dance of the varied forms takes place in it. Out
thoughts, emotions, expectations and everything we
sense also appears in that space of Consciousness.
That is the space of Consciousness, this Miracle is the
only phenomenon which is not a ”thing”, is a „no-
thing”, not a manifest object but a space-like, wakeful
emptiness in which the image of the world, thoughts
and emotions appear.
We, however, in our present, dormant state identify
with the appearing content elements of the space of
the Consciousness, although our real self is nothing
but the very space of Consciousness. We ourselves
are the Miracle!
If we give up the efforts aimed at building up our
personal identity from the contents appearing in the
space of the Consciousness, and instead recognize
ourselves as the space of the Consciousness, then–and
only then–we are able to exist without expectations.
In an existence without expectations we still continue
to meet the basic social expectations rooted in the
social status we, for a while, fulfill in the world of
forms and shapes. We continue to function as a
father, mother, doctor, accountant etc.
At present, the program of our internal expectations
have already been dissolved, and we no longer
identify with our expectations of the other people.
Our entire Self is filled by the Miracle.
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The Law of Attraction
Authored by Frank M. Wanderer
At some point of the spiritual quest most Wanderers
encounter the law of attraction at theoretical, practical
or both levels. That encounter has been the reason for
a lot of misunderstandings, so it is necessary to
examine the law of attraction in the light of
Consciousness.
Let us first clarify what the law of attraction means?
Michael J. Losier’s opinion about the subject:
”Wherever I turn my attention, whatever I focus my
energy on, positive or negative, I attract that thing
into my life. The law of attraction reacts to any
vibration you emit by giving you even more of the
thing–whether it is positive or negative vibration. The
attraction simply reacts to your vibration.”
It means that we are attracting things that match the
quality of our existence. And the quality of our
existence depends on the quality of our thoughts and
emotions. According to the law of attraction, it solely
depends on us whether we attract happiness, peace or
suffering and feud into our lives.
If we want to convert suffering into happiness with
the help of the law of attraction, all we need to do is
attend a course that teaches us the proper way.
The Promise of the Master Key
This passage is from the brochure of a course:
For everybody who wants to do something about
improving his/her life, the best news is that it is
possible to achive what he/she really wants at any
time. The choice is solely up to us. Anybody is able to
do it by learning and practising the appropriate
method.
The offer follows like this:
I would like you to imagine a large iron gate. It is a
heavy gate, difficult to open. It keeps you where you
do not want to be at all. It seems, however, that one
day the gate will open up, and when it happens, you
may experience freedom that you have so far been
able to read only. In your dreams you live where you
want to be, you can empty the goblet of joys to the
bottom, you may draw the income that you believe
you honestly deserve, that is, you can live the way you
would like to!
The course offers you a chance; let us open that gate
together, and once we have done that, a new world,
full of possibilities and promises will open up for you.
You will receive an answer to your question why so
far you have not lived in the wealth you know so well
that you deserve.
Our whole life is a rush. We chase our desires and
unfulfilled dreams. We are attracted by money,
power, prestige, a wholesome, happy life. All this lies
there hidden behind the powerful iron gate that is
towering in front of us. But now we are given the
master key, with which we achieve all our goals,
because we will be able to open the iron gate. By the
masterful use of the law of attraction we will be able
to achieve everything that we have been longing for
so far, everything we desire will be lying at our feet.
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The Downfall of Vampires
Authored by Frank M. Wanderer
Vampire stories are fashionable nowadays. Creatures
of superhuman abilities feed on human blood in order
to stay alive. What is the reason for that popularity?
From a psychological aspect, it is clear that people
suffer from various anxieties and fears that cannot be
connected to any specific object, so people are unable
to deal with those fears. Once the fear takes a specific
form (e. g. that of a vampire), it is possible to fight
and overcome it.
In this way we project the heroism or defeat of the
fight against our own anxieties into the fight against
the vampires, depending on which side we identify
with.
Another form of vampirism is that of the energy
vampire, who draws energy from other creatures. It is
not feeding on blood, but on the energy and
cheerfulness of others. Consciously, but even more
often subconsciously, the energy vampire creates a
situation in which it is able to draw on other
creatures’ vitality. They need it beacuse their own
vitality diminished considerably, they are full of
negative emotions.
People who are in reality energy vampires struggle
with a multitude of problems, but instead of looking
into themselves, they tend to blame all their problems
on the outside world. They expect salvation from
others who they either pamper or want to see
suffering, because seeing others suffering temporarily
recharge them with energy.
The Vampire Nature of Thoughts
In the following, the nature of vampirism shall be
examined from an entirely different aspect, that of
Consciousness. From this aspect, it is best to
approach the phenomenon of vampirism through the
vampire nature of thoughts.
“Thoughts and vampirism? How can these two things
be mentioned on the same page?”–the Ego-
dominated mind, relying on identification with
thoughts, begins to protest immediately. For the mind
it is really outrageous, as it suggests that the Ego-
dominated mind itself is cursed with a vampiric
nature.
Physics, especially quantum theory, revealed the fact
that matery is nothing but energy vibrating between
existence and non-existence. In this way, thoughts are
also a form of energy. Thoughts are small energy
creatures that we continually supply with energy by
lastingly thinking of something.
As a result of analyzing the nature of these energy-
creatures, our spiritual experience suggests that as
there are negative and positive thoughts, there are
energy thoughts with positive and negative charges.
While positive thought energy is constructive,
negative thought energy is destructive.
Regardless of their nature, every thought energy is an
autonomous creature, the life of which depends on
whether the ”host organism” feeds it or not. When it
is ”hungry,” that is, its energy level is low, it clings to
its host organism in a vampire-like way, hipnotizing it
to feed it with similar thoughts. That is how positive
thoughts produce further positive, and negative ones
further negative thoughts.
That is how we do our continual dance in the
treadmill of our thoughts, rising on the wings of
positive thoughts and falling back to the depths again
on negative ones. This process is going on in the
background of our Consciousness, we hardly notice
that the purpose of the whole thing is to nourish our
thought creatures.
Downfall
All this suggests that our thoughts, regardless of their
positive or negative nature, exploit us like vampires,
draining away our energies, thus reducing the chances
of the awakening of the Consciousness from the
world of shapes and forms.
How is it possible to terminate that thought-
vampirism?
Most people are incapable of that, as they live their
life under the hypnosis of the mind, identifying with
their thoughts.
It goes on until they realize that they are more than
simple conceptual definitions, more than their body
and emotions, and realize that the essence of their
existence is their Consciousness, their awareness in
the Present moment.
Experiencing this (and it is insufficient to understand
it on the levels of the thoughts, of the mind), then the
light of Consciousness will bring about the downfall
of the energy-vampires and terminates their
independent existence.
The light of Consciousness will shine upon the
vampire activities of the thought creatures that has
been going on in the subconscious so far. Seeing this
energy-draining activity, we will be no longer ready
to nourish them (independently of their positive or
negative nature). They will be left without food, so
they will gradually disperse, giving way to the more
and more powerful light of Consciousness in us.
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Spread your Wings and Fly Away!
Authored by Ervin K. Kery
How many people suffer because they are unable to
utilize their potentials to the fullest? How many
believe that they are unable to live their own lives
because their environment impedes them, with false
references to ”loyalty," "traditions," and "customs?"
Have you ever had the impression that deep inside
you shrink smaller and smaller, and you give up your
dreams just in order to meet the expectations of your
environment?
In the young seagull the desire arises to spread
his wings and discover the distances
promising so many wonders. The other
seagulls were scared, and strictly reproached
him: ”The sense of life is to fly as far as you
find food. If you fly any further, you will be
alone, and won’t find the way back.” Though
the young seagull was scared of finding
himself alone, he was unable to resist the
temptation of flying far away, and he tested
his wings day by day. Successes were
followed by failures, but he did not give up:
every day he flew a bit higher. One day he
flew higher than the clouds, and the familiar
landscape disappeared from his eyes, and he
saw nobody around him. He could have felt
lonely, but he still did not feel lonely. He was,
instead, unique. The little seagull soared on,
enjoying the currents of the air. Then he met a
seagull–its wings were shining bright. Then
newer and newer seagulls appeared, with their
wings shining bright. The little seagull arrived
in his new home...
(The story was inspired by Richard Bach’s book entitled:
“Jonathan Livingstone, the seagull.")
You are individual and unique, a special
manifestation of life. Or-in other words-you are an
unique flower of life. You are unique: the level of
your Consciousness is unique, and so are your
experience, recognition and wisdom. You have
unique skills that you have learnt in a unique way–no
matter how objective the information is, as long as
you have acquired it, it has gone through your
individual and unique filters, thus gaining an
individual color. Your experience is your experience,
and even if your friends have similar ones, those are
still only similar, and not fully identical with your
own experience. These experiences give birth to
unique recognitions–these constitute your own
wisdom. There has never been, there is not, and there
will never be another person who is fully identical
with you. Your countless individual characteristics,
complementing and mutually reinforcing each other,
add up to an absolutely unique individual–that is your
gift to Life. Through you, a peculiar flower of Life is
blooming, and this flower is your personal gift to
mankind, to existence.
Why would you need to be a copy of anyone else?
Why would you need to imitate others, who are
”more successful” and ”cool?” Why would you need
to uncritically accept the dogmas of others, when you
also possess the source of wisdom, waiting to be
utilized? Why would you need to dwindle, to give up
your dreams?
…And still, the story is repeated on innumerable
occasions... You arrive on this wonderful planet so
rich in opportunities, you start on your journey, to
explore it with innocent curiosity, you begin to know
yourself, you acquire individual knowledge, add it to
your individual skills, gather experience and wisdom.
Then you are unable to use all this, because your
environment tells you to often to stay pout, to stay
where you are. Instead of the immense opportunities
of the endless journey, you choose the narrow path
they show you, and you must not detour from that
path. Your grand plans and ideas from your teenage
evaporate, you give up your dreams, and you suppress
your deep-rooted desires of self-implementation. You
burn out, you become indifferent and insensitive to
the miracles of life, and you are quietly broken.
At a meeting the participants were dealing
with the question whether there is life after
death. The Zen master said nothing, just
laughed, and refused to answer question. The
disciples became increasingly impatient, and
wanted him to answer their questions. ”Now,
is there life after death, or there is not?” they
demanded.
”Have you noticed that it is always those who
want another, eternal life, who are unable to
do anything with their present life? The
questions is, whether there is life before
death?” he said mysteriously.
(Anthony de Mello)
Dou you have a life before your death?–that is the
only question the answer to which you must find
yourself. Are you able to live your own (not infinite)
life, or will you copy the life of others? Do you live in
the present moment, or are you a ghost wandering in
the past or pursue the dreams and nightmares of the
future? Are you able to discover that the most
important point of your existence is existence itself,
enjoying the nectar of a life lived to the full?
When you start your journey of inner development,
experiences will become recognitions, and these
recognitions usually dramatically transform the way
you look at the world and yourself. A change of
world-view takes place in you, your old beliefs are no
longer valid, and you wake up in a larger and more
receptive world. This awakening may, at the same
time, bring about a change of your environment.
Some people will look at you worried, whereas others
with hatred, as they do not understand the reasons of
your change. With your new and broader world view
you become a stranger, a menace for them, and a
reaction of their internal Ego appears: "You are
different from us! You have deserted and betrayed us,
you no longer have a place among us!" Where you
used to have a good time previously, you have no
place now. That is too small place a home for your
expanded world view. As your old environment and
old friends and acquaintances become hampering
factors, you can do nothing but leave them behind.
You leave them behind, so that you can freely try your
own, newly discovered wings! You do not need to
break up all connections with them, or to react to their
negative emotions in any way, all you need to do is to
accept that everybody acts according to their own
levels of Consciousness, shapes their own
environment and lives in it. You accept them as they
are, you do not intend to change them: their way is
not your way. If they are able to, they accept
peacefully or at least acknowledge your change, if
not, that is their responsibility and not yours.
Everybody is responsible for their own life. You may
look at another person with empathy and
understanding, but you cannot take responsibility for
their fate. His life is his way; you may peacefully help
him in his difficulties, but you cannot redeem him.
The only thing you are responsible for is how
consciously you live your own life. You are in no
way able to redeem the world, but you can be a
shining light of Consciousness, illuminating your
environment. Where there is light, darkness cannot
rule. The only thing that counts is you should be this
Consciousness in the eternal moment of Now, and
allow Life wishing to soar in you arise.
When you submit to the depths of the Present, the
actor will not be "you," the ”small self," who drives
on to achieve something, to manipulate, influence,
control and rule, but Life itself will spread its wings
in you. Just as a small seed grows into a beautiful rose
without any willful intention, as a seagull, able to
soar, hatches from an egg, as a caterpillar turns into a
colorful butterfly, the program of Life is there in you,
and takes to wings–if you allow it to. It is not possible
to bring up a man with education, training, religious
or educational methods; it will only create a member
of a society. The program of becoming a man is in
you, just as the program of developing your
individuality is also there in you. You do not need to
do more than allowing it to unfold, in an alert,
permissive, receptive and conscious way.
You and I, we were all born with gull wings. This
book is intended to point out those wings. Discover
them, spread them, and soar! The infinite world is out
there, waiting for you!
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About the Authors
Frank M. Wanderer
(Ph.D, Prof. of Psychology, consciousness
researcher, writer)
The awakening of the
Consciousness leads us from
our own personal history to the
pure space of Consciousness.
There we experience the
Miracle, and all personal
histories become insignificant.
Despite this, I would like to
present a few pages of my
personal history to the reader,
as every journey on the road starts with a personal
history. That is the only way it may start, there is no
alternative; that is the only way leading to the
awakening of the Consciousness, the appearance of
the Miracle.
Since my early childhood, I have been interested in
the Miracle, the mystery of human existence, the
mystery that summoned us from the Nothing, and the
mystery we are destined to solve in our life.
I still remember my beloved mother’s astonished face
when, after some of my questions, she turned to the
others: “Now, look at that, what that kid is asking!”
The questions did not stop in the later years but, as I
did not find appropriate partner from whom I could
expect answers, the questions mostly remained within
the walls of my room, and I myself attempted to find
the answers.
My motivation became even more powerful after the
following adventure: I was at the elementary school
(12 years old), walking home from school and
suddenly I experienced the Miracle, the completeness,
the experience of the unity with the Self. At that time,
naturally, I was not able to describe it that way, but
the sense of unity and happiness was what I
experienced.
That experience did not result in my lasting
awakening, it faded away after a while, but it left
behind a burning wound, a real sense of want. At the
same time, it showed me the way where to look for it
answers to my questions.
There was a long way to go to the second awakening.
The first awakening made me start dealing with
esoterica and find books on the subject.
Leaving the years of childhood behind, in my
adulthood I became intensively interested in human
soul, in the work of the human mind.
As a teacher and psychologist I have met a lot of
people, and had an opportunity to study the ”normal”
operation of human ego, and also its functions that are
considered as not normal. I turned the pages of
innumerable books of personal histories, trying to
find the cornerstones that give the dramas and
ecstasies of these personal histories meaning and
sense.
I eventually found that cornerstone in the Miracle, in
the awakening of the Consciousness, which
demonstrated the futility of these personal histories
and at the same time it showed the treasure to be
found in them.
The personal histories are futile from the aspect of the
awakening because we identify with our mind and we
allow its unconscious functions to control our life and
steer the boat of our life in one, and some time later
just the opposite direction, depending on the actual
desire or ambition dominating our mind. That is how
page after page is filled in the history of our life until
the last page arrives, and we realize the futility of all
that happened before.
Our personal history may, however, have a very
profound meaning if we become more wakeful and
alert to these mind games, and recognize the Miracle,
the wide open spaces of the Consciousness that is
beyond our personal history. That pure consciousness
was what I experienced as a child, and that is what I
found again as a result of my regular meditation
exercises that I had started a few years ago.
We must therefore wake up from our identification
with our personal history, so as to be able to find our
identity in the Miracle, the mystery of the
Consciousness, instead of the world of the forms and
shapes.
http://the-awakening-of-consciousness.blogspot.com
Contact me at [email protected]
Ervin K. Kery
(consciousness researcher, writer, publisher)
What is the nature of the human
soul, the human spirit? Why do
we think the way we actually
do? How our habits and roles
evolve? What are we, beyond
our roles? What is the
mysterious Life that lives in me,
and experiences the world
through me?
I have long been fascinated
by the secret of human existence, the mystery of
human soul/spirit. There has to be something that is
beyond social roles and programming. There has to
be a ”foundation,” which lives in me as life, and to
which learnt and acquired thoughts and habits, the
programmed patterns–the personality–are attached.
Psychology, still not a full-fledged science, only
studies the conditioned patterns of behavior, that is,
the Ego (it is therefore possible to refer to it as the
science of the Ego), but it does not address the issues
that precede the emergence of the Ego, not does it
deal with whatever is beyond the Ego. What is the
eternal factor that follows us from our birth to our
death, no matter what a mature and powerful
personality we believe we have?
I have been enthusiastically and anxiously studying
the human consciousness for over twenty years,
experimenting with various methods of meditation,
hoping that in this way I would finally understand
myself and the world completely. This understanding,
however, did not come easily.
Then something extraordinary happened. When I
was deep in my adulthood, a critical period came in
my life; everything I had believed in, collapsed.
Mulling over the past and the dark visions of the
future brought about a lot of suffering, and when I
was no longer able to face the internal hell, there was
nothing to be done, and I gave up the fight. I was not
able to carry the burden of my sufferings any longer.
At that time, something mysterious took place, and it
shattered all my former ideas about myself and the
world. When I finally released all that had been
previously, I was able to get over the heavy prison of
my personality, and for hours I felt some incredible
inner peace, and a curious ”something” was
contemplating the miraculous external world through
me. After a while, however, the tormenting thoughts
and the suffering returned.
This experience changed me drastically. From that
time on, I have focused all my attention to learn what
that exceptional experience was, and how it is
possible to make that experience constant. In the
course of my research I found that the most
elementary method of all spiritual disciplines is
monitoring the Consciousness living in us. That is
what meditation is for, the profound prayer of monks,
and the practice of transpersonal psychology. I
therefore began to concentrate on the Consciousness
inside me.
At that time we purchased a farmhouse in the country,
far from the noise of the external world, so I retreated
there from Budapest in order to abandon myself into
observing my own inner world. I persisted in turning
inward: I watched my bodily sensations, my emotions
and thoughts and also the actor that senses all these:
the Consciousness. As I concentrated my conscious
attention on myself, I began to believe my own
thoughts, emotions and convictions, and started to
wake up from the dream world of dogmas. I woke up,
then I woke up again, through a series of awakenings,
each time into a more spacious world and a larger
image of the world, until what had previously
happened spontaneously, took place again.
After a few years of practice, the state of observing
Consciousness became permanent. In this period I
have made several astonishing discoveries about our
real Self and the nature of the world.
I wish to describe these discoveries in the chapters of
this book that I authored and contributed.
Websites: http://www.consciousness.cf,
http://secretsofenlightenment.blogspot.com
E-mail: [email protected]
I recommend this book to you with love, so that it will
help you recognize and accept the Miracle!
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What is the Ego? What are the Games Rooted in the
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of the Spiritual Ego.
The Ego accompanies the Seeker along the first
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There is a mysterious human dimension, the
recognition of which shatters all our ideas about who
we are, where we come from and what our mission in
this world is. This is the realm of Consciousness: the
final scientific and spiritual mystery.
This book is about the mysteries and miracles of
Consciousness. About the living spirit in action
which, dressed up in the machinery of your body,
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We are all on a spiritual journey.
This journey starts with birth and ends with death.
Our life is a link between our date of birth and date of
death. A link that contains all the secrets, dramas,
tragedies and comedies of our lives, and we are so
deeply involved in this performance that we tend to
forget who we really are: the shining Consciousness.
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