felix: the lives of a human phoenix
DESCRIPTION
After losing her grandmother, Serena discovers an old diary which reveals a story about her grandfather that connects reality with mythology. As she reads it Serena learns about life, her family, and a majestic secret which spans the past twenty-six centuries.TRANSCRIPT
![Page 1: Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix](https://reader031.vdocument.in/reader031/viewer/2022020310/568c52481a28ab4916b60c40/html5/thumbnails/1.jpg)
![Page 2: Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix](https://reader031.vdocument.in/reader031/viewer/2022020310/568c52481a28ab4916b60c40/html5/thumbnails/2.jpg)
Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix
I.
The flames of the ever burning Sun reach out for the world as
they caress the Earth into the early morning. Shadows surrender to
the captivating radiance and darkness retreats to where it once hid
before the luminous star emerged; the bright beams of light cascade
onto the surface of this planet, returning life to the hibernating plants
and creatures. All of the Earth’s beings bask in its glorious warmth, all
except for Serena.
After a long night shift at the hospital, which to her seems never
ending because she works them every night, Serena has not noticed
the Suns presence at all. Though the small silver hands on her watch
reveal the morning hour, she has yet to know that her work is almost
complete, which it never truly seems to be. Since she began as a
nurse, almost three years ago, all of the days have bled into each
other and the world outside the white walls of the hospital has become
unfamiliar to her. The memory of a bright blue sky with large white
clouds roaming over head has almost been totally forgotten and
![Page 3: Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix](https://reader031.vdocument.in/reader031/viewer/2022020310/568c52481a28ab4916b60c40/html5/thumbnails/3.jpg)
replaced with the blinding incandescent lights and small white ceiling
tiles she has become accustomed to looking up to.
Serena is aware of all the time that she has had to sacrifice from
her life for her career but does not view her decision of becoming a
nurse negatively. She has always wanted to help people, ever since
she was a young girl fetching band aids for friends that had been
playing too rough. Even though she is taking a lot of time out of her life
to work, her work is instilling life back into others, which from her
perspective, is worth the sacrifice.
Being from a family that has turned toward her caring ever
since she was a child, Serena is one that has never complained or
refused to make a sacrifice for anyone. When she was only three
years old her mother’s father died and she was sent to her
grandmother’s house for months at a time by her mom. In fact most of
Serena’s first memories are of her grandmother’s house. She can still
remember being too small to climb the large stairs in her
grandmother’s home and having to wait for help. She mainly
remembers waiting because, in that large empty house, there was no
![Page 4: Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix](https://reader031.vdocument.in/reader031/viewer/2022020310/568c52481a28ab4916b60c40/html5/thumbnails/4.jpg)
one to help. After her grandmother’s husband died, something died in
her grandmother. The main memory that Serena has from her
childhood is watching her grandmother in her rocking chair on the
front porch, staring out at the world as if waiting for an answer or a
traveler that would bring the message to her to keep living; a message
for her to not give up on life.
These memories arise in her mind, as she looks over the charts
of numerous patients she is taking care of, since she knows now that
her grandmother did give up, because she died just days ago. The
death came as a long awaited change in her life of waiting for a
change. In the background of Serena’s caring and successful life her
grandmother had still been waiting in that same rocking chair on that
same porch. And for what, something that Serena never knew;
something no one ever really knew. In fact, Serena has not been able
to mourn her passing because she never really knew her grandmother
even though most of her memories involve her.
Growing up without a father was a great difficulty to her, but the
hardest part of her life was the absence of her own mother. At first she
![Page 5: Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix](https://reader031.vdocument.in/reader031/viewer/2022020310/568c52481a28ab4916b60c40/html5/thumbnails/5.jpg)
had thought that her mother was sending her to her grandmother’s
house to take care of her, but later she only believed that she was
being sent away because her own mother could not, or refused to,
take care of her. This is what first sparked the need to be caring in
Serena’s life.
With all of these thoughts festering inside of her head, she does
not notice the shadows growing larger on the hospital doors. A loud
noise, from the doors she is walking past, startles her. Two men race
through the doors with a man on a stretcher, being supported by a
breathing mask and with puddles of blood seeping from his body.
Though her mind is programmed to begin helping this man, the bright
rays from the Sun chase the men into the hospital and blind Serena.
Having only been around man made light for the night hours, the
warm glow from outside the hospital momentarily interrupts her
thoughts. The two men swerve down the hallway in front of her with
the stretcher while she remains captivated by the day’s radiance.
![Page 6: Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix](https://reader031.vdocument.in/reader031/viewer/2022020310/568c52481a28ab4916b60c40/html5/thumbnails/6.jpg)
“Serena!” shouts a familiar voice from down the hall. Though the
woman’s voice is loud it only seems like a whisper behind the
thoughts that Serena is caught in.
“Serena,” she shouts again, “we need you!” As if the spell
between her and the morning sun has been broken, she turns toward
the quickly moving stretcher and races behind it down the hallway.
Bursting into the emergency room, she sees a group of nurses
and doctors providing triage care in efforts to save the man. Watching
as everyone is frantically trying to stop his bleeding through the
gunshot wound in his chest, she loses her thought process again, not
knowing what to do immediately as she usually does.
“Serena!” shouts the doctor in charge, “I need you to hold
pressure here!” She quickly steps up to the man and holds her hands
strongly against the wound. As all of the others are gathering all of the
supplies and instruments they need, Serena is drawn to the man. She
looks up at his face and sees him faintly looking back at her from
underneath the breathing mask. She can see all of the pain he is
![Page 7: Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix](https://reader031.vdocument.in/reader031/viewer/2022020310/568c52481a28ab4916b60c40/html5/thumbnails/7.jpg)
feeling in his eyes; the fear he has of losing the one thing that he has
ever known. The fear of losing his life.
As more blood seeps from the entrance wound, that Serena is
pushing all of her weight onto in an attempt to control the bleeding, the
man’s eyes begin to dim and his gaze into her eyes begins to
diminish. She can see the life start to leave his body but does not give
up. With a loud grunt she pushes even more pressure onto the man,
standing now on her toes. “Come on!” she shouts as she feels the
battle for his life being lost.
“Move Serena,” the doctor says as he pushes her away from the
wound to continue, “We’re not losing him!” Serena releases pressure
from the wound and grips onto the man’s relaxed hand. Watching the
doctor working, her eyes drift back to the man’s face to find his eyes
closed and a deathly stillness wrapping his body. As if trying to wake
him up from a nightmare, she shakes his hand from side to side but
does not see any signs of life returning to his body.
Serena watches as the doctor completes cleaning the wound
and applies a dressing to fill the wound when the man’s eyes open
![Page 8: Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix](https://reader031.vdocument.in/reader031/viewer/2022020310/568c52481a28ab4916b60c40/html5/thumbnails/8.jpg)
and his loose hand tightly grips Serena’s hand. Surprised, she looks
back at him and is met with a remorseful glow in his eyes. A sense of
recognition washes over her. A belief that her caring eyes had pierced
through his pain and fear and helped him battle away death.
As if witnessing a resurrection, she is in awe and cannot take her
eyes away from his. The feeling of conquering death seems beautiful
and warm, captivating her like the glow from the Sun. As she thinks
deeper about the moment Serena is reminded that she was unable to
save her grandmother from death. Though she can help save a
person with a dying heart, she was unable to save her grandmother
from a broken heart.
The sensation of loss interrupts the moment of rebirth and the
strong walls which courageously hold Serena’s emotions in begin to
fall. She breaks the gaze with the man and backs out of the door. She
continues backing up until her body is against the wall in the hallway.
Slipping to the floor, her emotions flood through her body like a
monsoon conquering all of her courage and bravery.
![Page 9: Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix](https://reader031.vdocument.in/reader031/viewer/2022020310/568c52481a28ab4916b60c40/html5/thumbnails/9.jpg)
Letting go has always been difficult for her to endure; whether
letting go of her feelings or letting go of people. Being someone that
cares for others lives, death seems like an adversary to Serena. She
strongly believes that death can be beat, though she knows that
everyone dies. In life she has been able to acknowledge the fact that
all lives come to an end, but has also learned that lives can be saved,
which makes death even harder to deal with.
Being such a strong woman, she does not let herself completely
breakdown. Squeezing the back of her neck and slowly looking up at
the lights, she breathes slowly and begins to build the walls inside of
her back up.
The door to the emergency room opens and Serena wipes the
tears away from her face, standing up from the floor. Her eyes are met
by the nurse that had been calling her name when the man was
rushed in. The woman, draped in the same scrubs as Serena’s,
examines her face and notices the sadness that she always tries to
hide away. Usually she is able to shy away from how she is feeling
![Page 10: Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix](https://reader031.vdocument.in/reader031/viewer/2022020310/568c52481a28ab4916b60c40/html5/thumbnails/10.jpg)
and holds a shield of bravery but reveals her true self since losing the
battle within.
“Serena,” the woman calmly says, trying to console her friend.
“I’m okay, Agatha,” she replies while brushing her glistening
cheeks with the smooth fabric on her scrubs. She forces a smile,
trying to withdraw from her feelings, but Agatha can see right through
it. Since becoming a nurse three years ago, Serena and Agatha have
become very good friends at the hospital. “Really,” she continues and
smiles again, “I’m fine.”
“You’re fine? Who do you think you’re talking to Serena?” Agatha
asks sarcastically. “I know you, and you are not fine.”
“It’s just been a long night,” Serena says softly.
“A long night, when was the last night you weren’t in the
hospital?” Agatha watches as she tries to think back to a time that she
didn’t work but cannot recall. “You work yourself too hard Serena, you
can’t spend all of your time here, especially right now. We both know
that you can take some time,” she stops for a moment, thinking about
![Page 11: Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix](https://reader031.vdocument.in/reader031/viewer/2022020310/568c52481a28ab4916b60c40/html5/thumbnails/11.jpg)
the recent events in Serena’s life. “We both know that you need to
take some time to yourself.” Agatha is the only person that Serena has
talked to about her family and childhood. She usually doesn’t let
anyone in but finds a certain comfort in Agatha’s kindness.
“I just don’t even know what to do when I’m not here anymore,”
Serena slowly confesses. “Sometimes I feel like this is the only place I
can be comfortable. People need my help and I can’t contain myself
when there are still more people to save. More people to help.”
“There will always be lives to save. You are saving all of these
people’s lives Serena,” Agatha says, “But who is going save yours?”
Serena loosens her eye contact and begins to trace the creases
between the tiles in the floor beneath her feet. “I know that you don’t
want to hear this,” she continues, “but you need to just take a little bit
of time off, if just for me.” Serena lets out a small snicker and smiles
as she looks back at Agatha. “Because you’re making me tired just
looking at you girl,” she continues while laughing.
![Page 12: Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix](https://reader031.vdocument.in/reader031/viewer/2022020310/568c52481a28ab4916b60c40/html5/thumbnails/12.jpg)
Serena thinks for a moment, knowing that it’s something that she
doesn’t want to do but wants to keep Agatha happy. “Alright,” she
finally replies. “I’ll leave right after I check on…”
“Nope,” Agatha interrupts, “I’ve already made your rounds.”
“Agatha,” Serena says surprised, “But what about,” she
continues while looking through the list of names on her clipboard.
“I checked on Mr. Helios, he’s still doing well.”
“Yes, but I should probably make sure…”
“Serena! He’s doing fine, you are not. Okay? He even told me
that he didn’t need to keep you here just for him.”
“Really?” Serena asks, wondering why the man had said such a
thing. “That’s strange.”
“Take it as a sign,” Agatha replies, “and go!”
She thinks about what the man had told Agatha but decides to
take her advice. “I should take that as a sign,” Serena agrees.
![Page 13: Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix](https://reader031.vdocument.in/reader031/viewer/2022020310/568c52481a28ab4916b60c40/html5/thumbnails/13.jpg)
Just as she begins to walk away, to get her things, the phone in
her pocket rings. She stops and looks back at Agatha saying, “I should
take this as a sign.” They both smile as she pulls the device out of her
pocket and looks at the screen. The muscles in her face slowly
weaken and her smile disappears. Hesitating before answering the
call, she finally holds the phone to her ear. “Hello. Mom?”
Serena’s majestic voice is met by a brief static and deep
breathing from the phone. “Mom, are you there?” she asks, concerned
that she has yet to respond.
The deep breath transforms into a raspy cough, echoing through
the phone as if yelled into a deep cave. “Re’?” A weak voice murmurs,
“Re’ can you hear me?”
Serena smiles with joy, happy to hear her mother call her by the
name she had as a child. “Yes mom, I can hear you! Is everything
alright?” she asks. “Are you okay?” She is eager to cure any of her
mother’s problems as if she were a patient.
“I’m fine,” she says before coughing again. “I’m feeling well
today.”
![Page 14: Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix](https://reader031.vdocument.in/reader031/viewer/2022020310/568c52481a28ab4916b60c40/html5/thumbnails/14.jpg)
“That’s good mom, that’s great to hear. Have you been eating
better or is your stomach still feeling upset? I brought some groceries
over Tuesday night and left them on your porch, you got that right? I
bought some canned soup, vegetable and noodle and I thought you
could eat those if you were still in pain.” Serena tries to speak quickly,
knowing that she doesn’t get to talk to her mom often or for long. “I
also put a can opener in the grocery bag, next to the loaf of bread. I
know that you probably have one but…” she takes a breath, realizing
that she will most likely not hear any answers to her questions, “I
wanted to make sure you had one.”
“Re’, I got the groceries,” her mother replies. “I need to talk to
you about your grandmother. I need your help.”
“What is it mom, what about grandma?” she asks. Always
wanting to help her mother, Serena becomes extremely attentive and
dismisses the fact that she has not slept since the morning before.
“I need you to go to grandma’s house. I need you to go there and
bring me some boxes.”
![Page 15: Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix](https://reader031.vdocument.in/reader031/viewer/2022020310/568c52481a28ab4916b60c40/html5/thumbnails/15.jpg)
“Boxes?” Serena asks, wondering what her mother is interested
in. “Boxes of what?” Before responding, her mother coughs again, this
time extremely violently. “Mom, are you okay? Is your throat sore
again?”
Clearing her throat, her mother continues, “There should be a
few boxes of books, in the upstairs study, next to the old bookshelf. I
need you to go get them for me.”
Never getting a chance to actually spend time with her mother,
Serena joyously agrees. “I can do that mama. I’m just getting off of
work right now; did you want me to pick you up? We could both go to
grandma’s house.”
Serena’s excitement is met by a brief silence on the phone
before her mother replies, “just the boxes Re’.”
“Alright,” she says, accepting that her mother will not leave her
house. “I’ll see you soon. I love you!” A cold whisper of silence grows
in Serena’s ear before the phone call ends.
![Page 16: Felix: The Lives of a Human Phoenix](https://reader031.vdocument.in/reader031/viewer/2022020310/568c52481a28ab4916b60c40/html5/thumbnails/16.jpg)
Though it is not the relationship that she desperately seeks,
actually having a relationship with her is what Serena has been
starving for since she was a child. Striving to be the best daughter led
her to become the kind person that she has grown into.
Like Earth circling the Sun, she has based her life around getting
closer to her mother but, like the Earth, seems to stay the same
distance away.
________________________________________________________