Is Love Crazy?

At the age of 12, I fell in love with a junior on our campus. He was my first love, I guess, because I’m so into him for more than four years. Knowing that he didn’t really like me, I wrote a letter: A letter of

confession and as well as rejection. I confessed my feelings for him and rejected the hopes of us being together.

Broken hearted at the age of 16, I befriended my best friend’s boyfriend who lives in the same village as I was. I actually did fell in love with him, because he was really sweet, but this time, I didn’t tell him how I feel, despite of him admitting his feelings for me. I chose to walk away, because I valued our friendship,

although news came that my friend and him eventually broke up.

My freshman classmate admitted that he likes me. And so, this foolish heart of mine fell for him not knowing who he really was. When I found out what kind of man he was, I abandoned my feelings for

him.

My classmate introduced me to her friend through text and then during a conference call, we finally get to know each other and started a friendship. The friendship which turn out again, to me falling in love

with him, and I found out that he was like my previous freshman classmate. And so the story ends.

A fourth degree or distant cousin admitted his feelings for me, despite the fact that he was five year older than me and asked me out. Bottom line again, I fell in love with him. But he was afraid to fight

what we had so, he left me hanging. Although we’re not really officially together, felt that it was like it. So he left me without saying anything.

So now, goes to my first real boyfriend which also happens to be a distant cousin. I met him in their hometown when we visited there, and we became friends. He courted me through text and I said yes

after a month, and we were officially together until now.

I am in love with him, but I don’t know why there some guys who would disturb my world and try to confuse me. Like there was a cousin of my boyfriend, I noticed the way he looks at me and it made

me uneasy. I was actually not so close to him and let that be. Not that I didn’t want to be close to him but it really felt weird. There isn’t any malicious thing, until I found out from his aunt that he likes me

and plans to court me. He’s attractive but, I am with his cousin, without his knowledge about that.

Just last night, I dreamt of my best friend’s ex boyfriend. It felt real, as though he really loves me and wants to be with me like he’s never letting me go. I don’t know why I dreamt of him, I wasn’t thinking about him. And so I found out that dreams reveal your deepest emotion, would that mean I love him

too? Does it have any connection today because, it’s his birthday!

Darn this love, maybe it’s better off this way.