loving in the war years

A b o u t t h e a u t h o r

m

2.n

sr o c^

n

LOVING IN THE W AR YEARS/vH

LOVING IN THE W AR YEARS/xl

iP

^Pu

i-t f^'3

^r>

u

C/)

Vi

a .

a"0

a(T>

. 3

P?ft

O

^o

2- ^

3^

s-

H 2

o s3

tt-t 3*

1-^

P^

0S!

^

1

3.

JT- C/) P 7* O

3* 3 a. ^

i ^ o a

!

o a o a- I 3 o

o o D D- (T>

a- CTQ T

O a S- o S- p a- cr O- I-

I a' a- "T3

a-p

. r&

OQa>

**1

3 P cu o a

O "T3

r-

t >-t

a*

o

L. MORAGA [ LOVING IN THE WAR YEARS/xvtt

P Q-I. qS

sr o

lir o c q1

&- B I 3 OQ

^3

rt)

3o

P

^ S

2

S

rS n fT>

N) ^

8 ^

LOVING IN THE W AR YEARS/xlx

lam

L. MORAGA

s*5'

p 00

Cu r ^o

oo

o

a-

=r - E 3' 00

d- d

- pD

.;?y

^o 3

0^ o-

3" V'

L. MORAGA i LOVING IN THE WAR YEARS/3

LOVING IN THE W AR YEARS/5

0C

uo

-C D

Cu

3 0 mVi

3 rtP 3

5

' a

-p F*

P-

=

rS

OR

*3 rt

m1

-p n rt

C/3 sr

C/5 p-

3 On>

B" n> Vi

3-

n> 3

3 rt rt' 30 1

O Vi Vi

S'

n> f-to c

0

n 3P Vi

rt3 wj

rt rt

she say

B-

o p*

0 C

3 o

3-

s =r

p

P 1 gyi

rtrt

Cu

h3

0 a5?^

3-

oVi

rtHrt

X n

nVi

3*

t-r

tCrt

i*

B3^ rt

rD Vi 0

c/>f

3-

3 o

sd o u t.

o o Vi

fT>

rt g:

1-

c b 03 5^ n

Vi 3-

0 1

3- 3- (T> Vi

> 3 A- rt

cr r^> CT

Q00 r?

> P-

Vi

rt Vi'

LM ORA GA I LOVING IN THE WAR


o

L MORAGA

r

LOVING IN THE WAR YEARS/13

05^

^ P

Cr* P C? OQ

n

PK

S

a* t 5:

5^oS

g* 1

B-(A

o ?5

o p

0

.K

^1

-

i^^

OQ

p p-

p >-t

2-

n>

^

p

O

55 ^

nf

C 3 O

r B

=r >

rr a.

3 Vi'

= I:

t*

^o -^

f-$ cw

s*

r> CfQc

'a-

r-lC

3-

Cfl'*

3-

0n

C/J3- rt>

n ViI/)

0r>

PSIVi

a- g,

B o c ri- X H3 rt) n

p? S'

n S-

O 3

0c3 o

n nHA .

p'

3-

3n

sVi 3-

1 (T> 0-vj'*

P(T> rt- O np

0 S'

3- 0 3 o> 3t

P3 2

o o

'n 3

W 3.

5*

a- r

a C

I-ff

'o

3r>

9 rt "3n

0 5?O 7\

B" rt>'3

^C/)

3"

3^ o 3

0 P3 &

-S

tcn

*0-

-oVi

pN

cr R

y

=r o cD OQ

n3 O 3 rt>

THE PILGRIMAGE I LATER, SHE MET lOYCE

L MORAGA LOVING IN THE WAR YEARS/15

cn 13- c - d' sr p a- 1 C/) 3 s

n rt> n 1

> D a- n n p' s- o c

5

3^s

o ^

C/)tti

r>

> O

gS"

t

c= I

t! o

^cr o S- n> B

o o ?r

o-o cro s

r -t

S 5

O

QTQ p

D- o o

p i-

?r

D OQO 3 3- c>

3-

d I

3 a-

n 3 OQ"c o

3 -

" S-

Pf

oP

C

3

cr r> 3 &.

3- PR-

"g-

3 ^

^

. ^

n o 5 rt> 3- P

OQ 33 OQ

3 3 3- r>

OO "T3

i


AN OPEN INVITATION TO A MEAL

thestep

l-H 3"rt 3- o 3

s ^5

youhothalf

D O 0 3P n 3

ca i1

1 ^

5;

(/)

(^ P

- ^

H s:

9

^

3 s *13

V ViI

^

c

c S

3S"

c 1-1R

R

9r9 n P

3" Q

B 1 5.

3 3 2

QP Vi 1-3 (T> O c

a f? "a V

o 5

3 rt

g 3

OQ

3

S r>

_

p

9-

: P

3 ^

c?

^c

f5'

K

n hand.

I C c

sa*

-

^

a i-i

CL- c

S

;?hen youre ek, breathi

you are d id roll wit

ht.

s0 c

cS

^3- 3

n

a-cw

^3

a-cr 3" o

3 ^

rnc 3

1s

trO

? na-

my

s- 3'c 1-t 3-

9i

9 03 *-t

H. fn*

3o 0-

c

LOVING IN THE WAR

Thinking of my father, how so timidly he used to take my mother onto the small square of carpet we reserved for dancing, pulling back the chairs. She really leading the step, he learning to cooperate so it looked like a male lead. I noticed his hand, how it lingered awkwardly about my mothers small back, his thin fingers never really getting a hold on her.

> Dn

r 2

.tH

5-a.

a*a

-

a*

(A pp r>

^ 3

women

HH o- p

?r HH

a

3 3CtT

i

3

mother th you.

IM

L

1

5'

c2

o

o3

-

3_n

3

3O

Q3

S

CTQ

SiH

3*s Q

-^

5

^rt 0

0

S3

-rt

5'

n rvcr

Q Si3

0

HH

3

P

0 ^ 3

3

0

^ I

3-

r& i-tCT

Q V)cS

H

:

aF

'HH

H

3 3

%

g-

^

a,

Es 2

^

-1 w

m

m

L. MORAGA LOVING IN THE WAR YEARS/27

1(

t-H

HH

cc

cVi

ViVI

r&n>

n>P

-P

-P

-rt

H.

O-

PE

.o 3

S* 3 0

Pcn

op

c Si.

p

5 Vi

==

E*

ri.

3Vi

O

cr i2

. ^

p3*

^

?t

rr

33 (JQ

i

3' OTQ 'v^3

rv3

0B* 5

'00

5

00s 5X

-i" 3

n O '-^

girls

3 EB- 3 c

"3 c

S i

V) rt> r3%

d'o

o crr

s5' 00

O 3. t P B- 3 I 3-

03

3-

3 -t

3'

Bo 3

pB-

n

33

l-H rt3

Crt

3 ca

o3

3i 3

'OQ

Vic

03

*3

the

*-t Tl

in > m O < in n O m

J


P Hrt

3 PS

S-3

Prt 0^

C/l

^S

0

over

3 3'

^

and 0

rt

p rt=

r^

.0

rt

Ert

5

a00 rt

rt9" rt

P 3 Q-

O P

> 3 CP PK

3l-

^

a- ^

3*

o

5-

CP

3-

V!:

i

3

fr

^

I ^

^ P

P23

P

rt1

-

P 0

n> CL3 O

5'CA

' O

3*0

n n

3* 1-3 3

Vi00

g Dj

o D P-

00_ D s- 3

p 5^n> P

0^S

'r> Vi v>

rftP 3.

Vi 3

3rt>

00 c0 c 3 Cl

3-

3-

o i-nn

1

. ^

a*

r

QT >-t 0 f-i g^

ere

I s-

i

s-C

U o

o^

c

3 Q

Ou

^C/5

p

O^

c

o l- D O O 3

s- n n

3 D-

O O

o-

a:.

s

I

^

^

S'

s*^

o

n

I*

^

S.

P

3^

A-

^

3'

2 ^O

Qp

3T

5^

(T>3-

p Cu

5

3

p

^

S'i

-

^ r

3 3

3

3

Si^

3

r^

?r

r

I-

3' &

Si

C^o o

3 o n e

St ?

5 5Q

13

^5

1 Ck--

S'

i scr

- '

2

3 55^-.

O

rSk

1r

a &5

-Sk

Sk u,

w a s r 5-

o oi v5~-

d 2r

s;*

1-

3

i ^

1

^

s;

s;

S- ^

s:

&-

V, ST3

3r

o a~

. 2

3

a- - i

a-*a

o''r

* ^

1

V

S-a

s:

S 3

3

' -

S' 11

5 vP

'S

i

=-d

-1

8a

?s-

3-3

t

&-

s s22 a-* r

3*

X

g'

S'

(T)

CTQ =r r

o c 3 5'

op n o n

Crto

tr

3-o o" R

'

a'

P Pu r> 3 3 o 02^

3 00

3-

P

P3 O

On> Pu 3*

< w

PCL

"

3-f\> o" 3* r> P- O 0 n o> P Crt 00 1 1 t

'S

Cu

aa

o ^

S

^

53 p-

o 3 3-

H3 3

cr I s 3r>

O^

C

3 ^

a tn

Lu

3.

cr

0o

3t

c

3^

7^

2

c*

^

L3

-n>

^ 1

3

-H

o"

3-

^n \

P"*

r

p g_

p S'

t-

p

o3

-i

!=3

i-t 0 !

CJ

o'

n CL

0 3p

f

tr

3 ;

P CL

o

Vi 3'

?r

- P Vi

I 3

Fj, o

.' o>

3 a.

CL

3-

O -3

i-t a)H

n O oa

. SL

p n>Vi 3

3P

'T3

Vi rr 1

3&

cov

P 3-o

P1

1-h

g*

2.

^3-

3^

P 3

- n>

3^

po

33

3

D 3-

3

3-

P CL 3- O 3 n o" o> CL


O c D 0-

:r

aP D CL

-O o

^

7T

Srr

3 OQOQ

R-

re

O

0 B

-n O

-

3"

CL-

o 3 P 3 O-

3-

n

i 3 n 3 o 3

3- n

^

>?rP O 3

E ST R-

ci- -

p 3 3i

o

3 g 0^i-

pi 1-1

^

sC

v> rtu

- * r1

O

3-

3

n>

'fi.

^P

. O

-

I i

S

' ^

rt

n> --t O)

P O

a ^

3

3 CL- n n> *

nn d

-CA

3 H3C

P CTQ P

B-

g

S

S'

p

5-

3

33 (W

3

v>

^

(A

a A.

H ar

B* ft

3>

Co0^

'

d- P

*\ inr^r

rt3

-

B A.

Vi 3"HH

0 3

4!i

^

hr1t/5

03n> d-

roo

o f

c f? C n

k lyn,

neigl

a 00f? p a

ft

P

^ o

o

3' 00

HQp

p

B*

QEi

X

n

B:

P ^

o ?r

n

3

od-

g

3-

3o

Or


P, W

^ c

tr,

?i

S K

a'

5.

f K

*cr

5* n>A- ^

o

i

^

3P

O

'B &

B 70 D-O

o o 3a* o

p- p

p

OQ

3

^

COa-

3 o

p 3 O-*-t

,

3 (Wc/>

^w

3

w o" o o-&- e:

n> 2

g 3

OQSI^

O5T

II

3 OQD n

3 5-

Q a

P3

a*3-

^

3

p

P 3

7T 33-

no o Cu

CL1=:

o H

7

z o cr o I c

3^

i

was

Wi 3

'* Crt

0a

0-h

a 3

7 n>

Vi 0

m i!

0 -

3 r>^

3ro

rt>

0

3 CTQy.

--'

o

3^

33

3*

P

S CL

o -n

3 p o-3-

3

\0

rv

CTO o OQn>

cr o:r CfQ 5

"

E-

3

3)3- P Cu

o 3 OQ3

- r>CU

c:

p

o 3

rr 3S

' 3

-o

5 C QTQ

O -np 3 p R-

3

v> V> 'n

Q

P 9r3

-ca

'*r&

"3

rt 3 P 3' n Ou

o ;? i-t 3

3-

P 3 CU

3 o3- O

O 3 n

^ O c OQ

0 ^ 1

1w>

O

&- &-

n'

.5

A*T3

5" 3

3 S-

1 cu

o c p 3 p 35" ri>

3 P1

3-

3.

.

c

:rt

CA P ol

o p rt3- %

B"

(T>p

3 3'

QfQ u

CO c m3

HVi

3 P-

3-

crn

a>0

n3 n

-n

u (A a n n fT* V H 3

g-

l-

?

|l g

-|*

(|:

K

-rti m O- 3. Q- era m

"73 O o p 3 a

3- 3

"3

^"2ri

- s

2 3 ^"73

I s

i^era

Si v>

30

^KD_

S-

g* r^> Vi

rt

H 3 3 o S n 5' v> Q-

I-=i

%

1

COIt

33

5V>

3" *?

9o O c

1 3CA 3'

5-VI

00era

f?B'

s'M

VIV)

era

-T 3 -I I do a on A 61 (/> s i 3 It 0 -o n r B n O. s 1V

)w

.-<

=>rt

n^

So

2 =

^3

32

1a'

^

^

e. S

' 3

1S

S i

r3'

3'

Sp

a 3

20

&* 3

P

5'

13

iM

C

I D- KEr ( o 5-

-o

o 2

'T3s

-g2

S

c/i

Si.

S2 o'

^

a

B

S'p

o a

S' 02. 1

^

2 I o "T3 ^3

0 O

3% -

hs

s-1

3 ll iA

rr

s-1

r w^

CA

f

>-* pa*

3-

p a.

< rt 'I

^ &

-sr

a ^

OQ

g<

o"I-

:i

i&

s

^ i

K 9^

> a o- c a a.

2 Q O -O T3

CTQ n s*rt

fl'O 3 s 3

o -o ~0

3 o

S* m w

S-T

3

H s o 3 H St V>* tr r00 n O-

t n> 3 i i a o I U

5-

S' n S

OQ 3 ^

-S

3- 3 m s-

n BCU 0 3

?< ft a-

OQ 3 rs*

B*i

ft3 (A

aa.

LMORAGA LOVING IN IHE WAR YEARS/53

-v'

r-T

3 H

2

3

o s

o H S W

X 13 O

a o o 2

3

3O

a. 33

- 3- S

3 ^

S E.

a.

n O o o hi"S

.

oras o H s rt

a- u P-1 -

3- a.K 3-

?rf^ c 3- 2

0>n C

,1 Mc al

1^3* 2

9 n 0o- 2

33-

gU 3*

e-0 3

V)r*

N S

I.a

3 ora3 ora

a.

S 0^

a. 3 o c 5*

1


O- cr c 3 O T O r

S

3

a-(w

Cu n

Qc

^ 2:

1-

^

o 2 I 3 jl.

!T 3

t O^

s:

ii i 2

n02 in

n 3in


o 1 f 2. 3

c= ?

r5-

S-

C.

Sit

I

cr'^

,f

E

S02

^

B''^

.%

^

5- S

2.

M

X D

g o

cro

o

?Y

K

r;:

S 3 I'

D o 3 O a. c 3-

O

at

o 10

rt 3K'

cg

.T?

T'l

-n 5

-t

5- S

8

s ^

3 = S

0

a.

K O

' 3 R

cw

o

S

S 5

1 r 1

s n

ft r

*T3

^3

5-

rt o

G. C

13 iO i-n sr

LM O RA G A l o v i n g IN THE WAR YEARS/63

u

CL.

OQ

likeC/

5 3-

B 2

X (Au

^

ra

m

M?r

oo

S'

3 3

Cu'

^ O

"o

S

a M

CTv> S?

3 00S-

o-

Cu o 2

00

^ 2

3rt

3

C

S' 3 5

55

S'

rr

r*

oa.

3*5;

'TV?

g5 crime.

o'

3

ft% 1^

^^

1^

1-

a ^

2

: 3

n

Q in

rc

r

3 3 2

2

6 O

a- ^

^ c*

n ci

'fi

r'll 3 00

n, 3

o-

00I

(JQ

SS

Q6

X

^ &

-- 5- s?>

I;

(JQ

g C

K

T3

O h

Ct.

Q &* B

jjll

llll

lllH

IIII

IHM

II

ji| I

I.III

I ll

ili l

lillii

iiUM

IIM

iffM

imiM

MM

lJK

I' ^

(A

i-ri

f

i-t

lAD

'-*cro

,,

2.

Bn

n

S 3 ^ g

^

g g-

^

X o o"

B ns

^

;!

cw'

O

M

D n H 3- O T3

i-_

a5*

a.

- o cr o-

> 3 O

. I-

-I

3 i

: =

>o

3.

a.

S -

2:

3 3

3 ^?

r> p Q-

B"

S

O

SS

^

^_

O

B

^

^

v>

D

nr

o 'C

_fD 3

3

S 3

-4n re

7T

00-

re 5*

0-

^c_ c "0

0-0

opB

1?

L MORAGA. I LOVING IN THE WAR YEARS/67

1

3 ~

C

^

3

Ot/^

C

=r w a.lO

o3- n

3- VV)

o ?r J'

'K o-

3-.

na

. 35-

w S.X 3^ 5

Is it the same white coldness that forces my back up against the wall choose, choose.

I cannotchoose nor forget

how simple to fall backupon rehearsed racial memory.

I work to rememberwhat I never dreamed possible

what my consciousness could never contrive.

Whoever I am

I must believe I am not and will never be the only onewho suffers.

68/CHERRlE L. MORAGA

Th e Ro a d t o Re c o v e r y

loving in the war years

Documents