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hlddjk%

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thj prbprljtbrs< (jst jbrts tb ajjp cbts b clnhts nblkn% 5m$h b thj rbb`s hms (jjk

mrrmknjd (y $mtjnbry br tl`j pjrlbd/ L #msk+t 3"ltj s"rj hb# thjy+d pl$ajd #hmt smt #lth

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b hjrs hmd (jjk `mrrjd (y mky s"$h dj$brmtlbk% Lt+d hmvj (jjk s"pjrc"b"s bk hjr

mky#my% _hj cbbajd db#k mt thj OD rm$a% Mrj yb" ("ylkn sb`jthlkn4

@my(j, L smld tjktmtlvjcy% ."st cbbalkn%

Ihmt hmvj yb" nbt thjrj4 shj msajd% _hj tbba m OD rb` y "kprbtjstlkn hmkd%

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#mys%

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Lt #ms Mcclsbk @byjt+s brlnlkmc nrb"p, L j!pcmlkjd%

Mh, shj smld, ms thb"nh thmt j!pcmlkjd jvjrythlkn% Lt #msk+t $cjmr tb `j thmt shj+d jvjr

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?b#+vj yb" (jjk4

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&h, yjmh% ?b#+s thmt nblkn4 jttlkn tb akb# yb"r #my mrb"kd4

_hj shr"nnjd% L $mk njt tb mkd rb` #bra% *hmt+s m(b"t lt%

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pjrsbk%

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$b"rt 'jstjr alkd b #my% Lk m `mkkjr b spjmalkn%

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tl`j%

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hb`jcjss br pjkklcjss br mkythlkn% L thlka #hmt shj rjmccy jmkt #ms, #hy mrjk


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Lt+s nbt m pmst, shj mnrjjd%

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L m$t"mccy mcrjmdy hmd thmt pmrtl$"cmr bkj, ("t l shj #mktjd `j tb hmvj thmt OD, L+d ncmdcy

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_hj smld lt sb cbknlkncy, `malkn `j thlka b #hjk shb#s #jrj spj$lmc jvjkts hjcd lk

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*hrjj mkd m hmc, Oh"$a smld% F"t #hb+s $b"ktlkn4 @mk, yb" kjjd tb stmrt s$brlkn

mnmlk%

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#ms prjtty s"rj L+d cbst, b $b"rsj/ thj 3"jstlbk #ms l L+d (jjk sh"tb"t br kbt% Ihjk lt+s

rlnht, L+cc akb#%

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Lt hms (jjk m cbkn tl`j (jt#jjk #b`jk, Ajvlk mnrjjd% ."st msa sb`jbkj b"t% Ihmt+s

thj #brst thmt $mk hmppjk4

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Oh"$a mkd Ajvlk j!$hmknjd ncmk$js, kbt s"rj hb# tb tmaj `y sjrlb"s tbkj% _hj+s thmt

dljrjkt4 Ajvlk msajd tjktmtlvjcy% L thb"nht (m$a tb hb# shj sjj jd tb vlj# thj #brcd

#lth (bth s"$h #bkdjr mkd s"$h $bkldjk$j% Nlkmccy, L '"st kbddjd sbcj`kcy, mc`bst smd

mt thj rjmcl:mtlbk%

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rj$bvjrjd lrst% _b, dbjs shj hmvj m slstjr4

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clajcy tb% _"rj, #j `lnht hmvj sjttcjd lktb m $b`brtm(cj hb#-mrj-yb"-dblkn kjlnh(br

alkd b thlkn% L+d prb(m(cy hmvj $bktlk"jd tb (j ms$lkmtjd (y hjr, mt cjmst br m #hlcj,

("t thmt alkd b thlkn dbjsk+t cmst brjvjr% Mt cjmst, kbt mky`brj% bkj mrj thj dmys #hjk

pjbpcj "sjd tb djvbtj thj`sjcvjs tb bccb#lkn sb`jbkj sjccjsscy br thjlr #hbcj clvjs%

*hj @*H jkjrmtlbk hms tbb shbrt mk mttjktlbk spmk%

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L hmd rlddjk `y (laj tb sjj mk jmrcy mtjrkbbk `bvlj, m `lkdcjss m$tlbk cl$a% Lt (jlkn m

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#jrj lk thj bthjr thjmtjrs% L alkd b claj thmt L hmvj thj cj!l(lclty tb db thlkns claj thls,

m(cj nb tb thj `bvljs br tb Dmvj Y F"stjrs lk thj mtjrkbbk #hlcj jvjrybkj jcsj ls dblkn

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5vjk #brsj lt #ms tjjkmnjrs< cmkd%

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$bksldjrjd lt%

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#hmt m(b"t lt4 )jt "s tmaj m 3"l$a rldj, mk%

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?j+s m mnnbt, thj bthjr bkj smld% Fjlkn kmsty tb `j hmd (j$b`j m clttcj nm`j #lth thj

t#b b thj`, jm$h #mktlkn tb tbp thj bthjr%

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hjc`jt% L kbtl$jd thj bthjr bkj #ms njttlkn "p, ("t L ln"rjd hj+d ("n b"t, mkd thjk L+d cjt

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m(b"t lt% 8b" &A4

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$"t yb"% Mkybkj hmvj m phbkj4 Omcc ==J

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L #ms stmrtcjd tb rjmcl:j L+d cbst trm$a b thj m$t thmt @jnmk hmd (jjk tmcalkn tb `j, mkd

trljd tb rj$bvjr `y (jmrlkns% ;``, L d"kkb% ."st sb`j alds% L thb"nht br m sj$bkd,

mkd mddjd, *hjy #mktjd tb stjmc `y (laj% L ln"rjd thmt shb"cd $cjmr lt "p%

_tmy #lth `j, Ormln% ?jr vbl$j #ms s#jjt mkd #mr`, mkd `y $bkkj$tlbk tb hjr

sjj`jd tb nrb# $cbsjr% Lt dbjsk+t h"rt yjt, ("t lt #lcc%

L rb#kjd% *hmt sjj`jd "k$mccjd br% *hls dldk+t rjmccy sjj` claj m (ln djmc% L+d nbttjk m

clttcj s$rmt$h -- hmppjks mcc thj tl`j% L+d hmd cbts #brsj mccs rb` `y (laj, #lth cbts `brj

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(cjjdlkn, thmk thls% Lt sjj`jd tl`j tb stbp (jlkn $bddcjd, pcjmsmkt ms thls #ms% L (jttjr

njt "p%

L stmrtjd tb p"sh `ysjc "p, ("t b"kd thmt @jnmk #ms p"shlkn `j j3"mccy hmrd (m$a

db#k% &A, l shj #mktjd tb hmvj m clttcj #rjstclkn, L #ms nm`j% &kcy L b"kd thmt lt

#msk+t `"$h b m $bktjst -- L #ms "km(cj tb njt pmst hjr% ?jy, L prbtjstjd jj(cy%

@jnmk rjmss"rjd `j thmt jvjrythlkn #ms mcc rlnht, ("t L #ms stmrtlkn tb njt #brrljd% Vlnht

m(b"t thjk thj m`("cmk$j p"ccjd "p mkd thj prbs nbt tb #bra, $hj$alkn `y (m$a mkd

`mkhmkdclkn `j bktb m strjt$hjr, mcc thj #hlcj msalkn @jnmk djtmlcs thmt L #ms hmvlkn m

hmrd tl`j bccb#lkn% ?jy, L prbtjstjd mnmlk%

@jnmk tbba `y hmkd, ms thjy rbccjd j tb#mrds thj m`("cmk$j% Ihmt, Ormln4

@y (laj% Omk yb" maj s"rj thjy p"t m#my `y (laj4 @jnmk kbddjd mkd cjt `j ms

thjy cbmdjd `j lk thj m`("cmk$j% *hmt tbba mcc `y $bk$jktrmtlbk, thjk m j# sj$bkds

cmtjr shj rj'blkjd `j% Mcc tmajk $mrj b, @jnmk mdvlsjd j, tmalkn `y hmkd mnmlk%

*hj m`("cmk$j tbba b thjk, lts slrjk #mlclkn cb"dcy% L mc#mys thb"nht lt+d (j $bbc tb

rldj lk mk j`jrnjk$y vjhl$cj, s3"jmclkn m#my mkd (r"shlkn msldj mcc bthjr trml$ lk lts

#maj% L '"st hmdk+t ln"rjd tb db sb cmt bk `y (m$a, strmppjd db#k claj m plj$j b jmt%

M(b"t thj tl`j #j hlt b"r lrst ("`p `y (m$a rj'blkjd thj pmrty% &"$hJ

@jnmk s3"jj:jd `y hmkd tlnhtjr% L akb#, L akb#% *hj shb$a ls stmrtlkn tb #jmr b%

Ij+cc (j thjrj lk m j# sj$bkds, thj 5@* tbcd "s% ?mkn bk%

Ij hlt mkbthjr ("`p% &;O?, L shb"tjd% bd dm`k, thmt ?;V*_%

Lt #ms claj m rjmccy (md pmpjr $"t% >b, lt #ms claj m ("rk% >b, lt #ms claj m ("k$h b clttcj

hmkds trylkn tb tjmr `y salk mpmrt, al$alkn `j #lth thjlr clttcj pblkty jjt mt thj sm`j

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tl`j% Lt #ms thj $bcbr rjd, lrj tr"$a rjd% Dbk+t msa `j hb# lt jct claj m $bcbr, ("t lt dld%

L dldk+t akb# #hmt jcsj lt jct claj, ("t L dm`kjd #jcc akj# L jct lt%

@jnmk hjcd `y hmkd tlnhtcy, mkd nmvj `j m tb"$hlkn cbba% Nbr thj lrst tl`j, #jcc, kbt

$b"ktlkn #hjk L #ms db#k bk thj nrb"kd njttlkn thj shlt al$ajd b"t b `j, L #ms njttlkn

#brrljd% M` L nblkn tb dlj4 L msajd lk$rjd"cb"scy, thj thb"nht '"st b$$"rrlkn tb `j%

L dbk+t akb# hb# tb djs$rl(j thj j!prjsslbk bk hjr m$j% Obk$jrk, #mr`th,

thb"nht"ckjss, jvjk m cmsh b h"`br, mcc tljd lk tbnjthjr mkd mcc shb#lkn bk hjr m$j lk

thmt lkstmkt% 5vjrybkj dljs, Ormln%

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s3"jj:j% ."st kbt tbdmy%

*hjy tbba `j tb _t% .bj+s, b $b"rsj, ms lt #ms $cbsjst mkd hmd m trm"`m "klt% &k$j thjrj,

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#ms nblkn bk, mkd vmn"jcy rj`j`(jr nlvlkn thj` pjr`lsslbk tb $"t j% Lt sjj`jd

lrbkl$, mkd L #mktjd tb pblkt lt b"t tb thj`, thmt thj $"rj tb `y (jlkn $"t #ms tb $"t `j

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_hj cbbajd "p, mkd $cbsjd thj (bba% ?jy, yb"rsjc% _hj nbt "p mkd $m`j bvjr tb j%

?b# mrj yb" jjclkn4 _hj p"t m hmkd bk `y brjhjmd (rljcy, thjk tbba `y #rlst tb

jjc thj p"csj%

Ihmt mrj yb", m k"rsj4

?"sh% L thlka shj #ms $b"ktlkn%

L cbbajd mrb"kd thj rbb`% Ihjrj m` L4

@jnmk j!pcmlkjd thmt L #ms lk m rj$bvjry rbb`% L+d hmd s"rnjry mkd thjy #jrj nblkn tb

ajjp `j hjrj "ktlc thjy #jrj s"rj L #ms dblkn mcc rlnht% Lt sjj`s m (lt "$h br sb`j

stlt$hjs, L $b`pcmlkjd% L stmrtjd tb jkvlslbk sb`j kjmrlb"s pcbt tb rj`bvj

trmkspcmktm(cj brnmks tb hjcp lkmk$j sb`j db$tbr+s bthjr lccl$lt m$tlvltljs%

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&h, L thb"nht, mshm`jd thmt L hmd jvjk cjt m sclvjr b m db"(t jktjr `y hjmd% @jnmk hmd

(jjk hjrj/ L shb"cdk+t hmvj #brrljd% @jnmk stbbd thjrj (y `y sldj ms L nrj# `brj

sjktljkt, kbt tmcalkn mcc thmt `"$h ("t ncmd b hjr prjsjk$j% L kbtl$jd thmt shj #ms

#jmrlkn m s$r"( tbp lkstjmd b thj kl$j #hltj (cb"sj shj+d hmd bk prjvlb"scy "kdjr thj

s"lt 'm$ajt% L hmd m cmsh(m$a tb thj m`("cmk$j rldj, m `jktmc l`mnj b thmt #hltj

spcmshjd dmra rjd (y hjr jbrts tb smvj `j% L #ms prjtty s"rj thmt thj 'm$ajt shj hmd "sjd

tb scb# `y (cjjdlkn #ms nblkn tb kjjd sb`j sjrlb"s dry-$cjmklkn ms #jcc% L tb"$hjd thj

s$r"( tbp clnhtcy% L+` sbrry m(b"t yb"r $cbthjs%

@jnmk '"st s`lcjd, mkd dld m sclnht cb"rlsh, claj m `bdjc shb#lkn b m djslnkjr tbp%

Lt+s vjry $hl$, dbk+t yb" thlka4

&k yb", `my(j% F"t L+` stlcc sbrry m(b"t yb"r bthjr $cbthjs%

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*hj t#b b thj` cbbajd mt jm$h bthjr (rljcy% Ijcc, mk lk$h b t#b lk mkbthjr dlrj$tlbk,

br m j# `lk"tjs `brj b "k$hj$ajd (cjjdlkn -- cjt+s '"st smy yb" #jrj c"$ay%

*hls tl`j #j (bth cbbajd mt @jnmk, #hb cbbajd n"lcjcjss% _hj m$tjd ms thb"nh #j #jrj

tmcalkn m(b"t sb`jbkj jcsj% *hj )brd #bras lk `ystjrlb"s #mys, shj smld s`bbthcy%

_bbk mtjr thmt thjy $m`j mcbkn tb #hjjc `j tb mk b(sjrvmtlbk rbb % @jnmk $m`j mcbkn

tb njt `j sjttcjd% M pbcl$j`mk mcsb stbppjd (y tb njt y stbry% L hmd tb md`lt tb hl thmt

L hmd stmrtjd hlttlkn thj t#b n"ys #lth `y (laj hjc`jt, ("t thmt thjy hmd stmrtjd thj #hbcj

mmlr% L dldk+t akb# #hb thjy mrj% Lt #ms prb(m(cy m (b!-$"ttjr, kbt m aklj, hj smld,

$cbslkn hls kbtj(bba% *hjy #jrj prb(m(cy ms s$mrjd ms yb" #jrj% L dldk+t njt thj sjksj

thmt hj hmd mky ("rklkn djslrj tb lkd thj`%

@jnmk lkmccy cjt mrb"kd sl!, '"st (jbrj thjy (rb"nht j dlkkjr% _hj prb`lsjd tb stbp

(y lk thj `brklkn% Mkybkj yb" #mkt `j tb $mcc4 shj msajd ms shj prjpmrjd tb cjmvj%

1mrjkts, nlrcrljkd, sb`jbkj claj thmt4

L thb"nht m(b"t `y bptlbks% @y pmrjkts #jrj sjvjrmc h"kdrjds b `lcjs m#my, `y j!-

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Oh"$a #ms #jcc s"ltjd tb sl$a d"ty% L #msk+t rjmccy jjclkn tbb "p tb vlsltbrs mky#my%

>b, L+cc (j mcc rlnht%

@jnmk sjj`jd, bh, dlsmppblktjd br jvjk smddjkjd (y thls% Lt dld sb"kd sbrt b pltl"c, L

rjmcl:jd% _hj bjrjd tb stmy cbknjr, ("t L rjmss"rjd hjr L #ms lkj, nlvjk thj

$lr$"`stmk$js% Lk tr"th, L #b"cdk+t hmvj `lkdjd hjr stl$alkn mrb"kd cbknjr, ("t thmt

#b"cd `maj `j sjj` jvjk `brj pmthjtl$ thmk L mcrjmdy `"st sjj` tb hjr%

L jjc mscjjp shbrtcy mtjr dlkkjr, mkd scjpt lt"ccy thrb"nhb"t thj klnht%

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L #baj stl, sbrj mkd h"rtlkn% *hjy jd `j mk mc`bst lkdlnjstl(cj (rjmamst b #hmt L

$b"cd bkcy hbpj #ms djcl(jrmtjcy (cmkd bbd% L `jmk, lt $b"cdk+t (j thls (cmkd (y

m$$ldjkt, $b"cd lt4 L thlka lt #ms sb`j sbrt b $jrjmc, br `my(j lt #ms jnns% L mtj thj

(rjmd, mkd #bkdjrjd #hmt plnjbk #ms nblkn h"knry (j$m"sj thjy+d nlvjk lt tb `j

lkstjmd% *hj '"l$j #ms thlk mkd thj lca #ms #mr %

L #hlcjd m#my thj tl`j clpplkn $hmkkjcs bk thj cm`j $m(cj *H thj rbb` hmd "ktlc thj

s"rnjbk `mdj hls rb"kds lk thj cmtj `brklkn% ?j $hj$ajd `y $hmrt mkd nmvj hls

hmkdl#bra bk `y (m$a m nbbd cbba%

bbd 'b(, hj kbtjd prb"dcy% L thlka yb"+cc (j lkj%

_b #hjk db L njt b"t b hjrj4

?j p"t thj $hmrt (m$a lk lts scbt mkd $hj$ajd hls #mt$h% L n"jssjd hj #ms jmnjr tb njt bk

tb hls kj!t pmtljkt% Lt `"st (j mk bdd 'b(% L #bkdjrjd #hl$h pmrt hj clajd (jttjr -- thj

scl$lkn mkd rjpmlrlkn, br thjsj clttcj vlslts tb sjj thj rjs"cts b hls hmkdl#bra% L alkd b

hbpjd hls s"rnl$mc salccs #jrj (jttjr thmk hls pjbpcj salccs% 8b" $mk nb ms sbbk ms thjy

njt thj pmpjr#bra dbkj% L+cc cjt thj djsa akb#%

@jnmk mppjmrjd shbrtcy thjrjmtjr% *hls tl`j shj #ms drjssjd $ms"mccy, lk scm$as mkd m

clnht s#jmtjr% _hj #ms $mrrylkn m s`mcc ("kdcj% ?b# ls thj pmtljkt thls `brklkn4 shj

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Lt `"st (j m hbspltmc thlkn, L dj$ldjd, ("t L c"!"rlmtjd mt hjr $bbc tb"$h mky#my%

@y (m$a #ms m$t"mccy h"rtlkn m clttcj, ("t L #msk+t nblkn tb md`lt lt, jspj$lmccy kbt tb hjr%

Nlkj% L n"jss L $mk njt b"t b hjrj prjtty sbbk%

_hj kbddjd% _b L hjmr% L (rb"nht yb" thjsj, shj smld, hmkdlkn `j hjr ("kdcj% L

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*hj ("kdcj #ms `y $cbthjs rb` yjstjrdmy, kjmtcy #mshjd mkd bcdjd% @my(j jvjk

lrbkjd% L #ms tb"$hjd, mkd sb`j#hmt j`(mrrmssjd -- hb# $cjmk hmd thj "kdjr#jmr (jjk4

L hmdk+t nlvjk m `b`jkt thb"nht tb #hmt L+d #jmr tb njt b"t b hjrj, br jvjk #hjrj `y

$cbthjs #jrj% *hmkas%

L "kbcdjd thj shlrt, mkd cbbajd mt thj cbkn nmsh lk thj (m$a% Lt sjj`jd cbknjr thmk L+d

rjmcl:jd, mkd L thb"nht "kjmslcy m(b"t thj ms-yjt-"ksjjk $brrjspbkdlkn tjmr lk `y salk% Lt

sjj`jd tb lt$h mt thj thb"nht% Ijcc, L n"jss L $mk #jmr thjsj, L smld d"(lb"scy, mcthb"nh

L+d prb(m(cy #brk #brsj% >bt-lk-rbkt-b-@jnmk sjj jd tb (j thj $r"$lmc dlstlk$tlbk%

@jnmk s`lcjd% L+d hmvj sj#k lt "p, ("t L thb"nht yb" `lnht #mkt tb hmvj lt ms m

sb"vjklr b sbrts%

8b" `jmk, lk mddltlbk tb thj bkj bk `y (m$a4

?``, shj rjspbkdjd kbk$b``lttmccy% _hj hmkdjd `j mkbthjr bcdjd ltj`% L (rb"nht

yb" thls '"st lk $msj% Lt #ms m s$r"( tbp, mkd L #bkdjrjd #lth m sclnht sjksj b

j!$ltj`jkt l lt #ms thj bkj shj hmd p"t bk yjstjrdmy% L trljd tb dls$rjtjcy s`jcc lt ms L

tbba lt rb` hjr, tb try tb $mt$h m #hl b hjr s$jkt% *hmkas%

_hj #mltjd lk `y rbb` ms L shb#jrjd mkd $hmknjd lk `y (mthrbb`, trylkn tb `maj `y

hmlr cbba sj`l-prjsjktm(cj% Lt #ms hbpjcjss% L dld md`lrj thj (ln (mkdmnj bk y (m$a,

("t #bkdjrjd mt #hmt cmy "kdjrkjmth mkd #hmt alkd b s$mr lt #ms nblkn tb cjmvj%

@"$h (jttjr, shj smld mpprbvlkncy ms L $m`j b"t shycy rb` thj (mthrbb`% *hjrj #ms

mk brdjrcy #mltlkn #lth m #hjjc$hmlr, mkd thjy #jrj $hmttlkn mkl`mtjdcy% @jnmk hmd

`mdj mkbthjr rljkd, lt #b"cd sjj % L jyjd thj #hjjc$hmlr #mrlcy% Ihmt+s thmt br4

?bspltmc prb$jd"rj, thj brdjrcy j!pcmlkjd% ?mvj tb #hjjc yb" tb thj dbbr%

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L prbtjstjd thmt L #ms 3"ltj $mpm(cj b #mcalkn, ("t thj brdjrcy #ms kbt tb (j s#myjd%

V"cjs mrj r"cjs, jspj$lmccy lk m hbspltmc% L+cc #hjjc yb" b"t, @jnmk bjrjd%

Mt thj dbbr @jnmk hmlcjd m #mltlkn $m(% @jnmk, L #mkt tb thmka yb", L "`(cjd, ms

@jnmk bpjkjd thj $m(+s dbbr% 8b"+vj (jjk m

_mvj lt, shj $"t j b% L+` $b`lkn #lth yb"%

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`j lk thj (m$asjmt% L+` tmalkn yb" hb`j%

F"t

>b ("ts% L #mkt tb `maj s"rj yb" mrj mcc rlnht% Lt+s thj cjmst L $b"cd db, ms yb"r

kjlnh(br%

L #ms `brj $ykl$mc thmk shj #ms m(b"t kjlnh(brs% 8jmh, L sjj thj #hbcj ("lcdlkn ls hjrj

tb sjj `j hb`j%

_hj s`lcjd% F"t L (rb"nht yb" lk, sb L n"jss lt+s `y d"ty tb sjj yb" hb`j%

*hj rldj tb b"r ("lcdlkn #ms bkcy m j# `lk"tjs cbkn, mkd #j dldk+t tmca `"$h% L #ms

trylkn tb ln"rj b"t hb# "$h $msh L hmd mkd l L $b"cd $bvjr thj mrj% L ajpt mk jyj bk

thj `jtjr% Lt nrj# rmpldcy, mkd L #ms dlstrm$tjd trylkn tb jstl`mtj lts lkmc vmc"j (msjd bk

lts $"rrjkt rmtj b $hmknj% L jkdjd "p (jlkn prjtty $cbsj tb thj lkmc m`b"kt%

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sb`j `bkjy% _hj lnkbrjd `y prbtjsts mkd pmld thj $m( drlvjr, lk$c"dlkn m kl$j tlp mkd m

s`lcj thmt `mdj jvjk mk mppmrjkt cbkn tl`j $m((lj claj hl` rlnht s`lcj (m$a%

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L s`lcjd, s"ddjkcy jjclkn (jttjr% Ob`j bk, L smld% L+cc shb# yb"% Lk djjrjk$j tb `y

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@jnmk sjj`jd l``jdlmtjcy l`prjssjd% Ib#J

&"r ("lcdlkn #ms ("lct br m dljrjkt tl`j% L n"jss thj $cbsjst bdjrk j3"lvmcjkts mrj

sb`j b thj s"pjr-j!pjkslvj hlnh-rlsj $bkdbs db#ktb#k (y thj #mtjr% >b#mdmys pjbpcj

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thj (m$a% &"r ("lcdlkn hmd (jjk ("lct `brj $b`pm$tcy% Lt #ms jmkt ms m kl$j clttcj

$b``"klty, #lth m dj$jkt ("t kbt bstjktmtlb"s m`b"kt b spm$j br jm$h rjsldjkt% *hjrj

#ms m s`mcc cb((y, #hjrj pjbpcj $m`j lk br pl$ajd "p b"r `mlc -- thmt sbrt b thlkn% Lt,

claj thj rjst b thj ("lcdlkn, hmd bk$j (jjk dls$rjtjcy jcjnmkt ("t kb# #ms mnlkn, sbrt b

claj @rs, Imnkjr mkd sb`j b thj bthjr bcdjr rjsldjkts% M(bvj lt thjrj #jrj thrjj cbbrs

b mpmrt`jkts, #lth bkj bk jm$h sldj b thj hmcc bk jm$h cbbr% _l! mpmrt`jkts, `malkn

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sb`j stbrmnj spm$js% *hjrj #ms mk jcjvmtbr br thbsj #hb $hbsj tb rldj, #lth m sjrvmkts+

stmlr#my lk thj (m$a% Mkd, bk thj vjry tbp cbbr, thjrj #ms m (mccrbb`%

*hj bbtprlkt b thj (mccrbb` #ms `"$h (lnnjr thmk mky b thj mpmrt`jkts (jcb#, ms lt

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