March 22, 2015

Graduation

University of Saint La Salle

To my friend Louieze,

Hey. I was writing this letter when I was stuck for 3 hours in

McDo, before even our graduation would start, and walaaaa gid ko

kabalo kun ngaa gina write ko ni para simo, well, nahatag ko na kay

rivi and kay bon ang ila, but, simo wala pa. I’m writing to you this

letter, to tell you some things I should have told you back then. I

thought since I wasn’t able to say anything to you during our

recollection, so I took this opportunity to say things I couldn’t say to

you in person. I hope okay lang simo. I know you don’t like drama too

much, but this time, please give me this last chance para mag drama.

lol. It took all of me to write down every word, and lakas ng loob to

give you this letter.

When first met you, during our college years, I thought you were

suplado. Turns out, indi gali. You were that talented person, hipos ka

lang ya, but ultimately friendly. Humble ka pa, kay bisan gwapo ka,

ehem, ga hipos ka lang. We had a group back then, AB-1DOTA, and

dude, those times were gold. 1:30 or 3:00 ta nga buhi, DOTA lang nga

DOTA. Ang maka upod sa imo, considered win na, kay daog na mo.

Haha. Ga ugtas ka man sakon, kay talawit ko. Asta man siguro sang

nag saylo na ta LoL, gapangakig ka kun mag tinalawit ko. But those

were the games that made us who we are right now: the best of

friends. From a group, we were reduced to 4 people, Torty, Ako, Ikaw,

Ben. Everybody else defected and drifted, but all four of us remained

solid.

When you knew that I was gay, at, first, sabi mo, daw na lainan ka pa

because, you had a bad experience with us, as you told me, but

eventually, we did manage to get along. Of course, hindi na mawawala

yung konting away, but I am sensitive enough to notice that you were

drifting away because of the silly mistakes that I did to you. Nahuya ko

sang tanan nga sala ko simo, that I acted too much toward simo, that I

got stupidly obsessed over my admiration sa imo. Things like, getting

jealous over girls that flirt with you, nga wala man ko right nga

mangakig or maging jealous, or that time nga na init nagid ulo mo

sakon, because I was overreacting and paranoid. Haay. Wala ko to idea

kun ngaa ga amo ko to sa imo sang amo to nga mga time.. And up

until now, I am very sorry for those things that happened. Gina ask ko

self ko kun ngaa nag amo ka to, and I told myself that he has his own

reasons and I should respect them, and eventually,na realize ko man

gid kun ngaa gin ubra mo to. Those petty “inaways” that we had,

taught each of us a lesson, me especially.

Let’s leave the bad things behind us, and let’s just remember what it

taught us both. Now, things are different for me, since nag promise ko

simo, diba? Consider that promise partially fulfilled. Lol. Indi ni oblicon

ha. It’s all in the past, so, let’s just forget them and get on with our

lives.

Tough one gid to ya kay sir Dorz, because ululupod ta to ni torty

kag ni ben nga nag kinusamod, ga tuon sa library, tapos ang ending ga

kinadlaw ta sa sagay ta istorya. Upod man ta to sang ginhampak ni

Ayrton si Tel Tel sa ulo, kag ikaw naman, ga kulo naman to dugo mo sa

iya, nag awat man ko to simo lol. Sa pag singgit nga wala klase sa

criminal law, upod man ta laugh and sinadya. Ma law na ta. I hope we

make new ones like those things I mentioned earlier, (except ang

Ayrton part.) because we have limited time left to see each other.

Soon, we will have our own families, own businesses, jobs, clients,

court cases, and all the manner of bullshit that we have to deal as

adults. Everybody has to grow up sometime, and I can see it now. Soon

we won’t be just adults any longer, we will be parents, who will have

real responsibilities. Futuristic gid ya ang dating ko.

Indi mag law school si Bon. Wala na si Bon,wala na ko kilala, I

stand alone sa Law School, kay wala na ko upod puli, or wala na may

manabad sakon. Da na ko nasubuan. Wala na ang partner ko. Well that

is a great change for me to deal with, pero ara man kamo, especially

you, whom I treat most special (eww so Gay) haha. Pero dude, tuod na.

This time in law school, I can feel that I have to adjust a little bit.

As I approach my last paragraph (and I know at this point, you

are now saying that medyo kapoy kana mag basa.) I want you to know

that I am really, really happy for the both of you, ikaw kag si Roxiel.

Sometimes, just sometimes, I can hear you doubt and worry about

your future with her, about whether or not your parents would accept

your relationship. I believe in you, and the love that you feel for her.

There are many girls that chase after you, flirt, seduce, tempt, we can

never deny that, but kabalo ko, you don’t entertain them too seriously,

because they mistake your friendship for something else, and they

always do, perhaps for most of the time. However, please be careful.

Don’t go in too deep my friend, basi madala ka. It always up to you to

decide to take the bait or not, and things are not always what they

seem though. Whenever you get tempted, just always remember the

promise you made to her. She’s a very, very lucky woman, for having

such a loyal, gentle, and caring man to be her boyfriend. In the near

future, I hope and pray to see you both in the altar, married, happy,

and contented.

Let me tell you this, and I have to say it over and over again to you,

that I am honored to be your friend for these past 4 years. I can only

promise you one thing, I’ll remain by your side as your friend, and will

truly be one of, if not the best, friends you’ll have. If ever you need

someone to listen to whatever it is that is bothering you, please, don’t

ever hesitate to talk to me. I’m just “there” if ever you need me. I’m a

friend. That’s my job. No one lives alone you know.

Congratulations to us both, this is the day we have all been waiting for.

Your Friend,

Louem.