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]k`gt Xrk`g`giOy< Bd`zkobtf E`xabr
Akry Mdkrb `s ng tfb dnncnut enr k a`rkmdb. ]fb
`s hbtbra`gbh tn ob k sk`gt wfbg sfb irnws up
(tfb fkdn w`dd fbdp mnvbr fbr er`zzy fk`r). Out
dktbdy gngb ne fbr prkybrs sbba tn ob wnrc`gi
tfb wky sfb wkgts tfba tn< fbr antfbr `s
dns`gi fbr ek`tf, fbr pkrbgts mkgt pky kdd tfbo`dds, kgh fbr orntfbr rbmb`vbs k hrket gnt`mb
enr tfb wkr `g U`btgka. Akry Mdkrb fks k pdkg
tn fbdp, out `t lust hnbsgt sbba tn ob wnrc`gi.
Fnw `s sfb suppnsbh tn obmnab k sk`gt wfbg
fbr wnrdh `s ekdd`gi kpkrt>
Dbkrg Anrb |\nghbrvkg ng ]mr`oh |\nghbrvkg.mna
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Akry Mdkrb NOr`kg
;66 Lkmcsng ]trbbt
D`ttdbouri, Y`smngs`g 2=2=6
]k`gt Akry Akihkdbgb Mngvbgt
;;?= Innh ]fbpfbrh _nkh
A`ggbkpnd`s, A`ggbsntk 22;00
Akrmf ?2, ;059
Hbkr _bvbrbgh Antfbr,
Ay gkab `s Akry Mdkrb NOr`kg. @ ka `g s`xtf irkhb kgh @ ka wr`t`gi
obmkusb @ wkgt tn obmnab k Innh ]fbpfbrh gug. @ d`cb tfb Innh
]fbpfbrh gugs obst obmkusb ynu wnrc w`tf ugwbh antfbrs kgh
tfb`r oko`bs. @ dnvb d`ttdb oko`bs.@ fkvb dnts ne bxpbr`bgmb w`tf c`hs. Inh i`vbs ay eka`dy k gbw
okoy bvbry ybkr bvbg tfnuif wb fkvb anrb tfkg wb mkg fkghdb
gnw. Bvbryngb skys tfkt @ ka vbry akturb enr ay kib obmkusb ne
fnw wbdd @ tkcb mkrb ne ay d`ttdb orntfbrs kgh s`stbrs. Kdsn @a k innh
dbkhbr. Xfb gugs kt smfnnd mkg ob rbkddy str`mt kgh wfbg @a `g mfkrib
ne tfb d`ttdb c`hs kt fnab, @ fkvb tn ob str`mt dnts ne t`abs.@ skw Xfb ]nugh ne Aus`mwfbrb tfb Antfbr ]upbr`nr fbdpbh
Lud`b Kghrbws ekmb fbr prnodbas. @ mnudh hn tfkt. Bvbryonhy tbdds ab
tfb`r prnodbas, kgh @a innh kt sndut`ngs.
Kgntfbr rbksng @a `gtbrbstbh `g ob`gi k Innh ]fbpfbrh gug `s
obmkusb ne tfb fko`ts ynu wbkr. @ dnvb tfba. Anst gugs wbkr kdd odkmc
bxmbpt enr tfb w`apdb kgh mnwd, out tfkts d`cb in`gi tn k eugbrkd bvbry
hky, hngt ynu tf`gc> @ dnvb tfb wf`tb kgh mrbka ne ynur fko`ts kdngiw`tf tfb d`ift ornwg. @ d`cb tfb vb`d tnn. @t kdd inbs tnibtfbr wbdd kgh
dnncs snpf`st`mktbh. @ tf`gc tfb fko`t w`dd akcb ay ornwg bybs dnnc
o`iibr. Ay fk`r `s kdsn ornwg, out tfkt wngt sfnw. Lust obtwbbg ynu
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kgh ab, @dd ob idkh tn mnvbr up ay murdy fk`r obmkusb `ts `apnss`odb.
_`ift gnw, @ lust neebr `t up tn Inh.
Ngb prnodba @ fkvb `s tf`s< ]`stbr Mfkrdnttb, ay tbkmfbr, skys @hgbvbr akcb `t `g tfb mngvbgt ugdbss @ wks tfb Antfbr ]upbr`nr. @
tf`gc sfb fks k innh pn`gt. Ks @ kdrbkhy abgt`ngbh, @a k dbkhbr, gnt k
enddnwbr, wf`mf `s wfy @ fkvb trnuodb w`tf nobh`bgmb.
@ ka prbs`hbgt ne ay s`xtf irkhb mdkss. Xf`s ybkr @ wrntb kgh
h`rbmtbh k pdky ay mdkss put ng enr tfb wfndb smfnnd. @ kdsn pdkybh tfb
dbkh rndb. @ usbh tn ob prbs`hbgt ne ay Mkap E`rb I`rds trnnp, out tf`s
ybkr @ rkg enr v`mb prbs`hbgt tn i`vb snabngb bdsb k turg. @ ibt innh
irkhbs, anstdy Ks. @ kdwkys ibt Ks `g _bd`i`ng kgh usukddy `g Mnghumt
`e @ ibt kdngi w`tf tfb tbkmfbr.
_bvbrbgh Antfbr, @ tf`gc @ sfnudh ob k Antfbr ]upbr`nr obmkusb
@a tfb c`gh ne pbrsng tfkt bvbryngb tbdds tfb`r prnodbas tn. Bvbg ay
nwg antfbr mnghbs `g ab. ]fb skys @ akcb fbr ebbd obttbr.
@ wnudh d`cb tn ln`g tfb mngvbgt r`ift ketbr b`iftf irkhb obenrb @stkrt d`c`gi onys tnn aumf. @a kdrbkhy fkv`gi prnodbas w`tf onys
d`c`gi ab. Irbinry, `g ay mdkss, tfrnws sp`tokdds kt ab kgh tndh ay
obst er`bgh tfkt fb d`cbs ab. @ fkvbgt tndh f`a tfkt @ wkgt tn ob Inhs
or`hb ybt. Hn ynu tf`gc @ sfnudh>
Mnudh ynu pdbksb wr`tb okmc kgh tbdd ab anrb konut ynur mngvbgt
kgh fnw tn obmnab tfb Antfbr ]upbr`nr> Hn ynu ibt mfnsbg oy tfbZnpb, nr ibt k s`ig erna Inh, nr hn ynu fndh kg bdbmt`ng> @e ynurb
mfnsbg tfrnuif vnt`gi @ cgnw k dnt konut mkapk`ig`gi obmkusb ay
ektfbr mkapk`igbh enr Zrbs`hbgt Lnfgsng. @ mnudh akcb s`igs
kgh stuee.
Zdbksb dbt ab cgnw ks snng ks pnss`odb.
@ mkgt wk`t tn fbkr erna ynu!
]`gmbrbdy,
Akry Mdkrb NOr`kg
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Z.]. @a tf`gc`gi konut ay gug gkab @h d`cb Xfbrbsk _nsb.
Xfbrbsk enr ]t. Xfbrbsk tfb D`ttdb Ednwbr ne Lbsus kgh _nsb obmkusb
kdd tfnsb rnsbs ebdd erna fbkvbg ketbr sfb h`bh.Z.Z.]. @ usbh tn gkab kdd ay hndds Xfbrbsk bxmbpt Okro`b. Kgh @ lust
dnvb rnsbs.
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Akry Mdkrb g`sfbh fbr ]nm`kd ]tuh`bs tbst kgh turgbh `t
ups`hb hnwg tn wk`t enr tfb rbst ne tfb mdkss. @t wks bksy,
anstdy bssky, kgh ng k suolbmt tfkt Akry Mdkrb fkh fbkrh k dnt
konut kt fnab krnugh tfb h`ggbr tkodb< m`v`d r`ifts. ]fb mnudhgt
obd`bvb tfkt Gbirnbs fkh tn s`t ng tfb okmc ne tfb ous `g tfb]nutf kgh bvbg hr`gc erna h`eebrbgt wktbr enugtk`gs. Xfby wbrb
ift`gi enr oks`m r`ifts, bspbm`kddy tfb r`ift tn vntb. Akry Mdkrb
d`cbh tn `aki`gb tfkt k Gbirn i`rd bgtbrbh fbr vbry mdkss kt ]k`gt
Akr`k Inrbtt` ]mfnnd. ]fb wnudh sfnw fbr krnugh, obmnab fbr
er`bgh, bvbg fndh tfb hr`gc`gi enugtk`g ng enr fbr.
Gnw fbr ekmb smrugmfbh `gtn k ykwg sfb enuift tn mngtrnd.
]fb wks t`rbh erna ob`gi up kdanst kdd g`ift rst d`stbg`gi
tn fbr pkrbgts ift, tfbg prky`gi enr tfb pbrebmt pdkg tn akcb
tf`gis obttbr enr fbr eka`dy. Ketbr sfb mkab up w`tf tfb pbrebmt
pdkg, sfb mnudhgt sdbbp kt kdd.
]fb wks in`gi tn obmnab k sk`gt. ]fb fkh wr`ttbg tn Antfbr
]upbr`nr obmkusb sfb iurbh tfkt obmna`gi tfb Antfbr ]upbr`nr
ne k mngvbgt wks tfb obst wky tn md`ao tfb dkhhbr tnwkrh sk`gt-fnnh. ]k`gt Xfbrbsk, tfb D`ttdb Ednwbr, wks k gug obenrb sfb
obmkab k sk`gt, kgh sn wks ]k`gt Mdk`rb. Akry Mdkrb h`hgt wkgt
tn tbdd Antfbr ]upbr`nr tfkt sfb wkgtbh tn obmnab k sk`gt, ne
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mnursb, obmkusb tfkt wnudh akcb fbr sbba mngmb`tbh. Obmna`gi
k sk`gt wnudh ob fbr nwg sbmrbt k sbmrbt sfb sfkrbh w`tf Inh
kdngb.
]fb mnudh sbb fbrsbde gnw kdd hrbssbh `g wf`tb kgh k sf`gy
indh fkdn mrnwg`gi fbr fbkh. Fbr onhy sf`g`gi d`cb tfb U`ri`g
Akry stktub ]`stbr Mfkrdnttb ikvb fbr wfbg sfb int kg K `g
Mnghumt. @e ynu fbdh tfb d`ttdb stktub ughbr k d`ift enr k ebw a`g-
utbs ynu mnudh tkcb `t `gtn tfb hkrcbst ne mdnsbts kgh `tidnwbh.
Akry Mdkrb npbgbh fbr bybs wfbg sfb fbkrh wf`spbr`gi `g
erngt ne tfb mdkssrnna. ]`stbr Mfkrdnttb gnhhbh tn Cbddy erna
obf`gh fbr hbsc, kgh Cbddy dbet tfb rnna, fbr dngi odnghb ork`hs
trk`d`gi obf`gh fbr. Yfbg Akry Mdkrb dnncbh hnwg kt fbr hbsc,
sfb skw tfkt Cbddy fkh hrnppbh k gntb ng fbr hbsc ng fbr wky tn
ksc tn ob bxmusbh. Mfnmndktb Mncb ketbr smfnnd>Ay trbkt.
]fb turgbh tfb gntb nvbr kgh rbspnghbh. @a suppnsbh tn wkdc
ay d`ttdb s`stbrs fnab, out wfkt tfb fbmc, @h aumf rktfbr fkvb k mfnmn-dktbMncb w`tf ynu.]n ybs!]fb mnudh sd`p `t tn Cbddy wfbg sfb
mkab okmc erna tfb oktfrnna. ]fb endhbh tfb gntb kgh wk`tbh
enr Cbddy tn rbturg.
Out sbgh`gi k gntb `g mdkss wks k s`g, sfb rbkd`zbh. Akry
Mdkrb skt okmc fkrh `g fbr sbkt, mngtbapdkt`gi fnw h`emudt tf`s
wfndb sk`gt tf`gi wks in`gi tn ob. @e sfb wks in`gi tn obmnab k
sk`gt, sfb sfnudhgt sbgh gntbs g mdkss nr h`snoby fbr antfbr oy
in`gi tn tfb Mnugtbr ketbr smfnnd, bvbg `e tfby wbrb d`ttdb vbg`kd
s`gs kgh gnt k o`i hbkd. ]fb wnudh mngebss tfba ng ]kturhky, ne
mnursb.
]fb tfnuift konut tfb twn s`gs. Xfby wbrb ontf vbg`kd out
h`snobh`bgmb fkh tn ob k o`iibr s`g tfkg pkss`gi k gntb. ]fb wng-
hbrbh wfy tfb Mktfnd`m Mfurmf fkhgt tfnuift ne tf`s akc`gianrb irkhkt`ngs ne vbg`kd s`gs. Ybdd, sfbh fndh ngtn tfkt `hbk,
akyob mrbktb k vbg`kd ngb mktbinry kgh vbg`kd twn kgh tfrbb mkt-
binr`bs ks wbdd. ]fbh wk`t t`dd sfb wks Antfbr ]upbr`nr, rst.
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Akry Mdkrb d`etbh fbr hbsctnp kgh sd`ppbh tfb gntb `gs`hb
ngb ne tfb onncs sfb fkh inttbg tfkt anrg`gi erna tfb ]t. Akr`k
Inrbtt` ]mfnnd d`orkry< ]k`gt Xfbrbsb Akrt`g, kdngi w`tf ]t. Lnkg
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Akry Mdkrb fkh pduiibh fbr bkrs obenrb sfb fbkrh kgytf`gi
anrb. Out sfb h`h fbkr Lnfggy wf`g`gi kmrnss tfb rnna. Fb wks
stkgh`gi `g f`s mr`o, f`s mfuooy d`ttdb kras nutstrbtmfbh tnwkrh
fbr. ]fb furr`bh tn p`mc f`a up kgh dk`h f`a hnwg `g fbr s`g-
idb obh, prky`gi fbh in r`ift okmc tn sdbbp. Xfbg sfb smnnmfbh
nvbr tn akcb rnna enr Akrtfk, wfn stnnh oy tfb obh md`gi-
`gi tn fbr wf`tb obkr kgh dnnc`gi tbrr`bh. Xfkt wks tfb tf`gi
konut sfkr`gi k obhrnna w`tf twn ne tfb d`ttdb c`hs< `e tfby wbrb
kerk`h obmkusb ne k stnra nr k ift, nr wncb up ebbd`gi s`mc, tfby
usukddy turgbh tn fbr enr mnaenrt bspbm`kddy wfbg Hkh wks
fnab. Gb`tfbr pkrbgt d`cbh tn ob kwkcbgbh `g tfb a`hhdb ne tfb
g`ift. Akry Mdkrb h`hgt usukddy a`gh, bxmbpt wfbg snabonhy
tfrbw up `g fbr obh, d`cb Akrtfk tfkt t`ab. Out dkst g`ift, wfbg
Akrikrbt kgh Ikor`bddk mkab rusf`gi `g erna tfb`r obhrnna,
tfbrb wks gn wky Akry Mdkrb mnudh t kdd ne tfba `g fbr obh, sn
sfb usfbrbh tfb wfndb ornnh okmc tn tfb rnna Kggb, Ikor`bddk,kgh Akrikrbt sfkrbh, kgh tfby muhhdbh tnibtfbr `g tfb i`rds
hnuodb obh.
Dbts sky nur prkybrs, Akry Mdkrb suiibstbh. ]fb wk`tbh
ugt`d tfb c`hs stnppbh w`iid`gi krnugh try`gi tn ibt mnaenrt-
kodb, kgh tfbg tfby rbm`tbh tfb`r g`iftt`ab prkybr `g wf`spbrs.
Gnw @ dky ab hnwg tn sdbbp. @ prky tfb Dnrh ay snud tn cbbp.
@e @ sfnudh h`b obenrb @ wkcb, @ prky tfb Dnrh ay snud tn tkcb.
Xfbg obikg tfb d`tkgy ne eka`dy abaobrs erna ndhbst tn ynugi-
bst< Inh odbss Anaay, Hkhhy, Akttfbw, Akrc, Ducb, Akry
Mdkrb, Kggb, Ikor`bddk, Akrikrbt, Akrtfk, kgh Lnfggy. @g kg
kdanst `gkuh`odb wf`spbr Ikor`bddk khhbh, Kgh Inh odbss tfb
okoy `g Anaays tuaay.
Ketbr k anabgt ne s`dbgmb Akrtfk pncbh Akry Mdkrb ng tfbsfnudhbr. Xbdd us k stnry, sfb obiibh.
Pbkf, Ikor`bddk sk`h, out gnt konut sk`gts nr kgytf`gi
rbd`i`nus.
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Lnfggy muhhdbh up w`tf f`s fbkh ng fbr sfnudhbr, f`s tfuao
kgh tnrg odkgc`b `g f`s anutf.
Akry Mdkrb usbh fbr anst snntf`gi vn`mb. Ngmb upng k t`ab
k d`ttdb pr`gmb kgh enur obkut`eud pr`gmbssbs d`vbh tnibtfbr `g k
tkdd mkstdb w`tf bvbrytf`gi tfby mnudh `aki`gb wkgt`gi. Xfby
wbrb vbry fkppy . . .
Lnfggys dksfbs stnppbh uttbr`gi kdanst `aabh`ktbdy, kgh
Akry Mdkrb wktmfbh tfb rfytfa`m r`sb kgh ekdd ne Akrtfks mfbst
lust a`gutbs dktbr. Ikor`bddk ykwgbh. Kgh tfbrb wbrb t`gy ek`r-
`bs `g tfb mnurtykrh, Akry Mdkrb khhbh. Out k a`gutb anrb kgh
tfby wbrb kdd ksdbbp kdd bxmbpt Akry Mdkrb, wfn mnudhgt ob
mnaenrtbh oy k ek`ry tkdb. ]fb dky w`hb kwkcb.
]fb fktbh tf`s< angby prnodbas, tnn akgy c`hs, kgntfbr okoy
ng tfb wky. Xfkts wfy Ana hnbsgt s`gi kgyanrb wfbg wb hn h`sfbs
kgh dkughry, Akry Mdkrb tfnuift. ]fb a`ssbh tfb antfbr wfn
dkuifbh w`tf fbr er`bghs nvbr mneebb, wfn akhb ekgmy kppbt`zbrsenr mnmctk`d pkrt`bs, wfn sbwbh odub bybdbt murtk`gs enr fbr rnna.
]fb w`sfbh Akttfbw wnudh mnab fnab erna tfb ]ba`gkry sn
sfb wnudh fkvb snabngb tn tkdc tn konut kdd tf`s.
Dnrh, fbdp ay eka`dy.Zdbksb, pdbksb i`vb us bgnuif angby sn Ana
kgh Hkh mkg ob fkppy kik`g.
]fb stnppbh. ]fb wks s`mc ne tf`s prkybr. Yfy wksgt Inh
kgswbr`gi> Fb usbh tn kgswbr fbr prkybrs kdd tfb t`ab.
Out tfkt wks obenrb. ]fb wks d`ttdb tfbg. ]fb mnudh sky Zdbksb
Inh, wb gbbh angby enr ay orntfbrs o`rtfhky, kgh Inh wnudh
sbgh `t. ]fb wnudh lust gh `t ng tfb s`hbwkdc, hnwg oy tfb
r`vbr, `g k p`db ne dbkvbs. E`vb, tbg, bvbg twbgty hnddkr o`dds. ]fb
bvbg prkybh tfb eka`dy gtn k gbw mkr wfbg sfb wks ngdy enur. @t
wks r`ift obenrb tfb eka`dy anvbh erna A`ggbsntk tn Y`smngs`gobmkusb fbr ektfbr stnppbh tbkmf`gi kgh stkrtbh f`s lno sbdd`gi
tbxtonncs tn smfnnds. ]fb prkybh ebrvbgtdy bvbry g`ift, kgh ngb
g`ift wf`db sfb wks sdbbp`gi Inh put k orkgh-gbw ;026 Enrh
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`g tfb hr`vbwky. Xfkt wks wfbg Akry Mdkrb cgbw `t wks fbr lno
tn prky enr stuee. Bvbg wfbg sfb dbkrgbh tfkt tfb mkr mkab erna
tfb lno Hkh fkh lust stkrtbh, sfb cgbw `t wks rbkddy erna Inh.
]fb fkh prkybh tfkt mkr `gtn tfb hr`vbwky bvbg fbr orntfbrs
tfnuift sn.
Xfbg t lust stnppbh . . . wfbg . . . wfbg sfb wks konut sbvbg.
Akry Mdkrbs bybs npbgbh w`hb kgh sfb skt up `g obh mkrbeuddy
sn gngb ne tfb c`hs wncb up. ]bvbg sbvbg wks wfbg s`gs
stkrtbh tn mnugt. Xfkt wks wfbg Inh stnppbh d`stbg`gi tn fbr
prkybrs.
Yfbg Akry Mdkrb int up twn snup mkgs rnddbh nut ne fbr
fk`r. Gnw sfb cgbw tfb prnodba< Inh wnudh ngdy d`stbg tn fbr
`e fbr snud wks purb. @e sfb wks in`gi tn akcb fbr antfbr fkppy
kik`g, sfb wnudh fkvb tn ob k sk`gt r`ift kwky.
]fb akhb k pdkg. ]fb wnudh stuhy, sfb wnudh prkmt`mb
sk`gt-d`cb obfkv`nr, kgh sfb wnudh obmnab k gug. Akgy ne tfbi`rd sk`gts fkh obbg gugs obenrb ob`gi sk`gtbh, sn sfb iurbh
obmna`gi k gug wks tfb pbrebmt stbpp`gi stngb tn fbr rbkd inkd.
]fbh ob sn hkrgbh innh sfb wnudhgt fkvb k tf`gi tn mngebss
ng ]kturhkys.
Akry Mdkrb bxpdk`gbh tfb hbkd tn Inh. @e ynu tkcb mkrb ne ay
eka`dy i`vb tfba bgnuif angby, akcb ay pkrbgts fkppy . . . @dd
obmnab k sk`gt. ]fb rbpbktbh `t sbvbrkd t`abs `g mksb `t wks fkrh
enr Inh tn fbkr tfrnuif kdd ne fbr s`gs. Oy tfb t`ab sfbh inttbg
tn sdbbp, `t wks kdanst t`ab tn ibt up.
Gnw Akry Mdkrb wks sn t`rbh sfb mnudh fkrhdy cbbp fbr bybs
npbg. ]fb mnvbrbh fbr anutf tn supprbss k ykwg lust ks ]`stbr
Mfkrdnttb, wfn skt kt fbr hbsc `g tfb erngt ne tfb mdkssrnna,
dnncbh kt tfb mdnmc.Ay innhgbss! ]`stbr Mfkrdnttb sk`h, stkgh`gi up. Pnu kdd
aust fkvb g`sfbh ynur tbsts kibs kin! Zkss tfba tn tfb erngt.
]fb mdkppbh fbr fkghs tnibtfbr tw`mb kgh sa`dbh fbr anv`b stkr
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sa`db. Xfb h`apdbs tfkt ngdy sfnwbh wfbg sfb sa`dbh abdtbh
`gtn fbr mfbbcs. Akry Mdkrb tfnuift sfb wks tfb anst mfbbreud
gug sfbh bvbr abt.
Xnaay Lnfgsng skt `g tfb hbsc obf`gh Akry Mdkrb. @gstbkh
ne pkss`gi tfb pkpbrs enrwkrh fb pncbh tfb okmc ne fbr gbmc w`tf
f`s pbgm`d. Fb wks nognx`nus d`cb tfkt. ]fb turgbh tn tkcb tfb
pkpbrs kgh idkrbh kt f`s erbmcdbh ekmb, out `aabh`ktbdy w`sfbh
sfb fkhgt. ]k`gt Xfbrbsk wnudhgt fkvb i`vbg Xnaay k h`rty
dnnc. ]fb wnudh fkvb sa`dbh kgh neebrbh Xnaays pncb up tn
Lbsus. Akry Mdkrb wks anabgtkr`dy nnhbh w`tf h`skppn`gtabgt
`g fbrsbde, out tfb ebbd`gi qu`mcdy sf`etbh tn `rr`tkt`ng kt Xnaay.
Xnaay wks lust tfb c`gh ne orktty ony wfn mnudh cbbp fbr erna
obmna`gi k sk`gt. ]fb mngtbapdktbh fnw ]k`gt Xfbrbsk fbdh ngtn
fbr dnv`gi akggbr, bvbg wfbg pbnpdb wbrb abkg tn fbr, kgh
s`ifbh. ]k`gt Xfbrbsk wks sn aumf d`cb tfb U`ri`g Akry nob-
h`bgt, qu`bt, swbbt, kgh c`gh. Kdanst tfb nppns`tb ne Akry Mdkrb.]fb wks in`gi tn fkvb tn wnrc fkrh tn obmnab k sk`gt.
]`stbr mnddbmtbh tfb qu`zzbs erna bkmf rnw. ]tuhbgts kutn-
akt`mkddy stkrtbh pudd`gi npbg tfb tnps ne tfb`r hbscs tn rbtr`bvb
tfb`r Bgid`sf onncs enr tfb dkst mdkss ne tfb hky, out ]`stbr fbdh
up fbr fkgh.
Gn, mdkss. Gn Bgid`sf tnhky. @ fkvb k surpr`sb enr ynu gstbkh.
Xf`s ybkr, enr tfb rst t`ab bvbr, tfb s`xtf irkhb w`dd ob bgtbr-
`gi k h`nmbskg bssky mngtbst, ]`stbr Mfkrdnttb kggnugmbh, kgh
@a bxm`tbh enr ynu kdd. Xfb tnp`m `s Yfkt k _bd`i`nus Unmkt`ng
Abkgs tn Ab kgh . . . Xnaay irnkgbh obf`gh Akry Mdkrb kgh
Lbg E`tzibrkdh stumc fbr `ghbx gibr `g fbr anutf d`cb sfb wks
in`gi tn tfrnw up. ]bvbrkd sg`mcbrs enddnwbh.
Kgh . . . wk`t k a`gutb. Xf`s mngtbst fks mksf pr`zbs! Xfb h`n-mbsb fks gbvbr fkh pr`zbs obenrb, out tf`s ybkr kg bdhbrdy mnupdb
erna Akh`sng akhb k hngkt`ng spbm`mkddy tn fbdp mf`dhrbg
stkrt tf`gc`gi konut vnmkt`ngs ks gugs nr pr`bsts.
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Akry Mdkrb rk`sbh fbr fkgh sn f`if sfb wks mnapdbtbdy nut
ne fbr sbkt. Fnw aumf krb tfb pr`zbs>
]`stbrs gnsb smrugmfbh tfb wky `t h`h wfbg sfb sa`dbh. Xfb
tf`rh pr`zb `s etbbg hnddkrs.
Nnfs kgh kkfs pdus ngb wf`stdb.
]bmngh pr`zb `s hnuodb tfkt.
Xf`rty oumcs! _ng Dyngs kggnugmbh. K c`h mnudh ibt k
]mfw`gg enr tfkt!
Nr Cbddy mnudh ibt twn Okro`b hndds w`tf k wfndb ougmf ne
mdntfbs enr fbr kgh Akry Mdkrb. @t wks Xnaay, ne mnursb.
Pnu hngt mkrb konut tfb rst pr`zb> ]`stbr kscbh, eb`ig`gi
sfnmc.
Pbs! bvbryngb sk`h `g ug`sng.
E`ety hnddkrs, out ]`stbr stnppbh wf`db bvbryngb tnnc `g
gn`sy orbktfs ynu fkvb stbbp mnapbt`t`ng. _babaobr, `ts
bvbry s`xtf irkhb mdkss `g tfb wfndb h`nmbsb.Akry Mdkrb mnudhgt orbktfb. ]fb p`mturbh tfb h`nmbskg h`rbm-
tnry. @t wks wky o`iibr tfkg tfb D`ttdbouri, Y`smngs`g pfngb
onnc. Xfbrb fkh tn ob ety h`eebrbgt mfurmfbs `g `t. ]fb dnncbh
krnugh. Xfbrb wbrb enrty-tfrbb c`hs `g fbr mdkss. ]fb h`hgt bvbg
wkgt tn tf`gc ne fnw akgy bsskys tfkt wnudh ob.
@t h`hgt akttbr. ]fb fkh tn w`g. E`ety hnddkrs! Akry Mdkrbs
pkrbgts wnudh ob sn rbd`bvbh. Fbr ana a`ift bvbg ob ncky w`tf
fkv`gi kgntfbr okoy. Dbt ab w`g rst pr`zb, Dnrh, kgh @dd cgnw
ynuvb kmmbptbh ay hbkd tn ob obmnab k sk`gt.]fb wnudh stkrt ob`gi
innh gnw. Enribt tfb mfnmndktb Mncb w`tf Cbddy3 sfbh nobh`-
bgtdy wkdc tfb c`hs fnab. Zdbksb, Inh. Zdbksb.
Hngt dnnc sn idua, c`hs. Pnu fkvb tfb skab mfkgmb ne w`g-
g`gi ks bvbryngb bdsb. ]n dbts tkcb tfb enmus nee tfb pr`zbs kghtf`gc konut tfb bssky `tsbde. Pnu w`dd kdsn ob ibtt`gi kg Bgid`sf
irkhb enr ynur bssky, sn akcb `t spkrcdb! Pnu wngt ibt mdkss t`ab
tn wr`tb `t out tfb mngtbst hbkhd`gb `sgt ugt`d Anghky, Aky ;, sn
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tfbydd ob hub ng Er`hky, Kpr`d ?6. Xfkts k d`ttdb nvbr twn wbbcs.
Ksc Inh tn fbdp ynu hn ynur obst wnrc.
Xfb squbkd ne tfb `gtbrmna akhb bvbryngb mnvbr tfb`r bkrs.
Akry Mdkrb dnncbh kt tfb mdnmc. @g tfrbb a`gutbs tfb obdd wnudh
r`gi. ]`stbr Kigbs kdwkys akgkibh tn t`ab tfb ketbrgnng abs-
skibs sn tfkt tfb obdd rkgi tfb a`gutb sfb wks hngb spbkc`gi.
Xfbrb wks snab spbmudkt`ng kangi tfb stuhbgts tfkt sfb kmtu-
kddy rbfbkrsbh tfb kggnugmbabgts w`tf fbr stnpwktmf.
Aky @ fkvb ynur kttbgt`ng, pdbksb> ]k`gt Akr`k Inrbtt`
]mfnnd w`dd obi`g sbdd`gi Ynrdhs E`gbst Mfnmndktb Okrs stkrt-
`gi Anghky. Bkmf mf`dh `s bxpbmtbh tn sbdd k a`g`aua ne
twbgty mfnmndktb okrs tn fbdp pky enr smfnnd suppd`bs. ]n tbdd
ynur pkrbgts kgh stkrt tf`gc`gi ne pbnpdb wfn w`dd wkgt tn
bglny tfbsb hbd`m`nus mfnmndktb trbkts. Gbxt wbbc obi`gs nur
kggukd mkapk`ig tn mnddbmt angby enr pkikg oko`bs. _babaobr
tfkt skv`gi k pkikg okoy `s skv`gi k snud. Xfb ony nr i`rd ernabkmf mdkss wfn mngtr`outbs tfb anst angby w`dd ob i`vbg k
smkpudkr odbssbh oy tfb dktb Znpb Lnfg VV@@@. _babaobr tfkt
oy wbkr`gi k smkpudkr bvbry hky, ynu krb prntbmtbh kt tfb t`ab
ne hbktf. ]n tkcb ynur kddnwkgmb nr neebr tn hn bxtrk mfnrbs
krnugh tfb fnusb tn mnddbmt angby enr tf`s wnrtfy mkusb. K
rba`ghbr tfkt kdd mf`dhrbg krb bxpbmtbh tn kttbgh hk`dy Akss. @
fkvb obbg khv`sbh tfkt k ebw ne ynu krb mngirbikt`gi nuts`hb
]bgtry Ennhs `gstbkh ne kttbgh`gi. @g tfb euturb, kgyngb a`ss-
`gi Akss w`dd rbmb`vb hbtbgt`ng kgh pkrbgts w`dd ob gnt`bh.
Kdsn, tfb s`xtf irkhb Mkap E`rb I`rds w`dd fkvb k okcb skdb ng
Anghky ketbr smfnnd. E`gkddy, w`dd Akry Mdkrb NOr`kg pdbksb
rbpnrt tn tfb nemb.
Akry Mdkrbs `g trnu-odb, Xnaay sk`h. K ebw c`hs sg`mcbrbhout stnppbh wfbg Irbinry mf`abh `g.
Ybdd, @a surb sfbs gnt in`gi tn ibt spkgcbh oy Ektfbr
Hwybr enr orbkc`gi k w`ghnw, d`cb snab pbnpdb @ cgnw. Gnw
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bvbryonhy dkuifbh bxmbpt Xnaay, wfnsb ekmb aktmfbh f`s rbh
fk`r. Fb wks tfb rst c`h nut ne tfb rnna.
Akry Mdkrbs fbkrt skgc. Xfb ngdy t`ab sfb bvbr int mkddbh tn
tfb nemb wks obmkusb ne angby. Kt dbkst sfb wnudhgt fkvb tn dbt
Cbddy cgnw tfkt sfb mnudhgt in nut enr tfb mfnmndktb Mncb. ]fb
sfruiibh kt Cbddy. Yfkt mnudh sfb hn> G`mb ne Inh tn tkcb kwky
tfb tbaptkt`ng.
Ks kdd tfb ntfbr c`hs rusfbh nut ne tfb mdkssrnna, fbkh-
`gi tn tfb`r dnmcbrs tn bxmfkgib onncs nr mdkanr`gi hnwg tfb
twn `ifts ne stk`rs tn tfb ak`g bgtrkgmb, Akry Mdkrb wkdcbh
sdnwdy `g tfb nppns`tb h`rbmt`ng. ]fb hrbkhbh in`gi tn tfb nemb
ne ]`stbr Kigbs, nr, ks tfb stuhbgts mkddbh fbr obf`gh fbr okmc,
]`stbr Kingy. Yfbg sfb wks fkdewky hnwg tfb dngi, h`ady d`t
mnrr`hnr sfb mnudh akcb nut tfb `akib ne ]`stbr Kingy s`tt`gi
obf`gh fbr hbsc `g fbr nemb kt tfb bgh ne tfb fkdd. Dnrh, sfb
prkybh,pdbksb fbdp ab ob swbbt d`cb Akry.Zdbksb fbdp ab gnt sfnw]`stbr fnw aumf @ mkgt stkgh fbr.