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Who is Angela?
Polaris Solutions ALM Practice Mgr since Jan ‘12
Been in the software industry since 1999
Runs the Chicago ALM User Group
ALM MVP, PSM, PSD, SPC
Has a *possibly* unhealthy love of Halloween
Polaris Solutions- http://www.polarissolutions.com/
Chicago Visual Studio ALM User Group - http://www.chicagoalmug.org/
Twitter: @OakParkGirl, @ChicagoALM, @TeamPolaris
Blog - http://www.tfswhisperer.com/
More about Angela
Angela is not a trained psychologist
Angela most definitely suffers from imposter
syndrome
Also, there is a non-zero chance that I am
terrified that you all think I am full of crap!
Imposter Syndrome
a psychological phenomenon in which people are unable
to internalize their accomplishments. Despite external
evidence of their competence, those with the syndrome
remain convinced that they are frauds and do not deserve
the success they have achieved. Proof of success is
dismissed as luck, timing, or as a result of deceiving others
into thinking they are more intelligent and competent than
they believe themselves to be.
Notably, impostor syndrome is particularly common
among high-achieving women.
~Wikipedia
Researchers believe that up to 70% of people
have felt the effects of impostor syndrome at
some point
The Test - Trigger warning!
The Imposter Test: http://paulineroseclance.com/pdf/IPscoringtest.pdf
“When people praise me for something I’ve accomplished, I’m afraid I won’t be able to live up to their expectations of me in the future”
“I’m afraid people important to me may find out that I’m not as capable as they think I am”
“I rarely do a project or task as well as I’d like to do it”
“I often compare my ability to those around me and think they may be more intelligent than I am”
“I tend to remember the incidents in which I have not done my best more than those times I have done my best”
How would you score?
40 or less = respondent has few IS characteristics
41 to 60 = respondent has moderate IS
experiences
61 to 80 = respondent frequently has Impostor
feelings
80+ = respondent often has intense IS experiences
http://paulineroseclance.com/pdf/IPscoringtest.pdf
IT Evangelist: 40
Graphic Designer: 74
Senior Developer: 67
Dietician: 69
Screen Printer: 73
Librarian: 71Agile coach: 74
Interior Designer: 55
IT Director: 77
ALM Consultant: 87
Industrial Plumber: 54
SAHM: 39Lawyer: 53
Freelance Writer: 30
IT Manager: 55
IT Consultant: 55
Scenic Painter: 71SAHM: 52
Biology Teacher: 65
Network Administrator: 39
Audio Engineer: 67
Lawyer: 89
Management Consultant: 67
Sr Developer: 70
SAHM: 69Academic Coach: 57
Kindergarten Teacher: 56
Senior ALM Specialist
NO REALLY, I *HAVE* TO BE AN EXPERT!
Being an “expert” is overrated
An expert is just someone who has effedup something more than you
Being a beginner is pretty amazing!
FEAR
Fear is an emotion induced by a threat perceived
by living entities, which causes a change in brain
and organ function and ultimately a change in
behavior, such as running away, hiding, or freezing
from traumatic events.
But what are we all so afraid of?
Being wrong?
Not having ALL of the answers?
Getting Fired?
Not being “perfect”?
Being/looking vulnerable?
It's OK to feel like a phony sometimes. It's healthy if it moves you forward
We all feel like phonies sometimes. We are all phonies. That's how we grow. We get into situations that are just a little more than we can handle, or we get in a little over our heads. Then we can handle them, and we aren't phonies, and we move on to the next challenge.
~Scott Hanselman
http://www.hanselman.com/blog/ImAPhonyAreYou.aspx
Humility
In Judaism humility is an appreciation of oneself,
one's talents, skills, and virtues. It is not meekness or
self-deprecating thought, but the effacing of
oneself to something higher.
Humility is not to think lowly of oneself, but to
appreciate the self one has received.
~ Rabbi Lord Jonathan Sacks
For some of us, it is absolutely
terrifying to be recognized for the
awesome things that we do
Or are capable of
But what amazing opportunities do we
miss out on when we let our fear of
being seen as a phony drive our
decisions?
Admitting you don’t know the answer
to something lends you instant
credibility.
I’m serious, try it…
Remind yourself that you are NOT a phony
Not working? OK, go with it…
Let it encourage you to push yourself to learn
Let it foster innovation and experimentation
Accept the humility that it teaches you
Find someone who inspires you, get
connected, then ask for help
Chances are, they’ve been there too!
Then focus on being the best you, it really IS
enough
Be a LEADER
“A manager’s job is not to prevent risks but it
is their job to make it safe to take them.”
~@dneighbors
You don’t have to be a “manager” to be a
leader!
Be an EXAMPLE
Nothing makes you scrutinize how you
represent yourself, accept and give praise,
and react to others’ missteps like having
others look to you as a model for behavior!
Embrace Failure, It Is Inevitable
And absolutely CRITICAL to growing as a technologist
And as a human being
Recognize it in others
Recognize when others are feeling like imposters
Create a safe environment for sharing ideas and
asking questions
Shut down bad behavior as soon as you see it
Imposter Syndrome
a psychological phenomenon in which people are unable
to internalize their accomplishments. Despite external
evidence of their competence, those with the syndrome
remain convinced that they are frauds and do not deserve
the success they have achieved. Proof of success is
dismissed as luck, timing, or as a result of deceiving others
into thinking they are more intelligent and competent than
they believe themselves to be.
Notably, impostor syndrome is particularly common
among high-achieving women.
~Wikipedia
Reading / Watching List
I Thought It Was Just Me (but it isn't): Making the Journey from "What Will People Think?" to "I Am Enough“ ~$11
Managing Humans - $18
Getting Naked ~$20
The Art of Asking ~$18
Be a Beginner Jeff Blankenburg talk from Kalamazoo X
Referenced Feats of Strength
My Blog: http://www.tfswhisperer.com/
My Slide decks:
http://www.slideshare.net/angelabinkowski
TFS Webinar:
http://blogs.msdn.com/b/visualstudioalm/archive/2015/03
/20/alm-webinars-and-conference-and-events.aspx
TFS Radio Podcast:
http://www.radiotfs.com/Show/92/EveryoneisanImpostor