The Journey Home

By Akal Sahai Singh(Steve Coffing)

Copyright © Steve Coffing 2008

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Author: Steve Coffing (Akal Sahai Singh)

Covers: Steve Coffing

Website: www.bethelighthouse.com

First published by Dog Ear Publishing4010 W. 86th Street, Ste HIndianapolis, IN 46268www.dogearpublishing.net

ISBN: 978-159858-790-6Library of Congress Control Number: 0000000000

This book is printed on acid-free paper.

Printed in the United States of America

DisclaimerThe information contained in this book comes from my impres-sions and interpretations of what I’ve experienced while practicingKundalini Yoga and White Tantric Yoga.

Nothing in this book should be construed as medical advice. WhileBound Lotus and the meditations and yoga sets mentioned in thisbook have benefited many, this book makes no claim to diagnose,treat, cure or prevent any disease, illness, or other condition.

Always check with your personal physician or licensed health carepractitioner before making any significant modifications to yourlifestyle, to insure that the lifestyle changes, are appropriate foryour personal health condition and consistent with any medicationyou may be taking.

It is recommended that you receive instruction from a KRI certifiedKundalini Yoga teacher before attempting any of the postures,kriyas, or meditations mentioned in this book.

For You

Foreword

I n The Journey Home, Akal Sahai Singh reveals the nature of hisdeepening experiences with Kundalini Yoga, White Tantric and

Bound Lotus. An avid Bound Lotus practitioner, Akal Sahai nowenthusiastically shares his love of the practice with interestedfriends and students. He can often be seen at Solstice sharing histips for warming-up for Bound Lotus — which I can say areexcellent from firsthand experience! You are sure to enjoy AkalSahai’s thoughts on the benefits of “keeping up” on the spiritualpath.

Nam Kaur Khalsa

YOGIC REALITY INC.

Introduction

T he Journey Home picks up where Be the Lighthouse left offand follows me past 1,000 Days of Bound Lotus, through

several Solstices, jobs, and well, through life itself.

Written in 27 months as opposed to the 9 of my previousbook, The Journey Home is intensely personal just as Be the Light-house was.

I’m deeply honored to share my journey with you, maythese pages inspire and carry you along, on your own journey,wherever it takes you. Sat Nam

Peace and blessings,

Akal Sahai Singh

(Steve Coffing)

For CatherineApril, 22nd 2006.

Bound Lotus, Day 213, White Tantric Yoga #8.

It had been seven months since I had seen my lighthouse, the rea-son this and all my other books exist.

There’s a page in the beginning of my first book that has two wordson it. This book too, is For Catherine….

See them

A gain the lighthouses journeyed to the golden city on the water,the proverbial land of Ong Namo.

The sound of Wahe Guru echoed all across the land where the light-houses gathered, we band of six, we band of yogis.

Tears flowed free and carried the pain away as we surrendered andlet go of all that we were and all that we knew, before we found ourway back to the light, before we stood shoulder to shoulder againstthe wind and declared, “I am the lighthouse!”

Wahe Guru!

The answers are right in front of you, see them, and be the answerto every question that was ever asked.

Sat Nam.

By the lake

M ay keep up be thy mantra, Truth thy identity, Ek Ong Kaarthy state of mind, and Wahe Guru thy experience of life.

Keep up and touch the Infinite.

See God in all and be the lighthouse.

Keep up and be kept up.

Whether thy home is the land of the tall, tall buildings, the land ofmilk and honey, the highest mountain, the lowest valley or any-where in between, keep up and walk with God.

Bless you.

Sat Nam.

By the lighthouse

H ow many mountains would you climb, how far would youwalk, how far would you carry the bucket of water to know

God?

What if I told you, that you are God? What then?

Know thyself and know God.

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My home is where my yoga mat and backpack are, we’ve sharedthe ultimate adventure, a journey to know ourselves, our journeyhome.

Is the backpack just a thing? Or is it my friend, God?

Everything just is, even the birds that came to the park to sing to usas we sat by the lighthouse. It’s all just another part of ourselvesgiving us a different experience of ourselves, a different perspectiveof our Infinite nature.

Share the journey.

Sat Nam.

Catherine

A t last we’ve come full circle, not only have my notebook and Ireunited in creation, but we’ve returned to where it all began

– the Yogi Bhajan tribute video, You are the Lighthouse.

To simply say that video changed my life is an understatementcomparable to saying the sun is bright.

Even a lighthouse needs inspiration, and that’s where the journeybegan, where I started writing about my experiences. From there itwas my friend Catherine’s constant encouragement, unwaveringsupport and even urging that led me to seek ever deeper experi-ences and then to share them with the world.

And here we are today, thanks to my friend, my sister of the Light,my lighthouse, Catherine.

Sat Nam

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Who?

W here does it come from, that deep flash of energy andexcitement at seeing one of your brothers or sisters, one of

your fellow Ghost Rancheros?

Who can explain it? Who can tell why we travel halfway across anentire continent simply because a friend invited us?

Who can tell of the energy that binds us together?

Who knows of such things?

Who was there when the light was born in each of us, that’s who.They who shared our table, our yoga mat, our shade, our light, ourdays in the sun and sand of the high desert.

Yes, there will always be new adventures in a new land, with newfriends to make and great hiking places just waiting to be discov-ered, but no amount of time or distance will ever separate my fel-low Ghost Rancheros and I.

Sat Nam.

How many

S un warms the pavement… soon the desert sands will call ushome. Summer Solstice approaches…

Clouds come to hide the sun, a deep rumble shakes the ground,another storm approaches….

Without night we would not know day, but why must we endurewar to know peace?

Why did we choose sides and draw lines in the sand?

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The sun returns as the peace always does, but at what cost?

How many more wars will we suffer before we know peace?

How many more wars will we survive?

How many more wars until no one is left?

How many?

Now

O ne day we’ll have peace, when everyone lives and breaths SatNam. Be the lighthouse and show them the way, stir the energy

within them and show them the way to Wahe Guru.

Now, let’s make that day now.

Create a stirring so deep within the self of every person you meetthat they in turn become the lighthouse and together we’ll changethe world.

And the time is now.

Now let’s do some yoga!

Don’t sweat it

“M etaphors aside –”

“NO! Life itself is a metaphor. The herd moves en masse, obliviousto what lies outside its periphery. None of it is real, it is all just a

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thought projection – a metaphor – an expression of energy. Givethem an experience, teach them to move their own energy and letthe rest fall where it may.”

*Nods*

“The ills of others are just that. All you can do is give them thetools, what they do with them is up to them. Don’t sweat it.”

*Nods*

“Sat Nam.”

“Sat Nam.”

Smooth sailing

I f you think it’s impossible, it is, and you’ve already lost.

Japji seems a daunting proposition, but it’s easier than it looks. Thewords roll right off the tongue as time slows and the vibration car-ries the mind to Infinity.

Feelings of vastness pervade the senses as you move beyond space,time, everything….

Wherever the seas may carry you, may your sailing be smooth.

Sat Nam.

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Hassles

B ound Lotus, Day 243.

Life begins where the hassles end, and unless you unplug from itthat’s all life is – just one big hassle….

The Kingdom of Heaven

T ennyson immortalized the deeds of the 600. Tolkien’s epicechoes the horrors he experienced and yet the madness

continues to this day, why?

Life isn’t a collection of what ifs, it just is.

Without pain would we ever know ecstasy?

Without the experience of pain what would drive us to push our-selves up off the floor?

Pain is a choice, from it comes the gift of experience. What else isthere?

What we experience is our choice. Grow beyond the pain, experi-ence ecstasy and touch Infinity!

Sat Nam.

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Blessed be these days

T ime slows, life itself moves in slow motion as Japji flowsforth from the Infinite within. Thoughts travel to distant

places… the lighthouse reunion in the sun, with it three days ofWhite Tantric Yoga… Summer Solstice approaches….

The bond of shared experience ties we band of yogis for all time.An entire week to gather in the sun and keep up, a bond to last life-times.

“A thousand blessings my friend,” the man in black said, and I feeland know each and every one of them.

What will you do with your time in the sun?

Well?

Do like the bird says

N eutrality deepens and the splendor grows as the eyes trulyopen to the beauty of the world around us. Like a child

seeing for first time….

Bound Lotus, Day 250….

Sun shines infinitely brighter, sky an endless sea of blue, themajesty of nature….

A little bird even came to the balcony to share its song of peace andto exclaim, “Feel the energy in the air! Wahe Guru!” As it flew off Iheard it exclaim, “I’m going to change the world! Keep up!”

Do like the bird says.

Sat Nam.

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Into the stillness

W ords form upon the page as we sit outside, my notebook, mypen and I, enjoying a cool afternoon breeze….

Stray thoughts drift away in the wind like bits of fuzz, free of theirhold over me….

When we quit asking, “Where does it end, what does it all mean?”and simply be in the stillness, that’s when the answers come.

The funny thing is, by then you don’t care what it means… howironic is that?

Then again, life is a series of ironies, energies, emotions, experi-ences and unknowns. That’s what makes it interesting.

So, who wants to do some yoga?

Rumblings and vibrations

D eep rumbling on the horizon… a storm makes its war on theEarth… nature seeking balance.

Great sheets of rain fall from the sky, as if the heavens had grownangry with the custodians of this world and thought to wash themaway and start over.

And then just as quickly it was gone, as if the sky had grown boredand said, “No let’s have sunshine now!”

No fanfare, no trumpets or horns, just light and the vibration….

“Where does the vibration of the universe come from?” “Every-thing vibrates.” “Why?” “Because it’s energy.”

“So if I’m energy that means I have my own vibration too.”

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“Correct.”

“And if everything is energy, and everything is God, where does thesound come from?”

“God.”

*rolls eyes*

“What?”

“You know what I meant. Why does the vibration make a sound?”

“You’ve answered your own question. All energy vibrates, just notat the same frequency. Storms are a sign of a mind in tumult, a lackof neutrality. Now, quit asking so many questions and go do someyoga!”

Sat Nam.

Summer Solstice

T o chant with a thousand people high above the desert, to sitwith the Golden Lady, to bind themselves into the symbol for

Infinity, to dance with angels and soar with eagles.

To smile and laugh in the sun to recreate one’s life, in an instant tochoose and become more, that’s Summer Solstice in a nutshell.

Then again, maybe we’re all nuts….

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Victory

J une 6th, 2006, a day to be remembered, a day of sacrifice andtriumph!

Bound Lotus, Day 256.

For months the four inches that had separated my forehead fromthe floor seemed like four miles, a distant goal only to be dreamtof… and then in an instant – poof – there it was, all with the deci-sion to do it.

What had once been Earth shattering pain literally became nothingas the entire universe stood still and combined with the posture andthe Ray Man Shabad to grind the ego into dust.

With a brilliant flash the universe itself threw open the doors tounderstanding and shattered outdated concepts such as limits andpain. We were both reborn in that instant.

Now I understand how Yogi Bhajan was born at zero and died atone….

You never stop learning, you never stop seeking the light of truth,you always seek a higher experience, no matter what you alwayskeep up, and of course, you always serve others.

Sat Nam.

Ultimate awakening

H eat builds as energy pours through the figure eight of life –Infinity.

Watch the universe being born as you surrender to the posture. Sac-rifice the ego in exchange for understanding, let go of attachment

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and receive prosperity, shed fear and be blessed with universalawareness. Perfect the posture and transcend all pain.

To do or not….

To have the eternal light ever guide your way, a gentle breeze uponthy face, a mountain stream to drink from…

Bless thyself and blessed be thy days.

Do, and bless yourself with the ultimate awakening.

Sat Nam.

Musings from the balcony

T rees dance in the breeze, keeping time with some great unseenrhythm and I can’t help but wonder where the winds of

change have carried my fellow Ghost Rancheros….

Are they still doing their sadhana? Are they keeping up? Who’scoming to Solstice? Where and how is everybody? What became ofeveryone after we went our separate ways? Some, I see and hearfrom all the time, others seem to have vanished but never to be for-gotten.

Who could ever forget our days together in the sun? No one, if Ihave anything to say about it!

Wherever the winds of change may take thee, a thousand blessingsmy friends.

Sat Nam.

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Of weather and man

T o what level is nature aware of man’s existence?

Trees waver as the sky roils and the ground shakes, yet anotherstorm thunders through.

Clouds form angry shapes as my notebook and I wonder if naturecares that man exists….

Animals know of course, but what about Mother Nature?

Wind, rain and lightning strike with a vengeance, as if divine retri-bution, cleansing the land of the ills inflicted upon it. And yet theclouds eventually fade, the sun returns and again we have peace….

Without storms would we truly appreciate the sunshine? Maybewar, like storms, is inevitable so we appreciate peace.... But what ofkarma?

Heavy thoughts… far too heavy to carry this close to Solstice….The entire world’s been invited to Summer Solstice, a scant thou-sand will make the journey….

What if though, what if that thousand went back to their corner ofthe world and shined so bright that they each in turn drew a thou-sand to them, who one by one stood tall and declared, “I am thelighthouse!” What if?

To be at peace or to become the storm is a choice we all face everymoment of every single day. Choose peace and be the lighthouse.

Sat Nam.

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Imponderables of light

B its of pollen drift about on the wind, spreading out to createlife, taking thoughts of light and dark with them. The fate of

the universe doesn’t hang in the balance of the next two minutes, itjust is, as it is with all things.

Thought fades, replaced by divine neutrality….

Red sun rises this morn, bringing prosperity with it.

Rise up and meet it.

Rise up and meet your destiny head on.

Sat Nam.

Open your eyes

A n angel visited me on this eve of leaving for Solstice. Shetook me by the hand as we walked on the sun and the

moon….

We had just sat down for a ride on a comet when she turned andwinked at me.

She snapped her fingers and suddenly there we were on the moun-tain… Summer Solstice at last! Wahe Guru!

As she vanished from sight she exclaimed, “Now open your eyesand fulfill your destiny!”

Sat Nam.

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Service and sacrifice

R ow upon row of crosses… as far as the eye can see. Now thatis why I write.

Some serve willingly, some don’t, but what else is there?

It’s all about the choices we make and what we do with the time weare given.

What will you do with your time?

In the final analysis when the question is, “Did you uplift enough?”what will your answer be?

Well?

No more

A bearded angel came to the mountain to share his wisdom withus.

Eyes closed, he spoke as if reading stone tablets scribed with God’sown hand.

Every so often he blinked, the tablet changed, and more wisdompoured forth.

Vibration and energy rise as we unite to grow and serve others.

Everything is experience, nothing else exists.

No more rows of crosses, no more hillside monuments to violence,there is a better way.

Sat Nam.

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Ek Ong Kaar

A quintet of angels serenaded us as I sat in the shade with TheWord.

A cool breeze washed over us as we bathed in the sound current ofthe Infinite.

The vibration rose as it spoke to us, “Truth is The Word. Then, now,and for all time, Truth is The Word. Sat Nam.”

The angel of Truth

A n angel led the way through the darkness with a light sobright that as she shined night became day and the stars hid

themselves as not even they could match her brilliance.

Blessed indeed are the days of this summer of prosperity, the sum-mer of awakening and liberation.

To bathe in the light and walk on air, even what had once seemedbeyond impossible becomes nothing as you become Sat Nam.

Minutes pass in the blink of an eye….

Wrapped into the symbol for Infinity for 31 minutes nothing elseexists but the posture and the energy. Shuniya, zero, nothing but theInfinite.

To think of a thing and cause it to happen, to live and walk as God,to understand all things, to be Sat Nam, now that is Wahe Guru!

Sat Nam.

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Even angels sleep

W ith a brilliant flash, an angel descended from the heavensand asked me to hold her in my arms while she slept.

Me, God asked me… me….

A million voices sounded as one, the day the Earth stood still.

Me…

Me…

Me….

Blessed are we who walk in the days of this summer of prosperity.

Sat Nam.

To Infinity and beyond

T ears and energy alike flowed like the Niagara as Sat Namcarried us to Infinity.

A tremendous weight I had carried for the last thousand lifetimesvanished as the entirety of my being merged with the Infinite, andthat was only the first meditation of the day! Wahe Guru!

Wahe Guru indeed, Wahe Guru indeed.

Sat Nam.

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The winds of change

W hat happened to those things I had once so desperatelywanted? Which vanished first, the want or the thing?

She returned, the angel of Truth did, wanting me to hold her in myarms while she cried.

Streams of tears flowed forth and thunder echoed across the val-ley… before she flew away she asked, “You know your destiny,what are you afraid of?”

“Now that I have you, loosing you.”

Laughter echoed throughout the heavens as she replied, “You’llalways have me. Let go and change the world. Sat Nam.”

Sat Nam.

Shades of grey

T o have and to hold in the dark and the light….

To have God sit at my side, take me by the hand and whisper,“Read to me.” Wahe Guru!

To have and to hold all through the night, Wahe Guru!

To be the light, is indeed an indescribable ecstasy, Wahe Guru!

What else is there?

Pain, suffering and darkness or the ecstasy of Infinity, which willbe it world?

Light creates shadow, where you walk is your choice. I’ve chosenlight, you?

Well?

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The angel’s playground

“A t the moment of Truth,” she said invitingly, “in the angel’splayground.” Now, to meet Truth now….

“Sat Nam,” she said, introducing herself as Ultimate Truth as sheinvited me to share a moment of sheer perfection, pure and unadul-terated bliss, there in the angel’s playground….

The ground cries out in thirst… tears fall from the angel’s play-ground… sacred rain….

Sacred rain to heal the land.

Sacred rain to seal our love.

Sacred rain to heal the world.

Sat Nam.

Trust

T o be entrusted with an angel’s soul… to care for her like noother… to have God sit at my side and say, “Sat Nam” ….

Crashing waves sooth a troubled mind….

Doubt and fear wash away with the tide, leaving faith and lovestanding tall like the lighthouse.

To choose the path and yet still walk down it….

To stand tall and face an uncertain future knowing that I have anangel’s love and that if I have nothing else I have far more than anyman has the right to ask for.

Sat Nam

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Perfection

B ound Lotus, Day 291….

The quest for perfection, ongoing as ever.

The ego knows its usefulness is at an end and that it has a date withthe Infinite.

The waves crash harder today, heralding the ego’s demise.

Be it this day or the next, ego, you have to go, and sooner ratherthan later.

Infinite waves echo throughout the mind, ego sets on the horizon asthe light grows within.

All things are possible, not even the sky is the limit, only our think-ing, only our imagination limits us.

Sat Nam.

Walking papers

D ear ego,

Your services are no longer required. No more will you clot up myhead with nonsensical banter. You are hereby released from yourduties, I have no further need of you. Please have your desk cleanedout by the end of the day as it and all traces of you are soon to bedust. I have work to do and you no longer serve me. It’s my mind,not yours, it’s my life not yours, it’s my destiny not yours, it’s myfuture and you are not part of it.

Signed,

Akal Sahai Singh

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Energy and ecstasy

B e it the deepest of relaxations or the raw energy of the universeitself, the gong always delivers exactly what one needs,

piercing straight through to the center of your being.

Barriers melt, no mind can resist.

Ride the ecstasy, ride the vibration, free your mind and send yourego packing.

Sat Nam.

The Yogi

R ide the waves to Infinity, ride the vibration unto an ecstasybeyond description – Wahe Guru!

Free your mind and let God’s heartbeat drive your pulse.

Thoughts form and pass, ponderings over an uncertain future.Shapeless and often senseless, they seek to tear at the senses of theunwary yogi.

Ever wise, the yogi becomes nothing, zero, shuniya, and all thingspass through to the Infinite.

The yogi stands tall, disciplined and committed, amidst the dramasof life, transcending the game and the pain it brings.

Become the yogi and be the lighthouse.

Sat Nam.

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Infinite waves

W hat is it about the crashing of waves that so draws one to anocean shore?

Fascination with an Infinite sea of waves, so reminiscent of theunparalleled power of the universe….

The waves crash on irregardless of humanity and its dramas, wavesthat echo out across all Infinity.

Infinite waves, Infinite vibration, Infinite life….

No more struggling to stay afloat in a sea of Infinite abundance.Ride the waves to Infinite understanding.

Sat Nam.

Free at last

T houghts flow freely, a river of creativity pouring out into theocean of life….

Pain and fear washed downstream, strength through sadhana….

Adversity yes, faith to carry one through, the commitment and dis-cipline to keep up.

Water and life flow freely, live in the flow and be the lighthouse, bethe forklift and elevate everyone unto the light!

Sat Nam.

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Be the forklift

Y ou can either do or do not.

You can change the world or you can run around in circles.

You can do your sadhana or not.

The fact that you’re reading this though, you’re going to change theworld, one person at a time.

One by one, teach the world to keep up and let’s see to it that noone ever runs around in circles again.

Sat Nam.

Voices in the night

T his is for the bald eagle who was my best friend twelvelifetimes ago as we soared high above the mountains, before

we grew tired, cold and hungry….

A great voice cried out from the heavens, “Have you no space inyour life for me?!”

“What was that?” my brother and I asked in unison as we set downupon a mighty rock.

“Through me all things are possible!”

Again we looked to each other and then all around but nary a crea-ture was to be found. Mayhaps this was some cruel trick or theresult of too much time in the sun… had we flown too high, had wecrossed over into some other realm?

“NOOO!!!” the voice bellowed.

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“Okay, so what gives?” I asked.

And then, with a look I’ll never forget, my brother turned andreplied, “It just is. Don’t try and figure everything out, you’ll gocrazy.”

I turned, and he was gone… HE was the voice! Wahe Guru!

Sat Nam.

Infinite space

T o be in the space where creativity flows without attachment towhere it leads, Wahe Guru!

“Sat Nam,” said the sea as I sat down upon the beach.

“Sat Nam,” said the wind as I gazed out across the Infinite.

“Sat Nam,” said the eagle, answering my unspoken question of howto maintain and live in that space where creativity flows like a riverof truth.

“Sat Nam,” said the heavens, “ask the angel of Truth, she knows ofsuch things.”

Few do….

Sat Nam.

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Not to think but to live

I opened my eyes and there sat the angel of Truth. “Sat Nam,” shesaid with a smile as I saw myself through her eyes,

imperfections and all. No judgments, just a long hard look atmyself….

The quest though is to hold that space where God and I are one, tobe in the moment, selfless and considerate, ever thoughtful andkind.

“Sat Nam,” she said as she flew away, “focus, clear your mind andrelax into the moment. The quest is for shuniya, not to think but tolive.”

Not to think but to live….

Too much thinking, too much ego related nonsense.

Ego, you have to go. You’re who’s afraid. Truth is my name.

Sat Nam.

Questions of life

C oncepts and metaphors of life aside, it’s your life, your giftfrom God. What will you create, knowing you can always do

more?

Were God to ask, “What did you do with your life?” what wouldyour answer be? Did you inspire others to reach far greater heightsthan yourself? Or did you uplift everyone around you? Did youhold the space and become an outpouring of creativity? Or maybeeven all of the above?

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Not what you did but the lives you touched while doing it, that isthe question of life.

Sat Nam.

What’s your name?

F or some, truth is fluid and ever changing. For those who liveand breathe Sat Nam, Truth is immutable. Without honesty we

have nothing, with Truth we have everything.

Sat Nam, Truth is my name. What’s your name?

Well?

Angels on the water

A ngels dance in the sunshine and play in the water, why don’twe?

Why did we keep the inhibitions they shed?

Fear is just another thing to cling to….

Float with angels and send fear on down the river. For that matter,let it take the ego with it!

Sat Nam.

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Be it your path or not

B ound Lotus, Day 299.

The mind expands as the body dissolves into the posture andbecomes pure energy. To at last be awake and in the moment, WaheGuru!

To walk with divine neutrality through the most calamitous ofevents, clarity of thought and certainty of counsel, as even angelsseek a yogi’s advice….

Strength and discipline to carry the world through the darkness,now that is the power of sadhana, now that is Wahe Guru!

Wahe Guru!

Wahe Guru!

Sat Nam.

By God’s grace

W e live and breath by God’s grace, by God’s design, it all justis though. Even life itself, it just is.

When we reach the point where we stop trying to wrap our headsaround everything and live in the moment, that’s where enlighten-ment dawns and life truly begins.

Ek Ong Kaar, we and God are one. See God in all.

From the tallest trees to the tiniest blade of grass, see God in all.

From the fiercest storm to the most perfect spring day, see God inall.

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From your dearest friend to your greatest adversary, see God in all.

See God in all and become Truth.

Sat Nam.

Infinite blessings

B ound Lotus, Day 300.

Fire and energy rise up to roast the ego. Pain vanishes along with it,divine neutrality and love blossom in its wake.

Realization dawns… the truly important things in life have no pricetag.

Three-hundred down, a lifetime to keep up, Infinite blessings….

To live without thought, ever neutral and divine, Wahe Guru!

Were God to sit down beside me right now and ask me about mylife my reply would be, “I experienced a perfect moment and swamwith an angel. Wahe Guru! Thank you God!”

What would your reply be?

Live each moment to the fullest, present, aware and ever thankfulfor the Infinite blessings of life.

Sat Nam.

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Dare to dream

W hen did life become a fairy tale? When did the pain vanish tobe replaced by the realization of every dream I’ve ever had?

What did I do?

Sadhana….

What did I do to deserve such unparalleled prosperity?

Sadhana….

As to when the edges of reality blurred and my dreams took shape,well it all seems perfectly normal to live inside a fairy tale!

Life can be anything you make it, dare to dream, keep up, do yoursadhana and create your own life of Wahe Guru!

Sat Nam.

To live

S omeone once pined for a tall ship and a star to steer her by, whatguides your life? Is it fortune and bravery or good will and

inspiration?

By what rudder do you steer your ship? Is it free will and imagina-tion or sadhana and divine neutrality?

First and foremost, life is to be lived.

By whatever star you steer your life, remember to live it.

Dance and swim with angels, and live!

Sat Nam.

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The journey home

E dges of tiredness set in yet notebook and pen dance.

They dream of prosperity and a life by the sea, knowing that lifeitself is a journey, a journey home. They care not where it takesthem, so long as they can create and inspire. Would that we all hadsuch lofty goals!

Their minds, forever in that space when they danced and swam inthe angel’s playground. Wahe Guru!

Their solemn vow, to hold that space till Eternity, till Infinity.

If a notebook and pen can change the world, imagine what we aspeople can do! Wahe Guru!

Dare to dream and live.

Sat Nam.

How long

H ow long are you going to put your life off? How long beforeyou play the game as it was intended, as God?

How long will money and ego rule the world?

How long before love and light prevail?

How long before we all say, “Truth is my name?”

Sat Nam.

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Outcomes

A lifetime to live, a lifetime to love, a lifetime to keep up, alifetime in the angel’s playground.

I walked through the shadow of the valley of death, an angel at myside, the light as my shepherd.

Though I see not the outcome and hold no attachment to the details,I know what I came to this realm to do, to be the lighthouse, to bethe forklift, to elevate others unto the light….

Sat Nam.

Infinite love

B ound Lotus, Day 313.

I often wonder of late, where does the tremendous heat generatedby the posture come from? Is it the Infinite power of God, the Infi-nite energy within each of us?

With the forehead to the floor, energy builds and heat rises up toroast the ego and all fear, the Infinite power of the posture. Tap intoit….

As soon as I quit pondering and figuring, God sat down beside meand asked, “If you could have any one thing, what would it be?” Ismiled and replied, “I already have it.”

Infinite love….

Sat Nam.

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A voice in the night

M y notebook called out to me in the night, it was time tocreate, it was time to, “Change the world!”

“What are you waiting for?” It’s time for bed.

“The entire world cries out in pain and you’re going to bed?” Yogisneed sleep too!

*Laughter*

A notebook with a sense of humor, great.

“Of course, I’m God.” I know, so’s my pen, but we all need eachother to create.

“How’d you get so smart?” Sadhana.

“Sadhana. Sat Nam.”

Sat Nam

For the love of light

W ho’ll help us? Who helps you when you need it?

People talk of “finding God.” Ek Ong Kaar, we and God are one.

God isn’t something you have to go out looking for, God is every-where. God is everything. YOU are God, so it isn’t about findingGod, it’s about finding yourself.

Sat Nam.

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What is love?

T ruth is the foundation of life. Far too many lives were built onsomething else….

So many crumbling houses, so many crumbling lives… where doesit all end?

Sadhana. Sadhana is the answer to that which ails you. Love is theanswer to that which ails you.

God sat down beside me and asked, “What is love?”

“Love is the sun in your hands, the moon in your pocket and therealization that the other person is you. It’s the divine bliss of theangel’s playground, complete neutrality and utter compassion. Loveis the meaning of life.”

“Sat Nam.”

“Sat Nam.”

To love and to live

S ome people are afraid of dying, others are afraid of living andstill others are afraid of Truth. Why?

You’d have to ask them.

Maybe they don’t believe, maybe they fear the unknown.

What is fear?

The opposite of love?

Lack of love?

Lack? What?

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Sounds more like lack of sadhana.

Without Truth, what do you have? Without sadhana what do youhave?

There’s a million reasons why I say, “Truth is my name,” the onlyreason not to say it and live it is fear.

What is there to be afraid of? Well?

Sat Nam.

Change of address

N o trumpets, no fanfare, I opened my eyes and there sat Godbeside me! Wahe Guru! “I hear you’re moving to the angel’s

playground.”

“Sat Nam.”

“Will you keep up, knowing where this leads?”

“Sat Nam, it leads to Infinity, to unity, to true oneness. I’m going tochange the world.”

“You already have.” “There’ll always be more to do.”

“Sat Nam.”

It was then that the trumpets sounded, as with a blinding flash Irealized that I’d been sitting with myself the entire time.

You are the Infinite, you are God. What else is there? And what’syour name?

Truth is my name.

Sat Nam.

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The bringer of Truth

A n angel came to me in the middle of the night, the mostpained of expressions on her face.

As she sat down beside me she said, “I can’t sleep. Can I sit herewith you for a bit?”

“Sure,” I replied, “what troubles an angel on a warm summer’seve?”

She shrugged, “If I knew I’d be asleep.”

I laughed but she just stared off into the distance, the look on herface worsening by the moment.

“Okay,” I said, “what brought you to me?”

“Sat Nam,” she answered as she suddenly came to life, “Truth sentme.”

“I don’t understand where this is going. What do I have to do withanything?”

She smiled as she laid down. “You know the road yet still you walkdown it.”

“What’s that got to do with anything? I’m just a guy, I don’t under-stand.” But she was already asleep….

Morning came and she was nowhere to be found. Was it all just adream?

“You are Truth,” echoed from the heavens, “break new ground andbecome the bringer of Truth. Repeat it until the world learns thepower of Truth, until they become Sat Nam.”

“Sat Nam.”

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A time to love

W hat is life without Truth, and what is life without love? Is iteven life or is it something else?

Notebook calls to pen and words form upon the page… prosperityblossoms under a full moon.

In the end, things are just that – things. How little of it we reallyneed….

I am Truth, what are you?

I’m letting go of everything else, how about you?

Truth and love are eternal as are we.

Now let it all go and come to the angel’s playground with me, I’lllead the way.

Sat Nam.

Thank you

W here life leads is up to the individual.

For some it may bring enlightenment, tremendous pain, great plea-sure or even all of the above, but what matters is that life is lived.

I want to thank you for staying with me through all of this, forbeing there with me through all of the ups and downs of life, andfor accepting my invitation to the angel’s playground.

I’ll see you in the land of the long time sun.

Sat Nam.

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Missing you

M y notebook called out to my pen and I, “Hey guys come onlet’s write!”

“What should we write about?” my pen and I asked as we all satdown together.

“I don’t know I just missed you guys.”

“We’ve missed you too. Now how shall we inspire the world?”

“I know!” answered my pen, “let’s thank the entire world for sup-porting us, remind them that they are the lighthouse, and thankthem for helping us to change the world!”

“Such lofty goals from a pen! Wahe Guru!”

“Hey who said that!?”

“I can’t tell, we’re all one.”

Sat Nam.

Let God work

B ound Lotus, Day 323.

Intense pain yet again as the posture seeks to overwhelm thesenses, inspiration is all around….

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See the day

B ound Lotus has a mind of its own. Some days it wins, somedays you win, keep up and you both win. Keep up and it comes

to life.

Energy and heat rise up through the posture to transform your lifeinto one of Wahe Guru!

You just have to keep up and chant through the pain.

One day there’ll be no pain, in life or in any posture.

Be the lighthouse and see that day.

Sat Nam.

One day

B ound Lotus, Day 326.

Pain fades under the fire of keeping up….

The future takes shape, a life by the sea, an angel at my side….

How could I ask for anything more? Yet I yearn to change theworld, to make it a better place, to help everyone to become Truthand to see the God in all.

One day we’ll ask, “What happened to the pain?”

Be the lighthouse and see the day.

Sat Nam.

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22

Twenty-two seconds to Infinity, twenty-two seconds to changethe world.

It’s amazing what can happen in twenty-two seconds, how thebriefest of hellos can contain all the energy of Infinity….

It’s been a year since the Ghost Ranch, twenty-two days keeping upin the desert, twenty-two days to Infinity.

A year later finds us all changed, my fellow Ghost Rancheros and I.

We’ve moved, traveled far and wide, changed careers and foundlove, or even all four. Wahe Guru!

We all kept up though, now to inspire the entire world to keepup….

Sat Nam.

11 Wahe Guru Way

I saw it with my waking eyes, as clearly as I see the words uponthe page, my house at 11 Wahe Guru Way in the Golden City on

the water in the land of Ong Namo – the angel’s playground! WaheGuru!

The streets are paved with Ek Ong Kaar, the city built out of SatNam, where everybody says, “Truth is my name.”

That’s where I live.

Sat Nam.

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Marking the days

R ivers of sweat fall from the brow, satisfaction after a day’shard work, a new way to keep up….

Bound Lotus, Day 334. Not Wednesday, Day 334….

What a curious thing, to mark the passing of the days until the paingoes away. Will it really go away at a thousand?

The ego doesn’t want to wait that long. “Sit up!” it cries, “and thepain will go away!”

“More like give up you mean.”

Energy and fire rise up to melt away pain and ego alike.

Keep up and be Truth.

Sat Nam.

Legacies

B ound Lotus, Day 339.

Days mount and the pain with it.

What had once been comfortable, isn’t. This too shall pass….

Friends half a world away think of me when they hear, “WaheGuru!” If I’m known for that alone I’ll indeed be a happy man forall of my days….

What would you be know for? What would you have your legacybe?

Truth?

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Inspiration?

Being the lighthouse?

How you kept up?

Or all of the above?

The only limits are the ones we allow others to place upon us. Bethe lighthouse and show the world that there are no limits.

Sat Nam.

Peace and love

T he phone rang, it was God calling to say, “Peace.”

Peace….

Bound Lotus, Day 345….

What was life like before surrender pose, before this Bound Lotus?

It seems so distant, before I took up the road to a thousand, the roadto Infinity….

Bound Lotus disciplines the mind like nothing else. It also strength-ens your resolve and gives you the faith to move mountains butmost of all it instills a tremendous sense of peace.

Ek Ong Kaar, we and God are one and God IS love, God IS peace

Truth is Love, Love is Truth, Truth and Love are the way to Ek OngKaar, toward seeing the God in all.

Sat Nam.

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Dreams

B ound Lotus, Day 350… 350… almost a year has passed. Iwonder what the next year holds in store, what dreams might

realize….

Pain once again fades to comfort….

What do you dream of?

Would you dance and swim in sacred water with an angel?

Would you climb the highest mountain or travel the world?

What would it be that would carry you to Infinity?

What would you have your life be?

Whether it’s to feed the starving or wipe out disease, we all have adream that can help make the world a better place. Let’s see to itthat everybody gets the chance to fulfill all of their dreams.

Sat Nam.

Traveler’s sanctuary

C ool breeze blows in from the sea, light fades from a sundrenched land and a traveler seeks shelter in the Sanctuary….

Waves crash upon the rocks, so near to the monuments to sacri-fice….

Flowers and flags abound, pain hangs in the air, where so manyhave mourned. So many fallen, so much grief, where does it end?

It ends with love, it ends with Ek Ong Kaar.

Sat Nam.

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For the fallen

I ’ve seen far too many of these….

Thousands upon thousands of names etched in granite and marble,to stand for all time in honor of those who sacrificed all so that wemight be free.

Pain hangs in the air like a black cloud, so many to mourn, so muchsadness….

And yet, there’s always another war, why?

Why God, why?

Dear God, please grant me the courage and strength to teach theworld that Sat Nam and Ek Ong Kaar are the way to a better world.

A light rain falls, washing away the tears but not the pain….

Divine love and Ek Ong Kaar will end the violence.

Say it with me, “We and God are one.”

“We and God are one.”

“We and God are one.”

Sat Nam.

In my heart

“S at Nam,” the angel of Truth said as she gave me a single redrose, “until we meet again in the angel’s playground.”

A soft rain fell as she whispered, “I love you.”

Her words hung in the air and in my heart for all eternity….

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Sat Nam indeed, to truly know love, Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru! WaheGuru!

Sat Nam.

Remember the rose

W hen I leave this earthly realm, scatter my ashes in the angel’splayground, where the angel of Truth and I danced and

swam….

“For the first time in my life,” she said, “I feel loved.”

And loved you are my angel, till Infinity, till eternity.

Sat Nam.

Beginnings

I can see it right there….

Almost three months ago to the day, I set out on the journey of alifetime.

Of course, I didn’t know it at the time.

Then again, do we really ever know how truly momentous a thingis as it happens?

I for one, do now….

Tomorrow is three months to the day when I began the journey thatled to the angel of Truth.

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I didn’t know that as I started out, I was just going to Summer Sol-stice.

HA! Just… just heading out to change my life and hopefully theworld in the process.

We’ll see you in the angel’s playground, come on over and we’ll dosome yoga.

Sat Nam.

New horizons

Iwoke early one morn and hiked down to the Great River of Life.

“Sat Nam,” it said as I set to work building a boat.

When it was finished I named it ‘Ego’ and filled it with all of myfears, doubts and negativity.

With a mighty shove I sent it on its way back to the Infinite….

“Sat Nam,” said the river as it swallowed the boat whole….

I sat on the bank and watched the water’s hypnotic flow until thesun began to fade.

A new ship, a new life was on the horizon. Truth was its name andit was filled with Love, Happiness, Peace and Prosperity all in greatabundance!

Sat Nam.

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Perceptions

I f you were down to your last $20, what would do you with it?

If you were down to your last breath, what would you do with it?

Give it to a friend who had none?

Not just our perceptions of the world around us, but it’s also ourattitudes about what we do and do not have that shapes our reality.

You have your whole life before you, what would you do with it?

I’d teach the world to see the God in all.

Sat Nam.

Happy Birthday

B ound Lotus, Day 365.

“Happy Birthday,” said the angel of Truth as she sat down besideme and folded herself into surrender pose, this Bound Lotus.

One year on, what did I do that led me here?

I decided to be the lighthouse, to be the forklift, to uplift others.Happy Birthday!

Sat Nam.

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For my friend

Iwonder, about the man who makes my sandwich, he’s tiredagain today….

“Hey buddy,” he says with a smile, and he doesn’t even know myname….

I ask, “That little girl keeping you up at night?”

The way his face lit up, the size of his smile, I know I’m right.

I wonder, from what distant shores did he and his family travel sothat I might see him smile?

I wonder what brought them to this land and pray they find pros-perity.

Sat Nam.

Open your heart

H ow do you say, “I love you,” with the warmth of a thousandsuns?

How do you explain peace to someone who’s only ever knownwar?

How do you express a love so deep, so profound that it takes yourbreath away?

How God, how do we do these things?

How do you say goodbye to the dearest of friends?

How does the sun bid farewell to this land?

You do your best, you speak Truth and honor your word.

Sat Nam.

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Love letters

A smile that takes the chill out of life, like the morning sun.

Eyes that shine like stars.

Energy filled the air as love blossomed from bare rock.

And then she introduced herself. “Truth is my name,” she said andlife truly began.

You take the road less traveled, you never know what you’ll get.

I found the angel of Truth, you?

Evening prayer

I lay me down to rest and dream of the emerald green waters ofthe angel’s playground, of Infinite peace and love, of the eternal

light of the long time sun, of Sat Nam, Wahe Guru and Ek OngKaar….

Mind, body and soul stand bare before the Infinite… did I upliftenough? The unspoken question as I drift off to sleep….

Rest well my friends, may your days be many and filled with muchlove and light.

Sat Nam.

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Natural splendor

T he turning of the leaves marks the onset of autumn and all thedragonflies have since moved on….

I inherited my parent’s appreciation of nature.

Be it the surprise of watching a turtle crawl my way, the excitementof a squirrel, ever on the go, the unparalleled majesty of an eagle inflight or the elegance of deer, nature never ceases to amaze me.

Take dragonflies for example. Not quite birds, not quite insects,like angels, they exist in two worlds. Maybe that’s why angels cap-tivate me so. What captivates you?

Water and its endless shores, is as vast as the Infinite, as is the minditself… be the lighthouse and guide everyone to the distant shoresof the mind and of the universe. Be the forklift and lift everyone upinto the light.

Sat Nam.

Thought

T he sacredness of Now, a new life born of the fire of keepingup, to live present, in the Now, aware of every thought, every

action, to decide a thing and create with that thought….

To understand, the vastness of thought and to purify said thoughts,a mind filled with peace and love….

Blessed are we, prosperous are we who salt our lives with such.

Sat Nam.

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Friend

I cannot imagine what it’s like, to uproot your entire family andmove thousands of miles to a land where you barely speak the

language.

Stranger in a strange land indeed, now that is faith, that is WaheGuru!

I may never know his name, so I decided to call him, “Friend.”

This is for you my friend, may your days be many and may yourlife be filled with love, light and prosperity.

Sat Nam.

Gathering the light

W as up early this morn, to surrender before the dawn.

When I unfurled from this Bound Lotus, I sat and watched theangels gathering the light.

Science teaches us that the Earth rotates causing the sun to moveacross the horizon. It’s all about perception….

As the angels slowly gathered the light, color splashed across thesky and there was the sun! Wahe Guru!

See the miracles all around you, gather the light and be the light-house.

Sat Nam.

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Homecomings

D ay 400 towers over the horizon, a timeless mountain of Truththat stands, calling my name, calling me home….

As I surrendered this morn, the Infinite transformed into a vast seaand I, a creature of the water. My long body undulated, propellingme through the endless ocean, through the Infinite….

The tip of my nose tingles, somehow linked to my relaxed state ofbeing….

And then it happened, I knew the answer to every question I’d everhad… Ek Ong Kaar.

Then my chin tingled and it slowly spread deeper into my being….

We and God are One, Truth is my Name.

Sat Nam.

Downtown

A s I walked among the ancient trees and across sacred ground,I felt as vast as all Infinity, and the Earth, a tiny marble I

cradled in my hand….

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Mysteries of light

I s life really all about the space we hold or is it about dolphins?

As I sat on the beach, talking to the Infinite, the tide rose, beckon-ing me to come hither, out into the water.

A gentle sea, there’d be no wave hopping today.

Out, out I went, farther than anyone….

“FIN!!!”

A quick retreat and several, “Ad Guray Namehs,” later – after all ithad kept the jellyfish at bay the previous day – revealed it wasn’t ashark, but two dolphins! Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru!

My first wild dolphins… right there in the water with me! WaheGuru!

Whatever life is about, enjoy it and embrace the light.

Sat Nam.

To new friends

H ow does one describe the journey of a lifetime?

With a little help from your friends of course!

Pen and I grow sad, this is to be the last we write in this notebook.A new friend awaits….

How to welcome a new friend?

“Sat Nam.”

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Our new notebook sits, patiently waiting to be picked up.

What thoughts does it have, what adventures shall we share, whatshall we write of?

Epic adventures in far off lands? Love beyond belief? Prosperityand abundance beyond measure? Or all of the above? Wahe Guru!

Wherever your journeys take you, may you reach those distantshores, with a little help from your friends!

Sat Nam.

Our new friend

B ound Lotus, Day 388, our first day with our new friend.

A new notebook, a new beginning.

To some it might be just a notebook, like any other, to my pen and Iit’s a gateway to creation.

Neither of us is the source of what we write, it just comes to meand together, we create.

We write of finding love and our never ending search for Truth.

“Sat Nam!” my notebook and pen reply in unison.

Visibly identical to the last, this new notebook is totally different. Itbreathes and exudes prosperity, new energy, new life….

Sat Nam.

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Time

S teady rain falls this cool eve, friend’s father’s words echo outacross the Infinite.

“I ain’t good for nothing anymore,” he said….

If I live a million years I will never forget his words or the casualway he spoke his Truth.

It was as if he had said, “I like Fall.”

Color abounds, reds and yellows fall from the sky, the pain of thatone sentence hangs….

I pray that I never forget, I pray, ever thankful, for all my dearfriends and family, my health, peace and prosperity, the gift of mywriting, for everything in my life, especially for my Truth. I am thelighthouse, I am the forklift.

Sat Nam.

Notes

C ool autumn eve and the winds of change blow strong….

Prosperity or lack, like life, it’s a choice.

I’m reminded of all those times I’ve heard someone say they,“Don’t have any money.” For them the glass is already empty….

My notebook is the notebook of Prosperity and as such refuses towrite of lack, and pen, my pen wants to dance and sing, “WaheGuru!”

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It says, “I’m with Notes, uplift, change the world, teach the worldto sing, in perfect harmony, Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru!”

*scratches head* Notes?

“Better than Notey!”

*laughter*

Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru!

Stones of life

W e journeyed to the Great River, the River of Life, to shed ourworries….

My notebook wanted to sit and watch the water while my penjumped right in, splashing about and singing, “Wahe Guru!” “Comeon Notes!” it shouted invitingly.

“Hello!? I’m a book!”

I picked up a flat stone, my pen named it “Worry” and we sent itskipping across the water….

We picked out the largest rock we could find and named it “Ego.” Itmade a mighty splash and quickly sank, we were rid of it….

Vibration rose, in pitch and volume as we let the river wash all ourworries away.

When at last we were through we sat down and watched the ripplesof our worries fade to nothing….

The river flows on, just like life. Flow and be the lighthouse.

Sat Nam.

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Of pens and men

T he pen truly is mightier than the sword.

My pen for example, vows to change the world and to teach theentire universe to sing, “Wahe Guru!” in perfect harmony.

My notebook vows to be the lighthouse.

I vow to carry the water, to hold the space, to uplift and to shine forall of my days and all of my nights. You?

Sat Nam.

By God’s paintbrush

I ’ve been a lot of places and seen a lot of things but very littlehas taken my breath away like this evening’s sunset. The most

beautiful explosion of color I have ever seen, crafted by God’spaintbrush….

Stunning pinks and reds streaked against the deepest of blues –would that there were words to describe it! Wahe Guru!

Everybody now!

Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru!

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Tall, tall trees

B ound Lotus, Day 400. Four-hundred… has a nice ring to it….

“So what?” my pen quickly points out, “I can dance and sing WaheGuru! Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru!” as it dances all around the house.

After a long pause, my notebook replies, “I was once a tree….”

We all sigh and I reply, “I wish you guys could have been therewith me today to see the hawk and hear it screech.”

“I was a tall tree, eagles used to sit in my branches, squirrels wouldclimb all through my limbs….”

Mellower now, my pen replies, “Life is change Notes and we needyou.”

We sat together in silence….

My pen and notebook are inseparable, they do everything together,I definitely couldn’t do this without them.

Sat Nam my friends, Sat Nam.

Postcards from heaven

E ven angels need stamps….

To see a thing and instantly know it’s perfect….

To hold the sun in your hands and dance and sing Wahe Guru….

Misty mountain pass, sunlight splayed against the clouds, 11 wordsfrom an angel… a postcard from heaven….

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To carry the water and be the lighthouse….

To at long last, know what love is and to have the courage to liveit… Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru!

Invitation to ecstasy

P ondering the journey home and returning to where it all began,it dawned on me… seeing the God in all, seeing the Wahe

Guru in all! Wahe Guru!

To experience the ecstasy of seeing the God in all, Wahe Guru!

Pen quickly danced across the page, all the while singing, “WaheGuru!”

Notebook soon began to dance in unison, “Wahe Guru!” as wordscontinued to appear. “Wahe Guru!”

Everybody now!

“Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru!”

Wahe Guru!

“C ome on, come on! I wanna write about love!” my penrepeats excitedly.

My notebook is quick to point out, “Yeah, but you also want todance and sing ‘Wahe Guru!’”

“I can do both!” my pen proudly proclaims as it proceeds to do justthat.

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Do you guys mind, I’m trying to eat dinner here.

“No we don’t mind!” they both reply.

“Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru!” they chant as I attempt toeat.

My pen grows impatient, “Come on, come on! This can’t wait! Youleave us lying on the cold floor!”

Would you rather sit on the couch?

“Yeah, by the fire!” my pen replies.

Fire? What? There’s no fireplace. How about by the window?

“It’s dark!”

And I’m talking to a pen and a notebook….

“Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru!”

I thought we were going to write about love?

“We just did, don’t you get it? God is love, seeing the God in all isseeing the Love in all! Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru! Wahe Guru!”

You’re my best friend

A s I slowly woke this sleepy morn, there sat the angel of Truth!Wahe Guru! She’d come to read me poetry and to tell me,

“You’re my best friend.”

I sat in the space I heard those words, soaking up their vibration,meaning, and the depth of feeling behind them.

I opened my eyes and she was gone, was it all just a dream?

Notebook and pen cried out, there sat these words, fresh ink uponthe page, this poem, entitled, “You’re my best friend.”

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The sacredness of life

B ound Lotus, Day 410….

Ego, fear, doubt, indeed all negativity vanish in the fire of keepingup, unparalleled prosperity follows in its wake….

I saw five squirrels this day, one sat up, watching me as intently as Iwatched it. Mutual fascination and respect for the sacredness of alllife….

All life is sacred, from those squirrels we could learn so much fromto the blades of grass we sometimes must walk on, all life is sacred.

All life is sacred.

All life is sacred.

Sat Nam.

Focus

O ur focus becomes our reality.

I once wrote a romantic fairy tale, never dreaming I was creatingmy own future.

My life became that epic love story when I met the angel of Truthand she said, “Sat Nam.”

If you can imagine it, you can create it.

An abundance of love, peace, prosperity and happiness, that’s myfocus, you?

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Here’s to new directions, here’s to a new life, here’s to you God,thank you, for everything, bless you.

Sat Nam.

Home

H ome is a place I carry around inside me, a place I call theangel’s playground.

It’s where I hold the space, it’s wherever I am…

It’s the spirit of Wahe Guru within us all, it’s the love I feel with theentirety of my being, it’s Infinite prosperity, love and happiness.

It’s everything you make it.

Sat Nam.

What’s on your mind?

Iwas healed the instant I chose it, my throat blossomed and greatrivers of energy poured throughout my body. Creativity flowed

like never before, I literally could not write fast enough! WaheGuru!

What then?

Everything was different, “Thoughts become things,” truly was thekey to life’s greatest secret, what then?

I’d at last truly become the answer, what then?

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Size matters not to the universe, the only difference is in your mind.

I’d healed myself in an instant, the principle was sound, I could cre-ate anything in an instant given the proper shift in thinking.

Letting go included letting go of all the old ways of thinking, thatwhich had so limited my existence.

Prosperous or not, your experience of prosperity stems from yourthoughts of it. Present tense, feel it, know that you deserve it andBE prosperous, in all areas of life.

Thoughts of lack, give you that, thoughts of abundance create thatjust as strong thoughts of anything you dislike create that verything, so too does intense joy, love, peace, happiness, prosperity, etccreate more of the same.

So I have to ask you, what’s on your mind?

Well?

Lighthouse man

“S at Nam lighthouse man,” she wrote, a friend and fellow yogiwho my words touched….

Four words that speak volumes about the Infinite capacity within usall, four words that inspire the, “lighthouse man,” and remind methat no one is, “just,” anything.

See yourself as Infinite, BE Infinite and be the lighthouse.

Sat Nam.

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Monuments to peace

B ound Lotus, Day 429….

Glacial calm washes over the spirit. Infinite peace, Infinite love,Infinite prosperity and abundance….

Sunny morn, spent where autumn has yet to reach.

Cozy park bench, shade and light abound. So too it is with life,where to sit, where to sit….

I chose the sun. I chose the light, here where the ancient trees standas monuments to peace.

History aplenty, even as the future unfolds.

Create in an instant, anything….

Faith, gratitude, love, peace and happiness are the way.

Clouds come and go, the light remains….

Shine on like the sun that you are and be the lighthouse.

Sat Nam.

Live the dream

B irds filled the sky, nature at its most abundant.

If your life could be anything, what would you make it?

A river of Truth that flowed for all to drink?

A lighthouse? A forklift? A vessel of and for the light?

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Prosperity in all its forms is all around us and life itself is creation.What will you create with yours?

Whatever it might be, may you enjoy it and may your days bemany.

Sat Nam.

Dreaming in the light

Y ou have to have the dream before you can live it. So what areyou creating, what’s on your mind, what do you dream of?

I was kissed by an angel and yet I dream of more.

Creativity flows like water as will life when you let it.

I dream of peace and light, of love and happiness, of a life in theangel’s playground, of holding the space, being the forklift andbeing the lighthouse, of eagles, squirrels, deer and all the magnifi-cent creatures of this realm. I dream of dreams and a land whereTruth falls from the sky and flows in great rivers, oh how I dream!!!

Sat Nam.

Be the pen

O ne chapter ends, another begins….

Life is a blank page and you are the pen.

Be the pen… be the pen and create your life as you would have itbe.

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Clouds and light come and go, as does day and night. Be the pen,be the pen and flow like the wind.

Gentle or strong, still or as cool as a mountain stream, be the penand dance across all the pages of your life.

Be the pen and live!!!

Dance!

A nd we danced in the universe, for all of our days andthroughout all our nights, happy and free, prosperous, loving

and peaceful.

May all your journeys be safe, may you always have an angel onboard, may the sun always shine for thee and may you alwaysdance in the universe.

Life is your playground, be the pen and dance!

May all your hopes and dreams come true, may your life be blesseda thousand times over and may you appreciate them all, fromwarmth on a wintry eve to your dearest friend or the beauty ofnature.

May you ever dwell in the light, thankful, free and happy!

Sat Nam.

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By the fireplace

I had never truly appreciated warmth until I didn’t have it. It wasas if I was frozen from the inside….

Bound Lotus, Day 434.

So often we only appreciate something after we no longer have it.Thus, I began a list of all the many things I am grateful for.

As the list grew so too did my appreciation – of everything!

Plants, trees and grass grow right out of the ground!

Rocks, already were….

Water flows, eagles soar, wind, electricity, life itself is a miracle!Wahe Guru!

See the miracles, be the miracle and flow, thankful and free.

Peace and blessings to you all my friends.

To the future

T o new beginnings, to journeys that never end.

I never pictured myself a writer, yet here we are!

You go where the road takes you, doors close, new ones open, peo-ple come and go and life spirals ever upward. Flow with it andgrow.

Be the lighthouse, be the forklift, be the pen, be… be what youchose – an astronaut, explorer, healer, teacher, friend… be and live,in the moment, in the now and create your highest future!

A thousand blessings my friends, peace, love and light to you all!

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Being there

B ound Lotus, Day 444….

Here’s to new journeys and to ever higher destinations!

At last the way becomes clear. Be there and cross where there is nopath, be there and be Infinite. Be happy and live. Whatever thy des-tination – be there.

Winter Solstice

B ound Lotus, Day 450….

To mark the days by the numbers, they mount as does the experi-ence.

To hold the space when we camped by the lake, hundreds of mydearest friends and I….

To live in that space and shed that which no longer serves, to be thelight, to be the lighthouse….

To search for a quiet space, to be that quiet stillness in all that youdo….

The river runs strong, be it swift or still, would that we were allrivers of Truth.

Sat Nam.

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A new page, a new life

I chose it and it was so, perfection in all things.

It was the deepest pain I had ever felt, one I had carried in myheart, nigh, had weighed me down like an enormous stone thesepast 8 years.

The horse and rider stand ready at the gates of your life, freedom iswithin your grasp – chose it – chose a new life and be anything andbe free! WOOOHOOOO!!!

Celebration

R eborn into a new year with a new lease on life, let’s celebrateand rejoice at all the marvels of life.

Bound Lotus, Day 468….

Day 500 looms large on the horizon, waiting, welcoming me home,urging me on….

It was as if I laid my worries upon the altar of Truth and kept onclimbing… in reality, that’s all there is to it, you keep up, keep onclimbing and everything will fall into place.

Sat Nam.

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Yogic journey

H ave you ever pondered life as a snowball? To fall from thesky, a tiny, frozen bit of heaven….

To perhaps enchant and dazzle, to be thrown with glee and existuntil the warmth comes for thee and the cycle begins anew….

To return to the earth as water and then to the heavens as vapor,how truly perfect you are my friend, mayhaps we’ll meet againsomeday.

Until then, farewell my friend, farewell….

Halfway

B ound Lotus, Day 500… a day like any other day, pretty muchlike Day 499 was, or Day 497, except that this was the biggest

milestone yet, 500!!!

When I started this Bound Lotus adventure, back on… September14th, 2005… WOW… my only real goal was to survive, to hold theposture and let it take me where it would. Even that first day, whereI could barely hold it for all of 30 seconds, was more than enoughfor me to know it was the thing for me.

Those 30 seconds seemed like lifetimes as mind and body bothrailed against the posture and yet here we are, 500 days later, doinga full 31 minutes per day, full posture, forehead all the way to thefloor! Wahe Guru!

I might dance around the house all day long! WOOOOOOOO!!!

Halfway to a thousand… then again, it’s only a number. Lifeunfolds, keep up and live it!

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Peace and blessings to you all,

Sat Nam.

Infinite Journey

N othing compares to the Infinite stillness that accompaniesBound Lotus, oh what a journey these past 513 days have

been!

Would that everyone could experience the deep calm, it truly is thesurrender of all things. To empty the mind and simply appreciateeach and every aspect of life, now that’s peace, that’s love, Infinitelove.

Whatever it might be, may you find your way to that peace andcalm the storms of life.

Sat Nam.

Turn the page

W hat is it about this day that makes it so different from all theothers?

The calendar turned but a single page, and yet life itself seems anentirely different novel. Either way, turn the page….

What is it about life that compels us so? To live in the greatest of allmiracles, present, aware, patient, with love and kindness for all, insickness and in health, for richer or poorer, for all of our days, tillInfinity, till Eternity.

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That’s what difference a day makes, turn the page.

Sat Nam.

The road to a thousand

B ound Lotus, Day 534….

I ponder, the next 457 days. If all goes well, I should get to 1000days sometime next summer. I wonder, what it’ll be like and whatBound Lotus itself will be like then….

What will life be like?

Will the grass be greener? What will I be doing then and where?And does any of that even really matter? No, not really….

Life can be anything you want it to be, may yours be healthy, happyand holy.

Sat Nam.

Milestones

B ound Lotus, Day 550….

To arise to a new day, surmount yet another milestone on the roadto a thousand and to prosper, a blessed day indeed!

To set one’s mind to a task and accomplish it - within days - nowthat is keeping up! I’m reminded, as I sit here this eve, of some-thing I once wrote, entitled Against the Odds….

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A group of kids that did it, never caring about the odds or worryingabout it being impossible, they kept up and they did it….

Scrolling through its pages, memories… of the characters, theiradventures, lives, and the times we shared….

Day 550 brought a new job with it, I eagerly await the excitementand prosperity that Day 551, Day 552 and all the rest are sure tobring!

May your future be filled with love, happiness and prosperity.

Sat Nam.

Footsteps along the path

Iwas hungry and God fed me.

Where there was darkness, God brought light.

Fear, despair, doubt and pain all became love and faith the instant Ilet go.

What happens happens, let go and let the energy flow.

Things happen, and things don’t always work out how we wouldlike at the time, but they always work out for the best, the universeknows exactly what we need even when we don’t.

I rewrote the story of my life, pen in hand, words flowed across thepage. I wrote in exacting detail how I wished my life to be – towalk with God and know divine love – your will be done God notmine.

For 10 glorious months I had everything I’d ever wanted in life, oneday it all vanished, leaving a gaping hole in my existence the uni-verse filled with love, certainty of purpose, cause and direction.

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Perspective shifts as do life’s desires, directions change as the myr-iad riddles of life unravel themselves. Nothing to ponder, dreams tolive, footsteps upon the path, free mind, open heart, joyous, aliveand free!

Wherever your path might take you, may your footsteps upon it bemany.

Sat Nam.

Transitions

M ay your mind be as clear as a mountain stream.

May your thoughts be as pure as the driven snow.

May you be strong like the eagle.

May you fly straight as an arrow and remain true for all of yourdays.

Life unfolds as we journey upon the road less traveled, time towrite a new chapter in the novel of life.

One chapter ends, another begins, I’ve entitled this one, “And Iwalked with God.”

Hope, faith, love, peace, prosperity, all in joyous abundance…pulse quickens as mind, body and spirit unite in understanding!Rejoice unto the world and so shall it be done unto you!

We turned the page, we turned a corner, together, united in vision,and we walked with God.

Sat Nam.

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Ram Das Puri

M idnight approaches… thoughts drift to mountaintops and faroff places where angels dance… the mountain of Truth….

Calm amidst the fiercest of storms, bright throughout the darkest ofnights, steady and ever on course, a child stood up to help make theworld a better place, to do anything they could to bring light untothe darkness….

Whenst we looked back, the child was gone, born unto the light, sothat all might see….

For Kelli

A nd God said unto me, “Write not of the love that was lost, butthe love that was shared.”

I need not have known Kelli Noel Stewart to speak of the lives shetouched, the hearts and minds she opened.

Though troubled our days be, the sun always rises, with each day anew beginning, another chance at creation.

Sparks of interest, hints of a smile, flashes of insight into thatwhich we know not, all this and more, all come from the divine.

Angels rejoice at our triumphs and hold us throughout our sadness,ever guiding us along our way.

Few truer measures of abundance exist than the lives one touches,deep emotions that stir the soul and grant faith to move mountains,in that, Kelli Noel Stewart, you truly have prospered beyonddescription.

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Waves crash upon the shores of life, ever shaping our existence…may we all choose wisely, honor our loved ones, speak truth andcarry on in search of the light.

Sat Nam.

The garden of life

N eed floated on down the river, as did attachment, and themind expanded to its Infinite capacity….

At times all one needs is but a kind word, a bit of encourage-ment….

And then need was gone… love sprouted in its place in the gardenof life. Another weed removed….

Love continued to grow as fear and sadness drifted off into the sun-set, taking resentment and anguish with them….

Remove the weeds from your life and live, free and in the moment.

Sat Nam.

Anticipation

A nother Summer Solstice approaches and I can’t help butwonder what this one has in store for me. I dream of

mountaintops and angels….

Life begins anew each summer, high above the desert, I can’t waitto see how the Infinite tops last summer!

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Wahe Guru!

Wahe Guru!

Wahe Guru!

Climb on

S o long since the journey began… so many changes… surrenderthe only goal. The road twists and turns, climb on, climb on….

Bound Lotus, Day 583….

Day 600 fast approaceth, every day a milestone of achievement,ever a new summit upon the horizon. Climb on, climb on….

That’s what the path is, a series of ever higher plateaus. Climb onand walk with God. Climb on and free yourself of all Earthly con-cerns. Climb on and live free, climb on and dream of ever higherplateaus, let go and soar above the all, dance and sing with angels,follow your hearts truest desires and leave light wherever you tread.

May your footsteps be many, your path joyous, climb on… climbon….

Sat Nam.

Peace

I ponder the ever winding road that is life, knowing not where itleads… I’ll know when I get there….

Love burned away the pain, the hurt, the anguish, love was all therewas… God’s love is all there is….

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Energy rose within, burning away that which no longer served me.

I’d opted for the trial of fire, did I expect it to be easy? Did I expectto simply wake up one day and walk with God? I in fact, harboredno expectations, but simply the desire to walk with God….

Listen

I nvitation into the mist, to let go, to be the answer, need not seethe way, faith….

God’s calling, it’s time to listen….

I listened and the world opened unto me.

Listen… what do you hear?

Do you hear the rustling of leaves as squirrels bound through, doyou hear laughter, or the trees blowing in the wind? Listen… God’scalling….

Expressions

S o many things, once so pressing, no longer exist in the flow ofGod’s love.

The world changed overnight, Sat Nam the eternal catalyst, WaheGuru the ultimate expression of Infinity, Ek Ong Kaar the Word.

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5 to go

B ound Lotus, Day 595….

Numbers mount, as does the experience. The journey seems shortersomehow, the distance, nearer….

Infinite silence echoes throughout the mind… stills the soul.

The eternal quest to become more, ‘tis what inspires and drives meforth.

Days on end, another step closer, dreams dawn, new dreams risewith the sun to inspire us forth.

What doth thee dream of?

Of fairy tales and magic, romance, health and wealth?

All of the above?

‘Tis but energy… 5 to go… 5 to go….

4 to go

B ound Lotus, Day 596….

To chart the days as the ancients would the stars… a journeynonetheless.

How life has changed these past almost 600 days… little turned outas I thought, but all for the best.

Ships pass in the night, on journeys of their own, some never to beseen again.

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While they say nothing lasts forever, energy endures.

Four to go and God’s love rains down upon me….

Sat Nam.

600

I set out to describe the indescribable, to put Wahe Guru intowords… to leave a signpost to my house at 11 Wahe Guru

Way….

It’s the birth of a sun, an angel’s kiss, a walk on a cloud, it’s soaringwith eagles, Infinite love, neutrality and grace….

It’s the faith to move mountains….

It’s the road to Wahe Guru Way… follow the signposts, you’re allinvited… stop by and we’ll do some yoga.

Sat Nam.

Awakenings

I stood on the bridge of life and chose, knowing my destiny I stillput my foot upon the road, knowing the fires would purify my

being and that I would walk with God.

I’d chosen this path, I’d chosen this life….

I didn’t like the results of some of those choices so I made newones….

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I chose peace and prosperity, to walk with God and understand –everything – to become the eternal light, to embrace love at everyopportunity, to forgive and bless those who trespass against me,ever thankful for every aspect of my existence.

Here’s to new choices.

Sat Nam.

Revelations

I stood on the precipice of life, God awaiting my arrival on theother side. “I am the bridge,” I said as I stepped out over the

unknown, trusting in the unseen, and I flew with angels.

Scribbles upon the pages of life, footsteps along the path, a journeyinto the unknown, a journey across the abyss.

God waited on the other side….

I stood on the edge of life, in utter darkness, God but a distant pin-point of light.

Part of me wanted to die, another part wished only to cry and everyfiber of my being screamed, “NOW! TAKE THAT STEP NOW!!!”

I’d chosen this path, I’d specifically asked to be purified in the firesof God’s love, I’d asked to be burned to a golden haze, did I expectit to be easy?

Every thought, worry or desire I’d ever had fell into the abyss as Iclosed my eyes and took that step. Unto the light I floated, it reallywas as easy as a choice, a new choice.

What did you choose?

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Love

U nfinished poems, so much life yet to live….

Dreams become answers in the angel’s playground, once a physicalplace, now a state of mind, the ultimate statement of my being….

Choices

B eing there was a choice, letting go was a choice….

Fear, anger and doubt all fell into the abyss as I jumped from thecliff and soared with angels, en-lightened of all earthly burdens.

Infinite energy flowed through me, along with an abundance ofprosperity, peace and love.

Life truly flowed once I made that decision, and yes, part of medied right there on that cliff, and part of me cried, but the rest of merose up into God’s arms, carried unto the divine light.

One step

I dreamt of dreams so grand I dared not dream them, they allcame true the moment I took that step and freed my mind….

My soul had always been free, it was just waiting for the rest of meto catch up… and catch up it did as we took that leap of faithtogether.

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One step, one step to cross Infinite distance and walk with God.

Take that one step….

Sat Nam.

I wrote that

P rofound, to read a thing and wonder, “Who wrote that?” Idid….

What did you write upon the pages of your life?

Happiness? Love? Peace? Service? Gratitude? Prosperity? Abun-dance?

I wrote that, and then it happened….

I specifically wrote, “And I walked with God,” my highestdream….

Words formed upon the pages of my life, a collection of mythoughts and dreams… gone are so many irrelevant things… divinelove and light left behind in their wake. I wrote that and more, andthen I lived it.

So I have to ask you, what have you written upon the pages of yourlife?

Well?

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Expectations

I lost my mind along the way, life itself had seemingly driven memad… but then I realized it wasn’t my mind anyway, it all

belonged to God….

So what did it matter? I had asked for all of this, I’d specificallychosen the road less traveled, what did I expect?

Directions

B ecome still like the wind you must, move without moving… bethere… be the lighthouse… be the answer not the question…

be the forklift….

It was all right there in front of me, right across the Infinite chasmof life.

The chasing about was pointless and there was no room for it in mylife.

I stood on the edge of life and realized I had to die, the old me thatis, it had to go, it had held me back for far too long… into the abyssit went.

Everything fell away, lifetimes of pain, anguish, sorrow, stress,agony, fear, all manner of dis-ease fell away as I took that first stepand realized my destiny.

It wasn’t about where I’d been, it was about where I was going…across that expanse to walk with God….

Where are you going?

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Sat Nam ‘eh

I f I live a million billion years I may never hear anything asfunny as those immortal words uttered by my brother of the

light, “Sat Nam ‘eh.”

A thousand blessings my friend, soon we will once again walk inthe land of the long time sun, in a land where there are no shadows,where there is no darkness, to take that leap of faith and walk withGod.

Sat Nam my friend, Sat Nam.

Ask

I asked for one, God sent me five… a bountiful harvest if everthere was one….

I’d asked to see a squirrel, God sent me five, two of which chasedeach other round and round a tree….

Then I asked, to walk with God… what did you ask for?

Well?

The soul knows

I don’t remember ever being this excited about anything in myentire life. Even before I finished the thought of wondering why

– the soul knows….

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As I return to the sacred land of my birth, knowing that all I have todo is just get there and God will take care of everything else….

All my troubles and tribulations, burned away by the long time sun,the soul knows what destiny awaits, the soul knows the way acrossthe Infinite chasm of life… faith… faith is the way.

At God’s doorstep

U nto the sun I went, a golden blaze of light, the twin pillars ofGod’s doorstep… footsteps along the path….

It was what I asked for, not the how, just the what… to walk withGod. If I had to experience a little heat, so be it, in the end, lightwas all there was….

In God’s footsteps

W ho’s to say, whether it was the journey, or arriving at thedestination, knowing what wonders await….

Having arrived, nothing seemed relevant….

To again walk upon the sacred mountain, to have climbed my per-sonal mountain of Truth….

But a single thing remains… to walk with God….

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From the mountaintop

T o have the Word light up at seeing me, to again walk upon theland of my birth….

Friends both old and new, journeys long and short….

The journey though is of the mind, the only distance of the mind….

I can see the other side… just a short leap of faith away… take thatstep and walk with God… take that step….

Moving on

M ayhaps I shall again sit in the shade with the Word….

So much has changed… so little matters, what importance I hadonce placed upon so many irrelevant things….

A day, a year, a lifetime or twelve, how long does it take and does iteven matter? Of course, I’d choose it to be sooner, but it’ll happenwhen the time is right.

Lot to let go of, lot to move on from, even more to move on to….

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Live it

W hat else is there?

Living it, that’s what there is.

We had to make some changes, it’s time to live it….

Jump!!!

W hy? In the end, that was the only question.

Why are you waiting? What are you waiting for? Task standsbefore you, why do you hesitate? JUMP!!!

Maybe that was the message behind Isana’s Tale – Jump!!!

That was years ago, what happened to the person I was when Iwrote of Jump and his adventures?

Rhetorical question of course, as I know how that story ran. Thenagain, life’s a work in progress as the story never ends….

Rise up

T o new perspectives, to a new lease on life, for the mostbeautiful day of my entire life, thank you God!

Four stars lined up in my favor this glorious day, a day spent get-ting to know the angel of Light, a day like no other….

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Anticipation builds at the thought of what wonders tomorrowbrings, rise up and meet them, rise up and embrace the light!!!

Sat Nam.

Hari Prakash

I ’d written at great length, of a mythical creature I referred to asthe angel of Light, never really knowing exactly what that

entailed.

In my mind’s eye it was an angelic creature that embodied all that Isought in a woman… little did I know… it was a woman thatwould lighten my soul….

Sat Nam.

Signposts

S ame four stars, different order, all lined up in a row for me, theuniverse rearranging itself for me… showing me the way….

Be gone!

S o many old friends… I saw reflected in the eyes of the angel ofLight… old, old friends….

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The mirror changed and then I saw all that I clung to in this mortalexistence as I stood upon the edge of life… at the precipice… whatwonders awaited me across the Infinite chasm of life… God awaits!Wahe Guru!

Great rivers of tears washed it all into the abyss… none of it reallymattered… it was all holding me back… it all had to go.

Thank you my friend

F ew things in this mortal existence are as precious as a truefriend.

Supreme irony, asking for what one wants and receiving what oneneeds… a true friend to lighten my soul so I can float across theabyss….

The way

S ame four stars, in yet a different order, pointing the way toGod… a signpost….

I was almost there and didn’t even know it….

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Infinity

Four became eight as the entire galactic plane lined up in myfavor….

There is no path and yet I see it as clearly as my own hands….

And I walked with God

T ransfixed upon the edge, at long last, freed of all which soughtto imprison me, the vibration itself became my path as I

crossed over the Infinite chasm and walked with God! Wahe Guru!

Goals

T here are not words to describe it, I can only say, I walked withGod upon the mountain of light, the mountain of Truth… goal

since the beginning of time….

We danced and sang while God played the tabla, the beat vibratingthrough us….

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Words

W hat words exist to express that which I left behind as Iwalked with God upon the mountain of Truth…

everything….

I left everything behind as my soul was purified in the fires ofTruth, elevated beyond description….

To live, breathe and feel Ek Ong Kaar….

How then?

B ound Lotus, Day 656….

Suddenly I realized, how easy it had become… not the when justthat it is….

How perfectly natural, to fold one’s self up into this surrenderpose….

Somewhere along the way… everything… disappeared….

Now the when, just that it did….

How then to express the most divine experience of my entire exis-tence, how then to convey what Summer Solstice was like? Howthen to express the fulfillment of a goal I’d carried since the begin-ning of time?

Simply stated, I walked with God upon the mountain of Truth, wedanced and sang, “Humee Hum Brahm Hum, Humee Hum BrahmHum,” while the Infinite played the tabla, friends both old and newabound, as we gathered in celebration of the light….

Sat Nam.

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Timmy Mouse

L ong gone are the days when my mom read me Timmy Mouseover and over and over and over again, until she knew the

words by heart…

That story remains, as do the new ones we create each day.

Keep up

T o return to that which I had written so long ago… “Againstthe Odds,” to be reminded of their impossible situation, a

dilemma of such immense proportion that the future of alldepended on a handful, they who knew not of the darkness theyfaced, only of the light that was their existence….

Doing without doing they became the unmoved movers of theall….

A new hope

B ound Lotus, Day 685… six hundred and eighty five….

I sat up and the entire world was gone… every thing I had evercared about was gone, the things were still there of course but I wasno longer attached to any of them. After all, they were all justthings anyway….

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It was as if everything had stopped and I was free to roam about thecabin….

What profound insight had I gained, what had I unlearned? Noth-ing, everything? None of it mattered, for nothing existed but thestillness… that had been the goal all along….

Faith steeled beyond words, hope beyond measure, love and joybeyond description, the keys to it all, to keeping up, to being thelighthouse, to being the forklift….

Sat Nam

Dear God

Dear God,

I need a financial miracle.

There, I’ve said it and I’m moving on with my life.

Sat Nam,

Akal Sahai Singh

aka Steve Coffing

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Countdown

B ound Lotus, Day 700....

Seven hundred... seven-hundred... then again, it’s just another num-ber, or, is it? A milestone, yet but another number. It’s not the num-bers that matter but the commitment to the path, the certainty ofpurpose, and the steeled faith in the journey, now that’s what mat-ters, to day 700 and beyond, a mere 300 to go….

Breadcrumbs

H ow long had I avoided the pen?

How long had I avoided moving forward with my life?

How long had I let the game distract me?

The stillness awaits… outside the game, not within.

How long had I put the journey on hold?

How long had I put my destiny off?

Doesn’t matter, I’m moving on….

I can see the light and I can’t stay where I’m at, can you?

Who knows where it all leads, and what fun would it be if you did?

I’m moving on, into the stillness, writing as I go, chronicling myjourney as it were, ever looking and moving forward, a trail ofbreadcrumbs if you will….

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In the stillness

Iwrote of my journey, I wrote of my path, I wrote of the people Imet along the way… the way unto the light.

I wrote for the experience, creating my own future one moment at atime, never knowing where it would lead.

The game stopped as I realized it led where it was supposed to,trusting in the universe, seeing the perfection in all things, livingand being in the flow, centered in the stillness, I realized there wasnothing to do, nothing to be, save one thing… still…

Answers

W ords upon the page, not questions, one answer for everyquestion… in the stillness… in the stillness… in the

stillness….

Thunderous silence echoed throughout my being as I became…nothing… in the ever deepening stillness….

I wonder

O ften times I ponder… where I am… along my path… along myjourney… and the choices I made… today… I’ll just do my

Bound and sink into the nothingness….

The world about me dissolved as the Golden Lady sang unto theInfinite….

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Flexibility of body yes, but also of mind and spirit….

Into the nothingness, unto the Infinite and into the light I drifted asI chanted my cares away….

Bound Lotus, Day 727… days of endless light… carried by thelaughter… unto the light….

Sat Nam.

The tree of life

I hear the voices in the night, my friends praying for me, myangels watching over me, guiding me to possibilities I never

even knew existed.

They water the tree of my life and grow it does….

<Click>

T he game had to go, no fanfare, <click> and it was gone,farewell old friend, farewell….

Life itself is the grandest of all games, <click> let’s add this, deletethat.

What would you add to your life?

It’s all but a click away.

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Invitations

B ound Lotus, Day 736… 31 minutes pass in the blink of an eye,the pain long since vanished… emptied the mind as it left…

my thoughts are just that… mine….

Face and back tingle as energy shifts… notebook and pen join increation before we drift off to rest and dream of angels and light.

Winter Solstice approaches… friends old and new await along theshores of the lake of Truth, you’re all invited….

Sat Nam.

To spread the light

F ace and forearm tingle, abuzz with energy….

It was all about taking that step….

I wonder, where have all my fellow Ghost Rancheros gone? Tospread the light of course….

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For Jack

S torms pass… may you weather them as does the mighty oak, bybending and growing ever stronger.

May you walk head held high throughout all discord and rise abovewords hurled by the unwise, and unto the light.

Sat Nam.

Born of the light

N o truer companions exist than notebook and pen, alwaysready to create, waiting in the light….

I’ve come to realize, they’re both enlightened… born, of the light,

Now, that’s my goal!

Sat Nam.

Goals

T o stop the game, to be enlightened, that’s my goal, you?

Not one goal but many, to know God, to live, with God, to walkwith God every day, to know Truth, to know the unknowable, to bethe answer not the question, those are my goals, you?

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Write it upon the pages of your life and it will happen!

Happy writing!

Sat Nam.

Tap into it

T he Word as my friend, inspiration and light abound as wediscover the fountain of Truth… it pours from the Divine…

tap into it!

Divinely inspired, we create in the flow. We think, in our mind, thegateway to the Infinite. Stillness of mind opens that gateway….

Curious space to hold, to inspire… to have the creator of THEmost inspirational thing I have ever seen, contact me, for, inspira-tion, now that is Divine, that is Wahe Guru!

It’s all about the light, and Darshan, I cannot wait to see the nextvideo!

Sat Nam.

The path

I nfinite ways up the mountain, need not know the way, climb on,climb on.

The mountain is the path, the goal your own, climb on, climb on….

Light grows, expands, attracts more light… what are you attractinginto your life?

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The path is yours, the choices yours, may we all choose wisely.

Sat Nam.

One thousand

Iwonder what Day 1000 will be like?

I imagine the day itself’ll be pretty much like Day 999… or will it?

Maybe the sun will shine brighter… mayhaps the sense of accom-plishment will carry me to ever higher plateaus. Or maybe I’ll for-get and not even notice the milestone.

It is just another number or will light explode throughout my beingas the entire universe stands on end in celebration of my triumph?

*laughter*

I’ll find out when I get there….

Sat Nam.

Of the light

B ound Lotus, Day 742… 1000 seems a long ways off, but thenagain, does it really matter?

Only 248 to go, yet I dream of the ultimate milestone, of an explo-sion of light that fills the entirety of my being, the dawning of Infi-nite understanding, the moment I become the answer, not thequestion.

Sat Nam.

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For Har Hari

S he of the effervescent, “Wahe Guru!” She of the boundlessenthusiasm!

She who brings color to life, has to be magic, I’m certain of it!

I miss you my friend, I miss you!

I know though, that I’ll see you in the summer of Light, upon themountain of Truth, I can’t wait!

Sat Nam.

The phone’s ringing

W ere God to call today and ask, “What did you do today tomake the world a better place?” What would your answer

be?

Did you follow your intuition, did you shine bright to lead othersunto the light, did you bring a smile to someone’s face?

Well?

The phone’s ringing….

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Ek Ong Kaar Kaur

T he Word as my Truth, I am the lighthouse.

I turned a major corner in my life, the Word as my light, my way,my path, my friend….

Here’s to ever higher goals, ever higher journeys and the courage totake that step into the darkness, bringing the light with you.

May you all know the Word, her name, is Ek Ong Kaar.

Sat Nam.

I

I closed my eyes and there I was, upon the mountain of Truth, theland of my birth, the land of the golden light… by whatever

metaphors you live, shine on and touch every heart.

Sat Nam.

II

I had not the courage to open my eyes, I didn’t want to go home,I didn’t want it to end, I wanted to spend Eternity in that

space….

And then God spoke, “THEN DO IT!!!”

Whatever it might be for you, open your eyes and do it!

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III

Y et to open my eyes, again God spoke,” Truth isn’t somethingyou can hold in your hands let alone define. But I can tell you

3 Truths – Sat Nam, Ek Ong Kaar, and Wahe Guru.”

I opened my eyes…

IV

… a nd all I saw was light, faith, hope, love and dreams….

You?

Be there

I dreamt of the penultimate destination, the top of the mountain,nary a clue as to how to get there. Nothing to ponder, one thing

to do, be there….

Nothing to ponder, one thing to do, be there.

Often wondered what it would be like, to be the eternal light, tohave 12 suns explode from within, to be that centered in the still-ness….

May we all find out together and may we all find our way up ourown mountains.

Sat Nam.

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Destinations

A nd then suddenly I could see it, there was no bodily way toget there, I had to be there….

The physical part of the path was complete, the journey howeverhad only just begun.

Not the how, the what, be there and become the way.

Choices along the way

I t wasn’t what I expected, but it was exactly what I needed.

What do you need, where are you going in your life?

Often times I’ve wondered that myself… and was I ever going toget there, let alone, where was here?

There was no large map of my life, with a giant, “You are here,”sign, I sure needed one!

It dawned on me, I was but one realization away, a tiny shift inthought away from being there… or perhaps it was many… eitherway, I had to choose.

So many things to let go of, trespasses to forgive, more patience tolearn, new horizons to seek, new opportunities to embrace….

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Living and being

B ound Lotus, Day 748….

Surrendered to the light this morn, to the stillness, it wasn’t aboutme, we are all Infinite, it was about being Infinite, accepting EkOng Kaar as Truth and living it.

Stillness opens the gateway to Infinity, thinking… doesn’t.

Ultimately, what was there to think about? Nothing….

I realized, I had to be, in the stillness, at the center of my verybeing and to radiate that stillness in all that I do and simply bethere.

One simple choice, everything I’d ever known, or, the light. I chosethe light, you?

Guru Ram Das Guru

“G uru Guru Wahe Guru, Guru Ram Das Guru.”

Simple chant that changed my life, 3 summers past, my first stepsupon the mountain of Truth, my first Summer Solstice....

The eternal sun grows within, may it one day encompass mybeing….

Sat Nam.

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Pebbles of life

B ound Lotus, Day 749….

Date escapes me, but I know the number, 7-4-9….

Journeyed to the Great River this day. As I walked along its shores,I wondered of the rocks I found.

From what mountains had they come, what peoples had lived there,and what journeys had brought them to this land?

One all encompassing goal, the top of the mountain….

I wonder of the rocks along the way, may they be but pebbles uponyour path, worn smooth by the rivers of life….

Sat Nam.

One step at a time

A nd then one day, there were no more metaphors… 750 on themorrow, big milestone, three quarters of the way to a

thousand….

I wonder where it leads and how to describe it… matters not… onestep at a time….

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750

W as up before the dawn to surrender to the light. No brilliantflashes, of insight or otherwise, just myself and the posture

of light.

Everything’ll be alright

I had a note from God…

“Everything’ll be alright –

God.”

…and that was all I needed.

Daniel

C ool breeze blows through, an old friend stopping by, just to say,“It’ll be alright.”

People come and go, friends are forever. Smile when you have one.

Sat Nam.

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?

Iwonder, if everything is energy, does that mean everything is aseries of ones and zeroes to the universe?

Randomness can be calculated and everything can be measured orotherwise quantified, even the vastness of the universe can bedefine, Infinity, ?

Life is life, but if it really is one long equation, what would youhave your life add up to?

Rya’c

Iwrote a tale of a mighty warrior, one who inspired generationsand led them to freedom.

One who stood beside his father throughout the darkest of times,one who embodied, “Size matters not,” one who knew he could anddid.

Fascinating, how the universe always carries you through everyadversity if you but do one simple thing – keep up.

Into the mist

S aw a full, double rainbow, a gateway unto another realm. Istepped through… and into the mist….

I wonder, what peoples had walked this land and what tales wouldthey tell….

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Almost there

E nergy dances, nerves tingle, life flows through the Infinite asmind, body and spirit step into the mist….

Wherever the journey leads, would that I were almost there… oneday… to awake unto the light….

To the stars

W hether your goal be ascension, to see the sunrise, or even totravel to the stars, dream, smile and live!

Vibration echoes throughout the Infinite, ride it to wherever yourdreams might carry you.

Sat Nam.

My life

I knew it was time to move on, to climb ever higher and thus, Ibegan a new novel, “My life,” and filled it with my highest

dreams and aspirations.

Whether I get there or not or even when I achieve them matters not,it’s not the path itself, it’s how one travels it.

There is but one path, yours. The destination matters not, for thejourney ends where it ends, it’s the footsteps along the way, into thelight….

Sat Nam.

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Pools of life

F ound an arrowhead once, I wonder, who made it, who carriedit, of the lives they led and what became of them?

Mayhaps they walked these same trails, centuries past as they livedamidst the Infinite wilderness. Their children probably played inthis very creek, perhaps enchanted by the waters flow through these7 pools as it swirls along.

What of the peoples who once roamed this land… so little of themremains, would that we were in such harmony with nature….

Sat Nam.

Warmth

C old chases the warmth away as winter approaches….

Warmth of mind, body, spirit, and especially warmth of heart tomelt the cold away.

Cold, I realized was a state of mind. Not that it was something onecould choose not to experience, but far simpler in that one couldsimply be warm, no matter how cool it might be.

Be warm and be.

Sat Nam.

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I see where this leads

B ound Lotus, Day 762….

Hit my head today, hard, big knot right next to my eye… areminder to focus.

I see where this leads… distractions abound in this the game oflife….

Again the leaves turn and settle to the ground, squirrels race to andfro… sentient universe at work.

I dreamt I was as vast as the Infinite itself and the Earth was a tinymarble I held in my hand. I opened my eyes and there was the mar-ble!

As I peered into it, I realized, it was time to go….

Sat Nam.

Ascendance

M any dreams, ascendance the penultimate… only a vagueoutline, no roadmap, no, “Take the next left,” type

instructions. How could there be?

To describe the indescribable, Wahe Guru, to walk where there isno ground, Infinite… Direction indeed!

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Detours along the way

I carried the world in my pocket, a reminder of our vastness….

Bound Lotus, Day 7-6-3.

Healing of thought and the body follows. The deepest of pain,gone, after the surrender. Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide, noescape.

Carry yourself through the posture and the universe carries youthrough life.

Sat Nam.

Hammer of the Gods

W hen I was dazed and confused, it was the energy that carriedme through to the angel’s playground, the land of Ong

Namo, 11 Wahe Guru Way. Great many metaphors for the samespace, the stillness I seek.

Is it presumptuous to seek ascendance? Does the desire keep onefrom achieving the goal even when the goal is enlightenment? Onlyone way to find out….

Whatever your stairway to heaven might be, may it carry you to allthe distant shores of your life.

Sat Nam.

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Breadcrumbs

R ough edges worn smooth by the sands of time, carried untothe light….

I ponder, the direction, knowing the goal, not the how. Was gettingthere a choice, was there some profound realization to be gained,or, was it simply about being there?

How does one attain enlightenment? It’s not at the store… there areno street signs… there are but breadcrumbs….

Knowing the desire, yet no attachment to the results, the fun, in get-ting there.

Sat Nam.

The pages of life

T hese are the pages of my life... I wrote of walking with Godand I did just that, I wrote of the angel of Light and there she

was… I wonder… if it really is that simple….

Bound Lotus, Day 769….

Saw a bald eagle yesterday, soaring, circling, ever on the hunt….

The game beckons, life stands before, ready and waiting, take thenext step. Need not know it’s there let alone what it is.

The page is blank, what shall I write upon it – enlightenment.

Whatever it is that you wish, be it your heart’s greatest desire, towatch the sun rise or even for a glass of water, write it upon thepages of your life and live it!

Sat Nam.

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Birthright

F ascinating… knowing I needed something, inspiration, tojourney ever higher, there it was….

Reminded I am, of something I once wrote, entitled, “Love andHonor.” A story of a bygone era, of knights and castles… they livedwith honor and loved beyond description… my imagination in fullswing.

Knowing now, that if I can imagine it, I can create it, that I can liveit – whatever it might be – imagination, thought, focus, energy, cre-ation, realization…

… that I can experience anything, even the most far reaching ofgoals – enlightenment.

Greatness

Iwonder, what is greatness?

Is it the peace one brokered, or mayhaps the answer lay in thehearts one touched, or the light one brought unto the world, ormaybe even the life one lived.

I wonder…

… of the goal, of the journey….

Then again, I find it more likely to be immeasurable, rather alongthe lines of Wahe Guru… indescribable….

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Heaven

B ound Lotus, Day 777… I flew with an eagle over snowcappedmountains and valleys, soaring on Infinite wings of Light.

This is Heaven. No stairway, a choice. The experience is a choice,we’re here for the experience.

Angels can’t do sadhana, Bound Lotus, White Tantric Yoga, or feelthe sand between their toes as they walk along the beach… they’reangels… then again, so are we, we’re here for the experience, tospread the light.

It’s all a choice, what did you choose? Well?

Stillness of being

L ight rain falls as the Golden Lady chants, “Gobinday,Mukanday.”

I wonder over the words as water flows across the parking lot….

“Udaaray, Apaaray, Hareeung, Kareeung, Nirnaamay, Akaamay,”she continues as the rain intensifies…

It is said the mantra erases past mistakes, just as the rain washes theland clean and brings new life….

“Gobinday, Mukanday, Udaaray, Apaaray….”

I wonder… if any mistake can be erased….

Rain pours from the sky, as if in answer to my question, washing itall away.

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It’s all a decision, a choice, what am I waiting for? Too caught up inthe game I am, centered I must be, in the stillness, if to achieve mygoals I am….

Sat Nam.

I have a dream

… o f the light, of an explosion of light so intense that itawakens my soul, my inner being, a stirring within

myself so deep, a stillness so profound, of the day when the words,“I am enlightened,” speak my Truth.

Sat Nam.

For Snatam

A s Day 800 approaceth, I pause to thank the most angelic ofvoices, she whose music has carried me not only through

Bound Lotus but even life itself it seems, she who I refer to as theGolden Lady.

Thank you Snatam Kaur, may your days be many and blessed witheternal light and love.

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Thoughts from the gate

“I believe you should only speak from your heart,” he said, truerwords were never spoken.

I sat in the space those words were spoken a long time, in fact, I’vedecided to stay….

Bumps in the road

F our boys, one dream – to walk upon sacred ground….

I realized, it wasn’t the body that needed healing, it was the mind, itwas my thoughts that held be back, kept me from attaining…enlightenment.

Was it really that lofty of a goal? Why did I hesitate to speak of it?

It was my thoughts about the goings on in my life, it was the dis-tractions of this, that and the other thing and my attachments tothem that had held me back….

It was time to re-evaluate my life, if it didn’t elevate or uplift it hadto go off the cliff and into the river….

Distractions, annoyances, old patterns and habits, perceived limita-tions all drifted into the wind as I chose simply to keep up and letthe chips fall where they may.

It wasn’t about this or that, who had or had not done what, theexperience was all for the choosing.

Pain, anger, joy, fear or love – all a choice.

By whatever road you travel, may the bumps be few.

Sat Nam.

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By the light

E ve so cool you could taste the crispness in the air, by the lightof the full moon did I walk… rabbit in the grass… warmed

from within as I ponder the coming Solstice….

For me it’s the Tantric, and the friends I share those experienceswith.

It is said, that one minute in the blue group aura of White TantricYoga equals one year of meditation. I plan to meditate for a thou-sand years next month!

What wonders await… this summer past… I walked with God…may the experience be ever higher.

Sat Nam.

Look up

“W orry looks around, Sorry looks back, Faith looks up.”

Likely to loose my job as I was, the angel of Faith appeared. “Sowhat,” she said, “if you loose that one I’ll bring you another one, Ipromise!”

I smiled as she turned to wave goodbye, “Look up,” she said justbefore vanishing into the mist….

Look up.

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The angel of Faith

I looked up and there she was, “I told you,” she said as sheglowed down upon me, “have faith!”

Indeed! As it all worked out, as it always does.

Sat Nam

The angels of Life

“I have sent you nothing but angels.”

Thus I pondered which friend was what angel….

Har Hari is the angel of Exuberance, the angel of Wahe Guru!

Nam Kaur is the angel of Infinite Grace…

Siri Atma, the angel of Knowledge, the angel of Wisdom…

Dharma Kaur is the angel of Radiance…

My Mother, the angel of Life…

Bruce, the angel of Blessings…

Darshan Kaur, the angel of Inspiration…

Jiwan Shakti, the angel of Kindness…

My father, the angel of Nature…

It dawned on me that I would run out of descriptives long before Ihad counted all of my friends, then I realized, you’re all the angelof Friendship.

Sat Nam.

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Nothingness

B ound Lotus, Day _____

How then to describe the Infinite serenity, the, “Nothing-ness of itall?”

I think I just did

*laughter*

Numbers

I concluded, the numbers are irrelevant. I mean, they’re cool asthey mount, but what I’d thought was Bound Lotus, Day 798,

was, in fact Day 811 *laughter* talk about miscounting!

After all, it’s just a number. It is fun to count them though….

I have a friend who’s at Day 1738 – seventeen-hundred!!! And Ivividly remember, being at Summer Solstice this past year, after 3days of White Tantric Yoga and being exhausted beyond words, tootired almost to even move!

Along she came and sat down beside me, her radiance encompass-ing my being as I sat in her aura. Within minutes I was completelyrecharged! Wahe Guru! May we all be that radiant!

Thank you Dharma, may your journeys be safe and many, as youtravel, spreading the light, being the lighthouse.

Sat Nam.

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Who’s counting

L ife, Day 13,766….

1st Snow

T hrough these trials we all must pass… through the trials of lifewe pass….

How profound, to think, these trails I’ve walked since childhood, tobecome a state park… some of my favorite places upon this Earth,to be shared with many….

Eye of the storm

A great many things exist that test one’s character, things thataid in the quest for Jivan Mukht. After all, isn’t that what

enlightenment’s all about, being calm during the fiercest of storms?

Centered in the stillness, as if to be the eye of the storm….

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Forgiveness

I forgive you….

Watershed moment, when I spoke those words, when I stood beforethe mirror of life and forgave myself and everyone who had evertrespassed against me….

Relief

I t is said that dis-ease is of the mind. Praytell, what manner ofillness doth plague my thoughts?

What of this rash which seeks to drive me mad? What of the desireto scratch it out of existence?

I know that I am not my body, therefore the rash cannot be real –yet my skin believes otherwise!

Does my belief in the rash give life to it?

I know and believe with all my heart that relief is but a singlethought away, would that I knew what it was and that I might findit… that I might choose it over the alternative….

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Hammer of the Gods II

W hite Tantric Yoga is the hammer, Bound Lotus the chisel bywhich I am forged.

Swing away and let the chips fall where they may.

Sat Nam.

Untitled

L eaving for Solstice in the morn….

If we pose the question, what would Jesus do, what would Gandhido, what would Yogi Bhajan do, what would Buddha do, within usall is the capacity to answer….

What if we all considered the impact of our actions upon the nextseven generations, what worlds we would create!

See you by the lake,

Sat Nam.

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Road trip

T he pen is the writer, all I do is hold it….

Unmistakable two meter wingspan, white tail, bald eagle soars overthese fields of white.

What wonders await by the lake of Light, only the morning willtell. See you there.

Sat Nam

The Journey Home II

A udience of one, the angel of Naad serenaded me with a tunehe entitled, “The Journey Home.”

So powerful, so moving, I vowed to stay in that space for all of mydays.

Sat Nam

For Gurunam

T here I was, wondering what to name this book and who do Ihappen to meet, but Gurunam Singh.

He asked, “What do you have?”

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“The Journey Home,” I replied….

“No way!” he answered, “That’s the name of my new CD.”

With his permission, I quote –

“O Lord,

You are the journey

And you are the destination.

You are the vast open sky

Of enlightenment.

In your arms I am home.”

Sat Nam

Dropping In

8 .4 million lifetimes worth of garbage to clean out – in thislifetime – Jivan Mukht awaits!

The angel of Naad spoke his Truth, of the journey home and beingable to drop in….

I sat, transfixed, immersing myself in his words as I, “Drop in onthis life.”

Sat Nam

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The Dance of Life

L ifetimes since I laughed….

Thank you Shanti for teaching me to laugh again.

Thank you Gurunam for the most beautiful sounds I’ve ever heard.

Thank you Karampreet for the most beautiful sight I’ve ever seen.

May the garbage fly from all our lives and may we all enjoy thedance of life.

Sat Nam

Let the garbage fly

T here is just something about doing Tantric next to friends…knowing they’re holding the space for you… gives you the

courage to let the garbage fly!

Thank you my friends for holding the space for me, may I do aswell at holding the space for you as what you do for me. God blessyou all!

Sat Nam

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Please bless this Earth

with peace

“H ari Ram, Hari Ram…” they sing of my brother… and Iwonder where, and how he is….

“Sat Nam,” the Infinite answers… he’s out among the stars, spread-ing the light….

Sat Nam brother, Sat Nam

The Dimension of God

M ove into it.

Sat Nam

For Sopurkh

“Hey buddy,” he said as he sat down beside me and shook myhand… and I realized the amazing friends I have and how

many at that! To be blessed with such abundance, Wahe Guru!

Taught me they have, how to walk in his world, but not be of it.

The long time sun truly shines upon me, may it brighten all of yourdays!

Sat Nam.

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Sing on

G urunam sits, guitar in hand, and the universe speaks, singsthrough him. In Oneness, they urge us on, the journey home.

Sing on brother, sing on.

Jivan Mukht

I t’s no longer a question of if, only when, may it be soon, may itbe soon….

Friends

M any beings cross our path, some travel with us.

A good measure of a friend is how far they travel with you and inthat, I am blessed with the greatest of friends!

Sat Nam Ji!

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Kirsti

T o make such an impact upon the life of a 3 year old girl whoseparents I met 6 months ago, that she still speaks my name…

still remembers me, profound….

Go for it

S olstice and arriving back home, a week and a half that totallyredefined my existence…

Oh so many things left behind, by the lake of Light….

Where to begin, how to describe the deepest, most profound heal-ing of my entire existence? I think I just did….

Friends old and new, dreams made reality, the ultimate dream nowseems within reach, to, as Nam Kaur put it, “leave all the mayabehind and really go for it....”

I’m going for it, you?

One step closer

ANew Year dawns, and I feel one step closer to my ultimatedream – Jivan Mukht.

Yogi Bhajan came to me in a dream the other night…

I’m at a large gathering and he appears out of the ethers and poses asingle question – “Who’s ready?”

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Everyone looks to each other, I step forward and he lifts me up...we travel back and forth as he brings me one step closer to mygoal….

At long last, I know I’ll get there.

So my question is, do you know where you’re going?

Well?

For Sat Daya

D ecided to let my hair grow, interesting to see how that goes….

Something an old friend said really sticks in my mind, “You’reclearer every time I see you.”

For the first time, I truly see and I am in this world, but not of it…decided… to do like Nam said, to drop all the maya and go for it.

One thing remains – Jivan Mukht.

Sat Nam my brother, I’ll see you upon the mountain of Truth.

Sat Nam.

Merry Christmas

N ew bed, like sleeping on air….

New life, like walking on air….

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Everything’s gone – save what I need for the journey home – a freemind, a free spirit and lightness of being.

Thank you mom and dad for bringing me into this world, foralways watching after me, for everything.

Sat Nam.

Maya

S o I took out a sheet of paper, upon it I wrote all of the trappingsof this physical existence… food, sleep, swimming, games,

money, technology, along with every form of pleasure andentertainment I could think of.

When I finished my list – and it was a lengthy one at that – I placedit beneath the rock of Truth – and I jumped –

Everything

I realized I’d been going about it all wrong, that it wasn’t abouthow long you held this posture or did that meditation – healing

is about what you’re willing to let go of.

When my answer became, “Everything,” that’s when healing trulybegan, on all levels of my being….

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900

B ound Lotus, Day 900, 100 to go….

Seems like forever, can barely remember, what life was like on Day1….

Wonder what the next 900 will be like… let’s just get throughtomorrow….

The angel of Friendship

H ow vividly I recall, meeting Jiwan Shakti Kaur at my firstSolstice, Summer Solstice 2005. We cut watermelon

together....

How surprised I was, when she phoned just a few weeks later – notknowing it was me she was calling – she would be helping out withmy teacher training at the Ghost Ranch.

I’d walked away from the job I’d held for 9 years to become thelighthouse, I just didn’t know the later yet... and I didn’t reallyknow what I was getting myself into, but I knew I was going into itwith one friend already there. I took great comfort in that.

The day arrived and I made the journey into the unknown, preparedat least physically, thanks to Jiwan Shakti.

I recall, with perfect clarity, how excited she was, the morning I ledsadhana. How she groaned, as if on queue, when I joked that the setcontained 108 frogs, how she sat right in front, how her friendshiphelped carry me through the three most important weeks of my life,when I decided to be the lighthouse.

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How quick she was, to offer a hug, to offer encouragement when itseemed as if the desert sands might carry me away….

I truly am the richest of all men, for I have been blessed with thegreatest of friends!

I hope to see you soon, upon the mountain of Truth!

Sat Nam.

Five more

“Y ou look like the guy on Lost,” she said with a smile… myfavorite show… about a group of people, more lost than

what they know… then again, aren’t we all at times?

Life began anew as I reached the end. There were no more moun-tains to climb, nowhere I could see to go. Only thing to do was toleave it all behind….

I did, and I was kissed by an angel, the angel of Light….

Easter

D reamt I was enlightened, elsewhere, for 3 days, mayhaps, likeGuru Nanak, I’d been with God….

Who’s to say what comes of dreams and what they mean, in aworld where nothing is real?

If it were all a stream of ones and zeroes, could we, would we notjust click on prosperity, happiness, love, enlightenment, or what-

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ever we chose?

Sweet dreams….

Sat Nam.

Time to soar

W ords form upon the page, some, mine, many, seeminglynot….

Bound Lotus, Day 922, 78 to go….

The impossible becomes easy, what else is there?

What greater task remains….

Time to soar, time to soar.

Jivan Mukht awaits, I know that I can, I know that I will….

Sat Nam

Siddhartha

M ost interesting sunset I think I’ve ever seen, solid yellow sky,amidst a rain storm….

Realized I’d spent entirely too much time with my face scrunchedup of late….

Pursuit had to stop. Yes it was the thing I desired more than any-thing but all pursuit would ever achieve was, well, pursuing.

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Did I really have to not want it to attain it?

Or is it simply releasing the attachment, be it to results or anythingelse that stills the pendulum?

Findings

S earching, looking, questing, of goals and destinations, ofmountaintops and metaphors… did the want, the desire, render

me unable to find… anything?

Had the very object of the quest been right in front of me all along?

The goal itself was something to let go of….

The finding would lead, where it led….

New horizons

I fell, into the stillness, into the silence….

No more questions, no more answers, no more anything, save theInfinite silence, save the vibration….

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Karani

B ound Lotus, Day 934….

My source of income was taken from me with a scant 2 and a halfhours notice… hardly seems sporting….

I was glad I was doing Karani Kriya Meditation – a meditation tohelp me find a new job, work that satisfies the soul – when I real-ized it was the other way around, that job was ended to pave theway for something far greater… I wonder what it’ll be….

I am the Lighthouse

P endulum barely moves now, the vibration a near constantcompanion, Infinite understanding, just over the horizon….

Bound Lotus, Day 936….

“You’re the most easy going person I’ve ever met.”

Profound words that ring out across all Infinity….

Thank you Nam Kaur for lighting the torch within this Infinitelighthouse.

Sat Nam

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Looking forward

A great many reasons why I look forward to Solstice....

All of the worries, concerns and problems I know will get leftbehind...

The faith I know will be reborn in me...

All of the new friends I know I will make, as well as the old ones Iknow I’ll see...

The 3 days of Tantric, and the hope that I will one day live withGod.

See you on the Mountain,

Sat Nam.

Measure of a man

I realized, that if a person had faith, they had everything, that thetrue measure of a man, was his faith.

In that moment, I realized I already had everything I would everneed in this mortal existence.

The job was far closer than I realized, and enlightenment woulddawn, when the time was right, be it in this… now just as I wasabout to type the word, “existence,” the phone rang…

… and afterwards, I danced around the house for 10 minutes!

Definitely didn’t expect the job that quickly, then again, after 940Days, what did I expect?

Sat Nam Ji!

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Remeasured

A nd then I realized I’d been looking at it all wrong, that the realmeasure of a man was not just his faith, but also his

forgiveness….

Found, enlightenment

B eard and hair grew long, a bit too long for my taste. When Itrimmed it off, I barely recognized myself….

Uncertainty pervades, working, at seemingly everything but thegoal, found, the new job, found, love, would that I could write,“Found, enlightenment.”

Stop the pendulum

Iwonder, how long they intend I wait, of the job I was told wasmine. Was to have started yesterday....

Find something else, stop the pendulum and find something else.Not to seek, not to look, but to find….

To find understanding, to find patience, to find wisdom, prosperityand enlightenment, to find out how to stop the pendulum….

Would that the journey home was complete… in the meantime, letKarani Kriya bring what it shall.

Sat Nam.

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What of it?

S top the pendulum, and I’d imagine all manner of things will findyou….

But what is enlightenment and what of this life?

What if I even stopped thinking about it? Enlightenment, job, work,money, life, all of that, and became so still that nothing moved me.Had my life become so shrouded in metaphor?

Prosperity

N ary a quiet place to be found, save the one inside, so filledthis world is, with the sounds of, “Progress.”

The job I was told was mine, wasn’t….

I wondered, why the universe woke me up, before the earthquake,mayhaps a message, that it was time to shake things up….

I know, that the universe never takes anything away from you with-out giving you something far greater in return, provided one hasfaith.

I wonder, what Karani Kriya will bring me….

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51

B ound Lotus, Day 949, 51 to go….

Heart and soul open to the Infinite possibilities, faith that greatgoodness awaits, I leave the details to the universe!

Day 950 on the morrow. Wahe Guru Ji, give my day prosperity andmay we all live long and prosper.

Sat Nam.

Work for all

M ind wanders, over having goals, finding enlightenment, loveand prosperity, but isn’t it the other way around? That when

you attain the proper state of mind, those things find you?

I began asking myself, “Does this improve my future?” of everythought, every thing I did. When I dropped the things that didn’t,Japji ran through my mind, seemingly of its own accord.

Then it hit me, work for all, recycle the landfill!

If it’s to be, everything will fall into place just like the idea ☺

Sat Nam

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Who’ll stop the rain?

I ’ve seen this before, I’ve seen how it plays out… I wonderwhere, indeed….

Recycling idea, well received so far, now the details just need to fillthemselves in!

Answers appear where questions once stood….

The puzzle fits itself together, if you let it!

Sat Nam.

The puzzle of life

A bove all else… intended isn’t the word, as I never reallythought about how it might affect anyone who read it.

Somewhere along the line, writing of my journey home became apart of me.

I came to realize, that the journey and the writing were one in thesame, that both stalled when I became too caught up in maya – thephysical trappings of this world.

Let the pieces fit themselves together.

Sat Nam

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On the morrow

P atience, faith, stillness of being and keeping up – thecornerstones of the journey home.

New opportunities arise as the puzzle fits itself together, all youhave to do, is let it.

What wonders the morrow will bring!

Sat Nam.

Counting down

B ound Lotus, Day 953….

Chanted the 25th Pauri of Japji – for prosperity – as I surrenderedthis morn… and I sat up – in another dimension, the dimension ofprosperity, Wahe Guru!

I’m staying!

Sat Nam.

Let it find you

P rosperity will find you. Love, enlightenment, anything andeverything – it’s all trying to find you!

Even our life’s purpose will find us, if we have faith, and let it.

Sat Nam.

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Appreciation

T hey sent him away in the rain – and stoned him no less – and Ithought I had problems!

Warm, roof over my head, friends, this man had no one, nothingsave the clothes on his back, making me wealthy beyond compareand profoundly thankful for each and every thing I have.

Anything I don’t have, I either don’t need, or the universe is bring-ing it to me. It’s as simple as that.

Appreciate everything you DO have and leave everything else tothe universe.

Sat Nam.

To new memories

I t was a sweet scent I’d not experienced in decades… I closedmy eyes, and I was again a boy in my grandmother’s attic,

playing in what had one been my father’s room….

The angel of Light held my hands as I absorbed that sweet aromainto every fiber of my being….

It’s as if… I’m one step away… from something indescribablytremendous….

So I closed my eyes, and took that step….

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Come on over

W hat had been stuck was freed as I chanted my cares away…miracles in motion….

That’s what life is, miracles in motion.

Patient you must be, in progress your miracle is!

Let’s meditate for a bit while we wait… come on over….

A new day

Amazing how quiet it is at 4 o’clock in the morning….

Bound Lotus, Day 959….

Started this cleanse, didn’t imagine it would cleanse my mind!

Decided to chant my way to whatever it brought me, decided todance around the house and let the universe bring me whatever itwould!

What did you decide?

Well?

Sat Nam.

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40 to go

I dreamt of a full rainbow, a complete circle, laid flat… I stood atits center….

Sometimes all you need is a little something to make you laugh, tobrighten your day, to let you know everything’s gonna be alright….

Bound Lotus, Day 960… 40 to go….

Almost there, almost there….

For Har Hari and

Alhassane

D earest of friends was married recently… the glow on her face– now that’s love, that’s Wahe Guru!

Desire vanished. Had I become that still? That I only just realizedit?

Future takes shape… distant pinpoint… the light at the end of thetunnel….

I’ll see you there.

Sat Nam.

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Ardas Bhaee

H ard to express the deep sense of relief, gratitude and security,knowing my future is guaranteed.

I need not see the way to trust it’s there….

May we all find our way.

Sat Nam

Carefree

M uch to my surprise, one literally can chant their cares away!

Carefree, ones being fills with all of the abundance the universe hasto offer. Wahe Guru!

Something tremendous is in the offing, and for the first time ever, Idon’t care about the details….

No more how, no more when, no more questions of any kind, forcare had taken worry with it….

Stop

T he most unholy of headaches, deep stabbing that penetratedevery level of my being… until I stopped….

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The zone

S trength is about letting go and being still, not just physicalpower.

The ego however wants you to put the arms down, to stop the medi-tation, to take a break in the exercise, it doesn’t want to lose con-trol, but it has to….

It wants to fidget, to distract you, to stay in control, to do anythingand everything it can to keep you from not needing it.

Let the universe support you, let its strength flow through you, andsay goodbye to that ego!

Sat Nam.

The what

E nlightenment dawned and prosperity flowed like a great riveronce I stopped and let it happen.

All you need to know is the what – your goal – leave the rest to theInfinite.

Sat Nam

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11

T he universe knows what we’re ready for.

Edge of life, edge of night, need not see the answers to know theyare there….

Trust and let the wind lead you where it may.

Sat Nam

Ctrl + Alt + Delete

I debated, what to keep, what to delete, how much of my life toshare….

Ultimately, it’s all a part of my journey home, maybe, just maybe, itwould help someone on their journey….

Sat Nam.

Dawn

C urious thing, to read of my journey, of where I was, of what Idid and did not have….

Where there was love there was writing but no income.

Then there was income but no writing or love.

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Thankfully I’m writing again, I have my health, and prosperityawaits!

Sat Nam

Goodnight you two

J ust past midnight… light rain falls as notebook calls pen and Itogether.

Edges of sleep creep in….

“What’s up Notes?” my pen asks

*Yawn*

“Someone’s getting sleepy,” it continues.

“Have faith,” my notebook replies, “one more day, that’s all I askfor – it’s going to be an awesome day tomorrow!”

“Wahe Guru!” my pen begins to dance as I drift off to sleep….

Nirinjan

B ound Lotus, Day 968….

Tremendous heat builds… burning away doubt and replacing itwith faith.

Wahe Guru Ji, give my day enlightenment, liberation and prosper-ity!

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May your day be filled with Infinite blessings my friend!

Sat Nam.

Who

“I told you! I told you!” my notebook exclaimed while it andmy pen danced around the house as the phone literally rang

off the hook with job offers.

Who is this person who wrote of things such as angels gatheringthe light?

The person who thought he was hearing the phone ringing thismorning, before it rang all afternoon – the person who heard,“Gobinday Mukanday,” yesterday when it wasn’t playing….

Here’s to all the stories we’ll write, here’s to friends both old andnew, here’s to our Infinite journeys. May we all find our way home.

Sat Nam.

Live with God

I ’d written of wanting to walk with God, and I did just that.

Then I wrote of enlightenment, of liberating myself, but what isenlightenment and why seek it? I’m going, to live with God, I’ll tellyou, when I get back.

Sat Nam.

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World Peace

F ascinating, how my own words carried me back to the space Iwas in when I walked with God upon the mountain of Truth….

Bound Lotus, Day 969….

Not just 1, but 2 jobs – in the same day no less! Prosperous indeed!

Prosperity meditations shift you into the vibration of prosperity,now, I wonder what would happen if we all meditated for peace….

Sat Nam

Write the future

T he ever present feeling, of energy on the rise, of life on themove – onward and upward.

Pen glides across the page, seemingly of its own volition… writingthe future….

Enjoy the journey.

Sat Nam.

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Life of light

S trength and creativity alike flow from the Infinite like a mightyriver….

The strength to push yourself off the floor one more time, thenanother, then another. The strength to let go, stop, and be, liberated,to create anew, this life of light.

Sat Nam.

The where

A lmost there, almost there….

The where, a state of being, to hold the Infinite within….

Beyond that, I’m good. You?

No place like home

H ow do you say, “I’m sorry?”

Sometimes a hug is all you need….

No matter how great the need, the universe already has the solutionon its way to you.

Have faith.

Sat Nam.

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Caliber of life

I t’s not about what was lost, it’s about moving on and followingyour intuition.

Right now it wants to meditate, in fact, it’s most insistent.

Why don’t you join us, we’ll save you a space.

Sat Nam.

For me

Amazing, what faith I wrote with, when the sky was darkest…almost as if, I was writing for my own inspiration.

How I wrote of my dear friends, and how they touched my exis-tence….

My dreams, and how I began to live them….

Maybe the signposts were for me….

Darryl

F riend, served his country for 26 years, still has the wheelchairthat accompanied his third Purple Heart.

I pray, that for all of my days, I can say, “I’m taking the stairs.”

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Infinite journeys

Iwondered, of the stones I found and from what mountains theyhad tumbled, of the leaves I had found and from what trees they

had blown.

But I especially wonder, of the people I’ve met and from what dis-tant lands they’ve come, on their journey home.

May you all get there my friends, sooner rather than later.

Sat Nam.

A little higher

T his road goes nowhere, time to climb a little higher….

Words of my new friend Stephanie echo throughout my being,“Breathe.”

The beauty of this day penetrates every level of my existence….

Cool breeze accompanies Gurunam’s Truth, may it accompany you,on your journey home.

Sat Nam.

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Be well

T he poems write themselves, just like life, all I do, is hold thepen.

Breathe, hold the space, and let life write itself….

Sat Nam.

This too shall pass

F aith wavers, to shine brighter, for as sure as day follows night,the sun WILL shine.

The storm always passes, sometimes it just rains a little longer….

Sat Nam.

Spring cleaning

Iwove the word, “Breathe,” into the tapestry of my existence,time to surrender my cares to the Infinite.

Bound Lotus, Day 967….

Something I chose not to do, does its best to haunt my footstepsand drag me down with it….

It’s my life, I can write it any way I want.

Several things to delete, room to make, for the Infinite good. Timeto do some cleaning!

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Time to fly

C ontinually catch myself, dwelling on that which I do not have,rather than the Infinite good that awaits but a tiny shift in

perspective.

Time to go, time to fly… need not see the wings to soar.

Infinite horizons, expansive thoughts, breathe… now let’s do someyoga!

On track

W hat if we filled our vocabulary with words such asperseverance, innovation, gratitude, expansion and

inspiration?

What if we filled our lives with the positive?

Let’s find out!

Do that

W hat adds the exclamation point to your life? From whencedoes excitement spring?

There’s detours along the way, but it’s feeling good that shows uswe’re on track.

So I say again, what makes you feel good? Do that.

Sat Nam.

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Variables of life

W hen I feel good, I write, I move forward.

The details are all variables, but it’s the exuberance, the unabashedjoy, the things that make us feel good that bring us more of thesame.

Pick up the pen

I filled my day with things that I like, things that make me laugh,yoga, meditation, fun things, inspirational things, angelic

music….

Writing simply comes to me and I pick up the pen.

No esoteric mysteries of the universe to unravel, no exotic formulasto calibrate.

No hermetic solitude – life – and a fun one at that!

Live it!

Evolution

L ife itself is evolution, what would you have yours evolve into?

Well?

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To peace

E arthquake, was it real, was it a dream?

Bound Lotus, Day 979, 21 to go….

Tiny peace lily I was once gifted with has blossomed into a tri-umvirate of giant plants! Wahe Guru!

They stand – as a monument – to peace. Let’s all stand withthem….

Sat Nam.

20 more

B ound Lotus Day 980, 20 more….

Almost 1000 days since the Ghost Ranch… where has everyonegone?

To what new heights have they ascended? To what distant landshave they ventured? Through what endeavors have they persevered?

I wonder, of my friends of the light….

Sat Nam.

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Where we started

S ix week job barely lasted one, scant 30 minutes notice this time,back to where we started….

Universe is trying to tell me something, but what?

Wasn’t surprised in the least, right inconvenient though, thought Ihad work right up to Solstice… I thought wrong… guess I need tohave right thought – whatever that means!

In the moment

L ife is written one page at a time….

Reminded of Siddhartha’s question I am – do you search or do youfind?

Time to find the spigot of financial prosperity, time to let life flowlike never before!

Float across

S ometimes all you need is a single second, a single breath….

Concentrate on the breath and all else disintegrates.

Chin in, chest out, breathe deep and float across all of the rough

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patches life might bring, and be the lighthouse.

Sat Nam.

Freedom for all

W hat would you do for your brother? What would do you foryour sister?

What if everyone were your brother or your sister? What then?

And then, what if every single thing in this existence was an exten-sion of yourself? What then?

Of pen and paper

I f nothing else, I hope these many pages have provoked muchthought in you, my friend, may your journey home be a magical

one!

Sat Nam

I’ll be there

C all my name, and I’ll be there, for I am the wind, I am theeternal light.

I am the leaves, I am the rain, I am your brother, I am your sister.

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Truth is my name.

Sat Nam.

Faith delivers

B ound Lotus, Day 984, 16 to go….

Faith to carry us through the endless night….

Life is change, oftentimes when we least expect it.

Relationships and jobs alike end, as certainly as a dog barks...breathe deep and let your cares float away on the Infinite breeze….

Sat Nam.

16

H ow the world will change in 16 days, the new job I’ll have,may even find the angel of Love!

Here’s to the future!

Sat Nam.

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That person

H ow could a war ever be termed, “Civil?”

How is peace found once it is lost?

One person at a time. Be that person.

Sat Nam.

In memoriam

B ound Lotus, Day 985, 15 to go, 15 to go….

It happened that way so you would learn the lesson, to remember,to forgive, to accept, to bless, all….

Breath, stillness, silence, mind emptied, Infinite vibration echoesthroughout my being, 15 to go….

Days gone by

S ome of my fondest childhood memories… hiking and fishingwith my father, swimming and feeding the ducks with my

mother… happy times, seems like yesterday, and yet a distantreminder that life is meant to be lived!

Lightning strikes, as if accentuating the reminder to breathe, in withthe good, out with the bad!

Sat Nam

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By the numbers

T o count or not to count? Another day, another number, butwhat doth the number signify, and why even count?

Day 986 for me, Day 2368 for Mahan Kirn….

Nothing is ever what it seems, always remember, you can be or doanything you set your mind to!

Sat Nam.

For the sisters

L adies, given to silence, who pray for us… may we, pray forthem.

Sat Nam.

Peace and blessings

E ntirely too much fresh earth in the cemetery for me….

Lone stone, simply marked, “Peace Family.”

May we all find it.

Sat Nam.

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City of Light

A ngels aflight….

Inhale life, exhale dis-ease, inhale and walk where there are nofootprints….

Reminders of light

O ne day, everything simply stopped, all but the breath. To thepoint where, if an un-enlightened thought were to enter my

mind, it meant I wasn’t breathing.

A reminder…

… we all need them sometimes.

Sat Nam.

Infinite shores

I nterview, the job’s mine, they just don’t know it yet….

Thoughts of an endless beach, where there are no footprints, maywe all walk there….

Life itself is the ultimate meditations – breathe and prosper!

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For Penelope and

Desmond

T he greatest thing I’ve ever seen – reunion

“I’ll see you in another life brotha,” truer words were never spo-ken....

What else is there to say?

Infinite journeys, roads, paths... we all travel them... on our journeyhome. May yours be joyous.

Sat Nam

Bringing the light home

R eminded I am, of our time together in the sun, so we can bringthe light home….

See you soon, upon the mountain of Truth.

Sat Nam.

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Day 994

N am Kaur asked, “Oh my! Are you going to keep going?”

Without question, for all of my days, may I be that flexible, of bothmind and spirit.

Bound Lotus is as much a part of me, as is breathing….

Wherever the road takes you, keep going!

Sat Nam.

See it through

W hat makes you smile, what makes you follow the light, whatbrings joy to your life?

I’ll stop counting at a thousand, but I’ll keep going forever, untilInfinity or Jivan Mukht, whichever comes first!

Follow the light and see it through.

Sat Nam.

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Rewriting life

H ere’s to the next 1,000 days and beyond!

Stories end, the journey however, is Infinite. May we all rememberthat, on our journey home.

Sat Nam.

995

L ife itself is the ultimate meditation, breathe and prosper!

Light on the rise

W arm summer’s eve, soon to be Solstice, hundreds of newfriends waiting to be met, old friends to catch up with….

Dreams, goals, aspirations, it all seems, within reach….

See you there.

Sat Nam.

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June 6th

D istant shores, honor and sacrifice….

For everyone

Iwanted to thank – everyone – personally – who made thispossible:

For Butros, AT-AT, E & R, for all the godo times, @ Chez Butros,the land of the blue turbos and beyond! (Note, yes, godo)

For Father John, “FIFTEEN!!!”

For Mike Healy who asked I bless him heavily, a thousand bless-ings my friend.

For Sat Nam Kaur, who taught me Bound Lotus.

For Mahan Kirn, who suggested I, “Try 31.”

For my personal trainer Dan, I think he’s half the age he claims tobe.

For Bruce, and the funniest thing I’ve ever heard – “Sat Nam eh” –Infinite blessings my brother.

For my friends, Nam and Siri Atma.

For the Word, Ek Ong Kaar, may we again, sit in the shade as theangels sing….

For everyone I’ve encountered on my journey home, and for thoseon the road ahead.

For my parents, to whom I owe everything.

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For Dharma, who let me bask in her light.

For Shanti, and her gift of laughter.

For everyone – thank you and bless – may we meet, on the journeyhome.

Sat Nam.

Snapshots

A ngels come and go… and yes, wrestle I did, with what toshare, what to delete….

Ultimately, I decided, that if it spoke Truth, my Truth, to share itwith the world, for it was a snapshot, my expression of where Iwas….

Where are you?

Well?

998

I think, Bound Lotus has mastered me, rather than the intendedother way around – hence the significance of 1,000 days.

After all this time, it finally has me right where it wants me – theInfinite that is – still. That’s the goal after all, isn’t it?

I’ll see you on the other side.

Sat Nam.

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999

I nteresting number….

Somewhere along the line, the mind, switched itself off and every-thing became nothing, as I came to enjoy life without being caughtup in it.

I hope you’ve enjoyed following along with me.

I’ll see you in the land of the long time sun.

Sat Nam.

One more

W hat would you do, with just one more day? What could youdo?

What could you do, with this day, that would make a difference inthe life of another?

One more….

For Erich

H ands know their was across the keyboard, just as the soulknows its way home, just as I know, Bound Lotus is my

ticket home.

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1,000

N o grandiose metaphors, to be succinct, I did it, and you cantoo, through whatever adversity life might throw at you.

I did it

D ay 1,000….

The game has to go, I’m not playing anymore….

Would that there were profound insights to report, higher under-standings that I had gleaned….

The focus, Infinite and fixed on getting home. The realization, thateverything, everywhere is an extension of our own universality, anInfinite expression of ourselves, that Sat Nam and Ek Ong Kaaranswer all of those pesky, “Meaning of life,” type questions, thatit’s time to get on with life and that if it holds me back – it has togo!

Profound insight indeed! Wahe Guru!

Knots of life

H ow perfectly natural it seems, to fold oneself into a pretzel!

The knots of life are untied as mind and body surrender to the pos-ture… hands and feet tingle, transformation underway….

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Truth

T he path to understanding is paved with Sat Nam, Truth. EkOng Kaar is the ultimate Truth, that we and God are one.

I’ll keep saying it until everyone hears.

1,001

A nother day, another number, another day closer to home.

Just breathe all of your cares away, just let the breath carry it allaway….

Teach them

W e know not, where others come from or where they’regoing… it’s their journey….

One thing I can tell you – escape your karma you cannot.

Would that everyone came to Solstice, would that everyone saw thedivinity in all.

Let’s teach them the Word – Ek Ong Kaar, let’s teach them Truth.

Sat Nam.

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J une 11th, 2008.

What is it about this day that makes it so different than any other?

What of all these things I’ve only just noticed, this glorious colorand depth of life?!

Was it always there, out on the periphery of my life, waiting to bediscovered or did creation explode and there it was in an instant?

See you there

Y ou know what it’s like when it’s your birthday?

How you smile a little bigger, how your step is a little lighter, howthe sun shines just a little brighter, because it’s YOUR day?

Now imagine, if every day was like that – for everyone – that’swhat Solstice is like!

I’ll see you there.

Sat Nam.

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Live the journey

Iwrote of journeys, destinations and dreams, wrapped in themetaphors of life.

We all get there when we get there, it’s how we live the journey thatmatters – leave the details to the universe.

Sat Nam.

Express lane

L ooking back, I know now why I was drawn to Bound Lotus, it’syour own personal express lane on the highway of life!

Whatever propels you down the highway of life – take the expresslane!

Sat Nam.

For Isana

S urreal expressions of reality, divinity revealed, Truth is myName.

What more is there for me to say? How many more ways can I sayit?

Many directions there are unto the light, find yours, whatever itmight be.

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By whatever roads you travel, may your journey be joyous!

Sat Nam

For Laura

A nd in her moment of faith, she was reborn, to love and to live.

With 3 little words, she freed herself. “I love you,” she spoke,declaring her Truth at last. And so it was….

So say we all

U ltimately, if we can give one person hope, we’ll have donewhat we came here to do.

Sat Nam.

We’ll see

D on’t make your last words be, “I could’ve done more.”

See it through and we’ll see where it lands us.

Sat Nam

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For my friends

I ’d like to thank each and every one of my friends, for being myfriend. As you read this, know, this is for you – thank you J

Down on the corner

S ome times it all feels so far away, other times, I know its rightaround the corner.

Whatever IT is and when it finds us matters not, it’s the steps inbetween that do.

Endeavor

A good sign if ever there was one….

The sun shines a little brighter, the sky just a little clearer, off toSolstice in the morn… to say I’m excited is the understatement ofthe millennium!

Hope to see you there!

Akal Sahai

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I’m walkin!

W indmills, as far as the eye can see, why don’t we have these,everywhere?

In the air

I ’m beginning to understand, why New Mexico is known as theland of enchantment, why Yogi Bhajan said 505 was, “God’s

area code.”

It’s in the air… I’ll see you there….

Sat Nam.

In Ector’s keeping

I t’s as if, my memory’s improved a thousand fold since Day 1….

I remember so much of my childhood, even how my dad woke meup EARLY to go with him when he was building our house….

Good times, good times indeed!

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3 Diamonds

S avor every step of your journey, wherever it leads.

On the road again

M ay that I again sit in the shade with the Word, curious, forthat to be the one thing I most look forward to….

Another

H ow perfectly natural it seems, to help a complete stranger putup their tent in the dark…

A big girl of 4 now, Kirsti still speaks my name, 6 months since Isaw her last….

How rarely we know, the depth to which we touch the life ofanother.

Sat Nam.

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Good morning

Iwoke up, and saw, to Infinity….

Along the way

D ays long past, life changing moments, as if they wereyesterday….

Dusty road

D usty road, take me home, to the place, I belong, Guru RamDas’ mountain home.

To the place, where angels live.

To the place, where I walked with God.

Dusty road, take me home, to the place I belong, to the land of thelong time sun.

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Glad you made it

N o truer words may I speak, “Glad you made it.”

Glad you made it to Solstice my friend, glad you made it.

Sat Nam.

Good to see you

C ouldn’t begin to count, how many times, I heard, “Good to seeyou.”

Profound, the impact we have, on the life of another….

A little easier

T housand days was easy, Day 1, nigh impossible.

Each day, a little easier….

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For Hari Kartar

U niverse, please watch over Hari Kartar’s mom, may he see heragain, be it in this life or the next.

Sat Nam.

For Denise

“Y ou’re now golden,” she said… anticipating a reply….

I closed my eyes, smiled, and basked in the glow of the most beau-tiful words ever spoken….

Thank you Denise, Sat Nam Ji.

Blurred lines

U nable to tell, where the mountains end and the heavens begin,that’s where I live.

Stop by, we’ll do some yoga.

Sat Nam.

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In the light

A ngel of the Sun, I wonder, if she knows how bright she shines.

May we all bask in her radiance.

Sat Nam

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A t last I saw the face of God… would that I had the words totell her how beautiful she is….

Sat Nam

Infinite focus

G uru held my arms up, I had but to gaze into the face of God.

Might have rained, too focused was I to look….

Sat Nam.

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Where lightning strikes

T his time, I know it rained, so hard in fact, it washed away allour negativity….

I laid all my fears upon the altar of Truth, a single lightning boltblasted it to Infinity.

One thing remains, I would ask the angel of the Sun, to push meover the edge.

Sat Nam.

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S urrounded by angels, I sat down, to surrender everything to theInfinite, knowing, I’m almost there… wherever that might be.

Infinite grace

“G ive it all to me,” Guru Ram Das said as he opened hisInfinite palms.

I laid all my cares upon his grace and at last, I was free.

See you there.

Sat Nam.

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For Sat Purusha

W ould that I had the words to express my gratitude for hermotherly influence upon my existence.

Of light and dark

B lustery winds upon the mountain of Truth….

More stars than I knew existed… I wonder what the name of thatone is, why it shines brighter, why it’s a different color….

I wonder, of the light….

For Dalip

A gain I gazed upon the face of God, Infinite focus, as I sat withthe angel of Strength.

May she soon discover the Infinite strength within her.

Sat Nam.

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S ingle most beautiful day of Tantric I’ve ever experienced.

Thank you Dalip, Nam, Siri Atma, Shanti and Akal, for being myfriends.

Sat Nam.

For Simran

I climbed to the top of the world and saw beyond the edges of theuniverse, a friend at my side….

As we gazed out upon the Infinite, I realized, all that mattered washow I lived my life, not whether it resulted in enlightenment ornot….

Thank you Simran, for making the journey with me.

Sat Nam.

Heading home

E ach day, more beautiful than the last….

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Sat Nam

L ighthouse knows not how bright it shines, just that it does….

Leaving home

A nother Solstice comes to a close….

As I sit upon the mountain of Truth, I ponder, light, friends, thejourney home and everything in between….

Blessed day

O n hallowed ground we walked, 4 friends and I, into the light,into the stillness, into Infinite peace.

See you there.

Sat Nam.

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Until now

T ook some time off, to visit Guru Ram Das’ mountain home….

I never really thought about the thousand days, I just did it, no mat-ter how much it hurt I folded myself up and surrendered to the Infi-nite….

Whatever it is, you can do it too.

White light

S urreal, being back at my house, technology, “work” ….

I keep expecting to see people in white, wearing turbans….

Good times

I nfinite memories, to carry me across the travails of this life,especially of this Solstice past and my Infinite friends….

Sat Nam.

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I am, I am

I am the light, I am the wind, I am the Earth, I am the heavens, Iam the breath, I am the Word, I am, I am.

Sat Nam.

Traveling man

T his is for Rico, who lives under the highway, this is for all themagic, of the journey home, safe travels my friends.

Independence

A nd then I wept, for there were no more words to write….

May we meet, on the journey home.

Sat Nam.

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Every step of the way

B ound Lotus carries me over the dramas of life, may you findwhat works for you.

Stories end, the journey however, is Infinite.

May Baba Siri Chand watch over you, every step of the way.

Thank you for traveling along with me, I’ll see you, on the journeyinto the light.

Until we meet again,

Sat Nam.

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Resources

F or more information on Bound Lotus, please visit Mahan KirnKaur Khalsa’s website at www.boundlotus.com

To find a KRI Certified Instructor near you, please visit the Interna-tional Kundalini Yoga Teachers Association (IKYTA) website atwww.kundaliniyoga.com.

For more information on Kundalini Yoga Events visit www.3ho.org

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