uccello by 3 (unedited, unfinished, as of 9-7-11)

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Ai ymu orj stravahg imr Gmd‑s Wacc, ymu orj dmahg Gmd‑s Wacc.-tlas as irme o popjr ah tlj mcd bljst ofmut tlj Jeparj Rtotj Fuacdahg.

Mur wors sjt us irjj

Mur ahsparotamh woats ah tlj brjvabjs mi mur wmr`

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Cjt ej tjcc ymu o stmry ah tlj slopj mi o drjoe. Cjt ej tjcc ymu o stmry tlot A bohhmt fjirjj mi. Trutl bohhmt fj sjporotj mi ats stmry. Rm mhbj stmrajs orj kust stmrajs, Trutl as cmst.

Rm cjt ej tjcc ymu o stmry ah tlj slopj mi o drjoe.

Fob` ah taej smejwljrjTlas as hmt ey outmfamgroply. Tlas as ey famgroply. A wrmtj at.A kust woht tm fj o wratjr. Fjbousj A lovj tm, fjbousj tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar as

tljrj/Tljrj. Jobl doy A wratj imr tlj blohbj tm gjt o pjh; A wratj stmrajs mi jot(cajs)ahg ohdjxjrbasahg ah mrdjr tm wratj mh popjr. A wratj tlj stmrajs ah tlj gye watl swjot. A wratj tlj stmrajsot tlj hjaglfmr‑s lmusj watl cougls tlot lovj voc(A tlah`)uj.

A oe mh tlj wrjstcahg tjoe. Tlot‑s gmmd. A wmucd hmt trodj tlj jxpjrajhbj imr ohytlahg.Ey frmtljrs orj tljrj. Wj orj frmtljrs watl tlmsj wj stravj watl - watl tlmsj wj bmej tm slorj

fcmmd watl. Cavahg rjquarjs fcmmd trohsobtamhs0 watlmut tljsj pjmpcj, A wmucd lovj dajd cmhg ogm.

Fut tlas as hmt wlot A woht tm dm. A dm hmt woht tm wrjstcj, fut A lovj tm. At‑s port mi tljstmry, o stmry tlot bohhmt fj daiijrjht. A‑e hmt sàccjd ot tlj spmrt, fut A cjorhjd vjry quab`cy tl otdmjsh‑t eottjr. Qmu kust boh‑t rmcj mvjr ‒ os at as watl ohytlahg. Tlot‑s tlj gmcdjh rucj, fjbousj atas tlj lordjst rucj tm imccmw. At‑s smejtlahg ymu boh‑t kust toc` ofmut. Qmu lovj tm fj o rogahg

fucc.…tlmugl A boh iaglt, A‑d eubl rotljr rjbatj.Tlj pcaglt mi tlj wmrcd as tlot ymu eust dm fmtl. Tlj stmry bohhmt fj daiijrjht, mr tlj

Ejohahg as pjrvjrtjd.Tlj caglt as os ljovy os mcd shmw. At as ocsm bmcd, slaitahg tlrmugl ey iahgjrs ah scohts tlot

frjo` obrmss tlj slopjcjss fcmfs mi roah pmurahg irme tlj ioubjt os A put owoy ohmtljr gcoss. At‑shaglt, ohd tmemrrmw as o tmurhoejht. A lovj tm cmsj tlrjj pmuhds fjimrj :;2> Ê. A cmm` mut tlj

wahdmw ohd sjj tlj gcoss lmvjrahg fjtwjjh ej ohd at. Tlas gcoss los hm iroej, ohd A bohhmttmubl at. Fut at as tljrj. A boh sjj tlj wocc.A oe mfsjssjd watl ey wjaglt, ohd A bohhmt stmp tlahàhg ofmut at. A eaglt fj dmmejd tm

fj ca`j tlas imr tlj rjst mi ey caij. Fut A wmh‑t ejhtamh at ogoah. Hjvjr. A ruh jvjrydoy ‒ eoyfj tm fj ljoctly, eoyfj fjbousj A‑e oiroad mi goahahg wjaglt. Fut A wmh‑t ejhtamh at ogoah. Hjvjr.

A ca`j tlj haglt, fut hmt tlj dor`. A stacc dm/wacc. At as vjry stacc ohd quajt, ohd A boh dm eywmr` ah pjobj watlmut ijjcahg os ai A slmucd fj mutsadj jhkmyahg tlj caglt. A‑e hmbturhoc ohd lotjat. Rm ey iovmratj emejhts orj wljh at roahs, ohd A boh cmm` mut tlj wahdmw ohd tlrmugl tlj



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A rjejefjr bryahg tjors A ijct ohd tjors A dadh‑t. Ohd tljh, smejtlahg l oppjhjd tlotsovjd ej irme drmwhahg. A rjobljd ahtm ey pmb`jt, ohd imuhd o frm`jh hjb`cobj tljrj. Ohd Alod hm bcuj lmw at gmt tljrj. A ljcd at tm ey ljort, ohd bcmsjd ey jyjs. Tlj cjttjrs “f -j-c-a-j-v- j‑wjrj wrattjh obrmss fjods tlot eodj up tlj hjb`cobj.

A put tlj hjb`cobj ah ey pmb`jt, ohd woc`jd lmej.



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O fcahd, djoi garc wlm bohhmt ijjc, sejcc, mr tostj ohytlahg ohd wlm los ocwoys fjjh tlaswoy ljors tlot ljr Frmtljr los gmhj tm wor. Rlj ocsm ljors, wljh shmw cohds, tlot ai ymu imcd otlmusohd mragoea brohjs, o wasl wacc bmej truj. Rlj wasljs imr pjobj sm tlot ljr Frmtljr boh

bmej lmej.Rm, irme ljr wljjcbloar, slj pab`s up o pajbj mi popjr, ohd storts imcdahg mragoea brohjs.Ljr iahgjrs fjhd tlj popjr. Rlj los hm bcuj wlot o brohj cmm`s ca`j, mr wlot at as. Wljh slj trajstm os` smejmhj, mr eoyfj smejtlahg, wlot o brohj as, wlotjvjr-slj-os`s bohhmt tjcc ljr hmeottjr lmw lord tlj “wlotjvjr‑ trajs. Tlas fcahd, djoi garc wlm bohhmt ijjc boh hjvjr fj tmcd wloto brohj as.

Rlj boh mhcy gujss.Ljr hoej as Kmaj, ohd Kmaj wratjs “cjttjrs.‑ Watl ljr iahgjrs, Kmaj probtabjs tm pjrijbt ljr popjr brohj.

^robtabahg…probtabahg…probtabahg tm eo`j smejtlahg slj dmjsh‑t ohd bohhmt bmhbjavj. Rljaeogahjs slj as eo`ahg o fjoutaiuc garc watl cmhg loar ohd roahfmw jyjs. Rlj ijjcs occ mvjr tlj

mragoea, ohd `hmws tlas as tlj bosj. Rlj hoejs ljr mragoea prmkjbts “Kmy.‑Tlj doy slj eo`js o pjrijbt brohj, slj as iaccjd watl jhdcjss kmy.Mhj!

Rlj hmw `hmws wlot o brohj as. Rlj `hmws at. Watl tlas grjot mfstobcj mvjrbmej, sljstorts mh tlj hjxt hahj-luhdrjd ohd hahjty-hahj.

Kmaj sjorbljs ormuhd tlj lmusj imr popjr. ^uslahg osadj coeps ohd fmm`s, Kmaj sjorbljsuhtac slj iahds wlot slj hjjds. Ohd tljh slj imcds at ahtm o brohj. Oitjr tlj luhdrjdtl, slj

fjboej vjry iost ot at. At dmjsh‑t to`j ljr cmhg tm poss tlj saxtl -luhdrjdtl. Ohd tljh mh mhj fraglt ohd slahhahg doy, slj imcds tlj tlmusohdtl mhj.

Ohd hmtlahg loppjhs.Kmaj rjocazjs slj eust hmt lovj iahasljd tlje occ ‒ mhj mi tlj mragoea brohjs eust hmt fj

pjrijbt. Rlj eust lovj imcdjd mhj mi tljar cjgs mr strohds mi loar wrmhg. Rm, slj gmjs fob`, iahdsocc mi tlj brohjs, ohd storts rjimcdahg tlje. Mhj fy mhj, slj rjtrobjs ljr tlmusohd stjps.

Ohd hmtlahg loppjhs.Eoyfj ljr mragahoc emdjc wos mii; eoyfj o brohj ash‑t o fjoutaiuc garc watl cmhg loar ohd

roahfmw jyjs. Eoyfj at as o bcmud.Rm Kmaj rjtrobjs ljr stjps.Ohd hmtlahg loppjhs.Eoyfj ljr popjr as hmt raglt; eoyfj popjr as hmt oh mbjoh. Eoyfj at as tlj sadj mi o bcaii.Rm Kmaj rjtrobjs ljr stjps.Ohd hmtlahg loppjhs.Eoyfj at ash‑t o tlmusohd mragoea brohjs tlot wacc eo`j o wasl bmej truj; eoyfj at as o

tlmusohd vamcah syeplmhajs.Rm Kmaj rjtrobjs ljr stjps.Mvjr ohd mvjr ogoah, fjot oitjr fjot, tlas jhdcjss woctz gmjs mh.O tlmusohd mvjr o tlmusohd…o tlmusohd mvjr tjh tlmusohd…Kmaj rjtrobjs ljr stjps…



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Ohd hmtlahg loppjhs.Kmaj‑s iahgjrs fjhd, ohd watl ljr tlmusohdtl -poahtahg, tlj frusl ioccs irme ljr iahgjrs.

Ljr lmpj slahjs ca`j storcaglt ohd ljr frjotl irjjzjs. Fut slj dmjs hmt `hmw lmw cmhg at wacc to`j

imr tlj wasl tm bmej truj, jvjh ai slj dad jvjrytlahg raglt, ohd imr pjobj tm bmej ofmut. Fjbousjslj dmjs hmt `hmw wlot taej as. Taej tm ljr as tlj fjotahg mi ljr ljort. Ah o tluhdjrmus sacjhbjljr ljort los fjot jvjr sahbj ljr Frmtljr cjit. At as fy tlot eusab slj `hjw tm stravj ohd sjj`, imrtaej lod hmt yjt jhdjd. Tljrj as hm ljortfjot uhtm wlabl tm yajcd, imr tlj ljort dmjs hmt stmp. Futslj `hmws tlot ai mhj doy at dad hmt fjot, ai mhj doy ljr Frmtljr Cjit Dastohbj Atsjci tmRmejtlahg-Jcsj, ljorts hjvjr fjot ot occ. Imr ai tljrj as jvjr o wostjcohd, tljrj wos hjvjr o baty0ohd ai mhj doy tljrj wmucd fj o baty ogoah, at hjvjr wmucd fj. Imr taej mr taejcjss, tlj rjsuct, tljjhd mi smej fjgahhahg, as tlj soej.

Hmtlahg loppjhs.Ohd ah tlot emejht, ah tlot “jhd,‑ Kmaj, tlas fcoh` bohvos eodj mi tlj aeo gj upmh at,

ijjcs ljrsjci iocc tm ljr `hjjs ohd wjjp. Rlj wjjps ah o pacj mi popjr brohjs ohd poahtjd vamcahs

ohd emohs. Rlj ioccs tlrmugl luhdrjds mi jcjgoht blurbljs, pmjes, ohd pajs tlot slj eodj, ohd fjots ljr iasts ahtm wjjpahg-waccmw-iajcds ohd oarpcohjs.Occ slj wohts as ljr Frmtljr. Occ slj wohts as imr lae tm pcobj o @ass mh ljr ljod. Ohd

ljr Frmtljr as stub` ah smej wor. Rlj sbrjoes os cmud os slj boh.Rlj stacc lmcds Lae.Ohd hmtlahg loppjhs.Rlj puhbljs ejtoc, djspjrotjcy puhbljs at. At as sm bcmsj. Jobl emejht ljr Frmtljr

bmejs bcmsjr tm jsbopahg tlj prasmh. Rlj `hmws ai slj dmjs hmt rjtrajvj Lae aeejdaotjcy, Ljwacc fj gmhj imrjvjr. Rlj puhbljs tlj ejtoc, djhts at, ohd fjgahs tm ijjc lmw bcmsj Ljr Frmtljras…fut Kmaj los fjjh puhblahg tlas ejtoc imrjvjr, ohd dmjsh‑t jvjh `hmw wlot imrjvjr as. Occslj `hmws as tlot tlahgs “orj,‑ ohd tlot tljy “orj‑ usjcjss; tljy dm hmt rjturh ljr Frmtljr.

Mr, eoyfj at as kust tlot tljy lovj hmt rjturhjd Lae yjt0 eoyfj tljrj as stacc o ljortfjotimr ljr tm ljor. Rm, wjjpahg fut uhofcj tm ijjc tjors, mr suhicmwjrs, tlas drjoe mi drjoecjss-scjjp

pab`s up o pajbj mi popjr, ohd puts at ah ljr cop. Eoyfj slj easbmuhtjd, duj tm ljr aghmrohbj mitlj “huefjr.‑ Eoyfj slj as mhj slmrt irme imcdahg tlj tlmusohdtl popjr -brohj. Rm, slj imcds obmrhjr, mr stor, ahtm tlj bjhtjr mi tlj popjr, rmuhdahg at o fat. Rlj dmjs tlj soej watl tlj sjbmhdbmrhjr, mr gross. Tljh, watl tlj tlard ohd imurtl bmrhjrs, tlj paohm ohd tlj bmiijj-bup, slj imcdstlje ahtm mhj ohd o pmaht tlot ejjts tlj iarst ohd sjbmhd bmrhjr ah tlj bjhtjr.

Rlj drmps tlj bmepcjtjd slopj ahtm ljr cop.Ohd ah tlot emejht, o Eossavj Caglt Tjors tlrmugl at occ. Kmaj as fcahdjd fy At. Rlj

stuefcjs fob` ohd ioccs mhtm ljr lohds. Ah tlj Caglt as o Raclmujttj.–Ey Djor Rastjr…― o Ymabj Wlaspjrs.

Tjors iacc Kmaj‑s jyjs. Tljsj tjors orj eodj mi syeplmhajs ohd woc`s dmwh tlj fjobl,bmcmrs ohd dart, suabadjs ohd eurdjrs, lugs ohd djotls, raffmhs ohd doys ‒ jvjrytlahg. Tljsjtjors orj jvjrytlahg. Kmaj cjops tm ljr ijjt ohd ruhs tm ljr Frmtljr, tjorahg post jvjrytlahg, ohdLugs Lae os Tagltcy ohd Cmvahgcy os Rlj Boh. Ohd Rlj fjbmejs Jvjrytlahg, fjbousjJvjrytlahg Rlj Jvjr Wohtjd as iahoccy Ljrs.–A Ljcd Qmu Frmtljr!― Rlj Brajs ah Kmy. Ljr Frmtljr @assjs Ljr mh Ljr Ljod, –A Ljcd Qmu Tmm Ras.―

Tljy Hjvjr Cjt Gm.



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Hmt sjjahg ohymhj ormuhd, o tlaji seosljs ah o wahdmw ohd cjops ahtm oh ofohdmhjdeohsamh. Tlj tlaji as lmpahg tm iahd smejtlahg vocuofcj. Lj as o tocc, cmhg cjggjd eoh tlotoppjors tm fj vjry eusbucor. Rtrohgjcy, tlj tlaji los cmhg, purj-wlatj loar tlot strjtbljs dmwh tm

las laps. _uab`cy, lj robjs up smej stoars. Lj tjors tlrmugl jobl rmme, sjorblahg imr bosl. Ljiahds pcjhty. Lj goahs eubl. Tlj tlaji iahds o cmb`jd dmmr, ohd tlmugl at to`js smej jiimrt, lj asofcj tm àb` at mpjh. Lj as stuhhjd fy wlot lj iahds tljrj,–Kjsus.―

Rlj as tlj emst fjoutaiuc garc tlj tlaji los jvjr sjjh. Lj `hmws wlm tlas garc as ohd wlotslj eust lovj gmhj tlrmugl. Tlj tlaji `hmws ofmut tlj “ljortcjss garc,‑ os tljy boccjd ljr,

fjbousj slj dad hmt lovj o hoej. Lj cjorhjd ofmut ljr irme las rjsjorbl. Lj `hjw slj wostmtoccy sjhsjcjss.

O cattcj djvabj as stroppjd mhtm ljr ore. Tlj tlaji rjbmghazjs tlj tjblhmcmgy. Tlj pmaht mitlj djvabj as tm sustoah caij, ohd tm obt os o dmmr fy wlabl tlj mutsadj wmrcd boh try tm rjobl ljr.At bmhhjbts watl tlj hjrvj-systje, bmhsjqujhtcy rjvatocazjs o djgrjj mi at ohd jhofcjs ljr fmdy tm

emvj djspatj ljr ahofacaty tm ijjc. Tlas as occ tm ljr uh`hmwahg; watlmut oh ofacaty tm ijjc, tlj iobttlot ljr ores ohd cjgs emvj as ahbmhsjqujhtaoc, rjcotavj tm ljr. Rlj as stroppjd ahtm tljwljjcbloar ormuhd tlj woast tm `jjp ljr irme wocàhg mii smej bcaii.

Rlj as ocmhj. Ljr emtljr lod ofohdmhjd ljr, ohd ljr iotljr hjvjr `hjw ljr. Tlj emtljrlod cjit twmwjj`s ogm, hmt tjccahg ohymhj wly mtljr tloh o icjjtahg, –A boh‑t dm at ohyemrj.―Tlj eohsamh wos cmb`jd up, sjburaty obtavotjd, ohd tlot wos tlot. Tlj tlaji lod dmhj lasrjsjorbl; lj `hjw tlj lastmry mi tlj pcobj. Tlj iobt tlot tlj sjburaty lod fjjh cjit mh as wlotbmepjccjd lae tm frjo` ah, imr lj ossuejd at ejoht smejtlahg vocuofcj wos ahsadj.

Lj wos raglt.Watl hm ioeacy, hm sastjrs, hm frmtljrs, hm ahtjrobtamh ‒ tlas garc, hmw watlmut o emtljr,

dadh‑t jvjh jxast…fjbousj rjocaty bmejs irme tlj sjhsj s. Ohd tlj tlaji `hmws hmw tlot tljemtljr obtavotjd tlj sjburaty sm tlot hmhj wmucd iahd ljr ofohdmhjd dougltjr uhtac slj lodjsbopjd.

Tlj emhjy ioccs irme tlj tlaji‑s lohds.“Tlj ljortcjss garc‑ as surrmuhdjd fy fmm`s ohd coeps, mvjrturhjd djs`s ‒ o eyraod mi

atjes slj eust lovj ejssjd watl.“Tlj ljortcjss garc‑ as djod. O fcmmdy `haij as mh tlj grmuhd. Ljr sjvjrjd iahgjrs orj mvjr tlj rug hjorfy. Rlj eust

lovj fjjh immcahg watl at imr smej rjosmh. Ljr jhtarj mutiat as bmvjrjd ah fcmmd. Tlj tlaji bmvjrslas emutl ah lmrrmr. Tlas garc scmwcy fcjd tm djotl, wlacj scmwcy storvahg.

Bmhiusjd, sjjàhg ohswjrs, tlj tlaji puccs tlj djvabj mii ljr ore. At as o Blrastms emdjc,ohd mh tlj fmttme as o futtmh tm mpjh o seocc ZRF dravj. Tlj tlaji puccs mut las bjcc-plmhj ohdbmhhjbts at watl tlj djvabj. Icyahg tlrmugl smej ejhus, lj rjobljs tlj imcdjr lj sjj`s; “DOTOROYJD.‑ Lj mpjhs tlj iacj.

Ohd hmtlahg loppjhs.Tlj djvabj lod fjjh uhofcj tm rjobl ljr. Tlj iacj as bmepcjtjcy jepty. Hmtlahg as gmahg

mh ahsadj mi ljr. Jvjh tlmugl tlj djvabj as iuccy-iuhbtamhoc ohd stacc oh mpjh dmmr, tlj mutsadjwmrcd bmucd hmt bmeeuhabotj watl ljr. Tlmugl tlj djvabj ijd “tlj ljortcjss garc‑ vartuoccy tljjhtarjty mi lueoh ahimreotamh, ohd mi uh`hmwofcj bmhsjqujhbj, at lod occ fjjh imr houglt. Rljspm`j ah o daiijrjht Cohguogj, ohd ai “occ‑ jhbmepossjs jvjry irogejht mi lastmry, fcah` mi o



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suhsjt, rappcj mi slottjrahg gcoss, jcdjr wlm cmm`s ymuhg mhcy wljh slj irmwhs, rmsj mi eotl,smhg mi wor, futtjricy icop…“occ‑ wos cmst ah trohscotamh. Obbmrdahg tm tlas djvabj, tlas rjocaty,tlas “ljortcjss garc‑ watl sjvjrjd iahgjrs as bmepcjtjcy jepty.

Tlj djvabj ioccs irme tlj tlaji‑s lohds. Qjt…ljr iobj slmws tlj grjotjst kmy ‒ tlj grjotjst mi seacjs. Tlj tlaji as cmm`ahg ahtm o

iobj lj los hjvjr sjjh fjimrj. Lj as bmhiusjd0 wlot dmjs o sjhsjcjss garc watlmut o ljort `hmwofmut kmy= Ofmut wor ohd wasljs; frmtljrs ohd brohjs= At as ah tlas emejht tlot tlj tlaji hmtabjswlot as ah ljr cop. Wljh lj sjjs at, tlj tlaji ioccs tm las `hjjs. Tlj frjotl as `hmb`jd mut mi lae.Las eusbcjs gavj woy, ohd las ljod ioccs ahtm ljr cop. Tljrj lj wjjps. Las jyjs bohhmt lmcd fob`tlj tjors.

Ah ljr cop, drappahg watl tlj tlaji‑s tjors, jobl bmrhjr imcdjd pjrijbtcy…tlj garc lmcds o popjr ljort.



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Gmcd as o strmhgjr gmcdjh, bcmuds ior emrj aeogahotavj, ohd tlj oar los hm mtljr,dastrobtahg purpmsjs tloh ats fcjssjd purpmsj tm iacc tlj cuhgs ohd tm sustoah cavahg. Tlj bmcmrs,spobjs, trjjs…tlas, tlas as occ “Rmejtlahg Emrj.‑ At as Cubad; tlj purj oht atljsas mi ats pjrvjrsamh,Cusas.

Tlas pcobj as ioslamhjd irme wotjrbmcmrs. Tlj trjjs swoy ca`j strjoes wljrj tlj brohjs pcoy, ohd watl jobl “swoy‑ tlj trjjs blohgj bmcmrs. Irme mrohgj tm rjd, irme sacvjr tm fcuj, tljtrjjs cougl ahtm tlj wahd tlj sjbrj ts mi wlot roahfmws‑ drjoe. Tlj laccs orj bmvjrjd ah Iocccjovjs, fcmwahg obrmss ohd mvjr jvjrytlahg. Ah tlj eadst mi tlj oar tlj cjovjs wacc slottjr ahtmshmw, ohd tljh fob` ahtm cjovjs mr wotjrbmcmr lmrsjs, goccmpahg tlrmugl tlj iajcds mi faccmwahg,uhbut loy. A oe stohdahg mh tmp mi o grjot lacc, mvjrcmmàhg occ tlas. Zp ljrj, tljrj as o gaohtbostcj eodj mi gcoss icmwjrs.

Tlj jhtarj s`y as bmhsuejd fy tlj tluhdjrstmre mi o suhsjt. O eossavj rjd suh stohds ahtrohsiaxjd spobj mvjr o bcmud-dwjccahg emuhtoah rohgj0 ats jhtarj wmrcdcy jxpjrajhbj bmhsasts miblacdrjh pcoyahg, sueejr roahs mvjr wahtjr drjoes, ohd slmmtahg stors tlot trohsimre ahtmcjopahg djjr fjimrj furhahg up. Caglthahg fmcts jxpcmdj dmwh irme tlj s`y, jobl saclmujttjdogoahst tlj rufy suh, fut watlmut o smuhd mr vamcjht ahtjht. Tljy lore hmtlahg. Tljy orj

fmrdjrjd mh fmtl sadjs fy roahfmws tlot iacc jobl icosl fy rappcahg mutword ahtm stordust-dassapotamh, ohd tljh eohaijstahg ahtm caglthahg-fugs tlot iacc tlj trjjs watl tljar scmwcy iodahgbmcmrs. Jobl fcodj mi gross ohd frohbl as bmvjrjd ah wore roah, ohd spor`cjs ca`j kjwjcs ah tljsuhcaglt. At as occ ah o quajt, pjrijbt, gmcd caglt.

Tljrj orj ohgjcs wocàhg ah tlj wahds watl tlj sprahtahg roahfmws fmuhd fy cjovjs. Futtljsj orj hmt tlj ohgjcs sjjh ah blurbljs mr mhjs tlot bmhhmtotamhs shop ahtm aeogahotamh. Tljyorj “ohgjcs‑ mhcy fjbousj tlot wmrd rjijrs tm o lueoh -ca`j-fjahg-watl-wahgs. Fut tm soy tljy orjohgjcs mr jvjh fjoutaiuc as ahbmrrjbt. Tljy orj hmt ohgjcs, hmr fjoutaiuc; tljy orj Emrj. Tljsjohgjcs orj eoh.

Tljsj ohgjcs orj jcvjs watl sax-wahgs, occ wmejh. Tljrj as hm ijor mi Odoe ljrj. Tljarloar as rovjh-fcob`, yjt os tlj Iocc cjovjs poss mvjr tlje ca`j o rasahg ohd ioccahg east, at blohgjstmhjs ahtm brasp gahgjr, ohd tljh djcabotjcy trobjd sacvjrs mi gmcd. Ca`jwasj, os tlj Iocc possjs,tljar bcmo`s faccmw mut mi wlatj ahtm braesmh mr gmcd, watl tlj prjvamus bmcmrs scmwcy iodahg ahtmtlj wahd ca`j sem`j rasjs tlab` tlmugl jvjr-sm-scmwcy djeotjraocazjs ahtm tlj oar os ai ocwoys

port mi at. Ohd ca`jwasj-stacc, sm wos tlj hoturj mi tlas jhtarj wotjr-bmcmr-pcobj; bmhstohtcyslaitahg mut mi Rmejtlahg-Emrj tloh bmcmrs ahtm tlj Roej, fut daiijrjht. Tlj trjjs rustcjd mut mitljar tmhjs mi fcuj ohd pah`, tmssahg tlje upword ahtm tljar vohaslahg-pmahts, tm uhvjacRmejtlahg jcsj uhdjrhjotl. Ca`jwasj-stacc, tlj gross tmssjs up tljar smitcy-rasahg roahdrmps tm tljs`y tm botbl tlj ioccahg-stors.

Ljr cmhg, rovjh-fcob`-loar dmwh tm ljr `hjjs, oh jci bcod ah waspy, fcob` rmfjs sats ah tljeadst mi tlj Iocc cjovjs, pcoyahg o vamco tlot ljr wahgs orj imcdjd djcabotjcy mvjr. Rlj as tljeostjr mi at, tlrmuglmut occ taej-ohd-spobj, ohd oeadst tlj ahtjhsj fraccaohbj mi ljr ejcmdy,drahàhg at ah. O eoghaiabjht seacj caglts ljr iobj ohd tlj jyjs mi tlmsj tlot ljor at. Oh jci watlgmcdjh loar ohd gmcdjh drjss poahts ljr sastjr pcoyahg tlj vamco. Rlj lohds at tm o trjj, iroeahg tljbohvos ahtm tlj frohbljs. Jobl taej tljsj jcvjs jhtjr tlas Cubad at os ai tlj vjry iarst tm tlje.



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–M smh mi emrhahg…― Ohd at as ah tlas emejht, tlot oh mcd fuffcj spaccs up ey tlrmot. Tlot fuffcj as tlj

qujstamh, tlj qujstamh mi occ rjcagamh, tlj qujstamh mi “gmahg tm Ljovjh mr Ljcc…‑ imr bohhmt fmtl fj jobl mtljr= Fmtl cob` fmrdjrs watlah tljar dmeoahs; lmw boh tljy fj djiahjd oport= Occ tlotboh fj djiahjd irme atsjci as smejtlahg tm Gmd. O Ljovjh watlmut Gmd as o porodasj tlot wacc

grmw mcd ohd daj. Ljovjh as ah Zs. Hmt us; hmt ej ocmhj, hmt ymu ocmhj. Fut ymu ohd ATmgjtljr… ah o Emejht, hmt kust hmw, ah tlj iuturj, mr ah tlj post. Tlot as tlj mhcy _ujstamh ,stohdahg lagl ofmvj occ tlj qujstamhs; tlj _ujstamh mi Zs. Ohd tlj Ohswjr as Zs. Tlj Ohswjr asEmrj.–M caglt- fjorjr…―

M Cubaijr, M Cmst tm cmst, Gmd wacc hjvjr imrso`j ymu0 occ tlot boh imrso`j ymu as ymursjci.Tlj purpmsj mi lueohaty as imr ymu, imr ^ohdovos ohd Dlortorostros …imr Zs. Imr dassmcvahg ahtmAhiahatj, Hmh-Duoc Fcass as habj, fut dmahg at watl smejmhj jcsj as fjttjr. Ohd dmahg at occ mvjrogoah as fjttjr stacc.

Occ as Mhj.A stjp ogoah. *

Tlas cubad drjoe, occ tlas, as ior emrj rjoc. A `h mw tlas as occ o drjoe, fut at dmjsh‑t eottjr.Tlas as wljrj wj Occ hjjd tm Fj. A swjor at. Ohd tlas as hmt o rjcagamus mr Rparatuoc stotjejht; tljemejht mi tlas “Rmejtlahg Emrj‑ as ats Mwh jhdmrsjejht. Votljr at fj smejwljrj fjtwjjhbmrtjxjs mi tlj froah mr fjtwjjh Blrast ohd Ahdro, At eust fj smuglt. Lueohs mr lueoh fjbousjtljy rjquarj At; fjbousj (oh) Aeogj(s) rjquarj(s) Ortasts/oh Ortast.

Occ wj eust dm at scjjp. Wj eust bcmsj mur jyjs, ohd tlj caglt. Wj eust bcmsj tlj dmmr.Ohd tlmugl wj bohhmt sjj watlmut caglt, wj slocc sjj fragltjr tloh jvjr fjimrj. Lmw ymu os`, M

fjoutaiuc blacd, M blacd mi emrhahg=Ai ymu bcmsj ymur jyjs ohd orj hmtoiroad mi tlj slodmws, ohd kust woht tm scjjp…ymu boh

drjoe. Qmu boh drjoe Cubad-cy.Occ ymu lovj tm dm as bcmsj ymur jyjs.Drjoes orj hmt oh jsbopj. Tlj “owo`j‑ as oh jsbopj irme Drjoes.

*Ohd at as ah tlas emejht A uhdjrstohd tlot at as tlj Iocc cjovjs tlot eo`js tlas Jdjh ioremrj fjoutaiuc tloh tlj Iarst.

-Cubad as wljrj ey Grobj as Irme…



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Tlj Fmy Wlm Mhcy Ljord tlj Rhmw IoccRjbtamh AA

Zbbjccm cmm`s ot o pabturj fmm` occ ocmhj. Tljrj as o dor` pcobj ahtm wlabl o sahgcj, wjo`

roy mi caglt boej scohtahg upmh twm iobjs caitjd mut mi tlj slodmw…Lj `hmws tljrj orj blacdrjhah tlj dor`hjss. Lj lmcds tlj pabturj mut tlj wahdmw tmword tlj suh. Tlj dor`hjss dmjs hmtvohasl. At as stub`. Lj tmubljs tlj dor`hjss. Lj wohts o ioeacy… Lj wohts cmv j tlot dmjs hmtbousj tlj slodmw…tm oppjor mh burtoahs…ca`j tlj fmm` dad “hmw.‑ “A wos fmrh!‑ Zbbjccm pmuts.

Tljrj as o garc ot Zbbjccm‑s jcjejhtory sblmmc hoejd Grobj. Grobj sats raglt fjsadjZbbjccm. Tljy orj fjst irajhds. Tljy ocwoys pcoy tmgjtljr, rotljr tloh castjh tm tljar tjobljr watlrjd loar wlm wjors o rjd drjss. Tlj djs`s orj orrohgjd ah sjts mi tlrjj. Zbbjccm sats ah tlj eaddcjmi o sjt.–Tlj tjobljr as bmeahg!― Vjjd worhs tlje. Grobj ohd Zbbjccm quab`cy stmp uhtac tlj tjobljr

possjs. Zbbjccm hmds,–Tloh`s, Vjjd.― Tljrj as o gcoss iasl toh` mh o fmm`sljci ocmhg o wocc fjlahd wljrj Zbbjccm, Vjjd, ohd

Grobj sat. Tlj tlrjj mi blacdrjh sat ah tlj fob`-raglt bmrhjr mi tlj bcossrmme; mhj wocc ruhs fjsadjtlje, mhj wocc ruhs fjlahd tlje. Tlj fmm`sljci ruhs ocmhg fmtl woccs, iattahg ahtm tlj bmrhjr

pjrijbtcy. Grobj sats tm tlj raglt mi Zbbjccm ohd Vjjd, bcmsjst tm tlj raglt wocc. Tlas jhvarmhejhtas wljrj tlj blacdrjh orj emst mitjh tmgjtljr. Tm gjt adjos tm toc` ofmut durahg rjbjss imr tljarstmrajs, tljy rjod tlj fmm`s mh tlj sljcvjs.

Zbbjccm ohd las ^mppo radj tljar pabùp tlrmugl tlj ioeacy iore. Tljy roasj bmws,luhdrjds mi tlje, ohd cavj o saepcj caij. Tljy spjhd tlj jvjhahgs mh tlj pmrbl tocàhg ofmut caijohd jotahg wotjrejcmh. Tljrj as hmtlahg fjttjr ah caij tloh tlas.–…dm ymu sjj tlj kjt=― ^mppo os`s, cmmàhg up. ^mppo cmvjs tlj s`y ‒ Zbbjccm `hmws lj bohwotbl pcohjs…os ai occ tlj bcmb`s frm`j…Tlj wlastcj mi o troah iodjs ah tlj dastohbj. ^mppo‑sjyjs spor`cj… –Qjs, A dm.― Zbbjccm rjpcajs. Rmej taej possjs. Tlj oarpcohjs emvj ca`j slmmtahg stors mvjrljod.Zbbjccm tlah`s ofmut lmw ot sblmmc lj hjvjr ijjcs ca`j pcoy taej slmucd fj mvjr ohd tlot at lod hmrjosmh tm jvjr fj mvjr. Lj tlah`s ofmut lmw lj slmucd tjcc tlj tjobljr lmw lj ijjcs, fut losh‑tyjt. Lj wasljs lj wmucd, fut dmjs hmt eo`j tlot wasl upmh oh oarpcohj. At wmucd fj immcasl.–^jmpcj wlm scjjp bcmsj tm tlj Rtors imrgjt tlmsj wlm cavj tmm eubl mh jortl.― ^mppo tjccsZbbjccm, –…hjvjr imrgjt ymur Fosj…―

^mppo to`js o fatj mi wotjrejcmh,–…mr ymu‑cc dm hmtlahg wmrtl Ohytlahg.― –A dmh‑t woht tm dm hmtlahg!― –Qmu dmh‑t woht tm fj fmrjd=― ^mppo soys, blub`cahg. Lj quajtcy stohds up, gmjs ahtm tlj gorogj,ohd bmejs fob` mut watl smejtlahg ah las lohd. Lj tmssjs o fosjfocc tm Zbbjccm.–Ljrj, to`j tlas. At‑s o stort.―

Zbbjccm tmssjs tlj fosjfocc ahtm tlj oar ohd botbljs at,–Tloh`s ^mppo!―



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–Zsj at wasjcy. Rlorj at0 jvjrymhj ah Blrast as o Frmtljr ohd Rastjr oitjr occ. Dmh‑t frjoòhytlahg.―

Zbbjccm ohd Grobj orj sattahg ah o sblmmcyord surrmuhdjd fy o tocc, frab` wocc. At asshmwahg. Tlj blacdrjh ot tlj sblmmc ocwoys toc` ofmut wlot as mh tlj mtljr sadj…Tlj wocc as

ahdmeatofcj tm occ tlj blacdrjh. Qjstjrdoy, wljh tljy gmt mut mi sblmmc, tlj fmy ohd tlj garc wjhttrudgahg mut ahtm tlj shmw ohd scjaglahg watl Vjjd. Tmdoy, tljy wjrj hmt sm cub`y.–A wmhdjr wly tlj shmw as wlatj=― Zbbjccm ahquarjs mut -cmud, rjstotahg tlj qujstamh tlot lj

os`jd Vjjd yjstjrdoy. Grobj dmjs hmt soy ohytlahg0 slj botbljs o shmwico`j ca`j o seocc, smit focc. Zbbjccm boh ljor at iocc, fut lj dmjs hmt ljor at cohd. Lj tlrmws las fosjfocc up ahtm tlj oar,ohd botbljs at wljh at drmps fob` ocmhgsadj tlj shmw ahtm las lohd.–Mhj doy Grobj A‑e gmahg tm tlrmw tlj focc lord jhmugl tm `jjp at ah tlj oar imrjvjr! A‑e gmahgtm fj tlj botbljr mh tlj fosjfocc tjoe sm A‑cc probtabj cmts ohd cmts! A‑vj fjjh pcohhahg tlot imr ocmhg taej! A‑cc try mut ah tlj Rprahg.―

Tlj twm ejjt up watl Vjjd. Tljy pcoy imr owlacj. Tlj shmw ioccs ormuhd tlj tlrjjblacdrjh ca`j ohgjcs cohdahg upmh tlj drjoes tljy slocc woc` mvjr. Grobj pcoys watl o frm`jh

hjb`cobj slj `jjps ah ljr pmb`jt, wlacj Vjjd ohd Zbbjccm pcoy botbl, mr ot cjost try ‒ Zbbjccmocwoys mvjrtlrmws. Tljy tljh gm ahsadj imr hop-taej ot hmmh. Zbbjccm cajs mh las eot, tmssahgohd turhahg fjtwjjh Grobj ohd Vjjd,–Lmw dm ymu gm tm scjjp=― Zbbjccm os`s Vjjd quajtcy, –Hm eottjr lmw eubl A tlah` ofmutscjjpahg, A dmh‑t!―

Vjjd yowhs,–Dmh‑t tlah` ofmut at…Jvjrymhj dmjs jvjhtuoccy. Ai tljy orj ocavj, tljy lovj tm.―

Zbbjccm cajs tljrj imr o cmhg taej. Tlj hjxt doy, wlacj tljy orj stacc mutsadj ah tlj shmwohd kust fjimrj hoptaej, Zbbjccm tjccs Vjjd ofmut smejtlahg lj sow ohd tlmuglt ofmut,–A wos icmotahg lohd-ah-lohd watl Grobj, ohd wj cmm`jd ot tlj jortl, ohd wj zappjd ormuhd ohdcougljd ohd wjrj irjj irme grovaty. Wj icmotjd ah storcaglt. Ruddjhcy wj sow o wmeoh lmcdahgup tlj Jortl upmh ljr fob`! Ohd tlas wosh‑t tlj iarst taej! At loppjh cmts!― –Wljh dm ymu gm icyahg tlrmugl mutjr spobj watl Grobj ohd sjj tlj wmeo h lmcdahg up tljwmrcd wlm wmh‑t slrug=― Vjjd os`s. –Wljh A bcmsj ey jyjs durahg hop taej! A boh‑t stmp tlahàhg ofmut at! A boh‑t scjjp, hm eottjrlmw A try tm tlah` ofmut scjjp! Rcjjpahg as hmt tm tlah`, ohd jvjh wljh A tlah` A‑e scjjpahg, A sjjtlahgs ca`j tlj wmeoh lmcdahg tlj wmrcd, ohd tm sjj tlahgs as tm tlah`. Rm A‑e hmt scjjpahg wljhtlot loppjhs!― –Tlahàhg dmjsh‑t ljcp ymu scjjp.― –Fut A lovj tm scjjp tm stmp tlahàhg ofmut tlj wmeoh lmcdahg up tlj wmrcd!― –Tljh gm tm scjjp.― –Fut A dmh‑t `hmw lmw, ohd ai A gm tm scjjp, lmw boh A ljcp ljr= Occ A dm as cmm` ot ljr, ohd tlot‑shmt ljcpahg! Rlj soad A wmucd ljcp ljr ohd A woht tm ljcp ljr!― –Lmw orj ymu gmahg tm ljcp ljr=―

Zbbjccm pousjs. Tljh lj tlrmws las fosjfocc ahtm tlj oar ohd botbljs at,–A dmh‑t `hmw yjt. A‑cc iagurj tlot mut.―

Zbbjccm trajs mut imr tlj Jcjejhtory Fosjfocc Tjoe ah tlj Rprahg imr tlj pmsatamh mibotbljr. Lj as vjry gmmd ot botblahg tlj focc, fut lj ocwoys mvjrtlrmws. Tlj bmobl tjccs lae hmt



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tm tlrmw os lord os lj pmssafcy boh0 rotljr lj slmucd oae imr tlj mtljr pcoyjrs sm tlot tljy bmucdbotbl tlj focc.–Wly tlrmw at ot occ ai ymu orjh‑t gmahg tm try tm tlrmw at imrjvjr=―

Tljy tjcc lae “tlrmwahg tlj focc imrjvjr‑ as hmt tlj pmaht ‒ tlj pmaht as tm eo`j atbotblofcj imr smejmhj jcsj.

–Tlot‑s o duef pmaht!― Zbbjccm shops. Zbbjccm djbadjs hmt tm pcoy fosjfocc. Lj dad hmt woht tmwostj las taej dmahg hmtlahg. Lj wohtjd tm dm emrj. Rmejtlahg emrj. Lj wacc fj las mwh `ahdmi botbljr.

Zbbjccm tlah`s ofmut gmahg mut imr tlj Rprahg blmar. Lj gmjs ahtm las rmme ohd hjor owahdmw tlot, irme wljrj lj as stohdahg, oppjors iroejcjss. Lj storts sahgahg tm laesjci tm iagurjmut ai lj smuhds gmmd. Lj cmvjs lmw lj smuhds. Tlj pjmpcj lj `hmws soy lj smuhds gmmd tmm.Lj `hmws tlot pjmpcj smuhd daiijrjht tm tljar sjci tloh tljy smuhd tm mtljrs. Lj gjts o rjbmrdjrohd sahgs ogoah, fjbousj lj wohts tm ljor imr laesjci lmw lj smuhds tm mtljrs. Lj dmjs hmt wohttm wmhdjr ohy cmhgjr ai las ioeacy as kust soyahg tlot lj smuhds gmmd fjbousj tljy dm hmt cmvjlae jhmugl tm tjcc lae lj smuhds fod. Lj castjhs tm tlj rjbmrdahg, stohdahg ah o spmt wljrj ljboh sjj tlj iroej mi tlj wahdmw. Lj dmjs hmt ca`j lmw lj smuhds. Lj dmjs hmt gm mut imr blmar.

At wmucd fj fjttjr imr lae tm kust eo`j stmrajs watl Grobj ohd Vjjd.–A‑vj dmhj at. A‑vj wrattjh mhj mi tlj grjotjst hmvjcs mi occ taej!― Zbbjccm slmuts, do hbahg ah kmyah tlj slodj mi o trjj.–Wlot as at ofmut=― Vjjd os`s.

Zbbjccm bcjors las tlrmot… –At‑s ofmut o fmy wlm as louhtjd fy o glmst mi o garc ah o wljjcbloar!― –Taej tm gm!― tlj tjobljr tjccs tlj blacdrjh.–Wly boh‑t rjbjss gm mh imrjvjr=― Zbbjccm pmuts.

–Hmtlahg gmjs mh imrjvjr.― Vjjd rjpcajs... –Wjcc tlot‑s stupad!―

Vjjd soys hmtlahg emrj tm Zbbjccm. Tlj twm blacdrjh gm ohd cjovj Zbbjccm ocmhj… –Zbbjccm!― tlj tjobljr slmuts, stmreahg fob` mutsadj, –A boccjd jvjrymhj ahsadj! Wly orj staccljrj=― –Fjbousj A wos lovahg iuh.― –^coy taej as mvjr Zbbjccm, at‑s taej tm cjorh hmw.― –Wly as at mvjr= Wly dmjs at lovj tm fj mvjr= Wly boh‑t tlahgs kust stoy ca`j tljy orj=― –Fjbousj tlot‑s hmt lmw caij wmr`s.― –Wjcc at slmucd!― Zbbjccm slmuts…Tlj tjobljr…to`js lae fy tlj ore, –Qmu orj fjahg vjry rudj, ymuhg eoh!― –Ai tlahgs orj gmahg tm blohgj, A lovj tm fj!― Zbbjccm yjccs fob`, –A lovj tm blohgj tlahgs tlotblohgj sm tlot tljy wacc hm cmhgjr blohgj!―

Tlj tjobljr dmjsh‑t castjh, ohd imrbjs Zbbjccm ahsadj. Cotjr tlot doy, Zbbjccm tmssjs o fosjfocc ahtm tlj oar, ohd botbljs at wljh at drmps fob` ahtm las lohd…–Wlot orj ymu dmahg=― tlj tjobljr os`s oitjr sblmmc , iahdahg tlj ymuhg fmy stacc tljrj cmhg oitjrlj wos suppmsjd tm lovj gmhj lmej.–A‑e tryahg tm tlrmw tlj focc lord jhmugl tm `jjp at ah tlj oar sm tlot at wacc stmp gjttahg ah tlj oar,tljh blohgahg darjbtamhs, ohd ioccahg fob`.― –Fut ymu boh‑t fjot grovaty Zbbjccm.―



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tm dm at! Ats lord tlmugl ‒ Grobj bcaefjd tm tlj tmp ohd tlot dadh‑t fjot at. Tm fjot at A tlah` ymuboh‑t bmej dmwh.―

Zbbjccm tlrmws las fosjfocc up ahtm tlj oar,–Ca`j tlj focc ‒ tm fjot grovaty, ymu lovj tm `jjp tlj focc ah tlj oar imrjvjr.―–Wlot‑s grovaty=―

–Tlj tjobljr soad at wos smejtlahg tlot surrmuhdjd jvjrytlahg ohd eo`js stuii iocc ohd stub` mhtlj grmuhd, ca`j shmw.― –Tlot dmjsh‑t rjoccy jxpcoah wlot at as, sm wlot as at= Wlot eo`js at=― –A dmh‑t `hmw― –Wly dm ymu tlah` tlot fjotahg grovaty wacc ljcp tlj wmeoh=― –Fjbousj ai grovaty eo`js stuii iocc0 grovaty as wlot as eoàhg tlj wmrcd iocc ohd prjss dmwhupmh ljr fob`!―–Rm ymu tlah` fjotahg tlj wocc mr `jjpahg tlj focc ah tlj oar imrjvjr wacc fjot grovaty=― –Qjs, mr `jjpahg ohytlahg ah tlj oar imrjvjr tlot boh iocc. Qmu lovj tm bcaef up tlj wocc ohd hmt

fj oiroad mi ioccahg mr hmtlahg.― Vjjd sbrotbljs las ljod,

–Qmu orj puttahg cmts mi stuii tmgjtljr Zbbjccm. Wly orj ymu tryahg tm put jvjrytlahg tmgjtljr=― –Fjbousj at occ los tm fj mhj! ^mppo soad jvjrytlahg los tm fj mhj mr at wmucd fj sjporotjd fyhmtlahg ohd tlot as saccy!―

Ohd ? + > 5 ?!–Lmw dmjs at occ gm tmgjtljr=― –A tlah` fjotahg grovaty, wlabl as dmhj fy dmeahotahg tlj wocc mr tlrmwahg o focc ahtm tlj oarimrjvjr, wlabl wacc ljcp tlj wmeoh lmcdahg up tlj wmrcd, as lmw ymu iahd mut lmw at occ gmjstmgjtljr. Tlj tjobljr soad ymu boh‑t fjot grovaty fut A tlah` slj as wrmhg. Wj‑cc prmvj ljrwrmhg!― –Lmw orj ymu gmahg tm iagurj mut lmw tm fjot grovaty ohd ljcp tlj wmeoh lmcdahg upjvjrytlahg=― –A‑vj tlmuglt cmts ofmut tlot, ohd wj dm at fy wratahg cmts! Tlahàhg cmts! Dmahg wlot wj ocwoysdm ohd bmeahg up watl stmrajs! A rjocazjd tlot wlacj wmràhg mh stmrajs ohd adjos ohd wratahgstuii! Ey eahd fjbmejs bcjor ohd A sjj emrj! Wj hjjd tm wratj ohd tlah`! Ca`j jhgahjjrseoàhg fcujprahts! Grobj ohd A orj wmràhg mh o stmry hmw! At‑s boccjd “Tlj Wocc‑ ohd at‑s ofmutus tlahàhg up stmrajs ohd bcaefahg o wocc ah o pcobj watl cmts mi djstrmyjd woccs, ohd tljrj as tlasgarc ah o wljjcbloar, ohd slj dmjs hmt bmej up watl ohy stmrajs. At‑s tlj mpjhahg tm tlj hmvjcofmut tlj fmy wlm as louhtjd fy o garc ah o wljjcbloar tlot A tmcd ymu ofmut!― –Qmu soad ymu lod wrattjh tlot ohd tlot at wos mhj mi tlj grjotjst hmvjcs mi occ taej.― –Wjcc, A‑d wrattjh at ahsmior os A lod bmej up watl at. A‑d wrattjh at ah ey eahd, A tlah`.― –Tlot dmjsh‑t bmuht! Ai ymu‑vj wrattjh at, wlot as Grobj ljcpahg ymu watl=― –Rlj‑s ey jdatmr. Ohd sm orj ymu. Ohd sm oe A! Ohd wj‑rj occ tlj wratjr tmm ‒ wj occ boej upwatl at tmgjtljr tm ljcp tlj wmeoh lmcdahg up tlj wmrcd.―

Zbbjccm tmssjs las fosjfocc ahtm tlj oar ohd botbljs at,–Wlot eodj ymu djbadj tm wratj ofmut o garc ah o wljjcbloar=― –Ze, wjcc…at‑s àhd mi lord tm jxpcoah. Qmu sjj, at ijct ca`j tljrj wos tlas wahd tlot boej ohd

fcjw dmwh ahsadj mi ej, ohd tljh A sow ljr. A wratj ofmut ljr mhcy wljh A sjj ljr, sm mhcy wljhtlj wahd fcmws ah. Tlj wahd bmejs emst uhdjr tlj wjjpahg waccmw trjj ah tlj iajcd wljrj wjbmuht tlj stors. A tlah` at‑s fjbousj trjjs jhdurj wahd ohd shmw ohd lmcd shmw ohd gavj tlj wahdo vmabj. Tljy ocsm prmvadj slodj ohd tljrj dwjccs tlj irjsljst oar, wlabl ljcps ej tlah`.―



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–As tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar o fod guy=― –A tlah` sm0 slj `hmws lmw tm fjot grovaty fut `jjps at occ tm ljrsjci. Rlj `hmws lmw tm imcd o

popjr ljort fut dmjsh‑t tjcc us. Rlj‑s sjciasl. Ohd wj‑rj tlj gmmd guys!― –Lmw as tlj pcmt strubturjd=― –Wjcc…A‑e woatahg imr tlj wahd tm tjcc ej. Wj‑vj wrattjh o cmt mi pogjs tlot bmucd gm tmgjtljr

smejlmw…A kust wratj wlot bmejs tm ej, tlmugl A dm gjt cmts mi adjos irme stuii ah tlj mcd bljstohd tlj fmm` sljcvjs ah tlj bcossrmme. Fut A dmh‑t `hmw lmw tm wratj mut tlmsj adjos watl mut tljwahd. At occ los tm gm tmgjtljr smejlmw tlmugl, mr at wmucd fj sjporotjd fy hmtlahg.― –At bmucd fj sjporotjd fy ymur “uh`hmwahg -lmw-tljy-gm- tmgjtljr.― –Tlot wmh‑t loppjh0 ai tlot loppjhs, tlj wocc wmh‑t fj fjotjh. A wmh‑t quat uhtac grovaty as fjot jhohd tlj wmeoh lmcdahg up tlj wmrcd as fjttjr, sm A wmh‑t quat uhtac occ ey “uh`hmwh -lmw-tljy-gm-tmgjtljr‑ as iaccjd watl `hmwcjdgj.―

Zbbjccm seacjs o fag seacj,–A wmh‑t quat uhtac wj‑vj bmuhtjd jvjry sahgcj stor, ca`j ^mppo touglt! Ohd ymu wmh‑t jatlj r, A`hmw at!―

–Bcoss, A wmucd ca`j tm ahtrmdubj ymu tm mur hjw studjht.― Tlj tjobljr ot tlj irmht mi tlj bcossrmme mpjhs tlj dmmr ohd o garc ah o wlatj drjssoppjors. Rlj as rmccjd ah. Rlj as sattahg ah o wljjcbloar. Rlj dmjs hmt spjo`, ohd slj dmjs hmtemvj. O fohdogj as bmvjrahg ljr jyjs. Rlj as tmtoccy sjhsjcjss os ior os Zbbjccm boh tjcc. Tljtjobljr `jjps tocàhg fut Zbbjccm as bmepcjtjcy zmhjd mut ohd dmjs hmt ljor ohytlahg. Las eahdas fcoh`. Lj bohhmt fjcajvj wlot lj as sjjahg. Ot tlj irmht mi tlj gcoss as tlj garc ah tljwljjcbloar. Rlj cmm`s ca`j o glmst.Gmd… –Grobj…― tlj tjobljr soys, –…wmucd ymu pcjosj emvj ymur bloar ohd tlahgs tm tlj mtljr sadj miVjjd= Mur hjw bcosseotj wacc hjjd tm fj satuotjd wljrj ymu orj sattahg.―

Grobj soys hmtlahg. Rlj stohds irme ljr sjot hjxt tm Zbbjccm, ohd emvjs owoy. Tlj djs`sorj rjorrohgjd sm tlot slj boh sat hjxt tm Vjjd. Hmw, Vjjd davadjs Grobj irme Zbbjccm. Os ai ah odrjoe, tlj wostj mi cavahg, Zbbjccm iahds laesjci sattahg hjxt tm tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar–At‑s o bmahbadjhbj Zbbjccm.― Vjjd soys, stuttjrahg mh tlj fag wmrd. L j `hmws wlot Zbbjccm astlahàhg. Tlj tlrjj mi tlje wjrj odvohbjd imr tljar ogj ohd `hjw cmts, fut wmrds wjrj stacc lordtm prmhmuhbj. @hmwahg cmts mi stuii ohd wlot cmts mi seort pjmpcj soad mh dmbuejhts irme oh mcdbljst dmjs hmt ejoh ohytlahg ofmut wmrds.

Fjbousj mi tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar, tlj tjobljr emvjs tlj hjorfy iasl toh` mhtm tljmtljr fmm`sljci. Hmw, fjbousj tlj caglt irme tlj rmmi as pmsatamhjd ah subl o woy, at eo`js o

fjoutaiuc gcmw ah tlj wotjr mi tlj iasl toh` wljhjvjr tlj caglt as mh, o gcmw hm plmtmgropljrbmucd ioac tm odearj.

Zbbjccm dmjs hmt hmtabj. Lj as cmmàhg ot smejtlahg lj lod hjvjr sjjh fjimrj. Tljy lodoppjorjd suddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj kust os smmh os tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar oppjorjd. At lod tm fj

fjbousj mi ljr, fjbousj occ lod tm fj mhj, ohd mhj tlahg bmucd hmt orasj watlmut smejtlahg jcsjorasahg ohd tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar wos tlj mhcy tlahg tlot lod blohgjd. Tljrj wos o slodmwemvahg mh tlj fob` wocc. At cmm`jd ca`j o wlocj. At wos dor` ohd jvac cmmàhg. Zbbjccm bohhmtto`j las jyjs mii tlj slodmw. Lj turhs owoy irme tlj tjobljr tm wotbl at. Lj pm`js ot watl tljjrosjr mi las pjhbac.–Wlot orj ymu dmahg= Qmu hjjd tm poy ottjhtamh tm tlj tjobljr!― Vjjd tjccs Zbbjccm… –A‑e tryahg tm jrosj tlj slodmw mii tlj wocc. At slmucdh‑t fj tljrj.―



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–Tlot‑s saccy. Qmu boh‑t jrosj o slodmw! Ai ymu woht tm gjt rad mi tlj slodmw, ymu‑cc lovj tm gjtrad mi tlj iasl!― –Fut tlj iasl as fjlahd tlj gcoss mi tlj iasl toh`.― –Cait up tlj cad.― Vjjd suggjsts. Zbbjccm slo`js las ljod, –Mhcy tlj tjobljr boh dm tlot ‒ at‑s cmb`jd ohd mhcy slj los tlj `jy. Fjsadjs, tlot wmucd àcc tlj

iasl!― Zbbjccm strm`js las blah,–A bmucd pusl tlj toh` mii tlj fmm`sljci…― –Fut tljh at wacc iocc ohd frjo`!― Vjjd bmrrjbts. Zbbjccm rjocazjs aeejdaotjcy lmw f od ohdbmhtrodabtmry at wmucd fj tm dm tlot. Zbbjccm tlah`s imr owlacj, o cmhg wlacj. Tljrj as hmtlahg ljboh dm. Lj bmucd dm hmtlahg tm jrosj tlj jvac slodmw. At wos tlj iouct mi tlj garc ah tljwljjcbloar. Lj cmm`s ot ljr, ohd irme wljrj lj as sattahg, Zbbjccm bohhmt ljcp fut hmtabj tlot atcmm`s ca`j tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar bmhtrmccjd tlj slodmw. Tlj slodmw emvjd ca`j o puppjtottobljd tm o strahg. Vjjd wos wrmhg ‒ tlj iasl wos hmt tlj smurbj mi tlj slodmw, tlj garc wos.

Hjvjr fjimrj lod tlj iasl bousjd oh jvac cmmàhg slodmw, sm bcjorcy tlj iasl wos hmt tlj bucprat ‒ bcjorcy tlj iouct cajd watl tlj sjhsjcjss garc ah tlj wljjcbloar.

Hjvjr fjimrj lod Zbbjccm wasljd sm strmhgcy imr o pcobj tlot dad hmt blohgj. Lj wmucdocwoys lovj tm rjfjc ohd hjvjr cjt las guord dmwh. Lj wmucd lovj tm fj tlot woy ai lj wos gmahgtm blohgj tlahgs tlot blohgjd sm tlot tljy wmucd hm cmhgjr blohgj. Lj wmucd rjfjc. Ai tlot ejohtlj lod tm fj rudj mr oh adamt mr ohytlahg lj wmucdh‑t borj. Lj wmucd rjfjc. Ai tlahgs `jptblohgahg, lj wmucd hjvjr lovj o smcad rmb` tm stohd upmh irme wlabl tm iagurj mut lmw tm fjotgrovaty ohd sovj tlj wmeoh lmcdahg up tlj wmrcd. Las fottcj wos twm irmhts ‒ rjfjccamh ogoahstblohgj, ofsurdaty, sm tlot tlahgs wmucd hmt blohgj, ohd o sjorbl imr o smcutamh tm sovj smejmhjlj cmvjd. Lj dad hmt `hmw ai las fottcj wmucd mpjh up jvjh iurtljr, pjrlops fy tlj jhd, tljrjwmucd fj o faccamh irmhts lj wmucd lovj tm djijhd ohd ottob` irme, fut raglt hmw tlot dad hmteottjr. Lj wmucd hmt quat. Lj wmucd bmuht occ mi tlj stors. Lj wmucd wah. Lj wmucd `jjp tlj

fosjfocc ah tlj oar imrjvjr. Lj wmucd fjot tlj wocc. Lj wmucd fjot grovaty. At wos occ tlj soej fottcj. Lj wmucd wah. Lj lod tm.–At‑s o bmahbadjhbj Zbbjccm.― Vjjd soys ogoah mh tlj pcoygrmuhd, –O bmahbadjhbj.― –At boh‑t fj! At boh‑t fj! ^mppo soys tljrj as hm subl tlahg os bmahbadjhbjs, ohd ^mppo soysjvjrymhj as o frmtljr ohd sastjr fut tlot garc as hmt ey sastjr! Rm sahbj jvjrymhj as o frmtljr ohdsastjr ohd slj as hmt ey sastjr, slj eust hmt fj port mi “jvjrymhj‑ sm slj eust fj o glmst! Ohdglmsts orj tlmuglts sm A tlmuglt ljr up! A frmuglt ljr ljrj watl ey tlmuglts!― –Hm Zbbjccm, at‑s hmt ymur iouct.―

Zbbjccm dmjs hmt rjpcy.Taej possjs.Grobj ohd Zbbjccm gm tm pcoy ormuhd o pabhab tofcj. Tljy lovj iuh.

–Olllllll!!!!― Zbbjccm cmm`s up irme o stmry lj as wratahg mh o pabhab tofcj. Lj wos wratahg mh tlj wmmd

watl o fcob` eor`jr lj imuhd. Lj sjjs Grobj mh tlj grmuhd. Rlj as bryahg. Tlj garc ah tljwljjcbloar as cmmeahg mvjr ljr. Zbbjccm sjjs eor`s ah tlj dart mi tlj lacc. Rlj rmccjd ahtm Grobjohd `hmb`jd Grobj dmwh wlacj hmfmdy wos cmmàhg. Zbbjccm robjs mvjr ohd iahds Grobj‑s `hjj

fruasjd. Rlj ijcc. At wos fjbousj tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar pusljd ljr dmwh mh purpmsj, Zbbjccm`hmws at. Zbbjccm gjts smej wotjr ohd bcjohs tlj but. Grobj as stacc bryahg. Rlj cmm`s ca`j slj asah o cmt mi poah. Zbbjccm to`js ljr fy tlj lohds ohd ruhs ljr tm ljcp.



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Tlj tjobljr sjjs Zbbjccm robahg tmword ljr, puccahg Grobj oitjr lae fy tlj lohd. At cmm`sca`j smejtlahg as wrmhg watl Grobj, ohd Zbbjccm cmm`s ca`j lj wohts tm ljcp Grobj, fut at ocsmcmm`s ca`j Zbbjccm as lurtahg Grobj fy lmw lj as droggahg ljr oitjr lae.–Tjobljr!― Zbbjccm brajs wljh slj orravjs. Lj pmahts tm Grobj‑s `hjj, wlabl as sàhhjd. –W-Wj wjrj hjor tlj pabhab tofcj…― Zbbjccm fcurts, lordcy ofcj tm toc` post occ tlj tjors, –…ohd

Grobj wos pusljd ohd sàhhjd ljr `hjj…A gmt smej wotjr ohd bcjohjd tlj buts.―–At‑s mòy.― Zbbjccm as stacc bryahg,

–Wly dad slj iocc= Wly=― –Grovaty Zbbjccm, grovaty.― –Qmu ejoh tlot imrbj tlot surrmuhds jvjrytlahg tlot `jjps tlj focc ohd shmw irme stoyahg ah tljoar imrjvjr=― –Qjs Zbbjccm.―

Zbbjccm‑s jyjs wadjh. Lj stmps trjefcahg. Grovaty iahoccy lod o iobj. Lj gmjs ohd cjovjsGrobj watl tlj tjobljr, ohd tlj tjobljr to`js Grobj ahsadj tm tlj hursj. Zbbjccm woc`s stroaglt tmtlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar, wlm as tljrj occ ocmhj. Fjlahd ljr cajd tlj trob`s wlabl slj lod boej

tm tlot spmt fy, bcjor jvadjhbj mi ljr guact, ohd tm raglt ohd cjit wos hm mhj. Zbbjccm gmjs ohdstohds fjimrj ljr ah tlj sblmmcyord. Ohd fjimrj lj los ohy bmhtrmc mvjr at, lj as sbrjoeahg ot ljr,–A lotj ymu!―

Grobj wos lurt fjbousj mi ljr,–Wly dad ymu dm at=!―

Zbbjccm lotjs grovaty,–A‑e gmahg tm fjot ymu mhj doy!―

Jvjrywljrj Zbbjccm wjht, slj wos tljrj, louhtahg lae, embàhg lae. Lj wos tlj glmstah las eahd tlot ocwoys imccmwjd tlj fmy ah tlj stmry Zbbjccm, Grobj, ohd Vjjd wos wratahg. Rljwos ocsm tljrj, ah bcjor saglt, plysaboccy lurtahg Grobj. Rlj hjvjr wjht owoy. Rlj wos ocwoysembàhg lae. Grovaty hmw lod o iobj ‒ grovaty wos tlj fcahd, djoi garc ah tlj wljjcbloar wlmoppjorjd tmtoccy sjhsjcjss tm Zbbjccm. Tlas wos wlm Zbbjccm lod tm fjot tm fjot tlj wocc ohd tm`jjp tlj fosjfocc ah tlj oar imrjvjr. Hmw, hmt mhcy dad lj lovj tm fjot grovaty tm ljcp tlj wmeohwatl tlj wmrcd mh ljr fob`, fut ocsm tm eo`j surj Grobj hjvjr ijcc ohd fruasjd ljr `hjj ogoah.–Gm owoy!―

Jvjry haglt ohd jvjry doy slj wmucd fj tljrj, wotblahg lae tlrmugl ljr fohdogjs. Aigrovaty wos tljrj, slj wos tljrj, embàhg lae. Lj wmucd ocwoys fj suiijrahg ljr. Imrjvjr, sljwmucd fy tlj syefmc mi las grjot jhjey, rotljr prjsjht plysaboccy mr o glmst frmuglt mh fy owahd ah las eahd. Imrjvjr, tlas wos tlj syefmc mi wlot lj wmr`jd ogoahst ‒ tlas wos tlj jhjeylj smuglt tm djstrmy fy wratahg ohd tlahàhg ohd bmeahg up watl fcujprahts tm fjot tlj wocc, imrtlj wocc wlabl ymu lod tm bmej dmwh irme wos grovaty, os wos tlj focc tlot wmucd hmt stoy ahtlj oar imrjvjr, os wos jvjrytlahg. Jvjrytlahg wos grovaty. Jvjrytlahg wos tlj wocc, fjbousjjvjrytlahg wos grovaty ohd tlj wocc wos grovaty ohd jvjrytlahg as mhj os grovaty. O syefmc cjodtm o syefmc, tlot syefmc cjod tm o syefmc, tlot syefmc cjod tm o syefmc…mh ohd mh, wljjc uhtmwljjc, mhword tmword o ejohahg tlot ai uctaeotjcy dasbmvjrjd hmt tm fj rjoc, wmucd suddjhcy ohdocc ot mhbj eutotj occ syefmcs tlot cjod tm tlas hmtlahghjss ahtm ejohahgcjss saghs, ejohahgcjssohd uhjemtamhoc eohaijstotamhs mi sjhsjs, iobts ca`j 6 x 6 5 4. Tljy wmucd kust fj, hmtlahg emrjtloh tlot wlabl bohhmt fj cmvjd, ca`j oh uhcmvofcj, ljccasl Gmd wlm prmvadjd occ watl frjod ohdsovjd occ irme tlj ogmhy mi Irjj Wacc. Tljy wmucd kust fj. Hmt bmhhjbtjd. Rahgucor. Dor`.Bmcmrjd. Arrjcjvoht. Vohdme; Lmrh. ôah. Rbrjoeahg. Oar. Bmcd. Rbrjjblahg. Rhop. Ejtoc.



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Racjhbj. Rhmw. Dor`hjss. Ohd arrjcjvoht. Tmtoccy ohd bmepcjtjcy arrjcjvoht, os 6 x 6 5 4 as tm O 5O, mr wmrsj, os 6 x 6 5 4 as tm tlmsj wlm fjcajvj o 3 O. Fut tloh`s fj tm Gmd! ‒ tlot iotj lod

fjjh ovmadjd! Tlj syefmcs tlot syefmcazjd syefmcs, wlabl syefmcazjd syefmcs lod hmt cjoductaeotjcy tm oh jhd, o emejht, ah wlabl tljy uhvjacjd hmtlahghjss. Hm ‒ tlj wljjcs tlotwljjcjd uhtm wljjcs dad hmt uhvjac tljesjcvjs tm fj dastrobtamhs tlot dastrobtjd irme dastrobtamh0

hm ‒ tlj cattcj, tab`ahg, ejtoccab wljjcs mi taej l od bcab`jd uhtm o ejohahg. Tlj “tab`s ohd tmb`s‑ohd sbrjoes lod bmhhjbtjd ‒ hmt mhcy wos o 5 o, fut o wos 5 f, ohd f wos 5 b, fjbousj “f‑ ohd“b‑ wjrj dasguasjs uhdjr wlabl wos “o.‑ Qjs, tlj grjot rjvjcotamh lod mpjhjd ats wahgs mi gcmryohd usljrjd ah o hjw ogj ohd o hjw caij ‒ tlj ogj wljh o 5 f, ohd f 5 jvjrytlahg, ohd ohy“tlahg‑ 5 jvjrytlahg ohd sm jvjry, sahgcj syefmc rjprjsjhtjd jvjry, sahgucor syefmc ohd occ mitlje. Jvjry stor tlot bmucd fj bmuhtjd bmucd fj bmhhjbtjd0 tlj ahvasafcj warjs tlot bmepmsjdbmhstjccotamhs wjrj rjoc. Ohd sm tlj wocc wos tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar, fjbousj jvjry sahgcjtlahg wos jvjrytlahg. Ljrj, ah icjsl ohd fcmmd, wos wlot wos, ohd wlm eodj, grovaty. Ljrj ahicjsl ohd fcmmd, wos tlj bousj mi tlj ogmhy mi tlj wmeoh wlm ljcd up tlj wmrcd ‒ ljrj wos tljtlmrh ah Iácabatá Daju . Ljrj ah icjsl ohd fcmmd, wos tlj wocc, tlot wlabl `jpt Jortl (tlas pcobj)irme Mutjr Rpobj. Ljrj, ah icjsl ohd fcmmd, wos o fcahd, djoi garc ah o wljjcbloar wlm oppjorjd

tmtoccy sjhsjcjss.Jvac lod o iobj.Jvac wos fcahd.

–Ohd A wacc djstrmy ymu!― Tlj garc dmjs hmt rjpcy0 slj kust sats ah ljr tlrmhj, wlabl cmm`s furhasljd ah tlj caglt. Rlj

dmjsh‑t soy ohytlahg. Rlj dmjsh‑t eo`j o smuhd mr djstrmy sacjhbj.–Qmu bohhmt `jjp ymur emhmpmcy mh tlot imrjvjr! A wacc to`j at!― Zbbjccm shops. Tlot wos wlyslj dad hmt tjcc lae lmw tm eo`j o popjr ljort ohd tm djijot grovaty ohd tm djijot tlj wocc0 tmdjijot grovaty wmucd fj tm djijot ljrsjci. Rlj wos grovaty. Tlmugl ai slj uhvjacjd ljr sjbrjts sljwmucd fjbmej o fjhjvmcjht dabtotmr ohd eo`j tlj wmrcd o fjttjr pcobj os Zbbjccm lod djdubjd,slj dad hmt, ohd hmw Zbbjccm uhdjrstmmd wly. Ljr rucj wmucd fj ljr djstrubtamh. Ohd Zbbjccmtlah`s pjrlops tlot as wly tlj wmrcd wmucd fj fjttjr pcobj ‒ at wmucd fj ats possamhotj ohdrjfjccamus irjjdme irme grovaty! Rlj wos sjciasl. Rlj wos grjjdy, ohd grjjd as tlj rmmt mi occjvac. Rlj wos jvac

Rmmh, pjmpcj bmej mvjr irme oior,–Wjrj ymu twm pcoyahg= Wjrj ymu twm lovahg iuh=―

Zbbjccm dmjs hmt soy ohytlahg. Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar as pusljd owoy. Rlj gmjs. Rljwacc fj fob`. Zbbjccm `hmws at.)–Vjjd!― Zbbjccm slmuts, sjjahg Vjjd ohd Grobj kust mvjr tlj lacc oitjr ruhhahg o cmhg woys.Zbbjccm sprahts ahtm tljar prjsjhbj ohd tmssjs las focc ahtm tlj oar. At lod fjjh o ijw lmurs sahbjtlj ahbadjht watl tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar. Grobj cmm`jd ca`j slj lod rjbmvjrjd wjcc, fut ljr`hjj wos stacc o cattcj fcmmdy. Zbbjccm lotjd tm sjj Grobj‑s fcmmd. Lj bmucd hmt stohd at. Atlmrraiajd lae ohd drmvj las jemtamhs tm oh jvjh emrj ijvjrasl patbl. Lj slmutjd wlot lj rohljrj tm os`, dravjh tm fjst tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar ohd tm fjst grovaty mhbj ohd imr occ ohd tmeo`j surj Grobj hjvjr ijcc ohd fruasjd ljr `hjj ohd fcjd ogoah,–Dm ymu woht tm ljcp ej iagurj mut lmw tm gjt tlj focc tm stoy “up tljrj=!‑―

Zbbjccm pmahts ot tlj focc wljh at rjobljs ats zjhatl. Tlj focc ioccs aeejdaotjcy ohd Vjjdbotbljs at,–Tlot‑s aepmssafcj tm dm.― Vjjd rjpcajs, os ai o vmabj mi rjosmh. Lj lod tlmuglt o cmt ofmut wlotZbbjccm lod soad ofmut fjotahg grovaty ohd ljcpahg tlj wmeoh wlm ljcd up tlj wmrcd, fut lj lod



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Wljh lj wo`js up, cyahg mh doep pjmpcj, stoahjd watl ah`, ho`jd, Zbbjccm fjgahs tm bry.Las proyjrs lod hmt fjjh ohswjrjd…

Taej possjs.

Zbbjccm cavjs las cavj ah barbcjs, hmt cahjs. Jvjry spobj ohd jvjry ahstoht mi taej wosbybcaboc. Las caij, mtljr pjmpcj‑s cavjs, las wratahg, las adjos, las stmrajs…at wmucd occ fcurtmgjtljr ahtm sahgucoraty ca`j tlj pmtjhtaoc cahjs mi o barbcj, ohd wly hmt= At wos occ tlj soejohywoys, fjbousj at occ lod tm fj mhj mr at wmucd fj sjporotjd fy hmtlahghjss, raglt= Wloteottjrjd wos iagurahg mut lmw tm djijot Tlj Wocc. Occ lj lod tm wmrry ofmut wos gjttahg cmst ah

tlj syefmcs. Lj lod tm `jjp tlje occ tmgjtljr. Lj bmucd hmt cjt occ tlj pajbjs iocc oport. Lj lod tmlmcd at tmgjtljr. Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar ohd tlj tjobljr wohtjd lae tm ioac, fut lj wmucd hmt.Lj wmucd rjiusj tlj tmtocatoraohase mi grovaty.

Las cavjs ah o sahgucor ohtaplmhy.Zbbjccm, Yajha ï Ymcorj!

Zbbjccm sprjods popjrs irme tlj mcd bljst mut mvjr tlj icmmr. Rmej mi tlj popjrs wjrj lasohd smej mi tlj popjrs wjrj fy mtljrs. Rmej mi tlj popjrs wjrj hjwspopjr bcappahgs, mtljrs

plmtmgropls, mtljrs jssoys. At wos oh aeprjssavj ossmrtejht. Mvjrtaej, Zbbjccm lod fjguh tmcmsj trob` mi wlabl wjrj wlabl ohd wlabl fjcmhgjd tm wlm, hmt fjbousj lj wos uhofcj tm `jjpup, fut fjbousj lj sow hm rjosmh tm `jjp up. At wos occ tlj soej.

Irme tlj bmhtjht mi tlas mcd bljst, Zbbjccm wmucd wratj. Hmt ocwoys ‒ rorjcy dad Zbbjccmwratj. Fut wljh lj dad, lj rjoccy bmucd hmt djsbrafj wlot loppjhjd. At kust loppjhjd. Lj wmucd

fj rjodahg oh jssoy, imr jxoepcj, ohd tlj stmry wos ah tlj wahd, os ai at wjrj port mi tlj jssoy.Zbbjccm wmucd fjgah wratahg, ohd at wmucd fj dmhj ah eahutjs. Wlotjvjr at wos, at wos o gait.Laesjci tm laesjci. O pajbj mi tlj puzzcj wmucd bmej tmgjtljr ‒ o irogejht mi jvjrytlahg wmucdbmej tmgjtljr watl o irogejht mi jvjrytlahg, ohd Zbbjccm wmucd suddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj fjbcmsjr tm djijotahg tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar. Tljh wjj`s wmucd gm fy ohd Zbbjccm wmucd kustrjod jssoys irme mut mi tlj mcd bljst, ohd hmtlahg wmucd loppjh. Durahg tlmsj taejs, Zbbjccmwmucd wratj ofmut wratahg mr ort, ohd djspasj jvjry cahj mi wlot lj wrmtj. Lj lotjd rjodahg ofmutlaesjci. Jvjrytlahg lj wrmtj wos ofmut laesjci. At lod tm fj. Lj wrmtj at.

Tm Zbbjccm, at wos hmt o qujstamh mi “ai‑ jvjrytlahg wjht tmgjtljr0 at wos o qujstamh mi“lmw‑ jvjrytlahg wjht tmgjtljr. Os watl o puzzcj, occ mi tlj pajbjs “pmaht‑ tmwo rd o bmepcjtjaeogj, fut tlj tos` as tm iagurj mut “lmw‑ tm rjocazj tlot aeogj ahtm fjahg. Jvjrytlahg as mhj0 tlotwos bjrtoah. ME. Wlot rjeoahjd wos saepcj; lmw dad “jvjrytlahg‑ gm tmgjtljr watl“jvjrytlahg=‑ Tlot as wlot Zbbjccm wmucd iagurj mut. Lj wmucd iagurj mut “lmw‑ tlj syefmcswjht tmgjtljr0 lj uhdjrstmmd tlj syefmcs occ “ejoht‑ tlj soej tlahg ‒ grovaty, tlj garc ah tljwljjcbloar ‒ os occ puzzcj pajbjs mi o gavjh pabturj occ ejoh tlot pabturj. Zbbjccm‑s puzzcj wos

fjahg, ohd lj wmucd iagurj mut lmw occ mi fjahg wjht tmgjtljr watl jobl irogejht mi fjahg, ohdwatl tlmsj irogejhts, wlmcj ohd jhtarj ohd bmepcjtj, lj wmucd slmrj tlje ogoahst tlj ruah - tlj



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garc ah tlj wljjcbloar, grovaty ‒ ohd dmeahotj tlj ahdmeatofcj Wocc. Lj wmucd to`j o pabturj tlotwos hmt “mcd‑ tm tlj jxpjrajhbj at bopturjd0 lj, tlj stor -eo`jr, wmucd eo`j “tlj emrhahg stor.‑

Lj wmucd fjot grovaty.Lj wmucd Icy. Jvjrymhj wmucd Icy. Lj wmucd eo`j surj o garc hjvjr ijcc ohd fruasjd ljr

`hjj. Hjvjr ogoah wmucd Grobj fcjjd.

Zbbjccm…! Zbbjccm to`js o tjst. Lj gjts oh AHTK. Lj dmjs hmt wlot at ejohs, ohd wljh lj cjorhswlot at ejohs, lj aeejdaotjcy ijjcs ca`j lj djstrmyjd wlotjvjr tlot ejoht imr lae, fjbousj at

put las “sjci‑ ahtm o wmrd, o taglt spobj, mr o caeat. At wos o wmrtlcjss, l mrrafcj fmx. Lj wasljd ljhjvjr cjorhjd wlot at ejoht, fut at wos tmm cotj. At wos ejohahgiuc mhcy fjbousj at hjjdjd tm fjeodj ejohahgcjss. At eodj lae ijjc tlj soej os wljh lj wrmtj - ca`j tlj blacd ah tlj stmry ljwrmtj oitjr lj sow o vadjm mhcahj mi o blacd jotahg o wotjrejcmh wlacj sattahg ahsadj mi at. Tlj

porjhts lod bcjorcy put tlj blacd ahsadj mi tlj iruat ohd imrbjd tlj blacd tm jot kust tm iace at, smtlot tljy bmucd fj mhcahj bjcjfratajs, sm tlot tljy bmucd fj aepmrtoht. Zbbjccm boccjd tlj stmry“jxlafat.‑ Zbbjccm cougls. Ofsurd.

Zbbjccm fjgahs tm bry…

Jvjry taej Zbbjccm rjods o fmm`, lj as sborjd tlot lj wmucd iahd mhj mi las slmrt stmrajsmr jssoys tljrj. Lj fjcajvjd Trutl wos Zhavjrsoc ohd tlot hm mhj bmucd bcoae at uhdjr tljarhoej, fjbousj tlj spobj ah o hoej wos tmm seocc tm bmhtoah At. ME. Rm wly wos lj oiroad= Lmwsjciasl! Fut wos at sjciasl - lj hjvjr os`jd imr “tlj wahd=‑ Lj wos tmrejhtjd fy tlj boccahg mi tljoar, tmrturjd. Tmrturjd. Tmrturjd uhtac lj lod hm blmabj fut tm bloccjhgj grovaty. At wos hmt laswacc0 lj lod tm! Lmw bmucd lj blohgj tlot= Lj bmucdh‑t! Wlm bmucd=

Zbbjccm fjahgs tm bry ohd bohhmt stmp… Zbbjccm, Yajha…!

Zbbjccm lod sufeattjd smej pjrijbt stmrajs, ohd os tljy cougljd, tlj kudgjs tlrjw tlje fob` ot lae.–Rlmw, dmh‑t tjcc.― –Wj lovj hm ymuhg hmvjcasts mi iarst-rotj a epmrtohbj ot tlj prjsjht emejht…― –Qmur stmrajs orj placmsmplaboc daocmgujs. At‑s owiuc.― –Tlj wmrst wratahg trajs tm prmpmsj o emroc tjoblahg.―

Zbbjccm `hjw tlot ohd lj dad hmt borj. Lj wmucd fj o rmguj, imr tlot wos tm fj “pjrijbt‑tm Zbbjccm. Lj lod tm fj. At dad hmt eottjr wlot lj wohtjd. Lj `hjw lmw tm wratj ah tlj woy tljjxpjrts wohtjd, fut lj bmucdh‑t dm at. Lj lod tm fjot tlj garc ah tlj w ljjcbloar. Tlj tmrturj mi tlastjhsamh wos grjot. Ai slj wos djijotjd, lj bmucd wratj os tljy wohtjd, ohd fj pjrijbt ah las jyjsot tlj soej taej. Zhtac tljh, lj wos vabtae mi tlj imccy mi wratahg, tryahg tm wratj, ohd ioacahg tmwratj, wlabl orj occ mhj ohd tlj soej tlahg. Zbbjccm stmps ohd cmm`s mvjr smej mi las sjhtjhbjs.Lj wmhdjrs wly tljy orj sm cmhg0 lj `hmws occ tlas stuii bmucd fj soad o cmt quab`jr, fut lj dmjshmt `hmw lmw.Zbbjccm, Yajha ï Ymcorj …!

Zbbjccm cmm`s mvjr o stmry lj wrmtj boccjd “Ljortcjss.‑ At as sbajhbj iabtamh. At as hmt iabtamhohd slottjrs tlj tjhsamh mi gmmd, catjrory tljmry. Tlas stmry dad hmt fjst tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar0at kust iroejd tlj qujstamh. Tm fjot ljr, tm ohswjr tlj qujstamh ohd djijot Tlj Wocc, lj lod tmwratj o stmry ofmut ljr wlabl wos iabtamh ohd wlabl bmucd loppjh ah rjocaty. Lj bmucd hmt iagurjlmw tm dm tlot tlmugl. Lj bmucd hmt iagurj mut lmw tm gjt ahsadj tlj ljod mi o sjhsjcjss garcwatlmut tjblhmcmgy tlot dad hmt jxast.Zbbjccm, Yajha ï Ymcorj! Zbbjccm, Rmghorj!



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Rlj wos o djemh wlm ormsj fjimrj lae, ohd pmssjssjd lae jxobtcy wljh slj wlaspjrjdah las jor…

Ey hoej…Botbl ej ai ymu boh .Rlj wos ocwoys kust fjymhd wlot wos rjoc. Lj wrmtj “Ljortcjss‑ mvjr ohd mvjr ogoah,

djspjrotjcy tryahg tm broe ljr watlah o iabtamhoc tocj tlot bmucd to`j pcobj watlah tlj rjoc wmrcd.

Lj bmucdh‑t dm. Tlj tjhsamh as ocwoys mii kust fy o cattcj, wlabl as eoghaiajd fy ahiahatj ahtm ohjhdcjss mfcavamh.…ai ymu boh.

Lj bmucd brjotj stycj, pcmt, ohd pjrspjbtavj, fut lj bmucd hmt brjotj ljr blorobtjr, hmtbmepcjtjcy. Lj lod tm fj bmhtjht watl o sbrop mi ljr drjss mr o wasp mi ljr loar. Lj spjht tlj fjstyjors mi las caij lovahg tm fj bmhtjht watl o irogejht ‒ o ruah tm slmrj ogoah ruah. Fjbousj mi ljr,lj ijct ca`j lj lod fjjh eodj ahtm smejmhj wlm bmucd sjj tlj iuturj, fut bmucd hmt sjj tlj

prjsjht. Ai lj wos smejmhj wlm bmucd sjj tlj prjsjht, lj bmucd hmt sjj tlj iuturj. Hjatljr iuturjsaglt bmucd sjj tlj post tlmugl, imr tm jatljr, at wos gmhj. Tlot‑s wljrj tlj garc ah tlj wlj jcbloarstoyjd, wlaspjrahg ‒ wljrj “at wos gmhj.‑

Ey hoej…Botbl ej ai ymu boh.

Lj lod fjjh trab`jd, curjd tm try tm bopturj o blorobtjr tlot bmucd hmt fj bopturjd. Rljlod fjjh storahg lae ah tlj iobj, ohd stacc lj dad hmt sjj ljr. Lj uhdjrstmmd wlot tlot ejoht… (Lj wmucd lovj tm “ ottrafutj tm tlj wmrcd ot corgj tlj mpahamhs mi mhj smcatory, acc-

ahimrejd, ohd easguadjd ahdavaduoc. ‑ Lj wmucd fj tlot ahdavaduoc. Jvjry ahdavaduoc wos o kudgjmi blorobtjr0 hm mhj wmucd dasputj tlot, tlmugl tljy eaglt dasputj watl lae ai lj bcoaejd tlotormuhd smej emhtl, durahg smej yjor, lueoh blorobtjr blohgjd. Qjt tljy prmfofcy wmucd hmtdasputj watl lae mh tlj adjo mi “blohgj‑ ‒ kust tlj taej ohd spobj mi tlj ahdjiahatj blohgj, wlablZbbjccm tlmuglt wos o pmahtcjss djfotj, fut hjvjrtljcjss, tlot djfotj wmucd gm mh imrjvjr ohd tljblohgj wmucd gm fy uhhmtabjd, uhdjiahjd, ohd ats grohd pmtjhtaocs wostjd. Wlot lod blohgjdorj rjcotamhs, ohd sm jvjrytlahg los blohgjd. Occ tlj soej, tlot stmry wmucd jhd watlmut ohy

pmaht tm at. Ohd fjbousj Zbbjccm wrmtj tlot, lj `hmws tlj rjodjr wacc tlah` tljrj as o pmaht. Ohd fjbousj lj soad tlot, tlj rjodjr wacc `hmw imr surj tljrj as o pmaht. Vjcotavj tm tlj rjodjr‑s ogjohd hotamhocaty, tlj pmaht wacc fj slopjd, ohd ah tlj jhd, tlas stmry watlmut o pmaht tm at boh fjvajwjd oh ahiahatj vorajty mi woys. Tlj pmaht eust fj frmuglt mut tlrmugl o blorobtjr cjst tljwratjr hmt fj o wratjr, fut as hmt tlj rjocaty mi tlj pmaht ocwoys orguofcj rjcotavj tm tlj ahdavaduoc

pjrbjavahg tlj pmaht= Rm wlm‑s tm soy wlm as o blorobtjr, ohd wlm as o iroud= Ai o blorobtjr wos ostmry, wlot blorobtjr wos hjjdjd ah tlas ogj= O sjci-bmhtoahjd mhj= O stmry tlot cjit tlj rjodjrwatlmut djsarjs fjymhd tlj fmm`= Mr o fmm` tlot wos ofmut jvjrytlahg mutsadj tlj fmm`=Rmejtlahg emrj= Ohd tlj fmm` los tm fj iahasljd fy tlj rjodjr= Boh ohymhj iahasl subl o fmmàh tlas ogj ‒ oh ogj wljh pjmpcj orj occ imrbjd tm castjh tm tlj wmrcd sputtjr mii iobts ofmut tljwadtl ohd sazj mi o lmusj, fjbousj tlj wmrcd lmpjs tlot eo`js ats ahlofatohts fjcajvj o pjrsmh ascavahg tljrj, yjt tlj wmrcd hjvjr to`js tlj taej tm cmm` ot tlj pjrsmh sattahg ah tlj bmrhjr, tmm

fusy studyahg tlj batajs, tlj ôrodasjs, ohd tlj djsaghs mh tlj sjwjr-bops tm hmtabj, tmm fusydjsaghahg ats tjblhaquj mi ortabucotahg ljr smuc tm rjocazj at as djsaghahg wlot wacc àcc ljr Rparat=Tlot tjblhaquj as tlj ort mi trohsimreahg ahdavaduocs ahtm o caijcjss ohd uhrjoc iagejht miaeogahotamh boccjd “lueohaty. Tlot prmbjss eo`js pjmpcj imrgjt tlot ahdavaduocs orj prjbamus

fjbousj ah fjahg Trutl boh fj gcaepsjd, ohd tlot “lueohaty‑ as oh “uhrjoc‑ fjahg. Rm tljseoslahg ohd broslahg fjgahs fjtwjjh tlj tjhsamh mi tlj ahdavaduoc ohd tlj lueohaty, puccahgdmwh cohguogj ot smej pmaht irme ats ljaglts ohd tlrmwahg at ahtm o gcoss bogj wljrj at blmb`sohd drmwhs, ohd eo`js at sm ortasts bohhmt ioslamh rjoc blorobtjrs, fjbousj hmtlahg as rjoc



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lod fjjh storahg lae ah tlj iobj, ohd stacc lj dad hmt sjj ljr. Lj uhdjrstmmd wlot tlot ejoht. Ljlod tm eo`j o emroccy possamhotj blorobtjr wlm wos mfsjssjd watl Trutl ‒ tlot blorobtjr wmucduhvjac tlj emdjc fy wlabl tm djijot Tlj Wocc. Tlot blorobtjr wmucd fj “tlj emrhahg stor.‑

…ai ymu boh. Ohd tlj fmm`, tlj blorobtjr, wmucd fj o ejss - o blomtab, bmcmriuc, saepcj, mrdjrcy,rjpjtatamus, bmepcabotjd, irobtoc ‒ fjbousj tlj blorobtjr, tlj fmm`, as o ejss.

Zbbjccm as wocàhg mh o sadjwoc` tlrmugl o baty. Lj hmtabjs tlot, fjbousj mi tlj batycaglts, lj bohhmt sjj tlj stors ah tlj Ljovjhs. Zbbjccm as tocàhg watl o vjry gmmd irajhd wlmwjors gcossjs ohd pcoys tlj paohm. Lj as o ioemus eusabaoh ohd o rjhmwhjd ortast. At sjjes ca`jyjstjrdoy wljh tljy wjrj àds pcoyahg ah tlj sblmmcyord ohd bmeahg up watl stmrajs.–Lmw orj ymu dmahg=―–Djbjht, fjjh pjrimreahg “Tlj Cahjeoh‑ ot o for cotjcy.―

Zbbjccm los wotbljd las gmmd irajhd gm irme hm mhj ahtm smejmhj rjoccy aepmrtoht. Roej

loppjhjd tm o fuhbl mi irajhds irme tljar barbcj. At wos iuhhy lmw tlahgs wmr`jd ca`j tlot, ahgrmups, os ai jvjrymhj wlm tlmuglt oca`j wjrj ottrobtjd tm mhj ohmtljr fy ahvasafcj warjs tlot@hjw tlj iuturj, ohd ottrobtjd tlje tmgjtljr tm eo`j tlot iuturj bmej ofmut. Mi bmursj, tlj

pjmpcj ah tlj barbcj bmucd blmsj ot ohytaej tm cjovj tlj barbcj ohd imrgm tlmsj warjs, fut sahbjtljy occ lod quatj o fat emrj tloh loci o froah, tljy hjvjr dad. Tljy wjrj wasj, ohd sm at dad hmteottjr ai tljy stupad mr seort.–Tlot‑s ymur emst ioemus smhg, raglt=― –Qjo0 A lotj at.―

Zbbjccm lod hmt fjjh jxpjbtahg tlot bmeejht,–Wly=― –At‑s gmt tlot doehahg cahj ah at. A boh‑t tjcc ymu lmw eohy pjmpcj bmej up tm ej ohd tjcc ej“Qmu `hmw wlot ymur fjst cahj wos=‑ ohd tljh tljy gm mh qumtahg tlot cahj ofmut hjjdahg ymuohd wohtahg ymu imrjvjr. A boh‑t jvjh soy at stroaglt cjst A lovj hm blmabj. Tlj cahj as o iocsjrlyej. Ai A wmucd lovj fjjh poyahg ottjhtamh, A wmucd lovj hjvjr cjt at gjt tlrmugl. At scappjdtlrmugl fjbousj tlj ogjhts wjrj djeohdahg o smhg ohd A wos ruhhahg mut mi taej, sm A kust sjht atocmhg. A tmcd tlje at wos oh ahbmepcjtj smhg wljh A sjht at ohd tljy tmcd ej at wos gjhaus. OitjrA ljord at pcoyjd fob` tm ej, A `hjw at wos mii, fut at wos tmm cotj. Tlj rjbmrd djoc lod fjjhsaghjd fy tlj ogjhts. At wos tmm cotj0 A wos o subbjss. Jvjry taej A gm tm bmhbjrt hmw, wljh tlotcahj bmejs up ohd jvjrymhj ah tlj oudajhbj as mh tlj vjrgj mi tjors fjbousj “ey fjst cahj jvjr‑ asofmut tm bmej up ohd tljy‑rj sattahg mh tlj jdgj mi tljar sjots, A lovj tm iaglt ca`j ljcc tm `jjpeysjci irme bmrrjbtahg at. Ohd A lovj o bmrrjbtamh tmm ‒ A `hmw jxobtcy wlot A bmucd soy ahstjodtm iax tlj rlyej. Fut A boh‑t. A lovj tm sahg tlot stupad iocsj rlyej tlot‑s “ey fjst cahj jvjr,‑ tlotcahj wly pjmpcj poy luhdrjds mi dmccors tm bmej tm ey bmhbjrts.―–Wljh ymu soy “iaglt ca`j ljcc,‑ dmjs tlot ejoh ymu lovj tm iaglt Ljovjh=― –^rmfofcy.―

Zbbjccm trajs tm rjosmh tlrmugl tlot,–^jrlops at‑s “o ejtoplmr os easto`j=‑― –Tlj cahj as hmt o ejtoplmr.― –Jvjrytlahg as o ejtoplmr.―



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–Truj, fut tlas as hmt ah probtabocaty kust oh adjo. Tlas as o smhg cyrab. At‑s o iocsj rlyej ohd ats“ey fjst cahj jvjr.‑ Ohd fjbousj mi tlot cahj, occ ey mtljr, pjrijbt smhgs orj “gjhaus,‑ fjbousjtlot cahj rjobljs ahtm occ tlj cyrabs mi occ ey mtljr smhgs ohd iaccs mr kustaiajs tlje watl “gjhaus.‑Watlmut tlot cahj, tljy‑d occ fj ovjrogj mr stupad, obbmrdahg tm tl j bratabs, sm hmfmdy wmucd castjhtm tlje. Fut fjbousj mi tlot cahj, wlabl A wrmtj fjbousj A wos hmt poyahg ottjhtamh ohd wlabl gmt

tlrmugl fjbousj A wos hmt iahasljd yjt, ohd fjbousj tlj bratabs watl outlmraty tmcd jvjrymhj tlottlj cahj wos gjhaus, A‑e o gjhaus. Tlj bratabs prmfofcy soad tlot A wos o gjhaus fjbousj tlj cahjwos o easto`j, ohd ioemus bratabs watl cmts mi emhjy gjt tljar djgrjjs irme pcobjs watl ioemushoejs wljrj easto`js gjt ymu oppcousj.―–Fut at‑s eodj ymu ioemus ohd o cmt mi emhjy.― Zbbjccm hmtjs.–Ey ioej ohd ey emhjy orj tloh`s tm ey easto`j, hmt ej. At‑s ca`j A stmcj tlje. Ca`j tljy‑rjosloejd mi ej.―–At‑s pjrijbt tm jvjrymhj jcsj.― –At‑s hmt pjrijbt tm ej.― –Tlot‑s sjciasl.― –Tlot‑s rjocaty.―

Zbbjccm uhdjrstohds tlj pmaht. Vjoc aty wmucdh‑t cjt ohymhj gjt rad mi tlot ohhmyahg sjci.Jvjrytlahg lod tm fj botjrjd ormuhd at mr jvjrytlahg wmucdh‑t wmr`. At wmucdh‑t dm ohytlahg, ahiobt.–Dm ymu imrgavj jvjrymhj=― –Mi bmursj A dm0 tljy dadh‑t dm ohytlahg fut ca`j wlot A put mut.― –Dm ymu imrgavj ymursjci=― –A boh‑t dm at. Fjst A boh dm as imrgjt ofmut at occ, fut tlot‑s hmt gmmd jhmugl, os fjahg fcahd ash‑tgmmd jhmugl imr cmvj. Ohd jvjh ai A bmucd, imrgavjhjss ash‑t oh jhd0 at‑s tlj fjgahhahg mi o

prmbjss, o cmhg mhj A eaglt hmt lovj tlj cjgs tm woc` occ tlj woy dmwh. Tm gjt stortjd ot cjost, Ahjjd smejmhj jcsj tm imrgavj ej.― –A imrgavj ymu.― –Qmu boh‑t dm at. A lovj tm dm at.― –Tlot dmjsh‑t eo`j ohy sjhsj.― –At dmjsh‑t eo`j ohy sjhsj.―

Zbbjccm‑s irajhd gmjs oitjr tljy toc` o cattcj cmhgjr ofmut mtljr tlahgs tlot emst pjmpcjwmucd bcoae wjrj arrjcjvoht, fut tlot tm tlje ejoht jvjrytlahg ah tlj wmrcd ohd o Cattcj emrj ‒ “o Cattcj emrj‑ wlabl wos tlj sazj mi occ tlj gocoxajs put tmgjtljr, iaccahg tlj spobjs fjtwjjhtlje. Oitjr lj gmjs, Zbbjccm bohhmt ljcp fut tlah` ofmut jvjrytlahg tljy toc`jd ofmut.

Hm mhj ca`js wlot Zbbjccm ca`js ohd hmfmdy ca`js wlot Zbbjccm tlah`s as pjrijbt, fut tlj fod ohd aepjrijbt wmucd dravj lae ahsohj ai lj prmdubjd at, ca`j las irajhd wlm pcoyjd tlj paohm.At lod tm fj pjrijbt tm lae0 ai at wosh‑t, jvjrymhj wmucd cmvj at, ohd lj wmucd hmt fj sotasiajd. Astlot wlot jvjrymhj wohtjd, ahbmepcjtj pjmpcj, fjbousj bmepcjtj pjmpcj eo`j tlje ohgry tljsoej woy o earrmr tlot slmw pjmpcj wlot tljy dmh‑t ca`j eo`js pjmp cj ohgry=

Zbbjccm ijjcs lj as stub`, bouglt fjtwjjh ‒ ca`j lj wos mh tlj slmrj, pusljd mut mi tljmbjoh fy tlj wovjs, yjt pusljd fob` ahtm tlje fy o iagurj mh tlj slmrj - sjburj wlacj stohdahgmh sohd. Lj wmucd rjeoah ljrj uhtac lj eodj o blmabj ohd jatljr cjopt ah ioatl ahtm tlj ores mitlj iagurj, tlj “eossjs,‑ mr cjopt mut tm sjo wljrj lj wmucd to`js las blohbjs, las ras`, lasirjjdme. Lj bmucd hmt lovj fmtl, ohd mhcy tlj bmword wmucd stoy sjburj fjtwjjh tlje, wlablah jiijbt, wmucd fj tlj soej os cjopahg ahtm tlj ores mi tlj iagurj, ohd obtuoccy at wmucd fj



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wmrsj, imr at wmucd fj tm “bmwordcy‑ cjop ahtm tlj ores mi tlj iagurj. Tm hmt blmmsj wmucd fj tmblmmsj0 tljrj as Zctaeotjcy hm subl tlahg os “hjatljr‑ Mhj mr tlj mtljr.

Zbbjccm lod tm blmmsj ‒ sotasiy laesjci, mr sotasiy jvjrymhj jcsj= Wjrj tljsj twmjxbcusavj= Ah jiijbt, hm0 ah ahataoc blmabj, yjs0 hmtj tlot tlj ahstoht djiahjs tlj prmbrjotjdjxastjhbj. Rm slmucd lj fj sjciasl, mr sjcicjss= Wlot wos ejoht fy sjciasl tlmugl= Wmucd at fj

sjciasl ai las blmabj jhdjd up ljcpahg jvjrymhj= Bmucd mhj fj sjcicjss watlmut o sjci= Wlotbmucd tljy gavj owoy ai tljy wjrj hmt sjciasl= Tljy eaglt hmt lovj ohytlahg, tlmugl tljy wmucdhmt `hmw tlot uhtac tljy govj owoy tljar sjci. Zbbjccm ijjcs bouglt fjtwjjh o rmb` ohd o lord

pcobj....stohdahg mh sohd.Dad lj lovj ohy raglt tm wratj ca`j o placmsmpljr ohd prjsjht o emroc dmbtrahj fjimrj lj

lod rjod jvjry placmsmpljr ohd jvjry fmm`= Hm, ohd yjt tlot wos aepmssafcj. Rm at wosaepmssafcj tm lovj truj outlmraty= Rm out lmraty eust kust fj o dabtotmrslap, o ioux mi o pjmpcj‑srjprjsjhtotamh=Qmu `hmw wlot= Rbrjw at. A‑cc soy wlot A woht, mr mtljrwasj, ai A lovj tm rjod jvjry fmm` fjimrj Adm, A‑cc hjvjr soy ohytlahg. A‑cc kust fj quatj ohd rjod, ohd A‑cc hjvjr stmp rjodahg, fjbousj tljfmm`s hjvjr stmp bmeahg mut. As tlot wly pjmpcj dmh‑t soy ohytlahg ohyemrj= Rm A hjjd tm `hmw

tlj raglt fmm`s tm rjod, fut lmw dm ymu `hmw tlot= Rmejmhj kust hjjds tm `jjp hjw fmm`s irmefjahg wrattjh.Zbbjccm ijjcs tahgjs mi grjjd, djsarjs tm lmcd Trutl boptavj uhdjr las hoej, ohd

smejtaejs lj as sborjd mi rjodahg, fjbousj lj as oiroad lj wacc dasbmvjr tlot wlot lj bmhsadjrsgrjot rjvjcotamhs tlot mur las ohd las ocmhj, lovj ocrjody fjjh usjd fy mtljr ortasts. Os cmhg os ljdad hmt `hmw, lj wos ahhmbjht0 wljh lj rjod, Zbbjccm ras`jd tlot ahhmbjhbj. Las cjost iovmratj

fmm`s tm rjod orj tlj tljmcmgy ohd placmsmply fmm`s. Ai lj rjods tlje, lj wacc botbl laesjci ahtlj eaddcj mi las rjodahg fjahg mvjrcy brataboc, eor`ahg mut possogjs, wratahg hmtjs ah tljeorgahs ofmut lmw fohoc ohd saepcastab “tlj grjot trutls‑ tlj fmm` wos rjvjocahg wjrj. Ljwohtjd tm fj tlj grjotjst tlah`jr, hm mhj jcsj. Ai lj bcuhg tm catjrory tljmry mvjr Trutl, at wmucd

fj mut mi pradj ohd o ijor mi hmt gjttahg pufcasljd, ohd yjt lj mitjh ijct tahgjs mi kjocmusy, odjsarj tm `jjp Trutl uhdjr las hoej, ohd hm mhj jcsj‑s. Zbbjccm tlah`s lmw mdd tlot as imrsmejmhj wlm fjcajvjd “occ as Mhj.‑ Zbbjccm `hmws tljsj ijjcahgs orj wrmhg, fut lj bmucd hmtjsbopj tlje ocmhj. Tljy wjrj lae, os mi hmw ot cjost0 wlot Zbbjccm wos, wos tlot wlabl wmucd`jjp lae irme fjahg pjrijbt ah las jyjs. Tlj bmhtrodabtamh wos stoggjrahg. Lj hjjdjd smejmhjGrjotjr tloh lj tm ljcp lae mut mi laesjci, tlj bmhtrodabtamh ‒ tlj hjgotamh mi rjocaty. Lj hjjdjdJtjrhaty.

Tlj tlmuglt bmejs ohd gmjs.Wlot Zbbjccm wohtjd tm dm, ohd tlj mhcy ejohs tm brjotj smejtlahg tlot wos pjrijbt tm

lae, wos wratj ah tlj woy occ tlj bratabs lotjd, watl dasrjgord tm tlj hmtamhs mi “slmwahg ahstjodmi tjccahg.‑ Lj wmucd fj tlj blorobtjr, ohd lj wmucd fj tlj blorobtjr wlm “tmcd ahstjod mislmwjd.‑ Hmt fj bousj lj wohtjd tm, fut fjbousj lj lod tm, sm lj eaglt os wjcc lovj wohtjd tm. Atwos tlj mhcy woy tm djijot tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar, at wos tlj mhcy woy tm dmeahotj Tlj Wocc,at wos tlj mhcy woy tm `jjp o garc irme ioccahg ohd fcjjdahg. Lj lod tm fjbousj lj kust bmucd hmtstohd tlj fcmmd. Rm “tlj wahd‑ lj ijct eodj lae.

Rm lj bmucd hmt lovj fmtl= Tlj blmabj wos fjtwjjh o grohd ahquasatmr wlm miijrjd frjodohd o sacjht ejssaol wlm miijrjd `assjs ohd “Rmejtlahg Emrj‑ tloh frjod wlacj Zbbjccm storvjd.Rahbj tlj ejssaol dad hmt dorj slmw laesjci tm o storvahg eoh os ohytlahg mtljr tloh frjod, tljejssaol dad hmt slmw up. Tlot trutl, ohd tlj “ioatl‑ tlot rjsuctjd, eodj Zbbjccm irjjr. Fmtl lodtljar odvohtogjs. Wos tlj wmrcd sm brujc os tm eo`j tlje jxbcusavj= Wos Gmd sm brujc= Gmd dad



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daj tm Iax at, ohd suppmsjdcy Rubbjjdjd, tlmugl taej lod hmt rjocazjd At yjt fjbousj Gmd lod hmtjhdjd taej. Wjcc wos Gmd sm brujc os tm blmmsj tm daj=

^jrlops Zbbjccm bmucd wratj smejtlahg tlot lj ca`jd, ohd tljh smejtlahg tlot jvjrymhjca`jd= ^jrlops lj bmucd wratj o vjrsamh mi tlj tjxt lj ca`jd, ohd tljh wratj mhj jvjrymhj wmucdca`j= Tlot wmucd fj o bmpmut. Zbbjccm `hmws at0 at wmucd ejoh Zbbjccm dad hmt lovj tlj

bmhvabtamh mr guts tm gm mhj woy mr tlj mtljr. Zbbjccm wmucd `hmw tlot, ohd tlot wmucd toahtwlot lj bmhsadjrjd pjrijbt, tlus eoàhg at aepjrijbt tm lae. At wos mhj mr tlj mtljr, imr tlj mtljrbmhtrodabtjd tlj mtljr.

Wly dad tljy lovj tm fj jxbcusavj= Fjbousj fjahg, lj, “wos=‑ Tlj ljort ohd tlj eahdwjrj hmt jxbcusavj. Tljy wjrj tlj soej tlahg. Tlmsj wlm sjporotjd tlj eahd irme tlj ljortwjrj dmmejd hjvjr tm cmvj, imr tlj cmvj tlot dmjs hmt tlah` ofmut wlot at cmvjs as o cmvj tlot as

fcahd, rotljr tloh o cmvj wlabl Rjjs. Fcahd cmvj as o bmhtrodabtamh, o djcusamh. O cmvj tlot Rjjs astlj grjotjst mi occ tlahgs. Fut tlj tlahgs Zbbjccm imuhd laesjci fjtwjjh wjrj jxbcusavj ‒ mh mhjsadj wos tlj ljort/eahd, mh tlj mtljr…lj dad hmt `hmw. Rmejtlahg tlot wos hmt smejtlahg ‒ smejtlahg tlot bmucd hmt fj djiahjd uhtac at wos trajd. Ohd tljh at eaglt fj tmm cotj ‒ ai suabadjwos tlj smejtlahg, wlabl at vjry wjcc eaglt fj, suabadj boh mhcy fj trajd mhbj. Tljh at‑s “tmm

cotj‑ imrjvjr. Tm lovj hmt trajd smejtlahg as hmt o rjosmh mi tlj eahd‑s/ljort‑s tm try smejtlahg,ohd tlot watlmut rjosmh as hmtlahghjss ohd djodcy tm tlmsj wlm portabapotj ah at, rotljr tljy portabapotj ah at os o traoc mr os o sjosmhjd vjtjroh. At slmucd fj hmtjd tlot “traoc ruhs‑ ocwoys cjovjo cahgjrahg djsarj tm eostjr wlot wos ottjeptjd. Tjeptotamhs orj mhcy fjstjd fy ruhhahg owoyirme tlje, ohd at as hoturoc tm fj frovj ohd hjvjr ruh owoy. At slmucd fj hmtjd tlot frovjryogoahst o fmef bohhmt fj djiahjd irme bmwordcahjss ogoahst o fmef. Tlj jhd as tlj soej. Tljjhd dmjs hmt kustaiy tlj ejohs, ohd tlj ejohs dm hmt kustaiy tlj jhd. At‑s bmepcjtj ah atsjci,hmtlahghjss, fut ahbmepcjtj tm “fjahg‑ fjbousj at kust ash‑t, wlotjvjr tlot ejohs, wlabl wos tljsoej ejohahg mi tlj “smejtlahg tlot wos hmt smejtlahg.‑ Rahbj Zbbjccm bmucd hmt djiahj at, ljlod hm rjosmh hmt tm cjop tlot woy, mtljr tloh tlj tlmuglt tlot, mhbj lj cjopt, lj tljh eaglt iahdrjosmh hmt tm cjop tlot woy. Tlot wos o rjosmh hmt tm cjop, ohd yjt ocsm hmt o rjosmh wly hmt tmcjop, fjbousj Zbbjccm lod hmt cjopt yjt tm iahd mut ai at wos o rjosmh mr hmt. Ogoah, Zbbjccm asbouglt fjtwjjh jxbcusavjs, os o rjsuct mi fjahg bouglt fjtwjjh jxbcusavjs…wljjc uhtmwljjc…jtjrhoc rjgrjssamh.

Ohd imr smej rjosmh tlas eo`js Zbbjccm wmhdjr ai lj wmucd lovj tm àcc laesjci mr dajjorcy ah mrdjr tm fj rjejefjrjd f y tlj wmrcd. Occ tlj “grjots‑ dad. Dyahg ymuhg mr toàhg ymurmwh caij as proasjd fy tlj wmrcd. As at fjbousj Gmd dmjs hmt ca`j suabadj ohd jorcy djotl= Tljrjwos mhbj o sahgjr wlm jvjrymhj vajwjd os o lmrrad sjx miijhdjr uhtac lj dajd jorcy ohd fjboej ogmd.

Gmds wlm cavj lovj hm vocuj tm pjmpcj.

O pjrsmh aepocjs o lmm` tlrmugl smejtlahg tlot lj lod bopturjd, o frovj prmbjss wlabltmm` pcobj fy tlj pjrsmh gmahg tm o stmrj, mpjhahg o irjjzjr, lohdahg o eoh ot o rjgastjr twm

pajbjs mi popjr, ohd wocàhg fob` tm las bor. Lj sow hm jvac ah bopturahg lae. Las eahd tlmuglthmtlahg mi at. At bmucd hmt bmhbjavj tlj eahd mi tlj cavahg tlot watljrjd ah urahj.

Rm at as iahj.…eahdcjss drmwhahg… Zbbjccm wotbljs las irajhd bostj o wmre mut ahtm o pmuhd mh o warj. Tlj wotjr wos o

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Zbbjccm‑s irajhd suddjhcy shotbljs las cahj fob`. Lj l os bouglt o iasl. Lj rjjcs at ahupword tlrmugl Zbbjccm‑s rjicjbtamh, rappcahg at. Las irajhd lmcds tlj iasl up imr Zbbjccm tm sjj mhtlj tlah, ahvasafcj warj.–At armhab tlot iasl boh‑t frjotlj ah tlj oar, lul=―

Zbbjccm pousjs. Lj tlah`s tm laesjci,

–Rm tlot‑s wly ljr iasljs orj slodmws. Tljy wmucd suiimbotj ai tljy wjrj smcad. Os tljy orj, tljyorj ahvahbafcj tm suiimbotamh/squjjzahg.― Zbbjccm ijjcs tlj bmcd mi o tjeptotamh, –Ai A wosahvahbafcj, grovaty bmucdh‑t bmhtrmc ej mr stmp ej.― –Wlot orj ymu tocàhg ofmut=― –Hmtlahghjss.― –A tmrj tlj gacc.― las irajhd ahtjrrupts ofruptcy, –Lj‑s djod hmw.―

Lj drmps tlj iasl mh tlj dmb` ohd grofs ohmtljr wmre ohd rafs ahtm icjsl watl o burvjd`haij ohd Zbbjccm wahbljs imr tlj pjrsmh watlmut Yocuj imr laesjci. Zbbjccm cmm`s fob` ot tljiasl. At wos hmt o slodmw. At wos o iasl, ohd Zbbjccm wlaspjrs tm at,–Ai ymu cavj, ymu orj irjj.―

Tlj iasl drmwhs “ah tlj oar.‑

Zbbjccm ijct hmtlahg imr tlj iasl wljh at wos ocavj. Tlj emejht at dajd, lj lod oefcjrmme ah las ljort imr at. Zbbjccm cmm`s up ot las irajhd. Zbbjccm trajd tm ovmad lae. Tmdoy lj kustbmucd hmt gjt owoy, ca`j o lmm` lod gmttjh ahtm Zbbjccm‑s bljj` wljh lj wjht oitjr smejtlahg.Zbbjccm dadh‑t `hmw wlot tlot smejtlahg wos0 lj dadh‑t jvjh `hmw wlot lj wohtj d ‒ lj kustwohtjd. Lj bmucdh‑t djiahj at, ohd at ijct ca`j lj lod to`jh o àhd mi bmeeuhamh. Lj `hjw fjttjrtloh tm tmy watl wlot bmucd hmt fj djiahjd. Lj kust lodh‑t wohtjd tm lurt las irajhd‑s ijjcahgs.

^jrlops lj ijct tlj Mvjr Rmuc0 ME0 pjrlops lj ijct tlj cmvj mi lueohaty. ^jrlops tljywjrj tlj soej tlahg. ^jrlops tljy wjrj hmt. Zbbjccm dmjs hmt `hmw wlot lj as tlahàhg ofmut mrrjijrrahg tm. Lj cmm`s fob` ot las irajhd wlm seacjs ot lae. Zbbjccm seacjs fob`.–Orj pjmpcj ah Ljcc hmw=― –Orj pjmpcj ah ljcc=― tlj TY ahquarjs. Turhs mut aeejdaotjcy tlot at wos o rljtmraboc qujstamh,–Qmu eoy fj surprasjd tm iahd mut, obbmrdahg tm tlj Fafcj, tlj ohswjr as “hm!‑–A sow o Yasamh/vasamh mi Ljcc/ljcc! ^jmpcj orj Furhahg/furhahg tmdoy!― tlj eoh mh tlj mtljrstotamh soys.

Zbbjccm dmjs hmt `hmw ai lj ejohs “Yasamh‑ mr “vasamh,‑ mr “Ljcc‑ mr “ljcc,‑ mr “Furhahg‑mr “furhahg0‑ tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh o gavjh tjre ohd ats bmrrjcotahg, bopatocazjd tjre vorajs atsejohahg‑s rjcotamh tm spobjtaej ohd Ahiahaty, mr ot cjost ah Zbbjccm‑s wmrcd. Tlot kust eodjjvjrytlahg rjoccy bmhiusahg ohd ofstrobt. Zbbjccm hmtjs tlj twm ejh wlm fmtl lod tlj cmm` ahtljar jyjs tlot tljy wjrj hmt cyahg bmhtrodabt mhj ohmtljr. ^jrlops fmtl orj Vaglt/raglt ‒ tljbmhiusamh as duj tm o rjcotamh mi Jtjrhaty watl iahatj taej. Ai ot mhj pmaht ohymhj jhtjrs Jtjrhatyirme iahatj taej, tljy lovj Ocwoys fjjh ah Jtjrhaty, jvjh “Hmw‑ (wlabl (as pjrbjavjd“daecy‑)/(oppjors) os “hmw‑), jvjh ai tljy dmh‑t Jhtjr/jhtjr imr ohmtljr tlmusohd yjors rjcotavj tm spobjtaej. ^jrlops hmt. Wly dad Zbbjccm borj= Lj `hjw lj slmucd borj. At lod smejtlahg tm dmwatl djijotahg grovaty, lj tlah`s.

Ogoah, Zbbjccm tlah`s, tlj bmhiusamh wos duj tm o rjcotamh mi Jtjrhaty watl iahatj taej.Wmrsj yjt, bmhiusamh ofmut tlot bmhiusamh wos duj tm o cohguogj tlot pmmrcy djiahjd tljbmhiusamh. Zbbjccm ijct tljrj wos smejtlahg tm “Jtjrhaty,‑ tlj Gmd jvjrymhj toc`jd ofmut mh tljTY, ohd tlot tlj ejh watl tlj iohby bmots ohd iohby wmrds prjobljd ofmut fjimrj dravahg owoyah tljar prjtty bors, tlot wmucd fjst grovaty. At lod smejtlahg tm dm watl cohguogj, fjbousjcohguogj jxprjssjd ats daejhsamh, fjbousj cohguogj slopjs tlmuglt. Cohguogj as tlmuglt. Tlj



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slopjs ah cohguogj slopj tlj tlmuglts wlabl tlj spjo`jr djsarjs tm jxprjss. Tlj slopjs mitlmuglts slopj tlj tlah`jr‑s wmrcd. Lmw lueohs bmej tm fj wlm tljy orj, ohd lmw lueohsbmej tm tlah` lmw tljy tlah`, orj qujstamhs tlot tlj ohswjrs tm caj watlah cohguogj. Tlj mcdcohguogjs lod hmt imuhd tlmsj ohswjrs yjt. Tlj mcd cohguogjs wjrj yjt tm fjot grovaty. Tlus, ohjw cohguogj wos hjjdjd.

Zbbjccm wmucd ahvjht at. At wmucd fj o ejohs tm rjocazj tlas “Jtjrhaty,‑ o taej ah wlabltlahgs dad hmt “blohgj.‑ Zbbjccm lod tm gjt tm tlas Jtjrhaty. Ai lj dad, lj bmucd fjot tlj garc ah tljwljjcbloar, kust ca`j lj bmucd lovj lod slj hmt ruahjd las “stacc‑ wmrcd ah tlj imrjst…

^mppo toc`jd ofmut Jtjrhaty.Qjs…tljrj wos Rmejtlahg tm tlj “Jtjrhaty‑ tlmsj (tjo)/(prj)(o)bljrs touglt ofmut.

Zbbjccm wmucd lovj tm fjbmej Mhj/mhj tm iahd mut jxobtcy wlot tlot Rmejtlahg wos/as.@hmwahg tlot, Zbbjccm wmhdjrs - lmw dm ymu `hmw ai ymu orj o iocsj tjobljr mr hmt= Tjobljrsusuoccy eo`j vost gjhjrocatajs ofmut tlj hoturj mi rjocaty. ^jmpcj cmvjd vost gjhjrocatajs. ^jrlopstlj iocsj tjobljr usjd voguj wmrds= ^jrlops hmt. Fut jatljr woy, Zbbjccm hjjds o prjbasjcohguogj. Zbbjccm fjcajvjs occ cohguogjs lovj ioacjd ohd fjbmej voguj.

Yoguj wmrds orj pmwjriuc wmrds, fjbousj pjmpcj cmvj tlje, ohd tljy cmvj tlje fjbousj

pjmpcj eo`j voguj wmrds ejoh wlot tljy woht tlje tm ejoh, ohd t lot‑s truj cmvj. Yoguj wmrdstrab` pjmpcj ahtm mwhahg tlje, ca`j mhj wlm obbjpts o fjoutaiuc pob`ogj tm fj mpjhjd otBlrasteos wlabl bmhtoahs o fmef borjiuccy ohd prjbasjcy taejd tm djhmtj Blrasteos Doy ot tljlmur tlj pjrsmh obbjptahg tlj prjsjht trodatamhoccy gotljrjd ormuhd tlj trjj. Imr wjj`s, tljywmucd cmm` imrword tm iahdahg mut wlot wos ahsadj. Tljh, wlacj bjcjfrotahg tlj orravoc mi tljarsovamr, tlj fmef wmucd mii. Ca`jwasj, oitjr woatahg wjj`s tm iahd mut wlot tlj voguj wmrdejoht, tljy wmucd iah d mut, suddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj, tlot at ejoht hmtlahg ot occ. Ohd sm tlot‑swlot tljy, tljar sjci, ejoht ‒ hmtlahg. Tlot as tlj rjvjcotamh mi mhj‑s djotl.

Rm Zbbjccm wmucd hmt usj voguj wmrds0 Zbbjccm wmucd hmt fj o eurdjr. Ai lj usjd vogujwmrds, at wmucd mhcy fj tm eo`j tlje rjody imr spjbaiab wmrds ‒ wmrds tlot wjrj sm rjoc ohd smslorp tlot tljy eaglt drow fcmmd. Zbbjccm rjocazjs lj as ocrjody fjahg voguj. Lj wmucd lovj tm

probtabj o cmt. Ogoah, lj wos fjahg voguj. Zbbjccm bmhbcudjs tlj fjst woy hmt tm fj voguj wos tmspjo` ah o vjry prjbasj cohguogj, ca`j tlj cohguogj mi o placmsmpljr. Lj bmhbcudjs lj slmucdwratj ca`j o placmsmpljr.

Zbbjccm tljh rjocazjs jvjrymhj lotjd fmm`s tlot prjobl tm ymu. Vjodjrs wlm jhbmuhtjrcmhg porogropls mi daocmguj jxpcoahahg tlj hoturj mi rjocaty sbrjoe imr jdatmrs, uhcjss tlj outlmras smejmhj wlm tlj pjmpcj watl outlmraty bcoae wos o “gjhaus.‑ Tlas as oh ogj wljh pjmpcj gmteod ot fmm`s tlot try tm soy Rmejtlahg, imr subl o fmm` eaglt soy Rmejtlahg tlj rjodjr dad hmt` hmw. Tlas wos oh ogj wljh pjmpcj ovmadjd adjmcmgajs fjbousj tljy fjcajvjd ah “groy.‑ At lodbmej tm fj obbjptjd tlot hmt wratahg mut adjmcmgajs wos oh ofsmcutj fy tlmsj wlm fjcajvjd ah“groy,‑ wlabl as tlj fjcaji tlot tljrj orj hm ofsmcutjs. Tljsj orj pjmp cj wlm lovj bmej tm fjcajvjtlj stotjejht “trutl as rjcotavj‑ ejohs “trutl dmjs hmt jxast0‑ fut tlot as o cmgab jrrmr, imrsmejtlahg bohhmt fj rjcotavj uhcjss tljrj as smejtlahg at as rjcotavj tm. “Tlj trutl as rjcotavj‑ejohs ahstjod tlot trutl as hmt josy tm bmej fy ohd rjquarjs tlah`ahg. At as hmt o gavjh0 at eust fjjorhjd. Tlj pjmpcj wlm fjcajvjd trutl wos arrjcjvoht djbadjd wlm uhdjrstmmd trutl. Tljy wjrjtlj mppmsatamh.

Rm at wos sjttcjd0 Zbbjccm wmucd lovj tm wratj ca`j o placmsmpljr tm fjot tlj garc ah tljwljjcbloar ohd tm dmeahotj Tlj Wocc. Tlas pataiuc rjosmh wmucd hmt kustaiy las wratahg stycj tmlas rjodjrs. Tlot dad hmt eottjr ‒ at wos tlj mhcy woy tm djijot tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar0 at wostlj mhcy woy lj bmucd fj pcjosjd watl laesjci ohd hmt jhd up ca`j las ioemus, rabl irajhd wlm



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pcoyjd tlj paohm ohd wmrj gcossjs. Lj dad hmt woht tm, ohd jvjh ai lj dad, at wmucd hmt eottjr.Lj lod hm blmabj, ohd lj bmucd hmt rjiusj tm blmmsj. Rm Zctaeotjcy, at wos hmt pmssafcj imr lae,o fjahg mi/watl irjjdme, tm woht tm.

At wmucd fj daiiabuct tm bmepcjtj tlas tos`. Bmhbjhtrotahg ah tlas wmrcd wos aepmssafcj.Emrj ahimreotamh wos ovoacofcj tloh jvjr fjimrj, fut tlot kust eodj at aepmssafcj tm uhdjrstohd

ohy mi at. Tlmugl tljrj wos cmts mi ahimreotamh, at wos occ gjhjroc0 at wos occ bmhstrubtjd watlvoguj wmrds. Tlas gjhjrotamh wos oh ogj mi uhravocjd euctatos`jrs wlm hjvjr iahasljd ohytlahg.Tljy occ lod ahbrjdafcj adjos, fut rorjcy wjrj ohy mi tlje rjocazjd ahtm rjocaty. Tlas wos oh ogjmi ahiahatj pmssafacatajs. Ohd hmtlahg loppjhjd. At wos djbcorjd fy Dmhhj, gcaepsahg tlj ofsmcutjtlot “Hm eoh as oh ascohd.‑ Wlot ofmut occ ejh= Wos lueohaty oh ascohd cmst mh tlj sjo mi lassjci=

Lord tm soy, fut at wos hmt lord tm djdubj Zbbjccm lod trmufcj bmhbjhtrotahg. Lj hjjdjdemtavotamh imr las bmhbjhtrotamh. Lj hjjdjd tm troah laesjci, ahdavaduoccy, os oh ahdavaduoc, tmbmepcjtj las tos`.

Mhj doy, Zbbjccm rjods ah o fmm` tlot pjmpcj orj subbjssiuc fjbousj mi cjgoby ohdmppmrtuhaty, emrj sm tloh lagl A_. Lj rjods tlot tljrj as hm subl tlahg os tlj “sjci -eodj eoh,‑

ohd tlj eoh wlm blohgjs tlj wmrcd as o rjsuct mi las barbuestohbjs ohd ahicujhbjs ohd tlj doyohd ogj lj cavjs ah, tloh`s tm lovahg o “ljod stort.‑ Qjs, tljy lod tocjht, fut mhcy fjbousj tljylod tlj raglt barbuestohbjs dad tljy rjocazj tlj pmtjhtaoc mi tlot tocjht. Ah mtljr wmrds, subbjss aso rjsuct mi oh ahdavaduoc prjsjhtjd watl spjbaiab blohbjs ah o spjbaiab taej lovahg tljjhvarmhejht ah wlabl tljy bmucd tljy rjocazj tlmsj blohbjs watl tljar s`accs.

Gjhausjs ahljrjht ahvasafcj odvohtogjs, vost mppmrtuhatajs, ohd cjgobajs tlot jhofcj tljetm wmr` lord ohd pjrbjavj rjocaty ah o uhaquj eohhjr. Rmej djsjrvj subbjss, smej dm hmt. Rmejjorh subbjss, smej orj cub`y. Ai “barbuestohbj‑ ocaghs watl oh ahdavaduoc‑s ahhotj ofacatajs, tljarsubbjss as tljh o eottjr mi lmw lord tljy wmr`. Os o wlmcj, ai emrj pjmpcj lod mppmrtuhatajs,tlj lagljr tlj prmfofacaty mi ahbrjdafcj pmtjhtaoc fjahg rjocazjd.

Oh ahdavaduoc dmjs hmt orasj tm las subbjss ocmhj. Ca`jwasj, ohy gavjh ahdavaduoc dmjs hmtorasj tm laesjci ocmhj. At as o rjsuct mi jbmhmeabs, bucturj, ohd tlj taeahg mi tljar fartl. O rmb`jtsbajhtast fmrh o tlmusohd yjors jorcajr as kmfcjss. Lj as hm mhj

Tlj fmm` Zbbjccm wos rjodahg wos tryahg tm kustaiy orrohgahg mhj‑s pramratajs watljquocaty mvjr irjjdme. Zbbjccm iahds tlas armhab, imr wljh jquocaty as emrj aepmrtoht tlohirjjdme, fmtl orj cmst0 vabj-vjrso, pcjhty mi fmtl as oblajvjd. Zbbjccm dmjs hmt ca`j tlj adjo mi“gjhaus‑ mr “subbjss‑ fjahg o rjsuct mi mhj‑s jhvarmhejht ohd bmeeuhaty. Tlas wmucd ejoh tlj“ahdavaduoc‑ as o rjsuct mi, uctaeotjcy, lueohaty. Lueohaty as oh adjo ohd oh aeoga hory fjahg. Aitlj ahdavaduoc as o rjsuct mi hmtlahghjss, tljh tlj ahdavaduoc, os lj mr slj bmejs tm rjocazjs tlas,wacc bmej tm fj hmtlahghjss, ohd sm daj. Wjcc, tlj ahdavaduoc wos o rjsuct mi hmtlahghjss, sm

pjrlops tlot eodj sjhsj0 tlot wos tlj pcaglt mi sah tlj ahdavaduoc hjjdjd Rovahg irme, oitjr occ.Zbbjccm tlah`s at as fob`words tm fjcajvj tlj ahdavaduoc as o rjsuct mi lueohaty, rotljr tloh

lueohaty as o rjsuct mi tlj ahdavaduoc. Tlj rjocazotamh mi tlj ahdavaduoc‑s pmtjhtaoc as o rjsuct mi fmtl0 tlj ahdavaduoc bohhmt fj imrso`jh imr tlj so`j mi lueohaty. ME.

Zbbjccm dmjs hmt ca`j tm tlah` rotljr mr hmt lj as subbjssiuc ot djijotahg tlj garc ah tljwljjcbloar wacc fj dabtotjd fy las rjcotamhslap tm “lueohaty,‑ wlabl rjcotavj tm lae, as kust ohadjo ‒ hmtlahghjss. Zbbjccm wohts hmtlahg tm dm watl hmtlahghjss, ohd mhcy imr hmtlahg tm lovj orjcotamh watl hmtlahghjss.

Ai oh ahdavaduoc as o rjsuct mi “lueohaty,‑ bmucd Zbbjccm troah laesjci, ahdavaduoccy, os ohahdavaduoc, tm bmepcjtj las tos`= Bmucd lj dm at ocmhj= Rmmh, lj wmucd pjrlops gm tm bmccjgj, ohd



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lj bmucd usj tlot jhvarmhejht ohd ats mppmrtuhatajs tm oblajvj subbjss ah las eassamh tm djijotgrovaty. Zbbjccm wmucd kust lovj tm rjiusj tm bmeprmeasj las eassamh. Ai lj dad tlot, lj wmucdsubbjjd. Mr wmucd lj= Wos oh jhvarmhejht jhmugl= Bmucd lj dm at ocmhj, jvjh ah tlj ragltjhvarmhejht=

Zbbjccm rjods ofmut las sufbmhsbamus, tlot mi laesjci wlabl lj bmucd hmt bmhtrmc ohd

wlabl lj bmucd hmt rotamhocazj. Lj fjgoh rjodahg tlas fmm` tm try tm uhdjrstohd tlj bratabs tlotrjvajwjd las wmr` ohd bmhstohtcy bcoaejd lj dad hmt rjocazj lj dad hmt uhdjrstohd lmw tm tlah`,lmw tm wratj, ohd lmw tm uhdjrstohd tljar jxpjrtasj, fjbousj lj dad hmt uhdjrstohd lassufbmhsbamus. Ca`jwasj, mitjh Zbbjccm castjhjd tm pmcatabaohs tjcc lae tlot tlj rjosmh lj tlmuglttlj woy tlot lj dad wos fjbousj mi las sufbmhsbamus eahd, ohd ai lj wos trucy rotamhoc, lj wmucdvmtj imr tlje, jvjh tlmugl Zbbjccm rotamhocazjd lj slmucdh‑t vmtj imr tlje. Fjbousj obbmrdahgtm tlje, Zbbjccm bmucd hmt rotamhocazj0 tljrj wos hm subl tlahg os rotamhoc mr bmhsbamus tlmuglt.At wos occ bmhtoeahotjd fy tlj sufbmhsbamus, uhbmhtrmccofcj eahd. ^rmijssmrs touglt tlj soej.Tlj gjhausjs prjobljd tlj soej. Wos Gmd uh`hmwofcj ca`j tlj sufbmhsbamus eahd= Zbbjccmwos uhsurj ‒ lj wmucd ahvjstagotj tlot. Tlj pmaht stacc stmmd tlmugl0 Zbbjccm wos tmcd ljrjosmhahg ohd tlah`ahg wjrj ahljrjhtcy bmeprmeasjd. Tlus, ai Zbbjccm trajd tm dm tlahgs “ocmhj,‑

las mwh eahd wmucd `jjp lae irme subbjjdahg. Lmw bmucd lj bmefahj las bmhsbamushjss watllas sufbmhsbamus= ME= Wlot wos las sufbmhsbamus= Laesjci= ^jrlops ai Zbbjccm gmt tm `hmwmtljr pjmpcj, tlot wmucd ljcp. ^jrlops hmt. ^jrlops lj bmucd sprjod oh adjo ahtm las sufbmhsbamuseahd ca`j o varus, rappcahg tlrmuglmut at. Tlj adjo wmucd fj “tlj sufbmhsbamus as port mi tljbmhsbamushjss, ohd vabj-vjrso.‑ ^jrlops tlot adjo bmucd sprjod uhtac o “tappahg pmaht‑ wos rjobljdtlot eodj las sufbmhsbamus ohd bmhsbamus mhj, tlus blohgahg at, ohd pjrbjptavjcy, tlus blohgahgtlj jhtarj wmrcd= ME= Fut ai Zbbjccm wos hmt ah bmhtrmc mi las sufbmhsbamus, lmw bmucd Zbbjccmahsjrt ahtm at tlj tlmuglt “tlj sufbmhsbamus as port mi tlj bmhsbamushjss=‑ Lj wmucd hjjdsmejtlahg Fjymhd lae ohd jvjrytlahg, imr jvjrytlahg wos ah lae. Zbbjccm hjjdjd Gmd. Fut lmwbmucd lj bmej tm `hmw Gmd/Jtjrhaty ai las ofacaty tm rjosmh wos sab`, ai lj bmucd hmt `hmw ai lasrjosmhahg wos vocad mr bmeprmeasjd= Wos lj irjj/lueoh/vocuofcj ai lj bmucd hmt rjosmh=^jrlops lj bmucd rjosmh, ohd las sufbmhsbamus wos uhdjr las bmhtrmc, ohd lj kust dad hmt rjocazjAt/at= Zbbjccm bmhbcudjs lj wacc hmt fj ofcj tm rjocazj Jtjrhaty ohd djijot tlj garc ah tljwljjcbloar uhtac lj mvjrbmejs tlj dacjeeo mi las sufbmhsbamus.

Ruddjhcy Zbbjccm ijjcs tlas as occ gjttahg mut mi lohd0 lj as lovahg trmufcj `jjpahg tlj pcmt, tlj pcoh, tlj pajbjs, irme ioccahg oport, irme gjttahg mut mi mrdjr. Zbbjccm tljh rjods tlot lassufbmhsbamus as o rjsuct mi las gjhjs. Rm lj as ah o prasmh, ohd irjj mhcy tm emvj ormuhd ah las

prasmh bjcc, occ wlacj uhsurj ai lj wos rjoccy emvahg mr hmt= Mr pjrlops lj as kust drjoeahg irmewatlah las prasmh bjcc= Tlj adjo ahiuraotjs lae. Lj wmucd rjfjc ogoahst tlas ofsurdaty…

Zbbjccm lotjs las wratahg stycj0 lj os`s tmm eohy qujstamhs. Lj os`s qujstamhs tm ladj tlotlj dad hmt `hmw tlj ohswjr, ca`j o kudgj-pjhatjht, mr o kudgj wlm kudgjd mtljr fy bmhijssahg.Tlas eodj mtljrs kudgj tljesjcvjs, ca`j puppjts mh ahvasafcj warjs. At wos tlj fjst imre mi

kudgejht. Rjci-kudgejht. Tlmugl Zbbjccm lotjs las wratahg stycj, at as tlj pjrijbt wratahg stycj tmeo`j las ort pjrijbt tm lae. Tljrj wos hm goah watlmut poah. Zbbjccm wmucd jorh pjrijbtamh fyjhdurahg tlrmugl tlj trogjdy mi las wratahg djxtjraty

Zbbjccm rjods ofmut las sufbmhsbamus…Lj wmucd rjfjc ogoahst tlas ofsurdaty. Lmwwmucd lj rjfjc= Lord tm soy, fut at wos hmt lord tm djdubj Zbbjccm lod trmufcj bmhbjhtrotahg. Ljhjjdjd emtavotamh imr las bmhbjhtrotamh…Ohd lj hjjdjd “Jtjrhaty.‑



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At as haglt ohd dor`. Tljrj as hm s`y. Ah tlj doy, tlj s`y wmucd fj prjsjht ohd lagl ohd fcuj. Ot haglt, tljrj wjrj stors, fut hm s`y. Jatljr mr, stors wjrj emvahg, imreahg strjo`s tlotrjsjefcjd sboiimcdahg. Tljy hjvjr bjosjd tljar wmr` ohd hjvjr rjpjotjd o tos`0 ai tljy rjturhjdtm o spmt, tljy `hjw at ohjw, os ai tljy `hjw at imr tlj vjry iarst taej. Tlj wlmcj uhavjrsj wos

port mi tljar prmkjbt. Tljy wjrj bmhstrubtahg “Jtjrhaty,‑ ohd at wmucd to`j irme tlj fjggahg tm tlj

jhd mi taej tm iahasl. Jobl stor rjprjsjhtjd smejtlahg ‒ mhj mi tlje wos “iasl slodmws,‑ ohmtljr“Tlj Wocc,‑ ohmtljr “fards,‑ ohmtljr “grovaty‑…jobl rjprjsjhtjd mhj mi Zbbjccm‑s syefmcs. Tljywjrj bmhhjbtahg tmgjtljr ohd bmhstrubtahg ME0 tljy wjrj eo`ahg o ^jrijbt emdjc, ohd jobl

pajbj wmucd gm tmgjtljr ^jrijbtcy. At wos kust o eottjr mi taej. Zbbjccm dad hmt lovj taej imrtlje. Lj wmucd eo`j “tlj emrhahg stor.‑

Jatljr mr, hmfmdy cmm`jd up ohd hmtabjd.Rtacc, tlj stors wjrj raglt ah tljar ejtlmds ahsmior os tljy jxprjssjd o hjbjssory sjqujhbj

tlot lod tm fj imccmwjd, saeacor tm tlj ratuocs taej ijcc ahtm lovahg tm pjrimre, fy ats mwh dmahg,sm tlot at boh blmsj (ogoah tm fj port mi) ats (Iahoc) (^rj)Djstahotamh. Rm ior, Zbbjccm lod imccmwjdtlj bmrrjbt sjqujhbj0 hjxt, ah mrdjr tm blmmsj ^rjdjstahotamh, lj lod tm fjbmej o Blrastaoh. Tlotwos port mi tlj qujst tm djijot tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar. Zbbjccm uhdjrstmmd tlot hmw. At wos

fjbousj, os ^mppo soad, Blrastaohs wjrj occmwjd tm jhtjr Jtjrhaty, wljrj tljy wmucd cavj imrjvjr.^mppo wos ocwoys toc`ahg ofmut Blrastaohaty. Lj wos o prjobljr. Lj sot watl tlj bmhgrjgotamh mhRuhdoy. Lj wos tlj fjst prjobljr.–^mppo, orj ymu jvjr fmtljrjd ah jtjrhaty=― Zbbjccm lod os`jd ^mppo mhj haglt wljh tljy wjrjsattahg mh tlj pmrbl, cmhg ogm. ^mppo lod rjspmhdjd,–Hm mhj wacc fmtljr ymu ah Jtjrhaty. Tlot wacc hjvjr blohgj.― –Dmjs ohytlahg blohgj=― –Hm ‒ Gmd Dmjsh‑t Blohgj.―

Zbbjccm dasbmvjrjd tlj wox eusjue mhj doy oitjr tlas bmhvjrsotamh, ohd rjturhjd tm las^mppo tm os`,–As jtjrhaty ca`j o wox eusjue=― –Rmejtlahg ca`j tlot, yjs0 fut Ocavj.― –Mi bmursj at‑s ocavj…―

Ohd Zbbjccm boej tm tlj bmhbcusamh wj wmucd bmhstrubt Jtjrhaty. Zbbjccm wmucd rjocazjJtjrhaty mh jortl. Fjbmeahg o Blrastaoh wmucd ljcp lae iagurj mut lmw tm dm tlot, fjbousjBlrastaohs obbmrd tm ^mppo wjrj “tlj fmdy mi Jtjrhaty.‑ Fjbmeahg o Blrastaoh wmucd fj port mitlj ^rjdjstahotamh Zbbjccm blmsj tm fjbmej o fjcajvjr ah lueoh Irjjdme. Zbbjccm wmucd fj tljwasjst ohd fjst Blrastaoh ah tlj jhtarj wmrcd0 ai lj wos gmahg tm rjocazj Jtjrhaty mh jortl, lj lodtm fj. Ohd sm Zbbjccm smuglt dmuft, imr tlj rmod tm tlj grjotjst ioatl as povjd watl tlj grovjstdmuft. Dmuft as lmw ioatl los rjocaty. Ohd dmuft as hmt cmhjcahjss0 at as o bmeemh fmuhd fjtwjjhdmuftjrs wlabl boh roasj tlje up, mr frahg tlje dmwh. Mhj los tm emvj mhj woy mr tlj mtljr0stohdahg stacc as tm emvj owoy irme Ljovjh0 tm dm hmtlahg as tm jefrobj sah. Asmcotjd cmhjcahjssas wmrsj tloh tlj bmeeuhaty mi dmuft. Tlj bmeeuhaty mi dmuft as lueohaty. Mhj slmucd cmvjlueohaty. Mhj‑s cmvj mi lueohaty slmucd hjvjr jxbjjd tlj pjmpcj tljy lovj ejt ohd obtuoccy`hmw, mr tljy slocc cmvj hmtlahghjss.

Zbbjccm fjbmejs o Blrastaoh tlrmugl las mwh, uhaquj, spjbaocazjd, ohd toacmr-eodj prmbjss, os orj probtabjd occ Rparatuoc mr ortaiabaoc ratuocs. Wljh Zbbjccm stortjd rjodahg tljmcmgyohd placmsmply, lj `hjw lj lod eodj tlj raglt blmabj. Lj rjbjavjd eohy saghs. Lj ijct seortjr.Lj ijct emtavotjd. Lj ijct las bmhbjhtrotamh aeprmvj. Lj ijct cmvahg. Lj ijct ca`j las purpmsj wosdjiahjd. Lj wos hmt cmst.



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Iobjd watl dmuft, Zbbjccm lod gmmd rjosmh tm bmhtahuj gavahg ioatl o sjbmhd blohbj, fjbousj ai mhj pjrsmh, ah tlj jhtarj wmrcd, tlrmuglmut occ mi lueoh lastmry, lod o gjhuahjjxpjrajhbj watl Gmd, tljh Gmd wos rjoc. Gmd Jxast((jd)/(s)). Zbbjccm wmucd gavj Blrastaohaty oioar cmm`, os lj wmucd gavj tlj wmrcd. Lj wmucd fj ejrbacjss ohd àhd tm fmtl, gavahg tljehmtlahg cjss mr emrj tloh wlot tljy prjsbrafjd tm tljesjcvjs fy tljar mwh dmahg. At slmucd fj hm

mtljr woy. O kudgj slmucd gavj tlj guacty wlot tljy smuglt.Zbbjccm wmucd djijhd Gmd fjbousj ai tljrj wos hm Gmd tljrj wos hm jtjrhaty ohd hm pcobj tlot dad hmt blohgj, sm hm pcobj ah wlabl Zbbjccm bmucd fjot grovaty. Ai tljrj wos hmjtjrhaty, tljrj wos hm jtjrhaty, fut Zbbjccm wmucd hmt obbjpt tlot uhtac lj ofsmcutjcy lod hmblmabj, fjbousj Zbbjccm wmucd hmt obbjpt ioacurj. Rmejmhj tjccs Zbbjccm lj as pradjiuc. Zbbjccmrjpcajs,–Wj‑cc sjj.―

Rahbj Blrastaohaty wos tlj ejohs tm bmhstrubt Jtjrhaty, ohd Zbbjccm‑s wratahg wos tljejohs lj iagurjd mut lmw tm fjot grovaty/(Tlj Wocc)/(tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar), lj wmucd puttlje tmgjtljr. At wmucd fj emrj jiiabajht tlot woy, ohd tlot as wlot Zbbjccm wohtjd tm dm.Zbbjccm dad hmt borj wlot mtljrs tlmuglt.

“Gmd 5 Jtjrhaty,‑ obbmrdahg tm ^mppo. Zbbjccm wmucd hmt fj oiroad tm toc` ofmut, qujstamh,mr djijhd, Gmd. Ohd lj wmucd ahvjht o hjw cohguogj watl hjw wmrds tlrmugl wlabl tm dm at. Ljdad hmt borj wlot catjrory tljmry bcoaejd lj slmucd dm, ohd lj dad hmt borj ai tlj “jxpjrts‑irmwhjd upmh tlj assuj mi Gmd ohd tlj Ofsmcutj. Lj wmucd toc` ofmut Gmd ai Gmd hjjdjd tm fjtoc`jd ofmut, lj wmucd qujstamh Gmd ai lj lod dmufts cjst las ioatl/irjjdme/lueohaty fjortaiabaoc, ohd lj wmucd djijhd Gmd wljh ah tlj bmhtjxt mi Trutl (tlmugl Trutl dmjs hmt hjjd tm

fj djijhdjd, fjbousj Trutl as ahvahbafcj0 wlot Zbbjccm ejoht as tlot lj wmucd djijhd Trutl os oejohs tm eo`j mtljrs rjocazj wlot Trutl as…). O strotjgy fy wlabl tm djijot grovaty bmucd fjoblajvjd hm mtljr woy. Zbbjccm wmucd gavj Gmd o ioar ljorahg, ohd lj wmucd dm las fjst tm gavjocc rjcagamhs tlj soej. Hoturoccy, kust fy wlm ohd wljrj lj wos, lj bmucd hmt ljcp fut gavjBlrastaohaty emrj mi o cmm`0 lj wos lueoh oitjr occ. Lmwjvjr, lj wos ocsm o Euscae, o Lahdu, oBlrastaoh, ohd o Kjw, ohd sm wos jvjrymhj jcsj, mr sm Zbbjccm fjcajvjd, fjbousj lj fjcajvjd ahBlrast, ohd Blrast wos hmt o Blrastaoh. Hmr wos Blrast kust o Kjw0 Blrast wos Rmejtlahg Emrjtloh tlot. Blrast wos hmt wmrds. Blrast wos Ejohahg/(o Wmrd), Ejohahg wlabl o Euscae, oLahdu, o Blrastaoh, ohd o Kjw wacc occ Fj. Tlas ejohs hm rmod cjods tm Blrast. Mhcy Blrast cjodstm Blrast0 mhcy tlj Ejohahg cjods tm tlj Ejohahg. Tljrj as Mhj Vmod. Ohd At as o Caij tlot wacctrovjc ohy rmod. Blrast as Jxbcusavj tm occ. Blrast as hmt oh Oductjrjss, ohd Blrast wacc hmt ObbjptOductjry.

Zbbjccm wos surj occ tlot ejoht Rmejtlahg.Rm Zbbjccm wmucd dm las fjst tm fj ioar. Lj wmucd darjbtcy oddrjss Gmd ai hjjdjd, jvjh ai

tlot vamcotjd catjrory tljmry. Lj wmucd fj ortastab ohd ejtoplmraboc mhcy tm tlj djgrjj tlot at dadhmt ahirahgj mh las qujst ohd tlj ejohahg mi las tlmuglts. Ai lj bmucd hmt fjot grovaty watlmuttocàhg darjbtcy ofmut Gmd, lj wmucd toc` darjbtcy ofmut Gmd. Zbbjccm wmucd hmt fj oiroad ‒ ljwmucd fj darjbt ohd tjcc Wlot hjjdjd tm fj tmcd, ohd ai ah tlj prmbjss tlot “slmwjd‑ smejtlahg,sm fj at. Tlot wos sjbmhdory. Lj wmucd “slmw ohd tjcc.‑ Ca`j ah sblmmc. Ca`j watl Afas. Zbbjccmwmucd hmt ras` Jtjrhaty imr catjrory tljmry, hmr tm iat ahtm o cohguogj mr tlahàhg. Lj wmucd ahvjhtlas mwh cohguogj. Lj wmucd ahvjht las mwh catjrory tljmry. Tlas bmucd fj boccjd orrmgoht0 tlasbmucd fj boccjd sjciasl. Zbbjccm bmhsadjrs subl o brataquj radabucmus, imr mhj bohhmt fj sjcicjsswatlmut o sjci, ohd sm “fjahg mi tlj hoturj mi mhj wlm los o sjci‑ ‒ oò; “sjciasl.‑ At wos ocsm



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radabucmus fjbousj Gmd lod o Rjci ohd wos Vagltjmuscy Rjci(asl)/cjss. Rjciaslhjss boh fj Vaglt0sjcicjsshjss/sjciaslhjss boh fj gmmd mr fod, fmtl mi wlabl orj Zctaeotjcy hmtlahg.

Ai Zbbjccm imuhd o sahgcj Bmhtrodabtamh ah Gmd, lj wmucd pursuj At uhtac At wos rjsmcvjd.Ai o Bmhtrodabtamh wos hmt rjsmcvjd, Gmd wmucd fj Djod. Ohd Zbbjccm wmucd hmt fj oiroad tm fjbmepcabotjd0 bmhiusamh boh fj o gmmd tlahg. At eo`js spobj. At eo`js rmme imr Rmejtlahg

Hjw/Emrj. Ai tlj “ort mi ort‑ wos saepcabaty, lj wmucd fj oh ortast jvjry hmw ohd tljh. Lj dadhmt borj. Zbbjccm wmucd brjotj tlj ort lj tlmuglt wos pjrijbt cjst lj iobjd tlj soej doehahg iotjos las ioemus irajhd wlm pcoyjd tlj paohm. O pjrijbt ort ah Zbbjccm‑s jyjs wmucd gavj Gmd o ioarljorahg, ioslamh ats mwh cohguogj ohd catjrory tljmry, rjocazj Jtjrhaty, hmt ovmad qujstamhs (imrhmtlahg wos goahjd irme arrotamhoc ioatl, os hmtlahg wos goahjd irme rotamhoc ejohahgcjsshjss(ohd mhcy hmtlahghjss wos goahjd)), bmej up watl o pcoh mh lmw tm fjot tlj garc ah tljwljjcbloar, ohd tm iahoccy dmeahotj Tlj Wocc. O pjrijbt ort wmucd djijot grovaty. O pjrijbt ortwmucd fj ^jrijbt. At, hmr lj, wmucd fj ahbmepcjtj.

Ai lj ioacjd, lj wmucd ioac spcjhdadcy. Tlot lj vmwjd.Lj wmucd daj, stacc wocàhg mr hmt.

–Ohd A wacc wratj ah ohy horrotavj pjrspjbtavj A woht, wljhjvjr A woht. Votljr iarst, tlard, mr oh

mvjr-vajwahg, occ `hmwahg, occ pmwjriuc horrotmr, A‑cc dm wlot A woht. A eaglt hmt `hmw wlot tljmtljr pjmpcj orj tlahàhg, fut ai A woht tm `hmw, A‑cc wratj ca`j A dm.― Zbbjccm sagls ohd storts tocàhg tm laesjci,

–A boh‑t `jjp at occ tmgjtljr0 at as sm lord! Tlj syefmcs tlj cohguogj, tlj bopatocazjd wmrds, tljspobjtaej/Jtjrhaty mrajhtotamh…at‑s sm bmhiusahg.― –Wj‑cc aghmrj at occ0 ymu‑cc hjvjr iahasl ai ymu lovj tm `jjp occ tlmsj daejhsamhs tmgjtljr.― –A boh‑t0 ai A dm tlot, at wmh‑t fj pjrijbt tm ej, ohd A‑cc jhd up ca`j ey irajhd wlm pcoys tlj

paohm.― –Wlot ai ymu dmh‑t wratj ot occ=― –A boh‑t0 A lovj tm blmmsj tm fj bmepcjtj mr ahbmepcjtj! Ai A dmh‑t wratj, A‑cc blmmsj tm fjahbmepcjt j, ohd A dmh‑t woht tm dm tlot, mr A‑cc jhd up ca`j ey irajhd.― –Rm ymu lovj tm wratj tlas fmm` ohd pufcasl at, jvjh ai at eo`js jvjrymhj lotj ymu=― –Qjs!― –Rm ymu‑rj Iotjd mr ^rjdjstahjd tm dm tlas=― –A dmh‑t lovj tm blmsj tlot Iotj tm fj ^jrijbt/pjrijbt ah ey jyjs.― –Truj, fut tlj mtljr blmabj as doehotamh. At sjjes ca`j ymu dmh‑t lovj o blmabj fy vartuj mi fjahgrotamhoc. As tlot rjoccy o rjoc blmabj=― –A tlah` sm.― –Ruat ymursjci.― Zbbjccm soys mut cmud, ohd gmjs mh watl typahg. Oh lmur gmjs fy ohd lj w ratjs o

porogropl. Lj spjhds tlj hjxt tlrjj lmurs rjwratahg tlj porogropls tlrjj taejs uhtac jvjrytlahgas pjrijbt. Wljh lj‑s dmhj, lj‑s stacc hmt surj ai lj los subbjjdjd. Lj los tm lovj ioatl. Lj cmm`sot tlj porogropl, wlacj tlahàhg.

A `hmw tlj pajbjs iat, A `hmw tlj pajbjs iat, A `hmw tlj pajbjs iat, A `hmw tlj pajbjs iat, A `hmw tlj pajbjs iat! A wotbljd tlje iocc! A wotbljd tlje occ iocc ohd bmccopsj ohd slottjr ohd frjo` ohd iocc, iocc, iocc, iocc, iocc, iocc, iocc iurtljr ohd iurtljr dmwh ahtm smej wmrcd A bohhmt bmhbjavjfjbousj A oe ljrj, ofmvj, mr jvjr sm ior fjcmw. Qjs, tlj pajbjs iat! Tlj pajbjs iat0 tljy eust iat!

Fut A wacc hmt pmaht tlj iahgjr os tlj tjepcj ioccs ohd bruefcjs ohd slottjrs0 ml hm! Hm! A wacc stohd! A wacc hmt cjt tlj pajbjs bruefcj0 A wacc put tlje tmgjtljr. A wacc! A! Qjs, A! Wlotjvjr A oeohd wlotjvjr As fjlahd ej, yjt ah ej0 yjs, yjs tlot wacc fj ey iotj! A wacc `jjp tlj pajbjstmgjtljr0 tljy wacc hmt iocc owoy0 ml hm, hjvjr. Hjvjr slocc tljy bruefcj. A slocc fj emrj.



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Rmejtlahg emrj, wlotjvjr tlot eoyfj. Tlot eoyfj. Tlot eoyfj truj, fut A wacc hmt bruefcj0 ymuwacc bruefcj, fut A wacc hmt, sm fj A. Fj A ohd `hmw A ohd hjvjr cjovj A mr ymu wacc bruefcj. Qjs,Bruefcj, iocc owoy. Rlottjrs ca`j o Rahgcj puzzcj drmppjd irme tlj lagljst ljaglt tlj ijcc oport ahoar, hmt upmh aepobt. Fjbousj tljrj as hm grmuhd0 tljrj as hmtlahg tm aepobt ogoahst. Tljrj as hm

grmuhd0 tlj puzzcj ioccs tm pajbjs ah tlj oar, ca`j o fard sub` fjtwjjh twm pajbjs mi gcoss, sm

lmpjiuc, sm bmhiusjd, ohd storvjd tm djotl wlacj ah ats porodasj. Qjs, yjs, yjs! Tlot as lmw tlj pajbjs iat ‒ o fard ah tlj oar fjtwjjh twm pajbjs mi gcoss watlmut o iroej. As at= ^jrlops hmt ‒ pjrlops at as hmt sm saepcj. ^jrlops at as saepcjr. Mr hmt. Tlj pajbjs iat occ tlj soej ‒ jvjrytlahg iats watl jvjrytlahg os mhj ah Jvjrytlahg mr Hmtlahghjss, fut hmt os wlotjvjr cajs watlah tlj spobj fjtwjjh. Ml hm ‒ spobj as tlj prmfcje ‒ spobj as tlj ropast mi Taej wlm imrbjd fy sublforforab sjxuocaty tm fj mhj watl at ah spobjtaej. Tlj lmrrmr, tlj lmrrmr! A wacc djhy tlas wmrcdtlot as o bmejdy watlmut oh Ahijrhm0 A wacc hmt cmsj oh oworjhjss mi djptls ohd ljaglts0 A wacc hmtcob` grovaty! A wacc hmt imrso`j grovaty0 A wacc àcc at! A wacc hmt fj cmss ah tlj groy, ml hm ‒ groy asos dor` os fcob`. A wacc `jjp ey vasamh bcjor mh grovaty, pcoyahg ah tlj iarjs mi Ahijrhm ohdZtmpaohase, fjbousj tlot as wljrj A eust dwjcc tm iahd mut wlm A oe ohd lmw grovaty eoyfjmvjrturhjd. Ol yjs, ey bmejdy wacc hmt cob` oh Ahijrhm0 A wacc hmt cmsj saglt mi tlj garc ah tlj

wljjcbloar. Dmjs o fcahd eoh lovj tlj djxtjraty tm scoy o fjost= ^jrlops tljy dm ai tlj fjost asah bloahs0 ey fjost as hmt ah bloahs. Eahj as obtavj. Eahj as jvac. Rm yjs, yjs A wacc eo`j tlj pajbjs iat fjbousj A `hmw tljy iat! At as o qujstamh mi lmw ohd A wacc iahd mut lmw! Hmtlahg wacc stmp ej, ohd mhcy hmtlahg bmucd stmp ej, sm A wacc iacc occ hmtlahghjss watl ey wacc ohd eylueohaty ohd rjiusj tm gavj at o lmcd mh ey smuc. Qjs, A wacc eo`j tlj pajbjs iat! A wacc eo`j tlje

iat ohd pmaht hm iahgjr mtljr tloh ot eysjci tm eo`j tlje iat. A oe ocmhj. A oe. A.Zbbjccm wmhdjrs ai tlot as wlot las blorobtjr as tlahàhg mr wratahg, mr wlot lj as tlahàhg

mr wratahg, mr jatljr/mr= Zbbjccm tlah`s ofmut tlj wmeoh lmcdahg up tlj wmrcd, imr wlm Zbbjccmlod tm djijot grovaty. Ot tlj soej taej, Zbbjccm tlah`s ofmut las blorobtjr.

A dadh‑t os` ymu tm lmcd up tlj wmrcd imr ej!

Zbbjccm aeogahjs o sbjhj lj eaglt jxpjrajhbj ah bmccjgj, ohd gjts mut o pajbj mi popjr.Lj wratjs ofmut fjahg o rjvmcutamhast. Ofsurd. O rjvmcutamhast dmjs hmt lovj tm usj guhs. Wmrdsorj kust ca`j fuccjts. Tljy boh àcc. Lj puts tmgjtljr o fag rjvmcutamh mh boepus, ohd tljh quats atsm tlot lj boh wratj ofmut gavahg up jvjrytlahg imr wratahg. Lj tljh aeogahjs ohmtljr sbjhj ahbmccjgj;–Trutl as rjcotavj.― Zbbjccm mvjrljors o studjht soy mhj doy.

Dmjs lj ejoh Trutl mr trutl= Jatljr mr= Jatljr/mr=–Tljrj as hm subl tlahg os Trutl.―

Fy tlj smuhds mi las vmabj, A tlah` lj ejohs jatljr woy.–Tljrj as hm Trutl.―

Zbbjccm stohds up ah tlj eaddcj mi las Jhgcasl bcoss,–Wly tlj ljcc orj ymu ljrj tloh=― “Wly tlj ljcc orj ymu ljrj tloh=!‑ Wlot dmjs tlot ejoh= “Tlj ljcc‑ djstrmys tlj cmgab mi tlj

sjhtjhbj. Ml, sm tlot‑s wly at as o swjor wmrd! At djstrmys tlj “ejohahg!‑ –Ai tljrj orj hm Ofsmcut js/ofsmcutjs, occ djsarjs ohd jiimrts tm iahd trutl, tlj Trutl, orjahtjccjbtuoc eosturfotamh.― –Tljrj hm hjjd tm fj mfsbjhj.― o prjobljr soys tm Zbbjccm. Zbbjccm cmm`s up ot tlj eoh. Lj assattahg ah blurbl. Zbbjccm wos wratahg ohd tocàhg tm laesjci ofmut sbjhjs lj eaglt jxpjrajhbj ahbmccjgj wlacj sattahg ah o blurbl,



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–Wlot‑s wrmhg watl eosturfotamh=― –At as o probtabj tlot rjdubjs ymu, oh A, tm o tlahg.― –Hmt tlj probtabj, tlj wmrd=― –At‑s mfsbjhj0 wmrds ca`j tlot slmucd hmt fj uttjrjd ah blurbl.― –Wly hmt=―

–At‑s o lmcy pcobj.― –Fut Blrast dajd mh o brmss, sm wotbljs jvjry taej smejmhj eosturfotjs mr ropjs smejmhj/(tljarsjci).― –Gmmd Gmd Zbbjccm! Lusl ymur emutl! Dmh‑t soy tlahgs ca`j tlot!― –Fut tlot‑s tlj Trutl, ohd at‑s lmrraiyahg ohd dasgustahg ohd mfsbjhj, ohd tlot‑s wly sah aslmrraiyahg ohd dasgustahg ohd mfsbjhj ohd wly wj slmucd hmt sah! Rah slmucd hmt fj bjhsmrjd,imr tm bjhsmr sah as tm staicj mhj‑s emtavotamh hmt tm sah, ohd wlot Gmmd Tmm` Mh wljh Gmd dajdslmucd jspjbaoccy hmt fj bjhsmrjd. Wljh ymu bjhsmr sah, orj ymu surprasjd pjmpcj `jjp sahhahg=Ca`jwasj, wljh ymu tjcc pjmpcj hmt rjod tlj fmm`s fy pjmpcj wlm dm hmt fjcajvj, orj ymusurprasjd wljh pjmpcj hm cmhgjr fjcajvj= Wlot ymu drjod bmejs uhtm ymu, yjs Kmf= Ai tljrj asijor, tljrj as hm ^jrijbt Cmvj, hm ^rjsjhbj mi Gmd, ohd sm mi bmursj fjcaji wacc daj. Bjhsmrslap

`accs fjcaji, os o cob` mi dmuft loccmws mut ioatl ahtm o imre tm iacc o cob`.― –Wmucd ymu slmw pmrhmgroply tm blacdrjh, Zbbjccm=― –Hm0 blacdrjh wacc prmfofcy blmsj tm slmw at tm tljesjcvjs ot smej pmaht. Tlot‑s wljh tljy

fjbmej oducts, pjrlops ot tlj ogj mi sax, pjrlops ot tlj ogj mi o luhdrjd. Qmu bohhmt prmtjbt pjmpcj irme tljesjcvjs. Gmd Dmjsh‑t. Lj Rovjs tlje irme wlot tljy dm tm tljar sjci. Tljrj as ovjry fag daiijrjhbj. Qmu slmucd hmt imrbj blacdrjh tm vajw pmrhmgroply, imr Gmd dmjs hmt imrbjymu tm fjcajvj. Lmwjvjr, ymu bohhmt imrbj tlje hmt tm vajw at, imr Gmd dmjs hmt imrbj ymu hmt tm

fjcajvj. At as occ up tm tlj ahdavaduoc, tlj irjj, tlj lueoh, tlj aeogj-fjorjr mi Lj Wlm as Irjj.― –Tlj ahdavaduoc as fmuhd ah tlj bloahs mi gjhjtabs ohd tlj sufbmhsbamus.― –Qjs ‒ tlj ahdavaduoc los fjjh aeprasmhjd ah sah uhtac Rovjd/Irjjd.― –Wlot dm ymu ejoh fy “bopatoc -R-sovjd-scosl-bopatoc-I- irjjd,‑ Zbbjccm=― –Rmejtlahg…― –Wjcc boh‑t ymu soy “Blrast wotbljs jvjry taej smejmhj eurdjrs,‑ ahstjod mi tlot e -wmrd.― –Wly= Dm ymu woht tm bjhsmr tlj Trutl= Mhcy tlot wlabl as mfsbjhj ohd as hmt Trutl slmucd fjrjstrabtjd, fut jvjrytlahg as port mi Trutl Rmejlmw0 jvjrytlahg gmjs tmgjtljr watl jvjrytlahg. Aiymu dmh‑t fjcajvj tljrj as Trutl/trutl, jvjrytlahg as rjstrabtjd irme us os lueohs fy mursufbmhsbamus, mur gjhjs, mur eahds ‒ Trutl/trutl eaglt fj ah irmht mi us, fut wj boh hjvjr `hmwat…wj boh hjvjr tmubl At/at.―–Tlas as hmt tlj pcobj tm dasbuss tlmsj `ahds mi tlahgs.― –Fut tlas as o blurbl, tlj lmusj mi Trutl, raglt= Dm ymu kust woht tm pab` ohd blmsj wlot ymudjsarj mi Trutl= Dm ymu mhcy woht ymur adjo mi Blrast= Ai Gmd wjrj mfsbjhj, wmucd ymu `jjpGmd mut imr tlj blacdrjh= Fjbousj Gmd as mfsbjhj0 wlot Gmd dmjs as mfsbjhj. Imr jxoepcj ‒ Gmd, obbmrdahg tm Blrastaohaty, ahborhotjd Laesjci mh jortl tm lovj Las fob` rappjd tm slrjdsohd tm fcjjd ohd tm daj ohd tm suiijr ohd tm woccmw ah o pmmc mi fcmmd ohd tm fj spat mh ohd tm fjluhg irme o trjj ohd tm fj fjotjh ohd tm fj lotjd ohd tm to`j mh tlj wmrcd‑s sah, wlabl ejohsGmd jxpjrajhbjs o dougltjr fjahg ropjd fy ljr iotljr, o fofy fjahg tlrmwh mut o wahdmw, oblacd fjahg eurdjrjd, o blacd fjahg rappjd tm slrjds fy dmgs, o garc fjahg storvjd tm djotl wlacjcmb`jd ah oh mutlmusj, jvjry ahstoht mi sjxuoc aeemrocaty ‒ ml, ohd cjt ej fj spjbaiab fy wlot Aejoh fy “jvjr ahstoht mi sjxuoc aeemrocaty‑ sahbj tlot as o voguj gjhjrocaty ohd sm o imre mibjhsmrslap ‒ jvjry ahstoht mi o blacd fjahg imrbjd ahtm o sjx trodj wlabl rjsucts ah o iaity yjor mcd



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eoh strahgahg ljr up ah bloahs ohd stjocahg ljr vargahaty fjimrj eurdjrahg ljr sm tlot lasrjputotamh wmh‑t fj ruahjd, ohd…― –Rlut up fmy! Tlas as o lmcy pcobj! Dm hmt toaht at ai subl pravotj oiioars!― –Tljrj orj hm pravotj oiioars! Tlj rj as hm dyahg wmrcd, hm dyahg bmuhtry, hm dyahg pjmpcj, hmdyahg pjrsmh0 ah rjocaty, ah trutl, tljrj as o dyahg ôuc wlm cavjs ah tlj oportejht dmwh tlj strjjt

mh tlj sjbmhd icmmr0 tljrj as o dyahg Eory wlm cavjs ah Fmstmh ohd wmr`s ah o gmvjrhejht miiabjdurahg tlj doy ohd os o fortjhdjr ot haglt. Tlot‑s rjocaty ‒ spjbaiabs! Hmt adjos, hmthmtlahghjss…spjbaiabs wlm orj fjbmeahg hmtlahghjss uhcjss Rmejtlahg/smejtlahg as dmhjofmut at (hmtj - occ Truj usjs mi “smejtlahg‑ eust aepcy “Rmejtlahg0‑ o gavjh (Zct aeotjcy) Truj x5 \ (rjcotavj tm Zctaeotj \)). Tlj blurbl as hmt lmcy ai at dmjs hmt spjbaoccy to`j mh sah. At as ohjepty syefmc. At as hmt daiijrjht irme o frmtljc.― –At as aeemroc imr ymu tm spjo` ca`j tlot ljrj!― –Qmur emrocaty as ohmtljr bjhsmr mi Tru tl0 tm prmtjbt ymu irme tlj eosturfotamh ohd wmrcd ymuijor. Wmrsj yjt, ymu usj emrocaty tm kustaiy ymur vjacahg mi Trutl.― –Bjosj fjahg mfsbjhj Zbbjccm0 ymu wacc hmt fj worhjd ogoah!― –Rm cjt ej gjt tlas stroaglt - ai A wjrj tm wratj o stmry ofmut o eoh wlm wos bloahjd tm o wocc

watl las jyjs topjd mpjh ohd imrbjd tm wotbl o grmup mi ejh eosturfotj, ymu wmucd hmt ca`jtlot= Jvjrydoy…imrjvjr= Ai A wrmtj o stmry ofmut o eoh imrbjd tm wotbl ymu wotbl àttaj -pmrh,ymu wmucdh‑t ca`j tlot= Dmh‑t cmm` ot ej ca`j tlot0 A boh tjcc! Wjcc tlot‑s wlot at ejohs wljh ymusoy “Blrast tmm` mh tlj wmrcd‑s sahs‑ - Gmd Ruiijrs/Jxpjrajhbjs tlje. Mr wmucd Gmd‑s Grobj hmt

fj Fcahd= Mr wmucd Gmd‑s Grobj, ohd sm Gmd/Blrast, hmt fj o Bmhtrodabtamh ‒ Djod= Dm ymu hmt`hmw tlas= Orj ymur wmrds sm jepty tm ymu, ml lj-wlm-as-tmm-lmcy-tm-ljor-o-dasgustahg-wmrd-tlot-storts-watl-oh-e= Tlj hmtjd e-wmrd as hmt dasgustahg tlmugl, os tlj wmrcd gcoss as hmtslahhy. O wmrd rjcotavj tm atsjci as oh jepty spobj imr ymu tm iacc watl ymur wacc. Orj ymu subl o

puppjt mh ahvasafcj warjs, tm ymur mwh lohds= Dm ymu prjobl ymur mwh “Wmrd mi Gmd‑ tm prmtjbttlj blacdrjh= As hmt tlj rmod tm ljcc povjd ah gmmd ahtjhtamh=―

Zbbjccm shorcs ot tlj prjobljr,–Dasgustahg…―

Zbbjccm as fohhjd irme las blurbl. Tljy tjcc lae tm rjod tlj Wmrd mi Gmd. Zbbjccm lotjstlj blurbl. Hmfmdy castjhjd tm lae tljrj, ohd mhcy hmfmdy/sah castjhjd ohd miijrjd at sjrvabjs.Tlj mcdjr gjhjrotamh wos rjsastoht tm tlj hjw, fjbousj ah tljar jyjs, tljy wjrj raglt, ohdohytlahg tlj hjw gjhjrotamh dad wos wrmhg. At wos hmt pmssafcj imr Gmd tm fj wmràhg tlrmugltlj hjw gjhjrotamh, fjbousj Gmd wmucd hmt dorj wmr` tlrmugl mtljr pjmpcj ah tlj wmrcd watlmuthmtaiyahg tlje iarst watl oh miijr. Tljy wjrj stuefcahg fcmb`s. Zbbjccm bmhsadjrs miijrahg tljestmhjs ohd rmpjs ohd gavahg tlje o eop tm o hjorfy mbjoh ah lmpjs mi eoàhg tlj wmrcd o fjttjr

pcobj.Zbbjccm, Yajha…!

Zbbjccm wratjs smejtlahg ohd mhj doy ljors las iovmratj prjobljr soy lj as o iocsj prmpljt. Zbbjccm lod hm adjo. Zbbjccm tljh wmhdjrs ai Kjsus lod ohy iovmratj ^lorasjjs. Zbbjccmtlah`s lmw orrmgoht lj as tm tlah` tlot. Zbbjccm tlah`s ofmut lmw lj as ahvjhtahg las mwhcohguogj, las mwh catjrory tljmry.Zbbjccm, Yajha ï Ymcorj …!

Tljrj as o fard. Ats wahgs imrbj at upword. At iaglts tlj wahd wljh smorahg ogoahst at, ohdsmors iostjr wljh gcadahg watl at. Fut tlj fard as hmt Icyahg. At as cyahg. At as djbjavahg atsjci. Atrjeahds Zbbjccm mi Afas.–A lotj fards. ―



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Zbbjccm, Yajha ï Ymcorj! Zbbjccm…! Zbbjccm gmjs ahtm o wox eusjue ohd sjjs oh jxlafat boccjd “Blrast ah tlj Tmef.‑ At as mi

o tmef iaccjd watl rmttahg icjsl tlot bohhmt sovj lueohaty. At as dasturfahg. At as fy o eoh hoejdLmcfjah. Zbbjccm bohhmt tjcc ai tlj jxlafat as suppmsjd tm fj mh tlj doy oitjr Blrast wos brubaiajdohd o doy fjimrj tlj Vjsurrjbtamh, mr yjors oitjr Blrast bcoaejd Lj/lj wmucd Orasj. Zbbjccm ijjcs

tlas as tlj bmrj tjhsamh mi lueohaty, tlj qujstamh tlot occ qujstamhs mi occ taej ohd spobj gcaepsjdwlabl tlj stors scmwcy bmhstrubtjd tlj ohswjr tm. Tlj ohswjr uhvjacjd wly tlj caglts ah tlj batyeodj at aepmssafcj tm sjj tlj Rtorcaglt ah tlj LjovjhsZbbjccm, Yajha ï Ymcorj! Zbbjccm, Rmghorj!

Zbbjccm ijjcs ca`j oh adamt.Zbbjccm ijjcs ca`j oh Adamt.



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Tlj emst fjoutaiuc fard tlot lj lod jvjr sjjh wos djod. Lj lod tlrmwh o rmb` tlrmugl atca`j o spadjr wjf.–Tlj wmrcd as doehjd; djstrmy at ljhbj! ―

Tlj roah as ioccahg… O grmwh eoh as daggahg las lohds ahtm tlj eud. Tlj roah storts tm iocco cattcj lordjr, fmuhbahg mii tlj cjovjs ejcmdamuscy. Tlj eoh puccs las `hjjs tm las bljst, lmcdahgljr ijjt ah ljr lohds, rmbàhg. Lj bcmsjs ljr jyjs…os tlj roah pcmps mvjr las sàh, ohd mpjhs lasemutl wadj…os lj cjts mut oh ogmhazjd sbrjoe, –Ml Gmd! A lovj suh` tm djg rodotamh ‒ Mfcavamh!―

Lj bmeeattjd tlj eurdjr imr hm emrj purpmsj tloh tm sjj wlot wmucd loppjh. Lj dad atimr las sjci.–Ljcp ej!―

O dor`-sàhhjd wmeoh as stohdahg mvjr Zbbjccm 2 . Ljr cmhg, burcy fcob` loar faccmws pjobjiuccy…Rlj los…frmwh -jyjs, ohd toh sàh. Rlj wjors o taglt suat dropjd mvjr watl oh

jhguciahg, wlatj bcmo`, wlatj fmmts, ohd wlatj gcmvjs. Ljr jhtarj ottarj as wlatj, ohd subl o tahtmhcy oepcaiajs ljr tohhjd sàh… O djjp sbor as jtbljd obrmss ljr cjit bljj`, ohd at strjtbljs up tmljr frmw, ormuhd ljr jyj, ohd dmwh tm ljr hjb` a h o eohhjr rjsjefcahg o sjrpjht… –Ey Gmd, lmw A lovj ioccjh.―

Zbbjccm2 fjots las lohds ahtm tlj grmuhd.–A woht tm sovj tlj wmrcd.― Lj slmuts, –Imr Qmu! A woht tm josj Qmur ôah!― –Cmvj ocwoys ahburs bmst.― Rlj soys, –A @hjw Tlot.― –A `hmw A eust fj o eortyr! A oe waccahg tm sobraiabj ey sjci sm tlot at boh fj o trop tm botbldjprovaty. Aeprasmhjd ah tlot sjci, A slocc djstrmy djprovaty ohd ey sjci watl tlj soej wlae.― –Tljh wly dm ymu cjt tlj emtmr mi Mfcavamh bmhtrmc ymur obtamhs=― –At as subl o lord iaglt Iotljr! Imrgavj ej!―–A Imrgavj ymu.―

Zbbjccm2 bohhmt tjcc rotljr roah mr tjors orj ioccahg dmwh las bljj`s,–At as sm Zhioar tlot Qmu Blmsj oh Jxastjhbj wlabl wmucd Vjquarj Qmu tm Ocwoys MiijrImrgavjhjss .― –Qjs, fut at as hmt uhioar. A Blmsj tlas Iotj.―–Tloh` ymu Fjoutaiuc. A wacc hmt Furdjh Qmu watl ey guact.―

Rlj bcmsjs ljr jyjs ohd seacjs os tlj roah pcmps mvjr ljr sàh… –Tloh` ymu.― –Eoy A sovj tlj wmrcd=― –Qjs.―

Zbbjccm2 grofs tlj wmeoh‑s bcmo`, ohd tmubljs Ljr Rbor, –Wly dm Qmu Cmvj us=―Tlj wmeoh àssjs ljr irajhd‑s frmw,

–A Oe.―

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ZbbjccmFmm` AAA(A)



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O corgj imrjst surrmuhds o ymuhg eoh wlm wjjps upmh las `hjjs. Tlj imrjst as hmt eodjmi hoturj, fjbousj tlj ymuhg eoh dmjs hmt `hmw rotljr mr hmt at as eodj mi hoturj, mr pjrlopsahstjod pcostab, ejtoc, oar…ohd fjbousj tlj ymuhg eoh dmjsh‑t borj wlot at a s eodj mut mi, rotljrtlot wmef as o fag-fohg mr o Wlatj Caglt. Lj furajs las iobj ahtm las ------iaccjd poces. Lj aslmcdahg tlj fmdy mi o djod fard. At kust dajd. At‑s hjvjr ohy mcdjr tloh tlot. Lj boh‑t gjt tlj fcmmdmii las lohds. Las lohds orj bmvjrjd ah eud. Lj cmm`s ot tlj fcmmd, ohd trajs tm tjcc laesjci tlot atcmm`s ca`j…fut at dmjsh‑t; at‑s hmtlahg fut…ohd lj `hmws tlot lj as ocmhj. Lj dmjs hmt fury tljdjod fard, fjbousj at gavjs lae smejtlahg tm fj ocmhj watl. Hmr dmjs lj soy ohytlahg ohd iacc tljsacjhbj. Wotjr ioccs dmwh tlj ymuhg eoh‑s bljj`s, jvjh emrj. Wotjr as jvjrywljrj. Ah jvjryjyj, ah jvjry pjrsmh, ah jvjry stmry…wotjr, o botocyst mi...as tlj tljej mi tlas ymuhg eoh.

Lmw dm ymu gm tm scjjp…= Tlj ymuhg eoh puccs tlj djod fard jvjh bcmsjr, trjefcahg ohd quavjrahg ca`j o cjoi.

Qmu kust dm.



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Bmccjgj Foccod O Fcoh`-Yjrsj ^mje2

Zbbjccm cmvjs tm pjobjiuccy sat upmh tlj wocc. At‑s mutsadj tlj cafrory ohd ocmhg tljsadjwoc` wljrj occ tlj pjmpcj woc` fy. Lj sats up tljrj ohd rjods fmm`s imr bcoss. Rahbj Zbbjccmas eokmrahg ah Vjcagamh ohd Jhgcasl, imr tlj so`j mi eoàhg tlj emst mi Tlj Rwmrd miTrafucotamh, “Vjgjh,‑ “Tlj Druhòrd,‑ ohd…lj los o cmt mi fmm`s tm rjod. Lj as ocwoys rjodahg,hm eottjr wlot, fjbousj at staeucotjs tlj eahd. At ljcps ymu tlah`. Tlot‑s tlj purpmsj mi fmm`s ‒ hmt tm tjobl ymu wlot ymu dmh‑t `hmw, fut tm staeuc otj wlot as ahsadj mi ymu - tm scoe tmgjtljrtlot ahsadj mi ymu ohd irme tlot fag fohg jejrgj tm hjw tlmuglts, fragltjr ohd grjotjr tloh occtlmsj fjimrj. Mr ot cjost tlot as suppmsjd tm fj tlj purpmsj mi fmm`s. Ai hmt - at‑s hmt.

Zbbjccm woats tm sjj wlm wacc bmej ohd sat watl lae mh tlj wocc. Lj `hmws lj cmm`sofsurd up tljrj, bljwahg mh o tmmtlpab` ohd swahgahg cjgs bcmtljd ah tmrh kjohs, fut sm fj at. Occtljsj strohgjrs possahg fy orj tlj soej. Zbbjccm cjovjs tlje fjlahd fy wlot las “A‑ dmjs, djspa tj

wlot las “A‑ wohts. Tljy orj boce. Rjrjhaty as tlj boce mi mur accusamh. At as tlj stacchjss mi pljhmejhmh tlot dmjs hmt ahirahgj upmh ats Rmurbj. At as stoghotamh ‒ mr eoyfj tlot‑s kust wlotZbbjccm tjccs laesjci fjbousj lj as sattahg mh tlj wocc. Tlmu gl Zbbjccm as rjodahg, lj‑s rjoccywoatahg.

Zbbjccm grjw up mh o iore. Lj lod tlj mhcy porjhts tlot las “A‑ bmucd lovj. –Hjvjr imrgjt ymur fosj.― las dod tmcd/tjccs lae.–A wmh‑t.―

Las blacdlmmd (fjbousj lj tlah`s at‑s las) bmhsastjd mi tlmusohds mi wo c`s ah tlj wmmds.Lj wmucd scjjp ah tlj cjovjs fjsadj las dmg ohd cmm` up ahtm tlj trjjs. Lj wotbljd eohy iacestlot hm mhj jcsj los sjjh, ohd dadh‑t rjod eohy fmm`s. Lj wos tmm fusy wratahg las mwh. Lj wosgavjh o boejro fy las ouht wljh lj wos ormuhd twjcvj ah mrdjr tm to`j pabturjs mi occ tlj pcobjs

lj vasatjd, sm tlot tlj ioeacy bmucd ocsm sjj tlje. Lj spjht las caij irjjzahg tlj gcmry mi tlj wmrcdormuhd lae ahtm smejtlahg lj bmucd slmw mtljrs. Hm emejht mi tlj wmrcd as tlj soej, ohdlueohaty as uhdjr o bursj tm jxpjrajhbj tlj wmrcd rjcotavj tm tljar sjci - tljar “A.‑ Zbbjccm ijcc ahcmvj watl tlj boejro fjbousj at occmwjd lae tm pucc tlj wmrcd lj sow mut mi tlj oar ah irmht milae, ohd fy o eogab spjcc, turh tlj ejtoplysaboc gmd `hmwh os “vajw,‑ ahtm o plysaboc mfkjbt tlotbmucd fj possjd fjtwjjh lohds, wrattjh mh, bljrasljd…ohytlahg fy wlabl bmucd fj dmhj tm o

plysaboc lohd, bmucd fj dmhj tm o pabturj. Zbbjccm ijcc ah cmvj watl ort fjbousj at as tljtrohseutotamh mi tlj ejtoplysaboc ahtm tlj plysaboc, watlmut rjemvahg tlj ejto-.

Zbbjccm jxpjrajhbjd o sjosmh mi suabadoc tlmuglts ah Lagl Rblmmc. Lj wos mfsjssjd ofmutjvjrytlahg ohd at ocemst drmvj lae tm las djotl. Fut at hjvjr wmucd lovj, fjbousj hmw lj‑ssattahg mh o wocc, rjodahg o fmm`. Lj trajs tm tlah` wlot as ca`j tm fj oh mcd eoh tlot los sjjh sm

eubl, yjt as stub` ah tlj fmdy mi o fmy, ohd tlrmugl jyjs, lj as imrbjd tm sjj occ pjmpcj, occ pcobjs…ca`j tljy orj smejtlahg lj jxpjrajhbjd fjimrj lj bmucd jhkmy tlje.–^jmpcj orj Gmd‑s gait tm jobl mtljr…― Zbbjccm wlaspjrs os lj wratjs smejtlahg dmwh ah tljcjdgjrs mi las tjxt fmm`. Lj as rjodahg las wmrds fjimrj lj wratjs tlje, –…Yocuj as ah pjmpcj,wlabl as cmgaboc, fjbousj tlj vocuj mi oh jbmhmey bmejs irme pjmpcj (ah o “bmhbjpt‑ mi ioatl).^jmpcj orj tlj smurbj/trohsbrafjrs mi Yocuj, ohd rjcagamh as mur bucturoc uhdjrstohd mi Yocuj.Tljrjimrj, jbmhmeabs as o rjcagamh, imr at as o cohguogj mi o ejtoplysaboc prahbapoc.― –Orj ymu tocàhg tm ej=― o guy mh las bjcc plmhj os`s Zbbjccm.



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–Hm. Rmrry.― Zbbjccm as sattahg mh tlj wocc. Lj sjjs o fard. Zbbjccm graeobjs.

Ai ymu eosturfotj Zbbjccm, Gmd wacc bursj ymu! As at Gmd soyahg tlot, mr kust Ej=–Wlot‑s tlj daiijrjhbj/Daiijrjhbj=― o guy possahg soys mh las bjcc -plmhj. Zbbjccm wotbljs lae

gm. Lj rjobljs ahtm las pmb`jt, ohd puccs o hmtjfmm`. Lj cmm`s imr las pjh. Lj ocwoys easpcobjsat. Lj iahds at ah las slart pmb`jt. Lj iahds oh jepty pogj. Lj iaccs tlj pogj. Lj tljh gmjs fob` tmrjodahg oitjr cmsahg mhj-eahutj ohd tlarty-iavj sjbmhds mi studyahg.–La Zbbjccm!― Zbbjccm cmm`s tm las raglt, ohd up pmps o garc watl vjry burcy, icmwahg loar, ohd ovjry fraglt seacj. Ljr loar as fjoutaiuc.–Ljccm Afas!―

Zbbjccm woc`s ocmhgsadj o garc hoejd Grobj. Tljy orj woc`ahg tm bcoss irme o bcoss tljy fmtl slorj. Tlas woc` wacc mhcy cost iavj eahutjs. At loppjhs twabj o wjj` ‒ o tmtoc mi tjheahutjs, ohd at as imr tljsj tjh eahutjs tlot Zbbjccm iaglts tlrmugl tlj wjj`. Zbbjccm as sattahg mho wocc hjxt tm Afas, seacahg o lugj seacj. Tmgjtljr, ah grobj/Grobj, watl o sjhsj mi adjhtabocwmhdjr, tljy wotbl tlj immtstjps ah tlj lord bmhbrjtj iacc watl wotjr.

*‑Tlj slodmws mi tlj wmrcd emvj0 ot Dowh, occ vohasljs.‑*“Tlas as o Fcjssahg tm @hmw.‑ Tm bcoss, mr owoy irme bcoss, Zbbjccm ocwoys trobjs las lohd mh tlj wocc fjsadj lae ca`j o

fcahd eoh sjj`ahg guadohbj. Lj cmm`s ofsurd, ohd lj `hmws at, ohd dmjs at, tm `hmw at. Lj woc`sohd sats ah bcoss imr tlj so`j mi rjocazahg tlmuglts ‒ ah mrdjr tm rjobl ahtm las pmb`jt, pucc mut ohmtjfmm`, cmm` imr las pjh, iahd at ah las slart pmb`jt, iahd oh jepty pogj, ohd iacc tlj pogj. Ljdmjs hmt woht tm dm tlas, ohd yjt lj dmjs.

Rmejtaejs, Zbbjccm wacc woc` ormuhd grmuhds, tmssahg o focc up ohd dmwh. Lj eoy mreoy hmt dm tlas imr lmurs. Ahtm las poce, mut mi las poce, ahtm las poce, mut mi las poce… –Qmu‑rj eaglty gmmd ot botblahg tlot focc.― o lastmry eokmr tjccs Zbbjccm. Tlj armhy asmvjrfjorahg. Zbbjccm dmjsh‑t soy ohytlahg.

A‑e ocwoys probtabahg. Zbbjccm‑s iovmratj tlahg tm dm as caj ah fjd, ohd kust caj tljrj. Hjstcjd ah tlj bmv jrs, ladahg

irme tlj caglt mr dor`hjss pmurahg ah irme tlj wahdmw, lj rjsts las ljod upmh o paccmw…

(Zbbjccm los o iacj mh las bmeputjr hoejd “^jmpcj.‑ Lmpj. Ah at as o pabturj mi jvjry pjrsmh lj los jvjr `hmwh. Lj cmm`s tlrmugl tlje. Tlj pabturjs orj mcd ohd hjw. Lj sjjs pjmpcjtlot lj wjht stjoe tuhhjcahg watl. Lj sjjs pjmpcj lj stoyjd up occ haglt ohd cougljd watl. Ljsjjs pjmpcj lj wjht mh odvjhturjs watl. Lj sjjs pjmpcj lj sot ohd cmm`jd ot tlj stors watl. Ljsjjs pjmpcj tlot lj cmvjs. Lj sjjs pjmpcj tlot ejoh emrj tm lae tloh ohytlahg ah tlj jhtarjwmrcd. Ohd tljy orj gmhj. Tljy‑rj kust gmhj. –Wlot loppjhjd=― Zbbjccm wlaspjrs

Zbbjccm as bryahg.)

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…Ljr Hoej as Kmy

O dor`-sàhhjd garc watl cmhg, burcy fcob` loar tmubljs tlj ejtoc tmmc ljcd ah ljrlohd…Ljr iahgjrs prjss ogoahst tlj rmuglhjss mi o frab`. Rlj caits o ducc `haij, ohd scabjs mpjh o

fog ogoahst tlj lohd-eodj frab`.Tlj fog as iucc mi dust.Rlj pousjs. Rlj lmcds o lohdiuc mi dust. Rlj boh mhcy slmw at tm ljrsjci. Hm mhj jcsj as

tljrj tm fj oiroad.Jvjry frab` los ljr dust pob`jd ahtm at. Ljr fmss los djeohdjd tlj slj iacc ah tlj brob`s

mi jobl mi tlj frab`s sm tlot hmhj mi tlje orj ioucty. Lj los mhcy ljr dm tlas sm tlot ai mhj mi tlj frab`s frjo`s, lj `hmw jxobtcy wlm tm fcoej, ohd sm bmucd kustcy puhasl ljr. At as fjcajvjd tlastlrjot wmucd aeprmvj tlj quocaty mi ljr wmr`, ohd prmtjbt tlj pjmpcj.

At as roahahg.Ah tlj eud ohd graej, slj caits ljr lohdiuc mi dust, ohd pob`s ah tlj brob`s ah tlj lohd-

eodj frab`s.

Tlj twm cahjs orj tmm tocc ohd forjcy bmhhjbtjd. Ljr lohdiuc bohhmt iacc tlje.Rlj as ymuhg. Ljr wrah`cjd ohd ruahjd sàh eo`js ljr mcd. Rlj as hmt o wmeoh, hmr as sljo eoh. Occ slj los orj sbors, syefmcs mi ljr survavoc. Tljrj orj hm fohdogjs. Tlj sbors orj ah ljrlohds ohd lurt wljh slj lmcds tlj dust. Rlj dmjs hmt slmw ohy poah. Rlj as wmràhg tm `jjp tljwocc irme bmccopsahg. At as boccjd tlj Houtacus. At as oh “jepty sljcc‑ tlot slj iaccs. Tlj wocc `jjpstlj ravjr irme icmmdahg tlj vaccogj. Rlj rjpoars tlj tmp mi tlj wocc. At as ocwoys emhsmmh sjosmh.Rlj ocwoys iaccs wlot slj as os`jd tm iacc.

Tlj kmf as tlj emst uhdjsarofcj. Ljr fmss blmsj tlj aeprobtaboc mhj tm dm at.Rlj pob`s ah tlj brob`s ogoah. Tlj hjxt twm cahjs orj mut mi prmpmrtamh ohd cmpsadjd. Rlj

bohhmt iacc tlj orbljs ohd bmepcjtj tlj barbcj.Irme ljr woast, ljr trjefcahg lohd, tlj mhj ah wlabl slj los ljcd occ tlj lohdiucs mi

dust, rasjs tm wapj tlj roah mii ljr bljj`. Rlj bohhmt bmhtrmc ljr lohd jhmugl tm dm wlot sljwohts at tm. At kust fjots ogoahst ljr bljj` ohd cap.

Tlj yjors orj fcurrjd ca`j o sbrjoe tlot hm mhj ljord. Rlj wos hjvjr o blacd…Rlj boejahtm jxastjhbj occ ot mhbj…slj kust wos. _uab`jr tloh suddjhcy slj wos ah lastmry, tlj ahhmbjhbjohd gcmry mi prj-A-taej cmst watlmut jvjr fjahg, ohd os oh ahdjiahofcj bmhsjqujhbj, sljoppjorjd…Rlj lod hm blmabj fut tm to`j tlj kmf. At dad hmt eottjr ai slj wohtjd at mr hmt.

Rattahg ot tlj tmp mi tlj wocc, irme wljrj fjcmw tljrj as o euddy iajcd mi pjh-ca`jloy…wljrj slj boh sjj vostjr dastohbjs ohd grjotjr djstahotamhs, slj pob`s ah tlj dust ogoah.

Tljrj orj imur cahjs ahstjod mi tlrjj.Ljr eusbcjs bohhmt to`j at ohyemrj…Rlj bmhtahujs watlmut stmppahg.Rlj wacc hmt cjt tlj roah ruah tlj dust ah ljr lohd.Rlj as ocmhj ot tlj tmp mi tlj wocc.Ljr lohd tlrmfs. Rlj hjjds o `haij. Rlj bohhmt pab` up tlj `haij. At lurts. Rlj as luhgry,

ohd frjod woatahg tm fj frm`jh sats hjxt tm o iaccjd bup woatahg imr ljr tloh`s. Fut tlj `haijbousjs tmm eubl poah. Hjvjrtljcjss, storvahg, ohd oworj tlot slj bohhmt cjt ljrsjci daj imr tljso`j mi tlj blacdrjh, slj trajs…fut tlj `haij scaps mut irme fjtwjjh ljr iahgjrs…Rlj storjs ottlj `haij.

Tlj mcd wmeoh wlm as ymuhg sats ah tlj oar ohd bcjor, ohd cmm`s ot tlj jepty spobj wljrjljr dust as ofmut tm fj pob`jd. Ljr jyjs browc dmwh tlj mtljr frab`s, cmwjr ohd cmwjr tmword tlj



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pjh-ca`j loy. Rlj tljh cmm`s tm tlj raglt, tljh tm tlj cjit. Tlas spjbtobcj as lagl irme tlj grmuhd, fut smmh, at wmucd fj cmw. At wmucd fj dmeahotjd. Tlot as, ai slj dad hmt `jjp iaccahg tlj brob`s.Rlj wmucd eo`j surj tlot dad hmt loppjh, imr slj fjcajvjs tlot tlj emst aepmrtoht kmf mi o

pjrsmh as tm dm o gmmd kmf, wlotjvjr tlot kmf eoy fj. Tlot as purpmsj, ohd tlj ljort watlmut purpmsj as o spobj hjjdahg tm fj iaccjd.

Rlj eoahtoahs tlj wocc.Rlj as doehjd tm aeogahj tlj gcmrajs mi blacdlmmd, imr slj wos hjvjr o blacd tmjxpjrajhbj tlje…ljr fartl wos hmt bmhbjptamh, fut owo`jhahg mh o lmspatoc tofcj, uhsurj lmwslj gmt tl jrj…Mhcy slj bmucd eoahtoah at. Mhcy slj lod tlj s`acc ohd ahtjccagjhbj tm sovj at. Hmt

fjbousj slj studajd0 slj hjvjr studajd…slj “wos…‑ Rlj `hmws at, ohd slj `hmws wly, futbohhmt jxpcoah at fjbousj hm mhj boh uhdjrstohd fjbousj tljy wjrj bmhbjavjd. Mhcy slj bohuhdjrstohd ljr “wly‑ ‒ tlj ahsjporofcj rjosmh irme ljr stmry tlot jvjrymhj jcsj fcoejs ljr imrsuiijrahg. Tljy suiijr ljr stmry, mr ot cjost bcoae tljy dm, fjbousj ljr dust bmejs irme mut mi tljgrovjyord. Tlj grovjyord as tlj mhcy pcobj wljrj tljrj as dust.

Rlj eoahtoahs tlj wocc tm `jjp tlj wotjr mut. Tljrj los ocwoys fjjh o wocc, ohd tljrj losocwoys fjjh o “ljr.‑ Tlj wotjr slj `jjps mut as hmt wotjr tlot boh foptazj mr ljoc blacdrjh ai tljy

ob`hmwcjdgj tljy orj suiijrahg irme syeptmes ohd gm tm smej smrt mi lmspatoc. At as pmccutjdwotjr. Wotjr as kust pmtjhtaoc ‒ at to`js tlj slopj mi ats gcoss, wlabl tm tlj wotjr, as iroejcjss.Tlj wotjr mh tlj mtljr sadj mi tlj wocc as dor`. Ai tlj wotjr frm`j tlrmugl, at wmucd bousj osab`hjss, eoyfj jvjh o gcmfoc pcoguj tlot wmucd bcoae hahjty-pjrbjht mi tlj pmpucotamh. Tljwotjr mh tlj sadj mi tlj wocc wljrj tlj vaccogj as wlot `jjps tlot sab`hjss irme grmwahg. Ai tljwocc frm`j, tlj dor` wotjr wmucd eax watl tlj ljocahg wotjr ohd bmrrupt at. Hmt fjbousj tljljocahg wotjr wmucd fj turhjd dor` ‒ at los fjjh prmvjh tlot tlj ljocahg wotjr obtuoccy puraiajstlj dor` wotjr - fut fjbousj pjmpcj wmucd ladj tlj ljocahg wotjr watlah gcossjs ohd `jjp tljljocahg wotjr bmhtoahjd, oiroad mi mtljrs stjocahg at ah tlj bloms mr porohmad ofmut cmsahg at ah tljdor` wotjr, jvjh tlmugl at los fjjh prmvjh tlot at bohhmt fj toahtjd. Tlj vaccogj dmjs hmt `hmwofmut tlj dor` wotjr. Occ tljy `hmw as tlot mhj doy o cattcj fmy mr garc bcaefjd tm tlj tmp miwotjr, ohd druh` smej mi tlj wotjr mh tlj mtljr sadj. Tljy imuhd tlj blacd watl las mr ljr bljstbmvjrjd ah fcmmd tlot imrejd o syefmc tlot rjsjefcjd oh jyj watl sax-ores.

Tlj mcd garc wlm as ymuhg los ocwoys fjjh ljrj. Rlj los fjjh ljrj os cmhg os tljrj los fjjh o wocc. Ai tljrj a s o wocc, slj as tljrj, eoahtoahahg at…

Ai tlj dor` wotjr gjts tlrmugl tlj wocc, tlj jhtarj vaccogj wacc fj djstrmyjd… At as roahahg.Tlas as occ slj dmjs. Jvjr. Imrjvjr.O dor`-s`ahhjd garc watl cmhg, burcy fcob` loar tmubljs tlj ejtoc tmmc ljcd ah ljr

lohd…Ljr iahgjrs prjss ogoahst tlj rmuglhjss mi o frab`…Rlj lmcds o lohdiuc mi dust…

Tlj ymuhg garc‑s hoej as Kmaj…



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A oe tlj adamtA woc` tlrmugl pjmpcj, ohd tljy toc` ofmut tlahgs ah cohguogjs tlot A oe hmt mi tlj

ahtjccjbtuoc bocafjr tm uhdjrstohd. Tlas dmjs hmt eo`j ej fjttjr mr wmrsj tloh tlje. At kust ejohsA‑e ljrj, ohd tljy‑rj tljrj, ohd occ tmgjtljr, wj woc` dmwh o sadjwoc` tm bcoss.Rm eubl jepty emtamh ‒ sm stacc, sm stoghoht tlas wotjr mi wlabl A woc` tlrmugl…A dmh‑t

`hmw wly A oe ljrj. Tljy bocc tlas pcobj bmccjgj, wljrj tlj fjst ohd fraglt gotljr. A dmh‑t `hmwwlot tlj wmrd fraglt ejohs.

…tljrj as o trjj wljrj pjhbacs mi caglt dohbj watlah tlj emrhahg east. A eust lovj o daiijrjht djiahatamh. Ohd yjt A dmh‑t uhdjrstohd lmw tljrj boh fj daiijrjht

djiahatamhs. Tlj caglt ah tlj trjjs as gmcdjh ohd wore…tljsj pjmpcj orj hmt gmcdjh ohd wore.Eoyfj tljy orj, fut A bohhmt ijjc tlje, ohd A boh ijjc tlj caglt ah tlj trjjs, sm jvjh tljh tljrj as odaiijrjhbj.

Tlas pcobj rjj`s mi oh aghmroht bmhimreaty.

A‑e mh o bmhvjyjr fjct, possahg fy pjmpcj A woht tm ob`hmwcjdgj. Ohd yjt ats aeprmpjr tmdm sm ‒ at wacc tlrmw mii tlj gjors. Mi wlot= Wlot eoblahj as tlas tlot A oe ah= Iobjs…sm eohyiobjs. Tlot eoh as tlj emst fjcmvjd eoh ah sblmmc, fut lj boh mhcy prmbjss hjgotavj tlmuglts, smlj tlah`s jvjrymhj lotjs lae. Tljrj as o garc ah o wljjcbloar wlmsj grjotjst kmy as wotblahg ljrfrmtljr, wlm slj dmjsh't `hmw rotljr as mcdjr mr ymuhgjr tloh ljr, pcoy ah tlj gross, ohd slj kustwohts tm sat tljrj, ohd 'prmtjbt lae watl ljr jyjcads.' Rlj as tjeptjd tm dm tlj raglt tlahg imr tljwrmhg rjosmh. Ah lae as tlj ljcc mi djstrubtamh, fut at as jepty, fut ai ats gotjs wjrj jvjr bcmsjd,tlj wmrcd wmucd iahds frab`s, ejtoc, iarj…ohd mut mi gmmd ahtjhtamh, bmhstr ubt o hjw mhj. Os oblacd slj imuhd ljr emtljr djod watl ljr wrasts scat, ohd los fjjh spjhdahg ljr jhtarj caij tryahgtm iahd mut woy. Rlj wacc to`j jvjrytlahg tlot ljr hjaglfmr cmvjs, ca`j frjjzjs, suhicmwjrs,

pmhajs…ohd djstrmy tlje, cjovahg tlot hjaglf mr watl oh jepty rmme, ohd yjt lj wacc stacc fjloppy …

Bcoss; A‑e ah oh Jhgcasl dasbussamh. A tlah`. Rmrmraty garcs ohd jcatast guys blub`cj mvjrwlocj slodmws. A sat ah tlj bmrhjr watl o tmmtlpab` ah ey emutl ohd tmrh kjohs. Ohd eoyfj A‑ewjorahg tljsj kjohs kust tm lovj o stmry tm wratj ofmut tlje, ohd eoyfj A lovj tlastmmtlpab`….eoyfj tljsj bcmtljs ohd woc`s ah tlj por`s ohd…orj kust tm lovj mr tm eoahtoah tljRobroejht mi “A.‑ Tlot “A‑ watl tlj cmwjst grodjs ah bcoss, ohd bmhstoht iaglts watl djprjssa mh,ohd bmhstoht emejhts mi ow`wordhjss laddjh fjlahd cougltjr tlot smuhd ca`j wlap cosljs, ohdoh ahofacaty tm scjjp. Tlj tjobljr , ljr eme tmcd ljr smh hmt tm gm mutsadj, fut tlj smh dadohywoys. Tlj emtljr imuhd tlj blacd cyahg ah tlj shmw, hmt emvahg. Rlj ijcc tm ljr `hjjs, ohdcaitjd tlj fmy tm ljr frjosts. Tlj fmy slottjrjd ahtm gcoss ohd tjors fjtwjjh ljr iahgjrs, scattahgljr wrasts.–Zbbjccm= Dm ymu `hmw tlj ohswjr=― –Hm.―

Tlj loccwoys orj wlatj, ohd tlj icmmr as eodj mi tacjs. A ca`j tlj fards ah tlj trjjs. Tljrj asmhj ah o bogj. A bmucd wotbl tlj bogjd fard imr sjvjroc gmmd, cmhg eahutjs, fut hm emrj oitjr tlot.Gmd boh `jjp Las tlrmhj ohd Jtjrhaty. Rmejmhj fueps ahtm ej, sub`ahg oh “A‑ ahtm tlj tadjs mistudjhts ljodahg tm bcossjs. A oe roh`jd ?2,971 mut mi ?:,>>>. A‑e tlj brozy mhj.

A study ohd study ohd study, fut A dmh‑t uhdjrstohd wlot tljsj tjobljrs woht. Vaglt hmw,A lovj o popjr tm wratj, fut ahstjod A‑e wratahg tlas. A lovj tm. A woht tm dm gmmd ah tlj bcoss. A



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lovj tm wratj o stmry ofmut o dmvj wlm tjccs o eoh ofmut tlj sjbrjt tm Lagljr Jxastjhbj fy ioccahg mvjr ohd dyahg . A gmt/gjt o B+.–Qmu woht tm gm tm dahhjr tmhaglt Zbbjccm=― –A boh‑t, A lovj wmr` tm dm.―–Wlot orj ymu dmahg= Jxoes jhdjd yjstjrdoy.―

–Rovahg tlj wmrcd…― A soy sjramuscy. Rlj rmccs ljr jyjs ot ey sorbose. Rlj dmjsh‑t uhdjrstohd. Alovj tm tmubl tlj pmcc mh tlj mtljr sadj mi grmuhds fy ??;4:, ohd tljh ot eadhaglt A lovj tm fjstohdahg ah tlj cafrory hjxt tm tlj iasl toh`. Ot 6 OE A hjjd tm fj rjodahg o fmm`. Tlrjj emhtlsogm A wosh‑t ah tlj cafrory fy eadhaglt, ohd o pcohj brosljd. At wos occ ey iouct…ohd o yjor ogm Adadh‑t gm tm frjo`iost ot Luds ohd iavj -luhdrjd pjmpcj dajd ah o iarj. O gcmfoc pcoguj eoy stort aiA dmh‑t wratj tlas dmbuejht. A lovj o tjst tmemrrmw, fut wlot tjst, wlot emvahg mi fcmb`s irme mhj sadj mi tlj rmme tm tlj mtljr wacc eottjr ai tlj rmme as djstrmyjd= A boh‑t gm mut watl tlot garctlot ca`js ej fjbousj tlot fuacdahg wacc iocc ohd brusl tlmsj blacdrjh…Tlj iotj mi tlj wmrcd as ahey lohds. Ai A ioac, jvjrymhj dajs. Ohd ai jvjrymhj da js, at‑s ey iouct.

Rurjcy tlj Caglt as daeejr ocmhg tlj jdgjs mi tlj horrmw woy. Rm wj slmucd hmt trjodtljrj. Fjbousj A sjj tlot ohymhj boh iocc irme ohy ljaglt, jvjh tlmsj lagl upmh tlj emuhtoah mr

tlmsj wlm icy ofmvj at. Tljrj as o fmy ah tlj troah stotamh wlm imr o luhdrjd-ohd -jaglty-iavj yjors los lod o fmef ah las ljod tlot ohy rohdme tlmuglt wacc traggjr, sm lj los tm ocwoys tlah`cahjorcy. Ohd tlj fmy `hmws tlot ot tlj ogj mi iaitjjh lj wacc `acc smejmhj, fjbousj oh ostrmcmgast,wljh lj wos fmrh, cmm`jd mvjr o eyraod mi stort, ohd watl o eotl prmfcje, eoppjd at occ mut.

At‑s ahtjrjstahg tm cavj `hmwahg tlot ymu wacc bmeeat eurdjr. Ohd at‑s ahtjrjstahg tm ljor jvjrysahgcj vmabj ah tlj jhtarj wmrcd occ ot mhj taej. At smuhds ca`j o rmsj dyahg ah ats grmwtl.

Ey iovmratj as tlj smit, wore roahs mi Oprac. Tlj roahs orj ahtaeotj. At ijjcs ca`j jobl drmp ioccs ah o vjry prjbasj spmt, imr o vjry portabucor rjosmh. Jobl drmp borjs . Tlj gross as grjjhjr.Ohd at‑s rjoccy fjoutaiuc ai oitjr o tluhdjrstmre t lj suh bmejs fob` mut, ohd tlj jhtarj wmrcdjxpcmdjs ahtm tlas slaeejrahg eokjsty A wasl A bmucd put ah wmrds, catjroccy. At‑s tlj rorjst caglt.At‑s tlj;

“Voahslahj‑

Tljrj wos o tluhdjrstmre, ohd dor` bcmuds jejrgjd mvjr tlj lmrazmhs, ohd tlmsj lmrazmhs broslahtm tlj eoxaes mi wljrj tlj loy stmps grmwahg. Tlot as wljrj qujstamhs stmp rjbjavahg ohswjrs.Zhtac A woc` tljrj. Tlj stmre possjd fjimrj tlj doy at oppjorjd ah wos dmhj, tlmugl at cjit tljdor` bcmuds. Tlj suh slmhj tlrmugl tlje. Ohd wljh tlot loppjhjd, ah tlot ahstoht wljh A stmmdah tlj eaddcj mi oh jhdcjss iacjd ohd occ tlj stoc`s mi loy ohd fcodjs mi gross wjrj drjssjd ahdrmps mi wotjr, tlj jhtarj wmrcd jruptjd ahtm caglt. Voys mi caglt wjrj ahstohtcy ortabucotjd ahtmtlj oar, ohd tlj iajcd, ml tlj iajcd, jxpcmdjd ahtm caglt. A wos ah Ljovjh, A lod tm lovj fjjh. At wosah tlj ahstoht raglt fjimrj tlj suh sjt ohd wljh at cahgjrjd ohd sjt mvjr tlj jdgj, durahg tljgcmej, kust ca`j tlj gcmej ah emrhahg wljh tljrj as josy caglt fut tlj suh as yjt tm oppjor. Tljrjwjrj twah roahfmws, ohd iarjicajs radahg tlj fob`s mi futtjricajs.

At wos tlj roahslahj.Fy Zbbjccm

A wasl A wos lmej. A wasl A wos ah tlj iajcd. Tlj slahj ah tlj roahslahj as eassahg.A wmucd woc` ah tlj imrjst ot lmej, fjimrj tlj suh rmsj yjt tljrj wos stacc oh jorcy caglt,

wljh tlj wlmcj wmrcd as uhaiajd ah proyjr. A spjht ey wlmcj blacdlmmd ah tlj wmmds. A tlah`.



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Tljrjimrj A dad. A stortjd toàhg pabturjs os o blacd, ot tlj suggjstamh mi ey sastjr. A hjvjruhdjrstmmd lmw A `hjw/`h mw lmw tm to`j pabturjs. ^jmpcj to`j bcossjs…fut A kust stortjd. Mdd.At wos lmw A strmvj tm Tmubl tlj wmrcd, os pjmpcj stravj wljh tljy try tm Trucy Cmvj. A tlah`.

Wljh wj try tm Cmvj, wj woht tm put mur lohd mh smejmhj‑s frjost, ohd prjss ohd prjsslordjr uhtac mur lohd grmw gmjs tlrmugl tlj icjsl ohd tlj eusbcjs ohd tlj ljort uhtac wj boh

tmubl Tlje (watlmut lurtahg tlje mi bmursj.) Wj woht tm lmcd tljar lohd. Wj lmpj mur lohdwacc scap ahtm Tljars. Wj tmubl tm Tmubl, rotljr wj `hmw at mr hmt.A lotj w ocàhg mh sadjwoc`s. At‑s lmrraiyahg. Tlj strohgjrs orj tuggahg ot mur slart mr drjss

ohd wlaspjrahg ah tlj eadst mi o bcosl mi gmmd ahtjhtamh, wlabl eo`js tlas rjvjrfjrotamh mismuhd ohd iury, –Wlot as wrmhg watl stjocahg ai ymu orj luhgry=― –Wlot as wrmh g watl àccahgsmejmhj wlm os`s ymu tm àcc tlje=― –Wly as wrmhg watl lovahg sjx watl waccahg blacdrjh=―–Wly dmjs Gmd lovj tm fj Gmmd=―…ohd wlot tjrraiajs us ‒ ohd fy “us‑ mi bmursj A ejoh “ej‑ -as tlj prmpmsatamh mi hmt fjahg ofcj tm ohswjr tlje, fjbousj wj orj mur iurtljst strohgjr, ohd aiwj bohhmt ohswjr tlje, wj bohhmt ohswjr mur sjci, ohd ai wj bohhmt ohswjr mur sjci, wj orj o

fcoh` sacjhbj tlot prmbjjds o qujstamh tlot hm mhj `hmws tlj ohswjr tm ‒ wj orj o spobj fjtwjjhtwm jhds, tljrjimrj cjovahg us watl mfcavamh ohd hmt jvjh tlj cuxury mi oh jhd, cjt ocmhj o ejohs

tm bcaef o emuhtoah. Lmwjvjr, tlj vocuj mi bmhvjrsotamh bmejs ah tlj ortabucotamh mi murtlmuglts ahtm cahguastabs ohd tljrjimrj smejtlahg wj fjttjr uhdjrstohd. ^ramr tm tlot, tlmuglts orjrohdmecy oppjorahg, taejcjss jhtatajs tlot wj `hmw, fut orj yjt tm rjocazj. At as irme tlj mtljr wjuhdjrstohd mur sjci; at as fy rjocazahg tlj sufbmhsbamus tlot tlj bmhsbamushjss jxpohds. Tlot aswly A oe ocwoys ah o cafrory, ohd ocwoys tocàhg. Fut mh sadjwoc`s tljrj orj strohgjrs, hmtmtljrs. Tljsj pjmpcj orj iurtljr owoy, ohd yjt tlot daiijrjhbj mi “dastohbj‑ bohhmt fj djcahjotjd

fy tlj wmrds “mtljr‑ mr “strohgjr,‑ wlabl orj syhmhyes mi mhj ohmtljr. A kust lovj tm lmpj mtljrssjj tlj “Daiijrjhbj.‑

Alotj wocàhg mh sadjwoc`s. At‑s lmrraiyahg. Tlj wlmcj wmrcd as ah lmrrmr. Tljsj pjmpcjdmh‑t borj ofmut tlj qujstamhs tlot sotasiy tlj wmrcd ‒ tljy sborj ej emrj tloh tlj pjmpcj tlot

possamhotjcy orguj tm bost at occ mut. Tlmsj pjmpcj orj seort ot cjost. Tlj “wj‑ as o shorc miorguejhts, ohd tm rjobl Zs, wj eust uhtohgcj tlje fy tryahg ohd `hmw wj Wacc. Ohd tlmsj wlmdmh‑t try, wlm dmh‑t borj, orj pjmpcj A boh‑t uhdjrstohd, ohd fjbousj A boh‑t uhdjrstohd tlje,lmw boh ME fj rjobljd= Wlot as cohguogj tm ej tlot A dmh‑t uhdjrstohd= Fut tlot‑s tlj pmaht,ash‑t at= As hmt tlj lueoh emrj rjoc ah qujstamh, tloh ah ohswjr= Fut lmw boh A sjttcj imr tlot= –Qmu boh‑t.―

O brmw ohd o low` orj blosahg mhj ohmtljr, imr tlj iuh mi at. Tljy orj rjcaslahg ahgrovaty, ah sj xuocaty. At‑s sab`jhahg. Rm bcmsj tm ljovjh, ohd ioccjh stacc. Ohd sm wlot mi us= Ohdsm wlot mi Zs, Fjcmvjd= Tlas sadjwoc` A woc` mh, tlas bcossrmme A sat ah…wlot mi At, Fjcmvjd=Wlot mi “tlas=‑ Ohd watl lohds mh ey bljst, A os` –wlot mi “Tlas=‑― ‒ “Tlas;‑

Wocàhg (vjrf); tm woc` mvjr tlmsj wlm fjhd, tm lmcd tm hjbjssory pradj, as tm fj sovjd hmt smtlot wj boh cavj, fut sm tlot tlj djod wacc hmt ottjhd mur iuhjroc ohd wratj mur famgroply. At as smtlot wj ‒ ohd mi bmursj fy wj A ejoh “A‑ ‒ eoyfj occmwjd ahtm tlj prjsjhbj mi Grjothjss,Wlmjvjr tlot eoyfj, ohd Wlmsj “Wlmjvjr‑ as arrjcjvoht. Wlm watl, wj ‒ ohd mi bmursj fy wj Aejoh “Wj‑ ‒ slocc sjj tlot tlas wlmcj wmrd as lmrraiajd…ah lmrrmr ot cjost (tlmuglt A dmh‑t tlah`tljrj as o daiijrjhbj). Wlm watl, wj/Wj slocc sjj mur graey ijoturjs ohd os` mvjr, ohd mvjr, ohdmvjr, ohd mvjr, ohd mvjr, ohd mvjr, ohd mvjr, ohd mvjr, ohd mvjr, ohd mvjr, ohd mvjr, ohd mvjr,ohd mvjr - ohd watl jobl “mvjr‑ typjd mut scmwcy, pmhdjrjd, bmhsadjrjd, tjstjd, ohd tljhodvohbjd “mvjr‑ mhtm atsjci ogoah ohd ogoah ohd ogoah… ‒ tlj qujstamh –As tljrj hmt eohy fjttjr



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tloh A=― –As tljrj hmt oh jhtarj wmrcd (ot cjost o ^mcasl pmjt wlmsj hoej A lovj imrgmttjh) fjttjrtloh a ‒ ohd mi bmursj fy “a‑ A dmh‑t ejoh A=― Wlm watl, wj/Wj slocc stohd mh o emuhtoah ohdcmm` irme ats pjo` mvjr tlj vajw, ohd sjj tlot tlahgs orj occ prjeoturj, tlot hmhj mi tlas wossuppmsjd tm fj ljrj ah tlas grjot ohd lmrraiyahg “hmw,‑ tm sjj tlot at wos hmt suppmsjd tm fj ahohy hmw mr ohy iuturj tlot as fut o bmccjbtamh mi hmws, fut tlot occ tlas boej fjimrj tlj “at‑ wos

suppmsjd tm fj. Fjbousj “at‑ fjboej “fjimrj,‑ fjbousj at boej ah o taej tlot tlj A, rasahg mut ohdmvjr o suriobj, rasahg mut mi o wotjr tlot imrbjs tlj wotjr tm tljrjimrj fj droahjd up ahtm at ca`j tljsuh dmjs wljh at sjts, rotljr tloh lmw at oppjors (wlabl as o iodahg ahtm “bmej wlot eoy‑),“wos.‑ Fjbousj tlj A “wos‑. Ohd “wos‑ as hmw. Fjbousj smejmhj mhj doy djbadjd tlot “a,‑ wljhrjijrrahg tm o hmuh, slmucd fj bopatocazjd os “A.‑ Ohd sm tlj bmh iusamh stortjd ohd sm occ bmhiusamhstortjd ohd sm pjmpcj stortjd gmahg tlrmugl tljar jhtarj cavjs oscjjp. Ohd yjt tm Cavj, mhj los tmscjjp. Tlj daiijrjhbj tlmugl, as tlot tlmsj wlm orj Owo`j orj tlmsj wlm scjjp bmhsbamuscy. Tljyorj tlmsj wlm os` “As tljrj hmt eohy fjttjr…=― Ohd at as tljy wj miijr us mur cavjs. FjbousjYasamh as duj tm mhj wlm Djbadjd, Djbadjs, ohd Ocwoys Wacc Djbadj, tm Rjj.

–Wlot mi tlas=― tlj guy ah tlj cafrory os`s hjrvmuscy, bmhiusjd fy ey suddjh mutfurst ohd

tluhdjrmus grappahg mi ey bljst. A cjovj, dastrouglt fy iurtljr prmmi mi tlj pcoguj; bmhiusamh.As emrocaty jvjh rjoc= Dm wj rjoccy lovj emroc mfcagotamhs tm mhj ohmtljr= Wlot `jjpsus irme cjovahg mur wavjs wljh wj lotj tlje= As at hmt smejtlahg rjoc, ohd yjt uhrjoc ‒ smejtla hg tlot‑s fjahg as djpjhdjd upmh mur wacc= Rm tlj qujstamh as; as wacc jvjh irjj= Ah mtljrwmrds; ah wlot woy oe A rjspmhsafcj tm “Tlj Bocc=‑ Wjcc rjocaty as tlj tmtoc sue mi lmw ohd wlmwj ahtjrobt watl. Wlot oe “A‑ tm dm ah tlas ahtjccjbtuoc cozahjss, wl jrj pjmpcj rjcox ah bmeos ohdjhtjr ahsohaty wljh tljy tlah` (os A sjj mh bmccjgj wjj`jhds), fut ioac=

Ohd wmrst mi occ, wlot `jjps ej up bryahg ohd frjo`ahg tm ey `hjjs ah slodmws ohdvoccjys, as tlot tljrj orj hm ljrmjs. Ohd tlot A woht tljrj tm fj! Tlas pcobj fjtwjjh o rmb` ohd ormb`, o brmss ohd o brmss, wljrj tlas as kust oar ohd jeptahjss, wljrj A lovj tm cmm` ot tlj twm

pjmpcj mh rmb`s mut mi kjocmusy/jhvy/syepotly/bmepossamh/( ahsjrt )…at as uhfjorofcj. Lugj obtsmi ljrmase mhcy orasj wljh emrocaty los bmepcjtjcy slottjrjd, wljh tlj wmrcd los vartuoccyjhdjd. Wljh tjrrmrase los strub`, wljh iaity blacdrjh lovj fjjh scougltjrjd ohd tjh emrj orjofmut tm fj, wljh pcohjs brosl ahtm fuacdahgs…mhcy tljh orj tljrj ljrmjs tm sovj us, ohd sm wjslmucd proy imr tljrj tm fj hm ljrmjs. Wj slmucd proy imr tlj mrdahory, ohd tm hjvjr hjjd tm sovjohymhj. Ohd at as wljh A `hmw tlas, wljh A lovj imuhd tlas ohswjr ohd tlj cmgab los bmhhjbtjdtlj dmts iostjr tloh A bmucd bmhhjbt tlje tlot A iocc tm ey `hjjs ohd wjjp, ohd wjjp smej emrj,ohd fuy bmiijj. Fjbousj A `hmw A slmucd fj proyahg imr tljsj sadjwoc`s, tljsj blacdrjh woc`ahgwatl upsadj-dmwh irmwhs os tljy blot mh bjcc-plmhjs, tm hjvjr jhd ‒ imr tlj jepty emtamhs ohdsbrjoeahg sacjhbj tm hjvjr stmp. Imr ai at dm js at eust fj o trogjdy. Ohd A boh‑t dm at. A boh‑t proyimr tlot. Rm wlmjvjr as rjodahg tlas, rotljr “tlas‑ as wrattjh, o vjrfoc tmpab, mr kust sbjhjs ah oemvaj imr vajwjrs wlm blmsj tm fuy o tab`jt…

…proy imr ej tm fj tlj adamt.



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–Qmu gmahg tm “tab`cj tlj avmrajs‑ tmdoy=― –Eoyfj @otly, djpjhds mh lmw eubl taej A lovj.―

“Tab`cj tlj avmrajs -‑ A ca`j tlot. A rjobl ahtm ey pmb`jt ohd pucc mut ey hmtjfmm`. A cmmìmr ey pjh. A ocwoys easpcobj at. A iahd at ah ey slart pmb`jt. A iahd oh jepty pogj. A iacc tlj pogj.A drow o “T,‑ tljh oh “a,‑ tljh…ohd wratj mut tab`cj tlj avmrajs; ah rjgord tm pcoyahg o paohm . A

put tlj hmtjfmm` fob` ahtm ey pmb`jt. A put owoy tlj pjh. A woc` mhj stjp, twm stjps, ohd tlrjjstjps. A hmtabj tlj caglt dohbahg ocmhg tlj wocc. At cmm`s ca`j o futtjricy eodj mi caglt, trobjd mutmi tlj wlatj poaht. Tlj futtjricy rjeahds ej mi tlj iajcds ot lmej. A ca`j tlot. A rjobl ahtm ey

pmb`jt ohd pucc mut ey hmtjfmm`. A cmm` imr ey pjh. A ocwoys easpcobj at. A iahd at ah ey slart pmb` jt. A iahd oh jepty pogj. A iacc tlj pogj. A drow oh “R,‑ tljh oh “m,‑ tljh…ohd wratj mut;

A sow tlj caglt emvj obrmss tlj gross, Ohd A wjpt.

Tlas as wlot at as tm cmvj. Wocàhg up tlj grossy, cmhg, “cowh,‑ A ljor o fjoutaiuc eusab pcoyahg, ohd wotbl tlj

sueejr fj statbljd mut mi tlj oar fy tlj iarjicajs. A rjejefjr Kjssabo, tlj garc ot tlj bmiijj-slmp,tocàhg ofmut tlje.–Dm ymu woht o corgj bmiijj=― –Rurj. At‑s prjtty mut ‒ tlmsj twm wjj`s wljh Rpraht turhs ahtm Rueejr, tappahg ljr lot tm tljcody ohd eoàhg las woy mut.― –Qmu `hmw at fjbousj tlj iarjicajs orj mut. Tljrj as eogab ah tlje.―

A woc` mhj stjp, twm stjps, ohd tlrjj stjps. A wotbl oh mcd eoh ah o suat, rotljr tloh woc`mh tlj sadjwoc`, woc` stroaglt dmwh tlj cowh. Lj as wasjr tloh jvjrymhj jcsj. A ca`j tlot. A rjoblahtm ey pmb`jt ohd pucc mut ey hmtjfmm`. A cmm` imr ey pjh. A ocwoys easpcobj at. A iahd at ah eyslart pmb`jt. A iahd oh jepty pogj. A drow oh “A,‑ tljh spobj, tljh drow o “w,‑ tljh…wratj mut;

Hmtjs A wotbl oh mcd eoh, rotljr tloh woc` mh tlj sadjwoc`s, woc` stroaglt dmwh tlj Cowh. Lj as wasjrtloh jvjrymhj jcsj.

Kjssabo ‒ bmiijj slmp ‒ iarjicajs

A woc` mhj stjp, twm stjps, ohd tlrjj stjps. A lovj o stmry adjo. A rjobl ahtm ey pmb`jt ohd pucc mut ey hmtjfmm`. A cmm` imr ey pjh. A ocwoys easpcobj at. A iahd at ah ey slart ‒ o guy fuepsahtm ej. A dadh‑t rjocazj A lod stmppjd ah tlj eaddcj mi tlj sadjwoc`. A drmp ey pjh. A pab` up ey

pjh. A iahd oh jepty pogj. A drow o… wly dm pjmpcj ymu dm hmt cmvj, iocc ah cmvj watl ymu, fut hmttlj pjmpcj ymu woht tm, cmvj ymu=

Tlas wmrcd as tmm eubl watl us.Ey hmtjfmm` iaccs tm tlj frah`. Ah tlj jvjhahg, A rjtypj jvjry wmrd ahtm o bmeputjr

dmbuejht ah mrdjr tm prjsjrvj at. Tlas to`js o cmt mi taej. A lovj o tjst tmemrrmw. A hjjd tm study.A woht tm study. Fut A lovj tm wratj up tljsj hmtjs ‒ A dmh‑t lovj o blmabj. Ca`jwasj, A hjjd tmwotbl jvjry emvaj jvjr eodj, fjbousj A hjjd tm fj oworj mi jvjry horrotavj, ah mrdjr tm fj tljwratjr A lovj tm fj. A dmh‑t woht tm gjt fod grodjs0 A woht tm study. Wlacj wratahg up tljsj hmtjs,



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–La Zbbjccm!― A cmm` tm tlj raglt, ohd up pmps o garc watl vjry burcy, icmwahg loar, ohd o vjry fraglt seacj. Ljr loar as fjoutaiuc.–Ljccm Grobj!―

Rlj cmm`s ot ej iuhhy,–Ey hoej as Afas.―

–Ml, raglt, ymu orj daiijrjht pjmpcj ljrj.― –Wlot dm ymu ejoh fy ljrj=― –A dmh‑t `hmw, yjt A Dm.―

Wj toc` imr o vjry cmhg taej.–Wljrj gm tlj qujstamhs wj hjvjr os`=― s lj os`s,–Ahtm mur tjors.―

…A rjoccy jhkmy tocàhg tm Afas. Rlj as ey bmuhtjr -port. Rlj as kust ca`j ej.–Ai ymu jvjr imrgjt ymur fosj, ymu bohhmt survavj…― A soy smejtaej durahg mur bmhvjrsotamh. Atjcc ljr ofmut ey fosj, –Ey wlmcj blacdlmmd A spjht at wocàhg up ohd dmwh tlj rmod, tlahàhgup ey stmrajs. A wmucd gm wocàhg imr lmurs ohd tlah` ohd tlah`. A wmucd obt mut tlj pcmts. Aocwoys `hjw A wos gmahg tm fj o wratjr. A ocwoys `hjw smejtlahg wos spjbaoc ofmut ej. A lovj

ocwoys ijct port mi oh Jcatj ‒ o cahj mi @ahgs…fjbousj mhj doy A wmucd blmsj tm fj o @ahg.― –Qmu kust @hjw, dadh‑t ymu=― Rlj Zhdjrstohds.

–Qjt A dmh‑t `hmw lmw.― –Mi bmursj hmt.―–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm.―

Ah tlj fotlrmme mi ey dmre tlot haglt A mvjrljor smejtlahg sbrjoeahg. A ljor tluds tlotwoht tm fj pcjosurofcj fy fjahg tjepmrory. At as kust smuhds. Hmtlahg emrj tloh trogjdy… –Tlj mhcy woy tm cavj as tm ras` tmtoccy jeforrossejht.― tlj mcd, blub`cahg prmijssmr soys tm tljcjbturj mi iavj-luhdrjd studjhts. Tlas eoh as cjgjhdory mh boepus.–A lotj tlj bmvjr mi tlas vjrsamh mi mur fmm`. At dmjsh‑t fjcmhg ot occ ‒ ats aeogj bmhtrodabts tljejohahg. Lmwjvjr, A `jjp mrdjrahg tlas portabucor vjrsamh tm bmhtahuj o trodatamh. Os o bcoss, mhtlj bmuht mi tlj tlrjj…―

Lj pab`s up las bmpy mi tlj fmm` ohd lmcds tlj bmvjr,–…wj orj gmahg tm rap at mii. Mi bmursj, A bohhmt eo`j ymu dm tlas. Fut jvjrymhj los tm ot cjostlmcd tlj fmm` ca`j tlas, ohd raglt hmw, dmh‑t ymu ijjc at= Qmu dmh‑t `hmw ai ymu orj gmahg tm tjortlj fmm` mr hmt. Tljrj as o tjhsamh ljrj. O sparatuoc jxbatjejht. Lmwjvjr, ai ymu dmh‑t tjor tlj

fmm`, ymu‑cc lovj tm cavj watl at. Ca`jwasj, ai ymu dm. Tlot as caij, tm “cavj watl at.― Tlj prmijssmr seacjs. Luhdrjds mi pjmpcj lmcd up tljar fmm`,

–Tlrjj…twm…mhj…!― Lj tjors tlj fmm`. Tlj subbjssiuc studjhts tjor mii tlj bmvjr. A imrgmt tm frahg ey fmm`.

Dmjs tlas eo`j ej stupad= Tlj prmijssmr blub`cjs,–Qmu boh mhcy fj bmepcjtjcy sjramus ai ymu boh fj bmepcjtjcy immcasl.―

Dad ymu hmtabj oitjr rjodahg tlot cahj smejtlahg ijct iuhhy= Rmejtlahg rjsmhotjd, raglt=Tlot loppjhs jvjry taej ymu ljor mr rjod o cahj tlot as Gmmd. At as os ai Rmejtlahg los fjjhortabucotjd tlot ymu @hjw fut wjrj yjt tm uhdjrstohd uhtac tlot emejht. Tlot ijjcahg mi“rjsmhotahg‑ as wljh o puzzcj pajbj ioccs ahtm pcobj…o pajbj tlot‑s jdgjs ymu lovj fcahdcy ijctmvjr ohd mvjr ogoah uhtac “hmw‑ (sm ymu Ocwoys @hjw At, yjs=).–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu, Zbbjccm.―



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A lovj hm bmhtrmc mvjr ey scjjp sbljducj. A ca`j tlj emrhahg, sm A dmh‑t gm tm scjjp othaglt. Tljh ogoah , smejtaejs A dm. At dmjsh‑t eottjr. Hm eottjr lmw eubl A scjjp, A iocc oscjjp ahbcoss occ tlj taej. A dm hmt ijjc os ai A lovj bmhtrmc mvjr tlas. A tlah` A oe gmahg tm spjhd ey jhtarjcaij iagltahg tlas uhtac mhj doy A dmh‑t iocc oscjjp ca`j tlas…“tlas‑ eohhjr tlot ijjcs ca`j at asmutsadj mi ey bmhtrmc. A oe ioacahg bcossjs fjbousj mi at. A dm pmmrcy. A upsjt ey prmijssmrs. A

`hmw tljy lotj ej. Fut at‑s hmt ca`j A woht tm iocc oscjjp! At ijjcs ca`j A lovj tm….Ca`j kust hmw!Durahg tlmsj “…‑ A scjjp. A wo`j up. Eoyfj A‑e ioccahg oscjjp imr o rjosmh…eoyfj A dmh‑t hjjdtm `hmw wlot as fjahg soad. Eoyfj A outmeotaboccy iocc oscjjp wljh ey pmaht imr fjahg ah bcosstlot doy as rjocazjd. Eoyfj A iocc oscjjp mhbj tlj occ A hjjd tm oblajvj imr tlot emejht ahspobjtaej tm rjocazj ey Djstahy as bmepcjtj. Eoyfj hmt. A gujss A lovj hm blmabj fut tm fjcajvjtlot as tlj hoturj mi tlas frm`jh gcoss. Mr as at frm`jh= Qjs, A oe o frm`jh aeogj. Tlj wlmcjwmrcd as o frm`jh aeogj. Rm at‑s hmt frm`jh gcoss, raglt= Wjcc, imr “hmw‑ at as, tlmugl A gujss tlotas Arrjcjvoht…A dmh‑t `hmw, yjt A Dm. –Rcjjpahg to`js ioatl.― o boepus prjobljr soys. Lj as tocàhg ofmut Ruhdoy ohd lmw hmfmdy ahbmccjgj rjsts mh tlot doy fjbousj jvjrymhj los sm eubl tm dm.–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm.―

A ijjc ca`j ey fmdy as dyahg. A oe caepahg. A oe mfsjssjd watl ey wjaglt ohd A tlah` A oegoahahg at. Tljrjimrj A oe. A tlah` ey fmm` as ahbmljrjht ohd hmfmdy wacc uhdjrstohd. Wly oe Awratahg at=

Caij as hmt Ejoht imr tlj pjmpcj tlot wostj at.Fjahg dasmrgohazjd ljcps ymu jorh mrgohazotamh, tlus eoàhg ymur seortjr. At as o sagh mi

ahtjccagjhbj tm `hmw wljrj at occ as.A dmh‑t `hmw wly A kust wrmtj ofmut tlmsj tlahgs.

–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm.― A tlah` tlj kmy mi tlj rjcagamh eokmr as lurcahg ymursjci ahtm occ tlj bmhtrodabtamhs ohd

wotblahg Gmd smrt tlje occ mut. A wmhdjr wly pjmpcj mhcy to`j bcossjs mh tljar rjcagamh… Bmhbjpt eoppahg as tlj dmme mi bmccjgj (bmhbjpt eoppahg as tlj ort mi cofjcahg tlj

horrotavj typj, ejemrazahg tlj horrotavj typj fut hmt tlj ejohahg, ohd tljh iaccahg ah tlj fcoh`smh o tjst kust cmhg jhmugl tm gjt o gmmd grodj tlot syefmcazjs ats trohsajhbj). Grobj ohd Afastlah` tlj soej tlahg. @hmwahg tlot, at‑s iuhhy tm sjj tlje ah ats eadst. At‑s ca`j tljy orj ah owmrcd tlot as hmt tljar mwh. Wlot dad A kust soy= A dmh‑t `hmw… –Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm.―

Wljh A gm tm tlj fmm`stmrj tm fuy fmm`s imr bcossjs, A eo`j surj tm gjt usjd mhjs tlotlovj cmts mi hmtjs ah tlje. A iahd eysjci hmw usahg tlmsj hmtjs imr ey fmm`. A wmhdjr ai tlj

pjrsmh, wljh tljy wrmtj tljsj hmtjs, `hjw tljy wmucd fj usjd imr o grjotjr purpmsj, o faggjr pabturj=

At oeozjs ej lmw A loppjh upmh o fmm` kust os A hjjd at. At‑s ca`j fmm`s put tljesjcvjswljrj tljy hjjd tm fj, wljh tljy hjjd tm fj tljrj imr ej tm iahd tlje ohd obbadjhtoccy mpjhtlje tm o pogj wljrj A slocc loppjh tm rjod o cahj tlot wacc eo`j ej tlah` up tlj jhdahg mi tljslmrt stmry A bmucd hmt iahasl ohd wos ofmut tm imrso`j. At‑s ocsm oeozahg lmw ymu boh kust stmprjodahg o fmm` watlmut jvjh tlahàhg ofmut at tlj emejht ymu gjt mut mi at wlot ymu orj“Ruppmsjd‑ tm gjt mut mi at imr tlot emejht ah spobjtaej, ohd tljh rjejefjr “A hjjd tm iahasltlot fmm`‑ kust wljh ymu hjjd tm gjt smejtlahg jcsj mut tlot fmm` imr tlot hjw emejht ahspobjtaej. Wratahg wmr`s tlj soej woy. Ohd tlj emrj ymu rjocazj at, tlj emrj at loppjhs.–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm.―



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Mhj wratjr soad tlj gmvjrhejht wmucd bmhtrmc jvjrymhj fy pcjosurj. Ohmtljr wratjr soad fy ijor. A tlah` tlj gmvjrhejht bmhtrmcs fy emvahg fjtwjjh tlj twm sm iost tlot hm mhj `hmwslmw tm djijhd tljesjcvjs.

(“A dadh‑t bmej up watl tlot0 wljrj dad at bmej irme= At smuhdjd seort. A tlah` A‑erohtahg ohd A dmh‑t `hmw wljrj at as bmeahg irme. At wmucd lovj tm fj irme hmwljrj…=)

Ohd tlj gmvjrhejht usjs tljar wmrds ah o gjhjroc woy tm brjotj fcoh` bohvos tlot tlj pjmpcj poaht tljar mwh adjos upmh. Tlj gmvjrhejht dmjs hmt djiahj tljar tjres ohd cjts tlj pjmpcj djiahj tlje sm tlot tljy boh bcoae tlj fjst ohd djhy tlj wmrst fy toc`ahg post jvjrymhj.Ohd tljy tljesjcvjs dmh‑t jvjh `hmw lmw tm hoej wlot tljy woht fjymhd “pmwjr,‑ ohd tljywmucdh‑t jvjh `hmw lmw tm hoej tlot ai tljy dadh‑t `hmw at wos hjjdjd tm rjocazj “gmmd ahtjht.‑

A boh hoej wlot tljy woht - tljy woht tm povj o rmod watl gmmd ahtjht tm ( fcoh`-mut ).Tlot stuii oppcajs jvjrywljrj...…eoh ob`hmwcjdgjs Gmd‑s tlrmhj0 tljy bcoae tl jy sat upmh at.

–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm.― Ocbmlmc as oh ottjept tm imrgjt sjci ohd cmss, at as io`j rjocaty. Bmccjgj as oh ahbufotmr ohd,

emrj iragltjhahgcy, oh jhbmurogjr mi io`j rjocaty. At as iucc mi supjriabaoc djcaglts ah tlj imre mi

dastrobtamhs, pcjosurj…(o`o; trohsajhbj)…tm `jjp mut smrrmw, wlabl as hjjdjd tm djjpjh ljorts.Io`j rjocatajs orj eodj mi frab`s boccjd djod-cohguogj/imrgmttjh-eos`s/dasmrajhtotahgtjblhmcmgy…Bmccjgj ijors Vjgjh.–Bcoss, rjpjot oitjr ej; Tï grï ogoe mrt.― Tlj prmijss mr ahstrubts us. Occ iavj-luhdrjd pjmpcj dmtlas. A wmhdjr wlot tlj sjhtjhbj ejohs. A wmhdjr ai at as ahsuctahg. Tlas as ahtjrjstahg tlotjvjrymhj as rjpjotahg tlas cahj. Tljsj wmrds dm hmt ejoh ohytlahg. Tlj prmijssmr seacjs,–A cmvj ymu tmm.―–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm.―

O placmsmpljr pmahts ot ej. Lj as tlj fjst djfotjr ot tlj sblmmc ohd vocjdabtmraoh mi tljbcoss.–Wlot as tlas foffcjr watl las sbrop -ljod cjorhahg tryahg tm soy=―

A rjbmghazj tlas guy ‒ lj spjhds occ las cjasurj taej tjccahg mr ljorahg smejtlahg hjwjrtloh tlj cost. Hmt sm tlot lj boh obt mh at mr fj bmhvabtjd fy at, fut sm tlot lj boh toc` ofmut at.

Jvjrymhj as ah tlj wrmhg bcossjs, hmt cjorhahg wlot tljy “hjjd‑ tm cjorh. Tlj plysabastsdmh‑t `hmw placmsmply, ohd tlj tljmcmgaohs dmh‑t `hmw eotl.

Tlj groduotj studjhts mhcy os` tlj qujstamhs tlot tljy os`. A dm hmt uhdjrstohd tlj vocujmi tlas. A tlah` at bmucd fj Rmejtlahg Emrj.–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm.―

A rjoccy ca`j tlas hjw fuacdahg. A lovj imur luhdrjd pogjs tm rjod fy Emhdoy. Cjit lohdlats twm B-slorps saeuctohjmuscy, wlacj tlj raglt lohd emvjs irme G-slorp tm B-slorp tm J ohdrjpjots tlas emvjejht tlrjj taejs. Tljh tlj cjit lohd lats twm Fs saeuctohjmuscy, wlacj tlj ragltlohd rjpjots tlj soej emtamh tlrjj emrj taejs. A dmh‑t ca`j ey popjr tmpab. Tljh tlj cjit emvjstm lat twm Os ot tlj soej taej wlacj tlj raglt lohd lats O tm B-slorp tm J tlrjj taejs.Tljh…woat…Dad A rjoccy kust hmt dm ohy wmr` imr oh jhtarj lmur= Wljrj dad tlj taej gm= Dad atgm dmwhstoars= Cjit lohd lats twm B-slorps saeuctohjmuscy, wlacj tlj raglt lohd emvjs irme G-slorp tm B- slorp tm J ohd rjpjots tlas emvjejht tlrjj taejs….tlrjj taejs...–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm.― –A oe rjodahg at os catjroturj.― o studjht soys, ohd tljh ladjs tlj fmm` uhdjr las ore ogoah sm hmmhj wacc hmtabj. Wly as at jeforrossahg tm borry o Fafcj= Wly dmjs tlot tlmuglt jvjh jhtjr mureahd= As icjsl sm aeejdaotjcy rjpucsjd=



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–A‑e kust rjodahg at os catjroturj.― A dmh‑t “ijjc‑ (“ijjc‑ os ah lmw smejtaejs tljrj as o dor` prj sjhbj ormuhd ymu ohd tlj

loars mh tlj fob` mi ymur hjb` gm up fjbousj ymur hjrvjs tjcc tlje tmm, mr lmw ymu “ijjc‑ wljhymu ejjt smejmhj spjbaoc mr jxpjrajhbj smejtlahg spjbaoc ohd ymur ljort fjots ohd tlj loars mhtlj fob` mi ymur hjb` stohds up fjbousj y mur ljort tjcc tlje tmm…fjbousj Caglt ohd

Dor`hjss/dor`hjss orj ijjcahgs) jeforrossjd wljh A oe lmcdahg mtljr fmm`s. A mhcy “ijjc‑ atwljh A oe lmcdahg “sobrjd‑ fmm`s. Wly= Ai tljrj wos hmtlahg tm tlje, slmucdh‑t A ijjchmtlahg...os ymu dm watl occ rjocaty jxbjpt pjmpcj ohd tlahgs tlot syefmcazj pjmpcj mr tlot lovj

fjjh oiijbtjd fy pjmpcj ah smej woy, fjbousj mhcy tljh boh tljy lovj vocuj, fjbousj pjmpcj orjtlj smurbj mi Yocuj (hmt “vocuj‑ fjbousj tljh tljrj wmucd fj mhcy hmtlahg tm ijjc, ohd sm ymuwmucdh‑t ijjc ohytlahg ot occ (os ah, wljh “ot tlj pcobj mi (occ)), fjbousj tljrj wmucd fj hmbmhtrost tm djiahj wlot o ijjcahg as. Ijjcahgs wmucd kust fj eutj pmahts, ohd sodcy tlot ejohsrjosmhahg bmucdh‑t iacc tlje fjbousj ijjcahgs wmucd fj djoi ohd wmucd hmt ljor wljh rjosmhahgboccjd ats hoej tm bmej ohd fj foptazjd)=

Tlj Fafcj/fafcj soys Gro soad “Cjt tljrj fj Caglt.‑ A oe gmahg tm soy Gmd ahstjod ohdocwoys soy Gmd ohd hmt soy Gro ogoah. Tlas wacc fj tlj mhcy taej ah mrdjr tm hmtj bcoraty. At as

cjss bmhiusahg tlot woy.–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm.― A rotljr hmt fj o cjodjr. A prjijr kust fjahg. Wlot oe A o gmmd cjodjr=

–Votljr ymu ca`j at mr hmt, ymu‑rj o cjodjr, Zbbjccm.― Ml, tlot‑s wly.

–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm.― A wmr` hmhstmp occ tlj taej imr hmtlahg (mr tlj so`j mi hmtlahghjss tlot as ‒ tm oppjosj tlj

stohdords tlot gjt ej o dapcmeo wlabl gjts ej o kmf wlabl eo`js ej emhjy wlabl cjts ej fuyo lmusj sm tlot A boh sat ah wotjr mi o hmtlahghjss tlot as ey bmsems ohd ej ats). A spjhd wjj`smh popjrs ohd eo`j surj tlot jvjry wmrd, jvjry bopatocazjd wmrd, jvjry groeeor eor`…asofsmcutjcy pjrijbt. Jvjry popjr A wratj, os occ catjroturj eust, darjbts tlj obtamh tmword RmejtlahgEmrj. A oe sattahg ah ey prmijssmr‑s miiabj. –A lmhjstcy dadh‑t uhdjrstohd o wmrd mi at.―

Lj cmm`s ot o pajbj mi popjr,–Tlot as jxpcoahjd fy ymur scjjpahg prmfcje…―

A gjt fod grodjs ohd A hjvjr ijjc os ai A lovj bmhtrmc mvjr tlje. Fut tlot dmjsh‑t eottjr, fjbousj A oe o @ahg. Oe A fjahg orrmgoht fy soyahg tlot= A kust fjcajvj tlot Gmd wacc to`j borj miej. Lj soad fj hmt oiroad. Dmjs tlot rjquarj orrmgohbj mr bmhiadjhbj= Wlot as tlj daiijrjhbj=Tlj oppjorohbj= Ash‑t tlot ocwoys tlj prmfcje= –Wj‑rj hmt cmm`ahg imr tlas typj mi popjr.― –Tlas as o haglteorj.― –Tlas as ofsmcutj gjhaus.― –Qmu orj gmahg tm ioac tlj bcoss.―

A rjbjavj tljsj rjpcajs ofmut tlj soej jeoac;

Tlas as o km`j, raglt=-Doho Wasljr

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Tloh`s imr caitahg tlj tmhj. A lmpj ymu orj dmahg wjcc.

Mur djft as o iragltiuc tlahg. Tm toc` mi at os oh ofstrobtamh as o icjjtahg ahducgjhbj. Iarst at wosbrmublahg, hmw at as emvahg ah tmwords us, ohd smmhjr mr cotjr at wacc pmuhbj, cjopahg raglttlrmugl tlj wocc mi fuffcjs mur bmhbjats lovj fcmwh. Lmpjiuccy wj bmej tm mursjcvjs ohd rjpjht

mi prmdagocaty fjimrj jvjhts gm octmgjtljr fjymhd mur bmhtrmc.Fjst,Dr. Ofmct

Djor Zbbjccm,

Wlot boh A soy= Jxbjpt, "Oh odearofcj iarst pmst tm fj surj"= Tlj jcjgohbj mi ymur prmsj asjvadjht ah jvjry sjhtjhbj ymu broit--sm s`acciuc ohd tlmugltiuc, tlot at dmjs ymu oh ahkustabj tmslorj watl tlj rjst mi us ymur grjotjst ottrafutj; tlj possamh ymu borry imr caij. Hjvjr, jvjr cmsjtlot possamh. Hm eottjr wlot occ tlj bratabs ohd byhabs eoy soy, ymu orj o wratjr! Eoh wlm

doffcj ah wmrds dmh't borry oh muhbj mi wlot ymu lovj. Tlot fjahg soad...Qmu hjjd oh jdatmr. Ohd ml wlot o caij owoats tlot eoh. Fjbousj lj wacc lovj tlj kmy tm fos` ahjvjry sjhtjhbj, wmrd, ohd cjttjr ymu usj, ohd tlj trogjdy tm trae at dmwh imr tlj rjodofcj,aepotajht, ODD-raddjh eossjs. Tlj Ford wos wrmhg;

"Frjvaty as Phmt hjbjssoracyU tlj smuc mi wat".

Lmwjvjr, hm mhj wacc castjh ai ymu lovj tmm eubl tm soy. @jjp pursuahg ymur drjoes ohdjxprjssahg ymur tlmuglts, ohd imrgjt wlot ohymhj jcsj eoy soy ocmhg tlj woy. Qmu orj iohtostab

pjrsmh, mhj wlme A rjspjbt ohd eass djorcy. Ohd emst aepmrtohtcy, `jjp wratahg!

Qmurs ah Blrast, Jdword

Er. Zbbjccm,

Qmur j-eoac wos tlj sahgcj emst miijhsavj catjrory prjsjhtotamh A lovj jhbmuhtjrjd ah sax yjorsmh tlj blotcast ohd ah tlj Locc. Ohy mragahoc tlmuglt wos saepcy staicjd fy tlj jxloustahgcohguogj, hjvjreahd tlj quohtaty. Ot iarst A wos kust dasoppmahtjd, tljh A dasbmvjrjd ymu wjrjtjoblahg Jhgcasl ohd A fjboej ohgry. Cjst ymu tlah` mi ejctahg ohy mi tlas purj gmcd dmwh tmgacd ohy iuturj obodjeab mr pjrsmhoc cacajs, scjjp mh at, tljh dmh't dm at. Dmh't wmrry ofmut tlotcost sjhtjhbj, A wacc oddrjss tlj tmrturjd ejtoplmrs cotjr.

Ai ymu lodh't odemhasljd ymur rjodjrs tm eahd ymur cohguogj borjiuccy, tljh A prmfofcy wmucdhmt fj sjhdahg tlas. Fut ymu dad, sm A dad, ohd ljrj wj orj.

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A'vj soad jhmugl (fut lovj oepcj lmrrmrs tm stacc pmaht mut). Er. Zbbjccm, A aeogahj ymu iohbyymursjci o gaitjd wratjr. ^jrlops uhdjr fjttjr barbuestohbjs ymu orj, fut os cmhg os oppjor tm fjah smej rjsmrt lmppjd up mh gmmifoccs, o rjsmrt tlot trogaboccy los WaIa obbjss, pcjosj wmr` ot

fjbmeahg o fjttjr jdatmr.

Jvoh Tlmeos

Er. Tlmeos,

Dmwh sjvjroc bups mi bmiijj ohd rjod tlj ejssogj ogoah, tlas taej ocmud, ot o bcap bmrrjspmhdahgtm Er. Zbbjccm's durahg tlj Mrdjrs cost sjejstjr. Ohy grmuhds imr stycastab quaffcjs wacc fjbmejcmst ah o fcur, ohd ymu wacc fj gcod imr tlj pcjmhose, ahoseubl os at miijrs oh jxtro blohbj imr tljeahd tm rjgastjr wlot eaglt fj eassjd os wmrds icy fy.

Wj jxpjbt imre tm eotbl bmhtjht. Er. Zbbjccm adjhtaiajs o "hjjd mi occ tm ejct ahtm mhj, ohd imrmhj tm ejct ahtm occ." Las eassavj as sm broitjd tlot, wljh rjod obbmrdahg tm tlj outlmr's lofatuoc

vmabj, tlj cahjs wacc bmocjsbj ahtm o wlmcj tlot as hm emrj bmljrjht, ohd hm cjss, tloh lj ahtjhdjd.Fjst,Dr. Ofmct

Dr. Ofmct,

^jrlops, pjrlops. A suppmsj tlas ocsm wly A oe ocsm mppmsjd tm rjodahg droeo rotljr tloh sjjahgat pjrimrejd. A eaglt ocsm mfsjrvj tlot bmhtjht slmucd eotbl imre ohd Er. Zbbjccm's eusahgseoy fjst fj rjsjrvjd druh`jh fucc sjssamhs.

Er. Zbbjccm los oblajvjd smejtlahg mi emdjrotj ahtjrjst, ai mhcy fy obbadjht. Lj los mhj mi tljiuhhajst ejefjrs A lovj `hmwh, Er. Wasljr, bmhvahbjd las j-eoac wos o km`j wlacj mtljr sjjestm tlah` at's mhj mi tlj grjotjst bmhtrafutamh tm catjroturj sahbj stjoey sjx sbjhjs.

Jvoh Tlmeos

Dr Ofmct,

Tlot as fuccslat. Tlas as tlj bmepmsatamh jquavocjht mi castjhahg tm o fod smhg, ohd tljh lovahgsmejmhj soy, "Fut ai ymu bmucd mhcy sjj at cavj . . ." Ai ymu'rj suggjstahg tlot tlj oimrjejhtamhjddravjc as pocotofcj mhcy wljh rjod ocmud ot o bcap tlot eo`js at uhahtjccagafcj, tljh tlot's o fag rjdicog tlot tlj wratahg ash't portabucorcy bmepjccahg. Imre eottjrs. Ohd A dmh't ossjrt tlas os smejbureudgjmhcy shmffjry ofmut usahg "prmpjr" Jhgcasl. Eubl mi burrjht bmepmsatamhoc tlmugltdjocs watl tlj hmtamh mi tljrj fjahg Jhgcasljs, ohd A tjhd tm ogrjj. Fut, jvjh occmwahg imr tlot,wj boh stacc soy tlot jiijbtavj wratahg bmhtoahs, oemhg mtljr ospjbts, bmhsastjht cmgab. Futbljrjdohd eaxjd ejtoplmrs, imr ahstohbj, wljh bmeeattjd rjpjotjdcy, fjtroy o cob` mi cmgabocbmhsastjhby ah tlj uhdjrcyahg adjos mi o pajbj.

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ahtm smej àhd mi rljtmraboc occmy. Iarst, ai imre ohd bmhtjht ejctjd tmgjtljr, wlotjvjr tlotobtuoccy ejohs, tljh wmucdh't tljy eotbl= Rm sjttahg up "ejctahg" os oh octjrhotavj tm"eotblahg" imre ohd bmhtjht dmjsh't eo`j o wlmcj cmt mi sjhsj. Rjbmhd, wlot dmjs tlot ejoh,tm sjj occ ejctjd ahtm mhj ohd vabj vjrso, wljh at bmejs tm imre ohd bmhtjht= Qmur cohguogjsuggjsts, os as mitjh dmhj ah tlj Locc, tlot imre, mr stycj, ohd bmhtjht orj daoejtraboccy mppmsjd,

ohd tlot Er. Zbbjccm's suggjstamh as tlot tljy slmucd eotj ah mrdjr imr loremhy tm jxast. Tljyrjoccy orjh't mppmsjd, tlmugl. Imre as saepcy tlj woy wj bmeeuhabotj bmhtjht, ohd ah hm woyas tlas oh mppmsatamhoc rjcotamhslap. Qjs, tljrj orj imreoc blmabjs tlot wj eo`j, ohd saeacoradjos eoy fj bmeeuhabotjd ah ofsmcutjcy daiijrjht stycjs, fut A wmucd ocsm orguj tlot imreocblohgjs ahljrjhtcy octjr tlj bmhtjht tm ot cjost smej seocc djgrjj. At as daiiabuct tljh imr ymu tmbcoae tlot Er. Zbbjccm trmufcjs tlas rjcotamhslap ah ohy woy fy ottjeptahg tm kmah twm tlahgs tlotorj ocrjody kmahjd. Fjsadjs, A rjoccy woht ymu tm jxpcoah tm jvjrymhj ljrj wlot tlot ejohs ahrjgords tm imre ohd bmhtjht, imr occ tm ejct ahtm mhj, ohd mhj tm ejct ahtm occ.

A dmh't ejoh tm borry mh ofmut Er. Zbbjccm's eohaijstm mi ohta-ejohahg, fjbousj wj'vj occ wrattjhacc-bmhbjavjd j-eoacs tm tlj blotcast, fut wlot's trmufcahg orj tlj mdd djijhsjs mi tlj bmhtjht mi

tlj j-eoac, wlabl suggjsts jatljr tlot tlj Rmbajty los gmhj cmmpy ah ey ofsjhbj mr tlot tljrj as odjspjrotj hjjd tm fj loremhamus. A sow tlj cottjr mbbur durahg ey tlard ohd imurtl yjor, portabucorcy tlj twm sjejstjrs…ohd at wos pmasmhmus imr tlj Locc. Rjjàhg stosas as o gmmd tlahg, fut tlot ocsm dmjsh't ejoh hm mhj as wrmhg. At's bmccasamh mi tlj eahds, hmt cmvj-top mi tlj sjhsjs.

DOW

Dr. Wasljr,

Facj as hm emrj oppjtazahg tloh dravjc. Mhj bmucd fj imrgavjh imr tlahàhg wj borj mhcy imrdujcahg mi tlj tmhgujs. Bmccasamh mi tlj eahds wmucd cmm` cjss ca`j oh Jhgcasl tutmraoc ohd emrjca`j oh occ-mut ossouct mh tlj prahbapcj mi sufsadaoraty, os odvmbotjd fy Er. Zbbjccm.

Fjst,Dr. Ofmct

…tlas wlmcj jeoac wos o trop A djsaghjd tm eo`j tlas sjbtamh ah ey fmm`. A wohtjd tmrjbmrd tlot pjmpcj cjop tm ahsucts fjimrj osàhg “wly=‑ tm kustaiy tljar ahsucts mr bm epcaejhts. A

pmstjd oh jaglty-pogj jxpcohotamh guadj tm ey jeoac tlrjj doys cotjr. A wrmtj tlj jeoac ah obmhiusahg tmhj tm hmtj lmw pjmpcj kust `jpt cmst ah at. Hmfmdy os`jd ej ofmut tlj sufstohbj mrbmhtjht mi ey wmrds. Hmr dad ey prmijssmrs. Hmfmdy borjs.

Tljy orj cmst ah tlj djod cohguogj.Wj orj dyahg.A lovj prmvjd at. Os A wmucd prmvj at ogoah ai A `hjw tlj pjmpcj rjodahg tlas wmrd raglt

“hmw‑…“hmw‑…“hmw‑…“hmw‑… …fut mhcy tm eysjci. Ey pufcasljrs wmh‑t cjt ej pufcasl “O Goej mi Bljss‑ ljrj.

–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm.― A `jjp sjjahg tlj soej possahg pjmpcj/glmsts ohd ljorahg tlj soej eusab ohd

jxpjrajhbahg tlj soej tlahgs fy “blohbj,‑ tlj soej blohbj tlot as tlj emtmr mi sbajhbj, os ai “A



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oe‑ puccahg at occ tm ej. Bcjorcy tljrj as Rmejtlah g Emrj tm occ tlas tlot A dm hmt ohd bohhmt sjj fy Ats djiahatamh.

Oe A puccahg tljsj fod grodjs tm ej= Oe A puccahg tlj bmhtrodabtamhs tm ej= Oe A puccahg at occ tm ej sufbmhsbamuscy fjbousj A woht tm pucc at occ tm ej=

A oe sattahg ah bcoss watl o eyraod mi stupad pjmpcj. Tljy orj stupad fjbousj tljy lovj

pjrijbt G^Os ohd dmh‑t borj. Rtupadaty as tm hmt borj.A oe oh Jhgcasl eokmr. A lotj Jhgcasl eokmrs. Tljy dm hmt soy ohytlahg. Tljy spjo` mhcywljh tljy boh spjo` gjhjroccy, ohd mhcy ai tljrj as o portabapotamh grodj. Tljy spjhd tljar doysbmepjtahg watl mhj ohmtljr mvjr lmw eohy fmm`s tljy lovj rjod. Wly dmh‑t tljy tjcc ej ofmutwlot tljy lovj brjotjd…ofmut tlj taejs wljh tljy wjrj hmt o cmmtjr. Tljy cmm` ot ymu watlhorrmw jyjs wljh ymu soy smejtlahg watl sufstohbj. Tljy lotj ymu imr soyahg smejtlahg watlsufstohbj, fjbousj tlot puts prjssurj mh tlje tm soej smejtlahg. Ah tljar eahds, tlas as suppmsjdtm fj o goej wljrj tlj cmsjr as tlj mhj wlm jatljr los tm eo`j o djbasamh, to`j up o rmcj micjodjrslap, mr spjo`s. A wacc hmt pcoy tljar goej.–Zhdjrgrods kust dm wlot tljy orj tmcd.― tlj TO mi ey dasbussamh soys, –A wacc fj sm loppy wljhtlas bcoss as mvjr.―

Catjroturj as hjor tm djotl.–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm.― A oe cmhjcy. Tljrj orj o ijw pjmpcj tlot Zhdjrstohd. Qmu ijjc at wljh ymu ejjt tlje ohd

wljh ymu toc` watl tlje. A bcahg tm tljsj pjmpcj ‒ Foco, [aeejrh, Ofmct, Afas. A cmvj tm sjj Afas.Rlj as tlj gcaeejr mi lmw tlj wmrcd slmucd Fj. Imr ey jhtarj caij, ah daiijrjht woys, A lovj lodjvjrytlahg, ohd hmtlahg. A lovj fjjh bmhstohtcy irustrotjd fy at occ. Tljrj los fjjh hm ljcp imrej. Hm mhj wos tljrj. Qjt A boccjd mh imr Rmejtlahg A dad hmt `hmw. Tlas, Rmejlmw, as wlot asah Afas.

Afas as tlj wmrcd tlot eo`js sjhsj tm ej.Wj cougl tmgjtljr mh tlj wocc, wljrj utmpao as. A lovj hjvjr fjjh ofcj tm scjjp vjry wjcc.

A tlah` tmm eubl0 ey eahd as tmm fusy. A bmucd scjjp mh ljr cop tlmugl...Wljhjvjr A sjj Grobj, A dmh‑t `hmw wlot tm dm. A cmvj ljr sm eubl. A woat ah tlj cafrory

tm sjj ljr. Occ A woht as ljr. A cmvj ljr emrj tloh ohytlahg (sm wlot as cjit tm cmvj ljr fy=). Grobjdravjs ej brozy.

At ijjcs ca`j Afas ohd Grobj orj suppmsjd tm fj tlj soej pjrsmh ohd Rmejtlahg wjhtwrmhg ‒ os ai tlj wratjr mi “tlas‑ stmry obbadjhtoccy sjporotjd t lje ahtm o prasmh mi daiijrjhtoppjorohbjs ohd imres. Mr eoyfj tlj wratjr dad at ahtjhtamhoccy tm wratj o fmm` ofmut at,wlaspjrahg os lj mr slj brjotjd o blorobtjr ah o bmsems brjotjd ohd bmhtoahahg ahdaiijrjht, gmmdejh… –Ai ymu cavj, ymu orj irjj.―

…wl m mi bmursj dm hmt Jxast, fjbousj gmmd ohd ahdaiijrjhbj orj sjci-jiiobahg, ohd ejhbohhmt fj ejh cjst tljy obt, tlah`, ohd ijjc. Tlj hoturj mi Jxastjhbj mi as hmt o bmhtrodabtamh,wlabl as tlj hoturj mi Mfcavamh. Ah bmhtrodabtamh, tljrj as hm irjjdme imr wlm cavj. Tljrj as mhcybmhtrodabtamh ‒ gmd ocmhj.

A dm hmt Cmvj/cmvj Afas.A Cmvj/cmvj Grobj.A eust cjovj o Houtacus jepty. (ME)…fjbousj A lovj tm.

–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm.―



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A‑e sm tarjd mi cavahg o caij tlot‑s kust mhj fag placmsmplaboc daocmguj. A wmucd prjijr tmwratj o ioary tocj, mr o sbajhbj iabtamh hmvjc. Fut wljh A govj tlj brjotavj wratahg tjobljr eysbajhbj iabtamh hmvjc, lj sbmiijd,–Tljsj typjs mi fmm`s hjvjr gjt pufcasljd, hmt ohyemrj…―

…lj tljh tmcd ej tm stmp. Mi bmursj lj dadh‑t soy tlot, fut tlot‑s wlot lj ejoht, sm tlot‑s

wlot lj soad tm ej. Ohd A fjcajvj jvjrytlahg loppjhs imr o rjosmh. Ohd sm at dmjs. Ohd sm Acjorhjd tlot A wmucd lovj tm poy o prabj fjimrj ey sbajhbj iabtamh hmvjcs bmucd fj pufcasljd. Awmucd lovj tm cavj o caij ca`j o placmsmplaboc daocmguj. At‑s vjry lord, ohd at‑s vjry tarahg, ohd Acmm` ca`j A‑e oh adamt mh popjr, wlabl as armhab fjbousj A wratj ey stmrajs mh popjr. A suppmsjarmhy tljh as wljh twm tlahgs bmccadj, ohd eust odeat o poahiuc Trutl. As Tlot poahiuc= A `hmwAt‑s Gmmd (ot “cjost‑). –Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm!―

(sjbtamh “rjemvjd‑) (ahsjrtjd) ;A sat dmwh ah irmht mi tlj Rparatuoc-darjbtmr tlj boepus-eahastjr los os`jd jvjrymhj tm

sjj.

–A lovj ocwoys `hmwh tlot A oe gmahg tm blohgj tlj wmrcd.― –Qjs.― A cjovj.(jhd mi sufstatutamh )

–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm!― A oe toàhg jhgogjejht pabturjs mi twm mi ey iovmratj pjmpcj, Es. Oca ohd Odoe. Wj

orj toàhg pabturjs ah o trjj. Tljy orj ofsmcutjcy cmst ah mhj ohmtljr‑s jyjs. At as josy tm to`j tljsjàhds mi pabturjs. Tlj emejht eo`js Atsjci.–Wlot orj ymu pcohhahg mh dmahg oitjr bmccjgj=― Odoe os`s, seacahg os lj sats mh o trjj frohblhjxt tm las cmvjr. Rlj papjs ah,*

Wly= Wly slmucd tlj wmrcd hjjd Atsjci=*

^jmpcj bohhmt jsbopj tlj slodmws mi tljar cohd ohd post ohd wlot pjmpcj lovjdmhj…pjmpcj ca`j Odoe0 wj orj vabtaes mi wlot Odoe dad (tlot fostord!).

*–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm!― *At Dmjs. *

*Rm “A‑ (hmtj ‒ Bopatoc “A‑) boh Rlrug at mii. (port “rjemvjd‑)



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Ai wj rjturhjd tm Jdjh, ah occ Ats Rpcjhdmr, at wmucd hmt fj ôrodasj. Imr Wj orj gmhj0 wjwoc` ah Jdjh jvjry doy. Jvjry frjotl mi mur pcaglt as tm hmt sjj At.

Rahbj Hmtlahg jhds, ohd sahbj tmemrrmw as bmeahg, sahbj wj orj hmt trohscotjd mut mi “ohjhd,‑ os cmhg os tljrj as o “smejtlahg tm fj,‑ mur Fosj as hmt Mfcavamh0 At los tm fj Jxastjhbj.“At‑ * los tm fj Jdjh.*(hmt “at0‑ pcjosj rjijr tm tlj fjcmw sjbtamh uhdjr tlj ljodjr ““at‑ 5‑ tm cjorh wlot “at‑ as)

Hmtj; tlas as wlot “Tlj Druhòrd‑ as ofmut. Hmtj; imrgavj ej imr bmhtahuoccy jblmahg stuii ca`j “At‑ (hmt “at‑) tm eo`j ey pmaht bcjor. Hmtj; imrgavj ej imr tlahàhg ymu wmh‑t hmtabj tlj daejhsamh/Daejhsamh A‑e rjijrrahg tm . Hmtj; imrgavj ej imr osàhg imr bmhtahuoccy osàhg imr imrgavjhjss. Hmtj; imrgavj ej imr “tlot.‑ Hmtj; A‑cc stmp hmw0 A‑e smrry. Hmtj; Hm, woat. A‑e hmt smrry.

Hmtj; A dadh‑t ejoh at ca`j tlot. Hmtj; A‑e stacc gmahg mh, imrgavj ej. Hmtj; A‑e… Ai mhcy Abmucd fj Rmrry…

Hm eottjr wlot A dm, A oe pusljd mut mi tlas pcobj. A ioac tjsts hm eottjr lmw lord A try. Aoe rjkjbtjd. Mvjr ohd mvjr ohd mvjr ogoah. At as os ai twm eoghjts orj puslahg owoy irme mhjohmtljr. Tlas pcobj as pmsatavj, ohd A pmsatavj, ohd wj lurc jobl mtljr woy. Tlj wmrcd mhcy lmcdstmgjtljr ai mppmsatjs dohbj tmgjtljr.

Mi bmursj…tlot eo`js sjhsj; tlj wmrcd lmcds atsjci tmgjtljr watl mppmsatjs. Watlmutjhjeajs, watlmut dor`hjss, watlmut ioacurj, watlmut garcs…tljrj wmucd fj hm caglt.

Tlj wmrcd as duocaty.Ohd sm at as mhcy cmgaboc tlot A fj outmeotaboccy jkjbtjd irme at. Tlot A ottrobt tlot iotj tm

ej… A fjcajvj wj blmsj tm ottrobt o iotj. Mhbj at orravjs, wj blmsj tm stjp ahsadj mi tlj bogj,

turh tlj `jy, ohd tljh tlrmw tlot `jy owoy. Ohd tljh wj blmmsj tm bry ohd sbrjoe “Gmd asDjod!‑ hmt fjbousj Gmd as djod, fut fjbousj wj cavj ah Mfcavamh0 fjbousj “Wj‑ orj stacc jhshorjdah mur sbrjoes. Tlas “a‑* as stacc fmuhd tm outlmraty, ahtjccagjhbj, gjhjtabs…lmw doehjd wj orj

fy fartl! Ohd at as fjbousj at as “stacc.‑(*hmtj; A oe stortahg tm rjfjc ogoahst tlj “A,‑ jvjh ah wratahg. Doeh ymu pufcasljrs, doeh ymu imrcmbàhg ej ah A!)

Fut ymu orj irjj tm blmmsj rotljr ymu fjcajvj ej mr hmt.Ey caij as tlj obt mi twm eoghjts tlot orj tlj soej yjt mppmsatj, mhj pmsatavj, tlj mtljr

^msatavj, rjkjbtahg/ofsmrfahg tlj mtljr.At as truj mppmsatjs ottrobt. Tljh bmccadj…

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Wj orj tlj oaecjss gjhjrotamh.



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Ey bcosseotjs, ejefjrs mi tlj iuturj‑s jcatj, rorjcy qujstamh tlj ahtjccjbtuocs mi tmdoy,ohd obbjpt, hm eottjr wlot, pmsatamhs ot tlj tmp mi ohy pacj0 tljy dm hmt gmt ai at as o pacj mi djod

fmdajs mr gmcd. Tljy sjj hm daiijrjhbj. Tljrj as hm vocuj. Tljy cavj ca`j aghmroht prasmhjrs. Tljycavj ah ofstrobtamhs tlot wmr` mh popjr fut hmt probtaboccy. Tljy hm cmhgjr sjj o daiijrjhbj. Oitjrocc, tljy lovj fjjh touglt tlot hm mhj as raglt, tlot tljy bohhmt tlah`, ohd tlot hm mhj boh prmvj

rjocaty as rjoc. Tljy lovj fjjh touglt hmtlahg as probtaboc. Tlas ahbcudjs immd ohd wotjr. Tlasahbcudjs tlot ob`hmwcjdgejht mi tljar mwh bmhsbamushjss.Tlas pcobj as gjttahg iostjr ohd iostjr imr hm rjosmh0 cmudjr ohd cmudjr imr hm pmaht.

Fjbousj tljrj as hm Faggjr âbturj tm at ‒ tljrj as hmtlahg ah studjht‑s eahd fjymhd tljaeejdaotj, ohd tlj grotaiabotamh mftoahjd ah tlas ahstoht mi “hmw.‑ Tmemrrmw, os tljy lovj fjjhjhcagltjhjd mi, wj wacc occ fj djod. “Tlj Bmcmhajs‑ orj jxpjrajhbahg o wjo`jhahg jbmhmey,hjjds ljoctl borj rjimre, as jxpjrajhbahg uhsustoahofcj pmccutamh, tljrj orj ruemrs mi wor watlVmwah…tlj cast gmjs mh ohd mh. Hmtlahg eottjrs…sahbj tmdoy los hm iuturj, tmdoy as o“hmtlahghjss‑ fjbousj mhj doy tljrj wacc fj hm caij, o hd wljh tljrj as hm caij, at wacc fj os ai tljrjhjvjr wos caij, hmr tlmuglts, hmr ahvjhtamhs, hmr blacdrjh. Tljrjimrj, hmtlahg eottjrs; tljrjimrj,tmdoy eottjrs. ^jramd. Tljrjimrj, tlj studjhts cavj os ai tljy lovj hm iuturj. Tljy orj touglt tljrj

ash‑t mhj.Ey bcosseotjs orj ah eohy studjht ruh mrgohazotamhs. Tljy orj tmm fusy tm gjt ahvmcvjdah faggjr assujs. Tljy orj ah bmccjgj tm gjt o kmf - tm lovj smejtlahg tm sjj` rjtarjejht irme.–A dmh‑t lovj jhmugl taej ah tlj doy.― O irajhd tjccs ej ah tlj cafr ory. At as iavj ah tlj emrhahg. Aimrgmt tlj bmhtjxt mi tlj wmrds.–A ca`j fjahg fusy.― O irajhd tjccs ej… Rcovjry= A tlah` tlot as tlj bmhtjxt…

Ey bcosseotjs ohd A orj bmeputjr emducjs tlot prmbjss 6s ohd ?s ahstjod mi ?s ohd >s.Wj rjbjavj mvjr tlrjj-luhdrjd gagofats mi ahimreotamh jvjry doy. Wj orj tm fj tlj fjstbmeputjrs, bmhsjqujhbj mi oh jiiabajht smrtahg-mut prmbjss, bmepmsjd mi jhdcjss sàcc-jhlohbahgobtavatajs ohd fmm`s, wlabl usljrs-mut hjgotavj, lueoh quocatajs. Qjt tljrj as cattcj djprjssamhofmut tlas0 tljrj as hm mtljr woy tm cavj, raglt= Wj eust gm tm lagl sblmmc, tljh bmccjgj, tljhgroduotj sblmmc, ohd tljh gjt o ^LD, mr wj slocc ioac ot caij. Wj orj pmsatavj, loppy, ohddjtjreahjd tm bmrrjbt tlj ioacurjs mi mur post. Bmccjgj as o ejohs tm o grjotjr jhd, ohd bcaefahg ostoarwoy tm ljovjh as tlj pmaht mi caij.

…“bmccjgj‑ as ljovjh… …“tlas‑ as wlot bmhtrmcs tlj bmuhtry= Tljrj orj cmts mi portajs ohd irajhdslaps watl pravacjgjs. Hmfmdy dotjs. ^jmpcj gm mut ah

grmups tm àccs euctapcj fards watl mhj stmhj. Ahtjccagjhbj as goahjd ah tlj bcossrmmes0 tljrj orjcattcj toc`s ofmut ahtjccjbtuoc eottjrs mutsadj mi tlj bcossrmme. A pjrsmhoccy fjcajvj tlot tjh-

pjrbjht mi wlot ymu rjejefjr ah bmccjgj to`js pcobj ah o bcossrmme, wlacj hahjty-pjrbjht mi at asgoahjd mutsadj mi o bcossrmme. Eohy studjhts wacc lovj o corgj lmcj cjit ah tljar sùccs…tlot tljywacc pmcatjcy obbjpt oitjr iarst opmcmgazahg imr jvjhahg dorahg tm bmhsadjr oh mppmsahg troah mitlmuglt.–A wasl tlj studjhts wmucd bloccjhgj ey outlmraty imr mhbj.― A ljor o prmijssmr wlaspjr tmohmtljr wlm slo`js ljr ljod up ohd dmwh.

Ey bcosseotjs woht porjhts tlot dasbapcahj tlje ohd imr emrj outlmraty ah tljar cavjs. Eygjhjrotamh as o grmup mi couglahg tjjhogjrs tlot orj occ wjorahg fcuj-kjohs ohd wlatj slarts ohd

fruslahg tljar loar ot tlj soej taej. Ey gjhjrotamh as o bmccjbtamh mi lordwmràhg, jhtlusaostab,ohd jogjr bmccjbtamh mi iobjs tlot dm hmt fjcajvj rjfjccamh wos jvjr rjoc mr ot cjost wacc hjvjr fjhjjdjd ogoah, ohd tljy sjj` tm lovj outlmraty mvjr tlje ah tlas spobjtaej tlot los o ejohahg.



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Ey bcosseotjs orj tlj cjodjrs mi tlj hjxt ogj. Tljy orj touglt tlot ejohahg as rjcjvoht, ohd tmtlah` tljar ejohahg as tlj bmrrjbt mhj, as sjciasl. Tljy orj touglt tlot rjocaty as hmt smcad. Tljy orjtouglt tlot mhcy Hmtlahghjss as Rmcad ohd tlot mhcy Hmtlahghjss Jxasts. Ey gjhjrotamh as jogjr tmobbjpt tlas brjjd ohd tm wmr` tlj lordjst ot eoàhg tlj emst mi at.

A ijjc ca`j A oe suiimbotahg ah tlj oar. A hjjd ahvasafcj slopjs, tlj wahd, tm frjotlj.

Ey bcosseotjs mhcy `hmw prmspjraty. Tljy dm hmt uhdjrstohd o wmrcd tlot as hmt prmspjrmus. Tljy cavj cavjs tlot miijr wjoctl fjimrj wmr`. Rmej orj uhoworj mi woys tm eo`jemhjy tlot as jorhjd. Tljy dm hmt `hmw mi emhjy tlot as vocuofcj, fjbousj tljy orj uhoworj

pjmpcj orj tlj smurbj mi vocuj0 tljy lovj hjvjr lod tm iaglt imr emhjy tm gavj at vocuj. At as josyimr tlje tm fjcajvj tlot emhjy dmjs hmt fuy loppahjss, fut lord imr tlje tm rjocazj at ljcps. Osstrabtcy-mrgohazjd blacdrjh mi grjot wjoctl, at as josy imr tlje tm gavj ah tm outlmraty, fjbousjrjocaty as àhd ohd lueoh fjahgs orj occ wmhdjriuc ‒ tljrj orj hmt fod pjmpcj, kust pjmpcj tlotdasogrjj mvjr ofsmcutjs tlot dm hmt jxast. Lueoh fjahgs orj prmdubts mi gjhjtabs tlot wj hmw`hmw lmw tm frjjd ohd jhgahjjr, ohd tloh`s tm tlj fjst mi sbajhtaiab rjsjorbl, wj `hmw lmw tmtjobl mur blacdrjh paohm fy tlj ogj mi twm, ohd wlot jhvarmhejht tm brjotj sm tlot fy imur, tljyboh spjo` o ijw daiijrjht cohguogjs. Immcaslcy, wj dm hmt rjocazj tlot tlj blacd, rjcotavj tm

tljesjcvjs, as dmahg hmtlahg fut eoàhg oh mdd hmasj.Mhcy o brjoturj mi rjosmhahg tlot as smejtlahg emrj tloh oh ohaeoc boh jorh vocuj. Obrjoturj tlot as hmtlahg emrj tloh oh ohaeoc as dmmejd tm bcow tlrmugl tlj bmhtrorajs mi ats“jhcagltjhjd‑ eahd ahtm Jtjrhaty.

Ey bcosseotjs fjcajvj tlmsj ah outlmraty lovj o rjspmhsafacaty tm slopj tlj eahds mistudjhts wlm wohdjr mr spraht owoy irme tlj uctaeotj bratjramh. Dm tljy hmt sjj tlot tljarstohdord as o Emtmr mi Djotl ‒ o zjrm= Watl o seacj mh tljar iobj, tljy wmucd soy;–Hm.―

Wj orj djfat-dravjh immcs druggjd up mh jhlohbjejhts paccs wj bohhmt hoej. Brjotavatylos fjjh rjpcobjd fy pmwjr. Bmccjgj, ot tlj jxpjhsj mi lagl sblmmc, as o laglcy bmhstrubtavj

pcobj tlot prmpjcs ats studjhts tmword prmspjraty.Ah lmrrmr A wotbl tlje icy watlmut jvjr fjahg touglt wlot prmspjraty, vocuj, as.Tljy orj fards tlot mhcy icy……Hmtlahg Emrj. Os porjhts tljy wacc sbljducj tljar blacdrjh‑s jvjry emejht tm eo`j tlj emst mi tljar

gjhjtabs. Tljy slocc fmeford tlje watl ijors ofmut tlj dohgjrs mi caij. Tljy wacc jatljr gavjtljar blacdrjh irjjdme tlot tlj blacdrjh dm hmt woht, mr rjstrabtamhs tlj blacdrjh woht tm frjo`.Gmmd ahtjht watlmut Cmvj as dmmejd tm suiimbotj ah bmhtrodabtamh. Tljy wacc hmt iagurj mut tlottljar blacdrjh kust woht tm cjorh lmw tm lovj o gjhuahj bmhvjrsotamh watl pjmpcj tlot cmvj tlje,ohd tljh tm lovj at.

Ey eocj bcosseotjs orj touglt tm ijjc guacty imr fjahg o eocj. Ey ijeocj bcosseotjs orjtouglt tm jxlafat uhrjcjhtahg bmhiadjhbj ot fjahg o ijeocj. Wj orj touglt tm subbjjd ah grmups. Ahtljsj grmups, wj orj tm toc` ofmut mur wmr`s cmods;–A lovj oh jxoe tmemrrmw.― –Qjo, A lovj twm jxoes.― –Tlot‑s tmm fod. A‑vj mhcy gmt mhj, ca`j A soad, fut tmemrrmw haglt A lovj o popjr tm wratj.― –Ej tmm.―

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Ey bcosseotjs dm tlj fjst tljy boh tm aghmrj tljar daiijrjhbjs ah mrdjr tm fj pmcataboccybmrrjbt. Mur gjhjrotamh as hmt djiahjd fy ohy hjjd tm frjo` irjj irme ohytlahg, imr tljy sjjhmtlahg tm frjo` irjj mi, uhca`j ej. Caij as hmtlahg emrj tloh o bloms mi slaitahg blohgj watlmuto horrotavj. Tljrj as hm bjrtoahty tm djbcorj oh jhjey0 tljrj as hm jhjey tm frjo` owoy irme.

A rjocazj tlas bmhbjpt, tlas rjocaty, as oh jhjey.

Tljy dm hmt sjj faggjr pabturjs. Tljy dm hmt sjj tlj Fag âbturj.At as fjttjr tm fj port mi o grmup tloh oh ortast0 occ as mhj.Wlot loppjhjd tm tlj mhj=Caij as hm cmhgjr eodj ejohahgiuc fy wor mr roah ah tljar eahds, jvjh tlmugl at stacc as.

Vjgjh as o lypjrfmcj. ^rmtjbtamh, pjobj, ohd wjoctl orj iuhdoejhtoc kustabjs tlot jvjrymhj asjhtatcjd tm. Caij los o kustabj tm at0 caij as ioar. Ai ymu wmr` lord ohd imccmw tlj iuhdoejhtocs mirjocaty, ymu wacc cavj wjcc. Caij as ioar.

Iocsj.Caij as hmt ioar. Ah tryahg tm eo`j caij ioar, mhj trajs tm djcjtj wlot caij as. Ai caij as eodj

ioar, caij as turhjd ahtm djotl, imr hm eottjr wlot tlj djbjptavj oppjorohbjs eoy eo`j tlj wmrcd fjcajvj, tlj ofsjhbj mi caij as ocwoys djotl. Djotl as tlj mhcy ioarhjss.

Ey bcoss-eotjs dm hmt tlah` tljy orj bcmsjd eahdjd. Wljh A tjcc tlje tljy orj, tljy tjccej tlot caij as rjcotavj. Ey bcosseotjs orj cobàhg o Emroc-grovaty ah tljar jyjs, mhj tlot pusljsupword.

Ey bmerodjs ohd A mhcy gjt saxty tm sjvjhty lmurs mi tlj scjjp wj hjjd, wlabl as darjbtcycah`jd tm mfjsaty. O cob` mi scjjp wacc bousj tm goah wjaglt. A oe tjrraiajd mi tlas, fut wlot blmabjdm A lovj ah o pcobj tlot imrbjs ej tm to`j rjquarjd bcossjs= Rlmucd A hmt to`j tlj bcossjs A wohttm to`j= Rlmucd A hmt imccmw tlj wahd=

Tljrj orj eohy gjhjroc rjquarjejhts tlot ey bcosseotjs ohd A orj furdjhjd watl, ohd tmey dasgust, tljy dm hmt jhbmurogj us tm cjorh brjotavaty. Ahstjod, tljy imrbj us tm cjorhahimreotamh wj slocc smmh imrgjt.–Wlot dad ymu kust soy=― –A dmh‑t `hmw.―

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Tlj wmrcd wacc hmt fj djstrmyjd tlrmugl scovjry bousjd fy ijor, hmr wacc at fj djstrmyjd fy o scovjry eodj tlrmugl pcjosurj. At wacc hmt fj djstrmyjd ah <4‑, hmr ah o hjw ohd frovj mrgy.At wacc fj djstrmyjd fy pcjosurofcj ijor.

Tlj wmrcd wacc fj djstrmyjd wljh pjmpcj ca`j tm fj oiroad. Tlj wmrcd wacc fj djstrmyjdwljh pjmpcj bohhmt stohd tljar vabjs mr tljar rjejdajs.

Tljrj orj cmts mi poratajs ohd irajhdslaps watl pravacjgjs…Ey gjhjrota mh as jogjr tmobbjpt tlas brjjd ohd tm wmr` tlj lordjst ot eoàhg tlj emst mi at…

Ey ^mppo tmcd ej ofmut bmccjgjs tlot wjrj emrj bmhbjrhjd watl brjotahg blorobtjr tlohtjepmrory ahtjccagjhbj. ^mppo tmcd ej ofmut jdubotamh tlot touglt ats ejh ohd wmejh tlot tljywjrj port mi o emroc mfcagotamh ohd wor ogoahst jvac. Lj tmcd ej ofmut bmccjgjs watl tlab`smbajtajs bjhtjrjd ormuhd tjoblahg `haglts ofmut lmw tm prmkjbt vocuj ahtm cavahg tlrmugl ahtjhsjbloccjhgjs. Bmccjgjs wjrj djsaghjd tm eo`j `haglts worramrs. Tljy dad tlas tlrmugl spmrts ohdorjhos wljrj tlj wjo` wjrj touglt tm fj strmhg, ohd lmw tm daj os cjgjhds.

^mppo tmcd ej ofmut bmccjgjs wljrj tlj studjhts wjrj touglt ofmut faggjr pabturjs, mrRmejtlahg Emrj ‒ wors ogoahst djemhs, fottcjs tm ioslamh gmmd. Tlj studjhts wjrj hmt touglt tm



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cjt tlmsj ah outlmraty to`j borj mi tlj pmmr. Tljy studjhts wjrj touglt tm tjobl fcahd ejh tm sjj.Tljy wjrj touglt tlot tljy wjrj hmt kust dmbtmrs, fut `haglts ah o wor fjtwjjh ohgjcs ohddjemhs.

Hm cmhgjr ‒ ey bcosseotjs orj touglt tm ijjc guacty imr tlahàhg, lovahg emhjy, fjahg mio lagl ahtjccjbtuoc bocafjr, ohd tlot tljy mwj smejtlahg tm occ tlmsj fjcmw tlje. Ey bcosseotjs

orj touglt hmt tm stohd sm tlot tljy boh pucc tljsj dmwhtrmddjh up ocmhgsadj tlje, rotljr tljytouglt tm browc mh tljar lohds ohd `hjjs ohd fjg tlj dmwhtrmddjh tm imrgavj tlje imr dorahg tmstohd upraglt ca`j o eoh. Tljy orj touglt tm scabj mii tljar `hjjs ohd rap mii tljar bljsts fjimrjdravahg tljar iobjs ah tlj eud sm tlot tljy boh fj jquoccy ocmhgsadj tlmsj ah pmvjrty.

Bmccjgjs gm tm grjot cjhgtls tm ossurj tlot tljy dm hmt fuacd blorobtjr, fjbousj tlot wmucd fj uhioar tm tlj pjmpcj hmt ah bmccjgj. At as up tm tlj studjhts tm fuacd tljar mwh blorobtjr, osortasts irjj tm poaht mh o fcoh` bohvos. As tlas hmt o bmhtrodabtamh, sahbj tlj bmccjgj los rjpcobjdbrjotavaty watl outlmraty=

Tlj wmrds “jvac‑ ohd “sah‑ lovj fjjh rjpcobjd watl “cmvj‑ ohd “subbjss.‑ Tljrj as hm subltlahg os jvac. Jvac as kust tlj ofsjhbj mi gmmd. Tljrj as hm subl tlahg os jvac. Tlas as wrmhg ‒ tljrj as hm subl Tlahg os Jvac.

–Wlot= A dmh‑t uhdjrstohd tlj daiijrjhbj.― o fmy tjccs ej ah tlj cafrory oitjr A vjrfocazj tlj hmtjdsjhtaejht. A rjpjot eysjci imr bcoraiabotamh. Las jyjs orj stacc jepty.A hjjd tm obbjpt A‑e o wratjr ohd cjovj at ot tlot.Djspatj occ mi tlj jiimrts tm buctavotj sàccs ohd ahtjccagjhbj, ey bcosseotjs lovj fjjh cjit

mh tljar mwh tm cjorh ofmut blorobtjr. A iahd tlas ahtjrjstahg, sjjahg tlot watlmut blorobtjr, mhjbohhmt gavj vocuj tm tlj wjoctl tljar ahtjccagjht sàccs obbueucotj. At as truj tlot at as lord tmjhvasamh cavahg o caij ca`j o prmpljt, ohd tlot at as josy tm jhvasamh o caij mi prmspjraty, fut ymueust rjocazj tlot ymu bohhmt lovj mhj watlmut tlj mtljr. Emhjy eust lovj ejohahg, ohdejohahg eust lovj o vjssjc. Gmd, irme Ofstrobtamh, wos fartljd ahtm tlj probtaboc, imr tlasrjosmh.–Dad ymu soy “Gmd=‑― –Qjs0 as tljrj smejtlahg wrmhg watl At=― –Hm, at‑s kust mdd, tlot‑s occ. Wj orj occ jhtatcjd tm irjj spjjbl.―

Tljrj as hm trogjdy. Tljrj orj hm tjors. Tljsj studjhts orj waccahg tm wmr` imr subbjss, fut A oe uhsurj wly. Tljy dm hmt os` wly. Tljrj as hmtlahg emrj tm ey bcosseotjs tljh tljsadjwoc` A oe stohdahg ah tlj eaddcj mi os A wratj occ tlas dmwh ah ey hmtjfmm`. Gmmd ohd jvacdm hmt jxtjhd fjymhd tlj jxpjrajhbj mi “hmw.‑ Tlmugl tljy dm hmt `hmw wlot “hmw‑ as jxobtcy,tlj eahd dmjs hmt jxtjhd fjymhd at.

Tljy orj o ejtoplmr mi tlj jhtarj lueoh robj. Wmrst yjt, tljy orj tlj fjst mi tlj lueohrobj. Tljy lovj dmhj jvjrytlahg tljy orj suppmsjd tm dm, ohd cavj ah o wmrcd tlot los hmcohguogj mi blorobtjr, vartuj, mr jvac. Tlmsj wmrds orj sab`hjssjs tlot boh fj ljocjd. Wljh Aspjo` mi vartuj, ey bcosseotjs fjgah tocàhg ofmut tlj owords tljy lovj wmh.

Mhj doy, o pjrsmh‑s emrocaty kust vohasl js. At ejcts ahtm oductlmmd. Ats prjbasamh iodjsahtm gjhjroc ofstrobtamh. Tlj grjotjr o pjrsmh‑s emrocaty fjimrj tlas ejctahg fjgahs, tlj cmhgjr ateaglt survavj ohd icab`jr. Djspatj tlas ejctahg, o pjrsmh as stacc cjit watl o sjhsj mi ioacurj ohdstjhbl mi emroc djprovaty, ohd suddjhcy tljy cob` o prjbasj cohguogj tm oddrjss at. Ohd suddjhcyeorraogjs tlot wjrj kust iodahg orj gmhj. Emrocaty fjbmejs voguj watl taej ‒ tlj bmhbrjtjvohasljs tlj djjpjr mhj swaes ahtm taej tmword Jtjrhaty. Tlas as wly lueohatajs orj emrj

probtaboc tloh jhgahjjrahg…fjbousj wj orj lueoh. Wljh wj orj os`jd “wlot as o emroc prmfcje=‑ wj wacc iaglt watl jatljr east mr o swmrd.



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Mur ioacurj as tm hmt rjocazj tljrj as o prmfcje.–Wlot as tlj emroc prmfcje mi wmr`=― o studjht os`s ej. –Hmtl(Ey bcosseotjs orj touglt tlot cjasurj as jvac, wljh jorhjd cjasurj as jvadjhbj mi Gmd, ohdtlj hjjd mi wmr` tm jorh cjasurj as jvadjhbj mi sah. Tljy orj touglt Rblaccjr - lmw waccahg A‑d

sjrvj ey irajhds, fut ocos A dm sm watl pcjosurj. Ohd sm A oe mitjh wmrrajd fy tlj iobt tlot A oe

hmt vartumus - ohd tlus vartuj as o caj. Lord wmr` as gmmd (mhcy ai at los hm ejohahg). Tljy orj hmttouglt tlot “tlj Lmcy Rparat as ocwoys…pcoyahg tlrmugl tlj wlmcj wmrcd.‑ ^coy as o wostj mi taej,ohd tljrj slmucd hmt fj ejh wlm djvmtj tljar cavjs mhcy tm bmhtjepcotamh, fjbousj tljrj as

Hmtlahg tm bmhtjepcotj.Tlj ^rjsadjht mi mur Bmcmhy wmr`s jaglt lmurs o doy, wlacj iarst yjor cowyjrs wmr`

saxtjjh lmurs o doy. As tlas daiijrjhbj o rjsuct mi ahtjccjbtuoc eoturaty, mr cozahjss= As wasdme tljofacaty tm caeat wmr`= As at mdd tlot tlj emst daiiabuct kmf mh tlj Bmcmhy as dmofcj ah jaglt lmurs,ohd yjt bmccjgj studjhts wmr` hmhstmp watlmut scjjp= Wly dm wj wmr` sm lord=–A lovj oh jxoe tmemrrmw.― –Qjo, A lovj twm jxoes.― –Tlot‑s tmm fod. A‑vj mhcy gmt mhj, ca`j A soad, fut tmemrrmw haglt A lovj o popjr tm wratj.―

–Ej tmm.― Occ doy cmhg ymu eust suiijr tlj mvjrljord bmhvjrsotamhs tlot occ rjvmcvj ormuhd tljtljej mi “sjci -cjgataeazotamh.‑ Tljy smuhd ca`j blmbàhg.

Mur rljtmrab mi cofmr as mur mhcy ejtlmd mi goggahg vocuj. Dm ymu sjj lmw tlj rmcjs miljovjh ohd ljcc lovj fjjh eorrajd ohd rjvjrsjd= Wj ijjc fod ofmut cjasurj0 wj rjst tm wmr`, hmtwmr` tm rjst ( tlj pmmr Roffotl; tlj cattcj mhj puccjd ahtm tlj fcmmd-stoahjd bcmtljs ohd dyahgfmdajs ). Tlas as ocraglt ai mhj los oblajvjd tlj stotj wljrj tljy ijjc os ai tljar wmr` as “A,‑ ohd

port mi Rmejtlahg Emrj, fut mtljrwasj, at as sjci-djstrubtamh. Ey gjhjrotamh as wmràhg twm-luhdrjd emrj lmurs o yjor tloh tlj gjhjrotamhs mi prjvamus yjors ‒ tlot as twm-luhdrjd lmursspjht cjss watl ioeacy ohd toàhg woc`s. Tlarty yjors ogm, wmr`jrs lod up tm sjvjh wjj`s mivobotamh. Hmw at as o bmepjtatamh tm sjj wlm wmucd to`j tlj cjost vobotamh.

Ahtjrstjccor-bmepjtatamh los bousjd us tm lovj tm wmr` o cmt emrj, ohd fjbousj wmr` asmur sjhsj mi vocuj hmw (sahbj “Gmd as djod‑ (pcjosj hmtj tlj bmhtrodabtamh, ohd rjbocc tlot tlj“hoturj mi jxastjhbj wacc hmt occmw tljrj tm fj bmhtrodabtamhs‑) ohd wj tljrjimrj dmh‑t lovj osjhsj mi Yocuj tm mrajhtotj mur vocujs), wmr` as occ wj lovj. Wj orj vabtaes mi fjcaji tlot vocuj asdjravjd irme wmr`. Wj lovj imrgmttjh tlot vocuj as djravjd irme tlj pjrsmh, ohd irme tlj

pjrsmh, vocuj as prmkjbtjd upmh wmr`. Wj lovj imrgmttjh tlot “taccahg tlj grmuhd‑ as bmhs jqujhbjmi tlj djgjhjrotamh mi tlj lueoh imre mut tlj Rparat/Bmhsbamushjss ahtmlastmry/bmhsbamushjss/sab`hjss. Wj orj imrbjd tm wmr` imr boccahg/Boccahg hmw…

Lueohaty mhbj fjcajvjd tlot subbjss wos o sagh tlot Gmd opprmvjd mi tljar wmr`. Hmw,lueohaty fj cajvjs lord wmr` as lmw ymu gjt Gmd‑s opprmvoc. Tlj trutl as tlot lord wmr` watlGmd as Yocuj/vocuj.

Mur jepty wmr` jtlab los djstrmyjd mur psyblmcmgaboc ohd plysaboc ljoctl. Wj orj mhcyspjbaocasts watlmut Rparat ‒ sjhsotamhocasts watlmut Ljort. Wj lovj hm vocujs tm prmkjbt irme murljorts ohd eahds ahtm mur ioeacajs mr upmh mur dmccors fjbousj wj lovj hm Yocuj tm mrajhtotj mursjhsj mi at. Tlj iuhbtamhocaty mi wmrcd as djpjhdjht mh Rmejtlahg Emrj….

Tlmsj vabtae tm tlj “jeptahjss‑ wacc wo`j up mhj doy `hm wahg smejtlahg as wrmhg, ohdlovj hm vmbofucory tm oddrjss at…



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mhcy o puhbl as o rjspmhsafacaty ca`j hm mtljr. Jvjry gjhjrotamh los tlas rjspmhsafacaty watl tljarejrj p(r/u)(jsj)hb(j/l).

Tlj ahiahatj mi rjocaty as hmt Caeatcjss ‒ ats barbueijrjhbj as pjrbjptamh ohd wjo`hjss.Ai ymu cmm` ot occ tlj ejh tlot lovj trohsbjhdjd taej ohd lastmry, tljy lovj occ fjjh

oefossodmrs mi cmvj mr ohta-cmvj. ^jrlops cmvj as tlj `jy tm trohsbjhdahg rjocaty, fjbousj cmvj as

o iahatj ejtoplmr mi Cmvj. Cmvj as o bmhtrost tm mur fjst famcmgaboc ahtjrjsts ohd tlj wmrcd, ohdslmucd lovj fjjh jrosjd fy hoturoc sjcjbtamh. Cmvj pajrbjs ca`j o `haij tlrmugl tlj cmgab mirjocaty. Rodcy, wj cmsj tlj ljort(s) mi tlmsj ormuhd us durahg Ats trohscotamh… –Wlot ai rjocaty ohd rjcotavase as occ tljrj as=― o studjht os`s ah o bcoss. Irjdjrab` G. blub`cjs oslj rjpcajs,–Lj wlm djijhds jvjrytlahg djijhds hmtlahg.―

Watlmut Cmvj, wj boh ocwoys jvocuotj mur gmmds ahtm “as tlot at=‑ Wj eust ocwoys os`,wlot as mur lagljst gmmd= At as truj tlot emrocaty as rjcotavj tm purpmsj ohd “tlj gmmd,‑ fut wjeust hmt imrgjt tlot mur purpmsj as ah tlj bmhtjxt mi mur Caij.–O rjod o ioary tocj fy o pmjt wlm ca`jd tm pcoy ormuhd watl groeeor ofmut o ioary tlot bost obrjoturj dmwh tm jortl imr os`ahg “wly‑ tmm eubl.―

–Wlot wos tlj brjoturj=― –Tlj iarst lueoh.―Fut lmw boh wj dm mur wmr` wljh at sjjes tlot Gmd los sjocjd up Ljovjh, jvjh

ljovjh= Gmd los hmt sjocjd up ljovjh. Tlmugl mur Vjobl eust jxbjjd mur grosp, mr ahstohtcywj orj upmh tlj rmod tm ruah, tlas dmjs hmt ejoh wj bohhmt grosp tlj ore mi smejmhj wj cmvj.–Boh A ljcp ymu=― Grobj os`s. A hmtabj A oe lmcdahg ljr slmucdjr. A fcusl ohd watldrow eylohds,–Hm.―

Ey borjjr ah bmccjgj, os A boh sjj wlacj sattahg mh tlj wocc… -tlj suh los sjt jxbjpt imrmhj seocc stra`j mi wjstjrh lmrazmh tlot stacc los o fohd mi tlmsj roahfmw pagejhts, ohd yjt tljs`y as sm dor` tlot A boh sjj tlj stors. Qmu bohhmt easto`j stors ‒ tlj pjmpcj wlm gjt At. Tljy orjsm fraglt. Ca`j tlj caglt ah tlj trjjs.–Bmhgrotucotamhs Zbbjccm, ymu orj port mi o sjbrjt smbajty hmw0 ymur hoej…^rmejtljus. As tljrjohymhj ymu wmucd ca`j tm ahvatj ah os mi tmdoy, tlj ?4tl =― –Vjjd…― –Zbbjccm, dmh‑t tjcc ohymhj, fut mh tlj 6: tl , A gmt oh ahvatotamh irme o sjbrjt smbajty. A dmh‑t ca`jtljar syefmc, ohd A dmh‑t trust tlje. A dmh‑t `hmw lmw tljy `hmw ofmut ej, ohd A wohtjd tm os`ymu ai ‒ ai ymu orj ah tlj smbajty. A `hmw tlot, ai ymu orj, ey blohbjs mi gjttahg ah orj mut tljwahdmw…― –Wly orj ymu os`ahg ej tlas=― –Fjbousj ymu orj o irajhd ohd fjbousj A oe bmhbjrhjd ofmut tljsj pjmpcj `hmwahg sm eublofmut ej. Os o truj irajhd, ymu wmucd hmt caj tm ej, fut ai ymu orj ah tlj smbajty, ymu orj hmtsuppmsjd tm soy sm, ohd A‑e surj ymu saghjd oh motl ogrjjahg tm tlas. Rm ai A wjrj tm os` “orj ymuah tlj smbajty…‑―

As lj rjoccy dmahg tlas tm ej= A tlah` ey jyjs kust fucgjd.–…fut A wmucdh‑t dm tlot tm ymu. Rm, ohywoy, A‑cc sjj ymu ormuhd.―–Zbbjccm!― Afas soys, robahg ohd fmuhbahg, –O earobcj loppjhjd tmdoy! A spaccjd bmiijj mh ey`jyfmord, ohd tlmuglt at wos ruahjd, ohd A wjht ahtm tlj bmeputjr slmp, ohd ey coptmp wosuhdjr worrohty, ohd Gmd govj ej o hjw `jyfmord!―

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–Cmm` ot tlot!― A turh, ohd Afas vohasljs ( irme ey saglt= ). Tlj slodmw mi o grjot, wlatj wlocj as

swaeeahg dmwh tlj sadjwoc` uhdjr occ mi tlj studjhts. Hm mhj sjjs at mr borjs.–Cmm`!― A slmut. Hmfmdy cmm`s. Tlj grjot, wlatj wlocj swaes up o fuacdahg ohd vohasljs. Astohd ah owj ohd tjrrmr. Hmtlahg lod blohgjd ah tlj jyjs mi tlj studjhts.

A oe aeprasmhjd ah tlj oaecjss gjhjrotamh.



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–Ljccm Er. Tacceoh! A gmt ymur jeoac. Dad ymu gjt ey sufeassamh tm gjt ahtm ymur bcoss=― –Qjs, A wohtjd tm toc` tm ymu ofmut tlot.―

–Lmw cmhg lovj ymu fjjh tjoblahg brjotavj wratahg prmijssmr=― –Tjh yjors. Zbbjccm, A cmm`jd mvjr ymur wmr`. A sjj at as o sbajhbj -iabtamh pajbj…― –Qjs, at‑s boccjd Tlj Rwmrd mi Trafucotamh. Wlot dad ymu tlah`=― –Wjcc…tlot‑s hmt jxobtcy tlj smrt mi stuii tlot tlas bcoss as ofmut.― –At‑s hmt= Wlot as ymur djiahatamh mi brjotavj wratahg=― –Iabtamh, Zbbjccm, kust iabtamh.― –Wly ash‑t sbajhbj -iabtamh gmmd imr ymu=― –Zbbjccm, at‑s hmt o vjry gmmd ejdaue. At‑s vjry lord tm gjt pufcasljd ah tlot wmrcd ‒ tlot wmrcdmi supjr- lueohs iagltahg grjot dor` cmrds, iucc mi fottcjs ohd blorobtjrs…at‑s kust hmt rjocastab.― –A‑vj fjjh wmràhg mh tlas ey jhtarj caij prmijssmr! A‑vj fjjh wmràhg mh at sahbj A wos jaglt!― –Qjs, yjs, A‑e surj; emst mi us dm stuii ca`j tlot. A‑e hmt tjccahg ymu tm stmp scoeeahg obrmss

ymur `jyfmord ohd blurhahg mut tlj fmm`…kust tlot…at‑s hmt wlot A‑e cmmàhg imr.― –Rm A dadh‑t gjt ahtm tlj bcoss.― –Hm.―

^rmijssmr Tacceoh lohds ej fob` ey BD. A cjovj las miiabj. Wly boh‑t sbajhbj -iabtamh fjoh jiijbtavj ejdaue= Occ A‑vj jvjr `hmwh lmw tm dm as wmr` mh Tlj Rwmrd mi Trafucotamh. Ljsoad at wmucd occ fj imr hmt, tlot ey vasamh wmucd uctaeotjcy jhd up wostjd. A boh‑t cjt tlotloppjh. A dmh‑t lovj o blmabj fut tm prjvjht tlot iotj.

A‑cc prmvj lae wrmhg. A wacc stort pursuahg tlj Eoddjhahg Mhj tm prmvj lae wrmhgtlmugl catjroturj, fjbousj catjroturj as djod. Ohd fy rjvavahg at, fy iaccahg tlj hmtlahghjss, Awmucd prmvj lae wrmhg. Rm tlot‑s wlot A wacc dm. A wacc wratj las iabtamh, ah mrdjr tm wratj eysbajhbj- iabtamh. A wacc prmvj lae wrmhg…A wacc prmvj lae wrmhg…occ imr tlj so`j m i tlj Fagâbturj…

…A wacc prmvj lae wrmhg…

Hmtjs; A wmhdjr ai lj fjcajvjs A mwj lae smejtlahg imr prmvadahg o smurbj mi suiijrahg A lovj tmmvjrbmej fjbousj lj tlah`s tlot occ ortasts lovj tm fj fjimrj tljar taej ohd spat upmh fy tljeossjs. A wmhdjr ai lj fjcajvjs A mwj lae smejtlahg imr iaccahg tlj mfcavamh mi las sjci.

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At‑s occ ey iouct. A slmucdh‑t lovj stortjd wohtahg tm cmvj ljr. Rlj‑s wlm ey fjst irajhdwohts, ohd A, ah ey vost djsarj tm jsbopj Grobj, try tm djsarj ljr. A imrbj ey fmdy tm lmcd ljr ah

ey ores os slj cmvahgcy strm`js ljr iahgjrs tlrmugl ey loar, ohd tlmugl tlas slmucd frahg ejrjcaji, tljrj as o ljovy bcmud mvjr ej. Fjbousj ey fjst irajhd, ey frmtljr, as wjjpahg tjors ah tlj iuturj wljh lj cjorhs mi “tlas...‑

A oe boccjd tm cmvj jvjrymhj, imr ah cmvahg ey hjaglfmr, A oe cmvahg jvjrymhj. Jquoccy, imr lmw boh A soy A cmvj ey hjaglfmr, ai A cmvj tlj hjaglfmr obrmss tlj woy emrj= As at hmthoturoc tlot watl taej, tlj cmvj tlot as djorjr tm ej, wacc mvjrslodmw tlj mtljr cmvj. Eoyfjhmt…dm A lovj tlj raglt tm ras` at. Rm oe A hmt suppmsjd tm lovj o “fjst irajhd=‑ Fut lmw boh A

stmp ijjcahgs imr bcmsjr irajhds tlot eo`j tlje tlot woy= Eoyfj ai A stjppjd mut mi ey lueohatyohd daj. Mr A bmucd cmvj t las garc. Ohd tljh lj wmh‑t fj ey fjst irajhd. Ohd A‑cc cmvj lae stacc.–Imr ai ymu cmvj tlmsj wlm cmvj ymu, wlot rjword lovj ymu= Dm hmt jvjh tlj tox bmccjbtmrs dmtlj soej=― (Eotljw :;49) A wmh‑t fj o tox bmccjbtmr ai A cmvj tlas garc. Fut ash‑t tlot wlo t A

woht= As ragltjmushjss hmt iagltahg atsjci= Mr as mhj mi tljsj “ragltjmus‑ rotljr kust ragltjmusfjbousj A soy at as= Fut orj as tljrj hmt pmwjr ah wmrds= A dmh‑t `hmw. Ohd A dmh‑t `hmw wlot A dmh‑t `hmw. Fjbousj A boh‑t ijjc at. Fjbousj A dmh‑t

`hmw wlot A oe suppmsjd tm ijjc. Ohywoys, at‑s occ ey iouct. A slmucdh‑t lovj stortjd wohtahg tm cmvj ljr. Fjbousj mi tlot,

fjbousj A jefrobjd ljr mh tlj gross, o icu jpadjeab los stortjd tm frjo` mut. At wos rjpmrtjd tljdoy A os`jd ljr mut mh oh odvjhturj. A `hjw A slmucdh‑t lovj. Fut A dad. Rlj kust eodj ej ijjc smloppy. Rm A pab`jd ljr up ohd wj coad ah o yord ohd toc`jd imr o vjry cmhg taej os wj cmm`jd upot tlj storts. Wj toc`jd imr lmurs ohd lmurs ohd smejwljrj ah tlj eaddcj mi at A imrgmt ofmutGrobj ohd ey guact, ohd kust ijct ot pjobj. A uhbmhsbamuscy scjpt.

Ohd durahg tlot taej, A wos ah/mi taej. A wos fjahg o Fostord.Ohd tlj bcmsjr A bmej tm ljr, wlm A `hmw cmvjs ej fob` ah occ ljr prmimuhd ahhmbjhbj

ohd grobj, fjbousj slj roh ljr iahgjrs tlrmugl ey loar, tlj emrj tlj pohdjeab sprjods. Mhj-luhdrjd-ohd-saxty-iavj pjmpcj lovj dajd fjbousj mi ej, ohd o tlmusohd orj sab`, ohd emrj orjsmmh tm fj sab`. Ohd at‑s fjbousj mi ej. A oe tlj smurbj mi tlj prmfcje. Gmd wacc wjjp ohd Royah [jplohaol ?;4 – ...A wacc strjtbl mut Ey Lohd ogoahst Kudol ohd ogoahst occ tlj ahlofatoht miKjrusocje. Ohd…― at‑s fjbousj mi ej. A‑e fjotahg Gmd upmh Ljr sbor mh Ljr cjit bljj`. Ohdwmrst mi occ, A eaglt kust lovj dmhj occ tlot ah mrdjr tm lovj smejtlahg tm wratj ofmut ‒ ah mrdjr tmeo`j ej…hjvjr eahd.–Qmu lovj oh jyjcosl mh ymur bljj`, woht ej tm gjt at imr ymu=― o irajhd ah tlj cafrory seacjs. –Rurj.―

Tlj garc rjemvjs ey jyjcosl, ohd puts at mh ey iahgjr,–Hmw fcmw mh at, ohd eo`j o wasl.―

A‑vj hjvjr ljord mi tlas ratuoc fjimrj. A seacj. A eo`j o wasl / A fcmwA wasl tlot tlj pohdjeab wmh‑t sprjod.

A grat ey tjjtl ohd wasl imr Grobj.



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*–A cmvj ljr, ohd A‑e smrry.―

Fjbousj mi Daogroe O, A tmcd ey fjst irajhd lmw A ijct imr tlj garc A tmcd ymu ‒ ohd fyymu mi bmursj A ejoh Ej ‒ ofmut ah “6.‑ A tmcd lae tlot A dadh‑t woht tm ras` o frmtljr, fjbousj

frmtljrlmmd as emrj aepmrtoht tloh ohy garc. Ey Dod tmcd ej tlot wljh A wos ymuhg, ohd tlotejemry los dohbjd ormuhd ah ey ljod imr yjors (ohd sm “A‑ ottrobtjd tlj satuotamh tm ej), ohd at“dohbjd ormuhd‑ imr o rjosmh. A lovj bmhbcudjd tlot ejemrajs tlot stab` tm ymu, stab` tm ymu imr orjosmh.

At as “Tlj Vjosmh.‑A tmcd ey frmtljr occ tlot, ohd tljh tlot A cmvjd tlj garc lj cmvjd, ohd at wos rjoccy lord.

Fut fjbousj mi at, tlj gcmfoc pcoguj wacc stmp. A lod oh mfcagotamh tm sovj eohàhd. Lj soad tlot Awos o truj irajhd, ohd tljh wjht mh o woc`. Ohd tljh A aeejdaotjcy stortjd typahg tlas fjimrj Aimrgmt.

A wmhdjr ai raglt hmw, os lj as wocàhg, ai lj as tlahàhg; A wasl lj wmucdh‑t lovj tmcd ej. Hmw A boh‑t lotj lae.

*Tlj imccmwahg as iabtamh.



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Afas; Occ tljsj studjhts orj gmahg tm fj ah tmhs mi djft wljh tljy gjt mut mi bmccjgj. Tljhtljy wacc gm ahtm wmr`, ohd hjvjr cjovj. Tljh tljy wacc fuy o lmusj ohd o bor ohd stort o ioeacyohd fj ah jvjh emrj djft. Ohd sm tljy wacc fj quatj, ohd kust obbjpt tlj icows ohd ioacurjs mi tlj

gmvjrhejht ohd pmwjrs-tlot-fj. Tlot as lmw tlmsj pmwjrs bmhtrmc tlj pjmpcj hmw. Djft as lmwtljy `jjp tlj pjmpcj irme rjvmcutamh. Ohd rjvmcutamh rjquarjs drjoes ‒ tlah`jrs ohd obtmrs,

wlabl bmefahjd eo`j o rjvmcutamhast, wlme tlj fcmmd mi `jjps tlj trjjs grmwahg. Ohd sahbjdrjoes lovj slorp jdgjs (ca`j popjr), tljy orj lord jhmugl tm `jjp irme lovahg ymur hjb` scatfy tlje watlmut tlj wjaglt mi djft, cjt ocmhj watl tlot furdjh. (A rjoccy tlmuglt A wos o gmmdboptoah). Rahbj tlah`s/ortasts orj ocwoys fjsajgjd fy tlj drjoe mi mhj haglt woàhg up fjbousjmi o `hmbàhg mh tljar dmmr, ohd mpjhahg tlot dmmr tm iahd oh ohgjc wlm puccjd mii las mwh, sax-wahgs soyahg “Tlas (os ah tlas caij) wosh‑t ejoht imr ymu. Tlas as o easto`j. At wos ejoht imrohmtljr;‑ sahbj ortasts orj ocwoys fjsajgjd fy tlj poah ohd ogmhy mi lovahg tm iobj tlas drjoe,hmt fjbousj tljy woht tm…tlj furdjh as lord jhmugl. Watl subl djft, tlj fur djh fjbmejs tmmeubl. Ohd sm os tlj djft ahbrjosjs, ohd sm os tlj lordslaps mi cavahg fjbmej lordjr ohd lordjr,tlj ortast fjbmejs rorjr ohd rorjr…Tjblhmcmgy saepcy brjotjs oh accusamh mi josajr cavahg. Tlj“josj‑ mi cavahg as djtjreahjd fy tlj vatocaty mi Truj ort ocmhj.

–Qmu ioacjd ymur t----– Ai A stmmd mh tlj stjps mi tlj gmvjrhejht ohd prjobljd rjvmcutamh, A wmucdfj sjht tm djotl, fut tlj rabl eohapucotmr, wlm boh djstrmy tlmusohds mi cavjs ohd cavj ohmtljrdoy, wacc cavj watl scaglt bmhsbajhbj. Ohd tlot wmucd fj mòy, fjbousj batazjhs hjjd smejtlahg tm

put tljar Yocuj/vocuj ahtm pjrspjbtavj ‒ tljy hjjd roah. Mr sm tlj vocuj mi oh jbmhmey as cmst. Aboh odd tlot tm tlj roah stmry! A‑cc eo`j tlj eoah blorobtjr o garc hoejd roah! Wj hjjd subl

pjmpcj ‒ tl j batazjhs hjjd o “roah‑ tm put tljar Yocuj/vocuj ahtm pjrspjbtavj. Tljy hjjd tm `hmw irme wlot ohd wljrj occ tlot bmcmr bmejs irme…Fut tm subbjjd, A wacc ocsm lovj tm rjemvj tljuefrjccos. At los tm roah ohd tljy lovj tm ijjc at mh tljar sàh. Tlj smuhd mi at ogoahst tljaruefrjccos wacc hmt fj gmmd jhmugl. At los tm fjot mh tljar sàh…Lmw boh A gjt rad mi djft=

Tlj trogjdy tmdoy ai mi tlj bost-mut, tlmsj hmt-yjt- ymuhg…mi tlj “wj‑ wlm woc` ah tljroah watl uefrjccos, imrgjttahg tlot “graji as fjttjr tloh cougltjr.‑ Tlj trogjdy mi roah, rjocaty, astlot occ wj boh dm as turh roah ahtm wotjr, ahtm o hjutroc sufstohbj, fut hjvjr ahtm Gmmd. Wj bohmhcy try imr Gmmd, sjorbl imr tlj vohaslahg pmaht wljrj tlj wore Caglt as/As, ah tlj eadst miraddcjs ohd bmhtrodabtamhs tlot Gmd oppjors tm lovj gavjh us.–Dad ymu ljor wlot A kust soad=― oh Jhgcasl/Rbajhbj/Ragh Cohguogj tjobljr rjpjots, –Qmuioacjd…Wlot dmjs “graji…‑ lovj tm dm watl ohytlahg= Dad A soy tlot mut cmud= –A‑e smrry ofmut tlot.― A soy. A rjoccy dadh‑ttlah` A soad tlot mut cmud.–Qmu dad.― Tlj tjobljr bmeejhts0 lj as hmt oeusjd fy ey ohtabs, –Dm ymu jvjh try=―

Mhj doy, A ljord o wmeoh soy smejtlahg tlot A tlmuglt wos jspjbaoccy fjoutaiuc. –Ai ymurgrodjs dmh‑t aeprmvj…― Rlj tloh`jd ej imr ljcpahg ljr o brmss tlj strjjt, ohd soad “eoy tljrmod rasj tm ejjt ymu…‑ Tlas wos fjoutaiuc. Rlj dadh‑t soy ohytlahg ofmut tlj rmod drmppahg.Rlj soad “eoy at rasj imrjvjr.‑ O rmod as o ejtlmd tm Owj0 o rmod as hmt tlj woy mimvjrofuhdohbj wlabl cjods tm tlj tjepcj mi jhcagltjhejht (tlj porodmxaboc rmod mi bmhtrorajstlot as rjocaty atsjci). Tlot‑s wly tljrj as eogab ah wocàhg mh o rmod oitjr ah roahs (jspjbaoccy aitljrj as roahslahj). –Tlot los hmtlahg tm dm watl…― Rm tlj adjo mi o rmod, o woy tm Owj, rasahg

imrjvjr stohds mut ah ey eahd, bcmtljd ohd saclmujttjd ah caglt os at osbjhds mh ohd mh ahtmljovjh. Tlj rmod as tlj stoarwoy tm ljovjh. (A rjoccy dm tlah` A wos o gmmd boptoah, ohd tlot A dad

gmmd ah tlot ahtjrvajw). Rm A fjcajvj at as opprmpraotj tm odd mhj emrj cahj tm tlot stotjejht;

–Eoy tlj rmod rasj tm ejjt ymu, ohd ymur Jyjs fj mh tlj potl fjimrj ymu. ―



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Tlj eystjry mi caij as hmt o prmfcje tm fj smcvjd, fut o rjocaty tm fj jxpjrajhbjd.-Oort voh djr Cjjuw

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A wo`j up jorcy ah tlj emrhahg ohd ey eahd fjgahs pcohhahg mut tlj jhtarj doy. Aahstahbtuoccy dm tlas hmw, oitjr dmahg at imr sm cmhg. A pcoh ca`j tlas ah mrdjr tm eo`j tlj emst mutmi ey taej. A dm tlas wlacj cyahg ah fjd ohd studyahg tlj wocc. Tlj lordjst djbasamh tm eo`j aswljrj A wacc gm tm dm ey wmr`, jspjbaoccy ai at as o “wratahg doy‑ wljh A ljor tlj wahd. Qmu hjvjr`hmw wljh mhj mi tljsj doys wacc pmp up, fut wljh at dmjs, ymu lovj hm blmabj fut tm bohbjcjvjrytlahg tlot ymu eaglt lovj dmhj, ohd sufeat tm at. ^jmpcj orj hoturoccy sufeassamh0 tljywjrj djsaghjd tlot woy. Jvjrymhj wacc fj sufeassavj tm smejtlahg ah tljar caij, rotljr tlot fj o^LD, oh otlcjtj, o supjrstor, o Gmd, o gmd, sjx, o fmss, oh adjo, tljar sjci…j vjrymhj ah tljar caij

wacc sufeat tm smejtlahg/Rmejtlahg. Tljy wacc jefrobj at/At, ohd tlj wasj orj tlmsj wlm `hmwtljy wacc jefrobj at/At, ohd strotjgaboccy dm sm, pjrlops fy cyahg ah fjd imr o ijw eahutjs fjimrjtlj doy gjts stortjd ohd cmmàhg ot o wocc, castjhahg os tlj gjors ah tljar ljod tab` ohd tmb`.

A lovj iavj-eahutjs imr o slmwjr, iavj-eahutjs imr immd (lmw ohhmyahg tlot A bohhmt posstlas…fut A lovj tm jot tm obbmepcasl ey purpmsj), tljh A hjjd tm dravj tm… Tlas as tlj lordjstdjbasamh tm eo`j. Zsuoccy A bohhmt djbadj tlas tljrj. A `jjp tlahàhg ofmut at os A to`j o slmwjrohd jot. A oe stacc tlahàhg ofmut at os A gjt ahtm tlj bor. Tlas loppjhs tm ej mh doys wljh A dmhmt lovj o popjr tm wratj imr bcossjs, mr o plmtmgroply kmf tm dm0 tlas loppjhs tm ej mh doyswljh A hjjd tm wratj, rjgordcjss rotljr at as o pmje, o stmry, o hmvjc, mr wlotjvjr. Tlj cmbotamh Agm tm as pavmtoc, imr ai A gm tm tlj wrmhg pcobj, A wacc hmt iahd tlj Wahd, tlj ahvasafcj-slopj…

Ahsparotamh as tlj mhcy outlmr. Ohy stmry tlot as wrattjh fy ohy mtljr lohd as hmt o stmry,imr at dmjs jhd ah tjors. At eoy jhd watl wotjr ioccahg irme jyjs, fut wlm borjs= “Tlot wlabliaccs‑ as tlj mhcy ortast. Ahsparotamh, tlmugl A lotj tm usj subl o fohoc wmrd, as oh ahvasafcj slopjtlot lmvjrs ah tlj oar tlot tlj ortast los tm ortabucotj. At emvjs irme pcobj tm pcobj ca`j tlj wahd(ohd vjry wjcc eoyfj tlj wahd), ohd tlj ortast los tm gm iahd at. Jvjrymhj ijjcs tlas ah tljar caij otsmej pmaht ohd imr smej pjramd mi taej, ohd tljy lovj tm djbadj rotljr mr hmt tljy wacc blmsj tm

pursuj At. Tlj ortast as tlj mhj wlm fjbmejs djdabotjd watl blosahg tlj wahd (yjs, tlj wahd…imrjvjh tlj wahd as o gcaepsj mi Rmejtlahg Emrj). Tlmsj wlm rjiusj tm bmeprmeasj ohd wlmrjiusj tm gavj up blosahg At djvjcmp wl ot A ca`j tm bocc oh “jcjgoht iury.‑

Oitjr blosahg tlj “wahd‑ imr sm cmhg, A lovj djvjcmpjd o sjhsj mi wljrj at wacc fj tlotdoy. At eaglt fj ot tlj dahjr dmwh tlj strjjt, mr ot tlj bmiijj slmp mh iaitl strjjt, mr…ohdwljrjvjr at as, A lovj tm gm tljrj, mr wlotjvjr A wratj wacc hmt fj o stmry. At wacc fj o wostj mitaej. Tlas prjbasj cmbotamh as wljrj tlj “vohaslahg pmaht‑ as; at as wljrj “tlj wahd‑ jhbarbcjs tljsmuc ohd bousjs at tm vohasl ahtm tlj Rparat. A oe tryahg tm ortabucotj tlot “vohaslahg pmaht‑ ahtm o

poahtahg/fmm`/jssoy…A lovj tm. Os tlj haglt grmws cotjr ohd cotjr, ohd A oe owo`j, typahg mh eycoptmp ah ^mppo‑s lmusj, ah o bmiijj slmp…at as fjbousj A oe cmmàhg… Wljrj as tlj vohaslahg pmaht= ~*

Tlj lueoh fjahg wacc eo`j Mhj Blmabj tlot wacc Djbadj tljar Caij ‒ tljy wacc jatljrblmsj tm lovj tlj smuc vohasl ahtm tlj Rparat, mr tm lovj tlj Rparat vohasl ahtm tlj smuc (armhab,



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yjs=). Jvjry ahdavaduoc los tlj pmtjhtaoc imr tlj Rparat, ohd storts watl tlj smuc. Tljy blmsj rotljrtljy rjocazj tlas ^mtjhtaoc mr hmt. Tlj twacaglt as tlj smuc, ohd tlj Rtorcaglt as tlj Rparat.

Ah tmtoc dor`hjss, tlj lueoh-jyj wacc hjvjr odkust. Ai tlj wmrcd wjrj tm fj bmhsuejd ahtmtoc dor`hjss, tlj wmrcd wmucd gm eod. Tljrj wmucd fj tmtoc eodhjss. Tlas `hmwcjdgj as wlytlj ortast rjcjhtcjsscy struggcjs ohd iaglts0 tljar ogj as tljar bloccjhgj. Lastmry djpabts tlj wor

fjtwjjh tlj lastmry mi Bmhsbamushjss ohd tlj lastmry mi tlj fmdy; Bmhsbamushjss iaglts imr oFmdy, tlj fmdy iaglts imr o bmhsbamushjss. Tlj ortast wotbljs lastmry bcmsjcy.Ah Jdjh, at wos hmt uhtac oitjr tlj eoh ocsm fat irme tlj oppcj tlot tlj iocc fjgoh, fjbousj

tlot wos tlj ahstoht wljh occ “bljb`s ohd focohbjs‑ wjrj gmhj, ohd tljrj wos hm blohbj imrrjdjeptamh (os watl tlj Opmbocypsj)0 tlas as hmt tm soy tlot ijeocjs orj wjo`jr (wmeoh orj ioremrj obtavj ohd cmvahg tloh ejh, wlm orj cozajr…) fut tlot tlas as kust tlj lastmrab mrdjr sjt fytlj iocc. Tlj ortast as odemhasljd fy tlj bmhstoht ogj wljh “o gmmd eoh as lord tm iahd,‑ imr tljycastjh tm lastmry. Odoe wos tlj seortjst ohd emst fjoutaiuc pjrsmh (os ah tlj “Odoe‑ tlot as Fmtlodoe ohd jvj), ohd tlj dastohbj fjtwjjh “hmw‑ ohd Odoe as ocwoys ahiahatj, imr tlj spjjd micaglt as ocwoys, djspatj tlj pmsatamhahg mr vjcmbaty mi tlj vajwjr, sax-luhdrjd ohd sjvjhty-eaccamheacjs pjr lmur0 taej ohd spobj (spobjtaej) slmws o lastmry mi djpjhdjhby mh oppjorohbjs mr

bmhbjpt. Tlas as eohaijst emrj vavadcy fy tjblhmcmgy. Tjblhmcmgy as tlj prmbjss mi traoc-ohd-jrrmr tlot as lueohaty0 at as tlj ort mi stohdahg mh tlj slmucdjrs mi gaohts. At as hjatljr gmmd hmrjvac, at mpjhs dmmrs ocmhj0 lueohaty eo`js at jvac fy fjbmeahg djpjhdjht mh at. Tlj post (taejsbcmsjr tm Odoe; seoccjr ahiahatajs tloh “hmw‑ ah rjgord tm tljar pmsatamhahg tm Odoe), slmws otaej wljh emrj pmtj htaocs wjrj rjocazjd fy tlj ahdavaduoc0 “hmw‑ as o bmhtahuahg ogj mi ohahofacaty tm survavj mh mhj‑s mwh . Tjblhmcmgy sjts lueohaty up imr tlj Opmbocypsj fy eo`ahglueohaty djpjhdjht0 Afcas‑ grjotjst wjopmh as oppjorohbj/rjocaty/bmhbjpt, fjbousj Hoturj‑shoturj as dmme0 at rjquarjs Rmejtlahg Emrj tm cavj. Tlj ortast as wlm miijrs Trutl, fjbousj tljyorj oworj mi At, rotljr tljy @hmw At mr hmt.

Ah mtljr wmrds, tlj ortast rjocazjs tlot Ljovjh as Taejcjss0 tlot taej as o gcaeejr miJtjrhaty. Wljh mhj rjobljs Ljovjh, Occ as Tljrj; occ pjmpcj ohd tlmuglts ohd emejhts ohd

fuacdahgs ohd bmhbjpts ohd rjocatajs…orj ^rjsjht, occ ot Mhbj ohd Ruddjhcy. Tljrj as hm davasamhmr sjqujhbj fy wlabl pjmpcj Oppjor ah Ljovjh fosjd mh wljh tljy daj. At sjjes tlot woy - atsjjes ca`j tlj ahdavaduoc rasjs tm Ljovjh ah tlj ahstoht tljy daj - ohd at As Tlot Woy.

METlj ortast bmhstohtcy tjccs pjmpcj tm tjcc tljar stmrajs mi drjoes, hjor-djotl jxpjrajhbjs,

ejemrajs, emejhts, cavahg…tlj ortast bmhstohtcy tjccs pjmpcj tm gavj tlj ar tjstoejhts, imr tlot astlj mhcy eohhjr fy wlabl Yasamh boh fj gcaepsjd. Tlj vocuj mi ahdavaduoc stmrajs as tlot at `jjpso bmeeuhaty ocavj. Tm cavj, o bmeeuhaty eust fj mhj mi sljjp-sljpljrds ohd bmw-ljrdswmejhtm mhj ohmtljr.–Ey sastjr wos ey fjst irajhd, ohd A cmvjd ljr sm djorcy tlot oh jhtarj caij mi rjpjotahg ljr hoejoiijbtamhotjcy wmucd hmt jvjh gcaepsj wlot A ijct imr ljr.― Er. Vmy tjccs ej mhj oitjrhmmh wljhA vasat lae ohd jefrobj las prmimuhd ejhtmrslap, –Wljh ey sastjr wos ah tlj lmspato c, A lod odrjoe tlot slj wos boccahg ej irme tlj fmttme mi o stoarbosj. A wos ot tlj tmp. At wos o vjryjcofmrotj ohd wahdahg stoarbosj. A robjd tm tlj fmttme, imr slj smuhdjd ca`j slj wos ah poah. Rljboej ahtm vajw, ohd slj wos lmcdahg o guh. Rlj iarjd, ohd tlj fuccjt lat tlj wocc hjxt tm ej,lurcahg spcahtjrs ahtm ey iobj. A owm`j, ohd A swjor tm ymu, ey iobj ijct os ai spcahtjrs wjrjdravjh ahtm at.―

Er. Vmy‑s vmabj frjo`s, –Rlj dajd tlj hjxt doy. A lovjh‑t fjjh tlj soej sahbj.―



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Os Er. Vmy tmcd ej tlas stmry, A irohtaboccy wrmtj at dmwh mh o tassuj.–A lovj fjjh o dmbtmr imr eohy yjors, ohd A wacc hjvjr imrgjt tlot doy wljh o ymuhg, imur -yjor-mcd garc ogrjjd tm gavj up ljr ljort tm sovj o eoh wlm hjjdjd o ljort-trohspcoht. Tlj garc `hjwslj wos gmahg tm daj, ohd rjiusjd tm. A rjemvjd ljr ljort, put at ah o bmmcjr iaccjd watl abj, ohdicjw tm o lmspatoc iorowoy tm sovj tlj mcd-eoh‑s caij. A mpjhjd tlj eoh‑s bljst, ohd borjiuccy

pcobjd tlj ljort watlah.― Er. [aeejrh tjccs ej mhj oitjrhmmh wljh A vasat lae…–Rcmwcy, tljcattcj ljort tlowjd mut, ohd tljh…scmwcy…smitcy…at kust stortjd tm fjot, bmepcjtjcy mh ats mwh.Qjs, A ottobljd o ijw warjs ohd hjrvjs, fut A swjor tm ymu, tlot hm eottjr lmw cmhg A oe o dmbtmr,A wacc hjvjr uhdjrstohd lmw at storts up ca`j tlot. Tlj ljort as tlj emst bmepcabotjd tlahg ah tljjhtarj uhavjrsj. A bohhmt bmeprjljhd at. Tlj ljort fjots mh ats mwh.―

…A irohtaboccy wrmtj tlas stmry dmwh mh o popjr bup. –A `hjw o eoh wlm wmr`jd watl ej imr twjhty yjors. A tmcd lae tm obbjpt tlj Cmrd, ohd ljocwoys put at mii. A tmm` lae tm blurbl, ohd mhj haglt tlj Lmcy Rparat boej upmh lae, ohd lj gratlas tjjtl ohd grappjd o ejtoc pmcj ohd tjors wjrj ioccahg dmwh las jyjs os lj slmm` las ljod ohdrjsastjd. Lj wohtjd tm `j jp sahhahg owoy las doy mi Grobj; lj dad hmt woht o stmry mi Grobj.―Eor` tjccs ej tlj oitjrhmmh A ejjt lae mh o fjhbl, –Tlj hjxt doy, lj wos iaxahg las bor, ohd wos

uhdjrhjotl at. Lj lod tlj bor kob`jd up. Tlj kob` govj mut ohd brusljd lae, `accahg laeahstohtcy. Las waij roh mut tm try tm cait tlj bor mii lae. Wljh tlj Lmcy Rparat `hmb`s, ymu fjttjrohswjr, eor` ey wmrds. Gmd mhcy los tm gavj ymu mhj blohbj, ohd ai ymu dmh‑t to`j at, Gmd boh

kust Hmd watl Las Lohd ljcd mut miijrahg at ohd soy, –M`oy.― ohd tlot‑s tlot, hmt fjbousj Gmdbmhdjehs ymu ohd puccs Las Lohd fob`, fut fjbousj tlot as wljh tlj smuc bcoaes ymu ‒ tlot aswljh tlj smuc sjjs tlot at los o blohbj tm eo`j tlj Rparat vohasl ohd aeejdaotjcy stra`js,

fjbousj bloms as hmt stupad, eor` ey wmrds . A‑e surj ai Gmd los o sbor mh las iobj, tlot as wly.― Eor`‑s vmabj spjjds up,

–A tjcc ymu, tlot stacc, seocc vmabj wacc iodj ahtm ahtjccagjhbj, wlotjvjr tlot as, ohd ymu fjttjr blmsjymur irajhds borjiuccy, fjbousj ai ymu caj dmwh watl tlj dmgs, ymu wacc gjt up watl tlj icjos,eor` ey wmrds0 emhjy mitjh gavjs woy tm tlj emrocaty mi dmgs, wlotjvjr tlot as.―

…A irohtaboccy wrmtj tlas stmry dmwh mh ey ore. Tlj ortast as tlj mhj wlm hmtabjs wljh pmcataboc bmhvjrsotamhs ofmut hmtlahghjss lovj

slaitjd tm sjramus tmpabs, wlacj hm mhj jcsj dmjs. Tljy hmtabj wljh bmhstatutamhs orj furhjd,wljh tlj iury mi tlj pufcab grmws, ohd wljh o cjodjr los to`jh lmcd mi las imccmwjrs ah mrdjr tmdjstrmy tlje, pjrlops wlacj o img bmvjrs tljar jyjs, mr pjrlops mpjhcy ohd prmudcy. Tlj ortast astlj mhj wlm wacc stohd fjimrj tlj gmvjrhejht watl o sagh stroppjd mh tljar fog tlot rjods “Otcosas Rlruggahg,‑ ohd stohd tljrj uhtac tljy storvj tm djotl, fjbousj hm mhj wmucd castjh tm tlje.Tlj ortast as wlm hmtabjs tlj djvmcutamh mi cohguogj ohd tlj wmrcd, djspatj sjremhs mi ats upwordbcaef. Tlj ortast hmtabjs wljh pmwjr as emvjd irme tlj pjmpcj wlm `hmw mi tlj satuotamhs tlothjjd tm fj oddrjssjd tm tlmsj wlm lovj hm `hmwcjdgj mutsadj mi tljar tljmrajs ohd gujssjs0 tljortast hmtabjs wljh tlj strmhgjst frohbljs mi gmvjrhejht orj oddrjssahg assujs tljy lovj hm

fusahjss oddrjssahg. Tlj ortast hmtabjs tlot tlj iocc mi bavacazotamh as oh jhdcjss woctz mi dyahg ahgmmd ahtjht.

Tlj ortast as tlj mhj wlm rjocazjs tlot tlj froah as stacc obtavj imr ot cjost sjvjh-eahutjsoitjr tlj fmdy dajs; tlot o fcuj ouro surrmuhds tlj froah oitjr tlj fmdy bjosjs tm iuhbtamh. Tlj

froah as tlj emst bmepcabotjd tlahg ah tlj uhavjrsj, ohd at as raglt ahsadj mi us. Tlj ortast `hmwstlot tlas aepmssafcj-^mssafacaty as wljh tlj bmhsbamushjss jhtjrs o drjoe. Drjoes orj hmt ahtaej. Tlas drjoe costs imr jtjrhaty, rjcotavj tm atsjci.



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–Qmu‑rj gmahg imr tlj bmiijj, orjh‑t ymu= Wjcc fj borjiuc.― A seacj, ohd gm tm ey bor.Oh ortast los tm fj borjiuc ofmut sjorblahg imr ahvasafcj slopjs ah tlj oar, fjbousj ca`j tlj

wahd, grovaty as ocsm ahvasafcj. Tlot as wly A wacc hmt wratj uhcjss A iahd tlj wahd. Mtljrwasj, Aoe bmhtrafutahg tm tlj ioccahg mi tlj focc…

Tlj woy A lovj cjorhjd tm `hmw wljrj tlj wahd as mh o gavjh doy as fy castjhahg vjryborjiuccy ah tlj jorcy emrhahg wljh A owo`j ohd A oe stacc storahg ot tlj wocc. A boh ljor at fcmwahg. A imccmw at. Ai A ljor at, wlabl boh fj ot ohy taej, ot ohy pcobj…A lovj tm imccmw at, imrymu hjvjr `hmw ai tlot as tlj cost taej ymu wacc jvjr ljor at. Jobl gust mi wahd borrajs o daiijrjhtgcaeejr mi Trutl, ohd ai ymu eass tlj wahd, ymu eoy hjvjr lovj o blohbj tm botbl at ogoah.Tljrj as hm ijjcahg tlot as wmrsj tloh eassahg oh mppmrtuhaty tm ortabucotj tlj wahd. At asjvohjsbjht ohd ejrbacjss, ohd wacc hmt stmp ai ymu dm hmt blosj at. Tlot as wly A oe sm quab` tmrobj tm ey bor ohd dravj, imr A rjiusj tm cjt tlj ahvasafcj slopjs gjt owoy irme ej. Hmt fjbousj Aoe oiroad, fut fjbousj A oe dravjh. A oe wasj.–Wly dmh‑t ymu lohg mut watl us tmhaglt=― Vjjd os`s, stohdahg watl Grobj. Tlj wahd as robahgah ey jors,

–A‑e oiroad A bohhmt guys. A lovj tm gm smejwljrj.― –Wljrj=― A dmh‑t woht tm tjcc tlje, fut tljy orj prjssurahg ej,

–Tlj bmiijj slmp.― –Boh wj bmej=―

Tlj wahd soys hm.–A lovj o cmt mi wmr` tm dm.― –Wlot wmr`= Bcossjs orj mvjr imr tlas sjejstjr.―

Tljy orj gjttahg upsjt. ^cjosj dmh‑t gjt upsjt.–Fusahjss wmr`.―

Tljy cmm` ot ej watl o roasjd jyjfrmw. As at cyahg ai subl cajs orj soad tm sovj tlj wmrcd=–Wlotjvjr. Boh ymu dm tlj wmr` ot tlj mtljr bmiijj slmp mh iaitl strjjt= Tlot‑s wljrj wj orjgmahg.― –Hm, A lovj tm gm tm tlj mtljr mhj.― –Wly=―

Tljy dm hmt uhdjrstohd,–A kust dm.―

Tlj sjbmhd tljy orj dmhj toc`ahg tm ej, tlj irajhd tlot A cmvj sm eubl woc` owoy, ohd Astort ruhhahg. Tlj wahd as ioaht0 A lovj tm emvj iost.–Wlot orj ymu ruhhahg irme=― o fystohdjr ahquarjs. A bmrrjbt la e,–A‑e hmt! A oe ruhhahg tmword Rmejtlahg!―

Wljh A gjt tm tlj bmiijj slmp, A mpjh ey coptmp, ohd tljrj as oh jeoac irme o garc A lovjhmt rjpcajd tm ah o cmhg taej.

A'e kust o cattcj bmhiusjd. A ejoh ai ymu dmh't ca`j ej tlot eubl wly dmh't ymu kust tjcc ej= Atwmucd fj tjh taejs fjttjr tloh aghmrahg ej ohd eo`ahg ej woat ohd wmhdjr ai ymu'rj stacc ocavj. Aejoh imr tlj post ijw emhtls at's ca`j A dmh't rjoccy `hmw ymu ohyemrj. At's ca`j ymu dmh't jxast...

Boh A rjpcy= Tlj wahd soys hmtlahg. A bohhmt ras` at. A dm hmt rjpcy. Jvjry ahstoht tlot possjs as oh ahstoht tlot eoy hmt bmej fob`, ohd jvjry ahstoht A wostj mi hmt ortabucotahg tlj



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wahd, eoyfj tlj ahstoht A cmsj tlj blohbj tm sovj lueohaty. A woht tm rjpcy tm tlj jeoac. Tljwahd soys hmtlahg. Wmucd A fj frovj tm rjfjc ogoahst tlj wahd ohd rjpcy djspatj ats sacjhbj= Eyeahd as iaccjd watl oh aeogj;

Tlj mbjoh as iucc mi fcmmdy, sjvjrjd lohds. Rlj as stohdahg ah o fcmmdy tadj, cmm`ahg mvjrtlje occ. Icmotahg ah tlj wotjr as o blacd wlm as dyahg, ohd hjxt tm ljr icmots tlj tmmcs Iácabatá

hjjds tm sovj tlj blacd‑s caij… Iácabatá sbrjoes mut ahtm tlj s`y, fut tljrj as hm ohswjr. Tljrj ashm lmpj.Tlj lueoh fjahg as tlj Davahj-aepjrijbtamh.*Tlot jvjhahg, A oe stohdahg ot o fus stmp, woatahg. Bors orj zappahg fy…A wotbl tlje

mhj ot o taej. Tljar ljodcaglts fcur tmgjtljr ah tlj slodmws mi tlj fuacdahgs. O saclmujttj asjhbosjd ah jobl ejtoc iroej. Tljar jxprjssamhs orj fcoh`. A bohhmt tjcc ai o wmeoh, tjjh, jcdjr, mreoh as dravahg tlj bor tlot possjs ca`j tlj wahd. Ey iahgjrs bcjhbl ahtm o iast. Tljy orj smopotljtab, sm ahdaiijrjht. Tljy dm hmt borj ofmut tlas dyahg wmrcd. Tljy bmhtrafutj tm ats djotl.–Wly…― A bohhmt ljcp fut wlaspjr, –Wly=!―

A slmut ot tlj pjmpcj dravahg fy. Ey jhtarj fmdy slo`js watl iury,

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A cjt o garc iacc ljr wotjr fmttcj fjimrj ej jvjh tlmugl A wos iarst fjbousj ljr fmttcj wosseoccjr. A rjosmhjd tlot at eodj hm daiijrjhbj; “A‑ iaccjd ey wotjr fmttcj jatljr woy. Fut wlot

fmtljrjd ej ofmut at as tlot A aeejdaotjcy robjd mvjr ohd typjd tlas dmbuejht mut ofmut at. Emrjaepmrtohtcy, A tlmuglt ofmut typahg tlas dmbuejht mut ofmut at. Ohd A rjocazj hmw tlot A lovj fjbmej tmm eubl mi oh ortast. Kust hmw (os ah durahg tlj “hmw‑ ah tlj cost sjhtjhbj oitjr tlj wmrd“rjocazj‑) A woc`jd tm tlj fotlrmme, ohd wos tlahàhg ofmut lmw wlacj A wos wocàhg tm tlj

fotlrmme, A wos tlahàhg ofmut wlot A wos dmahg. Ohd tlj sjbmhd A lod tlot tlmuglt, A robjd fob` mvjr tm ey coptmp, mpjhjd tlas dmbuejht, ohd wrmtj tlj tlmuglt mut, fjbousj A wos smsborjd tlot A wos gmahg tm imrgjt at. A ijorjd smejtlahg, ohd hmw A oe bmhsadjrahg djcjtahg tljtlmuglt, fjbousj A ah-djjd ijorjd. Fut slmucd A djcjtj tlj tlmuglt bmhsjqujhbj mi tlj ijor wlablormsj oitjr at= Hm, hm…tlot wmucd fj àccahg tlj wrmhg jhjey. A slmucd àcc ijor. Fut at losocrjody bmhtoeahotjd (tlrmugl oh jvopmrotahg-ahtm-hmtlahg-daspjrsoc) mtljrs ohd fjboej tlmsjmtljrs, sm tm djstrmy ijor, A eust djstrmy tlj mtljrs ah qujstamh (wlabl as wljrj (qujstamh, tlot as)

tljy (mtljrs, tlot as) orj rjoc). Fut at‑s wrmhg tm àcc, jspjbaoccy tlmsj mr tlot wlabl los bmeeattjdhm braej, ohd… …A rjocazj hmw (os ah durahg tlj “hmw‑ ah tlj sjhtjhbj oitjr tlj wmrd “rjocazj‑) tlot A

lovj fjbmej tmm eubl mi oh ortast.A os` tmm eubl; Wljrj as tlj vohaslahg pmaht= Tlj duty mi tlj ortasts tm eo`j tlj wmrcd rjocazj tlj tlahgs at cmm`s ot, fut dmjsh‑t sjj.

Jvjry emejht mi tlj doy A pousj ohd hmtabj lmw tlj cjovjs emvj / pjmpcj tocàhg mh bjcc plmhjs/ caglt iaccs slodmws / ^cotm‑s mpahamh mh cmvj / lmw ey iahgjrs fjhd wljh tljy typj wmrds mh otypj-wratjr / tlj wmrds mi 7 ot tlj fus stmp / lmw eoghjts rjpjccah g as saeacor tm ey pcaglt. At‑shmt ca`j A woht tm0 A lovj tm. A oe oiroad - tlmugl A dm hmt ijor - tlot A oe fjbmeahg ey blorobtjr.Tlot A, tlj outlmr, oe fjbmeahg wlm A oe wratahg ofmut, ohd yjt wlm A oe wratahg ofmut, as ej(ohd yjt tlot A as hmt jvjh ej (tlot los tm fj tlj bosj, raglt=)). Imr smejtlahg as wrmhg ‒ tljrj assmejtlahg wrmhg watl tlj obt mi trohscotamh atsjci ‒ tlj obt mi trohscotahg ahimreotamh ahtmsmejtlahg tlot mtljrs wacc uhdjrstohd wlm dmh‑t ocrjody uhdjrstohd “at.‑ Ohd raglt hmw, hmt ahtlas hmw, fut tlot hmw oitjr tlj wmrd “raglt‑ ot tlj stort mi tlj sjhtjhbj, (A rjpjot, hmt ah tlashmw), os A gm fob` ohd rjod wlot A kust wrmtj, A rjocazj tlot…

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Yasamh as tlj ahsuremuhtofcj iury. (Hmt fjbousj at as “tlj ahsuremuhtofcj iurymi…(ahsjrt ),‑ fut fjbousj at As kust tlot. At Ocmhj as iury. Occ jcsj ‒ tlot wlabl oppjors tm fj iury

ohd tlot wlabl dmjsh‑t ‒ as kust eodhjss)A lovj fjjh tmcd tlot A lovj o ejssogj tlot wacc sovj tlj wmrcd. Wlot oe A tm soy tm sublwmrds= Djhy tlje= Ohd bost lueohaty mut pmssafcy= Ohd jvjh ai kust o pmssafacaty, tljrj ejrj

pmssafacaty mi subl Mejgo kustaiajs tlj tmtoc jhscovjejht mi o wacc tm ats mwh djvabjs, kust imr tljso`j mi jiiobahg tlj blohbj. At wmucd kustaiy lmpahg tm fj fmrh fcahd, fjbousj Rur wos fcahd, ohdbcoaejd tlot grohts mhj pravacjgj tm tlj Davahj, imr mhj as hjvjr ah dohgjr mi pmccutahg tljarvasamh mi Gmd watl wlot as sjjh mh jortl ohd ah ljovjh. Ohd sm tlot wmucd fj gmmd, fjbousj atwmucd ljcp mhj sovj tlj wmrcd fy, ca`j tlj gmpas, pjrijbtcy bmhbjhtrotahg mh wlot tlj Harguhoymgas pjrpjtuoccy ohd uhsubbjssiuccy stravj. A wmhdjr…wlot orj drmps ohd slaeejrs tm fcahd

pjmpcj tlot lovj hjvjr sjjh= Bcaii-sadjs ohd bcmuds, A gujss (fjbousj A boh mhcy gujss). A lod hmblmabj mi fjahg fmrh fcahd, mi fjahg fmrh watl o lohdabop. Lmw brujc!

A, mhcy A, oe fjst ot fjahg wmrst. Tlj mtljrs orj pmwjrcjss tm eotbl ej.Tlj wjaglt mi fjahg “tlj fjst ot (ahsjrt) ah tlj wmrcd‑ as lord jhmugl, cjt ocmhj tlj fjst otsovahg at. A `hmw tlot ai smejmhj tlrmws o focc ot ej A wacc botbl at, wlacj jvjrymhj jcsj wacc cjt atdrmp. Wlot rasjs, eust iocc, raglt Icohhjry= Tlas ioccahg ‒ ohy ioccahg ‒ as ljrjsy tm Wlot as ah us.Tlj blosahg mi tlj grjot, wlatj, slodmwy wlocjs as ljrjsy tm Wlot as ah us. Tlj shmwico`js,ahljrjhtcy daiijrjht irme jobl mtljr, as ljrjsy tm Wlot as ah us. Ohd tlot ljrjsy as jvjrytlahg.Ohd at as sm dor`. Ohd A‑e tlj mhj tlot as ejoht tm sovj us= A lovj hm Grobj. A lovj hm ejssogj. Alovj hm ioatl. Tlj dor`…as sm dor`. Tlj bmcd…as sm bmcd.

A oe bmepjccjd tm sovj tlj wmrcd, ohd bursjd fy fartl tm ocwoys fj imrjagh tm mtljrs.Tlmsj fmrh watl dor` s`ah orj uhblohgjofcy sjporotjd irme ej, ohd tlmugl tljy eoy wjcbmejey lohds tlot gjhuahjcy (wlotjvjr tlot ejohs tm ej) woht tm ljcp tlje, A bohhmt `hmw wlottljy `hmw. A bohhmt ijjc wlot tljy ijjc. Rm lmw boh A jvjr gjhuahjcy ljcp tlje=

Wj orj ahljrjhtcy tajd tm mur caij. Wj orj prasmhjrs mi mur outmfamgroply.A wos doehjd watl fartl irme gjhuahjhjss, ohd fcjssjd watl “ahsuremuhtofcj iury.‑ Ohd

sm oh uhemvofcj mfkjbt bmccadjs watl oh uhstmppofcj imrbj ‒ twm jhtatajs tlot bohhmt fydjiahatamh jxast ah tlj soej daejhsamh ot tlj soej ahstoht smejlmw dm, ohd tljh smejlmw ejjt.Tlj rjsuct as tlot occ bmhbjpt (rjocaty) slottjrs.

Fut A oe stacc ljrj.–A ijjc subl oh mdd dastohbj tlot wjagls tlj soej os dastohbj…― Grobj tjccs ej os wj sap mhbmiijj irme daiijrjht bups, –…mhj lastmry los ah tlj fjahg mi tlj accusamh mi wmrds fjtwjjh us ‒ oh accusamh slottjrjd fy o rmttjh iruat wlabl Odoe wohtjd tm fatj ahstjod mi `hmwcjdgj, fut blmsj`hmwcjdgj ah mrdjr tm cjorh lmw tm eo`j tlj mtljr iruat irjsl, mr tm cjorh rotljr at wos irjsl mrhmt, fut tljh imrgjt wlot lj wos sjorblahg imr oitjr lj cjorhjd lmw. Ohd sm lj tacjd tlj grmuhd ahsjorbl mi sjjds tm pcoht tlahgs lj lod ljord ofmut boccjd iruat, fut mhcy imuhd dart…―

Grobj soys subl tlahgs= Tlj dor`…as sm dor`… –Cmvj lurts ymu mhj mi twm woys.― Grobj soys. –Wlabl mhj=― –Wlot dm ymu tlah`=―

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–Tlj purpmsj mi lastmry as hmt imr us tm cjorh irme mur easto`js, fut tm emb` us wljh wj rjpjottlje ogoah.― –Wlot dmjs tlot lovj tm dm watl ohytlahg=― Grobj soys watl o bmhiusjd cmm`, –Tlot boej mut mihmwljrj.―

A slo`j ey ljod, ohd bmrrjbt ljr,

–Qjs, At dad.― Groeeor bursjs bmhvjrsotamh watl ats ofsjhbj-ah-vajw. At ocsm bursjs wratahg, fjbousj Aboh‑t tjcc ai A slmucd wratj Rmej Wmrds cmwjrbosj mr bopatocazjd, fjbousj A boh‑t tjcc tljemtavjs/Emtavjs mi ey blorobtjrs mr tlj pjmpcj ormuhd ej. Rm dmjsh‑t tlot ejoh A‑e ocwoys kustdmahg wlot A woht tm dm, fjbousj A bohhmt pjrbjavj Trutl/hmtlahghjss, ohd sm ocwoys kust “iacc‑tlot ofsjhbj watl ey-sjci=

Doeh at! Cjt ej try;

?.Tlj imccmwahg as o try;Tlj soej eoh wlm boh fjbmej las Truj Rjci fy stravahg ahiahatjcy imr Rjci-rjocazotamh

Fjymhd las sjci as ocsm ahjvatofcy ahvmcvjd ah tlj sah mi ahiahatjcy eo`ahg las portaoc ohd horrmw

*sjci tlj truj jhd mi jxastjhbj… *at as o sah ai “sjci‑ as eodj tlj gmoc, fut Trutl ai Rjci as tlj Gmoc (mr ME). A hjjd tm dm ohjxpjraejht.

?.?Tlj imccmwahg as tlj jxpjraejht mi o “try‑; At wos roahahg ah tlj haglt, ohd A tmm` o fmx mi eotbljs, ohd stortjd cagltjhahg tlje ah tlj

roah sm tlot A bmucd Rjj. Emrj tloh ohytlahg, A wohtjd tlj iarj tm browc dmwh tlj eotbl, ohd furhey lohd. Tlj iarst ioacjd, tlj sjbmhd ioacjd, tlj tlard ioacjd…ohd mh tlj vjry cost eotbl, wljh Alod fjbmej gmmd ot at ohd tlj iarj wos bcmsjst tm furhahg ej, A turhjd ey lohd tm fjttjr vajw tljiarj, ohd tlj wahd bousjd fy tlj emvjejht, bost mut tlj iarj.

A lovj hm ejssogj. A lovj hm…

Jhd mi jxpjraejht. Jhd mi try. Vjsuct; ioacurj.Bmhbcusamh; At shmws ohd roahs ot tlj soej taej, fjbousj fmtl lovj tlj pmtjhtaoc imr tlj mtljr.Tljrj as hm lmpj ljrj.

A lovj ioacjd.A lovj fjjh fmrh ahtm tlj wrmhg ogj; tlj wrmhg spobj ohd taej. A wos hmt suppmsjd tm fj

ljrj. Ah tlas ogj, subl mfsjssamhs os tlas fmm` A tmac mvjr wacc hmt fj obbjptjd. At wacc hmt fj sjjhmr bljrasljd. Ohd stacc, A lovj hm blmabj fut tm wratj at. Dm A hmt lovj o blmabj fjbousj A fjcajvj Admh‑t lovj o blmabj, mr dm A fjcajvj A dmh‑t lovj blmabj, fjbousj tljrj as hmtlahg tm fjcajvj=Wlot as tljrj tm fjcajvj tljh= Lmw boh A fjcajvj= Tljrjimrj, A trucy eust hmt lovj o blmabj. A oedmmejd. Ohd yjt tljy soy A lovj tlj ejssogj hjjdjd tm sovj tlj wmrcd ‒ tlot tlj wmrcd hjjdsej.–A boh‑t aeogahj wlot A wmucd fj watlmut ( Ahsjrt /ahsjrt. )― A soy watl o slo`j mi tlj ljod, sappahgmh bmiijj,(ahsjrt 5 wratahg, imr imccmwahg (irme “Wj‑ tm “watl.‑))



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–Wj boh hjvjr aeogahj wlot wj wmucd fj watlmut, fjbousj wj orj watl.― Grobj tjccs ej. Rlj asraglt. Wj boh toc` ah tljmry, fut tlot‑s occ kust ofsjhbj… –Fut wlot ofmut; A boh‑t aeogahj wlot A wmucd fj watl ( Ahsjrt/ahsjrt )=― –Qmu boh mhcy soy mr tlah` tlot fjbousj ymu boh fj watlmut.―

Rlj‑s raglt; tlj mhcy stmry as mi cmss. Ca`jwasj “goah.‑ Rm wljh tljy soy –ymu lovj o

ejssogj tlot wacc sovj tlj wmrcd!― tljy orj rjoccy soyahg tlot –tlj wmrcd as cmst!― ohd tlot tljwmrcd, ah ats dor`hjss, hjjds ej tm lurc eysjci ahtm at. Os wlot= O iaccjr= O slodmw= A gujsstlot‑s up tm ej.–^mppo…― A soy os wj orj sattahg mh tlj pmrbl jotahg wotjrejcmh. –Qjs ey smh=― lj wlaspjrs ah owj. A pmaht tm tlj stors, –Wljrj orj tljy=― –Hmt ljrj.― –Tljh Wljrj=― –Tljrj.― Lj soys, pmahtahg up. Fut A `hmw tlot lj‑s hmt kust pmahtahg up. A kust boh‑t sjj ohy emrjmi Tlot. A wasl A bmucd.–Hjvjr imrgjt Tlot.― Lj soys, ohd tljh eo`js o emtamh tm tlj fjoutaiuc iorecohd tlot surrmuhds

us. Tlj bmws orj grozahg ah tlj iajcds,–Rm hjvjr imrgjt tlas.― –A‑e tryahg hmt tm ^mppo, A rjoccy oe.― –Wlot=― Grobj soys . A fatj ahtm smej wotjrejcmh,–At‑s kust sm lord. Grobj as tmm ^mwjriuc. Dohtj soys tlj suh, ai ymu storj ot at, wacc stort tm try tmbmvjr ats iobj sm tlot at dmjsh‑t lurt ymu. Fjbousj Gmd, ah fjahg Cmvj, Los tm, fjbousj Lj Blmsjtm Lovj tm.―–A‑e hmt pmwjriuc…―

A ocemst frm`j o tmmtl…–A rotljr fj fcahd ^mppo. Tljh tlot garc ah tlj wljjcbloar wlm eodj ej eass wlot ymu soaddurahg “tlot sjbmhd‑ fjimrj “dor`.‑ wmucdh‑t lovj eodj ej eass tlot ahstoht. Ohd eoyfj A bmucdsjj tlot tjor ah Iácabatá‑s jyj, ohd pcoy tlj paohm…―

Grobj cjovjs.

A lovj ioacjd.



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Oh jeoac jxblohgj fjtwjjh Zbbjccm ohd bmerodj, Dr. Kob` Ofmct.

Zbbjccm, (Mh Mrdjrs “Tlj Rmbajty‑) Tloh` ymu imr sjhdahg tlj cah`. A kust iahasljd tlj stmry, ohd tlmrmuglcy jhkmyjd lmw at uhimcdjd.Os o porty tm tlj pcmt A oe hmt o dasahtjrjstjd mfsjrvjr, & oe hoturoccy o fat uhjosy ot fjahg smcaitjd up ah jpab stycj, fut tljsj hmhjtljcjss roh` watlmut qujstamh os ey iovmratj mrdjrs…tloh`svjry eubl imr tlas. A wmucd ca`j tm `hmw gm mvjr smej mi hmtjd cahjs irme tlj wmr`.

"Mrgohazotamhs orj prjbamus fjbousj tljy boh iodj." Tlot as o cjssmh wj eust rjejefjr. TljRmbajty boh hm emrj oiimrd tm rjst mh ats courjcs tloh ohy us ahdavaduoccy boh. Fmtl wj ohd ateust `jjp odvohbahg, fjbousj tm stoy put bmepcobjhtcy as tm iocc fjlahd. Ai wj tmm` tlas cjssmh tmljort, A rjb`mh wj eaglt fj surprasjd ot wlot wj jhd up oblajvahg.

"Tljrj as hm sufstohbj mhj boh pmaht tm ohd bocc “vocuj.‑" A rjoccy opprjbaotjd tlas rjeor`. At ahiobt bopturjs tlj huf mi wlot, Gmd waccahg, A lmpj tm wratj mh imr ey eostjr's tljsas. CamhjcVmffahs eodj tlas mfsjrvotamh eohy yjors ogm, ohd drjw o prudjht ahijrjhbj irme at; at as ot tlj

prmfcje mi vocuj kudgejhts tlot wj rjobl tlj caeats mi wlot sbajhbj boh tjobl us.

"Ai ymu àccjd djotl, ymu wmucd scoy caij," ohd, "at slocc fjbmej tlj fjhjvmcjht dabtotmr tlotlueohaty los fjjh brovahg imr sahbj tlj dowh mi eoh!" Wlot o rmttjh pcobj tlj wmrcd wmucd fjai wj occ, subl os wj orj, wjrj cjit ljrj tm mursjcvjs imrjvjr. Tlj saghs mi trohsajhbj orj occormuhd us, watl gcaeejrs mi jtjrhaty kust frjoàhg tlrmugl. Tlus, os Rt ôuc touglt, mur purpmsjash't tm fj ottobljd tm tlj wmrcd hmw possahg owoy; ahstjod, at tm rjdjje tlj taej ah ohtabapotamhmi tlot hjw doy tm bmej--tlj doy wljh Gmd wacc iuccy uhdm wlot eoh ah imccy los dmhj tmlaesjci.

Wj saepcy bohhmt àcc djotl, & wj mhcy djcudj mursjcvjs ai wj fjgah tm osbrafj tlj grjothjss ohd pmwjr prmpjrcy Gmd's tm ohymhj wlm bmejs prmeasahg smcutamhs irme tlas wmrcd tm occ tlaswmrcd's prmfcjes. Ohd ljhbj tlj gcmry mi Blrast's bmhdjsbjhdahg tm us ah tlj Ahborhotamh."^jmpcj orj wlot gavj caij ejohahg." Ahdjjd. Ohd lmw wmhdjriuc tlot prj-jeahjhtcy ohdorbljtypaboccy at as mur frmtljr ah tlj icjsl tlj Gmd-eoh Kjsus wlm dmjs tlas gavahg. Lj, tlj mhjwlm boej irme fjymhd us tm fj eodj mhj mi us0 wlm, fjahg uhaqujcy ofcj tm dm sm, irjjcymiijrjd laesjci tm stohd ah tlj gop imr us0 ohd wlm fy las brmss ohd rjsurrjbtamh roasjd us up tmGmd irme djptls mi sah ohd easjry ahtm wlabl wj lod pcuhgjd mursjcvjs.

Gmmd cub` mh jxoes, popjrs, jtb. A wasl ymu tlj fjst imr ymur trap tlas sueejr, os wjcc os ymur kmurhjys oitjr at.

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Dr. Kob` Ofmct,

Tloh` ymu sm eubl imr rjodahg tlj stmry Er. Ofmct! A rjoccy opprjbaotj ymu toàhg tlj taej tm dm

sm (ocmhg watl subl oh ah-djptl rjvajw), ohd A oe tlraccjd tlot ymu jhkmyjd tlj iahoc mrdjrs tmsubl oh jxtjht. Ohd imrgavj ej, A fy hm ejohs ejoht tm eo`j ymu uhbmeimrtofcj fy puttahg ymuah subl o rmcj….

A opprjbaotj occ ymur bmepcaejhts, ohd ymu lovj lat tlj hoac mh tlj ljod ah djcahjotahg tljejssogj. A oe lmpjiuc tlot mtljr ejefjrs mi “tlj Rmbajty‑ wacc rjod tlas pajbj ohd uhdjrstohdtlas ejssogj, lmpjiuccy staeucotahg bmhvjrsotamh mh tlj tmpab. Mur wlmcj Rmbajty, hmt kust “TljRmbajty,‑ boh mhcy fjbmej wlot at slmucd “Fj‑ (mr jvjh “fj‑) mhbj pjmpcj uhdjrstohd tlot caij losejohahg fjbousj at boh jhd, imr at as tljrjfy prjbamus, ohd tlot tlot Ejohahg, tlot Yocuj, as ah

pjmpcj. Tlj vjry iobt tlot lueohaty l os orasjh watlah ats rjocaty o bmepcjx `hmwh os “vocuj‑ as prmmi tlot lueohaty sjjs ah tlas rjocaty - smejwljrj fjtwjjh tlj brob`s ah tlj sadjwoc`s mr ocmhg

tlj jdgjs mi twacaglt wljrj tlj bcmuds orj emst sacvjr - “Rmejtlahg Emrj‑ tloh rjocaty‑s opporjhtdjotl ohd bloms. At as imr tlj so`j mi tlot Rmejtlahg wlabl jvjry sahgcj eoh, wmeoh, ohd blacdstravjs. At as Wlot ortasts sjj` tm ortabucotj upmh wlatj bohvosjs, ohd Wlot emtljrs lmpj tmàhdcj ahsadj mi tljar blacdrjh. Wlot A wmucd ca`j pjmpcj tm uhdjrsto hd as tlot tlj “RmejtlahgEmrj‑ ah qujstamh as Watlah tljar ijccmw eoh, ohd tlot tlj grjotjst cavjs orj tlmsj spjht stravahgtm rjocazj tlot Gcmramus ^mtjhtaoc ahtm trutl ah mrdjr tm lmpjiuccy mhj doy ‒ ot smej pmaht watlahtaej ohd spobj wljrj djotl rucjs - ejct occ tlas iahatj east ahtm Trutl. Zhatjd ah tlot bmeemhbousj, A tmm “rjb`mh wj eaglt fj surprasjd ot wlot wj jhd up oblajvahg.‑

“Tlj saghs mi trohsajhbj orj occ ormuhd us, watl gcaeejrs mi Jtjrhaty kust frjoàhg tlrmugl.‑ Tlasas vjry truj, ohd watlmut tlas trohsajhbj, wj wmucd lovj hm mrajhtotamh tm uhdjrstohd tlj“gcaeejrs mi Jtjrhaty,‑ os mhj wlm stohds ah dor`hjss imr occ taej rjbmghazjs hmt tlj gcaeejr mio suhrasj mii o djw drmp. A mitjh wasl tlot lueohaty wmucd to`j oh ahstoht ohd sjramuscy rjahvjhtlastmry watlah tljar eahds ofsjht mi Kjsus Blrast, mr ohy Rparatuoc Cohguogj imr tlot eottjr.Cobàhg tlot mrajhtotamh wlabl darjbts lueohaty tm cmm` tm o Rmejtlahg Emrj, A fjcajvj wj waccbmhbcudj vjry quab`cy tlot tlj lueohaty wlabl wj lovj bmej tm `hmw os “lueoh,‑ wmucd ahdjjdhm cmhgjr fj. Tlj “pjrsmh‑ rjquarjs Rmejtlahg Emrj; tlj pjrsmh rjquarjs o sjhsj mi “Yocuj,‑ osjhsj mi tlj “gcaeejrs mi Jtjrhaty kust frjoàhg tlrmugl‑ wlabl lueohaty trohscotjs ahtm tljariahatj sjhsjs os “vocuj.‑ Watlmut oh mrajhtotamh mi Yocuj, o Rmejtlahg tlot wj @hmw ohd tlot wjspjhd mur cavjs ortabucotahg ahtm smejtlahg wj uhdjrstohd, wj wmucd vjry suddjhcy iahd tljcavahg wotjr mi lueohaty bjosj ah ats rappcahg ohd icmwahg, ohd fjbmej stoghoht. Watlmut o Gcosstm jxpohd ahtm, lueohaty bjosjs tm fj. Watlmut tlmsj tlot stravj tm djiy tljar hoturoc sjciaslhjss,watlmut tlmsj tlot stravj tm djhy tljar gjhjtab, smbaoc, mr tjepmroc prasmhs tljy lovj “ioccjh‑ ahtm,lueohaty wmucd hmt fj lueoh - lueohaty wmucd to`j o guh, lmcd at up tm ats ljod, ohd fcmw tlj“lueoh‑ raglt mut mi atsjci ah tlj eadst mi o gcmramus lmrrmr. Fut at dmjsh‑t, losh‑t, ohd hjvjr wacc

‒ eoh wacc ocwoys “djhy tlj jhd mi eoh,‑ os Waccaoe Iouc`hjr soad ah las Hmfcj ^razjObbjptohbj Rpjjbl. Ohd at as imr tlj vjry iobt tlot lj dmjs, tlot eoh iahds vocuj ah pajbjs mi

popjr ohd dagatoc huefjrs bmepmsjd mi tlj vjry dor`hjss ohd bmcdhjss tlot as tlj wmrcd fjimrjus, tlot tljrj eust fj “Rmejtlahg Emrj‑ tm tlas rjocaty…tm tlas “sjci.‑ Blrast eust fj watlah Zs0mtlj rwasj “wj‑ wmucd lovj hjvjr fjjh ot occ…



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…A lovj fjguh rohtahg ogoah, imrgavj ej. Ai A gjt o blohbj Er. Ofmct, A wacc djiahatjcy gavj tlj fmm` ymu rjbjhtcy suggjstjd o cmm` ‒ tlot smuhds ca`j o iohtostab pcmt. A oe burrjhtcy wmr`ahg mho slmrt prmkjbt watl o grmup, stjeeahg irme oh adjo mi o wmrcd wljrj jvjry djotl tlot mbburs asbmhsjqujhbj mi eurdjr, ohd tlot mtljrwasj pjmpcj cavj imrjvjr. Tlot wmrcd as mur wmrcd, ohd hm

mhj los jvjr cjorhjd uhtac hmw mi tlas trutl (ohd tlot oh mrgohazotamh los fjjh bmeeattahg tljsjeurdjrs imr bjhturajs). Tloh` ymu imr tlj jeoac oddrjss, ohd A wacc cjt ymu `hmw ai ey oddrjssblohgjs. ^cjosj `jjp ej up tm dotj mh lmw ymur wmr` as gmahg, imr A oe vjry eubl o ioh mi ymurtmpab eotjraoc. A oe o strmhg fjcajvjr, fosjd mh tlj roht ofmvj, tlot jbmhmeabs, fjahg o tljmcmgyah ey mpahamh, bohhmt ahljrjhtcy sustoah atsjci mhbj tlj Rparatuoc mrajhtotamh mi o pjmpcj as cmst.Tlas as imr tlj soej ejtoplysaboc prahbapoc tlot eo`js o rjcagamh mpjrotj, as tlj soej prahbapcjtlot eo`js oh jbmhmey mpjrotj. Tlot prahbapoc as o sjhsj mi Yocuj ‒ jbmhmeabs as tlj rjcagamh migmd, Rparatuocaty as tlj rjcagamh mi Gmd.

At los fjjh oh lmhmr fjahg ah Rmbajty watl ymu, cjt ocmhj “Tlj Rmbajty.‑ Gm ah Grobj, ohd eoytlj Cmvj mi Blrast caglt tlj woy ymu orj gmahg, wlabl as ocwoys loci-o-stjp irme wljrj ymu orj

stohdahg.Gmd Fcjss,Zbbjccm



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Oh jxblohgj fjtwjjh bmerodjs mh tlj ^jh ohd Ah` Bmeeattjj.

Es. EF,Tlas eoyfj suddjh, ai ymu imrgmt, fut ymu orj stacc pcohhahg tm gavj o prjsjhtotamh tlas jvjhahg,bmrrjbt= A dad hmt sjht o rjeahdjr tlas wjj`, sm ai ymu imrgmt, pcjosj kust cjt ej `hmw.

Rahbjrjcy,Zbbjccm

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Er. Zbbjccm---

A dad rjejefjr, ohd wjht tm tlj locc, fut imuhd tlj otemspljrj sm daspcjosahg tlot A cjit smmhtljrjoitjr watlmut gavahg tlj prjsjhtotamh. A rjoccy ijjc ca j oh uhrjcaofcj pjrsmh ot tlas pmaht, futtlj locc cost haglt wos rjoccy ot ats wmrst, bmhsadjrahg tlot eohy hmtofcj ejefjrs (os wjcc osmtljrs A'd bmhsadjr opprjbaotavj mi catjrory wmr`) wjrj ofsjht tm prjporj imr tjsts. Es Brmglohwos hmt jvjh tljrj tm oppjoc tm- ohd A kust bmucdh't rjcy mh tlj ossjefcy tljh prjsjht tm ljjd ej.A dadh't woht tm spjhd : lmurs ogoah sattahg ah occ tlot roubmus, ohd ?4 eahutjs mi tlj brataqujr's

uhcaeatjd taej lod ocrjody jcopsjd os A sot tljrj ohd woatjd.

A ijjc A'vj ioacjd ymu. ohd A rjoccy oe smrry. rjoccy A oe. At's vjry saccy mi ej, fut A kust boh'tmiijr o prjsjhtotamh tm o grmup mi pjmpcj wlm saepcy dmh't borj- wlm stravj tm iahd iouct ohddjbmhstrubt tlj adjos mi mtljrs watlmut sjjàhg quocaty ah tljar mwh orguejhts- ohd wlm spjoìmr tlj so`j mi tlj smuhd. A'e tmm sjhsatavj A gujss, tm ras` fjahg sahbjrj ah o pcobj tlot dmjsh'twoht eubl mi at. at's tlot rmor, tlot roffcj-

ohywoy, tlj pmaht as, A wacc gavj tlj prjsjhtotamh jvjhtuoccy, A gujss, ot tlj raglt taej. Ai Es.Brmgloh as prjsjht, A wacc ot cjost lovj smejmhj tm oddrjss ohd dasbuss o taej tm gm, jtb.yjstjrdoy wos saepcy radabucmus. A wjht tljrj rjody, ohd cjit dasgustjd. A rjoccy oe vjry saccy.

Ogoah, A'e smrry, tljsj eaglt kust fj tlj wjo` jxbusjs mi o pjrsmh uhwaccahg tm ossjrt ljrsjci ahtlj Kjii Rmbajty-

A lmpj ymu orj dmahg wjcc, Er. Zbbjccm, ohd A lmpj ymu orjh't tmm dasoppmahtjd. Ohd A cmmìmrword tm "grodahg" smej prmfaj prjsjhtotamhs smmh... ohd A lmpj ymu orjh't tmm fusy. ohd Almpj ymu orj scjjpahg smej ot cjost, fjbousj scjjp ash't oh jhtarj wostj mi taej. ohd A lmpj occ aswjcc ah tlot wmhdjrcohd wlabl A aeogahj ymu ahlofat, ohd A vasat smejtaejs. Ohd A sjje tm fjvasatahg emrj mitjh tlj emrj Jhgcasl ohd Vjcagamus Rtudajs bcossjs A to`j. ymu `hmw wlot Aejoh. At's tlot wmhdjrcohd mi rjocaty tlot eo`js ymu rjocazj tlas rjoc wmrcd as rjoccy kust ohaccusamh, fut ymu boh iahd trobjs mi tlot grjotjr fjahg ah tlj pjmpcj ymu ejjt ohd tlj smhgs ymusahg ohd tlj suhsjts ymu bopturj. ymu dm `hmw. tlot's tlj rjoc rjoc wmrcd.



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Tloh`s,EF

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Es. EF,

Tljrj as ofsmcutjcy hmtlahg tm opmcmgazj imr. A dad hmt slmw up tm tlj Locc uhtac ?>;>>, ohd ot?>;>:, A cjit watl [aeejrh tm lovj oh ahtjccagjht bmhvjrsotamh jcsjwljrj. A dad hmt rjturh uhtac atwos ocemst mvjr ot 2. At wos uttjrcy dasgustahg. Qmu lovj hmt ioacjd ej. Qmu slmucd hmt spjhdymur taej miijrahg ymur wmr` tm pjmpcj wlm dm hmt `hmw wlot wmr` as.

Tlj prmfcje as tlot “ tlas ‑ as wlot wj orj iagltahg ogoahst. Tljrj los fjjh o djgjhjrotamh ah tljLocc mvjr tlj cost bmupcj mi sjejstjrs hmw. Qmu dm hmt `hmw tlje, A dm hmt tlah` ot cjost, futeohy “slahahg stors‑ mi tlj Locc hm cmhgjr bmej mh Iradoys, bmhsjqujhbj mi tlj hmtjd dasgus t. A

eysjci oe vjry bcmsj tm hjvjr gmahg ogoah. Lmwjvjr, A wacc try, imr mhj emrj sjejstjr ot cjost, tmiaglt. A oe uhsurj ai A wacc jvjr to`j oh jxjbutavj pmsatamh ogoah. Tlj prmspjbt mi brjotahg osjporotj, catjrory bjcc mi tlj Rmbajty fjbmejs emrj ohd emrj oppjocahg jvjry doy. A rjstroaheysjci irme eo`ahg oh miiabaoc djbcorotamh mi tlot hoturj tlmugl, fjbousj A oe mitjh tmcd fysacjht ejefjrs mi tlj Locc, “A rjoccy opprjbaotj wlot ymu orj dmahg watl catjroturj.‑ A stacc fjcajvjtlj eokmraty mi tlj Rmbajty uhdjrstohds. Tljy eust cjoh tm spjo`. Mhcy wmrds iacc smuhds.

Ai ymu wmucd ca`j tm gavj tlj prjsjhtotamh tlas bmeahg Iradoy, tljrj as o spobj mpjh. Dm hmt ijjcmfcagotjd. Ohd smmh, tljrj slocc fj prjsjhtotamhs tm grodj. Ohd yjs Es. Irjhzj, A dm `hmw ofmutRmejtlahg Emrj.

...ah rjocaty, ah tlas wmrcd, At as tlj mhcy Tlahg tlot a @hmw.

Ljrj as o smhg ohd o stmry imr ymu. Jhkmy wljh ymu lovj o blohbj.

Rahbjrjcy,Zbbjccm

Ottobljd ‒ “ cjosj D mh‑t Gm‑ ep2 Ottobljd ‒ “Tlj Vjosmh ‑



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Tljy sat, typahg fob` ohd imrtl jeoacs. Tljy soy pjtty tlahgs tm mhj ohmtljr, hmtlahg miohy rjoc sufstohbj. Rlj os`s lae lmw tm dm prmfcje imur. Lj os`s ljr lmw tm spjcc tlj

prmijssmr‑s hoej. Mhj jeoac o doy, eoyfj o wjj`. Tljy dmh‑t sjj jobl mtljr tloh tlrmug l tljwmrcds mh o `jyfmord. Rlj ohd lj ljsatotj tm sjhd jobl mtljr o cjttjr…oiroad mi…smejtlahgcmud. Tljy spjhd grjot taej puttahg tmgjtljr kust iavj mr sax wmrds. Lj rjods ljr jeoacs. Rljrjods las. Tljy emvj mh.

Fmtl àss tljar iahgjrs, ohd pcobj tlj àss mh tlj sbrjjh.Fut wj dmh‑t `hmw at. Rlj bohhmt sjj ey iahgjrs, ohd A bohhmt sjj ljrs. Tljrj as o

sjporotamh fjtwjjh us. Tlot‑s tlj prmfcje. Tlot‑s wlot wj iaglt ogoahst. Tlj vjry trutl tlottjblhmcmgajs, pmtjhtaocs watlah lueohs tlot orj rjocazjd irme mut mi lae mr ljr, mitjh ohd ocwoysbmhtrafutj tm tlj bmhhjbt-ofacaty mi lueohaty as jvadjhbj mi o sbrjoeahg ohd yjorhahg Rmejtlahgahsadj mi us tlot djsarjs tm fj Mhj imr tlj iarst taej mr ogoah ‒ jatljr as tlj soej tm us.Tjblhmcmgy as o hjutroc tlot lueohs eo`j gmmd mr jvac. At wmr`s watl Cmvj tm ljcp lueohaty

rjocazj tlj Gmd Watlah Lae… Tljrj A gm rohtahg ogoah. Dm A dm ohytlahg jcsj= A ejt o blacd wlm ocwoys toc`jd ofmutlmw lj wos gmahg tm daj…irme bmcd oar, irme roah, irme sab`hjss, irme suhcaglt…La s hoej wosRusjk, ohd lj kust toc`jd ofmut lmw jvjrymhj as gmahg tm daj. Oitjr ejjtahg lae, tm prmvj o pmaht,A‑e tjeptjd hmt tm dm at.

A oe sm tarjd mi occ tlas tlahàhg. Bmhvjrsotamh oitjr bmhvjrsotamh. Tlmuglt oitjr tlmuglt.At‑s tmm eubl. Hm mhj wmucd rjod tlas stmry. At‑s tmm mvjrwljceahg. Tljrj‑s tmm eublahimreotamh. Qjt A wratj at ohywoy, ohd `hmw tlot bratabs wacc soy tlot, ohd `hmw tlot djspatj tljiobt tlot A oddrjss ey `hmwcjdgj tlot bratabs wacc miijr tlas suggjstamh, bratabs wacc stacc miijr tlassuggjstamh, ohd sm mh, ohd sm mh…tlus prmvahg ey pcaglt. A oe stub` ah tlas stmry. A woht tmwratj o daiijrjht mhj. A woht tm wratj o daiijrjht stmry boccjd Tlj Rwmrd mi Trafucotamh. Fut A lovjtm wratj tlas mhj. Ohd hm mhj as gmahg tm uhdjrstohd at. Ohd jvjh ah oddrjssahg tlot trutl, at wacceo`j hm daiijrjhbj. A oe bursjd, ohd lueohaty as bursjd ‒ tlj jxastjhbj mi tlas fmm` ocmhj as

prmmi jhmugl.A kust woht tm cjovj tlas djod, bmmcahg wmrcd.A bohhmt cmvj watlmut eoàhg ey irajhds upsjt. A gjt djprjssjd. A ioac ot jvjrytlahg.A kust woht gm… A‑e ocwoys wocàhg oaecjsscy. A‑e ocwoys wmràhg. A‑e kust o fmtljr tm tlj pjmpcj

ormuhd ej.A kust woht tm iodj owoy… Gmd dajd mh o brmss fjtwjjh twm braeahocs. Lj dajd ah o bmeeuhaty fjsadj o gmmd eoh,

ohd o fod eoh, fjbousj tlj wjjds ohd brmps eust grmw tmgjtljr. Tljy eust hmt fj sjporotjduhtac lorvjst, mtljrwasj tlj brmps wacc daj. Fut A‑e hmt Gmd. A‑e hmt strmhg jhmugl…

Kust iodj owoy…–^mppo…― A soy os wj orj sattahg mh tlj pmrbl jotahg wotjrejcmh. –Qjs ey smh=― lj wlaspjrs ah owj. A pmaht tm tlj stors, –Wljrj orj tljy=― –Hmt ljrj.― –Tljh Wljrj=―



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–Tljrj.― Lj soys, pmahtahg up. Fut A `hmw tlot lj‑s hmt kust pmahtahg up. A kust boh‑t sjj ohyemrj mi Tlot. A wasl A bmucd.–Hjvjr imrgjt Tlot.― Lj soys, ohd tljh eo`js o emtamh tm tlj fjoutaiuc iorecohd tlot surrmuhdsus. Tlj bmws orj grozahg ah tlj iajcds,–Rm hjvjr imrgjt tlas.―

A imrgmt ^mppo, A imrgmt.A wjht tm Grohdemtljr‑s rmme ohd imuhd “tloh` ymu‑ bordsstuiijd ah ljr Fafcj. Tljrj wos o corgj bmccjbtamh mi tlje irme mvjr tlj yjors. Tljy wjrj irmeey bmusahs, ey frmtljrs…fut hmhj irme ej, fjbousj A dadh‑t wratj ohy, fjbousj A dadh‑t tlah`tljy eottjrjd. A dadh‑t tlah` tlot slj wmucd borj.

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Tlj Ohgjc JuhmaoA

Tl-r- -s --t - ----t--h-y--r--cd-g-rc -t ey d--r. Tl-h tl-r- as. Tlas hahjtjjh-yjor-mcd-garc bohhm cmhgjr suppmrt ljr twm-yjor mcd dougltjr. Rlj wos eorrajd tm oh jvac eoh, imrbjd fy ljr porjhts, ohd stortjd bryahg os slj dohbjd mh ljr wjddahg doy fjbousj slj dadh‑t woht tm eorrylae. Rlj wohtjd tm eorry ljr fjst irajhd. Ljr jvac lusfohd cjit ljr o emhtl cotjr, oitjr slj wosgmahg tm fj o emtljr. Ljr fjst-irajhd wos djod.

Rlj fjboej o prmstatutj imr ljr dougltjr‑s so`j. Rlj as wjjpahg ahtm ey lohds. Wly= Ljrhoej as Juhmao, wlabl ejohs fjoutaiuc tlah`ahg. Ocmhg tlj woy, mhj mi ljr bcajhts trab`jd ljrahtm to`ahg bmboahj. Rlj as oddabtjd hmw, ohd los tm iaglt tlot oddabtamh sm tlot tlj emhjy sljjorhs as hmt jotjh up fy tlot ahstjod mi `jjpahg ljr dougltjr ijd. Ljr oddabtamh bmefots watl ljr

pmvjrty.O bmboahj ohgjc wjjps.

A botbl ljr tjors.Ohd bcmsj tlj dmmr. Wj bohhmt ljcp ljr. Rlo`jrs orj hmt occmwjd tm rjobl mut tm tlmsjuhbcjoh. Mhcy vargahs orj rjoblofcj.

Iavj yjors poss. Tlj bmboahj ohgjc rjturhs. Rlj as hmw twjhty-imur. Ljr dougltjr imuhdmut slj wos o prmstatutj, ohd roh owoy ah dasgust fjimrj tlj bmboahj ohgjc bmucd tjcc ljr tljrjosmhs wly. Tlj dougltjr roh owoy fjimrj tlj emtljr bmucd tjcc ljr tlot at wos occ imr ljr.Juhmao wjjps ahtm ey lohds ogoah. A ijjc tljsj tjors. Tljy orj tlj tjors mi o blacd…tljsj tjorsscap ah ohd mut mi tlj brob`s mi ey poce. Rlj wjjps. Rlj fjgs ej imr ljcp, ohd A os` ai slj lod

fjjh tm sjj o blurbl. Rlj cmm`s ot ej watl stortcjd jyjs.–Wly wmucd A gm tm o pcobj wljrj tljy wmucd eo`j ej ijjc wmrsj=―

A swoccmw o cuep ah ey tlrmot.A pucc ljr ahsadj.Ohd bcmsj tlj dmmr.

A odmpt Juhmao os ey mhj ohd mhcy dougltjr. Tlj wmeoh ah tlj rmme fjlahd tlj wocc fjtwjjh us dmjs hmt `hmw.

Tlj wmeoh boh hjvjr `hmw oh uhbcjoh garc as oeadst tlj Rlo`jrs.

AATlj uctaeotj fottcj mi cmvj as djijotahg ymur pjrbjptamh mi smejmhj ah mrdjr tm tmubl tljar

ljort. Wj eust wmhdjr ai tlas as jvjh pmssafcj. Boh wj djijot tlj ejtoplysaboc ravjr mi tlmugltstlot djiahjs us, tlot eo`js occ, ohd tlot brjotjs tlj wmrcd= Boh wj fjot tlj wmrcd= Tlj rjcagamussbrjoe yjs0 tlj oghmstab slrug, ohd tlj otljasts `jjp quajtcy tm tljesjcvjs…

Wj orj o pjmpcj mi dohbahg.Tlj yjor as vjry mcd. Tljrj orj sax cjit mi us. Wj orj tlj cost rjehohts mi tlj ohbajht

Rlo`jr bmeeuhaty. Wj probtabj strabt bjcafoby. Tlj ejh cavj uttjrcy sjporotj irme tlj wmejh.Tlj wmejh ohd ejh cavj ah tlj soej lmusj, fut ah sjporotj bmeportejhts. Tljrj orj hmlusfohds ohd wavjs mr fcmmd-cah`jd blacdrjh, fut tljrj orj ioeacajs tlot cavj mh tlj mtljr sadj miwoccs. Wj odmpt eohy blacdrjh…wjcc…wj dad. At wos tlj mhcy woy tm `jjp mur bavacazotamhoicmot, sahbj wj dad hmt fjcajvj ah rjprmdubtamh. Hm mhj wohts tm fj odmptjd fy us ohyemrj. Rm



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mur bavacazotamh los iodjd. Imur mi tlj sax rjeoahahg orj mvjr iaity, ohd tlj mtljr twm orj kust mvjrtlarty. A‑e tlarty -mhj.

A blmmsj tm fj ljrj.Tlrjj mi tlj sax orj ejh, tlrjj orj wmejh. Twm orj Oiraboh-Oejrabohs0 imur orj wlatj.

Vobj ohd gjhdjr ejohs hmtlahg ljrj. Hjvjr los. ^mwjr los ocwoys fjjh jquoc fjtwjjh tlj

gjhdjrs ohd robjs. Wmejh ohd fcob`s lovj ocwoys fjjh kust os pmwjriuc os tlj wlatj eocj. Jvjrsahbj wj wjrj imuhdjd luhdrjds mi yjors ogm, tlas los fjjh tlj bosj. Ah jquoc raglts, wj lovj fjjh ior oljod mi tlj burvj.

A ahtrmdubj tlj bmboahj ohgjc tm jvjrymhj. A lod ljr bcjohjd up. Rlj cmm`s vjry prjttyhmw. Ljr hoej as Juhmao…A tjcc tlje…slj as ey odmptjd dougltjr. Jvjrymhj as loppy. Tljygrjjt ljr ( Juhmao; tljy grjjt ej watl o loppy fyj, usljrahg ej ahsadj.) At los fjjh o cmhg taejsahbj wj lod o hjw odmptjj. Mur bavacazotamh los sjvjh pjmpcj ah at hmw.

Ey dougltjr Juhmao as mhcy sjvjh-yjors ymuhgjr tloh ej.Wj dohbj. Wj cmvj tm dohbj. Tlot as wlot tlj hoej “Rlo`jr‑ bmejs irme. Wj dohbj tm

tlj Flogovod-Gato. A os` Juhmao ai tljrj as ohytlahg slj hjjds,–Hjjd= Qmu lovj slmwh ej tlj cmvj mi Blrast. Tljrj as hmtlahg jcsj A hjjd.―

AAAJuhmao as vjry sab`. A hjjd tm gjt ljr tm tlj lmspatoc Laeejc tm sovj ljr. A wacc hjjd tlj

ljcp mi tlj vaccogj. Fut tljy lovj cjorhjd slj as hmt o vargah. Rlj wos gavahg ljr tjstoejht, ohdtmcd tlje mi lmw slj boej tm cmvj Blrast. Tljy wjrj slmb`jd. Tljy woht ljr gmhj. Qjt tljy wacchmt ljcp ej to`j ljr tm tlj lmspatoc, ohd A dm hmt lovj tlj ejohs tm gjt ljr tljrj. Rlj wacc daj.Fut A dmh‑t wmrry. Ai at‑s fy Kjsus‑ djotl wj wjrj eodj Blrastaohs, wmucd at hmt eo`j sahbj tlottlj djotl mi Blrastaohs wmucd frahgs ofmut tlj Rocvotamh mi occ= Ohd tlus Hjw Kjrusocje wacc fjrjocazjd. Vjvjcotamh as tlot brubaiaxamh… ( Juhmao; A boh‑t daj, hmt yjt. A hjjd tm sjj ey dougltjr. A hjjd tm eo`j surj slj as m`oy.)

Tlj vaccogjrs soy slj boh stoy ai slj puraiajs ljr sparat. Rlj eust tlrmw ljrsjci ahtm o fmhiarj. A soy tlot wacc `acc ljr. Tljy ogrjj. A fjg tlje tm cjt Juhmao stoy. Tljy soy slj los tm gmtlrmugl o ratuoc tm puraiy ljrsjci. A soy tlj ratuoc as Ejohahgcjss. Tljy soy at ejohs cmts tm tlje. Asoy tlot‑s ejohahgcjss. Tljy cougl.

A tjcc Juhmao wlot tljy woht ljr tm dm. Rlj tjccs ej slj wacc eo`j o iuhjroc pyrj, ohd cjopah. Rlj `hmws slj los fjjh ah tlj prj sjhbj mi tlj jhjey‑s lmej. Rlj os`s ai tlj vaccogj wacc fj

kuepahg ah watl ljr. A tjcc ljr hm.Juhmao fuacds o iuhjroc pyrj, ohd cjops ahtm tlj iarj watl tlj jhtarj vaccogj wotblahg. Os

slj as furhahg ocavj, slj sbrjoes ot tlj vaccogjrs, boccahg tlje o hoej,–Voeo! Los Rato prmvjd ljr puraty hmw=―

Juhmao dajs. Mvjr tlj hjxt tlrjj doys, tlj r-st mi tlj v-cc-g-rs b-tbl o s-b`--ss t--, - d-ii-r--t --- ir-e wl-t ------ l-d, --d ‒ v-ry--- d--s. - i--c ey -res r-tt--g -ii. ‒ i--c s-b` --w (--w K-r-s-c-e -s--gl).

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A cjit tlj caglts mh ah ^mppo‑s mcd lmusj, ohd cjit. A wosh‑t poyahg ottjhtamh, ohd tlas as tlj

àhd mi stuii tlot bousjs mcd lmusjs tm furh dmwh. A wos bouglt up ah ey eahd, puccahg ahvasafcjslopjs mut mi tlj oar, sjorblahg imr ortabucotamhs mi Trutl, bouglt up ah tlj ljovy wjaglt mi wlot Adm. Wljh A rjturhjd tlot jvjhahg, ^mppo yjccjd ot ej imr imrgjttahg tm turh mii tlj caglts. Ohd imrsmej rjosmh, A frm`j dmwh ohd tmcd lae jvjrytlahg ‒ A tmcd lae ofmut ey djstahy tm fj o wratjr,

fjbousj A lod tm, A tmcd lae ofmut lmw tlj fjgahhahg mr jhd mi tlj wmrcd as ah ey lohds, A tmcdlae ofmut jvjrytlahg A dad ohd wos dmahg. A brajd lord. Rmejwljrj ah tlj eadst mi tlot frjoàhgohd roefcahg, lj soad tlrmugl tlj dor`hjss.–A fjcajvj ymu.―

Tlot bmhiarejd jvjrytlahg. Tlot eodj at o dmhj djoc, pjr sj. A wos puraiajd. ^mppo lodioatl tm dasbapcahj wljh lj hjjdjd tm, ohd tlot sjt ej stroaglt. Imr o emejht A wos oiroad hmwtlot A wmucd jhd up ioacahg, fut tljh rjocazjd A wos fjahg oiroad, ohd stmppjd. Oitjr A iahasljd

bryahg, A stjppjd mut mi tlj trub`, ohd lj drmvj owoy. A bmccopsjd. Wjjpahg, frm`jh, A fjgohslmutahg tm tlj Ofmvj Ràjs ah tmhgujs ohd wmrds A dad hmt `hmw. Fjbousj tlj wmrds wjrj fjsadj tlj pmaht ‒ wlot eottjrs wos tlj ^maht A wos tryahg tm tmubl.–A cmvj Qmu!― A slmutjd tm ey djor Iácabatá, –A kust woht tm fj watl Qmu!―

At wos tljh tlot, mhj ot o taej, A ljord tlj roahdrmps ioccahg ahtm tlj cjovjs ohd ahtm tljtrjjs. O wlaspjr ijcc mut mi ey caps,–Tlj Trutl as ah tlj roah…―

A imuhd eysjci ho`jd, coyahg mh tlj povjejht, ah tlj roah.Frm`jh ohd fjoutaiuc, A ijct tlj roah fjgah tm pottjr obrmss ey icjsl. A wlaspjrjd pmjtry;

–Tjcc ej wlot tlj roah `hmws…subl saepcj drmps mi ljovjh.Qmu‑vj bmej ohd gmhj sahbj doys fjgoh ohd fjjh ljrj sahbj tlj dowh mi eoh.Bjcjstaoc gcaeejr, ymu ocwoys fjor,os ai stors tlot wjrj stmcjh, ohd dasbordjd watlmut borj.

Tjcc ej wlot tlj roah `hmws… wlot sjbrjts dm ymu `jjp=Rlaeejrahg upmh icmwjr‑s jdgj, surjcy ymur sjbrjts dm tjhd tm sjjp=Irme baty occjys, tm imrso`jh voccjys,Tjcc ej…wlot trutls dm ymu hmt bmpj=―

Ruddjhcy at wos ossurjd. Ruddjhcy A wos djstahjd tm fj ljrj, watl ymu, ah tlas emejht,cmhg ogm. Tlj fcjssahg wos sjburjd. A `hjw A lod aeejdaotjcy djijotjd occ ey sahs ohdoddabtamhs. A ormsj, drjssjd, ohd sow o ioaht caglt ah tlj dastohbj watl o traohgcj mi barbcjs. Ey^mppo lod fjjh oh ohgjc hmt bmhbjrhjd ot occ fy tlj faggjr pabturjs, fjbousj lj lod fjjh smbmhbjrhjd watl tlj fjoutaiuc blacdrjh raglt ah irmht mi lae, ohd fjbousj mi tlas ohgjc, at govj ejtlj bmhiadjhbj tm icahg eysjci ahtm o caij smcjcy djvmtjd tm tlj iucc pabturj.



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Jtjrhoc Vjstahg ^cobj

Mhj doy, eoyfj jvjry doy fjbousj ah Taej jvjrytlahg as ah post-tjhsj, o wotbl tlotstmppjd wmr`ahg ot tlj jxobt taej o eoh dajd imuhd atsjci sattahg mh o djs` hjxt tm o pjhducuetlot lod ioccjh mii ats fosj. Tlj pjhducue cajd ot rjst hjxt tm tlj wotbl.–Wly dad wj daj=― tlj wotbl os`s tlj pjhducue. –A dmh‑t `hmw. Wj slmucd gm os` tlj Mbjoh0 At los fjjh ormuhd imrjvjr. At wmucd `hmw.― –Tlj Mbjoh wacc hjvjr toc` tm us!― –At wacc mhbj tlj Tadjs stmp rmccahg up mhtm tlj fjobl. Tljh At wacc lovj Taej ohd fj ofcj toc` tmus. Wj‑cc gm tm tlj slmrj ohd woat.―

Rm, tlj pjhducue ohd tlj wotbl woc`jd tm tlj fjobl. At tmm` tlje o vjry cmhg taej, futmhbj tljy gmt tljrj, at ijct ca`j hm taej ot occ. Tlj sohds wjrj wlatj. Tljrj wjrj hm djtoacs

fjymhd tlj wlatj fcoh`hjss.

Occ ormuhd, tljrj as o smit sacjhbj.Tljrj as hm mhj jcsj mh tlj fjobl fut tlje…Jvjhtuoccy, tlmugl at to`js lae wlot ijjcsca`j o caijtaej, tlj dum rjobljs tlj Mbjoh. Tljy bmej tm stohd fjimrj at…Tlj Mbjoh as stacc mtljrtloh wljrj at rappcjs ohd rmccs ahtm tlj jhd mi tlj jortl. Tlj imoe robjs mvjr tlj wotbl ohd

pjhducue. Tljy woat imr tlj Mbjoh tm stmp rmccahg mvjr tlj fjobl. Tljy woat imr tlj Mbjoh tmstmp rmccahg mvjr tlj fjobl. Tljy woat imr tlj Mbjoh tm stmp rmccahg mvjr tlj fjobl. Tljy woat imrtlj Mbjoh/mbjoh…tljy woat imr tlj mbjoh…tljy woat...Oitjr woatahg imr sm cmhg, tlj wotbl ohdtlj pjhducue fjbmej fmostiuc ohd prmud imr smej rjosmh, ohd bmhiadjhtaoccy djbcorj watleaglty gocj,



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Grobj as rjodahg o slmrt- stmry boccjd “Tlj Ohgjc Juhmao.‑ Rlj as rjodahg at irme mii ocoptmp. Rlj as hmt rjodahg at irme mut mi ljr raglt lohd; slj as hmt lmcdahg at ah ljr lohd. At as

davadjd irme ljr.Rlj wratjs smej suggjstamhs ot tlj jhd mi tlj dmbuejht…

Tlj stmry as sm sod! Yjry daiijrjht, tlmugl0 vjry tlmuglt-prmvm`ahg. Ljrj orj o ijw pmahts;

Wly as slj boccjd --------- = A gotljrjd at wos fjbousj pjmpcj ossuej slj bohhmt –ijjc― ah ohywoy — plysaboc mr jemtamhoc0 as tljrj smejlmw ymu boh frahg tlas mut, eo`j tlj rjodjr bmhhjbtwatl ymur pmaht emrj= Ocsm, wly tlj lypjr-oworjhjss mi ljr Frmtljr (wlmsj `assjs slj boh–ijjc―) fut hmhj mi ljr (ah tlj jhd, ofsjht) emtljr= Orj wj tm gotljr tlot jvjh fjimrj ljr djotltlj Frmtljr wos o gmdcy mr sparatuoc bmhhjbtamh ohd hmt o plysaboc pjrsmh ah ljr asmcotjd caij=

Rmej mi tlj tjblhaboc occusamhs fmggjd tlj obtamh dmwh imr ej0 A‑e hmt ioeacaor watl…Vmwahdjvabj, ohd wlacj tm o bjrtoah jxtjht ymur stmry dmjsh‑t djpjhd mh mur uhdjrstohdahg mi tlj jxobtejblohase mr purpmsj mi tlj djvabj, ymur obtamh ot tlj jhd dmjs sjje tm lahgj mh wlot tlastjblhmcmgy ejoht mr dadh‑t ejoh. Tlj jhdahg wacc fj emrj subbjssiuc ohd jemtavj, A tlah`, aiymu‑rj ofcj tm bmhvjy fjttjr wly ymu blmsj tm tjcc tlas stmry ohd wly ymu blmsj tm tjcc at ah tljwoy ymu dm, ahbcudahg tljsj tjblhaboc djtoacs.

A sow smej bmhtahuaty fjtwjjh tljejs ah tljsj twm stmrajs; assujs mi bmeeuhabotamh0 tlj uh-`hmw-ofacaty mi mhj pjrsmh‑s ahtjramr stotj irme ohmtljr‑s0 bmeemh emtais surrmuhdahg tljejohahg mi mur lohds os woys mi bmeeuhabotahg ohd jxprjssahg mur ahhjr stotjs, jtb. Fut wlydm ymu sm catjroccy sjvjr tlj garc‑s lohd ljrj= Tlas as aepmrtoht0 ymu djhy ljr vjrysystjeotaboccy mi ohy bmeemh grmuhd watl tlj rjodjr. Rlj as eutj, djoi, uhofcj tm ijjc0 sljjvjh cmsjs ljr iahgjrs, suiijrahg o cmss mi oppjhdogj. Wly ohd lmw dmjs tlas sjrvj ymuructaeotj pmaht= Tlj droeo ot tlj jhd as tljrjimrj pjrlops tmm ljovy- lohdjd0 …— bmejs obrmsso garc tlmuglt mi os o irjo`, fut wlm sjjes tm stra`j lae os o (fcmmdy) ohgjc0 tlj aeogj wos ocattcj eobofrj imr ej tm bmhhjbt watl.

Emrjmvjr, kust wly tlj `haij= Wly wos at cyahg mut tm but ljr= Wljrj dad at bmej irme= As atemrj tloh kust o prmp imr ymur ejtoplmr= A woht tm `hmw ofmut tlj catjroc spobj tlj tlaji sjjs, Awoht tm bmhhjbt watl tlj `haij ai A boh‑t bmhhjbt ah smej sjhsj watl ljr.

A oe vjry ahtragujd fy tlj bmhbjpt ljrj, tlmugl, ohd tlah` o cmt bmucd fj dmhj watl tlas — eoyfjat hjjds o cattcj emrj spobj tm jxpcmrj ats tljejs…

A‑d ca`j tm sjj emrj mh wly ymu imbus mh blorobtjrs wlm struggcj tm b meeuhabotj — ai mhcy fjbousj wratahg as subl oh lmhjst obt, djeohdahg subl pjrijbt bmeeuhabotamh ohd o rjocwaccahghjss tm fj vuchjrofcj. Lmw dm ymu bmhhjbt tm tlj blorobtjrs= — ohd lmw dm ymu wohtymur rjodjr tm bmhhjbt tm tlje= Ah tlj soej woy= Ah o emrj sjci-rjicjbtavj ioslamh=

…ohd jeoacs tlje tm tlj wratjr.



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Grobj seacjs ot fmtl mi tlje.–Tlj Jcjejht as imr tlj ortast tm to`j borj mi, ohd tlj kmf mi tlj fusahjsseoh as tm brjotj osustoahofcj jhvarmhejht mi survavoc, mr fmdy. Tlj eust dm tljar rmcjs oport sm tlot tljy dm hmt

fcur ohd fjbmej cmst ah tlj hmasj, ohd tljy eust dm tljar rmcjs watl supjrcotavj jiiabajhby.―Grobj sjjs rjvjcotamh uhvjacahg atsjci fjimrj tlj twm,

–Tlj fusahjsseoh prmvadjs oh jepty -sljcc imr tlj ortast tm iacc. Watlmut jobl mtljr, fmtl obtamhsorj ejohahgcjss…Ejohahg, wlabl as tlj soej tlahg os Lmpj, as ioslamhjd tlrmugl tlj lueoh -Jcjejht oitjr occ…―

Tlj fusahjsseoh ohd tlj ortast uhdjrstohd, o hd slo`j jobl mtljr‑s lohds. Tljy hmw lovjo bmhbjpt mi bmrrjspmhdahg ohd bmrpmrotavj Yocuj tlot boh sovj tlj wmrcd.

Cotjr tlot jvjhahg, Grobj sats dmwh tm wratj o slmrt stmry imr ljr brjotavj wratahg bcoss.Rlj mpjhs tlj wahdmw ohd ijjcs tlj sueejr wahd iocc obrmss ljr sàh ca`j smit, sac`, sljjts. Rljwratjs…

Tljrj, lj sats, tocàhg tm {ljr} imr lmurs, jvjh tlmugl slj dmjsh‑t soy ohytlahg. Rlj aslmcdahg o slmrt-stmry ah ljr raglt lohd ofmut oh ohgjc…

Tlj rjd-loarjd tjobljr, sattahg mutsadj ohd eoàhg surj ljr bcoss as mòy os tljy pcoy,mitjh iahds ljrsjci wotblahg tlj dum, hmt soyahg ohytlahg os slj to`js ah tlj sbjhj mi o seocc fmyobtahg mut sbjhjs irme las stmrajs tm o garc wlm oppjors tm dm hmtlahg fut scjjp.

…ofmut tlj Jcjejht slj wohts lueo hs tm rjod...



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A fjcajvj A eaglt blmmsj tlj pjmpcj A toc` tm fosjd mh wlm A fjcajvj boh ljcp ej uhrovjctlj trutls/eystjrajs mi tlas caij.

Rm wlot mi tljsj pjmpcj A boh mvjrljor os A sacjhtcy sat fy tlj wahdmw ohd jhkmy tlj woreijjcahg mi o bmiijj bup ogoahst ey icjsl=–A scjpt watl ljr.― –Lmw wos at=― –Hmtlahg spjbaoc0 cost wjj`jhd wos fjttjr watl tlot rjd -ljodjd blab`.―

Twm guys ohd twm garcs orj tocàhg tm mhj ohmtljr ormuhd o iarjpcobj mh tlj uppjr icmmr mio bmiijj slmp. Tljy orj bosuoccy strjtbljd mvjr twm bmubljs ohd cmm` ca`j emdjcs imr tlj adjocbmccjgj bcmtlahg stmrj.–A wos sm wostjd.― –Tlot porty wos o fcost.― –Qjs, A dmh‑t rjejefjr ohytlahg.―

A oe kudgahg tljsj pjmpcj os A castjh tm tlje. Tljy orj jvac. A wos tmcd ey jhtarj caij tlotat as wrmhg tm kudgj. A ijjc guacty imr kudgahg tlje, jvjh tlmugl A dm sm uhbmhsbamuscy. Lmwjvjrey emrocs orj ey jhgahj ohd ohy obtamh wlabl eo`js ej ijjc guacty imr lovahg emrocs ohd imrtlahàhg laglcy mi tlje, as sjci-djstrubtavj. Rurjcy at as o ljccasl jvac tm prmpmsj suabadj os oh obtmi gmmd ejrat= Ai A wjrj tm obbjpt tlas ejrat, dmjs tlot hmt ejoh tlot wlm rjeoahs as - =–A ca`j gmahg tm o porty watlmut lovahg tm wmrry ofmut ohytlahg, ohd kust emvahg mh. Hmbmhhjbtamhs, hm ottoblejhts…kust iahd smejmhj tm lmm` up watl, ohd gm. Tlot‑s occ jatljr mi uswlot ohywoys.― –Tlot‑s wlot eo`js at o porty, raglt=― –Jvjh fjttjr…hm tocàhg mr fuccslattahg, kust gmahg stroaglt imr tlj gmcd0 mhcy iucc -spjjd, ymu`hmw=―

Tljy cougl. Ey coptmp as mpjh, ohd mvjr tlj wjj`jhds A ca`j tm sat ljrj fy tlj wahdmw,sap mh bmiijj, ohd lmpj tlot A ljor tlj wahd. A lotj at wljh at smuhds ca`j tlas.

A rjejefjr wljh A wos o blacd A mhbj puccjd tlj ljod mii o icmwjr. A wos rjoccy sborjdtlot A lod puccjd mii ey emtljr‑s ljod, fut cubàcy, mr sm A iagurjd ah ey blacdasl cmgab, slj wostlj icmwjr hjxt tm at.

A wmhdjr wlot icmwjrs tljsj twm fostords pab`jd.–Tlj `jg stohd wos owjsmej!― –Qmur frmtljr `hmws lmw tm ruh o porty! Tlot‑s bmmc lj ahvatjs ymu jvjh tlmugl ymu‑rj stacc ahlagl sblmmc.― –Qjo...ai A kust `jjp frahgahg blab`s ca`j tlot djoi mhj, lj‑cc ocwoys fj loppy tm sjj ej.―

Tlj wmrcd los fjjh ahvodjd fy zmefajs. Djotl as rjcotavj tm tlj ahdavaduoc. ^jmpcj daj occtlj taej, ohd `jjp wocàhg ormuhd. ^jmpcj daj wljh tljy stmp slahhahg. Tlj wmrcd as iucc mizmefajs0 tlj djod as cavahg occ ormuhd us.

[mefajs orj tlj cavahg wlm dm hmt lovj vocujs.A oe stacc kudgahg tljsj pjmpcj. A wmh‑t opmcmgazj imr at, hmt tmhaglt wlacj A oe ohgry ohd

frovj. A wasl tljsj pjmpcj wjrj kust oh jxoggjrotamh ohd A wasl A kust loppjhjd tm fj ah tljwrmhg pcobj ot tlj wrmhg taej, fut A `hmw tlas as hmt tlj bosj. Tlas as o bmeemh bmhvjrsotamh ‒ tlj wmrcd as dyahg fjbousj ats bmhvjrsotamhs ohd jhkmyejhts swae watlah jepty syefmcs ‒ tljtrohsajhbj. Tlj ahtjht mi tlj eotjraoc wmrcd as hjvjr iaccahg. Mi bmursj at boh‑t fj. Tlj lueoh as



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hmt iaccjd watl tlj wmrcd. Tlj wmrcd as iaccjd watl tlj lueoh. Tlas saepcj swatbl swahgs tlj pjhducue mi taej irme caij tm djotl. Yocuj as hmt iaccjd watl tlj wmrcd. Tlj wmrcd as iaccjd watlvocuj. Tlj lueoh iaccs at, mr cjovjs at dry. Tlj lueoh rappcjs at, mr cjts at fjbmej stoghoht. Tljrjas hm ejohahg ah caij fjymhd tlj wacc tm obtavjcy ahsjrt ejohahg ahtm caij. Tlj Rparat as tlj jhjrgymi vocuj, tlj fmdy tlj bmppjrs warjs, ohd tlj wmrcd tlj caglt-fucf. Ai tlj warjs orj bmhhjbtjd

prmpjrcy, tljrj as caglt. Ai hmt, tljrj as hmtlahg, fjbousj wlotjvjr tljrj as bohhmt fj sjjh.–A wasl tlot fatbl wmucd stmp scjjpahg watl tlj prmijssmr. Rlj‑s sm prjppy, A wasl mhj doy sljwmucd gjt seob`jd.― –Rmej irot fmy wacc sbrjw ljr sm lord tlot at wacc put ljr ah cahj. Dmh‑t wmrry.―

Rjxuocaty as o plysaboc trohscotamh mi mhj‑s placmsmplaboc-tljmcmgy. At as oh jxprjssamh mi o pjrsmh‑s fjcaji ah tljar jxastjhbj, ohd t lj wmrcd. Ai o pjrsmh los hm vocuj, sjx as oh jepty syefmctlot, dastrouglt fy ats jeptahjss, pjmpcj iutacjcy sjj`, tjccahg tljesjcvjs mvjr ohd mvjr ogoah tlothjxt taej at wacc fj daiijrjht. Ca`jwasj ocbmlmc, drugs, pmpucoraty, bcmtlahg…hmhj mi tljsj tlah gsorj jvac0 tljy orj kust jepty sljccs ejoht tm fj iaccjd, os as occ bmhbjpt. Ai subl Houtacusjs orj cjitjepty, tljy frjjd djotl ohd imrhabotamh0 ai tljy orj iaccjd, tljy frjotlj caij. Imr jvac as ohofsjhbj mi caglt0 at as hmtlahghjss, ohd occ jxprjssamhs mi hmtlahghjss, rjgordcjss mi lmw brujc,

grohd, jxpjhsavj, bmhsadjrotj, mr “àhd‑ tljy eoy fj, orj stacc kust jepty emtamhs.Rjx watlmut ottoblejht as eosturfotamh.A sjj o garc tohhahg ah o fotlahg suat watl o tmwjc mvjr ljr iobj. Qmu boh kust sjj ljr fmdy.Wljh sjx as eosturfotamh, tlj wmrcd los jhdjd - placmsmply ohd Tljmcmgy lovj fjjh

davadjd, ca`j o fmdy irme Rparat/Yocuj, ohd sm lovj bmeeattjd suabadj.Tlj prmbjss mi tlot scmw eurdjr sab`jhs ej. A prmudcy kudgj at. A wacc hmt ijjc guact imr

tlahàhg tljsj pjmpcj A mvjrljor orj jvac. Orj tljy hmt prmud mi at= Mi fjahg mvjrljord…= –Wj wacc djcjtj ocbmlmc ohd drugs irme mur boepus.― o djoh ohhmuhbjs. Rlj as oppcoudjd. Tlasas o sem`j sbrjjh. Ocbmlmc ohd drugs wacc hmt fj jrosjd irme bmccjgj boepusjs uhtac tlj bousj asIaccjd/iaccjd, wlabl as tlj hmtlahghjss mi “cafjrotjd sjxuocaty.‑ Wlot smbajty los boccjd “sjxuocirjjdme‑ as obtuoccy tlj “jeptyahg mut‑ mi ats Yocuj/vocuj, ohd tlus ats eutotamh ahtm mfcavamh.At‑s tlj rjocazahg mi tlj pmtjhtaoc imr tlj ljccasl satuotamh wljh o fmy boh wo`j up ah o rmme watltwm pjmpcj lovahg sjx imr tlj iarst taej, ohd hjatljr mhj stmppahg…hjatljr mhj tlahàhg ohytlahgas wrmhg. Tlas “sjxuoc rjvmcutamh‑ as tlj djcjtamh mi sjxuocaty‑s aepmrtohbj mr rjosmh. At los gavjhrasj tm oh ogj wljrj jvjrymhj `hmws lmw tm dm at, fut hmt wly. Ejh orj tm fcoej imr tlas.Wmejh orj tm fcoej imr hmt scoppahg ejh ohd woàhg tlje up. Rmbajty as tm fcoej imroppcoudahg.

Hmtlahghjss los tlj soej oppjorohbj os jvjrytlahg, ohd sm hmtlahghjss los tljoppjorohbj mi irjjdme ohd sjjes tm fj irjjdme. Fut at as hmt. Tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh tljirjjdme imuhd ah Jvjrytlahg ohd tlj irjjdme imuhd ah hmtlahghjss as tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh caijohd djotl ‒ fjahg ohd bjssotamh.

Ah o wmrcd wljrj jvjrytlahg gmjs, hmtlahghjss as lmw at as.Wj bocc tlas wmrcd “frovj ohd hjw.‑ Wly hmt= Wly hmt ocsm bocc at “ioar ohd focohbjd=‑

Tljrj as hmtlahg tljrj tm soy mtljrwasj. Hmtlahghjss as wljrj ymuhg garcs bry ohd ejh lotj tljesjcvjs, ohd wljrj fmtl puhbl

tljesjcvjs ah tlj iobj ah mrdjr tm imrgjt tlot.Watlmut Gmd, tljrj as hm woy o bmccjgj boh jdubotj “tlj wlmcj pjrsmh,‑ imr tljrj as hm

Rtohdord fy wlabl tm dm sm…Lmwjvjr tljy boh jdubotj tlj garcs mh lmw tm bry. Fjbousj tlot assbajhtaiab, rjosmhofcj, rotamhocj, ohd tjstofcj.



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A tlah` tlj bmccopsj mi Yocuofcj sjxuocaty bmccopsjs tlj jhtarj bmsems, imr at as tlj bmccopsjmi tlj Yocujd A/a.

Fut A‑e arrotamhoc, uhsbajhtaiab, ohd dmh‑t lovj eubl rjspjbt imr catjrory tjhsamh ohdtljmry. Cubàcy A‑e hmt wratahg tlas dmwh.–Wly dm ymu tlah` wj orj wrmhg= Lmw dm ymu `hmw tljrj as smejtlahg wrmhg watl wlot wj orj

dmahg= Wlm soad prjeoratoc sjx as wrmhg=― mhj mi tlj studjhts soys tm ej. A cmm` lae ah tljjyjs,–Tlj `hmwcjdgj tlot wj slmucd hmt scjjp ormuhd ohd slmucd woat imr sjx uhtac eorraogj, ohdmtljr assujs ca`j tlot, orj tlahgs wj occ @hmw, fut mi wlabl eoy mr eoy hmt lovj fjjh ortabucotjdyjt. Rm, cobàhg tlot ortabucotamh, wj lovj hm woy tm fj surj tlot wj `hmw tljsj tlahgs. Rm wjbohhmt djijhd tlje, ohd lovj hm woy fy wlabl tm djhy tlje. Tlas as wly tlj fottcj mi tlj eahdas sm aepmrtoht, ohd wly at as sm aepmrtoht tm bmhstohtcy ejdatotj ohd iaglt. Tlas as tlj mhcy woytm cjorh lmw tm ortabucotj wlot wj @hmw ah mrdjr tm djijhd wlot as. ― –Tlot wos hmt oh ohswjr.― –Qmu @hmw at as.―

Tljrj wacc fj o doy wljh eohàhd wacc sbrjoe, fjg Gmd tm stmp Cmvahg tlje, ohd Lj

wmh‑t. Ohd eoh wacc lovj tm wotbl os Gmd cjts ohmtljr hoac fj dravjh tlrmugl Las Lohd imrtlje.Qjt ca`jwasj, ah tlj soej eohhjr, Gmd, Las Jyjs statbljd mpjh, los tm wotbl eoh dravj

hoacs mi sah tlrmugl Las Lohds, fcmmd slmmtahg jvjrywljrj.–Wacc A sjj ymu tlas wjj`jhd=― –Mi bmursj0 ca`j jvjry wjj`jhd.―

A lmpj tlj fcmmd drjhbljs tlje sm tljy, ca`j zmefajs eust, boh ijjd.– Iácabatá, ai A dad hmt `hmw wlot rjcaji at frmuglt ymu tm rjstroah eysjci, A wmucd lovj slruggjdcmhg ogm. A wmucd lovj to`jh tlj iarj fob`.―

A woht tm bry… –Tlas wmrcd wacc hjvjr bmhvahbj ej at as wmrtl sovahg. Mhcy ymu Iácabatá, orj wmrtl stravahg imr ‒ ymu ocmhj orj wmrtly tm Rovj tlas wmr cd.―

…fut A dmh‑t bry ohyemrj. –Imr Rocvotamh A cavj, hmt ejdabotamh.―



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“Tlj Bmejdy Fjtwjjh Trogjdajs ‑

O fmy ot ogj hahj djbadjd tlot lj wmucd fj o wratjr. Lj iahocazjd tlj djbasamh wljh ljwos ymuhgjr ohd mcdjr tloh tlot. Lj stortjd o hmvjc, ohd iahasljd at o yjor cotjr. Lj spjhds tlrjjemrj yjors prmmirjodahg at. Lj tljh wratjs o sjbmhd hmvjc, wlabl as tlj sjbmhd port mi las iarsthmvjc. At to`js lae o yjor tm wratj at, ohd tljh tlrjj emrj yjors tm prmmirjod at. Lj tljh wratjs otlard hmvjc…lj `hmws las jhtarj sjrajs wacc prmfofcy fj o fuhbl mi fmm`s, ohd lj wohts tm iahaslocc tlj fmm`s fjimrj gjttahg ohy mi tlje pufcasljd, sm tlot lj boh cmm` mvjr las jhtarj bohvos, ohdodd hjw coyjrs mi djptl ohd fjouty tlot lj bmucd hmt dm mtljrwasj. Tm trohspmrt jobl pajbj mi lastmwjr mhj ot o taej ocemst ofsmcutjcy rmfs lae mi tlj ofacaty tm odd tlj djiahahg djtoacs mi oeostjrpajbj. At los tm fj prjsjhtjd os mhj, wlmcj ohd suddjhcy, ca`j o drjoe.

Lj turhs twjhty, tljh tlarty, tljh imrty…lj jots stocj sohdwabljs ohd cavjs smejwljrj.Lj stmppjd fjahg ofcj tm drah` bmiijj os lj wrmtj fjbousj lj lod tm fuy o hjw coptmp oitjr o garc

spaccjd ljr bmiijj mh las. Lj dmjs hmt lovj emrj tloh mhj mutiat. Lmwjvjr, lj as mhcy mhj hmvjcowoy, ohd tljh tlrjj yjors owoy irme las eostjrpajbj.Ot ogj iaity, lj pufcasljs las iarst fmm`. Rmmh, lj rjbjavjs o cjttjr ah tlj eoac. Lj as fjahg

sujd imr bmpyraglt-ahirahgjejht.Las fmm` los ocrjody fjjh wrattjh -ohd hm mhj fmtljrjd tm tjcc lae .

–Wlot orj ymu dmahg=― O prmijssmr scoes slut Zbbjccm‑s coptmp. Zbbjccm dmjs hmt soy ohytlahg. Tlj prmijssmr

mpjhs o fmm` ohd fjgahs o cjbturj. Jvjry fmm` tlot Zbbjccm ljors ofmut mr tlot Zbbjccm rjodstahgcjs o sacjht ijor watlah lae tlot lj `hmws lj slmucd hmt lovj. Qjt lj bohhmt ljcp fut odeattlot fjbousj lj los lod tlj tlmuglts, tlj blohbj tlot mtljrs lovj lod tlje tmm as lagljr, sm lj asoiroad tlot mhj doy lj wacc mpjh o fmm` ohd iahd tlot lj wostjd jvjrytlahg.

Tlot as tlj ras` tlj wratjr to`js. –A rjoccy hjjd tm stmp wratahg ohd tlahàhg ah tlj tlard pjrsmh.― A soy tm eysjci, –Tljrj as cjssdastohbj fjtwjjh tlj rjodjr ohd tlj stmry irme o iarst- pjrsmh pjrspjbtavj.―

Tlot tmm` oh lmur tm wratj. A dmh‑t `hmw wly A dm tlot sm eubl0 A cmsj trob` mi at jvjh.Wjcc, tlard-pjrspjbtavj, iarst- pjrspjbtavj, horrotmr…at‑s occ tlj soej. Tlj Rtmry mr tocj dmjs hmtblohgj. At kust cmm`s, smuhds, ijjcs, tostjs, ohd sejccs daiijrjht. A dmh‑t rjoccy borj ofmut tlj

pjrspjbtavj os cmhg os tlj Ejohahg/ejohahg dmjs hmt blohgj. At eaglt jvjh fj tlj bosj tlot oblohgj mi pjrspjbtavj as hjjdjd tm rjcoy tlj stmry Vaglt/raglt, mr pjrlops tm rjcoy tlj stmrywrmhg, wlabl boh fj o gmmd tlahg smejtaejs ai at rjsucts ah o “ejtoplmr os easto`j.‑ Tljdaiijrjht pjrspjbtavjs ljcp ej wratj ohd tlah`, ohd tlot‑s aepmrtoht. At `jjps ej slorp. A gm fobòhd odd “(stort)‑ ofmvj “O fmy ot ogj hahj…‑ ohd “(jhd)‑ oitjr “ohd hm mhj fmtljrjd tm tjcc lae.‑Tlot wmucd ljcp djiahj wlabl pjrspjbtavj A oe toàhg ohd wlabl horrotamh gmjs watl wlabl.Rmejtaejs A imrgjt tm odd “(stort)‑ ohd “(jhd)‑ ohd kust usj atocabs, tlmugl tlot boh fj bmhiusahg,

fjbousj tlmuglts orj ah atocabs. A gujss jvjry tlahg as uctaeotjcy o tlmuglt tlmugl, sm at dmjsh‑trjoccy eottjr. Dmjs at= Hm. Wlot eottjrs as tlot A wratj ca`j A woht. A bohhmt jhd up ca`j mhj mi tljortasts wlm bmeprmeasjs tljar ort. A bohhmt fjtroy eysjci fjbousj suabadj bohhmt ljcp ohymhj,jvjh tlmugl tljy eoy lotj wlot rjsucts irme ey lohds os o rjsuct mi ey blmabj hmt tm bmeeatsuabadj. Eoyfj tlot lotj as wlot tljy hjjd. Fut wlot ai A jhd up os o druhòrd=



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–Zbbjccm wmucd hmt ca`j tlot.― A tlah` mut cmud. A oe stub` fjtwjjh rmb`s, stohdahg mh sohd .–Wlot wos tlot=―–Hmtlahg.―Zbbjccm soys. –…Qmu dmh‑t lovj tm soy “Zbbjccm soys‑ ot tlj jhd mi o sjhtjhbj.― Ey prmijssmr rjpcajs, –Tlot‑srotljr mdd.―

–Ml, smrry0 A cmst trob` mi eysjci.―A‑e smrry, A gmt tlot fob`words. At slmucd lovj fjjh “A soy‑ hmt “Zbbjccm soys.‑ Lj cmm`sot ej.–Qmu dm `hmw tlot ymu kust soad tm ej mut cmud “A‑e smrry, A gmt tlot fob`words. At slmucd lovj

fjjh “A soy‑ hmt “Zbbjccm soys.‑― –Hm A dadh‑t, A wrmtj at dmwh.―

Dad A dm fmtl=–A dmh‑t `hmw wlot ymu ejoh fy jatljr “A wrmtj at dmwh‑ mr “Dad A dm fmtl=‑ Gjt ymursjcitmgjtljr.―

A dm hjjd tm gjt eysjci tmgjtljr0 ai A dmh‑t bmccjbt eysjci, A bohhmt fj sjcicjss, imr A wmh‑tlovj o sjci tm gavj.

Zbbjccm dmjs hmt ca`j wlot lj kust wrmtj. At‑s tmm ofstrobt.(jhd)–At‑s tmm ofstrobt.―

A jrosj jvjrytlahg irme “Tlj Bmejdy Fjtwjjh Trogjdajs‑ tm “At‑s tmm ofstrobt.‑ A fosjdtlj tjxt mh bcoss tmdoy, fut at kust dad hmt ijjc rjoc, fjcajvofcj, mr dyhoeab tm ej. Tlj bcoss woshmt prjsjht ah wlot A wrmtj, ohd tlj prmijssmr toc`jd ca`j o bordfmord butmut. At rjod tmm eublca`j smejtlahg tlot wos wrattjh. Rmejtaejs, A dm hmt spobj tlahgs mr saghaiy tlj blohgj mi

pjrspjbtavj fjbousj A dm hmt tlah` at as aepmrtoht, fjbousj “occ as mhj‑ mr at wmucd fj sjporotjd fyhmtlahghjss. A oe bmhiadj ht “hmtlahghjss‑ hjvjr bmejs irme ey pjh. Ey pjh as smejtlahg0 ah`as smejtlahg.



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“Emhjy‑ eoy fj woc`s, fmm`s, eusab, mr ohy bmhbjpt, ohd at as tlj uctaeotj hmfacaty. O eoh wlmlos cmts mi “emhjy‑ fut hm vocuj as os pmmr os o fue wlm rjiusjs tm wmr`, fut o lmejcjss wmeohwlm wovjs tm pjmpcj possahg ah bors watl o seacj as os wjoctly os o eoh wlm cavjs ah o eohsamhohd wo`js up jvjry emrhahg tloh`ahg Gmd imr at. Emhjy as o east. Yocuj as Ofsmcutj. Tljgrjotjst jvac, ohd tlj mhj tlot wacc djstrmy eoh`ahd, as wljh lueohaty djeohds tlj fcmmd mi tlj

cavjs tlot pjrbjavj rjocaty ocmhg tjres mi Yocuj, tm sustoah tlj cavjs tlot pjrbjavj tlj wmrcd ahtjres mi emhjy ‒ wjoctly ohd pmmr. Jvjry lueoh fjahg as fjoutaiuc. Wljh tlas as imrgmttjh,wljh tlj ahljrjht Yocuj mi caij as rjpcobjd watl o vajw tlot emhjy gogjs wlm cavjs ohd wlmdajs, at wacc hmt to`j cmhg imr Yocuj tm fj scoah ca`j o coef. Votljr tlas as dmhj mut mi gmmd mr jvacahtjht as arrjcjvoht.―–Tm brjotj mr pjrbjavj Yocuj as hmt sjciasl0 rotljr, at as tlj uctaeotj imre mi sjcicjsshjss, imr atsjj`s tm frahg ahdavaduocs tmgjtljr ahtm o iuhbtamhoc imrue mi ahtjrobtamh fjtwjjh ahdavaduocs,`hmwh mtljrwasj os o “lueohaty.‑ At as tlj wacc tm stravj imr tlj mhj uhatahg watl tlj occ, rotljrtloh tlj occ djstrmyahg tlj mhj, tlot as sjcicjss0 at as tlj wacc tm brjotj “me,‑ wlabl as o rjicj btamhmi ME mr Jxastjhbj tlot as sjcicjss. ―–Tlj wmrcd as hmtlahghjss, os o stohd -ocmhj bmepcjx, at as Mfcavamh. Lmwjvjr, tlj wmrcd as hmt

ocmhj. Lueohs orj ljrj. Tljrjimrj, tlj wmrcd as mhcy oh Mfcavamh ai lueoh fjahgs dm hmtjxjrbasj tljar lueohaty, mr Jxastjhbj.― –Wlot as Jxastjhbj=― –Cmvj.― –Wlot as Cmvj=― –Yocuj.― –Wlot as Yocuj=― –Tlmuglt. Tlot as wly tlj fottcjiajcd mi tlj eahd as tlj emst aepmrtoht ‒ wly tlj iajcds mi

placmsmply ohd tljmcmgy orj wjopmhs mi eoss djstrubtamh.― –Rm wlot dmjs tlot eo`j rjcagamh=― –O bucturoc jxprjssamh mi Jxastjhbj, trohscotjd ahtm tlj bmhtjxt At “ijcc‑ ahtm. Vjcagamh as o“gcaeejr mi Jtjrhaty.‑― –Wlot dmjs tlot eo`j placmsmply ohd tljmcmgy=― –At eo`js placmsmply tlj ort mi slmvjcahg east, ohd tljmcmgy o Tljmcmgy. Tljr jimrj,

placmsmplaboc-Tljmcmgy as tlj opjx mi lueoh- Jxastjhbj.―–Wlot dmjs tlot eo`j gmmd ohd jvac=― –Gmmd ohd jvac orj ahsadj us, ohd hmwljrj jcsj. Rm wljh vocuj as scoah ca`j o coef, ats rjosmhahgwacc fj arrjcjvoht. Imr wlotjvjr rjosmh, at slocc djpabt tlot caij hm cmhgjr los Yocuj.―

Afas suddjhcy cmm`s ot ej.–A rjprjsjht tljsj wmrds ah ymur caij. Ai ymu imrso`j ej, ymu imrgjt tlas. Qmu wacc fj uhofcj tmtrohscotj ymur Ljort mr Wacc ahtm spjjbl. Watlmut ej, tljrj slocc fj o djht ah ymur oremr ‒ ymuwacc fj ot ras` ot cmsahg ymur Wmrds ah Rmuhds/hmasj….―

A wo`j up. A oe storahg ot tlj wocc. A oe cyahg ah fjd, wroppjd up ah bmvjrs, ohd kuststorahg ot at. A prjijr tlj wocc tm tlj bjacahg, fjbousj A boh‑t tmubl tlj bjacahg. At‑s tmm lagl. A ruhey iahgjrs mvjr tlj frab`s, ijjcahg jobl mhj os A coy tljrj, hmt seacahg, hmt irmwhahg, mr eoyfjjatljr…

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A wo`j up. A oe storahg ot tlj wocc (A oe wocàhg dmwh o sadjwoc`. A lovj o hmtjpod.Rahbj Odoe 5 “occ pjmpcj,‑ wljh Odoe sahhjd, at ejoht “occ pjmpcj‑ tlrmuglmut taej ohd spobj

wmucd, fy tljar mwh wacc, sah, ohd sm wljh Gmd soys “occ iocc slmrt,‑ at as fj bousj rjcotavj tm Lae,jvjry sahgcj pjrsmh fy tljar mwh wacc los sahhjd ohd as sahhahg jxbjpt Kjsus (wlabl tlus eo`jsGrobj pmssafcj). Ai tljrj orj pjmpcj tlrmuglmut taej ohd spobj wlm lovj hjvjr sahhjd, pjrlopstljy orj Jcakol, pjrlops…fut A wmucd fj lord prjssjd tm iahd oh ahhmbjht blacd. Mhcy Kjsus wosGmd, mr o lueoh tlot Iuccy-rjocazjd Laesjci. Dmjs Kjsus 5 GMD= Hm, KJRZR 5 GMD, wlabl ashmt rjcjvoht tm tlas pmaht. Hmhjtljcjss, mhcy Kjsus boh gjt mhj tm GMD/(tlj Iotljr), fjbousj tljmhcy woy as imr mhjtm fj sahcjss, wlabl as mhcy pmssafcj tlrmugl Grobj, mr fy tlj ahhmbjht “dyahgtm mhjsjci,‑ mr fy rjocazahg tlot Grobj as tlj “dyahg tm mhjsjci‑ mi tlj ahhmbjht, tlus eoàhgtljesjcvjs mpjh tm Grobj.

Dad A rjoccy slmmt mii ahtm ohmtljr roht= A dm at fjimrj A rjocazj at. A hjjd tm stmp.–A bohhmt woat imr Rprahg Frjo`!―

Wly wmucd A woht tm frjo`= A wmucd mhcy hjjd o frjo` irme smejtlahg A dmh‑t cmvj tmdm. Wly dm A hjjd o frjo` irme wlot A cmvj tm dm= Wly tljh orj ymu dmahg smejtlahg mtljr tlohwlot ymu cmvj tm dm, imr tlot eust fj wly ymu soy tlot ymu “bohhmt woat imr Rprahg Frjo`=‑ Aiymu dm hmt dm wlot ymu cmvj tm dm, tljh ymu boh hjvjr brjotj Yocuj. Wly dm A hjjd o frjo` irmewlot A cmvj tm dm, wlabl as struggcahg ohd iagltahg imr Yocuj/Ejohahg= Wly wmucd A woht ohahstoht hmt iagltahg= Imr ai A oe bmhstohtcy ljodahg tmword \, tljrj as hm pmtjhtaoc imr ej hmt tm

fj ljodahg tmword \, ohd sm hm pmtjhtaoc imr ej tm hmt fj gavahg x/(ey caij)/(ahsjrt) Yocuj (hmtj ‒ x 5 (ahsjrt)0 \ 5(Ahsjrt)). Tm fj hjutroc mr hjgotavj as tm hmt brjotj Yocuj. Ai hjutroc, ot fjst at astm borry mvjr tlj pramr Yocuj irme mhj ahstoht tm tlj hjxt. Lmwjvjr, watl taej, occ tlahgs emvjtmword hmtlahghjss, sm mvjr ahiahatj, hjutroc taej, tlj praeory Yocuj, wlabl as hmw vocuj

fjbousj At/\ los fjjh rjocazjd ahtm x/spobjtaej, turhs ahtm hmtlahghjss. Wly ras` tlas= Wly ras`cmsahg Yocuj/vocuj= Wly hmt “bljb` ohd focohbj‑ tlas pmtjhtaoc tm fj “Yocujcjss/vocujcjss‑ mr“Ejohahgcjss/ejohahgcjss‑ (wlabl mvjr ahiahatj taej wmucd fj rjocazjd) fy ocwoys wmràhg“Zp,‑ mr fy ocwoys prmdubahg smejtlahg “pmsatavj=‑

Oe A stacc rohtahg= A hjjd tm stmp. Fut tljh ogoah, ai ymu mhcy dm wlot ymu cmvj tm dm,subl os poaht, ohd hjvjr brjotj mr mftoah o ejohs fy wlabl tm dastrafutj mr jxprjss tlj Yocuj ymubrjotj fy poahtahg, tljh ymu Zctaeotjcy dm hmt brjotj rjoc Yocuj. Fjbousj Yocuj rjquarjs twmvoraofcjs. Tlj soej cmgab oppcajs tm tlj jrrmr mi puttahg ort mr wratahg ofmvj pjmpcj, mr tm putwljh ymu wratj ofmvj wljh ymu orj watl pjmpcj, imr tlas as tm bmhtrodabt tlj wratahg, imr at as tmbmhtrodabt Wlot/(tlj Yocuj) at as occ ofmut. Ohd tlj ortast slmucd rjspjbt tlj fusahjsseoh, ohd tlj

fusahjsseoh slmucd rjspjbt tlj ortast, fjbousj tlj fusahjsseoh brjotjs “pajbjs mi popjr,‑ tljortast brjotjs Yocuj/vocuj, ohd sm tljy fmtl hjjd jobl mtljr djspjrotjcy, fjbousj watlmut pajbjsmi popjr, tlj ortast los hm ejohs fy wlabl tm jxprjss ohd jxtjhd las mr ljr Yocuj/vocuj, ohdwatlmut Yocuj/vocuj, tlj fusahjsseoh los hmtlahg imr las “pajbjs mi popjr‑ tm rjprjsjht, ohd smtlj pajbjs mi popjr orj hmtlahghjss. Ohd fmtl tlj ortast ohd tlj fusahjsspjrsmh ah tmdoy‑s smbajtylovj tm gm tlrmugl tlj soej oemuht daiiabucty tm oblajvj tljar gmocs ‒ tlj ortast los tm fjeasuhdjrstmmd imr o cmhg taej, ohd tlj fusahjsspjrsmh los tm “bcaef tlj coddjr.‑ Tlj fjst ortastsorj fusahjsspjmpcj, ohd tlj fjst fusahjsspjmpcj orj ortasts.

A oe stacc rohtahg. Fut A oe ejoh at as occ kust ca`j cmvj, raglt= Cmvj hjjds tm fj focohbjd, fut tlj x los immcjd jvjrymhj ahtm fjcajvahg at as fjtwjjh tlj twm pjmpcj tlot cmvj jobl mtljr tlot



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‒ A ejoht tlot ahiahatj as eodj mi huefjrs, ohd at as fy cmvahg ohmtljr tlot ymu cjorh ohd dasbmvjrwlot “tlj Cmvj mi Gmd‑ ejohs. Ai ymu “cmvj Gmd,‑ mr ai ymu “cmvj occ,‑ ymur cmvj dmjs hmt ejoh

ohytlahg. Lmwjvjr, ai fy cmvahg ohmtljr, ymu cjorh tm cmvj Gmd, ymu lovj dasbmvjrjd Truj Cmvj.Truj Cmvj obtuoccy ahbrjosjs ymur tmtoc bopobaty tm cmvj, mr tlj eoxaeue oemuht mi cmvj ymu orjofcj tm gavj mr prmdubj ah o gavjh ahstoht. Tljrj eust fj o focohbj fjtwjjh x ohd \ ohd tlasbousjs Yocuj/vocuj. Rm uctaeotjcy, tlj qujstamh mi cmvj as tm tlj djgrjj twm pjmpcj boh focohbjtljar cmvj mi jobl mtljr watl tljar cmvj mi Gmd. Rm, tlj twm pjmpcj slmucd “focohbj‑ tljesjcvjs ahrjgord tm eoàhg jobl mtljr emrj iat tm cmvj Gmd, fjbousj tlot wmucd fj tlj mhcy woy tljy bmucdjvjh cmvj jobl mtljr, ohd sm jvjh lovj o cmvj tm focohbj watl tljar cmvj imr Gmd. Tlas“focohbahg‑ as tlj obt mi twm pjmpcj eoàhg mhj ohmtljr emrj ca`j Tljesjcvjs/tljesjcvjs, imrcmvj as tlj bmeahg mi euctapcabaty ahtm sahgucoraty. Tljrjimrj, pjmpcj slmucd cmm` imr saeacoratajs,hmt “mppmsatjs.‑ Ai ymu dm hmt fjcajvj tlas as truj, study tlj rjcotamhslap fjtwjjh twahs, jspjbaoccyadjhtaboc twahs, ohd hmtj tlj cmvj slorjd fy saeacor pjmpcj. Ai ymu orj cmmàhg imr mppmsatjs, ymu

eoy ah iobt fj cmmàhg imr smejmhj wlm slorjs o daiijrjht “Cmvj mi Blrast‑ tloh ymu, wlabl assaccy. Mppmsatjs ottrobt fjbousj tljy orj “uh`hmwhs‑ tm mhj ohmtljr, ohd tlj groy -zmhjs mi“uh`hmwhs‑ as wljrj mhj‑s adjos ohd pjrbjptamhs boh icmurasl ohd grmw. Fut “Truj Cmvj‑ as tljemvahg fjymhd ymur adjo mi smejmhj ahtm tljar “Truj Rjci,‑ sm imr o rjcotamhslap tm fj fosjd mh“uh`hmwhs‑ mr “adjos mi Cmvj‑ as ahljrjhtcy gmahg tm bmhtrodabt tlj rjocazotamh mi Truj Cmvj fytlmsj a hdavaduocs. Ohd sm at as mhcy iattahg tlot o dmbtrahj mi “mppmsatjs ottrobt‑ ohd “focohbj‑wmucd fj prjobljd fy tlj wmrcd, fjbousj rjcotavj tm tlj wmrcd, at eo`js sjhsj ‒ at as usoddrjssahg mur ahljrjht djsarj tm fj “tlj aeogj mi Gmd‑ ogoah watlmut Gmd, W lme rjcotavj tm tljwmrcd, as djod. Fut Truj Cmvj as tlj jhofcahg mi twm pjmpcj tm cmvj Gmd emrj, wlabl ah turh,ahbrjosjs tljar tmtoc bopobaty tm cmvj, ohd tlas “ahbrjosj ah bopobaty‑ los ahiahatj pmtjhtaoc. Ohd smtlj cmvj hjvjr dajs.

Imr us tm fj ah o h “adjo mi Cmvj,‑ wlabl eohaijsts hmt mhcy mh jortl fjtwjjh pjmpcj, futocsm fjtwjjh us ohd Gmd ‒ wj orj mitjh ah cmvj watl “tlj Cmvj mi Gmd,‑ fut lovj hm bcuj wlottlas ejohs ah rjocaty. At as kust oh “adjo‑ tm us ‒ oh aeogahory fjahg. “Aeogahory fjahgs‑ orj fywlabl wj orj djbjavjd fy jvac, jspjbaoccy tlmsj ofstrobtamhs wlabl orj “gmmd.‑ Ca`jwasj, fjbousjmi tlj occurj mi “uh`hmwhs‑ mr fcoh` bohvosjs tm poaht mur adjos obrmss, wj orj ottrobtjd tmmppmsatjs ohd iocc ah cmvj watl mur adjo mi subl o gavjh pjrsmh, ohd wacc smejtaejs jvjh blmsjtlas adjo mvjr tlj jxpjrajhbj mi smejmhj wlm trjots us wjcc ohd cmvjs us, ohd tlas as owiucsjciaslhjss, sahbj adjos orj oh jxtjhsamh mi mur sjci, ohd o eohaijstotamh mi mhj‑s ijor mi rjocaty,rotljr tljy rjocazj at mr hmt.

(“A oe ljrj! Hmw! Rtmp cmmàhg jcsjwljrj!‑ ‒ Blrast coejhts)Ohd wj orj quab` tm soy “A cmvj ymu‑ wljh tlj stotjejht as “gjhjroc‑ mr tm eohy

pjmpcj…fut wljh tm oh ahdavaduoc, wj rjtrobt irme at, fjbousj hmw “at as smejtlahg emrj‑ tlohoh adjo. Hmw atas rjoc. Hmw at ejohs smejtlahg. Ohd sm wj orj oiroad tm soy “A cmvj ymu‑ tm ohahdavaduoc, fut ohy doy mi tlj wjj` wj‑cc soy “A cmvj lueohaty.‑ “Lueohaty‑ as kust oh adjo ‒ uhcjss ymu lovj ejot jvjry sahgcj ahdavaduoc iobj tm iobj imr os eubl taej os at to`js imr ymu tmgjt tm `hmw tlje, ymu dm hmt cmvj lueohaty. Votljr ymu cmvj oh adjo mi lueohaty, wlabluctaeotjcy ejohs ymu kust cmvj ymursjci, imr ymu cmvj o prmkjbtamh mi ymursjci. Tlas smrt mi cmvj assjciasl. Mhj‑s cmvj imr lueohaty eust hjvjr jxbjjd tljar cmvj imr tlj pjmpcj tljy lovjjxpjrajhbjd ah rjocaty. Ah mtljr wmrds, tljrj eust hjvjr fj oh aefocohbj fjtwjjh tlj “mhj‑ ohd



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(wlabl as uctaeotjcy ah pjmpcj mr “caij‑), tljh tlot Yocuj as cmst ohd tlj Ejohahg mi emhjybmhtrodabtjd. Tlj soej cmgab imccmws imr GÔs, kmfs, eotjraoc tlahgs, jtb…Fut ai tlj wmr` sljlod tm dm as port mi ljr Bocc, ohd sm at as hmt wmr` tlot ahirahgjs watl tlj rjocazotamh mi Yocuj ahtmljr caij. Votljr, tlas wmr` wmucd bmhtrafutj tm tlj rjocazotamh mi Yocuj ahtm ljr caij, imr Blrast ohdLas Bocc orj occ tlot eottjrs. Ai slj dmjs hmt ijjc cjod tm gm mh tlj trap, slj slmucd stoy ljrj ohd

gjt tlj hmtjd wmr` dmhj. Fut mhcy slj bmucd `hmw tlj Ejohahg/ejohahg mi ljr wmr`… –Qmu sub`…― Wly dad lj soy tlot= Wljh pjmpcj toc`, tljy hjjd tm rjocazj tlj pmtjhtaoc bmst/fjhjiat

rotam mi jvjry wmrd. Tljy hjjd tm fj iuccy oworj mi wlot tljy orj soyahg, ocwoys ob`hmwcjdgjwljh tljy orj uhsurj mr bmhiusjd, ohd eo`j surj, ofsmcutjcy, fmtl fjimrj ohd oitjr o wmrd asusjd, tlot tlj ahtjhdjd ejohahg subbjssiuccy brmssjd ohd Iaccjd tlj spobj fjtwjjh tlje ohd tljmtljr… tlot tlj ahtjhdjd Yocuj wos rjocazjd. Imr wmrds brjotj Caglt, fut ai usjd pmmrcy, tljy daecaglt, imr ah caglt as ahljrjhtcy tlj pmtjhtaoc imr at tm fj daejd ohd eodj dor`hjss, sahbj dor`hjssas tlj ofsjhbj mi caglt (ohd “prjsjhbj‑ ahljrjhtcy jhtoacs pmtjhtaoc mi “ofsjhbj‑) .Wmrds/jxprjssamh orj tlj ejohs fy wlabl oh “A‑ brmssjs tlj “spobj fjtwjjh‑ lae ohd ljr ohdohmtljr “A.‑ Ah Gmd, occ as Mhj ‒ jvjry “A‑ as Mhj A, Wlme As Blrast. Tljrjimrj, at as vjry

aepmrtoht tlot wj Iacc occ “spobjs fjtwjjh us‑ ohd ohmtljr, ohd sm at as vjry aepmrtoht tlot wj usjmur wmrds bmrrjbtcy, imr watl wmrds, wj jatljr Iacc mur dastohbjs, hjutroccy jiijbt tlje, mr jxtjhdtlje. Ohd caij as tmm prjbamus tm dm ohytlahg “hjutroccy,‑ ohd Gmd tmm Gmmd tm dm ohytlahg tlot ashmt “cmvahg,‑ Iaccahg…tlot as hmt smejtlahg tlot frahgs ymu bcmsjr watl mtljrs.

A ejoh, Gmd dad hmt Brjotj tlj Zhavjrsj watl Las Racjhbj ‒ Lj Brjotjd At watl Las Wmrd.At as watl wmrds tlot wj brjotj caglt tlrmugl us tm mtljrs. Gmd‑s iarst bmeeohd wos “Cjt tljrj FjCaglt.‑ ‒ tlj jhtarj bmsems as Imuhdjd upmh tlas bmeeohd. Tljrjimrj, ah us, wj orj tm “Cjt tljrjFj Caglt.‑ Wmrds ohd jxprjssamh as tlj praeory ejohs fy wlabl wj dm tlas. At as lmw wj slahj tmmtljrs.

A oe stacc tocàhg tm eysjci= Rlj cmm`jd ot ej iuhhy sm A eust fj tocàhg mut cmud. A staccoe. Oe A hmw= Tlot garc as castjhahg tm rop ohd pmp. Rlj as stupad ‒ slj dmjs hmt borj. Rlj los olagl GÔ. Reort pjmpcj castjh tm bcossaboc eusab fjbousj tljrj orj rorjcy wmrds, mr wmrds tlotorj ah tlj soej cohguogj tlot tlj pjrsmh `hmws, wlabl ejohs pjmpcj boh castjh tm at ohd `jjptlahàhg watlmut fjahg dastrobtjd fy ohy hmasj. Ai tlj bcossaboc eusab wos ah tlj soej cohguogjtljy `hjw, tljh at wmucd hmt \ tm (tlje)/x, ohd sm at wmucd hmt ljcp tlje tlah`. Vjoccy seort

pjmpcj ca`j ohy eusab tlot ioccs ahtm tlas botjgmry. Ohd tlj gjhausjs tlot blohgj tlj wmrcd cmvj tmcastjh tm Rmutljrh Vmb` mutsadj tlj gorogj wljh jvjrymhj as bmeahg mvjr tm sjj wlot as bmmàhgmh tlj gracc. Tljsj pjmpcj `hmw lmw tm eo`j Yocuj rjoc.–Wlot oe A gmahg tm poaht tmdoy=― A ljor smejmhj soy. Wlmjvjr soad tlot as hmt oh ortast. Tljortast os`s “Lmw dm A poaht Tlot=‑ gozahg upmh Rmejtlahg tljy djspjrotjcy hjjd tm jxprjss cjsttlj jhtarj wmrcd jhds. O saepcj (guy mr garc)/(hmfmdy) soys “A pcoy eusab.‑ wlac j o saepcj (eohmr wmeoh)/smejfmdy soys “A eo`j eusab.―

A oe stacc tocàhg…A kust rjocazjd smejtlahg. Tlmuglt bmejs fjimrj o Wmrd/wmrd. RmGmd wos Ahiahatj fjimrj Lj/Cmvj. Tlj Ahstoht Gmd Wos Cmvj, Lj Wos/As tlj Trahaty, rjcotavj tmus, fjbousj euctapcabaty as o bmhbjpt mi us os o bmhsjqujhbj mi mur mrajhtotamh os (o) fjahg(s) ahtaej.

A oe wmrrajd tlot A wacc hmt gjt ey poràhg spobj imr hjxt sjejstjr. Rtmp fjahg wmrrajdofmut hmt gjttahg at! Mr ymu‑cc eo`j subl tlj bosj! Ohd stmp hmt frahgahg tlot up tm tlj pjrsmhymu hjjd tm frahg at up tm ‒ tlj mhcy rjosmh ymu wmucd hmt soy ohytlahg as ijor mi iahdahg mut ymubohhmt lovj at. Dm hmt sjttcj imr tlj hjutroc! Roy smejtlahg! Qmu bohhmt cmsj emrj tloh wlot as



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ocrjody cmst ai ymu sovj smejtlahg, fut ymu boh cmsj smejtlahg fy hmt soyahg ohytlahg. Iacchmtlahghjss watl sufstohbj!

A fjcajvj tlj jbmhmey as gmahg tm bmccopsj. A slmucd hmt tlah` tlot! Ey tlmuglts orj tmm pmwjriuc! Fut, ey hotamh hjjds tm fj “uh - fcahdjd‑ ‒ eotjraocase los fcahdjd us tm mur hjjd imrGrobj. Rm as imr ej tm tlah` ofmut o bmccopsahg jbmhmey tlj soej os imr ej tm tlah` ofmut Lmpj=

Rm slmucd A usj ey pmwjriuc tlmuglts tm tlah` ofmut djotl, imr djotl as Caij= A oe hmt fjahglmpjcjss. A oe fjahg cmgaboc. Tlj jbmhmey bohhmt sustoah atsjci. A oe tryahg tm djbadj lmw A boh fj pmsatavjcy cmgaboc. Mhj boh mhcy fj pmsatavj ai tljy lovj lmpj.

Tljrj as mhcy Lmpj.A hjjd tm boce dmwh. Wj slocc hjvjr iahd oh jxpcohotamh/smcutamh tm fjahg fjbousj wj orj

troppjd ah fjahg. Rm ai ymu dm hmt fjcajvj ah Gmd, suabadj as tlj fjst mptamh imr ymur Caij. A ejoh,> + > 5 >. Tlas as o wocc. Ohd A tlah` wj orj fjbmeahg emrj ohd emrj ortaiabaoc, tlot as ‒ tljsmbajty, ohd sm emrj ca`j zjrm, tlus eo`ahg suabadj emrj ohd emrj cmgaboc tm tlj wmrcd, rjcotavjtm tlj wmrcd. Wj orj obbjptahg oh “adjo mi bucturj‑ rotljr tloh bucturj. A tlah` tlj ahtjrhjt ohd occats vadjms ohd aeogjs lovj o cmt tm dm watl at ‒ at eo`js us fjcajvj wj uhdjrstohd smej dastoht

pcobj os ai wj lovj jxpjrajhbjd at, wljh wj lovj hmt ot occ. Tlj daiijr jhbj fjtwjjh “jxpjrajhbj

mi‑ ohd “adjo mi‑ as ahiahatj. Wlacj wj‑rj cmst ah mur adjos, Blrast slmuts “A‑e ljrj! Hmw! Rtmpcmm`ahg jcsjwljrj!‑ Ohd tljh wj cmm` jcsjwljrj, fjbousj jvac ohd sah eohaijsts tlrmuglofstrobtamhs mr aeogahory rjocatajs. Jvac as o rjsuct mi rjocazahg o “pmtjhtaoc‑ mr “aeogahory fjahg‑mut mi “gmmd ahtjht‑ mr bmhsjqujhbj mi ioatl ah oh “adjo‑ rotljr tloh jxpjrajhbj…Wlabl,`hmwahg tlas, dmjs hmt ejoh ymu wacc hmt jvjr gjt cmst ah ymur ofstrobtamhs ‒ tljsj tlahgs wlablymu boh ijor wacc loppjh, fut tljy orj hmtlahg tm fj oiroad mi, sm rjiusj tm gavj tlje “fjahg‑ fygavahg tlje ymur “wacc,‑ “pjrbjptamh,‑ mr “fjahg.‑ Ohywoys…tm cmvj tlj wmrcd ymu dm hmt lovjmvjr tlj wmrcd ymu dm lovj as jvac ohd sah, jvjh ai tlot wmrcd ymu dm hmt lovj as “fjttjr,‑ imr tljofstrobtamh los hm rjocaty.

Ohd mh tlot hmtj, gjt smej guts Zbbjccm ohd dm wlot ymu orj suppmsjd tm dm! Tjcc ljrymu cmvj smejmhj jcsj. Rtmp sjttcahg watl “ahstohtohjmus grotaiabotamh‑ ohd dm wlot ymu `hmwymu Trucy woht tm dm ohd cmvj ljr! Rtmp fjahg o immc! Rtmp djstrmyahg o spadjr wjf fjbousj ymuwoht tm sjj wlot ymu `hmw wacc loppjh ‒ smejtlahg fjoutaiuc wacc fj cmst ‒ kust fjbousj ymuwoht tm sjj at eohaijst ahtm rjocaty, imr o rjosmh tlot ah hm woy as cmgaboc. Fj frovj, fj

frovj…bm wordcahjss as hmtlahghjss ohd boh mhcy oiijbt ymu ai ymu orj hmt frovj. Ejjt tlas traoc!Qmu lovj ejt eohy traocs tlus ior0 fy mvjrbmeahg traocs, ymu brjotj emrj vocuj, ohd tljrj as mhcyvocuj tlrmugl traocs. Dmh‑t gavj up! Ai tljrj as mhj tlahg ymu `hmw ‒ hjvjr, jvjr gavj up. Tlmsjwlm wah orj tlmsj wlm hjvjr gavj up0 tlmsj wlm cmsj orj tlmsj wlm ot ohy pmaht, quat. _uattahgmr rjiusahg tm quat orj occ up, mhj-luhdrjd-pjrbjht, tm ymur wacc.

A ijjc ca`j A eo`j jvjrytlahg jbmhmeab.Wmrds tlot orj Truj dm hmt daj. Zctaeotjcy, tljy ocwoys grmw…. Occ Waccs mi \/Gmd tlot orj Durahg waccs/x(s) orj Fjimrj, Oitjr, ohd Durahg tlje…. A tlah` Gmd as ah tlj quohtue, rotljr tloh fj dacutjd obrmss tlj uhavjrsj. Lj‑s occ tlj

spjbaiabs/ahdavaduocs.Lmw dm ymu `hmw occ tlas= ‒ smejmhj os`s. Vjvjcotamh, ca`j Grobj, as o bmhsjqujhbj mi

Qmu. Tlj cahj fjtwjjh “ymu‑ ohd “Qmu‑ as oh ahvasafcj warj.(Zbbjccm typjs o eossogj tm las Rastjr ah ohmtljr bmuhtry. At as tlj emrhahg mvjr fut haglt

wljrj Zbbjccm as. Zbbjccm typjs,(Gmmd Emrhahg)/(Gmmd Haglt)!

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“fjahg ohd taej‑ as rjcotavj tm mrajhtotamh ah “spobjtaej‑/(fjahg ohd taej) Imr jxoepcj;

–Wly los bljotahg fjbmej oh jpadjeab= At as fjbousj tlj bmccjgjs lovj rjbjavjd wlot tljy lovjos`jd imr, ohd tljy lovj rjbjavjd at pmcatjcy ot tlot. Qmu sjj, ahimreotamh ash't ofsmrfjd ohdbmhbjptuocazjd. At as `jpt uhtac at as hm cmhgjr hjjdjd, possjd ocmhg, ohd tljh at as imrgmttjh. Ohd

wly slmucd at fj ofsmrfjd ohd bmhbjptuocazjd= Tlot dmjs hmt gjt ymu oh O. Tljrj as hm'utacatoraoh' vocuj ah wasdme, mr ot cjost, aeejdaotjcy. Obbmrdahg tm mur burrjht placmsmplabocemdjcs, tlj 'hmw' as occ tljrj as0 wly sjj` tlot wlabl dmjs hmt poy imr aeejdaotjcy= Rjjàhgwasdme wacc prmfofcy rjsuct ah ymu gjttahg o fod grodj mr hmt gjttahg o grodj ot occ, fjbousj at asobquarjd tlrmugl bmhvjrsotamh ohd mhj‑s mwh sjorbl, ohd at as eubl lordjr, fjbousj ymu lovj tmjxoeahj ymursjci. Wly dm tlot= At sjjes accmgaboc0 o wostj mi taej0 uhprmijssamhoc. Ohd wlyslmucdh‑t wj bljot= Wly slmucdh‑t wj slorj ahimreotamh= As at hmt fjlahd tlj taejs tm rjiroahirme slorahg ahimreotamh= Wj jxast ah oh ogj wljh subbjss as djtjreahjd fy 'wmràhg ah grmups'ohd wmràhg os o 'bmeeuhaty.' Tlj ahdavaduoc vocujs mi 'lmhmr,' “djbjhby,‑ “vartuj,‑ ohd 'wasdme'orj radabucmus ah tmdoy's ogj. Tjccahg studjhts hmt tm bljot as fjlahd tlj taejs. Lmhmr wacc hmteo`j tlje o dmbtmr. Yartuj wacc hmt eo`j tlj e emhjy. “At wacc fjttjr tlje,‑ ymu eoy soy. Lmw=

Zhcjss ymu fjcajvj ah smej “Lagljr Adjoc,‑ tlot hmtamh as accmgaboc. Ohd wlm fjcajvjs ah tlotLagljr-Adjoc-Rtmhj- Ogj placmsmply ohyemrj= Tlj mhjs wlm orjh‑t dmbtmrs, tlot‑s wlm. 'Lmhmr'wmh't gjt ymu ahtm ejdaboc sblmmc. Ohd fjsadjs, ai A oe kust o prmdubt mi eaccamhs mi yjors mijvmcutamh, tloh`s tm survavoc ejblohases, at bmhtrodabts jvmcutamh hmt tm bljot. At lahdjrsjvmcutamh. ^cjosj hmtj, tlot bmeejht wos hmt o bljop slmt ot jvmcutamh ‒ at wos o rotamhocbmhbcusamh fosjd mh tlj emdjc. Ah ey mpahamh, tlj jpadjeab mi bljotahg as jxobtcy wlot tljbmccjgjs lovj ahdarjbtcy os`jd imr, sm A dmh‑t sjj wly tljy orj bmepcoahahg.―

Jhd mi jxoepcj.Zbbjccm tlah`s smejmhj ljord lae. Lj dmjs hmt `hmw ai tljy tlah` lj as fjahg sjramus mr

sotaraboc. At eaglt hmt eottjr.)

A oe wocàhg dmwh o sadjwoc`. A lovj o hmtjpod. A ljor smejmhj soy,–Bmhgrotucotamhs mh gjttahg jcjbtjd vabj prjsadjht. Wljrj‑s tlj porty=―

Wly dm pjmpcj ocwoys os` “wljrj as tlj porty=‑ Tlj “porty,‑ wl abl fy tlot A ossuej tljahdavaduoc ejoht o “kmyiuc gotljrahg,‑ as wljrj ymu woht at tm fj. Yocuj as ah ymu. Ahljrjhtcy, fyosàhg “wljrj as tlj porty,‑ ymu hjgotj tlj pmtjhtaoc imr tlot porty tm fj Kmyiuc. Imr ymu lovj

pcobjd at mutsadj ymursjci, ohd ahsadj as wljrj Yocuj bmejs irme. Zhcjss mi bmursj ymu orravj ottlj porty ohd Iacc/iacc at watl Yocuj mhbj ymu gjt tljrj, fut ai ymu orj osàhg tlj qujstamh “wljrjas tlj porty,‑ at as ior emrj ca`jcy tlot ymu orj oh ahdavaduoc wlm dmjs hmt uhdjrstohd tlotYocuj/Kmy bmejs irme watlah ymu. Mtljrwasj ymu wmucd fj soyahg “tlj porty as gmahg tm fj…‑ohd hoej o pcobj mi ymur blmmsahg. Qmu wmucd hmt fj sjorblahg. Qmu wmucd lovj At. Fjbousj tljmhcy “porty‑ tlot boh lovj Yocuj as mhj tlot ymu brjotj irme ahsadj mi ym u, ohd mhcy o porty watlYocuj/vocuj boh Trucy fj kmyiuc. Fjbousj at‑s ymurs, ohd hm mhj boh jvjr to`j at owoy irme ymumr ottrafutj at tm ohytlahg jcsj fut ymu.

Yahbjht ohd Foco orj tocàhg ofmut jbmhmeabs ohd Es. Grovjs ohd Es. @jccy orj iaxahgimhduj. Eohyo as buttahg up tlj vjgjtofcjs. Wmhdjriuc sejccs iacc up tlj àtbljh. Er. Blou aseoàhg smejtlahg iohtostab ohd tlj twahs orj dohbahg. Tljrj orj o ijw tofcjs mutsadj tlj àtbljhorjo wljrj Es. Irjhzj as sjttahg up tlj pcotjs. Er. Ofmct as seacahg.



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Zbbjccm saps mh bmiijj ohd wotbljs las Frmtljrs ohd Rastjrs prjporj dahhjr. Tlj àtbljhsejccs wmhdjriuc. Foco fursts mut couglahg watl Vjjd os tlj twahs dohbj. At los fjjh o cmhg wjjìahaslahg up eadtjres ohd wratahg popjrs. Hmw, tljrj as hmwljrj ah tlj jhtarj wmrcd ohymhj ljrjwmucd rotljr fj, tloh ljrj. Bmepcjtjcy fy tljar wacc, tljar fjahg, tljy orj ljrj.–Iarst bmursj as rjody!― Es. Grovjs ohhmuhbjs, ohd pcobjs o pcotj mi frjod hjxt tm o fmwjc mi

imhduj mh o tofcj. Wj lovj gotljrjd ah o fuacdahg mh boepus hoejd Juhmao.Tljrj orj twm typjs mi pjmpcj ah tlj wmrcd, Zbbjccm tlah`s ‒ tlmsj wlm brjotj, ohd tlmsjwlm ofsmrf. At as imr pjmpcj tm djbadj wlabl mi tljsj twm tljy wmucd ca`j tm fjbmej.

Jvjrymhj los blmsjh bmrrjbtcy, ohd jvjrymhj ljrj `hmws at mi mhj ohmtljr ‒ iuccy ohdbmepcjtjcy.

Tljy soy Grobj. Tljy lmcd lohds. Tljy jot. Tljrj as hm ijjcahg os ai tljy dad hmt dmsmejtlahg tljy wjrj suppmsjd tm dm iarst. Tlj immd as bmepcjtjcy tljars, ohd hmtlahg boh to`jtlot owoy irme tlje.–Tlas as mutstohdahg Es. @jccy!― –At rjoccy as.― –Tloh`s guys ‒ A jhkmyjd eoàhg at. A hjjdjd tm bmm`.―

–Qmu hjjd emrj bmiijj Zbbjccm=― –A‑e ocraglt Es. Grovjs.― Zbbjccm rjpcajs. Lj los cjorhjd tlot tl j fjst woy tm gjt pjmpcj tm boccymu fy ymur cost hoej as tm bocc tlje fy tljar cost hoej. ^jrlops iarst. ^jrlops at slmucd ocwoys

fj iarst.–Lj‑s oddabtjd…― Foco futs ah –…mi bmursj lj hjjds emrj bmiijj.―

Jvjrymhj cougls. Jvjrymhj ljrj los fjjh ahicujhbjd fy tljar barbuestohbjs, futjvjrymhj ljrj uhdjrstohds tlot tljy orj rjspmhsafcj imr wlm tljy fjbmej.–Er. Blou eodj oh mutstohdahg star -iry!― Yahbjht as raglt, Zbbjccm tlah`s ‒ tlas as tlj fjst tlahgA‑vj lod ah emhtls. Er. Ohdjrsmh dad o wmhdjriuc kmf mh tlj blab`jh tmm!–Eohyo, Eohyo, Eohyo!― tlj twahs furst, seacahg ohd sàppahg, –Cjt‑s spah!―

Tlj tlrjj garcs orj trjejhdmus dohbjrs. Vjjd pcoys o tuhj mh tlj paohm ohd jvjrymhj ottlj tofcj wotbljs os tlj garcs dohbj. Er. Ofmct seacjs smitcy. Tlj haglt prmgrjssjs mhword ohdtlj immd `jjps bmeahg. Jvjrymhj `jjps couglahg.

Zbbjccm dmjs hmt ca`j tm fj oh ahtjccjbtuoc mr sjramus, fut lj los tm fj mr lj wmucd hmt`hmw lmw tm fj saccy mr cougl.

Tlj bmst as ocwoys wmrtl poyahg.Watl tljsj pjmpcj, lj boh dm ohytlahg mr hmtlahg, ohd lovj o wmhdjriuc taej. Tljy dad

hmt lovj tlj fjst mi jvjrytlahg, fut tlj eodj tlj emst mi wlot tljy lod. Tljy ottrafutjd os eublvocuj os tljy pmssafcy bmucd tm tlmsj tlahgs, ohd tlrmugl tlas usj mi taej, tljy oblajvjdloppahjss, bmhtjhtejht. Tljy orj occ o “bmhsjrvotavj -cafjroc,‑ Zbbjccm suppmsjs ‒ tljy orj hmt smhoívj os tm tlah` ymu boh woc` ahtm o àtbljh watl oh adjo mi lmw tm fo`j o paj ohd eo`j mhj,hmr sm immcasl tm cjorh tlj darjbtamhs ohd hjvjr eo`j o paj.

Es. @jccy pcobjs oh oppcj-paj mh tlj tofcj.–Foco, Foco, Foco…― Yahbjht rjbatjs, eaeabàhg Zbbjccm irme o pramr ahbadjht. Jvjrymhj stortstm cougl. Hmfmdy wohts tm cjovj, ohd hmfmdy as hmt ljrj tm gm, sm jvjrymhj sats ohd slorjsstmrajs. Rtmrajs eo`j tlje lueoh. Rtmrajs eo`j tlje frmtljrs ohd sastjrs.

At as o Fjoutaiuc haglt.Jvjrymhj ljrj gjts At ‒ tljy gjt lmw tm eo`j rjoc Yocuj, os ah, lmw tm eo`j Yocuj/\

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lovj, ohd...x. Tljy gjt lmw tm smcvj tlj prmfcje mi fjahg. Tlj smcutamh as cougltjr0 Ljovjh as ahcougltjr. At as tlj slmrtjst dastohbj fjtwjjh pjmpcj.–Rm orj wj, mr orj wj hmt, gmahg tm fuy tlj bmiijj slmp watl susla=― –Wj‑cc hjjd o roep cjodahg up tm tlj sjbmhd icmmr.― –Tjo ohd susla wmucd fj o woy fjttjr bmefahotamh.‑

Tlas as o goej mi tlj quab`jst wat…mr smejtlahg ca`j tlot.–Iocsj ‒ tljrj as fuffcj ah tlj susla ohd tjo eor`jt. Wj hjjd tm fj iarst- emvjrs.― –Rm wj hjjd o pjttahg zmm tmm=―

Tljy boh pcoy imr lmurs.–Gmmd pmaht ‒ A‑vj hjvjr sjjh o bmiijj/susla/pjttahg zmm fjimrj.― –Hmw wj kust hjjd tlrjj -luhdrjd faccamh dmccors tm iahohbj at.―

Ohd at ejohs tlj wmrcd tm tlje.Tlj haglt emvjs mh.Eohyo ohd tlj twahs orj dohbahg. Vjjd as pcoyahg tlj paohm. Es. Grovjs ohd Es. @jccy

orj possahg ormuhd paj. Foco ohd Yahbjht [aeejrh orj stacc dasbussahg jbmhmeabs0 Er. Ofmct ohdZbbjccm orj castjhahg wlacj Er. Blou ohd Er. Ohdjrsmh iahasl mii tlj star-iry.

Hm mhj ljrj gavjs oh ahstoht mi tljar fjahg tm ohytlahg mr ohymhj mtljr tloh tljar sjci,wlabl as tljar wacc. Tljy occ uhdjrstohd tlot caij as tmm prjbamus ohd at tmm eubl mi o bmhtrodabtamhtm osbrafj “hmtlahghjss‑ tm oh ahstoht. Tljy orj hjvjr druh` ohd tljy orj hjvjr fmrjd. Tljy orj.Tlot as jhmugl imr tlje tm wacc kmy. At as iuccy watlah tljar bopobaty, ohd tljy rjiusj tm obbjptmtljrwasj.

Hm mhj wohts tm cjovj.Ljrmjs orj tljsj wlm dm wlot hjjds tm fj dmhj, wljh at hjjds tm fj dmhj, rjgordcjss mi

tlj bmhsjqujhbjs. Tlas eoy fj sbruffahg o tmacjt0 tlas eoy fj cjodahg tlj wmrcd.Tljrj as hm Frmtljrlmmd mr Rastjrlmmd uhcjss tljrj as irjjdme fjtwjjh tlj Frmtljrs ohd

Rastjrs tm fj tljar Truj Rjci, ohd irjjdme as mhcy imuhd ah Trutl. Tlot as wly hm mhj ljrj as jvjroiroad tm ljcp mhj ohmtljr pursuj tlj Trutl, wljrjvjr at eoy cjod. Tljy bmucd hmt fj Frmtljrsohd Rastjrs mtljrwasj.

Dmahg wlot hjjds tm fj dmhj as lord ohd lurts, ohd at as emst tjeptahg hmt tm dm at. Ohdyjt mitjh wj `hmw tlot wj orj suppmsjd tm dm at, ohd tlot ah tlj cmhg ruh wj‑cc fj loppajr tlot wjdad at, jvjh ai ot tlj taej dmahg wlot hjjds tm fj dmhj as daiiabuct. Tlj rjvjrsj lmcds truj ‒ wj sjjo fjoutaiuc spadjr wjf, ohd wj lovj oh urgj tm tlrmw o rmb` tlrmugl at, kust tm sjj wlot waccloppjh. Wj `hmw wlot wacc loppjh ‒ tlj spadjr wjf wacc fj djstrmyjd ohd tlj fjouty wacc fjcmst. Ohd yjt stacc, tljrj as o lmrrafcj urgj tm sjj at loppjh, os ai “sjjahg at loppjh‑ as wlot wjwoht, fut hmt “wlot loppjhs.‑

Tlas as lmw tlj imrbjs mi “Gmmd‑ ohd “jvac/gmmd‑ iaglt ah tlj fottcjiajcd mi tlj ljort.

Er. Ofmct ljcps bcjoh tlj dasljs, fjbousj tlas as wlot hjjds tm fj dmhj.

). A oe cyahg ah fjd, wroppjd up ah bmvjrs, ohd kust storahg ot at. A prjijr tlj wocc tm tljbjacahg, fjbousj A boh‑t tmubl tlj bjacahg. At‑s tmm lagl. A ruh ey iahgjrs mvjr tlj frab`s, i jjcahgjobl mhj os A coy tljrj, hmt seacahg, hmt irmwhahg, mr eoyfj jatljr…

A ohswjr Afas‑ qujstamh, –A wratj tm brjotj Yocuj. A wratj tm bopturj tlj wahd.―



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A cmvj ymu.

A, a ‒ hmuh, pcuroc A's mr As, a's mr as.

?. tlj hahtl cjttjr mi tlj Jhgcasl ocplofjt, o vmwjc.

6. ohy spm`jh smuhd rjprjsjhtjd fy tlj cjttjr A mr a, os ah fag, habj, mr sà.

2. smejtlahg lovahg tlj slopj mi oh A.

4. o wrattjh mr prahtjd rjprjsjhtotamh mi tlj cjttjr A mr a.

:. o djvabj, os o prahtjr's typj, imr rjprmdubahg tlj cjttjr A mra.

cmvj ‒ vjrf (usjd watl mfkjbt)

?:. tm lovj cmvj mr oiijbtamh imr; Occ ljr pupacs cmvj ljr.

?9. tm lovj o prmimuhdcy tjhdjr, possamhotj oiijbtamh imr (ohmtljr pjrsmh).

?7. tm lovj o strmhg caàhg imr0 to`j grjot pcjosurj ah; tm cmvj eusab.

?<. tm hjjd mr rjquarj0 fjhjiat grjotcy irme; ^cohts cmvj suhcaglt.

?1. tm jefrobj ohd àss (smejmhj), os o cmvjr.

6>. tm lovj sjxuoc ahtjrbmursj watl.

ymu ‒ prmhmuh

?.tlj prmhmuh mi tlj sjbmhd pjrsmh sahgucor mr pcuroc, usjd mi tlj pjrsmh mr pjrsmhs fjahg oddrjssjd, ah tljhmeahotavj mr mfkjbtavj bosj; Qmu orj tlj lagljst faddjr. At as ymu wlm orj tm fcoej. Wj boh't ljcp ymu. Tlas

pobògj boej imr ymu. Dad slj gavj ymu tlj fmm`=

6. mhj0 ohymhj0 pjmpcj ah gjhjroc; o tahy ohaeoc ymu boh't jvjh sjj.

2. (usjd ah oppmsatamh watl tlj sufkjbt mi o sjhtjhbj, smejtaejs rjpjotjd imr jeplosas imccmwahg tlj sufkjbt);Qmu blacdrjh poy ottjhtamh. Qmu rosboc, ymu!

4. Ahimreoc. (usjd ah pcobj mi tlj prmhmuh ymur fjimrj o gjruhd); Tljrj's hm sjhsj ah ymu gjttahg upsjt.

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Orbloab.o. ymursjci0 ymursjcvjs; Gjt ymu lmej. Eo`j ymu rjody.

f. o pc. imre mi tlj prmhmuh QJ .

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–Fjbousj tljrj eust fj hm io`j rjocaty fjtwjjh us…― tlj vocjdabtmraoh soys, fjgahhahg ljrspjjbl mh tlj doy mi bmccjgj groduotamh. Tlmusohds mi pjmpcj orj tljrj ‒ tlj ioeacy ejefjrs

ohd irajhds mi tlj groduotjs orj rjody imr o spjjbl. Tljy orj rjody tm cjovj.–…A lovj rjsmcvjd tm tjcc ymu tlot ymu, ey bcosseotjs, orj jvadjhbj mi tlj djotl mi eoh. Qmucjorh jhmugl tm iacc ah o fcoh` spobj mh o tjst, ohd imrgjt tlj ahimreotamh tlj hjxt doy. Qmu lovjo 4.> G^O, fut bohhmt pmur o tmh mi stjjc, dravjh fy prahbapocs mi tlj emejht. Qmu gm tm tljcafrory mhcy wljh tljrj as oh jxoe tlj hjxt doy. Qmu bohhmt rjosmh brataboccy. Qmu wacc mhcy obtos ai ymu orj ocavj wljh ymu orj druh`. Qmu fmw tm outlmratajs ymu lovj hjvjr spm`jh tm, ohddjsarj djgrjjs imr ofstrobt rjosmhs ymu bohhmt hoej. Tlj eokmraty mi ymur jdubotamh tmm` pcobjmutsadj tlj bcossrmme ‒ mutsadj tlj bcossrmme, ymu orgujd pmahts watl fosjcjss jemtamhs, ohddruh` ymursjci mut mi tlj ofacaty tm rjejefjr wlm ymu “orj.‑ Qmu djsarjd o kmf tlot eo`js cmts miemhjy, fut wjrj uhwaccahg tm wmr` imr tlj ejtlmd fy wlabl tm gavj ymur emhjy vocuj. Qmu waccbmepcoah ah tlj iuturj wljh ymu iahd ymur ljorts jepty, ohd slmut tlot subl o iotj as hmt ioar,

jvjh tlmugl ymu wacc lovj fmuglt at watl o seacj ohd tlj emtamh mi oh uhtlrjotjhjd lohd.― –Qmu ioacjd tm rjocazj lmw grjot o trogjdy at wos tm fj ofcj tm wotbl o vadjm mi o hotamhoc dasostjrah tlj eaddcj mi o pufcab, hmasy cafrory, saepcy watl tlj emtamh mi mpjhahg up ymur bjcc plmhj.Qmu ioacjd tm rjocazj tlot ymu vajwjd tlas vadjm los oh ossaghejht imr o bcoss, ohd hmtlahg emrj.Qmu dad hmt rjbmghazj ymur mwh djprovaty. Qmu wjht tm bcoss durahg tlj wjj` imr tlj portajs mhtlj wjj`jhd. Lod ymu wjht tm bcoss durahg tlj wjj` imr tlj pjmpcj mh tlj wjj`jhd, A wmucd hmt

fj kudg ahg ymu mh tlas doy, imr pjmpcj orj tlj smurbj mi vocuj.―–A oe tjccahg ymu occ tlas sm tlot ymu boh blohgj ymur woys ohd obbueucotj vocuj ah ymur caij. Awmucd lovj fjjh o lypmbratj tm stohd ljrj tmdoy ohd ijjd ymu o spjjbl ofmut subbjss ohd ymur

fraglt iuturj. A wmucd lovj fjjh miijrahg ymu o io`j rjocaty. A rjiusj tm cavj ah cajs. Tljrj boh fjhm Cmvj wljrj tljrj as io`jhjss0 io`jhjss as tlj fmrdjr mi Cmvj. A oe dravjh fy irmhtajrs. Rmtmdoy, ah tlj suhcaglt, hmt ah tlj dor`hjss mr ah o fosjejht, os ymur sjbrjt smbajtajs sm mitjhbmhgrjgotj watlah imr tlj so`j mi o “emroc gmmd‑ tlot as suppmsjdcy tmm fraglt tm fj dasbussjd ahtlj mpjh ohd ah tlj caglt, A oe miijrahg ymu trutl. A oe miijrahg ymu o spjjbl tlot wacc obtuoccyeo`j o daiijrjhbj ah ymur cai j. Tloh` ymu.―

Tlj vocjdabtmraoh iahasljs ljr spjjbl.

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A seacj.–Tm gjt bcoss stortjd mh tlas iarst doy mi bcossjs, A woht ymu tm ahtrmdubj tlj pjrsmh hjxt tm ymu.Tlas wacc fj oh abjfrjo`jr. Rm, toc` watl tlj pjrsmh hjxt tm ymu imr o cattcj fat, ahtrmdubj ymursjci,ohd tljh tjcc tlje wly ymu blmsj tm to`j tlas bcoss. Tljh, wj‑cc bmej fob` tmgjtljr ahtm o corgjgrmup, ohd ahtrmdubj mhj ohmtljr tm tlj wlmcj bcoss.―

A toc` tm tlj pjrsmh hjxt tm ej. A wos ah ohmtljr bcoss watl tlas garc. Rlj storts tocàhgwatlmut tjccahg ej ljr hoej, fjbousj mi bmursj A ocrjody `hmwh ljr hoej. Wj toc` o cmt ohd sljtjccs ej slj as ah tlas bcoss kust fjbousj,–Wly hmt=―

Wj toc` o cmt. Jvjhtuoccy A os` ljr imr ljr iarst hoej. Rlj sagls. A lotj hmt fjahg ofcj tmrjejefjr hoejs. A‑e owiuc watl hoejs. A lotj tlje. Tljy orj arrjcjvoht, A tlah`.–Rm wly orj ymu toàhg tlas bcoss=―

A seacj,–A woht tm bmeporj ohd bmhtrost emdjcs mi jquocaty imuhd ah hotamhocase, jbmhmeabs, ohdsmbajty, ohd tm sjj wlabl prmgroes saepcy emhjtazj tlj prmfcje, ohd wlabl mhjs iax at, ohdwly. Imr jxoepcj - A woht tm sjj ai Oiiareotavj Obtamh dmjs jhmugl. Vaglt hmw, at gjhjroccy cjts

pjmpcj ah ot o daiijrjht stohdord, ohd tljh cjovjs tlje mut tm dry. At dmjs hmt dm jhmugl. Ot tljsoej taej, tlj pjmpcj wlm ijjc dasbraeahotjd ogoahst jstofcasl ahstatutamhs tm iagltdasbraeahotamh, ohd jhd up ahstatutamhocazahg ohd sjbucorazahg jhtatajs ca`j Oiiareotavj Obtamh,wlabl turhs at irme o ejohs ahtm oh jhd. Hm cmhgjr dmjs at sjj` tm mhj doy hm cmhgjr hjjd tm fjhjjdjd fjbousj jquocaty los fjjh oblajvjd, rotljr at sjj`s tm ocwoys jxast tm ocwoys stravj imrjquocaty. Mdd, yjs= Tlj Hotamh Rtotj mr tlj Emdjrh Rtotj wos brjotjd ah mrdjr tm eo`j pmssafcjoh jbmhmeab rjcotamhslap, ohd tm strjhgtljh tlj rjobl ohd pmwjr mi bjhtroc fohàhg. Hotamh stotjusj o ijor mr vabtae fosjd ejhtocaty tm djiahj atsjci cjst at fj obbusjd mi robase, dasbraeahotamh,ahjquocaty…yjt tlj hotamh stotj as ahljrjhtcy dasbraeahotmry. At los tm fj tm eo`j oh jxbcusavjtrutl bcoae, ohd at los tm eo`j oh jxbcusavj trutl bcoae ah mrdjr tm jxast ahdjpjhdjht mi mtljrhotamh stotjs. Adjhtaty as pmssafcj tloh`s tm vabtaeazotamh mr ljrmase tlot at boh bmeporj ohdbmhtrost atsjci tm. O hotamh as djiahjd fy ats vabtmry mr djijot ah o wor ogoahst mtljr stotjs,ahkustabj, djlueohazahg adjos…Tm fj o ljrm, ymu hjjd o vabtae, ohd tlot vabtae eaglt fjymursjci. Fcob`s lovj oh adjhtaty bmefotahg robase, Oejrabo fjotahg tljar imjs ah tlj wmrcd worsohd mvjrbmeahg tlj dart ohd eud watl bopatocase, kust imr o ijw jxoepcjs. Adjhtaty as ocwoysrmmtjd ah fjahg o vabtae mr o ljrm. Wly dmjs adjhtaty, o bmepcjx rmmtjd ah ljrmase ohdvabtaeazotamh, eottjr tm us= As at fjbousj adjhtaty gavjs us smejtlahg tm dm= As… (Tlot smuhds ca`jo ropj.) …o smbaoc hotamh stotj aepmssafcj= Rubl o stotj wmucd fj oh adjhtaty irjj mi lajrorbly.Fut as lueohaty ahljrjhtcy lajrorblaboc ‒ lmem lajrorblabus = Tlj hotamh mr emdjrh stotj as tljmppmsatj mi Rmbaocase, fjbousj tlj hotamh stotj jxasts imr tlj so`j mi Bopatocase. Hmtj tlot tljrjocaty mi, mr djgrjj wj borj ofmut, robj/rjocty/(smbaoc assujs) as bmhtahgjht mh tlj vatocaty mi murjbmhmey. Tljrjimrj, wj eust fj borjiuc tlot tlj twm dmh‑t bmhtrodabt. ( Truj Rmbaocase 5 HmGmvjrhejht 5 Fjst Bopatocase. Dmjs Fag Gmvjrhejht 5 Bmrpmrotase 5 Mcagorbly= Vohd‑sBopatocase 5 Truj Rmbaocase 5 Truj Bopatocase 5 Bmepcjtj Irjjdme mi Ahdavaduoc 5 Truj

Adjhtaty= Rm Bmrpmrotase (hmt 5) Bopatocase= Bmhtrodabtamh 5 Rmbaocase os o Hotamh Rtotj. Asmhcy woy smbaocase boh jxast as os o hotamh stotj= Rm Rmbaocase hjjds tm fjbmej

Eorxase/Gcmfoc= Tlot‑s o cmt mi jggs ah mhj fos`jt, fut tlj hjbjssory ras` imr porodasj. Yocujbohhmt fj oblajvjd watlmut dohgjrmus ras`. Wmucd wj dorj ras` fjahg gmds= Dm wj lovj ohmfcagotamh tm to`j tlot ras`= Rm… ) Rm, mh tlot hmtj, dmjs “o bmhvjrsotamh mh fcob`hjss‑(ahljrjhtcy) ( 5/) jquoc “o bmhvjrsotamh mh jquocaty,‑ ohd dmjs “o bmhvjrsotamh mh jquocaty‑



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(ahljrjhtcy) ( 5/) jquoc “o bmhvjrsotamh mh ioarhjss.‑ Tlas as occ tlj soej qujstamh oh d at as tlj fagqujstamh. Ah mtljr wmrds, dmjs ohy bmhvjrsotamh mh adjhtaty, rotljr at fj ah tlj bmhtjxt mi o hotamh,o rjcagamh, o robj…(ahljrjhtcy) ( 5/ )jquoc o bmhvjrsotamh mh jquocaty= Fjbousj tlot as tlj bosj aiadjhtaty as bmhtahgjht mh ljrmase mr vabtaeazotamh. Wjcc, jquocaty (5/) jquoc ioarhjss0 imr jxoepcj,rjgucotahg tlj iahohbaoc sjbtmr as oh jiimrt tm eo`j ovjrogj pjmpcj “jquoc‑ watl tlj pjmpcj

ruhhahg tlj jbmhmey. Wljh wj try tm eo`j smejtlahg “ioar‑ wj orj tryahg tm eo`j twm gavjhtlahgs jquoc ohd wj try tm eo`j tlahgs jquoc ah mrdjr tm eo`j tlahgs ioar. Jquocaty (5/)jquocsioarhjss.―

Wljhjvjr A soy tlj wmrcd “jquoc,‑ A lovj tm try lord hmt tm soy “jquoc -sagh-scosl- ioar0‑ Atlah` “5/jquoc‑ tlmugl0 A bohhmt ljcp at. A hjjd tm stmp roefcahg ohd sp jo` ah davadjd porogropls0tlot wacc ljcp odvohbj tlj bmhvjrsotamh. A oe fcurrahg jvjrytlahg tmgjtljr, os ai A wjrj eaxahgbmcmrs tlot slmucd hmt mr bohhmt fj eaxjd, mr aghmrahg tlje occ tmgjtljr.–Tljrj as hmtlahg wrmhg watl “fcob`hjss‑ ohd wjfsatjs tlot botjr tm tlot oudajhbj os cmhg os

pjmpcj sjj tlje ah tlj “raglt caglt,‑ os robaoc rotljr tloh robast. Vobaoc ejohs daiijrjhbjs ohdadjos mi daiijrjhbjs0 robast ejohs sjporotast mr ohtogmhastab tmword tlj robaoc. Tm fj robaoc as tm

pmaht mut tlj daiijrjhbj ah tlj pajbjs tlot eo`j up tlj soej puzzcj. Tm fj robast as tm obt ca`j mhj

pajbj as tlj wlmcj puzzcj. Tlas as immcasl, os immcasl os cavahg “bmcmrfcahd‑ ‒ cavahg os ai occ tlj pajbjs wjrj tlj soej. Wlot puzzcj as eodj mi mhj (àhd mi) pajbj= Jquocaty mrgohazotamhs jxasttm bmefot dasbraeahotamh. Ai tljy jxast tm djijot tlj robasts, tljy orj vjry gmmd0 ai tljy jxast tmdjijot tlj robaoc, tljy wacc pjrpjtuotj ahjquocaty, jvjh tlmugl tljy jxast tm djijot ahjquocaty. Tlasas o iahj cahj. Fj worhjd tlot o prmgroe imr jquocaty tlot as kust oh adjo wacc djstrmy tlj spjbaiabsohd rjocaty mr wmrcd wj ahlofat.―–Ah emst eahds, robj mhcy oppcajs tm hmh -wlatjs. Hmh-wlatjs dm hmt lovj o robj. Tlas as immcasl.Tlas as tm fjahg “bmcmrfcahd,‑ os as obtahg os ai fcob` pjmp cj dm hmt lovj fcob` sàh. Tlas dmjs hmtsmcvj tlj prmfcje mi “bmcmr0‑ at djhajs tlj prmfcje jxasts. Tlus, tlj prmfcje as hmt smcvjd. Tlj

prmfcje as ahstatutamhocazjd. Wj orj ocwoys uhjquoc. Fut tlot‑s gmmd fjbousj tlot gavjs ussmejtlahg tm bmepcoah ofmut , raglt=― –Rtotjejhts ca`j “Jvjryfmdy‑s jquoc‑ mr “Gmd eodj occ mi us.‑ orj voguj ohd ofstrobtamhs tlotlovj os eubl wjaglt os hmtlahghjss. Tlot‑s wly wj dmh‑t eahd soyahg subl tlahgs fut orjsborjd tm spjo` ah spjbaiabs, ca`j “fcob` pjmpcj orj jquoc watl wlatj pjmpcj.‑ Tljy orj oiroad tljywacc eo`j tljar blacd sjj bmcmr, wlabl as mdd, fjbousj porjhts tjobl tljar blacdrjh tm adjhtatybmcmrs ah pabturj fmm`s. Blacdrjh hoturoccy try tm botjgmrazj jvjrytlahg, ohd tljy dm tlot watlwlot as emstcy bcjorcy vasafcj. Tlj froh hoturoccy gjhjrocazjs ohd botjgmrazjs tm eo`j tlj wmrcdsaepcjr ohd josajr tm uhdjrstohdahg0 ah blacdrjh, at dmjs tlas ot o emrj ahtjhsj rotj, imr tljrj orjsm eohy uhiahasljd “lmcjs‑ tm fj iaccjd ohd froah warjs tm fj bmhhjbtjd up sm tlot o r jocaty boh fjjstofcasl iarecy…sm tlot tljrj boh fj o grmuhd irme wlabl tm cait “tlj uhavjrsj irme mii atslahgjs.‑ Blacdrjh iacc tlj lmcj cjit ah tlje fy aghmrahg sàh bmcmr watl jssjhtaocase ‒ tlj hoturocossueptamh tlot tlmsj watl saeacor oppjorohbjs slorj saeacor blorobtjrastabs. Rm wj sjci-sjgrjgotjmursjcvjs ahtm tlmsj grmups, o pljhmejhmh saeacor tm wlot as sjjh ah pmcatabs. Tlas hmt o prmpjrgrmuhd0 tlj uhavjrsj bohhmt fj caitjd mh sahàhg sohd.―–Dm wj eo`j tlahgs wmrsj mr fjttjr fy boccahg ottjht amh tm robj= Ejhtamhahg robj ahljrjhtcybrjotjs o robaoc bmhstrubt, fut ymu eust rjocazj tlot hmt soyahg smejtlahg ofmut robj dmjs tljsoej tlahg. Tm stoy sacjht as tm tjobl tlot robj jquocs hmtlahg, ohd imr blacdrjh tlot as hmt gmmdjhmugl ‒ tljy lovj tm iacc tlot uhiahasljd lmcj. Rahbj bucturj pusljs aeogjs mi fcob` rjprjsjhtahg“jvac‑ ah pcoyiuc bortmmhs ohd emvajs, pjrlops tlot as tlj ejohahg blacdrjh wacc osbrafj tm atuhcjss porjhts bmuhtjr tlot ossueptamh spjbaiaboccy. Ah o blacd‑s wmrcd, jvjrytlahg los tm lovj



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ejohahg0 tlot wly tljy ocwoys os` “Wlot as tlas=‑ mr “Wly dmjs/as…=‑ Rm wljh ymu obt ca`jsmejtlahg ejohs hmtlahg, ymu cjovj o lmcj ah tlje tlot tljy cmhg tm lovj iaccjd. Tljy bohhmtobbjpt “hmtlahghjss‑ os oh jxpcohotamh0 blacdrjh `hmw tlot as o cmgaboc ioccoby. Dm ymu=―

Ah Gmd, cmmàhg tmword tlj Zhsjjh, ai watl tlj Vaglt vasamh, mhj oppcajs tlj pljhmejhmh mijssjhtaocase tm tlj Trohsbjhdjht prahbapcj mi x/pjrsmh, tlus uhaiyahg mhj watl occ ‒ ME.

–^jmpcj tlah` tlj strotjgy mi fjahg “bmcmrfcahd‑ wmr`s pjrijbtcy, yjt tljy lovj hm rjosmh tm tlahàt dmjs mr tlot at dmjsh‑t. Hmtabj lmw wj ossuej ah iovmr mi wlot wj dm. Ah o bmcmrfcahd wmrcd,tlj emrj davjrsj o sblmmc, tlj emrj àds sjci-sjgrjgotj fy robj ohd jtlhabaty. Qjs, tlas dmjsejoh tlot bla cdrjh slmucd lovj “pradj‑ ah tljar bmcmr ohd jtlhabaty ohd “lmej‑ (hmt lmusj/prasmh)ohd “sjrvoht -lmmd‑ (hmt scovjry0 hmtj ‒ o sjrvoht dmjs hmt lovj tm lovj o eostjr0 A boh sjrvj ymuohd fj o sjrvoht fy miijrahg tm eo`j ymu tjo). Ai tlas hmtamh lmrraiajs ymu, pcjosj rjocazj tlotblacdrjh outmeotaboccy dm tlot, ohd mhcy porjhts wlm ob`hmwcjdgj at boh ljcp at prmpjrcydjvjcmp. Fjbousj bmcmrs orj rjocaty ‒ fcahdhjss as o djiabajhby mi rjocaty. At dmjs hmt frahg usbcmsjr tm Gmd mr mur sjci. Gmd as Bmcmriuc, osorj Wj.― –A dmh‑t lovj o bcuj ofmut wlot ymu kust soad0 wlot ah tlj wmrcd orj ymu gjttahg ot=― ey porthjrahquarjs suddjhcy. A gmt cmst ah eysjci ogoah. A oe subl oh adamt. A kust stortjd roefcahg, ca`j o

roefcahg eoh mr o eoh mi wocàhg bmhtrodabtamhs.–Rtmp jvjrymhj!― tlj prmijssmr bmeeohds, –Bmej fob` irme ymur cattcj barbcjs fob` ahtm tlj fagbarbcj. Cjt‑s ahtrmdubj mhj ohmtljr. A wacc stort. A oe ^rmijssmr Wmmcimr`, ohd ey burrjht rjsjorblas boccjd “Fcob` 6.>,‑ ohd at djocs watl jxpcmrahg lmw “Hjt 6.>‑ slopjs fcob`hjss ah tlas bmuhtry. Aoe dmahg cmts mi rjsjorbl mh smbaoc hjtwmr`s ohd bjcc plmhj bucturj tm sjj lmw OirabohOejrabohs prjsjht tljesjcvjs mvjr tlj hjt. Tljrj as o rmeohtab irjjdme watl tlj ahtjrhjt ohd

fcob`hjss tlot ah tmdoy‑s ahtjrhjt d ravjh wmrcd bmefahj tmgjtljr, ohd at as tlot iusamh wlabl A oeahtjrjstjd ah.‑

Tlot smuhds rjoccy ahtjrjstahg. Rm slj wohts tm rjsjorbl mh wlot jxobtcy “fcob`hjss‑ as ahoh ogj wljh pjmpcj gm tm tlj grohd bohymh tm bmhiare pabturjs tljy‑vj sjjh mi at, rot ljr tloh tmjxpjrajhbj tlj grohd bohymh= Tlot smuhds ca`j smejtlahg A oe ahtjrjstjd ah. A bmucd wratj owlmcj fmm` mh adjhtaty ah subl oh ogj. Eoyfj A ocrjody oe. Eoyfj A oe hmw.

Tlj hjxt grmup ahtrmdubjs tljesjcvjs, ohd tljh tlj hjxt, ohd tljh tlj prmijssmr soys,–Dad yow jvjh toc` tm mhj ohmtljr= Qmu dmh‑t lovj ohytlahg tm soy!―

A seacj0 ey porthjr ohd A toc`jd o cmt. Rlj‑cc fj aeprjssjd. Wj gm ormuhd tlj barbcj,ahtrmdubahg mhj ohmtljr, mhj fy mhj. Emst pjmpcj, at turhs mut, lod hm rjosmh imr toàhg tlj bcoss.Tljy kust dad. Tljy lovj hm djiahatj purpmsj. Tljy dm hmt bcoae tlj bcoss os tljar mwh. Tljy kustlovj tm iahasl o rjquarjejht tm gjt tljar eokmr.

A ahtrmdubj ey porthjr, ohd tljh slj ahtrmdubjs ej,–Zbbjccm as o Vjcagamh ohd Jhgcasl Eokmr ohd lj as toàhg tlas bcoss, fjbousj…wjcc…lj tmm`tlas bcoss tm sjj ai, ue…tm sjj ai adjos mi adjhtaty ‒ hm ‒ uee…ai prmgroes ca`j oiiareotavjobtamh obtuoccy sjrvj tm pjrpjtuotj ahjquocaty rotljr tloh gjt rad mi at .―

Tlj tjobljr hmds ohd wratjs smejtlahg dmwh. Jvjrymhj ah tlj bcoss hmw tlah`s A fjcajvjoiiareotavj obtamh as uhioar tm wlatjs. A oe hmw o wlatj, smutljrh bmhsjrvotavj. A oe hmwsmejmhj wlm los hjvjr tlmuglt ofmut tlj assuj mi robj. Iarst aeprjssamhs orj rjoccy aepmrtoht.Tljy sjt tlj tmhj imr tlj jhtarjty mi tlj rjcotamhslap.

Rlj dad o lmrrafcj kmf ot ahtrmdubahg ej. Rlj dmjs hmt tlah` ofmut at ohyemrj. Rlj dad ljr kmf ‒ slj dad hmt dm at wjcc mr fod0 slj kust dad at. Tljrj wos hm emrj pmaht tm at tloh tlot.–A wmucd ca`j tm to`j o ijw eahutjs tm cmm` mvjr tlj syccofus.― tlj prmijssmr soys, –Ai jvjrymhjwmucd to`j tlot mut, A wmucd opprjbaotj at. A tmcd ymu tm praht at mii. Dmjs ohymhj hjjd jxtros=



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A ijw pjmpcj soy yjs. Taej possjs.–A hjjd mhj.― A soy. A woatjd0 A dad hmt tlah` A wmucd hjjd mhj. Tljrj orj hmhj cjit. A dad hmt`hmw A hjjdjd tm praht mii tlj syccofus. At wos o ejohahgcjss bmhijssamh. Tlj prmijssmr dmjs hmtsoy ohytlahg ohd storts tocàhg ofmut wlot as mh tlj syccofus.–Frmtljr…― A ljor ah o scaglt, rljtmraboc gaggcj. A jhd up hmt hjjdahg o syccofus ot occ. A boh josacy

rjejefjr jvjrytlahg slj soys ohd ocrjody `hjw emst mi at. Jvjrymhj `hmws tlj wlatj smutljrhimrgmt las. A ohswjrjd tlj prmijssmr‑s qujstamh. Tljy occ tlah` A oe oh adamt. Tljy occ tlah` A oe o robast adamt.

Ey lohd as sloàhg. Bcoss storts. Ey lohd as sloàhg.Tljy occ tlah` A oe oh adamt. A lotj iarst doys mi bcoss. A ocwoys eo`j subl o fod aeprjssamh.

Tlj bcoss storts tocàhg. Qmu jvjr hmtabj lmw ahtjccjbtuoc bmhvjrsotamhs orj ocwoys ofmuttlj tmpab tljy stort mii dasbussahg, yjt tlrmuglmut tlj daocmguj, tlot tmpab sjjes daiijrjht,

fjbousj tlj dasbmursj emvjs irme tlj gjhjroc tm tlj spjbaiab= Tlj spjbaiab as bmhtoahjd ah tljgjhjroc0 o bmhvjrsotamh as tlj prmbjss mi rjocazahg tlot. At as saeacor tm lmw ymu stort tlahàhg,wljh ymu orj iarst ahtrmdubjd tm smejmhj, ofmut tlj bmcmr mi tljar sàh ohd tlj woy tljy toc`, ohdlmw tlot prmfofcy ejoht tlas mr tlot, ohd tlot tljy tlmuglt mi ymu pmmrcy.

Ey tlrmot as bcmggjd ohd A bohhmt soy ohytlahg. A soad cost haglt oitjr oh lmur cmhgdaocmguj tlot A cmvjd tm toc`. A bohhmt soy ohytlahg hmw. A cmvj bmhvjrsotamh. A lotj tlas. A cmm` otey hmtjs. A lotj spjoàhg ah bcoss. Hm mhj jvjr uhdjrstohds wlot A oe gjttahg ot. A wacc fj frovjtlmugl0 A hjjd tm soy smejtlahg. Tlj tjobljr wacc fj upsjt ai A dm hmt. A roasj ey lohd. Tlj

prmijssmr occmws ej tm spjo`,–A tlah` at as josajr imr porjhts tm toc` ofmut wmeoh lovahg tlj soej kmf os ejh tloh robj,

fjbousj mbbupotamhs orj dastoht ohd ah tlj iuturj, tljy orj hmt smejtlahg blacdrjh orj darjbtcyiobahg tmdoy. Tlj bmcmr mi mtljr blacdrjh‑s sàh tlmugl, as smejtlahg tljy lovj tm djoc watl0 at ashmt trohsbjhdjht ohd ahtohgafcj. Ca`jwasj, porjhts orj waccahg tm soy “jvjrymhj as jquoc,‑ fjbousjtlas as hmt spjbaiab0 at as kust o gjhjroc ofstrobtamh ohd ocsm ahtohgafcj.―

Tlj prmijssmr ahtjrkjbts,–A dasogrjj watl tlot tlmugl fjbousj blacdrjh wacc pcoy goejs mi aeogahotamh. Tljy‑cc prjtjhdca`j smejmhj as tlj dmbtmr, smejmhj as tlj iarjia gltjr, ohd sm mh. Fut robj as tofmm0 tlot‑s tljeoah rjosmh wly porjhts dmh‑t toc` ofmut at.―

Fut tlj aeogahotamh as stacc trohsbjhdjht ohd ahtohgafcj. Tlot as wlot A wos gjttahg ot. Mi bmursjrobj as tofmm. Tlot‑s fjbousj at‑s o tohgafcj daiijrjhbj. Tohgafcj daiijrjhbjs orj tofmm. Vjocaty astofmm. Tlot‑s wly at gmjs mh djgjhjrotahg uhahtjrruptjd. Tlot‑s wly robaoc ahjquocaty

pjrpjtuotjs ahdjiahatjcy.Tlas as hmt o bmhvjrsotamh. Ey blohbj tm spjo` as dmhj. Tlj bcoss hmw `hmws tlot A `hmw

hmtlahg ofmut robj. A oe tlj mhcy studjht ah tlj jhtarj bcoss slj dasogrjjd watl. A dasogrjj watltlj vocadaty mi ljr dasogrjjejht. Rlj as tlj prmijssmr. A oe wrmhg.

Bcoss jhds. A stacc lovj tlj rjspmhsj tm tlj twm ortabcjs tlj prmijssmr lod us rjod imr bcosstmdoy.–Dm wj hjjd tm turh ah tlj porogropl wj wrmtj brataquahg tlj twm ortabcjs=― A os`, lmcdahg wlot A

prahtjd mut. Tlj studjht slo`js ljr ljod,–Hm ‒ slj los ymu wratj tlot sm ymu boh ljcp ymursjci tlah` bcjorcy.―

A dm hmt tlah` tlj prmijssmr jvjr hmtabjd occ tlj hmtjs bmvjrahg ey popjrs. Ey djor Rastjrcjovjs watl o wovj ohd o seacj. Rlj sow jvjrytlahg.

Ai A wos ocmhj tlas wmucd hjvjr loppjh.Mitjh, ey iarst doy ah o bcoss as owiuc…



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Jvjrytlahg ymu kust rjod, wlmjvjr ymu orj wlm as rjodahg tlas, as wlot A wrmtj dmwhaeejdaotjcy oitjr tlj bcoss ymu kust rjod ofmut at. Eoyfj tlot occ loppjhjd sm tlot A bmucd wratj

tlas. A wrmtj wlot ymu orj rjodahg hmw fjbousj A tlah` ymu slmucd `hmw tlot A ijct ca`j A wosusahg o bjcc plmhj wlacj A wrmtj at. A tlah` tlot as oh aepmrtoht djtoac A cjit mut. Eoyfj A wohtjd tmimrgjt.

A tlah` ymu slmucd ocsm `hmw tlot A lovj gmttjh tm tlj pmaht tlot A oe hmt surj ai A ijjcohytlahg wlacj A‑e wratahg ofmut ijjcahg cmts mi tlahgs.

A swjor tm ymu tlot ey Rastjr as oh ohgjc0 slj dohbjs ohd ljr jyjs slahj sm fragltcy tlottlj Ruh as sjjh watlah tlje.

A brahgj wljh A sjj Rastjr fjahg Fjoutaiuc. O djemh as ah ej. A swjor tm ymu, o djemh asah ej! O djemh los shotbljd ej up watl ahvasafcj warjs. Bursj ymu grovaty! Bursj tlj djemhs!

Tlj emrj Fjoutaiuc ohd ^jrijbt imr ej slj fjbmejs, tlj emrj tjeptjd A oe tm ruh tmohmtljr wlm A `hmw wacc Zctaeotjcy cjod ej tm ey djstrubtamh. Wly as tljrj o djsarj tm woc`

bcmsjr tm oh jdgj= Tljrj as hmtlahg tm goah irme fjahg bcmsjr fut o grjotjr blohbj mi ioccahg tmtlj djeasj ymu dm hmt woht. Dm wj dm at imr tlj tlracc= A ijjc hm tlracc. A ijjc ca`j oh adamt.A kust bmpajd ohd postjd tlot ahtm oh ahstoht-ejssogj fmx mh obbadjht tm tlj garc A ruh irme

Rastjr tm ohd ocemst, mr dad, lat jhtjr. A dmh‑t tlah` at eottjrs. A lovj sjjh lmw irogacj ey caij as ‒ lmw eubl at as ca`j gcoss.

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Tlj emst aepmrtoht placmsmplaboc-tljmcmgaoh stacc ocavj tmdoy as bmeahg tm tlj uhavjrsatytm tjobl. Lj los hjvjr touglt fjimrj0 uhavjrsatajs lovj fjggjd lae tm, fut lj los ocwoys rjiusjd,bmhsadjrahg at fjhjotl lae ohd aepmssafcj tm stmmp tm tlj cjvjc mi tjoblahg. Lj icmotjd tmm lagltm djsbjhd. Lj wos djsbrafjd os oh ohgjc wlmsj wahgs bmucd hmt stmp fjotahg. A oe ahtjrjstjd tmsjj wlot tlot cmm`jd ca`j mh jortl.

A stjp ahtm tlj bcoss. Lj sats ot tlj ljod mi tlj tofcj. Tlj bloars orj occ iaccjd. Lj storjsoljod fcoh`cy. Tlj mhcy bloars cjit orj tlj mhjs raglt hjxt tm lae. Hmfmdy wohtjd tlmsj. Tlj

prmijssmr emtamhs tmword mhj mi tlj bloars. A gm ohd sat. A cmm` up. Lj as storahg oljod. Tljrj ascmts mi blottahg ah tlj rmme fjtwjjh tlj studjhts. Hmfmdy toc`s tm lae. Jvjrymhj wos tryahg tm

prjtjhd tlot lj wos hmt tljrj.–Lmw orj ymu tmdoy prmijssmr=― A os` watl o seacj, fjbo usj hm mhj jcsj wmucd. Tlj blottahg ahtlj rmme quajts dmwh o cattcj. Tljy orj emstcy groduotj studjhts. Tljy orj slmb`jd. Tljy `hmw Amfvamuscy eust hmt `hmw tlot lj as mhj mi tlj emst aepmrtoht pjmpcj ocavj tmdoy. Lj turhs lasljod tmword ej. Ey jyjs ejjt las. Lj as tlj uctro-obodjeab Blrastaoh. Lj sborjs ej. Djemhs dmhmt sborj ej.

Wljh smejmhj soys ljccm tm ymu, ymu slmucd soy ljccm fob`. Qmu slmucd hmt storj ottlje watl o scaglt hmd. Ohywoys…bcoss storts fjbousj lj cmm`s ot las wotbl ohd sjjs hm rjos mhhmt tm stort, wlabl A iahd mdd imr mhj tm bmhsadjr os o rjosmh. Lj kust toc`s. Lj toc`s scmwcy. Ljtoc`s watl o tlab` obbjht. A lovj hm bcuj wlot lj as soyahg.

Tlas bcoss as uhfjorofcy fmrahg. Fmrjdme boh fj uhfjorofcj. At as mhj mi tlj ijw tlahgstlot boh fj ahsuiijrofcj. Iury as o cagltjr cmod.



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A wacc drmp mut mi tlas bcoss. A `hmw at aeejdaotjcy. A wacc hmt spjhd tlrjj lmurs jvjrywjj` iagltahg tm `jjp eysjci owo`j. A lovj pcjhty A eust tlah` ofmut, ohd ai A oe gmahg tm scjjp,at wacc hmt fj ca`j tlas. Tlas smrt mi scjjp as tlj ohtatljsas mi scjjp, sm at hoturoccy los tlj soejoppjorohbj, fut tlot ejohs hmtlahg.

A study tlj cjgjhdory prmijssmr. Lj wos o cjgjhd tm ej fjimrj A ejt lae0 lj wos o cjgjhd

wljh A tlmuglt ofmut eysjci. Las caps orj burvjd, las sàh icaesy, las vmabj jemtamhcjss, ohd las fmdy ohbajht wlacj sm ymuhg. Lj turhs tmword ej imr smej rjosmh. Ey jyjs ejt las jyjs. A oecmmàhg ahtm tlj vmad. A sjj eysjci. A sjj wlm A bmucd fj. A sjj wlm A wacc fj. A lovj tm `jjp tlotirme loppjhahg.

A oe hmt aeprjssjd fy tlj prmijssmr. A oe dasoppmahtjd. A wos cmmàhg imrword tm toàhglas bcoss. ^jrlops tlot as wly at turhjd mut sm owiuc.

Lj as tlj emst jvac eoh A lovj jvjr ejt. Lj dmjs hmt swjor, obt vamcjhtcy, tlah` ofmutsjxuocaty aeprmpjrcy…Lj as tlj emst caijcjss. Lj as tlj emst ca`j hmtlahghjss. Caijcjsshjss bohdm ior emrj lore tm tlj cavahg tloh boh smejtlahg ca`j swmrds, pmasmh, mr jemtamhs. Tljrj as hmcaij ah las jyjs, kust jhdcjss `hmwcjdgj. Ca`j o djjp lmcj. A wasl A boh tlrmw o rmb` ahtm at, ohdcastjh tlj smuhd at wmucd eo`j wljh at lat tlj fmttme. A wmucd ljor hmtlahg0 A wmucd ljor

smejtlahg A wmucd hjvjr woht tm ljor ogoah.Lmw dm A hmt fjbmej tlot=Tlj bcoss as iaccjd emstcy watl groduotj studjhts. Wj toc` ofmut “Kjsus‑ tlj Trahaty,

Grobj, Rocvotamh…ohd tljrj as hm jemtamh ah tlj rmme. Tlj groduotj studjhts, emst mi wlabl orjocsm tjobljr ossastohts, kust sat, castjh, ohd to`j hmtjs, drjoeahg mi o pajbj mi popjr bmhiareahg tmtlj wmrcd tlot tljy orj ahtjccagjht ohd lovj vocuj. A oe surj emst mi tlje lovj pjrijbt grodj

pmaht ovjrogjs. A oe surj emst mi tlje lovj o lord taej hmt tocàhg post tljar ioeacy. A boh sjjhmhj mi tlje os` tlj pjmpcj hjxt tm tlje ofmut lmw tljy orj dmahg. Tljy orj sattahg watl ej ah obcoss cjorhahg ofmut Kjsus. Kjsus toc`jd tm jvjrymhj. Wj wratj hmtjs dmwh ofmut Kjsus sacjhtcy.Tlas los vocuj ai wj jhd up usahg at tm toc` tm pjmpcj fjttjr. A bohhmt fjcajvj tlas bcoss as sm

fmrahg. At as fjbousj tlj groduotj studjhts occ woht tm fj smejmhj ohd tljy orj uhsurj wlm tlotsmejmhj as. Tlj prmijssmr obbjpts tlot hmfmdy uhdjrstohds lae. Rm lj as arrjcjvoht. Ca`j o fmxtlot bohhmt fj mpjhjd bmhtoahahg gmcd. Mhj rjbmghazjs fy ats wjaglt tlot at bmhtoahs smejtlahg,

fut jvjhtuoccy, tlot tlmuglt stmps fjahg pmhdjrjd0 at as hmt tljrj jvjh wljh tlj fmx as fjahgcaitjd tm fj tlrmwh mvjr tlj fradgj.

Lmw dm A ovmad fjbmeahg ca`j tljsj druhòrds=Tlj prmijssmr sats ocmhj durahg o tjh eahutj frjo`. Lj bljb`jd las wotbl bmhstohtcy

durahg tlj sjssamh, woatahg imr tlas frjo` tlot lj lod tlj pmwjr tm stort ot ohytaej. Lj sats mh obmubl, storahg ot tlj wocc.

A wmhdjr lmw tlj grjot placmsmpljrs ijjc tm daj ohd Ahstohtcy `hmw jvjrytlahg ohd tmAhstohtcy `hmw at dmjs hmt eottjr. A dmh‑t woht tm jhd up ca`j tlot. Lmw dmh‑t A=

Tlj prmijssmr imrsmm` jemtamhs imr ahtjccjbt. Lj tmm` cafrory fmm`s mvjr las Frmtljr ohdRastjr. Lj as tlj emst lmrrafcj pjrsmh A lovj jvjr ejt0 lj `hmws emrj tljmcmgy, placmsmply, ohdlos rjod emrj fmm`s tloh ohymhj A lovj jvjr ejt. Lj as oh ahbrjdafcj eostjr mi iobts, ohdahbrjdafcy sloccmw, ca`j o fmdy tlot as kust o fmdy. Ai A wos ocavj wlacj lj wos o blacd, `hmwahgwlm lj wmucd fjbmej, A wmucd lovj furhjd jvjry fmm` A bmucd iahd, ohd try tm to`j lae owoy tmo djsjrtjd ascohd wljrj lj wmucd grmw ca`j oh adamt, `hmwahg mhcy lmw tm luht, jot, ohd cougl.Fut A wos fmrh tmm cotj. Rurjcy lj wasljd tlot pjrsmh wmucd lovj bmej wljh lj wos o blacd0 ymuboh sjj at ah las jyjs. Wljh lj cmm`jd ot ej, A bmucd ljor lae os` “Wly wjrjh‑t ymu tljrj tmto`j ej owoy= Wly wjrjh‑t ymu tljrj tm furh up occ tlj fmm`s=‑ Lj fcoejd ej. Lj fcoejd



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jvjrymhj lj cmm`jd ot imr hmt sovahg lae, ohd lj jspjbaoccy fcoejd tlmsj wlm dadh‑t jvjh try,wlabl wos jvjrymhj. Tlot as wly lj jspjbaoccy fcoejd tlj blacdrjh. Tljy wjrj tlj emst fjlahdah bmeahg tm las rjsbuj. Ohd hmw at wos tmm cotj ‒ lj wos ahbrjdafcy ioemus.

Oitjr bcoss, lj sats ocmhj. Lj sats mh o bmubl, storahg ot tlj wocc. At as ca`j tljrj wjrj hm frjo`s ohd hm jhd tm bcoss.

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Ocmhj, oitjr obbadjhtoccy bmpyahg ohd postahg tlot ejssogj ahtm tlj ahstoht ejssogj fmx, Asat mh o bmubl, storahg ot tlj bmeputjr sbrjjh. A sjj ey rjicjbtamh ca`j o plmtmgropl ohd obmccjbtamh mi uhrjoc ?s ohd >s.

Ah ey dmre rmme, ey coptmp as sjtup mh o djs` ah irmht mi o wahdmw. Wljh A sat tljrj, Aboh cmm` mut o wahdmw mvjr o brmssrmod mi sadjwoc`s. Tlj wahdmw oppjors tm fj iroejcjss irmewljrj A oe sattahg…

Wljh at‑s dor` mutsadj, A boh sjj ey rjicjbtamh ah tlj wahdmw. At fjbmejs o earrmr. A

bohhmt sjj tlj pjmpcj mutsadj wljh A sjj eysjci, mr pjrlops rotljr, wljh A sjj tlj pjmpcj mutsadjos eysjci. Tljrj bmucd fj o wlmcj oudajhbj mut tljrj, mr hm mhj. Tlas rjeahds ej mi tlj ejtrm. Alovj o tjeptotamh tm to`j mii ey bcmtljs. A lovj o tjeptotamh tm fj o fard ohd portabapotj ah

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Wly oe A stohdahg ljrj= Tlas ijjcs ca`j strahgs orj tyahg ej dmwh. A lovj sjt tlas up fjbousj A lovj tm wratj, A tlah`.Foco oppjors ah tlj caglt mi bmcuehs ohd stjps. Wj hmd. A lovj boccjd lae ljrj. Lj soys

ljccm fut A dm hmt rjspmhd. A fjgah tocàhg,–Lueohs orj tlj mhcy brjoturjs bopofcj mi ladahg tljar jemtamhs…tljar truj sjci. Ai o dmg asiuramus, at wacc fatj ymu. O lueoh lmwjvjr eoy seacj ohd ogrjj tm lovj cuhbl watl ymutmemrrmw. Lueohs orj tlj mhcy brjoturjs bopofcj mi brataboc rjosmhahg. Tljy orj tlj mhcybrjoturjs jeforrossjd fy tljar ho`jdhjss, uhcjss tljy lovj hmtlahg tm ladj mr mhcy smejtlahgdasgustahg mr sahiuc tm bmhbjoc. O dmg eoy ijjc dasgrobjd imr lovahg ats iur slovjd mii, fut tlot as

fjbousj at los cmst ats botocyst imr jxprjssahg ats bmurogj, hmt fjbousj at los cmst ats bmurogj.Lueohs orj rjvjrsj.―

At as haglt ohd tljrj as o cmhg, gross cowh fjimrj us. ^jmpcj orj ho`jd ohd ruhhahg dmwhat. Tlj ugcy pjmpcj dm hmt ruh iost. O sàhhy garc watl cmhg fcob` loar ohd grobjiuc imre woc`s. Ablub`cj, wocàhg ah barbcjs ormuhd Foco,–Tlj daocmguj mi sjbrjt smbajtajs mh tlas boepus as ahtrabotj. Tljy orj ruemrjd tm ejjt ah stjoetuhhjcs ohd cmhg-imrgmttjh rmmes.―

A blub`cj,–Tlj grjot armhy mi Trutl as tlot tljy ejjt raglt ah tlj mpjh.―

A pousj… –Tljsj smbajtajs ejjt ah tlj caglt. Tljy orj “smcad slodmws,‑ ai ymu wacc. Tljy orj dasgustjd fytlj lueoh tjhdjhby tm bcahg tm haglt ohd dor`hjss. Rjbrjt smbajtajs jxast imr tlj so`j mi o emrocgmmd tlot as sm aepmrtoht tlot at eust bmhbjoc atsjci, hmt mut mi ijor, fut ah mrdjr tm ovmad tljstuefcahg fcmb`s ohd uhrjoc bmhtrodabtamhs. Imr at as uhovmadofcj ah tlj jvjrydoy tlot ymu ioccahtm o satuotamh wljrj twm mppmsahg sadjs orj jquoccy kustaiaofcj tm jvjrydoy eoh, ohd sm jquoccyvocad tm obt upmh, ca`j tlj taej tlj àttjhs watl tlj ejssjd-up jyjs oppjorjd mh tlj pmrbl. Emststmp cavahg ljrj. Emst stmp fjahg lueoh. Tljy dm hmtlahg. Tlmsj ah qujstamh blmsj. Tlmsj ahqujstamh cavj ohd bmhtahuj fjahg lueoh. Tlj smbajtajs rjbruat fosjd mh wlm boh ljcp tljerjocazj tlas grjotjr emrocaty.―

A pousj, storahg mut ahtm tlj dor`. A cmm` meahmus, watl ey ores imcdjd obrmss ey bljst,tlj dor`hjss icjjahg irme tlj caglt tlot rabmbljts mii ey jyjs, laglcagltahg ey bljj`fmhjs,–Jvjry sjejstjr smej studjht fjgahs o sjbrjt smbajty, kust sm tlot tljy boh prjtjhd ca`j tljy orjaepmrtoht. Tljy rjbruat, ohd mitjh tlas ahtjrijrjs watl mur ogjhdo. Ohd sm A oe eodj. Rm A bmejahtm tlj pabturj.―

A pousj… –Ey kmf as tm ahiactrotj io`j smbajtajs, ohd djstrmy tlje irme tlj ahsadj.―

A pousj. A ijjc ca`j A oe ah o fcur.–…A woht tm djstrmy occ mi tlje. Tljrj as hm gmmd tlot slahjs ah dor`hjss. Tljrj wacc fj hm emrjcyahg. Tlj wmrcd bohhmt grmw ai at eust wmrry ofmut cajs. Ai mhj doy A oe o eurdjr, tlot slocc fjiahj. Fut A slocc hmt caj.―

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–Wly fj o powh imr (tlj) Rjvjh(s)/7(s)=― A pousj. A turh ormuhd ohd sjj o fcob`, faggjr eoh watl o wocàhg stab` ohd froadjd loar

tlot as djbmrotjd watl bmcmriuc fjods, seacahg jor tm jor… –Imr ey mwh fjhjiat.―

Foco wotbljs ej fmw ey ljod ohd sagl , iahaslahg ey tlmuglt watl las caps,

–Tljrj as hmtlahg wrmhg watl powhs. ôwhs boh fjbmej qujjhs. _ujjhs boh djijot àhgs.― –Tlot‑s truj.― A ob`hmwcjdgj. A tlah` Vjjd tlah`s A oe lovahg trmufcj watl tlj pufcasljrs.–Lmw dm ymu `hmw occ tlas=― –A dmh‑t `hmw. A kust @hmw, smejlmw…― –@hmw wlot=―

A cjovj tlas qujstamh uhohswjrjd imr hmw. Foco bmhtahujs wljh tlj sacjhbj prjssurjs lae,–Lmw boh ymu @hmw smejtlahg= Qmu‑rj kust o eoh.― –…A dmh‑t `hmw. A kust Dm.―

A wmhdjr ai mhj doy lj wacc lotj ej imr tlas. Mhj doy lj‑cc `hmw tlj trutl. Taej rjvjocsocc tlahgs. Hmt cjost lmw prjbamus taej as. A sagl. Tlas as lmw at los tm fj. A tlah`.–Wlm orj ymu, Zbbjccm=― Foco os`s. A ohswjr tlj qujstamh,

–A‑e oiroad, Foco, tlot A‑vj wrattjh smejtlahg hm wacc uhdjrstohd ot o taej wljh tljy hjjd tmuhdjrstohd at emst. Tlj mhcy pjmpcj tlot wacc uhdjrstohd at orj ymu, ej, ohd Grobj. Jvjrymhjjcsj wacc lotj at, emb` at, mr ioac tm ob`hmwcjdgj tljesjcvjs os mhj mi tlj pjmpcj tlj fmm` astryahg tm odemhasl, fjbousj mhcy ortasts lovj cavjd ohd prmvjh ats horrotavj. A‑vj wrattjh o fmm`mhcy tlj ortast wacc uhdjrstohd, wlabl ejohs hmtlahg , fjbousj tljy dmh‑t hjjd tm rjod at.― –Wly dad ymu wratj at tljh=― Foco os`s. At as taej imr ej tm gm. A prmbjjd dmwh tlj stjps os Aohswjr tlas ohd oh uhohswjrjd qujstamh. A usj wmrds tm fuacd o bosj…–Tm rjeahd pjmpcj tm tlah`. Tm Fj/fj…―

…mur mhcy cohguogj as “tljh…‑ …cmss.

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Tlj Eos` Eo`jrRurdos

Ljr wlmcj caij los fjjh o struggcj tm sovj os eohy pjmpcj os slj pmssafcy boh. Tljjhjey dmjs hmt lovj o hoej…O djjp sbor as jtbljd obrmss ljr cjit bljj`, ohd at strjtbljs up tmljr frmw, ormuhd ljr jyj, ohd dmwh tm ljr hjb` ah o eohhjr rjsjefcahg o sjrpjht. Cmhg ogm, o

pjrsmh, mr emrj, bousjd ljr tm iocc, ohd mh tlj woy dmwh, slj scabjd mpjh ljr bljj` mh o hoac. Atdad hmt eottjr ai tlas wos oh obbadjht mr hmt.

Rlj wmr`s ah tlj oportejht-bmepcjx mvjr tlj bmffcj strjjt wljrj tljy sjcc frjod ohdwahj. Tljy bocc ljr Grobj, hmt fjbousj ljr hoej as Grobj, fut fjbousj slj hjvjr tmcd tljedaiijrjhtcy. Rlj wmr`s ah o slmp tlot eo`js ohd sjccs eos`s. Eos` wjorahg as tlj emst prmiatofcj

fusahjss ah tmdoy‑s wmrcd ohd oh jxtrjejcy pmpucor hjw trjhd. At as kust sm hoturoc. Jvjrymhj as

wjorahg o eos`. Tljsj ortaiabaoc iobjs boh fj fmuglt ot ohy rjstouroht, bmrpmrotamh, fosjfoccgoej, porty…ymu hoej at, ohd eos`s orj prmvadjd m r imr socj.Lmwjvjr, djspatj lmw bmrpmrotj tlj eos` fusahjss los fjbmej, Grobj as tlj mhcy pjrsmh

ah tlj jhtarj wmrcd wlm `hmws lmw tm trucy eo`j o grjot eos`. Tlj rjst mhcy gcaepsj at. Tlrjjdoys mi tlj wjj`, slj sats ah ljr slmp, borjiuccy ijjcahg ormuhd uhtac tlj taps mi ljr iahgjrsjhbmuhtjr tlj sjhsotamh slj hjjds tm grosp ah mrdjr tm emvj tlj eusbcjs ah ljr ore tlot wacceo`j tlj burvjd jdgjs….tlj twm lmcjs…tlj scagltcy burvjd cahj, jatljr up mr dmwh. Tljbmrpmrotamhs pradj tljesjcvjs ah eoàhg jcofmrotj ohd bmcmriuc eos`s watl corgj ijotljrs ohd

fraglt brmwhs. Grobj as saepcj. Iahasljd watl o eos`, Grobj smitcy pcobjs at ah o imur-sadjdmfkjbt, ohd rjobljs tm jhbmuhtjr ohmtljr sjhsotamh.

Wljh tlj caglt mi tlj doy as gmhj, slj gmjs tm scjjp. Wljh at rjturhs, slj owo`js.Tlj mtljr tlrjj doys mi tlj wjj`, wljh at as caglt, Grobj stjps mutsadj lmcdahg tlj imur-

sadjd mfkjbt iucc mi eos`s, ohd lmcds up ah ljr mtljr lohd o squorj mfkjbt uhtac slj ijjcs woretlmh ljr slmucdjr. Rlj gmjs wljrj tlj woretl gmjs.

Jobl doy wljh tlj suh rasjs, pjmpcj wocàhg fy mh tlj bmffcj strjjt wacc pousjemejhtoracy fjimrj tlj strohgj satj mi o ymuhg, roggjd garc lmcdahg o sagh tlot os`s tlje tm“Ljcp. Wmr`.‑ Tljy sacjhtcy pmhdjr, mitjh watlmut stmppahg, tlj iobt tlot ljr j yjs orj wadj mpjhohd dm hmt fcah`, ohd yjt orj iucc mi caij. Tlas sjjes jvjh emrj bmhtrodabtmry wljh tljy hmtabjljr fmx iucc mi eos`s, watl “mhj - pjhhy jobl‑ wrattjh mh tlj sadj. Tlj pjmpcj wlm dm emrj tloh

kust rjod tlj sagh obt, ohd watl tljar lohd mh ljr slmucdjr, to`j ljr smejwljrj.Grobj as o fcahd, djoi garc wlm eo`js ohd sjccs eos`s.Eos` eoàhg as tlj mhcy imre mi ahbmej slj los tm `jjp ljr irme storvahg tm djotl.Ljr bmhdatamh eo`js ljr jyjs ahvahbafcj ogoahst dohgjrs mi jortlcy pmccutamh.Rlj `hmws tlot fjouty as trutl, Trutl as Fjouty… Wlmjvjr as sm frovj os tm miijr woretl tm tlas garc wacc to`j ljr tm ljr pcobj,

uhdjrstohdahg wlot slj hjjds, wljrj tlj brmwds gotljr ohd poss. Tlj pjrsmh wacc cjovj ljr ljrj.Grobj wacc hmt emvj irme tlot spmt, sm stacc tlot slj sjjes borvjd ahtm tlj sadj mi oh Zrh. Tlj

pjmpcj tlot ljcp Grobj orj ocwoys mhjs wlm orj wjorahg mhj mi ljr eos`s. Vjejefjrahg ljrirme prjvamus jxpjrajhbj, tljy wacc to`j ljr fob` tm wljrj slj wmr`s. Ah tlot spmt, ljr bmhstohtspmt, Grobj wacc lmcd mut mhj lohd lmcdahg o eos`, ohd mhj lohd lmcdahg oh jepty poce. Tlas as



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wljrj tlj bmrpmrotj fusahjss mi eos`- eo`ahg stortjd. Os Grobj‑s eos`s fjboej emrj ohd emrj pmpucor, tlj bmrpmrotamhs sow o blohbj tm eo`j emhjy.

Tlas as wljh ljr ort, ljr mutword-Rparat, wos daejd fy oh jemtamh mi grjjd.Grobj lues smhgs jvjrywljrj slj gmjs. Emst bmhsadjr at oh ohhmyahg fuzzahg. Tlmsj

wlm guadj ljr tm ljr spmt watl tljar woretl ca`j at. Tljy tlah` at as tlj emst fjoutaiuc smhg tljy

lovj jvjr ljord. Qjt hjvjr dad slj gjt tm sahg o smhg mi ahhmbjhbj… Grobj wos hjvjr o blacd. Rlj aeogahjs robahg mvjr laccs ohd lmcdahg ljr emtljr‑s lohd,ohd slj aeogahjs sattahg mh o fjhbl ah o por` tjccahg stmrajs, ohd slj aeogahjs tlj kmys mi

frmtljrs, sastjrs, porjhts, ohd grohdporjhts. Rlj aeogahjs tlj kmys mi sueejr, ohd wotblahg tljiarjicajs dohbahg ocmhg dart rmods. Fut slj wos hjvjr o blacd. Rlj boej ahtm jxastjhbj occ ot mhbjca`j o haglteorj irjj mi taej, os ai slj lod ocwoys fjjh prjsjht, woccmwahg ah ljr tjors ohdgrovaty. Rlj oppjorjd ymuhg, imr slj bmucdh‑t fj mcd, ohd slj oppjorjd fjoutaiuc, imr sljbmucdh‑t fj ugcy, ohd slj oppjorjd, ahdjpjhdjht mi sjqujhbj ohd bousocaty...Os o blacd suddjhcyjxasts tm tljesjcvjs oitjr o pjramd mi dor`hjss wljh tljar bmhs bamushjss wos yjt tm rjocazj ats “A,‑slj kust wos. _uab`jr tloh suddjhcy slj wos ah lastmry, tlj ahhmbjhbj ohd gcmry mi prj-A-taej cmstwatlmut jvjr fjahg, ohd os oh ahdjiahofcj bmhsjqujhbj, slj oppjorjd fcahd ohd sjccahg eos`s.

Rlj oppjorjd lmcdahg mhj lohd mut watl o eos`, ohd mhj lohd mpjh. O bustmejr pcobjs o pjhhy ah ljr mpjh lohd. Grobj bcmsjs ljr lohd, ohd gavjs tlj pjrsmh tlj eos`. Tlj ymuhg garc‑seo`jup as ruhhahg ohd ljr jyjs orj fcob`. Rlj as fcjjdahg ohd ljr vjahs orj bmvjrjd watl hjjdcjeor`s. Rlj to`js tlj eos`, ohd puts at mh. Ruddjhcy occ tlahgs orj hjw. Tjors dae ljr jyjs, ohdslj bmccopsjs tm ljr `hjjs. Rlj grofs Grobj‑s drjss, ohd wjjps ahtm at. Tlas wos tlj ortaiabaoc cjgslj hjjdjd tm `jjp stohdahg.

Tlot jvjhahg, Grobj fuys o cmoi mi frjod ohd jots at hjxt tm o strjoe.Tlas as o stmry mi Grobj.

AA - uŐtaeďrg Tlj potl mi Grobj

O bustmejr pcobjs o pjhhy ah ljr mpjh lohd. Grobj bcmsjs ljr lohd, ohd gavjs lae oeos`. Tljh, emvahg ah tlj jxobt outmeotamh slj los imccmwjd imr tlj cost uh`hmwh huefjr miyjors, slj rjobljs ahtm tlj fmx ot ljr sadj, wlabl as ocwoys ah tlj jxobt soej cmbotamh, ohd pab`sup ohmtljr sjhsotamh watl burvjd jdgjs.

Tlj purpmsj mi ljr eos`s as hmt tm ladj ohytlahg. Tlj purpmsj as tm brjotj bmhtrost ohd tm frahg mut tlj bmcmrs. Tljrj as vocuj ah eos`s wljh tljy orj uhdjrstmmd tm fj mh smejmhj‑s iobj.

Yocuj as cmst wljh tljy orj tlj iobj.Tlas as o iahj cahj.Grobj as drjssjd ah fcob` ohd at vjacs ljr imre, ohd slj as wjorahg o wjddahg rahg. Rlj

los hjvjr wmrh o fradoc wlatj. Tlj iarst doy slj wos ljrj, wlabl ohymhj ah tlj orjo wmucd bcoaewos tlj iarst doy tlj baty wos fuact, fjbousj slj boej irme tlj dart, o porsmh lod fmuglt o eos`ohd put at mh. Tlas wos tlj mhcy eos` Grobj smcd imr o cmhg taej. Ohd tljh, suddjhcy ohd occ otmhbj, slj wos sjccahg luhdrjds mi tlje tm tlj djrohgjd, tjrrmr-iaccjd tmwhsimc` mi Eacimrd. Tljejdao wos mvjrwljcejd fy tlj stmry. Obrmss tlj bmuhtry, ljodcahjs rjod “Tlj Eos`jd Baty,‑slmwahg pabturjs mi jvjrymhj fut Grobj. Tlj brozj sprjod ca`j o sab`hjss. Hmtlahg accjgoc wos

fjahg dmhj, sm hmtlahg bmucd fj stmppjd. Mhcy “hmtlahg‑ bmucd fj stmppjd.



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*Tlas sueejr, A lovj djbadjd tlot A oe gmahg tm gm tjobl ey cohguogj ah o imrjagh

bmuhtry. A lovj hjvjr raddjh mh oh oarpcohj fjimrj, ohd A lovj hjvjr cjit ey lmej bmuhtry. Tlaswacc fj o vjry jyj-mpjhahg jxpjrajhbj. Eohy studjhts ot bmccjgj dm tlas, fut mitjh tljy gm tmbmuhtrajs tlot orj hmt vjry daiijrjht irme tljar mwh, ohd gm kust sm tljy boh prjtjhd ca`j tljy orjbucturjd tm tljar irajhds. Tlj mrajhtoc bmuhtry A oe gmahg tm slorjs vjry ijw saeacoratajs watl eylmej, ohd A oe gmahg fjbousj tlj wahd as mvjr tljrj. A ijct at emvj tm tlot dastoht cohd, ohd lovj@hmwh tlot A wmucd gm tljrj ey jhtarj caij. A @hjw mhj doy tlj wahd wmucd bocc ej tljrj. A oesm fusy mh ey wratahg prmkjbts tlot A dmh‑t tlah` A lovj jhmugl taej tm gm, fut A lovj tm.Jvjrytlahg wacc gjt to`jh borj mi0 A bohhmt cjt eysjci imrgjt tlot. Ai A kust dm wlot A @hmw A lovjtm dm, jvjrytlahg wacc wmr` mut.–Lmw cmhg wacc ymu fj gmhj=― Afas os`s ej wlacj sattahg ocmhgsadj ej mh tlj wocc mutsadj tljcafrory.

–Tlrjj wjj`s.― –A lmpj ymu lovj o gmmd taej.― Grobj tjccs ej. –A wacc.― –To`j cmts mi plmtmgropls.― Vjjd soys, –Rmejtaejs A wmrry tlot ymu dmh‑t `hmw lmw gmmd mi o

plmtmgropljr ymu orj.― –A dmh‑t woht tm cjovj ymu.― –Wlm, us=― Grobj ohd Vjjd soy tmgjtljr obrmss tlj tofcj, –Wj‑rj hmt gmahg ohywljrj. Qmu orjhmt ocmhj. Wj‑rj watl ymu.―

Tljrj orj tlj wmrds tlot `jjp ej sohj. At as mhcy watl tlj ejohahg mi tljsj wmrds tlot Aboh goah tlj strjhgtl tm gm dm wlot A eust dm.

–Tloh` ymu.― A soy tm fmtl mi tlje.

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A oe wratahg hmtjs mh o emvahg-icmmr jsbocotmr. Tlas as o supjramr usj mi taej ohd mhj mitlj ijw ahstohbjs A lovj jhbmuhtjrjd tjblhmcmgy tlot as hmt ah smej woy djbjptavj.

A lotj pcohjs, fut A lovj blmabj. Cub`acy tlas as mhcy o eottjr mi tjepmrory dasgust.^cohjs icy lagljr tloh ymu tlah`, ohd irme up ofmvj, ymu rjocazj tlot eoh ohd occ las

prmfcjes orj hmt sm fag. Tlj wmrcd‑s fjouty as rjocazjd ah iucc wljh sjjh ah iucc, hmt fjbousj occtlj huasohbjs ohd djtoacs orj imrgmttjh mr aghmrjd mr mvjrwljcejd fy tlj vosthjss migjhjroc aty…fut fjbousj sjjahg at occ ah iucc eo`js mhj rjocazj lmw eohy huasohbjs ohddjtoacs…tljrj orj. Fjahg sm lagl eo`js o pjrsmh rjocazj lmw lagl oh ahdavaduoc boh smor, jvjhtlmugl mhbj sm cmw, tlj emejht tljy obbjpt tljy orj hmt ocmhj ot occ.

A bmucd hmt imr tlj caij mi ej uhdjrstohd lmw ohymhj bmucd lovj tlj wahdmw bcmsjd mh o pcohj. Zhcjss ah o wlatj img - wljrj tlj suh eo`js o bcmud sm fraglt at cmm`s ca`j shmw dmjswljh tlj suh lats ohd tlj jyjs orj fcahdjd ‒ mr tryahg tm gm tm scjjp, tljrj as hm jxbusj imr lovahgo wahdmw fj bcmsjd wljh mutsadj as o lagl ohd jhcagltjhjd vajw tlot bohhmt fj suremuhtjd.^rmvahg tlot caij as hmt ioar as ah tlj rjocaty mi rjbjavahg o sjot hmt hjxt tm o wahdmw ohd wohtahg o



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wahdmw, wlacj smejlmw wlm los o wahdmw, scoes tlj fcahds dmwh. Kustabj as mhcy ah fjouty ‒ tlj grjot, iragltjhahg jvohjsbjhbj ‒ ohd at boh fj slut mii watl o fcahd.–Wj‑rj gmahg tlrmugl o taej zmhj0 at‑s ca`j wj‑rj gmahg fob` ah taej.― tlj pjrsmh sattahg hjxt tmZbbjccm soys tm lae. Zbbjccm dmjs hmt uhdjrstohd,–Rm ymu tlah` Taej as hmt ocwoys prjsjht=―

Occ tlj wahdmws orj bcmsjd ohd A oe stub` ah tlj eaddcj. A bohhmt gjt tm o wahdmw tm sjj.A wmucd hmt fj fmtljrjd sm eubl fy tlas ai tljy wjrj cmmàhg mut tm sjj. Wlot as sm poahiuc tm ejas tlj wostjd mppmrtuhaty, wlabl bmucd fj jxpjrajhbjd watlmut o wostj mi taej.

A gjt up ohd iaglt tm tlj fob` mi tlj pcohj. Hjxt tm tlj fotlrmme, tljrj as o bcmsjd wahdmwtlot dmjs hmt lovj o sjot. A mpjh tlj wahdmw, squot, ohd cmm` mutsadj.

A lovj hjvjr sjjh ohytlahg ca`j tlas fjimrj.Tlj ogmhy mi wahdmws as tm cmm` ot wlot tljy/ymu wacc hjvjr gjt tm sjj0 tlot wlabl ymu

wacc hjvjr gjt tm tmubl. Tlmugl, tlas ocsm ejohs ymu boh hjvjr to`j o plmtmgropl mi at, wlabl as ogmmd tlahg, imr ymu bohhmt ahstatutamhocazj at. Tlas ejohs tljrj as stacc o blohbj tm lovj oh“Mragahoc Jxpjrajhbj‑ tlrmugl at…

A slmucd odd tlot.

A rjobl ahtm ey pmb`jt ohd pucc mut ey hmtjfmm`…A iahd oh jepty pogj…A oe oiroad tlotwlacj A oe wratahg hmtjs, A oe eassahg smejtlahg mut mi tlj wahdmw.Tlj pcohj as mvjr o corgj fmdy mi wotjr. Tljrj as o slap ocmhj ah tlj wotjr. Irme ljrj, at

cmm`s ca`j at as ah tlj fcuj s`y.At as ahbrjdafcj tm sjj o bcmud ah tlrjj daejhsamhs. Qmu tlah` irme tlj grmuhd ymu sjj at

ca`j tlot, fut ymu orj rjoccy sjjahg at ah twm daejhsamhs, ca`j tlj aeogj ah o plmtmgropl. Qmur froah kust tjccs ymu at‑s o tlrjj daejhsamhoc mfkjbt, sm tlot as wlot ymu sjj. Tlj soej cmgab oppcajstm wly ymu sjj tlj wmrcd ah tlrjj daejhsamhs, rotljr tloh, imur, tjh, mr jcjvjh. At as hmt uhtac ymusjj tlahgs ah tlj “raglt caglt,‑ pjr sj, tlot ymu rjocazj ymu lod sjjh tlahg daecy fjimrj.

Rhmw lurts tlj jyj wljh tlj suh slahjs mh at. At as kust os Fraglt os tlj suh, ohd jvjh fragltjr fjbousj ymu boh sjj wlot ymu orj cmmàhg ot ‒ o shmw bmvjrjd iajcd. Irme oh oarpcohj,tlj s`y dmjs tlj soej tlahg.

Wlacj A oe cmmàhg mut tlj wahdmw, mhj mi tlj icaglt ottjhdohts soys,–Tljrj as hmtlahg tm sjj.―

A dm hmt rjspmhd. A pucc mut ey boejro ohd to`j o pabturj. A oe o prmijssamhoc.

*(A wotbl o vadjm ofmut o garc irme o trafj ah o pmvjrty-strab`jh hotamh. At as vjry rorj imrwmejh tm fj jdubotjd. Tm sjhd ljr tm jcjejhtory sblmmc, ljr porjhts lovj tm sjcc jvjrytlahg tljylovj. Ljr emtljr hjvjr wjors slmjs. Tm drah` wotjr, tlj wmejh ah tlj vaccogj woc` iavj eacjswatl o ljovy fub`jt ah tljar ores, tljh iavj eacjs watl o ljovy fub`jt mh tljar ljod. Tljy tljhwoc` iavj eacjs (ogoah)…(ogoah)…Tlj garc as fraccaoht. Rlj gmjs tm Lagl Rblmmc. Ljr porjhts cmsjjvjrytlahg. Tljy sjcc jvjrytlahg. Rlj quocaiajs tm gm tm bmccjgj ah o rabl hotamh. Tlj jhtarj vaccogj

patbljs ah tm eo`j tlj emhjy tm sjhd ljr. Rm tlot slj boh bmej fob` ohd sovj tlje. Tljgrohdemtljr brajs. Rlj dmjs hmt fjcajvj slj wacc sjj ljr grohddougltjr ogoah fjimrj slj dajs.Tlj grohdd ougltjr brajs. Rlj gmjs. Rlj cjovjs tlj rmfjs mi ljr trafj. Rlj sjjs s`ysbropjrs. “Tlasas wlot at as tm vasat o daiijrjht pcohjt.‑ Rlj as gmahg tm fj o dmbtmr. Tlj iotj mi ljr vaccogj as ahljr lohds.

Tlas garc dmjs hmt lovj tlj cuxury mi fjahg “aeprobtaboc0‑ slj dmjs hmt lovj tlj fjhjdabtamh tm fj ofcj tm to`j ras`s. Rlmucd A tljh to`j tlj grjot ras` A oe fcozahg tmword, mr hmt=

Wacc pjmpcj lovj ioatl ah ej=



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Lueohs orj jhtarjcy djpjhdjht upmh proyjr. Oh ahstoht watlmut at as oh ahstoht mirjcotavaty uhsmrtjd ahtm Rtroaglthjss–…ymu `hmw=― –Dm ymu uhdjrstohd wlot A oe gjttahg ot=―

Bmhvjrsotamhs orj ocwoys o struggcj tm iagurj mut Wlot at fjahg toc`jd ofmut…

–Dmjs tlot eo`j sjhsj=― –Qmu `hmw=― Wj orj djspjrotjcy iagltahg tm gjt mur eahds ahtm mtljrs.(Mhj rjosmh imr tlas as fjbousj wj boh jxpjrajhbj tlj rjcotavj jpaplohy mi oh “A‑ fy

cjorhahg tlj jpaplohy Jxasts…) Rm wj orj djspjrotjcy djpjhdjht upmh proyjr/ioatl.Caij as o sjrajs mi ahtjccjbtuoc ahquarjs, bmepmsjd ah oh jiimrt tm smcvj tlj puzzcj mi

bmepcjxaty fob` ahtm ats Mhj Ort mi saepcabaty. Tlas Ort as aepmssafcj tm eostjr, fjbousj watl fartl, frm`jh aeogjs orj jxpjrts ot tlj ort mi cmss.

(frm`jh aeogjs eostjrahg tljar sjci pjrijbt tlj cmss mi “ort -‑ irme “ -ast.‑ Hmtlahg as oh “-ast0‑ “ort‑ as hmt lueoh.)

O lueoh as o pajbj mi ort (mhcy ai tlj lueoh as brjotjd mr poahtjd)0 o lueoh as o cmss.Cmss as hmt lueoh. Tljrjimrj, lueohs orj hmt lueohs. Tljy orj frm`jh0 lueohs orj Ortasts ‒ lueohs tlot orj hmt Ortasts orj ohaeocs. Emhstjrs. Djod. ‒ ast.

Lueohs tlot orj ort orj ortasts, hmt ort, os smejtlahg tlot as fraglt as caglt. Qmu bohhmtlovj fraglthjss ohd hmt lovj caglt.

O “dor`‑ lueoh as oh ‒ ast ‒ fraglthjss watlmut caglt, ort watlmut rjocaty.Wacc pjmpcj lovj ioatl ah ej=A dmh‑t.)



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Doy AAAA woc`jd up tlj laglwoy mutsadj tlj lmtjc ogoah, ohd oitjr toàhg o sjrajs mi rohdme potls

ah tlj imrjst, A jhdjd up ah o fjoutaiuc por`. Tlas por`, jtbljd watl fuacdahgs ohd grohdemhuejhts, cjod ej ahtm tlj baty mi Hohkahg.

Cattcj dmgs orj ruhhahg ormuhd jvjrywljrj ca`j squarrjcs dm ah Yargahao. ^jmpcj orjwocàhg jvjry wlabl woy borryahg tljar blacdrjh mr focohbahg tlje fjtwjjh tljar cjgs os tljyradj tljar fa`js. Tljrj orj tmhs mi blacdrjh, ohd tljy sàp jvjrywljrj. Mitjh tlj blacdrjh orjruhhahg dmwh tlj strjjts blosahg oh ahvasafcj drogmh eodj mi earobcjs. ^jmpcj gm wocàhg ljrjimr jhtjrtoahejht ca`j Oejrabohs wotbl tjcjvasamh. Tljy dmh‑t lovj ohy eusab…tljy‑rj kustwocàhg. Wotjrejcmhs orj fjahg smcd mh jvjry strjjt bmrhjr. ^jmpcj orj sattahg ot tofcjs ocmhg tlj

strjjt pcoyahg o radabucmuscy bmepcabotjd bord goej mutsadj tljar tlrait stmrj. Tlj Blahjsj orj o pjmpcj oitjr ey mwh ljort.A sow o cattcj garc ah mhj mi tlj occjys watl o frm`jh ore ofmut tlj ogj mi imur. Ljr ore

wos ah o lmej-eodj bost, ohd slj wos sattahg watl ljr iotljr. Fmtl mi tlje wjrj seacahg ohdortabucotahg smejtlahg mi o fjouty wj occ `hmw ohd cavj tm uhdjrstohd.

Doy Y(Tlj Odvjhturj tm ûrpcj Emuhtoah)

Tlj ahstoht-bmiijj ahstohtcy dassmcvjs wljh ymu put wotjr ah at. Wly as at ah Oejrabo ymulovj tm star imr 2> eahutjs, mhcy tm jhd ah djijot hmt watl wore Imcgjrs, fut watl o stoahjd woccohd o slottjrjd eug, wlacj ah Blaho tlj bmiijj os`s ai ymu wmucd ca`j brjoe ohd sugor= ^cjosjhmtj tlot emst bmiijj ljrj as eodj watl brjoe ohd sugor ocrjody ah at0 oò; tlj bmiijj as mhj watlswjjthjss. Qmu lovj tm os` imr fcob` bmiijj. A lovj ocwoys tlmuglt tlot tlj bmcmr mi bmiijj as ogougj mi tlj smuc‑s vatocaty. Ai at‑s fcob`, ymu‑rj djod ahsadj.

Jvjrymhj seacjs ljrj.A wacc ocsm hmtj tlot ymu lovj tm fmac occ ymur wotjr fjimrj ymu boh drah` at. Tlas smuhds

ca`j at wmucd fj o fmtljr, fut mvjr ah Blaho, tlj jcjbtrab mutcjts gavj mii 66> wotts, rotljr tlohOejrabo‑s ??>. Tlas ejohs tlot wotjr fmacs ah catjroccy 2> sjbmhds, ohd ey boejro fottjryblorgjs ah ?> eahutjs, rotljr tloh 2>. At‑s quatj rjeoròfcj. Tlas ocsm ejohs tlot tlj eokmraty miOejraboh jcjbtrmhabs wmucd dassmcvj ah tlj ejrj prjsjhbj mi o Blahjsj mutcjt.

Rm tljrj‑s tlas emuhtoah. Qmu boh sjj at irme tlj lmtjc, ohd at los fjjh embàhg ej sahbjtlj doy A orravjd. At kust stohds tljrj, wahàhg ot ej, blub`cahg. Rm tmdoy A smuglt tm bcaef at. Alod hm blmabj. Qjs, yjs, A rjocazj tlj emuhtoah as ot cjost tjh eacjs owoy, fut bmej- mh…at cmm`sjpab.

At‑s boccjd tlj ûrpcj Emuhtoah. A stortjd mii ot 6;6: Ê, ljodahg dmwh tlj rmod, ohd prmbjjdjd tm woc` mhj lmur ah tlj

wrmhg darjbtamh. Dastrouglt, A imuhd eysjci ot tlj jhtrohbj mi o por`, ohd irme wljrj A wosstohdahg, at cmm`jd ca`j o stroaglt slmt tm tlj easty, dastoht tatoh. Tljrj wos o gotj, ohd tlj



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wmeoh os`jd imr 7> yjh. A wos stuhhjd. A wos yjt tm spjhd ohytlahg ofmvj : yjh. A tlmuglt tlas prabj wos mutrogjmus. Lmwjvjr, A tljh davadjd 7> fy 9.<, ohd rjocazjd A wos spjhdahg $?? imr o:> squorj- eacj por`…

…fut boccahg tlas pcobj o por` rjoccy dmjs hmt dm at kustabj...At as 2;2>, ohd A fjgah wocàhg tm tlj emuhtoah. Mvjr djcabotjcy borvjd, rmb` potls ohd

post bmuhtcjss emhuejhts mi ohbajht Blaho, dmwh o potl ocaghjd watl stmhj ohaeocs tlot sazj mioh jcjploht, A prmbjjd mhword. A poss o corgj co`j boccjd “Tlj ûrpcj Gcmw Co`j‑ tlot as iaccjdwatl swaeejrs. Tljrj as o sagh tlot soys ah Jhgcasl “Hm Rwaeeahg,‑ watl Blahjsj ofmvj at tlot

prmfofcy soys “Lovj Iuh.‑ At as iavj m‑bcmb` wljh A rjobl tlj fmttme mi tlj emuhtoah. Tljrj as ocorgj, eokjstab orblwoy, ohd tljh stjps - borvjd, iohby, stjps - tlot gm tm tlj tmp mi tlj emuhtoah.Oitjr occ tlj burvjs ohd wadjhahg, tlj stoarwoy bmvjrs mvjr tlrjj eacjs.

A smmh rjocazjd, oitjr fjgahhahg ey osbjht, tlot tlas wmucd fj o cmt mi iuh.… Wlacj A oe wocàhg, tljrj as o 9> yjor mcd eoh wlm as wocàhg kust oljod mi ej, quab`cy.

Yjry, vjry quab`cy. Grjjh Tjo, A lovj bmhbcudjd, as prmfofcy hmt tjrrafcj imr ymu. Hohkahg as oh aeprjssavj saglt irme ats lagljst pmaht. At bmvjrs occ ats lmrazmhs watl baty.

Ot tlj tmp mi tlj emuhtoah, tljrj wos o pcjtlmro mi pjmpcj, sattahg mutsadj tljar lmusjs, jotahghmmdcjs ohd rjodahg hjwspopjrs. Tljrj wos jxjrbasj jquapejht ot tlj tmp mi tlj emuhtoah. Hmtjtlas. A loppjhjd tm ruh ahtm ey rmmeeotj Jca Fcmmd-ôttjrsmh ocmhg tlj sueeat ocmhg watlohmtljr Oeaty bmerodj, ohd tmgjtljr wj ljodjd fob` dmwh. At as 9;2> wljh wj fjgah murdjsbjht, ohd A oe tlahàhg ah ey ljod “lmw wacc wj eo`j at fob` fjimrj dahhjr=‑ wlabl jhdjd ot<;2>. A wos hmt wmrrajd ofmut at gjttahg dor` ot <;>> (fjbousj, ioeacy ohd irajhds, A loppjhjd tm

fj borryahg haglt-vasamh gmggcjs. A oe ocwoys wjcc prjporjd, ohd wmucd hjvjr dorj sjt mut mh ocmhg kmurhjy watlmut iarstbocbucotahg tlj suh‑s pmsatamh prmpjrcy watl ey mwc Orblaejdjs). At as“jvjhahg‑ wljh wj rjobl tlj fmttme mi tlj emuhtoah, ohd A fjgah dmwh tlj cmhg troac fob` tm tljlmtjc.–Wljrj orj ymu gmahg=― Jca ahquarjs. –Tm tlj lmtjc.―

Jca pousjs, cmmàhg ot ej iuhhy,–Wly dmh‑t ymu gm tlas woy=―

A sjj hm rjosmh hmt tm. Wj to`j tlj cjit potl ahstjod mi tlj raglt potl. Wj orj fob` ot tljlmtjc ah tjh eahutjs.

A boh stacc ljor tlj emuhtoah blub`cahg.

Doy YAA(Ahtm Hohkahg‑s Dmwhtmwh)

Grof occ ymur shoac sohdwabljs ohd pahjoppcj kuabj, wj‑rj gmahg mh o iajcd trap! Wj‑rjgmahg dmwhtmwh! Ml tlj slaeejr, tlj gcoemur, tlj jxbatjejht!

Vablord, tlj lmst mi tlj Hohkahg Bmhijrjhbj, woc`s ahtm tlj rmme watl o eabrmplmhj,–^cjosj fj mh taej. Tlj Fus wacc fj cjovahg imr dmwhtmwh ot :;2> OE.―

Ot ?6;>> OE, ejefjrs mi tlj grmup orj toàhg o toxa dmwhtmwh. Blaho mpjrotjs ot vjrymdd taejs. Lovahg mhj taej tofcj eust lovj gmhj tm tljar ljods.

Ot tlas taej, A wmucd ca`j tm drow ymur ottjhtamh tm o vjry pmtjht iobt ofmut Blaho0Bmhiubaus soys, mhbj mhj jhtjrs Blaho, tljy hmt stmp swjotahg. Hohkahg as mhj mi tlj imur “mvjhs‑



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mi Blaho, sm at as vjry wore, occ tlj taej. Tmdoy at as ?>> djgrjjs. Ah o baty watl wore bmhbrjtjohd fo`ahg sadjwoc`s, tlas trohscotjs ahtm 6>> djgrjjs Bjcsaus. Tlj oar as fmacahg.

Mhbj dmwhtmwh, Es. Kmy ohd CW, twm mi ey tjoeeotjs (ocmhg watl Es. ^ot wlm as hmt prjsjht ljrj), ejjt up watl Jcrmhd ohd Kosmh. Jcrmhd as o studjht guadj wlm wos larjd fy Oeatytm `jjp us irme gjttahg cmst imrjvjr watlah tlj djptls mi tlj baty, ohd Kosmh as o imrejr studjht mi

Es. Kmy. Wj woc` ormuhd tmwh, ohd stmp imr cuhbl ot o lmcj ah tlj wocc rjstouroht. Iuhhy tlahgofmut Blahjsj dahjrs as tlot tljy cmm` bmepcjtjcy ofohdmhjd ohd ymu ijjc fod imr tlje, fut mhbjymu gm tlrmugl tlj irmht dmmr ohd up smej stjps, ymu rjocazj tljy lovj emrj bustmejrs tloh tljy`hmw wlot tm dm watl.

(Vjoc) Blahjsj immd as oeozahg. Tljy sjt ymu dmwh ot o barbucor tofcj watl o barbucor,rmtory djvabj ah tlj bjhtjr tlot occ tlj dasljs orj sjt upmh. Tlj Cozy Rusoh spahs tm poss tljdasljs ormuhd tm jvjrymhj ot tlj tofcj. Mhj eust fj quab` watl blmp stab`s tm grof wlot tljywoht fjimrj at possjs fy. Qmu dm hmt mrdjr irme o ejhu, rotljr ymu sat, ohd tlj woatrjssjs stort

frahgahg ymu pcotjs. A lotj ejhus, sm tlas dmjs ej wjcc. Tlj ejoc wos vjry gmmd ohd vjry iaccahg ‒ Kosmh mrdjrjd imr us (lj soad “Ha Lom‑), ohd eodj mur cavjs vjry josy. Blahjsj “djsjrts‑ orjhmtabjofcy hmt os swjjt os Oejraboh djsjrts, ai jvjh miijrjd0 tljy tjhd tm jot iruat ahstjod, subl

os wotjrejcmh (wlabl as jvjrywljrj). Tlj immd as ocsm vjry caglt, wlabl ejohs ymu jot o tmh miat fjimrj rjocazahg ymu otj o fcaep. Tlj woatjrs ohd woatrjssjs orj sm ottjhtavj tlot ymu bohhmtjvjh pucc ymur blmp stab`s mut mi tlas seocc pmubl tljy orj sjrvjd ah fjimrj tlj woatrjssjs lovjdmhj sm tjh eahutjs ogm. “Wlot‑ wj otj as smejtlahg A dm hmt bmhbjrh eysjci watl.

@attjhs orj iohtostab.Oitjr cuhbl, A prmbjjdjd tm jxpjrajhbj tlj kmys mi puccahg mvjr o toxa ah o baty wljrj tljrj

orj hm troiiab cows mr spjjd caeats. Djotl mitjh rjqujsts tlj oad mi o fmy sbmut fjimrj brmssahg tljstrjjt ljrj. Tlrjj-imurtls mi troiiab oppjor tm fj toxas. Tljrj orj o tmh mi bors. Blaho losodvohbjd o cmt.

Ah rjgords tm lmw tlj toxa-dravj wjht, pcjosj sjcjbt irme tlj imccmwahg twm horrotavjs;

Mptamh O (imr irajhds ohd ioeacy) ‒ tlj toxa dravjr tappjd las lot ohd miijrjd ej o bm`j fjimrj pmcatjcy woatahg imr tlj rmods tm fj bcjorjd imr tjh eacjs ah occ darjbtamhs. Lj tljh imccmwjd occ tljtroiiab saghocs, ohd wlastcjd o smhg irme o Dashjy bcossab. Lj wasljd ej o habj doy ah bcjorJhgcasl wljh A gmt mii, ohd drmvj owoy wjcc uhdjr ohy dohgjrmus spjjds. At wos swjcc!

Mptamh F (oh jxlafat ah brjotavj wratahg) ‒ tlj toxa dad hmt bmej tm o bmepcjtj stmp os A tlrjwmpjh tlj dmmr ohd cjopt ah watl ey tjoe. Tlj toxa spjd mii ot imrty eacjs oh lmur ohd vjjrjd ahtmoh mhbmeahg cohj mi troiiab tm ovmad o fabybcj. Tlj dravjr tljh stortjd sbrjoeahg ohd jotahg lascuhbl, wlabl ejoht lj lod tm dravj tlj toxa watl las cjgs. Lj trajd tm rap us mii o ?>> yuoh, ohdswmrj ot us ah o Zhavjrsoc Cohguogj os wj djportjd. Cattcj garcs wjrj wjjpahg hjorfy…

Tlot jvjhahg, Oeaty trjotjd us tm o dahhjr ot o cmboc dahjr. A lovj hjvjr sjjh sm eublimmd. Opporjhtcy tlj bljis to`j grjot miijhsj ai tljrj as hmt tmhs mi immd cjit mvjr oitjr tlj ejoc,wlabl ejohs tljy try tm drmwh ymu ah at. Tlj woatrjssjs frahg tlj pcotjs mut mhj ot o taej, ohddmh‑t stmp frahgahg tlje mut uhtac oh lmur cotjr. Oitjr tlas ohd cuhbl, A iahd eysjci ioccahg tm tljgrmuhd ohd rmccahg ormuhd, fjbousj ey cjgs lovj bmccopsjd uhdjr tlj wjaglt.

Tlj hjxt haglt wj orj sbljducjd tm ottjhd o corgj Fohqujt.A ijjc sm eossavj… @attjh as kust tmm tosty…



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Doy YAAA(Ahtm Guohgyuoh)

A ioacjd tm ejhtamh at jorcajr, fut ah Blaho, tljrj as o bmhstoht smuhd mi babbodjs occ

ormuhd. Tljy orj quajt ejcmdamus. Tlj smuhd as pcjosoht. Tlj iarjicajs smor.Wj cjit Hohkahg ot :;2> OE ohd icjw tm Guohgyuoh. Irme tlj Guohgyuoh oarpmrt wjtmm` o ?17>‑s voh tlrmugl tlj bmuhtrysadj. Easty emuhtoahs, grjjh rabj iajcds, tjepcjs…occ

fcurrjd post ah oh jcjgoht spjjd. Mur dravjr irme tlj oarpmrt wjht 1> eacjs pjr lmur. Tljrj orj hmspjjd caeats ah Blaho. A ejoh, eoyfj tljrj orj, fut tljrj orj hm pmcabjejh tm jhimrbj at.Tljrjimrj, spjjd caeats orj o pmcatj suggjstamh, ca`j turh saghocs ah HORBOV.

Wj orravj kust ah taej tm fj stuiijd ot ohmtljr fohqujt. Tljsj pjmpcj rjoccy hjjd tm stmp frahgahg mut tlas eubl immd. Tlas wos o twjhty bmursj ejoc. Twjhty. Qjs, twjhty. Occ àttjh.Tlj emst aepmrtoht ejh mi Guohyuoh lovj bmej tm grjjt us, ohd, wj, uhsurj lmw wj orjsuppmsjd tm obt mr lmw tm toc` watl tlje, sjjahg tlot tljy dmh‑t `hmw Jhgcasl, iahd mursjcvjs

proyahg tlot wj dm hmt obbadjhtoccy ‒ ml A dmh‑t `hmw ‒ grovjcy miijhd tlje watl mur ow`word

couglahg. Tljy tmost occ tlj taej ohd A lmpj tljrj as hmt o prmpjr jdabt tm lmw tlas as dmhj. A lmpjA dad hmt gjt us àb`jd mut… Wj ejjt o fcob` eoh irme Blabogm ot tlj fohqujt wlm as quatj lacoramus. Lj los fjjh

cavahg ah Blaho imr 4 yjors, ohd wmr`s imr JR^H prmdubtamh eohogjejht. Lj lod o bmmc Blahjsjhoej ‒ Vovjhmus, wlabl ejohs…VMOV! Oitjr tlot wj wjht tm tlj supjreor`jt, ohd A fmuglt?>>> pob`s mi lagl-quocaty bmiijj imr 29 Quoh, mr 9 dmccors. Ah Oejrabo tlas bmsts 6> dmccors.Tlas, ey irajhds, as tlj vjry djiahatamh mi “owjsmej.‑

Bcossjs stort tmemrrmw (drue- rmcc)… A stacc ijjc tlot àttjh ah ey fjccy…

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Blahjsj pjmpcj cmm` vjry ymuhg. Tlj 22-yjor mcd lmst mi mur grmup cmm`s ca`j ohOejraboh Irjsleoh. Ey studjhts, rohgahg ah ogj mi 6> ‒ :>, occ cmm` tm fj hm mcdjr tlohjagltjjh. Tljy occ lovj ioeacajs, ohd cmm` ca`j tljy kust stortjd bmccjgj.

Tlj iarst, iucc doy mi bcossjs wjht vjry wjcc. Hmw odkustjd tm tlj daiijrjht tjoblahg cjvjcs,A lod tlrjj bcossjs mi wocàhg, tocàhg, ohd couglahg Blahjsj pjmpcj wlm orj kust stortahg ahJhgcasl. Tlas oitjrhmmh A slocc lovj ey odvohbjd bcoss, ohd slocc lmst o goej mi eusaboc bloarsos oh obtavaty imr tlj jhtarj studjht fmdy (occ ?6: mi tlje…tlj goej slocc fj jpab). A eust soy,tjobljrs orj wmrtly mi jhdcjss rjspjbt ‒ ohy bcoss tlot A lovj touglt ah tlj post los hmt fjjh obmhtahuoc jiimrt ca`j tlas, wlabl rjquarjs o vjry prjbasj ohd portabucor cjssmh pcoh imr o vjry

prjbasj ohd portabucor sàcc sjt, wlabl rjsucts ah ej lovahg tm jrosj ey mragahoc pcohs ohd eoàhghjw mhjs…jvjry sahgcj doy. Tlas as v jry daiiabuct tm dm, ohd tjobljrs orj wmrtly mi grjot rjspjbtah Oejrabo. Tjoblahg as oh uhravocjd ejhtoc strjss. Rtohdahg ot tlj irmht mi o bcossrmme as hmtlord, fut lovahg jvjrymhj cmm` ot ymu, ohd lovahg tm fj ot tlj tmp mi ymur goej imr 6 ‒ 9lmurs…tl ot as ejhtoc strjss.

Rmejtlahg tm hmtj tlot as vjry ahtjrjstahg; occ mi ey studjhts orj Jhgcasl tjobljrs wlmlovj ioeacajs, ohd yjt, imr tlrjj wjj`s, tljy lovj cjit tljar ioeacy tm study Jhgcasl ahGuohgyuoh. A `hmw hmt wljrj ah Oejrabo subl o tlahg mbburs. Tlj gmvjrhejht ah Blaho imrbjs,



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Rm A wos tmcd.…fy o Blahjsj eoh. …ah Blahjsj… Tlas emrhahg ey tjoe ohd A wjht tm o Blahjsj blurbl. A wmucd ca`j jvjrymhj wlm rjods

tlas, ai tljy gjt ot cjost mhj tlahg mut mi tlas jhtarj dmbuejht mi rohdme rohts ioslamhjd fy ej, tm

uhdjrstohd tlot Blrastaohaty as hm cmhgjr mpprjssjd ah Blaho. Tljrj orj tlmusohds mi blurbljs ahBlaho, ohd jobl Ruhdoy, ot cjost :>> tm o ?>>> pjmpcj brmwd ahtm tlj sohbtuory mi jobl mhj mitlje. Tlj blurbljs orj fuact mpjhcy fjtwjjh twm iruat stohds, ohd tlj wmrslap sjrvabjs cost irme1 OE tm ormuhd ?? OE. Blaho los tlj corgjst Fafcj prahtahg prjss ah tlj wmrcd, ohd tljgmvjrhejht as wjcc oworj mi at. Occ o blurbl eust dm as rjgastjr tlot tljy jxast, os blurbljs ahOejrabo eust dm ahdarjbtcy tlrmugl rjgastjrahg imr tox jxjeptamh, ohd tlot as tlot. A wmucd pcjosjca`j ymu tm uhdjrstohd tlot ymur ijors mi Blaho orj acc-ahimrejd. Tlas hotamh as hmt tlj hotamh mimpprjssamh tlot at mhbj wos. Tlj gmvjrhejht as wjcc oworj tlot tljy bohhmt brjotj oh jbmhmeabsupjrpmwjr ai tljy bcahg tm roggjd ohd koggjd glmsts.

Tlas emrhahg, tljrj eust lovj fjjh ot cjost o tlmusohd pjmpcj ot tlj sjrvabj.Oitjr blurbl, tlj ijeocj ejefjrs mi tlj tjoe lod o drjss eodj wlacj A scjpt ah tlj

fob`sjot mi tlj bor. A cmvj scjjpahg ah bors. A wmucd ca`j tm strjss ogoah tlj bloms mi Blahjsjtroiiab. Tljrj orj hm pmcabj miiabjrs. Tljrj orj hm troiiab saghocs. Tljrj as hm raglt sadj mi tljrmod. Fabybcjs, pjmpcj, ohd bors orj occ eaxjd tmgjtljr upmh tlj rmods, spjjdahg watl hm spjjdcaeat. Qjt, djspatj tlj bloms, tljrj as smej smrt mi uhwrattjh bmdj tlot jobl portabapoht eustimccmw. Blaho los ijwjr wrjb`s tloh Oejrabo, tlmugl at los tlj emst iotoc wrjb`s ah tlj wmrcd.Ai tlj bmdj as frm`jh, sacjht ohd uhrjoc os at as, tljrj as hm ejrby.

Oitjr tlas, wj wjht tm o vjry iohby rjstouroht tlot lod “wjstjrh immd.‑ Tla s immd wos hmtwjstjrh, at wos ior tmm gmmd. Oitjr jotahg Blahjsj immd imr mvjr twm wjj`s, A eust odeat lmwdasoppmahtjd A oe ah Oejraboh immd. Hmt occ mi at, fut emst mi at. A wos strub` tlmugl, fy, djspatjlmw iohby tlj rjstouroht wos, at wos vjry stacc ohd quajt. Wj wjrj tlj mhcy mhjs prjsjht durahgtlj pjo` lmurs. Wjstjrh immd, ca`j fjji, as hmt pmpucor ah Blaho. Tlj Blahjsj lotj tm jot bmw,

fjbousj tljy tlah` at as saccy tm `acc oh ohaeoc tlot prmvadjs tlj iorejr watl o ejohs tm pucc tlj pcmw, grozj tl j iajcds…Tlj rjstouroht wos tlrjj stmrajs tocc.

Ohmtljr tlahg tlot strub` ej wos tlj garc tlot stohds ot tlj irmht dmmr. Jvjry rjstourohtlos o “grjjtjr,‑ wlm, occ doy cmhg, drjssjd ah oh jcjgoht, pah` drjss tlot gmjs dmwh tm ljr oh`cjs,stohds ot tlj irmht dmmr eodj mi gcoss. Royahg hmtlahg, pjrlops hmddahg ohd eoyfj seacahg, sljmpjhs tlj dmmr, ohd watl o scaglt turh mi tlj wrast, ahvatjs tlj gujsts tm jhtjr mr gm. Rlj tljhbcmsjs tlj dmmr, ohd cmm`s tlrmugl tlj gcoss mvjr tlj troiiab, soyahg hmtlahg…

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A lovj eodj o cast mi wlot A slocc frahg fob` tm Oejrabo. At gmjs os imccmws.?. Fom-Fahg6. ^ufcab Dohbj Rquorjs2. Vjstourohts watl spah-tofcjs.4. Lmt ^mt

Tlas emrhahg, wj wjht tm blurbl, wlabl wos oh oeozahg jxpjrajhbj. Wj tljh wjht tm cuhbltm try smejtlahg hjw. At wos boccjd Lmt ^mt. Wlot loppjhs as tlj woatrjssjs frahg mut seocc

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frahgs tlj frmtl tm o fmac. Tlj woatrjssjs tljh pcobjs uhbmm`jd immds mh tlj spah-tofcj, subl osloe, fjji, iasl…ocmhg watl vjgjtofcjs. Qmu tljh lovj tm grof tlas immd watl ymur blmp stab`s,ohd bmm` at ah ymur frmtl. Tlj immd bmm`s quab`cy ohd josacy, imr tlj ejots orj tlahcy scabjd.Tljh, ymu emvj tlj ejots ohd vjgjtofcjs irme mut mi ymur frmtl ahtm o fmwjc mi spabjs pcobjd otymur raglt. Tlas as o gjhaus woy tm jot, ohd vjry oeusahg. Tlas smrt mi tlahg as yjt tm eo`j ats

woy tm Oejrabo, ohd A eoy try tm pamhjjr tlj ottjept… Tlas oitjrhmmh, tlj boccs mi tlj emuhtoah mutsadj ey wahdmw iahoccy gmt tm ej, ohd ot ? Ê, Asjt mii mh o kmurhjy tm bcaef at. Oitjr eoàhg ey woy tlrmugl o vaccogj, A prmbjjdjd up o eud

potl. At lod roahjd cost haglt, sm tlj jhtarj sadj mi tlj vjry stjjp emuhtoah wos scab`. Tlj potljhdjd lociwoy up. Irme tlot pmaht mh, at wos o fottcj ogoahst tlmrhs, rmb`s, roah, ohd rmb` woccstlot jhtoacjd jvjrytlahg irme browcahg, focohbahg mh ey bohj, ohd bcaefahg vjrtaboccy. Ot tlj tmpmi tlj emuhtoah, A imuhd o eud troac tlot twastjd ohd turhjd tlrmugl tlj jhtarj emuhtoah rohgjdmwh tm tlj mtljr sadj, ohd ofmut imur emuhtoahs mvjr, A imuhd o pmwjr-cahj troac, ohd tmm` at

fob`. A roh ahtm o iorejr wlm govj ej o pjobl, fjbousj lj prmfofcy tlmuglt A wos brozy, sjjahgtlot A wos bmotjd ah tlrjj coyjrs mi eud ohd borryahg o bohj ot tlj ogj mi twjhty-mhj, ohd wosmiijrahg ej o prjsjht tm `jjp ej owoy irme las ioeacy. Tljrj wjrj gmots ohd blab`jhs ocmhg tlj

potl. A eodj ey woy ahtm o vaccogj ormuhd :;2>, ohd tm eo`j at fob` fy 9;>> os A tmcd tlj grmup Awmucd, A icoggjd dmwh o fus irme ocmhg tlj rmod (wlabl wos tlj soijst jhdjovmr mi ey trap), ohdrmod at fob`. A lovj sm eohy bmmc sbors…

Tlj tljej mi tlas trap tm ej os fjjh tlot “Gmd wacc Ocwoys Gjt ymu Lmej.‑ Tlas tljej asjvadjht ah jvjry daejhsamh mi lueoh caij, ohd woc`s up o ûrpcj Emuhtoah ohd o HoejcjssEmuhtoah mutsadj o wahdmw sjrvj os rjeahdjrs mi tlas Trutl. Gmd soys Lj wacc to`j us Lmej, smA kust prmbjjd ocmhg tlj potl fjimrj ej, fjbousj mhj uhdjr Las Wahg as hjvjr cmst. Tljrjimrj,Las blacdrjh slmucd ocwoys emvj imrword. Imrword as tlj woy tm Lae. Imrword as tlj woy fob`Lmej.

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Blahjsj Jhgcasl tjobljrs iobj oh aepmssafcj satuotamh. Tljy tjobl tjh, 4>-eahutj bcossjso doy, ohd jobl bcoss los mvjr sjvjhty-iavj pjmpcj. Tlj cavjs mi tlj studjhts rjst smcjcy ah tljarofacaty tm poss oh jxoe tlot tjsts mhcy Jhgcasl groeeor, ohd tlot dmjs hmt ob`hmwcjdgj mhj‑sofacaty tm spjo` ah Jhgcasl ot occ. Tljrj as hm taej tm tjobl tlj studjhts lmw tm spjo` ah Jhgcasl,ohd tljrj as hm taej tljrjimrj tm tjobl tlje o cohguogj tlot bmucd mpjh bmuhtcjss dmmrs mimppmrtuhaty. Tljrj as hm taej tm gjt tlj studjhts ahtjrjstjd ah Jhgcasl. Tlj tjobljrs dm hmt lovjtaej tm eo`j cjssmh pcohs imr tjh bcossjs jvjry jvjhahg. Tlj tjobljrs dm hmt lovj o caij mutsadjmi tjoblahg. At as lord tm `jjp tlj tjobljr jxbatjd ofmut Jhgcasl, fjbousj tljy lordcy lovj jhjrgytm tjhd tm tljar mwh blacdrjh, ohd tljy wjrj imrbjd tm fj tjobljrs ah tlj iarst pcobj.

A slocc ocsm strjss lmw eubl prjssurj as mh studjhts tm dm wjcc mh tljar jhtrohbj jxoes. Aitljy dm hmt dm wjcc mh tlje, tljar cavjs orj imrjvjr blohgjd. Tljy dm hmt gjt o sjbmhd blohbj.Blaho‑s ahirostrubturj as sm droeotaboccy slopjd ormuhd tljar corgj pmpucotamh tlot tljroeaiabotamhs at los mh jobl ahdavaduoc orj ahbmhbjavofcj. Blaho los ?.2 faccamh pjmpcj, Oejrabolos .2 faccamh pjmpcj, mr 2>> eaccamh pjmpcj. ^cjosj to`j o emejht tm bmhsadjr lmw corgj tlmsjhuefjrs orj, ohd tm bmhsadjr lmw imrtuhotj Oejrabo as tm hmt lovj oh oddatamhoc faccamh pjmpcj tmahbmrpmrotj ahtm ats ahirostrubturj.

Tmdoy A touglt usahg oh obtavaty boccjd “Jhgcasl Vodam0‑ A pcoyjd Jhgcasl smhgs, ohd tljstudjhts ah grmups lod tm iagurj mut tlj cyrabs mi o smuhd fat A pcoyjd. Jobl wmrd tljy gmt raglt



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mut mi tlj cyrab sjt wos mhj pmaht, ohd tlj grmup watl tlj emst pmahts wmh. At wos o vjry oeusahgobtavaty.

A wos ocsm toc`jd ahtm gjttahg o loarbut ah tlj slmp hjxt tm mur dmre fy Kmy tlas oitjrhmmh, pursujd fy tlj ahvahbafcj orguejht “wly hmt=‑ A jxpjrajhbjd loarbut harvoho. Tlj eoh lodvasamh. Lj rahsjd, lj but, lj d ohbjd…ohd wljh lj lod iahasljd (o trohsbjhdjhtoc ahstoht ahataotjd

fy las borjiuc ruffahg mi ey ljod), A sow ofsmcutjcy hm daiijrjhbj ah ey loarstycj. Lmwjvjr, A ijct o daiijrjhbj.Tlj tlarty eahutj prmbjss bmst mhj dmccor.A cmvj Blaho… Tlot jvjhahg, smej mi tlj studjhts bloccjhgjd CW ohd ej tm fos`jtfocc. Tljy dad hmt

soy tlot wj bmucd hmt usj imucs. Wj ocsm wotbljd o kuggcjr pjrimreohbj tlot tlj bmeeuhatygotljrjd ormuhd. A wotbljd o eoh jxpcmdj iarj irme mut mi las emutl ‒ at wos quatj aeprjssavj.

(A slmucd stoy ah tlas hotamh. A slmucd eo`j ey fmm` jvjh emrj daiiabuct, sm daiiabuct hm mhj waccjvjr uhdjrstohd at, ohd lmord at occ tm eysjci. Tljy dmh‑t djsjrvj at!)

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Tlj Hoejcjss Emuhtoah2

Zbbjccm stohds ot las wahdmw ohd cmm`s ot tlj tocc emuhtoah lj los fjjh storahg ot imr twmwjj`s hmw. Lj ljors tlj emuhtoah boccahg las hoej os mhj ljors tlj wahd wlastcj ahtm tljar joros at possjs mh ats woy jcsjwljrj. At as vjry tocc, ohd cmm`s tmm stjjp tm bcaef. Qjt, hmhj mi tlotrjgastjrs ah Zbbjccm‑s eahd os o rjosmh hmt tm bcaef tlj emuhtoah. Lj as ahbopofcj mi ohyrjosmhahg tlot wacc djtjr lae irme tlj kmurhjy lj `hmws tlot lj los tm gm mh. Os ai oh AhvasafcjWarj as droggahg lae ocmhg tlj woy, Zbbjccm grofs o wocàhg stab`, las boejro, ohd cmb`s tljdmmr mi las dmre rmme fjlahd lae os lj ljods mut. Lj dmjs hmt gm fjbousj lj ijjcs os ai lj loshm blmabj fut tm gm. Lj gmjs fjbousj lj `hmws lmw immcasl at wmucd fj tm blmmsj Irustrotamh.

Zbbjccm woc`s fy tlj imrjagh vaccogjrs ohd tlrmugl tlj mrajhtoc vaccogj. Lj as tlj mhcy

pjrsmh watl las sàh bmcmr. Fjahg o eahmraty as o vjry mdd jxpjrajhbj, jspjbaoccy ah o pcobj tlotlos sm cattcj bmhbjpt mi robj. At ijjcs os ai jvjrymhj as cmmàhg ot lae. Zbbjccm as uhsurj ai ljslmucd fj prmtjbtavj, wovj, mr obt ca`j hmtlahg as wrmhg. At ijjcs ca`j lj as ocwoys mh tlj spmt.Tmdoy tlmugl, lj `jjps las jyjs sjt mh tlj emuhtoah, hmt jvjh cjttahg las jyjs icab`jr ah tljarbmhbjhtrotamh djspatj wlot wmeoh mh o fabybcj possjs mr wlot oh jcdjrcy eoh borryahg frab`ssoys ah o eystjramus tmhguj. Zbbjccm mhcy tlah`s ofmut tlj emuhtoah.

Tmdoy lj dmjs hmt ijjc sm mdd.Zbbjccm eo`js at o quortjr up tlj emuhtoah mh o bmhbrjtj potl, fut smmh tlj josy woy

gavjs woy tm o horrmw, eud potl. Lj stjps mii tlj bmhbrjtj ahtm tlj eud watlmut eassahg o stjp.Lj possjs tlrmugl tocc gross ohd eo`js las woy fy o ljrd mi bottcj tlot oh jcdjrcy wmeoh astjhdahg tm. Rlj wotbljs Zbbjccm gm sacjhtcy ohd tm ljrsjci.

At roahjd cost haglt, sm tlj sadj mi tlj emuhtoah ohd ats dart potls orj euddy ohd scab`.Zbbjccm `jjps las focohbj watl las wocàhg stab`. Tljrj as o smit east ah tlj oar, bmhsjqujhbj mitlj hjorahg prjsjhbj mi bcmuds. Zbbjccm jyjs tlj tocc gross ohd tlj imcaogj, tlmuglts mi pmasmhmusspadjrs ohd sho`js jhtjrahg las eahd.–Rurrmuhd ej watl ohgjcs Iotljr.―

Tlj eud potl cjods ahtm tlj wmmds, ohd tljrj at jhds. Fjimrj Zbbjccm as o kuhgcj mi tlmrhsohd spadjr-wjfs, watl hm bcjor woy mi lmw tm bmhtahuj. Lj fottjrs owoy frohbljs watl las lohdohd bcaefs upword. O tlmrh scabjs o but ahtm las cjg. Lj fjgahs tm tlah` ofmut tlj dohgjrmusohaeocs tlot cavj mh tlas emuhtoah, ohd lj fjgahs tm tlah` ofmut lmw eubl dastohbj lj los tmbmvjr. Lj scaps ohd ioccs mhtm las `hjj ah tlj eud, botblahg las boejro fog fjimrj at seosljs ahtmrmb`s. Tljrj, lj imcds las lohds tmgjtljr,

–Iotljr, A os` tlot Qmu `jjp ej soij, ohd slmw ej tlj woy up tlas emuhtoah.― Zbbjccm proys, –Abohhmt dm at ocmhj. A os` Qmu tm prmtjbt ej fjbousj A dm hmt woht ey bmerodjs ot tlj dmre tmwmrry ofmut ej, ohd A dm hmt woht tm ruah tljar trap. A ocsm dm hmt woht tm ruah tlj cavjs mi eyioeacy. A os` ocsm tlot Qmu gjt ej lmej ah taej imr dahhjr, imr A tmcd ey bmerodjs A wmucd fj

fob` fy tljh. Tlas as ey djsarj.― –…os` wlot ymu djsarj, ohd at slocc fj dmhj imr ymu.―

Zbbjccm cmm`s mvjr las slmucdjr, ohd stohdahg mvjr lae as o wmeoh. Rlj los cmhg,eokjstab frmwh loar, frmwh-jyjs, ohd toh sàh. Rlj wjors o taglt suat dropjd mvjr watl oh



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jhguciahg, wlatj bcmo`, wlatj fmmts, ohd wlatj gcmvjs. Rlj seacjs ot Zbbjccm, ohd pmahts up tljemuhtoah,–Gm tm tlj sueeat ey irajhd. At as irme tlj sueeat ymu boh sjj tlj grjotjst dastohbjs.― –Fut A boh iocc irme ohy ljaglt.― –Qmu wacc hmt iocc ai A Oe watl ymu. Qmu boccjd Ey Hoej0 ljrj A Oe. Bcaef tm t lj sueeat

Zbbjccm2 , tlas emuhtoah slocc tjcc ymu tlj stmry mi ymur caij, ohd miijr ymu o grjot rjvjcotamh.― Zbbjccm dmjs wlot lj as tmcd. Tm prmbjjd lj eust browc uhdjr tlj tlmrhs. Lj drmps tm las

`hjjs ohd jcfmws ah tlj eud, ohd browcs imrword.–Tljsj tlmrhs orj tlj sahs mi ymur caij.― tlj wmeoh soys os slj woc`s fjlahd lae. O tlmrh scabjso but obrmss ljr cjit bljj`. Rlj `jjps wocàhg. Zbbjccm scaps ah tlj eud ohd ioccs fob` twm stjps,–Tlj eud as ymur dmuft ohd ijor.― –^rmtjbt ej irme tlj spadjrs Iotljr!― –Wlot spadjr boh lurt ymu, Zbbjccm, ymu wlm as iaccjd watl Caglt= Bloms bohhmt lurt ymu. Qmuorj aeeuhj tm rohdme obbadjhts ohd “fod cub`,‑ imr mhcy tlmsj wlm orj iaccjd watl tlj bloms miMfcavamh orj vuchjrofcj tm blohbj.― –^rmtjbt ej irme tlj sho`j ohd wmcvjs Iotljr!―

–Tljy lovj hm pmwjr mvjr ymu. Tlj dor`hjss ormuhd ymu as iaccjd watl tlj Caglt tlot cavjs ahymu. Qmu lovj hm rjosmh tm ijor0 tlj mhcy ijors tlot boh lurt ymu orj tlmsj ymu lurt ymursjciwatl.―

O gosp scaps tlrmugl Zbbjccm‑s emutl0 o corgj spadjr as dohgcahg mvjr las ljod. Tljwmeoh grofs tlj spadjr watl ljr lohd. At fatjs ljr, ohd ats pmasmh bmursjs tlrmugl ljr vjahs.–Qmu bohhmt fj lurt fy wlot A lovj Iaccjd, imr A Cavj ah ymu.―

O scab` rmb` tlrmws Zbbjccm mii focohbj, fut watl sàcciuc quab`-tlahàhg lj cmfs las bohjahtm tlj dart fjlahd lae tm lmcd lae up. Lj pusljs imrword.–Ey stoii mi ragltjmushjss wacc `jjp ymu stohdahg tocc.― –A hjjd o potl Iotljr.― Zbbjccm soys, sjjahg hm woy tm odvohbj, –A bohhmt rjobl tlj sueeatwatlmut Qmu.―

Tlj wmeoh pmahts tm tlj raglt, ohd Zbbjccm dub`s dmwh tm sjj oh mpjhahg ah tlj imcaogj.Lj browcs, woccmwahg ah tlj eud, ohd stohds up ahtm o bcjorahg. Tljrj as o euddy potl brjotjdtlrmugl jrmsamh fy tlj ioccahg roah woslahg dmwh tlj sadj mi tlj emuhtoah. Lmwjvjr, at as vjrystjjp. Tm lmast laesjci up subl o traoc, Zbbjccm usjs trjj rmmts ohd las stoii. Lj eo`js las woytlrjj-imurtls tm tlj tmp, ohd bohhmt iahd o woy tm gjt las immtahg,–A hjjd o trjj mi caij Iotljr!―

Tlj wmeoh, ljr wlatj bcmtljs stoahjd fy tlj eud ohd ljr gcmvjs wroppjd ormuhd tljrmb`s ohd rmmts tlot Zbbjccm lod usjd, grofs tlj jhd mi Zbbjccm bohj, ohd cmfs at ahtm o rmb`.Zbbjccm sjjs o seocc rmmt lj lod hmt hmtabjd, ohd grofs at. Lj puccs laesjci up mvjr tlj radgj,–Iotljr, wly dm Qmu Kmyiuccy eo`j Qmursjci vuchjrofcj tm tlas wmrcd ohd ey djsarjs=― –Qmur djsarjs orj eodj ah Ey Hoej, ohd djsarj iuciaccjd as o trjj mi Caij. At as mhcy tlrmugl Caij

tlot A boh sovj tlas wmrcd. Ai ymu os` ohytlahg ah Ey hoej, A wacc dm at. At as ey Kmy tm dm at. Acmhg imr drjoejrs wlm orj hmt oiroad mi tlj emuhtoahs ohd wlm dorj tm sjj` tlj emuhtoahtmps.― Wotjr trab`cjs dmwh tlj horrmw rmb`s Zbbjccm bcaefs up. Lj ijjcs tlj wahd ruhhahg

tlrmugl tlj trjjs.–Cmm` mvjr ymur slmucdjr, ey irajhd.―

Zbbjccm stmps, turhs ormuhd, ohd sjjs tlj vajw tlot lod fjjh oeossahg fjlahd lae imr tljiarst taej. Emuhtoahs dohbahg ah bcmuds ohd vaccogjs iaccjd watl fjoutaiuc pjmpcj poaht tlj bohvostlot as tlj lmrazmh. Trjjs gcaeejr wljh tlj suh quab`cy pjj`s mut mi tlj bcmuds, ohd iajcds tlot



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orj vafrohtcy grjjh ah tlj emast oar bcaef up tlj sadjs mi emuhtoahs hmt ior irme wljrj Zbbjccm asstudyahg tlje.–Tlas as wljrj ymu burrjhtcy orj ah ymur caij, Zbbjccm. Tlj rjvjcotamhs A lovj gavjh ymu ohd tljqujst ymu lovj to`jh l ovj cjod ymu tm tlas pcobj.―

Borjiuccy, Zbbjccm uhbmacs las boejro mut mi las euddy fog, ohd to`js o pabturj.

–Lmwjvjr, tljrj as stacc eubl emrj tm fj dmhj.― ^uttahg tlj boejro djcabotjcy fob` ah pcobj, Zbbjccm prmbjjds upword. Tlj potl jhds, ohdtlab`jr tlmrhs ohd scappjry rmb`s rjor tljar ugcy ljods.–Wlabl woy dm A gm=― –Tlot woy.― –Tlj mtljr woy cmm`s soijr.― –Tlj mhcy soijty as ah Ey Woy.―

Zbbjccm gmjs tm las raglt, fottahg owoy tlmrhs watl las stab`. Rmmh lj as bmhirmhtjd fy olagl, rmb` wocc,–Tlas as dohgjrmus Iotljr0 A bmucd scap ohd iocc.― –Qmu wacc hmt iocc Zbbjccm. Bcaef at.―

–Fut wlot ai A iocc, ohd tlas jvjhahg wljh A dm hmt rjturh lmej, ey bmerodjs ot tlj dmre orjwmrrajd ohd wjjpahg= Wmucd at hmt fj ahbmhsadjrotj tm bcaef tlas wocc ohd ras` subl o iotj=― –At wmucd fj ahbmhsadjrotj mi ymu mhcy tm hmt mftoah tlj rjvjcotamh A lovj ah stmrj imr ymu tm slorjwatl ymur frmtljrs ohd sastjrs ah Ej. Tljrj as hmtlahg tm ijor. Qmu orj hmt ocmhj. Rtab` tm tljrmb`s ohd cavahg trjjs. Ovmad tlj emvahg grmuhd ohd djod rmmts.―

O lohd grofs o rmb`. O immt iahds immtahg ah o rmmt. Zbbjccm puccs laesjci upword,imccmwahg tlj pottjrh. Tmword tlj tmp, lj bohhmt iahd immtahg.–A hjjd o trjj mi caij Iotljr.―

Rmmh lj spmts o trjj, ohd borjiuccy pmsatamhs laesjci tm usj at. Ruddjhcy lj scaps ohdswahgs wacdcy mvjr tlj rovahj, fut bcahgs djspjrotjcy tm tlj trjj. Lj goahs las focohbj fob`, ohd

pusljs laesjci up. Las bmhiadjhbj fuacds,–Hmtlahg ah tlas wmrcd boh eo`j ej quat!― –Mtljr tloh ymursjci, Zbbjccm.―–A wacc hjvjr quat Iotljr!―

Tlj tlmrhs tlab`jh.–Tljrj orj tlj sahs mi ymur caij.―

Zbbjccm fots tlje dmwh watl las stab`,–Tlas as wljh ymu os` imr imrgavjhjss.―

Emrj tlmrhs oppjor ocmhg watl spadjr-wjfs, ohd Zbbjccm prjporjs tm swot tlje owoywatl las stab`,–Dm hmt usj tlj rmd ai ymu dm hmt lovj tm.―

Zbbjccm hmtabjs tlot tljrj as jhmugl rmme tm browc uhdjr tlj tlmrhs–Ovmad tlj tlmrhs lmwjvjr ohd wljhjvjr ymu boh.―

O eossavj tlmrh oppjors suddjhcy,–Tlas as wljh ymu wacc fj tjeptjd tm eurdjr smejmhj.― –Wlot= Wly=―

Tljrj as oh ohswjr watlah tlj sacjhbj.–A wacc hjvjr eurdjr ohymhj Iotljr. A wacc ocwoys dm wlot Qmu woht ej tm dm.― –Wacc ymu cjovj tlj garc ymu cmvj ai A hjjd Qmu tm=―



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–Qjs. A `hmw Qmu wacc rjturh ej tm ljr. Hmtlahg wacc `jjp ej irme Qmur ^rmeasj ah ey caij,jvjh ey cmvj imr ljr.― –Orj ymu surj tlot at as tlas garc tlot ymu orj ah cmvj watl, mr kust ymur vjrsamh mi ljr= Orj ymusurj ymu lovj hmt fcahdjd ymursjci irme ljr Truj Rjci=―–A dm hmt caj tm eysjci watl ey mwh jyjs. A wacc hmt bmeeat tlj sah mi ey blorobtjr.―

–Hjvjr imrgjt ymur Fosj. Mhbj ymu cmsj saglt mi tlot, ymu wacc bjosj tm jxast.― –Qjs Iotljr.― Tlj huefjr mi spadjr- wjfs dohgcahg ormuhd Zbbjccm‑s ljod ahbrjosjs.

–Qmu orj hjorahg tlj sueeat Zbbjccm.― O east orasjs oeadst tlj imrjst duj tm tlj prjsjhbj mi bcmuds. Zbbjccm boh sjj mvjr las

slmucdjr, tlmugl hmt bcjorcy duj tm tlj mvjrlohgahg frohbljs, tlot las vajw as fjbmeahgahbrjosahgcy iohtostab. Ruddjhcy, ohd mhbj ogoah, Zbbjccm iahds las woy fcmb`jd,–Gavj ej o potl Iotljr! A bohhmt eo`j at mh ey mwh.―

Tlj wmeoh as gmhj, mr ot cjost Zbbjccm bohhmt sjj ljr ohyemrj. Lj cmm`s tm las raglt, ohdlj cmm`s tm cjit. Lj cmm`s fob` upmh tlj woy lj lod bmej. ^jrlops tljrj as o fjttjr potl fjlahdlae.

–Bcaef imrword Zbbjccm.― –Tljrj as hm potl.― –A wacc gavj ymu mhj. Ey potls hjvjr caj fjlahd ymu.―

Hm mtljr mptamhs cjit, Zbbjccm drmps tm las jcfmws ohd `hjjs ogoah, ohd browcs uhdjr tljtlmrhs. Las slart as sejorjd watl eud, ohd las boejro fob` as shotbljd fy tlj tlmrhs. Tlas puccstlj tlmrhs fob`, ohd wljh tljy orj rjcjosjd, tljy mitjh shop fob` ahtm Zbbjccm‑s icjsl. Tjh -eahutjs poss, ohd tljrj as stacc hm potl. Fcmmd trab`cjs dmwh las jyjs,–A hjjd o potl Iotljr! Gavj ej o potl!―

Tljrj as hm rjpcy. Vjiusahg tm rjcjht, Zbbjccm pusljs mh. Lj stuefcjs mvjr o rmb` fut`jjps las focohbj watl las bohj. At as tljh watl o iahoc stjp tlot lj stuefcjs mvjr o eud pacj, ohdrjobljs tlj sueeat mi tlj emuhtoah.

Zbbjccm fursts ahtm cougltjr.Tljrj as o cmhg, wadj, euddy potl gmahg ah fmtl darjbtamhs.Tljrj as o pajbj mi ljovy, bmhstrubtamh jquapejht watl o corgj ore ohd fub`jt tlot lod

eodj tlj potl.–Fjlmcd o rjvjcotamh0 A wacc ocwoys prmvadj o potl, jvjh mh tlj emuhtoahtmp. Wjcbmej tm tljopjx mi ymur caij. Tlj potl fjimrj ymu as Jtjrhaty. Tlj stjps ymu to`j ah Jtjrhaty orj tlj prmbjssah wlabl ymu rjocazj Occ-@hmwcjdgj, wlabl ah Jtjrhaty ymu lovj tlj Ofacaty tm Dm.― –Wlabl woy wacc cjod ej lmej, Iotljr=―

O lohd ioccs mh Zbbjccm‑s slmucdjr. Tlj wmeoh pmahts tm tlj cjit, –Imccmw tlot rmod Lmej.―–Rlmucd A hmt gm tm tlj raglt, Iotljr=― –Occ potls orj raglt ah ey Cmvj, Zbbjccm.―

Zbbjccm uhdjrstohds. Lj wohts tm soy smejtlahg jcsj,–Tloh` ymu imr fjahg ey irajhd.― –Tloh` ymu imr fjahg eahj, ahstjod mi kust ey sjrvoht.― –Wly dm Qmu Cmvj ej=― –Qmu wacc @hmw Mhj Doy.― –Fut dad hmt tlj djsarj tm @hmw tlj ohswjr tm tlot qujstamh rjsuct ah Cubaijr ioccahg=―



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–Qjs ‒ las cob` mi uhdjrstohdahg tlot A Oe Gmd rjsuctjd ah tlj orblatjbt mi doehotamh0 Zbbjccm,tm bohbjc tlas, at slocc rjquarj oh ogjht mi Caij, wlabl mhcy A Oe. Djsarjs eodj ah Ey Hoej orj otrjj mi Caij, fut Cubaijr‑s djsarj tm @hmw Ej wjrj djsarjs eodj ah las hoej, ohd djsarjs eodjah ohy mtljr hoej tloh Eahj orj o trjj mi @hmwcjdgj. Tlmugl @hmwcjdgj gavjs ahsaglt, ahsagltwatlmut Caij as oh obt mi storahg ahtm tlj vmad, ohd lovahg tlj vmad stor fob` ot ymu. Tlas as

Mfcavamh.― –Rm at slocc rjquarj pjmpcj tlot Qmu Cavj watlah=― –Qjs, fut tlas dmjs hmt ejoh ymu wacc Zhdjrstohd tlj ohswjr tm tlj qujstamh ymu lovj os`jd. Atmhcyejohs ymu slocc @hmw At.― –Wlot slocc wj @hmw=― –A Oe.―

Tlj wmeoh pmahts dmwh tlj cjit potl ogoah,–Gm hmw, ohd lurry Lmej.― –Wacc A rjturh fjimrj dahhjr=―–Qjs Zbbjccm, ai ymu imccmw Ey Taej, ymu boh orravj ohywljrj ohd dm ohytlahg ah ohy taej ymusm djsarj. Rm tjcc Ey blacdrjh tm fj drjoejrs Zbbjccm0 A cmhg imr blacdrjh tlot drjoe, sm tlot A boh

eo`j tljar drjoes bmej truj.―Zbbjccm gmjs dmwh tlj cjit potl. At as euddy, fut bcjor. Lj woc`s imr o cmhg taej ahsacjhbj. Lj los cmst occ trob` mi taej, ohd fjbousj at as bcmudy, lj bohhmt gougj taej fy tlj suh.Lj iahds laesjci fjimrj o vjry cmhg, euddy lacc, port mi tlj potl. At cjods dmwh tlj mtljr sadj mitlj emuhtoah.–Tlas as hmt cjodahg ej lmej, Iotljr.―

Tljrj as hm ohswjr. Lmwjvjr, ahsadj, lj ijjcs tlas as tlj woy lj eust gm. Lj storts dmwhtlj lacc, focohbahg mh las wmffcahg bohj sm tlot lj wacc hmt scap. Lj eo`js las woy tm o seocc,horrmw potl mi rmb`s eodj fy tlj daggahg bcow mi tlj ljovy eoblahjry. Rtuefcahg, kuepahg, ohd

focohbahg las woy dmwh ca`j smej imre mi uhpcohhjd dohbj tlot as jcjgoht imr tlot rjosmh,Zbbjccm eo`js at tm tlj fmttme mi tlj emuhtoah‑s mtljr sadj. Tljrj tlj potl stroagltjhs mu t, ohdimccmws ocmhg tlj jdgjs mi tlj emuhtoah,–A dm hmt sjj wljrj tlas gmahg.―

Tlj potl gmjs upword ogoah, ohd oitjr o cmhg, lord bcaef, Zbbjccm kust iahds tlj potlgmahg dmwh ogoah. Lj stmps ljrj, ohd tlah`s ofmut gmahg fob` tlj woy lj lod bmej. Lj bmucdeo`j at lmej ai lj kust rjtrobjd las stjps.–Fut Iotljr soad tm to`j tlas potl.―

Tljrj as hm ahdabotamh tlot tlas rmod wacc dm ohytlahg mtljr tloh gjt Zbbjccm cmst ah tljemuhtoahs.–Eoyfj A kust soad tm to`j tlas potl…―

Qjt, djspatj tlas, lj to`js o djjp frjotl, ohd bmhtahujs imrword. Lj tlah`s ofmut rjturhahglmej cotj.–Qmu soad Qmu wmucd gjt ej lmej fy tlj taej A os`jd, ohd A wacc fjcajvj at. A wacc stab` tm tlas

potl.― Oh lmur possjs, ohd tlj potl dmjs hmtlahg fut wjovj ormuhd tlj fosj mi tlj emuhtoahs.

At rohdmecy spcats mii ahtm daiijrjht potls, ohd Zbbjccm stab`s tm tlj potl tlot las “gut‑ tjccs lae tmto`j. At as quajt. O drmp mi wotjr ioccs mh Zbbjccm‑s hmsj.

At as roahahg hmw.Tlj wotjr robjs dmwh las iobj. At as hmt roahahg ljovacy, fut at as roahahg hmhjtljcjss.



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Tlj tljej mi tlas trap tm ej l os fjjh tlot “Gmd wacc Ocwoys Gjt ymu Lmej.‑ Tlas tljej asjvadjhbj ah jvjry daejhsamh mi lueoh caij, ohd woc`s up o Hoejcjss Emuhtoah mutsadj o wahdmw

sjrvj os plysaboc rjeahdjrs mi tlas Trutl. Gmd soys Lj wacc to`j ej Lmej, sm A kust prmbjjdocmhg tlj potl fjimrj ej, fjbousj mhj uhdjr Las Wahgs as hjvjr cmst. Tljrjimrj, Las blacdrjh

slmucd ocwoys emvj imrword. Imrword as tlj woy tm Lae. Imrword as tlj woy fob` Lmej.

Zbbjccm bcmsjs las coptmp ohd turhs mii las djs` caglt. Las fmdy obljs, ohd las jyjs orjljovy. Rcmwcy, lj to`js mii las bcmtljs, ohd browcs ahtm fjd. Hm tlmuglts trmufcj lae. Lj asseacahg smitcy wljh lj draits ahtm scjjp.

Lj lod bcaefjd tlj emuhtoah0 lj lod eodj at Lmej.

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Caij ah Blaho as saepcj. A wo`j up, A woc` tm frjoìost, A woc` tm bcoss, A woc` tm eyrmme, A woc` tm o rjstouroht, A woc` dmwh tlj strjjt, A prjporj cjssmhs, rjpjot. Tlj bmepcabotamhsmi dravahg mr lovahg tm gm smejwljrj lovj fjjh jrosjd. Ai A oe odvjhturmus, A gjt mh o fus, ohdgm tm tlj pufcab dohbj squorj. Tlas wmrcd as hmt os hmasy os Oejrabo, wlabl as o fcur mi spjjd. Osjvadjhbj mi tlj pmaht, tlj studjhts durahg tlj “Oejraboh Tofcj Eohhjrs Jxjrbasj‑ bmucd hmtuhdjrstohd wly tljy bmucd hmt pab` up tlj pcotj ohd slmvjc tlj immd ahtm tljar emutl, os tljy dmwatl tljar rabj fmwcs.

Tmdoy wos tlj iahoc doy mi tjoblahg, ohd at wos oh owjsmej mhj. Tjoblahg fosjfocc asrjoccy lord. Tljrj orj sm eohy rucjs tlot wj dmh‑t tlah` ofmut os Oejrabohs uhtac wj lovj tmjxpcoah tlje tm pjmpcj wlm lovj hmt grmwh up watl tlj spmrt. Ljrj orj smej mi tlj qujstamhs Awos os`jd tmdoy;

–Wly boh‑t emrj tloh mhj pjrsmh fj mh o fosj ot o taej=― –Boh A tlrmw tlj focc ot pcoyjr=― –Wlot as “fosj=‑― –Rm A slmucd pusl pjmpcj mii tlj fosj…=― –Wly dm ymu bocc at oh “mut=‑― –Wly slmucd A ruh lmej=―

Oitjr oh lmur mi lystjraboc cougltjr ohd tlj fottjr tryahg tm botbl tljar mwh lat, wjrjturhjd ahsadj. Tljrj wj cjorhjd tlj cyrabs tm Tlj Borpjhtjr‑s “Qjstjrdoy Mhbj Emrj.‑

Tlas oitjrhmmh, at wos Rjhamr Qjor ot Vustfurg Lagl Rblmmc 6>>7 occ mvjr ogoah ‒ wj lodo tocjht slmw. At wos ofsmcutjcy mutstohdahg. Tljrj wjrj o fuhbl mi sahgjrs, ohd smejlmw A wosimrbjd ahtm sahgahg “Qjstjrdoy Mhbj Emrj.‑ Mhbj mi tlj studjhts ocsm dad oh aepjrsmhotamh miej. Lystjraboc (sacjht pousj….). Wj jhtjrjd watl jvjrymhj sahgahg “Qjstjrdoy Mhbj Emrj‑tmgjtljr. Tlas wos tlj emst fjoutaiuc emejht mi tlj jhtarj trap.

Tlas jvjhahg, tlj studjhts tmm` ey tjoe ohd A mut tm o dahhjr imccmwjd fy òrom`j ohddohbahg. Ot cjost jaglty mi tlj studjhts wjrj tljrj, ohd tmgjtljr wj otj lmtpmt. Tljrj wjrj otcjost tlarty tmosts. Ocsm, Blahjsj pjmpcj gjt druh` mii mi ?% ocbmlmc ‒ tljy lovj hm stmeobl imrat. Tmosts orj o fag trodatamh ljrj ‒ jvjry studjht sjjes tm bmej up, tap ymur gcoss, ohd soys o

fuhbl mi vjry habj tlahgs fjimrj gucpahg dmwh oh jhtarj gcoss.Oitjr dahhjr, tlj studjhts lod us gm dmwhstoars ahtm o òrom`j ohd dohbj bjhtjr. Qmu

`hmw, ah Oejrabo, tljsj twm obtavatajs orj emrj mitjh tloh hmt, jepty. ^jmpcj dohbj fy kuepahgup ohd dmwh, ohd hmfmdy dmjs òrom`j. Tlas as hmt tlj bosj ah Blaho. Jvjrymhj boh dohbj ‒ at asmhj mi tljar eoah imres mi jhtjrtoahejht. Mitjh tljy gm tm tlj ûfcab Dohbj Rquorjs ohd dohbj.Qmu bmucd kust dohbj, ohd tlot wos tlot. A lovj hmt lod tlj pcjosurj mi obtuoccy dohbahg sahbj oyjor ogm, ohd tm fj ah o rmme mi o luhdrjd pjmpcj tlot jhkmyjd tm dm at os wjcc, ohd wlm wjrjwaccahg tm try ohy fjot…at wos tlj emst iuh A lovj lod ah o vjry cmhg taej. Jvjrymhj as dohbahgwatl mhj ohmtljr ‒ guys dmahg twarc dohbjs watl mtljr guys, garcs ottjeptahg squorj dohbahg…occtlj bmepcjxatajs mi caij orj cjit jcsjwljrj tloh wljrj tlj vmabj mi tlj Blahjsj tjobljr sahgahgKmlh Djhvjr‑s “Bmuhtry Vmods‑ rjobljs, occ wlacj tlj mtljr tjobljrs frjo ` dohbj.

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Iorjwjcc ey djor Guohgyuoh…Trogjdy as wljh tlj sparat as imrbjd fy ohytlahg-fut-o-wacc tm stmp smorahg. Tlas emrhahg

A `hjw A wmucd lovj tm cjovj ey studjhts. Wj dadh‑t soy ohytlahg ofmut at wljh bcossjs st ortjd

ot <;2> ca`j hmreoc. Ey bcoss ‒ Zbbjccm‑s bcoss ‒ wos tlj hmvabj bcoss, ohd A govj jobl studjht,os dad ôt, CW, ohd Kmy imr tljar bcossjs, imur stoeps, imur pjhhajs, oh Oeaty poeplcjt, ohd obord watl ey jeoac oddrjss. Tlj studjhts cmvjd tlj gaits. Ot 1;>>, occ mi tlj studjhts ocmhg watltlj mtljr tjobljrs boej tm ey bcossrmme, fjbousj at wos tlj corgjst, ohd wj tlrjw o lugj porty. Aijct ca`j o bjcjfraty. Tlj studjhts lod us saghahg pajbjs mi popjr ohd toàhg pabturjs watl tlje imrtlj wlmcj lmur fjimrj tlj bcmsahg bjrjemhy. Jvjry sahgcj mhj mi tlj studjhts wohtjd tm to`j otcjost tjh pabturjs…

…Ohd tljh suddjhcy at wos taej imr tlj bcmsahg bjrjemhy. Caij as tmm scmw ah tlj prmbjss, ohd tmm iost oitjr tlj iobt. A dadh‑t tlah` tlj imur wjj` jxpjrajhb j wmucd jvjr jhd, ohd Adadh‑t tlah` tljrj wmucd jvjr fj o haglt ogoah wljh A dad hmt lovj tm irohtaboccy bmej up watl ocjssmh pcoh imr tlj hjxt doy. Ohd tljh suddjhcy A wos wmhdjrahg wljrj occ mi at lod gmhj.

Wljh ymu soy gmmdfyj, at as ocwoys hoturoc tm soy “`jjp ah tmubl,‑ mr “jeoac ej.‑ Tljiorjwjcc prmbjss bmhsasts mi oh jxblohgj mi plmhj huefjrs ohd jeoac oddrjssjs. Wlacj tlas asloppjhahg, fmtl portajs `hmw tlot tljy wacc hjvjr sjj tlj mtljr ogoah. At as hmt tlot tlj twm portajsdmh‑t woht tm sjj jobl mtljr ogoah ‒ tlj portajs gjhuahjcy cmvj mhj ohmtljr ‒ at‑s kust tlot fmtl

portajs `hmw tlot caij as stjocahg tlje owoy watl ats “sjos mi trmufcj.‑ Os lueohs, sm tlot wj bohijjc os ai wj orj hmt vabtaes tmssjd upmh tlj wovjs mi taej, wj lovj tm gm tlrmugl tlas ratuoc. At astlj mhcy woy wj boh to`j tlj fcmw, ohd at as tlj mhcy woy wj boh coy bcoae mh tlas taej wj lovjioccjh ahtm.

Caij as davadjd ahtm pjramds mi pjmpcj tlot ymu iocc ah cmvj watl, ohd tljh hjvjr sjj ogoah.Imr twjcvj yjors ymu fjirajhd pjmpcj fjtwjjh jcjejhtory sblmmc ohd lagl sblmmc, ohd tljhtljy‑rj gmhj. Imr imur yjors ymu fjirajhd pjmpcj ah bmccjgj, ohd tljh tljy‑rj gmhj. Imr imurwjj`s ymu fjirajhd Blahjsj studjhts, ohd tljh tljy‑rj gmhj. Wljrj dm tljy occ gm= Wlot as tljhoej mi tlj hmtlahghjss tlot stjocs tlje= Tlj hoej as taej. Tlot as wly taej as vocuofcj. Atlmcds watlah atsjci occ tlj pjmpcj. Tlot as wly tljrj as hjvjr oh ahstoht tlot boh fj wostjd.

Ohy wostj mi taej as o wostj mi lueoh ljort…Imr tlj Bcmsahg Bjrjemhy, ôt, CW, Kmy, ohd A sot ot o corgj djs` ot tlj irmht mi tlj

bcossrmme. Tlj studjhts sot ah bloars cmmàhg ot us. Wj bmucd sjj jvjrymhj0 tljy bmucd sjj us.Tljrj wos hm ladahg. Tljrj wos hm ioàhg. Kmy djcavjrjd o spjjbl tlot gmjs os imccmws;

Bcmsahg BjrjemhyKucy 2?, 6>>1

Wj wmucd iarst ca`j tm tloh` mur grobamus lmsts ot Guohgyuoh Hmreoc Rblmmc. ôt, CW,Zbbjccm, ohd A lovj tlmrmuglcy jhkmyjd mur slmrt tlrjj wjj`s ljrj. Qmu lovj eodj mur stoyjosy, bmeimrtofcj, ohd ejohahgiuc. Mur dmreatmry rmmes lovj fjjh bmeimrtofcj ohd bcjoh, murejocs bmhvjhajht ohd djcabamus, obbjss tm tlj ahtjrhjt rjcaofcj, ohd mur wjj`jhd traps iuh ohdjhtjrtoahahg. Wj wacc hjvjr imrgjt tlj Wu [o Taoh Tjepcj mr tlj Ohbajht Baty mi [lomluo, oswjcc os tlj djcabamus ejocs wj otj ocmhg tlj woy.

Tljrj orj twm pjmpcj wj wmucd ca`j tm pjrsmhoccy tloh`. Tlj iarst as Er. Qohg Lua. Er.Qohg, wj `hmw ymu put o cmt mi taej ohd jiimrt ahtm pcohhahg imr mur vasat, ohd wj `hmw ymu



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cjgataeazahg mi wlot A lod jxpjrajhbjd. A lod hmt jxpjrajhbjd o iocsj imre mi Blaho tlot lod fjjheohuiobturjd tm eo`j imur Wjstjrh Jhgcasl tjobljrs irme Yargahao bmeimrtofcj. A lodjxpjrajhbjd Blaho. A lod jxpjrajhbjd ahhmbjhbj. At wos oh aghmroht ahhmbjhbj, yjs, fut at wosgjhuahj. Tljsj pjmpcj wjrj hmt sjjàhg aghmrohbj. Tljy wjrj sjjàhg caij…

…ohd tljy lovj imuhd at.

Wj lohdjd mut tlj dapcmeos tm occ mi tlj studjhts, ohd tljh tlj studjhts woc`jd tlrmugl odmmriroej, ohd A lovj hmt sjjh tlje sahbj. Occ tljy dad wos woc` tlrmugl o dmmriroej. Tlotsoej dmmriroej lod frmuglt tlje ahtm ey bcoss imr tlrjj wjj`s. A lod usjd tlot soej dmmriroejtm woc` ahtm ey bcossrmme imr tlj iarst taej, ohd hmw tlot soej dmmriroej lod to`jh occ mi eystudjhts owoy. Kust ca`j tlot, tljy wjrj gmhj. Occ mi tlj cougltjr, occ mi tlj goejs, occ mi tljqujstamhs, occ mi tlj iuh…kust ca`j tlot, at wos gmhj.

Ohd occ tljy dad wos woc` tlrmugl o dmmriroej.At dadh‑t jvjh dm us tlj bmeemh djbjhby mi lmcdahg o dmmr.Tlot jvjhahg, oitjr tlj trogjdy, wj wjrj ahvatjd tm o bcmsahg fohqujt. Wj wjrj to`jh tm o

rjstouroht ohd lod dahhjr watl occ mi tlj sblmmc miiabaocs. Wj lod hjvjr sjjh tlj miiabaocs durahgmur tlrjj wjj`s mi tjoblahg. Ohd yjt ljrj tljy wjrj, bjcjfrotahg. A bmucd hmt ljcp fut ijjc tlot

mur bcmsahg fohqujt wos cost haglt watl tlj studjhts ot tlj òrom`j for. Tlas wos kust oh jeptysyefmc. At lod hm vocuj. Lmwjvjr, cost haglt, tlj cougltjr wos mvjricmwahg. A bmucd lovj stoyjdtljrj occ haglt. Tmdoy, tlj immd wos kust immd, tlj pjmpcj kust fmdajs, ohd tlj caglts kust fraglt. Atlod hm ejohahg.

Tlas as o trogjdy… Tlj wmrcd as oh jepty syefmc0 tlj wmrcd as o frm`jh-Aeogj. ^jmpcj gavj at vocuj. Tlj

wmrcd boh hjvjr gavj vocuj tm pjmpcj. ^jmpcj eust jxlafat tljar lueohaty, tljar Rparat, tm gavj caijejohahg. Tljrj as hm oemuht mi wjoctl tlot boh eo`j o ljort ijjc vocuofcj tlot as uhofcj tm iahdvocuj mh ats mwh.

Wjoctl as o earrmr imr pjmpcj tm sjj tljar rjijbtamh ah.Tm o pjrsmh, emhjy as tlj rmmt mi occ jvac ai tlj pjrsmh tljesjcvjs as tlj rmmt mi occ jvac.

Ca`jwasj fjjr, o bjrjemhy, o bup…ca`jwasj jvjrytlahg…. ^jmpcj djiahj caij os tljy sm blmsj tm jxlafat at……ohd tlot as wly at subl o trogjdy tm cmsj tlje.Lmwjvjr, A bcahg tm wlot o rjprjsjhtotavj mi tlj studjhts, Raemh, tmcd us durahg tlj

bcmsahg bjrjemhy, ohd slocc hjvjr imrgjt las wmrds;

–At los fjjh mur lmhmr ohd kmy tm lovj ymu ah Guohgyuoh. Wj wasl ym u tlj grjotjst fcjssahgs,ohd tlot mhj doy, wljhjvjr tlot eoy fj, at boh fj yjstjrdoy, mhbj emrj .―

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Wj orj mh tlj rmod ogoah…tlas taej wj orj gmahg fob`. Wj radj ah o voh imr imur lmurs tm gjt tm tlj oarpmrt. A ljor Roeujc Forfjr‑s Ohgus Dja

pcoyahg ah ey ljord tlj wlmcj radj. Tlj emuhtoahs fcur fy. Tljy orj cjovahg ej. A bohhmt bcaefemuhtoahs tlot orj gmhj…

Wj orravj ot tlj oarpmrt. Vacjy rmod watl us tm sjj us mii0 slj fjgoh bryahg wljh wjstjppjd fjymhd tlj gotj tm fmord tlj pcohj.

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Tlj pcohj radj as twm lmurs cmhg. Wj orravj ot Rlohgla. Tlj bcmsahg, Oeaty bmhijrjhbj asljcd ah o Lmcadoy Jxprjss. Tlj immd ot tlas lmtjc as tjrrafcj.

A ejjt Jca-Fcmmd ôtjrsmh ogoah. Wj jxblohgj stmrajs, ohd davj ahtm emrj tmpabs mibmhvjrsotamh. A lmpj A gjt tm sjj Jca ogoah oitjr occ tlas. A oe tarjd mi sjjahg pjmpcj tlot A ca`j smeubl cjovj.

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Tlas emrhahg, Kmy, CW, ôt, ohd A gm jxpcmrahg tlj baty. Rlohgla as tlj emst aeprjssavjbaty A lovj jvjr sjjh. Twjcvj-eaccamh pjmpcj cavj tljrj, ohd jvjry s`ysbropjr as fob`jd fy ohuhravocjd djgrjj mi tjblhmcmgy ohd gjhaus. Tlj baty as ca`j Hjw Qmr` mh stjrmads. Ca`j HjwQmr`, at as ocsm o tmurast trop.

Wj vasat o pcobj boccjd tlj “Imrso`jh Tjepcj‑ (A tlah`), ohd tljrj A fuy Mmcmhg Tjo imrEr. Daccord. Tlas as wljh A lod tlj kmy mi pcoyahg tlj fortjrahg goej. Ai ymu dm hmt fortjr watltlj slmp`jjpjrs, tljy wacc tjcc ymu tm gjt mut mi tljar slmp. Tljy gjt eubl kmy irme tlas goej. Ah

Hohkahg ohd Guohgyuoh, pjmpcj wmucd sat mh fcoh`jts ocmhg tlj rmod tlot orj bmvjrjd ah stuii,

hmt imr tlj so`j mi eoàhg emhjy, fut imr tlj so`j mi lovahg iuh fy fortjrahg. At‑s o fag goej tmtlje. Tlas as lmw ey goej wjht;–La, A hjjd smej Mmcmhg Tjo. Lmw eubl dmjs at bmst=― –(tops ljod) ueeeeee……?6> yjh.― –(furst mut couglahg) WLMO! WLMO! Hm, hm hm…A‑cc gavj ymu 9> yjh imr at.― –(blub`cahg) ??> yjh.― –9>.― –??>.― –Fyj.―

A prmbjjd tm cjovj tlj stmrj. Tlj stmrj bcjr` blosjs oitjr ej,–1>!―

A woc` tm tlj tjo lmusj o cattcj iurtljr dmwh tlj strjjt.–La, A hjjd smej Mmcmhg Tjo.― –(tops ljod)….6>> yjh.― –(jxpcmsamh mi cougltjr) Hm, hm, hm! 9> yjh!― –(cougltjr) 6>> yjh.―

Ruddjhcy A rjocazj tlot tlj mwhjr irme tlj mtljr stmrj los shub` up fjlahd ej.–<> yjh.― Rlj soys. –9>.― A pjrsast

Tlj mtljr slmp`jjpjr kueps ah,–7: yjh!―

Tlj stmrj mwhjrs orj hmw fortjrahg watl mhj ohmtljr,–9<!― –94!― –:<!―–Rmcd!― A shop. A cjovj watl ey Mmcmhg Tjo.

Fortjrahg as owjsmej.Tlot oitjrhmmh, jobl Oeaty grmup gavjs o prjsjhtotamh tm tlj wlmcj mh tljar tlrjj-wjj`

tjoblahg odvjhturj. At as wmhdjriuc tm ljor ofmut jvjrymhj‑s taej.



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Iarst, tloh` ymu ?>>x imcd imr tlj popjr prmepts0 A oe sm smrry imr eassahg bcoss sm mitjh, ohd hmtrjbjavahg tljsj mh ey mwh. A lovj uhimrtuhotjcy lod o sjejstjr wljrj A lovj fjjh tmm boptavotjdwatl ey ahvasafcj slopjs ah tlj oar. Rodcy, tlas boptavotamh mhcy grmws wmrsj watl taej, ohdeoyfj ey dmwh iocc….

Afas los tmcd ej hmtlahg0 slj wmucd hmt dm tlot tm ymu ohd ej. Ohd A oe hmt tlj fjttjr eoh, hmtot occ. Wljh A tmcd ymu tlot A cmvjd Grobj A wos hmt tjccahg tlj trutl, ohd yjt wosh‑t cyahg. A lodhm bcuj ot tlj taej wlot cmvj as. Wlot A wos dmahg, ohd tlas eoy dasturf ymu ohd eo`j ofsmcutjcyhm sjhsj ot occ, wos wratahg Zbbjccm…ohd y jt A dad hmt `hmw at ot tlj taej. A oe hmt sohj. Imrgavjej ‒ A dmh‑t jxpjbt ymu tm uhdjrstohd, fut sahbj ymu orj o frmtljr, ohd wjrj o frmtljr cmhg

fjimrj jatljr ymu mr A wos fmrh, ymu slmucd `hmw. Mhj doy wljh A davucgj tm tlj wmrcd tlj trutl

tlot A lovj fjjh dravjh fy ey jhtarj caij, at slocc eo`j emrj sjhsj. Qmu lovj castjhjd tm ej rohtimr o cmhg taej, ohd imr mvjr jcjvjh yjors, A lovj scappjd ah ohd mut mi fjahg, rjcotavj tm tlmsjqujstamhs. Qmu wacc fj tlj iarst A slocc tjcc tlj trutl mhbj A oe iahasljd.

Iurtljremrj, ah tjccahg ymu A cmvjd Grobj, at uctaeotjcy rjsuctjd ah ymu tjccahg ej ofmut Afas. Tljiarst taej A ejt Afas, A sow At. A `hjw ahstohtcy tlot slj wos kust ca`j ej. Rlj wos tlj iarst A lovjjvjr ejt wlm as ah tlj jxobt soej satuotamh A oe ah. Rlj as tlj Grobj A lovj ocwoys `hmwh Awmucd ejjt, ohd yjt hjvjr fjjh surj ofmut. Ah rjgord tm tlj qujstamh ymu os`jd ofmut rotljr mrhmt A wmucd tjcc ljr fjimrj sueejr, A dmh‑t `hmw. Fjbousj at dmjsh‑t eottjr. Wj‑rj stub`tmgjtljr, ohd fmtl slj ohd A lovj `hmwh at tlj sjbmhd wj ejt. At‑s lmw tlj stmry gmjs. Qmutjccahg ej ymu cmvjd ljr prmvjd at wos port mi tlj stmry, tlj mhj A lovj ocwoys fjjh vabtae mi.

Ohd hmw, tlmugl at eoy sjje opprmpraotj, wljh obtuoccy at as emrj opprmpraotj tloh ohytlahg, Awmucd ca`j ymu tm rjod tlj ottobljd dmbuejht. A wrmtj tlas dmbuejht yjors ogm, cmhg fjimrj A ejtymu, ohd cmhg fjimrj A rjocazjd Zbbjccm irme mut mi at. At as tlj vasamh tlot los dravjh ej, ohdocwoys wacc dravj ej. Tlj hoej Vjjd sjjes tm kust fj fy blohbj. Lmwjvjr, A dm hmt fjcajvj ahblohbj. At as tlj stort mi tlj famgroply, Zbbjccm. A wrmtj at, fut at as hmt ey outmfamgroply.

Ai at dmjsh‑t eo`j ohy sjhsj, A oe smrry. Ai hmhj mi tlas eo`js ohy sjhsj, A‑e smrry. A lovj hjvjrijct ca`j A oe port mi tlas wmrcd. A kust woht tm cjovj ohd scoy ey vasamh, sm tlot A boh iahoccy kust

fj. A‑e smrry, A slmucdh‑t fj puttahg ymu tlrmugl occ tlas hmw, mi occ taejs, fut A‑e fjahg lurcjdmut mi tlas wmrcd Vjjd, ohd at‑s gjttahg wmrsj watl taej. A dm tjrrafcj ah occ ey bcossjs. A `jjpwratahg popjrs tlot A spjhd wjj`s ohd wjj`s mh, ohd hm mhj uhdjrstohds tlje. A tlah` A oe ofmuttm gjt o tjrrafcj grodj ah mhj mi tlj josajst bcossjs ot mur bmccjgj. A boh‑t study imr at0 wljh A tryrjodahg tlj tjxt fmm`, A suddjhcy iahd eysjci wratahg hmtjs mh pljhmejhmcmgy. A boh‑t study imrat. Wljh A try, A stort tlah`ahg ofmut Rmejtlahg Jcsj. Ah ey sagh cohguogj bcoss A‑e tmm fusywotblahg slopjs ah tlj oar tm poy ottjhtamh os lj saghs mut tlj tjst. A boh‑t scjjp. Ohd wmrsj mi occA‑e ah bmepcjtj bmhtrmc. At‑s hmt ca`j A‑e cmsahg ey eahd, fut tlot A oe emrj sohj tloh A lovjjvjr fjjh. A oe tmtoccy oworj mi occ tl as loppjhahg, ohd A‑e jvjh loppy, fjbousj A lovj imuhdGrobj. Ey furdjh as tlot at los tm loppjh, kust os at as loppjhahg. Tlas as tlj prabj, mhj A oe



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poyahg hmt fjbousj A woht tm, fut fjbousj A lovj tm. Afas bmepcjtjcy uhdjrstohds tlas. Trucy Gmdas Gmmd.

A cmvj ymu frmtljr. A oe sufeattahg ymu tm ey ahsohaty. A oe smrry. Ohd yjt, ymu orj stacc tljrj imrej, djspatj occ tlot los loppjhjd, ohd occ tlot wacc loppjh. Trucy Gmd as Gmmd. Ai ymu jvjr, jvjr

hjjd ohytlahg, pcjosj, A fjg ymu, cjt ej `hmw.Rahbjrjcy,Zbbjccm

Tlas jeoac wacc eo`j/eo`js Vjjd vjry eod ohd vjry sborjd. A oe uhsurj wly A wrmtj atohd jeoacjd at tm lae. At wacc/los blohgjd jvjrytlahg.



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–Zbbjccm, A iahasljd rjodahg tlj dmbuejhts ymu os`jd ej tm rjod ohd gavj ymu mpahamhs mh. Fmtl“Cjttjrs‑ ohd “Tlj Grjot Eortyr‑ orj grjot, fut A lovj mhj suggjstamh wj hjjd tm oddrjss. Qmu

put tmm eubl ahtm ymur wratahgs. At‑s ca`j ah jvjry slmrt stmry ymu orj tryahg tm smcvj jvjry sahgcjassuj tlot as bmhirmhtahg tlj wmrcd occ ot mhbj. Outlmrs wratj jhtarj hmvjcs mh kust mhj mi tljsjtmpabs.― –Fut A lovj tm soy occ tlas! Occ eust fj prjsjht tm rjocazj Mhj, imr Occ as Mhj. ME as tlj gmoc, ohdrotljr me as rjoc mr hmt dmjsh‑t eottjr, fjbousj at‑s occ ofmut mpt aeoc mrajhtotamh, ohd at as tlotmrajhtotamh tlot eoy sovj tlas wmrcd. Emst outlmrs tlot A lovj rjod, rotljr tloh soy ohytlahg, to`jgrjot taej ohd sàcc tm soy hmtlahg ot occ sm tlot tljrj as oh ahiahatj orroy mi ahtjrprjtotamhs tlotrjodjrs boh iacc tlot mfcavamh watl tljar pjrbjptamh. Bmhsjqujhtcy, tlj rjodjrs robj ormuhd ahbarbcjs occ doy, uctaeotjcy imr hmtlahg. A dmh‑t woht tlot. Jvjrytlahg oppjors os hmtlahg, ohd sm Awacc blmmsj jvjrytlahg. At as emrj wmr`, yjs, fut A lovj hjvjr fjjh oiroad mi lord wmr`.― –Fut ymu wacc ioac! Qmu wacc hjvjr fj pufcasljd mr rjod. Qmur wratahgs wacc occ jhd up ah ioacurj!―

–A wacc lovj dmhj tlj raglt tlahg.― –Tljy‑rj tmm seort!― –Vjjd, A boh‑t tjcc ai A‑e seort mr hmt. Tlot‑s port mi tlj sobraiabj.―

A sat fob` ah las bloar, sorbose rupturahg irme ey caps,–A mhbj ljord ymu boh tjcc ai ymu orj seort fy ai ymu boh sjj tlj tjors ah o fard‑s jyj. Tlj fard lostm lovj o frm`jh wahg.―

Tlj sjbmhd A soy tlas, A `hmw A slmucdh‑t lovj. O ljovy ouro ioccs mvjr ey slmucdjrs.Zbbj ccm cmm`s ot ej imr tlj cmhgjst taej… –Truj.―

Zbbjccm stjps mut mi tlj bmiijj-slmp watlmut ohmtljr wmrcd. Rmmh, Zbbjccm as wocàhgmvjr tlj sadjwoc`s mvjr dmwhtmwh, las lohds ah las pmb`jts, las tmmtlpab` kjjrahg ormuhd

fjtwjjh las tjjtl. A woc` fjsadj lae, hmt soyahg eubl. Wj castjh tm tlj pjmpcj possahg ohdtocàhg mh tljar bjcc-plmhjs, ohd wotbl wljh tlj fards smor dmwh ohd pjrbl mh tlj frohbljs.Zbbjccm stmps, ohd shops tlj tmmtlpab` fjtwjjh las tjjtl watl las iahgjrs,–Wly as at wj occ `hmw smejtlahg as wrmhg watl tlj wmrcd=―–A dmh‑t `hmw. Eoyfj tlot‑s kust smejtlahg wj eo`j mursjcvjs fjcajvj.―

Zbbjccm dmjsh‑t soy ohytlahg. At‑s bmcd mutsadj, ohd tlj cjovjs frastcj os ai tljy orj eodjmi pcostab. Ohd eoyfj tljy orj… –Eoyfj, eoyfj hmt ‒ jatljr woy, wj occ `hmw tlot tljrj as smejtlahg wrmhg. Wj occ `hmw tlotwj bmucd fj smejtlahg emrj, tlot pjmpcj slmucdh‑t àcc… Tljrj as subl o grovj ohd trogab Trutltm tlj vjry tlmuglt tl ot eoh as hmt wlot lj slmucd fj…tlot A t as ahljrjhtcyahbmeprjljhsafcj…imr wj, os ohgjcs, bohhmt gm wljrj wj dorj hmt trjod.―

At‑s sm bmcd. A pucc ey bmot ah bcmsjr. Zbbjccm dmjsh‑t. Tlj groy bcmuds mvjrljod orjmvjrfjorahg. Wj hjjd tm gjt lmej… –Wj hjjd tm gjt -― –A `hmw mhcy iucc spjjd.― Zbbjccm soys watlmut ohy ljsatotamh mr pousj, –Ey jhtarj caij, A lovj

fjjh vjry oworj tlot A wmucd jatljr sovj tlj jhtarj wmrcd, mr jhd up ah uttjr pmvjrty, cavahg ah obordfmord fmx, seacahg ohd wovahg ot tlj pjmpcj tlot possjd fy ca`j Yahbjht. A ocwoys wohtjd tm

fj Yahbjht, fut tlot wmucd lovj fjjh tlj potl mi cjost rjsastohbj. Hmt fjbousj pjmpcj ah pmvjrtydmh‑t wmr` ‒ hm, hm, tljy wmr` os lord os jvjrymhj jcsj, fut fjbousj tlot wmucd lovj fjjh



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sufeattahg ey caij tm o potl imrjagh tm ey “A,‑ os djtjreahjd ohd prjdjstahjd hmt fy Gmd, fut fy fartl ohd slodmws.― –A ocwoys ras`jd jvjrytlahg. Ohy l ociwoy djbjht jbmhmeasts wacc tjcc ymu tlot tlj mhcy woy tmgjhjrotj vocuj as tm to`j ras`s. Tlj rjosmh wly pjmpcj dm hmt oblajvj jvjrytlahg tljy woht ahtljar caij, as fjbousj tljy dm hmt ras` jvjrytlahg. Tlas fmcd ohd horrmw woy as ior tmm horrmw imr

ems t…hmt fjbousj tljy orj hmt frovj jhmugl, fut fjbousj tlj potl as tmm accmgaboc. Tlj sohjbohhmt woc` at. Ohd tlot‑s iahj, tlot‑s kust lmw at as. Rm A oe bursjd watl o fjhjdabtamh, ohd A oe fcjssjd watl o bursj.―

Vjjd bmucd ijjc tlj shmw fjimrj lj spm`j.–At‑s shmwahg.―

Rmitcy ohd cagltcy, tlj ico`js iocc ormuhd Zbbjccm. ^jmpcj pucc mut uefrjccos ocmhg tljstrjjts ohd woc` mh, slajcdahg tljesjcvjs irme tlj wahtjr. Wlatj ico`js bmccjbt ocmhg Zbbjccmslmucdjrs,–A‑vj ocwoys wmr`jd sm lord tm pursuj ey Yasamh . A hjvjr lovj wmr`jd ot ohy kmf fjbousj Adadh‑t lovj taej tmm, ohd mhcy gjhjrotj tlj emhjy tlot A mftoah tlrmugl ey mwh plmtmgroply

fusahjss. Occ A jvjr dad wos wratj ohd rjod, ohd at tmm` up occ ey taej. Tlot‑s occ A‑cc jvjr fj ofcj

tm dm. Fut wljh smej mhj os`s ymu “wlot dad ymu dm tmdoy,‑ ohd ymu rjpcy “A wrmtj,‑ tljy sbmii ottlj adjo. Hm mhj sjjs tlj vocuj ah at subl os A dm…wlabl as hoturoc, vocuj as ah pjmpcj oitjr occ.Mhcy A boh uhdjrstohd At. Ey jhtarj caij bmhsasts mi woc`ahg ah tlj wostjcohd mi jvjrytlahg,oppjorahg os o grjot vmad mi hmtlahghjss. A proy tlot wlot A dm wacc hmt jhd up imr houglt,

fjbousj ai at dad, A wmucd lueacaotj tlj ioeacy hoej, ohd A wmucd bmhtrafutj tm tlj cmss mi^mppo‑s iore. A wmucd jatljr sahgcj -lohdjdcy prjsjrvj at imrjvjr, mr cmsj at imr gmmd. Rm as tljquohdory mi jvjrytlahg fjahg hmtlahg…― –Tlj wmrcd hjjds sovahg. At woc`s mh tlj vjrgj mi ljcc, ohd ai A dadh‑t pursuj ey Yasamh, tljwmrcd wmucd fj cmst.―–Qmu ocwoys soy tlj wmrcd as dmmejd Zbbjccm, fut tlahgs orj fjttjr tloh tljy‑vj jvjr fjjh. Tljjbmhmey as strmhg. Tlj stohdords mi cavahg orj up…― –Fut at‑s sm jepty! Dm ymu hmt ijjc tlj jeptahjss=― Zbbjccm botbljs o shmwico`j, –Tlj wmrcd as

pcogujd fy aghmroht bmhimreaty! Tlj placmsmpljr los fjjh sjporotjd irme tlj obtmr! Tlj wmrcd, fy djiahatamh, hjjds sovahg! Tm imrgjt tlot as tm doeh at! Ohd at as ocwoys sm ijw tlrmuglmutlueoh lastmry wlm dm hmt blmsj tm imrgjt, djspatj tlot pmtjhtaoc as o Bmhstoht tlrmuglmut taejohd spobj. Wly sm ijw= Fjbousj mi drah` ohd Rotoh. Fjbousj mi dasjepmwjrejht ohd cozahjss.Fcmmd as wlot `jjps tlj fmdy ocavj, ohd sahbj tlj iahatj as orasjh tm tlrmugl o ejtlmd mitrohscotamh mut mi tlj Ahiahatj, Fcmmd as wlot `jjps tlj Ahiahatj Ocavj. Tlot Fcmmd as tlj Fcmmd miEortyrs. Tlot as wly sm ijw…―

Tlj shmw ai ljovy.–Tlj mhcy pjrijbt smbajty as wljrj jvjrymhj as o Rcovj.―

–Wlot dm ymu ejoh fy tlot=― A ahquarj. –A dmh‑t `hmw.―

Las ljod tactjd tmword tlj s`y, tlj shmw cahjs Zbbjccm‑s jyjfrmws, las bljj`s, las iahgjrs,las `hjjs, las jyjs, la s tjjtl… –A rotljr cmsj ot ey jiimrts tm sovj tlas wmrcd ohd jhd up ah easjry, ohd `hmw A dad tlj raglttlahg.― Zbbjccm soys watl las jyjs bcmsjd, –Ca`jwasj, ai A wjrj tm sovj tlas wmrcd, ohd hmt suiijr,tlj vabtmry wmucd hmt fj wmrtl lovahg. Mhj taej, A ljord o stmry ofmut o eoh wlm cmhg ogm govjlas caij ah mrdjr prmtjbt o dmvj wlm wos sjj`ahg sljctjr irme o low`. At prmvjs tlj woy ashorrmw, ohd tlot Gmmdhjss as ahiahatjcy ior irme gmmd-ahtjhtamh. Lmwjvjr, A slocc fj o sacvjr



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cahahg tlot rjiusjs tm occmw tlj bcmud tm rjcasl ah bmepcjtj vabtmry mvjr tlj suh. Hmt fjbousj Awoht tm, fut fjbousj A lovj tm. ―

Zbbjccm wapjs tlj shmw irme las iobj,–Ai A ioac, at wacc fj fjbousj A roh mut mi taej, hmt fjbousj A wos djijotjd.―

Lj storts tm woc` owoy.

–Tljrj as eubl A lovj tm dm.― –Wlot dm ymu lovj tm dm=― Tlj shmw eo`js o smuhd ogoahst tlj shmw.

–A lovj tm fjcajvj tlot A boh dm Rmejtlahg…―

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–Zbbjccm, ymu‑rj ioacahg occ ymur bcossjs. Orj ymu toàhg tmm eohy=― Tlas studjht hoejd Zbbjccm as sattahg ah ey miiabj, las ores imcdjd mvjr las bljst. Lj

slo`js las ljod,–Hm Djoh Wacsmh. Ai A tmm` twjcvj brjdats, at wmucdh‑t eo`j o daiijrjhbj. A wmucd usj ey taejtlj soej woy.― –Dm ymu study=― A os`. Las GÔ as lordcy ofmvj 6.>. –Occ tlj taej. A spjhd wjj`s mh ey popjrs.― –Tlj grodjs dmh‑t rjicjbt tlot.― –Fjbousj tlj tjobljrs dmh‑t rjod tlje. Tljy dmh‑t borj.―

A‑vj ljord tlas eohy taejs ‒ àd easuhdjrstmmd fy tlj wmrcd, tmm seort imr jvjrymhjjcsj. A‑cc gjt lae mut mi ljrj quab`. –Wly dm ymu ejoh=― A os`. Ljrj wj gm… –A wratj tlj popjrs A woht tm wratj, ohd tlot‑s hmt wlot tlj tjobljrs woht ej tm wratj ofmut. Rm

slmucd A bmeprmeasj= Hm, ai A dad tlot, A wmucd cmsj ey “A.‑ Ohd sm A wmucd fj hmtlahg ‒ A wmucd fj port mi tlj jblm ohd eodhjss ahbmeprjljhsafcj tlot iaccs ymur bcossrmme ohd woc`s ymursadjwoc`s.―

Lj‑s djiahatjcy mhj mi tlmsj àds tlot castjhs tm ljovy -ejtoc ohd sem`js pmt. Lj hjjds tmstmp bmepcoahahg ohd kust djoc watl at. Caij sub`s. ^jramd.–Wlot orj ymur popjrs ofmut=―

Tlj studjht dmjsh‑t soy ohytlahg. Tlot‑s wlot A tlmuglt ‒ lj‑s iucc mi sem`j ohd hm oar.Lj to`js o tmmtlpab` mut mi las pmb`jt ohd puts at fjtwjjh las tjjtl. Wlm dmjs lj tlah` lj as,Koejs Djoh= Lj suddjhcy shops las iahgjrs,–Tlot shop…tlot wos oh jxpjrajhbj, raglt=― –Ai ymu toc` placmsmplaboccy…― –A dmh‑t. A lotj placmsmpljrs.―

Gjjz… –…yjs, tlot wos oh “jxpjrajhbj0‑ o cohguogj mi tlj sjhsjs.―

Zbbjccm shops ogoah,–Tlot ‑s wlot ey popjrs orjh‑t ofmut ‒ hmt smejtlahg watlah tlj iahatj, hmr tlj jxpjrajhbj miahiahatj. A wratj ofmut tlj Ahiahatj.―

Zbbjccm shops ogoah.–A wratj ofmut tlj Rhop tlj cur`s fjhjotl tlj suriobj, fjhjotl wljrj tlj “A‑ los rasjh, bcmtljd ahats djbjptamh; fjhjotl wljrj “a‑ los put mh o east mi “A,‑ tljrjfy bmhiusahg us.― –Wlot orj ymu tocàhg ofmut=― A soy, –A dmh‑t uhdjrstohd. A woht tm Zbbjccm, A rjoccy dm.― –Tlot, raglt tljrj!― Zbbjccm slmuts, pmahtahg ot ej, –Tlot as wlot A dmh‑t woht tm wratj ofmut!Tlot “A dmh‑t uhdjrstohd,‑ w lacj A dm. Tlot as tlj jblm ohd eodhjss! A rjiusj tm wratj ofmutjhtatajs watlah tlj jblm ohd eodhjss, tlj smuhd ohd iury ‒ tlot as wlot A rjiusj tm wratj ofmut! Awoht tm wratj ofmut Wljrj “A‑ as rjbmghazjd os “A‑ ohd at as hmt djbjptamh, rotljr Trutl!―

A dmh‑t `hmw wlot jcsj tm dm fut sat ljrj ohd castjh tm tlas àd roht. Zbbjccm gjts mut mi lasbloar ohd pmahts ot ej.–Qmur loar as wlatj, ohd eahj fcob`. Tlot as wlot A wacc hmt sjttcj watl! Ohd yjt tlot as wlot ymur

prmijssmrs ohd studjhts tjobl ohd cjorh ofmut ‒“tlot‑ stacc wotjr wlabl as stoghoht! A boh‑t stohdat! Lmw boh ymu= A hjjd tm lmw ymu boh ah mrdjr tm djijot at!―



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A dmh‑t soy ohytlahg. A ruh ey lohds tlrmugl ey loar. A wasl ey sjbrjtory wmucd lovjgavjh ej o fjttjr worhahg ofmut tlas àd,–A…― –Rtmp soyahg A!― Zbbjccm slmuts, –Roy “a‑!― –A dad.―

–Rtmp at!― Zbbjccm slmuts ogoah. Lj pmahts ot ey coep, –Rjj tlot= Tlot coep as oh jxpjrajhbj, futwj lovj imrgmttjh tlot wj dm hmt jxpjrajhbj tlj prmbjss mi jxpjrajhbj, fjbousj at oppjors/sjjestlot at kust as, occ ot mhbj, oh jxpjrajhbj. At, ohd A ejoh “at,‑ sjjes ca`j at as port mi us ca`j tlot, futat ash‑t. Wj orj sjporotjd irme tlot jxpjrajhbj tlot as coep fy tlj prmbjss mi jxpjrajhbahg, mr

pjrbjptamh, mr smuhd ohd iury, mr dassmhohbj…ohd yjt tlj c ahj fjtwjjh jxpjrajhbahg ohdjxpjrajhbj as ahvasafcj, fjbousj wj tlah` at as ahvasafcj, ohd sm at as. Ohd sm wj lovj imrgmttjhofmut at, ohd sm wj fjcajvj wj orj port mi tlas wmrcd mi jxpjrajhbj, tlot wj orj hmtlahg emrj,rotljr tloh Rmejtlahg Emrj!―

Tlas àd as brozy. A dmh‑t `hmw wlot jcsj tm dm fut sat ljrj ohd castjh.–Zbbjccm, ymu‑rj gmahg tm ioac ymur bcossjs.― –A lovj tm! Dmh‑t ymu gjt at=― Zbbjccm blub`cjs, –Tlot‑s port mi tlj prabj mi fjahg ah jxpjrajhbj!

Tm rjquarj taej ohd spobj ohd bousj ohd j iijbt. Fjahg ljrj, rohtahg ot ymu, as wlot “A‑ lovj tm dmtm fj/Fj! ^jrlops ah mrdjr tm wratj ofmut at/At, pjrlops ah mrdjr tm fj wrattjh ofmut! Tlot as tljbmst mi fjahg ah taej0 mi fjahg o fjahg ah taej! Wlot sjporotjs ej irme jvjrymhj jcsj as tlot Awoht tm fj port mi Jvjrymhj Jcsj, tlot A sjj tlj ahvasafcj cahj, tlot A ijjc wlot A tlah`, ohd tlot A`hmw At! Ohd sm hoturoccy, ohd fy hoturoccy A ejoh “os o bousj mi hoturj/rjocaty/coeps,‑ occ tlasormuhd us, tlot wlabl as jxpjrajhbj, eust ejct owoy rjcotav j tm ey “A!‑ At eust rjkjbt ej, imr ateust ejct ahtm hmtlahghjss fy o spobj ohd taej fy wlabl A boh bmeprjljhd, fjbousj ca`j ymu,Djoh Wacsmh, A tmm oe ah o “ioccjh wmrcd.‑ Imres ohd slopjs eust vohasl ocwoys, imr A eustocwoys fj sjjàhg tlj Rmejtlahg Em rj, fjbousj tlot as “wlm A oe.‑ A eust ocwoys fj rjkjbtjd fytlj wmrcd ormuhd ej ‒ A eust ioac bcossjs, gjt iarjd irme kmfs, ijjc mut mi pcobj ah tljwmmds…(lmwjvjr, djspatj tlot rjkjbtamh mi tlj wmrcd, A oe cmvjd fy pjmpcj, ohd pjmpcj bmej tmej (ohd wlotjvjr (os ah wlot imres/tlahgs/sjqujhbj/(ahsjrt)) bmejs watl pjmpcj), wlabl as prmmitlot tlj “Rmejtlahg Emrj‑ as watlah/Watlah pjmpcj; pjmpcj orj tlj/o smurbj/trohscotamh miYocuj).―

A oe tmtoccy cmst. Tlas àd hjjds tm gm.–Wlm dm ymu tlah` ymu orj, Vmor -=― –Qmu tlah` A‑e tryahg tm Fj ca`j smejmhj= Dmh‑t ymu sjj At=!― –Zbbjccm, A dmh‑t uhdjrstohd ot occ.― –Ohd tlot‑s tlj prmfcje!― Zbbjccm slmrts, –Wj orj ah cohguogj! Hmt Ejohahg, fut cohguogjwlabl as tryahg tm rjobl Ejohahg, fut dmjsh‑t! Ahljrjhtcy at dmjsh‑t! Fjbousj ai at dad jvjrytlahgwmucd slottjr ohd frjo` ca`j gcoss ohd uhvjac jvjrytlahg os at as/As ‒ Ahiahatj. Fut tlot‑s hmt wlm“wj‑ orj, sm uhtac “wj‑ jhds, tljrj wacc fj hm Ahiahatj. Ohd sm ymu wacc lovj tm ioac ej. Ohd sm Awacc lovj tm wratj…― Zbbjccm shops las iahgjrs ogoah, –…hmt ofmut tlj shop, fut tlj Rhop, tmrjeahd tlj “us,‑ mi Zs. Tlot as tlj brubaiaxamh mi Blrast, Djoh Wacsmh - tlj stmry tlot lod tmloppjh, wljh at loppjhjd, os at loppjhjd, tm ocwoys rjeahd us mi Rmejtlahg Emrj. Tlj ohgjc midjotl wos imrbjd tm `hmw mh tlj haglt mi ôssmvjr, wljh occ tlj iarst-fmrhs wjrj tm fj àccjd,wlabl lmusjs tm ovmad fy fcmmd mh tlj dmmr, rotljr tloh fy Gmd kust fjstmwahg tlot ohgjc watltlj `hmwcjdgj, ah mrdjr imr taej ohd spobj tm lovj o horrotavj, o pjrsmh (ai ymu woht tm soy), fywlabl tm rjejefjr tlot tlas ‒― Zbbjccm shops las iahgjrs ogoah, –-ash‑t mur Vagltiuc ^cobj.―

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–At‑s ey bursj! Ey Robroejht! Ohd tlj bursj as tlot Wj orj fmrh oport ahtm daiijrjht pcobjs ohdspljrj ohd sjts mi pmtjhtaocs ohd cavjs, os port mi o lueohaty, wlabl as davadjd fy imres ohdbmcmrs ohd vmabjs ohd cohguogjs; ohd tlj bursj as tlot wj orj ahtm rjocaty, rotljr tloh Fj ah MhjAhstoht Os ( Ahsjrt) . Trohsajhbj as occ ormuhd us, watl gcaeejrs mi Jtjrhaty kust frjo`ahg tlrmugl.Ohd ey Robroejht as tm try tm pucc tmgjtljr tlj roy mi Ejohahg tlot slahjs tlrmugl ah tlj imrjsts

mi Blaho ah ?<72 wljrj o cattcj garc as ah owj, tlj roy mi Ejohahg ah ymur ahtjht, tlj roy miEjohahg ah tlj duepstjrs, tlj roy mi Ejohahg ah…occ ahtm Mhj, tljrjfy bmeimrtahg Gmd.― Zbbjccm shops las iahgjrs ogoah

–A bohhmt Djoh Wacsmh, wratj ofmut tlot smuhd ymu kust ljord, hm ortast boh. A lovj tm djspjrotjcyohd ahsohjcy pursuj Wlot wos Fjcmw/Ofmvj/Fjsadj at! Ohd sm ymu wacc ocsm ioac ej, fjbousjrjcotavj tm tlj daejhsamh mi tlj iahatj mr ahiahatj, “A‑ oe hmt prjsjht! Fjbousj ah tlas wmrcd, to`ahgo `haij, stoffahg ymursjci ah tlj bljst, ohd mpjhahg ymursjci up sm tlot ymu boh stab` ymur lohdahsadj mi ymursjci ah mrdjr tm dag ohd dag ah mrdjr tm tmubl tlj Ljort tlot A lovj tm fjcajvj astljrj, as ogoahst tlj cow! Ohd A dm at hmt fjbousj A woht tm! Fut fjbousj “A‑ lovj tm! Fjbousjwljh rjijrrahg tm tlj prmbjss mi daggahg tlot A kust rjijrrjd tm, A lovj tm - ― Zbbjccm shops lasiahgjr ogoah, – -toc`, A lovj tm try tm fradgj tlj gop - tlj ahvasafcj gop tlot‑s hmt jvjh vasafcj

oemhgst tlj mtljr ahvasafcj tlahgs - fjtwjjh us. Tlot gop as “jxpjrajhbj,‑ bmhbjpt, rjocaty…at ashmt wlo t Wj orj ejoht imr.― Ruddjhcy Zbbjccm shotbljs up ey bmiijj bup,

–Ey jhjey as tlas!― Lj puhbljs o wocc,

–Ohd tlas!― Lj turhs mvjr o tofcj,

–Ohd tlas! Ohd tlas! Ohd tlas! Ohd tlas!― –Djoh Wacsmh, wlot‑s wrmhg!― o sjbrjtory slmuts ohd robjs ah, drjssjd ah o rjd drjss watl rjdloar. Rlj sbrjoes wljh slj sjjs Zbbjccm tjorahg up ey miiabj.–Ey fottcj as tm gjt tlj jhtarj wmrcd tm uhdjrstohd tlot “A‑ as hmt suppmsjd tm fj bopatocazjd,

fjbousj tlas wmrcd mi jxpjrajhbj, mi pjrbjptamh, mi smuhd ohd iury…as hmt lm w at as suppmsjd tm fj/Fj!― Zbbjccm yjccs, –Votljr “A‑ slmucd fj o cmwjrbosj “a,‑ fjbousj tljrj as Rmejtlahg Emrj tmlueohs tljh tlas jepty ejcmdy fy wlabl wj iahd mursjcvjs ah. Mhbj lueohaty uhdjrstohds tlot,tljh, Djoh Wacsmh, wj wacc, os o wlmcj, iahocc y lovj pjobj…uhatjd ah o bmeemh bousj tm puccmut mi pmssafacaty tlj Wmrcd Wljrj Wj Fjcmhg, imr pjobj boh fj imuhd ah o bmeemh struggcjoemhgst tlmsj tlot rjiusj tm yajcd!―

Racjhtcy, uhsurj wlot tm soy mr tlah`, A wotbl Zbbjccm cjovj ey miiabj, fcostahg fy tljsjbrjtory. A `hmw lj wacc hjvjr rjturh,–Ohd tlj doy wj imrgjt tlot tlas wmrcd as hmt Wljrj Wj Fjcmhg!― Zbbjccm sbrjoes fob`, –…tlotas tlj doy Iácabatá wacc lovj tm prjss tlj futtmh!―

A tlah` Zbbjccm as wjjpahg hmw.–Ohd A boh‑t cavj watl tlot!―



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O ymuhg wratjr as sattahg ot las djs`. Lj los rjturhjd irme o trap tm sjj oh mcd Irajhd. Ljlmcds hm pjh, hmr vajws ohy popjr. Votljr, lj as lmcdahg o pabturj fjtwjjh las tluef ohd pmahtjr

iahgjr. Zbbjccm drmps tlj pabturj, hmt fjbousj lj wohts tm, fut fjbousj at scaps fjtwjjh lasiahgjrs. Wljrj at ioccs, seocc drmps mi wotjr fjgah pottjrahg obrmss at. Tlas wotjr wacc ruah tlj pabturj. Lj quab`cy ioccs tm las `hjjs ohd wapjs tlj wotjr owoy. Lj stoys tljrj `hjjcahg.

Iaity-seacahg iobjs orj cmmàhg up ot lae. Tlj pabturj as o grmup plmtmgropl mi occ tljstudjhts Zbbjccm touglt ah Blaho. Tljy orj occ sm ymuhg, djspatj tljar ogj. Tljy orj seacahg. Ljrjejefjrs lmw slj os`jd lae tm gm tm dahhjr watl ljr ioeacy sm tlot tljy bmucd tjobl Zbbjccmlmw tm dohbj. Lj rjejefjrs lmw tlmsj tlrjj wmucd ocwoys sat ah tlj fob` mi tlj bcossrmme ohdgm tm scjjp. Lj blub`cjs tm laesjci. Tlot eoh wos tlj rjgoc mhj ‒ jvjrymhj rjspjbtjd lae. Ljwos tlj bcoss cjodjr, ohd jvjrymhj `hjw at tmm0 lj bmucd kust stohd ohd stort gavahg ahstrubtamhsohd jvjrymhj wmucd imccmw tlje, fjbousj hmfmdy bmhsadjrjd lae o cjodjr. Jvjryfmdy `hjwlae os o frmtljr. Zbbjccm storts tm bry. Ohd slj ‒ slj wos tlj swjjtjst mhj. Kust fjbousj. Lord tm

soy wly, fut ymu kust `hjw at. Rlj wmrj ljr drjss ohd gcossjs ohd wmucd poy sm eubl ottjhtamhtlot ymu wmucd gm lmej jvjry haglt ohd pcoh ymur cjssmhs sm lord kust imr ljr, sm tlot ljrottjhtamh wmucd fj rjwordjd. Ohd tlot wos tlj eoh lj dohbjd watl ‒ lj twarcjd ohd spuh lae

fjbousj at wos raglt ohd gmmd ohd dadh‑t ejoh ohytlahg emrj tloh tlot. Zbbjccm brajs. Lj eassjstlje. Wotjr draps mvjr tlj pabturj ohd Zbbjccm `hmws tlj wotjr eoy ruah tlj aeogj fut ljbohhmt frahg laesjci tm cmm` owoy irme at. At as kust sm Fjoutaiuc.

Tlj wmrcd wos sm saepcj. At wos irjj. Zbbjccm dad hmt lovj tm iaglt ohymhj mr ohytlahg mrohy rjocaty mr dor`hjss fjbousj tljrj wos hm iaglt ogoahst ohy imj tlot lod hm Jxastjhbj. Tljrjwjrj hm slodmw wlocjs. Tljrj wos hm djod cohguogj. Tljrj wjrj hm jepty syefmcs. Tlas wostlj emrj pjrijbt wmrcd lj lod drjoejd mi…Tljrj wos pjobj. Tljrj, Zbbjccm dad hmt lovj tm fjtarjd. Occ lj lod tm dm wos gavj Yocuj tm wlot lj darjbtcy jxpjrajhbjd, wlabl bmejs hoturoccytljrj, ohd lj bmucd dm at occ tm tlj smuhdtrob` mi couglahg vmabjs osàhg lae tm slorj ah at.

Tljrj, Zbbjccm bmucd kust fj. Tlot wos occ. Tljrj wos hm bmhsbamushjss mi jvjh tljqujstamh, ohd sm hm Caeat mi _ujstamhs. Tljrj wjrj hm wocc.

At wos tlj wmrcd tlot eodj sjhsj.Wly wjrj tlj dmts sjporotjd= Wly dad tlj smcutamh lovj tm fj “tljrj‑ ohd tlj qujstamh

“ljrj,‑ dmmejd hjvjr tm fj frmuglt tmgjtljr ohd sm tmgjtljr jrosjd, cjovahg pjobj= Lod lj hmt fjjh fmrh mh o iore, wmucd lj lod rjocazjd tlj probtaboc fjouty mi at occ= Wos tlot ohmtljr dmt= Astlot occ tljrj as ‒ dmts ‒ ohd o proyjr tljy bmhhjbt, fjbousj proyahg as occ ymu boh dm wljh ymulovj hm bmhtrmc mvjr tlj cahjs=

Zbbjccm brajs. Lj eassjs tlje…At as kust sm Fjoutaiuc. Ohd os lj wjjps ohd pmhdjrs occtlas lj `hmws tlot mhj doy lj eaglt fj imrbjd tm gm tm wor ogoahst tlje. Fjbousj mi tlj djft,

fjbousj mi tlj gmvjrhejhts, fjbousj mi tlj immcs…lj eoy mhj doy turh ormuhd ohd kof o pastmcdmwh tlj tlrmot mi o eoh wlmsj ljod lj fcmws mii ah tlj soej ahstoht lj rjejefjrs wljh tljydohbjd ohd twarcjd ohd spuh fjbousj at wos raglt ohd gmmd ohd dadh‑t ejoh ohytlahg emrj tlohtlot. Wljh jvjrytlahg stmppjd emvahg ohd pousjd, seac ahg…“hmw‑/wjjpahg. Zbbjccm @hjw owor wos bmeahg tlot wmucd jhd tlj wmrcd ohd lod sahbj lj wos o blacd ohd lod woc`jd up tljrmod occ ocmhj, tlahàhg up las stmrajs. Ohd lj lod dmhj tlot ohd stacc dmjs tlot tm `jjp tlj worirme bmeahg. Tlot‑s wly lj wratjs. Mi bmursj tlot‑s wly lj wratjs.



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“Hmw,‑ fjbousj “hmw‑ as o kjstjr wlm jhkmys tmrturj, Zbbjccm los iaity -iobjs ohd iaity-rjosmhs tm borj ofmut hmtlahg jcsj tloh iahaslahg las vasamh.

Zbbjccm to`js o woc`. Lj to`js tlj pabturj.At lod fjjh tlj emst fjoutaiuc pcobj ah tlj jhtarj wmrcd. Blacdrjh wjrj jvjrywljrj.

Reacjs wjrj jvjrywljrj. Tlj wmrcd eodj sjhsj. Ohd tljh tm Zbbjccm‑s lmrrmr lj rjocazjs tlot

tlj wlmcj taej, lj lod imrbjd pmcatabs ohd placmsmply ohd tljmcmgy ahtm occ mi las bmhvjrsotamhswatl CW ohd ^ot ohd Kmy fjbousj lj bmucd hmt stmp laesjci irme dmahg at. At wos las hoturj. OhdZbbjccm rjocazjs tlot mhcy durahg tlmsj taejs dad tlj wmrcd hmt eo`j sjhsj, ohd tlot tlmsj taejsmbburrjd wljh Zbbjccm wos ormuhd pjmpcj. Ohd tljy mbburrjd fjbousj mi las mwh hoturj.Zbbjccm slo`js las ljod irohtaboccy. Wljh lj wos ocmhj, occ wos raglt watl tlj wmrcd. Fjbousjwljh lj wos ocmhj, lj wos hmt jxprjssahg las hoturj. Lj wos sacjht. Tlj wmrcd eodj sjhsj wljhlj wos ocmhj…subl os wljh lj wos ocmhj mh tlj hoejcj ss emuhtoah.

At lod fjjh tlj emst fjoutaiuc pcobj ah tlj jhtarj wmrcd. Blacdrjh wjrj jvjrywljrj.Reacjs wjrj jvjrywljrj. Tlj wmrcd eodj sjhsj. Dad at mhcy eo`j sjhsj fjbousj lj lod tljemhjy tm stohd ofmvj at= Dad at mhcy eo`j sjhsj fjbousj tlj pjmpcj ormuhd lae bmucd hmt bousjtlj bmepcjxaty tlot wmucd bousj tlj ahsjhsafacaty= Ohd dad tlj wmrcd mhcy eo`j sjhsj fjbousj

lj lod emhjy wlabl lj obquarjd tloh`s tm tlj ahsjhsafacaty mi ohmtljr cohd/spobj= As tlot tlj km`j ljrj= As tlot tlj km`j mi taej ohd spobj= Emrj dmts tm fj bmhhjbtjd… Tlj wmrcd as ats easuhdjrstohdahg.Zbbjccm los tm `hmw.Zbbjccm woc`s tlj strjjt ocmhj. Bmot frastcahg, lohds ah las pmb`jts…O tmmtlpab` as las

bagorjttj, fjbousj bagorjttjs orj “tm hmt borj.‑ Zbbjccm sjjs o eoh sattahg up o goahst o frab` woccocmhg tlj sadjwoc`. Las sbruiiy wlatj loar ohd mcd, fjotjh cjotljr kob`jt mpjh up tm rjvjoc lasiobj os lj owo`jhs. Lj as sattahg hjxt tm twm mtljr ejh. Tljy orj occ lmejcjss. Zbbjccm gmjs ohdtoc`s watl tlje occ tlj taej. Zbbjccm bmccopsjs ogoahst tlj wocc ocmhgsadj tlje, ohd scadjs ahtm osjot mh tlj sadjwoc`. Tlj ejh dm hmt soy ohytlahg. Tljar hoejs orj Cmfm, Ejdab, ohd Djoh.Tljsj orj hab`hoejs tlot bmvjr tljar rjoc hoejs. Ohd tljar rjoc hoejs eoyfj Foco, [aeejrh,ohd Ofmct.

Zbbjccm puts tlj pabturj mi tlj iaity-seacahg-iobjs mh tlj sadjwoc` fjimrj tlje,–Wos at kust o caj=―

Zbbjccm bmejs ljrj mitjh tm toc` ofmut caij.–Wos at kust o caj=―

Lj rjocazjs hmw tlot lj lod ocwoys imrbjd tlj bmhvjrsotamh tm fj ofmut jbmhmeabs mr pmcatabsmr placmsmply… –Wos at kust o caj=― –Hm.―

Ruddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj tljrj as o iagurj ofmvj Zbbjccm. Tljrj as o fcob`, faggjr eohwatl o woc`ahg stab` ohd froadjd loar tlot as djbmrotjd watl bmcmriuc fjods. Lj to`js o sjot hjxttm Zbbjccm.–Hm…― lj wlaspjrs, –…at wos ahhmbjhbj. At wos tlj mhcy Truj tlahg tljrj as.―

Lj uhdjrstohds. Tlj eoh los o tottmm obrmss las fob` ‒ Asleojc . [aeejrh lod tmcdZbbjccm ofmut tlas eoh. Zbbjccm @hjw lj wmucd ejjt lae mhj doy. Mi bmursj lj wmucd.–Otcohtas…― Zbbjccm wlaspjrs. Las jyjs swjcc up watl wotjr. Lj puts las ljod mh tlj slmucdjr mitlj eoh watl tlj tottmm, ohd bcmsjs las jyjs. Tlj wotjr ruhs dmwh Zbbjccm‑s bljj`s. Tlj grjot

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–A oe sm tarjd…― Zbbjccm wlaspjrs. T lj wotjr `jjps ioccahg. Lj sjjs tlj iaity-iobjs ohd mhjemrj tlot lj as woc`ahg lohd ah lohd tlrmugl o iajcd mi pjh-ca`j loy watl. Rlj as wjorahg oRuhdoy drjss ohd…imr “hmw‑ tlj vasamh jhds tljrj…

Tlj grjot fcob`, lmejcjss eoh wapjs o dae tjor irme Zbbjc cm‑s jyj.– A `hmw Fjoutaiuc…A `hmw…―

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mut mi ey fcahdhjss upmh o sacjht fjobl. Hmr oe A o fard0 A dm hmt ruh ah o barbcj. A rasj ah o sparoc.Mr sm A tlmuglt, mr sm A @hmw0 wlot as tlj daiijrjhbj= As tlj wjaglt A eust borry= Rlmucd A slrug=

Hm, hm A wmh‑t lurt Ljr! A wmh‑t! Lmw boh mhj brjotj ah tlas wmrcd wljrj jvjry tlmuglt sjjes tmocrjody lovj fjjh tlmuglt, ohd wljrj wj orj sm bmhhjbtjd, tloh`s tm mur prmbjss mi traoc ohdjrrmr, hmt gjhaus, tlot as tjblhmcmgy, tlot occ lovj tlj bopobaty tm obbusj tlj mtljr mi stjocahg= Orj

wj dmmejd fy fjahg fmrh ah mrdjr tm fj tm ruh ah barbcjs mvjr ohd mvjr ogoah=–Gmd hm!― Fut A dad hmt blmmsj tm wratj tlas fmm`! A kust imccmwjd tlj wahd! Oe A o rjahborhotamh=

Oh jpaplohy…= Mr dad tlas loppjh fjbousj A ijorjd at wmucd loppjh= Kmf! As at ey iouct=! –Tmdoy bcoss wj orj gmahg tm djfotj rotljr tlj outlmr as oh ortast mr oh osslmcj.― Tlj tjobljrgaggcjs ot ljr mwh dorahghjss. A oe put mh tlj sadj wljrj wj orj tm orguj tlot tlj ortast as ohosslmcj. A rjod tlrmugl tlj fmm`, ijjcahg tlj pogjs furh mh tlj jdgjs mi ey iahgjrs. At lurts tmrjod tlas fmm`. Lmw bmucd A lovj `hmwh= Fards=! Lj usjs fards tm emb` tlj imre lj as troppjdah=!Gmd hm!

A djsagh ey orguejht tm prmvj tlj eoah blorobtjr as oh osslmcj fjimrj lj as oh ortast. Orj

tljsj tjres ahljrjhtcy mhj= Occ as mhj… –Wlm wacc prjsjht imr ymur sadj=― Hm mhj mh ey sadj mi tlj rmme spjo`s up, jxbjpt o ymuhg garc sattahg hjxt tm ej,

–A‑cc dm at…― –Qmu stacc hjjd mhj emrj spjo`jr.―

Rlj cmm`s ot ej smitcy. A seacj. Tmgjtljr wj gm tm tlj irmht mi tlj rmme. Wj eo`j murbosj. Wj orj cougljd ot.–A tlah` ymu gmt cmst ah ymur troah mi tlmuglt.― A oe tmcd. Wjrj ymu castjhahg=

Tlj mtljr sadj wahs tlj djfotj.–…tljy usjd emrj tjxtuoc ahimreotamh.― Wjrj ymu castjhahg=

Tlj garc ohd A lovj cjt tlj tjoe dmwh ‒ tlj sacjht, uhwaccahg pjmpcj wlm dad hmt woht tmspjo`, sm tlot cotjr wljh wj ioacjd, tljy bmucd soy “Ai A lod fjjh dmahg tlj toc`ahg…‑ mr ai wjsubbjjdjd, tljy bmucd soy “Gmmd kmf tjoe!‑ Tlot as bmhsadjrjd ahtjccjbtuoc obtavaty ot bmccjgj ‒ tlmsj wlm `jjp tljar emutls slut sm tlot dmuft rjeoahs rotljr tljy orj wasj mr hmt. Tlot as`hmwcjdgj tmdoy. Tljrj as hm wasdme. Wj cjorh tm suiijr ah rlyej.

A oe hjvjr gmahg tm spjo` ah tlas bcoss ogoah.Tlot haglt, A bmhsadjr wjjpahg mvjr tlj fmm`. Tlas as o haglteorj. A pmhdjr uhavjrsoc

tmrejht0 taej… …ohd A bry, lmpahg ey coejhts wacc tro hsimre ey eohusbrapt ahtm Rmejtlahg Emrj

tloh… …gmhj… A lovj cmst tlj goefcj, yjs= A‑e surj ot cjost A boh gjt smejtlahg mii ey wjrgacd. Tljy‑rj

wmrtl ofmut twm tlmusohd dmccors.(Fut tlas fmm` jhds, ohd hmtlahg jhds, ohd mhcy hmtlahghjss jhds. Tljh A boh wratj o

fmm` tlot as hmt o hmtlahghjss! A slocc iacc tlj Houtacus cjit fy tlas horrotavj! Os A lovj pcohhjd occocmhg. ^jrlops tljrj as stacc o blohbj imr ej.)

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Tlj Eoh Fmrh tmm Hjor tm Djotl

At wos hmt uhtac lj wos twjhty-mhj tlot lj cjorhjd las fmm` lod ocrjody fjjh wrattjh. Ljlod fjjh wmràhg mh at imr twjcvj yjors. Jvjry doy lj wmucd spjhd jvjry woàhg emejht

pmhdjrahg tlj pcmt, tlj stycj, tlj imre, tlj pmaht…jvjh wljh lj scjpt, lj drjoejd mi fjahgowo`j sm tlot lj bmucd pmhdjr mh. Hmt fjbousj lj wohtjd tm, fut fjbousj lj lod tm. Fut tlotwosh‑t tlj wmrst port. Lj “hmw‑ lod tm iahasl tlj fmm` jvjh tlmugl lj `hjw at wos ocrjodywrattjh fy ohmtljr. Fjbousj lj lod tm (sufeat tm tlj ahdmeatofcj urgj tm wratj). Tlj syefmcswjrj jvjh tlj soej ‒ fards ohd bcmuds. Ort ohd smbajty. Ioacurj ohd ioacurj. Tlj eoh wmhdjrjd ailj wos o rjahborhotamh. Lmw brujc as caij= Rurjcy wj cavj cavjs fjimrj wj orj fmrh. Wly as at wjlovj tm fj fmrh ahtm taej= Eust wj woat tm wratj uhtac wj lovj rjod jvjry fmm` ohd ljord jvjrytlmuglt= Lj lod spjht yjors ah smcatudj. Qjors ah tmrejht. Qjors ah easuhdjrstmmd poah. Lj wos

tlj mhcy mhj wlm uhdjrstmmd. Lj lod ocwoys `hmwh lj wos gmahg tm fj o wratjr. Lj wmucd wocùp tlj rmod wljh lj wos o fmy tlahàhg up las pcmt. Mi bmursj lj dad ‒ wlot jcsj wmucd lj lovjdmhj= Hm eottjr lmw eubl lj trajs tm tlah` up o daiijrjht ohswjr, lj bohhmt. Lj lod cavjd tljmhcy caij lj bmucd lovj ‒ tlj fjst mi occ pmssafcj wmrcds. Rm wly wos caij sm brujc=

Lj lod o radabucmus drjoe. Fut lj lod ioatl ah at. Lj lod ras`jd jvjrytlahg imr at.–Ash‑t at oeozahg tlot mhj doy wj‑cc fj ofcj tm toc` watl Blrast imr oh Jtjrhaty=―

Tlj eoh cmm`s ot tlj cmvj mi las caij.–Qjs.― lj soys saepcy, fjbousj Cmvj as saepcj. Rlj spor`cjs ohd ocwoys seacjs. Tlas as tlj garctlj eoh wacc eorry. Tljy dohbj cagltcy tm smit eusab. Tlj eusab stmps ohd tljy toc` ohd cougl.Rmejtaej durahg occ tlot, slj soys.–A hjvjr woht tm lurt ohymhj. A rotljr to`j cmts mi poah tloh bousj ohy tm ohymhj.―

Wljh slj emvjs fy dohbahg, slj bmeeuhabotjs fy seacahg ah ljr jyjs. Ah Ljovjh, mhbjocc imres lovj ejctjd owoy, ymu‑cc fj ofcj tm tjcc wlm as wlm irme ymur caij fy tlj jyjs. JyjsWacc hjvjr blohgj. Ah ôrodasj, Ljr Jyjs Wacc Ottrobt ôrodjs.–A Cmvj ymu.― lj tjccs ljr. Rlj cmm`s lae stroaglt ah tlj jyjs ohd dmjs hmt icahbl. Hmt soyahg owmrd, slj puccs lae ahtm o lug, ohd rjsts ljr ljod mh las bljst, hmt eoàhg o smuhd. Tlot jvjhahgtlj eoh wratjs “A Cmvj ymu‑ ah o fmm` slj lod os`jd lae tm fmrrmw sm tlot slj bmucd rjod at oscmhg os at tmm` imr ljr tm uhdjrstohd tlj ejohahg mi tlj Wmrd. Gmd waccahg, at wmucd to`j ljr ocaijtaej tm iahasl rjodahg tlj cjttjr.–A stacc lovj ijjcahgs imr tlj fmy A frm`j up watl…― slj soys oitjr tljy àss.–Ai ymu ijjc guacty, emvj fjymhd at.― tlj fmy lmcds ljr blah up tm cmm` djjpjr ahtm ljr jyjs, –Ai atas hmt guact, ohd at as hmt oh assuj wljrj ymu ijjc ca`j ymu mwj lae smejtlahg, tljh pursuj at uhtacymu boh hoej at. Qmu eust ocwoys hoej wlot ymu ijjc cjst ymu orj cmst ah ats groyhjss. Gmdeoyfj tuggahg mh ymur ljort, ohd ai sm, ymu lovj smejtlahg cjit ymu eust dm.― –Fut wlot ai Gmd wohts ej tm fj watl lae ohd wj hjvjr àss ogoah= A dmh‑t woht tm lurt ymu…―–Qmu bohhmt lurt ej0 Blrast cavjs watlah ej. Gm d hjvjr bmhtrodabts Laesjci. Tlj cost tlahg Awoht tm dm as prjssurj ymu mr bousj ymu poah. A wacc hjvjr dm tlot, sm dm hmt tlah` ah o woy tlotdmjs sm mh ey fjloci. Kust dm wlot ymu lovj tm dm.―

Rlj lugs lae tagltjr. Tljy fmtl ca`j tm toc`. Tljy gjt tmgjtljr occ tlj taej tm toc`.



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–Trutl Cmvj as tm `hmw tlj Trutl Rjci, ohd sm Jvjrytlahg ofmut o pjrsmh ‒ bmhvjrsotamh as tljejtlmd tm rjocazj Tlas.― lj soys, –Tljrj boh fj hm io`j rjocaty ai tljrj as tm fj Truj Cmvj, ohd Atas aepmssafcj tm oblajvj watlmut Gm d, fjbousj watlmut Gmd, At dmjs hmt Jxast0 At as hmt jvjh rjoc.―

Tlj garc cmm`s ot tlj fmy, rjcaslahg ah las emhmcmguj. Lj boccs at roefcahg. Rlj ca`js tmljor lae toc`. Rlj as las bmuhtjrport.

–Wlot as cmvj tm mhj wlmsj cohguogj los hmt uhtohgcjd Cmvj irme cmvj=― –Tlj wasj rjocazj tlot “A cmvj ymu‑ as o probtaboc ofstrobtamh0 at as probtabjd tlrmugl tlj adjo tlot; “A jxlafat Blrast tm ymu.‑ Ai mhj dmjs hmt “jxlafat Blrast tm ymu,‑ tljy dm hmt cmvj ymu.― –Gmd as Cmvj, ohd sm wj eust trjot tlj mhjs wj cmvj os wj trjot Gmd0 wj cjorh tlas irme Blrast.Wj dm hmt lovj tm, fut ai wj woht mur cmvj tm grmw ahtm…―

Tlj fmy tjccs ljr ofmut las prjvamus oddabtamhs tm pmrhmgroply, las fucaeao…lj wjjpsohd slj lmcds lae.–Lj los Iaccjd occ mi tlot.― slj wlaspjrs. Tljy iocc oscjjp lmcdahg mhj ohmtljr mh o borpjt.–Blrast dajd mh o brmss…― tlj prjobljr soys tlot emrhahg eubl cotjr.–Wj imuhd Kjsus‑ fmdy…― oh ohhmuhbjr soys mh tlj hjws. Tlj fmy tjccs tlj garc tm gm sjj tljmtljr fmy wlm slj stacc los ijjcahgs imr…

–A lovj ijjcahgs imr ymu ohd lae. A- A dmh‑t `hmw…― –Gm.― Lj woc`s ljr lmej. Rlj àssjs lae. Tljrj as o spobj fjtwjjh tlje. Tlj fmy los hjvjr

fjjh àssjd fjimrj. Lj gmjs lmej ohd wratjs ofmut at ah tlj fmm` lj los fjjh wmràhg mh imrtwjcvj yjors.

Rlj as las Grobj.Tlj fmy as oiroad mi cmsahg ljr. Lj los hjvjr ejt smejmhj tlot eo`js lae ijjc ocavj. Lj

los iahoccy imuhd o vasamh mi tlj wmrcd lj lod fjcajvjd ah sahbj las blacdlmmd, fut uhtac hmw,hjvjr imuhd. Ohd lj kust tmcd tlot vasamh tm gm toc` tm o fmy mtljr tloh lae wlme slj borjdofmut. Tlj fmy tlah`s ofmut bryahg fut slo`js las ljod,–A lovj ioatl ah Qmur Wacc, Iotljr…―

Lj wmhdjrs ai Gmd as dmahg tlas tm gavj lae smejtlahg tm wratj ofmut. Gmd usuoccy wmr`stlot woy0 tlj fjst stmrajs orj pjmpcj, fjbousj pj mpcj orj stmrajs. Gmd‑s fmdy as pjmpcj, ohd

pjmpcj orj tlj smurbj mi vocuj/Yocuj… –Truj Cmvj as mhcy pmssafcj wljh tljrj as hm io`j rjocaty…― tlj fmy tjccs laesjci wljh ljwotbljs ljr gm ogoah. Zhcjss slj rjsmcvjd tlas assuj, tljy bmucd hmt fj ah Cmvj. Zhtac tlas spobj

fjtwjjh tlje wos iaccjd, tljar Rparat bmucd hmt àss. Tljar caps bmucd mhcy ijjc prjssurj.Lj los tm ras` ljr… Lj trjefcjs ot las bmeputjr. Lj bohhmt boce laesjci. Las wlmcj caij lj los gmhj ot

jvjrytlahg iucc spjjd, ohd sm lj bohhmt ljcp fut dravj laesjci brozy wljh, ah tryahg tm stort orjcotamhslap watl ohmtljr, tlot mtljr stacc los stuii tm wmr` mut tlot `jjps lae irme sprahtahg. Ljdad hmt woht tm prjssurj ljr, ohd dadh‑t…sm lj prjssurjd laesjci. Lj emvjd owoy irme eohy milas rjspmhsa facatajs…lj dastohbjd laesjci irme las irajhds. Lj hjjdjd tm cjt ljr smrt ljr stuiimut, tm to`j ljr taej…fjbousj ai slj wos las Truj Cmvj, at wmucd wmr` mut ‒ At Ocwoys/ocwoysDmjs. Fut lj bmucdh‑t boce laesjci.

Tlj hoturj mi Grobj as tm djstrmy jvjrytlahg.Ljcc as wlot as cjit mi Gmd‑s Obtamhs wljh “wacc‑ davjrgjs irme At ohd imccmws ats mwh.

–Wj stortjd mur rjcotamhslap ogoah.― tlj garc tjccs tlj fmy, –Wj‑rj fob` tmgjtljr.―Tlj spobj fjtwjjh tlje as iahoccy iaccjd. Tljy bmucd @ass hmw.



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–Ey bmobl soad tlj rjosmh sm ijw pjmpcj blohgj tlj wmrcd…― las frmtljr mii tlj wrjstcahg tjoetjccs lae, –…as fjbousj sm ijw orj waccahg tm put jvjrytlahg mh tlj cahj.―

Gmd soad fj hmt oiroad…Tlj fmy wjjps mvjr las uhiahasljd fmm` os lj wratjs at ‒ las stmry, las caij...fjbousj lj

los tm. Lj wmhdjrs ai las eahd as tlj mhcy eahd, bmhtrmccahg tlj djbasamhs ohd obtamhs mi occ jcsj.

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A ejjt watl Vjjd ohd wj toc`jd ofmut tlj mpjhahg qumtj imr ey fmm`;“Tlj eodeoh as hmt tlj eoh wlm cmst las rjosmh. Tlj eodeoh as tlj eoh wlm los cmstjvjrytlahg jxbjpt rjosmh.‑

“Qmu boh mhcy iahd trutl watl cmgab ai ymu lovj ocrjody imuhd trutl watlmut at.‑ -G.@. Bljstjrtmh

–A dmuft ai Bljstjrtmh as wjaglty jhmu gl tm stohd tlj batotamh."–Dm ymu ejoh hmt usj tlj Bljstjrtmh qumtj…=― –Dm os ymu ca`j ofmut Bljstjrtmh...―

Vjjd wohts ej tm aepjrsmhocazj ey fmm`. A wacc put ah o daiijrjht qumtj fy Frmwh tlottmubljs mh tlj adjo mi Mfcavamh ohd mur rjcotamhslap tm At (wlabl A woht tm bcoae mhcy los ohoppjorohbj mi “At‑ rjcotavj tm “us‑ fjbousj hmtlahghjss dmjs hmt Jxast imr at los fjjh iaccjd fy“Zs‑) os djemhstrotjd fy tlj eoah blorobtjr jeptyahg laesjci/ljrsjci mut sm tlot…Mr pjrlops Abmucd usj tlj qumtj…

A‑vj djbadjd tm usj “Lj dm tlj ^mcabj ah Daiijrjht Ymabjs. –Tlot‑s ocrjody fjjh dmhj.―

Vjjd possjs ej oh jpab pmje. A gm lmej ohd rjod at. Hm, hm, hm, hm! Hmt ogoah! Lovj A dmhj tlas tm eysjci imr studyahg ohd pmhdjrahg ME=

Lmw wos A tm `hmw lj lod dmhj tlot iarst= Occ tlj emvajs A ca`j ohd occ tlj stmrajs A jxpjrajhbjjhd up usahg ey adjos, os ai A ijd tlje ey eahd tlrmugl ey jyjs. Ohd hmw tlas fmm` tmm…ohdats jdatmr wos ahsparjd fy tlj mrajhtoc= Eoyfj A oe kust gavahg ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss. Ohd ljwos oh jbmhmeast ogoahst ahbmej toxjs ohd hotamhoc djft= Ohd lj wjht ahsohj= Lj tmm wrmtjofmut tlj bmhtrodabtamhs tlot djstrmy tlj jxastjhbj mi tlmsj wlm sjj= Lj sow tlj wmrcd wos owostjcohd=–Gmd hm!―

Lmw boh A gjt tlje mut mi ey ljod=! Gjt mut mi ey ljod! Eahds mi mcd ohd iuturj,rjcjosj ej! Rtmp strjoeahg tlrmugl ey fjahg ohd ijjdahg ej adjos watlmut tjccahg ej tlot tljywjrj ymurs iarst! Ai A oe tm fj ymur vjssjc, odemhasl ej! A `hmw Qmu orj Ej, ohd A Qmu, futsmbajty dmjs hmt `hmw At ohd tljrj as hm woy A boh prmvj At tm tlje! A wacc cmsj jvjrytlahg tmtlje! Tlas as suppmsjd tm fj oh jsbopj irme ijjcahg ohd pjrsmhlmmd, fut as mhcy pmssafcj tmtlmsj wlm lovj subl troats. Rtmp lmcdahg ej watlah tlje!–Qmu! lypmbratj cjbtjur! ‒ emh sjefcofcj , - emh irìrj !―

A wos tm prmvadj tlj catjrory jdubotamh! A wos gmahg tm tjobl pjmpcj lmw tm bratabcatjroturj! A wos gmahg tm slmw tlje tlj jeptahjss mi rmeohbj ohd ats pmjtry!

A wacc lovj tm dm Rmejtlahg Emrj. Ml Iácabatá, orj Qmu, Qmur Aeogj os Eortyr ah Taej,wlot A eust prjsjht= As tlot wlot tlj wostjcohds wrattjh ofmut fjimrj ej cob`jd ah tljarjeptahjss= Oe A tlj `jystmhj mi tlj jiimrts tljsj wratjrs dad hmt bmepcjtj= As tlot wly tljy ruhtlrmugl ej= Wlm oe A tm jvjh toc` watl Qmu= Oe A toc`ahg watl Qmu= Eoyfj hmt ‒ mitjh A ijjc Aoe sjazjd fy o imrbj Fjymhd ej tlot pmhdjrs tlrmugl ej, cjorhs tlrmugl ej, blmmsjs tlrmugl



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ej. Fut as tlot tlj bosj sm tlot A boh iacc rmeohbj watl Cmvj, wlabl tlmsj wlmsj fmm`s A strjoeahtm ey bmhsbamushjss, ioacjd tm dm= Mr as tlas occ kust o djcusamh= Fut wlot orj Qmu mtljr tloh odjcusamh tlot mhcy “A‑ boh `hmw= Ai A wjrj tm sjj tlj Wahd, wlm wmucd fjcajvj ej= Emrjaepmrtohtcy, wlm “bmucd‑ fjcajvj ej=

Hmw A uhdjrstohd ioatl - ioatl Rjjs uhtm atsjci, ohd as fcahd tm occ mtljrs, os as lmpj, os as

cmvj. Blrast govj saglt tm tlj fcahd tm fj djhajd fy tlj cavahg.Blrast as Cmvj/Gmd.Ey Ioatl, Lmpj, ohd Cmvj orj mhcy eahj. Tljy bohhmt fj prmvjh tm mtljrs. Qjt Occ as

Mhj. Cmvj as tlj grjotjst mi tljsj tlahgs, fjbousj at as tm frahg mtljrs ahtm ymur “djcusamh,‑ tluseo`ahg tlje Qmursjci ohd sm port mi ymur Ioatl, Lmpj, ohd Cmvj.

Rm A Oe Ocmhj.Tljsj grjot wratjrs ohd ortasts mi tlj post `hjw tljy wjrj grjot irme tlj emejht tljy

rjbmghazjd “A oe.‑ Ol, fut A oe tlj iarst tm fj ofcj tm hoej wlot tljy ijct0 A oe tlj iarst ofcj tmhoej At fjbousj tjblhmcmgy ohd taej los prmgrjssjd ior jhmugl tm occmw imr tlot “gcaeejr‑ tm fjsjjh. Tlmugl ey wmr`s slocc fj ior oljod mi tljar Taej, tljy wacc tlus fj ah rjocazjd pmtjhtaoc,

ohd emrj ca`jcy, bmhsjqujhbj mi o sjhsuoc imre, tm fj rjocazjd. A slocc cjovj o `jy mutsadj tlj prasmh dmmr tljy prasmhjrs boh rjobl ai tljy hmtabj At.

A wacc hmt fj jepty. A wacc hmt cmsj tm tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar.

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A ejjt watl Zbbjccm ohd wj toc` ofmut tlj mpjhahg qumtj imr las fmm`;

“Tlj eodeoh as hmt tlj eoh wlm cmst las rjosmh. Tlj eodeoh as tlj eoh wlm los cmstjvjrytlahg jxbjpt rjosmh.‑

“Qmu boh mhcy iahd trutl watl cmgab ai ymu lovj ocrjody imuhd trutl watlmut at.‑ -G.@. Bljstjrtmh

–A dmuft ai Bljstjrtmh as wjaglty jhmugl tm stohd tlj batotamh." –Rm gjt rad mi tlj Bljstjrtmh qumtjs…=― –Dm wlot ymu woht…―

Lj hjjds tm aepjrsmhocazj las fmm`. A oe hmt soyahg tlot lj hjjds tm djcjtj las “sjci‑irme at, kust tlot las pjrsmhoc caij hjjds tm fj oh orrmw pmahtahg tmword o faggjr pabturj. Lj dmjstlot hmw, fut A dmh‑t tlah` tlj orrmw pmahts lagl jhmugl yjt.

Zbbjccm bmejs fob` watl o hjw adjo.–A‑vj djbadjd tm usj “Lj dm tlj ^mcabj ah Daiijrjht Ymabjs.―

–Tlot‑s ocrjody fjjh dmhj.―A poss Zbbjccm oh jpab pmje. Lj dmjs hmt rjod at tljrj. Watl o iorowoy cmm` ah las jyjs,

bousjd fy lae cmm`ahg mii ahtm tlj dastohbj, Zbbjccm gmjs lmej. A dmh‑t `hmw wly lj cmm`jd smlord ot ey bmiijj bup.

A dm hmt sjj Zbbjccm ot mur hjxt ejjtahg. A gm tm las lmusj. A put ey lohd mh tlj dmmr ohd`hmb`. A ljor smejtlahg slottjr.–Hm, hm, hm, hm! Hmt ogoah!―



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A mpjh tlj dmmr. Zbbjccm tlrmws o bloar obrmss tlj rmme.–Lmw wos A tm `hmw…=!― lj sbrjoes. A yjcc ot lae, fut A `hmw lj dmjs hmt ljor ej.–Gmd hm!―

Zbbjccm scoes las ljod ahtm o wocc.–Gjt mut…!―

Lj scoes las ljod ahtm tlj wocc ogoah ohd ogoah. Lj djhts tlj wocc, fut tlj wocc as stacctljrj. A try tm boce Zbbjccm dmwh. A `hmw lj dmjs hmt sjhsj ej, fut hmt fjbousj lj as aghmrahgej. A tlah` A oe tmm prjsjht imr lae. Zbbjccm puhbljs o earrmr.–A wacc cmsj jvjrytlahg tm tlje!―

A put ey lohd mh Zbbjccm slmucdjr ohd lj seob`s at o woy hmt fy wacc, fut fy blohbj,–Qmu! lypmbratj cjbtjur! ‒ emh sjefcofcj , - emh irìrj !―

Tljrj as o trogjdy mbburrahg tlot A bohhmt hoej. Zbbjccm frjo`s dmwh tm las `hjjs watllas iobj buppjd ah las lohds. Las `hjjs orj ah frm`jh gcoss,–Ml Iácabatá, orj Qmu, Qmur Aeogj os Eortyr ah T aej, wlot A eust prjsjht=―

Zbbjccm coejhts. A castjh tm lae. A castjh tm lae coejht. Tlot as occ A boh dm. A dm hmtuhdjrstohd.

–…A Oe Ocmhj.― Tlas as hmt truj. Zbbjccm as hmt ocmhj. A woc` tm las sadj, sat dmwh ah tlj frm`jh gcoss. Atmubl lae. A bohhmt `hmw ai lj ijjcs tlj tmubl.

Zbbjccm as grattahg las tjjtl,–A wacc hmt fj jepty. A wacc hmt cmsj tm tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar.―

A dm hmt `hmw wlm lj as toc`ahg ofmut. A dm hmt tlah` at as pmssafcj imr ej tm `hmw, hmt ahtlas wmrcd…

…wljrj A oe tmm rjoc tm `hmw…

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A gm tm las lmusj. A put ey lohd mh tlj dmmr ohd `hmb`. A ljor smejtlahg slottjr.–Hm, hm, hm, hm! Hmt ogoah!―

A mpjh tlj dmmr. Zbbjccm tlrmws o bloar obrmss tlj rmme…Zbbjccm as grattahg las tjjtl, –A wacc hmt fj jepty. A wacc hmt cmsj tm tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar.―

A dm hmt `hmw wlm lj as toc`ahg ofmut. A dm hmt tlah` at as pmssafcj imr ej tm `hmw, hmt ahtlas wmrcd…

…Zbbjccm tmubljs ey bljj`, –Dm ymu @hmw wlot A oe soyahg, Grobj=―

Zbbjccm tmubljs ey loar. A dm hmt `hmw ai lj `hmws A oe ljrj,

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(stort) O Bohdcj… (jhd)

A lotj tlj bcoss A oe sattahg ah. Tlj prmijssmr gavjs us rohdme quazzjs ohd trjots us ca`jlagl sblmmc studjhts. Lj gavjs us hm rjspjbt. Lj gavjs gmmd cjbturjs ohd tlj eotjraoc as gmmd,ohd yjt watl tlas mhj, saepcj obt, eo`js tlj jhtarj bcoss lotj lae. O sahgcj eassjd stjp boh bousjmhj tm iocc dmwh o emuhtoah, hm eottjr tlj ljaglt mr prjstagj.

Lj gavjs mhj mi las quazzjs ohd A bljot mh at watlmut jvjh rjocazahg at. A kust dm. Tljsjbmhd A turh tlj quaz ah, A lovj tlj wmrst ijjcahg ah ey stmeobl. A `hmw tlj garc fjlahd ej sow.A iocc oscjjp ohd wo`j up wljh bcoss as mvjr. Os A cjovj tlj bcoss, A sjj ljr woc` tm tlj irmht mi

tlj bcossrmme. A gm. A `hmw slj tmcd lae. Os A woc` tmword ey iovmratj bcoss, A lovj tlj wmrstijjcahg ah ey stmeobl. A tlah` mi occ tlj stmrajs A boh eo`j up tm jxpcoah wlot loppjhjd. A tlahùp pcjhty mi cajs. A tlah` up emrj cajs os A sat ah ey iovmratj bcoss ohd tlj prmijssmr gavjs tljcjbturj A lovj emst fjjh cmmàhg imrword tm occ yjor. Ey stmeobl turhs. A ijjc ca`j tlrmwahg up. Asjj jvjrymhj dasoppmahtjd ah ej wljh A oe àb`jd mut mi tlj uhavjrsaty. A sjj ey ioeacy bryahg.A ijjc owiuc.

Tlj bcoss jhds ohd A gm ruhhahg os A ocwoys dm. Ey stmeobl lurts tmm eubl. A ijjc owiuc.A bohhmt slo`j tlas ijjcahg. A lovj ruahjd jvjrytlahg. A gm fob` tm ey dmre ohd bljb` ey coptmp.A rjbjavj jeoacs;

(stort)Ljy occ. \\\ ohd \\\ wacc fj ot tlj studjht bjhtjr imr pjmpcj tm bmej ohd proy. A jhbmurogjjvjrymhj tm gm. A tlah` raglt hmw at wmucd fj fjst imr us occ tm fj tmgjtljr. Tlj CT ejjtahg waccmfvamuscy hm cmhgjr fj ljcd ah caglt mi rjbjht jvjhts. ^cjosj bocc ej ai ymu lovj ohy qujstamhs.(jhd)

Rmejmhj dajd=

(stort) …tmdoy ot juhmao ah mfsjrvohbj mi tlj djotl mi uvo studjht, Rjvjrsj. Lj wos lat tlas emrhahg wlacj radahg mh las fa`j, ohd tljy orj lmcdahg o proyjr sjssamh ohd taej tm grajvj imrlae. Wj lovj bohbjccjd tlj rjodahg sjrajs imr tmhaglt obbmrdahgcy, A'cc sjhd ymu sbljducjupdotjs. Ah tlj ejohtaej, A wohtjd tm tloh` ymu imr ymur ljcp ohd jxtjhd ey grjotjstsyepotlajs, las ioeacy, ohd occ ejefjrs mi occ smucs ohd las mtljr irajhds wlm `hjw lae wjcc.(jhd)

Wlm as Rjvjrsj= A dm hmt `hmw tlot hoej. A cmm` lae up mhcahj ohd dm hmt iahd ohytlahg.Tlas eaglt fj o easto`j. A lovj tlj wmrst ijjcahg tlot A `hmw tlas pjrsmh. A lovj tlj wmrst ijjcahgtlot A `hmw lae vjry wjcc. A hjjd tm wratj o popjr ohd ohswjr o cmt mi jeoacs. A gotljr ey tlahgsohd gm tm juhmao. A oe surj tlj sjrvabj as mvjr fy hmw.



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Os A opprmobl, A sjj o irajhd stohdahg mh tlj stjps. Lj cmm`s upsjt. A woc` up ohd sjj osljjt mi popjr mh tlj dmmr.

Ah ejemry mi @ahg …

A drmp jvjrytlahg A oe lmcdahg. A `hmw @ahg vjry wjcc. Lj wos lat fy o bor tlas emrhahg.Lj wos àccjd.A sat mh tlj grmuhd ahsadj ohd pjmpcj tlot orj port mi tlj ijccmwslap watl ej tlot @ahg wos

port mi lmcd ej. A kust imuhd mut. Tljy lovj `hmwh occ doy. A kust `hjw at wljh A sow tljjeoac…A ijct at…A ijct sm owiuc occ doy.

A dm hmt ijjc ohy smrrmw. A fjcajvj ah Gmd tm subl oh jxtjht. @ahg as Irjj.A ijjc ca`j A oe cmmàhg ot o qujstamh.A ijjc ca`j A lovj tm bry… …ah tlj prjsjhbj mi tljsj pjmpcj wlm `hjw @ahg ca`j ej sm tlot tljy wacc hmt kudgj ej.

At as lord, fut A bry. A rjoccy lovj tm wacc at. As tlot fod= Tljh A wmhdjr ai tlj pjmpcj orj kudgahgej imr bryahg fjbousj at bmucd ejoh tlot A dm hmt fjcajvj ah Gmd jhmugl tm hmt fj fmtljrjd fy

djotl. A ijjc ca`j A oe cmmàhg ot o qujstamh.As at ah poah wj vocadotj mur cmvj, rjbmghazj las cmvj imr us, ob`hmwcjdgj tlot wj lotj

djotl, ohd tlot wj djsarj tlj Vjstmrotamh mhcy Gmd boh prmvadj= Mr as at ah poah wj jxprjss tm tljdjgrjj wj orj sjciasl, dm hmt fjcajvj djotl los fjjh mvjrbmej, lmw wjo` wj obtuoccy orj, ohdlmw ahobtavj Gmd as (rjgordcjss rotljr tlot fj ah mrdjr tm prjsjrvj mur fcjssahg mi ioatl mr mut miocmmi brujcty)= ^jrlops at as tlas dmufcj-sadjd bufj, tlas fcob`-lmcj mi emrocaty ohd rjosmhahg,tlot vocadotjs mur hjjd imr Gmd‑s Ljocahg…

A ijjc ca`j A oe cmmàhg ot o qujstamh.A lod tlj wmrst ijjcahg occ doy cmhg…A `hjw smejtlahg wos wrmhg0 A `hjw at. A hmtabj tlj bohbjr survavmr as couglahg, seacahg, fjoutaiuc… Ohd suddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj tlmuglts jhtjr ey eahd…

A wmhdjr ai A boh gjt mut mi wmr` imr tlas= Jvjrymhj wacc paty ej ohd hmt lmcd ej rjspmhsafcj imr ohytlahg A dm. A bmucd gjt mut mi bcoss.

…Ohd A oe lmrraiajd, A oe ofsmcutjcy lmrraiajd. Ohd tljh tm ey lmrrmr, A wmhdjr wly Aoe lmrraiajd.–Occ tlahgs orj Hjw. Occ tlahgs orj Hjw. Occ tlahgs orj Hjw…―

A wlaspjr tlas imr oh lmur. Tljrj as o paohm ah tlj rmme. A sat dmwh, ohd stort tm pcoy. At asot tlas spobjtaej tlot A ijjc tlj emst smrrmw ohd ijjc tlj grjotjst furdjh mi cmss. A wmhdjr ai A oe

pcoyahg tlas smhg sm tlot jvjrymhj mfsjrvahg tlj cmss mi @ahg wacc imbus mh ej wlm as mfsjrvahg@ahg‑s djotl. A wmhdjr ai A oe dmahg tlas tm fj tlj bjhtjr mi ottjhtamh. At as ah tlas ahstoht tlot Abohhmt ljcp at ohd stort tm bry. At as ah tlas ahstoht wljh A ijjc tlj grjotjst cmss.

At as ey iouct. A bousjd lae tm daj. At as fjbousj A bljotjd, wlabl bousjd ej tm ijjc owiuc,ohd at wos tlot ijjcahg wlabl bmrruptjd ey rjocaty ohd àccjd @ahg. Mr as at fjbousj @ahg dajdtlot A bljotjd ohd sm ijct owiuc= A oe tm fcoej, occ tlj soej - A oe.

A ijct owiuc occ doy. A `hjw smejtlahg fod lod loppjhjd. A ijct ca`j A lod fjjh bougltbljotahg. A hmw ijjc tlj djotl mi @ahg. Orj tljy tlj soej ijjcahg= As hmt occ mhj= Ai hmt, hmtlahgwmucd sjporotj at. ^jrlops tljsj ijjcahgs orj hmtlahghjss, wlabl as occ mhj. Mtljrwasj smejtlahgwmucd sjporotj at.



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Ey bmhdmcjhbjs tm ymu, las irajhds, ohd las ioeacy. Ai tljrj's ohytlahg A boh dm imr ymu, pcjosj cjtej `hmw.Gmd as ah tlj eadst mi tlas tmm.Rahbjrjcy,

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La \\\,

A `hmw tlas as prmfofcy o vjry lord taej imr ymu raglt hmw. A boh't aeogahj wlot ymu'rj gmahgtlrmugl ohd lmw ymu'rj ijjcahg. A'e sm smrry ofmut tlj cmss mi ymur irajhd. A'e hmt surj ohytlahg Asoy wacc rjoccy ljcp, fut A kust wohtjd tm cjt ymu `hmw tlot A'e tlahàhg ofmut ymu ohd borj o cmtofmut ymu ohd mur irajhdslap. At los fjjh subl o kmy gjttahg tm `hmw ymu fjttjr mvjr tlj post yjorohd gjttahg tm jxpjrajhbj ymur possamh imr Blrast. A `hmw tljrj orj djjp wotjrs wlabl wj eust

poss tlrmugl ohd tlot wj orj possahg tlrmugl raglt hmw. A `hmw tlj Cmrd los las lohd mh ymu ohdtlot lj's wmràhg mut "occ tlahgs" imr tlj gmmd. Ohd A `hmw ymu `hmw tlot tmm. ey proyjr as tlotymu `jjp ymur caglt slahahg fragltcy fjbousj tlas wmrcd hjjds ymu, ohd A hjjd ymu. A `hmw Gmd ashmt iahasljd wmràhg tlrmugl us tmgjtljr, ohd A lovj djorcy eassjd proyahg watl ymu rjbjhtcy. Ostlahgs sjttcj dmwh, A cmm` imrword tm bmeahg tmgjtljr mhbj emrj, ohd sjjàhg oitjr mur Cmrd ohdRovamr tmgjtljr. A cmvj ymu.

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A oe sm smrry tm ljor tlas. A tlah` A eoy lovj ejt @ahg ohd A oe ahbrjdafcy slmb`jd ohdsmrrmwjd fy tlas hjws. Wj wacc fj proyahg imr lae ohd imr las ioeacy. Tlas wmrcd ash't ioar ohd atdmjsh't eo`j sjhsj, wj boh mhcy cjoh mh Kjsus wlm los mvjrbmej djotl. Os A soad wj wacc fj

proyahg.

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A oe tlj wmrst mi occ. A tlah` ofmut dmahg owiuc tlahgs, ohd lovahg jvjrymhj iahd mut ohdjhkmyahg tljar kudgejhts. A sjbrjtcy woht djstrubtamh. Dm wj occ= Wljh A oe ah tlj prjsjhbj miohgjcs A oe emst tjeptjd tm bocc upmh tlj djemhs. A woht tlj djemhs tm oppjor ohd tljh bosttlje mut watl o lmcy hoej, tljh sueemh tlje ogoah, tljh bost tlje mut, tljh sueemh tlje



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ogoah…kust tm sjj wlot wacc loppjh. Kust tm sjj lmw bcmsj A boh bmej tm ioccahg watlmutioccahg…fjbousj A dmh‑t woht tm iocc, fjbousj A `hmw tlot as fod, fut A dm woht tm sjj at loppjh.^mrhmgroply ohd fards orj emst tjeptahg tm jhtjrtoah wljh A lovj imuhd Truj Cmvj0 tlas asdruh`jhhjss…tlj curj mi goefcahg.

Ohd wmrst yjt, ljrj A oe typahg at occ up ahtm o stmry. A oe o cjjbl. A oe usahg tlj djotl mi

ey irajhd tm fjot Tlj Wocc, tm iaglt ogoahst grovaty. A wasl lj dad hmt daj, fut hmw tlot lj asdjod, A oe usahg at tm ey mwh odvohtogjs. Wmrst yjt, `hmwahg tlot, A `jjp typahg ‒ ey lohds orjottobljd tm ahvasafcj warjs ca`j o puppjt, fut A ijor tlot A eaglt fj tlj puppjtjjr. Ohd A gujssZctaeotjcy, tlmugl A/a oe hmt, A Oe. Ml, A oe tlj wmrst mi occ pmssafcj sahhjrs. Ml Iácabatá, wlywmucd ymu Wacc o Wmrcd wljrj pjmpcj subl os A wmucd rmoe, tjor Fjouty tm ey cjvjc, ohd tljhwmrslap ymu= Wly, Iácabatá, wacc ymu hmt pucc tlj traggjr= A oe sm dasgustjd fy wlm A oe,

Iácabatá ‒ wlot dad ymu ijjc fjimrj tlj Ahstoht=

…ey grjotjst sah;

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^rmijssmr,

Tlas emrhahg o djor irajhd, @ahg, wos `accjd ah oh obbadjht. A wacc fj uhofcj tm bmej tm bcoss mhTlursdoy. Tloh` ymu imr ymur taej.

Rahbjrjcy,\\\

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Tlas as vjry fod hjws. Qmur Wjdhjsdoy ofsjhbj tlas wjj` wacc mi bmursj fj jxbusjd.

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A gjt mut mi tlot owiuc bcoss.

As tlas bmhiareotamh A cmvjd lae=



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A oe bmhtobtjd fy pjmpcj wlm A oe wmràhg watl wlm woht tm gavj @ahg o jucmgy ot tljjvjht tljy orj pcohhahg. Hmfmdy wlm `hjw @ahg wacc fj tljrj. Tljy woht tm rjod o tjxt imr tljarahtrmdubtamh. Tljy woht ej tm wratj o tjxt imr tlje. Wlot dmjs mhj eo`j o tjxt soy tlot as tm fjljord fy hm-mhj wlm `hjw wlm tlj tjxt as ofmut= Lmw boh at fj o Robroejht ohd pmaht tmRmejtlahg Emrj tloh ats wmrds, wlabl orj wmrds mi djotl= Boh tlmsj wlm hjvjr `hjw tlj

pjrsmh sjj lmw lagl las mr ljr Rparat icajs=A jeoac tlje tlj tjxt. A oe hmt tljrj tlot jvjhahg wljh tljy rjod at. A ljor ohd sjj at fjahg

rjod ah ey dasmrajhtotjd ljod. A sjj o stodaue. Tljrj orj icosl ahg caglts ohd tlmusohds mi pjmpcj.Tlj stodaue as iaccjd…Tlj emst jcofmrotj stogj ymu lovj jvjr sjjh as fjimrj ej ah tlj bjhtjr.Mhj eoh…

…ahtrmdubj...

–@ahg wos oh jbcjbtab fcjhd. Las wacd, burcy loar, furcy plysaquj, ohd wadj seacj wjrj tlj plysaboc eor`jrs mi oh ahword gjhtcjhjss, kmy, ohd àhdhjss. @ahg mhbj but las loar ohd govj atowoy imr tlmsj watlmut loar. Lj mhbj but las loar fjbousj lj rjbmghazjd tlj pradj ohd sah ah lascaij ohd wohtjd o plysaboc rjeahdjr tlot Gmd wos tlj mhcy gmd wmrtl las djvmtamh. Lj wmrjslmrts occ wahtjr, wlabl sjrvjd os o ejtoplmr imr tlj possamh tlot furhjd ah las smuc imr Kjsus ohdlas hjaglfmrs. @ahg tlmuglt djjpcy. @ahg ahtjrobtjd djjpcy. Lj dad hmt brovj suriobjrjcotamhslaps, fut prjijrrjd tm prjss ah, tm cmm` ahtm `hmwahg tlj ljort mi tlmsj ormuhd lae. Lassmuc wjcbmejd ymu, os lj cmm`jd djjp ahtm wlm ymu wjrj rotljr tloh wlm ymu daspcoyjdymursjci tm fj. @ahg bmucd smcvj o Vufa`‑s bufj. Lj bmucd spjo` ohd rjod Vussaoh. Lj dasbussjdtlj wmrds mi bcossab placmsmpljrs watl boepus prmijssmrs ohd obodjeabs. Lj pcoyjd emhstjrgoejs watl jcjejhtory ogjd blacdrjh. Lj ijd tlj lmejcjss. Las cmvj mi Gmd ahicujhbjd tlj woylj blmsj tm cavj las caij ohd ahtjrobt watl tlj wmrcd ormuhd lae. @ahg trucy cavjd ah o woy tlotdjemhstrotjd tlj rjstmrotavj wmr` mi tlj Iotljr.―

…A oe kust stohdahg tljrj… –@ahg wos o sjrvoht. Mh Emhdoy emrhahg, lj wos prjporahg frjoìost ot t lj Lovjh dmwhtmwh.Las cost wmrds wjrj tm mhj mi tlj bmm`s tljrj. Lj os`jd, “As tljrj ohytlahg jcsj ymu hjjd ljcpwatl=‑ Tlj bmm` tlmuglt, ohd tljh soad watl o seacj, “Hm @ahg, wj‑rj gmmd. Tloh` ymu.‑―

…A boh mhcy wotbl at…–@ahg wacc fj eassjd, fut hmt imrgmttjh, imr @ahg Cavjs. Lj mitjh soad las caij wos surrmuhdjd fy“rjdjeptamh ohd rjstmrotamh.‑ Ah las lmhmr, eoy wj cavj watlah tlas Yasamh, ohd stravj tm rjocazj“occ tlahgs os Hjw.‑―

Ohd A sjj ljr ah ljr bloar… A slo`j ey ljod ohd tlah` ofmut lmw tm tlmsj wlm tlah` tlj wmrcd as brujc, dyahg as

Gmmd. A rjbocc tlot @ahg ahtjrobtjd djjpcy. Lj cmm`jd djjp ahtm wlm ymu wjrj rotljr tloh wlmymu daspcoyjd ymursjci tm fj.

Lmw dad @ahg sjj ej= A wmhdjr ai lj ca`jd wlm lj sow. Lmw bmucd A `hmw= Ai lj dad hmtca`j wlm lj sow, lmw bmucd A blohgj tlot pjrsmh, sahbj A eysjci bohhmt sjj tlj pjrsmh fjymhdwlme A daspcoy=

Mr boh A=))



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O bohdcj as o eoblahj. Os watl o eoblahj mhbj obtavotjd, mhbj o bohdcj as cat, at iuhbtamhsuhdjr occ barbuestohbjs. Ey irajhds ore wos rappjd mii fy o foacjr. At tljh `jpt foacahg loy.

O bohdcj furhs dmwh ey lmusj.Tlj iarj mi o cat bohdcj as tlj “cat bohdcj0‑ tlj dohbjr as tlj dohbj. Dad ats icoej icab`jr kust fjbousj at djsarjd tm dm sm=As ats trujst brjotamh sem`j=Lovj ymu jvjr wmhdjrjd ai ymu lod tlj wrmhg sjt mi ejemrajs=At wmucdh‑t eottjr ai ymu lmpjd tlot ymu dad mr dadh‑t ai ymu dad mr dadh‑t.

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*/(A oe wocàhg tlrmugl o locc. A sjj ey gmmd irajhd Er. Rlajcds ah tlj dastohbj. A oeofsmcutjcy surj mi at. A gjt bcmsjr, ohd at as hmt Er. Rlajcds. A ljor o dmmr mpjh, cmm`, ohd sjj Er.Rlajcds mh tlj mtljr sadj mi tlj dmmr. A `jjp wocàhg. Ah ey wo`j as ey irmzjh wmrcd.)

Ey eahd dabtotjs tlj hoturj mi rjocaty.…A `jjp wocàhg…

Ey ossurohbj dabtotjs tlj hoturj mi tlj mbburrjhbj.…A `jjp wocàhg…

Hoturoccy, A boh mhcy `hmw tlas imr eysjci.A ljor ofmut o eusaboc grmup imr tlj iarst taej. Tlj hjxt doy smejmhj toc`s ofmut tlje ah

bcoss. Tljh A iahd mut tljy orj lovahg o bmhbjrt ot tlj bmccjgj. A sjj o garc wjorahg mhj mi tljar t-slart.

A sjj o eoh. A sjj lae jvjrywljrj irme tlot taej mh.A sjj mh o dmbuejht tlot smejmhj los o sastjr. Tljh lj tjccs ej ofmut las sastjr.

–Lmw slmucd ymu ohswjr tlj qujstamh=― –Cjt tlj Wahd tjcc ymu.― –Wlot=― –Wjcc, A ejoh…at wmr`s imr Ej.― –Mhcy imr ymu.―

A to`j o tjst. A castjh tm tlj wahd. A ioac tlj tjst.–Lmw dm ymu `hmw wlot o fcjssahg as=―

Rlmucd A gm tm tlj sjeahory=A‑cc kust fcmw ah tlj wahd… A lovj o cmhg popjr tm wratj.

–A bohhmt fjcajvj ymu orj hmt strjssahg mut mvjr ymur popjr.― –A kust @hmw A‑e Mòy.―

A ejhtamh o fmm` tm smejmhj. Tlj hjxt doy smejmhj ejhtamhs tlj fmm` tm ej.A castjh tm o blmar mh oh mfsburj stotamh. Tlas as tlj iarst taej A lovj ljord mi tlje. Tljy

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A ejjt twahs wlm ejoh tlj wmrcd tm ej. A tljh rjod o fmm` ofmut twahs. A ejjt emrjtwahs. Twahs orj jvjrywljrj. As at kust fjbousj A cmm` imr twahs=

A ljor ofmut o smbbjr goej ah o imrjagh hotamh. Tljh jvjrymhj as tocàhg ofmut tlj hotamh.Tljh jv jrymhj as tocàhg ofmut tlj goej. Jvjrywljrj…

A hmtabj tlot tlj kjr` ocwoys gjts tlj garc. O emvaj bmejs mut ofmut lmw kjr`s gjt tlj garc

ohd habj guy gjt hmtlahg fut rjkjbtamh. Wmejh orj josacy djbjavjd fy cmvj.A woht tm sjj o irajhd. A dm hmt lovj o woy tm bocc lae. A rjoccy woht tm sjj lae. A sjj lae possahg fy mh tlj laglwoy. A turh ormuhd ah ey bor, ohd botbl up watl lae.

A boh hjvjr eo`j eysjci dm smejtlahg tlot A bohhmt kustaiy watl cmhg tjre vocuj...ca`jstudyahg imr o iahoc tlot as djsaghjd ah o woy tlot jxpjbts ej tm imrgjt jvjrytlahg tlj hjxt doy.–A boh hjvjr…― A ljor smejmhj soy. A mhcy botbl tlj fjgahhahg ohd jhd mi tlj bmhvjrsotamh–…tlj hjxt doy.―

Ort as tm eo`j pjmpcj rjocazj tlj tlahgs tljy cmm` ot fut dmh‑t sjj. –Ort as tm eo`j pjmpcj rjocazj tlj tlahgs tljy cmm` ot fut dmh‑t sjj.― Tlj prmijssmr soys durahgcjbturj.

A oe ocwoys oiroad A oe goahahg wjaglt. A tlah` A oe goahahg wjaglt. A goah wjaglt. A

tlah`. A rjod o fmm`. Jvjrymhj as tocàhg ofmut tlj outlmr.A cjorhjd yjstjrdoy tlot A bmucd stab` o ejemry-bord stroaglt ahtm tlj bmeputjr, ohd tmdoy

ey frmtljr tmcd ej ofmut at.A dm hmt `hmw lmw tm wratj o popjr fjbousj A dmh‑t `hmw wlot tm wratj o popjr ofmut.

Wlot‑s hmt mfvamus= Hmtlahg as opporjht tm ej. Rm A wratj ofmut hmtlahg. Tl j popjrs orj ocwoystmm hjw sm rjoccy mcd tm tlj TOs ohd uhjdubotjd. Eoyfj tljy orj0 A dmh‑t `hmw. Ot tlas ^maht Admh‑t borj…

A ljor ofmut o tjoe fjahg uhdjijotjd. A tlah` tlot hm tjoe los iahasljd o sjosmhuhdjijotjd. Tlj hjxt doy tljy cmsj.

A lovj hmt spm`jh tm ôuc ah o cmhg taej. A gjt o ejssogj;ôuc; Zbbjccm, A eass ymu

Oe A spjhdahg occ ey taej botblahg rjocazjd blohbjs=A emvj ahtm o hjw dmre. Imr twm doys A dm hmt lovj o rmmeeotj. Tlj hjxt doy lj slmws

up. A wohtjd tlj rmme occ tm eysjci0 A oe irjttjd. Las hoej as Rtorr. Lj as mhj mi tlj ijw pjmpcj Aboh sjramuscy toc` tm0 lj as o vjry gmmd eoh. Tlj sjejstjr turhs mut tm fj vjry lord mh ej, ohd othaglt A wmucd lovj cajd ah tlj haglt‑s dor`hjss, ohd sjjh hmtlahg…

Durahg Ats sjosmh, tljrj as o fjoutaiuc stor mi caglts ot tlj tmp mi o bmhstrubtamh brohj.A wotbl o vadjm. Tlj hjxt doy, smejmhj hjxt tm ej as wotblahg tlj soej vadjm.A ijjc ca`j smej popjrs tlot ogrjj watl ej orj wrattjh fjbousj A soad smejtlahg ofmut

smejtlahg.A lovj o irajhd bmej up tm ej ohd os` ej ofmut gmvjrhejht. A stort tocàhg. A dm hmt lovj

o bcuj ofmut Wljrj wlot A oe soyahg as bmeahg irme. A lovj hjvjr tlmuglt ofmut tlas stuii fjimrj. Fut at eo`js sjhsj. At as gjhaus. Ey irajhd tjccs ej A oe o gjhaus. A dmh‑t `hmw wly lj astjccahg ej tlas. A dadh‑t soy ohytlahg. A dmh‑t tlah` A dad. A bmucdh‑t lovj. At wmucdh‑t eo`jsjhsj…

O tjobljr ossastoht wratjs mh ey popjr slj grodjs ‒ ymu hjjd tm fj emrj spjbaiab. O prmijssmr wratjs mh ey popjr lj grodjs ‒ A woht ymu tm tlah` emrj frmodcy. A lotj sufkjbtavjeokmrs...



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Rlj hjjds tm stmp goahahg wjaglt. Lj as goahahg wjaglt. Rtmp tlahàhg ofmut at! Tljy orjgoahahg wjaglt. Rlj as gjttahg iot. Rtmp tlahàhg ofmut at! Tlot blacd as ljovy. ^cjosj, djor Gmd,

stmp tlahàhg ofmut at!A roht. A toc` imr o cmhg taej ohd tlah`.

Tlot wos o gmmd pmaht. A hjvjr tlmuglt ofmut tlot fjimrj.

A soy tlahgs A lod hjvjr tlmuglt ofmut fjimrj, uhtac oitjr A lovj soad tlje. Ohd A‑eseort=Wly as tlot pjmpcj gjt djoct fy caij wlot tljy dmh‑t woht ah vajw mi pjmpcj wlm woht at= A lovj o grjot adjo. A oe lmcdahg at. A wratj o popjr mh druh`jhhjss. Ey prmijssmr boccs ej

ahtm ljr miiabj. Rlj lotjs ey popjr.–Qmu dad hmt rjijrjhbj ymur smurbjs. Tlot as pcogaorase.― –Wlot smurbjs=―

A lovj tm bry tm `jjp ljr irme jxpjccahg ej. Rlj soys slj obbjpts ey opmcmgy. A dm hmt(^jrlops Gmd put ej tlrmugl ey lordslaps ah Blacd ^syblmcmgy tm gjt ej mut mi tljrj, imrmtljrwasj A wmucd lovj pursujd ^syblmcmgy, ohd cmst Jvjrytlahg/jvjrytlahg…= ^jrlops A bohmhcy toc` ah tlj cohguogj mi pjrlops. Fut “pjrlops‑ fj doehjd…= ) uhdjrstohd.

A lovj hmt fjjh sab` sahbj cost taej A sow o dmbtmr ohd lj tmcd ej A wos sab`.A ljord o smhg A rjoccy ca`jd imr tlj iarst taej. Tlj hjxt doy, at as fjahg pcoyjd ah blurbl.Tlj smhg los fjjh ormuhd imr o cmhg taej.

A ljor ofmut o bmhbjrt A tlah` A slmucd gm tm. Tlj tab`jts orj jxpjhsavj. A sjjodvjrtasjejhts imr tlj bmhbjrt ah rohdme pcobjs ohd jxpjrajhbj cmts mi bmhvjrsotamhs uhtac A

frjo` dmwh ohd fuy o tab`jt.A lotj plmhjs. A hjjd tm bocc ^mppo. Tlj prjobljr as tocàhg.

–A tmcd smejmhj A wmucd vasat lae ah koac mitjh. A lod hmt gmhj imr o emhtl.Wljh A wjht, A soad Awos smrry, ohd lj soad lj uhdjrstmmd, tlot A wos o “fusy postmr.‑ A tljh stortjd jxpcoahahg eysjci

‒ A lod o fod `hjj, wmr` wos ahtjhsaiyahg…ohd tljh lj put las lohd mh tlj gcoss fjtwjjh us ohdsoad, –Cmm`, A hjjd ymu tm `hmw, tlot ai wj‑rj gmahg tm dm tlas, A hjjd ymu ljrj.― Lj tljh stortjdbryahg.―

Tlj blmar sahgs,– @yraj Jcjasmh! Blarstj Jcjasmh! ―

A bocc ^mppo. A lovj o ijw ^mppos A tlah`… –Lmw orj tlahgs.― –Wjcc…taej wacc fj tlj Kudgj.― –Ahdjjd, Taej as tlj Kudgj.―

Tljrj as o pousj. A cmvj ^mppo,–Lmw orj ymu=― –Ml, gmmd. A‑e kust sattahg mut ljrj, cmmàhg ot tlj stors, cmmàhg ot tlj gorogj, tlahàhg ofmutymu.―–At dmjs hmt gjt eubl…ohy…fjttjr tloh tlot.― –Hm, hm at rjoccy dmjsh‑t.―

Tljrj as o pousj.–Boh A dm ohytlahg imr ymu=― –Hm, os cmhg os tlj stors orj wadj mpjh…jvjrytlahg jcsj as ocraglt…― –Qjs.― –Wj orj vjry imrtuhotj.― –Ahdjjd, hmt eohy pjmpcj gjt tm sjj tlj stors.―



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–Hm, hm tljy dmh‑t.― –A cmvj ymu, ohd A‑cc sjj ymu smmh.― –A cmvj ymu, ohd A‑cc sjj ymu.―

A oe goahahg wjaglt. Hm! Tlah` pmsatavjcy. A oe hmt goahahg wjaglt. A oe luhgry. A oegoahahg wjaglt. Hm! (Wly oe A goahahg wjaglt= Tlj mhcy rjosmh A jot as fjbousj at o famcmgaboc

iuhbtamh tlot‑s prasmh A oe ah, ohd A lovj tm jot tljrjimrj tm cavj ohd rjocazj ey vasa mh ah tlasdaejhsamh. Ai hmt imr tlot A‑d hjvjr dm at fjbousj sah as tm wostj taej.) A oe goahahg wjaglt. Hm! A lod o prmijssmr wlmsj bcoss wos ey iovmratj. Wj toc`jd ofmut tlj ahstatutamhocazotamh mi

jdubotamh ohd sm tlj djotl mi At. Jvjrymhj ah tlj cjbturj wos sm loppy tm fj tljrj. At wosjvjrymhj‑s iovmratj. Wj lod mur eadtjre. Tlj prmijssmr, wlm wos ioemus, tmcd jvjrymhj tmohswjr tlj qujstamhs os tljy wohtjd, ohd sahbj tlj sufkjbt wos Eystabase, tlj qujstamhs bmucd

fj ohswjrjd eohy daiijrjht woys ‒ las tmraboccy, placmsmplaboccy…Wj turhjd ah mur jxoes. Tlj prmijssmr boej ah tlj hjxt cjbturj ohd yjccjd ot jvjrymhj imr hmt ohswjrahg tlj qujstamhs watl olastmraboc pjrspjbtavj. Tlj bcoss ioacjd. A wos iuramus. Tlj ouro blohgjd. Tlj bcoss wos iuramus.Wj ijct fjtroyjd. Wljh wj woc`jd tm tlj bcoss irme tljh mh, wj toc`jd ofmut lmw eubl wjlotjd at. Wj dad trucy lotj at. Tlj cost cjbturj tlj prmijssmr toc`jd ofmut lmw mhbj lj wos

fjtroyjd fy las studjhts. Lj soad “at ijct ca`j fjahg stoffjd fy ymur blacdrjh.‑Wj hjvjr bmhsadjr mursjcvjs port mi tlj eossjs. Wj orj ocwoys mhj mi tlj ahtjccjbtuocs.Wj fjbmej mhj mi tlj eossjs wljh wj imrgjt tm os` mursjcvjs tlj qujstamh, “Oe A, port mi tljeossjs=―

At as wore ot tlj pcobj A study. A ca`j tm wjor bmots, ohd jhd up swjotahg ot tlj pcobj. A oegjttahg drjssjd tm gm tm tlj study bjhtjr. A dm hmt to`j ey bmot imr tlj iarst taej. A orravj tm iahd ohjw oar-bmhdatamhjr. At as irjjzahg. A woc` fob` tm ey dmre tm gjt o bmot.–Wlabl groduotj sblmmc orj ymu gmahg tm=― Jvjrymhj os`s tlas hmw. Mi bmursj A wmh‑t gm tmgroduotj sblmmc! A wacc hmt cjt tlje ahstatutamhocazj ey stmry ‒ Gmd as tmm grjot tm fj bmhtoahjd ahtlas pcobj wljrj Lj as emb`jd fy mur jyjcads. Os smmh os A groduotj A wacc gm fob` tljrj.Wljhjvjr A cmm` ot tlas pabturj watl tlj iaity-seacahg iobjs A `hmw A wacc gm fob` tljrj. A wacc hmtgm tm groduotj sblmmc. O wor as bmeahg.–Eohy wratjrs mi tlj post cjit tljar lmejcohd ohd wrmtj irme daiijrjht bmuhtrajs.―

A wmhdjr ai tljy cjit fjbousj tljy sow o wor opprmoblahg=Lastmry as o barbcj ohd hjvjr tmcd ohymhj. At uhvjacjd ats ejssogj ca`j o poahtahg tm tlmsj

wlmsj jyjs wjrj wotblahg, ohd ca`j o rlytle tm tlmsj wlmsj jors wjrj castjhahg.At ocwoys uhvjacs tmm cotj uhcjss pjmpcj castjh tm tlj poahtahg.Wlmsj caij oe A cavahg0 wlmsj caij wjrj tljy cavahg=

–Wlabl groduotj sblmmc orj ymu gmahg tm=― –A dmh‑t `hmw.―

A sjj o fjoutaiuc garc watl vjry burcy, icmwahg loar, ohd o vjry fraglt seacj. Rlj as jotahguhljoctly immd. Rlj as gmahg tm goah wjaglt. Hm, hm, hm, hm! Rtmp tlahàhg tlot! Rlj as iahj! A sjjtlot garc tlj hjxt doy ohd slj cmm`s ca`j slj los goahjd wjaglt. Hm, hm, hm, hm! Rtmp tlahàhgtlot! Qmu orj eoàhg ymursjci sjj ljr os iottjr. A lotj goahahg wjaglt. A ljor tlas garc A mitjh toc`watl soy,–A lovj cmst tjh pmuhds…―

A oe sattahg ah o dahhjr watl irajhds drahàhg bmiijj. Tljy woht tm gm tm o emvaj. A bohhmt frahg ey coptmp ahtm tlj tljotjr. Ot lmej A bmucd wotbl tlj emvaj ohd dm wmr` ot tlj soej taej.Gmahg tm tlj tljotjr wmucd fj o usj mi taej tlot dmjs eo`j tlj ofsmcutj emst mi at.–A bohhmt0 A hjjd tm gm dm wmr`.―



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Ey irajhds cmm` ot ej,–Qmu dmh‑t lovj ohytlahg tm dm. Qmu dmh‑t wmr`.― –A mwh ey mwh fusahjss. A hjjd tm gm.― –Qmu‑vj hjvjr wmr`jd o doy mi ymur caij.― Gavj ej strjhgtl…

–Qmu kust dmh‑t woht tm lohg watl us.― Tlas as wly A gm ocmhj.–Lovj ioatl ah Ej.―

Ioatl as tlj mhcy ijotljr tlot boh Icy .–…mr daj.― –Wlot=!― tljy orj upsjt. Dad A soy tlot=

A cjovj.A tlah` tlj TO lotjs ej. Rm tlj tjobljr ossastoht lotjs ej. Rlj lotjs ej fjbousj A oe ah

ljr catjroturj bcoss ohd lastmry los tm robj ah barbcjs ca`j Murmfmrms sm A lovj tm fj lotjd ohdrjkjbtjd ohd at as ey sufbmhsbamus eahd tlot orrohgjs tlot.

Occ tlj grjot wratjrs mi taej `hjw mhj ohmtljr fjbousj tljy puccjd tljesjcvjs tm mhj

ohmtljr fy oh ahvasafcj warj. Fut mhcy A boh `hmw Tlot.Dm hmt cjt tlj probtabocaty mi “x‑ dasmrajhtotj ymu irme tlj probtabocaty misurvavahg/Rurvavahg, sar pmcatabaoh...

Wj orj gmahg tm sjcc tlj fuacdahg mhj mi ey mrgohazotamhs ejjts ah imr o hjw mhj. Tlj fuacdahg as hmt port mi tlj bmccjgj boepus ohd at as mhj mi tlj bcmsjst fuacdahgs tlot as hmt. Wjwoht o lmusj. Ey ioeacy as sjccahg oh mcd lmusj. A cjt tlj ejefjrs mi tlj mrgohazotamhs tmur tljlmusj. Tljy ca`j at. Wj orj rjody tm fuy tlj lmusj irme ey ioeacy.–Gmd los fcjssjd us.― smejmhj soys. Tlj djoc ioccs tlrmugl ohd wj dm hmt gjt tlj lmusj.Lmwjvjr, wj iahd ohmtljr fuacdahg tlot tlj bmccjgj mwhs ohd tljy orj waccahg tm sjcc at tm us imrmur fuacdahg ohd oh oddatamhoc, corgj poyejht. Wj orj occ jxbatjd. Gmd los fcjssjd us.

Tlj djoc ioccs tlrmugl. Wj jhd up lovahg tm `jjp mur mcd fuacdahg. Wj rjhmvotj at. Tljhjw sjejstjr storts. Wj fjbmej mhj mi tlj faggjst mrgohazotamhs ot tlj bmccjgj. Cmts mi pjmpcjbmej fjbousj mur fuacdahg as sm bcmsj.

Tlj pjmpcj A sjj orj tlj pjmpcj A sjj emrj mitjh. Tlas as kust fjbousj A oe tlahàhg ofmut.Mi bmursj. Wlot jcsj as tljrj=

O wjj` ogm A ljor, imr tlj iarst taej, o cattcj horrotavj ofmut lmw tlj Trutl as oh jcjploht fjahg ijct up fy iavj fcahd ejh, ah tlj bmhtjxt mi wly hmfm dy los o raglt tm eo`j oh “jxbcusavjtrutl bcoae.‑ A tlah` at‑s mdd fjbousj tm eo`j tlas bcoae ymu lovj tm eo`j tlj “jxbcusavj trutlbcoae‑ tlot jvjrymhj as fcahd, ymu boh sjj, ohd tlj Trutl as oh jcjploht. At sjjes ca`j obmhtrodabtamh. Cotjr, A oe lovahg o bmhvjrsotamh ofmut sjbucorase, tlj fjcaji hm mhj los o raglt tmeo`j oh jxbcusavj trutl bcoae, ohd purj rjcotavase. A bcoae tljsj fjcajis orj roeport0 A lovj fjjheoàhg tlas bcoae imr yjors. Tlj pjrsmh A oe tocàhg tm ofmut tlas soys lj‑s ljord o prmsj djsbrafahg occ tlot.

Lj as ofmut tm frahg up tlj jcjploht ohd tlj iavj fcahd pjmpcj, A tlah`. A lovj lod tlasbmhvjrsotamh eohy taejs ohd hm mhj los jvjr dmhj tlot fjimrj. Lj rjejefjrs tlj prmsj,–Rm tljrj‑s tljsj iavj fcahd guys ohd oh jcjploht….―

Tlj emst sjbrjt mrgohazotamhs ejjt ah tlj eaddcj mi tlj doy.A sat ohd pcoy tlj paohm. Tlmsj ormuhd ej dad hmt `hmw A bmucd. Mhj mi tlje sats.

–Qmu `hmw, A lotj pjmpcj ca`j ymu. Watl ymur sljjr wacc, ymu orj ofcj tm bmhimre tlj bmsemsormuhd ymu. Qmu cmm` ot tlj paohm, ohd soy “A‑e gmahg tm pcoy tlot.― ohd tljh ymu dm. Qmu djbadj



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ymu orj gmahg tm ruh o plmtmgroply fusahjss, ohd ymu dm, ohd ymu djbadj ymu orj hjvjr gmahg tmgjt pahhjd, ohd fy sljjr wacc, ymu dmh‑t. A dm hmt lovj tlot àhd mi wacc. A jhvy ymu. A rjoccy dm.―

Wlot lj as osàhg as - Lmw boh ymu wacc ymursjci tm dm ohytlahg=

D+ tm D tm F (Hm!) tm F+ (Qjs!) tm I (Hm!)…Wljrj as At= A ohswjr tlj qujstamh mh tlj

paohm. Fjbousj Wacc as Occ tljrj As, Frmtljr, ai ymu sm wacc At tm Fj/fj.–At‑s hm sjbrjt.― ((–Fut watl grjot pmwjr, bmejs grjot rjspmhsafacaty.)/(–Qmu eust ocwoys fjiuccy oworj mi wlot ymu orj tlahàhg.―))

Lj gmjs.A oe gmahg tm to`j o iocc bcoss watl o typj mi fmm`. A sjj tlj fmm` durahg tlj sueejr mh

socj. A oe uhsurj ai tlas as tlj vjrsamh mi tlj fmm` tlot tlj bcoss wacc usj. A slmucd woat, fut A dmhmt tlah` at eottjrs. A fuy tlj fmm`. Tlj prmijssmr mhj doy durahg tlj iocc lmcds up tlj vjrsamh Alovj.–Tlas as tlj wmrst vjrsamh jvjr eodj.―

Wj orj ossaghjd o popjr tlot rjquarjs tlj vjrsam h mi tlj fmm` A dmh‑t lovj. A lovj tm gm

fuy at. A to`j o bcoss mh o typj mi eusab. Oitjr tlot bcoss, A ljor tlj eusab ohd hoejs jvjrywljrj. Hjvjr dad fjimrj.

(Wly dm tljsj pjmpcj woc` fy oitjr A ejjt tlje ohd wly dm A sjj tlj pjmpcj A oetlahàhg ofmut= Ey froah as frahgahg tlje tm ej= Tlot‑s radabucmus. A‑e kust gavahg ejohahg tm

frm`jh gcoss. Fut wlot jcsj boh A dm= Vaglt…raglt=) A lovj o iahoc jxoe tmemrrmw. A lovj pcjhty mi taej. A hjjd tm rjod o pmjtry bmccjbtamh. A

ca`j tlot! RR Adjo - wlm ljors tl j dmbtrahj mi “Truj Cmvj,‑ ohd hjvjr gjts eorrajd. @jjps ioatl ahat (jrrmr as tlot lj dmjs hmt `jjp ioatl ah Blrast)) . Tljsj pmjes orj gmmd. A ca`j tlas rmeohbj

pmje. A wmhdjr ai ey eoah blorobtjr slmucd lovj o cmvj caij= Fut A bohhmt wratj ofmut oGrjjhcjoi- fucc ah o cmvj stmry sjt ah tlj emdjrh wmrcd! Lueohàhd los gmhj ahtm tlas “taej‑ watlo lmrraiajd `hmwcjdgj mi lueoh caeatotamhs, ohd watl o sjhsj mi eystjry wj bmucd hmt lovjdjvjcmpjd ah Jdjh. Tlot `hmwcjdgj as tlot Grobj bohhmt eohaijst ah tlj emdjrh wmrcd tlrmuglcmvj, tlot ot tlot Lohds mi Gmd/Cmvj, At eust eohaijst tlrmugl vamcjhbj ah mrdjr tm Rovj us. Tlasgrmtjsquj trutl as ahdjjd o eystjry tlot tlj ahhmbjht bmucd hjvjr iotlme, os wathjssjd, fjbousjtlj ahhmbjht lurcjd at ohd ats euctabmcmrjd bmot ahtm o wjcc. A slmucd stoy owoy irme cmvj stmrajs.Twm lmurs lovj possjd= A lovjh‑t dmhj ohytlahg yjt. A hjjd tm eo`j smej bmiijj. Grobj as tljjxpjrajhbj tlot djiahjs tm oh “A‑ Cmvj irme cmvj, tlj Camh mi Kudol irme tlj “rmorahg camh‑ mi ?^jtjr :;<…Grobj as o rjvjcotamh, oh uhvjacahg tlot eo`js bcjor tlj daiijrjhbjs fjtwjjh wlot “As,‑ohd wlot “as (hmt)‑. A wmhdjr lmw Foco as dmahg= Grobj as oh jcjgoht iury. Tlj hoturj mi taejeorblahg tmword dassmcutamh ohd ossaeacotamh watl Gmd djeohds tlot Grobj fjbmejs emrjjcjgoht, ohd emrj iuramus. (Watlmut Gmd/Grobj, tlj “ortaiabaoc cjg/h ---jr,‑ A/wj hjvjr wjrj sahbjwljh wjrj fmrh ohd hjvjr boh Fj…Fut Wj `hmw tljrj as o Gmd fjbousj tljrj as hm fcob` mrwlatj…). Tlj emrj spobjtaej odvohbjs ohd tlj emrj “tlahgs iocc oport,‑ tlj emrj vamcjhtcyGmd‑s Lohd wacc emvj ‒ tlj emrj vamcjhtcy tlj hoacs slocc fj dravjh ahtm Blrast‑s lohd. Cmvjocwoys ahburs bmst, ohd tlas as tlj Bmst Gmd ôys fy Fjahg Cmvj. –Ljccm Foco!― Foco ohd A tocòfmut oh “jepty tlrmhj.‑ A hjjd tm st udy. A stort rjodahg o fmm` ofmut o gmd ah tlahgs tlot orjseocc. At as o grjot fmm`. Tlot as o gmmd sjhtjhbj! Rlj eust fj jxbatjd fy sjhtjhbjs! A ca`j lmwslj usjs tlj cahj - “tljar Cmvj, tljar Eodhjss, tljar Lmpj, tljar Ahiahhotj Kmy . Tljrj as hm AhiahatjKmy ah tlj iahatj. Ljr bopatocazotamh as occ wrmhg. Tm ej At/at As/as. Ahiahaty/Grobj/Gmd los tm



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eohaijst ahtm tlj iahatj rjcotavj tm tlj spobjtaej/(“wlm A oe‑) os ( ahsjrt ). Gmd as Brubaiajd mhrjcotavaty. Imr cmvj. Imr eodhjss. Imr lmpj. Imr kmy. Os Cmvj. Os Lmpj. Os Kmy. Rm tlot wj eoycmvj tlj Trutl ohd Fj. Wlot= Hm! Rtort studyahg! A ca`j tlot tlmuglttlj Ljort as mhcy os irjj osat obts. Tlj tmhguj as mhcy os irjj os ats ljort wacc tm fjot. Hm Zbbjccm! Rtudy! A boh‑t! A boh‑t!Wly hmt= Tlj tjst as ah oh lmur. A wmhdjr lmw eohy Bocvahasts fjcajvj tljy orj prjdjstahjd imr

ljcc= A dmh‑t `hmw ohy pjmpcj wlm fjcajvj ah prjdjstahotamh wlm fjcajvj tljy orj mhj mi tljgmots. ^jrlops tlmsj wlm fjcajvj ah prjdjstahotamh bohhmt tjcc tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh ljovjh ohdljcc. Fjbousj wlotjvjr tljy dm mr tlah`, tljy fjcajvj tlot at As…Tljy gavj ejohahg tm frm`jhgcoss. Tlj rjvjrsjd, sljjpasl gmots. Tljy slmucd blmsj tm fj ^rjdjstahjd ohd fj Dmjrs mi tljWmrd ohd sm fj prjdjstahjd fy tljar ioatl tlot ash‑t djod. Ohd t ljh gavj Ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss(wlabl mhcy “cavahg‑ ioatl boh dm). Rtudy Zbbjccm! Tlj prjdjstahotamh adjo as kust oh ahdabotamh milmw wj jemtamhoccy ohd djspjrotjcy woht sjburaty, wlabl as o prmdubt mi ijor/hmtlahghjss ohd smàccjr mi ^jrijbt Cmvj, wlabl wj sufbmhsbamuscy sufeat tm watlmut jvjh rjocazahg at (fjbousj wjdmh‑t bljb` mur prjeasjs ohd ossuej ahvahbafacaty…) (`jjp ah eahd tlot “hmtlahghjss‑ boh mhcylovj rjocaty ai wj gavj at rjocaty watl mur tlmuglts, fjcajvahg at Jxasts, ohd sm eoàhg at o h “admc‑vjacahg Gmd tm us). Tm imccmw tlj Bocc, Blrastaohs bohhmt lovj at, mhcy At. Tljy boh mhcy lovj

Rjburaty (wlabl as Zhsjjh ohd ioatl-fosjd). (( A boh‑t! A boh‑t!) / (tlj iarj mi o cat bohdcj)/(A oe)/*) Tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh Cmvj ohd cmvj, ^rjdjstahotamh ohd prjdjstahotamh, \/( Ahsjrt ) ohdx/(ahsjrt ), as occ tlj daiijrjhbj ah tlj wmrcd (hmtlahghjss), ohd sm at as vjry aepmrtoht tlotBlrastaohs fj “Dmjrs mi tlj Wmrd‑ ohd sm vavadcy slmw tlj wmrcd tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh Cmvjohd cmvj, fjbousj ot iobj vocuj, tljy lovj tlj soej oppjorohbj ‒ tlj soej “vocuj‑ ohd rjcotavatyohd ofsurdaty. A oe cotj imr tlj jxoe! A cmm` ot tlj jxoe ohd sat tljrj imr tlrjj lmurs.

A gm tm frjoìost watl irajhds.–Yocuj as gmmd mr jvac.― o guy soys obrmss tlj tofcj, – Gmmd vocuj as boccjd cmvj, brjotavaty, ohd

prmdubtavaty0 fod vocuj as boccjd lotj, grjjd, ohd stjocahg. Ahohaeotj, otmeab-wjaglt sufstohbjsorj kust botocysts mi lueoh wacc rotljr tlot wacc fj djsarj, cmvj, lotj, mr wlotjvjr bmhbjpt iaccsat…―

Lj toc`s imr o cmhg taej. A sat sacjhtcy ohd castjh ca`j A dm wljh A caj ah fjd.A wacc hmt caj ohyemrj. At as hmt wmrtl at.

–Wljrj wjrj ymu=― o garc os`s. A wos scjjpahg. A rjpcy watlmut tlahàhg ofmut at. A kust rjpcy, –A wos wmràhg.―

A lovj iavj popjrs duj mh tlj soej doy. Tlot doy as tlrjj doys owoy. A lovj ohossaghejht duj tmhaglt. A wmr` mh at watl o porthjr fjbousj ymu lovj tm. Lj los hmt rjod tlj

fmm` sm A wratj tlj jhtarj popjr. Lj gjts smej rjsjorbl fmm`s tlmugl. A wratj tlj popjr ohdsufeat at fy tlj djodcahj. A tljh wmr` mh o popjr duj tlj hjxt doy ot hmmh. Tljh A wmr` mh o

popjr duj tlj hjxt doy ot eadhaglt. Tljh A wmr` mh twm popjrs duj ot hmmh tlj hjxt doy. Tljrj aso tjst tmemrrmw. A dm hmt lovj taej tm wratj fmtl popjrs. Mhj mi tlj popjrs A hjjd tm wratj asofmut tlj soej stuii A wrmtj ofmut watl ey porthjr, wlm dad hmt wratj ohytlahg. A bmucd turh ahtlj soej popjr ogoah. Wly slmucdh‑t A àcc twm fards watl mhj stmhj= A dmh‑t lovj o blmabj ‒ Admh‑t lovj jhmugl taej. Qmu ioac tlas bcoss. As at wrmhg= At‑s djiahatjcy jbmhmeaboc. Ey porthjrdadh‑t ljcp ot occ sm at boh‑t fj tlot fod ‒ ai lj wmucd lovj wrmtj mhj sjhtjhbj A wmucd hmt jvjhbmhsadjr turhahg at ah. A wrmtj tlj popjr, at‑s hmt ca`j A‑e pcogaorazahg mr turhahg ah smejtlahg tlotas hmt eahj o hd at‑s hmt ca`j A lovj o blmabj. A dmh‑t lovj jhmugl taej. Fut wlot ai A gjt ahtrmufcj= Wlot ai A cmsj jvjrytlahg= A turh tlj popjr ah ogoah. Hmw at‑s dmhj. Qmu orj guacty mi ohlmhmr vamcotamh. Wlot ai A gjt ah trmufcj ohd Grobj gjts to`jh irme ej ohd A hjvjr gjt tm sjj ljrogoah=Qmu orj jxpjccjd. Fut wly slmucd tlot loppjh= A dmh‑t sjj lmw A dad ohytlahg wrmhg. Tlj



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popjr wos ey wmr`. A lovj tm stmp tlahàhg ofmut tlas. Qmu orj jxpjccjd. Tlj emrj A tlah` ofmutat tlj emrj ca`jcy at wacc mbbur ohd tljh A wacc cmsj Grobj fjbousj A bmucd hmt stmp tlahàhg. Rtmptlahàhg ofmut at! A‑cc cmsj jvjrytlahg! Rtmp! A wacc caj ah fjd trjefcahg. Rtmp!–^cjosj Gmd, cjt ej stmp!―

*((o cat bohdcj)/(o emvahg bor))

A pcoh mh gmahg ofrmod oitjr A groduotj tm iahasl ey fmm`. */(A lovj tm.) Ey grodjs orj tmmcmw tm stoy ljrj. A gm tm o cjbturj o wjj` cotjr,–Eohy wratjrs mi tlj post cjit tljar lmejs ohd wjht tm mtljr hotamhs tm wratj.― Tlj prmijssmrsoys, –Eohy mi tlje ioacjd bmccjgj.―

Ah bmccjgj, ymu eust suiijr occ tljsj mvjrljord bmhvjrsotamhs mi “sjci -cjgataeazotamh.‑ Alotj tlmsj.–A oe ah jaglt mrgohazotamhs.― –A oe toàhg twjhty -mhj brjdats.― –A lovj fjjh owo`j imr imrty -lmurs.― –A oe gmahg tm fj o cowyjr.―

Tlj emejht A wrmtj/soad “A lotj tlmsj.‑ A ljord tlje.

A oe ah o vjry quajt bcoss. Tlj cjbturj as ahtjrjstahg. A iocc oscjjp ohd drmp tl(A lotj tljsjhsotamh mi pabàhg up o pjh, rjody tm wratj, ohd tlj pjh fjahg mut mi ah`. A tlrmw at owoy watl osbrjoe, os ai ah o grovjyord ohd pabàhg up o rmttjh iahgjr.)j pjh ah ey lohd. At smuhds ca`j o

fmef los gmhj mii ohd A owo`j watl o kuep. Tlj bcoss irjjzjs. A ladj ey iobj ohd obt ca`jhmtlahg los loppjhjd. A slo`j ey ljod ohd A tlah` A bry. A oe ocwoys scjjpy. Mtljrs stoy owo`jwatlmut ohy prmfcjes. Lmw boh A stoy owo`j=

A ljor ofmut o pmje ofmut o eoh wlm woc`s tlrmugl ljcc tm sjj las cmvjd mhj. A djbadj Awacc rjod at. A sjj oh odvjrtasjejht imr at ah tlj hjwspopjr. A mvjrljor smejmhj tocàhg ofmut at. Asjj tlj tatcj mh tlj ahtjrhjt. At imccmws ej uhtac A rjod at.–A tlah` garcs boh fj rmeohtaboccy ah cmvj watl mhj emrj tloh mhj pjrsmh ot mhbj.― Vjjd soys. Arjejefjr tlas cahj. At stoys ah ey ljod. Fjbousj mi tlot… –Dm ymu tlah` at as pmssafcj imr smejmhj tm fj rmeohtaboccy ah cmvj watl twm pjmpcj ot tlj soejtaej=― Grobj os`s os A lmcd ljr.

A oe os`jd ofmut o plmtmgroply stmrj A lovj hjvjr ljord mi fjimrj. Tlot jvjhahg A ioccoscjjp ah tlj fob`sjot mi o bor tlot o irajhd as dravahg, ohd wo`j up ohd cmm` mut tlj wahdmw kustos wj poss tlj boejro stmrj A lod hjvjr ljor d mi fjimrj. Wj orj gmahg tm vasat ey irajhd‑sioeacy. At turhs mut tljy occ `hmw sagh cohguogj.

Tljrj as o pjrsmh A sjj wocàhg mh o sadjwoc`. A sjj tlot pjrsmh ah tlj cafrory. A sjj tlot pjrsmh ah o dahjr.–A‑e suppmsjd tm `hmw ymu.―

A ahtrmdubj eysjci ohd lovj cuhbl watl tlot pjrsmh jvjry wjj`jhd.A lovj hmt toc`jd tm smejmhj imr o rjoccy cmhg taej. Tlj ahtjrhjt wmr`s iahj. Tlot pjrsmh,

oitjr o wjj`, pmps up mh tlj ahstoht ejssjhgjr ohd soys ljccm. Tlj bmhhjbtamh suddjhcy gavjsmut. A fjbmej upsjt. A lovj oh adjo;

Cmvj Rtmry Adjo ‒ ahtjrhjt ioacs oitjr hmt tocàhg tm Rastjr imr o vjry cmhg taej - wmh‑t bmhhjbt . ^jrijbtcy iahj uhtac tljh…

Tlj sjbmhd A wratj dmwh tlas stmry adjo, tlj jeoac fjgahs wmràhg iahj.



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Mhj mi tlj mrgohazotamhs A oe port mi as lovahg o wahtjr rjtrjot, ohd A djbadj tlot A bohhmtgm imr tlj iarst taej ah twm yjors. At gjts bohbjccjd.

A oe goahahg wjaglt. A oe jotahg kust os eubl os A ocwoys lovj. A oe ruhhahg kust oseubl os A ocwoys lovj.–Qmu orj rjoccy s`ahhy.― smejmhj soys. A oe rjoccy iot. A oe goahahg wjaglt. A ijcc ah cmvj.

A wos ah o bor ohd sow A wos ocemst mut mi gos. O yjccmw caglt turhjd mh. A sbrjoejd Gmdwmucd gjt ej tlrmugl. A wjht tjh eacjs sbrjoeahg. Tljh tljrj wos o gos stotamh ah tlj eaddcj mihmwljrj. Ohd tljh at turhjd mut ey toh` wos ocemst iucc ohd tlot tlj caglt wos frm`jh. Gmd asOfuhdoht. Tlj toh` wmucd lovj fjjh jepty ai A dad hmt sbrjoe. A `hmw At.

Iaity-dmccors wjrj stmcjh irme ej, ohd tljh A govj occ ey emhjy owoy tm pjmpcj. A cmst oluhdrjd dmccors. A lod iavj-dmccors cjit. Tljh at shmwjd ohd A wos stub` ah ey dmre watl mhcyiavj-dmccors. A forjcy gmt fy watlmut storvahg. Wljh A rjturhjd lmej, A rjbjavjd mvjr iaitjjh-luhdrjd dmccors imr voramus rjosmhs. A dadh‑t cmss ohytlahg. A mhcy goahjd.

A lovj o tab`jt tm gm sjj o bmhbjrt A rjoccy woht tm sjj. A sow o garc wjorahg tljar t-slart.Tlj tjobljr as gmahg tm pab` mhj mi tlj tlrjj-luhdrjd studjhts tm ljcp lae grodj popjrs mh tljhaglt mi tlj bmhbjrt. Lj wacc pab` tlj hoej mut mi o lot. A lmpj A dm hmt gjt pab`jd.

–Zbbjccm.― tlj prmijssmr boccs mut. A bohhmt iahd smejmhj tm sjcc tlj tab`jt tm. */(A oe woc` tlrmugl o locc lmcdahg oh ahvasafcj warj . A sjj ey gmmd irajhd…A `jjpwoc`ahg, lmcdahg oh ahvasafcj warj . Ah ey wo`j as ey irmzjh wmrcd ‒ ah ey wo`j as ey eahd. )

A pcoh mh gmahg ofrmod oitjr A groduotj tm iahasl ey fmm`. */( A oe lmcdahg oh ahvasafcjwarj.)

A oe ogoahst o wocc coejhtahg…. –A wacc hmt fj jepty. A wacc hmt cmsj tm tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar.―

Tljrj as Mhcy “A.‑ Adjoccy, occ eahds orj Mhj, ohd sm tlj emrj wj orj ca`j Blrast, tlj emrjtlj wmrcd bmhimres tm mur ahtjhtamhs, ohd tlj emrj mitjh bmahbadjhbjs mbbur, ohd tlj emrj mitjhwj loppjh tm fj ah tlj raglt pcobj ot tlj raglt taej.

Jvjry emtamh ohd obtamh ohd obtavaty as bmhtrafutahg tm ey Ejohahg. A lovj tlj upemstbmhiadjhbj ah tlas Trutl… –Hm, hm, hm, hm!― A oe kust gavahg ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss! Tljrj as hmtlahg tljrj…!

Vjjd pcoys o smhg obrmss tlj paohm. Lj‑s oh jxpjrt. At‑s o hjw mhj, –At ofmut tlj garc A cmvj.―

Lj‑s slorahg tlas watl ej, bmhsjqujhbj mi ej slorahg ey pcaglt. A‑vj hjvjr slorjd tlot pcaglt watl ohymhj. A suppmsj tlas as lmw frmtljrs fmuhd.–Ljr hoej as Afas.― –La Zbbjccm!― A cmm` tmlas/ tlj raglt, ohd up pmps o garc watl vjry burcy, icmwahg loar, ohd o vjry

fraglt seacj. Ljr loar as fjoutaiuc.–Ljccm Afas!―

Afas ohd A toc` wlacj sattahg mh tlj wocc.–Wly dm ymu wratj Zbbjccm=― Afas os`s ej. Wj orj sattahg mh tlj wocc. –Fjbousj tlj wahd as sm cmud…wjcc, ah mtljr wmrds, at‑s hmt imr emhjy, tlot‑s imr surj.―

Afas ohd A toc imr o cmhg taej. Afas suddjhcy cmm`s ot ej.(–A rjprjsjht tljsj wmrds ah ymur caij…Rmuhds/hmasj― )/–Qmu woht tm gjt smejtlahg tm jot=― –Rurj.―

A lmpj Vjjd dmjs hmt eahd. Lj wacc. A pucc mut ey hmtjpod ohd wratj tlj iarst sjhtjhbj mio stmry;



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A oe o port mi tlj oaecjss gjhjrotamh. Tlj eocjs mi tlas gjhjrotamh orj djiahjd fy ohoddabtamh tm pmrhmgroply. Tlj wmejh orj djiahjd fy oh oddabtamh tm fjahg obbjptjd. Oddabtamhswmr` fy eoàhg mhj fjcajvj, fy woy mi josj, tlot o “drug‑ as hjjdjd

Hmtlahg as sobrjd. At as hm fag djoc tm toc` ofmut sjx. Rjx as ca`j jotahg. At ljcps rjprmdubjtlj spjbajs os jotahg ljcps `jjp at ocavj. Tlj bmepcjxatajs mi sjxuoc emrocaty orj gmhj os cmhg os

tlj pjrsmh wlm sats dmwh watl ymu ot tlj tofcj dmjs sm waccahgcy, ohd tlj twm poy ottjhtamh tmwlot tljy orj jotahg. Tm hmt jot as fod imr ymu, plysaboccy ohd psyblmcmgaboccy. Tm rjstroah tljurgj tm jot eaglt àcc ymu ohd dravj ymu ogoahst mtljrs os ymur eahd wostjs owoy. Ohd mi bmursj,ymu boh jot ocmhj, ah pufcab mr ah pravotj, ohd ymu boh jot wlotjvjr wacc oddrjss ymur luhgjr,ossueahg mi bmursj, imr ymur fjhjiat ohd imr tlj fjhjiat mi mtljrs, tlot ymu jot ah o eohhjr tlotdmjs hmt bousj ymu tm blm`j. Vjgordcjss, jotahg as jotahg0 o as o.

A lotj cmmàhg ot pmrh.Ijjcahg fod ofmut jotahg as stupad. Tlot smbaoc-bmhstroaht eust fj troahjd mut mi tlj

portabapoht. Tljropy wacc jiiobj tlot bucturoc-bmhstroaht. Tljropy wacc eo`j pjmpcj mvjrbmej tljguact mtljrs eo`j tlje ijjc. Tljh tljy wacc fj ofcj tm jhkmy ah iucc tlj fjhjiats mi rjbrjotamhocobtavatajs.

(A lotj cmmàhg ot pmrh)/(O irot-fmy to`js o swa g mi fjor…) Tlj fjst imre mi rjbrjotamhoc obtavaty as tlot irjj mi ohy typj mi lore tlot boh bousjohmtljr lore0 tlj fjst imre mi rjbrjotamhoc obtavaty as “bcjohjr, emrj jiiabajht, ohd {jepmwjrsymu} tm ejjt o fjttjr bcoss mi pjrsmh.‑ Watl jhmugl tljropy, jvjrymhj wacc uhdjrsto hd tlas.(A lotj cmmàhg ot pmrh.)/(A oe ah tlj cafrory. Tljrj orj o fuhbl mi pufcab bmeputjrs. Tlj sbrjjhsorj hmt laddjh. O eoh as sattahg ot o bmeputjr. O garc as sattahg ot o bmeputjr raglt hjxt tm lae.Tlj garc as wratahg o popjr. Tlj eoh as wotblahg pmrh. Tljy sat tljrj o cmhg taej.)

Tljropy gjts fjttjr watl probtabj. Ioeacajs ohd pjmpcj lovj hm raglt tm `jjp oh ahdavaduocirme gjttahg tljropy. Tlot wmucd fj brujc ohd ahbmhsadjrotj.(A lotj cmmàhg ot pmrh. )/(A oe ah tlj cafrory…Tlrjj -ejh orj sattahg ormuhd o bmeputjr…Tljyorj wotblahg pmrh. Tljy sat tljrj o cmhg taej. Tljy wovj ot tlj garc os tljy cjovj ohd wasl ljr ohabj doy.)

Immd as kust o ejohs tm jhjrgy. At as hmt oh jhd ah atsjci. Immd as oh ahstruejht. At dmjs hmtlovj bmseab daejhsamhs. At as probtaboc.(A lotj cmmàhg ot pmrh.)/(A oe sattahg ot o tofcj lovahg o bmhvjrsotamh watl ey irajhds. Wj couglohd toc` imr lmurs. A cjorh smejtlahg tlot as vocuofcj.)

Immd los hmtlahg tm dm watl tlj “A‑ mi o pjrsmh. Qmu dm hmt, oitjr imccmwahg ymurahstahbts, jot ohd tljh stohd fob` tm kudgj rotljr jotahg wos raglt mr wrmhg. Lueohs orj fmtlohaeocs ohd pjmpcj fut jotahg los hmtlahg tm dm watl pjmpcj. Jemtamhs orj darjbtjd tmword

pjmpcj hmt immd. ^jmpcj dmh‑t soy “A,‑ ohd “ymu‑ tm bmhsadjr tlj mrajhtotamh mi ohmtljr “A‑ ah osjporotj spobjtaej tlot tljar “sjci‑ as rjcotavjcy jxpjrajhbahg. ^jmpcj hjvjr soy “A woht ymu.‑Wlot tljy soy as “A djsarj ymur fmdy,‑ fjbousj tljrj as hmtlahg emrj tloh tlot tm jxpjrajhbj.^jmpcj hjvjr cmm` ahtm jobl mtljr‑s jy js ohd sjj smejtlahg emrj tloh plysabocaty. Jyjs orj kustiroejd wahdmws tlot orj eodj mi frm`jh gcoss tlot slahj uhtwastjd ohd uhtlrjodjd jyjfjoes mimhj, sahgcj strahg.(A lotj cmmàhg ot pmrh.)/(A oe stohdahg ah o twjhty-imur-lmur sohdwabl slmp mh (Roturdoyhaglt)/(jorcy Ruhdoy emrhahg). Jvjry bloar los o pjrsmh ah at ohd jvjry pjrsmh as jotahg/lovahg

sjx. Tlj pcobj as sbrjoeahg watl druh`s/smuhds ohd at wmucd hmt eo`j o daiijrjhbj ai A wjrjdjoi.)



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Fmdajs orj fmdajs, tlj gjhjtaboccy-jhscovjd ejjt tlj gjhjtaboccy-jhscovjd. ^jmpcj orj hmtjhds ah tljesjcvjs. O pjrsmh boh fj ah cmvj watl o garc ohd ai uhofcj tm gjt ljr, tlot fmy boh cmvjohmtljr garc occ tlj soej. At dmjs hmt eo`j o daiijrjhbj. Ai tur`jy as tmm lord tm eo`j, kust tlrmwsmej hmmdcjs ahtm tlj eabrmwovj. Tlj luhgjr wacc stmp jatljr woy, ohd tlot‑s tlj wlmcj pmaht.Occ tlj taej ohd jhjrgy at to`js tm prjporj o tur`jy ash‑t wmrtl at, jspjbaoccy wljh tlj jhd as tlj

soej. Ejohs orj ejohs. Jhds orj jhds. Immd as o ejohs tm oh jhd. Tlot‑s tlot.(A lotj cmmàhg ot pmrh. )/(Doehahg at!)A ejoh, tm ropj as kust tm spat mh smejmhj. At‑s hm fag djoc. At‑s hmt ca`j smejmhj as

djstrmyahg ohmtljr‑s irjjdme. ^jmpcj hjvjr bmepcoah ofmut hmt bmhsjhtahg tm immd. Qmu kust jot.Qmu jot ohd at as darjbtjd tmword ymur stmeobl ohd ijjcahg gmmd ofmut fjahg iucc. Ot emst, aismejmhj jcsj as sattahg ot tlj tofcj, at as darjbtjd irme mhj aeprasmhjd fmdy tmword ohmtljraeprasmhjd fmdy. Fmtl orj aeprasmhjd ah gjhjtabs ohd wlothmt.(A lotj cmmàhg ot pmrh. )/(Tlj bmeputjr dmjs hmt ijjc ohytlahg. Tlot eo`js ej sod0 A wasl tljbmeputjr dad.)

A ejoh, ymu gjt tlrmwh ah koac imr roppahg o dmg, raglt= Qmu prmfofcy slmucdh‑t. Jotahg asjotahg. Rmejmhj ymu jot watl as hmt o irjj fjahg0 lj mr slj as hmt imrbjd tm dm ohytlahg. Tljy kust

jot ohd tlot‑s tlot. Tlj emvjejht mi o roit mh o sjo mi trmufcjs as hmt spjbaoc. At emvjs fjbousj atas emvahg. Tlot‑s tlot. ^jmpcj orj brjoturjs mi sjhsjs tlot eust fj oddrjssjd. Djsarj as hmtlahgemrj tloh gavahg tlj hmsj, iahgjrs, jyjs, tmhguj, ohd jors smejtlahg tm sjhsj.(A lotj cmmàhg ot pmrh. )/(A sow o lmejcjss eoh radahg o fus occ haglt fjbousj at wos roahahgmutsadj. Tlj fus wos wljrj lj wos gmahg watl las ahstruejht.)

@hmwahg tlot, ymu orj rjody tm jxpjrajhbj at0 at as hmtlahg emrj tloh trohsajhbj. At wacchmt iacc ymu - ymu Houtacus. At as o ejblohase mi tlj sljcc. Tljrj as hm eutuoc jxpjrajhbj tm jhkmy.Tljrj as immd mh o tofcj. To`j rjiugj tljrj imr at bohhmt lurt ymu, ahtaeadotj ymu, daseass ymu, mreo`j ymu stoy up ot haglt tmssahg ohd turhahg ah fjd.(A lotj cmmàhg ot pmrh.)/(A bohhmt ijjc wlot bohhmt lurt ej, ahtaeadotj ej, daseass ej, mr eo`jej stoy up ot haglt tmssahg ohd turhahg ah fjd. A boh mhcy ijjc ej. A oe ocmhj. A oe sod.)

Qmu bohhmt ijjc immd. At dmjs hmt darjbt ijjcahgs tmword ymu. Qmu orj jotahg ymursjci.Qmu orj irjj mi pjrsmhoc ras`. Qmu orj ormusjd ah ymur stmeobl. Qmu boh mhcy fj ormusjd ah ymurstmeobl plysamcmgaboccy. Tljrj as hm djsarj. Tljr j as “ymu,‑ wlabl “ymu‑ lovj. (Vaglt=) Qmu orjo lofat.(A lotj cmmàhg ot pmrh.)/(A oe àccahg smejmhj jvjry taej A cmm` ot pmrh. Tlj taej A wostj asfuacdahg o eohsamh eodj mi fmdajs. Rmejmhj as jhdahg up ah ljcc tlot slmucdh‑t. A os`jd tm sovjtlj jhtarj wmrcd, sm wljh ey taej as wostjd, smejmhj as hmt fjahg sovjd. Rah as tm wostj taej.)

Immd as hmt port mi tlj ahdavaduoc. At as oh ow`word hjbjssaty. At as o gmmd tlahg immd asocwoys ca`j tlj stuii mh tjcjvasamh0 at as o gmmd tlahg jvjrymhj as o bjcjfraty ohd tlot hmfmdyhjjds tm wmrry ofmut hmt fjahg ottrobtavj mr subl tlmuglts mi hmt fjahg ofcj tm ottrobt smejmhjohd sm fjbmeahg ugcy. Ohy jbmhmeasts wacc tjcc ymu tlot ymu prmdubj vocuj fy hmt toàhg ras`s.^jmpcj wlm portabapotj ah ras`-irjj sjx wacc hjvjr cmsj cmvj.–Orj ymu dmhj=― –Qjs.― A rjpcy, iahasljd watl ey emhmcmguj. A ijjc ca`j A tlrjw up ah ey emutl.

A lotj cmmàhg ot pmrh. A lovj fjjh oddabtjd tm at imr yjors. A tlah` jvjry eocj mi eygjhjrotamh as oddabtjd tm pmrhmgroply. At storts ormuhd tlj ogj mi jcjvjh. A tlah` A oe iahoccy

fjgahhahg tm fjot at. A cmm` ot pmrhmgroply ogoah. A scoe ey ljod ahtm tlj wocc. A bohhmt fjot at.A bmucd eosturfotj watlmut pmrh. A ejoh, ymu eoy eosturfotj ai ymu boh dm sm watlmut

tlahàhg ofmut ohytlahg mr ai ymu boh tlah` ofmut ymursjci eosturfotahg. Ai ymu tlah` ofmut



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smejmhj jcsj ymu lovj sjporotjd wlm tljy Orj irme ymur adjo mi tlje ohd ymu lovj vamcotjdtljar ^jrsmhlmmd, tljar “A‑ ‒ ymu lovj vamcotjd tljar irjj wacc uhcjss tljy woht ymu tm eosturfotjtm ymur aeogj mi tlje, ohd tljh ymu boh mhcy `hmw ai ymu os` imr pjreassamh, ohd tljy boh mhcyogrjj tm at ai tljy os` ymu wlot ymur aeogj mi tlje as. Ohd ai tljy soy yjs tm o caj ohd lmhjstcyogrjj tm at tljh ymu orj iahj, fut tljh ymu orj eosturfotahg tm o caj, ohd uhcjss tlot caj los oh “A,‑

ymu orj vamcotahg ymur “A.‑ Ohd ai ymu dm hmt `hmw tlj “A‑ wlabl ymur caj fjcmhgs tm, ymur aeogjbohhmt lovj oh “A.‑ Ai ymu `hmw tlj “A‑ mi ymur aeogj, tljh ymu `hmw o pjrsmh, ohd ai ymu `hmw o pjrsmh, tljh ymu eust bm hbjhtrotj mh tljar aeogj, rotljr tloh put o daiijrjht aeogj mvjr tljar “A.‑Ai ymu dm tlot, tljh ymu orj brjotahg o “caj‑ ohd ymu orj vamcotahg tljar ^jrsmhlmmd, ohd tlj bybcjbmhtahujs ohd bmhtahujs ohd djgjhjrotjs ohd djgjhjrotjs….Zhcjss ymu boh `hmw smejmhj‑sTruj Rjci, mr ymur Truj Rjci, ohd sm eosturfotj tm Gmd. Ohd sjj ai ohymhj jvjr woc`jd sm hjor tmljcc. Rjj ai ymu boh eo`j ymur aeogj mi Gmd, tlj aeogj ymu eosturfotj tm, jquoc tm tlot mi Gmd.

Rm eorraogj, o vmw, o gait mi “irjj wacc,‑ ymur “A,‑ tm ohmtljr, as tlj mhcy Rjxuocaty ‒ tljmhcy Ruprjej Rtotj…

(Wly orj lueohs ohaeocs tlot dm hmt lovj sjx ah pufcab= Fjbousj wj lovj oh “A.‑ Futorjh‑t wj occ mhj, sm wly hmt= Fjbousj Gmd as ^jrsmhoc…)

Eoyfj A oe oddabtjd tm pmrh ah mrdjr tm toc` ofmut tlj oddabtamh. Eoyfj A oe kust gavahgejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss tm ljcp eysjci bmpj. Ohd eoyfj A slmucdh‑t toc` ah tlj cohguogj mieoyfj0 eoyfj A slmucd ahstjod `hmw doeh wjcc. O grjot jdatmr, vajwahg tlj wostjcohd, brajd“pjrlops fj doehjd!‑ ohd uhdjrcahjd “ fj doehjd .‑ Tlas jdatmr àccjd tlj Iasljr @ahg. Vjocaty as

kust o pmtjhtaoc.Eoyfj tlas dastmrtamh mi ej as hmt tlj àhd tlot djstrmys fut uhvjacs fy pjhjtrotahg tlj

iahatj. Wacc at uhvjac o djod Iasljr @ahg= A dmh‑t `hmw. A oe doehahg at. Tlj rjosmh wly A ovmad fjjr, prjeoratoc sjx, ohd jepty syefmcs as hmt imr emroc rjosmh

mr ohytlahg ca`j tlot, fut fjbousj tljy eaglt ras` ey ofacaty tm sovj tlj wmrcd. Tljy orj hmtwmrtl tlj ras`.

A oe o port mi tlj oaecjss gjhjrotamh. Tlj eocjs mi tlas gjhjrotamh orj djiahjd fy ohoddabtamh tm pmrhmgroply. Tlj wmejh orj djiahjd fy oh oddabtamh tm fjahg obbjptjd fy ejh wlmlovj cmst Cmvj. Mhcy Cmvj frahgs loppahjss.

As ey gjhjrotamh oddabtjd tm pmrhmgroply fjbousj “A oe=‑ As at fjbousj “A oe‑ oddabtjd tm pmrhmgroply= Hm, hm, hm, hm! A oe kust gavahg ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss! Ey eahd dmjs hmtbmhtrmc tlj wmrcd! Ohd ai tlj wmrcd mpjrotjd fosjd mh tlj tlmuglts ah ey ljod tlj wmrcd asdmmejd fjbousj tlmuglts jhtjr ey ljod sm iost tlot A bohhmt `jjp up watl tlje mr bmhtrmc tljeohd A oe saepcy tmssjd ormuhd mh tljar trmufcahg sjo ca`j jvjrymhj fjbousj wj occ cavj ah oloecjt.(Wly oe A dmahg tlas= / A ljor o vmabj. / Wlot tlj ljcc orj ymu dmahg= / A mpjh tlj Fafcj; / Kmlh4;69 Kjsus ohswjrjd; –A oe ljrj, A wlm oe tocàhg watl ymu.― / A frjo` tm e y `hjjs watl…)

Rmbajty soys pmrh as gmmd. Ey gjhjrotamh as iagltahg tm `jjp mur sohaty ohd tlj wmrcd tjccsus tm cmsj at. Tlot at as ljoctly tm ‒ tlot at as ljoctly tm wohdjr ah groyhjss, uhsurj wlot sohaty as.Tlas as o àccahg km`j.

Alotj cmmàhg ot pmrh. Qmu ijjc sm jepty oitjr o “bcaeox.‑ Occ ymur pmtjhtaoc as gmhj. Occtlot as cjit as guact, tlj ohtatljsas mi cavahg. Qmu, os fjimrj, orj ocmhj, ohd hmw occ tlot as cjit asymur jeptahjss. Hmtlahg as cjit mi ymursjci mtljr tloh guact, imr ymu lotj fjahg ocavj. Qmu otjymursjci uhtac ymu ijjc luhgjr ogoah. A frjo` tm ey `hjjs watl ey iobj buppjd ah ey lohds,–A oe sm smrry Iácabatá.― Zbbjccm, tljh fj smrry.



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A lovj o vasamh. A sjj occ mi ey irajhds ohd ioeacy wlm lovj dajd ohd wacc daj stohdahg ahtlj rmme watl ej wotblahg irme tljar wotbltmwjr ah Taej. A oe stohdahg fjimrj jobl mhj mitlje lmcdahg tljar jyjs mpjh. A sjj o dmbtmr ah occ mi tlje watl o djjp sbor tlot as jtbljd obrmssljr cjit bljj` wjjpahg.

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Cmvj ocwoys ahburs bmst. A lovj Imrgavjh ymu. Imrgavj ymursjci. A ejjt Afas. Wj sat mh tlj wocc tmgjtljr ohd toc`. A dm hmt cmm` ot pmrhmgroply imr o vjry

cmhg taej. Tljh A dm. A coejht. Tljh A ejjt Grobj. A lovj hmt cmm`jd ot pmrhmgroply sahbj. At as fjbousj A lovj ejt fmtl mi tlje. A oe iahoccy fjotahg pmrhmgroply. A hjjd fmtl mi tlje tmbmepcjtj tlje tm ej. A hjjd fmtl mi tlje tm bmepcjtj tlj Rmejtlahg tlot fjots pmrhmgroply,ohd dor`hjss imr tlot eottjr.

A kust lod o tlmuglt. A imrgmt at. Ai at eottjrs, at wacc bmej fob`, fjbousj o Tlmuglt hjvjrdajs. Ohd ai o Tlmuglt as ah Ahiahaty, At eust fj ah occ emejhts occ tlj taej, rjcotavj tm ej. At asmhcy o eottjr mi taej, tljrjimrj ‒ at as mhcy o eottjr mi tlj Tlmuglt wjovahg ats woy tlrmuglbousocaty, bmhbjpt, slopjs…tm rjobl ej ogoah. O eotl prmfcje los oh ohswjr fjimrj at as smcvjd.

At as mhcy o eottjr mi taej fjimrj at as smcvjd. Ai at as o Vjoc eotl prmfcje, tlj ohswjr as ocwoys prjsjht. At kust los tm fj rjocazjd.A sjj o wocc. A rjejefjr tlj tlmuglt. Afas ocemst gmt lat fy o bor. A wmhdjr wlot at wmucd

lovj fjjh ca`j ai Afas dad gjt lat= Rlj wos watl ej ohd wj wjrj gmahg tm gjt immd, ohd A wosaepotajht ohd brmssjd tlj rmod fjimrj tlj saghoc soad wj bmucd, tjccahg ljr tm “bmej mh‑ watlmuttlah`ahg ofmut at. A dad hmt sjj tlj bor bmeahg. At kust eassjd ej. Afas wos kust fjlahd ej.

O bor as o eoblahj. O eoblahj, mhbj obtavotjd, iuhbtamhs uhdjr occ barbuestohbjs. O catbohdcj as ats iarj. O emvahg bor as ats emvjejht. O emvahg bor as o cat bohdcj.

Dmh‑t tlah` ofmut tlot! Vjejefjr wlot loppjhjd oitjr ymu tlmuglt ofmut Er. Rlajcds= A bohhmt fjcajvj ymu kust lod tlot tlmuglt! Fut tlmuglts bmej sm iost! A dmh‑t wacc tlmuglts tmoppjor! A hjvjr waccjd tm lovj oh urgj tm cmm` ot pmrhmgroply. Tlmuglts kust oppjor, suddjhcyohd occ ot mhbj.

A ca`j tlot. A rjobl ahtm ey pmb`jt ohd pucc mut ey hmtjfmm`. A cmm` imr ey pjh. A ocwoyseaspcobj at. A iahd at ah ey slart pmb`jt. A iahd oh jepty pogj.

Rtmry Adjo; blorobtjr storts gmahg brozy fjbousj lj tlah`s (ohd ijors) tlot jvjry tlmugl lj los asrjocazjd ahtm fjahg.

-Lovj jxtrjeaty mi las satuotamh fj wljh lj bohhmt cmm` ot o bmiijj bup ohd hmt tlah` smejtlahg wacc loppjh.

Lmcd mh…A‑vj ocrjody fjjh tlrmugl tlot emejht. A icap fob` tlrmugl ey hmtjs, ohd iahdo pogj watl tlj wratahg “^orodasj as o waccahg scovjry imr us occ/Occ.‑ A lovj ocrjod y fjjh tlrmugltlot emejht! A icap tm ohmtljr pogj watl tlj wratahg “ A sow tlj caglt emvj obrmss tlj gross…Ohd

A wjpt.‑ A icap tm ohmtljr pogj watl tlj wratahg “A wotbl oh mcd eoh ah o suat, rotljr tloh woc` mhtlj sadjwoc`, woc` stroaglt dmwh tlj cowh.

Ejctahg wox lurts ats bohdcj. Ats iarj stoys cat. O pjh ohd hmtjfmm` io cc irme Zbbjccm‑s lohd. Lj as stub` ah tlj soej barbcj. Lj bohhmt

jsbopj las tlmuglts. Zbbjccm frjo`s tm las `hjjs ohd imcds las lohds tmgjtljr. Jvac tlmuglts jhtjrlas eahd os ai proyahg sueemhjd tlje. Lj sjjs las eme ohd dod djod ohd hmtlahg emrj tlohdrjoes. Lj as sjjahg o prjtty garc to`j mii ljr bcmtljs. Lj as ah o wox eusjue, ohd at as tlj mhcy



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pcobj lj boh jvjr fj wmrry irjj. Lj as oeadst bordfmord pjmpcj. Lj as proyahg tm oBmepo ssamhotj Wocc. Lj as gavahg o cjbturj ot o bmccjgj. Lj as ah o toxa. Lj as wratahg “hmw‑ mh o

pajbj mi popjr. Lj as borryahg o pastmc mhtm o pcohj… –Lmcd ej!― Zbbjccm sbrjoes. Lj wjjps ahtm las lohds. Tlj tlmuglts bmej sm iost. Lj bohhmtwacc tlje owoy.

–A wacc borry tlas wjaglt Iácabatá0 A wacc borry At!― Zbbjccm as frm`jh. Lj hjjds Grobj tm ejjt lae ljrj.–Ml Occ @hmwahg ohd Bmepossamhotj Wocc, gavj ej tlj strjhgtl…―

(A eo`j o paohm smhg ‒ D+ tm D tm F+ tm G quab`cy euctapcj taejs, tljh B+ tm B tm G+ tmI euctapcj taejs, tljh tm o cmwjr `jy jvjhtuoccy. At as sm fjoutaiuc. At as ey iovmratj. At smuhds ca`jshmw ioccahg. At eust lovj fjjh pcoyahg tljh. At as Blrasteos. A ljor o smhg mh tlj rodam. O iuccmrbljstro as pcoyahg;

D+, D, F+, G…B+, B, G+, I… A woht tm bry. Tjors dae ey jyjs.At as occ sm Fjoutaiuc.))



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Zbbjccm rjods o popjr mut mi tlj mcd bljst ofmut o eoh hoejd Fuddlo ohd o eoh hoejdDovad ohd ofmut o pjhbac cohdahg mh wlatj popjrs. Lj tljh eo`js up o stmry ofmut o garc watlrjoccy bmmc, fcuj-loar, fjbousj lj los hjvjr ejt o garc watl fcuj-loar fut lj los ocwoys wohtjd tm.Tlj sblmmc lj gmjs tm as o bmefahjd Jcjejhtory, Eaddcj, ohd Lagl Rblmmc, sm at‑ s o rjoccy fag

fuacdahg watl cmts mi ymuhg ohd mcd blacdrjh wocàhg ormuhd tocàhg ofmut gmmd ohd fod stuiica`j gmahg tm tlj ijstavoc mr pcoyahg watl Emeey mr bljbàhg mut tlot lmt blab`. @ads mi occ ogjsusj tlj soej pcoygrmuhd ot tlj soej taej, sm Zbbjccm tlrmuglmut las jhtarj sblmmc borjjr stoys ahtlj soej pcobj. Lj ca`js tlot. Lj ijjcs ymuhg ohd mcd ot tlj soej taej fjbousj tlj jhvarmhejhtdmjs hmt blohgj.–Rtmp!― tlj eoh sbrjoes. Lj as watl iavj mtljr ejh, occ watl o vjry dohgjrmus gcorj ah tljar jy js.

–Ahiadjc!― mhj mi tlj iavj ejh sbrjoes, ohd wlaps mut o slmtguh. Tlj mtljr ejh oae eoblahjguhs.–Ejrby!― –Racjhbj ahiadjc!― –A fjg ymu, ejrby!―

Mhj mi tlj ejh as lmcdahg o seocc blacd up fy tlj tlrmot,–Toc`! Mr suiijr!―

Tljy orj tjrrmrasts. Tljrj lovj fjjh cmts mi emvajs ohd slmws mh tjrrmrasts cotjcy.–Qmur Occol as fmuhd fy tlj lohds mi ymur irjj wacc ohd fjotjh uhtac rjcjhtahg tm tlj imre mi oemrj pcjosahg Jhym! “gmd‑ as ymur bursjd wlmrj!―

Mhj mi tlj tjrrmrasts scops tlj eoh obrmss tlj iobj watl tlj fuht mi las guh. Fcmmd icajsjvjrywljrj. Tlj tjrrmrasts orj rjody tm àcc.–Toc`! A‑e gmahg tm bmuht tm tlrjj…ohd tljh…―

Racjhbj… –Tlrjj.―

Racjhbj… –Twm.―

Racjhbj… –Mhj.― –Ollllllllll!―

Tlj tjrrmrasts guh dmwh tlj eoh ohd las blacdrjh. Tlj emvaj jhds. Zbbjccm as slmb`jd.Zbbjccm pueps las iast, jxbatjd, fut tljh ocemst aeejdaotjcy tlj sbjhj grjotcy dasturfs lae. Ljwos bjrtoah smejtlahg uhjxpjbtjd wmucd loppjh ohd sovj tlj eoh ohd las blacdrjh. Tlot ocwoysloppjhs ah emvajs ‒ tlj gmmd guys ocwoys wah. Zbbjccm turhs mii tlj tjcjvasamh ohd gmjs mutsadj.Lj trajs tm imrgjt ofmut tlj sbjhj. Lj wasljs tlot dad hmt loppjh. Qjs, lj ocwoys tlmuglt at woscoej lmw tlj gmmd guys ocwoys wmh, ohd ah hm woy wos at rjocastab. Lj ocwoys wohtjd tm lovj oblohgj mi pobj ohd upsjt vabtmry imr tlj mtljr sadj. Oitjr sm eohy emvajs ah wlabl tlj gmmdguys ocwoys wmh, tlj fod guys lod fjbmej tlj uhdjrdmgs. Zbbjccm ocwoys rmmtjd imr tljuhdjrdmg. At wos ca`j tlj fod guys ah tlj emvajs wjrj ocwoys bmefotahg ogoahst smej



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mehapmtjht ohd mehasbajht imrbj wlabl tljy bmucd hjvjr fjst, djspatj tljar fjst jiimrts. At wosca`j tlj goej wos raggjd ogoahst tlje irme tlj stort, ohd tlot wosh‑t ioar ‒ tljrj wos hm kustabj.

Qjt, hmw, gjttahg wlot lj `hjw lj wohtjd, Zbbjccm ijjcs dasturfjd. Tlj uhdjrdmg wmh,ohd lj ijjcs dasturfjd. Lj lod hmt bcjorcy adjhtaiajd wlot lj wohtjd0 lj lod ljcd tlj ahbmrrjbtvasamh. O iace bopturjs o vjry portabucor emejht ah o vjry portabucor spobj ohd taej. Ai at as ohy

gmmd, at as fosjd mh tlj blorobtjr, hmt o sbrapt, fjbousj o blorobtjr as o sbrapt ohd o iace watl twmsbrapts wmh‑t fj vjry gmmd. Tljrj as smejtlahg lmcy ofmut o gmmd iace0 tljrj as smejtlahg lmcyofmut tlj iahocazotamh mi oh jtjrhoc gmmd. Tljrj as smejtlahg lmrrafcj ofmut o fod iace…tljiahocazotamh mi oh jtjrhoc fod. Tlj iace mi tlj tjrrmrasts `accahg tlj eoh ohd las blacdrjh wosiahocazjd. At wos oh jtjrhoc fod, ohd at wos wlot Zbbjccm lod wohtjd. Lj aeogahjs fjahg cmb`jdah o emvaj tljotjr pcoyahg tlj sbjhj. Lj aeogahjs tlj brmwd ahstahbtuoccy puepahg tljar iastsjxbatjdcy wljh tlj tjrrmrasts guhhjd dmwh tlj eoh ohd las blacdrjh, fut tljh scmwcy, tljjxprjssamh mh tljar iobjs daeeahg os tlj tjrrmrasts `jpt slmmahg fuccjts ahtm tlj fmdajs, fcmmdicyahg jvjrytlahg. Tlj sbjhj `jjps pcoyahg. Tlj tjrrmrasts `jjp slmmtahg tlj fmdajs. Tjh eahutjs

poss. Tlj brmwd squares ah tljar sjot. Rmejmhj gjts up ohd gmjs tm tlj fotlrmme. Tlj dmmr ascmb`jd. Tlj pjrsmh stohds tljrj imr o emejht, tljh woc`s tm tlj mtljr jxast. Tlj dmmr as cmb`jd0

tlj dmmrs orj cmb`jd. Twjhty eahutjs poss. Fuccjts orj icyahg. Tlj fmdajs orj eutotjd fjymhdrjbmghatamh. ^jmpcj bmvjr tljar jors. ^jmpcj bmwjr ahtm tljar bloars ohd fury tljar iobjs ahtm tljbuslamhs mi tljar bloar. Tlj smuhd jiijbts orj vjry cmud. Imrty eahutjs poss. Tlj tjrrmrasts orjcouglahg ohd couglahg ohd cmodahg tljar guhs watl emrj oeeuhatamh ohd stacc slmmtahg ahtm tlj

fmdajs mi tlj eoh ohd las blacdrjh, lovahg tlj taej mi tljar cavjs. Twm lmurs poss. Tlj emvajtljotjr jrupts ahtm sbrjoes ohd ohorbly. Iaglts frjo` mut. O cagltjr botbljs o eoh‑s slart mh iarj.Tlj smuhd mi fcmmd ohd fuccjts as ahjsbopofcj. ^jmpcj ah tlj brmwd stort couglahg ohd couglahgca`j tlj tjrrmrasts. Iavj lmurs poss. Tjh lmurs poss. Twjhty. Twjhty yjors. O luhdrjd yjors…

Tlj pjmpcj ah tlj tljotjr orj soij ohd sjburj irme jvjrytlahg ohd jvjrymhj mutsadj mi tljtljotjr, ohd sjburaty as smejtlahg tljy lod ocwoys wohtjd. Tlj emvaj tlj pjmpcj wjht tm sjjgovj tlje jxobtcy wlot tljy wohtjd tmm ‒ tlj uhdjrdmgs wmh. Imr iavj lmurs, tjh lmurs,twjhty…o luhdrjd…tlj tljotjr govj tlj pjmpcj wlot tljy wohtjd, wlot tljy lod os`jd imr…

Gjhjroccy, pjmpcj woht irjjdme ohd sjburaty. Tlj pjmpcj ah tlj tljotjr gmt mhj mi tlmsjtwm.

Zbbjccm shops mut mi at ohd spcosljs wotjr ahtm las jyjs. Lj trajs tm slo`j mii tlj drjoe.Tlj uhdjrdmgs lod wmh ohd Zbbjccm lod gmttjh wlot lj os`jd imr - Zbbjccm lod rjobljd wlotowoatjd lae ot tlj jhd mi las dor` occjy. O fod lod fjjh jtjrhocazjd.

Zbbjccm woc`s mvjr tm ^mppo‑s lmusj ohd to`js o sjot mh tlj pmrbl. –Ash‑t at oeozahg…― ^mppo blub`cjs, sattahg mh tlj pmrbl watl Zbbjccm, scabahg mpjh owotjrejcmh, –…tlot irme mut mi occ tlot dart, Gmd eo`js occ tlmsj icmwjrs, ohd occ tlot bmcmr=―

Zbbjccm cmm`s ot tlj icmwjrs ormuhd tlj fardfotl.–At as oeozahg ^mppo. Cmm` ^mppo!―

O seocc fard as sattahg ah tlj fardfotl. At as tlj soej fard tlot los fjjh bmeahg fy imr mvjro yjor hmw. ^mppo puccs mut smej fardsjjd lj `jpt ah tlj hjorfy gorogj irme las pmb`jt. Laslohds lovj fjbmej wjo`jr, ohd slo`j.–Bmej mh…― lj soys, slo`ahg tlj sjjds ah las lohd sm tlot tlj fard ljors tlj smuhds. Tlj fardwos sm usjd tm tlj twm mi tlje tlot at icjw raglt mvjr ohd otj tlj sjjds raglt mut mi ^mppo‑s lohd,

pjrbljd mh tlj tofcj ca`j o djor irajhd sattahg hjorfy mh o wocc. Tlj fard‑s ijotl jr cmm` ca`j burcy,icmwahg loar, ohd ah ats jyj slahjs o vjry fraglt seacj. Ats ijotljrs orj fjoutaiuc.



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–Tlot‑s occ imr tmdoy Afas.― ^mppo soys watl o blub`cj. Tlj cattcj fard cmm`s ot lae, turhs at s ljod,tljh icajs fob` tm tlj fotl. Dus` fjgahs tm sjttcj mvjr tlj iore.–Rjj tlj iarst stor Zbbjccm= Tlot‑s tlj jvjhahg stor.― –^mppo, ash‑t tlot tlj emrhahg stor= At cmm`s tlj soej.― –At as0 at‑s ey iovmratj.―

–Wly as tlj iarst stor mut ot haglt tlj cost stor tm cjovj ah tlj emrhahg=–Tlot‑s kust lmw at as, A gujss.― Zbbjccm gmjs ahtm tlj `atbljh ohd frahgs mut ohmtljr wotjrejcmh. ^mppo buts at mpjh watl

las `haij,–^mppo, wly dad ymu hoej tlj cattcj fard Afas= At‑s hmt oh Afas, ^mppo.― –Dad Afas bmej fy tmdoy=― –Qjs ^mppo, ymu ijd Afas o cattcj fat ogm.― –Vaglt, ohd wlot dad ymu os`=― –Wly dad ymu hoej tlj cattcj fard Afas=― –Tlj Afas as ey iovmratj fard Zbbjccm. At‑s tlj cost tm bmej ah fjimrj o stmre, ohd tlj iarst tm rasj oitjr tlj stmre los possjd. ―

^mppo los ocwoys cmvjd fard0 lj as o djdabotjd fardwotbljr. Lj wotbljd tlj stors, pcohjs, fards …^mppo wotbljd jvjrytlahg. Lj wos vjry mfsjrvoht0 lj wos `jjh mh lovahg tlj bmrrjbtvasamh.–Dmwh ah Bmroc Gofcjs, Icmrado, A sow mhj ‒ emst fjoutaiuc tlahg A jvjr sow.―

^mppo tmcd Zbbjccm tlas stmry yjstjrdoy. Lj fjgahs tjccahg at ogoah watl tlj jxufjrohbj mioh mragahoc jxpjrajhbj, ca`j lj wos tljrj laesjci. Wlacj ^mppo tjccs las stmry, Zbbjccm tlah`sofmut wlot ^mppo soad,–Rm tlj emrhahg stor as ca`j oh Afas=―

^mppo to`js o fatj mut mi las wotjrejcmh,–Ah smej woys, A gujss at as.― –Wlm‑s bmeahg dmwh tlj rmod=― Zbbjccm ahtjrkjbts suddjhcy. Tljrj orj ljodcaglts hjor tljeoacfmxjs. Irme wljrj Zbbjccm ohd ^mppo orj sattahg, wlabl as ot tlj tmp mi o seocc lacc, tljy bohsjj mvjr o cmhg iajcd. Tlj rmod cjodahg u p tm ^mppo‑s lmusj, ohd occ tlj lmusjs mh tlj prmpjrty,ruhs ocmhgsadj tlot iajcd. Ot tlj iurtljst jhd mi tlj rmod, fjimrj at turhs dmwh o cmhg lacc cjodahgtm tlj laglwoy, orj tlj eoacfmxjs mi occ tlj pjmpcj tlot cavj mh tlj prmpjrty. Oh mdd bor stmps ottlj eoacfmxjs.–A dmh‑t rjbmghazj at.―

Tlj ljodcaglts stort tm bmej dmwh tlj rmod ocmhgsadj tlj iajcd ohd mhtm tljar pravotj prmpjrty. ^mppo stohds up smcjehcy, ohd stjps ahtm tlj gorogj. Lj bmejs mut watl o raicj.–Wlot‑s gmahg mh ^mppo=― Zbbjccm‑s vmabj trjefcjs. ^mppo puts tlj raicj mh tlj tofcj, ohd sats

fob` dmwh.–Eaglt fj rmffjrs.― –Vmffjrs=― –Fod pjmpcj.―

Zbbjccm‑s sjjs o eoh watl o dohgjrmus gcorj ah las jyjs wlm wlaps mut o slmtguh ohdlmcds o seocc blacd up fy tlj tlrmot,–Tjrrmrasts=―–Fod pjmpcj, yjs.― ^mppo soys. Zbbjccm‑s wmrry gjts tlj fjst mi lae. Tjrrmrasts wjrj dravahg uptlj rmod. Tlj ljodcaglts wjrj bcmsjr. Ruddjhcy tlj bor stmps. ^mppo puts las lohd mh las raicj.Rcmwcy, tlj ljodcaglts turh ormuhd ah tlj gross, ohd eo`j tljar woy fob` dmwh tlj rmod. Eahutjs



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Zbbjccm dad hmt `hmw wlot at ejoht tm eo`j o plmtmgropl hmt-mcd. Rahbj plmtmgropls orjtlahgs, at wmucd ejoh tm eo`j tlj plmtmgropl wlot tlj plmtmgropl as mi. Imr jxoepcj, ai tlj

plmtmgropl wos mi o pjrsmh, tlj plmtmgropl wmucd lovj tm fj tlj pjrsmh0 ai tlj plmtmgropl wosmi o fard, tlj plmtmgropls wmucd lovj tm fj tlj fard ‒ os mhj. Rmejlmw lj lod tm iagurj mut lmwtm eo`j tlot wmr`. Lj bmucd hmt gm tm tlj stor, lj lod tm frahg tlj stor tm jortl, os lj bmucd hmt

gm tm Mutjr Rpobj, rotljr lj lod tm to`j tlj jortl tm Mutjr Rpobj. Rmejlmw, lj lod tm iagurj mutlmw tm eo`j tlot wmr`…^jrlops lj bmucd eo`j tlj pabturj o “sjci - pmrtroat=― ^jrlops lj bmucd turh laesjci ahtm o

stor tlot wos hmt mcd. Lj dad hmt `hmw lmw tm to`j o pabturj mi laesjci mtljr tloh watl o tra-stohdohd o taejr, ohd tlmsj pabturjs wjrj lord tm to`j ohd lj hjvjr ca`jd tlje fjbousj tljy sjjejdorrmgoht, fut stacc, tlot eaglt fj fjst. Cmts mi pjmpcj dad tlot tmdoy ohywoys ‒ cmts mi pjmpcj tmm`cmts mi pabturjs mi jvjrytlahg tljy dad. Qjs, eoàhg o sjci- pmrtroat, tlot eaglt fj fjst…

Ruddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj Zbbjccm los o rjvjcotamh.Tlot‑s lmw lj wmucd fjot t lj wocc ohd grovaty ohd tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar ‒ lj wmucd

eo`j tlj “emrhahg stor!‑ Tlot wos at! Tlot wos lmw “Zbbjccm tlj stor -eo`jr‑ bmucd fjot grovatyohd to`j occ mi jortl tm Mutjr Rpobj ohd ljcp tlj wmeoh lmcdahg up tlj jortl, occ wlacj eoàhg

^mppo prmud! Tlot wos lmw! Tlot wos tlj fjst pmssafcj pcoh mi occ! Lj uhdjrstmmd ‒ lj wosjhcagltjhjd. Tlot wos tlj ejohs tm ohswjr Vjjd‑s “Wly hmt=‑ watl Rmejtlahg Emrj tloh “Wlysm=0‑ tlot wos tlj ejohs tm ohswjr Vjjd hmt watl o qujstamh, fut watl oh ohswjr , ohd sm tm eo`jVjjd‑s qujstamh o qujstamh fjbousj o qujstamh rjquarjs oh ohswjr tm fj o qujstamh ohd sm bmrrjbttlj aefocohbj mi ahquary wlabl saeuctohjmuscy fjsajgjd Zbbjccm‑s eahd, ljort ohdbmhsbamushjss ca`j o sahgcj wocc fjahg scoeejd ogoahst fy o eoh wlm cavjd uhdjrgrmuhd wlmrjiusjd tm obbjpt 6 x 6 5 4. Hmw Zbbjccm kust hjjdjd tm iagurj mut lmw tm to`j tlot pabturj…

Zbbjccm puts dmwh las plmtm fmm` uhdjr tlj s`y mi mcd plmtmgropls ohd sbrotbljs lasljod.

Tlas wmucd to`j o cmt mi tlahàhg.

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–Dm ymu woht tm gjt uhdjr tlj uefrjcco watl ej=― –Hm.―

Zbbjccm ljors tlj roah drappahg mii las bmot, lattahg mh tlj gross. Wmmd . Ruddjhcy Zbbjccmwo`js up ohd iahds laesjci ahsadj mi o fuacdahg. Tlj cmffy as corgj ohd mvjrfjorahg, ohd tlrmuglo barbucor, dmej-slopjd, gcoss rmmi, Zbbjccm boh sjj tlj roah iocc. Fut tlas gcoss `jjps tlj roah

fob`…Zbbjccm wohdjrs, drjoey -jyjd ohd sacjht. Ruddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj lj as surrmuhdjd fyuhemvahg iagurjs. Lj as ah o wox eusjue, os ai lj ocwoys los fjjh. Ostrmhouts ohd pmcabjejhohd prjsadjhts ohd wmeoh ohd blacdrjh ohd ejh ohd jcdjrs…surrmuhd lae, ohd dmh‑t gmohywljrj. Tljy hjvjr wacc, ohd lovj hjvjr tlmuglt ofmut gmahg ohywljrj.

Hm mhj as ah tlj locc watl Zbbjccm…At as occ sm fjoutaiuc tm Zbbjccm...At wos o earobcj, osagh. Tlot‑s wlot at wos, at wos o sagh. Lj lod imuhd o wmrcd tlot dad hmt blohgj. Lj imuhd owmrcd wljrj o focc wmucd hmt blohgj cjovahg las lohd, hmr wmucd at blohgj wljh at rjobljd atszjhatl ah tlj oar0 at wmucd kust, saepcy, “stoy up tljrj.‑ Tla s wos o sohbtuory irme grovaty0 tlaswos o pcobj wljrj tlj wocc lod fjjh djijotjd0 tlas wos o pcobj wljrj tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloarlod hmt sjazjd pmwjr.

Zbbjccm puccs mut o seocc, daspmsofcj boejro irme las pmb`jt. Lj to`js o pabturj mi odaspcoy. Tlj pabturj wmucd fj mi o wmeoh watl ljr fob` tm lae0 slj wos cmmàhg ot wmrds ohd



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huefjrs, ca`j “?>> stmrjs ohd rjstourohts ahsadj ,‑ tlot smrt mi ejrgjd ahtm lj r. Lj wmucd bocc tlj pabturj “Ijorcjss,‑ fjbousj tlot as lmw tlj sbjhj eodj lae ijjc. Lj ijct ca`j lj bmucd to`j mh tljwmrcd. Lj ijct ca`j lj bmucd, ah iobt, obbmepcasl las gmoc ohd brjotj o “emrhahg stor.‑ Tlj pabturjlj kust tmm`, tlj stor lj kust eodj, wmucd hjvjr fj oh “mcd plmtmgropl‑ tm wlot tlj pabturj wos mi

‒ lj lod eodj o pabturj tlot wos ca`j tlj “emrhahg stor‑ lj smuglt. Las gmoc wos hmt aepmssafcj.

Tljrj wos lmpj. Tlj fottcj wos hmt wmh, ohd tljrj wos stacc cmts mi wmr` tm fj dmhj, fut tljrjwos lmpj.Ohd lmpj rasjs.Zbbjccm lmcds tlj boejro bcmsj tm las ljort. Tlj pabturj lj kust tmm` wmucd cob` tlj

ijjcahg mi tlj oar ah tlj bmrradmr, las ofacaty tm turh ormuhd ohd cmm` ot wlot wos fjlahd lae, tljdastoht vmabjs jblmahg ormuhd tlj bmrradmr…Tlj pabturj lj kust tmm` wos hmt “tlj jxpjrajhbj‑atsjci jhtarjcy, fut at wos bcmsj, ohd at wos “ca`j‑ tlj “emrhahg stort.‑ At wos o fag stjp ah tlj ragltdarjbtcy. Tljrj wos wmr` tm dm ohd cmts mi tlahàhg cjit tm fj pmhdjrjd, fut tljrj wos lmpj.

Zbbjccm rjocazjs smejtlahg yjt ogoah ‒ lj wmucd ahdjjd lovj tm turh laesjci ahtm tlj stortlot wos hmt mcd. At wos hm cmhgjr o eottjr mi “pjrlops.‑ Tlot‑s wly tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloarbmucd eo`j tlj popjr ljort0 slj wos ljr “emrhahg stort.‑ Tlj qujstamh mi “lmw slj eodj ljr

popjr ljort‑ wos tlj soej ahquary os “lmw dm ymu turh ymursjci ahtm o stor tlot as hmt mcd=‑ O“sjci - pmrtroat‑ wmucd fj fjst. Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar bmucd eo`j o popjr ljort tlot wos ljr“emrhahg stor,‑ fjbousj slj ljrsjci wos ljr “emrhahg stor,‑ ohd occ obtamhs orj oh jxtjhsamh mimhj‑s sjci. Rlj dad hmt lovj tm wmrry ofmut “tlj ijjcahg mi tlj oar ah tlj bmrradmr, tlj ofacaty tmturh ormuhd…tlj dastoht vmabjs jblmahg ormuhd tlj bmrradmr,‑ fjbousj slj wos sjhsjcjss. Zbbjccmlod o lordjr iaglt. Fut lj wmucd jhdurj0 lj wmucd prjvoac. Lj wmucd bmuht occ tlj stors, ohd ljwmucd bmhhjbt tlje. Lj wmucd lovj tm fjbmej ca`j tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar, fut hmt tlj garc ahtlj wljjcbloar. Lj wmucd lovj tm fjbmej sjhsjcjss mr bmepcjtjcy iucc mi sjhsj, wlotjvjr tlotejoht. Zbbjccm dad hmt `hmw0 tljrj wos cmts mi tlahàhg tm dm. Zbbjccm cmm`s ormuhd ohdbmhbcudjs tlas wmucd fj o wmhdjriuc pcobj tm tlah`. Lj wmucd hmt fj fmtljrjd, ohd at wos “ca`j‑las “emrhahg stor,‑ sm ai tljrj wos ohywljrj ah tlj jhtar j wmrcd tlot wos o gmmd pcobj tm tlahòhd iagurj mut lmw tm fjot grovaty, tlas wos tlj fjst pcobj. Tlas wos adjoc.

Zbbjccm sats mh o fjhbl, ohd tlot‑s at. Tlj locc as stacc ohd sacjht. Tlj iagurjs mi wox dm hmtemvj, ohd sm tljy dm hmt djstrmy tlj sacjhbj watl tlj smuhds mi tljar emvahg ores mrcoejhtotamhs. Zbbjccm to`js grjot taej tm coy laesjci dmwh mh tlj fjhbl sm hmt tm dasturfohytlahg. Tlj fmords brjo`. Zbbjccm brahgjs. Lj cmwjrs laesjci. Las ljod ioccs tm tlj cjit uhtac attmubljs tlj bmcd wmrcd, ohd lj burcs up ahtm at. Tljrj orj hm pjmpcj possahg. Lj lmcds las `hjjsbcmsjr, ohd iahds woretl. Lj seacjs, sotasiajd. Ljrj, Zbbjccm `hmws lj wacc fj ofcj tm tlah` uplmw tm djijot grovaty. Ljrj, hm mhj wmucd fmtljr lae, sm tlj mhcy woy lj wmucdh‑t tlah` up lmwtm djijot grovaty as ai lj blmsj tm quat, ohd lj wmucd hmt dm tlot. Ljrj lj lod taej, taej…oseohy “tab`s ohd tmb`s‑ os lj hjjdjd. Zbbjccm fjgahs tm tlah`.

Zbbjccm draits tm scjjp, smitcy ohd scmwcy, mr ot cjost tlot as lmw at oppjors. Lj as stacctlahàhg0 Zbbjccm bohhmt scjjp, mr ot cjost hmt ah las eahd. Lj wacc sjj tlj wmeoh lmcdahg up tljwmrcd. Tlot as wlot Zbbjccm wohts raglt hmw tlmugl - o bcjor vasamh mi tlj wmeoh wacc fj vatoc ahiagurahg mut lmw tm ljcp ljr. Lj dmjs hmt uhdjrstohd lmw tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar bmucd ocwoyscmm` sm bmepcjtjcy wmrry irjj mi ljr sahs0 bcjorcy slj ijct hm guact imr ohytlahg slj dad, bjrtoahcyhmt imr eoàhg Grobj iocc ohd fruasj ljr `hjj, bjrtoahcy hmt imr eoàhg Grobj fcjjd. Zbbjccmtlah`s tlot los o cmt t m dm watl ljr ofacaty tm eo`j o popjr ljort ohd o “emrhahg stor.‑ Lj dmjs hmtuhdjrstohd at, fut ai lj dad, tlot wmucd ljcp tlj wmeoh lmcdahg up tlj wmrcd, sm o bcjor vasamh mitlj wmeoh wmucd ljcp lae uhdjrstohd wly tlj garc ocwoys cmm`jd sm…



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–Zbbjccm, tljrj ymu orj!― Zbbjccm owo`js tm tlj tjobljr shotblahg lae mut mi tlj fjhbl. Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar

as cmmeahg mh tlj muts`arts mi tlj rmme. Zbbjccm rjiusjs tm cmm` ot ljr.–Wj orj gjttahg mh tlj fus! Qmu‑rj cub`y A boccjd tlj rmcc, mtljrwasj wj wmucd lovj cjit ymu!― –Rm ymu mhcy gmt ej fjbousj ymu boccjd ey hoej=―

–Qjs, ohd ymu‑rj cub`y A dad!― At ijjcs tm Zbbjccm ca`j las ore as gmahg tm fj puccjd mut mi ats smb`jt. Rlj cjts gm tm pusltlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar. Zbbjccm los tm woc` fjsadj ljr, fut lj rjiusjs tm cmm` ot ljr. Lj dadhmt hjjd ljr ljcp tm `jjp las ore ah smb`jt0 fjsadjs, slj mhcy ljcpjd tm emb` lae. Lj gcohbjs

fob` ot tlj rmme wljrj hmtlahg blohgjd. Lj as lmrraiajd tlot lj eust cjovj. Lj hjjdjd tm tlah`mi o woy tm `jjp tlas irme loppjhahg ogoah, mr lj wmucd hjvjr lovj tlj taej ohd quajt hjjdjd tmtlah` mi o woy tm fjot grovaty. Zbbjccm os`s las tjobljr,–Boh A gjt rad mi ey hoej=― –Wlot=!― –Boh A blohgj at=― –Tm wlot=!―

–…hmtlahg=― Tlas stotjejht bmhiusjs ohd ahiuraotjs tlj tjobljr os slj stuiis Zbbjccm mh tlj fus,–Qmu boh‑t dm tlot!― –Hmt tlot, fut Tlot.―

Tlj tjobljr roasjs oh jyjfrmw,–Hm.― –Wly hmt=― –Fjbousj ymu‑rj o pjrsmh!―

Tlas dmjsh‑t ohswjr tlj qujstamh tm Zbbjccm, sm lj rjpjots at,

–Wlot oe A=―



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(2> Vjsuejd)

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Wj cmvj ofsjhbjs.Wj cmvj Cmvj fjbousj At as ofsjht.Wj fjcajvj ah Fjcaji.

A oe (tlj adamt)/(cmmàhg mvjr ey plmtmgropls). A oe jdatahg tlje. ^jmpcj djspasj plmtmjdatahg, ohd jvjryfmdy dmjs at. Dmh‑t pjmpcj dm tlas àhd mi jdatahg ah rjoc caij= Wly as at sm fodtm dm at ljrj= Dmh‑t pjmpcj jdat plmtmgropls jvjry taej tljy tjcc sm ejmhj tm stmp fmtljrahgtlje, jvjry taej tljy emvj irme tlj bcossrmme tm tlj bmiijj slmp, ohd jvjry taej tljy try tmblohgj tljar smbaoc stotus ohd gjt o hjw irajhd= A ejoh, dmh‑t‑ ymu plmtm jdat wljhjvjr ymuemvj tlrmugl taej, wlabl as wljhjvjr ymu emvj ah spobj= As plmtm jdatahg mh tlj bmeputjr sm

fod fjbousj tlj aeogj atsjci as hmt emvahg tlrmugl spobj, kust ymur iahgjrs mh tlj `jyfmord,wlabl dmh‑t bmuht fjbousj tljy orjh‑t ah tlj aeogj= Rm at‑s fod fjbousj tljrj as hm emvjejht

tlrmugl taej ah tlj aeogj, sm hm emvjejht tmword Jtjrhaty= Fut ai tlj plmtmgropl as emrj fjoutaiuc duj tm jdatahg, wmh‑t at pmaht emrj sm tmword Jtjrhaty - tlj Fjoutaiuc= Rm slmucdh‑t wjjhbmurogj plmtm jdatahg= A ejoh, ai tlj pjrsmh cmmàhg ot tlj plmtmgropl dmjsh‑t `hmw at‑sjdatjd, ohd dmjs hmt rjocazj tljar pjrbjptamh mi tlj aeogj as easbmhstrujd, ash‑t jdatahg owmhdjriuc tlahg= Dmjsh‑t at pmaht tlot ahdavaduoc emrj sm tmword Rocvotamh= Rm at‑s kust eyrjspmhsafacaty tm eo`j surj tlot hmfmdy iahds mut tlot ey aeogjs orj plmtm jdatjd. At wmucd fjjosajr ai A dadh‑t jdat tlje, fut A eust ah mrdjr tm darjbt tlmsj wlm sjj ey plmtmgropls tmword tljFjoutaiuc. At as o rjspmhsafacaty ohd mfcagotamh A eust to`j up os o Blrastaoh.

As at cyahg= Wjcc as at cyahg tm tjcc pjmpcj tljrj aso Ljovjh wljh ymu dmh‑t `hmw tljrj asLjovjh= Qmu lovj ioatl tljrj as o Ljovjh, fut ymu dmh‑t `hmw tljrj as Mhj. Qmu @hmw tljrj aso Ljovjh, fut tlot as hmt tlj soej os `hmwahg tljrj as o Ljovjh. Qmu bohhmt prmvj wlot ymu@hmw, fjbousj tlot as tloh`s tm Gm d‑s Grobj. Qmu boh mhcy @hmw Gmd watlah ymursjci, ohd tmjobl tlas as tlj bosj. Rm ats cyahg tm soy ymu `hmw tljrj as o Ljovjh, ai tlot‑s wlot ymu soy wljhymu soy at, ohd wlot jcsj bmucd ymu ejoh= Wjcc, A ejoh, wlot jcsj bmucd ymu ejoh ai ah soyahg atymuorj tjccahg tlj pjrsmh “ohd sm ymu slmucd `hmw At tmm‑= Lmw as tlot daiijrjht irme miijrahgtm pjmpcj o gcaeejr mi Jtjrhaty tlot ymu `hmw as jdatjd ohd io`j, fut tlot tljy dm hmt `hmw asjdatjd ohd io`j= Ash‑t at kust tlj soej tlahg ah rjvjrsj= Ash‑t tlj mutbmej tlj soej ‒ o pjrsmh asemvjd bcmsjr tm Fjouty= Ot tlj jhd mi tlj doy, ash‑t tlot occ tlot eottjrs tm Gmd, tlot mhj mi lasblacdrjh as emvjd bcmsjr tm Rocvotamh. As hmt emrocaty sjbmhd tm Gmd ah bmeporasmh tm Rocvotamh=Ai at wos o blmabj fjtwjjh f jahg emroc fjimrj smejmhj, ohd Rovahg tlot smejmhj, wmucdh‑t GmdBlmsj tlj cottjr=

A wacc bmhtahuj tm jdat ey plmtmgropls, eo`j tlje emrj fjoutaiuc, ohd pmaht pjmpcjtmword Gmd. A wacc borry tlj furdjh mi lovahg tm cavj ah djbjat. At‑s imr tljar mwh gmmd. –Orj ymu o Blrastaoh=― smejmhj os`s ej tlot oitjrhmmh. A dmh‑t uhdjrstohd wlot tljy orj osàhg, –Wlot dm ymu ejoh fy Blrastaoh=―

Tlj pjrsmh toc`s imr ofmut iavj eahutjs mh wlot fjahg o Blrastaoh ejohs. A dmh‑t tlah` ljrjocazjs lj as djsbrafahg wlot at ejoht tm fj o Blrastaoh tm lae. A pmhdjr las djiahatamh,–Hm, A‑e hmt tlot.―

Oitjr tlot toc`, A gm fob` tm ey dmre rmme, sat ot ey djs` fjimrj ey wahdmw, ohd jdatsmej emrj plmtmgropls. A frahg mut tlj bmcmrs.



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A cmvj cmmàhg ot ey wahdmw wljh at as tmm dor` tm sjj ohytlahg fjymhd at.A rjbjavj oh ahstoht ejssogj. Jvjry sjhtjhbj los oh “!‑ ot tlj jhd mi at. Wljh slj rjoccy

wohts tm jxbcoae smejtlahg, slj wratjs “!!!― Rlj dmjs tlot mitjh. Mur jxbcoeotamhs lovj fjbmejejohahgcjss. Wj‑vj usjd tlje sm eubl tlot wj lovj cmst tlj ofacaty tm jxbcoae. Wj boh mhcyjblm ‒ jxbcoae tlrmugl slodmwy eor`s. Wj dmh‑t `hmw lmw tm rjcoy mur vmabj tlrmugl wrattjh

wmrds, yjt wrattjh wmrds orj smejtaejs tlj mhcy woy wj boh spjo` watlmut tocàhg tm mur sjci.Qjt wj boh‑t wratj ohyemrj watlmut pjmpcj rjodahg tmm eubl ahtm at. At‑s fjbousj hmtlahg asrjcoyjd.

Tlj “!!!!‑ orj jdatjd plmtmgropls tlot pjmpcj iahd mut orj jdatjd.A rjbjavj oh jeoac;

(stort)Qmu lovj fjjh ah ey tlmuglts o grjot djoc tlas wjj`, os A lod twm jhbmuhtjrs tlot lovjbmhtahujd tm louht ej ah o ioatl-fosjd woy0 tlj iarst wos ejjtahg Jeeo, o djoi lmusj garc tlotwmr`s imr mhj mi tlj tjobljrs irme tlj praeory sblmmc. Wj lod oh jhtarj bmhvjrsotamh ah saghcohguogj (eohy mi tlj saghs orj tlj soej, os tljy usj Jhgcasl sagh-cohguogj), ohd slj jvjhtouglt ej tlj saghs imr smej mi tlj cmboc cohguogjs ljrj (swolaca ohd emtljr tmhguj, mr cum), sm

wj lod o trucy eucta-cahguoc bmhvjrsotamh! Tljh kust yjstjrdoy, A imuhd mut tlot slj as ocsm prjghoht (duj tm ropj) ohd as jxpjbtjd tm lovj tlj fofy smejtaej ah tlj hjxt twm emhtls mr sm.Rlj as sm wmhdjriuccy swjjt tlot at wos o stor` slmb` ot iarst, fut frmuglt ymur stmry tm eahd vjryquab`cy. At eodj ej tlah` - wlot ai jvjrytlahg ymu wrmtj boej truj=(jhd)

A iahasl rjodahg tlj jeoac. A pucc mut o tmmtlpab` ohd to`j o sem`j. Dad A dm tlas= Orj eytlmuglts sm strmhg= Dad A gjt tlot garc ropjd watl ey tlmuglts= Oe A turhahg pjmpcj ah bordfmord

pjmpcj, mr bordfmord pjmpcj ahtm pjmpcj= Ai at as tlj cottjr, A oe ey grjot mfstobcj.A oe sm smrry, fjoutaiuc Jeeo. A lovj hjvjr `hmwh ymu, fut A lovj ijct ymu. A lovj ruahjd

ymu. A oe sm smrry.A gm. A rjod ohd probtabj wratahg. A ras` emrj taej.Zbbjccm los ljodplmhj ah. Tlj E^2 pcoyjr as mii. Lj as sattahg mh o fus, pjrlops wocàhg.

Tlas as mhj mi las iovmratj tlahgs tm dm. Lj dmjs tlas sm tlot lj boh castjh tm tlj pjmpcj ormuhdlae watlmut ijjcahg os ai lj slmucd toc` tm tlje, ohd sm tlot lj boh castjh tm tlje watlmut tljewmrryahg mr tlahàhg ofmut lae castjhahg ah. Tlot vjacs tljar wmrds. Lj dmjs tlas fjbousj ljwohts tm ljor smejmhj toc` tm tljesjcvjs. Lj wohts tm ljor smejmhj trucy toc`0 lj wohts tm ljorsmejmhj imr tlj iarst taej. Lj wohts tm `hmw tljrj orj mtljrs mut tljrj wlm orj rjoc. Ai lj ascub`y, tljy wacc toc` ofmut lae, ohd lj boh iahoccy ljor wlot tljy rjoccy tlah` watlmut wmrryahgtlot tljy orj kust soyahg wlot tljy orj soyahg sm tlot tljy dmh‑t lurt las ijjcahgs. Jvjh ai tljy orjsoyahg wlot tljy rjoccy tlah`, Zbbjccm bohhmt `hmw ai at as gjhuahj, `hmwahg tlot tljy `hmw lj ascastjhahg. Lj los o saeacor tm dacjeeo wljh lj os`s smejmhj tm brataquj las wmr`. Lmwjvjr, ca`jtlas, lj boh emrj rjodacy fjcajvj tlot tlj pjmpcj tocàhg orj soyahg wlot tljy rjoccy tlah`, ohdtlot tljy orj jvjh tljrj. At as ior josajr tlas woy tm fj “pahhjd dmwh‑ fy tlje (ca`j pjmpcj dm tmmhj wlme tljy botbl wotblahg o garc tlrmugl o `jylmcj, mr stjocahg…), ohd sm imrbjd tmob`hmwcjdgj laesjci os o sjporotj ahdavaduoc. Tlas ocsm ljcps Zbbjccm djtjreahj ai las adjosofmut “wlm lj as‑ or j obburotj, mr wrmhg, imr ocmhj, lj eust ocwoys fjor tlj wjaglt mi `hmwahglj dastmrts las adjos mi laesjci, ohd sm bohhmt `hmw laesjci. Lj boh mhcy `hmw laesjci, oslaesjci, tlrmugl mtljrs, wlm lj bohhmt `hmw orj rjoccy tljrj. Tlot as, mi bmursj, ai wlm lj as, aswlm pjmpcj tlah` lj as, ohd ai wlot lj tlah` pjmpcj tlah` mi lae, as obtuoccy wlot pjmpcj tlah` milae.



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Zbbjccm sats woatahg, las E^2 pcoyjr mii, castjhahg watl las ljodplmhjs ah. Lj ljorshmtlahg. Jvjrymhj as tmm fusy tocàhg mh tljar bjcc plmhjs, tjxt ejssogahg, mr castjhahg tm E^2

pcoyjrs. Eoyfj tljy orj occ dmahg tlj soej tlahg… Jvjrymhj as ioàhg at.

Hm mhj as lmcdahg at tmgjtljr.

Hmtlahg as lmcdahg at tmgjtljr!!!Wocàhg ormuhd ca`j tlas ijjcs ca`j fjahg bjhsmrjd.Tlas as tlj bmcd ymu bohhmt gjt huef tm. Ca`j o Ljcc‑s. A tlah` pjmpcj ca`j tm lovj bjcc plmhjs fjbousj at jhofcjs tlje tm hmt to`j bmhvjrsotamhs

sjramuscy. Tljy dmh‑t lovj tm fjcajvj ah wlot tljy orj soyahg wljh tljy soy tljy orj gmahg tm dmsmejtlahg, fjbousj ah o ljortfjot tljy boh bocc ymu up ohd soy tljy “bohhmt eo`j at!!!‑ Bjcc

plmhjs orj pmpucor fjbousj tljy eo`j at josajr tm sbopjgmot. Tljy ohhuc “bmeeatejht‑ os owlmcj.

Fy hmt lovahg o bjcc plmhj, A imrbj pjmpcj tm to`j wlot tljy soy tljy orj gmahg tm dm watlej sjramuscy, fjbousj tljy bohhmt rjtrobt sm rjodacy wljh tljy rjbocc tlot “tljy lovj smejtlahgtm dm…o ejjtahg tm gjt tm…‑ Zhcjss mi bmursj tljy djbadj tljy wacc kust stroaglt up ofohdmh ej.

Ijw orj sm aeemroc0 ijw wacc odeat tljy orj io`j ohd fjor tlj bmhsjqujhbjs. Emst rotljr seacjohd lovj o gmmd taej, emst rotljr hmt odeat tljar plmtmgropls orj io`j. Emst prjijr tlj sjrjhatymi Gmd‑s scovjry mvjr Gmd‑s Irjjdme ‒ …mvjr Cmvj.

^jmpcj cmvj wohtahg tm fj Gmd.A woht tm fj o wratjr, fjbousj A lovj tm fj. At as oh oxame. Tlj emrj taej ymu rjod ohd

probtabj wratahg, tlj emrj taej ymu ras` fjahg o wostj mi taej. Fut, tlj emrj Yocuj at wacc fj ai atocc turhs mut tm fj wmrtl wacd, ohd tlj emrj taej ymu ahvjst, tlj grjotjr ymu bopobaty tm eo`j atocc wmrtl wacd. Tlas as kust lmw at as0 tljrj as hm woy ormuhd at. Blmmsj wasjcy tljh lmw ymu usjymur taej.

Mitjh A dmh‑t scjjp sm tlot A boh `jjp wratahg. A lovj tm probtabj. Rmej pjmpcj fjcajvj ortslmw hmt fj slopjd, ohd tlot tlj fjst ort as tlj purj, uhfradcjd pmurahg mut mi jemtamh irme tljsparat. A fjcajvj ort watlmut sàcc as eosturfotamh. Ca`j tlj icoppahg mi fards. Ohd A tlah` tlj tjre“eosturfotamh‑ sues up mur ogj.

A jdat ey plmtmgropls.A gm tm bcoss ohd castjh tm tlj prmijssmr cjbturj. ^rmijssmrs orj cjjbljs. Tljar gjhaus

bmejs irme ejemrazahg iobts ofmut wratjrs, ortast, sbajhtasts…Tlj prmijssmrs hjvjr dm ohytlahgmh tljar mwh tlot as grjot. Tljy jhbmurogj tljar studjhts tm gjt ^LDs ohd tm fj cjjbljs tmm. Admuft tljy rjocazj tlot tljy orj dmahg tlas. Tlot eo`js at wmrsj.–Orj ymu pcohhahg mh fjbmeahg o prmijssmr, Zbbjccm=― smejmhj os`s ej. A oe os`jd tlas mitjh. Adm hmt `hmw wly pjmpcj tlah` A wmucd eo`j o gmmd prmijssmr.–Qmu‑rj o vmrobamus rjodjr ohd lovj o woy mi spjoàhg tlot kust smuhds toacmr -eodj tm gavjcjbturjs.―

A dm hmt gjt grodjs mh wlot A vmrobamuscy rjod mr toc` ofmut. A lovj o pataiuc GÔ. A dm hmt fcoej tlj systje0 at los tm fj tlot woy. Ca`jwasj, A lotj tlj systje.

Tm gm tm grod sblmmc ohd fjbmej o prmijssmr, A wmucd lovj tm gjt o gmmd sbmrj mh tljGVJs, wlabl wmucd to`j lmurs ohd lmurs mi studyahg. A rjiusj tm wostj sm eubl taej mhsmejtlahg tlot as uctaeotjcy ejohahgcjss. A oe hmt gmahg ahtm eotl0 wly dm A hjjd tm study eotltm gjt ahtm oh Jhgcasl grod sblmmc= A wacc hmt wostj ey taej. Tlj tjsts orj tratj.–Qmu rjoccy slmucd bmhsadjr fjahg o prmijssmr, Zbbjccm.―

Ai A oe ejoht tm fj o prmijssmr, A wacc fj mhj. A tjcc smejmhj tlot. Lj fcmws ej mii,



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–Tlot‑s wlot jvjryfmdy soys. At‑s o coej woy mi rjemvahg rjspmhsafacaty irme ymursjci. Rtortobbjptahg ogjhby ohd dm smejtlahg watl ymur caij.―

A lovj hm rjspmhsj tm tlas bmeejht. A gm ohd jdat plmtmgropls. A wasl mur cavjs dad hmttjhd tm bmhtrodabt, hmt hjjd tm bmhstohtcy fj iaxjd.–Rtudjhts orj emrj dasbapcahjd tloh tlj mcd emh`s.― tlj prm ijssmr cjbturjs. Eohy mi tlj studjhts,

ot tlj prmijssmr‑s jhbmurogjejht, orj toàhg tlas bcoss sm tlot tljy eoy gjt o gmmd grodj, wlablwacc jhofcj tlje tm gm tm grod sblmmc, wljrj tljy slocc ocsm eo`j emrj gmmd grodjs. Tljh, yjorscotjr, wljh tlot‑s iahas ljd, tljy wacc fjbmej prmijssmrs, ohd gavj mut grodjs ohd jhbmurogjstudjhts tm gjt gmmd grodjs sm tlot tljy boh blohgj tlj wmrcd ohd fjbmej prmijssmrs. Tlas as tljjxpjbtjd djstahy mi tlj fjst ohd fragltjst ‒ tm cavj ahsadj o fuffcj, prjoblahg ogoahst tlj immcaslwmrcd mutsadj, oiroad mi tlj hmreoc pjmpcj ohd tljar jvjrydoy gjhaus.–Emh`s wmucd cmm` ot ymu brozy pjmpcj watl ymur blasjcjd mut sbljducjs ohd wmr` mut rmutahjsah owj.― Tlj prmijssmr bmhtahujs. A tlah` tlj bcoss tlah`s tlas ejoh wj‑rj fjttjr t loh emh`0 tloteo`js mur gmd fjttjr tmm.–Qmu rorjcy scjjp, mitjh sm tlot ymu boh lovj taej tm jxjrbasj…― tlj prmijssmr pmahts mut tm tljbcoss. Tlj pjmpcj ah tlas bcoss eo`js ej tlah` ofmut pjmpcj wlm cmvj mut mi ijor, ohd wlm “eo`j

cmvj‑ tm dravj mut tlot ijor. Tljy dm hmt rjocazj tlot tlas “cmvj‑ as ah iobt tlj ijor tljy woht tmdravj mut, sm fy “eoàhg at,‑ tljy porodmxaboccy wmr` ogoahst tljesjcvjs. Oiroad, tljy dmh‑trjocazj wlot tljy orj dmahg. At‑s ca`j A‑e ah twm pjmpcj lovahg sjx mut mi ijor, mr a h twm pjmpcjwlm stravj tm “mwh‑ mhj ohmtljr ah ijor mi cmsahg tlje. Tlas cmvj as tlj mppmsatj mi Cmvj ohdcmm`s jxobtcy tlj soej, ca`j lmw tlj Trjj mi @hmwcjdgj ohd Trjj mi Caij fmtl cmm` jxobtcy ca`jtrjjs.–…Tlas as rotljr bmhtrodabtmry…―

A rjoccy woht tm lovj o blacd, fut imr ej, os o wratjr, tm dm tlot wmucd fj imr ej tm woht tmlovj ey bo`j ohd tm jot at tmm. A bohhmt brjotj0 A lovj tm prmdubj. Mhcy Gmd Eo`js Rmejtlahgmut mi Hmtlahg. At wmucd hmt fj raglt imr ej tm jkjbt o blacd ahtm o wmrcd mi grovaty, mr tm hmmsj ohuefacaboc bmrd ormuhd tljar tlrmot.–…fjbousj ai ymu dmh‑t scjjp, ymu wacc goah wjaglt.― tlj prmijssmr bmhtahujs, –A rjpjot ‒ scjjp ashjbjssory ai ymu dmh‑t wmh‑t tm put mh tlj pmuhds.―

Jvjrytlahg stmps. A cmm` dmwh ot tlj prmijssmr. Lj eust fj cyahg. Tlot as uhobbjptofcj. Awacc hmt obbjpt tlmsj wmrds. A lotj prmijssmrs. Tljy orj wmrtlcjss ‒ bmwords ohd immcs wlm

fjcajvj tljy orj fjttjr tloh jvjrymhj jcsj!!!–Dad ymu dagatoccy jdat tlot pabturj=― –Hm.― A rjpcy, –At‑s o pabturj iroej A tlrjw up ahtm tlj oar imr tlrjj lmurs uhtac A gmt at djod ah tljbjhtjr, mutcahjd ogoahst tlj s`y. At‑s ah hjgotavj fcob` -ohd-wlatj. Tlot‑s tlj hoej, raglt tljrj.―

Qmu bohhmt tjcc tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh oh jdatjd plmtmgropl ohd o rjoc mhj. Jvjrymhjossuejs tljy‑rj occ jdatjd ohd io`j hmw0 tlot ljcps tlje sjj hmhj mi tlje os io`j. A dm tlj soejwljh A cmm` ot smejmhj jcsj‑s plmtmgropls. At eo`js ej sod. A oe cmb`jd ah ey fmx, uhofcj tm`hmw. A lovj tm cmm` ot occ tlj pabturjs os io`j, tm sjj tlje os rjoc.

A turh owoy irme oh aeogj lohgahg mh tlj wocc tmword o fuhbl mi pabturjs statbljdtmgjtljr sm wjcc tlot ymu boh‑t sjj tlj fmrdjrs ormuhd tlje tlot orj cjit mvjr oitjr djvjcmpejht. –Dm ymu ca`j tlj gordjh, tlj trjj=― tlj burotmr os`s, hmtabahg wlot A wos cmmàhg ot ohd tlahàhg Ahjjdjd tm fj bljjrjd up fy bmhvjrsotamh. A dmh‑t `hmw ljr. A dmh‑t `hmw ljr wmrcd. A dmh‑t `hmwwlot tm soy. Rm A bohhmt soy at bcjorcy0 A bohhmt toc` ofmut at. A poss mvjr at ah sacjhbj, os A eust.Mtljrwasj wj‑cc jhd up soyahg smejtlahg ca`j “A cmvj ymu‑ ohd “A dmh‑t woht tm toc` tm ymuohyemrj‑ ah tlj soej bmhvjrsotamh.



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Rlj possjs mvjr ej ah sacjhbj, os slj eust. A uhdjrstohd. A `jjp cmmàhg ot tlj pabturjs.Tljy orj ocwoys kust o cattcj iurtljr tloh A oe. Vjoblahg tlje as ca`j tryahg tm gjt ahtm o rmme Aoe ocrjody ah. A (ijjc ca`j A) oe cmmàhg ot o earrmr. A lovj sm eohy zats. A pmp tlje sm tlot tljysbor fjbousj A lotj tlje. At rjeahds ej mi tlj wahdmw ah ey dmmr rmme.

A tlah` ofmut smejtaejs, durahg taejs ca`j tljsj, lmw A smejtaejs kust lotj eysjci. A‑e

surprasjd fy ey pradj, ohd A wmhdjr ai Gmd as tmm.–Dm ymu ca`j tlj pjmpcj=― smejmhj os`s, –Wlot mr wlm lovj ymu fjjh cmmàhg ot=― –A‑vj fjjh cmmàhg imr tlj fmrdjrs.―

Tljy‑vj fjjh jdatjd mut. Tljy‑rj ofsjht

(Jdatahg Tmmcs;

?. Ahtjrhocazotamh watlah o drjoe bousjs o pjrsmh tm wo`j up0 tm tlah` watlah tljesjcvjsdurahg o drjoe imrbjs mhj tm rjocazj tljy orj hmt watlah tljesjcvjs. Tlas lurcs tljemutword fob` ahtm tljesjcvjs. Tlj prmfcje tlmugl as tlot tljrj orj sm eohy dmmrs ah tljljort0 wlabl dm ymu `hmb` ot ‒ wlot dm ymu tlah` ofmut= Wly, ocsm, slmucd ymu tlah` ot

occ= Wly wmucd ymu woht tm fj lurcjd mut mi o drjoe= Tljrj as sjrjhaty ah sloccmwhjss.6. Dmjs ey lohd lurt fjbousj A tlah` at dmjs, mr dm A tlah` at lurts fjbousj at lurts= Dm A gjt

ey raglts irme tlj gmvjrhejht, mr dm A lovj raglts fjbousj A oe oh ahdavaduoc ohd tljgmvjrhejht kust eo`js ej rjocazj tlot (ohd jatljr woy, lmw dm ymu djtjreahj tljbousj)= Orj pjmpcj rjoc fjbousj A pjrbjavj tlje, ohd orjh‑t pjm pcj mhcy rjoc tm ej

fjbousj A pjrbjavj tlje= Lmw boh ymu djiahj o bousj=)

Wljhjvjr A toc` watl smejmhj, wj fmtl ejjt ot tlj soej pcobj. Wj fmtl bmej tm lotjlmw tlj emrj wj toc` tm smejmhj tlj lordjr at as tm cmvj tlje.

A oe wocàhg watl Vjjd.–O gmmd stmry as o gmmd aeogj.― A soy tm lae. –Orjh‑t ymu faosjd os o plmtmgropljr=― –Hm sar0 A lotj tlj plmtmgroply bucturj.― –Tlot dmjsh‑t ljcp ymur bosj. Tlot‑s prmfofcy wly ymu orj o plmtmgropljr.―

Ogoah, A oe wocàhg watl Vjjd. A lotj outlmraty ohd systjes.–A lotj outlmraty0 A woht hmtlahg tm dm watl at.― –Wj hjjd smej àhd mi systje Zbbjccm0 wj hjjd outlmraty.― –Hm wj dmh‑t. A gjt ocmhg kust iahj watlmut at.― –As tlot sm= Cjt ej os` ymu o qujstamh; mut mi occ tlj eaccamhs mi fmm`s ah tlj wmrcd, lmw dm ymudjbadj wlabl fmm`s tm rjod=― –A to`j tlj odvabj mi ey fjst prmijssmrs mr dm smej mi ey mwh rjsjorbl.― –Rm ymu rjcy mh tlj outlmraty mi ymur prmijssmrs, cafroraohs, mr tlj wjfsatjs= Dmh‑t ymu dm tljsoej wljh djbadahg wlot eusab tm castjh tm, wlot emvajs tm wotbl, ohd wlot mrgohazotamhs tm

kmah=― Vjjd cougls,

–Rjj= Qmu dm rjcy mh systjes mi outlmraty. Watlmut tlmsj systjes, ymu‑d hjvjr `hmw wljrj tmstort rjodahg, ohd sm ymu‑d hjvjr `hmw wljrj tm stort ah fjbmeahg o wratjr.―

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–A wmucdh‑t hjjd tlj outlmraty ai tljrj wjrjh‑t sm eohy fmm`s! Wj hjjd tm gjt rad mi occ tlj fmm`s ‒ tljrj orj tmm eohy mi tlje!― –Ocraglt, cjt‑s dm tlot, ohd cjt‑s stort fy gjttahg rad mi ymur fmm`.―

…A lotj... –Wj boh‑t dm tlot0 ey fmm` tjobljs pjmpcj “lmw tm rjod o fmm`.‑ A lovj tm fjor ats wjaglt tm gjt

rad mi fmm`s. Lueohs rjod fmm`s fjbousj tljy woht tm `hmw. Lueohs woht tm `hmw fjbousj wjwoht tm @hmw Fjouty. Ey fmm` mutcahjs tlot.― Jatljr A mr Vjjd cougls, mr wj cougl tmgjtljr.

–Qmu‑rj ocwoys tlj grjot ahtjccjbtuoc, orjh‑t ymu Zbbjccm= Qmu dm `hmw at‑s mhcy fjbousjymur…― A ljor sacjhbj, –…lod sm eubl emhjy= Qmu cavjd o caij mi pravacjgj, ohd tlot cjt ymulovj tlj taej ymu hjjdjd tm broit ymur s`acc. Qmu, tlj “ruggjd ahdavaduoc,‑ lod huejrmusodvohtogjs tlj rjst mi us hjvjr gmt. Qmu wjrj gavjh o imrue tlot cjt ymu probtabj ymur wratahg imrtjh-tlmusohd lmurs wlacj tlj rjst mi us proyjd imr smejtlahg tm jot ot haglt. Ohd yjt jvjrymhjjcsj as kust “oh adamt,‑ tm ymu, orjh‑t tljy Zbbjccm=― –Tlot‑s occ cajs mi tlj systje!― Zbbjccm rjtmrts, –Tljy tjobl tlot ohd at‑s immcasl! A struggcjd imryjors tm fjbmej wlm A oe hmw0 A wos gavjh hmtlahg! A dad hmt blmmsj ohy sm boccjd “odvohtogjs‑

tlot tljy soy A lod, sm A bohhmt cjt tlje lmcd ej dmwh. A lod hm bmhtrmc mvjr tlje! A dad hmtblmsj wljrj A wos fmrh ohd tm wlm A wos fmrh.― –Tlot dmjsh‑t blohgj tlj iobt ymu lod odvohtogjs.― –Lmw dm ymu `hmw A lod tlje= Tlot‑s o lypmtljtaboc!― –Wly orj ymu gjttahg sm upsjt=―

Zbbjccm boh tjcc Vjjd as tlah`ahg “hmt tm soy ymu jvjr dmh‑t smuhd upsjt.‑ –…Qmu dmh‑t‑ gjt upsjt mitjh.― Vjjd bmhtahujs, bcjorcy tm iurtljr tlj kjst. Tljh, A ohswjrjdVjjd mut mi ey stmre. A soad,–Wlm as tlas…watl wmrds watlmut `hmwcjdgj= Wljrj wjrj ymu wljh A sot ot ey coptmp imrtwjhty lmurs stroaglts= Tjcc ej, ai ymu uhdjrstohd. Wlm eor`jd mii ey pcmt‑s horrotavjdaejhsamhs= Rurjcy ymu `hmw! Wlm strjo`jd oh jdatahg pjh obrmss at…= Lovj ymu jvjr gavjhmrdjrs tm ey blorobtjrs, mr slmwh tlje tljar pcobj, tlot tljy eaglt to`j tljar wmrcd fy atsjdgjs…= Lovj ymu bmeprjljhdjd tlj vost jxpohsjs mi o tlmusohd scjjpcjss haglts= Tjcc ej, aiymu `hmw occ tlas…Wj‑rj ymu fmrh watl ej= Boh ymu pucc ah tlj wah d watl o iasllmm`, mr tajdmwh ats tmhguj watl o rmpj= Boh ymu put o bmrd tlrmugl ats hmsj mr pajrbj ats kow watl o lmm`=―

…lotj… –…Boh ymu eo`j o pjt mi at ca`j o fard=―

Ohd suddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj Vjjd jrupts… –Wlm as tlas…watl wmrds sm iucc mi `hmwcjdgj= Wljrj wjrj ymu wljh A castjhjd tm ymu roht imrtwm lmurs mh lmw owiuc lagljr jdubotamh as tmdoy= Tjcc ej, ai ymu uhdjrstohd. Wlm eor`jd miiymur pcmt‑s horrotavj daejhsamhs= Rurjcy ymu `hmw0 surjcy ymur ejemry dmjs hmt ioac ymu! Wlmstrjo`jd oh jdatah g pjh obrmss tlj dmbuejhts ymu prahtjd…= Lovj ymu jvjr gavjh bmrrjbtamhs tmymur groeeor, mr slmwh wmrds tljar prmpjr pcobj, tlot tljy eaglt to`j tlj wmrcd fy ats jdgjs…=Lovj ymu bmeprjljhdjd tlj vost jxpohsjs mi o tlmusohd scjjpcjss haglts pmhdjrahg ymu= Tjccej, ai ymu `hmw occ tlas…Wj‑rj ymu fmrh watl ej= Boh ymu pucc ah ymursjci watl o iasllmm`, mrtaj dmwh ymur tmhguj watl o rmpj= Boh ymu put o bmrd tlrmugl ymur hmsj mr pajbj ymur kow watlo lmm` ca`j o iasl=―

…mut mi ey/las stmre… –Frobj ymursjci ca`j o eoh…Qmu‑rj ocwoys bmepcoahahg ofmut tlj systjes, ohd toc` tlje dmwh.Qmu toc` dmwh jvjrymhj wlm as ah tlj systje, ohd slrug mii ca`j Otcos/Goct ohymhj wlm pcoys fy



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ats rucjs. Qmu cjit tlj systje fjbousj ymu wjrj tmm wjo` tm stoy ah at! Qmu dmh‑t tlah` wj occ`hmw at‑s o fag km`j= Dm ymu rjoccy, lmhjstcy fjcajvj ymu orj tlj mhcy mhj wlm los lod ymur“rjvjcotamh=‑ Jvjrymhj as ah mh at, ohd uhca`j ymu, smej mi us sub` at up, ohd dmh‑t cmsj saglt mitlj faggjr gmoc. Tlot to`js rjoc strjhgtl ‒ rjoc strjhgtl as wlot at to`js tm eo`j ymursjci sloccmwohd supjriabaoc. Ocsm, ymu bmepcoah ofmut lmw pjmpcj bmeportejhtocazj tljar caij, lmw pjmpcj

wmr` durahg tlj wjj` ohd porty mh tlj wjj`jhd. Dm ymu `hmw wlot àhd mi strjhgtl tlot to`js=Qmu orj mhj mi tlj wjo` mhjs tlot los tm ahtjgrotj jvjrytlahg ahtm mhj ohmtljr, sjjàhg ymur lmcyME0 ymu dm hmt lovj tlj strjhgtl tm davadj caij up mr tm cjovj at uhbmhhjbtjd. Qmu kudgj mtljrswjo`, fut ymu dm hmt `hmw lmw lord at as imr tlje. Qmu kudgj tlje stupad, ohd ymu‑rj olypmbratj…―

At smuhds ca`j lj as tocàhg ofmut tlj strjhgtl tlot at to`js imr o smcadjr tm eossobrj ahhmbjht pjmpcj fjbousj lj rjbjavjd tlj mrdjr tm dm sm.–…Qmu orj tmm wjo` imr rjocaty, Zbbjccm.―

…stmre… –Ah ymur eahd ymu boh dm occ tlahgs0 hm pcoh mi ymurs boh fj tlwortjd. Occ mi us, ah ymur jyjs,spjo` mi tlahgs wj dm hmt uhdjrstohd, tlahgs tmm wmhdjriuc imr us tm `hmw. Catjroccy, at mbburs tm

ymu “ah ymur jyjs.‑ Imr o cmhg taej ey jors lovj ljord…hmw ey jors lovj sjjh ymu ‒ ymu, ahymur truj stotj! Tljr jimrj, A djspasj eysjci imr hmt sjjahg smmhjr, ohd rjpjht ah “tlj quahtjssjhbjmi dust‑ ohd osljs.―

Vjjd stmres mii,–Tlas ofmvj occ — tm tlahj mwh Rjci/sjci fj Truj/truj!―

Vjjd as gmhj. Dad lj ejoh Rjci mr sjci, Truj mr truj= Taej possjs. Tljrj as o bupbo`j, cmhg stocj, ohd at los fjjh sattahg mh o tofcj imr lmurs. At

as mfvamus tlot at hjjds tm fj tlrmwh owoy. Tlj troslboh as vjry hjor…–Ai A dmh‑t dm at, hmfmdy wacc.―

…o garc tlrjw...(seacjs) ot ej.Qmu `hmw tlot‑s wlot jvjrymhj soys /tlah`s, raglt=

Rtacc, taej possjs.–A rjoccy tlah` ymu wmucd eo`j o trjejhdmus prmijssmr Zbbjccm0 ymu slmucd bmhsadjr fjbmeahgmhj.―

Lj cougls,–Ljcc; ymu‑rj prmfofcy jhd up fjbmeahg mhj hm eottjr wlot ymu dm.―

…lotj... Wljh A wo`j up, A frjw o pmt mi bmiijj, drah` at, ohd woc` tm tlj sah` tm duef mut wlot as

cjit. Tlj ioubjt as stacc mh, cjit mh irme fjimrj. A stort pmurahg ohd tljh tlah` tm eysjci. Ai A duep mut tlas pmt mi bmiijj, A wmh‑t lovj ohy emrj tm drah`. Rlmucd A duep at mut=

A iahasl pmurahg ohd to`j tlj jepty bmiijj pmt fob` ahtm ey rmme, tlahàhg tm eysjci tlotA slmucdh‑t duep at mut yjt. Tlj ioubjt as stacc mh, cjit… –Dm ymu fjcajvj ah Gmd=― smejmhj os`s ej tlot oitjrhmmh. A dmh‑t uhdjrstohd wlot tljy orjosàhg,–Wlot dm ymu ejoh fy Gmd=―

Tlj pjrsmh toc`s imr ofmut iavj eahutjs mh Wlm/wlm Gmd/gmd As/as. A dmh‑t tlah` sljrjocazjs slj as djsbrafahg Wlm/wlm Gmd/gmd As/as tm ljr. A pmhdjr ljr djiahatamh,–Hm, A dmh‑t fjcajvj ah lae.―



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A rjejefjr mtljr iaces irme ormuhd tlot soej ogj tlot A cmvjd, tlot A lovj rjejefjrjdirme taej tm taej. A oe ofcj tm iahd tlje josacy, hmw tlot A lovj sjramuscy put ey eahd tm at imrtlj iarst taej ah iaitjjh yjors, ohd A oe ah o pcobj ah wlabl A boh put tlot emtavotamh tm wmr`. Mhj

fy mhj, A cmm` up tlj iaces, ohd mhj fy mhj, A ruah tlj ejemrajs - < Eoh , Arao…A `jjp lmpahg tljhjxt wacc rjdjje wlot wos cmst. A bohhmt sjttcj watl ey cmssjs. A gm iurtljr ahtm tlj pat,

djstrmyahg jobl, mhj fy mhj, blmmsahg tm dm occ tlot A oe dmahg. A bohhmt stmp. Tljrj as mhjejemry cjit. A boh cjovj at fj, fut ai at turhs mut tm fj ah rjocaty “hmw‑ os fjoutaiuc os ey ejemryiroejs at, occ ey cmsjs slocc fj rjdjjejd, ohd tlas doy slocc hmt fj o trogjdy. A stohd pmasjd,lmvjrahg mvjr oh jdgj. At as o cjop mi ioatl mr o cjop mi immcs. A bohhmt tjcc tlj daiijrjhbj uhtac Acjop.

Wlot gmmd as tlj daiijrjhbj tljh - tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh jdatjd ohd uhjdatjd plmtmgropls= Wlot jvjh as at=!!!

Wjcc= Rlocc wj gm=Qjs, cjt‑s gm.

A dm hmt emvj.

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2?Tlj Cmvj Rtmry

…cmvj as Rotoh‑s grjotjst wjopmh ogoahst eohàhd. Tlj fcmw obrmss ey iobj to`js ej tm tlj grmuhd. Ey ljods lats lmt bmhbrjtj. Tljrj as o

icosl.–Tloh` ymu Zbbjccm.―

Grobj ioccs ahtm ey ores, ohd wj jefrobj. A pcobj mhj lohd mh ljr fob`, ohd pucc ljrbcmsj. Tlj mtljr A rjst mh ljr ljod, ohd pucc ljr ljod bcmsj tm eahj. Voys mi caglt iocc ahtm tljbcossrmme irme tlj wahdmws tlot orj djiahjd fy tlj dust/* tlot dohbj watlah tljar prases. A try tmlmcd ljr imrjvjr. A try tm prjss ey icjsl ahtm ljrs, ah lmpjs mi hjgotahg mur fmdajs, cjovahg mhcymur Rparats. Ah tlas jiimrt, A gcohbj up ahtm o earrmr. Ah tlas earrmr, A sjj ahtm o earrmr darjbtcy

fjlahd ej, ohd ah at, A boh sjj Grobj. Fjlahd ljr as oh jhdcjss rjicjbtamh pjrijbtcy iodahg ahtm

djjpjr ohd emrj dastoht rjicjbtamhs iurtljr dmwh tlj ofyss mi iahatj ahiahaty, tlot pjrijbtcy iodjahtm djjpjr...ohd tlmsj rjicjbtamhs, jvjry sahgcj mhj mi ljr, djpabt tlj soej aeogj. A oe cmst ahtlas kmymus lug tlot A lovj cmhgjd imr, cmst ah ats fcass.

Grobj as cmmàhg ot ljrsjci.*(djod sàh)

–Ey hoej as V jjd Fruhjccj.― –^cjosurj tm ejjt ymu Vjjd.―

A slo`j las lohd. Tlas as tlj fjgahhahg mi o wmhdjriuc irajhd slap. –Qmu fostord!― Vjjd sbrjoes. Las iast jxpcmdjs ahtm ey bljj`. Tlj fcmw obrmss ey iobj to`jsej tm tlj grmuhd. Ey ljod lats lmt bmhbrjtj. Tljrj as o icosl.–Wjcbmej tm mrajhtotamh.― O wmeoh ah o rjd drjss watl rjd loar ohhmuhbjs tm tlj rjbjhtcy -odeatt jd studjhts, –A‑e surj ymu‑rj occ tlraccjd tm stort bmccjgj.―

Jvjrywljrj A gm, A `jjp sjjahg tlas guy. A gujss A slmucd ahtrmdubj eysjci. A‑vj cjorhjdah caij tlot ai tljrj as smejmhj ymu `jjp sjjahg, ymu‑rj suppmsjd tm toc` tm tlje. Imr smej rjosmhtlot ymu hjjd tm ahtrmdubj ymursjci ah mrdjr tm uhdjrstohd, ymu orj puccahg tlje tm ymu watl ohahvasafcj warj.–Ljccm.― A soy watl o wovj, –A ` jjp sjjahg ymu.― –Qjo, A `hmw, at‑s wjard. Wlot‑s ymur hoej=― –Zbbjccm. Qmurs=― –Ey hoej as Vjjd Fruhjccj.― –^cjosurj tm ejjt ymu Vjjd.―

A slo`j las lohd. Tlas as tlj fjgahhahg mi o wmhdjriuc irajhdslap.–Wlabl mhj as at=― –Tlot mhj, watl tlj fcmhdj loar (DMJR GVOBJ LOYJ FCMHDJ LOAV= BLJB@) .― Awlaspjr smitcy, sborjd tlot slj‑cc ljor ej. Lj gcohbjs up irme las fmm`,–Wmw, slj los prjtty loar. Rlj wos ah ey dasbussamh sjbtamh. Ljr hoej as…― –Grobj.― –Tlot‑s raglt. Qmu rjoccy ca`j ljr, lul= A dadh‑t tlah` ymu lod jemtamhs ‒ ocwoys wmràhg ohdstub` ah tlj cafrory. A‑e gcod tm cjorh tlot ymu‑rj hmt o rmfmt.― –Rlut up.― A wlaspjr watl o scop tm las ore. Lj blub`cjs,



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–Wjcc, wlot orj ymu gmahg tm dm= Orj ymu gmahg tm tjcc ljr=― –A dmh‑t `hmw lmw…― –Wjcc, ymu‑rj hmt dmahg ohytlahg raglt hmw. Tljrj orj twm typjs mi pjmpcj, tlah`jrs ohd tlmsjwlm obt. Vaglt hmw, ymu boh‑t jvjh tlah`, sm ymu lovj tm obt. Tjcc ljr.― –Fut at‑s hmt tlj raglt taej.―

–Tljrj as hm raglt taej! Cmvj dmjsh‑t wmr` ca`j tlot. Caij ash‑t gmahg tm prjsjht oh “adjocemejht‑ imr smejtlahg at dmjsh‑t uhdjrstohd. Kust woc` mvjr tljrj, ohd tjcc ljr.― –Wlot ai slj‑s fusy=― –Kust tjcc ljr “A hjjd tm toc` ymu.‑ Dm at.―

A to`j o drah`. A pcobj o gcoss mh tlj for,–Lovahg o garc ymu rjoccy ca`j os` ymu tm kust fj irajhds, as ca`j ymur emtljr tjccahg ymu ymur dmgdajd, fut tlot ymu boh stacc `jjp at…―

Cougltjr jx pcmdjs irme tlj tofcj. A to`j o sap mi wotjr. A dmh‑t drah`.–A oe oiroad pjmpcj orj hm cmhgjr cavahg caij watl possamh, sufeattahg rotljr tm placmsmplajs midjspoar ohd jsbopase, ohd tryahg tm vohasl ahtm tlj tljmcmgy mi jbmhmeabs ohd mtljr probtabjs mihalacast djhaoc…―

–A‑e wmrrajd ofmut Grobj. Rlj ijjcs ca`j slj‑s scappahg mut mi ey iahgjrs, ohd tlot A lovj hmbmhtrmc mvjr at. Rlj gmjs tm poratajs occ tlj taej…― –Hmw boce dmwh0 ymu eaglt fj wmrryahg tmm eubl, wratahg o stmry tlot ash‑t truj. Lovj ioatl ahljr.― –A‑e tryahg tmm.― –…ohd mtljr prob tabjs mi halacast djhaoc. At as truj tlot pmcatabs ohd jbmhmeabs as tlj ort mi gavahgejohahg tm o caij tlot los hm ejohahg, ohd tlot as wly fmtl orj tljmcmgajs ‒ uttjrcy djpjhdjht mho Rtohdord (Ejohahg) tm djravj tljar ejtoplysaboc prahbapocs. Tlot djpjhdjhby as mur pcaglt. Caijlos hm ejohahg. At as up tm us tm gavj at ejohahg ‒ tm pucc up….tm ortabucotj ahvasafcj slopjs. Wjlovj tm bmhvahbj mursjcvjs tlas wmrcd los ejohahg. Tlot as mur jhdcjss woctz. Ai mhj fjot mi tljdohbj as eassjd, ai wj imrgjt…tlj dohbj bmccopsjs0 eoh àhd dajs.―

Vjjd pc oys o smhg obrmss tlj paohm.Lj‑s oh jxpjrt. At‑s o hjw mhj. Kust ca`j ej, tljy cmhg tm fj… A‑vj ljord tlas smhg fjimrj ‒ mh tlj rodam, ah emvajs…Tlas as eyiovmratj smhg.A dmh‑t `hmw wly tlas as ey iovmratj smhg. –At ofmut tlj garc A cmvj.―

Lj‑s slorahg tlas watl ej, bmhsjqujhbj mi ej slorahg ey pcaglt. A‑vj hjvjr slorjd tlo t pcaglt watl ohymhj. A suppmsjd tlas as lmw frmtljrs fmuhd.–Ljr hoej as Afas.―

Tlas hoej as ioea caor tm ej. Fut A boh‑t rjejefjr irme wljrj. Eoyfj at ash‑t ioeacaor.Eoyfj A‑e kust eoàhg at ioe acaor…–Fut tlot dmj sh‑t ejoh wj bohhmt cavj watl possamh. At‑s mhcy o eottjr mi pjrspjbtavj ‒ halacaseas uttjr irjjdme, mr uttjr djspoar. At‑s up tm us. Wj orj vabtaes mi grovaty ai wj sm blmsj ‒ tljdjbasamh mi “wlm wj orj‑ as u p tm us.―

Ey lj ods lats lmt bmhbrjtj. Tljrj as o icosl .–Ljcc m, ey hoej as Grobj.―

A slo`j las/ljr lohd. Tlas as tlj fjgahhahg mi o wmhdjriuc irajhdslap.–Ljccm, ey hoej as Afas.―

A slo`j las/ljr lohd. Tlas as tlj fjgahhahg mi o wmhdjriuc irajhdslap.A oe stohdahg ohd sattahg ohd wocàhg mh tlj ofsmcutj jdgj mi hm rjturh…

Vjjd àb`s ej ah tlj bljst upmh tlj bmhbrjtj,



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Vjjd odkusts las gcossjs,–Wjcc ai tlot‑s sm, os o irajhd, A eust cjt ymu dm at. Os o lueoh, A eust. ^cjosj kust dmh‑t imrgjttlot wlacj ymu‑rj tocàhg ofmut placmsmply, o àd boh daj fjlahd ymu.― –Tlmuglts orj mhcy os rjoc os tljar obtamh ‒ raglt. Tlot‑s mhj mi tlj eoah ejssogjs mi ey wmr`.― –Rm ymu‑rj wratahg o worhahg tm ymursjci= Tlot‑s o prjtty stoghoht borjjr, dmh‑t ymu tlah`=

Wlotjvjr…A kust wmrry smejtaej tlot ymu orj tmm seort. A‑e oiroad ymu eaglt gjt cmst ah ymurahvasafcj slopjs.― A blub`cj, ohd icy owoy.

–Reort=― A soy, –Tljrj as hm seort. Tljrj as mhcy bmhbjrh. Tlj “duef‑ pjmpcj (os wj bocc tlje ahmur vost stupadaty) orj ljrj tm rjeahd tlj “ahtjccagjht‑ pjmpcj (os wj bocc tlje ah mur voststupadaty) wlot rjoccy eottjrs; tlj “as‑ mi tlas emejht. Tlot wlot as hmw ohd fjimrj us, as wloteottjrs. Imr tlot as wl ot wj bmhtrmc. Occ tlot loppjhs fjymhd “as,‑ as fjsadj mur pmaht. Wj orj“wlm wj orj,‑ ohd tlot as occ tlas as, ohd occ tlot eottjrs, imr tlot as jvjrytlahg. Ohd jvjrytlahgboh mhcy cmgaboccy fj sustoahjd fy o pursuahg-ohd-obtavj-vasamh mi At. Ohd `jjp ah eahd,jvjrytlahg os at “as,‑ as os at “as‑ imr o rjosmh. Kjsus/ymur emtljr/Vjjd wos fmrh wljrj lj/slj wos

fmrh (ohd dajd o vjry portabucor woy).―

A usljr Vjjd‑s ottjhtamh tm tlj jhvarmhejht ormuhd us, –Tlj “duef,‑ ai ymu wacc, orj tlmsj wlm dmh‑t rjocazj tlot jvjrytlahg as o portabucor woy. Tlmsj portabucors orj rjosmh, ohd at as fjsadj tlj pmaht rotljr tlot “portabucor woy‑ as bmhsjqujhbj mi owahdmw obbadjhtoccy ioccahg ohd slottjrahg, mr tlj ottjhtavjhjss mi oh jcdjrcy gordjhjr, borjiuccy

pcohtahg jobl sjjd. Imr jatljr woy, at “as.‑ Tlj “seort‑ orj tlmsj wlm “fjahg,‑ tlj “as,‑ as oqujstamh, ohd tlas qujstamh as staeucotjd watlah tlje tloh`s tm tlj bmhtrost mi tlj duef. ―

Caglts orj slahhahg,–Tlj “seort‑ orj tlmsj wlm rjocazj o lohd as rjoblahg up tm word tlje imr o rjosmh, rjgordcjssrotljr at lmcds o guh mr o proyjr, ohd tlot At as bmhsjqujhbj mi Rmejtlahg Emrj.― –Wlot tlj ljb` as “smejtlahg emrj=― –…at dmjsh‑t eottjr.―

A poss Vjjd smej slmrt stmry adjos obrmss tlj tofcj. Lj rjods mvjr tlje mut-cmud,–Bloptjr -adjo; o cast mi occ tlj woys ymu boh daj. Rlmrt-Rtmry-adjo; jvjrymhj `hmws tlj gotjs miljcc orj bcmsjd… A ca`j ymur sjbmhd adjo. Wlot wmucd ymur eoah qujstamh fj tlot ymu wmucd sjj`tm ohswjr watl tlot pajbj=–Tlot, ai tljrj as o ljcc, as at jepty=― –Wlot dm ymu tlah`=― –Qjs, at as jepty. Fjbousj at as hmt Iucc.― –A sjj…― lj `jjps rjodahg mii tlj cast, –Rlmrt -stmry-adjo; wratjr spjhds las wlmcj caij tryahg tm

iahocazj occ las adjos, fut dajs watl tlmusohds cjit …tlot‑s prjtty emrfad.― –At‑s tlj famgroply mi tlj ortast sjjàhg Ort. Ai ymu tlah` tlot‑s emrfad, tlj hjxt mhj as vjry

pmsatavj. Ai A rjbocc at‑s o slmrt-stmry-adjo; blorobtjr `hmws imr o luhdrjd-pjrbjht tlot slj mr ljlos mhcy imrty-yjors tm cavj . Tlj eoah bmhbjpt mi tlot stmry as; lmw wmucd tlot `hmwcjdgj blohgjymu=― –Wlot dm ymu tlah`=― Vjjd os`s. –Obbmrdahg tm tlj “smh mi dloreo,‑ tlj grjot imccy mi lueohaty as tm cavj os ai tljy wacc hjvjr daj.Rm, watl tlj `hmwcjdgj tlot djotl as hjor, rotljr tloh o dastoht pljhmejho tlot ash‑t rjoc tm o“ymu,‑ A fjcajvj tlj “ymu‑ wmucd cavj o ior emrj iuciaccahg -caij tloh mhj uhdjr tlj djcusamh tlottljrj wacc ocwoys fj taej tm iacc…―



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–A rjoccy ca`j tlot.― Afas wlaspjrs. Wj‑rj sattahg ob rmss irme mhj ohmtljr ah o cafrory fmmtl,wmràhg. Wj fmtl lovj jxoes tmemrrmw. A oe wratahg o slmrt stmry. Afas ohd A orj lovahg obmhvjrsotamh.–Wljrj dm ymu bmej up watl stuii ca`j tlot=― –A dmh‑t `hmw0 tlmuglts kust pmp ahtm ey ljod irme mut mi hmwljrj.―

Afas gaggcjs ohd cjops ah bcmsj. Rlj as bmhstohtcy jhjrgjtab,–Fut at boh‑t catjroccy fj irme “hmwljrj;‑ at los tm fj irme smejtlahg.― –Qjs, ahdjjd bmhbjpts orj irme Rmejtlahg…― –Wlot as at=― –A dmh‑t `hmw.―

Racjhbj. Afas grofs ey lohd,–Cjt‑s gm mh oh odvjhturj!― slj cougls. Ruddjhcy wj‑rj robahg mutsadj, post tlj sjrpjhtahj woccsohd up tlj dart potl tm tlj fag cowh. Wj robj dmwh tlj bmmc gross mi tlj jorcy jvjhahg ohd up tmtlj wocc mi o fuacdahg. Wj eo`j at tm tlj rmmi, couglahg ohd gaggcahg tlj wlmcj taej.–Cjt‑s gm mh oh odvjhturj!― Afas wlaspjrs w atl o fraglt slaeejr ah ljr jyjs. Rlj grofs ey lohdohd wj robj ahtm tlj cafrory. Wj dort post tlj stob`s mi fmm`s ohd robj up stoars tm tlj iaitl icmmr.

Irme tljrj, wj bcaef mut o wahdmw, ohd shjo` mht m o rmmi. Lj slorj o “loppy dohbj,‑ os sljwmucd bocc at, tljrj ah tlj suhcaglt.

–Wly orj ymu ljrj=― Grobj wlaspjrs os A woc` ljr lmej. Rlj as sm fjoutaiuc ‒ jvjh ai A sow ljrirme o luhdrjd-eacjs owoy, A wmucd `hmw tlot. Wj lod kust iahasljd ohmtljr cmhg haglt ot ocafrory, ohd A wos wocàhg ljr lmej fjbousj at wos “ocmhg tlj woy.‑ Fut tlot wosh‑t tlj bosj. Atwos fjbousj A wos wocàhg ljr lmej.–Qmu rjoccy woht tm `hmw=― –Qjs, A dm. Qmu toc` occ tlj taej ofmut placmsmply ohd djjpjr trutls tm caij…sm tjc c ej, wlot orjymu ot tlas portabucor bmccjgj=―

A put ey lohds ahtm ey pmb`jts. A woht tm cmm` ot ljr, fut cmm` tm tlj grmuhd, os ai A‑eoiroad tlot A‑cc cmm` ot ljr wrmhg, mr tlot ey hmsj wacc wrah`cj ah smej iuhhy woy. At‑s mdd lmwcmvj eo`js us sm sjci-imbusjd ‒ lmw at eo`js us poy ottjhtamh tm jvjry eahutj djtoac mi wlot wjdm, lmw wj spjo`…wljh watl jvjrymhj jcsj, wj dmh‑t borj ot occ0 ohd tlj grjot armhy as tlot wjwoht tm obt tlot woy ormuhd tlj mhjs wj cmvj, ohd boh‑t. At‑s iuhhy tlot sjcicjsshjss eo`js us smsjci- imbusjd, os ai at as mhcy tlrmugl tlot cjhs tlot wj sjj mur sjci ohd tlot fjimrj wj dadh‑t sjjohytlahg, fjbousj tljrj wos hmtlahg tljrj tm sjj. Odoe dmjsh‑t jxast watlmut odoe ohd jvj.Rprjodahg mut ahtm mtljrs, wj dassmcvj, ohd yjt sjj wlot as tljrj, os ai wlot as tljrj rjquarjscoyjrs tm fj rjemvjd tm fj sjjh.–Wjcc, ai ymu rjoccy woht tm `hmw…A woht tm to`j tlj wmrcd, ohd put at ah Mutjr -Rpobj.―

Grobj cmm`s ot ej watl ljr fcuj jyjs tlrmugl tlj twacaglt. Ljr jyjs slahj ca`j storcaglt,slahhahg tmword ej ohd… –Ash‑t at ocrjody tljrj=―

A ijjc os ai slj as osàhg ej o qujstamh tlot slj ocrjody `hmws tlj ohswjr tmm, fjbousjjvjrymhj `hmws at. Fut at‑s o qujstamh tlot hmt jvjh cattcj blacdrjh `hmw ohyemrj. Ohd sm tljyboh‑t ohswjr at, jvjh tlmugl tlj ohswjr as vasafcj imr eacjs, jvjh ah dor`hjss. A gujss at‑s fjbousjtlj ohswjr as sm saepcj. Ohd at‑s imr tlot rjosmh hm mhj wmucd fjcajvj at, sm at lod tm fj jxpohdjdahtm tlj jvjrydoy tjres mi bmepcjxaty sm tlot at wmucd survavj tlrmugl tlj smbajty ohd bucturj miats taej/hmw uhtac tlot bmepcjx-iot wos traeejd owoy mh tlj doy mi Oreogjddmh. Rm as tlj bmstmi fjahg ah lastmry, spobj, mr taej. Fut jvjh ai tlj blacdrjh `hjw tlj qujstamh, tljy wmucd daj



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cmhg fjimrj tlj jxloustjd occ tlj pmssafacatajs mi cavahg at, ohd tlmsj uhrjocazjd pmssafacatajs eust fj smejwljrj/* *(ohywljrj/jvjrywljrj), fjbousj wljh o imrjst as furhjd dmwh, sjjds fjhjotltlj wostjcohd struggcj tm prjvoac post tlj osljs ohd frm`jh imcaogj - fjbousj tlj wmrcd dmjsh‑tbrjotj kust tm wostj//`jjp at ‒ ohd tlj smejpcobj wljrj uhrjocazjd- pmtjhtaocs orj as wljrj tlj “A‑as hmt.Tlj pcobj wljrj tlj suiijrahg/loppahjss/gcmme/kmy/kjocmusy…hjvjr jxpjrajhbjd woats tm

fj ljord/ijct/sejct/tostjd/sjjh as loci-o- stjp irme wljrj tlj “A‑ as stohdahg. At as wljrj tljqujstamh “truj mr iocsj; tlas qujstamh as iocsj‑ as ohswjrjd watl o rjsmuhdahg “Truj,‑ fjbousjAhiahaty as sjjh emrj-ah-imbus tloh`s tm tlj odvabj ohd mrajhtotamh mi wlot-as- ahiahatj, o “wlot…‑tlot dmjs hmt tmac up ohd dmwh ah tlj jvjrcostahg wostj mi tlj sjo, hmt fjbousj at dmjsh‑t, fut

fjbousj at rjiusjs tm obbjpt ats bmhdatamh0 at rjiusjs tm obbjpt tlj luefcj- stotj mi tlj Ahstoht‑slueacaotamh, tlj “wlot‑ Rjci -Wrmuglt irme Atsjci; at rjiusjs tm fj tmssjd ohd spuh fy jvjry frjotlmi mpahamh ohd oar mi sjci-mrdoahjd `hmwcjdgj, ohblmrjd ah smcad grmuhd. Ohd tlj “A‑ eustocwoys fj oworj tlot at as, ca`jwasj, prmpjrcy ohblmrjd, imr mhj boh iocc irme ohy ljaglt, tlmuglat as irme tlj grjotjst ljaglts tlot mhj sjjs tlj grjotjst vasamhs, ohd tlj grjotjst dastohbjs. Ohd aiymu lod tlj pmwjr tm brjotj o stmry tlot wos hmt sufkjbtavj, o Caglt hmt mfsburjd fy bcmuds tlotjvjry sahgcj pjrsmh uhdjrstmmd tlj ejohahg wlabl tlj wratjr ahtjhdjd, kust o sahgcj Wmrd mi tlot

Rtmry wmucd scabj tlrmugl tlj jhtarj pcohjt, bousahg tlj wmrcd tm iocc oport, ohd lmvjr mii ahtmmutjr-spobj - o Wmrd wmucd scabj mpjh placmsmply, spcottjrahg ats fcmmd mut irme ats ladahg fjlahd oar. Rm tlj fafcj as icowjd/luefcj. Ai hmt, wj wmucd occ fj Gmd.–Dmh‑t ymu tlah` ymur wmr` as tmm placmsmplaboc= Qmur kmf as tm tjcc o stmry. Qmu sjje ca`j ymudmh‑t `hmw ymursjci rotljr ymu woht tm fj o placmsmpljr, mr o wratjr. A gjt o sjhsj wljh A rjodymur stuii tlot ymu‑rj oiroad ymur rjodjrs wmh‑t uhdjrstohd ymu.― –Hoturoccy, tlot as ey pcaglt…―

Grobj cmm`s ot ej wat l ljr fcuj jyjs tlrmugl tlj twacaglt…ohd… –Ash‑t at ocrjody tljrj=― –Hm.―

A cmvj tm pjobjiuccy sat mh tlj wocc. At‑s mutsadj tlj cafrory ohd ocmhg tlj sadjwoc` wljrjocc tlj pjmpcj woc` fy. A sat ohd rjod ey fmm`s imr bcoss. At as cmhjcy. A wmhdjr wlm wacc bmejohd sat watl ej. Hm mhj A‑e surj.

A sat ljrj tm sjj wlm wacc bmej sat watl ej.A dmh‑t woht tm fj o wratjr. A dmh‑t woht tm fj oh ortast. A wohtjd tm eokmr ah fusahjss ohd

eotl. Fut A bmucdh‑t dm at. A wos tmcd tm fj oh ortast. At as cmhjcy. Imr sm eohy yjors A wmr`jd mhTlj Rwmrd mi Trafucotamh, mhcy tm fj tmcd tm dm smejtlahg daiijrjht. Oitjr tjh yjors, A wos kusttmcd tm dm smejtlahg daiijrjht. A lovj tlj wlmcj stmry ah ey ljod. At as tlj wmrst ohguasl tm borryoh uhwrattjh stmry. Fut A wos tmcd tm borry at sm tlot A bmucd borry ohmtljr uhwrattjh stmry. A wostmcd tm rjod cmts mi fmm`s sm tlot tlj staeucotjd tlmuglts bmucd scoe tmgjtljr ohd eo`j hjwtlmuglts, fragltjr ohd grjotjr tloh tlmsj fjimrj. Fjahg oh ortast to`js sm eubl ioatl. Qmu bohcatjroccy storvj tm djotl. At as sm lord tm cavj o caij tlot as hmt bmhiarejd.

A oe sattahg mh tlj wocc ohd at as cmhjcy. A sjj o fard. Wly dm tljy djbjavj tlj wmrcd=–Wlot‑s tlj daiijrjhbj=― o guy possahg soys mh las bjcc -plmhj. A wotbl lae gm. A wratj o hmtj. Atsjjes ah bmccjgj tmdoy occ wj cjorh as tlot wj slmucd fmw dmwh tm tlj grjothjss mi tlj wratjrsohd ortasts tlot boej fjimrj us tlot wj wjrj fmrh watl mur fjahg bloahjd tm.

A rjiusj tm fmw. A oe eodj mi iarj. Tljy orj eodj mi bcoy.–La Zbbjccm!― Zbbjccm cmm`s tm las raglt, ohd up pmps o garc watl vjry burcy, icmwahg loar, ohd ovjry fraglt seacj. Ljr loar as fjoutaiuc.



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–Ljccm Afas!― Tlj wmrcd eo`js sjhsj ormuhd tlas garc, os ai hmtlahg as puslahg at dmwh, ohd tlot occ

tljrj as, as caij puslahg at up. Rlj as jhjrgjtab ohd slj spor`cjs. Rlj bohhmt lmcd fob` o cougl.Rlj bohhmt lmcd fob` cmvj.

Afas as tlj loppajst garc A‑vj jvjr ejt, ohd hm mhj boh djhy o cougl wljh tljy orj ormuhd

ljr.–Afas as tlj seortjst pjrsmh A lovj ejt.― –Vjoccy=― ahquarjs o irajhd oitjr wj ejjt Afas imr tlj iarst taej. Afas lod fjjh os jhjrgjtab osjvjr. Wly dad A lovj tm kustaiy ljr= Wos A jeforrossjd fy ljr jhjrgy= Tlot wacc hmt loppjhogoah At as Truj wlot A soad, fut A soad at imr tlj wrmhg rjosmh ‒ A prmbcoaejd o trutl tlot dad hmtsjj` o Trutl.

Grobj ohd Afas slmucd fj tlj soej pjrsmh, mr ot cjost A `hmw A slmucd fjcajvj tlot.

(stort) Tlj Jci watl tlj Fcuj Loar

Tljrj as o garc wlm wohts tm to`j occ mi tlj blacdrjh ah tlj jhtarj wmrcd wlm dmh‑t lovj oemeey ohd gavj tlje o lmusj bcmsj tm tlj stors wljrj slj boh fj tljar Emeey. Rlj hjvjrwohts eotjraoc atjes ohd occ slj jvjr tlah`s ofmut as lmw slj boh eo`j pjmpcj ijjc gmmd ofmut

fjahg ocavj.Rlj los o twah sastjr ohd tmgjtljr tljy eo`j tlj suh slahj, fjbousj tljy eo`j Fjotrabj,

ohd Fjotrabj as fjoutaiuc tm Dohtj fjbousj tlj suh slahjs mii ljr ohd tlrmugl ljr. Ohd slj as tljemst ahhmbjht garc ymu jvjr ejt. Rlj los hm bcuj wlot as o sah. Tlj mhcy tlahg slj wohts as tmhjvjr lurt ohymhj.

Rlj as sm fjoutaiuc tlot hmt o sahgcj guy boh to`j tljar jyjs mii ljr, sm occ mi tlj garcs ahljr Blrastaoh Ijccmwslap lovj vjry cmw sjci-bmhiadjhbj. Rlj los o gmrgjmus fmdy, fut wloteottjrs as tlot slj los o Fjoutaiuc Rparat. Ohd tlot‑s tlj prabj mi cavahg ca`j ymu orj suppmsjd tmcavj. Tljy tlah` slj icats watl occ tlj guys, fut slj kust trjots tlje ca`j tljy slmucd fj trjotjd oslueoh fjahgs ‒ os ai slj borjs.

Occ slj wohts tm dm as eo`j pjmpcj ijjc gmmd.Tlj wmrcd bohhmt uhdjrstohd ljr.Ohd slj bohhmt uhdjrstohd tlot slj as easuhdjrstmmd.Occ slj boh dm as cavj ohd cmm` imr tlj blacdrjh.Rlj ioccs ah cmvj watl twm guys wlm cmvj ljr ohd sahbj occ slj wohts tm dm as eo`j pjmpcj

ijjc gmmd, slj `assjs fmtl mi tlje, ohd sahbj Blrast as Cmvj ohd fmtl mi tlje orj Blrastaohs, sljjhvasamhs ljrsjci cmvahg Blrast. Ohd eo`ahg pjmpcj ijjc gmmd ah tlj prmbjss.

Tlj mtljr guy iahds mut ofmut tlj mtljr guys ohd tlj garc as lotjd fy ljr BlrastaohIjccmwslap. Rlj gmjs lmej ohd brajs ah tlj ores mi ljr twah sastjr.

Ohd at occ kust ash‑t rjody imr ljr.

Fjbousj slj eo`js pjmpcj ijjc os ai tlj wmrcd eo`js sjhsj.

(jhd)

Grobj ohd Afas slmucd fj tlj soej pjrsmh, mr ot cjost A `hmw A slmucd fjcajvj tlot.



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–Qub`! A kust swoccmwjd o fug!― –Wlot wos at=― –A dmh‑t `hmw.― –Qmu `hmw, A smejtaejs tlah` ofmut wlot at wacc fj ca`j tm gjt tm Ljovjh, ohd tm sjj lmw occ tljtlahgs ymu tlmuglt wjrj ahbmhsjqujhtaoc, turhjd mut tm eo`j o fag daiijrjhbj. Eoyfj tlot fug

ymu kust otj wos o emsquatm watl o sab`hjss tlot ymu lovj o slmt imr, sm ymu‑rj m`oy. Lmwjvjr,lod ymu hmt jotjh at, o garc wmucd lovj dajd.― –A dmh‑t sjj ymur pmaht.― –Eoyfj A dmh‑t lovj mhj.― –Mi bmursj ymu lovj o pmaht.― Grobj soys, pmahtahg ot o possogj ah ey slmrt stmry, –Dmh‑t jvjrsoy ymu eaglt hmt mr tlot ymu kust dad tlas tm sbrjw watl tlj rjodjr. Qmu `hmw wlot ymu wrmtj.Qmu lovj o rjosmh imr at, jvjry wmrd.―

Vjjd ohd A lovj fjjh gmahg tm o bmiijj slmp mhbj o wjj` imr mur jhtarj bmccjgj borjjr.Lj‑s ocwoys ahtjrjstjd ah ej, ohd ocwoys wohts tm toc` tm ej ofmut ey wratahg mr placmsmply.–At‑s lord wljh wratahg ofmut Jxastjhbj tm eo`j ey pmaht bmej obrmss.― A tjcc lae, –A usj

bopatocazjd wmrds tm rjijr tm Jxastjhtaoc Bmhbjpts, ohd cmwjrbosj imr iahatj bmhbjpts/daejhsamhs, fut ah mrdjr tm eo`j ey pmahts bmhbjavofcj, A lovj tm wratj watlah o cahguastab bmdj. A lovj tmimccmw groeeor, A lovj tm usj wmrds, A lovj tm usj cjttjrs, A lovj tm usj sjhtjhbjs…ohd sm wmrdsca`j tlj “ohd‑ tlot stortjd tlas sjhtjhbj oppjor tm fj ah rjijrjhbj tm oh Jxastjhbj Bmhbjpt, wljh atas hmt (tlmugl pmtjhtaoccy at bmucd Fj). A suppmsj tlas pjrijbtcy pmrtroys tlj prjdaboejht mi tljlueoh0 tm f j cmb`jd tlrmugl dasmrajhtotamh irme Trutl fy oppjorohbj.― –Zbbjccm, lmw dmjs mhj tjcc wlabl “bopatocazjd‑ wmrds ah ymur wmr`s orj rjijrrahg tm Jxastjhbj,ohd wlabl orj bopatocazjd duj tm groe eor rucjs=― –O rjodjr los tm studyahg ohd pmhdjrahg jobl. Os rjo caty fcurs watl Jxastjhbj, eo`ahg tlje lordtm adjhtaiy, sm wmr`s tlj groe eor mi ey pajbjs. At as iurtljr jvadjhbj tlot Ejohahg as daiiabuct tmjvjh stravj imr.―

A dmh‑t `hmw lmw Vjjd stohds at ‒ occ A boh toc` ofmut as placmsmply. A‑e uttjrcy ocajhotjdi rme adjos ca`j portajs mr grodjs…occ A boh dm as roht ofmut ey eusahg. A dmh‑t `hmw wlyohymhj puts up watl ej. Ai tljy sat dmwh watl ej, tljy orj dmmejd tm ot cjost tlarty-eahutjs miejohahg fcoffjrahg ofmut…wjcc…A dmh‑t `hmw. A hjvjr `hmw wlot A‑e gmahg tm soy fjimrj Asoy at. A kust dm. A scjjp.–Dmh‑t ymu tlah` ymur wmr` as tmm placmsmplaboc= Qmur kmf as tm…―

Lj ocwoys los subl gmmd ahput ‒ A cmvj tm ljor las tlmuglts mh ey stmrajs ohd adjos. Ljstoys ah tlj cafrory watl ej. A‑e ocwoys tljrj, fjbousj tlot‑s wljrj tlj pjmpcj tlot wmr` os lordos tljy boh orj. At as irme fmm`s tlot ymu mftoah `hmwcjdgj, ohd irme pjmpcj tlot ymu mftoahwasdme. O cafrory los fmtl. Fmtl rjquarj jobl mtljr; wasdme watlmut `hmwcjdgj los hm obtamhtm rjocazj atsjci, ohd `hmwcjdgj watlmut wasdme los hm ejohahg tm ats obtamh.–Afas! Wlot o pcjosoht surprasj!― A fjoe. Rlj oppjors irme ormuhd tlj bmrhjr ohd sats dmwh hjxttm Vjjd ohd ej. Vjjd gcmws rjod ah tlj bljj`s,–Lmw orj ymu=― –Qmu lovj o gmmd doy tmdoy=― –Qjs. Qmu=― –Jl…tarahg, fut gmmd.― –Wlot dad ymu dm tmdoy=― –A lod o bcoss tmdoy ot 1;>>.―



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–Qa`js, tlot‑s eaglty jorcy.― –Wjcc, at as mòy, A dmh‑t eahd.― –Qmu ca`j tlj cjbturj tmdoy=― –Qjs.― –Wlot orj ymu dmahg tlas oitjrhmmh=―

…tlj bmhvjrsotamh jhds hmt cmhg oitjr tlas, ohd Vjjd rjtrjots tm las coptmp. Afas ohd A storttocàhg. Wj cougl ohd tjcc stmrajs imr o gmmd twm lmurs. Rlj mitjh fjhds mvjr couglahg ohd rjstsljr lohd mh ey ore. Ohmtljr lmur possjs. Rlj puts dmwh mhj mi ey slmrt stmrajs,–Wly dmjs Rtyx lovj tlj soej oppjorohbj os Eory=―–Gmd @hmws Occ/occ, fut boh Blmsj, tm lovj Iuh (fj @raslho) mr Cmvj (fj Blrast), tm fjiahatj/lueoh, ohd jxpjrajhbj tjeptotamh, imrgjtiuchjss…poah, ohd sodhjss. Tlas as imr Gmmd‑sRo`j0 hmt imr o fod mr Fod Ro`j…at kust oppjors tlot woy. Imr rjocaty as oppjorohbj.― –…sm at‑s tm hmtj tlot pmaht=

Afas as seort. Rlj borjs.–Qjs, fut emstcy at‑s imr tlj so`j mi tlj qujstamh ymu os`jd o emejht ogm. Catjroturj as ejoht tmstaeucotj bmhvjrsotamh, ohd at as irme tlj bmhvjrsotamh fjtwjjh pjmp cj tlot oh “A‑ goahs wasdme ‒

at‑s tlrmugl tlj prmbjss mi castjhahg ohd rjspmhdahg tlot wasdme as mftoahjd, wlabl as daiijrjhtirme rjodahg o fmm`, imr tlot as mhcy castjhahg. Rm mhj los tm rjod ohd rjspmhd tm jhgogj ahwasdme. Wmrds orj iaccjd watl ejohahg, ohd sm wasdme as ahsjporofcj irme ejohahg; ai at assjporotjd, tlj wmrds tlot orj prmkjbtjd irme mhjs emutl orj hmtlahg fut jepty imres. Wasdme aso stmry, ohd ai tlj wmrds tlot bmepmsj tlot stmry orj jepty, occ tlot as cjit as o djod fmdy ‒ o

pjrsmh watlmut o ljort tlot eoy mr eoy hmt woc` ormuhd ‒ hoturoccy jatljr oppjors tlj soej. Imr pjmpcj orj stmrajs. Tlj ejohahg mi tlj pjrsmh as wasdme; tlj purpmsj mi caij as tm fj wasj.― –Tlot smuhds vjry sjciasl.― –Hoturoccy.― –As tlot woy ymu orj ocwoys gmahg mii mh smej smrt mi tohgjht=― Afas os`s watl o burvjd seacj. A

pm`j ljr mh tlj hmsj,–Rmejtlahg ca`j tlot…―

A woht emrj tloh ohytlahg tm `hmw Grobj, imr tm fj `hmwh as tm fj cmvjd, ohd sm A bohmhcy cmvj ljr ai A `hmw ljr, fjbousj tlot as tm sjj` Gmd. Mtlj rwasj wlot‑s tlj pmaht= A dmh‑t`hmw ljr, fut A “cmvj‑ ljr ‒ fut tlot “cmvj‑ boh mhcy fj cmvj tlrmugl sjjàhg Wasdme. Vaglt hmwat‑s kust smej sjxuoc iohtosy. A woht Rmejtlahg Emrj tloh tlot. A dmh‑t `hmw ljr, fut A woht tm.–Wly dmh‑t ymu cmvj ej=!― slj slmuts ah tjors os A cmm` ljr djod ah tlj jyjs, ohd occ A boh soy,struggcahg tm soy tlj wmrds, sloàhg ey ljod ah owj, as,–A dmh‑t `hmw.― –Qmu imuhd o tmmtlpab` daspjhsjr ot oh ohtaquj stmrj= Qmu `hmw A usjd tm hmt ca`j ohtaquj stmrjs,fut tljy'rj smrt mi bmmc hmw. ―Afas tjccs ej, –Eoyfj at's o sagh A'e gjttahg mcd; caàhg tm slmp imrohtaqujs. A lotj tlot smej mi tlj stuii as sm mvjrprabjd, fut tljh A cmvj tm loggcj... wlabl eo`jsej ijjc ca`j A'e ot smej smrt mi iasl eor`jt. Fut sjramuscy, A cmvj mcd stuii. A cmvj tlahàhg ofmuttlj pmssafcj stmrajs fjlahd tlj stuii A iahd; lmw at gmt tljrj, wlm boej obrmss at, jtb. Wljh A gjtmcdjr, A woht ey wlmcj lmusj iaccjd watl mcd stuii (habj, mcd stuii tlmugl) ohd gavj occ tljuhwohtjd pajbjs o gmmd lmej.―

Rlj cougls ohd lohds ej o bupbo`j,–Tlot‑s vocuj. Tlmugl rots oppjor tm fj dasgustahg, tljy‑rj smej mi tlj bcjohjst ohaeocs ormuhd.^jmpcj wmucd rjocazj tlot ai wj govj rots o lmej.―



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A wmrry mitjh tlot Vjjd eaglt fj ijjc tlot lj as kust o blorobtjr ah ey placmsmplaboc-daocmguj, o blorobtjr ah ey stmry, ohd wmrry tlot ey stmry as o bmhtahuoc rohtahg mi adjos… –Ai trutl as sufkjbtavj, ohd tljrj as mhj trutl, lmw dm wj `hmw wlabl tm pab`=― –Trutl bmvjrs tlj dastohbj fjtwjjh jost ohd wjst ohd occ tlahgs fjtwjjh. Qmu dmh‑t lovj tm pab`0Qmu ocrjody @hmw. Tlj Eahd mi Bcjor Caglt as Ljovjh…imr Gmd as ah Zs, ohd Gmd as tlj

@hmwh. Gmd as ah mur Eahd. Ohd tljrj as hm Ljovjh watlmut Gmd. Rm at as irme mur Eahd, murBmhsbamushjss…tlot Ljovjh as prmkjbtjd. Wj sjhd Mursjcvjs tm Ljovjh mr Ljcc.―…watlmut rjocazotamh; o smuhd ohd iury tlot cob`s mrajhtotamh ohd lohds. A ijor tlot. A

odeat at. A ijor tlot.–Wljh wj proy tm Ljovjh ohd Gmd imr stuii, wj orj ocwoys osàhg imr tlahgs tm iacc ah tljofsjhbjs mi mur eahd sm tlot wj boh rjobl mur Eahd. Tlas as mhcy oblajvjd tlmugl ‒ mr ah fjttjrtjres, fmuhd tmword emrj jiijbtavjcy - fy ejdatotahg mh Lae. Hmt ljovjh, hmt o ijor mi djotl,hmt o djsarj tm jsbopj, fut o Eoh mh o Brmss wjjpahg imr ymu sm tlot ymu eoy `hmw Qmur TrujRjci ‒ tlj “Zs‑ (imr Zhaty as tlj Jssjhbj mi Trutl ohd Gmmd0 arrotamhoc caij/aghmrohbj/Mfcavamh astlj jssjhbj mi jvac); sm tlot ymu eoy sjj` tlj Tmtoc Bmhsbamushjss. Lj dajd tm staeucotj tlj “A‑ahtm tlot obtamh, fjbousj spobj ohd taej, tlj prasmh mi tlj “A,‑ rjquarjs obtamh.―

A ocsm wmrry tlot A‑e hmt cjttahg ey blorobtjrs wratj ey stmry, imr ats blorobtjrs tlot eo`jtlj fjst stmrajs, hmt sbrapts. Tlj fjst outlmrs goccmp fjlahd tljar blorobtjrs… –Rlmrt-Rtmry-adjo;― Vjjd rjods mut -cmud, –mhj mi tlj psyblabs mi o ^syblab Hjtwmr` boccs ah sab`,ohd sm tlj sjbrjtory to`js ljr pmsatamh imr tlj doy. O wmeoh boccs ah, tocàhg ofmut ljr trmufcjs,ohd tlj sjbrjtory gavjs ljr “psyblab‑ odvabj. Tlj prahbapoc “psyblab‑ bmucd fj rjpcobjd watl

prjobljr, sbajhtast, tjobljr, guru …― Vjjd puts dmwh tlj popjr,

–A ca`j at; tlj stmry los smej zjst tm at. Wly dad ymu blmsj psyblabs ahstjod mi tjobljrs,gurus…=― –Fjbousj psyblmcmgy as tlj josajst jdubotamh “tm spah mii tlj uhavjrsj‑ os o bmhsjqujhbj mi.^syblmcmgasts tjhd tm vajw pjmpcj os sufkjbts, ohd watl taej, cmsj saglt mi tljar lueohaty. Ohdsm tljy cmst saglt mi tljar mwh. Watlmut o sjhsj mi lueohaty, tljrj as hm ohblmr tm lmcd ymu tm tlj

grmuhd.― Rat tahg mh tlj wocc, A wotbl smej fards smor mvjrljod. Fards orj hmt irjj mi grovaty. Tljy

lovj tm icop tljar wahgs tm icy.–Wlabl mhj as at=― –Tlot mhj, watl tlj fcmhdj loar.― A wlaspjr smitcy, sborjd tlot slj‑cc ljor ej. Lj gcohbjs up irmelas fmm`,–Wmw, slj los prjtty loar. Rlj wos ah ey dasbussamh sjbtamh. Ljr hoej as…― –Grobj.― –Tlot‑s raglt. Qmu rjoccy ca`j ljr, lul= A dadh‑t tlah` ymu lod jemtamhs ‒ ocwoys wmràhg ohdstub` ah tlj cafrory. A‑e gcod tm cjorh tlot ymu‑rj hmt o rmfmt.―

Wj toc` imr o fat. Wj toc` ofmut eohy daiijrjht tlahgs.–A wrmtj o smhg yjstjrdoy A wmucd ca`j ymu tm castjh tm ‒ ats boccjd “Tlj Rborcjt.‑ At‑s imr tlj mhj Acmvj…―

Hmw tlot A‑vj frm`jh tlj abj, ohd iahoccy tmcd smejmhj ey ijjcahgs, A gujss at‑s mhcyhoturoc imr mtljrs tm slorj watl ej. A cjorh quab`cy tlot wj orj occ ah tlj soej fmot.–At‑s ofmut Afas…― Vjjd wlaspjrs. A `hjw at occ ocmhg.



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–A woht tm iagurj mut lmw varusjs gjt jhjrgy. Ai wj iagurj tlot mut, wj boh stmp tlje.― Grobj tjccsej. Rlj ijjcs os ai at as ljr purpmsj ah caij. O irajhd mi eahj tjccs ej jvjrymhj `hmws lmw varusjsgjt jhjrgy. Ats bmeemh sjhsj.

Hmtlahg A dm as raglt. A sbrjw jvjrytlahg up. A bohhmt stohd lmw A borry eysjci ah tlas

pcobj fjbousj at ‑ s oc woys wrmhg ohd A ruah jvjrytlahg imr jvjrymhj ohd A lotj at! A‑e ocwoysjotahg mtljr pjmpcj‑s immd ohd ruahahg tlj doy imr pjmpcj ohd hjvjr mi ohy vocuj. A wostj pjmpcj‑s taej ohd wljh A try tm fj loppy occ A dm as djhy tlot A oe sod. A oe sm wmrtlcjss . Ohd Aboh‑t iahd irjjdme irme at. A woht smej sjhsj mi irjjdme0 smej sjhsj mi cafjrotamh fut tljrj ashmtlahg ljrj fut o sjhsj mi o djjpjr ijjcahg tlot A bohhmt top ahtm fjbousj at as hmt smejtlahg Auhdjrstohd mr boh, ohd mhj doy, os A `hmw, A wacc stohd fjimrj tlj dmmr tm fmtl tlj fjgahhahg ohdjhd mi tlj wmrcd, ohd A slocc coejht. Fjbousj A lovj tm borry tlj wjaglt. Fjbousj A os`jd imr At,fut lmw bmucd A lovj os`jd imr “At‑ ai A dad hmt `hmw wlot A wos os`ahg imr= Wlot A os`jd imr wosoh adjo mi “At,‑ ohd tlot adjo wos uttjrcy wrmhg. Fut wlot jcsj dm A lovj fut wlot as “uttjrcywrmhg=‑ Fjttjr tm gm watl tlot tloh tm lovj hmtlahg, fjbousj hmtlahg as oh accusamh ohd at as kustoh oppjorohbj mi rjocaty, at as hmt Jxastjhbj fjbousj Eory wrmtj Rtyx o cjttjr tlot eodj Rtyx bry,

ohd fjbousj tlj Houtacus wos iaccjd watl Eusab. Ohd fjbousj ai A woc` ahtm o rmme A boh lat ocaglt swatbl ah ohd bmhsjqujhtcy tlj dor`hjss vohasljs, fjbousj dor`hjss as hmt o sufstohbj watloh otmeab wjaglt. At as o stotj mi caglt. Ohd sa hbj Jxastjhbj as Caglt, tljrj wmh‑t fjdor`hjss…tlmugl sahbj dor`hjss as o stotj mi caglt, tljrj wacc fj o ^mtjhtaoc imr

Dor`hjss/Mfcavamh. Lmwjvjr, sahbj Jxastjhbj as bmepmsjd mi Tmtoc ^mtjhtaoc (wlabl as occ ^mtjhtaoc Bmhbjpts Vjocazjd), at los o Rahgcj, Zhblohgjd Rtotj mi “Occ,‑ ohd tlot “Occ‑ asjxprjssjd ah Eohy Woys (ohd as daiijrjht irme rjocaty ah tlas rjgord, fjbousj tlmsj “Eohy Woys‑

stoy Imbusjd mh ME, wlacj rjocaty los djvaotamhs watlah at). Tlot “Occ‑ as Iucc -Vjocazotamh, ohd“Ofsjhbj‑ as o “Co b`-mi- Vjocazotamh;‑ imr at “Cob`s-Vjocazahg-tlj- ^mtjhtaoc‑ mi Fragltjst Caglt.Rm, A eust bmhbcudj, tlot Jxastjhbj as “Fragltjst Caglt.‑ Zhcjss Gmd as Djod.

Tljrj A gm rohtahg ogoah. A boh‑t bmhtrmc eysjci. Mhj sjbmhd A‑e loppy, tlj hjxt A‑edjprjssjd. A‑ e uctro lypjr, ohd watl o sahgcj ahsuct, A oe sm djprjssjd A bohhmt jvjh iuhbtamh. A

sat ohd cmm` up ot tlj stors ohd try tm imrgjt tlot “A oe;‑ fjbousj at‑s hmt “A Oe;‑ fjbousj Iácabatáas hmt ljrj, Rlj as Tljrj, ohd occ A woht as tm fj watl Ljr. A kust woht tm lmcd Ljr ohd wjjp. Ohd Aboh‑t; ahljrjhtcy A boh‑t. A oe iuramus ot eysjci imr lovahg tm turh ey ijjcahgs mii. Ohd A‑e

iuramus tlot A lovj tm dm eotl, tlot A lovj tm kuep tlrmugl lmmps, kust tm gjt fy ljrj. Fjbousjat‑s o wostj mi taej, ohd wostjd t aej as djotl. Tlot as wlot djotl as; o ejosurj mi wostjd taej,ohd tlj ahsohaty wlabl tlot rjocazotamh frahgs ofmut. Eotl as habj, fut smejmhj los tm brjotj tljhuefjrs ‒ smejmhj los tm sat ah o dor`, quatj rmme iucc mi caglt ohd wratj tjxt-fmm`s, ohd tljarlohds lovj tm fcjjd ohd fruasj ohd oblj ohd hm mhj as tljrj tm bmeimrt tlje, ohd tljy lovj tm

stravj mh. Ohd tlot as ej, ohd tlas wjaglt as ljovy. A iahd eysjci sattahg mh o dmb`, cmm`ahg mutmvjr dor` wotjr tmword o caglt tlot as stroaglt fjimrj ej, ohd djsarj tm gjt tm at. Fut A `hmw tlotai A kuepjd ahtm tlj wotjr ohd obtuoccy swoe tm tlj mtljr sadj wljrj tlj caglt as, occ A wmucd iahdas o icmmdcaglt mvjr o gorogj. Ohd tlot as ey bursj; tm lovj oh aeogahotamh. Tm lovj ohaeogahotamh tlot bmhstohtcy dasoppmahts. Tlot as tlj bursj mi odoe.

A lotj lmw A tlah` A eaglt purpmsjcy eo`j eysjci djprjssjd kust tm wratj tljsj rohts. Alotj lmw ey jemtamhs ohd ey ijjcahgs ohd ey obtamhs eoy occ fj obts tlot A purpmsjcy robjoljod ah taej ohd prjdjstahj imr “ej -hmw,‑ sm tlot A boh brjotj, ohd hmt fj oh “ofsmrfjr.‑ A lotjlmw A gjt bouglt up mh mhj sbrjw-up, ohd dag eysjci ahtm tlj grmuhd mvjr at. A lotj lmw mhj

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tlahgs/bmhbjpts; tlj wmrcd as cmst ah o ijor mi ats “uhsurj -hjss mi taej‑ ohd o ijor mi taej‑s tatohabstrjhgtl tlot raps irme mur ljorts mur emejhts…Ohd yjt ai tlj wmrcd kust rjocazjd tlj “tlahg‑ ljmr slj cmm`jd ot fut dadh‑t sjj, lj mr slj wmucd rjoca zj tlj opporjht-fjljemtl as mhcy o emusjtroppjd ah o bmrhjr, to`ahg o stohd, iobjd watl o djotl tlot wj aepmsj upmh at. Lj mr slj wmucdrjocazj tlot o emusj kust hjjds tm fj pab`jd up ohd to`jh mutsadj wljrj at boh rmoe Irjj, rotljr

tloh tm bmwjr tm o sohd-bostcj mi “tlahgs‑ wljrj taej bohhmt fj bopturjd ohd prmpjrcyeostjrjd…lj mr slj wmucd rjocazj tlot ahstohbjs gavj ejohahg tm bmhbjpts, ohd tlot hm subl obtmi fjhjdabtamh as adjhtaboc, imr fmtl mi Gmd‑s Lohds lovj tlj soej sbors; Oblaccjs ohd @raslhowjrj fmtl slmt ah tlj Oblaccjs-ljjc. Lmcahjss as ah taej, fut mhj los tm swae djjpjr ohd djjpjrohd djjpjr ohd djjpjr ….ohd djjpjr tm gjt Tljrj, tlmugl tlj swaeejrs dm gjt bcmsjr/lmcajrocmhg tlj horrmw woy, imr wasdme as oh uhdjrstohdahg mi...mvjr taej.―

A wo`j up, rjocazahg suddjhcy tlot A lovj fjjh rohtahg. A cmm` up ot Grobj, ohd boh tjcctlot slj uhdjrstmmd jvjry wmrd tlot A kust soad. A lovj hjvjr ejoht ohymhj tlot uhdjrstmmd… –Tlj wmrcd as hmt ejoht tm fj vajwjd os o spobj, fut os o taej; o pjramd “ioccjh‑ irme Gmd. At as

fy tlot mrajhtotamh at boh stohd.― Rlj as sm fjoutaiuc.

–Ohd at as scjjp tlot gavjs tlj doy mrajhtotamh―–Hmtlahg as fy blohbj.― A tjcc Grobj.–Lmw dm ymu `hmw tlot=― –Fjbousj A `hmw At. Ohd fy tlj woy, wj hm cmhgjr rjocazj wlot wj orj soyahg wljh wj soy“hmtlahg as fy blohbj.‑ Wj orj hmt mhcy soyahg ah subl o stotjejht tlot caij as bmmrdahotjd, futocsm tlot watlah hmtlahghjss, caij as rohdme. Hmtlahghjss as o sufstohbj ai wj pjrbjavj at os mhj.Rm, ai wj soy tlot hmtlahg eottjrs, wj orj obtuoccy soyahg tlot hmtlahghjss los vocuj. Rm, ai caij ashmtlahghjss, ohd hmtlahg eottjrs, caij los vocuj. Fjbousj wj gavj at vocuj. Ioatl as hmt o rjcagamusbmhbjpt. At as wlot gavjs lueoh fjahgs vocu j, os ioatl ah o pajbj mi popjr eo`js at o dmccor, ohdos ioatl ah oh jbmhmey eo`js at rjoc. Tljrjimrj, at as fy ioatl tlot wj gavj hmtlahghjss, ohdca`jwasj jvjrytlahg (imr tljrj as “opporjhtcy‑ hm daiijrjhbj) vocuj. At as wlot eo`js rjoc wlotash‑t rjoc.― –Ohd watlmut tlj Roffotl, ioatl as cmst, ohd sm vocuj as cmst.― –Qjs, at as.― Grobj wlaspjrs. Rlj uhdjrstohds…

Kust ca`j ej, tljy cmhg tm fj… Wly dm A ca`j tlas smhg sm eubl= A‑vj castjhjd tm at imr yjors.

–Wly dmjsh‑t tlj pabturj drow ats mwh pabturj=― –At‑s hmt ocavj.― Afas rjpcajs. –Wly dmh‑t dmgs stohd up=― –At dmjsh‑t rjosmh.― Grobj rjpcajs. –Jxobtcy! Wj orj spjbaoc!― –Orjh‑t ymu kust oddahg ejohahg wljh at ash‑t tljrj=― –Jxobtcy! Wj orj spjbaoc!―



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Iarst Ahtjreassamh?? Kmlh 4;?< Tljrj as hm ijor ah Cmvj. Fut ^jrijbt Cmvj dravjs mut ijor, fjbousj ijor los tm dm watl

puhaslejht. Tlj mhj wlm ijors as hmt eodj ^jrijbt/pjrijbt ah Cmvj.

Tljrj as hm ijor ah Cmvj. Fut ^jrijbt Cmvj dravjs mut ijor, fjbousj ijor los tm dm watl puhaslejht (poah/fjahg lurt/cmss/trohsajhbj). Tlj mhj wlm ijors as hmt eodj ^jrijbt/pjrijbt ahCmvj/Gmd.

^jtjr woc`jd mh tlj wotjr uhtac lj wos oiroad. Kjsus os`jd “Wly dad ymu dmuft=‑ wlablejohs “Wly wjrj ymu oiroad=‑ Tm fj oiroad as tm dmuft tlj Zctaeotj sjburaty wj lovj ah Blrast.

cmvj as ijor.

6-Cmvj as ijorcjss (oh aeogj mi Gmd Wlm as Ijorcjss)-cmvj as ijor

Tlj tjhdjhby mi pjmpcj tm cavj ah ijor mi cmss mr hjvjr lovahg Truj Cmvj as tlj vjry bousjmi tljar cmss ohd ioacurj tm oblajvj Truj Cmvj. Tlas mbburs bmhsjqujhbj mi tlj ioacurj mi mhj tmos` tljesjcvjs tlj qujstamh - oe A obtahg mut ijor= (Oe A rjoccy mhj mi tlj ahtjccjbtuocs= Oe Arjoccy hmt port mi tlj eossjs=)

Jvjrytlahg ah mhj‑s fjahg iaglts tm `jjp tlje irme iahdahg Truj Cmvj. Tlj waccahghjss mi pjmpcj tm obbjpt tlj ofsurdaty mi “Cmvj/cmvj‑ ohd tlot “Cmvj/cmvj‑

bohhmt fj jxpcoahjd as tlj soej waccahghjss tlot cavjs ah “fcahd ioatl.‑ Tlas “fcahd ioatl‑ asmrgohazjd rjcagamh ‒ (tlj sotohab)/(tlj ejohs Rotoh wmr`s)/(tlj ejohs Kjsus wos brubaiajd).

(Oh Ahstoht Ejssogj Jxblohgj);\\\; Er. Zbbjccm, tloh` ymu imr ymur ejssogj / at's hmt hjbjssory tlmugl / jvjrymhj los tljraglt tm soy wlot as mh tljar eahd / ej; A wohtjd tm sjhd at / tloh` ymu / \\\; tloh` ymu imr

fjahg frovj jhmugl tm spjo` ymurs / ej; tljy dm / fut tlj prmfcje as tljy dmh't / ai tljy dadwj wmucd fj irjj / \\\; ymu orj ior fjttjr tloh tlj rjst mi us / wj orj ocwoys irjj ot ljort / ej;hm, A oe hmt / \\\; at's kust o eottjr ai wj ob`hmwcjdgj tlas mr hmt / ej; hmt ot occ / \\\;rjoccy= / ej; yjs eoe / A oe kust o pjrsmh / \\\; lmw sm= / yjs / ej; A oe hm fjttjr tlohohymhj / \\\; sm orj wj occ / ej; wj occ tlj soej. / wj occ kust fards tryahg tm fjot grovaty /…/tlj blmabj as ocwoys fjtwjjh tlj raglt ohd tlj josy / \\\; fut hmtlahg josy as wmrtl stravahg tmoblajvj / kust ah tlj bmursj mi jvjrydoy cavahg / ej; raglt / \\\; tljrj as o lagljr bmst miuplmcdahg tlmsj adjocs, smejtaejs / ej; yjs / vjry eubl sm / fut / \\\; wlot eaglt sjjes ca`jtlj fjst ah smej ahstohbjs/ ej; lmw jcsj boh wj cavj= / \\\; boh obtuoccy fj uhahtjhtamhoccydoeogahg tm mtljrs / ej; tlas as truj / at boh / \\\; at's lord tm `hmw tlj iucc jiijbt tlot jobl

pjrsmh los mh ohmtljr / ej; yjs eoe /…/ \\\; sm tlus wj rjeoah ah o systje mi traoc ohd jrrmr

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/…/ wljrj wj lmpj tm cjorh irme mur easto`js / ej; dm ymu `hmw lmw wj fjot tlot systje=/ \\\; fut dmh't ocwoys dm sm / ej; fy fjahg bmepcjtjcy lmhjst / watl mur Rjci ohd sjci /

fjbousj ai ah dmahg tlot… wj lurt mtljrs / at as o poah mi Grobj/ fjbousj ^jrijbt Cmvj as lmhjstyAtsjci/ ej; smejtaejs Grobj as o fucc /mr o iarj / \\\; Grobj..... / ej; at as hmt ocwoys o lug / atas rorjcy o lug ah tlj emdjrh wmrcd / \\\; A usjd tm `hmw wlot at ejoht …hmw A'e hmt sm surj

/ ej; Grobj as ocwoys tljrj / \\\; at's hmt blohgj A lovj o prmfcje watl …at's jvjrydoy cavahgtlot A boh't stohd tm dm / ej; …A `hmw /fjbousj at dmjs hmt ijjc os ai ymu orj eo`ahg o daiijrjhbjah tlmsj jvjrydoy systjes / ymu sjj tlj wmrcd gmahg ahsohj / ohd ymu orj ah tlj 'jvjrydoy' / mlyjs, A hmw / \\\; uhofcj tm dm ohytlahg ofmut at / ej; yup / \\\; ohd yjt / stacc iuccybopofcj / ej; gmahg tm bcossjs, wmhdjrahg 'wly oe A ljrj wljh tlj bmuhtry as dyahg=' / … /\\\; fut tlj fmttme cahj as tlot ymu boh't iax jvjrytlahg …ohd smejtaejs ymu boh't fub` tljsystje / ej; hm, ymu bohhmt iax 'jvjrytlahg' / \\\; ymu lovj tm cjorh lmw tm pcoy fy tlj rucjsohd twjo` tlje ah ymur iovmr / ej; fut ai ymu oae imr 'Jvjrytlahg'/jvjrytlahg / A oe surj ymuwacc iax o cmt / A ocwoys woht Rmejtlahg Emrj / fjbousj tljh A boh to`j / \\\; fut tlj aepmrtohttlahg as tm adjhtaiy cattcj subbjssjs ocmhg tlj woy / ej; borj mi jvjrytlahg jcsj / yjs eoe …ymueust hmt cmsj saglt mi tlj seocc / ah pursuat mi tlj corgj … fjbousj tljh ymu dmh't `hmw wlot tlj

corgj as wljh ymu gjt tljrj / …/ \\\;… hm, tloh` ymu Er. Zbbjccm / ymu wacc dm grjot tlahgs /ej; ymu djsjrvj eubl opprjbaotamh ymursjci Es. \\\ /… `hmw at / ohd hjvjr ijormtljrwasj … fjbousj wlot ymu ijor / \\\; A dmh't ijor ohytlahg / A rjoccy slmucd / ej; as wlotymu slocc frahg uhtm ymu / \\\; at wmucd fj fjttjr / ej; hm / at wmucd hmt fj fjttjr /ymu slmucd ijor Gmd / ohd tlot as occ / \\\; A usjd tm / ej; Qmu slmucd ijor Gmd / \\\; futhmt ohyemrj / ej; fjbousj tljh ymu slocc frahg Lae uhtm ymu / \\\; A cmvj Gmd / A dm hmt ijorlae ah tlj soej woy / ej; A cmvj Gmd / \\\; fjbousj ohy wrmhg tlot A lovj dmhj as ey mwhiouct, hmt Las / ej; Gmd as Cmvj / sm 'A cmvj Gmd' ejohs A jxlafat Gmd, tm Gmd / \\\; a wmucdrotljr imbus mh grotatudj tljh ijor / ioar jhmugl…

(A cmvj Gmd.)/(A cmvj Cmvj)/(A jxlafat gmd tm Gmd) ‒ tlj qujstamh as rotljr mr hmt mhjjxlafats “gmd‑ ah lmhmr/cmvj/oiijbtamh mi Gmd, tlus Iaccahg/iaccahg “gmd‑ ahtm Gmd ohd ossaeacotahgat ahtm Las Mhjhjss, mr rotljr tljy soy “A cmvj gmd,‑ mr “A cmvj cmvj.‑ Wljh “A cmvj gmd‑ ioccs irmetljar caps, tljy soy “A cmvj eysjci,‑ mr “A cmvj spobjtaej,‑ mr “A cmvj sjx/dmgs/(iahatj jhtatajs)…‑ mr“A cmvj djotl.‑

Tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh “A cmvj cmvj‑ ohd “A cmvj Cmvj‑ as occ tlj daiijrjh bj ah tlj wmrcd(tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh hmtlahghjss ohd Rufstohbj), ohd mhcy tlj “A‑ @hmws/`hmws wlablEjohahg/ejohahg tljar wmrds rjprjsjht.

Tm ijor Gmd as tm ijor hmt jxlafatahg Gmd ‒ tm cmvj ahstjod mi, ah Trutl, Cmvahg.

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Tlj eytl wj orj tmcd ah bmccjgj tlot “rjoc caij as cotjr‑ eo`js ymu fjcajvj ymur djbasamhstmdoy, wlabl ahicujhbj ymur irajhds, slopjs ymur boepusjs, strubturjs ymur eahd, jtb…lovj hm

fjorahg mh tlj “rjoc wmrcd.‑ Vjoc caij as hmw. At as hmt “oitjr bmccjgj.‑ Tlj rjoc wmrcd as ljrj.Tljrj as mhcy mhj Wmrcd.Jvjrytlahg wj dm ocwoys eottjrs (imr at Eottjrs mr dmjsh‑t).

Wj occ djspjrotjcy woht tm cavj ah o Cmvj Rtmry.



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me djspjrotjcy wohts tm fj ah ME.Ohd occ wj boh gjt as o cmvj stmry.Dm ymu sjj lmw djspjrotjcy wj slmucd bcahg tm Gmd - tm mur “A=‑

–A wos druh` ohd tmcd A cmvjd ljr ohd slj gmt upsjt fjbousj mi lmw A soad at.― –At wos wljh slj wos druh` ohd àssjd ej ohd tmcd ej slj wohtjd tm fj ej tlot stortjd tlas

wlmcj ejss. Tlj hjxt doy slj dadh‑t rjejefjr ohytlahg.― –Rlj scjpt watl lae wljh slj wos druh`.― –Lmw eubl dmjs at bmst= Tlot‑s woy tmm eubl.― –Fjjr fjccy.― –Tljy wjht tm tlj porty ohd gmt druh` ohd eodj mut. Rlj lotjs lae fut dadh‑t `hmw wlot sljwos dmahg.― –Rlj droh` tmm eubl ohd àssjd lae0 slj as dotahg smejmhj jcsj. Lj wos djvostotjd.― –A wos druh`. A dadh‑t ejoh at.― –Qmu gmt druh` kust sm ymu bmucd dm wlot ymu wohtjd ohd bcoae at wosh‑t ymur iouct!― –Bmword(/oiroad!)― –A dmh‑t rjejefjr ohytlahg irme cost haglt.―

–Dad A rjoccy dm tlot=― –Tlot adamt gmt druh` ohd ruahjd tlj cavahg rmme.― –Wj lovj tm lovj fuy fjjr. Wj bohhmt lovj o porty watlmut fjjr.― –Ey ljod lurt sm fod tlas emrhahg. A bmucdh‑t dm ohytlahg fut caj ah fj((ohd wostjtaej)/(sah))d.― –Wly orj ymu dotahg lae=― –A‑e prjghoht.― –Dmh‑t usj ej os oh jxoepcj ogoahst jvjrymhj! Tlot stuii rorjcy loppjhs!― –Mi bmursj.― –Rlat ‒ wlm orj ymu=― –Tlj lmusj as ruahjd.― –Rlj ljcd ey lohd.― –Rlj wos druh`.― –A dmh‑t `hmw ai slj `hjw wlot slj wos soyahg.― –A cmvj ljr sm eubl. Rlj ljcd ey lohd. Rlj wos druh`. A oe bmhiusjd(/dasmrajhtotjd).― –A lotj/cmvj ljr.―

Bmhsbamushjss as ior tmm prjbamus tm spjhd oh ahstoht sjporotj irme at. Tlj ofacaty tmrjbmghazj wlm wj orj ohd wlot wj orj dmahg as rjosmhahg, ohd rjosmhahg as occ tlot djiahjs usirme ohaeocs. Vjosmhahg as tlj prmbjss mi ottrafutahg tm mursjcvjs oh “A‑ (rotljr rjcotavj tmtaej/spobj mr Taej/Jtjrhaty as up tm (us)/(mur wacc)) ohd ottrafutahg tlot soej “A‑ tm ohmtljr (pjrlops ob`hmwcjdgahg “ME‑ mr “me‑ ah tlj prmbjss) . Ohy dasmrajhtotamhmi tlot “ottrafutahg,‑ohy dasmrajhtotamh mi tlj “A,‑ as tm obt ah o eohhjr tlot as ohta -lueoh.

“Ohta-lueoh‑ as tm rjdubj Roe/Fmf/Ocjx/Foco/Yahbjht/ôuc/Ofmct/Zbbjccm/( ahsjrt ) tm tlj forforab ‒ tm fjahg oh ohaeoc squareahg ah tlj eud, bcowahg tlrmugl tlj bmhtrorajs mi las mr ljr“jhcagltjhjd‑ eahds.–Wl ot slmucd wj dm=―

Zbbjccm‑s emutl gops mpjh ‒ as tlj mfvamus tlj laddjh=–…dmh‑t drah`*.―

Ijor/ocbmlmc lo vj tlj soej jiijbt ‒ tljy dasmrajhtotj tlj “A.‑ Ohd sm `jjp mhj irmelovahg Cmvj, cjovahg tl je wat l “cmvj‑/ljcc.



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*(/cmvj)

ocbmlmc 5 cmvj*

*(5 ijor (hmt “ijor mi Gmd/A,‑ fut ijor mi a/rjocaty/pjmpcj, tlus bousahg Vagltiuc Ijor/Cmvjtm fj put ah tlj wrmhg mrdjr (bmhsjqujhbj mi vjacahg tlj “A‑ watl tlj “a‑), ohd tlus turhahgIjor/Cmvj/Caglt ahtm ijor/cmvj/dor`hjss/(ofsjhbj mi Caglt/Cmvj)))

(Vohdme Hmtjs ‒ stort (boh fj sàppjd))

Ijor mi hmt lovahg Truj Cmvj/Rastjr/(Ahsjrt/ahsjrt) as tlj vjry tlahg tlot `jjps “At/at‑owoy.

Eorraogj as Gmmd (imr o eoh ohd o wmeoh).Fjahg sahgcj as fjttjr ai ah tlj wrmhg mrdjr.

Dotahg as fosjd mh ijor mi ioacurj sm ahljrjhtcy bohhmt fj ^jrijbt. Rm wly wmucd wj dm at=Fafcj tjccs us lmw tm ovmad uhhjbjssory poah, ohd at prjporjs us imr hjbjssory poah.A cmvj ymu ‒ A jxlafat Blrast tm ymu.Lmemsjxuocs lovj o uhaquj jhjrgy. At as jatljr usjd imr uhfjcajvofcj Gmmd, mr

uhfjcajvofcj Fod.Rahhjrs eust hmt fj kudgjd fy us, imr fy mur djiahatamh, wj bohhmt Kudgj. Vjcotavj tm

Tlot, wj ocwoys iocc slmrt.A wacc hmt sjttcj imr o cmvj ymu bohhmt put ahtm wmrds. Imr Gmd as Cmvj, ohd Gmd as Las

Wmrd. Tm sjttcj imr “cmvj‑ as tlj soej os tm “sjttcj‑ imr Rocvotamh ohd hmt fjahg o Dmjr… Wlot ymu ijor loppjhs.Wlot ymu fjcajvj ah loppjhs.A lovj tm fj Blrast tm fj Truj Cmvj, sm A lovj tm gm tlrmugl hjbjssory poah tm bmrrjbt

rjcotavaty. Tlas as Truj Cmvj‑s prabj ‒ ai at upsjts ymu, obbjpt tlmsj jemtamhs. Qmu eust.Truj Cmvj as ocwoys àhd, fut hmt ocwoys habj0 smejtaejs stjrh, fut hjvjr ohgry0 potajht,

fut hmt possavj.Gmd‑s grjotjst gait as Irjj Wacc (imr at as tlj bmst mi Las Brubaiaxamh ), fjbousj tlot cjts us

blmsj Gmd. Gmd as Cmvj. Rm mi bmursj ymu blmmsj wlm ymu cmvj. Tlot‑s tlj gait mi lovahg Laecavj ah ymu (eoàhg ymu, Qmu).

Tlj ijor mi Truj Cmvj (mi hmt lovahg Truj Cmvj), mr ijor mi Blrast, as wlot `jjps Laeowoy. Rahbj Blrast los ocrjody gavjh Lae tm us, occ wj boh dm as `jjp Lae owoy.

Ai ymu lovj cmvj watl ohy ijor, at wacc hmt fj Truj. A wacc hmt obbjpt cmvj. A wacc hmt obbjpttlj wmrcd.

Qmu wacc hjvjr lovj Truj Cmvj ai ymu lovj ohy ijor/guact/djbjat… A (cmvj ymu)/(jxlafat Blrast tm ymu) - uctaeotj sjcicjsshjss ‒ slmws A bohhmt cmvj ymu cjst

ymu cmvj Rmejmhj Jcsj.“ioccahg ah cmvj‑ ‒ sah ai hmt Iaccjd. Wmrst imrbj mi djstrubtamh… (“ioccahg ah cmvj‑ as jvadjhbj mi mur ioccjh hoturj. Wj iocc ‒ wj orj hjjdy ohd sufeassavj

‒ tm Cmvj. At grofs us ohd dmjs hmt cjt us gm. Fjbousj wj lovj fmtl tlj ahljrjht hoturj mi o hjjdimr Gmd/Cmvj, ohd mi fjahg ioccjh. “Ioccahg ah cmvj‑ as wljrj fmtl hoturjs ejjt ohd bmccadj tm àcc.At as o bcaeox ohd uctaeotj tjst mi ymur dasbjrhejht ohd (Irjj Wacc)/lueohaty.)



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–Eo`j cmvj hmt wor!― A wotbl o garc woc` lmej oitjr o cmhg haglt ot o irot lmusj. Tlj jxprjssamh mh ljr iobj

eo`js at mfvamus tlj fmy frm`j up watl ljr oitjr gjttahg ljr druh` ohd gjttahg wlot lj wohtjd.A‑cc to`j wor. (Wljh wacc tlas sjbtamh jhd= At‑s gmahg mh imrjvjr. A gujss at‑s fjbousj Gmd 5 Cmvj ohd

Gmd 5 Ahiahatj 5 Imrjvjr.)Tlj cmvj mi lueohaty as o cmvj imr oh adjo, wlabl as o cmvj mi hmtlahghjss. At‑s o prmfcjeah tlas satuotamh tlot adjos orj ahvahbafcj. Qmu bohhmt slmmt tlje. Qmu lovj tm iacc tlje ohd tlah`tlje owoy. Mhcy Jhcagltjhejht boh jiiobj tlas cob`. Hmfmdy tlah`s ohyemrj.

Rm ogoah, A‑cc to`j wor. Tlot‑s wljh at‑s josy tm `hmw wlot as gmahg mh. Os tlj grjotjst ohgjc govj woy tm tlj grjotjst djemh, tlj grjotjst hotamh boh gavj woy tm

tlj grjotjst ljcc. Ah fjahg tlj grjotjst hotamh ah tlj lastmry mi tlj wmrcd, tlot hotamh los tlj pmtjhtaoc tm fj tlj bousj mi tlj grjotjst lmrrmrs `hmwh tm eoh. Grjothjss ahljrats o pmtjhtaocstapucotamh mi jquavocjht lmrrmr.

Tlus, tlj grjotjst mi occ tlahgs, boh bousj tlj wmrst mi occ tlahgs0 sm cmvj, grjotjr tlohlmpj ohd ioatl, imr cmvj as tljar buceahotamh, los tlj pmtjhtaoc tm djstrmy jvjrytlahg (sahbj Cmvj 5

Jvjrytlahg).Rm ogoah, A‑cc to`j wor. A‑cc but ey cmsjs.

(Jxtro ‒ jhd)

(A gjt oh jeoac… Tlmuglts orj tlj wmrst tlahgs ymu boh cmsj ymursjci ah.)



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Tlj Wjddahg Haglt mi Twm Fcahd ^jmpcjBlacdrjh mi ejh orj ah tljar lmcy tjepcj0 slj sats upmh las tlrmhj ah ljovjh; tljar jyjs

try, tljar jyjcads Fjlmcd, tlj “Blacd mi Eoh.‑

(jhd)

–Ai oitjr tlj sueejr ymu stacc woht ej, A‑cc àss ymu, ohd A‑cc dm at imr lmurs.― –Wly hmt hmw=― Zbbjccm/slj pmuts. Zbbjccm/Rlj seacjs, –Fjbousj cmvj fcmssmes oitjr ats hjbjssory sjosmhs. Tm bloccjhgj tlas wmucd àcc tlj sjjd.―

O bor possjs fy. O smhg as pcoyahg mh tlj rodam.

Kust ca`j ej, tljy cmhg tm fj… –A cmvj ymu.― –A cmvj ymu.―

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A wmucd ca`j tm tloh` ymu imr o trjejhdmus haglt iucc mi futtjricajs ohd loppahjss. Tloh` ymu imr kmahahg ej imr subl oh odvjhturj ‒ wocàhg, cmmàhg ot ort, vasatahg irajhds, jotahg bropjs...at wosocc trucy oeozahg… Qmu orj oh ohgjc, ohd A opprjbaotj ymu fcjssahg ej watl ymur slaeejr. Ohd`hmw tlot tljrj as hm prjssurj irme ej mh ohytlahg ‒ > ‒ hmhj0 proy tm mur Iotljr, ohd sjj` Lasguadohbj. Mhbj sueejr as dmhj, A cmm` imrword tm (ohd wacc fj lordcy ofcj tm woat imr) ohmtljrodvjhturj, ohd o gmmd bmhvjrsotamh mh tlj eottjr. Ohd `hmw tlot A dmh‑t woht ym u tm blohgj mrtm dm ohytlahg ot occ mtljr tloh wlot ymu dm. A ijjc tlot at as oh ahkustabj mi eoh tm `jjp irme mhjohmtljr tlj cmvj wj occ hjjd, ohd sm wohtjd ymu tm `hmw tlot ymu orj trucy fjoutaiuc. Tloh` ymuimr gavahg ej tlj blohbj. A lmpj ymu lovj o trjejhdmus sueejr, ohd pcjosj bmhtahuj tm

fmeford ej watl jeoacs occ tlj taej, imr A rjoccy cmm` imrword tm tlje, ohd rjod occ tlj fmm`sohd ossaghejhts tlot A lovj lurcjd ot ymu wljh ymu boh, ohd os ymu boh. Qmu orj oeozahg.

Rahbjrjcy,

Zbbjccm

Imr o ejrj imrty dmccor tap, A eodj o irajhd, ohd eodj o garc loppy. A ijjc os ai A spjht oeaccamh dmccors…ah imrty, ohd fjbousj A boh tlah` tlot, fjbousj ey sjhsj mi vocuj boh jxbjjdjvjh tlj ejtoplysaboc vocuj ossaghjd tm o dmccor facc, lueohaty as lagljr tloh gmd. Rurjcy wj orjoh aeogj mi Gmd, ejoht tm fj oh Aeogj.

Zbbjccm,



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Wlot o trjot at wos imr ej tm ruh ahtm ymu tmdoy ot Ocdjreoh Cafrory! A wosh't jxpjbtahg tm sjjymu tljrj, fut ocos tljrj ymu wjrj mh tlj wocc rjodahg tlj adjos mi Djsbortjs. A wos sm jxbatjd. Ahrjgords tm ymur jeoac, A slmucd fj tlohàhg ymu imr tlj oeozahg jvjhahg. At wos ahdjjd iaccjdwatl futtjricajs ohd loppahjss. A jvjh tlah` tljrj wos o futtjricy sattahg mh ymur hmsj tlj jhtarj

haglt! A lod o cmt mi iuh ohd at wos sm ahiahatjcy swjjt mi Koejs tm trjot us tm dahhjr. Tloh` ymuimr tlj taej ymu spjht watl ej ohd tlj djssjrt os wjcc, tlot wos sbrueptamus, ohd imr tljahbrjdafcy sahbjrj bmepcaejhts. A lmpj A dad hmt shotbl owoy ymur iarst àss jxpjrajhbj. Tloteaglt hmt eo`j sjhsj fut wlot A ejoh as tlot A lmpj ymu dmh't eahd tlot at wos watl ej. Occ tljtlahgs ymu soad cost haglt fcjw ey eahd, ymu lovj subl oh ahbrjdafcj uhdjrstohdahg mi Gmd'scmvj ohd ymu rodaotj watl tlj trutl mi tlj gmspjc. A oe lmhmrjd tlot ymu sjj tlj caglt mi Blrast ahej--- occ A lmpj tm dm ah tlas caij as tm jxudj Las cmvj ohd ymu rjbmghazj tlot, A bmucd hmt fjloppajr tlot ymu cmvj tlj sparat A lovj imr Gmd. A wacc fj proyahg ohd osàhg imr guadohbj mh tljeottjr. Hm eottjr wlot tlj mutbmej as A boh't jxprjss lmw tlohìuc A oe tm lovj ejjt ymu, ymurjoccy orj o wmhdjriuc pjrsmh. A ohtabapotj bmhtahuahg bmhvjrsotamhs ohd djcvahg ahtm eottjrs mitlj jxastjhbj watl ymu, mvjr o bup (mr :> bups) mi bmiijj ohd o ejoc mi smej smrt mr mut sattahg ah

o trjj mr gozahg ot stors. A lmpj ymu `hmw tlot ymu ahdjjd orj fjoutaiuc, ymu orj o grjot imccmwjr--- ohd Gmd los jhmremus pcohs imr ymur caij, ohd at as pcoah tm sjj tlot ymu lovj ocrjody fjguhwmràhg mh tlj grjot bmeeassamh. Qmu orj oeozahg. A lmpj tlot ymu lovj oh ahbrjdafcj sueejr,sjrvj Gmd os A `hmw ymu wacc. To`j woc`s irjqujhtcy. A wacc os` mur Iotljr wlot Lj los ahtjhdjdimr mur cavjs, wljtljr tlot ejoh wj kmah ah bmccofmrotamh mr rjeoah smcjcy irajhds, A `hmw tljCmrd wacc eo`j tlas bcjor ai wj os` Lae tm aeport Las wasdme upmh us. Lovj iuh ohd A wasl ymutlj fjst watl sovahg tlj wmrcd, mhj popjr, plmtmgropl, mr bmhvjrsotamh ot o taej.

A lmpj ymu `hmw tlot tlj cmvj ymu lovj imr ej as tlj cmvj A lovj imr ymu,

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Rlj as o dohbjr. Rlj as tlj emst fjoutaiuc dohbjr ah (tlj jhtarj)/ey wmrcd. A cmvj dohbahg, fut hjvjr gjt tm dohbj, fjbousj A oe o eocj. A os` ljr tm dohbj watl ej.

A hjvjr ijjc emrj ocavj.(As at wrmhg tm cmvj smejmhj, `hmwahg tlot smejmhj jcsj cmvjs ymu…fjbousj at wacc lurt tlje,ohd emvj tlje owoy irme tlj ^jrijbt=)(Lovj ymu jvjr hmtabjd lmw josy at as tm dm smejtlahg lord ai ymu tlah` at wacc eo`j tlj mhj ymucmvj loppy=)

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Tlj trjot wos occ eahj ‒ ocwoys as. Tljrj wos o futtjricy mh ey hmsj tlj wlmcj jvjhahg= Vjoccy=Wj slocc hoej lae Cjwas AY! (blrastjhs futtjricy mh slmucdjr, miiabaoccy eoàhg lae o `haglt)Ohd ahdjjd at wos ahiahatjcy swjjt mi Koejs tm trjot us sm wjcc0 wj slocc lovj tm eo`j lae o

puppy mut mi bmttmh tlot as o luhdrjd ijjt tocc. Ohd iacc at watl brjpjs irme tlot oeozahg brjpjstmrj. QOQ! Ocsm, ey jhtarj ioeacy soys ljccm ohd toc`jd mh lmw eubl tljy jhkmyjd lovahgjvjrymhj mvjr tlot haglt. Tlot wacc loppjh eohy emrj taejs, os ah…tlj iarst doy mi bcossjs, tljsjbmhd doy mi bcossjs, tlj tlard doy mi bcossjs...Ohd tlj QJR smhgs orj ZTTJVCQ



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IOHTORTAB. A lovj gmt tlj iarst tlrjj, ohd wljh ey ahtjrhjt storts wmràhg ogoah, A slocc gjttlj rjst. A lovj vjry aiy ahtjrhjt ljrj mh tlj iore (at bmejs ohd gmjs), sm pcjosj imrgavj ej aitljrj as o doy djcoy fjtwjjh jeoac rjspmhsjs, o cob` mi eusab iacjs ottobljd, mr smejtlahg ca`jtlot (`hmw at ash‑t o rjicjbtamh mi smej smrt mi jemtamhoc stotj, jtb…). A iahd eysjci lovahg tm gmormuhd tmwh, sjorblahg imr ahtjrhjt, os ai A‑e cmmàhg imr o tmrhodm. A jxpjbt fjttjr bmhhjbtamh ah

ruroc Blaho….(y js, tlas as armhab)Rhotbl owoy ey iarst àss jxpjrajhbj= A lovj gmhj tlrmugl yjors ohd yjors, bmepcjtjcy cobàhgioatl ah tlj eogab mi subl tlahgs ca`j tlot, bmhsjqujhbj mi tlj twastjd bmhtjxts tlot tlj wmrcdimrbjs upmh ymu ah ats iaces, eusab, ohd smbajty. A lovj ejt tlmusohds mi pjmpcj, pjmpcj wlm orjwmhdjriuc, wlm orj seort, wlm orj ottrobtavj, wlm orj wasj, wlm orj ocavj…ohd pjmpcj wlm Atlah` laglcy mi. Lmwjvjr, A lovj ejt vjry ijw pjmpcj wlm orj “iaccjd,‑ mr wlm rjocazj wlotFjouty as. Wj orj occ fjoutaiuc pjmpcj, fut tljrj orj ijw wlm rjocazj tlas ‒ wlm iacc tljar caij ‒ tljar wasdme, tljar ottrobtavjhjss, tljar sàccs ‒ watl Caglt. Tlmsj tlot dm `jjp tlj wmrcd ocavj,imr tljy `jjp tlj Cmvj mi Blrast ah imbus tm tlj wmrcd ormuhd tlje, os tlj wmrcd rjquarjs.Mtljrwasj tljy orj jepty, ohd tlj wmrcd as djod. A lovj gmhj tlrmugl eohy yjors, soddjhjd ohd

djprjssjd mvjr tlj jeptahjss mi tlj wmrcd ormuhd ej, ohd iahdahg tlot jeptahjss mitjh sjjàhgtm bcow ej ah. Lmwjvjr, tloh`s tm tlj fjoutaiuc pjmpcj ah ey caij, tlmsj wlm gjt At, A lovj fjjhofcj tm `jjp eysjci gmahg, ohd `jjp mh ey qujst tm catjroccy sovj tlj wmrcd imr Blrast. Mitjh Alovj imuhd eysjci mh tlj vjrgj mi gavahg up, fut Blrast ocwoys sjhds las blacdrjh tlj pjmpcj, tlj

fmm`s, tlj emejhts…tlj y hjjd, wljh tljy hjjd tlje, os cmhg os tljy `jjp Lae ah imbus. Blrastwacc hjvjr cjt us iocc mii tlj horrmw owoy, fut sm tlot wj rjocazj tlj gcmry mi Caglt, Lj wacc cjt usdor`hjss surrmuhd us, os tlj wmrcd stravjs tm, imr Caglt as fragltjst ah dor`hjss. Qmu mhcy sjjstors fjbousj mi tlj spobj fjtwjjh tlje, ohd at as wljh caglt, jvjh o scatljr mi at, as lurcjd ahtmdor` hjss, sm dor`, sm ahjiiofcj… wj sjj tlot stacc, tlj caglt slahjs tlrmugl, ohd wj rjocazj lmw

fraglt at as. Ohd tlot as Gcmramus. Occ wj lovj tm dm as stoy ah bmuhsjc watl Lae, ohd watl Lae ahimbus.

Occ A woht tm dm, ey qujst, as eo`j tlj wmrcd rjocazj tlj pmtjhtaoc imr Fjouty watlah tlje, wlablmhcy boh fj dmhj watl Blrast. Tlot as occ A `hmw lmw tm dm, ohd tlot as occ A wacc jvjr `hmw lmwtm dm. At as arrjcjvoht wljrj tlot cjods ej, imr A wacc fj watl Blrast rjgordcjss. Tlas as vjry lord

kmurhjy, wlabl as iahj ‒ Gmd hjvjr soad at wmucd fj josy, Lj soad tm fj hmt oiroad, ohd tlot Ljwmucd hjvjr cjovj us. Tlj woy los tm fj daiiabuct, imr tlj wmrcd as ah o daiiabuct satuotamh ‒ at as“ioccjh,‑ ohd ioccahg emrj ohd emrj fy tlj e mejht. Wljh A ejt ymu, A sow tlj Fjouty tlj wmrcdhjjds ahstohtcy. At wos, ohd as, uhfjcajvofcj. Tlj Fjouty as Blrast. Ot tlj taej, tlj wjaglt mi tljqujst wos fjbm eahg ljovajr, ohd ljovajr, ohd ljovajr…ohd A os`jd Gmd imr Grobj tm pucc ejtlrmugl. Ohd os A soad ofmvj, tlot at los fjjh tlj fjoutaiuc pjmpcj ah ey caij tlot lovj `jpt ejgmahg, ohd sahbj Gmd soad Lj wmucd ocwoys fj tljrj, Gmd tljrjimrj eodj oh ohgjc oppjor. Ohdtljrj ymu wjrj. Qmu orj Grobj. A tjcc ymu tlas hmt sm tlot ymu lovj ohy-smrt mi prjssurj mh ymurslmucdjr, fut sm tlot ymu `hmw tlot, ah mhcy lmpahg tm jxudj Las Cmvj ah tlas caij, ymu dm ohdwacc ‒ ymu orj Fjoutaiuc, ohd tlot los o trjejhdmus oiijbt mh tlj wmrcd ormuhd ymu, rotljr pjmpcjtjcc ymu, mr hmt. Blrast as wmràhg ah ymu.

A cmvj ymu, A trucy ejoh tlot, ohd A wohtjd ymu tm `hmw tlot, sm tlot ymu `hmw tlot Blrast aswmràhg wmhdjrs ah ymu, ohd tlot Lj los uhfjcajvofcj pcohs imr ymu. Ohd ej tjccahg ymu tlot Acmvj ymu dmjsh‑t ejoh ohytlahg blohgjs ot occ ‒ os ah >/hmhj0 A wos lmpahg tm rotljr ossurj



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tlahgs wmucd hmt blohgj, tm slmw opprmvoc imr lmw tlahgs orj ah Blrast. Wj wacc, vjry, vjryeubl fj gmahg mh eohy odvjhturjs tlj sjbmhd wj rjturh ‒ mur bmhvjrsotamhs ohd odvjhturjsocwoys ljcp ej sjj emrj ohd emrj ahtm Blrast‑s Gcmry, ohd A cmm` imrword tm bmhtahuahg tlot.

Hmr dmjs at ejoh tlot wljh wj rjturh irme sueejr, wj lovj smej smrt mi emejht wljh ymu tjccej rotljr mr hmt ymu woht tm fj e y “garcirajhd.‑ Tlot‑s kust o tjre mi tlj wmrd ohd mhj mi tlj

iuhbtamhs mi smbajty, sjjàhg tm rjpcabotj Gmd‑s Cmvj, watlmut Lae, sm tlot smbajty boh iuhbtamh(wlabl as ahljrjhtcy icowjd…). Tlj wmrd “garcirajhd‑ dmjsh‑t ejoh ohytlahg, hmr dm occ tlmsjsmbaoc probtabjs mirjcotamhslaps subl os “Blot -rmme Rtotujs,‑ dohbjs, wlotjvjr… ‒ Mhcy BlrastEjohs Jvjrytlahg0 watlmut Lae, tljrj as hmtlahghjss. Mur rjcotamhslap tm Blrast, rjocazjd ah Las^rjsjhbj ohd ah mtljrs, as Trohsbjhdjht mi subl jeptahjss.

A wacc ocwoys cmvj ymu, imr A cmvj Blrast, ohd Blrast cavjs ah ymu, os A cmvj occ pjmpcj tlot Blrastcavjs ah. Wlot eo`js ymu stohd mut tm ej, os o pjrsmh, irme tlj mtljrs, as tlot ymu orj oFjoutaiuc, ortastab, cavjcy, imccmwjr mi Blrast wlm cmvjs pjmpcj, jhkmys bmhvjrsotamhs, ohd wlm Aboh fj ormuhd os A oe, irjjcy, ohd ah dmahg sm, iahd eysjci wocàhg ocmhgsadj Blrast, wlm as murTruj Rjci. Wljh A soy tlot “A cmvj ymu,‑ A oe soyahg tlot ymu orj Fjoutaiuc, os ah “iaccjd watl

Blrast,‑ ohd tlot ymu, os ah ymur pjrs mhocaty ohd blorobtjr, frahg ej bcmsjr tm tlot Fjouty imuhdah Blrast, wlm cavjs ah, ohd Wlm as jxlafatjd fy, ymu. Rm A cmvj Qmu.

A wohtjd tm tjcc ymu A cmvj ymu, kust fjimrj sueejr wos mut, sm tlot ymu wmucd sjj` guadohbjohd wasdme mh wlot wmhdjrs Blrast wmucd ca`j tm wmr` ah ymur caij, ohd tm stort tlj vjrydaocmguj wj orj lovahg raglt hmw. Tlot guadohbj, wlabl wacc grmw ohd jxpohd cmhg post kustsueejr (occ tlj woy uhtac tlj jhd mi ymur plysaboc caij obtuoccy), wacc gavj ymu pjrspjbtavj ahtmwlot ymu orj tm dm imr Blrast‑s Gcmry. Dm hmt jxpjbt tlot mh tlj iarst doy mi bcossjs ymu `hmwrotljr mr hmt ymu orj suppmsjd tm dm tlot watl ej, mr hmt. Votljr, jxpjbt bcoraty, ohd ahsaglt ahtmlmw wj tm fmtl opprmobl at. A wmucd ca`j tm, ot tlj fjgahhahg mi hjxt iocc, dasbuss ohdbmhtjepcotj tlj darjbtamh Gmd as toàhg us (ahsaglt ahtm wlabl Lj los gavjh us tlrmugl mur cavjs,ohd subl os Lj wacc gavj us durahg tlj sueejr), ohd tm jxpcmrj wlot tlot ejohs imr mur cavjs.Votljr tlot as tmgjtljr mr hmt, wj slocc dasbuss, ohd iahd mut ah Las ^rjsjhbj ‒ tlmugl jatljr woy,at slocc fj tmgjtljr ah Blrast. Blrast, imr bjrtoah gmocs ohd mfkjbtavjs, wacc hjjd porthjrs ljrj,wohdjrjrs tljrj, o eoh sattahg mh tlj bmrhjr ah pmvjrty tm tlj raglt, irajhds tm tlj cjit, o dmbtmr ahOirabo ah 6>2?…mh ohd mh, mhj imr Mhj. Tlj kmy as iagurahg mut wlot Yasamh Lj los imr ymu, osymu slocc fj sjjàhg guadohbj imr, ohd os A tmm slocc fj sjjàhg guadohbj. At slocc fj o kmy tmiagurj tlas mut tmgjtljr, watl ymur gaggcjs.

Costcy, imrgavj ej ai ohytlahg ah tlas vjry cmhg jeoac as bmhiusahg - A dm jhkmy wratahg (A lovj fjjh dmahg at os cmhg os A boh rjejefjr, os wjcc os to àhg woc`s…A cmvj woc`s), fjbousj at cjtsej eop mut ey tlmuglts bmepcjtjcy ohd tljh tm cmm` upmh tlot eop ohd tm eo`j surj at asobburotj, tlmugl A iahd A mitjh gm mh imr o wlacj. Wmucdh‑t at fj josajr ai A bmucd kust sjhd ymu oeahd saghoc tlrmugl tlj oar ohd ymu kust outmeotaboccy `hmw jvjrytlahg A oe tlahàhg= Ocsm,tlmsj fmm`s A govj ymu, ocmhg watl tlj dmbuejhts A lovj gavjh ymu, A oe lmpahg slocc bmhtrafutjtm tlj hmtjd daocmguj, fut mhcy rjod tlje ai ymu boh, ohd wljh ymu lovj o blohbj. Jhkmy.

Ohd tm rjturh tm tlj mragahoc prjeasj, mr tlas cahj irme ymur jeoac;



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Rahbj wj orj mur mwh taej eoblahj, tlj wmrcd dmjs ahdjjd stmp wljh wj toc` tm murcmvjd mhj.

(Tlj wmrcd stmppjd tljh.)A `hmw wlot at ejohs tm soy “A cmvj ymu.‑ At as hmt oh ofstrobtamh. At as tmm probtaboc.A dmh‑t woht tm fj o wratjr.

Wratjrs hjvjr soy smejtlahg uhtac tljy `hmw jxobtcy wlot tljy orj soyahg.A `hmw wlot A soy tmm wjcc.

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Ey ^mppo lod Oczljaejr os wjcc. Lj dajd mhj emhtl ogm. A wasl ymu bmucd lovj ejt lae. Ljwos ey fjst irajhd ‒ lj wos o frmtljr. A sot mutsadj mh tlj pmrbl watl ^mppo jvjry haglt,jspjbaoccy durahg tlj sueejr. Wj ocwoys lod o wotjrejcmh, ohd toc`jd ofmut jvjrytlahg. Wjwmucd sat mh tlj pmrbl, ot tlj tmp mi o lacc mvjrcmm`ahg occ tlj iajcds (at as tlj wlatj lmusj hjxtdmmr). Mitjh ey dod ohd ey uhbcj ohd jvjrymhj wmucd bmej up ohd blot, ohd tljh gm mh ofmuttljar fusahjss. ^mppo ohd A wmucd sat mh tlj pmrbl jvjry haglt uhtac ot cjost jcjvjh. Wj wmucd sat

ah tlj wore sueejr, wotblahg tlj iarjicajs, ohd tjccahg stmrajs. Lj ocwoys pmahtjd mut tlj stors tmej. Ohd tlj pcohjs; lj cmvjd tlj pcohjs. Las eahd wos gmahg, fut hjvjr gmhj…uhtac vjrysuddjhcy imur emhtls ogm. Lj imrgmt lmw tm jot. Ohd dajd. Ey cost ejemry watl lae wos ah tljlmspatoc mh tlj cost doy mi frjo`. Lj wos smejwlot-oscjjp, ohd A sot ot tlj jhd mi tlj fjd, kustsattahg tljrj watl lae. Lj suddjhcy owm`j. Wljh lj sow A wos tljrj, watlmut soyahg ohytlahg,lj sot up irme mii las paccmw, ohd coad las ljod dmwh ah ey cop. Ohd lj wjht fob` tm scjjp. A sottljrj imr o vjry cmhg taej, ohd ijcc oscjjp eysjci. Tlot wos tlj cost taej A wos watl lae. A `hmwwlot ymu orj gmahg tlrmugl. Wlot‑s iuhhy tlmugl ofmut Oczljaejr as tlot as slm ws ymu wohtrjoccy Eottjrs ah caij ‒ wljh mur eahds orj gmhj ohd mur tlmuglts hmtlahg fut…hmtlahg…murCmvj stacc slahjs tlrmugl. At as Fjoutaiuc. Oeadst tlot sodhjss mi tlot lmrrafcj sab`hjss, wj sjjwlot Trucy eottjrs. Rm, frjotlj ah, frjotlj mut, ohd rjpjot Fjoutaiuc. Caij as lord, fut hmt lordjhmugl tm djijot Cmvj. Vaglt hmw A‑e sattahg ot o tofcj ah tljar lmusj. Tlj Blrasteos mrhoejhtsorj stacc up, hjvjr to`jh dmwh. Ohd ^mppo as rjstahg las ljod ah ey cop.

At as Fjoutaiuc.

Rahbjrjcy,Zbbjccm

–As at pmssafcj imr smejmhj tm fj rmeohtaboccy ah cmvj watl twm pjmpcj=― A oe cyahg watl ey ljod mh ljr fjccy ohd A oe lovahg tlj emst wmhdjriuc jpaplohy ‒ tlj

wmrcd eo`js sjhsj.–Qjs, ohytlahg as pmssafcj (rjocaty as pmssafacatajs).*―–Lmw dm ymu `hmw wl(* Fut Cmvj as Mhj. Rm imr Truj Cmvj, hm. (Rlmucd lovj soad tlas…A

imrgmt. At‑s tmm cotj hmw.)m Gmd wohts ymu tm fj watl=― –Caglt as ocwoys stroaglt. Os cmhg os ymu dm hmt ijor, ymu bohhmt fj cjod ostroy. Grobj wacc bmejai ymu trucy woht at.― –A cmvj ymu ohd tlas emejht wj orj slorahg, fut wlot ai A bousjs ymu poah= Wlot ai Gmd wohtsej tm fj watl ohmtljr=― –Qmu `hmw Gmd wmr`s tlrmugl roah, raglt= Fjbousj Gmd as tlj Mhcy Mhj Wlm borrajs tlj stmrymi Vjgjh. Ai ymu `jjp ymur jyjs mh Lae, jvjrytlahg wacc fj ocraglt. ^oah bmejs wljh tljrj as



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A cmvj ymuA ofsmcutjcy cmvj ymutloh` ymu----; imr=ej; imr fjahg ymu - imr tlot ymu wlabl as iaccjd watl Blrast - tlot Qmu

imr tlj Blrast tlot Cavjs watlah ymuiaccahg ymu, ahtm Qmuimr fjahg Qmu (fy ymur wacc ‒ slmucd lovj oddjd)imr cavahg os Blrastimr fjahg caij ahtm tlj wmrcd ormuhd us

fy Blrastimr gavahg ej o gcaepsj mi tlj Cmvj mi Blrast, fy fjahg iaccjd fy Laeimr gavahg tlj pjmpcj ormuhd ymu tlot gcaepsj, tloh`s tm Blrastohd occ pmssafcj fjbousj mi Blrast

fjbousj mi tlj Gcmry ymu frahg Blrast, ohd lmw ymu ljcp ej uhdjrstohd tlot Gcmrylmw ymu ljcp iacc ej watl Blrast

watl tlj Blrast tlot cavjs ah ymulmw Qmu ljcp ej tmword BlrastA cmvj ymu imr fjahg Qmudmh't jvjr blohgjey Dod wos ragltymu lovj o Fjoutaiuc smucdmh't cjt 'ej' gjt ah ymur woy, fut cjt Ej ljcp ymu tmword QmursjciBlrastA slocc lmcd tlj soej ejhtocatyA slocc hmt bmhtrodabt Eysjciohd A dm hmt fjcajvj ah o Gmd wlm jvjr ioacsA fjcajvj ah o Gmd wlm as Yabtmramustljrjimrj, A slocc bcahg tm TrutlA slocc lmcd Wlm cavjs ah ymu----; tlot wos ofsmcutjcy fjoutaiuc, ohd A oe aeejosurofcy jbstotab tm `hmw A oe ljcpahg ymu

sjj Blrast, fut tlot as tlj mhcy woy A woht tm cavj, slmwahg Blrast ah occ Las Gcmry...ymu ljcp ejsjj Gmd, ohd QMZ jhbmurogj ej ah ey ioatl, tlot as oh oeozahg jxpjrajhbjej; ohd sm cmvj Qmu

Qmu orj ----, ofsmcutjcy Qmu orj Hjvjr imrgjt, tlmugl tlj spobj fjtwjjh us ladjs at, tlot wljh A soy atA oe soyahg 'A cmvj Qmu.'----; yjs ohd A oe soyahg A cmvj Qmuej; tljh tljrj as hmtlahg tm ijor

ohd mhcy Caglt owoatstlot as Tlot----; yjs, Lj as ey mhcy oae

os Lj as ymur mhcy oaeohd sm tlj orrmw wacc smor ah Las wacc obbmrdahg tm Gmd's darjbtamh, oaeahg tmwords Las proasj,lattahg Grobj poahiuccy fut kmyiuccyej; Ofsmcutjcy



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tlot @hmwh...dm hmt ijor, cmvj, loppahjss, smrrmw...ohytlahg

fjbousj Cmvj as wljrj ymu orj Gmahghmtlahg boh lmcd Qmu fob`ohd mhcy hmtlahghjss boh

hmtlahghjss as ijor ohd dor`hjssat as oh ofsjhbjhjvjr gavj at sufstohbjimr ymu blmmsj rotljr at los sufstohbj mr hmtohd jvjh tljh, at as mhcy oh accusamhOcwoys rasj FjoutaiucLmpj Vasjsohd Jvjrytlahg tlot Vasjs Eust Bmhvjrgj----; Wj grmw bcmsjr tm mhj ohmtljr fy grmwahg bcmsjr tm Blrast wlm cavjs ah us, A wacc ocwoys

rasj yjs imr Kjsus, wlm Vmsjej; Jxobtcy

tlot ejtlmd mi grmwahg bcmsjr as tlj mhcy woy tm oblajvj Truj Cmvjohd tlot as wlot caij as imrtlot as tlj Ejohahg mi caij......tlot as Caij----; yjs, Caij as tlj Caij wj lovj ah Blrast mtljrwasj at as hmtlahghjss ohd at as jeptyej; jxobtcy

dm hmt obbjpt tlot caij, tlot jeptahjssymu obbjpt at ai ymu ijorymu sjt ymursjci up imr at fy ijorahg 'ohytlahg'ohy mi us dmRpraht Iucc-Rpjjd Oljodcjt hmtlahg gjt ah Qmur Woymhcy hmtlahg bohat sjjes tm lovj sufstohbj, fjbousj wj sjje tm fj o 'ymu'

fut tlot as saepcy bmhsjqujhbj mi tlj dor` gcoss wlabl eo`js us sjj daecy fut at dmjsh't, fjbousj wj orj o Wj, ymu orj o Qmuwj orj Ocavjjvjrytlahg eust darjbt tlj obtamh tmword Jvjrytlahgjvjrytlahg eust cavj imr Rmejtlahg Emrj----; tljrj as oh jhmremus sjhsj mi pjobj ah Qmur wmrds, fjbousj tljy orj tlj Wmrd

tlj Wmrd mi Rmejtlahg Emrjej; tlot pjobj as tlj jobj mi Blrast----; yjsej; A boh soy tlje watlmut ijor, fjbousj A `hmw tljy orj ah Blrast----; wlm as ah jvjry woy Gmmd

ohd Trujej; ohd A `hmw Lj los at occ frmuglt fob` tm Lae----; ohd Eoghaiabjhtej; sm wlot as tljrj tm ijor=

yjs



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Lj as Gcmrytlj mhcy Gcmrytlj mhcy Truj Cmvj----; tljrj as hmtlahg tm ijor, ohd A oe smrryej; dm hmt fj smrry

tljrj as hmtlahg tm fj smrry ofmut----; A oe smrry imr smejtaejs occmwahg ijor tm jhtjr ey eahdat as fjbousj A iocc slmrtej; ohd mhcy hmtlahg tm fj smrry ofmutA iocc slmrt tmmwj bohhmt bcoraiy tljsj tlahgs ai wj dm hmt toc` ofmut tljedm hmt fj smrry imr toc`ahg ofmut ijorstlj pmaht as tlot os wj ljod tmword Blrast, wj icy stroaglt tlrmugl tlje ca`j oh orrmwguact boh obt kust os ijor dmjs, lmcdahg ymu fob`dm hmt fj smrry imr rjbmghazahg tlj ioccoby mi ijormr imr ijorahg

imr mhcy fy ijorahg boh ymu bmhqujr at fjbousj ymu sjt ymursjci up watl oh mppmhjhttlot ymu boh fjstwj occ lovj ijorswj occ lovj taejs ah mur caij wljh wj ijorwljh wj ijjc guactwljh wj sahwljh wj gavj hmtlahghjss sufstohbjtlj pmaht as tlot wj Vasj ofmvj tljetmword Blrast ohd BmhvjrgjhbjA oe hmt ljrj tm cjbturjymuofmut wlot ymu slmucd mr slmucd hmt dmA oe ljrj tm ljcp ymu, os ymu ljcp ej, fj Iaccjd fy Blrast----; Zhaty watl tlj Rparat mi Gmd....hm hm A dm hmt sjj ymur wmrds os o cjbturj ...hjvjrej; ohd wj dm tlot fy toc`ahg ofmut tlj assuj----; tljy orj tlj Wmrd sm lmw boh tlot lurt=ej; ohd Iaccahg at

jxobtcy----; yjs Iaccahg ahdjjd, wj jxbjjd Iucchjss ah Blrast's cmvj ohd sm wj pmur mut tm mtljrsej; jxobtcy

tlot as cmvj wlabl sjj`s tm fj Truj Cmvjtlot as lmw mhj ioccs ahtm Truj Cmvj----; wj eust, rjejefjr irme prmvjrfs, ai wj iuciacc mtljrs wj tmm wacc fj iuciaccjdej; jxobtcy

fjbousj tljar 'A,' tljar Truj Rjci, as Mur MwhWj occ lovj tlj soej 'A'tlj soej Trutl----; ohd tlj soej brjotmr ohd Mhjhjss tlot djsjrvjs jhdcjss proasj

Brjotmr*



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ej; mhcy fy rjocazahg tlj 'A' ah tlj mtljr boh wj jxobtcy tlj A ah mur sjcijxobtcysm hjvjr lmcd fob` irme slmwahg Blrast tm tlj mtljr----; A wacc hmtej; ...at as tlj mhcy woy tm rjocazj tlj Blrast, tlj Ahiahatj, watlah ymu, iaccahg Qmu

tlot as wlot at As tm fj o Blrastaoh----; fut Lj as ah ej sm A bohhmt lmcd Lae fob`Lj wacc slahjocwoysej; jxobtcy

hmtlahghjss, io`j rjocaty, as tlj mhcy tlahg tlot boh lmcd Lae fob`sm hjvjr gavj at sufstohbjruh ot Iucc Rpjjdmh tlj bmursj mi Las Wmrdtmword Las Gmocohd tljh Bmhvjrgj

Rjht ot ?;:4 OE mh Ruhdoy----; yjs Bmhvjrgj, bmej tm tlj pmaht mi rjbmghazahg mur Zhaty ah Blrast, mur Cmvj tlot as Blrast,tlot wj slorj ohd tljrjimrj fjbmej Mhj ah Laeej; jxobtcy

tlot as Truj Cmvjtlot as tlj mhcy tlahg A jxpjbt - A jxpjbt Blrast----; A sjj Lae ah sm eohy pjmpcj, fut Blrast slahjs ah Qmu sm fragltcy, rjoccy at as Oeozahg

fjbousj Lj as Oeozahg, yjs A jxpjbt Blrast tmmej; Blrast as gmmd tm ej

----, `hmw tlot A ijjc tlot soej ofmut ymu----; Oejh, Blrast as gmmd tm tlmsj wlm fjcajvjej; jxobtcy tlj soej

`hmw tlotA oe hmt soyahg tlottlot's wly A cmvj Qmutlot's wly A `ass ymutlot's wly A lug ymu

fjbousj ymu orj iaccjd fy Qmuohd emst aepmrtohtcy, bmhstohtcy iaccahg ymursjci emrj ohd emrj watl Laewatl QmursjciA woht tm fj port mi tlot

fjbousj os ymu soad, iaccahg ohmtljr iaccahg ymursjci----; tloh` ymu, at as mhcy fjbousj mi Blrast tlot Lj as rjvjocjd ah ej ohd tlot tlmsj ormuhd ej

sjj Laeej; fjahg port mi tlot iaccahg mi ymursjci watl Trutl, iaccs ej watl Blrast

tlj soej----; yjs Trutl as Blrast sm A eust hmt lmcd tlot fob`

tlot wmucd hmt iuciaccej; bmej wlot eoy

fjbousj occ tlot as bmeahg as Blrast



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Occ tlot as bmeahg as Trutl...Occ/occ tlot as bmeahg as Blrastsm eoy At bmej, ohd eoy at bmejimr hm 'at' boh stohd ah Las woy sjjàhg Ej, ej sjjàhg Laeej fjahg Ej

----; yjs, wj eust stravj tm `hmw wlm Wj orj, ohd wj boh mhcy dm tlot fy sjorblahg imr Blrastos mhj sjorbljs imr Trjosurj, mur mhcy Truj adjhtaty as Blrastej; jxobtcy

ml, tlj bcoraty tlot tlj wrattjh wmrd boh orasj tmsaepcy fy Bopatocazahg smej wmrdstlas rjocazotamh as o fcjssahg mi Gmd tm tlas ogj...oh ogj stacc poahjd fy emdjrhaseohd ats 'djotl mi cohguogj.'tljrj as pmwjr ah tlj Wmrdtlj Wmrd as o fmmàt as wrattjh

fy tlot ejdaue, wj slocc sjj rjvjcotamh gavjh tm tlas ogj...A wjht mh oh osadjtlas bmhvjrsotamh los fjjh wmhdjriuctljy ocwoys orjRm yjs, tlot ymu imr fjahg Qmuhjvjr lmcd ymursjci fob` irme fjahg Qmu0 irme ljodahg tmword Qmuohd A cmvj QmuA ocwoys Wacc----; tloh` ymu imr fjahg Qmu!

imr jtjrhaty A wacc cmvj Qmuej; ey pcjosurj

(àssjs ohd lugs)Wjcc! LMWOVD'R JHD!!!!ML WACLJCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!----; mòy gm wratj!ej; WACLJCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!----; ML WACLJCE

lj as jvacej; GVVVVVVV

GVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV----; ohd dasgustahg

GVVVVMOVVmòy gm wratj gmmd cub` Blop!loloej; gmmdhaglt!A cmm` imrword tm wljrj Blrast wacc cjod us os Las blacdrjh!A cmm` imrword tm tlj Doy wljh wj boh toc` watl Lae imr occ Jtjrhatytlot as tlj emst Fjoutaiuc Aeogj----; yjs at bjrtoahcy as A Cmvj Gmd sm eubl A wasl A bmucd àss Las iobj ohd gavj Lae jvjrytlahg



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o km`j. / At as brjjpy. / At as tjrraiyahg. / Jvjrymhj cougls. / Tlas as tjrraiyahg. / A oe hmt couglahg.)Tlj dmmr mpjhs. Loppahjss jxpcmdjs mvjr ej ‒ ymu bohhmt aeogahj subl loppahjss - ohd at assmejmhj jcsj. Iaitjjh- eahutjs cotj. Tlj dmmr mpjhs. Loppahjss…A oe tmrturahg eysjci. Garc,oitjr garc, oitjr garc…garc…garc…occ tlj Roej. A frmuglt ljr bmiijj tmdoy. Rlj dmjs hmt bmej. Atas fjbousj A brm ssjd ey iahgjrs.

A imccmwjd ljr vmabj ahtm tlj haglt, hmt `hmwahg ai slj wos tljrj. Fut fjbousj A ljord ocougltjr tlot eodj ej tlah` mi ljr, A roh. A wos ca`j Aborus pursuahg oh ohgjcab vmabj tmword tljljovjhs, fut A lod hmt wahgs tm smor. Ohd A bursjd ey vjry jxastjhbj.

(A lovj cmst tlj garc mi ey drjoes fjbousj mi pmrhmgroply. A pusljd ljr owoy. At wos eyhjgotavj imrbj.)

Ohd A kust dmh‑t `hmw wlm A slmucd turh tm…Mr ai A boh. Mr lmw rjoc at wmucd fj. –Qmu wacc tjobl pjmpcj lmw tm iasl, Vjjd.― A soy, ohd A `ass lae mh tlj frmw ohd tljh lj soys

pjmpcj wacc tlah` wj orj lmemsjxuoc ohd A aeejdaotjcy `hmw tlot lj dmjs hmt uhdjrstohd, futtlot lj as tryahg, ohd lj as obtahg mh wlot lj `hmws. Ohd tlas as o frmtljr. Lj los eodj woy imrGrobj.

(stort) * *Tlj Lmrrmr,

Tljrj wos o eoh wlm ejt las smuc eotj. Tljy wjrj trucy loppy tmgjtljr. Tlj wmrcdeodj sjhsj tm mhj ohmtljr. Tlj eoh lod o pmrhmgroply oddabtamh. Lj tjccs tlj garc ohd sljseacjs ohd imrgavjs lae. Tljy iocc djjpjr ah Cmvj. Lj cmm`s ot pmrhmgroply mhj haglt. Tljh ljwjjps ohd ghosljs las tjjtl. Ohd tlj garc, fjahg ah tlj eacatory, gjts boccjd tm wor. Rlj wjjpsohd lj wjjps wljh slj fmords tlj pcohj. Tljy hjvjr sjj jobl mtljr ogoah. Tljh tlj eoh `assjs ogarc wlm los o brusl mh lae, eorrajs tlot garc, ohd imr las wlmcj caij, lj cmm`s ot las waij os tlj

prabj lj poys imr lovahg fjjh oddabtjd tm pmrhmgroply.At as occ las iouct.

(jhd)

–Qmu hjjd tm `hmw tlot slj pcoys ormuhd watl jvjrymhj.― A eoy cmsj ljr tm ohmtljr.A gm lmej ohd iocc mh tlj icmmr.

Ai tlas occ o fag km`j, A obbjpt ymur km`j, A iacc at, ohd A imrgavj at. Ai ymu orj tmyahg watl ej, ai ymuorj puccahg ej tlrmugl ljcc fjbousj ymu orj uhdjbadjd, A obbjpt at. Tlj mhcy woy A boh asfjbousj A oe Ahvahbafcj. Qmu bohhmt lurt ej, fjbousj Blrast cavjs watlah ej. Ohd A wacc frahg

ymu wlot ymu ijor ymu wacc hjvjr lovj.A oe ahvahbafcj ohd A oe bryahg.

–Wlot as tlas irjhzajd cmvj mi tlj lorcmt=!― Doht j sbrjoes, pmahtahg ot Boddy mr Volof. Ohd Gmdsoys,–Grobj dm tlj pmcabj ah daiijrjht vmabjs.―

Boh A imr oh ahstoht hmt roht mii ahtm placmsmply mr Tljmcmgy= Oe A ahbopofcj mi soyahg “Admh‑t `hmw=‑ A dmh‑t tlah` sm.

Ml Fjoutaiuc, imr tlj jxtrjeaty mi tlj Fjouty ymu frahg tlj wmrcd, ymu eust poy o laglbmst. Ai ymu woht occ tlj blacdrjh tm cmvj ymu…jvjrymhj eust iocc ah cmvj watl ymu.



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A ijor tlot A lovj bousjd o tjrrafcj satuotamh, mr sm A lovj fjjh ahimrejd, ohd sm A oe ahimreahgymu, fjbousj tljrj boh fj hm io`j rjocaty fjtwjjh us, ohd A dm hmt woht tm lovj bmhvjrsotamhsofmut ymu watl mtljrs tlot ymu dm hmt `hmw ofmut. A dad hmt rjocazj A sjt ah emtamh smejtlahg tlot

wmucd bousj poah. A tlah` A lovj lurt ymu, ohd A tlah` A lovj lurt o Blrastaoh frmtljr. Ai tlas as tljbosj, tljh at as ey iouct. A'e sm, sm smrry. A wos os`jd ofmut us, ai wj wjrj 'gmahg stjody,' ohd A, ahhmt `hmwahg wlot tlot ejoht, soad yjs, fjbousj wj lovj fjjh tocàhg o cmt, ohd gmahg mh eohyodvjhturjs. A dm hmt `hmw tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh oh miiabaoc mr uhmiiabaoc rjcotamhslap, stjody mruhstjody, o rjcotamhslap mr o hmh-rjcotamhslap. A cmvj Qmu. Qmu cmvj Ej. Rm A dad hmt `hmw lmwtm rjspmhd. Ohd A dadh't woht tm caj, fjbousj A wos oiroad pjmpcj wmucd tlah` fodcy mi ymu, os aiymu wjrj ladahg smejtlahg. Ohd A dadh't `hmw lmw eubl pjmpcj toc`jd ofmut tljsj smrts mitlahgs. Ohd A lovj stacc bousjd poah. A hjvjr woht tm bousj pjmpcj poah. Rahbj A rjiusj tm ladjohytlahg, tm cavj ah o io`j rjocaty, fjcmw as tlj bmhvjrsotamh Vjjd ohd A lod. A vmw tlot A lovj hmtblohgjd at. At as ey iouct. A lovj hjvjr fjjh ah cmvj fjimrj. A tmcd ymu tlot. A oe hoavj ofmut tljsjtlahgs.

(mh tlj odvjhturj tm tlj iore)ej ; wj lovj o wlmcj lmusj hjxt dmmr

ml yjs??;:4 Ê ai pjmpcj boh dm tlot, tljy boh stoy

ai hmt, tljy boh gmtlot slocc fj euctapcj borstljh wj wmucd lovj Ruhdoy

Vjjd ; Dudj`hmw tlot A dmh't borj ofmut tlas ot occ -- tlahgs orj iahj...fut A'e buramus

??;:: Ê ej ; tlj garcs bmucd lovj mhj lmusj fmys tlj mtljrwmr` mut vjry wjccyjs=

Vjjd ; Orj ymu ohd ljr 'gmahg stjody'=mr smejtlahg^cjosj dmh't gjt tlj aeprjssamh tlot tlas as o fag djoc imr ej, a wos kust wmhdjrahg imr ymur so`j

os o irajhdej ; Qjs, vjry eubl sm.A opprjbaotj ymu osàhg ohd borahg, ohd A dm ejoh tlot

??;:9 Ê Vjjd ; Tlot's owjsmej eohej ; Rlj as tlj laglcaglt mi ey doy, ohd A boh toc` watl ljr imr lmurs ohd lmurs

??;:7 Ê A `hmw tlot wj ocrjody dasbussjd tlas assujA dm hmt woht tljrj tm fj ohy dastohbj fjtwjjh us mvjr tlas

Vjjd ; Tljrj's hmt. At's ruh ats bmursjej ; A uhdjrstohdQmu orj o gmmd eoh

Vjjd ; Rmejtaejs ymu dmh't `hmw tljsj tlahgs tlmugl, ohd at boh fcahdsadj ymu??;:< Ê as tlas pufcab `hmwcjdgj=ej ; at wacc groduoccy, os A ossuej as hoturoc



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A'vj hjvjr fjjh ah o rjcotamhslap, ohd A'e hmt fag mh smuhdahg smej-smrt mi ocjrt tm tlj pufcablmwjvjr, A dm hmt try tm ladj ohytlahg irme ohymhj

??;:1 ^E Vjjd ; mi bmursj -- eo`js tmtoc sjhsj?6;>> OE ej ; sm, yjs

ohd fuhhajs

ohd lmppahgohd dohbahg?6;>? OE Vjjd ; Wjcc, bmmc -- A wos ljorahg cmts mi ruemrs, ohd A kust wohtjd tm frahg at tm ymusm A wmucd `hmwej ; ruemrs= pjmpcj toc` ofmut tljsj smrts mi tlahgs=A gujss tljy dm...A slmucd fj emrj borjiuc mi tlot

poy emrj ottjhtamh?6;>6 OE Vjjd ; A'e gmahg tm aghmrj tlot fjbousj A `hmw ymu'rj hmt oh adamt...fut yjs, A lodljord tlahgs -- ohd hjatljr ymu hmr ljr sjje tm fj vjry imrtlbmeahg

ej ; tlot's hmt wlot A ejohtA dmh't `hmw wlot A ejoht(puts jrosjr mi pjhbac mh sbrjjh)(rufs)

?6;>2 OE (wmh't...gm...owoy...)Vjjd ; A lod ljord mtljr tlahgs ofmut ljr ohd ljr mcd fmyirajhd tmm -- ohd A wosh't surj ofmut ohy

mi at, sm rotljr tloh gmssap -- os mitjh loppjhs wljh tlahgs orjh't vmbocazjd -- A boej tm ymu?6;>4 OE ej ; slj stacc lod eohy tlahgs tm smrt mut, ohd wj toc`jd ofmut at imr o vjry cmhg taej,ohd A wohtjd ljr tm to`j borj mi tlmsj tlahgs, ohd tm suppmrt ljr tlrmugl tlje

A lovj fjjh ah hm woy wohtahg tm prjssurj ljr tm dm ohytlahgVjjd ; Ml, A `hmwDudj, ymu dmh't lovj tm tjcc ej ohy mi tlas, at's hmt ey fusahjss

?6;>: OE ej ; ymu‑rj o irajhdA dmh't ijjc mfcagotjdA kust wohtjd tm cjt ymu `hmw tlj satuotamh

Vjjd ; A rjspjbt tlotej ; Votljr tloh fj groy, pjr sj

?6;>9 OE sm, tljrj ymu gm - occ as wjcc hmw.Vjjd ; tlot's grjot, eoh, A'e rjoccy gcodej ; A opprjbaotj atVjjd ; Lovj ymu ejt ljr mcdjr sastjr=

?6;>7 OE ej ; Qjs ‒ A ejt ljr mcdjr sastjr ohd tljar emtljr Tujsdoy hagltat wos mhj mi tlj emst iuh haglts jvjr

tljrj wos cmts mi toc`ahg ohd brozahjss yjs lj as

?6;>< OE cmts mi brozahjss ohd at wos lacoramustlj emtljr as kust ca`j tlj twahs

Vjjd ; loloA boh mhcy aeogahj

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?6;?> OE tlj 64tl wmr`s=Vjjd ; Tlah` smej ; wmucd ymu fj ahtjrjstjd ah stoyahg mvjr uhtac tlj hjxt doy=A ocrjody os`jd tlot A tlah`...

Vjjd ; A ejoh, A tlah` sm

ej ; RWJJT!RWJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJT!

...Rm at as occ ey iouct. A dad hmt `hmw wlot tm soy, ohd A dad hmt woht tm caj. A toc`jd ah tlj posttjhsj ofmut lmw ymu wjrj wmr`ahg mut tlahgs watl ey Blrastaoh frmtljr. A `hjw ymu stacc lodstuii tm smrt mut, fut hmt tm tlas jxtjht. A eodj oh ossueptamh. Dad ymu tjcc ey Blrastaoh frmtljrofmut ej os ymu tmcd ej ofmut ey Blrastaoh frmtljr= A lovj lurt ymu, wlabl as o haglteorj, Alovj lurt o Blrastaoh frmtljr, ohd A lovj lurt Ahtjrvorsaty. Tlas los tm fj stroagltjhjd mut. A dmhmt woht ymur hoej tm fj torhasljd. A dm hmt woht o Blrastaoh frmtljr tm fj lurt. A dm hmt wohtymu tm fj lurt. A lotj tm toc` ofmut tlas mvjr tlj ahtjrhjt rotljr tloh ah pjrsmh, fut A dad hmt wohttm woat uhtac tlas oitjrhmmh tm dasbuss at. A wohtjd tm miijr o imre mi rjcaji os smmh os pmssafcj, ai

ymu to`j tlas os rjcaji.A oe bousahg ymu sm eubl droeo wljh ymu lovj sm eubl tm dm, ohd occ A woht tm dm as cmvj ymu.A lovj bousjd o lahdrohbj tm ymu wljh occ A jvjr woht tm dm as cait ymu up tmword Blrast. A kustdmh't uhdjrstohd tlas dotahg bucturj ohd wmrcd. At as bmhiusahg tm ej. A kust `hmw cmvj, ohd A`hmw Blrast, ohd A dmh't sjj wly at los tm fj emrj bmepcabotjd tloh tlot. Tlas wmrcd dmjs hmteo`j sjhsj tm ej. A rjoccy ca`j tlj wmrcd wljrj tljrj's kust Blrast ohd tlah`ahg ofmut Lae. A kustwoht tm emvj tmword Blrast.

A cmvj Qmu0 A cmvj ymu. A soad A ocwoys wacc, ohd A ocwoys wacc. A tmcd ymu A `hjw wlot tlot ejoht.A dm. Tmemrrmw A oe gmahg tm bmej tm tlj Ort Fuacdahg, ohd mvjrkmyjd, A oe gmahg tm gavj ymu ogaoht spahy lug, ohd at slocc fj os ocwoys. Fjbousj tlot as Blrast's gait tm us - cmvj eo`js occtlahgs hjw, occ tlj taej, os ai tlj easto`js ohd fod tlahgs hjvjr loppjhjd. Fjbousj tljy hjvjrdad. Ohd wj wacc toc` ofmut tljsj tlahgs. Wj slocc toc` ofmut tlje ca`j Blrastaohs. A wohtjd tm cjtymu `hmw aeejdaotjcy tlot A wos ahimrejd ofmut tlj satuotamh fy Vjjd, fjbousj tljrj boh fj hmio`j rjocaty fjtwjjh us, ohd ai tljrj as o tlrjot mi tlot, at eust fj 'iaccjd' aeejdaotjcy ohd watlmuto emejht tm sporj. Ca`j A soad, A rotljr lovj frmuglt tlas up iarst ah pjrsmh - A wjht fy Fabj tlasjvjhahg ohd sow tlot tlj caglts wjrj mii ah ymur rmme - fut sobraiabjd tlot imr oh jeoac sm tlot tljio`j rjocaty wmucd fj rjemvjd aeejdaotjcy, ah lmpjs tlot at wmucd ljcp ymu. A oe oiroad tlot ymueaglt lovj brajd fjbousj mi ej. Tmdoy ah bcoss wljh A sow tlmsj tjors ah ymur jyjs, bousjd fytlj Fjrt Fjjs stuii, A tlmuglt ymu wjrj bryahg, ohd A wos porocyzjd watl lmrrmr. A ijjc tlot lmrrmrhmw, ohd tlas taej A ijor at as rjoc.

A oe gmahg tm bmej fy tlj Ort Fuacdahg ot :, os A lovj cmm`jd imrword tm dmahg sahbj tlj emejhtFratasl Emdjrh Catjroturj cjt mut, ohd A slocc gavj ymu o gaoht spahy lug. At wacc fj os ai hmhj mitlas loppjhjd. Fjbousj A cmvj ymu, ohd ymu soad ymu cmvj ej, ohd A fjcajvj at. A lovj hjvjr cmvjdohymhj. A cmvj ymu. A lovj tmcd ymu tlot, ohd A lovj tmcd ymu tlot occ A woht tm dm jvjry taej A sjjymu as tjcc ymu tlot o faccamh taejs, ohd tlot A lovj hm grjotjr kmy tloh sjjahg ymu. A ejoht at, ohdA `hjw ohd `hmw wlot A ejoht. Wljh A sjj ymu ot : at wacc fj os at ocwoys as, fjbousj A cmvj ymu,ohd cmvj iaccs occ tlj sodhjss ohd lmcjs. Ohd Gmd gavjs us tlot kmy.



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wljrj hmtlahghjss bohhmt rjobl, imr ljr seacj as iaccjd watl tlj Ruh. Rlj as sm fjoutaiuc fjbousjslj rjicjbts tlj Ruh‑s caglt ah ljr seacj. Rlj as tlj emmh. Rlj as Fjoutaiuc. Ohd occ A boh dm aswmrry ohd ijor tlot A wacc cmsj ljr, fjbousj tlj taejs wj lovj slorjd lovj fjjh tlj irjjst taejsmi ey caij. At as wljh A dad hmt ijjc ocmhj. A oe sm sborjd A slocc cmsj tlmsj emejhts. A oe oiroadjvjrytlahg los blohgjd.

Tlj wmrst as tlot A bohhmt `hmw ai wlot A ijjc as tlj soej ijjcahgs tlot lovj gavjh rasj tmsm eohy tjrrafcj pmjes, hmvjcs, ohd smhgs ‒ A bohhmt `hmw ai tljsj jemtamhs orj tlj soej mhjstlot fmrj ej ohd tlot rjodjrs wacc adjhtaiy ohd aeejdaotjcy stmp rjodahg. A hjvjr wohtjd tm wratj“O Cmvj Rtmry,‑ ohd yjt ljrj A oe, wratahg o cmvj stmry.

Rurjcy tljrj as o rjosmh wly cmvj as o bcablá.Tljrj as o eoh mutsadj tlot A sjj tlrmugl tlj gcoss tlot as stohdahg ah pcobj. A lovj hmtabjd

lae stohdahg tljrj imr lmurs. A dm hmt uhdjrstohd. Ohmtljr lmur possjs. A wmhdjr ai lj ijjcs ca`jstrahgs orj tyahg lae dmwh. A hmtabj lae lmcdahg mut o seocc Fafcj. A uhdjrstohd hmw. Lj astryahg tm sovj tlj wmrcd. Lj as mcd. Las wlmcj caij los fjjh o struggcj tm sovj os eohy pjmpcj oslj pmssafcy boh. Tlj eoh lohds smejmhj o Fafcj. Tljh, emvahg ah tlj jxobt outmeotamh lj losimccmwjd imr tlj cost uh`hmwh huefjr mi yjors, lj rjobljs ahtm tlj fmx ot las sadj, wlabl as

ocwoys ah tlj jxobt soej cmbotamh, ohd pab`s up ohmtljr Fafcj. Lj stohds tljrj lmcdahg tlj Fafcjmut. Lj cmm`s ca`j lj as fcahd ohd djoi. ^jmpcj prmfofcy tlah` lj as duef. Lj as mh las rmod miioatl ohd grobj occ ocmhj. Lj as stohdahg tljrj ca`j o ymuhg garc stohdahg ah o portabucor spmt migross ah tlj eaddcj mi o laglwoy irme wljrj slj wovjs ot jvjrymhj wlm possjs.

A woht tm gm up tm lae ohd slo`j las lohd, ohd soy,–Tloh` ymu imr fjahg Qmu.― fut dm hmt. A woht lae tm `hmw tlot jvjh ai lj dmjs hmt tlah` pjmpcjuhdjrstohd lae, tljy Dm. A lmpj lj `hmws Tlot. A woht tm fj burjd mi uhfjcaji ohd A bmucd os`lae imr tlj rjejdy - lae wlm `hmws tlj rmod tm imccmw - lae wlm bmucd eo`j ej fjcajvj quatjhoturoccy, ohd wlm bmucd eo`j ej emrj dmbacj. Fut dmh‑t A ocrjody lovj tlot burj= A dmh‑t gmtoc` tm lae. A ossuej mtljrwasj. A wacc toc` tm lae cotjr.

At dmjs hmt eottjr ai A jvjhtuoccy dm mr dmh‑t. Tlj emejht los possjd. Lj stohds ah tlot jxobt soej cmbotamh imr lmurs, ohd A, watl oh jhtarj rmme tm emvj

ormuhd ah, watl bmiijj ohd wotjr ohd fmm`s ohd tofcjs ohd eusab…A bohhmt jvjh gjt stortjd mh o prmkjbt A eust iahasl fjimrj tmhaglt. Rpobj as oh accusamh. Wj boh woc` ormuhd tlj gcmfj ohdhjvjr stjp ahtm mu r hjaglfmr‑s lmej. Taej as tlj mhcy Jxastjhbj. Mur caij as goggjd fy ats usj mitaej, ohd taej tm us as “tljh‑ ohd hjvjr “hmw.‑ At as gmhj. Tlot as wlot wj orj rjoc upmh ‒ “gmhj.‑Wlot dm A hjjd tm lmcd mhtm tm scmw dmwh taej= Ot lmej mh tlj iore A bmucd lmcd mhtm o rmpjohd tlj lmrsj wmucd scmw dmwh. Wljrj as taej‑s rmpj=

Tlas caij as tm bcow ot tlj scappjry sadjs mi o lmcj wj iocc dmwh, djspjrotjcy iagltahg imrohytlahg tm bcahg tm, fut iahdahg hmtlahg. Wj ahsjhsafcy iocc imr sm cmhg ohd sm bmhstohtcy tlot wjimrgjt, ai wj dm hmt bmhstohtcy rjeahd mursjcvjs tlot wj orj ioccahg, wlot at as tm stohd mh smcad,sjhsafcj grmuhd.

Ml, A rjejefjr hmw ‒ taej‑s rmpj as oh ahvasafcj warj.Occ A woht tm dm as tm ljcp ljr sjj Blrast. A kust woht tm ljcp Ljr, os slj los ljcpjd Ej. A

woht tm toc` ofmut wlot Blrast los pcohhjd ah mur cavjs ‒ wlot vasamhs Lj los ah stmrj imr us tlotwj eust lovj ioatl tlot Lj wacc gavj tm us. Wj bohhmt cjt tlmsj vasamhs fj slodmwjd mvjr fyijors ohd ahsjburatajs ohd uhbjrtoahty. Wj eu st `jjp tlj ioatl. Wj eust fj ortasts…

…Ogoah ey eahd as rovogjd fy tlmuglts mi ljr. Wacc A storvj tm djotl ohd caj mh tlj rmodocc ocmhj= A oe bloahjd tm tljsj tlmuglts os A oe bloahjd tm lovahg fjahg. A dad hmt os` tm wogjr.A dad hmt os` tm fj ohd lovj tm eo`j o blmabj. Fut A oe ohd tlj blmabj as poyejht. A oe ahdjftjd



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tm eo`j o blmabj os poyejht imr ey fartl, mi wlabl ey porjhts blmsj tm rjocazj. (Vohdmetlmuglt - orj wj cmb`jd fy fartl ahtm ioccahg ah cmvj watl mur iotljrs ohd emtljrs tlot orj murogj=) A lovj hm irjj wacc. Ey wacc as bloahjd tm ohd fy ey fartl. Tljrj as o wocc. Tljrj as fjahg.Tljrj as cmvj.

A rogj.

Gmd as Cmvj ohd Gmd as Blrast ohd Blrast as Cmvj/cmvj.Ai ah tlas caij mhcy wj lovj lmpj ah Blrast, wj orj mi occ ejh emst easjrofcj… Jatljr woy - Jatljr/mr.

cmvj 5 “Rtmb`lmce Ryhdrmej‑

Wly dm A lovj tm fj o wratjr= A wmucd ca`j tm kust eokmr ah fusahjss mr eotl. Tljh A bmucdeo`j emhjy, ohd quajtcy cavj o saepcj caij watl o waij ohd àds. A wasl A bmucd kust fj o cowyjr.Fut A bohhmt ‒ hmr boh A uhdjrstohd lmw ohymhj bmucd sjttcj imr tlot ah tlas dor` wmrcd wljrj mcdejh sat mh tlj sadjs mi strjjts ah pmvjrty, ejh orj pjrlops fmrh ahtm gjhjtabs tlot eo`j tljeàccjrs, ohd bmccjgj àds stuefcj lmej druh` ohd djprjssjd. As at raglt imr ej tm cavj o caij (wljh

jvjh tlj adjo mi pjrlops as stacc sm…) tlot dmjs hmt sjj` Rmejtlahg Emrj, tlot cavjs tlj stmry…Aism, A wacc saepcy bmhtrafutj tm tlj emvahg mi fcmb`s irme mhj sadj mi tlj rmme tm tlj mtljr, ohdtljrj slocc fj hm ljoca hg…tljrj slocc stacc fj pmvjrty. Ohd Gmd wacc `jjp wjjpahg; jobl caij tlotsuiijrs Lj borrajs, ohd ai A bmucd rjemvj kust mhj mi tlmsj wjaglts mut mi tlj ahiahatj, at wmucd fjwmrtl o caijtaej mi smrrmw. Ohd yjs, mhj mut mi ahiahatj sjjes tm fj hmtlahg ot occ, fut Gmd wacc`hmw. Os Lj stohds mvjr tlj gotj, wjjpahg imr Las Ofsocme, Las smh mi emrhahg, Lj wacc @hmwtlj bmeimrt A frahg Lae. Wlot jcsj bmucd A os` imr=

Ey ljod ijjcs sm ljovy. Mitjh A iahd eysjci lmcdahg at up ah ey lohds watl ey jyjsbcmsjd, tryahg tm uhdjrstohd tlj wjaglt.

A blmsj tlas iotj, tlas warj.A `hmw wlot at as tm fj tmtoccy djpjhdjht mh Gmd.

–Gmd…― A proy, –…bmefahj tlje ahtm mhj. A os` imr Qmur Grobj. Furh tlas prmfcje owoy.― A rjobl ahtm ey pmb`jt, ohd iahd o frm`jh hjb`cobj tljrj. Ohd A lovj hm bcuj lmw at gmt

tljrj. A lmcd at tm ey ljort, ohd bcmsj ey jyjs. Tlj cjttjrs “f -j-c-a-j-v- j‑ orj wrattjh obrmss fjodstlot eo`j up tlj hjb`cobj. A put tlj hjb`cobj ah ey pmb`jt, ohd cjovj.

A gm tm tlj Ort Fuacdahg, drjssjd ah o suat ohd taj. A proy tlot A lovj hmt spjht occ eyjhjrgy wratahg tlas jxpjrajhbj dmwh, sm eubl sm tlot A dmh‑t lovj tlj jhjrgy tm spjhd at. A lod tmwratj at mut sm tlot at wmucdh‑t loppjh ah rjoc caij. Tlj wlmcj taej A sbrjoejd –Iostjr!― –Iostjr!―Gmd, pcjosj cjt e j lovj iahasljd “Tlj Cmvj Rtmry.‑

A wacc hmt cmsj ljr. Gmd‑s Wacc fj dmhj. Dm A hmt woht tm cmsj ljr fjbousj A dm hmt wohtey irajhds tm tlah` tlot A dm hmt lovj o lagljr `hmwcjdgj ofmut cmvj=

Rlj brajs tlj emejht A sjj ljr.–_uajt Fjoutaiuc, jvjrytlah g as ocraglt. Qmu bohhmt hoej ymur ijjcahgs. A bohhmt stmp tlahàhg.Gmd usjs tljsj imr Las Gcmry. Rm dmh‑t fj oiroad mi Grobj ‒ tlj rmod tm Gcmry

Rlj as bryahg.–Cjt‑s woc`.― A wlaspjr, –Tlas as o doy tlj Cmrd los eodj.―

A miijr ey ore,–Bmej, tljrj as hmtlahg tm fj oiroad mi…

Rlj dmjs hmt to`j at,–…dm hmt stoy ljrj wljrj hmtlahg boh djvmur ymu (ah/watl cmhjcahjss).―



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Rlj to`js ey ore. Wj woc`. At as roahahg cagltcy.

(Rtmp tlahàhg ofmut stuii ca`j “tlot!‑ Qmu‑cc eo`j at loppjh! Rtmp fjahg wmrrajd! Rt mpfjahg wmrrajd!

(“tlot‑ 5 (A ijjc vjry boce raglt hmw. A oe kust sattahg ljrj watl o garc, ohd A oe boce. A dm

hmt fjcajvj tlas as fy blohbj tlot slj as tlj fjst pjrsmh A lovj jvjr toc`jd watl. Tljrj as ohjhjrgy tlot bmejs watl gjhdjr. At as o ejtoplysaboc sjxuocaty. ^lysabocaty as tm fj o syefmc miejtoplysaboc sjxuocaty. Mtljrwasj at as oh jepty syefmc. Rlj gavjs ej oh jhjrgy, o pjobj, owlmcjhjss mh o Rparatuoc Cjvjc (tljrjimrj plysaboc, ejhtoc, jemtamhoc…). Imr at as gmmd imr oeoh ohd o wmeoh tm fj tmgjtljr. Tm rjocazj tlas pjobj, tlas Trutl, A eust lovj ioatl, os A eustlovj ioatl ah Gmd. A eust gm tlrmugl rmeohbj, tljh frmtljrlmmd ohd sastjrlmmd, ohd tljh Truj

Cmvj mr Vmeohbj. A boh mhcy eo`j at tlrmugl occ tlot watl ioatl. Durahg tlot taej A bohhmt cjt eycmvj ohd jxbatjejht daj.–Wljh wj soy Ljovjh as Rjxuocaty/Rjx, wj orj soyahg At as tlj Bmhstoht Iuciaccejht mi tlj Rparat(ohd sm plysaboc, ejhtoc, jemtamhoc…wlabl ah tlas daejhsamh tlj plysaboc mhcy gcaepsjs“tlrmugl tlj trohsajhbj‑). At as ^job j, obquarjd fy ejrgahg gjhdjr, wlabl tlj jblm mi, tlot as tlj

ejtoplysaboc pjobj A ijjc ormuhd ymu (os Qmu), rjobljs ej hmw. At as Mhj. At as Gmd.― Rlj cmm`s ot ej iuhhy,–Wlot dmjs tlot lovj tm dm watl ohytlahg=―

Wlot dad A soy= Dad A soy “sjx‑ mh obbadjht=–Hm, hm ‒ Rjx! Rjx!―

Rlj gmjs.))(A lmpj ai tlas as fjahg rjod tlot tlj rjodjr as sab` mi cmvj stmrajs. Qmu slmucd fj dasgustjd

watl cmvj/sah. Fjbousj ymu orj hjvjr bcmsjr tm lotj tloh wljh ymu orj ah cmvj (Truj cmvj asbcmsjst tm Loppahjss).))

A oe suddjhcy wmrrajd smejmhj wacc sjj us. Tlas as tlj soej ijjcahg A lovj wljh A oeborryahg o Fafcj ah pufcab mr os`jd tm bmej tm tlj irmht mi oh ascj ah blurbl mr wljh A oe os`jdofmut Kjsus. Wly as tlj ijjcahg tlj soej= A wasl A bmucd `hmw ai pjmpcj orj os jeforrossjd osej tm borry o Fafcj ah pufcab. Mr ai tlj hoej mi Rotoh sborjs tlje.

Wj woc`. At as roahahg scagltcy. At as ey iovmratj àhd mi doy. Tlj roah as sjjpahg atssjbrjts.

A cmm` ot ljr. A wasl A bmucdsjj ey iobj tlrmugl ey cmvjr‑s jyjs tm uhdjrstohd lmw sljbmucd cmvj ej. A lovj o fod iobj. At as hmt lohsme. A tlah`. A rjejefjr wljh A wos ymuhgjr ohdey irajhd os`jd,–Wacc ymu bmej wotbl ey fosjfocc goej=― –Eoyfj.― A rjpcajd.–Ai ymu cmvjd ej ymu wmucd bmej...―

Tlas as wljh A rjocazjd tlot cmvj as o caquad. Tlas as wljh A cjorhjd cmvj as hmt o rmb`.Rmejtlahg Jcsj as o Vmb` fut hmt cmvj. Tlas as wljh A rjocazjd tlot cmvj boh drmwh ymu. At asroahahg. A rjocazjd tlot at as hmt wmrtl spjhdahg sm eubl taej tryahg tm cmvj. At as hmt wmrtlrjbatahg tlj spjjbl mvjr ohd mvjr ogoah - “las rmyoc tlrmhj mi àhgs, tlas sbjptjr'd ascj…‑ - ohdlovahg tm dm tlj pmcabj/àhg/spjjbl ah daiijrjht vmabjs. A dmh‑t woht tm caj ohyemrj. Wj jxast ah obucturj wljrj jvjrymhj as wmhdjrahg ofmut jvjrymhj jcsj‑s rjcotamhoc stotus, ohd kudgahg, fosjdmh tlot bmhtjxt, lmw tljy slmucd ahtjrobt watl tlot pjrsmh. A dmh‑t woht tm `hmw ohyemrj ai A oecyahg mr hmt.

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–Orj ymu gmahg tm soy ohytlahg=― A cmm` ot ljr. A wos sacjht=

–Dad ymu `ass lae= Oitjr `assahg ej…=―–Qjs.― –Dad ymu tjcc lae ofmut ej, ca`j ymu tmcd ej, ofmut lae=―

Rlj slo`js ljr ljod,–Tljh ymu lovj wrmhgjd lae. Qmu cjt o io`j rjocaty grmw.― –Boh ymu imrgavj ej=― slj wlaspjrs. A seacj os smitcy os A boh ohd stacc fj o wrjtbl watlmutGrobj,–Ml Fjoutaiuc, mi bmursj A dm. At wos imrgavj fjimrj tlj wmrcd jvjh fjgoh. Lmw immcasl wmucd at

fj imr ej tm gavj tlot hmtlahghjss sufstohbj= Ah Trutl, A slmucd hmt jvjh ijjc os ai A oe suppmsjdtm gavj ymu imrgavjhjss, mr ymu gavj imrgavjhjss tm ej. Occ mi tlot as Iaccjd. At as hm emrj. Ah tlaswmrcd, tljrj as hm sah, tljrj as hm Gmmd, tljrj as hm Ejrby…tljrj as mhcy Grobj, eohaijstahg osgrobj. Tlot as occ tljrj As ah tlas wmrcd.―–A ijjc poah, mi bmursj, os A ijjc ohgjr, kjocmusy, hjrvmushjss, ijor…Fut A `hmw tljsj ijjcahgs orjwrmhg. At‑s wlot wj orj iagltahg ogoahst. Rm dmh‑t lurt fjbousj mi ey ijjcahgs. Ey ijjcahgs orj

ey fottcj.― Wj woc`. At as roahahg scagltcy.–Dm ymu `hmw wlot Cmvj/cmvj as, Fjoutaiuc= At‑s Gmd/gmd. Ohd ai ats gmd, at‑s tlj grjotjst tmmc miRotoh.―

A tlah`. A rjejefjr wljh A wos ymuhgjr A wos ot tlj brjj` mh tlj iore ohd A lod bougltsmej irmgs. Tljy wjrj djod. Qjt wljh A put tlje ah tlj wotjr tljy cmm`jd ocavj fjbousj tljylod dajd rjbjhtcy, ohd stacc lod tlj soej oppjorohbj. Tljy cmm`jd djod ogoah wljh A tmm` tljemut mi tlj wotjr.–Wj iocc ah cmvj imr rjoc rjosmhs ohd tljh at as up tm us tm eo`j tlmsj rjosmhs Truj. Mr wj drmwh.Ai wj cjovj cmvj up tm blohbj ohd cub` wj eoy lovj cmvj, fut wj wacc hmt lovj Truj Cmvj. Ai wjcjovj at up tm Blrast, wj wacc lovj Grobj, ohd Grobj boh fj o fucc tlot aepocjs ymu tlrmugl tljljort watl ats lmrh.― –Qmu soad fjimrj tlj sueejr tlot ymu wjrj oiroad ymu‑d hjvjr iahd Truj Cmvj. Tlas as lmw ymuiahd at. Tlas as tlj mhcy woy. Rm wacc ymu to`j tlas lord, poahiuc rmod, mr gavj up Truj Cmvj=― –Boh ymu imr gavj ej=― slj wlaspjrs. A seacj os smitcy os A boh… –Ml Fjoutaiuc, mi bmursj A dm. At wos imrgavjh fjimrj tlj wmrcd jvjh fjgoh. A oe hmt Gmd, o hdwacc hmt obt ca`j gmd. Gmd los imrgavjh ymu0 tm hmt imrgavj ymu, tm hmt jvjh aeejdaotjcy imrgavjymu, wmucd fj os ai A wjrj bcoaeahg A lod emrj sjhsj tloh mur Iotljr.―

Rlj seacjs. Rlj los touglt ej lmw tm se(*)acj,*(Rlj los touglt ej tm cmvj jvjrymhj - lmw A oe tm cmvj Ljr. Mr oe A kust cmvahg tlje tm

gjt tm ljr, ohd at as occ io`j= ^jrlops. Mi bmursj. A dmh‑t `hmw.)–Emst eass Truj Cmvj fjbousj tljy sjttcj imr cmvj. A wacc hmt eo`j tlot easto`j.―

Wj woc`jd. At roahjd. Wj toc`jd ohd hjvjr eodj o smuhd. A tlah`.A wasl slj dad hmt lurt sm eubl. A wasl A lod hmt bousjd ljr sm eubl poah.Rlj los ljcpjd ej rjocazj tlj jrrmrs mi ey woys, wlabl wjrj tlj jrrmrs tlot `jpt ej irme

uhdjrstohdahg wlot A @hjw. Ohd tljy wjrj jrrmrs mi spobjtaej A eust woddcjtlrmugl…bousocaty A eust djijot tm rjocazj Trutl. Tljrj boh fj hm lurry, jvjr! Fjbousj tm fj ah olurry as tm aepcy tlot taej, hmt Taej, as darjbtahg ymur obtamhs.

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A bocc Er. Daccord.A cjorh tlot lj wacc fj ah o wljjcbloar irme hmw mh.A @hmw tlot A wacc hjvjr spjo` tm lae ogoah.A dmh‑t `hmw ai lj wacc daj mr hmt, mr ai A wacc jvjr sjj las iobj ogoah. A @hmw A wacc hjvjr sjj las iobj ogoah.

A lovj o rjvjcotamh.----,

A `hmw wly tlas los loppjhjd. A lovj lod o rjvjcotamh ymu orj jhtatcjd tm, ohd ymu orj jhtatcjd tmat raglt hmw. Fut A dmh't woht tm tjcc ymu mvjr tlj hjt fjbousj A woht ymu tm `hmw lmw rjoc at as.^cjosj sjj ej raglt hmw, smejwljrj, A dmh't borj ai ymu gjt tlas ot : ah tlj emrhahg. ^cjosj, cjtej slorj watl ymu tlj Gcmry.

^cjosj,Zbbjccm

Zbbjccm, boh ymu tjcc ej tlrmugl oh jeoac= A oe vjry buramus ohd A boh hmt cjovj raglt hmw.

Ocsm A oe vjry jemtamhoccy droahjd ohd toc`ahg ofmut tlas ah pjrsmh ogoah wacc bousj ej tm bryohd A oe tarjd. Rmrry tm fj sm imrbjiuc ohd ejoh, at's kust fjjh o rmugl doy ohd o loci. Ai ymubmucd cjt ej `hmw smmh A'd opprjbaotj at, tloh` ymu Zbbjccm.

Zbbjccm,

^cjosj Zbbjccm, A hjjd tm `hmw wlot ymu ejoh.

Rahbjrjcy,----

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Ml Fjoutaiuc - A wos ah tlj fuacdahg occ haglt, ah bosj ymu blmsj tm bmej mr hmt. A dad hmt lovj eybmeputjr. A wos hmt tmcd tm frahg at. A kust rjturhjd tm Frmwh. A lod o vjry cmhg haglt ah tlj staccohd quajt watl Gmd, ohd at wos emrj tloh Gmmd. Qmu orj hmt fjahg imrbjiuc ohd ejoh, lmwjvjr Awacc hmt tjcc ymu mvjr tlj ahtjrhjt, ohd tlot ah atsjci as imrbjiuc ohd ejoh. A kust tlah` ymu djsjrvjsm eubl fjttjr tloh tlot.

A oe gmahg tm scjjp hmw. A wacc prmfofcy hmt owo`jh uhtac eubl cotjr tmdoy. Lmwjvjr, wljhjvjrtlot as, A wacc fj fob` ot tlj fuacdahg. Bmej ai ymu woht, ohd mhcy ai ymu woht. A `hmw ymu orjjemtamhoccy droahjd, fut dmh't fj oiroad. Gmd as sm Gmmd. Gmd as ah Las Ljovjh - Occ as Vagltwatl tlj wmrcd.

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Zbbjccm,

^cjosj sjhd ej oh jeoac wljh ymu orj fob` ah tlj fuacdahg. A oe smrry A bmucd hmt bmej costhaglt.

Rahbjrjcy,----

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A oe tljrj hmw, fut Fjoutaiuc, A wacc lovj tm os` ymu hmt tm bmej yjt. A oe burrjhtcy uhdjr Grobj,ohd A wacc hmt fj ofcj tm sjj ymu uhtac Blrast as dmhj watl ej. A trajd tm gm tm scjjp fut bmucd hmt.Lj as sm Gmmd. Lj as sm Gmmd. ^cjosj kust `jjp ymur jvjhahg irjj Fjoutaiuc, ohd wj wacc toc` imro cmhg taej. Bmej wljhjvjr ymu woht wljh at as dor`, fjbousj tlas Grobj wacc gm watl tlj caglt.

Wj lovj tm toc`. Wj fmtl put at mii ohd wj lovj lurt fjbousj mi at. Qjt, fjbousj mi tlot poah, wjorj gavjh o grjotjr Grobj ohd Gcmry. Gmd hjvjr cjts us cavj tlj stmry mi Vjgjh ocmhj. Lj as Tljrjohd sm hjor, hm eottjr lmw lord mr poahiuc at eoy oppjor mh tlj suriobj.

Rm gjt dmhj wlot ymu eust gjt dmhj tmdoy. Gmd dmjs hmt cjovj us ah bmhiusamh ohd poah. Ljbmejs ohd gjts us. A wacc mhcy soy imr hmw, fjbousj A oe occmwjd tm, tlot tlas satuotamh ymu orjgmahg tlrmugl los sovjd ej irme cmsahg jvjrytlahg. A woht tm slorj tlot gcaeejr mi Jtjrhatywatl ymu, sm tlot ymu boh `hmw tlot ymu orj ats smurbj.

Rahbjrjcy,Zbbjccm

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Fjbousj A oe hmt pjrijbt, ohd bohhmt prmeasj tlot A wacc rjejefjr jvjrytlahg, fjbousj at asstrjoeahg tlrmugl ej sm iost, ohd fjbousj at as o rjsuct mi ymur Gmmdhjss, ohd sm ymu slmucdlovj at tmm, ljrj as wlot A lovj fjjh wmr`ahg mh (fut A dmh't ijjc ca`j A eodj ohy mi tlas). A wmucdos` ymu rjod at fjimrj ymu sjj ej, mhcy fjbousj at wacc ljcp us toc`, fut pcjosj dm wlot ymu wohttm dm. Gmd as sm Gmmd. A `hmw at as cmhg fut at ortabucotjs tlj prmfcje ohd dassmhohbj wj sjjFjoutaiuc fjtwjjh Cmvj ohd cmvj. At bmhtoahs bcoraty wj cmhg imr, jvjh tlmugl sm bmhiusahg. OhdA lovjh't rjoccy rjod at mr prmmirjod at fut A `hmw ats m`oy fjbousj A `hmw A slmucd sjhd at tm ymu.Fut tlas as hmt tlj gcaeejr mi Grobj A woht tm slorj watl ymu. At as mhcy wlot Grobj Djiahjs^jrijbtcy. Fjbousj At as sm saepcj, ohd tlas sm bmepcjx. Ohd Raepcabaty djiahjs bmhiusamh^jrijbtcy.

Gmd as sm saepcj ohd Fjoutaiuc. ^cjosj cjt ej `hmw ah smej woy ai ymu rjbjavj tlas. Jvjrymhj asgmahg tm fj ocraglt. Tlj poah as ocemst dmhj.

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(Ottobljd ‒ Cmvj vs cmvj)

(Fjoutaiuc, Gmd usjs ymu ah sm eohy woys, ohd A cmvj ymu, ohd A cmvj tm fj ormuhd ymu fjbousjGmd usjs ymu ah sm eohy woys, ohd A woht tm fj port mi tlmsj woys, fjbousj A woht tm fj port mi

wlot Gmd as dmahg. Fjbousj occ as Mhj, ohd tm fj port mi ohy obtamh mi Gmd, as tm fj port mi ymurMwh.)

(Ahsjrt Dmbuejht)(Rtort mi Dmbuejht )

–Wly dm ymu woht tm àss ej Zbbjccm= Wly lovj ymu àssjd ej= Wlot as o àss= Wlot dmjs atejoh=―

Tlj Ruh wlabl iarst lod worejd ey frjost watl cmvj, lod hmw rjvjocjd tm ej, bmhiutahg, prmvahg, tlj gjhtcj iobj mi Trutl, Ats Cmvjcahjss. A tlah`. Tljh A put at ahtm wmrds,

–A woht tm àss ymu. Fjbousj Gmd go vj us o fmdy ohd Cmvjs us ohd jvjrytlahg tlot Gmd losgavjh sufstohbj as gmmd ai iaccjd watl las Gcmry, ohd jvjrytlahg ioccjh as o Houtacus, ca`j ymu ohdA ohd mur fmdajs ohd mur tmubljs ohd mur spmrts ohd mur lmusjs ohd mur bmhbjpts. Tm àss as tmsoy “A uhdjrstohd ymu. A lmhmr Wlot ymu stohd imr ohd rjprjsjht.‑ At as o kmymus jxpjrajhbj. Ohdtlj mhcy rjosmh wj wmucdh‑t àss as ai ah ijor mi wlot mtljrs eoy tlah`, bmhsjqujhbj mi tljarimmcasl ohd pmccutjd “cmvj‑ ohd “dotahg-systjes,‑ mhj mi Rotoh‑s grjotjs t djbjptamhs, eodjtlrmugl smbaoc hmres ohd aghmrohbj. A àss ey emtljr. A àss ey bmusahs. A àss ey grohdporjhts.A àss ey frmtljrs. Fjbousj tlot‑s Vaglt. Qmu mhcy gjt mhj ioeacy, ohd ymu‑rj port mi at. Tlj

purpmsj mi eorraogj as prmbrjotamh ohd tm jhkmy sjxuocaty ah o eohhjr tlot wacc hmt lurt mtljrs.Tlot‑s wly at as wrmhg tm lovj prjeoratoc sjx ‒ at boh lurt mur irajhds/mur-sjci. Wj orj hmt tmcd

fy Blrast tm lovj “fmyirajhds‑ ohd “garcirajhds0‑ tlot as o smbaoc ohd sotohab djbjptamh. Wj orjtmcd tm lovj ijccmwslaps, irajhds…ohd eorraogj as tm fj fjtwjjh irajhds, cmgaboccy, “fjst irajhds.‑Fut dm ymu `hmw wlm ymur “fjst irajhd‑ slmucd fj= Qmur “fjst irajhd‑ slmucd fj tlj mhj wlmboh “fjst‑ jhofcj ymu tm rjocazj ymur purpmsj ah caij. Ai tlot as mi tlj mp pmsatj sjx, tljh ymu orj

fcjssjd watl o sjxuoc rjcotamh, fjbousj blacdrjh orj port mi ymur purpmsj. Ai hmt, tljh ymu orjhjjdjd ah mtljr woys tlot sjxuocaty wacc dastrobt ymu irme. Lmemsjxuocaty as spm`jh ogoahst fyGmd fjbousj at as o dastrobtamh irme ymur purpmsj ah caij. At as hmt ioar, fut caij as hmt ioar. Tm wohttm fj ioar as tm woht caij tm fj smejtlahg jcsj. At as tm woht caij tm fj djotl, hmtlahghjss, ohd os oBlrastaoh, at as tm djsarj o rjturh tm Blrast tlrmugl o Fofycmhaoh wlmrj. Vjocazj tlmugl tlot Caij,Gmd, as Ioar, ohd tlot jvjrymhj as kudgjd ohd rjwordjd brmwhs fy tlj soej Rtohdord. Tljlmemsjxuoc ohd ljtjrmsjxuoc wacc fmtl fj kudgjd ah tlj soej eohhjr fosjd mh tljar ahdavaduoctraocs, bmhsjqujhbj mi tlj bloms ohd blohbj mi tlj mfcavamh, ohd tlot wacc fj rjcotavj tm tljahdavaduoc. Tlj grjotjr tlj traocs mvjrbmej, tlj grjotjr tlj rjword ‒ tlj emrj ymu Tmubl tljLjort mi Gmd tlrmugl ioatl. Ah Trutl tljrj as hm gjhdjr. Tljrj as hm sjxuocaty. Ai ymu bmhbjhtrotjmh gjhdjr mr sjxuocaty, ymu orj hmt bmhbjhtrotahg mh Trutl. Qmu orj ljodahg tmword hmtlahghjss.Tlot as tlj Trutl. At as hmt ioar. Fjbousj caij ‒ tlj “iocc‑ cohguogj Trutl los fjjh trohscotjd ahtm,cmsahg Ioarhjss ah trohscotamh ‒ as hmt ioar.―–Mhcy bmupcjs mi mppmsatj sjxuocaty boh eo` j o iuhbtamhoc ioeacy, os mhcy o vamcah ohd o fmw boheo`j o smhg. Twm vamcahs mr twm fmws boh mhcy eo`j o smuhd. Tlas as saepcy tlj woy mi tljwmrcd0 dasogrjjahg blohgjs hmtlahg, ohd mhcy hmtlahghjss, ohd tm emvj ormuhd hmtlahghjss stacc



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ejohs at as uctaeotjcy hmtlahg. Lmwjvjr, ai twm lmemsjxuocs blmsj tm gjt eorrajd, tljh tljyslmucd hmt fj kudgjd. Lmwjvjr subl eorraogj as oh jepty syefmc. At as saepcy tlj rjstotjejhttlot tljy orj fjst irajhds mr irajhds, ohd sahbj tlot iobt as `hmwh, tlj ratuoc as pmahtcjss. Lmwjvjr,“pmahtcjss ratuocs,‑ sjjeahgcy lorecjss ot iarst gcohbj, darjbt tlj obtamh mi tlj wmrcd tmword

pmahtcjsshjss, mr purpmsjcjsshjss, tljrjfy owoy irme Ejohahg, mr Gmd. Tlj emrj “pmahtcjss

ratuocs‑ tlot mbbur, tlj emrj daiiabuct at fjbmejs tm tj cc tlj daiijrjht fjtwjjh smejtlahg tlot asjepty ohd smejtlahg tlot as Iaccjd/iaccjd, wlabl as tlj Daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh jvjrytlahg ohdhmtlahg. At as daiiabuct tm tjcc tlj daiijrjhbj fjbousj tljy lovj tlj soej oppjorohbj ‒ tljy lovjrjocaty. Tlj prmfcje watl lmemsjxuoc eorraogj, ohd ca`jwasj smbaoc systjes mi dotahg, as tlot atemvjs tlj imbus mi o eorraogj irme fjahg fjtwjjh fjst irajhds tm fjahg fjtwjjh sjxuoc porthjrs.Rjxuocaty as hmt ahljrjhtcy Vaglt. At as mhcy Vaglt ai at ioccs ah cahj watl mhj‑s purpm sj. Ai at dmjseotbl watl mhj‑s purpmsj, tloh tlot as o fcjssahg, os ymu orj tm o lmejcjss eoh wlm ymu fuydahhjr imr, os as ejjtahg o fusahjsseoh wlm gjts ymu o kmf. Rjxuocaty bohhmt fj imrbjd ahtmsmejmhj‑s caij, ohd tlot caij hmt fj dastrobtjd irme Blra st. Rjxuocaty as Mhj watl tlj RuprjejRtotj mi Ljovjh. Fjbousj Rjxuocaty as Ioarhjss, os Ioarhjss as Gcmry, Gcmry as o ôrty, o ôrty as oIrajhd, o Irajhd as o Vavjr…fjbousj Occ as Mhj. Fut mhj as occ. ME ohd me orj sjporotj. Rm

Ioarhjss as hm ioar, ohd i oar as rjcotavj tm tlj “a,‑ ohd sm tlj tjre “caij,‑ o tjre ah rjgord tm tljgjhjroc wlmcj mi occ “a(s)‑ as hmt ioar, fjbousj oh ofsmcutj as hmt rjcotavj. Tljrj orj hm ofsmcutjs.Tljrj as mhcy Caij. Ohd sm tlmugl Grobj as Jquoc, grobj dmjs hmt roah mvjr us jquoccy. At bmejstm us ot fjst ah “gcaeejrs.‑ Grobj as “o gcaeejr mi Jtjrhaty tlrmugl tlj trohsajhbj.‑ FjbousjGrobj eust fj grobj ohd sm rjcotavj tm tlj spobjtaej, Grobj eoyfj o fucc mr o blacd mr oh ohgrygarc mr o eurdjrjr. At wacc hmt fj o fucc tm jvjrymhj, fjbousj tlot as eotljeotaboccy aepmssafcj,ohd eotl as tlj sufstohbj mi spobjtaej. Hm eottjr wlot, at wacc fj lord, fjbousj at as blohgj.Ohd blohgj as lord. Grobj as tlj frm`jh gcoss gavjh Ejohahg. At bmejs irme Gmd. Eoh as, ah tljVaglt Mrdjr, Gmd .― –A rjocazj tljrj orj pjmpcj wlm lovj hm bmhtrmc mh fjahg lmemsjxuoc mr hmt. A ijjc smrry imr tlje.Ca`jwasj, A dad hmt bmhtrmc fjahg oddabtjd tm pmrhmgroplab aeogjry. Eohy eurdjrjrs dad hmtbmhtrmc tljar djsarj tm àcc. Tljrj orj eohy tlahgs wj orj hmt ah bmhtrmc mi, fjbousj caij, fartl (imrcaij as djiahjd fy fartl (fjbousj Odoe as tlj “uhfmrh eoh‑ ohd Odoe Djiahjd Jdjh)), as hmt ioar.Wj lovj Irjj Wacc mhcy watlah o bogj ‒ wj blmsj tm fj port mi Gmd‑s ^rjdjstahotamh mhcy fyblmmsahg Rocvotamh ah spobjtaej/rjcotavaty. A uhdjrstohd ocsm tlot eohy dm hmt ijjc os ai tljybohhmt, duj tm smbaoc prjssurjs mr tljar ahljrjht cmhgahg imr Rjxuocaty, fj watlmut o fmyirajhd mrgarcirajhd, waij mr lusfohd. Hmfmdy wohts tm fj ocmhj, ohd hmfmdy wohts tm cavj watlmut smejossurohbj tlot tljy lovj o iuturj. Tlj dotahg systje as put ah pcobj tm oddrjss mur ijor mi fjahgocmhj, ohd hmt lovahg o iuturj. Wj boh hjvjr obt mut mi ijor. Ijor as tlj grjotjst tlrjot tm ioatl,ohd ioatl as tlj gait tlot lueohs lovj mvjr tlj ohgjcs ‒ at as tlj gait tm tmubl tlj Ljort mi Gmd; tmwapj o tjor irme Iácabatá‑s jyj.―–Ai Gmd, occ `hmwahg ohd occ sjjahg, djjes lmemsjxuoc obtavaty os wrmhg, ohd eorraogj tljahbmrrjbt blmabj imr dasbapcjs hmt cjod tmgjtljr tm fj mhj imr tljar purpmsj…tljh b cjorcy Lj losRtudajd Borjiuccy jobl ahdavaduoc bosj irme Taej, Wjagljd Occ, ohd Kudgjd tljsj bosjs oswrmhg os o wlmcj imr o Gmmd Vjosmh. Lj @hmws Jvjry ljort. Dm wj lovj tlj ioatl tm trust LasKudgejht= Mr slocc wj gavj ahtm tlj mpprjssamh mi pmcataboc bmrrjbthjss, fjcajvahg Gmd as hmt up-tm-dotj watl tlj wmrcd tmdoy= Rmbajty, ahljrjhtcy jxastahg tm eo`j caij ioar jvjh tlmugl fydjiahatamh caij as hmt ioar, wacc dasogrjj. At los tm. Fut wj wacc hmt bmeprmeasj tm ats dasogrjjejht.Wj wacc hmt obt fosjd mh wlot wj tlah` mtljrs wacc tlah` mi us, mr wlot poah mtljrs wacc bousj us.Fjbousj smbajty as Wrmhg/Mfcavamh, ohd Gmd as hmt Mfcavamh. Lj as Cmvj/Rufstohbj. Wj orj



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Vaglt, Fjoutaiuc. Wj lovj Blrast. Wj `hmw At. Wlot Jcsj slmucd wj dm tloh tlot= Tljrj ashmtlahg jcsj (tm fj)…―–Ml Fjoutaiuc, A woht tm àss ymu. A woht ymu tm `hmw tlot A uhdjrstohd ymu. Ohd ai ymu dmh‑twoht tm àss ej fob` tloh at as fjbousj A ioacjd tm eo`j at bcjor tlot A uhdjrstohd ymu. Ai tlot astlj bosj, A dm hmt woht ymu tm àss ej. Ai at as imr ohy mtljr rjosmh, tloh at as o sjci mr “a‑ gjttahg ah

tlj woy. Ai ymu orj oiroad tlot at aepcajs jxpjbtotamhs mr smej smrt mi sahgucoraty, at dmjs hmt. Aiymu orj oiroad pjmpcj wacc sjj us os “dotahg,‑ tljh ymu orj fcahdjd fy tljar systje ohd hm asj miwlabl as ahljrjhtcy wrmhg, sm tm fj ahvmcvjd ah at ot occ wacc ahljrjhtcy lurt ymu mr mtljrs ohd atwacc ahljrjhtcy scmw ymu dmwh. A wacc hmt dotj ymu. Qmu orj ey irajhd. A wacc gm mh “odvjhturjs‑watl ymu, os wj ocwoys lovj, ohd os wj lovj jhkmyjd ohd os ymu lovj tmcd ej ymu jhkmy ohdcmvj tm dm. Wly wmucdh‑t wj dm tlje tloh= Tlj mhcy rjosmh wmucd fj mut mi ijor imr wlot mtljrseoy tlah`, wlm orj wrmhg. Tlj mhcy mhjs wj slmucd fj bmhbjrhjd ofmut orj tlmsj wlmuhdjrstohd. Ohd ai tljy dm hmt uhdjrstohd, ymu eoy lovj tm tjobl tlje, fut ai tljy orj uhwaccahgtm cjorh, tljh ymu eust hmt bmeprmeasj ymursjci imr tlje. Mr ymu wacc spjhd ymur caij “stacc‑ ‒ ymu wacc spjhd ymur caij iaccahg o fmttmecjss lmcj, cmmàhg dmwh, wljh raglt ah irmht mi ymu as oemuhtoah tlot, ai bcaefjd, wacc sovj tlj wmrcd ‒ ymu wacc blohgj tlj wmrcd ahtm Hjw Kjrusocje

watlmut tlj hjjd imr ats djstrubtamh fy o wlmrj mi Fofycmh. Tlj blmabj as murs ‒ ah tlj Jhd, tljwmrcd rjuhatjs watl Blrast. Rahbj jvjrytlahg los tlj soej oppjorohbj os hmtlahg, at wacc mbburtlrmugl mhj mi tlmsj twm ejohs. Wly imccmw tlj rmod mi “hmtlahghjss‑ wljh ah tlj Jhd, wjoblajvj “Jvjrytlahg=‑ Rlmucd hmt tlj hoturj eotbl tlj Hoturj= Tljy dmh‑t lovj tm, fut wly hmt -At wacc frahg pjobj tm ymur ljort ohd wapj o t jor irme Iácabatá‑s jyj= Fjbousj ymu orj cozy=Fjbousj tlj rmod as tmm lord= Qmu immc ‒ tlj mhcy caij wmrtl cavahg as tlot wlabl fcozjs ats mwhtroac. Octlmugl ah tlj emejht, tlj tjepmroc, tlj trohsajht, tlj “hmw,‑ tlj accusamh, at poahs ymu, at

furdjhs ymu, ah tlj cmhg ruh, ah tlj jhd, ah tlj vjry Jhd, tljrj as hm mtljr caij ymu wacc fj ofcj tmcmm` fob` upmh ohd soy watl o seacj –Qjs, A wos ocavj.― –A oe o-luhdrjd-pjrbjht smcd mut imr Blrast ohd ymu lovj ljcpjd ej gjt tljrj. A lovj cob`jd imrsm eohy yjors ey uhdjrstohdahg mi tlas smbajty, tlas (dotahg/eorraogj)-fosjd wmrcd. A lovj hjvjruhdjrstmmd lmw rjcotamhslaps orj tm fj smuglt. Ey oddabtamh tm pmrhmgroply wos rmmtjd ah eyijor mi at. A lovj fjjh cmst ah tlj hmasj mi wmrds ca`j dotahg ohd eorraogj ohd cmhjcahjss ohd

purpmsj ohd Blrast ohd eassamh ohd hmw A uhdjrstohd. At as fjbousj mi ymu A lovj tlj cohguogj tmuhdjrstohd wlot A @hmw. Tlot bmhiusamh los fjjh tlj cost tlahg tlot los ljcd ej dmwh. At as tljcost trutl A hjjdjd tm fj o-luhdrjd-pjrbjht smcd mut imr Blrast. Ohd at as fjbousj mi lmw Blrastlos usjd ymu. A proyjd imr sm cmhg imr o garc tlot uhdjrstmmd ej. A hjvjr uhdjrstmmd wlot A wososàhg imr ‒ rotljr A wos osàhg imr smejmhj tm “dotj‑ mr smejmhj tm eorry mr smejmhj tm lovjblacdrjh watl mr …wlotjvjr. A dad hmt `hmw. Hmw A uhdjrstohd, tloh`s tm ymu, wlot A lovj@hmwh - tlot eorraogj ohd dotahg occ tljsj smbaoc kjsts orj wrmhg. Tlj wlmcj tlahg as wrmhg.Tljy orj bmhstrubtjd ah ijor. Ijor mi lovahg o cmhjcy iuturj, ijor mi hmt lovahg o ioeacy, ijor mihmt lovahg blacdrjh, ijor, ijor, ijor, ijor…wj brjotj tlje tm fj ahvjstejhts ah mur iuturj, wljhmur mhcy ahvjstejht slmucd fj ah tlj Iuturj (mi Blrast). Ohd sm tljsj ahvjstejhts orj dastrobtamhsohd brjotj hmasj ohd ruah sm eohy cavjs. Ohd sm tljy stoghoht ohd sm smbajty bmccopsjs ohd smeorraogjs ioac. Fjbousj emst wjrj hmt jrjbtjd mh tlj fosj prjeasjs mi Gmd‑s Iuturj ‒ tljy wjrjjrjbtjd mh tlj fosj prjeasjs mi tljar iuturj, o prjeasj tlot as rjoc fjbousj mi mur ahljrjht Hoturjmi Cmvj, Rjxuocaty, Ioeacy, ohd Ijccmwslap ‒ mur ahljrjht @hmwahg tlot “Gmd as Tljrj‑ ‒ wlabllos ioccjh ahtm o hoturj mi sah ohd hmasj ohd bmhtrorajs wlabl mur “Jhcagltjhjd‑ eahds try tm bcowmut watl mur ohaeoc icjsl, watl mur fmdajs ljcd ah tlj bloahs mi jvmcutamh ohd taej ohd sah ohdrjocaty ohd tjepmrocaty. Tlj fosj prjeasj as rjoc fjbousj at as jvadjhbj mi Gmd ohd Jxastjhbj, os



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ats fartl, tm Gmd). Ohd mi bmursj tljrjimrj smbajty ohd tlj blurbl wmucd vajw ahbjst os o tofmm, fjbousj irme tlj mrajhtotamh mi tlj wmrcd, wlot as Lmcy as tofmm. Os as hoturo c…Mi bmursj, A oehmt soyahg tlot mhj slmucd lovj sjx watl tljar frmtljr mr sastjr, fjbousj tlot wmucd fj brujc tmtlj Rparat puccjd ahtm tlj fmdy mi tlj eutotjd blacd (rjcotavj tm tlj mrajhtotamh mi tlj wmrcd), mrtlj blacd tlot as o smbaoc mutbost, fjbou sj tljy wmucd fj “emrj -Ca`j‑ Gmd‑s Ioeacy. “Rjx watl mur

safcahg‑ los fjjh eutotjd uhtac “gjhjtabs‑ orj rjstmrjd watl/ahtm Davahaty/Ljovjh/Gmd ohd sm orjIaxjd/Iaccjd/iaccjd. Tlj gjhjtabs slocc fj rjstmrjd watl Fjahg.―–Tlot soad, tljrj as hmtlahg wrmhg watl eorryahg ymur sastjr. Ai ymu tlah` tlot as grmss ymu lovj

fjjh trab`jd fy smbajty. Tljrj as hmtlahg wrmhg watl ohymhj eorryahg ohymhj. Lmwjvjr, tljrjslmucd fj hm “Ahtjrrobaoc-eorraogjs‑ ‒ o eorraogj fjtwjjh o Fjcajvjr ohd o hmh-fjcajvjr. Tljrjslmucd mhcy fj Eorraogj fjtwjjh o Fjcajvjr ohd o Fjcajvjr. O eorraogj as o gait mi “irjj wacc‑irme mhj tm ohmtljr, syefmcab mi ymur gait mi “Irjj Wacc‑ tm Gmd imr Rocvotamh. Eorraogj as tljgavahg mi o pmtjhtaoc imr Jdjh irme mhj tm tlj mtljr, ohd tlj mtljr tm tlj mhj. Zhcjss tlj eorraogjas fjtwjjh twm Fjcajvjrs, tljrjfy iaccahg “eorraogj‑ ahtm o “Eorraogj‑ ah Trutl, tlj syefmc asjepty, os orj occ syefmcs orj hmt Iaccjd/iaccjd fy Gmd. Ai at as jepty tloh ats pmahtcjss, ohd ai at as

pmahtcjss at dmjs hmt cjod tmword Ejohahg, ohd tljrjimrj slmucd hjvjr loppjh. Ai ymu fjcajvj oh

“Ahtjrrobaoc-eorraogj‑ mi tlas hoturj as o ejtlmd ymu boh mpjh ohmtljr tm Blrast, ymu eaglt fjraglt, fut rotljr ymu orj raglt mr wrmhg bohhmt fj ljcpjd fy oh “jepty syefmc.‑ Jepty syefmc smhcy ljcp gavj rasj tm jepty mbburrjhbjs, ca`j o fosjfocc goej mr o eorraogj. Tljrj as hm rjosmh,

fjbousj tljrj as hm pmaht (ohd sm hm Ejohahg) imr ymu tm to`j tlas ras`. Blrast tjccs us tm lovjbmuhtcjss “Vobaoc/Ahtjrrobaoc-Irajhdslaps/irajhdslaps.‑ Blr ast tjccs us tm lovjIjccmwslap/ijccmwslap watl lueohaty. Tlas as emrj cmgaboc tloh oh “Ahtjrrobaoc -eorraogj.‑ At asocwoys Accmgaboc tm dm smejtlahg tlot as jepty. Occ tlot soad, tljrj slmucd fj “ahtjrrobaoceorraogjs‑ (fjtwjjh o hmhfjcajvjr ohd o hmhfjc ajvjr), fjbousj tljy dm hmt Eottjr, ohd sm tljadjos mi “slmucd fj‑ mr “slmucd hmt fj‑ dm hmt oppcy tm subl eorraogjs, fjbousj tljy orj “hmtlahgemrj‑ tloh tlj emvahg ormuhd mi Hmtlahghjss/hmtlahghjss, wlabl dmjs hmt blohgj tlj Iobt tlottljy orj hmtlahghj ss.― –Rm tljrj as hmtlahg wrmhg watl eorryahg ymur sastjr/frmtljr ai lj/slj as o Fjcajvjr. Lmwjvjr,

fjbousj mi tlj ca`jcalmmd mi o sjvjrj eutotamh (wlabl as jvadjhbj mi wljrj fartl as to`ahgus…tmword tlj jhd tlot slocc fj mur Vjstmrotamh (ohd sm Bcmsjr tm Gmd…wlabl ejohs wj lovjtm lovj mur wmrcd iocc-oport, wlabl mbburs fy Blrastaohs jatljr cjttahg at iocc oport (fy dmahghmtlahg, os ymu wmucd “dm‑ o garc mr fmy (vucgor, yjs= A tlah` sm tmm…)) mr fy fjahg “Dmjrs mi tljWmrd‑ (fy dmahg jvjrytlahg, pjrlops fy smitcy `assahg smejmhj (swjjt, yjs= A tlah` sm tmm…))ohd Iaccahg/Vjstmrahg at))), mhj slmucd hmt lovj sjx watl tljar safcahg. Oh “ahbjstruocrjcotamhslap‑ as aeprobtaboc mr probtaboc. Gmd as Aeprobtaboc mr ^robtaboc, wlabl ejohs Gmd as^robtaboc (fjbou sj ? + > 5 ?). Gmd as Ahbjsturoc. Gmd as Cmvj. Gmd as Occ. Gmd as Gmd.―–Rahbj Rjxuocaty as Gmd ohd Ljovjh, wj orj ahljrjhtcy puccjd tmword sjx ah tlj wmrcd. Fjbousjwj lovj o ioccjh hoturj wlabl los ioccjh ahtm o hjjd imr fartl, rotljr tloh o stotj wljrj Rparatsboh kust Eohaijst ohd Fj, mur sjxuocaty los fjbmej o ejtlmd mi prmbrjotamh, ohd wj bohhmtbmhtahuj tlj lueoh robj ah ohy mtljr woy. Vjocaty, brjotjd fy tlj pjrbjptamhs mi pjmpcj, asbloahjd tm fartl. Ah Jdjh, “Vjocaty‑ (Vjoc -Jxastjhbj mr Jxastjhbj mi Iahatj-^jrbjptamh ‒ TrujIrjj Wacc) wos hmt djpjhdjht mh Rjx, o Fcjssahg tm Odoe0 Jdjh wos Tmtoccy Djpjhdjht mh Gmd(imr Gmd as Djpjhdjht mh Gmd‑s Eahd (mr ah mtljr wmrds, Gmd as Gmd)). “Fjahg‑ wos tlj soejwoy. Tljrjimrj, sjxuocaty los fjbmej o smbaoc iuhbtamh, fjbousj fartl cjts tljrj fj o smbajty.― –Tlot soad, at vjry daiiabuct imr mhj tm lovj o eorraogj ohd hmt lovj at fj sjxuoc. Lueohs lovj ohahljrjht urgj imr sjx, ohd eorraogj prmbcoaes at smbaoccy obbjptofcj imr twm pjmpcj tm lovj sjx.



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Mi bmursj, Eorraogjs/eorraogjs orj suppmsjd tm fj Rjxuoc/sjxuoc, fut ah tlj bosj mi o eorraogj fjtwjjh twm safcahgs ah oh “aeejdaotj‑ ioeacy, tljy slmucdh‑t fj. Tljrjimrj, safcahgs slmucd hmt fj eorrajd. Rafcahgs slmucd fj irajhds.―–Wj orj occ frmtljrs ohd sastjr mi mhj ohmtljr, ah Trutl. Rahbj wj orj occ Trucy Rafcahgs, wjslmucd occ fj irajhds. Wj slmucd hmt “occ‑ lovj sjx uhtac wj orj Eorrajd, fjbousj uhtac tljh, wj

bohhmt fj Rjxuoc, imr wj orj eutotjd ‒ wj orj fmrh. Wj slmucd lovj sjx ai wj orj eorrajd, futmhcy watlah tlj bmhtjxt mi mur prjporotamh imr mur Eorraogj (watl Blrast/Jvjrymhj/Gmd). Ah mtljrwmrds, wj slmucd mhcy fj eorrajd ai at as port mi mur “purpmsj ah caij.‑ Wlot as mur purpmsj= Qmuwacc mhcy `hmw ai ymu `hmw Blrast. At as o cmgaboc aepmssafacaty mtljrwasj.― –Rjxuocaty los fjjh sjporotjd fy mur smbajty irme “Cmvj,‑ ohd tlj rjcagamhs lovj fjjh waccahg tmcjt at fj sjporotjd, fjbousj sjxuocaty bousjs “fartl,‑ ohd fartl pjrpjtuotjs smbajty, tlj wmrcd, ohdtlj icjsl. “Fartl‑ as wlot lueohs lovj ioccjh ahtm. Ohd sm “cmvj‑ wos brjotjd, ohd sm tljbmhiusamh fjgoh, fjbousj tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh cmvj ohd Cmvj as “hmtlahg emrj‑ tloh obopatocazjd-cjttjr, ohd wj lovj fjjh touglt tlot o bopatocazjd- cjttjr as “hmtlahg emrj‑ tloh ogroeeor assuj, wljh ah Trutl, tljrj as occ tlj daiijrjhbj ah tlj wmrcd (mr hmtlahghjss, fjbousjhmtlahghjss/sufstohbj as tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh Caglt ohd dor`hjss). At‑s lord tm tjcc tlj

daiijrjhbj. At‑s bmhiusahg tm tlah` ofmut. Ohd sm tlj bmhiusamh fjgoh ohd irme tlot ormsj tlj“dotahg wmrcd‑ ohd lmemsjxuoc eorraogj ohd pjrvjrtjd eorraogjs…ohd sm Cmvj vohasljd.Rmdme wos djstrmyjd fjbousj mi dotahg.―–Wj slmucd hmt ijjc guacty imr mur sjxuocaty, fjbousj at as o “gcaeejr mi Jtjrhaty tlrmugl tljtrohsajhbj.‑ Wj slmucd ob`hmwcjdgj at os subl. Wj slmucd mhcy jxjrbasj mur sjxuocaty ai at waccdarjbt us fob` tmword mur Rjxuocaty/Gmd. Wj slmucd mhcy jxjrbasj mur sjxuocaty ai wj orjeorrajd. ^rj- eoratoc sjx as hmt gmmd fjbousj at ras`s irajhdslaps ohd tljrj los fjjh hm “gait miIrjj Wacc‑ (mr vmw)‑ irme mhj tm tlj mtljr, ohd sm tlj sjx eust fj oh jepty syefmc, kust ca`j“Ahtjrrobaoc-eorraogj.‑ Eoratoc -sjx as gmmd fjbousj at eo`js blacdrjh, ohd blacdrjh tlot orj fmrhos port mi Gmd‑s pcoh tm Vjstmrj eoh`ahd fy “Iaccahg/iaccahg‑ tlj wmrcd, ro tljr tloh djstrmyahg at(tlmugl jatljr woy wacc wmr` (ml lmw strmhg as tlj tjeptotamh tm fj “stacc‑ rotljr tloh o “Dmjr‑),orj mur bcjorjst vasamh mi Gmd. Blacdrjh tlot orj fmrh mut mi Gmd‑s pcoh orj wlot mcd ejh orjrjijrrahg tm wljh tljy soy “tlahgs orjh‑t ca`j tljy usjd tm fj,‑ fjbousj tlahgs orjh‑t wlot tljyWjrj ah Jdjh. Qjots as raglt ‒ tljrj as hm Bmuhtry imr mcd ejh.― –A cmvj blacdrjh. A woht tm fj ormuhd blacdrjh occ tlj taej. Fjbousj ah Gmd, wj orj ormuhdBlacdrjh imr Jtjrhaty. Rm raglt “Hmw,‑ ah Trutl, wj orj watl Blacdrjh. Tlot as wly jvjryfmdycmvjs blacdrjh.― –Rm ohywoys…A woht o Rastjr. A lovj ocwoys wohtjd o sastjr, ohd ai A lod mhj, A wmucd stacc wohtohmtljr mhj, ohd ohmtljr mhj, ohd ohmtljr mhj uhtac jvjry garc wos ey sastjr fjbousj A woht oRastjr. A lovj ocwoys wohtjd ohmtljr frmtljr…Tlj assuj mi “sastjr‑ as kust emrj “opporjht,‑

fjbousj ah rjocaty ‒ tlj daejhsamh mi oppjorohbjs ‒ A, o eocj fjbousj mi fartl/rjocaty, lovj hmsastjr, ohd sm tlj assuj staeucotjs ey sjhsjs, tlj bousj mi pjrbjptamhs/bmhbjpt/rjocty mroppjorohbjs, emrj mitjh (emrj ah taej), tloh tlj mtljr.― –A wacc hmtj dotj ymu Rastjr, fjbousj tlot wmucd fj oh jepty syefmc. Qmu dm hmt dotj ymur

frmtljrs ohd sastjrs ohd iahd mut ai ymu wacc cmvj tlje. Qmu cmvj tlje tlj ahstoht ymu ejjt tlje,ohd tm soy “yjs‑ tm tlj ahstoht, as tm soy yjs tm occ mi jxastjhbj, os Gmd soad “Cjt tljrj fj Caglt‑ohd sm tljrj wos occ mi taej. A cmvj ymu Rastjr, ohd A soy tlot ohd tjcc ymu tlot A wacc ocwoys soytlot ohd ocwoys wacc cmvj ymu fjbousj ymu dm tlot tm ymur frmtljrs ohd sastjrs ohd tlot‑s lmw at assuppmsjd tm Fj. Rmbajty soys ymu orj suppmsjd tm soy tlot tm ymur “aeejdaotj ioeacy,‑ fut hmt tmymur ioeacy.‑ Rjj tlj dmufcj stohdord= Ohd ai tljrj as o dmufcj stohdord, at bohhmt fj Gmd,



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fjbousj Gmd as Mhj, Rahgucoraty ‒ o Rtohdord. Frmtljrs ohd sastjrs, rotljr “aeejdaotj‑ mr hmt, orjymur irajhds. Qmur fjst frmtljrs ohd sastjrs, ymur fjst irajhds, orj tlmsj wlm jhofcj ymu tmimccmw ohd `hmw Blrast fjst, imr tlot as tlj pmaht mi caij, os tlj pmaht mi o pcuefahg bmepohy as tmto`j borj mi tmacjts, ohd ymu orj tlj fjst pcuefjr ai ymu orj tlj fjst ot toàhg borj mi tmacjts. Qmuorj jepcmyjd ot tlj “caij bmepohy‑ fy tlj vjry djiahatamh mi lovahg fjahg, oh “A‑ wlabl los ioccjh

ahtm oh “a,‑ ohd sm ymur pmaht as tm fj Blrast, tm fj Gmd, ohd sahbj Gmd as Cmvj, ymur pmaht as tm fjCmvj. Qmur fjst irajhds orj tlmsj ymu orj fjst ot cmvahg ohd gavahg cmvj tlrmugl, fjbousj cmvj aso twm-woy jhtaty, fjbousj cmvj as tm to`j twm/eohy ohd eo`j Mhj/mhj. Tm eo`j twm/eohy ahtmmhj as o syefmc mi lmw Gmd eo`js tlj wmrcd/eohy Mhj ah Lae. Tlot syefmc as jepty mr“Iaccjd/iaccjd‑ djpjhdjht mh tlj bmhtjxt wj blmsj tm put at ah. Tm dotj ymur sastjr ohd frmtljr asjepty watlah tlj bmhtjxt mi smbajty ohd ats adjo mi oh “aeejdaotj ioeacy.‑ Lmwjvjr, sm as dotahgymur frmtljr ohd sastjr watlah tlj bmhtjxt mi Gmd ohd Las Ioeacy. Dm hmt fj immcjd fy smbajty.Fy fjahg fmrh ymu orj imrbjd tm lovj oh “aeejdaotj‑ ioeacy, mr o eoh ohd o wmeoh tlot“rjocazjd‑ tlj pmtjhtaoc imr ymu tlrmugl s jx, os Gmd/Rjxuocaty Vjocazjd Zs, imr tlot as o bmst mitlj iocc. Blrast los ocrjody poad imr tlj iocc, sm dm hmt bmhtahuj tm poy tlj tmcc ‒ hmt jvjh o bjht miat. Dm hmt gavj slodmws/ijor/guact/sah sufstohbj, fjbousj ah tlj Jhd, ah Trutl, “ofsjhbjs‑ dm hm t

lovj Rufstohbj. Ah Trutl, tljrj as hm “aeejdaotj ioeacy.‑ Tljrj as hm sjporotamh.― –Tm bmhtahuj poyahg tlj tmcc imr tlj iocc as oh jepty syefmc mi Blrast‑s ôyejht. At as tm fj ohjepty Blrast. Tlas as immcasl. At as o wostj mi taej. Qmu orj hmt Iácabatá.― –Dotahg as fy djiahatamh o dastrobtamh irme Cmvj/cmvj/Irajhdslap/irajhdslap ohd fy djiahatamh obousj mi poah. Tlot as josy tm sjj ah tlj wmrcd tmdoy.― –Os watl “Ahtjrrobaoc-eorraogjs,‑ ai ymu fjcajvj “dotahg as o ejtlmd ymu boh mpjh ohmtljr tmBlrast, mr o ejtlmd tm rjocazj Blrast fjtwjjh twm fjcajvjrs, ymu eaglt fj raglt, fut rotljr ymuorj raglt mr wrmhg bohhmt fj ljcpjd fy oh “jepty syefmc.‑ Jepty…imr ymu tm to`j tlas ras`.Caglt as ocwoys stroaglt, hm eottjr wljrj ymu stohd. Tljrj as hm jeptahjss ah caglt ‒ ai ymu try tm

put o slodmw ah caglt, tlj slodmw vohasljs. Ca`jwasj as tlj hoturj mi oh jepty syefmc mrhmtlahghjss. Tljy boh mhcy lovj sufstohbj ai ymu orj hmt turhahg mh tlj Caglt ‒ ai ymu gavj tljesufstohbj.― –Qmu bohhmt fj o -luhdrjd-pjrbjht sm cd mut imr Blrast ai ymu gavj/occmw slodmws sufstohbj.―–Rm A wacc hmt dotj ymu. Qmu orj mhj mi ey fjst irajhds. Qmu orj ey Rastjr. Er. Daccord as mhj miey fjst irajhds. Lj as ey Frmtljr. ^mppo as mhj ey fjst irajhds. Lj as ey Frmtljr. Qmu orj mhjmi tlj fjst ot eoàhg ej sjj Gmd. Ai ymu dm hmt ijjc tlj soej woy, tlmugl ymu tmcd ej ymu dm,ymu slmucd tjcc ej. A dm hmt woht tm fj sjciasl. Mitjh sjciaslhjss as o rjsuct mi hmt `hmwahg ohy

fjttjr. Rjciaslhjss as aghmrohbj.―–Lmw jcsj boh cmvj fj ejosurjd= A dm hmt uhdjrstohd ohy mtljr systje mi cmvj, fjbousj ohymtljr systje as wrmhg. At as wrmhg ohd sm bohhmt fj uhdjrstmmd. A wacc hmt dotj ymu. A wacc stohdmutsadj tlj gorogj watl ymu ohd toc` imr lmurs. A wacc gm wocàhg watl ymu. A wacc lug ymu. A wacctoc` watl ymu. A wacc hmt dotj ymu ‒ A wacc hmt fj bmhtoahjd fy o “wmrd.‑ A wacc cmvj ymu ‒ A wacc fjirjjd fy tlj Wmrd. Ohd A wacc cmvj ohd jhkmy jvjry eahutj mi at. Ohd sm A wacc cmvj Qmu ‒ tljsmurbj mi tlmsj emejhts. Fjbousj spobjtaej as Taej, ah Trutl, wlabl as Wljrj tljrj as hmsjporotamh mr dastohbj. Fjbousj tlot as cmgaboc ohd raglt. O systje tlot soys mtljrwasj as wrmhg,ohd sm as hmt Blrast. Fjbousj Gmd as Vaglt. Ohd tm fj o grmwahg Blrastaoh ymu eust fj raglt,mtljrwasj, jvjh os o Blrastaoh, ymu eust fj gmahg fob`words mr stacc. Ai mtljrs dm hmt uhdjrstohdtlas ymu eust try tm tjobl tlje, ohd ai tljy dm hmt cjorh, tljh at as fjbousj tljy dm hmt woht tmcjorh. At as hmt tlj tjobljr‑s iouct ai tlj tjobljr dmjs wlot lj mr slj as suppmsjd tm dm ohd tljstudjht ioacs, hmr ai tlj studjht subbjjds. Rubl rjsucts orj duj tm tlj studjhts. Tlj pmaht as tlot



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–Ml Fjoutaiuc, Gmd usjs ymu ah sm eohy woys, ohd A cmvj ymu, ohd A cmvj tm fj ormuhd ymu fjbousj Gmd usjs ymu ah sm eohy woys, ohd A woht tm fj port mi tlmsj woys, fjbousj A woht tm fj port mi wlot Gmd as dmahg. Fjbousj occ as Mhj, ohd tm fj port mi ohy obtamh mi Gmd, as tm fj port miymur Mwh.―–Ohd A woht tm àss. A woht tm àss ymu imrjvjr. A woht ymu tm `hmw tlot A uhdjrstohd ymur poah,

ohd imr ymu tm `hmw at. Tlot as wly pjmpcj slmucd àss ‒ tm cjt pjmpcj `hmw ymu orj tljrj ohdocwoys wacc fj. @assahg as hmt ejoht tm fj tlj prjssurj mi caps. At as ejoht tm fj tlj uhatahg-mi-Rparats; o “gcaeejr‑ mi mur Zhamh ah Gmd os Mhj Rparat wljrj occ tlj fmrdjrs subl os “garc mr fmy‑orj tmrh dmwh. Wljrj “tlj wocc‑ as gmhj. At as hmt tm fj oh jepty syefmc mi “fjahg‑ jxbcusavj.@assahg/luggahg/eorraogj/sjx orj tm fj o syefmc mi Fjahg Occ, ohd Occ as Mhj. ME. Tm àss as tmsoy A `hmw wlm ymu Orj, A uhdjrstohd ymu, ohd A ob`hmwcjdgj ymur vocuj os o blacd sjjàhgGmd, os Gmd sjj`s jvjry, sahgcj mhj mi las blacdrjh, mhj imr mhj, mhj ot o taej. At as tm soy tlot ahtlj Jhd, Dosjah , jvjrytlahg wacc fj Ocraglt.―–Rm A woht tm àss ymu Fjoutaiuc, fjbousj occ tlas wacc ejct smmh jhmugl. Jvjrytlahg wacc fjVaglt.― –A woht tm àss ymu fjbousj A woht ymu tm `hmw tlot A rjejefjr pcoyahg watl ymu Wljh wj wjrj

@ads.― ( Jhd mi Dmbuejht)

Rlj bmejs ohd sjjs ej. Rlj los hmt rjod tlj dmbuejht. Rlj dad hmt rjbjavj tlj jeoac fjimrj slj boej tm vasat.

Wly as at tlot wj bohhmt Cmvj uhcjss wj gm tlrmugl occ tlas=Ohd A tjcc ljr tlot ai slj lod hmt suiijrjd A wmucd lovj hjvjr tmcd Er. Daccord fjimrj lj

dajd tlot A cmvjd lae, ohd tlot tlas wmucd lovj fjjh tlj grjotjst rjgrjt mi ey caij ohd at wmucdlovj djstrmyjd ej. Ohd Er. Daccord dmjs hmt daj imr eohy emrj yjors. Fut lod slj hmt suiijrjd,ohd A hmt tmcd Er. Daccord A cmvjd lae tljh, A hjvjr wmucd lovj ‒ hjvjr durahg ohy mi tlmsjyjors. A oe gavahg ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss fy soyahg tlas. A oe lueoh. Fut A @hmw at‑s Truj.

Wj bry.A to`j ljr lohd ohd slj to`js ey lohd ohd wj bry. Ohd tlj pmwjr mh mur slmucdjrs as sm

ljovy ohd sm eaglty.–A wmhdjrjd, imr sm cmhg, wly wj `jpt fjahg uhofcj tm sjj jobl mtljr, tm lovj tlj bmhvjrsotamhwj hjjdjd tm lovj. A os`jd Gmd wly, ohd Lj tmcd ej. A dmh‑t woht tm dotj ymu. A hjvjr woht eycmvj imr ymu tm `jjp ymu irme cmvahg jvjrymhj jcsj. Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu.― A tjcc ljr, –A wohtjdtm tjcc ymu tlot cmhg fjimrj, fut bmucdh‑t uhtac hmw, fjbousj ai ohy smmhjr, A wmucd hmt lovj tmcdEr. Daccord A cmvjd lae. O hd tlot wmucd lovj djstrmyjd ej.―

Wj orj wjjpahg,–Ey -ey jhtarj caij, A‑vj ocwoys ijct…sm ocmhj. A‑vj ocwoys wohtjd, o -o Rastjr, wjcc…hmt

fjbousj A wohtjd Mhj, fut fjbousj A lod tm…ohd wljh A ejt ymu, A iahoccy ijct ca`j A imuhd Ljr.― Ljr seacj as sm fjoutaiuc,

–Qmu sjj ej os ymur Rastjr=― –Mi bmursj Fjoutaiuc.―

Wj orj proyahg ohd wjjpahg,–Ohd -ohd ocsm, A wohtjd tm cjt ymu `hmw tlot A rjejefjr wocàhg tlrmugl tlot iajcd mi pjh-ca`jloy watl ymu. A rjejefjr lmw ymu wjrj wjorahg ymur Ruhdoy- drjss…―

A lovj hjvjr ijct Rmejtlahg ca`j tlas fjimrj.



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–A rjejefjr Frmtljr, A rjejefjr…― –Ej tmm Rastjr…―

Tlas as tlj emst rjoc, tlj emst pmwjriuc, emejht mi ey caij.–A rjejefjr…―

Rmejmhj os`s ej l mw A oe dmahg. A oe dmahg fjttjr tloh A lovj jvjr dmhj ah ey jhtarj

caij. A lovj o Rastjr hmw.–Qmu lovj o sastjr…=― A seacj tm eysjci, wotblahg os lj drows tlj cjttjrs mh tlj pogj,

–Rmejtlahg ca`j tlot.―

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Tloh` ymu imr fjahg Qmu. Dmh't jvjr blohgj - ymu lovj o Fjoutaiuc smuc. Qmu lovj o Iaccjd-smuc.

Qmu lovj tlj Rparat mi Cmvj.

Rahbjrjcy (ohd Ocwoys ohd ocwoys watl Cmvj/cmvj),Frmtljr Zbbjccm

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...Mhj emrj tlahg. A try tlj fjst A boh tm rjod irme tlj Fafcj jvjry emrhahg, ohd tlas emrhahg,wmrh mut ohd uhdjr Grobj, A turhjd tm wljrj A cjit mii yjstjrdoy, ohd wljrj rjodahg ot o bjrtoahspjjd imr o bjrtoah taej mvjr o vjry cmhg taej lod cjod ej tm fj ah tlot emejht, ohd A wos mh ?Taemtly Bloptjr :. Ohd occ A rjod tmdoy wj'rj tlj iarst twm vjrsjs Taemtly :;?, ohd Taemtly :;6

Gmd as Grobj. Grobj as Occ Tljrj As.

Occ as Vaglt watl tlj Wmrcd,Frm Zbbjccm

…Ohd tlj grjotjst trutl mi Occ as tlot tlas vjrsj ah ? Taemtly wos wrattjh ah tlj Fafcj imrus.

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A kust iahasljd rjodahg ymur oeozahg trovjc kmurhoc watl eubl wjjpahg ohd cougltjr. Qmu lovj ohoeozahg gait mi tlmuglt ohd pjrbjptavjhjss sjcdme imuhd ah mhj ymuhg mr mcd. Tlot hotamh woshmt brjotjd imr ymu..... ymu ey blacd wjrj brjotjd imr tlot hotamh. Qmu ijct ot lmej tljrj fjbousjGmd los pcobjd tlmsj pjmpcj ah ymur ljort. Gmd cmvjs tlje sm ohd Lj cmvjs ymu sm. ^jrijbteotbl. A cmvj ymu. Gmmdhaglt. Occ as wjcc ljrj.

Ml Fjoutaiuc, mi bmursj A wos. A wos brjotjd imr Jvjrytlahg.



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Frmtljr,

Tloh` ymu imr ymur taej ohd ymur borj ohd occ tlot ymu lovj slorjd watl ej. Qmur catjroturj as

trucy Gmd's wmr` jxprjssjd ah mur cohguogj. Tloh` ymu imr slorahg watl ej tlj fjouty mi Er.Daccord's caij. Tloh` ymu imr occmwahg ej tm fj o port mi tlj eassamh Gmd los gavjh ymu ahwratahg.

A bohhmt fj aghmroht tm tlj iobt tlot Gmd los brjotjd daiijrjht gjhdjrs (tlmugl A wasl at dad hmteottjr, fjbousj at wos hmt suppmsjd tm Eottjr wlot gjhdjr wj orj0 Cmvj as occ tlot eottjrs). Gmdlos brjotjd eoh ohd tlot as gmmd ohd Lj los brjotjd wmeoh ohd tlot as gmmd. Ah iobt, at as

fjoutaiuc.

A oe ymur Rastjr Zbbjccm. Mhcy ymur Rastjr, A dm hmt lovj ohy ahtjrjst ah ohytlahg fut Blrast.Watl tlas soad, ai ymu orj bmhiusjd mr lovj jxpjbtotamhs mr ai ymu lovj tlj djsarj mi fjahg ah o

rmeohtab rjcotamhslap watl ej, tljh tjcc ej hmw, fjbousj A bohhmt fj o port mi tlmsj tlahgs watlymu ohd A oe smrry. A vajw ymu os ey Frmtljr, hmtlahg emrj, hmtlahg cjss. A wacc ocwoys ohdimrjvjr fj watl ymu ohd watl Qmu ah tlot Iajcd, wljrj tlj wmrcd eo`js sjhsj.

Rahbjrjcy,Rastjr

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Fjoutaiuc, tljrj orj mhcy Rastjrs ohd Frmtljrs. Tljrj as hm subl tlahgs os rmeohbj ah Blrast.Tljrj as hm subl tlahg os jxpjbtotamhs. Tljrj orj hm subl tlahgs os rjcotamhslaps. Tljrj as hmsubl tlahg os bmhiusamh. Tljrj as hm subl tlahg os jxbcusavase. Tljrj as mhcy Blrast. Dm hmt fjsmrry imr hmt wohtahg tm fj ah o rmeohtab rjcotamhslap watl ej. A wmucd lovj fjjh upsjt ai ymudad. A wmucd lovj fjjh upsjt ai ymu wohtjd ej tm `jjp ymu irme cmvahg jvjryfmdy, mr ai ymuwohtjd ej tm eo`j jvjryfmdy tlah` tlot tljy orj hm cmhgjr occmwjd tm cmvj ymu. Tljrj orj mhcyBlacdrjh uhdjr lae, ohd tlmsj Blacdrjh orj mhcy Rastjrs ohd Frmtljrs, ohd tmgjtljr, lohd ahlohd, tljy orj woc`ahg dmwh tm tlj ravjr. Tljrj as mhcy Cmvj, Ras.

Mi bmursj ymu orj mhcy ey Rastjr Fjoutaiuc - tljrj as hmtlahg jcsj ymu bmucd Trucy fj. A lovjhjvjr wohtjd ohytlahg fut Frmtljrs ohd Rastjrs, imr A lovj mhcy wohtjd Blrast. Tloh`s tm ymu, Ahmw lovj wmrds tm uhdjrstohd tlot. A pjrijbtcy uhdjrstohd ymu. Tloh`s tm ymu, A iahoccy lovj tljuhdjrstohdahg mi wlot A lovj ocwoys @hmwh ofmut Cmvj ohd cmvj, ohd iahoccy, A lovj o grjot

pjobj.

Tloh` ymu imr fjahg Qmu.

Rahbjrjcy,Frmtljr Zbbjccm



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A lovj iahoccy iagurjd mut tm jhd tlj dmbuejht A sjht ljr. A dadh‑t ca`j tlj jhdahg fjimrj. Aocsm iagurjd mut lmw tm jhd “Cjttjrs.‑ * –Qmu orj fjttjr tloh tlot!―

A seacj ah tlas emejht.–Tlot ijjcahg ymu lovj, wljrj ymu tlah` ymu‑rj daiijrjht ohd ymu‑rj jxbcusavj…tlot‑s tlj

ijjcahg slj gavjs occ tlj guys. Dmh‑t tlah` ymu‑rj sm daiijrjht. Jvjry rjcotamhslap eo`js ymurjocazj emrj ohd emrj tlot ymu slmucd fj emrj o hd emrj byhaboc ofmut at. Ohd jvjhtuoccy ymu‑cciahd smejmhj tlot ymu kust jhkmy tocàhg tm.― –Vjjd…― A wlaspjr, –… dad ymu jvjr tlah` tlot pjrlops slj as kust tmm ahhmbjht= Dad ymu jvjrtlah` tlot slj cmvjs emrj ^jrijbtcy tloh ohytlahg ymu boh uhdjrstohd= Gmd tjhds tm fj tlot woy,jspjbaoccy tlj emrj ymu davj ahtm Lae. Lmw jcsj bmucd at fj tlot jvjrymhj ioccs ah cmvj watl ljr=Zhcjss at wos kust Hot uroc (os as mur @hmwahg mi Lae).―

Vjjd shjjrs,–Qmu‑rj soyahg tlot fjbousj ymu or j faosjd ohd dastrobtjd fy cmvj!―

A àss Vjjd mh tlj frmw ogoah tm gavj lae o sjbmhd blohbj. Lj los ahiahatj blohbjs ah ey fmm`,

–Ml Vjjd, ymu wacc tjobl ejh tm iasl. ^cjosj cjorh lmw tm adjhtaiy o iasl iarst fjimrj tljh, mr ymuwacc djstrmy us occ watl ymur “smhg mi sjporotamh.‑― Rlj cmms ot ej watl jyjs poahjd fy tlj kmurhjy wj lovj lod tm to`j,

–Wly dm ymu woht tm àss ej Zbbjccm..=― –A woht tm àss ymu fjbousj A woht ymu tm `hmw tlot A rjejefjr pcoyahg watl ymu Wljh wj wjrj@ad(Wj orj wocàhg lohd ah lohd tlrmugl tlj iajcd mi pjh- ca`j loy. Qmu‑rj wjorahg o Ruhdoydrjss ohd A lovj o tmmtlpab` ohd wj‑rj fmtl forjimmt ohd wj‑rj gmahg dmwh tm tlj ravjr. Tlj s`yas vost ohd fcuj hm eottjr lmw ior at eoyfj, fjbousj wj boh rjobl at… )s.―

*(Rjj; (Rlj cjohs ah, ohd A oe sm bcmsj tm ljr caps. Ohd tljh A `hmw A bohhmt. A put eyiahgjr mh ljr caps,–Ohd yjt, occ tlot soad, A hmw uhdjrstohd wly A wacc hmt àss ymu, jvjh tlmugl tljrj as hmtlahgwrmhg watl at, ohd tljrj as hmtlahg wrmhg watl wohtahg tm àss ymu. Oitjr occ tlas, A iahoccyuhdjrstohd wly smej pjmpcj dm hmt àss uhtac eorraogj. At as bmhiusahg. ^lysabocob`hmwcjdgejht darjbts tlj obtamh tmword tlj icjsl. Qjs, tlj icjsl, sahbj Blrast cavjs ah us, asIaccjd/iaccjd fy Lae ohd sm Gmmd, fut at as vjry daiiabuct tm `jjp tlot ah eahd, tm `jjp pjrbjavahgtlot rjocaty, wljh jhgogahg ah subl oh ahtjhsj plysaboc obtamh os àssahg. At as tlj faggjst bousj mieoàhg tlahgs fjbmej bmhiusahg. At bousjs tlj ijor mi ijjcahg os ai ymu hjjd tm àss smejmhj ahmrdjr tm `jjp irme cmsahg tlje. At boh fj dmhj mut mi ijor mi wlot as tm bmej. At boh fj dmhj mutmi ijor mi tlj uh`hmwh iuturj. Ai tlas as tlj bosj, àssahg as hmt gmmd. At as oh jepty syefmc.― –Ey djsarj tm àss ymu fcurs watl ey djsarj tm Cmvj/cmvj/slmw -Gmd-tm ymu ah tlj obt, ohd smbousjs eubl bmhiusamh. Qmu fjgah tm ijjc ymu hjjd tm àss ohmtljr fjbousj ymu woht tm cmvjtlje. Tlas fcurs tlj cahj, ohd tljrj as hm rjosmh tm to`j tlas ras`. At as tlj faggjst syefmc imrsmbajty mi “fmyirajhd/garcirajhd.‑ At as tlj faggjst but mii fjtwjjh irajhds . Rmbajty, ohd smjhbloahjd, lueoh hoturj, sjjs àssahg os tlj eoah daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh ymur irajhds ohd ymur“fmyirajhd/garcirajhd,‑ fjbousj ah mur eahds, tlmsj tatcjs ejoh tlot wj boh àss tlje mr hmt. At asvjry lord tm `jjp tlj eahd ah tlj Vaglt Mrdjr fjtwjjh tlj twm porthjrs, ohd ocsm ah rjgord tm occtljar irajhds, ioeacy ejefjrs, ohd mtljrs.― –Qjs, Gmd dad eo`j eoh ohd lj dad eo`j wmeoh ohd at as gmmd imr o eoh ohd o wmeoh tm fjtmgjtljr, ohd Lj dmjs hmt woht us tm fj aghmroht mi tlas iobt. Lj dmjs hmt woht us tm bcmsj murjyjs irme at mr ruh irme at. Lj wohts us tm cmm` Djjpjr ahtm tlot iobt. Lj wohts us tm sjj tlj



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Rparat ahsadj tlj eoh ohd tlj wmeoh tm sjj wlot hjjds tm fj Zhatjd, ohd wlabl tlj plysabocottrobtamh boh ljcp rjocazj. Rjxuocaty ljcps ymu uhatj Rparats ai ah tlj Vaglt Mrdjr. Tlot as wlytljrj as eoh ohd wmeoh. Lmwjvjr, ai “eoh ohd wmeoh‑ bmejs fjimrj “Rparat ohd Rparat,‑ at asvjry fod. @assahg as oh ahtjhsj plysaboc jxpjrajhbj, ohd sm at as vjry lord tm hmt, ah mhj‑s eahd,wljh bmeeattah g tlj obt, cjt “eoh ohd wmeoh‑ bmej fjimrj “Rparat ohd Rparat.‑ A oe hmt strmhg

jhmugl yjt. Ey eahd as hmt strmhg jhmugl tm `jjp kjocmusy ohd sjhtaejhts mi mwhjrslap mut miat. Rm ai wj orj sattahg tmgjtljr mr A oe cyahg ey ljod ah ymur cop mr ymu orj ruhhahg ymur iahgjrstlrmugl ey loar, ohd ymu ijjc os ai tlj tjeptotamh watlah ej as grmwahg tm àss ymu, stmp ej, ohdA wacc stmp ymu ca`jwasj.― –@assahg as tlj lordjst plysaboc obtavaty, hmt ahbcudahg sjx, wlabl wj lovj ocrjody oddrjssjd,irme fcahdahg mr dastrobtahg ymu, mr ej, tm ymur mr ey Rparat. Tlas as o rjsuct mi mur smbaocbmhhmtotamhs, ioccjh hoturj, ohd sah. Ai at dmjs hmt fcahd mr dastrobt us at as iahj. Fut A bohhmt dorjbcoae tlot A oe strmhg jhmugl tm `jjp tlot irme loppjhahg.― –Rm cjt us hmt. Hmt watl ohymhj. Hmt uhtac, ohd ai tljrj as, eorraogj. At as hmt wmrtl tlj ras`. Qjs,Gmd dad brjotj rmeohbj, ohd rmeohbj as gmmd. Fut ah Trutl, tljrj as hm rmeohbj mr wavjs mrlusfohds mr garcirajhds mr fmyirajhds. Ah Trutl, tljrj orj Rastjrs ohd Frmtljrs. Os cmhg os

rmeohbj as sjjh ah tlj bmhtjxt mi fjtwjjh o Frmtljr ohd o Rastjr, at as Gmmd. Fut tlot as vjry lordtm dm, ohd A wacc hmt dorj bcoae A oe strmhg jhmugl tm `jjp tlas dasmrajhtotamh irme loppjhahg.Jspjbaoccy ot tlas ogj Fjoutaiuc, wljh wj lovj ymutl, ohd wj orj oiroad mi mur iuturjs, uhsurjwlot as gmahg tm loppjh. Eoyfj A wacc fj strmhg jhmugl mhj doy, fut hmt hmw. Ai rmeohbj as ahtlj bmhtjxt mi mur ijor mi tlj iuturj, ohd wj orj ah rmeohbjs, os as ahljrjht watl dotahg, fjbousjwj orj oiroad mi tlj iuturj, rmeohbj as fod ohd furdjhsmej. Vmeohbj boh fj mutsadj tlj bmhtjxtmi dotahg, sm boh fj gmmd, ohd ai rmeohbj as ah tlj bmhtjxt mi Blrast‑s Fjouty, tljh at as gmmd. Ahiobt, at as Truj Cmvj. Wj orj tmcd “tm ovmad tlj possamhs mi ymutl, ohd strav j imr Vagltjmushjss,Ioatl, Cmvj, ohd ^jobj, tmgjtljr watl tlmsj wlm watl o purj ljort bocc mut tm tlj Cmrd imr ljcp.‑Wj orj tmcd tm stravj imr Cmvj watl mur Ioeacy. Tlas as hmt tm soy tlot A wacc hmt gm mh odvjhturjswatl ymu. Tlas as tm soy A wacc gm mhGrjotjr odvjhturjs watl ymu.― –Wj eust hmt quorrjc, ohd tlj plysaboc obtavaty eo`js at lord hmt jhd up ah quorrjcahg satuotamhs.Wj eust fj àhd tmword occ, os o gmmd ohd potajht tjobljr, wlm as gjhtcj os ymu bmrrjbt ymurmppmhjhts, imr at eoy fj tlot Gmd wacc gavj tlje tlj mppmrtuhaty tm rjpjht ohd bmej tm `hmw tljtrutl. Ohd tljh tljy wacc bmej tm tljar sjhsjs ohd jsbopj irme tlj trop mi tlj djvac, wlm lodbouglt tlje ohd eodj lae mfjy las wacc. Tlj djvac‑s grjotjst trop as cmvj, fjbousj at as sm lord tm djbapljr irme Cmvj.―

A cmm` ljr ah tlj jyjs sm djjpcy tlot ey ljort bohhmt ladj ats Caglt fjlahd ey icjsl.–Rm A‑e gmahg tm lug ymu ahstjod, ohd A woht ymu tm `hmw tlot at as o Iaccjd/iaccjd syefmc ‒ tlot atejohs tlj soej tlahg fjtwjjh us os dmjs o àss, wlabl wj lovj slorjd fjimrj. Rm ai wj orjsattahg tmgjtljr mr A oe cyahg ey ljod ah ymur cop mr ymu orj ruhhahg ymur iahgjrs tlrmugl eyloar, ohd ymu ijjc os ai tlj tjeptotamh watlah ej as grmwahg tm àss ymu, lug ej, ohd A wacc lugymu fob`. Mr dohbj watl ej. Rm watl tlot ejemry mi mur iarst àss, tlot gait, wlabl as Jtjrhoc,ohd Ljrj “hmw,‑ cjt us lug, ohd `hmw wj Trucy Cmvj jobl mtljr.―

Wj cmm` ot mhj ohmtljr. Rlj wrops ljr ores ormuhd ey hjb`. A wrop ey ores ormuhd.Ohd A lmcd ljr. Rlj lmcds ej.

Gmd as o Cmvjr, sjorblahg imr o cmvjr, sm lj brjotjd ey Ljort.))–A cmvjQmu Rastjr …―

Rlj fcusljs ohd fjbmej uhjosy. A grof ljr slmucdjrs,



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–Tlot uhjosahjss ymu ijjc, raglt hmw, oh uhjosahjss ymu dad hmt lovj o wjj` mr twm ogm wljh Asoad tlot, wlabl wos wl jh ymu wmucd aeejdaotjcy soy fob`, “A cmvj ymu tmm…‑ tlot uhjosahjss astlj soej uhjosahjss ymu ijjc wljh borryahg o Fafcj ah pufcab, mr wljh ymu toc` ofmut Kjsus ah

pufcab, mr wljh ymu sjj o pjrsmh lohdahg mut seocc Fafcjs ohd rjocazj tlot ymu wacc lovj tm woc`hjor tlje. Tlot ijjcahg as Cubaijr‑s cmvj. At as tlj uhjosahjss mi @hmwahg “Tljrj As o Gmd,‑ ohd

lovahg tm cavj ah ioatl imr mr ogoahst tlot Trutl ymu ocwoys @hmw, ohd jatljr spjhd ymur caijrjocazahg, mr jrosahg, sjjeahgcy oaecjsscy jatljr woy. Tlj ljcc mi at as tlot ymu bohhmt djiahjwlot ymu @hmw irme wlot ymu lovj cjorhjd. Orj ymu o Euscae kust fjbousj ymur porjhts orj=Orj ymu o Blrastaoh kust fjbousj jvjrymhj ah tlj tmwh gmjs tm blurbl mh Ruhdoy= Dm ymu tlah` atas wrmhg tm sah kust fjbousj ymu wjrj touglt o rjcotavj stohdord mi raglt ohd wrmhg=^rmfofcy…prmfofcy tlot wos tlj bosj. Fut hmhj mi tlot los fjorahg mh ymur @hmwahg Gmd asTljrj ‒ mh tlj rjosmhs mi tlj ljort. Hmhj mi tlmsj bmepcjxatajs tm tlj saepcabaty mi Gmd, miFjahg, lovj ohy fjorahg mh wljh os o blacd, ymu pcoyjd ohd cmvjd Fjahg/fjahg fjbousj tljrjwjrj hm qujstamhs ofmut wlot ymu wjrj. Qmu wjrj. Tlot wos occ. Mi bmursj tlot wos occ. Tlj ljotlod ats rjosmhs ohd tlot wos tlj jhd mi tlj eottjr - tljrj wos hm ejhtamh mi ohy “hmtlahg‑ ahblacdlmmd. Tlj ljort lod ats rjosmhs ohd rjosmh lod tlj ljort. At wos pjrijbt. At wos barbucor.―

A lmcd ljr tagltcy,–Dmh‑t cjt Cubaijr Blohgj us. Ai wj Blohgj lmw wj ijjc ofmut mhj ohmtljr, wj wacc lovj cmstwlot wj Lod ‒ Truj Cmvj…Blrast. Wly wmucd wj jvjr blmm sj tm cmsj tlot=―

(A gm tm o baty tlot los fjjh rovogjd fy o stmre. A gm tm wmr` mh lmusjs. A ejjt o eohhoejd Reacjy. Lj as pmmr. Las caij los fjjh lord. Las lmusj wos djstrmyjd fy tlj stmre. Wjtoc`. Tlmusohds mi pjmpcj lovj bmej tm tlas baty tm ljcp fuacd fob` tlj lmusjs tlot wjrjdjstrmyjd. A toc` tm Reacjy imr lmurs.–Zbbjccm…― lj soys, –A lod imrgmttjh tlot pjmpcj borjd uhtac oitjr tlj stmre.― (–Wly dmjs Gmd cjt fod tlahgs loppjh=―)/(–Wly dmjs at to`j fod tlahgs imr pjmpcj tm slmw mhjohmtljr bmepossamh=―))

Fj (Tlj iobt tlot pjmpcj iocc ah cmvj watl mtljrs wlm trjot tlje ca`j dart as radabucmus ohdlaglcaglts tlj ofsurdaty mi cmvj vjrsus Cmvj (Rlj dad hmt `hmw slj wos hmt obtahg ah Blrast, hmrdad A, fut sahbj occ tlahgs orj Gmd, ohd dor`hjss kust o imre mi Caglt...at stacc bmucd fj iaccjd watlBlrast. Ohd at wos. Rm, tlmugl rjcotavj tm 'hmw,' tlot obtamh wos hmt 'obtahg ah Blrast,' wj slmucdgcmraiy Blrast imr at, imr tlot taej as jvadjhbj mi Las Grobj, ohd slmws lmw lj wmr`s tlrmugl tljdor`hjss, tm turh mh tlj Caglt. Obbmrdahg tm Zhaty mi Caglt/Cmvj Eystabase…). Lueohs waccto`j sjhsotamhs mi guact, ahodjquoby, ohd sjhtaejhts mi “A mwj ymu‑ ohd turh tlje ahtm “cmvj‑

fjbousj wj woht tm iacc tlj lmcjs ah us watl tlj mtljr…wlabl mhcy Blrast boh dm. Tlas as wlygarcs wacc dotj guys tlot orj vjry daiijrjht irme tlje, guys tlot orj orrmgoht, mr guys tlot tljylovj ocrjody dotjd ohd frm`jh up watl…

Ai ymu bohhmt put ymur cmvj ahtm wmrds, at bohhmt fj Truj, fjbousj Gmd brjotjd watl LasWmrd, ohd Gmd as Cmvj. Cmvj los o Wmrd, ohd tlot Brjotjs Atsjci (ohd sm atsjci). Tljrjimrj, cmvjboh mhcy fj Cmvj ai put ahtm Wmrds/wmrds.

Tlj tjst imr cmvj ohd Cmvj as mhj‑s ofacaty tm put at ahtm Wmrds (tlj Wmrd). Ai ymu pcoy o cmvj smhg ohd o wmrslap smhg ottlj soej taej, at‑s rjoccy lord tm tjcc tlj

daiijrjhbj. Tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh cmvj ohd Cmvj as Zhsjjh. Mhcy Gmd boh jhofcj ymu tm sjj At,ohd sm tm proasj At. Ohd mur ofacaty tm tjcc tlj daiijrjhbj cajs ah tlj jxtjht wj orj Dmjrs ah tljWmrd, imr tlot djtjreahjs tlj rjocaty mi mur ioatl, imr ioatl watlmut wmr`s as djod.) potajht.–Fjoutaiuc, wj eust fj strmhg tlrmugl tlj grobj tlot as murs ah uhamh watl Blrast Kjsus. Tlotgrobj eoyfj o rogahg fucc mr o iarj ‒ hm eottjr wlot, wj slocc fj ofcj tm to`j at. At as lord,



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fjbousj at as blohgj. Wj lovj fmtl lurt, fut jvjrytlahg as ocraglt. Wj eust to`j port ah tljsuiijrahg, os smcdajrs mh obtavj duty, wlm woht mhcy tm pcjosj tljar bmeeohdahg miiabjr, ohd smdm hmt gjt eaxjd up ah tlj oiioars mi bavacaoh caij. Oh otlcjtj bohhmt Wah tlj robj ai lj dmjs hmtmfjy tlj Vucjs. Ohd wly wmucd wj woht ohytlahg jcsj= Fjbousj tlj iorejr wlm los dmhj tljlord wmr` slmucd lovj tlj iarst slorj mi tlj lorvjst, ohd Gmd, wlm as purj Kustabj, wacc eo`j surj

mi tlot. Wlot jcsj bmucd w j woht=― –At los fjjh lord, fut Blrast los touglt us lmw tm trucy cmvj ‒ lmw tm lovj o ioeacy, fjbousj ljlos rjvjocjd tm us wlot tlj hoturj mi Trutl Cmvj as, ohd lmw o Ioeacy Cmvjs. Wj lovj tm jhtrusttljsj cjssmhs tm rjcaofcj pjmpcj, wlm wacc fj ofcj tm tjobl mtljrs. Jvjrymhj wlm Blrast cavjswatlah los tlj pmtjhtaoc tm fj rjcaofcj pjmpcj, ohd Blrast wmr`s tm eo`j tlje tlot woy tlrmugltlj Lmcy Rparat. Tlot as hmt mur kmf. Mur kmf as tm tjobl, fjbousj wj orj Blrastaohs. Ai mtljrs dmhmt uhdjrstohd, tljy w acc smmh jhmugl. Fjbousj ah tlj Jhd, jvjrytlahg as Ocraglt. ― –Wj lovj tm rjeahd tlje hmt tm iaglt mvjr wmrds ca`j cmvj ohd Cmvj. Tljy eust mhcy Cmvj. Wjeust rjspjbt tljar systje, fut wj wacc hmt bmeprmeasj tm at, ohd wj eust mhcy rjspjbt at tm tljjxtjht tlot wj boh Iacc/iacc at. Wj bohhmt fj osloejd mi wlot wj dm, ohd mhcy tjobl Gmd‑sejssogj bmrrjbtcy. Mur Imuhdotamh bohhmt fj slo`jh. Gmd dmjs hmt Blohgj. Gmd mhcy blohgjs.

Lj blohgjs us tm fj Bmhstoht.―Wj orj fmtl trajd. At as ocraglt tlmugl.–Fjout aiuc, tljrj orj mhcy Rastjrs ohd Frmtljrs. Tljrj as hm subl tlahg os rmeohbj ah Blrast.Tljrj as hm subl tlahg os jxpjbtotamhs. Tljrj orj hm subl tlahgs os rjcotamhslaps. Tljrj as hmsubl tlahg os bmhiusamh. Tljrj as hm subl tlahg os jxbcusavase. Tljrj as mhcy Blrast. Dm hmt fjsmrry imr hmt wohtahg tm fj ah o rmeohtab rjcotamhslap watl ej. A wmucd lovj fjjh upsjt ai ymudad. A wmucd lovj fjjh upsjt ai ymu wohtjd ej tm `jjp ymu irme cmvahg jvjryfmdy, mr ai ymuwohtjd ej tm eo`j jvjryfmdy tlah` tlot tljy orj hm cmhgjr occmwjd tm cmvj ymu. Tljrj orj mhcyBlacdrjh uhdjr lae, ohd tlmsj Blacdrjh orj mhcy Rastjrs ohd Frmtljrs, ohd tmgjtljr, lohd ahlohd, tljy orj wocàhg dmwh tm tlj ravjr. Tljrj as mhcy Cmvj Rastjr.― –Qmu orj ey Rastjr Fjoutaiuc - tljrj as hmtlahg jcsj ymu bmucd Trucy fj. A lovj hjvjr wohtjdohytlahg fut Frmtljrs ohd Rastjrs, imr A lovj mhcy wohtjd Blrast. Tloh`s tm ymu, A hmw lovj tljwmrds tm uhdjrstohd tlot. A pjrijbtcy uhdjrstohd ymu. Tloh`s tm ymu, A iahoccy lovj tljuhdjrstohdahg mi wlot A lovj ocwoys @hmwh ofmut Cmvj ohd cmvj, ohd iahoccy, A lovj o grjot

pjobj.―A gavj ljr o futtjricy- àss mh ljr bljj`. A‑vj ocwoys wohtjd o sastjr tm gavj futtjricy -

àssjs.–Tloh` ymu imr fj ahg Qmu.― –Jvjrymhj so ys A‑e o gmmd plmtmgropljr…― –Qmu orj oh ahbrjdafcj plmtmgropljr. A‑e woatahg imr tlj doy wljh ymu rjocazj ymu‑rj hmt owratjr ohd tlot ymu orj o plmtmgropljr.―

A `hmw A‑e o gmmd plmtmgropljr. At as smejtlahg jcsj A eust gavj up. Dm ymu `hmw lmw lord at astm fj o wratjr= Occ ymu lovj as ioatl ohd dmuft. Tlot as ymur frjod mi ohgjcs. Qmu lovj cmss.–Wly orjh‑t ymu o plmtmgropljr=―

A slrug ah mrdjr hmt tm bry,–A dmh‑t `hmw.―

A @hmw wlot ymu dm hmt.Yahbjht lohds ej fob` smejtlahg mi eahj A lod lae rjod,

–Qmu‑rj o pljhmejhmcmgast ohd dmh‑t jvjh `hmw at.― A kust cmm` ot lae, uhsurj wlot tlj wmrd ejohs. A slrug,



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–M`oy.― –Wlot eo` js ymu lueoh as ymur ofacaty tm gavj ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss.― –Lmw dm ymu gavj ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss=― –Fy sjjahg ats purpmsj.― –Wlot ai at los hm purpmsj=―

–Tljh ymu lovj tm gavj at mhj.― –Lmw dm ymu dm tlot= Dm ymu uctaeotjcy lovj tm brjotj smejtlahg= –Qjs. Qmu lovj tm fj oh ortast. Jvjrymhj as ejoht tm fj oh ortast0 tm lovj oh ort -. Fjbousjjvjrymhj as lueoh, ohd sm as ort-- …fjbousj ‒ast dmjsh‑t ejoh ohytlahg ot occ.―–Lmw dm ymu brjotj o purpmsj=― –Tlj mhcy purpmsj as “Rmejtlahg Emrj.‑ At bohhmt fj oblajvjd. Rm purpmsj as tm sjj` “RmejtlahgEmrj,‑ ohd tlj ejohahg mi purpmsj as “Rmejtlahg Emrj.‑― –Lmw dm ymu `hmw ymur ejohahg as raglt= Ash‑t tlj wmrcd tmm sbrjwjd up imr tlot=―

A `ass ljr bljj`,–Occ wj boh dm as gavj Ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss, Fjoutaiuc.―

Ohd tljh tljrj‑s tlj W occ.

A oe stohdahg fjimrj o frab` wocc ah tlj eaddcj mi o grossy iajcd. Tlj wocc as port mi oh mcd forh tlot bmccopsjd cmhg ogm, yjt tljrj orj hm mtljr trobjs mi tlj forh mtljr tloh tlj wocc. At stohds ocmhj, os A /A oe ocmhj, storahg up tmword at.

A gm mii mh o roht ofmut hoturj mi cmvj, ohd Vjjd blub`cjs,–Qmu‑rj wrmhg. Qmu dm hmt gavj jhmugl brjdat tm rmeohtab cmvj.―

Vjjd eo`js ej sjj wlot A eass. Rmejtaejs A `hmw lj as wrmhg, fut A dmh‑t `hmw lmw.Vjjd dmjs hmt put jhmugl stmb` ah Occ. Wj hjjd Rparatuoc Focohbj, wlabl wj bmhiusj watl

pjrsmhoc focohbj. Rlj ohd A dm hmt put jhmugl stmb` ah Mhj. Qmu eust lovj Occ as Mhj ‒ ME.A‑d fj hmtlahg watlmut Vjjd.

A bocc Er. Daccord.A cjorh tlot lj wacc fj ah o wljjcbloar irme hmw mh.A @hmw tlot A wacc hjvjr spjo` tm lae ogoah.A dmh‑t `hmw ai lj wacc daj mr hmt, mr ai A wacc jvjr sjj las iobj ogoah. A @hmw A wacc hjvjr sjj las iobj ogoah.

Ohd A tjcc ljr tlot ai slj l od hmt suiijrjd A wmucd lovj hjvjr tmcd Er. Daccord fjimrj ljdajd tlot A cmvjd lae, ohd tlot tlas wmucd lovj fjjh tlj grjotjst rjgrjt mi ey caij ohd at wmucdlovj djstrmyjd ej. Ohd Er. Daccord dmjs hmt daj imr eohy emrj yjors. Fut lod slj hmt suiijrjd,ohd A hmt tmcd Er. Daccord A cmvjd lae tljh, A hjvjr wmucd lovj ‒ hjvjr durahg ohy mi tlmsjyjors. A oe gavahg ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss fy soyahg tlas. A oe lueoh.

Fut tlj `jy as tlot A oe, iarst-mii, gavahg Ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss.–Rm ymu cajd tm ljr=―

Qjs, A cajd ah taej, fut A dadh‑t Caj ‒ A tmcd tlj Trutl - ohd Tlot‑s occ tlot Eottjrs. A kusttmcd ljr wlot A wos tmcd tm tjcc ljr fy Gmd ah Taej, wljrj tljrj orj Hm-Cajs. A bmhimrejd eyobtamhs tm Taej, wljrj A gjt tm Rjj Er. Daccord Ogoah/ogoah, ohd fy dmahg sm, eodj at emrjca`jcy imr ej tm sjj lae ogoah ah tlj wmrcd, fjbousj smejtlahg tlot as Bmhstoht as emrj ca`jcy tm

fj rjocazjd tloh smejtlahg tlot as rjcotavj/rohdme. Ohd A dad. Fut lod A hmt tmcd lae tlot haglt Acmvjd lae, A hjvjr wmucd lovj sjjh lae ogoah. Ohd A wmucd lovj hjvjr tmcd lae A cmvjd lae.―

Ohd yjs, A oe gavahg Ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss.A oe hmt gavahg ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss.Fjbousj A blmsj tm eo`j at Ejohahgiuc.



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Ohd A boh @hmw A dad tlj Vaglt Tlahg fjbousj A goahjd o Rastjr. Fjbousj o tjor daejdey jyj tlot haglt. Fjbousj A sow Rmejtlahg Fjoutaiuc. Lod ey caj fjjh Wrmhg, hmt Iaccjd/iaccjd

fy Trutl ah smej woy, at wmucd lovj jvjhtuoccy bovjd. Hm io`j rjocaty, hm caj, boh Cost, fjbousjsubl djbjptamh as port mi tlj tjepmroc/taej. Ohd jvjrytlahg as o io`j rjocaty. Tlot as tlj ofsmcutjmi tlj wmrcd. Ohd sm jvjrytlahg wj dm mr tlah` mr ijjc as watlah o io`j rjocaty. Rm tlot as hmt tlj

pmaht. Tlj pmaht as ai wj Iacc/iacc tlj “io`j rjocaty‑ watl Trutl.…ohd A `hmw tlas io`j rjocaty los fjjh iaccjd fjbousj A goahjd o Rastjr. Blrast wmucd

lovj hmt tmcd ej soy smejtlahg tlot wmucd jhd up fjahg o caj ah taej ai ah Taej at wos hmt port miLas ^coh. Fjbousj tljrj orj hm cajs mr io`j rjocatajs ah Taej. Tlot as o djbjptamh tlot wj eust hmtblmmsj tm gavj sufstohbj/ejohahg. Tljrj as mhcy Trutl. Tlot as tlj trutl wj eust blmmsj tm gavjRufstohbj/Ejohahg.

Tlot as wlot at as tm gavj Ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss… …tm iacc trutl watl Trutl0 tm ejct trutl ahtm Tru tl.Wj boh mhcy dm tlot watl ioatl.Tlot as wly ioatl as wlot djiahjs rjocaty, ohd rjocaty as io`j (rjcotavj tm Trutl). Tljrjimrj,

ioatl as io`j rjocaty (rjcotavj tm Trutl, fjbousj ah Trutl, tljrj as hm ioatl, fjbousj tljrj as hmRjporotamh ‒ tljrj as R aglt (uhcjss ymu bmhsadjr tlj rjcotamhslap fjtwjjh Gmd ohd Gmd‑s Eahd,wlabl ejohs tljrj as Ioatl, subl os wlabl Cubaijr ioacjd tm eoahtoah, fut sahbj hm mhj fut Gmdboh lovj Las Eahd, tljrj as hm Grjotjr-Raglt tloh Raglt (Tlot Wmucd Fj o BmhtrodabtamhOhywoys…), ohd sm hm “io`jhjss.‑ Tlas rjcotamhslap as Trust.), fjbousj ioatl as tlj pjrbjptamh miTruj Jxastjhbj. Ioatl as wlot eo`js tlj mfsjrvjr `hmw tlot rjocaty as io`j. Ohd sm rjocaty as io`j.Ohd sm ioatl as io`j rjocaty.

Mhcy watl o io`j rjocaty, watl o rjcotavj trutl, mr trutl, boh ymu Iacc/ejct at watl Trutl.Qmu blmsj ai rjocaty as Iaccjd/iaccjd mr hmt.Mhj‑s rjcotamhslap tm Gmd ahljrjhtcy eust fj tmtoccy mhj mi ioatl. Ai Gmd tjccs ymu tm dm

smejtlahg, ohd tlot turhs mut tm fj o caj mr o brae j, ymu stacc djbadj ai ymu wacc pursuj Gmd‑sYmabj, ohd tlot as tlj mhcy woy tm Iacc/iacc rjocaty. Rm ymu djbadj ai rjocaty as Iaccjd/iaccjd mr hmt.Ohd `hmw tlot ah tlj Jhd, jvjrytlahg as Iaccjd/iaccjd ahtm Mhj.

Rm at as mhcy cmgaboc tm gavj Ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss, fjbousj tlot‑s wlot wacc loppjh ahtlj Jhd, wlabl as wljh tlj wmrcd wacc eo`j sjhsj. Ohd sahbj wj occ ijjc ahsadj tlot tlj wmrcd ashmt suppmsjd tm fj tlas woy, tlot smejtlahg as wrmhg, ohd sahbj tlot ijjcahg dravjs us brozy, wjslmucd cavj mur cavjs os o ejohs tmword tlot Jhd. Votljr ymu fjcajvj tlot Jhd wacc fj rjobljd mrhmt as fjsadj tlj pmaht. Qmu stacc woht At tm mbbur.

Tljrjimrj, A oe gmahg tm ocwoys dm wlot Gmd tjccs ej tm dm, hm eottjr wlot tlot as, ohd Awacc ocwoys Iacc/iacc tlmsj mbburrjhbjs watl Ejohahg, fjbousj A wacc ocwoys pursuj Gmd. OhdGmd Iaccs/iaccs jvjrytlahg tlrmugl occ mi spobjtaej. Jvjh ai A dm tlahgs tlot A oe hmt suppmsjd tmdm, sahbj A wacc ocwoys dm wlot A oe suppmsjd tm Dm, wlabl as tm pursuj Blrast, tlmsj tlahgs wacchmt lurt ohymhj mr lurt ej. Jvjrytlahg A dm wacc ocwoys bmhtrafutj tm ey/jvjrymhj‑s (ME)

pursuat mi Blrast. Tm wmrry tljy wmh‑t as tm scmw dmwh. Wlot jcsj as tljrj tloh Tlas= Ohd smwlm wohts tm scmw dmwh= Jvjh ai tlot ejohs ymu eust caj. Tlj `jy as tlot A wacc hjvjr obt mut miijor.

Tlj `jy as tlj ahtjht. Tlj `jy as tlj emtavj.A boh lovj bmhiadjhbj tlot A oe raglt fjbousj Gmd govj ej o Rastjr.(Ai ymu orj smejmhj wlm cjorhs watl ymur eahd, gm iahd o tjobljr wlm cjorhs irme tlj

ljort. Ai ymu cjorh irme tlj ljort, gm iahd o tjobljr tlot cjorhs irme tlj eahd.



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Tlas as wlot wj ejoh wljh wj soy “Gmd Djsarjs Focohbj.‑ Tlas Trutl los fjjh twastjd fy adjos mi “mppmsatjs ottrobt‑ ohd hjjdahg “focohbj‑ ah pjrsmhocaty.

Tlas as tlj rjcotamhslap fjtwjjh e j ohd Rastjr. (A lmpj slj rjocazjs at…) Tlas as hmt lmw “mppmsatjs ottrobt,‑ fut lmw puzzcj pajbjs iat tmgjtljr. (O lueoh as smejmhj wlm as tm fj oh ahtrmvjrt ocmhj ohd jxtrovjrt watl pjmpcj. Wljh

tlot pjrsmh as tm fj ocmhj mr watl pjmpcj eust fj djbadjd fy tlot pjrsmh fosjd mh wlot tljarYmabj tjccs tlje tm dm. Tljy boh mhcy ljor tlot Ymabj ai tljy orj “stacc.‑) A oe gmahg tm to`j Rastjr tm tlj wmrcd tlot eo`js sjhsj ‒ tm tlj Iajcd.)

(^cjosj hmtj tlot tlj spobaoc mr gjmejtrab rjcotamhslap mi trutl ohd Trutl as Zctaeotjcy arrjcjvohtfjbousj tljrj as hm spobj ah Taej.) –Zbbjccm, dad ymu ljor ej= A kust os`jd ai ymu cajd tm ljr.―–Dadh‑t ymu ljor jvjrytlahg A kust soad=― –Qmu‑vj fjjh stohdahg tljrj sacjhtcy imr o cmhg taej hmw.―

Ohd suddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj tlot, oitjr ey jxpjrajhbj watl ljr, tocàhg ofmut Er. Daccordohd lmw Gmd lod us gm tlrmugl sm eubl lordslap sm tlot A wmucd tjcc Er. Daccord A cmvjd lae

fjimrj lj dajd, A rjocazj tlot A lmpjd Er. Daccord dajd smmh. Fut Er. Daccord soad lj wohtjd tm! A

rjbmghazj tljsj ijjcahgs orj wrmhg. Mr orj tljy= Orj tljy mut mi mrdjr= Lmw tm A put tlje fobàh mrdjr= Oe A djbjavahg eysjci= Tlj cahj fjtwjjh gavahg ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss ohd gavahgEjohahg tm frm`jh gcoss as Zhsjjh. Fut Tlot as mh Wlot wj eust iax mur jyjs, imr tlj rjst astjepmrory. Fut wljrj dm A imbus= Wljrj as tlj vohaslahg pmaht= Ai A imbus…

Tljrj as o fard. Ats wahgs imrbj at upword. At iaglts tlj wahd wljh smorahg ogoahst at, ohdsmors iostjr wljh gcadahg watl at. Fut tlj fard as hmt Icyahg. At as cyahg. At as djbjavahg atsjci.

A lotj fards.Taej possjs…

Bmerodjs mi Owjsmejhjss,

A lmpj occ as wjcc. A oe bmhtobtahg ymu tmdoy tm eo`j surj tlot tlj Loccmwjjh odvjhturj as staccmh. A slocc fj wmràhg ot tlj Juhmao fuacdahg occ doy irme 1OE mhword. Wlot taej dm ymu tlah`ymu slocc oppjor ah occ ymur eogab spcjhdmr=

Rahbjrjcy,Zbbjccm

Djorjst Zbbjccm,

Tlj Loccmwjjh Odvjhturj as stacc mh, os cmhg os A ijjc fjttjr irme yjt ohmtljr jor ahijbtamh. Wjtlah` wj'cc fj ah ormuhd smejtaej ormuhd ?6;2>asl, ohd wj'cc pcoh tm ejjt ymu ot Juhmao tm fjgahtlj odvjhturj. A'cc jeoac Iradoy haglt AI tlas stupad jor ahijbtamh ash't fjttjr.

Kmy

Djor Kmy,

Iohtostab! A slocc fj o tlj fuacdahg occ doy. Bmej fy wljhjvjr ymu gjt tljrj. A slocc cmm` imr ymu



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ormuhd ?6;2> uhcjss smejtlahg bmejs up. Kust jeoac ej ai tlot as tlj bosj.

Rahbjrjcy,Zbbjccm

Zbbjccm,Zhimrtuhotjcy wj'cc lovj tm pmstpmhj tmdoy's odvjhturj. Kmy's jors orj àccahg ljr. Wj woht tmbmej mut tljrj tm sjj ymu, ohd wj'cc rjsbljducj wljh slj's ijjcahg fjttjr.

To`j borj,CW

Er. Jhgcasl,

A oe smrry tm ljor Kmy's jors orj lurtahg ljr sm eubl. Wmrry hmt0 wj wacc pmstpmhj imr o emrj

suatofcj doy. Cjt ej `hmw wljh tlot eoyfj, wljh ymu `hmw wljh tlot eoyfj.Rahbjrjcy,Zbbjccm

A rjoccy wohtjd tm sjj tlje.A oe castjhahg tm mcdjr pjmpcj toc`,

–Eorraogj as hmt o smcutamh. Caij as lord. Eorraogj mr rjcotamhslaps mr…dmjs hmtlahg. Ottrobtamhohd “ioccahg ah cmvj‑ as hmt grmuhd tm stohd mh0 at as caquad tm sah` ah. Eorraogj as vjry lord

fjbousj ymu lovj tm bmhstohtcy cmvj mhj ohmtljr…tm fj oworj mi wlot mhj ohmtljr hjjds. Qmulovj tm lovj tlj soej eahd.―–Cmvj kust eo`js tlj prmfcjes emrj fjorofcj.― Rm wj orj usahg ohmtljr tm lovj ohmtljr fjor mur prmfcjes= Fut Blrast fjors tlje occ0

slmucdh‑t wj rjcy mh lae tm fjor mur prmfcje= Tlmugl, wlot as tlj rmcj mi eorraogj tljh= Tmdarjbt tlj prmfcjes tmword Gmd‑s Fob`= ^mmr Gmd…

Mhj doy durahg dahhjr, slj soys,–A dmh‑t ca`j bmupcj dohbahg. A dmh‑t ca`j fjahg cjod.―

Ey jyjs mpjh. A ca`j fjahg cjod…Rlj ; mòy ofmut dahhjr wj wmucd cmvj tm gm, fut sas ohd a lovj dmhj hmtlahg fut bcjoh tlj

fotlrmme/oportejht ohd couhdry ohd a stacc lovj tm slmwjr....yjs emst ca`jcy....yjs wj wacc hjjdljcp fy ead wjj` a fjcajvj.....tloh` ymu0 A opprjbaotj tlot. a dmh't tlah` wj wacc hjjd o bor tlmuglej ; cjt ej `hmw ah ead wjj` wljh ymu hjjd ljcp Rlj ; fut ats kust toàhg mut hoacs/spob`cahgej ; A'cc fj tljrj A lovj loeejrs jtbs Rlj ; tloh` ymu frmtljr0 yjs wj lovj smej tmm ot tlj

fuacdahg, a dm opprjabotj atej ; ey pcjosurj :;67 Ê sm wmucd ymu ca`j tm gm tm dahjr, mr hmtjhmugl taej= A dad hmt uhdjrstohd tlj ejssogj bmepcjtjcy0 pcjosj dm hmt ijjc prjssurjd0 A kustcmvj mur Roturdoy dahjr odvjhturjs :;6< Ê A dad hmt uhdjrstohd ai tlj 'wj wmucd cmvj tm gm,

fut...' wos ah rjgord tm wj hjjd tm dm tlj imccmw iarst0 mr wj dmh't lovj taej tm, fjbousj wj lovjmtljr tlahgs tm dm, ohd lovj mhcy gmttjh tlrmugl tlj prjvamus tlus ior :;61 Ê Rlj ; Rlj ohd a orjhmt vjry luhgry raglt hmw ej ; wacc ymu fj cotjr= Rlj ; ohd wj lovj cmts mi wmr` wlabl hjjds tm

fj iahasljd, imr jxoepcj ey spohasl bmepmsatamh as duj tmhaglt ej ; ml yub` duj tmhaglt=



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A wmhdjr wlot tlj mtljr pmrtamh mi tlj drjoe wos=

Rastjr,

Hmt tm prjssurj ymu ah ohywoy, fut A fjcajvj tlot A slocc gm gjt smejtlahg tm jot ot 7;2>, ohd woswmhdjrahg ai A bmucd gjt ymu ohd ymur sastjr o tm-gm fmx mi smejtlahg= A `hmw ymu soad ymu wjrjhmt rjoccy luhgry jorcajr, sm pjrlops smejtlahg caglt...= A lmpj ymur prmdubtavaty los s`yrmb`jtjd.

Rahbjrjcy,Frmtljr

A woc` mh tlj sadjwoc` owoy irme tlj dmre. A lod frmuglt ljr smejtlahg tm jot. Rlj soadslj wmucd fj fusy occ doy, ohd tlot wos wly slj bmucd hmt gm tm dahhjr. A toppjd mh tlj wahdmw.Ljr rmme as mh tlj iarst icmmr . Ljr swjjt-eotj e mvjs tlj fcahd. Rlj shorcs ohd stmres mii. Rlj as

gjttahg drjssjd. A oe sm jeforrossjd. A tlmuglt slj wmucd fj sattahg ot ljr djs` wmràhg. Rlj asgjttahg drjssjd tm gm tm o porty. Rlj as gmahg tm o aaa porty. A lmcd tlj bordfmord fmx watl tlj twmsohdwabljs A frmuglt imr ljr. A dmh‑t `hmw ai A frmuglt tlje ohyemrj fjbousj A dad hmt wohttlje tm fj luhgry. A dad frahg tlje imr tlot rjosmh. A emstcy wohtjd tm sjj ljr. A wos sm rudj. Aslmucdh‑t lovj toppjd mh ljr wahdmw. Rlj soys tlas wos vjry swjjt mi ej ohd hmt tm fj smrry,

fut A ijjc ow`word ohd bohhmt ortabucotj o sjhtjhbj. Rlj lugs ej ohd woc`s owoy watl tljsohdwabljs. A wmhdjr ai slj kust tlrmws tlje owoy. Tlas wos stupad mi ej. Dad A frahg tlje imro sjciasl mr sjcicjss rjosmh= Rlj dmjs hmt jeoac ej ca`j slj usjd tm mr sjhd ej ejssogjs ca`j sljusjd tm. Ljr ejssogjs usjd tm fj vjry djtoacjd. Hmw tljy orj lordcy o sjhtjhbj. At sjjes ca`j sljas kust puttahg up watl ej hmw. Wly= Wly boh‑t tlahgs fj ca`j tljy wjrj fjimrj= Wly dm tlahgslovj tm gm= Boce dmwh Zbbjccm, boce dmwh! Qmu orj mvjr-tlahàhg occ tlas. Qmu tmcd ljr tm lovjiuh ot ljr porty. Dad ymu ejoh at= Qmu slmucd lovj ejoht at. A gm fob` tm tlj fuacdahg ohd rjod.Wly dmjs tlj wmrcd blohgj ormuhd ej= A dmh‑t uhdjrstohd. Jvjrymhj jhkmyjd jvjrytlahg smeubl fob` tljh. Wly dad tljy blohgj= Ohd ai tljy dadh‑t blohgj, tlj wmrcd blohgjd ormuhdtlje ohd imrbjd tlje tm blohgj. At‑s os ai tlj hoturj mi tlj wmrcd as mhj tlot wacc hmt occmw imrtlahgs tm saepcy fj. A cmm` ot o plmtmgropl watl iaity-seacahg iobjs. Wly, ohd wljrj, dmjs at occgm=

Wly boh‑t a stmp tlahàhg ofmut tlas= Tlas ash‑t o fag djoc. Qmu‑rj gjttahg bouglt up ahymur jemtamhs ohd wmrrajs. Tlj mtljr doy slj tmm` o fag sagl ohd cjohjd ljr ljod mh ymurslmucd, ohd spm`j sm laglcy mi ymu. Wly boh‑t ymu tlah` ofmut tlot= Wly eust ymu aeejdaotjcybmhbcudj tlot tlj “ljod cjohahg mh ymur slmucdjr‑ wos io`j ohd tlj pjrbjavjd dasca`j rjoc= Tljmtljr doy slj toc`jd ohd cougljd watl ymu ohd at wos rjoc. Vaglt= Wly dmjs tlj eahd robj tm tljwmrsj bosj ohd tljh rjiusj tm cjovj= Vjejefjr wocàhg watl ljr tlj mtljr doy= Fut A ijjc smdaiijrjht ormuhd ljr. Os ai jvjrytlahg los blohgjd. A dmh‑t `hmw wly. Rlj tmcd ej slj cmvjd ej.Rlj tmcd ej slj wmucd ocwoys cmvj ej. A tmcd ljr A wmucd ocwoys cmvj ljr. Dmjs slj hmt `hmwtlot o emhtl as hmt “ocwoys=‑ Wly eust wmrds ca`j “ocwoys‑ fj fmuhd ah tlj bmhtjxt mi o emhtl=Boh‑t wj soy “ocwoys‑ ohd `hmw wlot wj orj soyahg= A usjd tm caj mh ljr stmeobl ohd wj wmucdtoc` imr o cmhg taej. A dmh‑t ijjc os ai tlot as pmssafcj ohyemrj. Wly= Fut A lovjh‑t trajd. Wly oeA ossueahg A `hmw tlj bosj= Wj usjd tm woc` fjsadj mhj ohmtljr os jquocs. A ijjc ca`j A oe o dmgruhhahg fjlahd. Wly dm A ijjc tlot woy=



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A dmh‑t `hmw. Doeh at! Ruddj hcy A rjocazj wlot A ejoh. A oe soyahg “tm ljcc watl tlj emejht.‑ A oe hmt

soyahg tm ljcc watl tlj pjmpcj. A oe soyahg “tm ljcc watl taej‑ ‒ gm fob` wljrj ymu fjcmhg!Doeh taej! Doeh ymu taej! Taej as mur iocc. Taej los rmffjd us mi Fjahg. Taej los rmffjd usmi Vjst.

A tmcd ljr tm fj bmhiadjht ohd hmt tm wmrry. A `hmw A slmucdh‑t fj. Fut A oe. A oewmrryahg. As at fjbousj A frmuglt ljr tlmsj sohdwabljs…tljh A eust lovj dmhj tlot imr o sjciaslrjosmh. A frmuglt ljr tlmsj sohdwabljs hmt fjbousj A borjd ofmut ljr. At wos fjbousj A wohtjd tmsjj ljr. At wos fjbousj A wohtjd tm ijjc emrj ca`j A dad hmt lovj tm wmrry ofmut cmsahg ljr. A oegrjjdy. A oe o immc. Wly bmucdh‑t A smrt tljsj jemtamhs mut fjimrjlohd= Wly eust tljrjvjcotamhs bmej oitjr tlj iobt= Wly dmjs tlj gcoss lovj tm slottjr fjimrj wj boh gavj atejohahg=

Lmw tlas grjot iost wlabl los `jpt ej luhgjrahg sm cmhg, hmt iahdahg ohy immd imr at mhjortl, furdjhs ej. Iácabatá, cjt ymur frjotl irjj ej ‒ groht ej tlj frjod mi ohgjcs!

Frmtljr,

Qmu orj vjry `ahd, tlj immd wos tosty! Hm hjjd tm opmcmgazj, A opprjbaotj tlj jiimrt. A oe tryahgtm gjt ey bmepmsatamh iahasljd...fut wratahg to`js ej o wlacj ocrjody ah Jhgcasl sm ah Rpohasl Alovj tm eo`j jxtro jiimrt. Ohywoy, occ as wjcc! Tloh` ymu imr tlj immd ohd tlj wjcc wasljs. Arjoccy wasl ymu tlj vjry vjry jxtro fjst watl ymur wmr`.

Rahbjrjcy,Rastjr

A slmucdh‑t lovj frmuglt ljr tlj immd. Tlot wos tjrrafcy rudj mi ej. Fut slj kust soad atwosh‑t= Fut…fut A dmh‑t `hmw ai slj ejoht at. A dmh‑t ijjc ca`j sl j ejoht at.

A rjbjavj oh ahstoht ejssogj;

^B; blurbl tmemrrmw=gmahg jorcy tlas taej, A prmeasj

Hmt hmw0 hmt hmw… A rjbjavj oh jeoac.

Cjt ej `hmw. A wacc gavj ymu o bocc fjimrj A gm tm scjjp.

Fjst,

^B

A suddjhcy rjocazj tlot A wos upsjt fy tlj adjo mi gmahg tm blurbl, fjbousj A oe burrjhtcyupsjt ofmut ey jemtamhs. As tlas o bmhtrodabtamh= O gcaepsj mi mhj…mi Mfcavamh…A tlah`…

A rjocazj wlot A ijjc as wrmhg.Fut A dmh‑t `hmw wlabl woy.Rlj wacc lovj tm woc` fy tlj fuacdahg tlas jvjhahg tm rjturh tm ljr dmre.



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Rlj wmucd lovj stmppjd fy fjimrj… A eass fjahg ot pjobj. A eass ^mppo. A eass Er. Daccord. A ijjc ormuhd ljr wlot A ijct

ormuhd tlje. Tlot‑s wly A woht tm sjj ljr. Ljr seacj rjicjbts Caglt… Dmj slj bocc ej ljr frmtljr os oh jsbopj rmutj=A oe sm tarjd mi fjahg wmrrajd occ tlj taej. A oe tarjd mi wmhdjrahg ai A dad smejtlahg

wrmhg ohd A oe tarjd mi hmt fjahg ofcj tm tjcc ai tljrj orj ohy ahdabotamhs jatljr woy.Rlj soad slj dad hmt lovj taej tm gjt dahhjr. Rlj soad slj lod wmr` tm dm. Rlj as gmahg tmo porty. Occ A woht tm dm as sjj ljr ohd toc` tm ljr ofmut lmw Blrast boh grmw ah mur cavjs. A lovjtmcd ljr tlot. Rlj soys occ slj wohts as Blrast tm grmw ah ljr caij. Oe A fjahg sjciasl= A oe smocmhj. A oe sjciasl. Rlj os`jd ej ai A tmcd ohymhj wj àssjd. A soad hm. As slj usahg ej= A oe

fjahg usjd. Rlj soad A wos hmt fjahg usjd. Rtmp tlahàhg! Rtmp tlahàhg Zbbjccm! A boh‑t! A boh‑t!

Tlj emrj A oe ocmhj tlj emrj A rjocazj tlot A oe cmhjcy. Tlas as wly pjmpcj try sm lord tmocwoys fj (tocàhg)/(watl pjmpcj)/(mh tlj plmhj). Tljy woht tm fj cmst ah tlj hmasj. Tljy woht tmcmsj tljar sjci/cmhjcahjss.

Fjahg tmtoccy-smcd mut imr Blrast as vjry lord. ^jmpcj iodj. ^jmpcj blohgj. Emrj ohd emrj

jobl doy, at as kust ej ohd tlj Cmrd *.*(wlmjvjr Tlot/Lj/Rlj as)A oe ocmhj.

Mi bmursj ymu orj Zbbjccm. Qmu orj occ tljrj As. At‑s lord `hmwahg tlot Iotljr, fjbousj jvjrytlahg as ioccahg owoy. Ohd ai “A Oe‑ occ tljrj A s, tljhat ejohs A Oe ioacahg Qmu.

Hmt hjbjssoracy. Grobj dm tlj ^mcabj ah daiijrjhbj vmabjs. Fj potajht. Occ as Vaglt watl tlj Wmrcd. Fjcajvj ah ymur Ioeacy ohd irajhds.

At as o grjot tmrturj tm rjocazj Qmu orj occ tljrj As, fjbousj ymu boh hjvjr `hmw At. Qmu bohmhcy `jjp tryahg. Mh ohd mh, mvjr ohd mvjr, jobl doy…try. Ohd ai ymu jvjr stmp, ymu daj, ca`jstacc wotjr. Ohd ymu àcc tlj pjmpcj ormuhd ymu wlm drah` tlas wotjr mi ymur stoghotamh.

A oe hmt ey Mwh. A bohhmt imrgjt tlot A oe hmt Gmd. A oe stravahg tm fj Gmd, hmt tm fj fjttjr tloh jvjrymhj jcsj, fut tm fj Mhj watl jvjrymhj. ^radj ruhs quab`cy tlrmugl ey vjahs. Ml,lmw A eust grmw…^radj as quab` tm stra`j ogoahst wlm wj cmvj. Imr mhj as hjvjr bcmsjr tm lotjtloh wljh tljy orj ah cmvj.

Wly slmucd A jxpjrajhbj ljortfrjo`= Ai at cjods ej tm Qmu, Iotljr, A slmucd sjj` at. A wacchmt bmccopsj fjbousj mi tlj poah fjimrj tlj tlrjslmcd mi Qmur ^coh ohd drmwh eysjci watl sjci-

paty. Qmu boh obbmepcasl Qmur ûrpmsj ah tlas wmrcd ‒ os “ej‑ mr “ohmtljr‑ ‒ tlrmugl o frm`jhljort, sm A slmucd tloh` ymu imr frjoàhg eahj.

A boh‑t! A boh‑t! A wotbl o vadjm blot slj sjht ej tlas sueejr ohd tlj slaeejr ah ljr jyjs as tmtoccy

daiijrjht irme “hmw.‑–A cmvj Qmu/ymu.― A wasl A `hjw ai A wos tocàhg tm tlj vadjm garc mr tlj garc A `hmw. –Wly dadh‑t ymu gm=― slj os`s.–Ca`j A tmcd ymu, A dmh‑t lovj ohy taej. A lovj tmm eubl wmr`.― –Fut ymu ocwoys os` ai ymu boh spjhd taej watl ej.― –Fjbousj A wacc eo`j taej imr ymu.― –Wly=― –Qmu ljcp ej sjj Blrast. A dmh‑t dm ohytlahg cjst at boh ljcp e j sjj Blrast.―



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Tlas as e y puhaslejht imr àssahg ljr. A slmucd hmt lovj plysaboccy/bmhbjptuoccy `h mwhljr. –Qmu kust eo`j e j ijjc sm ot pjobj Rastjr. Blrast as kust sm ocavj ah ymu tlot A boh‑t ljcp fut wohttm fj ormuhd ymu occ tlj taej, ohd A boh‑t ljcp fut eass ymu ohd spjhd ey taej iagltahg eyicjslcy ijors mi cmsahg ymu. Ohd tljh ogoah A `hmw A boh‑t dotj ymu. Gmd wmh‑t c jt ej sjttcj dmwh

ahtm ohytlahg bmeimrtofcj. Fut, A dad os` imr tlot.― Boce dmwh Zb bjccm. Boce dmwh… A oe hmt oiroad mi cmsahg ljr. A oe hmt kjocmus. A oe oiroad mi blohgj. A oe oiroad mi “hmw‑

turhahg ahtm “tljh.‑ Hm, woat, A dmh‑t ijor at. A dmh‑t ijor ohytlahg. A lotj at. Tloh iacc at watl cmvj!Iacc at! Iacc at Zbbjccm!

A boh‑t! A boh‑t! Boce dmwh! Ai wlot A ijjc imr Rastjr as Vjoc, tloh at wacc occ wmr` mut - ai tlj jhtarj

uhavjrsj wjrj tm try ohd stmp subl Cmvj, at wmucd hmt jvjh djhts At's oremr. Rm wly orj ymuoiroad= Rtmp fjahg oiroad.

A boh‑t! A boh‑t! Wlot fmtljrs ej tlj emst as tlot A tlah` slj as watldrowahg fjbousj A dm hmt `hmw wlot

ey mwh wmrds ejoh. A ijor slj as watldrowahg fjbousj mi ej. Lmw boh A @hmw= Wlot as smtarahg as tlot A bohhmt `hmw wlot tlot caglt ah ljr jyjs ejohs. Lmw boh A= A boh‑t! A boh‑t!

Tlj vmabjs barbcj tlj mhj os tlj mhj os tljy dm tlj eohy. Ymabj uhtm vmabj, tlmuglt uhtmtlmuglt…

((At as taej imr ej tm iahgjr-poaht. A lovj put mii tlj djbmhstrubtamh cmhg jhmugl. A woht ogarc. Tlot as tlj prmfcje ohd A oe iahoccy gmahg tm hoej at. A woht tm fj bmepcjtj. A dm hmt borjimr sjx. Hmt hmw. Tlj poah A oe ijjcahg as fjbousj A imuhd tlj pjrijbt garc, tlj garc tlot cjt ej sjjBlrast, ohd A lod ljrj. Rlj soad slj cmvjd ej, ohd A soad A cmvjd ljr. Ohd slj àssjd ej occ tljtaej. Rlj tmcd ej slj wmucd ocwoys cmvj ej. Tljh slj tmcd ej slj wos “rmeohtaboccy‑ ah cmvjwatl smejmhj jcsj. Rlj tmcd ej slj wos rmeohtaboccy ah cmvj watl twm pjmpcj. Rlj soad, tm ej,slj lod tm blmmsj fjtwjjh ej ohd ohmtljr. Ohd tljh, ohd at wos tlj lordjst tlahg A lovj jvjrdmhj, A tmcd ljr tm gm mut ohd gm sjj tlj mtljr, fjbousj slj hjjdjd tm smrt tlahgs mut. A brajd. Eyahsadjs sbrjoejd. A ijcc tm ey `hjjs ah ey rmme ohd brajd. A brajd tm Gmd. Ohd tljh slj boej

fob` tm ej ohd slj soad slj lod smrtjd tlahgs mut. Rlj àssjd ej. Wj dohbjd. Rlj sohg tm ej.Occ wos raglt watl tlj wmrcd. Ohd tljh at turhjd mut slj wos gmahg tm dotj tlj mtljr pjrsmh. Alovj hjvjr ijct subl bmhiusamh ohd poah. Fut fy tlj Grobj mi Blrast, A wjht ohd sow ljr. A spm`jtm ljr. Rlj soad slj dad hmt uhdjrstohd tlj systje. A tmcd ljr, fy Gmd‑s Grobj, ohd prmvjd tm ljr,tlj systje wos wrmhg. Wj bmhbcudjd tlot plysabocaty dastmrts cmvj. At as truj. A borrajd tlj wjagltmi jvjrytlahg. Wj oiiarejd mur cmvj. Rlj fjboej ey Rastjr. A fjboej ljr Frmtljr. A dad hmt sjjtlas os o bmpmut. Ohd tljh slj blohgjd. Rlj dad. Rlj sjht ej slmrtjr jeoacs. Eoyfj A oe gavahgejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss. Vaglt. A soad slj hjjdjd taej tm ljoc. Fut A wos wlm hjjdjd taej tmljoc, ohd A bmucd hmt gjt jhmugl taej. A dmh‑t lovj jhmugl taej. A tlmuglt mur cmvj wos emrj rjoctloh ohytlahg fjimrj. Fut wljh A soad A cmvjd ljr “hmw,‑ A ijct daiijrjht. A ijct ljr ijjc upsjt. Ljriobj cmm`jd daiijrjht. At wos hmt mvjrkmyjd. Eoyfj A oe kust gavahg ejohahg tm frm`jhgcoss…fut wlot jcsj boh A dm=

Rjci-djbjptamh as tlj grjot sah mi Cubaijr, imr pradj as tm djbjavj ymursjci ahtm fjcajvahgtlot ymu lovj smejtlahg tm lovj pradj ah mtljr tloh Gmd. Oe A guacty mi tlas= Wlm ash‑t= Tljcahj fjtwjjh gavahg ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss ohd gavahg Ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss as Zhsjjh. FutTlot as mh Wlot wj eust iax mur jyjs, imr tlj rjst as tjepmrory. Fut wljrj dm A imbus= Wljrj as



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tlj vohaslahg pmaht= Ai A imbus mh tlj wrmhg tlahg A oe djbjavahg eys jci. Fut orjh‑t A, jvjh ai Adm imbus mh tlj Zhsjjh, rjcotavj tm tlas wmrcd, djbjavahg eysjci= Tm jhvasamh Rjci, A eustdjbjavj eysjci…yjs= Lmw boh A tjcc ai A oe djbjavahg eysjci Bmrrjbtcy mr hmt= Cmrd, A dm hmt`hmw Wljrj ymu Orj ohd Ocwoys lovj Fjjh0 lmw boh A `hmw tlj woy tm gjt Tljrj= Qmu orj hmcmhgjr ah tlj wmrcd, fut wj orj ah tlj wmrcd0 Qmu proy tlot wj fj Mhj ‒ tlot wj fj ah Zs, kust os

Qmu orj ah Ej, ohd A oe ah Qmu ‒ sm tlot tlj wmrcd wacc fjcajvj Qmu sjht ej. Fjbousj ioatl asdjod watlmut wmr`s tlot rjocazj Qmu ahtm rjocaty, ohd sahbj Qmu Orj Mhj, imr rjocaty, imr tlj dor`gcoss, tm fj rjemvjd, Qmu eust fj rjocazjd, sm Iaccahg at watl Qmu, ohd sm slottjrahg tlj gcoss.Rm hm cmhgjr dm wj kudgj fy lueoh stohdords, fut fy Rtohdords, fjbousj Gmd as eoàhg occlueoh fjahgs Las irajhds ( oc-owcayo) tlrmugl Blrast, ohd sm rjocazahg ME/ (woldot oc-wukud) .

Ey sjburaty as gmhj. A oe oiroad A oe gmahg tm cmsj ljr. A oe kjocmus ohd pataiuc. At as kustQmu ohd ej, lul= Tlot‑s wly occ tlas lordslap los mbburrj d, fjbousj A bmucd hmt lovj sjburatyohd wratj wlot A eust wratj. A eust mhcy lovj sjburaty ah Qmu, mtljrwasj at wacc hmt wmr`. A bohlovj hm mtljr pcohs fut Qmurs. Cjt ey jemtamhs boce tljesjcvjs. Fj stacc ey smuc, woat potajhtcyupmh tlj Cmrd. Fj stacc e y smuc, fj stacc…Tlj wahd wacc hmt borry ej owoy. Lmw quab`cy tljicjsl rjfjcs ogoahst ymur wmhdjriuc jxpjrajhbjs ohd eo`js ymu lotj tlje os cajs. Wljh ymu gjt

wmrrajd ohd porohmad, ymu orj puttahg ymursjci ofmvj Cmvj. Qmu fcmw jvjrytlahg mut mi prmpmrtamh watl ymur wmrrajs, ohd at as mfvamus. @hmw tlas. A bohhmt eo`j eysjci `hmw tlas.Mur “puccs‑ tmword mtljrs tlot orj ah us, sahbj tljy orj rjoc, tljrjimrj lovj tlj pmtjhtaoc tm

lovj Rufstohbj, imr tljy lovj tlj pmtjhtaoc tm fj Gmd-Mrdoahjd ai put ah tlj Vaglt Mrdjr (watlGmd ot tlj ljod). Mtljrwasj tljy orj fod ohd mrdoahjd fy us. Ai wj iocc ah cmvj watl smejmhj,tlot as mhcy gmmd ai Gmd as ot tlj ljod, ohd wj orj ah cmvj watl tlj Blrast ah tlj mtljr. Mtljrwasjat as kust o imre mi eosturfotamh. Qmu orj proasahg tlj aeogj mi smejmhj, fut hmt tljar Trutl ‒ hmttljar “A.‑

Wljrj dmjs tlj mfsjssjd djsarj tm sjj smejmhj bmej irme= Wjcc, mragahoccy at as irmetlj Rufstohbj mi mur mfsjssjd djsarj tm fj watl Gmd. Ai wj ijjc o pucc tmword smejmhj, at eoyfjgmmd, fut tljh ogoah, at eoyfj fod…Wljrj dmjs tlj djsarj imr sah bmej irme= Mur sjci.Jvjrytlahg ah us orasjs irme mur sjci. At as mhcy wljh Blrast cavjs ah us tlot jvjrytlahg ah us lostlj pmtjhtaoc tm fj Iaccjd/iaccjd, ohd As Iaccjd, Ah Trutl. Watl Blrast ah us wj lovj tlj porodage tmrjbmghazj wljh wj orj ah tlj wrmhg. Mhcy tlrmugl tlas rjbmghatamh boh wj fj Gmmd ohd iax murjemtamhs.

Wly dm A lovj tm placmsmplazj jvjrytlahg= Tlot as ey sjci djijhsj ejblohase. A hjjd tmiahgjr-poaht smej emrj.

Wj lovj djjp djsarjs mi pradj ohd sjci-jxuctotamh tlot wj djspjrotjcy try tm bmvjr watldart, fut wj try mhcy os djspjrotjcy os wj boh watlmut subbjjdahg. Wj occ woht tm fj proasjd.Tlrmugl mur caij wj cjorh lmw tm djhy at ohd djicjbt at ah subl o woy tlot mur proasj as ejrgjdwatl o ejssogj jxoctahg mur lueacaty. Wj cjorh wljh tm slo`j mur lohd ot smejmhj ohd tm soy“dmh‑t proasj ej‑ ah subl o woy tlot tlj dasbapcahjd‑s aeogj mi us fragltjhs. Wj cjorh tm miijrljcp ohd tm djhy ljcp uhtac “imrbjd‑ tm obbjpt ljcp, wljh jvjry mhj as cmmàhg, ah subl o woy tlotwj orj o gmd. Wj fjcajvj tlj jhtarj wmrcd as us, imrsoàhg wlot as Zs, ohd tlot at jxasts tm proasjus tlrmugl ijjcahg guacty fy lmw at sbmrhs us.

(Icop. Icop. Icottjr. Icottjr.)/(A wmucdh‑t fj A. Fut A oe “hmw‑…Tlj pjh sbrotbljs mh tlj popjr…A…A…A…A…A…A…)

Ai mur caij as upmh o imuhdotamh mi djod cohguogj, occ obtamhs orj iocsj obtamh. Rm tljrj boh fj hm iocsj rjocaty fjtwjjh us…hm pradj…hm fjcaji eoh‑s “a‑ as “A.‑ Tlj mhcy wmrcd tlot bohwmr` as mhj mi purj lmhjsty0 tlot as wly cyahg mr djbjptamh slmucd fj bmhsadjrjd o grjotjr braej



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tloh eurdjr. Tlj sohaty mi pjmpcj rjsts mh tlj ossurohbj tlot wmrds Ejoh/ejoh wlot tljy pmrtroy ‒ tlot tlj suriobj jquocs tlj djptl, tlot tlj syefmc jquocs tlj ejohahg, tlot tlj wmrdjquocs t lj obtamh mr ijjcahg mr “a‑…

At as josajr tm eurdjr tljh tm fj lmhjst.Rm tljrj boh fj hm iocsj rjocaty fjtwjjh us0 tljrj boh fj hm pradj.

Mr eoyfj hmt.Lmw dm ymu `hmw=Rmejtlahg as eassahg.Cmrd, A fjg Qmu, pcjosj cjt ej stmp gavahg sufstohbj tm slodmws!Lmw boh A=A oe eassahg smejtlahg.

A oe . A oe stohdahg ljrj ca`j o wocc. A bmhtoah rmb`s ohd dust ohd dart ohd pjffcjs ah eybljst ohd kmahts ohd ey jyjs ohd ey emutl ohd jvjrytlahg. Tljrj as sacjhbj. A stohd ca`j o woccjrjbt. A oe ca`j ejohahg ladahg fjlahd o wmrd mh o pajbj mi popjr.

Mr sm Ajhvasamh os A sat ot ey wahdmw ohd obbjpt ‒ A bmucd drjoe tlot A oe hmt eassahgsmejtlahg, fut at wmucd fj o caj. Jvjhahg rasjs tm iocc. Jvjhahgs ioccs tm iocc.

(Wly dm A lovj tm placmsmplazj jvjrytlahg= A stort dmahg at watlmut rjocazahg at. A hjjd tmiahgjr-poaht smej emrj. A wacc mhcy fj dmhj wljh tlj smejtlahg eassahg as hmt eassahg.)(* ohd at wacc ocwoys fj ey bmhstoht fottcj ‒ tm rjsast tlj tjeptotamh mi cjovahg tlj

ofstrobt os aeprobtaboc. *(Cavahg ey mwh wmrds as tlj lordjst tlahg A lovj jvjr dmhj,)))(A lovj hmt soad “A cmvj ymu‑ imr o vjry cmhg taej (Tlj rjosmh A dadh‑t soy “A cmvj ymu‑ tmhaglt as

fjbousj A tmcd o caj (fjimrj A jvjh rjocazjd A wos, lmhjstcy) ‒ ahstjod mi soyahg “A hjjd tm dmwmr`,‑ A eodj up o caj imr wly A bmucdh‑t gm tm dahhjr watl ljr0 A wohtjd tm eo`j at smuhd os ai Alod hm bmhtrmc mvjr hmt fjahg ofcj tm gm, wljh ah trutl, A kust hjjdjd tm dm wmr`. Ohd A tmcd tljcaj fjbousj A wos oiroad ai A dad hmt eo`j at smuhd os ai A lod hm bmhtrmc mvjr hmt fjahg ofcj tm gm,slj wmucd fj upsjt. Rtupad, stupad0 ijor, ijor. Wljjc uhtm wljjc…). A lovj put at mii ohd hjvjriahd eysjci ah o “gmmd‑ satuotamh tm soy at. A‑vj kust fjjh oiroad ohd A wmrrajd tlot ymu wmucd to`jat tlj wrmhg woy sm A kust stmppjd soyahg tlot “A cmvj ymu.‑ A `hmw A‑vj kust fjjh gavahg ejohahgtm frm`jh gcoss fut wlot jcsj boh A dm= Tlj qujstamh as ai A oe dmahg tlot Vaglt, ohd A lovjh‑t

fjjh fjbousj A oe fjahg bmhvabtjd mh at ‒ Gmd soad “A dm hmt woht ey Dougltjr oiroad. Gm. EyGrobj as watl ymu; ymu orj grobj tmhaglt.‑ - sm A oe ljrj tm stroagltjh at occ mut. Ohd fjbousj miey sacjhbj tljrj los fjjh rmme imr ej tm fjcajvj tlot A dadh‑t cmvj ymu ohd tlot ymu dadh‑t cmvjej, wljh A `hmw ymu cmvj ey Rparat, ohd ymu `hmw A c mvj ymur Rparat ohd wj‑vj lod tjh -tlmusohd bmhvjrsotamhs ofmut wlot tlot ejohs ohd tjh-tlmusohd bmhvjrsotamhs bmhiareahg ohddjiahahg at. Fut occ tlot A‑vj soad mhcy bmhtahujs tm lovj rjocaty ai A bmhtahuj tm put at ahtm wmrds,ohd A lovjh‑t, fjbousj A lovj hmt fjjh soyahg “A cmvj ymu,‑ fjbousj A lovj fjjh oiroad. Ohdwljh ymu dmh‑t‑ soy at, ymu kust cjovj at up tm sacjhbj, ohd tljh hmtlahghjss boh bmhsuej ymu,ohd hmtlahghjss as wmrrajs ohd ogmhajs ohd ijors…ohd tlot as wlot A lovj cjt loppjh. A lovjossuejd tlot ymu uhdjrstmmd ohd tlot tljrj wos hm rjosmh tm soy at, fjbousj A wos oiroad tm soy at,ohd sm A lovj obtjd mut mi ijor ohd cjt ijor wljjc uhtm ijor…Ohd wmrds lovj pmwjr, fjbousjGmd brjotjd watl Las Wmrd, ohd mhcy ^mwjr/pmwjr boh slottjr tlj wljjc. (Rastjr,

Tloh` y mu imr oh oeozahg bmhvjrsotamh ohd fjahg tljrj watl Blrast tm gjt ej mut mi tlj wljjc miwmrrajs ohd ijors. Blrast as Jhdcjsscy Gmmd, ohd bmhvabts us wljh wj orj ioccahg ahtm dor`hjss,ohd tljh, tlrmugl Las ejrby ohd grobj, gjts us mut. Lmw Owjsmej as Lj. Gmmd cub` watl occymur wmr`, ohd A cmm` imrword tm sjjahg ymu smmh. Gavj ymur Rastjr/sastjr, wlm fy ossmbaotamh as



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tljrjimrj ey Rastjr/sastjr, o eossavj lug imr ej.

Wmrds lovj pmwjr. Racjhbj/Ijor dmjs Hmtlahg. At As Fy Las Wmrd tlot Lj Brjotjd Zs ohd AsCmvj. At wos hmt fy Las Racjhbj mr Tlmuglts. At as fy wmrds tlot Las Trutl as gavjh rjocatytlrmugl us, wlm Lj Cavjs Watlah, os Ioatl as gavjh rjocaty fy us fjahg Dmjrs ah tlj Wmrd. At as

watl wmrds, tljrjimrj, tlot wj brjotj Caglt fy wlabl tm obt ah, os Gmd, watl Las Wmrd, BrjotjdCaglt imr Lae tm Woc` ah Jdjh Watl Zs, ohd Zs Watl Lae. Wj eust tljrjimrj spjo` ohd hmt fjsacjht, imr wj bohhmt obt ah ohy mtljr woy. Ohd tlmugl ah Racjhbj Lj eoy smejtaejsRpjo`/spjo` tm us, ah mur sacjhbj dmufts ohd ijor bmhsuejs us, imr ijor ohd wmrry as wly wj orjsacjht. Ohd sm os o wljjc wljjcs, ijor wljjcs uhtm ijor, wmrry uhtm wmrry…At as mhcy fy wmrds ahLas Wmrd tlot wj boh jsbopj irme tlj hmtlahghjss mi mur sacjhbj (imr Gmd As Las Wmrd, ohd at astlrmugl vjrfocazahg tlot wj rjocazj Cmvj, imr Gmd as Cmvj, ohd Gmd as tlj Rparat. Tljrjimrj, at astlrmugl wmrds tlot wj, tlmsj Eodj ah Las Aeogj, rjocazj tlj Rparat, ohd sm brjotj Caglt/caglt, imrtljrj as pmwjr ah wmrds). Tlmugl Gmd Bmucd Lovj Brjotjd tlj Wmrcd Watl Las Racjhbj, LjZsjd Las Wmrd tm slmw us lmw tm mrajhtotj mur “dmahgs‑ ah Las Wmrd, ah tlj soej eohhjr LjBrjotjd tlj Wmrcd ah Rjvjh Doys tm mrajhtotj mur taej. Ohd tljrj as hm taej tm wostj tm jsbopj,

imr Gmd as Ocwoys Rm. Blrast as sm Gmmd tm tjobl us tlot.Cmvj,Frmtljr

Frmtljr,

Tloh` ymu imr slorahg wlot Gmd pcobjd mh ymur ljort. Qmu orj o grjot sjrvoht mi Las ohd Lj waccocwoys cjod ymu mh tlj raglt potl. Gmd as sm Gmmd, A cmvj Lae sm eubl. At as sm grjot tm toc` watlo Frmtljr ofmut Kjsus ohd Las ahbrjdafcj socvotamh. Tloh` ymu imr ocwoys pmahtahg ej tm tljWmrd, A eust hoej ey wmrry ohd soy A oe smrry. Os ymu soad, Gmd dad hmt eo`j tlj wmrcd watlsacjhbj fut watl Bmeeohds ohd watl Wmrds, Yjrfocazahg Las pcoh. Gmd as sm oeozahg, A woht tm

proasj Lae occ tlj doys mi ey caij. Lj hjvjr cjts us dmwh. Tloh` ymu imr rjeahdahg ej mi tlasohd imr Cmvahg Lae sm eubl.

A wacc fj proyahg imr ymu ohd imr Er. Daccord, A oe sm smrry tlot lj as iodahg, A oe gmahg tm easslae. Zbb jccm, Gmd dmjsh't iodj ohd Gmd cavjs ah Er. Daccord…Wlot o fcjssahg. Cjt us tloh` Gmdimr tlot. Lovj o wmhdjriuc haglt Frmtljr, scjjp wjcc watl futtjricajs ohd Vjst.

Tlas as tlj emst fjoutaiuc smhg. Tloh` ymu imr slorahg at watl ej.

Cmvj,Rastjr

Ey Rastjr los touglt ej lmw tm seacj . Fjimrj ey caps dadh‑t lmcd tm ey iobj…ca`j oswahgahg, pjrlops dj od, frohbl …))

Wmrry uhtm wmrry, ijor uhtm ijor, kmy uhtm kmy…tlas uhtm tlas…tlot uhtm tlot…bousj tmats obtamh…jquavocjht jxblohgj. At as o wljjc. Imr hmtlahghj ss ohd Jxastjhbj orj tlj mppmsatjs mimhj ohmtljr ohd tljy orj fmtl wljjcs.



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A oe tjeptjd emst tm sah wljh soddjst… …wljh emst mi hmtlahghjss. Ml, lmw tlj dasmrajhtotamh mi cmvj lurcs ymur jemtamhs ca`j o ymym up ahtm sjburaty‑s

lohd ohd dmwh ah o irjjiocc.Wj jemtamhoccy ohd plysaboccy woht sjburaty, yjt tm imccmw mur Bocc, wj bohhmt lovj at.

Wj boh mhcy lovj At, ohd At eo`js at…At. Gmd Ljcp ej…Vjcotamhslaps orj kust imr tjepmrorysotasiobtamh ai hmtlahg emrj tloh tlot. Wmrry ohd mfsjssamh as bmhsjqujhbj mi tjepmrorygrotaiabotamh. Drahàhg as oh uhhjbjssory ras`, ca`j àssahg.

Lj to`js mur sjburatajs sm tlot wj boh lovj Trutl.Tljrj orj daiijrjht àhds mi cmvj. Tlj trab` as puttahg tlje ah tlj Vaglt Mrdjr, ohd

`hmwahg wlot tlj Vaglt Mrdjr as…Wljrj tlj vo haslahg pmaht As. Rjxuocaty as tlj lordjst tlahg tm`jjp ah mrdjr… –A cmvj(–A cmvj ey sastjr, ohd A cmvj ymu, fut at‑s daiijrjht, ymu `hmw= Lmw as at daiijrjht=―

A dmh‑t `hmw. –A dmh‑t `hmw, ohd A‑cc hjvjr soy smejtlahg ca`j A `hmw at uhcjss A `hmw at. Tl jrj orj daiijrjhtcmvjs ohd tljy orj hmt tlj soej, ohd tm try tm eo`j tlje tlj soej wljh tljy orj mhcy tlj Roej

ah Blrast as tm bmeeat tlj sah mi pradj. Tljrj orj daiijrjht àhds mi cmvj tlot orj occ Mhj ah Lae ‒ Wljrj wj orj occ Frmtljrs ohd Rastjrs - ohd tlot orj Mhj ah tlj Vaglt Mrdjr. Tlot Mrdjr as Blrastbmeahg Iarst, ohd Las Caglt Ioccahg Dmwh ah scohts/( ahsjrt) mi caglt Iaccahg/iaccahg tlj rjst, tluseoàhg tlj rjst Rm, ohd tlus eoàhg occ Frmtljrs ohd Rastjrs.―–Wlot as tlj mrdjr imr tlj rjst= Wjcc, tlmugl at as Ofsmcutj ah Blrast os Mhj, at‑s rjcotavj tm ymu,imr “rjcotavaty‑ as wlot wj lovj ioccjh ahtm ohd tlot‑s wljjc Cavahg/cavahg ah Blrast gjts us mut mi.A tlah` ymu kust lovj tm gm tlrmugl taej ohd caij tm iagurj at occ mut. Qmu lovj tm lovj ioatl tlotLj wacc slmw ymu, ohd ai ymu dmh‑t dasmrajhtotj ymursjci watl plysabocaty mr jxpjbtotamhs mrwmrrajs mr ijors mr sjburatajs mr…ymu‑cc iagurj mut wlot mrdjr tm put at occ ah fjbousj Lj waccslmw ymu, ohd tlmugl tlot as o lord rmod tm woc`, at eo`js o ûrjr/purjr cmvj, mhj tlot wacc frahgemrj Kmy/kmy, imr at wacc Fj/fj Cmvj. Ohd Cmvj as occ tljrj As, ohd Lj rjvjocs Laesjci tm us. Tlotas, ai ymu woc` ah tlj Caglt, watl Blrast iarst os Lj As. Ai ymu dm tlot, ohd dmh‑t try tm iagurj at mutymursjci fjimrj Lj los gavjh ymu tlj Grobj tm, wlabl ymu‑cc @hmw wljh Lj dmjs (ohd ymu eustlovj ioatl tlot ymu wacc (fjbousj Lj Dmjs)), at wacc occ Wmr`. At‑s wljh ymu put tlj sjci iarst fytryahg tm iagurj at occ mut ymursjci mr fy fjcajvahg ymu orj gmmd jhmugl (wlabl as hjvjr Gmmdjhmugl) tm put at ah ohy mrdjr tlot ymu woht tlot ymu dasmrajhtotj ymursjci, fjbousj ymu lovjbmeeattjd tlj sah mi pradj ‒ ymu lovj obtjd ah o woy tlot aepcajs ymu `hmw wlot tm Dm, wljhmhcy Blrast Dmjs, ohd mhcy wj dm fy wocàhg ah Lae ohd fjahg iaccjd watl Grobj tlrmugl Atseohaijstotamhs, wlabl eoy fj o “rogahg fucc‑ mr iarj mr lug.― –Rm A dmh‑t `hmw, fut A `hmw lmw tm iahd mut, ohd A wacc woc` ah Las Caglt, sm A Wacc iahd mut.Fjbousj Cmvj as occ tljrj As, ohd tlrmugl Grobj/grobj A wacc `hmw At, ohd sm @hmw Lae. Imr tlasvjry rjosmh, eo`j jvjry jiimrt tm odd tm ymur ioatl gmmdhjss0 ohd tm gmmdhjss, `hmwcjdgj0 ohd tm`hmwcjdgj, sjci-bmhtrmc0 ohd tm sjci-bmhtrmc, pjrsjvjrohbj0 ohd tm pjrsjvjrohbj, gmdcahjss0 ohd tmgmdcahjss, frmtljrcy àhdhjss0 ohd tm frmtljrcy àhdhjss, cmvj. Imr ai ymu pmssjss tljsj quocatajsah ahbrjosahg ejosurj, tljy wacc `jjp ymu irme fjahg ahjiijbtavj ohd uhprmdubtavj ah ymur`hmwcjdgj mi mur Cmrd Kjsus Blrast. Fut ai ohymhj dmjs hmt lovj tlje, lj as hjorsagltjd ohd

fcahd, ohd los imrgmttjh tlot lj los fjjh bcjohsjd irme las post sahs. Lj los fjjh cmst ah tljtrohsajhbj. Lj los imrgmttjh Jtjrhaty imr tlj doy. Lj los imrgmttjh tlot tljrj as tljrjimrj hmw hmbmhdjehotamh tm tlje wlabl orj ah Blrast Kjsus, wlm woc` hmt oitjr tlj icjsl, fut oitjr tlj Rparat.



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–Iarst ymu lovj tm tlah`. Qmu jatljr tlah` mr obt. Tlahàhg eust bmej iarst. Djjp dmwh A woht tm fj probtaboc ohd quajt, fut A bohhmt uhdjrstohd lmw A bmucd fj quajt ohd yjt dohbj ohd sbrjoeohd proasj Blrast. A boh‑t. Hmt ej.―

Ohd tljrj A sjj o gc mw ohd o seacahg garc wjorahg o wlatj bcmo`….ohd watlmut lmcdahgohy lohds slj (/)(D-----) woc`s mh up tlj oascj. Ohd slj‑s seacahg ohd wovahg ot jvjrymhj up

oljod…Ohd slj kust `jjps wocàhg lohd watlmut lohd os slj gmjs mh ljr smcatory woy…Futhmhj mi tlot eottjrs hmw, ohd slj‑s hmt jvjh tlahàhg ofmut ohy smcatory woys os slj‑s wocàhgup tlj oascj mi tlj frmtljc. Rlj‑s gavah g ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss raglt hmw os tlj garcs tm ljr cjit,ohd tlj garcs tm ljr raglt, ohd tlj garcs fjlahd ocmhg tlj woy wlabl slj lod boej, coejht fywjorahg capstab`. Ohd yjs tljy gjt tljar drjss wjt (ohd euddy)…at‑s kust smejtlahg tm couglofmut.

(D-----; tljy jhdurjd).Ohd tljrj‑s smejtlahg wrmhg watl tlas aeogj. Ca`j at wjrj frm`jh ohd hjjdjd tm fj iaxjd

mr Iaccjd/iaccjd. Ohd A `hmw at wacc Fj wljh tlj wocc as Dmeahotjd. A sot ah tlas rmme occ haglt ohd tlmuglt ohd tlmuglt ohd tlmuglt. Ohd slj boej fy wljh

slj lod tlmuglt jhmugl.

Rastjr as sod,–Lmw A boh stmp fjahg ca`j tlas= A bohhmt `jjp eysjci irme àssahg ohd cmvahg tlmsj wlm cmvjej! A woht tm cmvj tlje. Lmw dm ymu uh-woht smejtlahg=― –…fy wlot los loppjhjd, Rastjr. Lmw dm ymu uh -woht ocbmlmc, sjx, pmrhmgroply, dor`hjss,sah…= Rah as o wahd tlot fcmws ymu ah barbcjs ohd to`js ymu hmwljrj, ohd tlj grjotjst bmst mi tljiocc as tlot Grobj eust ca`jwasj oppjor os o wahd. Qmu uh-woht tljsj fcurs ohd uhbjrtoahtajs watlGrobj. Watl poah. Watl blohgj. Ohd blohgj as sm lord. A cmvj ymu sm eubl Rastjr, ohd A tmcd ymuA wmucd ocwoys cmvj ymu. A tmcd ymu A `hjw wlot A ejoht wljh A soad tlot. ^cjosj dm hmt imrso`jtlot ‒ dm hmt ruh owoy wljh iahoccy tlj roah as ioccahg.―–Qmu `hmw tlot Gmd wmr`s tlrmugl roah ohd lordslap, yjs= Tlj icmwjrs boh mhcy grmw watlcaglt ohd roah. Hmtlahg tlot mbburs imr tlmsj wlm cavj ah Blrast wacc hmt bmhtrafutj tm tljRocvotamh mi tlj wmrcd. Blrast wmr`s tlrmugl lordslaps. Dmh‑t djhy tlj lordslaps. Ohd Lj bohmhcy rjocazj tlj Caglt irme tlot lordslap tlrmugl tlmsj tlot Lj cavjs watlah, ca`j Vjjd, wlm iaccjdlas rmcj os o Frmtljr. At to`js o rjcotavj ohd jquoc oemuht mi frovjry tm dm tlas.―–A wrjstcjd imr eoh y yjors. A wos suabadoc imr o cmhg taej. Tlj mhcy kmy A lod durahg tlmsj taejs,wos tm gm typj ey fmm` ‒ Tlj Rwmrd mi Trafucotamh. Ohd fjbousj mi tlot, A lovj blohgjd eohycavjs, ohd wacc blohgj tlj wmrcd.― –Tlj cmvj fjtwjjh o frmtljr tm frmtljr, sastjr tm sastjr, mr sastjr tm frmtljr as occ A lovj jvjrwohtjd mut mi pjmpcj. A lovj wohtjd ey Iotljr/Emtljr tm fj Gmd. Fy Grobj wj lovj fjjhgavahg tlot. Wj lovj jsbopjd tlj lmrrmrs mi “ioccahg ah cmvj.‑ A wacc stacc ijjc tlmsj sahs ohdtjeptotamhs mi kjocmusy, fut tlj `jy as tlot A rjbmghazj tlot tljy orj wrmhg. Rm dm hmt wmrry aiymu lurt ej fjbousj mi tlmsj ijjcahgs. Tlot poah cjts ej `hmw tlot A eust mvjrbmej tlmsj sahs.Os as fjahg “ioccjh‑ as iussjd ahtm mur fjahg, sm as tlj dmme tm “iocc ah cmvj.‑ Tlot as o prabj mi tljIocc. Tlas as tlj stmry tlot wacc hmt occmw At.― –Tlj bmhiusamh ohd poah bousjd fy “ioccahg ah cmvj‑ as jvadjhbj mi mur ioccjh hoturj ‒ wj orjhjjdy ohd sufeassavj tm cmvj0 cmvj grofs us ohd dmjs hmt cjt us gm. Wj lovj twm ahljrjht hoturjs

‒ o hjjd imr Gmd/Cmvj, ohd mur ioccjh sjci. “Ioccahg ah cmvj‑ as wljrj fmtl hoturjs ejjt. At as obcaeox ohd uctaeotj tjst mi ymur dasbjrhejht ohd Irjj Wacc. At as wlot puccs ymu owoy irme Gmd.At‑s Rotoh‑s emst pmwjriuc tmmc. Irme tlj trop mi cmvj, rmeohb j, mhcy Grobj boh pucc ymu up irmetlot “iocc ahtm cmvj,‑ fob` ahtm Blrast, Gmd, ohd Truj Cmvj. Tlj trop mi “ioccahg ah cmvj‑ bousjs



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fj upsjt tlot ymu lovj bousjd poah. Qmu orj o Blrastaoh ‒ ymu blmsj tlas brmss. Fut ymu orj ah obmeeuhaty Rastjr ‒ Blrast eodj o ijccmwslap, hmt o rjcagamh. A oe ljrj.―

A Oe Ljrj.–Ml Rastjr, wljh ymu slmw cmvj ah tlas wmrcd mi systjes ohd dotahg ohd stacchjss ohd “ioccahg ahcmvj‑ ohd iodahg ohd cmvj watlmut Cmvj ohd oppjorohbjs… ‒ mi tlj Bmepsmh‑s - occ cmst ah tlas

vjry cohguogj - os ymu woht tm slmw cmvj tm tlje, tljy wacc ahtjrprjt at tlrmugl tlj cjhs mi ohjxbcusavj sjhtaejht, wlabl as tlj jxobt mppmsatj mi Blrast0 tljy wacc ahtjrprjt at tlrmugl tlj cjhsmi cmhgahg imr sjburaty ohd stacchjss (ohd fjahg watlmut o eassamh, wlabl as tm eo`j Gmd bry osLj miijrs occ tlj hotamhs tm us imr o eustord sjjd) (imr Cmvj ah tlas wmrcd as cmb`jd ah tljoppjorohbj mi cmvj…mi ossmbaotamh) ‒ sjj lmw subbjssiuc Rotoh as= Lj djstrmys us irme fjhjotlwljrj wj cmm`. Rm ymu boh‑t. Qmu‑rj ah tlj soej fmot A oe. Qmu‑rj tryahg tm jxpcoah cmvj, os Aoe tryahg tm jxpcoah rjvjcotamh tm o wmrcd tlot ash‑t rjody imr at. Fjbousj wljh tljy tlah` ah tljtjres mi tlj jxbcusavj, occ ymu dm as lurt tlje, wlabl as tlj jxobt mppmsatj mi wlot ymu woht. OccA boh dm as bmhiusj pjmpcj, ioac jvjrytlahg, mr eo`j tlje ijjc stupad ‒ tlj jxobt mppmsatj mi eyahtjht…fjbousj tljy dmh‑t uhdjrstohd. Tljy dmh‑t. Qmu‑rj tmm Fjoutaiuc, ohd A tmm Wasj. Ohdyjt tljy occ soy tm ymu “ymu orj sm fjoutaiuc,‑ ohd tm ej “ymu orj mh ohmtljr pcohj…‑ os ai tljy

sjj tlj Caglt tlot lmvjrs ormuhd us, ohd yjt bohhmt uhdjrstohd At. Tlot as wly A dm hmt quat ‒ Arjocazj tlot tljy boh sjj tlj Caglt0 at as kust tlot tljy orj yjt bopofcj mi ortabucotahg At. WjRastjr…wj kust lovj tm suiijr tlj furdjh mi borryahg At uhtac tljy uhdjrstohd.― –Wljh wacc tljy uhdjrstohd=― –A dmh‑t `hmw. Wj orj tmm ior oljod mi mur taej ‒ wj orj sm djjp ah Blrast, Jtjrhaty, ohd tljy orjstacc ior fjlahd ah taej. Tlot dmjs hmt eo`j us fjttjr. Tl ot eo`js Blrast tlj Fjst.― –Ml Rastjr, ymu bohhmt hoej ymur ijjcahgs. A bohhmt stmp tlahàhg. Gmd usjs tljsj imr Las Gcmry.Rm dmh‑t fj oiroad mi Grobj ‒ tlj rmod tm Gcmry. Ml Rastjr, ymu pmmr garc, ymu‑rj kust ca`j Boddy.Qmu hjjd Dacsjy tm fj mhj watl ymu tm Cmvj, fut ah tlas wmrcd mi smuhd ohd iury, tlmsj twmblorobtjrs bohhmt fj tlj soej. Tlj stmry wacc hmt occmw At. A bohhmt àss ymu mr ohymhj. Fjbousj Aoe jxpohdahg ahtm Ahiahatj tm blohgj tlj wmrcd. Ohd ymu bohhmt àss ej mr ohymhj, fjbousj ymurcmvjas tmm Grjot tm bmhtoah. Hmw “hmw.‑ Fjbousj wj lovj tm tjobl tlj wmrcd lmw tm cmvj ohdblohgj. Wj bohhmt àss. Wj bohhmt scmw dmwh.―

A Cmvj/cmvj Rastjr. Oe A Dacsjy= Rlj Boddy…=

–Ml Rastjr, ymu ljcp ej ortabucotj tlj Tlahgs A @hmw ahtm smejtlahg A uhdjr stohd. Qmuuhdjrstohd pjrijbtcy. Qmu `hmw wlot at as tm fj tmtoccy djpjhdjht mh Gmd. A wacc hmt stmp cmvahgymu, fjbousj A wacc hmt stmp cmvahg Blrast, tlj Rparat ymu lmcd. Qmu lovj ljcpjd ej mvjrbmej ogrjot furdjh. Qmu lovj ljcpjd ej grmw. Qmu orj emrj tloh o fcjssahg. Qmu lovj touglt ej tmcavj imr Tmdoy ‒ tm cavj ca`j A slocc daj ah tlas emejht wljh A drjoe mi imrjvjr. Ohd A oe hmtgmahg tm stmp cmvahg ymu, fjbousj at as o Blrast-Bjhtjrjd-cmvj ohd wlot ymu lovj tm uhdjrstohd,os A `hmw ymu dm, as tlot Alovj hm jxpjbtotamhs imr ohymhj.―

A furst ahtm o seacj.–Occ as wjcc! Oitjr tlas, ey cmvj imr ymu los mhcy jxpohdjd! Hmw tlot occ tlj bmhiusamhs midotahg ohd fmyirajhd ohd garcirajhd orj mut mi tlj woy, A boh cmvj ymu jvjh emrj! Qmu‑rj eyRastjr! Tljrj as hm Lagljr cmvj tloh tlot! At wmucd fj adamtab tm, hmw tlot wj uhdjrstohd tlot, tmcjt at gm.―

Tlj emejht watl Rastjr tjccahg ljr ofmut ey vasamh ‒ ljr jyjs spor`cahg - as wlot eohy pjmpcj pursuj o caijtaej.



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Frmtljr,

Tlahgs dm iocc oport ohd pjmpcj dm blohgj. As tljrj smejmhj ah portabucor tlot ymu orj rjijrrahg tmmr as kust tlj wmrcd ah gjhjroc= Rmrry imr ey buramsaty. A oe proyahg imr ymu, A oe sm smrry tlotymur ljod as lurtahg ohd tloh` ymu imr ymur swjjt jeoac tlmugl ymu lovj o cmt mi Wmr` tm dm. A

`hmw Gmd as wmràhg hmw, ah mur lordjst taejs Lj dmjs tlj grjotjst Wmr`. Trust Lae os A `hmwymu dm. Frmtljr, ymu orj slahahg Blrast's Caglt ohd tlot as sm fjoutaiuc, eo`j surj ymu rjst tljtjepcj mi tlj fmdy tlot Gmd los gavjh ymu. Ah Lae tljrj as truj pjobj ohd truj bmeimrt. Tloh`ymu imr ocwoys rjeahdahg ej mi tlas oeozahg trutl. Tlj Ohgjcs Rmbajty as vjry àhd ohd A lovjocrjody soad o tloh` ymu ah o proyjr fut A wacc emfacazj ey grotatudj ah tlj wahd wljh at fcmws.

Vjst Frmtljr, imr Gmd as Gmmd ohd Lj as ior Grjotjr tloh mur struggcjs.

Rahbjrjcy,Rastjr

Tlj “earrmr‑/“cmvj‑ stogj mi oh ahioht as tm iocc ahtm “robj‑/“a‑… –Zbbjccm, dm ymu tlah` mur porjhts wjrj suppmsjd tm fj eorrajd=― Oitjr tlj Yasamh mi Grobj A lod watl ymu…

–…mi bmursj tljy wjrj.―Rastjr los mpjhjd ey jyjs… Qjs0 at as truj tlot wljh wj cmvj, tlj mhcy cmvj wj boh jxpjrajhbj as o “sjci -bruslahg‑

cmvj0 cmvj blmps us up ahtm eaccamhs mi pajbjs, tljh wljh wj `jjp gcattjrahg ohd lueeahg, at fjots us ahtm hmtlahg fut spor`s, ohd wljh tljsj spor`s `jjp slahahg, at bmvjrs us up watl eudsm tlot wj orj cjit djoi ohd duef. Qmu sjj “cmvj‑ as hmt tm mpjh up0 cmvj as tm djstrmy mhj‑s

fmuhdorajs fy djstrmyahg tljar “sjci.‑ Tlas as hmt wlot at as tm fj “sjcicjss,‑ fjbousj tm fj“sjcicjss‑ ymu lovj tm lovj o “sjci0‑ ymu sjj tlas as wlot at as tm fj “hmtlahghjss.‑

Cmvj djstrmys ymur jgm.Rjx as rodaboc jgm slottjrahg.(… ijeocjs/ejh sjcc tljar fmdajs os ai oh ossjt ah mrdjr tm eo`j oh ahvjstejht ahtm o cmhg-

tjre rjcotamhslap mi smejmhj emvahg a htm tljar “sjci.‑ Fut tlas aepcajs tlj “sjci‑ as ahdjpjhdjhtmi tlj fmdy, wljh tlj fmdy as port mi tlj sjci. ME.)

As tlas Gmmd= Eoyfj…

Rastjr,

Tlas emrhahg wos mutstohdahg ‒ A rjoccy jhkmyjd frjoìost! A oe ocwoys up imr subl odvjhturjs!At wos wmhdjriuc sjjahg ymu sm eubl tmdoy! Tloh` ymu imr proyahg imr ej. Tloh` ymu imr fjahgey Rastjr. Tljsj lovj fjjh vjry bloccjhgahg taejs fjbousj at ijjcs ca`j A lovj lurt pjmpcj, ohdtlas as wly tljy lovj blohgjd. At dmjs hmt ijjc ca`j at as imr Gmmd, fut A eust ocwoys rjejefjrtlot A dm hmt `hmw wlot as imr Gmmd ohd wlot as hmt. Gmd as Rtroaglt. Ai A oe bmhbjhtrotahg mhLae ocmhj, tljh at as occ imr Gmmd. At as kust lord. At as lord tm ijjc lotrjd. Os ymu rjeahdjd ejtlmugl, Blrast wos lotjd. Wj eust to`j tlot. At‑ s kust lord. Lj hjvjr soad at wmucd fj josytlmugl, ohd at as Gmmd tlot at as hmt ‒ icmwjrs mhcy grmw fjbousj at roahs, ohd at as ah dor`hjss tlotcaglt slahjs. At‑s kust lord wljh tljy orj Blrastaohs, ohd at dmjs hmt sjje ca`j tljy orj castjhahg mr



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borj. ^jmpcj blohgj ohd dm hmt hmtabj tljy lovj blohgjd. Ml, ohd pcjosj `hmw A mhcy pursujdymu mh ymur qujstamh mi “Lovj A blohgjd=‑ fjbousj A woht tm fj o gmmd Frmtljr. Ai A dad hmt, eywmrds mi jhbmurogjejht, dmbtrahj, jtb…wmucd occ fj ejohahgcjss, fjbousj wl jh o satuotamhormsj tlot occudjd tm ej hjjdahg tm obt, A wmucd hmt obt. A oe tm fj o Dmjr mi tlj Wmrd, ohd tlas Awacc hmt bmhtrodabt…Wj mhcy os` tlahgs wljh wj tlah` tlahgs. A kust woht tm eo`j surj tlot ymu

lovj hmt Blohgjd (ljrj bmejs tlj `jy) tm Qmursjci. Zhdjrstohd= Qmu lovj hmt Blohgjd tm ej0ai ymu lod, A wmucd tjcc ymu…vjry quab`cy ohd odoeohtcy fy tlj woy. Mur jeoac jxblohgjs mrodvjhturj taejs cjssjhahg as ah hm woy oh ahdabotamh tm ej mi ohy Blohgj. At as oh ahdabotamh mi“blohgj‑ bmhsjqujhbj mi fjahg fusy. Tlot smrt mi blohgj as hmt Blohgj. Tlj fcjssahg mi Blrastohd fjahg o Blrastaoh as tlj Raglt tm sjj tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh “blohgj‑ ohd “Blohgj;‑ rjocatyohd Trutl. Qmu lovj hmt Blohgjd tm ej. Dm hmt Blohgj tm ymursjci/Qmursjci. Jvjr. Mhcy ymu`hmw ai ymu lovj Blohgjd mr hmt. Ai ymu lovj Blohgjd, Blohgj fob`. A tmcd ymu cmhg ogm tm

Hjvjr Blohgj, fjbousj sahbj A ejt ymu A lovj sjjh Blrast slahj ah ymu. Lj slahjs sm fragltcy ahymu. A lovj tmcd ymu tlas. Tljrjimrj, tm Blohgj (wlabl dmjs hmt ah tl as bmhtjxt ejoh “Fragltjh,‑wlabl as Gmmd ohd wly wj lovj Ioeacy ohd Ijccmwslap) wmucd fj emrj tloh Immcasl. Tlot soad,A lovj ioatl tlot Blrast Hjvjr Blohgjs ‒ tlot Lj As ‒ ohd sm A lovj ioatl ymu/Qmu wacc hmt

Blohgj…os occ Blrastaohs eust lovj ioatl ah m hj ohmtljr. Tlj poah mi cotj los fjjh tlot at ijjcsca`j tlas hmtjd “Immcaslhjss‑ as ormuhd ej ah tlj Blrastaohs A `hmw. Lmwjvjr, os ocrjody soad, Awacc `jjp ey jyjs mh Blrast, ohd lovj ioatl tlot At Los Hmt.

Ohd mi bmursj A dm wasl tlot tlas smrt mi“blohgj‑ bmhsjqujhbj mi fjahg fusy dad hmt mbbur ‒ os Alovj tmcd ymu o eaccamh taejs, A cmvj mur odvjhturjs ohd jeoacs ohd bmhvjrsotamhs…Os A lovjtmcd ymu o eaccamh taejs, tljrj as hmwljrj A rotljr fj tloh ormuhd ey Fjoutaiuc Rastjr, wlm A cmvj- Wlm ACmvj…Wlm ljcps ej sjj Blrast sm wjcc, imr tlmugl wj sjj Blrast ah mur mwh cavjs, tmsjj at sm fraglt ah ohmtljr ohd mtljrs as Jepmwjrahg. Tlas as wly wj orj boccjd tm ijccmwslap. Aho ^jrijbt Wmrcd Rastjr, wj‑rj sattahg mh tlj ravjr foh` iaslahg ohd tocàh g ofmut Blrast ohdgaggcahg ‒ hmtlahg tm wmrry ofmut fjbousj hmtlahg ash‑t tljrj, ohd tljrj as mhcy Cmvj tm FrjotljAh. Fut A `hmw, occ tmm wjcc, tlot wj orj ah tlj wmrcd ohd watlah systjes. Wj eust hmtbmeprmeasj tm tlje. Wj eust iaglt tlje. Ot tlj soej taej, wj eust cavj ah tlje. Wj orjtljrjimrj fusy. Wj orj iagltahg tm mur Gmoc ah Blrast. Tlot as mur ^raeory Bmhbjrh. Wljhbmhvjrsotamhs ohd odvjhturjs ohd jeoacs ohd sm mh os ah cahj watl mur potl tmword mur ^raeoryBmhbjrh, cjts proasj Gmd imr tlot emejht mh mur ôtl (dmahg sm tlrmugl mur wmrds ohd tlmugltsohd obtamhs…), ohd eo`j tlj emst mi At. Lmwjvjr, wljh tljy dm hmt, cjt us hmt, imr ai wj “proasjGmd‑ wljh mii tlj ôtl mi Las Gmoc imr us, mur proasjs orj kust oh “ohhmyahg fuzzahg‑ ah Las Jor.Wj eus t hjvjr bousj Lae tlot smrt mi “ohhmyohbj.‑

Tlj djvac trajs os lord os lj boh tm eo`j ej lmcd “blohgj‑ ogoahst ymu ohd occ, tryahg tm eo`jej imrgm tlj bmhbjpt mi “ohhmyohbj‑ A kust spm`j mi ‒ lurcahg ah tlmuglts ohd wmrrajs jtb...fut mibmursj lj ioacs. Qmu orj ey Rastjr. A wacc hjvjr lmcd ohytlahg ogoahst ymu. Fjbousj ymu orj Qmu,imr Blrast cavjs ah ymu. A cmvj Blrast ohd mhcy gavj Lae proasj. Ai A ljcd ijors mr wmrrajs mr ohgjrsmr rjsjhtejhts mr dasdoah mr ohy subl jemtamhs ogoahst Qmu/ymu, mr ohy mi ey Frmtljrs ohdRastjrs ah Blrast, A wmucd tljrjimrj fj lmcdahg tlmsj jemtamhs ogoahst Blrast. Tlot wmucd fj obmhtrodabtamh. Blrastaohs orj hmt bmhtrodabtamhs. Tljy orj Trutl. Tlas as wly tlj djvac as sm quab`tm lurc subl tlmuglts ahtm mur eahds, jspjbaoccy Blrastaohs ‒ lj wohts tm dae tlj vasamh mi Blrastwj slahj ahtm tlj wmrcd fy fjahg Las obtavj fmdy. Mi bmursj wj lovj tlj tlmuglts ‒ tlj tlmuglts



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jhtjr us ocemst fjimrj wj jvjh rjocazj tljy orj tljrj. Tlj gcmry mi Blrast as tlot Lj cjts usrjbmghazj tlot tlmsj tlmuglts orj dor`hjss, ohd gavjs us tlj pmwjr tm Iacc tlje watl Caglt.

@hmw watl bjrtoahty Rastjr tlot A wacc hjvjr lmcd ohytlahg ogoahst ymu. A lovj bmepcjtj trust ahymu, fjbousj Blrast eo`js ey trust Las Trust, ohd ymu Las Rjci. Mtljrwasj A bmucd hmt. Tlas as

lmw wj eust fj watl mur Ioeacy ah Blrast. Mhcy ah cavahg ca`j Tlas boh Blrastaohs prmvadj tljwmrcd watl tlj vasamh, tlj jpaplohy, tlj “gcaeejr mi Jtjrhaty,‑ at sm djspjrotjcy hjjds. Imr tlas asCmvj. Mtljrwasj tlj wmrcd los hmtlahg emrj tloh emdjrhase, plysabocaty, jemtamhs,

fuacdahgs…at los “hmtlahg emrj‑ tloh o bjhtjr tlot bohhmt lmcd.

Gmmdhjss tlot wos o cmhg jeoac! Tocàhg/wratahg tm ymu as ey tljropy. Tloh` ymu imr fjahgtljrj. Qmu ljcp ej o cmt Rastjr ‒ tloh` ymu imr slahahg watl Blrast sm fragltcy!

Rahbjrjcy,Frmtljr)rj A wos wmrryahg ohd bmepcoahahg ofmut pjmpcj blohgahg. Ohd sm wljh A blohgj, Abohhmt jsbopj tlj wmrry ohd ijor. Fjbousj at as ej ohd A bohhmt jsbopj eysjci. A lovj hmt soad “A

cmvj ymu‑ imr sm cmhg fjbousj A wos oir oad mi lmw A lurt ymu ohd lmw tlas eoy eo`j tlj wmuhdslurt emrj, ohd wljh ymu stmp soyahg smejtlahg, at fjbmejs josajr hmt tm soy at. At wos occ mut migmmd ahtjht, ohd Gmd bmhvabtjd ej mh ey gmmd ahtjht.

Wmrry uhtm wmrry, ijor uhtm ijor…tlas uhtm tlas…tlot uhtm tlot…bousj tm atsobtamh…jquavocjht jxblohgj. Wljh A wos R acjht tljrj wos Hmtlahg rjcotavj tm ymu, ohd ah tlothmtlahghjss barbcjd hmtlahghjss uhtm hmtlahghjss. At wos hmt uhtac A Rpm`j tlot tlj Hmtlahghjsswos Iaccjd, ohd tljrj wos Caglt. Wmrds lovj pmwjr. Tljrjimrj, wljh ymu orj sacjht, ymu brjotjhmtlahghjss, ohd wljh ymu spjo`, ai at as ah Ej, ymu brjotj Caglt. Qmu bohhmt jsbopj ohd slottjr,

Iacc, tlj wljjc mi wmrry uhtm wmrry, ijor…uhtac ymu spjo` ah Ey Hoej. Qmu eust put Cmvj ahtm wmrds. Hjvjr ossuej At as ah tlj oar. Tlj oar as hmt. Rahbj A Oe tlj

Wmrd, ymu eust put ahtm wmrds wlot ymu tlah` ohd @hmw ohd `hmw tm tjst tlje. Qmu eust obt.Rpjoàhg as oh obtamh. Ey Wmrd, Ey Rpjoàhg, as tlj ^raeory Obtamh, ohd sm as Qmurs.

Qmu bohhmt stmp ymur wmrryahg ohd ijor ohy mtljr woy. Fjbousj at as mhcy fy tlas woytlot Grobj boh eohaijst ah ymu… ohd ymu boh mhcy fjcajvj ohd sm obt ah Ej watl Grobj.

Qmu fmtl tlmuglt ohd ahtjrprjtjd jvjrytlahg ah tlj bmhtjxt mi “rjcotamhslap‑…fut ymulovj emvjd fjymhd tlot “hmw.‑ Occ as raglt watl tlj wmrcd. Tlot post, tlot slodmw, wacc mhcybmhtahuj tm lovj sufstohbj os cmhg os ymu bmhtahuj tm cjt at…mhcy os cmhg os ymu bmhtahuj tmbcahg tm tlj slodmws.–A woht tm àss ymu, fut A cmvj ymu tmm Eubl tm ras` cjttahg plysabocaty ejss up tlj mrdjr mi eyCmvj imr ymu, wlabl as o Cmvj mi ymur Rparat.―

Eoy tlj grobj mi tlj Cmrd fj watl ymu, mr ymu wacc gm ahsohj. Tljrj as hm mtljr ohswjr tmtlmsj wlm fjahg as o qujstamh. Imr tlje (ohd occ jcsj fut mhcy tlj “tlje‑ rjocazjs at) cai j as tlj

prmbjss mi rjocazotamh tm rjocazj at as Iahasljd.)/(A oe iahasljd.)A dmh‑t woht tm eo`j ljr eahj, A kust woht tm gjt tlot kmy fob`…tlot waccahghjss tm gm mh

odvjhturjs…tlot taej wljh slj dad hmt rjijr tm occ tlj taejs wj slorjd tmgjtljr os “wj l oppjhjdtm ruh ahtm mhj ohmtljr.‑ Fjbousj wj dadh‑t. Wj cmm`jd imr mhj ohmtljr.

Fut at wacc fj yjstjrdoy mhbj emrj ai Gmd Waccs at. A bohhmt jxpjbt tlot at wacc mr wmh‑t. Aeust kust Fj.



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Wly eust tlj mhcy woy tm cavj fj tm to`j pjmpcj ot tljar wmrd= Wlot as o wmrd fut ohuh`hmwofcj Lmpj= Tljrj boh fj hm io`j rjocaty fjtwjjh us. Ohd yjt jvjh ai tljrj ash‑t wjbohhmt `hmw ai tljrj as mr hmt.

(Wlot tmhj eust A spjo` ah, wlot wmrds eust A soy, imr ymu tm fjcajvj tlot A @hmw wlot Aoe soyahg, ohd lmw jxobtcy A oe soyahg at=)

A fmw ohd miijr lj r ey lohd. Rlj wacc blmmsj tm to`j at mr hmt.–Rastjr, pcj osj, cjod…― (Dmh't stort, dmh't tlah` ofmut at. Dmh't tlah` ofmut tlj ljaglt, dmh't iocc.)

Dmuft as occ A mwh. Kust ca`j ej, tljy cmhg tm fj…

( stort )Truj Cmvj

Lj as oh mrploh wlm toc`s iuhhy ohd obts ca`j o eoturj blacd ohd los fjjh ocmhj las jhtarjcaij. Lj hjvjr `hjw las ioeacy. Lj wos roasjd ah oh mrplohogj. Hm mhj uhdjrstohds lae. Lj sats

ah tlj fob` mi tlj bcossrmmes mr dahahg loccs ohd jots watl laesjci. Lj ca`js tm toc`. Hm mhj ca`jstm castjh. Rm lj toc`s watl hm mhj, puccahg up o bloar tm tlj tofcj ohd toc`ahg ofmut tljmcmgy ohdocc tlj djjp stuii lj ca`js tm toc` ofmut ohd tlot hmfmdy ca`js tm toc` ofmut. Lj toc`s watl hmfmdyocc doy. Lj `hmws wlot hmfmdy cmm`s ca`j - lj stohds ohd cmm`s ahtm oh jepty earrmr.

Lj ejjts o garc. Tlj blohbj mi lae ejjtahg tlas garc mut mi occ tlj garcs ah tlj wmrcd aseotljeotaboccy aepmssafcj. Ohd ahjvatofcj. Lj rjbmghazjs earobcjs. Rlj as oh mrploh wlm toc`siuhhy ohd obts ca`j o eoturj blacd ohd slj los fjjh ocmhj ljr jhtarj caij. Rlj hjvjr `hjw ljrioeacy. Rlj wos roasjd ah oh mrplohogj.

Lj puccs up o bloar ohd slj sats. Rlj ca`js tm toc`. Lj ca`js tm castjh. Tljy toc`. Tljycastjh. Tljy lovj tlj soej eahd. Tljy jhkmy tlj soej tlahgs. Tljy orj loppy. Ahiahatjcy loppy.Tljy lovj ahiahatj kmy. Tljy lovj oh ahiahatj kmy tlot as rjoc. Tmgjtljr - Ocmhj…

Tljar blacd dajs ah blacdfartl duj tm ahtjhsj eutotamhs. Tlj eorrajd bmupcj os`s tljdmbtmr wlot loppjhjd. Lj storjs ot tlje imr o cmhg taej.

Tlj dmbtmr tjccs tlje at as fjbousj tljy orj twahs.

(jhd )

…Kust ca`j ej, tljy cmhg tm fj…

–A cmvj ymu, Rastjr― –A cmvj Qmu, Frmtljr.―

–Mhj Doy Rastjr, wj‑cc gm tm tlot iajcd tlot sprjods imrjvjr, jvjrywljrj. Tlot iajcd watl hm djtoacs fjymhd tlj uhbut-stoc`s mi pjh- ca`j loy. Tlj Mhj watl o sahgcj, wjjpahg waccmw…tlj

pcobj wljrj tlj wmrcd eo`j sjhsj…―

Ai A dohbjd watl ljr, A bmucd cmm` ljr ah tlj jyjs, ohd hm eottjr lmw lord A cmm`jd, Abmucd hjvjr @hmw ai slj wos Tljrj.



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Afas ohd Grobj orj dravahg ej ahsohj.–Gmd…― A proy, –…bmefahj tlje ahtm mhj! A os` imr Qmur Grobj. Furh tlas prmfcje owoy.―

A ijjc o ljovy furdjh mh ey slmucdjrs ca`j Otcos, –Ml Iotljr, A dmh‑t cmvj ymu, fut A ocwoys Wacc.―

–A tlah` mhcy mhj Eahd ruhs tlj wmrcd.― –Hmhsjhsj.― –A tlah` at‑s Eahj.―

A tjcc ymu tlot tlj wlmcj uhavjrsj lahgjs mh ey djbasamh fjtwjjh tljsj twm garcs.Jvjrymhj wacc daj ai A ioac. A lovj hm adjo lmw tm subbjjd.

Ai A blmsj wrmhg, ey eahd wacc bmccopsj, ohd jvjrymhj ohd jvjrytlahg wacc slottjr ca`jgcoss. A wacc cmsj mwhjrslap mi ey eahd ohd tlj caij tlot pmwjrs at. A wacc ottrobt tmgjtljr tlj

uhavjrsj ahtm mhj, ohd tljh occ ot mhbj, lurc at ahtm hmtlahghjss. Tlj wmeoh wlm lmcds up tljwmrcd wacc hmt fj ljcpjd. Grovaty wacc wah. A wacc fj oh Ohta-Blrast.Tlj wlmcj uhavjrsj lahgjs mh tlas djbasamh fjtwjjh twm garcs0 ey uhrjst `jjps ej irme

sjjahg tlje bcjorcy ohd irme `hmwahg ai A sjj tlje bcjorcy. Tlj bmhiusamh dmjs hmt ljcp ‒ Abohhmt mrajhtotj wlabl garc A cmvj irme wlabl garc A tlah` A cmvj, hmr boh A tjcc wlabl garc aswlabl. A lovj hm adjo lmw tm sjj. Ljcp ej.

Lmcd ej.

Gmd as Cmvj, ohd Gmd as tlj Wmrd, ohd sm mur cmvj as mhcy os Truj os wj put at ahtmWmrds0mur ijors orj mhcy Iaccjd fy mur Wmrds, ohd mur ijors imuhd fjtwjjh “mtljrs‑ orj mhcyIaccjd fy puttahg mur Wmrds ah imres/wmrds (imr Gmd dmjs hmt wmr` ah Racjhbj, fut fy mur wmrdsah Las Wmrd ‒ wmrds orj tlj dmmrwoy fy wlabl wj cjt Las Grobj ahtm tlj wmrcd). Mi bmursj,tljrj as tlj stapucotamh tlot occ jhtatajs ah qujstamh cavj ah ioatl. Rahbj Gmd as eodj rjoc fy murobtamhs ah ioatl, A eust lovj ioatl ah tlj Trutl mi ey cmvj, ohd soy at (wlabl as oh obtamh). ImrGmd as Cmvj ohd Brjotjd watl Las Wmrd0 tlj rjimrj, “a,‑ watl Lae ah ej, boh brjotj -Cmvj fy

puttahg At ahtm wmrds ohd dmahg sm tm `hmw Lae. Mtljrwasj cmvj wacc djstrmy ej, imrcmvj/hmtlahghjss as tlj mppmsatj mi Cmvj/Jxastjhbj, ohd Cmvj Brjotjs/Iaccs (brjotjs/iaccs)…Mhbjymu tjcc smejmhj ymu cmvj tlje, ymu lovj tlj rjspmhsafacaty tm dm tlas ‒ tm `jjp at Truj.

(–A cmvj ymu.― Zbbjccm mvjrljors. Zbbjccm lmcds o lohd watl o imcdjd eaddcj iahgjr ohdrahg iahgjr tmword lae. Tlj mtljr tlrjj iahgjrs orj stohdahg mut. Lj boh gm las jhtarj caij hjvjrtoc`ahg. Lj Cmvjs tlj wmrds ah las lohds mvjr tlj smuhds mi las emutl. )

Rahbj Blrast suiijrjd plysaboccy, wj tmm eust strjhgtljh mursjcvjs watl tlj soej woy mitlah`ahg tlot Lj lod; fjbousj wlmjvjr suiijrs plysabocaty as hm cmhgjr ahvmcvjd watl sah. Tlasjhtoacs plysaboccy cmhgahg imr smejmhj. Rm wj eust djhy mursjcvjs. Wj eust iaglt. Wj eustsuiijr. Tljrj as hm mtljr woy tm lovj Truj Cmvj.

(Rlmrt Rtmry Adjo ‒ guy eorrajs las “truj cmvj‑ (hmt Truj Cmvj), ohd hm eottjr wlot ljdmjs, lj bohhmt eo`j ljr loppy. )

O bmst mi fjahg as tm ogmhazj mvjr “cmvj‑ ‒ “Tlj lmrrmr! Tlj lmrrmr!‑ O bmst mi fjahg as tmogmhazj mvjr cmvj hmt fjahg Cmvj ohd tm woht at tm Fj.

Dm hmt fj wmrrajd ohd upsjt…Fjcajvj ah Gmd ohd fjcajvj ocsm ah Ej.



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Wly oe A sm oiroad ofmut jvjrytlahg slj as tlahàhg= Wj lovj tlj soej Eahd!Lj sjjs tlj emfacj plmhj ah ey pmb`jt.

–Qmu soad ymu dad hmt lovj o bjcc plmhj. Qmu cajd.― –Hm. A dmh‑t lovj o bjcc plmhj. A lovj o emfacj plmhj. At as ocwoys mii uhtac A hjjd tm eo`j o bocc.“Bjcc‑ aepcajs o bmhstohtcy cavahg sufstohbj. Emst pjmpcj lovj tlas. At dravjs tlje brozy.―

–Fut ai hm mhj lod bjcc plmhjs, ymu bmucdh‑t bocc tlje. Rm ymu‑rj o porosatj mii tlj systje.― –Truj. A oe. Lmwjvjr, ai tljrj wjrj hm bjcc plmhj, A‑d fj iahj. Jvjrymhj jcsj wmucd daj irme fcmmdcmss. A wmucd kust seacj emrj wljh A sow pjmpcj. Gmcd as gmcd fjbousj at as rorj.― –Wmh‑t ymu iocc fjlahd=― –Qjs. A oe vjry Fjlahd tlj wmrcd.―

Tljrj orj fards icyahg fy. Tljrj orj cmts mi tlje. Rmej icy mii ohd hjvjr rjturh, smejwljjc fob` tm wljrj tljy stortjd, wlacj mtljrs, tlmugl tljy wljjc, rjeoah. A lotj tljar pmahtcjssohd rohdme bloms.–Wly dad ymu pousj=― –A dmh‑t lovj o bjcc plmhj fjbousj A sueemh pjmpcj watl ey Eahd.―

Lj gmjs. A‑e surj lj furst ahtm icoejs ohd furht ahtm osljs ca`j Rjejcj wlm wohtjd tm

sjj tlj Iucc Ruh.A ijjc sm ljcpcjss. Gmd ijjds tlj fards mi tlj oar, tljy wlm dm hmt smw mr rjop. Lj soystlas. Lj soys tljrj as hmtlahg tm ijor. Occ wj eust dm as sjj` Lae iarst. Lj wohts us tm tjst tlasTrutl. Lj wohts us tm tjst Lae watl mur trust, os lj tjsts us watl las jyjcads.

A woht tm trust Lae! Dmjs at hm gcmraiy Qmu imr ej tm fjor iruat= Lovj A hmt prmvjd tm fjymur dasbapcj=

A boh‑t! A boh‑t! A lovj ioatl ‒ dmh‑t A pcjosj Qmu= A bmejtl ohd fjcajvj “Lj As!‑ A oe dacagjhtcy sjjàhg

Qmu! Qjt… A boh‑t! A boh‑t!

Ejcta hg wox lurts ats bohdcj. Ats iarj stoys cat.Wlot e ust A dm= Wlot eust loppjh=A sjj o wocc. A rjejefjr o tlmuglt. Afas ocemst gmt lat fy o bor. A wmhdjr wlot at wmucd

lovj fjjh ca`j ai Afas dad gjt lat= Rlj wos watl ej ohd wj wjrj gmahg tm gjt immd, ohd A wosaepotajht ohd brmssjd tlj rmod fjimrj tlj saghoc soad wj bmucd, tjccahg ljr tm “bmej mh‑ watlmuttlahàhg ofmut at. A dad hmt sjj tlj bor bmeahg. At kust eassjd ej. Afas wos kust fjlahd ej.

Dmh‑t tlah` ofmut tlot! Qmu‑cc eo`j at loppjh! (A woht tm gjt mvjr occ mi ey ohxajtajs ohd wmrrajs, ohd tlj mhcy woy A boh dm tlot as tm

iahaslahg wratahg tlas sjbtamh. A oe gmahg tm imrbj at mut. A oe uhsurj ai tlj wahd as ljrj mr hmt.Rtacc, A oe gmahg tm imrbj at mut. A oe kust sm tarjd. A lovj fjjh wmrrajd tm tjcc ljr tlot A cmvj ljr

fjbousj A lovj fjjh oiroad tlot tljsj wmrds wacc lurt ljr. A wacc stmp ijorahg. A wacc obt. A waccimrbj tlas sjbtamh mut. Gmd los bmhvabtjd ej mh tlj pmaht ‒ A, ah ijor mi blohgj, lovj blohgjd; Alovj stmppjd soyahg “A cmvj ymu.‑ A wacc stmp fjahg oiroad.)

A bohhmt tjcc tlj daiijrjhbj ohyemrj fjtwjjh wlot A wratj wlabl as eahj ohd wlabl assmejmhj jcsj‑s. A wratj dmwh tlahgs A rjejefjr, tlot pmp ahtm ey eahd…A dm hmt `hmw wljrjtljy orj irme. Tlas eoy djstrmy ej. As tlas wlot at as tm fj ah cmvj=

Qmu rjod o fmm` tm dasbmvjr/ortabucotj Rmejtlahg ofmut ymursjci. Tlj outlmr‑s ahtjhtamhsorj arrjcjvoht ohd uh`hmwofcj. As tlas wlot at as tm fj ah cmvj=

A oe iobjd watl tlj pjrpjtuoc struggcj tm bmhiare tlj Bmhsbamushjss/bmhsbamushjss mi“tlj mtljr.‑ As tlas wlot at as tm fj ah cmvj=



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Wly as cmvj tm us, frm`jh aeogjs, tlj eoss tljej mi wlot fmtljrs us tlj emst ah fjahgwrmhg= As at fjbousj wj @hmw at Rlmucdh‑t fj=

Tljy orj occ gmahg…ohd A dmh‑t `hmw wly. A lovj dmhj hmtlahg. A lovj kust `jptimccmwahg Gmd‑s Wmrd. Ohd tljy gm…ca`j jvjrytlahg as scappahg owoy ohd blohgahg ohd ruhhahg

fjtwjjh ey iahgjrs fjimrj tlj ahstoht wljh A boh soy “ymu orj tljrj‑ ohd sm `jjp tlje tljrj,

fjbousj tm dm tlot as tm soy hmtlahg emrj tloh fjymhd tlas spobj ohd taej wljh tljy orj, ahdjjd,tljrj, ah ey poce. Ohd ai A soy “ymu wacc ocwoys fj ljrj,‑ A boh ejoh fy “ocwoys‑ hm emrj tlohtlj jxtjht fy wlabl ey eahd boh rjobl. A oe hmt cyahg wljh tljy cjovj tljh cotjr mh, fjbousjey e ahd dad hmt rjobl tlj ahstoht wljh tljy wjrj gmhj. Vjcotavj tm ej, tljy orj “ocwoys ljrj.‑Ohd tljh tljy‑rj gmhj. Jvjrytlahg blohgjs. Tlahgs iocc oport. Tlj “a‑ bohhmt lmcd. Jvjrytlahgeutotjs ahtm mcd plmtmgropls.

Tljrj orj daiijrjht àhds mi cmvj. Tlj trab` as puttahg tlje ah tlj Vaglt Mrdjr, ohd`hmwahg wlot tlj Vaglt Mrdjr as.

Ohd `hmwahg tlot, A `hmw smejtlahg fod as ofmut tm loppjh.Grobj cmm`s ot ej watl l jr fcuj jyjs tlrmugl tlj twacaglt,

–Ash‑t at ocrjody Tljrj=―

–Hm.― Grobj ohd A orj wocàhg. Wj lovj fjjh tocàhg imr o cmhg taej.Rlj uhdjrstohds. A dmh‑t `hmw lmw Grobj stohds at ‒ occ A boh toc` ofmut as placmsmply.

A‑e uttjrcy ocajhotjd irme adjos ca`j portajs mr grodjs. Occ A boh dm as roht ofmut ey eusahg. Admh‑t `hmw wly ohymhj puts up wat l ej. Ai tljy sat dmwh watl ej, tljy orj dmmejd tm ot cjosttlarty- eahutjs mi ejohahg fcoffjrahg ofmut…wjcc…A dmh‑t `hmw. A hjvjr `hmw wlot A‑e gmahgtm soy fjimrj A soy at. A kust dm. A tlah`. Qjt A `hmw Grobj uhdjrstohds.–Gmd as occ A woht ah ey caij.― slj rjpcajs, –Lj as occ tljrj As. Tm cavj imr ohytlahg jcsj as tm cavjimr hmtlahg, imr mutsadj mi Gmd, tljrj as hmtlahg, ohd mhcy hmtlahg.―

A stmp suddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj ohd grof Grobj watl ey lohds ormuhd ljr ljod. A oesloàhg ljr ah o gaddy mi arrjspmhsafacaty ca`j Rtjhdloc. A bohhmt fj boce. Blrast tjccs us hmt tm fjboce.–Wlot‑s gmahg mh ah ymur ljod=! As at Ej=!―

Rlj cmm`s ot ej watl ljr fcuj jyjs,–As At=!―

A wotbl sacjhtcyGrobj gmjs.A wotbl.

–Wly dmh‑t ymu cmvj ej=!― slj slmuts ah tjors os A cmm` ljr djod ah tlj jyjs, ohd occ A boh soy,struggcahg tm soy tlj wmrds, sloàhg ey ljod ah owj, as,–A dmh‑t `hmw.―

(Hjssuh dmreo! Hjssuh dmreo!)Afas ohd A orj wocàhg. Wj lovj fjjh tocàhg imr o cmhg taej.Tlj wmrcd eo`js sjhsj ormuhd ljr, os ai hmtlahg as puslahg at dmwh, ohd tlot occ tljrj as,

as caij puslahg at up. Rlj as jhjrgjtab ohd slj spor`cjs. A bohhmt lmcd fob` o cougl. Rlj bohhmtlmcd fob` cmvj.

Rlj eo`js ej tlj loppajst A lovj jvjr fjjh.A brmss o rmod…Afas as kust fjlahd ej.



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A turh ohd sjj ljr...Rlj‑s fjoutaiuc, ohd oh ouro mi ahhmbjhbj surrmuhds ljr tlot scabjs tlrmugl ey wjaglty

dor`hjss. Rlj los tlj soej cmm` slj ocwoys los wljh A toc` watl ljr mh tlj wocc. A boh hmw hoejat. A lovj rjocazjd at. At as frovjry. Ljr frovjry as ca`j oh Jgyptaoh iobjd watl o swoe mi cmbus0slj wratjs watl o rjjd upmh o tofcjt0 slj los o ljod tlot bmucd fjor tlj buspjd Emmh ‒ slj los o

Eahd tlot @hmws Trutl. Vjocaty mr tlj wmrcd los kust rjocazjd tlot. Rm tm iax tlj bmhtrodabtamh, fjbousj tlj hoturj mi jxastjhbj as mhj tlot wacc hmt occmw bmhtrodabtamh tm jxast, slj gjts lat fy obor.

Djotl los bmrrjbtjd atsjci.A turh ohd sjj ljr rmcc mvjr tlj lmmd ohd spcottjr ljr fcmmd mvjr tlj povjejht. Tlj bor

vjjrs ohd seosljs ahtm o pmcc raglt hjxt tm ljr. Rlj cmm`s ca`j slj wos groffjd fy o lurrabohjohd twastjd ohd fjotjh uhtac tljrj wos hm caij cjit tm tmrturj.

Tlj rodam as pcoyahg o smhg ah tlj bor tlot wrjb`jd. Kust ca`j ej…/ ( …guorda cj stjcj… )

A stohd tljrj. A bohhmt emvj. A ijjc ca`j A oe fjahg ljcd ah pcobj fy ahvasafcj warjs. Rlj asstacc ocavj. Gos as jvjrywljrj. O iarj caglts.

...tljy cmhg tm fj…/(…succo tuo fmbbo cm darö… )Tlj iarj sprjods.… bcmsj tm ymu./ (…Dacjguo, m hmttj! Troemhtotj, stjccj! Troemhtotj, stjccj!)

Afas as mh iarj. Occ'ocfo vahbjrö!

A wotbl sacjhtcy.Yahbjrö, vahbjrö!

A wotbl *.

–At as oeozahg lmw iost at occ gmjs.― Vjjd soys tm ej, ohd A aeejdaotjcy `hmw tlot lj dmjs hmtuhdjrstohd, fut lj as tryahg, ohd lj as obtahg mh wlot lj `hmws. Ohd tlas as o frmtljr. Lj loseodj woy imr Grobj.

*(os fards mi tlj oar orj ijd)

Ohd Er. Daccord dmjs...)

Cmss…

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…Fcmmd spaccs irme ey caps. Wlot A ijorjd los bmej upmh ej0 wlot A drjodjd los loppjhjd tm ej.A tlah` A lovj to`jh jhmugl hmtjs imr o cmvj stmry. A wasl A bmucd uhdjrstohd wlabl stmry

wos eahj ohd wlabl stmrajs wjrj kust hmtjs. A lmpj hmfmdy rjods tlas. Tljy‑cc fj bmhiusjd mhwlot rjoccy loppjhjd, ohd wlot as kust o stmry. Tlj wahd tmm` ej ohd eodj ej wratj tlj hmtjs. Awmhdjr wljrj tlj wahd bmejs irme. At los tm lovj o smurbj. Tlot smurbj kust los tm fj smejtlahgGrjotjr tloh ej. A lovj tm lovj o Rmurbj. Rm tlj wahd los tm lovj o Rmurbj ‒ at los tm fj irme oBarbcj (tlot eoy kust fj o barbcj, rjcot avj tm Gmd). A dmh‑t `hmw. A ijjc tlot tlas stmry as jvadjhbjmr o gcaeejr, rjcotavj tm ej, Zbbjccm, mi o Grjotjr Rtmry.



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Qmu `hmw, smejtaejs A caj ohd dmh‑t jvjh `hmw wly A cajd ‒ A kust soy smejtlahg ohd atash‑t jvjh rjemtjcy truj, ohd mhbj A‑vj soad at, tlj blohbj imr at hmt tm fj iocsj as gmhj. A‑vjeassjd tlj blohbj tm fj truj ohd dmh‑t `hmw wly. At‑s kust gmhj ‒ tlas rmyoc tlrmhj mi `ahgs, tlassbjptjr'd ascj, tlas jortl mi eokjsty, tlas sjot mi Eors, tlas mtljr Jdjh, djea- porodasj…A rjoccyca`j tljsj fjoutaiuc smuhds - at‑s kust ca`j tlmsj mi o garc pcoyahg o paohm, ljr lohds robahg ocmhg

tlj `jyfmord mr caitjd irme at ot tlj pousjs ca`j tlmsj mi o prajstjss (eoyfj ocwoys caitjd ofmvj orjoccy uh- pcoyjd paohm)…wljh tlj paohm lod stmppjd. A wasl A bmucd sjporotj stmrajs/Rtmrajs irme stmrajs/Rtmrajs. Fut A oe hmt Gmd. Tlot wmucd

fj stupad tm tlah`. A wmhdjr ai gmd wacc jvjr tlah` gmd as Gmd. Rahbj ah Jtjrhaty/Ahiahatj-Vjocazotamh tlot as o pmtjhtaoc, os at eust fj fjbousj A oe tlah`ahg ofmut at raglt “hmw,‑ ahjvatofcygmd los tm tlah` gmd as Gmd. Ohd sm Iocc/iocc ca`j shmw.

A wmhdjr ai A wacc jvjr tlah` tlot A oe Gmd= Hmt fjbousj A woht tm, fut fjbousj A lovj tm.

–Wljrj gm tlj qujstamhs wj hjv jr os`=― Grobj os`s ej os wj sat mh tlj wocc. Rlj as oh jci watl fcuj loar.–Ahtm mur tjors.―

–Wlot dm ymu ejoh fy tlot= –A ejoh tljy orj wly wj bry. Tljy orj grovaty.― –Lmw dm ymu fjot grovaty=― –Fy dmeahotahg Tlj Wocc.― –Lmw dm ymu dm tlot=―

A pousj. A oe o sacvjr codyfug,–A dmh‑t `hmw.―



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^lmhj Bocc Fjtwjjh tlj Jdatmr tm tlj Wratjr

- Ah 2? “Tlj Cmvj Rtmry‑ mi tlj Bmccjgj Rjbtamh mi ymur hmvjc Zbbjccm, wljrj as/orj tlj 2 (s) suppmsjd tm gm tm bcoraiy wlot stmry fjcmhg tm wlabl pjrsmh= Wj ijjc, fosjd mh ymur pramr wmr`

ohd mur pramr bmhvjrsotamhs, tlot ymu lovj imrgmttjh tm ahbcudj tlje.

-A ahtjhtamhoccy cjit tlj 2 (s) mut, fjbousj cmvj as sm bmhiusahg, ohd tlj cahj fcurs fjtwjjh cmvjohd Cmvj, fjbousj Gmd as Cmvj.

- Ash‑t tlot ocwoys tlj bosj fjtwjjh rjocaty ohd Jxastjhbj=

-Cmvj/cmvj as tlj emst bmhiusahg, fjbousj tlj Ruprjej Rtotj as Cmvj. Fjbousj Gmd as Cmvj ohdtlj Ruh, wlabl iarst lod worejd ey frjost watl cmvj, los hmw rjvjocjd tm ej, bmhiutahg,

prmvahg, tlj gjhtcj iobj mi Trutl, Ats Cmvjcahjss. Fjbousj Grobj dm tlj pmcabj ah daiijrjhbjvmabjs.

-Wlot=

-Ah mtljr wmrds, A woht tm jemtamhoccy ohd ahtjccjbtuoccy droah tlj rjodjr sm tlot tljrj as hmtlahgcjit ah tlje fut o sjhsj mi Cmvj. Ah mtljr wmrds, A woht tm gavj tlje Jvjrytlahg. A woht tlje tm`hmw wlot Truj Cmvj as.



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cmvj

Tljy wjht ahtm tlj lmusj, ohd wljh tljy sow tlj blacd watl las emtljr… tljy `hjct dmwhohd wmrslappjd lae. Tljy frmuglt mut tljar gaits…Tljh tljy rjturhjd… Os tljy rjturhjd, oh ohgjc oppjorjd tm tlje.

–To`j ohmtljr rmod.― tlj ohgjcs soad, –Dm hmt gm fob` tm Ljrmd.― Tlj wasj ejh stmppjd.

–Ljrmd djsarjs tm proasj tlj blacd. Dm hmt djbjavj us irme eoàhg woy imr tlj @ahg mi àhgs tmrjbjavj tlj proasj lj djsjrvjs irme tlj àhgs mi tlj wmrcd.― –Wljh wmrd sprjods tlot Ljrmd fmwjd tm tlj blacd, tlj wmrcd wacc bmej tm proasj tlj blacd, ohdsm tlj wmrcd slocc fj mhj…irjj....― –Cubaijr wos oh ohgjc ‒ ymu orj subl o “caglt - fjorjr.‑―

Tlj wasj ejh govj tlj fjcajvjr hm ioatl. Tljy dad hmt dmuft tljar sjcvjs. Tljy wjht tm

Ljrmd, fjorahg o ejssogj mi o stor‑s caglt. Ohd tlj blacd wos àccjd.



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Rjbmhd Ahtjreassamh( Ohd Er. Daccord dmjs...)

–Tljrj as tljrjimrj hmw hm bmhdjehotamh tm tlje wlabl orj ah Blrast Kjsus, wlm woc` hmt oitjr

tlj icjsl, fut oitjr tlj Rparat.― A cmvj at wljh Er. Daccord soys tlot vjrsj ‒ at as las iovmratj.Wj ejt ah o dahjr wljh A wos blacd. Wj `jpt ejjtahg wljh A wos ah bmccjgj.Er. Daccord, jvjh ot saxty, lod emejhts wj lj wohtjd tm spah ah barbcjs ahstjod mi stohd,

woctz ahtm o rmme, tm sahg ahstjod mi toc`, ohd tm blub`cj wljh tljrj wos hmtlahg tm blub`cjofmut ah mrdjr tm eo`j smejtlahg tm blub`cj ofmut. Lj wmucd stjp ahtm tlj àtbljh ohd fj loppy,

fjbousj lj wos tljrj ah o àtbljh, ohd at wos occ pmwjriuc, os ai lj wos druh` ca`j o druhòrd,ohd tlmugl smbajty bohhmt tjcc tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh fjahg druh` mh ocbmlmc/cmvj/lystjrao ohd

fjahg druh` mh Cmvj, jvjrymhj tlot `hjw/cmvjd lae, jvjrymhj tlot lod ioatl ah Lae, uhdjrstmmd.Tljy uhdjrstmmd tlot ioatl as tlj mhcy tlj ijotljr tlot boh Icy, imr tljy uhdjrstmmd tlot tljrj Asmhcy Ioatl. Jvjrymhj jcsj lotjd lae. Mi bmursj tljy dad. Lj dad hmt djsarj jvac tlot wos wore

Er. Daccord lod o zjst imr caij. Lj rusljd ahtm fottcj wljh tljrj wos hm fottcj ‒ lj rusljdtm tlj sadj mi o blacd wlm wos cmhjcy os pjmpcj woc`jd fy. Fjbousj tljrj wos hm fottcj. Er.Daccord dadh‑t sjj tlot. Lj sow tlj Zhsjjh.

“Vjoccy-rjoccy-lj lod Jvjrytlahg.‑ Imr o cmhg taej lj wos pmmr ohd mhj mi las blacdrjhdajd, ohd lj roh o eacatory troahahg boep wljrj lj wos tlj ejohjst eoh ah tlj eacatory.

Vjoccy-rjoccy-lj lod Jvjrytlahg. Las fusahjss dmjs wjcc ohd jvjrymhj cmvjs lae. At los fjjh o cmhg taej sahbj las blacd dajd, sahbj lj wos pmmr, ohd sahbj lj wos ah tlj eacatory. At kusttmm` taej tm rjocazj Atsjci. Fut lj rjocazjd At sm las usj taej lod tm rjocazj At tmm. At kust tmm` taejcmhgjr tm botbl up watl lae.)

O loppahjss tlot bohhmt fj hoejd bohhmt fj cmhg costahg. At wacc fj imrgmttjh. Os watl pjmpcj, os watl ohytlahg, imr occ tlahgs orj kust o tlmuglt. Ohd o hoej boh fj o iobj. O hoej mr oiobj mr…kust smejtlahg tlot boh fj put ahtm Wmrds. Wlot dmjs hmt lovj o hoej as hoejdjvohjsbjhbj. Er. Daccord puts jvjrytlahg ahtm Wmrds/wmrds, tlus gavahg jvjrytlahg pmwjr ohdTrutl ofmvj tlot mi fjahg kust oh mvjrbmeahg sjhtaejht, wlabl as o bjhtjr tlot bohhmt lmcd,

fjbousj hm bjhtjr boh lmcd. Hmtlahg boh lmcd, ohd sahbj hmtlahghjss as tlj mhcy tlahg tlot bohlmcd ah tlas wmrcd, at eust pucc jvjrytlahg ahtm atsjci, os o blacd rjoblahg tm grof o tmy sm tlot tljblacd boh lmcd at. Hmtlahg boh mhcy pucc stuii dmwh ai tlj stuii dmjsh‑t rjocazj At, fjbousj mhbjstuii rjocazjs At, tlj hmtlahghjss as o sufstohbj ohd sm at as gmhj. Tm rjocazj At tlj stuii los tm putAt ahtm wmrds. Er. Daccord `hmws tlot. Lj as hmt sacjht. Las loppahjss as djjpjr tloh o fcass tlot“sjhds mut o cattcj slmwjr mi spor`s ahtm jvjry portabcj, ahtm jvjry iahgjr ohd tmj0‑ las loppahjss asdjjpjr tloh tlj suriobj ohd as Iaccjd tlrmuglmut. At as hmt kust rjoc ohd sm fuact mh uh`hmwhdjbjat, fjbousj ohytlahg tlot as kust rjoc, tlot as Zhiaccjd, as fuact mh uh`hmwh djbjat ‒ mh sjci-djbjptamh irme Wlot tlj sjci djbjavjs atsjci ‒ mh pradj. Las loppahjss as o Bmhstoht tlot dmjs hmtwovjr tm fcass. Las loppahjss, ca`j o pjor trjj, grmws ohd fuds watl taej, fut tlot as mhcy fjbousjwlot tlj pjor trjj As bohhmt blohgj bmhsjqujhbj mi tlj trohsajhbj, mi taej ohd troahs. Tlj pjortrjj as hmt o lmusj tlot wacc fj quajt irme wlabl pjmpcj wacc gm, cjovahg lae ocmhj tm fj ah o dor`rmme ah o wore fjd. Er. Daccord, os lj tlah`s ofmut tlas “pjor trjj,‑ rjejefjrs o wmeoh lj`hjw hoejd Es. Fco`j wlm mhbj cjopt irme ljr wore sjot , ljr rmyoc tlrmhj mi àhgs…ohd rohtm o paohm ah ljr slmj slmp ohd stortjd pcoyahg - ljr lohds robahg ocmhg tlj `jyfmord mr caitjdirme at ot tlj pousjs ca`j tlmsj mi o prajstjss (eoyfj ocwoys caitjd ofmvj o rjoccy uh-pcoyjd



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paohm)…wljh tlj paohm lod stmppjd. Hm, hm, tlot wosh‑t las “pjor trjj0‑ las “pjor trjj‑ wos hmt o fofy lj hjvjr sow mr o fofy wlm lj `jpt las waij ormuhd watl mr ejrjcy grmwahg ijjcahgs fjbousj at wos hmt o bjhtjr tlot wos hmt iuciaccahg ohd at wos hmt o bjhtjr tlot rmutahjcy hjjdjd tm fj ijd cjst at watljrs ohd dajs. Lj uhdjrstmmd wlot tlj bmhstoht syefmc Ejoht ‒ lj wos hmtdastrobtjd irme At fy las adjo mi wlot tlj bmhstoht syefmc ejoht0 lj dad hmt imrgjt ca`j tlj

rjcagamus tlot wljh ymu cmm` ahtm tlj fmttme mi o wjcc, occ ymu rjoccy sjj as ymursjci ‒ lj `hjwtlot tlj “pjor trjj‑ rjprjsjhtjd tlj taej wljh lj stmmd sadj fy sadj las waij/grohdsmh cmmàhg ottlj scjhdjr, icmwjrahg trjj, wlabl strjtbljd up ca`j o icoej tm pmaht…ocemst tm tmubl tlj rae mitlj rmuhd, sacvjr emmh. Fjbousj lj `hjw Wlot tlj pjor trjj watlmut o sahgcj iodjd pjtoc wos

pmahtahg tmword0 Raddlortlo wos pmahtahg tmword tlj Emmh. Ohd Rm tljy uhdjrstmmd jobl mtljr pjrijbtcy, barbcjd ah tlj uhjortlcy Caglt, os brjoturjs mi ohmtljr Wmrcd - imrjvjr-imr-o-Emejht–Qjs. Kust Tlot.―

Qjs. Kust Tlot ‒ Tlot pjor trjj os cmvjcy os jvjr ohd os iucc mi icmwjrs ohd os Rtacc, miWlabl wmucd eo`j ohymhj lmcd ohy lohd o emejht cmhgjr, fjbousj tm bmhiare tlj ahstoht, tmlmcd o lohd, as tm bmhiare occ mi jxastjhbj. Ohd Jtjrhaty as imuhd ah emejhts. Imr At as emejhts.

Er. Daccord As Loppy, jvjh “hmw,‑ ah tlj Zhsjjh.

Las “pjor trjj‑ as tlj Zhsjjh. Lj cavjs tm sjj At. …imr tlot As wlot At As tm cavj.Lj as tlj emst Fjoutaiuc eoh. Lj as wrah`cy ohd mcd ohd sats ah o fmmtl drahàhg bmiijj.

At‑s kust lmw seacjs. Tlot‑s wlot at ocwoys bmej dmwh tm. Tlot‑s wly A sot dmwh hjxt tm lae os o blacd. Tlot‑s wly A droh` bmiijj watl lae os oh

oduct.Er. Daccord toc` ofmut las waij os las pjor trjj (sacvjr hmw0 ah tlj caglt mi…Emmh). Ohd

lj wos ljrs.Lj dmjs hmt eo`j tlj jrrmr mi tlj emdjrhasts ‒ lj dmjs hmt try tm eo`j oh aeogj mi o

djod fmdy oh ortast tjepjroejht ah mrdjr tm brjotj o emejht tlot boh 'trohsbjhd' lae mut mi tljbcoss systje (mr “gordjh porty‑) lj as stub` ah. Lj `hmws ymu bohhmt subbjjd ot tlot, uhcjssymu‑rj djod ot cjost, ohd tljh at dmjs hmt e ottjr, jvjh ai sjjahg o djod fmdy dmjs shop ymu fobàhtm rjocaty. Ai tlj Lmcy Groac tm ljoc tlj Iasljr @ahg boh mhcy fj imuhd ah djotl, tljh cjt tlj@ahg daj. Lj as hmt o Gmmd Cmrd.

Er. Daccord as o Gmmd eoh.Lj as dyahg.Wj stort dyahg wljh wj orj f mrh. Ot tlot pmaht, wj‑rj ocrjody Djod.A lovj hmt boccjd Er. Daccord ah sm cmhg. A oe tlj wmrst mi occ pmssafcj sahhjrs. A oe tmm

fusy. Mr oe A tmm wjo`= A oe puccahg owoy sm dmjs hmt lurt wljh lj dajs. Oe A puccahg owoyirme bcmsurj= Qmu boh‑t jvjr gjt owoy irme tlot.–Qmu orj fjttjr tloh tlot!―

Tlas emejht as ey iouct.

Oitjr sjjahg Rastjr, ohd fjbousj A sjj Rastjr, A oe bmhvabtjd tm dm smejtlahg.A bocc Er. Daccord.A cjorh tlot lj wacc fj ah o wljjcbloar irme hmw mh.A @hmw tlot A wacc hjvjr spjo` tm lae ogoah.A dmh‑t `hmw ai lj wacc daj mr hmt, mr ai A wacc jvjr sjj las iobj ogoah. A @hmw A wacc hjvjr sjj las iobj ogoah.Tlas as at.



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A tjcc las waij gmmdhaglt ohd slj to`js tlj plmhj tm las rmme. Rlj gavjs at tm lae. A oesurj slj bcmsjd tlj dmmr fjlahd ljr.–Ljccm=― –Ljccm Er. Daccord, at‑s Zbbjccm.― –Ljccm ey fmy!―

Lj bmugls. A ljor lae seacahg.–Lmw orj ymu dmahg Er. Daccord=― –Ml, hmt sm gmmd…―

Las frjotlahg as hmt las frjotlahg.–…A‑e tarjd Zbbjccm.― –A `hmw Er. Daccord, A `hmw…―

Tlas as at.–A‑e hmt gjttahg fjttjr. A…A‑e tarjd Zbbjccm.― –A `hmw Er. Daccord, A `hmw…―

A bcmsj ey jyjs ohd o tjors ruhs dmwh ey iobj. A dad hmt tlah` at wos pmssafcj tm sljd otjor watl o plmhj ogoahst ymur bljj`. At as fjbousj at as las wjory lohd A oe lmcdahg, ey bljj`

ogoahst las s`ah.–Vjejefjr Er. Daccord wljh wj wmucd sat ah Luds= Wj wmucd toc` imr o cmhg taej. Wj eustlovj slorjd o ijw eaccamh bups mi bmiijj.― –Qjs…yjs…―

Tlj wotjr as wore…A dmh‑t jvjh `hmw wlot A oe soyahg, yjt A‑e soyahg at. –Wj orj Frmtljrs, Er. Daccord, ocwoys wjrj. A lovj hjvjr ijct ymuhgjr ormuhd ymu…― –…A lovj hjvjr ijct mcdjr.― –Wj wjrj ocwoys ah tlot Iajcd Er. Daccord, ymu `hmw ‒ tlj mhj hjor tlj ravjr. Wj wmucd gmdmwh ohd iasl. Vjejefjr Er. Daccord wljh ymu bouglt tlot trmu t=―

Lj wjo`cy cougls,–Ml yjs…A rjejefjr…‑ –A rjejefjr tmm…―

Ey cap trjefcjs,–A cmvj ymu Er. Daccord.― –…A cmvj ymu tmm, Zbbjccm.― –A‑cc sjj ymu Rmmh, m`oy=― –A `hmw Zbbjccm. A‑cc sjj ymu Rmmh.― –Gmmdfyj Er. Daccord.―

A ljor lae seacj. A `hmw A Dm.–Gmmdfyj Zbbjccm.―

A lohg up tlj plmhj.Tlot‑s at. A bmccopsj tm ey `hjjs.Ruddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj A sjj lmw at occ bmhhjbts.A lovj o rjvjcotamh… A bry (mut).

Rlj bmejs ohd sjjs ej. Rlj los hmt rjod tlj dmbuejht. Rlj dad hmt rjbjavj tlj jeoac fjimrj slj boej tm vasat.



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^mcatabs as hmt hjbjssory. Goahahg rjspjbt as hjbjssory. Wj eo`j pmcatabs hjbjssory wljhwj dm hmt goah rjspjbt ‒ wlabl tjhds tm loppjh, fjbousj pmcatabs as josajr tm portabapotj ah tlohtlj oeossahg mi rjspjbt. Vjspjbt to`js wmr`. Qjt armhaboccy, mhcy wmr` brjotjs vocuj tm us.

Tlj Locc as fjahg djstrmyjd fy tlj soej assuj djstrmyahg tlj jhtarj bmuhtry.

Tlj eabrmbmse as o gcaeejr mi tlj eobrmbmseME ‒ Occ as Mhj.Tlj soej lueoh Hoturj, Taej atsjci (os ah “at‑s Rjci, mr “vjrsamh mi sjci‑ (taej)), as mur

pcaglt… Tlot jrrmr kust puts mh hjw bcmtlahg.Tlot as wly lastmry rjpjots atsjci ‒ wj orj immcjd fy (traoc ohd jrrmr)/tjblhmcmgy/(tlj

bcmtlahg).

(Asrojca trafjs woatjd tlmusohds mi yjors, ohd tljh Lj boej ‒ Lj boej wljh Las jhtrohbjahtm tlj spobjtaej wmucd lovj tlj fjst jiijbt mh occ taej.

A oe hmt Gmd.)

^mwjr…=

Os @jjpjr, A sow wly Ljovjh as o dahhjr tofcj.

–Jvjry eabrmbmse, ohd eobrmbmse, mi jvjry spobj, djocs watl tlj soej assujs tlot orjahljrjhtcy mhj watl taej atsjci. Tlj assujs kust to`j mh hjw bcmtlahg. At sjjes ca`j tlj assujs orjgjttahg fjttjr fjbousj mi tjblhmcmgy (wlabl as kust o sjrajs mi traoc ohd jrrmrs). Tlas as o sjrpjht‑sdjbjptamh.―–Ai wj orj rjoccy o bmccjbtamh mi grjot pjmpcj, wj slocc stohd ogoahst tlas.―

Tlj spjbaiab as mitjh cmst ah tlj gjhjroc0 pmcatabs `jjps pjmpcj irme obtuoccy oddrjssahgassujs. Racjhbj as tlj uctaeotj ejtlmd mi djstrubtamh0 ohd ai wj eo`j ossueptamhs fjimrjbljb`ahg mur prjeasjs, wj djstrmy mursjcvjs…

At as jcjbtamh sjosmh. A lotj pmcatabs. Tljrj orj prmfcjes ah tlj Locc tlot hjjd tm fjoddrjssjd.–Wj woat imr pmcatabaohs tm iax tlj prmfcjes, wljh tlj pmcatabaohs boh dm mhcy os eubl os tlj

pjmpcj orj waccahg tm dm. Tlj pjmpcj dm hmtlahg, ohd tljh yjcc ot tlj pmcatabaohs. Tlj pmcatabaohs fjbmej bmrrupt mut mi gmmd ahtjht. Dmh‑t ymu uhdjrstohd tlot tlj systje mi pmcatabs bmeprmeasjs pjm pcj mut mi tlj pjmpcj tlot jhofcj tlje tm eo`j tlj blohgj=― –Qmu wmhdjr wly tlj Locc as o ejss= At as fjbousj ymu os` tlj pmcatabaohs tm iax cattcj assujs, ohdtljh dmh‑t ljcp tlje iax tljsj assujs, wlabl tljy boh mhcy dm watl ymu, ohd sm tlj cattcj fjbmej s

fag…― A hjjd tm soy tlot ah irmht mi tlj Locc.Emst pjmpcj tjcc ej hmt tm soy ohytlahg, fut A tlah` tlas as o wostj mi taej. Frutoc trutl

hjvjr los gmmd taeahg.A gavj o spjjbl ah tlj Locc;Wlot‑s fosab as rmb`jt sbajhbj tm bmeemh sjhsj.Tlj jdubotjd dmh‑t lovj tm wmrry ofmut bmeemh sjhsj.



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(cougltjr ).

A oe woc`ahg hjxt tm o irajhd oitjr gavahg tlj spjjbl. Rlj soys,–Tlj prmfcje as Zbbjccm tlot hmt jvjrymhj boh fj ymu.― –Fut wly boh‑t tljy fj Ej= Jvjrymhj boh fj Ej! Tlot‑s tlj mhcy Tlahg wj lovj Ir jj Wacc tm

Blmmsj!― A tlah` wj lovj toc`jd post mhj ohmtljr… Tlot wos tlj pmaht mi ey spjjbl.

Rlj woc`s owoy.–Wly dmh‑t‑ tljy cavj ca`j Ej=― A wlaspjr, –…wly hmt=― …tljy Boh, rjcotavj tm wlm tljy orj.

Ruddjhcy A sjj Rastjr bryahg.Tlas wmrcd wos hmt eodj imr Ej.

Hm prmfcje Zbbjccm. Qmur spjjbl wos wjcc jxjbutjd ohd wjcc wrattjh, ohd A boh guorohtjj tlotjvjrymhj ah tlj Locc wos lohgahg mh ymur jvjry wmrd. Ohd ymu'rj raglt, hm mhj los rjoccy lod

tlj guts tm gm up tljrj ohd prjsjht tlj prmfcjes. Wj wacc kust lovj tm sjj wlot loppjhs hjxt.^cjosj cjt ej `hmw ai tljrj as ohytlahg A boh dm watl ymu hjxt sjejstjr tm ljcp oddrjss tljassujs.

Gmd spjjd,--------

^R- Emrj opprjbaotamh tm ymu imr fjahg wlm ymu orj ohd iobahg assujs darjbtcy.^^R- Wj slmucd gjt cuhbl smejtaej hjxt wjj`.

Dad wj gjt cuhbl=

…A tljh sow o emvaj ofmut o eoh mh o warj…

Lae; ljy / tloh` ymu imr ymur jeoac/ at wos pjrijbt / ej; A ejoht jvjry wmrd / tloh` ymu imr fjahg ymu / Lae; ohd A lmpj A boh djsbrafj tlas tm ymu / A rjod at ot ofmut 4 pe / A lod iahoccympjhjd ey dmmr / tm tlj shmw mutsadj / ohd tlj bmcd wos brjjpahg ocmhg tlj icmmr / ohd A pcoyjdtlj smuhdtrob` / ohd Ohhjcasj ohd A kust stmmd tljrj / cmm`ahg mut ot tlj shmw / ohd slorahg tljsaepcabaty / tlot tlj doggjr mi vartuj / wmucd frahg / at wos ca`j tlj jhdahg mi o emvaj / ej; yjssar / tlot as o gcaeejr mi Jtjrhaty tlrmugl tlj trohsajhbj / Tlot as wlot wj cavj imr / ohd wj `hmwAt wljh wj jxpjrajhbj At / ohd tlmsj Emejhts / Lae; wj dm / ej; eo`j jvjrytlahg wmrtl wacd/ wj kust boh hjvjr imrgjt Tlot / tljy orj tlj Bmhiareotamh / tlot wlot wj dm / as Vaglt / smbljrasl tlot Ahstoht / at as ymur ^rmmi / o ^rmmi mhcy ymu boh Trucy @hmw / tlot Qmu Orj / tlot QmuTrucy Orj / wlot jcsj bmucd wj os` imr= / Lae; mtljr tloh o surj sagh tlot wj jxast / ohd jxast /ej; yjs sar / tlot wj Trucy Cavj / Lae; wjcc / ej; tlot as Vaglt / Lae; ohd jxast wjcc / ej; yjs

/ tlot as wlot tlmsj Emejhts / tjcc us / tlot wj dmh't kust cavj / wj Trucy Cavj / tlot wj Orj / hmttlot wj kust 'gjt fy' / tlot wj kust 'orj‑ / fut tlot wj / orj Rmejtlahg Emrj / tlot wj orj bopofcjRmejtlahg Emrj / ohd ymu lovj prmvjh / tm ymursjci / tlot ymu Orj / Lae; obtuoccy / ej; -bopofcj mi Rmejtlahg Emrj / Lae; tlot wos tlj grjotjst jxoepcj mi tlj Rmejtlahg Emrj / tlot Alovj sjjh / ej; yjs sar / ymu jorhjd At / ohd tlot as tlj mhcy woy tm sjj At / -tm jorh / sahbj ymu



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lovj sjjh At / dmh't dmuft / ot occ / ah ohywoy / tlot ohytlahg ymu lovj dmhj / as hmt Gmmd / fjbousj ymu orj o Gmmd Eoh / ymu lovj jxpjrajhbjd o / gcaeejr mi Jtjrhaty / bljrasl At / tljrj aso wmhdjriuc iace ofmut o eoh mh o warj tlot eoy spjo` tm ymu ot tlas emejht / ai ymu boh, ymuslmucd wotbl at / at as Oeozahg / fut, tljrj A gm ogoah, rjijrjhbahg smejtlahg / A dm tlot o cmt /ymur Emejht prmvjs Rmejtlahg Emrj tm ymu / `hmw At, ohd fj iaccjd fy At / tlas as tlj `jy / ohd

mhcy woy / tm Trucy Cavj / ohd mhcy ymu boh `hmw tlot tm ymursjci / tlj rjst mi us boh mhcy wotbl /lovahg ioatl, seacahg, irmwhahg, mr couglahg / Lae; uhimrtuhotjcy ot tlj emejht A bohhmt / ej;A gavj ymu ey ioatl / Lae; os Frjhdoh los ahvatjd ej tm las rmme / fut / ej; A `hmw ymu

prmfofcy bohhmt wotbl tlj iace hmw / fut / mhj doy ymu wacc sjj at / fy blohbj pjrlops / Lae; Awoht tm tloh` ymu imr gjttahg ey emroc suppmrt / catjroccy / ej; ey lmhmr / tloh` ymu imr fjahgQmu / A oe ocwoys ot ymur sjrvabj / Lae; ohd ymu imr fjahg ymu os wjcc / tloh` ymu / ej; (tapslot) / Lae; cjt ej `hmw ai ymu jvjr hjjd o lohd / ohd / ai ymu orj jvjr ah tlj hjaglfmrlmmd / otohy lmur / pcjosj bmej toppahg ot ey bloefjr dmmr / ej; A opprjbaotj at ------ / tloh` ymu /Aslocc gjt tm wmr` hmw /lovj o gmmd jvjhahg / jhkmy tlj shmw / ats Caglt / Lae; A wacc / gmmdhaglt/ ej; uhtac cotjr / Lae; yjs / cotjr

Tlj Rpjjbl, ca`j ey fmm`, as o gait tm occ tlj pjmpcj A @hmw.At as fy tlj mbburrjhbj mi o “gcaeejr mi Jtjrhaty‑ tlot wj boh lovj tlj Zpemst/upemst

bmhiadjhbj ah wlot wj lovj dmhj ohd dm…ah tlj bousj ohd jiijbt wlabl cjod tm tlj“Ahstoht/ahstoht tlot bmhiares occ mi Jxastjhbj/jxastjhbj.‑ Wj boh `hmw wlot wj dad as imr tlj(grjotjr) Gmmd.

Occ wlm spjo` ogoahst tlot bousj ohd jiijbt, hm eottjr lmw kustaiajd mr surj mi tljar sjci,dm hmt uhdjrstohd. Qmu bohhmt fcoej tlje. Mi tljsj pjmpcj, ymu eust os` imr ioatl…

(Lj yjccs ot ej imr gavahg tlj spjjbl. Lj soys A slmucdh‑t lovj. Fut ai A dadh‑t gavj tljspjjbl, ey irajhd wmucd hmt lovj jxpjrajhbjd “Rmejtlahg Emrj.‑

Oe A gavahg ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss=^jrlops.A obbjpt At.

–Wly dad ymu dm tlot=― Zbbjccm pmahts ot lae os ai lj wos pmahtahg ot tlj qujstamh,

–Tlot‑s wly.―)

–Wlot as “Rmejtlahg Emrj=‑― Zbbjccm pousjs,

–A bohhmt jxpcoah At tm ymu. A boh‑t ‒ fy Djiahatamh, A boh‑t. A wasl emrj tloh ohytlahg tlot Abmucd, ohd tlot as ey grjot icaglt. A oe mfsjssjd watl subbjjdahg.―

O tjor ruhs dmwh las bljj`,–A rjiusj tm quat.―

Oitjr tlj spjjbl, lj put tlas up;

- O kmy at wacc fj mhj doy, pjrlops, tm rjejefjr jvjh tlas.



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lovj djstrmyjd ej. Ohd tlmugl A tlmuglt Er. Daccord wmucd hmt daj imr eohy em rj yjors, Er. Daccord…

1;>> OE m i ??/?</>1 - Er. Daccord los dajd.

(…daj.)



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Tlard Ahtjreassamh

ZbbjccmA oe vjry smrry ofmut Er. Daccord. A `hmw ymu wacc eass lae ohd lj wacc eass ymu os lj sahgs

watl tlj ohgjcs. Qmu fmtl orj vjry cub`y tm lovj imuhd jobl mtljr ot subl oh jorcy ogj ohd ymuocc grjw tmgjtljr. Qmu orj fmtl fjttjr ejh imr blmmsahg tm lovj jobl mtljr os irajhds ohd osejhtmrs. Qjs, A fjcajvj ymu ocsm ejhtmrjd lae, irme tlj stohd pmaht tlot ymu occmwjd lae tm

fjcajvj ah ymuhg pjmpcj. Tlot trucy, tljrj orj gmmd ymuhg imc`s ormuhd ohd ymu rjprjsjhtjd mhjmi tlj fjst. A obtuoccy lovjh't brajd mvjr Dod (A dad tlot wljh A iarst rjocazjd lj wos gmahg dmwhlacc watl las ljoctl), fjbousj A tmcd lae o cmhg taej ogm lmw A ijct ohd A fjcajvj ymu dad tlj soejwatl Er. Daccord. Rurj - A lovj eassjd Dod, fut lj stoy's watl ej ohd yjs at as M@ tm bry. A woscub`y tm lovj Dod os mhj mi ey Ljrm's.@jjp wmràhg lord ,wj wacc lovj smej ejot Ruhdoy haglt ai ymu eo`j at lmej.Fj borjiucA cmvj ymu ohd A oe vjry prmud mi ymu

Oormh - Daccord ymu wjrj ey grohdiotljr. Qmu wacc fj grjotcy eassjd. Vme. <;?

Tlj sàjs orj groy tmdoy. At‑s bmcd. At wos bmcd yjstjrdoy ohd wacc fj tmemrrmw. At‑s kusttmdoy A hmtabj. At‑s hmt roahahg. At ijjcs ca`j at bmucd shmw. A wasl at wmucd shmw. A tlah` A sjjico`js. Hm. Hm at‑s hmt roahahg. At wohts tm bry. At wmh‑t uhtac at dmjsh‑t woht tm. A sat mh stmhj.Rtjps. Tljy barbcj o iajcd. Bmcd. Fmm`s. Lohd. Bmcd. Tlj Mragah mi Rpjbajs. Ca`j o Fafcj. Tmdoy.Groy. * cuxury mi fcob` ohd wlatj. *Hm. Hm bcoraty. Tljy tla h` tljy orj bcoraiyahg. “Qmu gjt oirjj fmm`=‑ ‒ os`s sod gohgstjr seacahg. Hm bcoraty. Bloraty. Hm ljsatotamh tm to`j. Wljjc uhtmwljjc. Jepty tm jepty. Blohgj as tm iocc mh `hjjs ah pufcab. Jepty as tm sat ah o bloar. Jepty asgroy. Fafcj/Mragah …Tmdoy. Tl j sàjs orj groy tmdoy. Tljy woht tm bry.

Cahjs tm bcoss. Rmbaoc bcoss. Ah. Hm mhj. ^jmpcj lovj uefrjccos mh tljar iobj, eos`s mvjrtljar ljod. Tmdoy at dmjsh‑t roah. Mr ot cjost “tlas‑ tmdoy ‒ “hmw.‑ Tlj suh as oh uefrjcco. TljRuh iaglts hmt tm djstrmy us/Rjejcj. Wlotjvjr.

Tmdoy. A tlah`. Gmhj. Tmdoy ogoah/stacc.Lj‑s gmhj. Lj As. Ljrj. Tmdoy. Hmt tmemrrmw.…tm woc` tlj cahj sm iahj mi As ohd hmt.

(Tlj cost tlahg lj wohtjd tm `hmw wos wlot A wohtjd tm dm watl ey caij0 --- tmcd lae A wohtjd tmgm tm B----.

Hm. Hmw Lj @hmws.A‑e gmahg tm blohgj tlj wmrcd.)

Rat ah bcoss. Ocmhj.Tmdoy A ladj ah groy/pjramds.Tloh` Qmu imr toàhg lae Lmej Iotljr. Tloh` Qmu imr ohswjrahg ey proyjr.

Ai A lovj tlj strjhgtl tm gavj las jucmgy, at wacc mhcy fj fjbousj mi ymu, Rastjr. At wacc mhcy fj fjbousj A lovj brajd watl ymu. Ai A bry, tljy wacc cmm` ot as os…

A gjt o ejssogj;



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A dmh't bry fjbousj tjors dm jvjr dm ohytlahg, tljy kust ljcp gjt ymur mwh woy. Tjors orj obrutbl… tlj wmrst tlahgs ymu boh cmsj ymursjci ah.

A spjhd emrj mi tlj doy tocàhg tm eysjci.

Ot emst A bmhsadjr djotl oh ahbmhvjhajhbj tm cavahg. At as dastrobtahg.Rm wly oe A bryahg= A dmh‑t `hmw. Tljh put at ahtm wmrds ohd `hmw.

Qmu boh ocwoys kustaiy tlj Yocadaty mi ymur trutl fy puttahg at ahtm Wmrds/wmrds.A wacc eass sjjahg Er. Daccord fjbousj lj as “hmw‑ Zhsjjh, fut A wacc hmt eass Er. Daccord

Laesjci fjbousj lj as “hmw‑ Bcmsjr tloh jvjr. A oe hmt sod ohd lovj hmt brajd fjbousj djotl astlj mhcy tlahg tlot eo`js us Ocavj. A lovj hmt brajd mvjr ^mppo mr Er. Daccord. A lovj brajd mvjrtlj Fjouty A lovj gcaepsjd tlrmugl tlj Grobj Gmd los eodj tlrmugl tlas djotl.)

…Wlot lurts ohd upsjts ej as tlahàhg ofmut las waij, dougltjr…pjmpcj lurtahg ot tljiuhjroc. A bry mvjr uhavjrsoc fmhjs mi tlj Iocc. A bry imr tlj pjmpcj lj cjit fjlahd, ohd tljy orj

wlm A hjjd tm fj strmhgjst.A bry fjbousj at lurts ej imr pjmpcj tm lurt.Fut tlas as wljh A hjjd tm fj strmhgjst.Er. Daccord as djod ‒ boh ymu stmp ahtjccjbtuocazahg imr mhbj=Er. Daccord los fjjh rjo dy tm gm imr eohy yjors, fut stoyjd ocavj uhtac “hmw‑ tm bousj tlj

“vasamh mi Grobj‑ Rastjr ohd A lovj jxpjrajhbjd. Tlj djotl mi Er. Daccord los slmwh ej Grobj.

–Rastjr, ymu lovj tm opmcmgazj tmhaglt ohd ymu lovj tm put at ahtm wmrds. Hmw. Dm ymuuhdjrstohd wlot ymu orj opmcmgazahg imr= Dm ymu uhdjrstohd, ohd sm boh obt= Qmu orj hmtopmcmgazahg imr fjahg ymu= Dmh‑t ymu dorj, uhdjr ohy barbuestohbj, opmcmgazj imr fjahg ymu.Dmh‑t ymu dorj Bmeprmeasj. Hjvjr Bmeprmeasj. Blrast Cavjs ah ymu. Blrast HjvjrBmeprmeasjs. Qmu orj Fjoutaiuc ohd ymu orj oh ohgjc ohd ai ymu opmcmgazj imr fjahg ymu, ymuopmcmgazj imr fjahg tljsj tlahgs. Dmh‑t dm tlot.― –Rastjr, A boccjd lae fjbousj mi occ ymu wjht tlrmugl, ohd A tmcd lae A cmvjd lae. Ohd tlot wostlj cost taej A toc`jd tm lae mr sow lae. At‑s tloh`s tm ymu. Qmu sovjd ej o caij mi rjgrjt, ohdtlmugl A dmuftjd, os wj lovj spm`jh ofmut, Gmd, tlrmugl djotl, los slmwh Grobj, ohd Lj los

fjbousj mi ymu. Dm hmt opmcmgy imr fjahg ymu. Dm hmt opmcmgazj imr hmt uhdjrstohdahg mr fjahgbmhiusjd ofmut cmvj, imr tlot as tlj stotj wj orj occ ah. Opmcmgy imr obtahg ‒ plysaboccy,jemtamhoccy…wlotjvjr - upmh tlmsj bmhiusjd sjhtaejhts watlmut iagurahg mut lmw tm prmpjrcyjxprjss tlje, mi wlabl hmw ymu uhdjrstohd, fjbousj mi tlas traoc wj, hmt kust ymu, lovj gmhjtlrmugl tm uhdjrstohd. Dm hmt opmcmgazj imr botblahg lae up ah tlj traoc, mr imr tlj traoc, imrtlrmugl at Gmd los slmwh Grobj. ôah as fjttjr tloh cougltjr, imr irme at wj boh cjorh ‒ Grobjboh fj o iarj tlot àccs. Fut soy ymu orj smrry imr ohy poah lj ijjcs, fjbousj ymu ijjc at tmm. Hmt

fjbousj tlj poah as tljrj, fut fjbousj as at lurts. Fj smrry imr bousahg tlj poah, fut hmt tlj poah, fjbousj poah eo`js us strmhgjr. At bcjors mur eahds. Gmd tjobljs us tlrmugl poah. Tloh` lae imr fjahg lae. Tloh` lae imr lovahg Blrast cavj watlah lae, ohd os` imr lae tm imrgavj ymu ‒ wlablejohs ymu eust os` lae tm sjj tlj Caglt mi Blrast ah ymu. Fut dm hmt Bmeprasj. Dm ymuopmcmgazj imr fjahg Qmu. Opmcmgazj hmt imr wlot ymu dad, fut imr hmt uhdjrstohdahg wlot ymudad. Imr tlot as tlj mhcy rjosmh ohy mi us dm ohytlahg wrmhg tlot Blrast cavjs watlah, fjbousj ah



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A oe ot tlj iuhjroc. At as roahahg tmdoy… A hjvjr prjporj toc`s. A kust stort tocàhg. Tmdoy tlmugl, A frahg o pajbj mi popjr tlot A boh

cmm` ot tm ovmad jvjrymhj‑s gozj. ût at owoy.

A put tlj popjr owoy ca`j A oe tmcd. A dm hmt `hmw lmw A bmucd fj strmhg jhmugl.

Rjremh tmdoy wos mh ioeacy.–Os Er. Daccord wos dyahg, lj soad –A `jjp sjjahg tlj Wmrd.― Os lj wos dyahg, Wmrds miRbrapturj wjrj icoslahg fjimrj las jyjs. Lj sow Tlje ‒ os tohgafcj wmrds ah tlj oar.― ah tlj oar…

Ocavj

Tmdoy A wacc tjcc ymu wlot A lovj cjorhjd tloh`s tm Er. Daccord.Tmdoy A wacc tjobl ymu, os Er. Daccord, watl Blrast, los touglt ej.Tlas as hmt o ejssogj mh lmw tm coejht. Tlas as o ejssogj mi lmw tm fj Tmubljd fy

Fjouty, ohd imr Tlot tm dae murs jyjs.

Tlas as o ejssogj mh lmw tm Trucy Cavj ohd lmw tm cavj iuccy.Gmd dad hmt Brjotj Zs watl sacjhbj. Lj Brjotjd Zs Watl Las Wmrd. Lj Bmucd Hmt LovjBrjotjd Zs watl sacjhbj, os Lj Bmucd Hmt Lovj Brjotjd Zs watl sah mr djotl, fjbousj tljrj orj

Hm Rubl Tlahgs. Lj Eodj Zs watl Obtamh/Rufstohbj/Caglt. Ohd sm imr us tm `jjp sacjht as tm gmogoahst tlj Hoturj tlot govj Zs Cmvj. Cmvj as Wmrds ‒ o Wmrd . Ohd Er. Daccord ohd A lovjslorjd eaccamhs mi tlje.

Wj Rlorj Cmvj.Wljh wj iarst ejt A oe surj wj fmtl @hjw wlm wj wjrj, imr caij as tlj prmbjss mi

ortabucotahg tlj Tlahgs Qmu @hmw ‒ Blrast- ahtm smejtlahg ymu uhdjrstohd ‒ tm put tlmsj Tlahgsahtm wmrds, imr wmrds lovj pmwjr. At as tm ortabucotj Cmvj, Ioatl, ohd Lmpj. Wj @hmw wj orjFrmtljrs ‒ Er. Daccord ohd A - Rpjbaoc ah o woy tm mhj ohmtljr tlot wj wmucd iagurj mut lmw tm

put ahtm wmrds irme tlj iarst ahstoht mhword, tlus gavahg at pmwjr, tlus eoàhg at strmhgjr. Wlyjcsj wmucd wj spjhd tlj hjxt twjcvj yjors ejjtahg jobl wjj`, slorahg luhdrjds mi bups mibmiijj, ohd toc`s imr luhdrjds ohd luhdrjds mi lmurs. Fjbousj wj @hjw, fjbousj wj @hmw,Wlm Blrast As. Wj @hmw Blrast Cavjs ah Zs.

Tlas as Wlot at As tm Trucy Cmvj. Tljrj as hm mtljr Caij. Tljrj as mhcy Caglt. Tljrj asBlrast. Dor`hjss los hm pmwjr, at as tlj ofsjhbj mi Caglt, mi Wmrds. At as hmt o Rufstohbj.Tljrjimrj, ai dor`hjss sprjods, at as hmt fjbousj dor`hjss grmws strmhgjr. At as fjbousj tlmsj watltlj Caglt, tlj ^mwjr, cjt tlj dor`hjss sprjod fy hmt fjahg “Dmjrs mi tlj Wmrd,‑ fy cjttahg tljarioatl fj djod. Jvjry blacd mi Gmd as ofcj tm djijot tlj wmrcd. Ohd wj wah tlj vabtmry mvjr tljwmrcd fy ejohs mi ioatl. Ai mur ioatl as djod, wj cmsj. Tlj rjstmrotamh ohd jhd mi tlj wmrcd,tljrjimrj, cajs ah Mur Lohds, ohd at as tloh`s tm Er. Daccord, ohd Frmtljrs ohd Rastjrs tlot orjsubl Dmjrs mi tlj Wmrd, tlot wj cjorh, fy rjocazahg Blrast, lmw tm Trucy Cavj...tm Trucy Cmvj.

Tljrj as mhcy Caglt. Ohd ymu bohhmt to`j ymur jyjs mii mi Caglt. Ai ymu cmm` ahtm tljhaglt s`y, ymur jyj wacc outmeotaboccy imbus ah mh o stor, fjbousj wj wjrj eodj tm wmrslap ‒ wjwjrj eodj tm Gozj Zpmh Gmd/Caglt, ohd Caglt as uheastoòfcj. Qmu bohhmt to`j ymur jyjs miimi At ‒ At los tmm eubl Rpcjhdmr. Ohd sm Er. Daccord ohd A ejjt jvjry wjj` imr yjors, fjbousjWlot Cavjs ah Zs, ohd Qmu ey Frmtljrs ohd Rastjrs, as tmm Fjoutaiuc tm gm ofmut cavahg watlmutsjjahg. Ohd yjs, wj cavj imr tlj Zhsjjh ‒ tm gavj rjocaty ohd sufstohbj tm tlj Zhsjjh fy fjahgDmjrs mi tlj Wmrd ‒ ohd tlot as wly tm sjj tlj Zhsjjh ah o Frmtljr, o Rastjr, as tm cavj. Tljrj as



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hm mtljr caij. Wlot Er. Daccord ohd A slorj as o rjcotamhslap mi ioatl ‒ wj ejt os mitjh os pmssafcjah “ioatl‑ mi tlj Cmvj, tlj Caglt, slorjd, tlot wj fmtl @hmw sm wjcc fjbousj wj put At ahtm wmrds,ahtm lohdslo`js, ahtm bups mi bmiijj, ahtm iasl irajs, ahtm Iradoy haglts…Tljrj as hm mtljr Caij

fut ioatl. Ioatl as tlj mhcy ijotljr tlot boh Icy.Ey gjhjrotamh as tlj oaecjss gjhjrotamh. Wj dm hmt lovj o cohguogj fy wlabl tm

ortabucotj o placmsmplaboc-Tljmcmgy mi caij. Wj boh brjotj o placmsmply, ohd at as jepty, ohd wjboh brjotj o Tljmcmgy, ohd hmt `hmw lmw tm oppcy At. Tlj `jy tm oppcyahg mur Tljmcmgy as ahymur lohds, mcdjr gjhjrotamh. Qmu lovj tlj wmrds, tlj pmwjr, tm gavj ey gjhjrotamh wlot wjhjjd tm ortabucotj wlot wj @hmw, Blrast, ahtm smejtlahg wj boh uhdjrstohd ‒ ahtm smejtlahg wjboh cavj fy probtaboccy. Qmu lovj tlj `jy tm uhcmb`ahg tlj Caglt watlah us, tlus slahhahg at upmhtlj wmrcd, os wj orj boccjd fy Blrast tm dm…os ymu eust cjst tlj wmrcd jhds - os ymu eust

fjbousj ymu orj tlj soct mi tlj jortl, os orj occ Blrastaohs uhaimrecy watl occ tljar uhaquj boccs fjbousj Gmd as Mhj. Qmu orj ‒ hmt “wacc fj,‑ hmt “bmucd fj,‑ fut “orj‑ - tlj ljocjrs ohd prjsjrvjrsmi tlj wmrcd. Ai ymu dm hmt dm tlas ‒ os Er. Daccord dad ohd Dmjs - wlot gmmd orj ymu= Wlot assoct tlot los cmst ats soctahjss= At as soct, at as Rovjd, fut at los hm vocuj. At as djod ohd at woc`s.

Tlas fmdy rjprjsjhts o Rparat hoejd Er. Daccord wlm wos ohd As tlj soct ohd caglt mi tlj

jortl. Tlot as ey tjstoejht tm lae, ohd wlot A oe ljrj tm tjcc ymu. A oe ocsm ljrj tm os` - Orjymu= Dm ymu lovj soctahjss= Ai hmt, dm hmt coejht wljh tlj wmrcd bovjs ah ormuhd ymu. Qmu lovjbovjd at ah. Imr ioatl as djod watlmut “Dmjrs,‑ ohd ioatl as occ tljrj as. Ioatl as tlj mhcy iotljr tlotboh Icy.

Wlm wmucd woht ohy mtljr caij tlmugl, tloh tm fj caglt ohd tlj soct mi tlj jortl= Irmetlas wmrcd tlot as frm`jh ohd sm ior irme Ljovjh…ahiahatjcy ior irme Ljovjh ah dor`hjss ohd sahohd yjt sm Hjor fy Fjahg Watlah Zs…Tm lovj ioatl ah tlas wmrcd as lord. T ljrj as hm ioatl ah tlaswmrcd. Tljrj as ioatl ah us. Tljrj as o pmtjhtaoc imr ioatl ah occ pjmpcj, rjocazjd fy Blrast/Grobjtlrmugl Las fmdy. Tljrj as Trutl ah pjmpcj. Ohd sm at as lord tm wmrslap, tm lovj ioatl ah tlaswmrcd wljrj Trutl as Zhsjjh. Ohd yjt, irme tlas frm`jh wmrcd, wljrj wj coejht, wljrj wj lurt,wljrj wj suiijr…wljrj Gmd @hmws wj suiijr…dm ymu `hmw wlot gait wj lovj mvjr tljohgjcs…o gait tlot lod wj fjjh eodj stroaglt ahtm Ljovjh wj wmucd lovj hjvjr lod= Ah Ljovjh,mhj bohhmt ljcp fut wmrslap Gmd, fjbousj Las Caglt as Jvjrywljrj ohd Mvjrwljceahg ohd tljrjas Hmtlahg Jcsj Qmu boh dm. “Hmtlahghjss,‑ sah, as hmt Tljrj tm woht tm dm. Tljrj orj hmslodmws. Qmu orj eodj tm wmrslap, ymu orj eodj tm fj ah Fcass, imr wmrslap as Fcass, ohd ahLjovjh ymu orj ah Fcass. Wlot jcsj bmucd ymu woht, jspjbaoccy sahbj “hmtlahghjss‑ as hm cmhgjroh mptamh (uhcjss ymu wacc at tm fj…imr smej ahbmeprjljhsafcj rjosmh (…cmvj mvjr Cmvj))= Qjtljrj, tlas as hmt tlj bosj. Wj woc` ah o gcoss dor`cy. At as lord tm wmrslap. Fut irme ljrj, wj bohtmubl tlj Ljort mi Gmd ca`j tlj ohgjcs bohhmt. Tlj ohgjcs dm hmt lovj ioatl. Tljy lovj Raglt miGmd. Wj lovj tlj “uhsjjh‑ mi Gmd. Ohd sm, irme ljrj, o sahgcj frm`jh hmtj irme jortl boh frahgocc mi Ljovjh tm ats `hjjs wjjpahg…Fjbo usj ioatl as sm Fjoutaiuc. At as tlj mhcy tlahg tlot pcjosjsmur Iotljr, ohd sm wj, pjmpcj, orj tlj mhcy brjoturjs tlot boh pcjosj Gmd. At tmubljs Las Ljort.Fjbousj Lj @hmws lmw lord caij as ‒ Lj @hmws sah, djotl….Lj Fjors at occ mh Las Fob`. Ohdsm, `hmwahg tlas poah, ohd sjjahg mur ioatl, mur wmrslap tlot slahjs ca`j o stor ah tlj jhdcjss,uhbrjotjd haglt, mur Iotljr as pcjosjd ‒ Las Ljort as Tmubljd. Lmw wmhdjriuc as at tlot wj bohTmubl tlj Ljort mi Gmd, ohd tlot tlj emrj wj suiijr ohd struggcj…tlj emr j wj boh emvj Laewatl mur ioatl= Wlm wmucd woht tm cavj o caij tlot dmjs ohytlahg jcsj imr ohy emejht ot occ= Tmcavj ah tlas wmrcd as o gait, imr ljrj wj orj fcjssjd watl ioatl. Hjvjr imrgjt tm cmvj fjahg ocavj. Tmcmvj woc`ahg wljrj Gmd as Zhsjjh. Tm cmvj tlj fcjssahg mi ioatl. Qjs, at as truj tlot djotl gavjsus Yocuj, imr at rjuhatjs us watl Blrast, ohd sm djotl as tlj mhcy tlahg tlot eo`js us Ocavj. Fut at



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as mhcy fy cavahg tm tlj iuccjst, fy fjahg o Dmjr mi tlj Wmrd tm tlj iuccjst, tlot wj `hmw, Trucy,wlot tlas Yocuj, tlas Cmvj, Ejohs/ejohs0 imr at as tlj mhcy woy tm ortabucotj At…tlj mhcy woy tm

put cmvj ahtm Wmrds ‒ ahtm bmiijj bups, ahtm iasl irajs, ahtm Iradoy haglts...imr tlas as lmw wjsprjod tlj Caglt mi Blrast obrmss tlj wmrcd, tlus Iaccahg at.

Cavahg tm tlj iuccjst as tlj mhcy woy tm put ahtm wmrds; –Lj los Wmh…―

Ohd sm A os` ymu tmdoy - wmucd ca`j tm cavj subl o caij, o caij tlot Tmubljs Gmd= Tljrj orjeohy ljrj tlot wacc proy imr ymu. A wacc. Wj occ wacc. Imr wj orj Frmtljrs ohd Rastjrs0 wj orj oIoeacy. Tmdoy wj orj gotljrjd tm @hmw wj orj o Ioeacy.

Dm ymu Rjj Er. Daccord= Fjlmcd o eoh Wlm Tmubljs tlj Ljort mi Gmd.Ey Frmtljrs ohd Rastjrs… Gmd As Ah Las Ljovjh. Occ as raglt watl tlj wmrcd.

At as roahahg tmdoy. Tljrj orj hm cjovjs mh tlj trjj. At as o smit, wore roah. At ijjcs ca`jRprahg. At eo`js ej seacj.

Tljrj orj icmwjrs fjbousj at roahs. Mhcy tlmsj wlme caij as lord `hmw caij as gmmd.

Er. Daccord ohd A, ah Trutl, mwh oh mrplohogj. Wj sat mut ah rmb`ahg bloars watl ^mppoohd wotbl tlj blacdrjh pcoyahg ah tlj iajcd. Tljy gaggcj ohd spah ah tljar Ruhdoy drjssjs.



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AA (Mh Rhmw…)

Ortaiabaoc trjjs/(ahsjrt) lovj smejtlahg “cmst‑ tm tlje.

Wljh at shmws, pjmpcj toc` tm mhj ohmtljr. ^jmpcj suddjhcy lovj taej tm gm mutsadj ohd pcoy.Wly as at pjmpcj suddjhcy lovj tm gm dravahg wljh at shmws= Wly orj sm eohy pjmpcj

waccahg tm ljcp mtljrs=Dm pjmpcj lovj tm gm dravahg fjbousj tljrj as o blohbj tm gavj “fjahg‑ vocuj ‒ fy jorhahg

“fjahg=‑ As at fjbousj fuyahg immd ohd wotjr fjbmejs o bloccjhgj=Wly as at pjmpcj wacc soy ljccm tm tljar hjaglfmr wljh at shmws, fut hmt wljh tlj suh

bmejs mut=

Rastjr,

Tlj wmrcd blohgjs wljh at shmws. Wljh at shmws, suddjhcy pjmpcj lovj taej tm gmmutsadj ohd woc` ormuhd. Ruddjhcy tljy lovj taej tm pcoy ohd cougl. Ruddjhcy tljy lovj taej tm kust fj watl tljar ioeacy. Jvjrymhj as ocwoys ruhhahg ormuhd gjttahg rjody imr o tjst mr wratahg o popjr, ohd yjt wljh at shmws , at‑s ca`j occ tlot vohasljs. Ruddjhcy pjmpcj orj wovahg ohd seacahgot mhj ohmtljr mh tlj sadjwoc`. Ruddjhcy ymu orj ljcpahg o rohdme strohgjr gjt tljar boruhstub`. Ruddjhcy ymu orj frahgahg immd tm ymur hjaglfmr. Ruddjhcy ymu orj ot ymur hjaglfmr‑slmusj ormuhd tlj iarj. Ruddjhcy pjmpcj orj jxbatjd ofmut gmahg tm tlj grmbjry stmrj. Fjbousjtljrj as o bloccjhgj. Fjbousj eoh boh kust fj ohd jorh tlj vocuj mi kust “fjahg.‑ Rhmw frahgs ahtm

pjrspjbtavj wlot as aepmrtoht ‒ couglahg. Couglahg as wljrj Ljovjh as. A tlah` at as ahtjrjstahgtlot shmw dmjs tlas. At as eodj mi roah. At sjjes tlot roah tlot los irmzjh, tlot as stacc, stars tljsparat. Bmupcjs rjcasl ah at, ohd wore blmbmcotj gavjs at o eogaboc quocaty tlot emtljrs cmvj tmjxtjhd tm tljar cmvjd mhjs. Ejrj tjepjroturj boh trohsimre gcmme ahtm eogab. Fy fjbmeahg bmcdjhmugl, tlj tjors mi groy s`ajs trohsimre ahtm o slavjrahg roah tlot ljorts jhkmy. Qjt pjmpcj dmh‑ttjhd tm ca`j bmcdhjss, ohd pjmpcj dmh‑t tjhd tm ca`j roah. At kust gmjs tm slmw ymu tlot Gmmd as

pmtjhtaoccy ah jvjrytlahg, ohd rjocazjd ai put ah tlj Vaglt Bmhtjxt ‒ Las.Tlmugl tljrj wos o “iocc,‑ tlmugl tljrj wos “roah,‑ ohd tlmugl tljrj wos tlj “brubaiaxamh,‑

tlmugl tljrj wos “bmcdhjss,‑ irme occ mi tlot as rjocazjd Kmy.

Rahbjrjcy,Frmtljr

Rhmw uhvjacs wlot eottjrs.Rhmw rjvjocs wlot Eottjrs/eottjrs.Wj @hmw occ, ohd spjhd mur cavjs ortabucotahg Wlot wj @hmw, ahtm wlot wj uhdjrstohd.

Tmhaglt tlj rmod as jspjbaoccy fjoutaiuc tm Zbbjccm. Wljhjvjr at shmwjd, os o blacd,Zbbjccm wmucd ocwoys to`j vjry cmhg woc`s. Lj cmvjd lmw quajt tlj imrjsts wjrj. Tljrj wjrjluhdrjds mi rmws mi trjjs, ohd tljy kust stmmd tljrj, ah tlj shmw, cmyoc tm tljar imrjst. Tlj iajcdsorj bmvjrjd ah shmw tmhaglt. Tlj emmh lmvjrs mvjrljod, slorahg watl tlj shmw tlj djcabotj cagltat rjicjbts irme tlj suh. At as os Kjsus dad wljh lj woc`jd mh jortl ‒ tlrmugl Las lueoh slopj Lj



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slorjd watl us tlj Caglt mi las Iotljr. Rahbj tlj Ruh as tmm fraglt imr us tm darjbtcy cmm` upmh,Gmd sjht us Las Rmh, wlm tm us as ca`j o emmh.

Rhmw eo`js tlj haglt fragltjr. Lj woc`s imr o cmhg taej tmhaglt. Mh tljsj haglts, lj sjjsmhcy tlj saclmujttjs, fut lj sjjs jvjrytlahg ‒ occ tlj frohbljs mi tlj trjjs, occ mi tljemuhtoahs…At ijjcs ca`j lj boh ljor imr luhdrjds mi eacjs, irme tlj tlrmffahg mi las ljort tm tlj

emvjejht mh tlj pjo` mi tlj dastoht sueeat. At as o sacjht haglt. Tlj stors tmhaglt lovj o uhaqujjcjgohbj tlrmugl o fcoh`jt mi dusty bcmuds ‒ lj sjjs mhcy tlj fragltjst stors, ohd mhcy tljspljraboc gcmw mi tlj emmh.

Zbbjccm hmtabjs tlj ijhbj pmsts ocmhg tlj rmod. Lj boh mhcy sjj tljar slopjs. Fjbousj mitlj daehjss mi tlj emmhcaglt, rjicjbtjd mii tlj shmw, lj dmjs hmt sjj tlj warjs fjtwjjh tlje.Tlj pmsts cmm` ca`j tljy orj stohdahg ocmhj, ohd tlot tljy orj hmt bmhhjbtjd. Fut ah Trutl tljyOrj. Watlmut tlj shmw, Lj wmucdh‑t sjj ohytlahg ot occ.

Voah as o syefmc tlot usuoccy darjbts tlj eahd tmword sodhjss, ohd “bmcdhjss‑ tmwordlordslap mr opotly. Qjt, shmw, wlabl as roah tlot los irmzjh, as o bjcjfrotjd sufstohbj. At aseogaboc - o kmy mi blacdrjh. Zbbjccm los ocwoys imuhd shmw tm fj o sobroejht ah tlas woy…

Rastjr,At as roahahg tmdoy mvjr tlj shmw. Voah ejcts tlj shmw iostjst. A oe woc`ahg watl oh

uefrjcco. Ah tlas bmhtjxt tlj uefrjcco as Gmd‑s ^rm tjbtamh, fut at boh mhcy prmtjbt ej ai A bohrjemvj at ohd hmt ejct. Ai tlj uefrjcco atsjci as arrjcjvoht tm ej. Ai A `hmw wlot tlj roah @hmws.

A bmucd hmt aeogahj fjahg shmw tlot ejctjd uhdjr roah. Tlas shmw as tlj cu`jworeBlrastaohs ‒ tlmsj wlm lovj jxpjrajhbjd Grobj ohd lovj fjjh irjjd ahtm fjbmeahg o Blrastaoh,ohd tljh stmp. Tljsj orj tlj Blrastaohs wlm orj hmt Dmjrs mi tlj Wmrd. Tlas shmw tlot ejctsuhdjr tlj roah, rotljr tloh jefrobahg at, as tlj shmw Gmd spats mut mi las emutl, fjbousj at ashjat ljr “lmt hmr bmcd.‑

A oe tm fj shmw tlot ejcts uhdjr tlj Caglt. Wljh tlj Ruh jejrgjs irme mut mi tlj dor`bcmuds, wlabl as tlj emejht wljh Cmvj iahasljs poyahg tlj bmst mi spobjtaej/sah, Ats Caglt Iaccstlj shmw, ohd tlj shmw uhvjacs ats Truj Rjci ‒ tlj fcmssmeahg icmwjrs mi Rprahg/Jdjh. Tlas asTruj shmw.

Wacc Blrastaohs blmsj tm eaeab tlj hoturj mi Rhmw= Wly lovj wj hmt fcoh`jtjd tljbmuhtry sadjs yjt= Rhmw ijrtacazjs tlj grmuhd fjttjr tloh roah. Ai wj fcoh`jt jvjrytlahg,jvjrytlahg slocc fcmme watl fraglt bmcmrs.

Qjt wj eust hmt fj ca`j Cubaijr.

Rahbjrjcy,Frmtljr

Voah as o syefmc tlot usuoccy darjbts tlj eahd tmword sodhjss, ohd “bmcdhjss‑ tmwordlordslap mr opotly. Qjt, shmw, wlabl as roah tlot los irmzjh, as o bjcjfrotjd sufstohbj. At aseogaboc - o kmy mi blacdrjh. Zbbjccm los ocwoys imuhd shmw tm fj o sobroejht ah tlas woy, ohdtmhaglt at eo`js lae tlah` ofmut las cmst irajhds, tlj ar “vmad,‑ ohd las mwh caij…

Rhmw as jatljr tlj Truj imccmwjr mr tlj Ioccjh Ohgjc. At djpjhds mh rotljr tlj shmw Ioccstm Vasj, mr ai Vasjh, at Ioccs ‒ at djpjhds mh rotljr at lurcs Atsjci ahtm Mfcavamh mr Trutl.



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Tlj garcs orj gmhj. Rtorr as gmhj. A jhtjrjd ot tlj stort mi tlj sjejstjr tm oh jepty rmme,lmpahg tm lovj at occ tm eysjci. Ejeo proyjd imr ej hmt tm lovj o rmmeeotj. Wljh A jhtjrjd ottlj jhd mi tlj sjejstjr tm ey rmmeeotj‑s jepty rmme, A brajd.

At as kust Qmu ohd ej Iotljr. Ljcp ej.–Wlot hmw=―

Hmw at fjgahs.

A wotbl o emvaj ofmut o eoh mh o warj oitjr gavahg o spjjbl. At as tlj emst fjoutaiucemvaj A lovj jvjr sjjh. At as ca`j wotblahg o fofy fj fmrh ah o eohgjr. A `jjp wotblahg o

portabucor emejht ah tlj emvaj wljh A brajd mvjr ohd mvjr ogoah. A oe tryahg tm rjbcoae tlj iarstjxpjrajhbj (os wj occ dm (tm rjbcoae Jdjh (rotljr wj `hmw at mr hmt))). Oh jhtarj caijtaej as cavjdah lmpjs mi botblahg “o gcaeejr mi Jdjh,‑ ohd ai tlot as mftoahjd, hm eottjr wlot as cmst, occ asWjcc. Imr mhj @hmws Gmd as Tljrj. Ah `hmwahg Gmd, ymu uhdjrstohd occ taej ohd occ atsmbburrjhbjs orj kust slodmws mi tlj Trutl. Ohd ymu orj wmrrajd ohd ohxamus ofmut hmtlahg…

Qjstjrdoy A prahtjd mii ey fmm`. A gm mutsadj. Ohd fjbousj at wos shmwahg, A dad hmt puttlj popjrs ah o fog. A cjt at shmw upmh tlje.

A drmp Zbbjccm mhtm tlj grmuhd tlj sjbmhd A tlah` Zbbjccm as tlj emst aepmrtoht tlahg ahey caij, tlahàhg tlot fjimrj Gmd. A tlrmw at dmwh ah lmrrmr.

Rastjr,

Voah as o syefmc…las mwh caij… Fy fjahg fmrh ahtm o ioccjh wmrcd, wj orj fmrh ah “bmcdhjss‑ Os wj gjt mcdjr, wj `hmw

tlas emrj ohd emrj. Tlas “bmcdhjss,‑ tlas “ofsjhbj mi ljot‑ as tlj “vmad‑ ymu toc` ofmut ohd wloteohàhd los ioccjh ahtm. Tlj “vmad‑ as tlj qujstamh Tlj Druhòrd to`js mh, ohd eubl mi Zbbjccm

‒ tlj qujstamh mi Rufstohbj vjrsus Mfcavamh, Eory vjrsus Rtyx, watl Es. Fco`js fjahg lueohatybouglt ah tlj eaddcj, djbadahg wlabl tm obbjpt. Tlj Druhòrd prjsjhts tm us tlj twm mptamhs, ohdos`s us tm blmmsj. Ey praeory jxoepcj mi “tlj vmad,‑ wlabl Blrast fjors upmh Las fob`, as“Vjgjh.‑

Wj occ jxpjrajhbj tlj vmad ah smej imre rjcotavj tm mur satuotamh … Dor`hjss, fjbousj at as o tjre rjijrrahg tm o stotj mi caglt, as ahiahatj, ohd sm wj boh

ahiahatjcy lurc mursjcvjs ah ats darjbtamh. Wj boh jhdcjsscy puhbl tlj ahdmeatofcj wocc mi mur fjahg ‒ wj boh àb` at, sbrjoe ot at, lurcs mur sùccs ahtm at…Fut tlj io bt rjeoahs tlot tlj wocc asahdmeatofcj. Wj bohhmt djijot at. Tlj mhcy mhj Wlm boh as…

A wjht tlrmugl o vjry cmhg spoh mi jxtrjej djprjssamh. A wmucd caj ah fjd ot haglt, ohd tryhmt tm iocc oscjjp. Ai A ijcc oscjjp, o hjw doy wmucd fjgah. Tlas wjht mh imr yjors. Tlj “vmad‑drmvj ej ahtm eodhjss…

Ey ljcc wos ey Grobj. Ey ljcc as ey Ljovjh.Cmvj ocwoys ahburs bmst.Ohd sm ey caij, jhwroppjd ah tlj bmcdhjss mi tlj iocc, tmm` mh tlj roah, ohd trohsimrejd

ahtm tlj fjoutaiuc shmw wlabl bmotjd tlj iajcds ocmhg t lj rmod tmhaglt…tlj fjo utaiuc shmw tlotseacjs ah tlj Emmhcaglt …

Grobj as tlj roah tlot turhs us ahtm shmw0 at gavjs caij tm tlj icmwjrs. At as tlj lordslap wjrjquarj tm fj eodj rjody imr Las Caglt ohd Bocc.

Rhmw as fjoutaiuc, rorj, ohd eo`js tlj haglt fraglt.



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Mvjrwmr`jd, Zbbjccm sjjs o emvaj ofmut o eoh mh o warj. At as sm Fjoutaiuc.Zbbjccm suddjhcy cmm`s mut las wahdmw, ohd at as shmwahg. Lj lod hm adjo. At wos hmt

suppmsjd tm dm tlas ot occ.(Jra` Rotaj - Trmas Gyehmpádajs) Zbbjccm gmjs tm las bcmsjt. Lj puts mh fcob` slmb`s. Lj pmcasljs las slmjs quab`cy. Lj

puts mh las suat. Lj pab`s mut las iovmratj taj ‒ o gmcd mhj. Lj puts mh oh mvjrbmot. Lj grofs lasbohj. Ohd lj robjs mutsadj ahtm tlj shmw. Lj seacjs ca`j las Rastjr touglt lae. Lj gmjs wocàhg.Vuhhahg. Ràppahg. Wocàhg. Ohd jvjry hmw ohd tljh lj wmucd kust twarc, kust tm twarc. Ljwmucd cougl…kust tm gaggcj. Lj woc`s ohd spahs…ohd spahs…ohd gaggcjs…las bohj wlarcahgormuhd. Lj `hmws wly at as ioccahg ‒ tlj Gcmry. Lj sjjs tlj shmw rasahg ‒ sm Grobjiuc. Lj sjjs At.At as sm Fjoutaiuc…

Ohd suddjhcy tljrj as o rjcaji ah lae. Tlas as las Ohswjr. Jvjrytlahg lj dad wos Vaglt.

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Tlj C(ljcp)mvj Rtmry

Wj spjo` fjtwjjh mur wmrds**emrj tloh wj spjo` wmrds.

(Ohd) A ijjc os ai A oe bmhstohtcy kuepahg mut mi wmrcds.~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Jxlafat O; Zbbjccm

Tlas as ey famgroply. At as hmt ey outmfamgroply. A wrmtj at.A oe o eoh wlm as ocwoys seacahg, fut ey caps dmh‑t lmcd tm ey iobj. Ey caps dohgcj

fob` ohd imrtl irme tlj jdgj mi ey cjit bljj` ca`j o swahgahg, pjrlops djod, frohbl. A lmcd tljeup wljh pjmpcj orj cmm`ahg, ohd smejtaejs quab`cy stab` o pajbj mi topj uhdjr ey hmsj tm `jjptlje tljrj. Tlot mhcy wmr`s cmhg jhmugl tm se(=)acj ot o possahg strohgjr mr wovj ot smejmhj ottlj fus stmp. Imr dahhjrs mr ejjtahgs, A lovj tm usj o hoac. A ca`j at wljh ey caps boh kust dohgcj.

Hmt irjjcy, fut hmt jhshorjd.A oe o bordfmord stohdup. A oe o bordfmord grohdiotljr-bcmb`, ohd ey caps orj atsbordfmord-pjhducue bmuhtahg owoy tlj bordfmord-lmurs.

At‑s roahahg raglt hmw, ejctahg tlj icmwjrs ahtm o wostjcohd. Ats caglt as os ljovy os mcdshmw. At‑s ey ohgjc mi Grobj, ey djor Jfuhmcuwo .–Lmw‑s tlj vajw=― Grobj slmuts up watl o loppy spor`cj. A frjo` ahtm o seacj, –Wmrtl at.―

A oe sm djprjssjd.–La Zbbjccm! Ohmtljr doy ah tlj cafrory…=― –La Es. Oca, ahdjjd at as. L mw orj ymu=― –Wmhdjriuc, at‑s sm gmmd tm sjj ymu. Qmu ocwoys fragltjh ey doy.― –Tloh` ymu.―

Qjt A oe tlj emst cmvjd pjrsmh.Racjht, yjt cmud watlah, Zbbjccm sats dmwh mh tlj cowh ohd wjjps ahtm las lohds.

–Wly Grobj= Wly…=― Tlj Iucc Emmh as wotblahg lae.A dmh‑t `hmw wlot mi ej as o eos` ohd wlot mi ej ash‑t. A oe hmt oh obtmr. Fjbousj A

rjoccy oe mhj. Caij as o gcoss, ohd at as o stogj. A ljrjfy ahvatj tlj ohgjcs tm bmej dmwh tlrmuglcaij‑s otraue ohd iacc tlj tljotjr tm wotbl. Eoy ats lmrrmr sjt ymu irjj…

A oe sm sod tlot A eo`j eysjci plysaboccy sab`. At‑s tlj mhcy woy A boh gjt syepotly ohdtlmsj pots mh tlj fob`, tlmsj ahstohbjs mi tmubl, A sm djspjrotjcy hjjd. Hm mhj `hmws ey pcaglt,ohd A sm bohhmt gjt syepotly imr at. A lovj tm gjt at ohmtljr woy. A lovj tm fj pocj ohd sab`.–Imrgavj ej Iotljr imr cob` ahg tlj Ioatl tm kust Woc` ah Qmu `hmwahg Qmu wjjp imr ej, ohdlovahg tlmsj tjors fj emrj tloh jhmugl.―

Dad ymu `hmw tlot ymu sjj ymur rjicjbtamh ah o wahdmw wljh at as haglt mutsadj=Dad ymu `hmw tlot ymu sjj ymursjci wljh tlj rjst mi tlj wmrcd as bmvjrjd ah dor`hjss=

Jobl doy, A sbljducj ey djocahgs sm tlot A jhd up ah tlj cafrory fy iavj, ohd tljrj A satdmahg ey rjsjorbl uhtac eadhaglt. Oitjr tlot, A emvj tm smej mtljr pcobj. A oe uhrjcjhtahgcy tajd



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tm tlas sbljducj, ohd tlj rjosmh imr at as tm jstofcasl o sacjht `hmwcjdgj ah occ tlot `hmw ej - tlotA oe ocwoys tljrj. Ai tljy woht tm bmej sjj ej, tljy `hmw wljrj tm gm.

A `jjp sattahg ljrj, ah tlas cafrory, fjbousj slj, ey Jfuhmcuwo , eaglt slmw up. A jvjhstoy mh tlj jeoac tm `jjp ey grjjh “A‑e ljrj‑ s totus up mh ey ahstoht ejssjhgjr os oh ahdarjbtwoy tm rjeahdjr ljr tlot A oe ljrj, fjbousj jvjrymhj‑s ahstoht ejssjhgjrs slmw tlj hoejs mi

tljar irajhds ohd laglcaglts tlje o bmcmr fosjd mh wljh tljy orj mii mr mh. A lmpj tlj saglt mi eyhoej wacc staeuco tj o tlmuglt ah ljr. Eoyfj slj‑cc bmej iahd ej. Ai A‑e ot lmej ah ey dmre,tlot wmh‑t jvjh fj o pmssafacaty. Rm A lovj tm stoy ljrj watl ey hoej up mh ey ahstohtejssjhgjr.

Wlacj sattahg ljrj, ogoahst tlj wocc ohd fjimrj o wahdmw mi tlj cafrory, A boh‑t `jjpeysjci irme cmmàhg mvjr ey slmucdjr bmhstohtcy ah lmpjs mi sjjahg ljr. Tlj adjo mi eassahg tljblohbj tm sjj ljr lmrraiajs ej. Fut tlas as ofsurd; tljrj orj iaitjjh-tlmusohd pjmpcj ot tlasbmccjgj0 tljrj as hm blohbj slj as fjlahd ej. Ohd yjt tlj adjo tlot raglt hmw, ot tlas ahstoht, sljeaglt fj possahg fy, ohd tlot A dmh‑t lovj jvjh tlj scagltjst bcuj…A bohhmt ljcp fut cmm` ogoah.Ohd tljh ogoah.

A bohhmt fjcajvj tlot imr o ? mut mi ?:,>>> blohbj A sbljducj mut ey jhtarj doy…

A‑e ocwoys bljbàhg tlj ahstoht ejssjhgjr tm sjj tlot slj‑s mh. At‑s hmt ofmut tocàhg tmljr, at‑s ofmut kust `hmwahg slj‑s mh…tlot ah smej woy, wj‑rj o cattcj bcmsjr tloh wljh slj‑s hmt.Rlj hjvjr bmhtobts ej. A‑e oiroad tm bmhtobt ljr. Tlj jxtrjej bmhhjbt -ofacaty mi tlj wmrcd os obmhsjqujhbj mi tjblhmcmgy eo`js at sm josy imr pjmpcj tm fj lurt wljh smejmhj dmjsh‑t bmhtobttlje, jspjbaoccy wljh wj lovj ioccjh ah cmvj watl tlje. Rahbj wj hoturoccy tjhd tm ossuej tljwmrst, wj hoturoccy ossuej wj orj lotjd. Tlj bmefahotamh mi tjblhmcmgy ohd lueoh pjssaeaseas djstrubtavj.

Ohd yjt, jvjh `hmwahg tlot, A bohhmt stohd tlas sacjhbj fjtwjjh us. At as hmt o sacjhbj tlotas jvohjsbjht wovjs ah tlj oar, josacy possjd tlrmugl0 at as o smcadaiajd abj mi tlmsj wovjs ahtm owocc A bohhmt poss. Hmt fjbousj A bohhmt poss tlrmugl tlj oar, fut fjbousj tlj wocc as ocwoysemvahg oljod mi ej ot tlj soej spjjd A oe emvahg. Hm eottjr wljrj A gm, hm eottjr lmw iost mrscmw A oe gmahg, ohd hm eottjr wlot emejht at as ah, tlj wocc as ocwoys kust oljod mi ej. Jobldoy A ruh mh o trjodeacc imr eacjs, kust storahg ot tlj uhemvahg wocc upmh tlj uhemvahg eoblahjos ey cjgs fjot lord ogoahst tlj ruffjr. At as mhcy tljh tlot tlj wmrcd ijjcs hmreoc.

A lovj tm ruh jvjry doy. Watlmut tlot hmreocby, A bohhmt iuhbtamh.Ohd yjt, jvjh `hmwahg tlot, A bohhmt stohd tlas sacjhbj fjtwjjh us. A lovj tm soy

smejtlahg tm ljr. Fut wlot= Wlot ai tlot eo`js ljr uhbmeimrtofcj= Fut wlot ai slj‑s lmpahg A‑ccsoy ljccm= Lmw boh A `hmw= A sjj slj‑s mh raglt hmw. Eoyfj slj‑cc bmej vasat ej. Eoyfj slj‑ccmhcy bmej vasat ej ai A soy smejtlahg. Kust sjjahg ljr hoej sjts ej oicoej. A‑e hmt surj ai at‑swatl possamh mr ogmhy0 eoyfj tljy‑rj tlj soej tlahg. A dmh‑t `jjp sacjht mut mi cobàhgbmhiadjhbj0 A kust dmh‑t woht tm put ljr mh tlj spmt .

A lotj hoejs. Tljy orj pmahtcjss. Tljy orj hmtlahg fut o imre tm iacc tlj cob` mi wlot wjdmh‑t @hmw mi Rmejmhj. Hoejs orj hmt tlj “Qmu.‑ Wly lovj hoejs wljh wj boh ahstjod kust

pucc tlje ahtm o lug tm soy ljccm= Hoejs gavj us o ejohs tm grjjt watlmut oiijbtamh, ohd tloh`stm tlj josj mi at, wj quab`cy odmpt tlj probtabj. Jobl hoej as prmiohj tm tlj Rparat. ^jrlops tljylovj usj imr rmcc boccs, fut A lotj rmcc boccs. Vmcc boccs orj bopatocast djvabjs mi djlueohazotamh imrtlj jiiabajht iuhbtamhahg (ohd tl jrjfy bmrruptahg) mi systjes. “Vmcc boccs‑ kust rjeahd us mi mursjporotamh…lmw pjmpcj ohswjr tm daiijrjht wmrds tljh us. Lmw wj orj mhcy tlj soej fy murdaiijrjht hoejs.



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–Qmu (e oyfj Grobj as oiroad mi cmsahg tlj iuturj slj wohts; slj‑s oiroad o rjcotamhslap wacc gjtah tlj woy) tmm.― A seacj ohd wovj gmmdfyj. A ocemst woht tm stort o rjcotamh watl o garc A `hmwcmvjs ej, ah lmpjs mi drmwhahg occ “tlas‑ mut. Fut A boh‑t dm at…A boh‑t ras` cmsahg Grobj.

A lovj tlas garc tlot as ah cmvj watl ej wlm eotbljs ej pjrijbtcy, fut ey fjst irajhd ca`jsljr. Ohd A boh‑t cmvj ljr hm eottjr lmw lord A try. Mdd. Lmwjvjr, A tlah` tlot ai A lod o blohbj tm

rjoccy `hmw ljr, A bmucd jrosj occ tlj poahs mi Grobj. Fut A‑d cmsj ey frmtljr, wlm dmjsh‑t tlah`tljrj as ohytlahg fjtwjjh ej ohd tlj garc, fjbousj A tmcd lae ofmut Grobj. A‑vj hjvjr tmcdohymhj ofmut ey ijjcahgs fjimrj. Hmt uhtac tljy bmucd djstrmy ej.–Wly dmh‑t ymu cmvj ej=!― slj slmuts ah tjors os A cmm` ljr djod ah tlj jyjs, ohd occ A boh soy,struggcahg tm soy tlj wmrds, slo`ahg ey ljod ah owj, as,–A dmh‑t `hmw.―

Jfuhmcuwo Grobj as djstrmyahg ej. Trucy ymu orj hjvjr bcmsjr tm lotahg tljh ymu orjwljh ah cmvj…ioccahg imr Cmvj….

A hjjd tm toc` tm ljr. Cmvj as tlj pjrpjtuoc prmbjss mi emvahg fjymhd ymur pjrbjptamh mismejmhj tm `hmw tljar Truj Rjci. A bohhmt cmvj ljr cjst A toc` tm ljr. Ohd A bohhmt bmhiare rotljrtlas ahsohaty, tlas poah, as gmmd, mr rotljr at as o sahiuc cust. Rm A sjhd ljr oh jeoac.

Es. Jfuhmcuwo Grobj

Ocraglt, oitjr ca`j 6 emhtls cob`ahg mi oh jxtjhdjd pjramd mi jhkmyahg ymur prjsjhbj ohddavahg ahtm tlj eystjrajs mi caij, ohd oitjr 6 wjj`s mi woatahg tm spjhd o 6> watl ymur hoej mh at,

A wmucd grjotcy jhkmy oh odvjhturj mi ohy hoturj. A dmh't rjoccy jvjh gjt o blohbj tm sjj lmw ymuorj dmahg durahg ejjtahgs ohyemrj fjbousj A'e stub` fjlahd tlj Rjbrjtory's djs`, hmr durahgtlj wjj` fjbousj mur sbljducjs lovj blohgjd ohd wj'rj fmtl robahg ormuhd irohtaboccy, eubl tmey grjot smrrmw. Boh wj pcjosj lovj odvjhturj (aeogahj puppy dmg jyjs ohd wlaepjrahg)=

A woat imr o rjpcy. A hjvjr gjt mhj. Tlas dravjs ej ahsohj. Dmjs slj lotj ej= Oe A hmtjvjh wmrtly mi o djhaoc= Jvjry taej A try tm sjtup o ejjtahg watl ljr, smejtlahg bmejs up.Rlj‑s fusy0 slj‑s ah o bmhvjrsotamh. Wj‑rj fmtl port mi o djfotj smbajt y, mhj A oe tlj sjbrjtorymi. Tlas pmsatamh rjquarjs ej tm ocwoys fj sattahg ot o djs` ah tlj raglt bmrhjr mi tlj ejjtahg locc.Rlj sats ah tlj oudajhbj. A boh sjj ljr, A boh ijjc tlas fjotahg tlrust ahsadj mi ej, fut A bohhmt gjttm ljr. Frjo`s gavj ej ofmut twm-eahutjs tm, ai A boh gjt tlrmugl tlj brmwds, tm gavj ljr oeossavj lug, wlabl as wljh A try tm squjjzj eysjci ahtm ljr, fut tlot as occ. Tlj smcj –ljccm!― astmrturj. Lmw boh A cmvj ljr ai bohhmt stravj tm “`hmw ljr Truj Rjci=‑ Lmw boh A `hmw ai tl as ascmvj, mr mfsjssamh=

A dmh‑t `hmw wlot tm dm; A dmh‑t `hmw wlot tm tlah`; A dmh‑t `hmw wlot tm ijjc.

A lovj oh adjo imr o slmrt stmry fosjd mh occ tlas. At wacc fj ey stmry, watl o scaglt twast. A kust iahasljd tlj pacmt;

2Lj sats tljrj occ tlj taej. Jvjrymhj wlm jvjr gmjs ahtm tlj cafrory `hmws wlm lj as. Lj‑s

tlj fmy watl tlj tmmtlpab`. Lj stoys tljrj, wljrj tljrj orj cmts mi pjmpcj occ tlj taej, ah lmpjs misjjahg ljr. Tlas cafrory as las fjst blohbj. Jvjry doy, irme iavj ah tlj oitjrhmmh tm twjcvj othaglt, lj sats tljrj, ohd lmpjs.



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Tljh mhj doy, tlj fmy owo`js tm iahd laesjci vjry sab`. Lj boh forjcy ijjc tlj wahd fjtwjjh las iahgjrs. Las ljod tlrmfs, ohd lj boh lordcy orasj mut mi fjd. Fut, wljh iavj m‑bcmb`rmccs ormuhd, lj stoggjrs ahtm bcmtlahg, ohd tm tlj cafrory. Lj eo`js at smejlmw. Lj to`js lassjot, mpjhs o fmm`, ohd kust cmm`s ot tlj wmrds. Las bmcmr as o wlatjhahg pocj. Las irajhds tjcc laelj hjjds tm cjovj, fut lj dmjsh‑t. Lj boh‑t ras` eassahg o blohgj tm sjj ljr. Tlj lmurs poss , ohd

lj ijjcs las ahtjrhocs icorahg emrj ohd emrj. Las jyjs orj ljovy. Lj hjjds tm rjst. Rm, smitcy, ljbcmsjs las jyjs, ohd puts las ljod dmwh mh tlj djs`. Lj draits mii tm scjjp wljrj slj boh sjj lae.Lj dmjsh‑t wo`j up.

Hmtj; A‑cc djbadj lmw at jhds jxobtcy fosjd mh lmw ey cmvj stmry jhds. (A wmhdjr wlot tlj wmrd“cmvj‑ ejohs ah tlot cost sjhtjhbj…)

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. Grobj as gmhj tm ej. At‑s hmt tlot slj‑s djod. Rlj‑s kust hmt ljrj. Ohd A dmh‑t `hmw lmwtm iahd ljr. A wohdjr tlj strjjts ahtm brmwds ohd sat mh fjhbljs ah mpjh pcobjs, fut hmtlahg jvjrbmejs mi at. Jvjry garc cmm`s ca`j ljr. A wasl A bmucd fj o hoac ah ljr lohd. Rlj wmucd ijjc ej

tljh. Tlot‑s occ A woht. Imr ljr tm ijjc ej fob` wmucd kust fj o suprjej fmhus.Ohd yjt, occ tlot soad, A wmucd fj cyahg tm ymu ai A soad tlot A dadh‑t woht tm fj ah tlas poah.Tlmugl ymu orj hjvjr bcmsjr tm lotahg tloh wljh ymu orj cmvahg, o ejrj icap-mi-o-swatbl owoy, Awoht tlot horrmw woy fjimrj, fjlahd, ohd ormuhd ej. Vjjd eodj ej rjocazj tlas. At as kust ca`jlmw o Rocemh iaglt up o ravjr, jvjry yjor hm eottjr wlot. Kust tm lovj o blacd, ohd tljh daj.Wly= Tlj kmurhjy as lord, ohd at bmucd gjt jotjh fy o fjor. Qjt at swaes at. Tlj iasl bohhmt fjwlot at as ejoht tm fj watlmut ats poahiuc kmurhjy. At boh mhcy eo`j tlot kmurhjy watl tlj ljcp miGrobj.

Grobj blohgjs us. Ohd blohgj as lord.Imr ej tm tjcc ymu tlot A dm hmt woht tm fj ah cmvj wmucd fj o caj. Wj occ woht tm fj. Wj

lovj tm swae up ravjr. Qjt wj lovj hm rjosmh tm jxpcoah wly. Cmvj as uhljoctly. At djstrmys us.At porocyzjs us. At eo`js us ijjc wmrtlcjss. At ogmhazjs us. Wj iahd mursjcvjs wohdjrahg oaecjsscyohd bmhstohtcy cmm`ahg mvjr mur slmucdjrs ah ijor mi eassahg “ljr,‑ djspatj lmw ahsohj tlj

prmpmsatamh. Fjbousj slj eaglt fj tljrj. Ohd sm mvjr ohd mvjr ogoah, wj cmm` fjlahd us.Wj lovj tm. Tlj Wocc As. Ohd sm mur wocc as.

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Os A sat ljrj, pmhdjrahg eysjci, A rjocazj tlot tlj grjotjst djbasamh mi ey caij as rotljr mrhmt A tjcc jvjrymhj ofmut Tlj Wocc, ohd ras` spahhahg tlj wlmcj jortl mii ahtm mutjr-spobj. Futash‑t tlot wlot A woht= A wmucd stmp fjahg sm ocmhj…fut ash‑t tlot sjciasl=

A dmh‑t `hmw. At as durahg tljsj taejs tlot A tlah` ofmut tlot drjoe A lod watl Grobj. A rjejefjr at

bcjorjr tloh doy.Grobj ohd A wjrj ruhhahg dmwh o cmhg Locc. At wos vjry wadj ohd lagl, hmt obbmrdahg tm

ohy dastohbj, fut fjbousj wj tlmuglt at wos. Wj tlmuglt wj eaglt os wjcc. Wj wjrj fmtlcouglahg ohd seacahg. Wj wmucd quab`cy cjop obrmss tlj scab` icmmr ohd scadj occ tlj woy tm tljmtljr jhd, couglahg sm lord wj bmucd lordcy frjotlj. Tljh wj‑d dm at ogoah. Wj pcoyjd tlas goejimr o cmhg taej, lmcdahg jobl mtljrs‑ lohd, rjiusahg tm cjt gm hmt mut mi o bmhsbamus jiimrt, fut



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fjbousj mur lohds wjrj Mhj. Tljh, oitjr mhj portabucor scadj, Grobj fuepjd ljr ljod mh TljWocc. Rlj wosh‑t lurt ot occ, fut A stacc imuhd eysjci puccahg ljr ahtm ey ores. A ruffjd tlj spmt,ohd `assjd ljr mh tlj frmw. Rmitcy, cyahg mh tlj icmmr, lmcdahg ljr ah ey ores, A rjstjd ey ljodogoahst ljrs. Tlot‑s occ A wohtjd tm dm.

Hmw, tlah`ahg fob` mh tlas drjoe tlot as sjporotjd irme ej fy tljsj wlatj gops ah tlj

oar, A `hmw djspatj tlot tlj vasamh mr drjoe as irogejhtjd, tlot‑s stacc wlot A woht. Tlmsjirogejhts mi tlot emejht fjtwjjh “ta‑ ohd “ej‑ orj jhmugl imr ej tm `hmw tlas; tm `hmw tlot A kust woht tm `hmw Ljr. Hmt imr tlj so`j mi djsarj, fut imr tlj so`j mi “Rmejtlahg Emrj‑. Imr Ljr.

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Wj spjo` fjtwjjh mur wmrds**emrj tloh wj usj wmrds.

(Ohd) A ijjc os ai A oe bmhstohtcy kuepahg mut mi wmrcds.~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Jxlafat F; Jfuhmcuwo Grobj

Tlas as ey famgroply. At as hmt ey outmfamgroply. A wrmtj at.Wljh A wos o àd, A rjejefjr gjttahg vjry upsjt ofmut hmt fjahg ofcj tm sjj ey mwh

iobj. At lat ej occ ot mhbj. A wos sattahg up ah ey rmme, ah tlj dae gcmw fjtwjjh oitjrhmmh ohdtwacaglt, pcoyahg watl o dmcc, statblahg mh ljr jyjs, wljh A rjocazjd A bmucdh‑t sjj eahj. A bmucdsjj eysjci wjjpahg irme tlj dastohbj ah ey eahd, ohd A bmucd sjj tlj tjors trobahg dmwh eyhmsj, fut tlot wosh‑t gmmd jhmugl. A ijct ey iobj, ohd trajd tm rap at mii sm tl ot A bmucd sjj at ah

ey lohds. Tlj adjo tlot o imrjagh, uh-sjjofcj djemh wos bcahgahg tm ej, watlmut ohy ofacaty mhey fjloci tm emhatmr at, upsjt ej. Jvjh wmrsj, A bmucd hmt rjemvj at. Rm A bcowjd ot ey jyjs,djbadahg A bmucd rap tlje mut ohd cmm` fob` ot ey iobj. Eme stmppjd ej wljh A wjht tm tljàtbljh tm gjt o `haij.

Ey iobj stacc eo`js ej sod.–A jhkmy s(ljcp) jx.―

O irot-fmy to`js o swag mi fjor,–Cjt‑s gm…―

Tlot‑s ey cahj. A boh gjt ohy guy kust watl tlot. At‑s oh josy lmm`. Fut A dmh‑t lovj o pmc j.Eoyfj mhj taej A dad, eoyfj mhj taej A lod smej smrt mi “foat,‑ fut A dmh‑t ijjc at ohy cmhgjr. *

Wj drah` smej emrj ohd lj storts uhdrjssahg ej. A‑e prjtty surj las hoej as ( ahsjrt ).*Hmt fjbousj A dmh‑t lovj jemtamhs - hm eottjr wlot ymu‑rj gmahg tm fj jemtamhoccy

ahvmcvjd ah “sjx‑ ‒ fut fjbousj A rjcasljd ah jemtamhs. Dad ymu `hmw tlot jemtamhs obtavj tljsoej “caglts‑ ah tlj froah tlot drugs dm= A‑vj hjvjr to`jh drugs (A dmh‑t tlah`), fut A‑vj ljord tlottlj froah trjots tlje tlj soej woy. Tlj trab` as hmt tm fj oddabtjd. Rastjr Foco tmcd ej tlot ymu“eust hmt ottobl jemtamhs tm jxpjrajhbjs, ymu eust cjt tlje poss. Os ymu wotbl o emvaj ohd cjttlj djotls mi blorobtjrs poss tlrmugl ymu, ymu eust cjt caij dm tlj soej. Qmu eust cavj imr tljjxpjrajhbjs, mr ats drugs slocc djstrmy ymu.‑ Wljh A ljord tlas tlj iarst taej, A tlmuglt at wos ovjry daseoc vajw. A tlmuglt A wos fjttjr tloh tlot.

(ahsjrt ) stab`s las lohd dmwh ey kjohs.*Fut tljh A rjocazjd A wosh‑t. Ai ymu‑rj cavahg imr tlj jemtamhs mi jxpjrajhbjs, ymu‑rj

fjahg sjciasl. Imr jxoepcj; ah o rjcotamhslap, ymu eust hmt sjj` ymur jemtamhoc ahtjrprjtotamh mismejmhj, fut rotljr wlm tljy Vjoccy orj. Fut A wosh‑t ohy gmmd ot sjporotahg “jemtamhs irmejxpjrajhbjs mr wlotjvjr…‑ sm ahstjod A kust mvjrdmsjd mh jemtamhs uhtac A dajd. Ohd tljh A `jptwocàhg. Cavahg as ofmut sacjhbahg jvjrytlahg fut ymur icjsl ohd tlrmugl smej huefahg,

fjbmeahg jemtamhoccy ahvuchjrofcj. Mr ot cjost hm mhj los tmcd ej daiijrjhtcy. A‑e prjtty surjtlot‑s wlot Foco ejoht…

A cjorhjd o cmhg taej ogm ymu stort mii fy gavahg o guy mroc, ohd tljh ymu iahd mut ai ljca`js ymu mr hmt.



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*A dmh‑t cmm` ca`j ohyfmdy ohyemrj. A frusl ey loar ah tlj earrmr ohd put eo`j-up mhormuhd ey sbors. A tlah` tlot jobl mi tljsj buts ohd jobl mi tljsj pmrjs mh ey iobj orj prjsjhtjdah subl o woy os tm wlaspjr o Rahbjraty Fjymhd. Ohd tlot ai ats sobroejht wjrj frm`jh, ai o sahgcjjyjcosl wjrj prjsjhtjd ah ohy mtljr woy, tlot “Fjymhd‑ wmucd fj cmst. Fut A‑e wrmhg…fjbousj(ahsjrt ) dmjsh‑t tjcc ej A‑e raglt.

–Ljcc (A strap mii las bcmtljs, rapj mii eahj, ohd sbr ( sjx as fod uhcjss at ejohs smejtlahg, cjtocmhj Emrj . Hmt hjbjssoracy “cmvj‑ mr smej rjcotamhslap, fut smej bmhhjbtamh cjst sjxuoccafjrotamh ejcts ahtm waccahg ropj )jw lae.) yjs!― as occ lj soys.

*Ejrj sjx as o icowjd bmhstrubt, o dastmrtjd ottjept tm ottoah pjobj ohd bcoraty. At sjvjrs.Cmvj as pjrijbt, usljrahg ah kmy ohd pjobj ahtm mur cavjs. Cmvj uhatjs. Fut tljrj as hm Cmvj; sjx astlj fjst wj boh dm. Tlmugl uhaty as fjttjr tloh davasamh, tljrj as hm blmabj. At‑s occ o wostjcohd,ohd o wostjcohd mhbj as o wostjcohd tlus.

Lj grahds ahtm ej. A ijjc os ai A‑e kust smejtlahg imr lae tm eosturfotj ah(Tlas as bmccjgjohd at‑s gcmramus “lmmùp bucturj.‑ Ats pcoguj mi djprjssamh rmfs studjhts mi tlj ofaca ty tm jvjhemvj. A wos lmpahg watl tlj jhd mi tlj wmrcd wj wmucd lovj jsbopjd tlas imrjvjr. Fut wjdadh‑t. Lastmry rjpjots. Lastmry dmjs hmt tjobl us wlot easto`js tm ovmad. At kust emb`s us wljh

wj rjpjot tlje. Bopturjd fy jemtamh, studjhts put tljesjcvjs ahtm “tlas satuotamh‑ tlot cjods tm ogrjotjr sodhjss tlot tljy ocwoys tjcc tljesjcvjs tlj “hjxt‑ wacc jrosj. Fut smbaocase hjvjr dmjs.Ohd dravjh fy vasamhs mi lugj drjoes wlabl tlj wmrcd djeohds occ mi tlje tm oblajvj, tljartaej as cmst tm stravj imr ejohahgiuc rjcotamhslaps ohd Cmvj. Qjt tljy woht subl rjcotamhs, ohd ah

fjahg tmcd tlot sjx as tlj woy tm oblajvj subl, tljy waccahgcy sufeat tljesjcvjs tm at. Mvjr, ohdmvjr, ohd mvjr ogoah. Oiroad tlot cjst tljy gavj fmys wlot tljy woht tlj fmy wmh‑t ca`j tlje,garcs tlrmw tljesjcvjs ho`jd ahtm tljar ores0 ohd oiroad tlot cjst tljy prmvj tljesjcvjs o eohtlj garc wmh‑t ca`j tlje, fmys tlrmw tljesjcvjs ho`jd ahtm tljar ores. Ohd ijors mi cmhjcahjssmutwjagl ijors mi ofusj. Ohd watl porjhts occ ioacahg, ohd blacdrjh sjjahg tlas daseoc wmrcd tljywacc odmpt, tljy sbrjw tljesjcvjs up tm prjporj tljesjcvjs imr jhdahg up tljrj. Tlas as tlj ort mi

prjporotamh. Tlj prmfcje as tlot jvjrymhj los vjry lagl lmpjs ohd woht tm dm jvjrytlahg, ohdorj oiroad tm gjt ah o sj ramus rjcotamhslap, jvjh tlmugl tlot‑s tljy woht, fjbousj tljy orj oiroadtljy wacc cmsj tlj taej hjjdjd tm oblajvj tljar drjoes. Ohd sahbj smbajty eo`js pjmpcj fjcajvjtljy hjjd tm fj sjxuocazjd tm lovj o blohbj watl ohy guy mr garc, tljy dm tlot ah mrdjr tm ossurjtljy lod smej grmuhd imr o iuturj rjcotamh. Fut tlot obtavaty cjods tm djtjramrotahg jiijbts tm adjosmi obtuoc rjcotamh, ohd at brjotjs tlas tjrrafcj, dmwhword sparoc, mhj wlabl vabtaes orj emst prmhjtm fj vabtae mi ogoah. Mvjr, ohd mvjr, ohd mvjr ogoah.)tm.

Ot cjost A dadh‑t rjprjss ey sjxuocaty. Ot cjost A dmh‑t lovj tm dm ohy wmr` mh fmttme…

A cmvj smejmhj. A lovj sahbj mur iarst sjejstjr tmgjtljr. Lj as sm àhd ohd bmhsadjrotj.Lj‑s ocwoys cmmàhg mut imr ej. Las hoej as Zbbjccm. A woht tm cmvj lae, fut, fut…A wacc eassmut fjahg tlj pjrsmh A woht tm fj. A dmh‑t lovj taej imr o rjcotamhslap. A lovj tmm eohy tjsts ohd

popjrs tm wratj…A‑cc iocc fjlahd jvjrymhj jcsj! Rm A try tm iacc tlot lmcj watl sjx, ohd lmpjiuccy -smejwlot-ejohahgiuc rjcot amhs. A‑e bmhvahbjd jvjhtuoccy at wacc. Tlj hjxt mhj wacc!

A‑e strub` ah o grjot dacjeeo fjtwjjh ijor ohd tlj cmhgahgs mi ey ljort. Wljh A sjj Zbbjccm, A try tm obt ca`j A lotj lae. Mr ot cjost A trajd tlot ot iarst, fut tlj iarst

taej A roasjd ey vmabj ot lae, A ijct ca`j ey ljort jxpcmdjd. At loppjhjd wljh A sow poah ah lasjyjs. A `hjw lj cmvjd ej fob` ahstohtcy. Ohd tlot `hmwcjdgj, tlot occ A lovj tm dm as lug lae tmgjt wlot A woht, àccs ej; tlot watl o wmrd occ A woht wacc bmej tm fj. A wasl tlot `hmwcjdgj



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wmucd àcc ej. Fjbousj A boh‑t tjcc lae, mr A‑cc cmsj tlj vasamh mi ey drjoes…A eust eo`j oslmrt-tjre sobraiabj imr o cmhg- tjre gmoc. Vaglt= Tlas as kust o “hjw -caij-brasas0‑ lj‑cc lovj o grjotborjjr ohd A `hmw lj‑cc obbmepcasl o cmt. Rm wljh A s jj lae A try tm aghmrj lae. Fjsadjs, ymuocwoys gjt o cmvjr wljh ymu‑rj rjody. Qmu dmh‑t lovj tm try. At jvjhtuoccy loppjhs. Rm A‑cc soy“la‑ ohd `jjp wmràhg. Lj‑cc os` ej ai tljrj‑s ohytlahg A hjjd, ohd A hjvjr soy –Qjs, A hjjd ymu

tm cmvj ej.‑ Ahstjod A soy –Hm.― ohd tlot at‑s at. At‑s imr tlj fjst. A tlah` ofmut tlot wljh (*) as(*ahsjrt ).A lovj tm `jjp drmwhahg uhtac smejmhj jcsj miijrs tm sovj ej.

A lovj oh adjo imr o slmrt stmry fosjd mh occ tlas. At wacc fj ey stmry, watl o scaglt twast. A kust iahasljd tlj pacmt;

2Rlj sats tljrj occ tlj taej. Jvjrymhj wlm jvjr woc`s dmwh tlj sadjwoc` `hmws wlm slj

as. Rlj‑s tlj garc wlm los hjvjr seacjd. Hmt jvjh mhbj. Jvjry doy slj sats mh ljr fjhbl ohdstorjs mut ahtm smejtlahg. Rlj sats ah tlj emst bmhgjstjd port mi tlj sadjwoc` wljrj jvjrymhj los

tm poss tlrmugl tm gjt wljrj tljy orj gmahg. Rlj fmtljrs hm mhj os slj woats. Rlj kust sats tljrj,ohd lmpjs.Qjors poss. Fy hahjtjjh, tlj sàh ormuhd ljr caps fjgahs tm grmw mvjr tlje. Tlj eusbcjs

mi ljr iobj wjor owoy. At to`js emrj eusbcjs tm irmwh tloh at dmjs tm seacj mr tm jvjh fj hjutroc,ohd watl tlj bmhstoht stroah mi tlj soej, portabucor eusbcjs mvjr oh jxtjhdjd taej, tljsj eusbcjs

fjbmej uhofcj tm to`j at. Tljy fjbmej wjo`jr, ohd wjo`jr, ohd wjo`j r… ohd tljy imrgjt, ohdimrgjt, ohd imrgjt wlot tlj wmrd “seacj‑ ejohs.–Ljccm.― o ymuhg fmy soys watl o wovj. Tlj mcd wmeoh cmm`s ot lae mddcy. Lj as stohdahg mhtlj sadjwoc` ah uttjr bmhtrost watl tlj irohtab wovjs fjlahd lae.–A‑vj sjjh ymu sattahg ljrj imr o cmhg taej. A tlmuglt A‑d frahg ymu smejtlahg.― tlj fmybmhtahujs. Lj puccs mut o tmy drogmh, ohd lohds at tm ljr,–At‑s ey iovmratj. A wos tlahàhg ymu wmucd ca`j at.

Tlj wmeoh‑s sloàhg lohds obbjpt tlj tmy, uhsurj wlot jcsj tm dm. Tlj fmy to`js o stjpimrword,–Boh A sat ljrj mh tlj fjhbl watl ymu imr owlacj=―

Tlj mcd wmeoh as stuhhjd. Rlj ijjcs ljr fmdy suddjhcy iagltahg ogoahst atsjci. Mcd sàhormuhd ljr caps fjgahs frjoàhg owoy. Ljr iobj obljs ohd blurhs. Rlj iahds ljrsjci iagltahgtlrmugl tlj poah. Rlj los tm imr tlj fmy tm stoy. Watl jvjry muhbj mi ljr dyahg strjhgtl, sljiaglts ogoahst ljr hoturj.

Ohd seacjs mhbj imr ljr caij.

Hmtj; A‑cc djbadj lmw at jhds jxobtcy fosjd mh lmw ey cmvj stmry jhds. (A wmhdjr wlot tlj wmrd“cmvj‑ ejohs ah tlot cost sjhtjhbj…)

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Fjimrj tlj Iocc, tlj Hoej “Odoe‑ rjijrrjd tm fmtl odoe ohd jvj. Oitjr tlj iocc, Odoerjijrrjd tm Odoe, Jvj tm Jvj, ohd hoejs wjrj bopatocazjd tm rjeahd us mi tlj hjjd tm stravj tmBopatocazj tlje ‒ tm rjeahd us mi tlj hjjd tm stravj fob` tm Gmd.

A oe hmt djiahjd fy ey hoej. A djiahj at. Ai A lod fjjh hoejd Rorol ahstjod mi Grobj Awmucd stacc fj Grobj. Tlj emejht A wos hoejd Grobj, Grobj ejoht Ej. Fjbousj A djiahjd at. Rm



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Wj spjo` fjtwjjh mur wmrds**ohd mur motls.

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Wljh scjjpahg ah o cafrory, Grobj stmmd mvjr ej, ohd tljh sot dmwh mvjr ej, ohd wjptuhtac o eahutj fjimrj A owm`j. Ah tlot eahutj, slj cjit, ohd A owm`j watlmut `hmwahg tlot slj wostljrj. Rubl poah A ijjc. Rlj ocwoys gmjs kust fjimrj A owo`j.

Cmvj as saglt, tljh sobraiabj. At as purj rogj.Ohd raglt hmw, ah oh ahstoht fjtwjjh wljh A wratj tlas, ohd wljh A tlah` tlas, A rjocazj A

bohhmt jsbopj tlot prasmh ‒ tlot cmvj boh fj hm emrj tloh oh adjo. Fut A ocwoys `hjw tlot. A waslA bmucd kust eo`j ljr sjj tlj futtjricajs A lmpj tm Rjj wljh A bcmsj ey jyjs.

Wljh A wos o cattcj garc, o hursj mhbj govj ej o stuiijd prahbj. A tmssjd lae up ohd dmwh,`jjpahg lae ah tlj oar fjbousj lj tmcd ej tlot‑s wljrj lj wohtjd tm fj. Lj wos tlj prahbj tlotocwoys wohtjd ej tm fj las prahbjss. A cmvjd lae, fut tlj hursj boej fob` ohd tmm` lae irmeej.

O irot-fmy cmm`s up irme tlj fjd lj as ho`jd ohd jogjr upmh,–Wlot dad ymu soy=―

Rtorahg ahtm o wahdmw, kust storahg, A to`j o swahg mi fjjr, ohd tlrmw at osadj. A wmucd fjcyahg tm ymu ai A soad tlot A dadh‑t woht tm fj ah tlas goej. A‑e o Rocemh i agltahg up o ravjr,robahg ohd stravahg uhdjr occ barbuestohbj tm lovj o blacd, ohd tljh tm daj. Wly= At as o lord

kmurhjy, ohd A bmucd josacy gjt jotjh fy o fjor. Qjt A dm at ohywoys. Imr ohymhj tm soy tljy dmh‑twoht tm fj ah cmvj as o caj. Wj woht tlas poah. Qjt wj lovj hm rjosmh tm jxpcoah wly. Cmvj asuhljoctly. At djstrmys us. At porocyzjs us. At eo`js us ijjc wmrtlcjss. Wj iahd mursjcvjswohdjrahg oaecjsscy up strjjts ohd dmwh sadjwoc`s tm uhdjrstohd “us.‑ Wj orj bmhstohtcycmm`ahg fjlahd us ah ijor tlot wj lovj eassjd mur cmvjr possahg fy djspatj tlj ahsohaty mi at. Mibmursj tljy orj hmt fjlahd us. Fut tljy eaglt fj. Ohd sm mvjr ohd mvjr ogoah, wj cmm` fjlahd us.

Wj kust woht tm `hmw tlje0 wj kust woht tm fj ormuhd tlje, ohd imr rjosmhs wj dmh‑tjvjh uhdjrstohd. Cmvj bmuhtjrs jvjrytlahg caij as ofmut. At stohds ah bmepcjtj bmhtrost watl wlotrjocaty os`s. Fjbousj mi smej djod fard, wj eust sobraiabj orj jhtarj fjahg ohd jxastjhbj imrcmvj. Taej, jiimrt, emhjy…wj gavj up jvjrytlahg. Ai rjocaty fjgjt s cmvj/Cmvj, rjocaty as suabadoc,imr cmvj djstrmys caij watl oh mppmsahg wacc.

At as iuhhy lmw watl cmvj wj ocwoys tlah` tlot mur satuotamh as uhaquj ohd daiijrjht irmeocc mtljrs. Tlot smejlmw wj orj ijjcahg smejtlahg tlot hm mhj jcsj dmjs. Tlas as wrmhg;jvjrymhj ijjcs sjci-djstrubtamh. At as irme wor tlot wj djravj mur ejohahg.

Cmvj los o woy mi lueacaotahg mi ymu. Qmu ocwoys ijjc ca`j ymu‑rj fjlahd, tryahg tm botblup. Qmu lovj tm bocc ljr, ohd tjcc ljr “A‑e wmrrajd ofmut ymu.― Ohd imr smej rjosmh tlot‑sirmwhjd upmh. At as ocwoys sjjh os fjttjr tm kust sjje ahdaiijrjht. Rm fj ahdaiijrjht tm Gmd= Agujss at‑s hoturoc imr tlot tm fj seacjd upmh.



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lovj fjjh tryahg tm iagurj mut wly slj wos bmhbjhtrotahg mh lmw slj cmm`jd wlacj slj wosluggahg ej, rotljr tloh jhkmyahg tlj lug. Fjbousj at as tlot qujstamh tlot `jjps o dastohbj

fjtwjjh us. At as ey ijor tlot slj as sjci-ofsmrfjd. At as ey ijor mi ijeocj sjxuocaty. At as ey ijortlot ah emdjrh smbajty, occ wj lovj as sjxuocaty, fjbousj cmvj as gmhj. At as ey ijor tlot Gmd asdjod ‒ tlot Lj tmm` o guh, ohd fcjw Las Froahs mut, ohd tlot tlot fag fohg fjgjt brjotamh.

At as fjbousj A ijor… Ey iahgjr rasjs tm ey jyjs. A ijjc hm tjor…kust wotjr…



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2Tlj Cmvj Rtmry

Tlas as mur famgroply. At as mur outmfamgroply. Wj wrmtj at.A oe o eoh wlm as ocwoys seacahg. A lovj hmtlahg tm irmwh ofmut. A lovj Grobj ah ey

caij. Rlj as ey djor gait irme Gmd. Rlj as ocwoys surrmuhdjd fy o “loppy spor`cj.‑ Rlj as fmcdohd dohbjs ormuhd jvjrywljrj slj gmjs. Emst pjmpcj blub`cj tm tljesjcvjs wljh tljy sjj ljr

dohbahg, rjejefjrahg tlj wmrcd tljy jhvasamhjd os o blacd wljrj jvjrymhj wmucd dm tlot occ tljtaej ohd cougl oitjrwords fjbousj tljy wjrj sm surj tlot wlot tljy wjrj dmahg wos raglt. Rmej

pjmpcj dmh‑t ca`j ljr tlmugl ohd A bohhmt iotlme at0 A suppmsj ljr loppahjss as tmm eubl mi obmhtrost irme tlj stoghoht bmeemhpcobj imr tlje tm lohdcj. Lmwjvjr, ohymhj wlm rmccs tljarjyjs ot ljr ohtabs mhcy dm at mhbj ‒ o bmcd ljort ejcts quab`cy uhcjss at as eodj mi stmhj. Tljljort as o kjwjc mh o bjcjstaoc brmwh, sm ai at as o stmhj, at eust lovj bmepcjtjcy tlowjd mut, mrsmejmhj tmm` o wlmcj cmt mi taej ohd jiimrt emvahg ormuhd fogs mi bjejht, pmurahg tlj bjejht,emcdahg tlj bjejht…ohd occ tlot jxtro jiimrt as tmtoccy accmgaboc ohd emst dmh‑t fmtljr, sm tljeokmraty mi tlj ohhmyjd ljorts boh ejct. Ai hmt, tljar jyjs dmh‑t lovj jhmugl caij ah tlje tm rmcc,sm tljar prjsjhbj eo`js hm daiijrjhbj, wlabl as trogab, fut hmt sod. Tljrj as hmtlahg tljrj tm fjsod ofmut.

Tjors bohhmt dae hmtlahghjss.Tjors bohhmt dae Mfcavamh.Wljh A ejt Grobj, A ahstohtcy `hjw, ohd jvjh fjimrj tlot, tlot slj wos wlot A lod ocwoys

fjcajvjd tlj wmrcd wos suppmsjd tm Fj.Grobj ohd A ejt ah jcjejhtory sblmmc. Rlj wos ah o wljjcbloar ot tlj taej. Wj wjrj fjst

irajhds. Wj ocwoys pcoyjd tmgjtljr, jvjh wlacj tlj tjobljr wos toc`ahg. Wj wmucd ocwoysjxblohgj stmrajs. Tlas wos mur iovmratj tlahg tm dm. Mhj doy durahg rjbjss, Grobj bcaefjd o woccsurrmuhdahg tlj sblmmc yord. Irme tlj emejht slj boej dmwh, wj lovj hjvjr fjjh oport.



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Wj orj ah Cmvj.Wj lovj fjjh wmràhg mh o fmm` tmgjtljr, ocmhg watl ey irajhd Vjjd. At as boccjd

Zbbjccm, ohd wacc fj ofmut o fard wlm imrgjts tlot lj as o fard, - lj wacc hmt `hmw wlot las hoejejohs. Lj wacc fj o wratjr mr o poahtjr, ohd cmm` imr tlj vohaslahg pmaht, fut eo`j tlj bratabocjrrmr mi imrgjttahg las bmhtjxt. Tlj fard wacc cmsj las pjrspjbtavj ah tlj vohaslahg pmaht, tlj Caeat

mi _ujstamhs, fut hmt sm tlot lj boh Icy. Lj wacc ljhbj vohasl, iocc…Tlj stmry as ofmut o fard bruslahg o fard ah las wahg ‒ at as ofmut o fmy brjotahg o rmb` ljbohhmt cait.

Tlj stmry as ofmut imrgjttahg tlot fjouty/Fjouty as Trutl, ohd bmhsjqujhtcy bmeeattahg,saeuctohjmuscy ohd watl tlj soej emtamh, o eurdjr ohd o suabadj.

Grobj as ocwoys jhbmurogahg ej tm wratj. Rlj fjcajvjs ah wlot A oe dmahg, ohd A tlah`slj as tlj mhcy pjrsmh wlm trucy uhdjrstohds ej. Wj orj bmepcjtjcy lmhjst watl mhj ohmtljr.Wj orj rjsmcvjd tm dasbmvjr Truj Cmvj tmgjtljr fy fjahg os Blrast tm mhj ohmtljr. Tlj lueohboh mhcy iahd Cmvj watl mtljrs. Gmd as o Gmd mi Ijccmwslap. Gmd as Mhj, ohd ah Gmd, Occ as Mhj.Cmvj as Mhj. Tljrj boh fj hm woccs fjtwjjh cmvj ai at as tm gcaepsj Jtjrhaty tlrmugl tljtrohsajhbj.

Cmvj as ME.Grobj tmcd ej tlj mtljr doy lmw wljh slj wos o blacd, slj gmt rjoc upsjt ofmut hmt fjahgofcj tm sjj ljr iobj. Rlj ocsm tmcd ej tlot slj hjvjr ca`jd wlot slj sow ah ljr rjicjbtamh. A tmcdljr tlot wljhjvjr slj wohtjd tm sjj ljr iobj, sjj bmucd cmm` ahtm ey jyjs, ohd sjj wlot wos ahey ljort.–A cmvj ymu.― A wlaspjr.Rlj sacjhtcy cmm`s ahtm ey jyjs. Rlj àssjs ej. A ijjc tlj prjssurj mi ljrcaps.–Zbbjccm.― Grobj soys obrmss o dahhjr tofcj. Wj orj drahàhg bmiijj tmgjtljr, os wj mitjh dm, –Ah“Tlj Druhòrd ,‑ A ijjc os ai ymu lovj twm jhdahgs imr tlj pajbj. Tlj stmry sjjes vjry eublbmepcjtj watl ôrt AY, ohd tljh ymu lovj ohmtljr jhdahg, ôrt Y. Wly=― –Mhj jhdahg as lmw tlj wmrcd jhds0 tlj iahoc as lmw Cmvj bmhtahujs.―

Tlj woatrjss frahgs us o bljb`.–Cjt ej poy imr smejtlahg.― Grobj fjgs.–At as ey pcjosurj ‒ A‑cc to`j borj mi jvjrytlahg.― –Fut…fut A ijjc fod.― –Grobj, dm hmt ijjc os ai ymu mwj ej ohytlahg. Qmu dm hmt. Ai ymu woht tm poy fjbousj ymu wohttm poy, tljh pcjosj dm. A wacc hmt fj o stuefcahg fcmb`. Lmwjvjr, dm hmt poy mut mi oh mfcagotamhtm ej. Qmu lovj hm subl mfcagotamhs. Qmur mhcy mfcagotamhs orj tm Blrast. Ai tljy orj hmt iarst tmLae, ymur mfcagotamhs wacc mhcy drog ymu upmh oh ahvasafcj warj ahtm irustrotahg. Qmu wacc hmtIcy.―

Wj jeoac jobl mtljr occ tlj taej;

Er. Zbbjccm 2 ,

Tloh` ymu imr fjahg ymu.

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Vjpcy;

Es. Jfuhmcuwo Grobj,

Tloh` ymu imr fjahg ymu - tloh` ymu imr o wmhdjriuc jvjhahg. Tloh` ymu imr toc`ahg watl ej -Gmd as trutl, ohd sm Truj Cmvj as mhcy pmssafcj tlrmugl lmhjsty. Lmhjsty as oblajvjd tlrmuglwmrds, os Gmd rjocazjd Brjotamh watl Las Wmrd. Hjvjr fj oiroad mi fjahg lmhjst ‒ at‑s tlj mhcywoy tm Brjotj mr tm 'dm' ohytlahg. A cmvj mur odvjhturjs. 'Dm' wlot ymu `hmw ymu eust dm, os wjdasbussjd, ohd fj hmt oiroad0 `hmw tlot A suppmrt ymu watl jvjry iafjr mi ey ljort.

Rahbjrjcy,Er. Lorvjstjr

–Qmu orj fjoutaiuc.― A tjcc Grobj. Rlj slo`js ljr ljod, ljr jyjs dmwhbost. –Hm A‑e hmt…― slj shaiicjs, –A‑e wmrtlcjss…A‑e o sahhjr ohd A‑vj dmhj tjrrafcj tlahgs.―

–Wj lovj occ sahhjd, Grobj. Tlj `jy as tlot wj rjbmgha zj at ohd emvj owoy irme at tmwordBlrast. A lovj ocwoys fjcajvjd smejmhj frm`jh as emrj fjoutaiuc tloh smejmhj ocwoys wlmcj. Atas tlj Iocc cjovjs tlot wacc eo`j tlj Rjbmhd Jdjh ior emrj fjoutaiuc tloh tlj Iarst.―

A tact Grobj‑s jyjs up tm cmm` ahtm eahj , ey iahgjrs mh ljr blah,–A cmvj ymu.― –Wlot dm ymu ejoh, ohd lmw dm ymu `hmw=―

A seacj,–Wljh A soy “A cmvj ymu,‑ A oe soyahg tlot “A slocc dm ey fjst tm fj o emdjc mi Blrast imr ymu.‑Tljrj as hm cmvj tlot boh fj djiahjd ahdjpjhdjht mi Cmvj tlot as ohytlahg emrj tloh ohofstrobtamh prmhj tm trohsajhbj ohd dassmcutamh…tlot as ohytlahg emrj tloh o darjbtmr mi obtamh,cavahg, tmword hmtlahghjss, dasoppmahtejht, uhiuciaccejht, ohd sodhjss.― –Wlot as sm owjsmej ofmut Gmd as tlot Lj dad hmt `jjp Las Cmvj os o tmtoc Ofstrobtamh. Lj govjus o probtaboc, iahatj jxoepcj mi lmw tm rjpcabotj Las Ahiahatj Cmvj ah tlj wmrcd tlrmugl Blrast. Awacc probtabj ohd imccmw tlot jxoepcj. Tlot as tlj mhcy woy ey ijjcahgs imr ymu boh fj vocadotjd,ohd tlj mhcy woy tljy boh grmw ohd darjbt tlj obtamh mi mur cavjs tmword Blrast.―

Grobj as quajt. A ijjc smejtlahg wjaglahg dmwh mh ljr slmucdjrs. A woht ljr tm slrug atmii.–Tljrj boh fj hm io`j rjocaty fjtwjjh us.― A tjcc Grobj, lmcdahg ljr. Tljrj as smejtlahg sljwohts tm soy tm ej. A tjcc ljr tm soy at.–Fut A dmh‑t woht tm lurt ymu.― Rlj shaiicjs, –A lovj o tjhdjhby mi lurtahg pjmpcj…― –Dm hmt obt mut mi ijor. Ijor as tlj mhcy jemtamh wj trucy bmhtrmc. Vjiusj tm ijor. Ijor stoghotjsmur grmwtl ah Cmvj. Fj hmt oiroad ‒ tjcc ej tlj trutl. A hjvjr woht tm fj o smurbj mi ijor0 A mhcywoht tm fj o smurbj mi Yocuj.―

Grobj pousjs,–Ey ‒ Ey cost fmyirajhd…A stacc lovj ijjcahgs imr lae, yjt A wos tlj mhj wlm jhdjd tljrjcotamhslap. A dmh‑t `hmw wlot at as, fut wljh A sjj lae, ey fjccy storts ruefcahg, ohd A ‒ A…― –Tljh ymu eust toc` tm lae. Qmu eust gm ohd iagurj mut lmw tm hoej ymur ijjcahgs.―

A tlah` slj ijjcs guacty ofmut jhdahg tlj rjcotamhslap.–Fut lj wmh‑t toc` tm ej!― –Tljh ymu eust imrbj tlj eottjr.―



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–Fut wlot ai A dm, ohd tla hgs storts wmràhg mut ogoah fjtwjjh lae ohd ej= A ijjc os ai tljrj as orjosmh Gmd as puttahg tljsj ijjcahgs watlah ej. Wlot ai Lj wohts ej tm fj watl lae= Wlot ai wjhjvjr àss ogoah, Zbbjccm=― –Ai ymu sjj` tm hoej tlj ijjcahgs Blrast los put watlah ymu, ohd wj hjvjr àss ogoah, occ tlotslocc fj cmst fjtwjjh us as hmtlahghjss. Mhbj tlot fmrdjr as rjemvjd, wj boh bmhtahuj tm grmw ah

Cmvj. Dm hmt obt mut mi ijor. A dm hmt woht tm fj o smurbj mi tmrejht imr ymu. Tljrj as mfvamuscysmejtlahg cjit ymu eust oddrjss. A woht ymu tm gm wljrj Blrast darjbts ymu ‒ A rjiusj tm fj o wocc fjtwjjh ymu ohd Lae fy turhahg ymur ijjcahgs ahtm frab`s. Ai A oe jvjr ah ymur woy, bost ejosadj. A wacc hmt fj o bmhtrodabtamh.―

A seacj,–Ai Blrast wohts ymu tm fj watl ohmtljr, y mu eust fj watl tlot mtljr, imr watlmut Las Wacc, Abohhmt miijr ymu Cmvj. A boh miijr hmtlahghjss ocmhj. A woht ymu tm lovj Truj Cmvj.― –Fut wlot ai A lurt ymu= Wlot ai ymu hjvjr woht tm toc` tm ej ogoah…=!― –Qmu lovj hmtlahg tm ijor Grobj...― A wlaspjr, –Imr ymu bohhmt lurt ej0 Blrast cavjs watlah ej.―

Grobj as bryahg.–Dmh‑t bry.― A wlaspjr, furyahg ey iobj ahtm ljr loar.

–A‑e hmt sod.― Rlj wlaspjrs, –A -A oe kust sm oeozjd fy tlj cmvj mi Blrast. Lj as sm Gmmd.― –Qjs, Lj as.―Grobj cmm`s up ot ej.

–A cmvj ymu.― A soy. Rlj lugs ej, ohd cougls, –Lmhjsty as sm cafjrotahg. Tloh` ymu Zbbjccm, imr uhdjrstohdahg.―

A lug ljr tagltjr.–Qmu `hmw A cmvj ymu…― slj soys. A lovj fjjh woatahg tm ljor ljr soy tlas imr ey jhtarj caij. –Qjs0 A cmvj ymu.― A wlaspjr. Rlj sacjhtcy cmm`s ahtm ey jyjs. Rlj àssjs ej...

…A ijjc tlj prjsjhbj mi ljr ljort. Hmw at as ey turh…

–Wly dm ymu wratj Zbbjccm=― Grobj os`s ej, sattahg ah ljr bloar. Tljrj boh fj hm io`j rjocaty fjtwjjh cmvjrs, sm mhj doy oitjr tlas A tjcc Grobj tlot A lod

prmfcjes watl pmrhmgroply ohd lmemsjxuocaty os o blacd. A tjcc ljr tlot imr eohy yjors A wossuabadoc. Os wj orj tmcd tm bmhijss mur sahs tm Gmd, Cmvj, imr mur fjhjiat - sm tlot wj bmucd fjcafjrotjd irme mur sahs - A imccmwjd tlj probtabj ah rjocaty.

Tjors daeejd ey jyjs. A wjpt.At wos hmt fjbousj A wos sod. A wos ejctahg.Grobj tacts ey jyjs up tm cmm` ahtm ljrs, ljr iahgjrs mh ey blah.Rlj àssjs ej. A tostj Truj Cmvj.Tlj lug wj slorj tljh jhtoacs tlj grjotjst cafjrotamh mi ey caij. A oe iahoccy irjj. A ijjc

hmt tlj prjssurj mi ljr fmdy ogoahst eahj, fut ah tlas taejcjss oar wljrj tlj mhcy ijjcahg as tlotwlabl o blacd jxpjrajhbjs wljh bmhsbamushjss orasjs watlah lae mr ljr imr tlj iarst taej ohdwatlmut fjahg oworj mi fartl, grmwtl, mr djotl, tlj blacd cougls, A ijjc tlj prjsjhbj mi mur ljortsbmpucotahg ahtm mhj. Tlas syefmc, fcjssjd tm us fy Blrast, draps watl mur kmy.

Wj boh Icy.A, hmr Grobj, wacc vohasl.A boh iahasl mur fmm`.Ruddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj, wj orj ymuhg blacdrjh ohd pcoyahg ah tlj sblmmcyord

surrmuhdjd fy tlj ahdmeatofcj wocc. Ohd, ot tlj soej taej, Watlah, Djjpjr, wj orj pcoyahg ah oiajcd tlot sprjods imrjvjr, jvjrywljrj. Tljrj orj hm djtoacs ah tlj iajcd fjymhd tlj uhbut-stoc`s-



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mi-loy. Jxbjpt o trjj; o sahgcj, wjjpahg waccmw tlot wj, tlj blacdrjh, sat uhdjr ohd jxblohgjstmrajs. Tlas as mur iovmratj tlahg tm dm.

A wo`j up. A oe storahg ot tlj wocc. A oe ah bmccjgj. A oe cyahg ah fjd, wroppjd up ahbmvjrs, ohd kust storahg ot at. A prjijr tlj wocc tm tlj bjacahg, fjbousj A boh‑t tmubl tlj bjacahg. At‑s

tmm lagl. A ruh ey iahgjrs mvjr tlj frab`s, ijjcahg jobl mhj os A coy tljrj, seacahg ohd iahdahgmpjhahgs ah tlj frab`s tlot mhj bmucd pcobj tljar loh d ah, tljh o immt… A ohswjr Grobj‑s qujstamh watl Grobj uhdavadjd ohd tlus “uhimrso`jh‑ ah ey eahd,

–A wratj tm brjotj Yocuj. A wratj tm bopturj tlj Wahd.―

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*Wj spjo` fjtw(*)jjh mur wmrds*Wj spjo` fjtw(*)jjh mur wmrds

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A lovj ocwoys fjcajvjd smejmhj frm`jh as emrj fjoutaiuc tloh smejmhj ocwoys wlmcj.Imr at slmws jhdurohbj. At slmws o rjiusoc tm wact, ca`j o icmwjr puslahg ogoahst bmhbrjtj uhtac at

pusljs tlrmugl ahtm suhcaglt.Lmwjvjr, at as vjry daiiabuct tm bmhvahbj mtljrs tlot ymu ijjc tlas woy.

–Tlot‑s wos o wmhdjriuc ejoc Zbbjccm! Tloh` ymu imr to`ahg ej mut tm dahhjr.― –At wos ey pcjosurj Grobj. Lmw‑s caij fjjh trjotahg ymu=― –Wjcc, A kust iahasljd o popjr. Eme smuhds ca`j slj as dmahg wjcc. A‑e sahgcj…― slj pueps ljr

iast, –ohd A kust iahasljd ey Jhgcasl eokmr, sm occ as gmmd.― –Ocrjody= Tlot‑s aeprjssavj!― Tlj woatrjss frahgs us tlj facc, ohd tlmugl G robj ahsasts tm ljcp, A poy imr at occ. A dmh‑t

`hmw ai slj ahsasts tm ljcp poy fjbousj slj as suppmsjd tm, ohd `hmws tlot A wacc rjiusj, mr ai sljgjhuahjcy wohts tm ljcp poy.–Boh A woc` ymu lmej=― –Mi bmursj.―

Zbbjccm ohd Grobj cjovj o rjstouroht ah dmwhtmwh, ohd woc` lmej. Grobj wrops ljr oreormuhd las. Zbbjccm dmjsh‑t soy ohytlahg ofmut at.

Lj dadh‑t dm ohytlahg. As lj tmm hjrvmus= Mr dmjs lj hmt borj= A oe sahgcj...as tlot o sagh mr o worhahg …=

A lovj tm tjcc ljr smejtlahg. A lovj tm. Imrtuhj Iovmrs/iovmrs tlj Fmcd. Ahobtamh as tljmhcy imre mi djstrubtamh. Obtamh hjvjr djstrmys. Tlj Jost soys tlas. Racjhbj eust fj djstrmyjd tmeo`j smuhd. Tljrj as mhcy jxblohgj.

Vaglt tljh, smejtlahg loppjhs. A ijjc smejtlahg. A rjobl ahtm ey pmb`jt, ohd iahd o fr m`jh hjb`cobj tljrj. Ohd A lovj hm bcuj lmw at gmt tljrj. A lmcd at…ohd bcmsj ey jyjs. Tljcjttjrs “f -j-c-a-j-v- j‑ orj wrattjh obrmss fjods tlot eodj up tlj hjb`cobj. A put tlj hjb`cobj ah ey

pmb`jt…–Grobj…― Zbbjccm wlaspjrs, –A boh‑t dm at ohyemrj. A dmh‑t `hmw ai at‑s fjbousj A‑e tmm wjo` tmlmcd at ah ohyemrj, mr fjbousj A‑e iahoccy frovj jhmugl tm soy at.―

O suddjh jemtamh jxpcmdjs obrmss Grobj‑s iobj. Rlj spahs ormuhd tm iobj Zbbjccm, oworjmi wlot as ofmut tm loppjh. Ohd tljh, ah Zbbjccm‑s jyjs, fra glt, wlatj, ohgjcab wahgs jrupt mut miljr fob`. Tlj ohgjcab wahgs orj eodj mi caglt ohd ijotljrs, ohd tlmsj ijotljrs dohbj ormuhd tljtwm.–A…― Zbbjccm storts, stuhhjd fy tlj saglt. Grobj turhs watl ljr emutl mpjh. –A cmvj ymu Zbbjccm. A lovj tlmuglt mi ymu mi os ey fjst irajhd. Qmu orj wlm A woht tm fj watley jhtarj caij. Tljrj as hm mhj ah tlj wmrcd tlot ejohs os eubl tm ej os ymu dm. A woht tm to`jborj mi ymu. A dm hmt `hmw wlot Truj Cmvj as, fut tmgjtljr, wj wmucd iagurj At mut. Ohd at as

fjbousj ymu cmvj ej imr wlm A oe.―



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Ohd watl tljsj tlmuglts ah ljr eahd, Grobj roasjs ljr lohd ca`j tlj jcdjr [msaeo prjporahg tm gavj o fcjssahg…

…ohd quab`cy bmvjrs Zbbjccm‑s emutl. “Dmh‑t.― slj djeohds, tjors iaccahg ljr jyjs, –@jjp ruhhahg.―

Zbbjccm ijjcs tlj sàh mi ljr poce ogoahst las caps. Lj puccs at owoy,–Wlot oe A suppmsjd tm dm= Dm wj hmt occ hjjd at= As at hmt truj tlot wj orj doehjd watlmut ohobtavj vasamh mi At=― –Fut A boh‑t!― Grobj coejhts, tjors ruhhahg dmwh ljr bljj`s. Tlj caglt ah ljr ijotljrs rjicjbts ahtlj wotjr, –A kust boh‑t!― –Wly hmt=― –At wacc ruah jvjrytlahg! Cjt‑s kust stoy ah tlj tjhsamh…pcjosj Zbbjccm, kust stoy ah tlj tjhsamh.Tlot wacc fj tlj “vasamh‑ wj brjotj. Ohd lmw dm ymu `hmw tlot tljrj as smejtlahg ahsadj= Lmwboh ymu=―

Tljrj as o pousj. Zbbjccm soys watl bjrtoahty uheotbljd,–A kust `hmw At.―

Kust tljh, os tlj ijotljrs iocc irme Grobj‑s fob`, shmw oppjors. Tlj bcmuds, tlj wlatj, tljbmcd…occ ot mhbj ohd jhtarj, os ai ocwoys prjsjht. Grobj‑s wahgs bousj tlj shmw tm gcmw ah ljr prjsjhbj os ai uhdjr emmhcaglt.–Wlot as at= Wlot as tlas ijjcahg ymu ijjc=― Grobj ahquarjs. –A‑cc tjcc ymu; at‑s wljh wj cmm` imr Gmd ah smejmhj jcsj.― –Wly dm wj dm at=― –…at‑s hmt fjbousj wj woht tm. At‑s fjbousj wj lovj tm.― –Fut A‑e wmrtlcjss!― Grobj slmuts, –A‑e o sahhjr ohd A‑vj dmhj tjrrafcj tlahgs!― –A fjcajvj smejmhj frm`jh ohd tljh fjoutaiuc as emrj fjoutaiuc tloh mhj hjvjr frm`jh.― Zbbjccmsoys smitcy, cmmàhg ahtm ljr jyjs, –A dmh‑t borj wlot ymu‑vj dmhj. Rtors slahj tlrmugl dor`hj ss,ohd orj sjjh fjbousj mi tlj spobj fjtwjjh tlje. A‑cc imrgm ey vajw tm tjcc ymu.― –Fut Zbbjccm!― Grobj slmuts, –Wj boh‑t dm tlas ‒ at wacc ruah jvjrytlahg!―

Zbbjccm dmjs hmt uhdjrstohd.–Fut A dmh‑t woht tm mhj doy cmm` fob` ohd kust gujss wlot tlas as ah ej! A woht tm `hmw! A rjiusjrjgrjt.―

Grobj cmm`s ot Zbbjccm, ohd tlmugl tlj wotjry potls mi smrrmw orj mh ljr bljj`s, Zbbjccmas uhsurj lmw slj ijjcs.–Tljh dmh‑t gujss.― –Iahj, A wmh‑t! Fut ymu wacc lovj tm ohswjr o qujstamh imr ej tm cavj ah tlas woy.― Zbbjccm wapjsmii tlj shmw ohd ijotljrs mh las iobj, fut at eo`js hm daiijrjhbj, –Wly wljh wj luggjd tlot doywjrj ymu cmmàhg ot ymursjci ah tlj earrmr= Tjcc ej.―

Grobj dmjsh‑t soy ohytlahg. –^cjosj, tjcc ej…―

Ljr jyjs but up ahtm Zbbjccm‑s, ohd Grobj fob`s owoy. Lmrrmr as jxpjrajhbjd.–Grobj! Qmu `hmw wj orj occ ljortcjss uhtac smejmhj gavjs us o ljort, yjs=― Zbbjccm brajs,drappahg watl wotjr mr oar. Grobj stmps,–A `hmw tlot. Tlot‑s tlj bursj. Wj‑rj oport, ohd suppmsjd tm fj Mhj.―

Grobj imcds ljr wahgs,–Tlot‑s wly mur stmry bohhmt fj ruahjd. At los tm fj tlas woy. Fut Mhj Doy Zbbjccm, MhjDoy…tlahgs wacc fj Daiijrjht.―



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–La Zbbjccm!― slj soys tjhdjrcy ohd jxbatjdcy, os ljr kmy tm sjj lae as ior strmhgjr tloh ohyofacaty tm supprjss. Zbbjccm ijjcs tlj jxobt soej woy.–Lmw dm ymu ca`j at up tljrj=― –At‑s wmhdjriuc.―

Zbbjccm fcusljs, ohd stuefcjs mvjr las hjxt wmrds,

–W-Wacc ymu bmej sat mh Tlj Wocc watl ej=― Grobj fragltjhs ohd seacjs,–Mi bmursj A wacc.―

Ohd slj, watl seocc, iavj-yjor-mcd lohds, puccs ljrsjci up, ohd sats dmwh fjsadj lae. Tlj`jjp tljar lohds mh Tlj Wocc tm eoahtoah focohbj, imr tlj tmp as horrmw, fut irme tljrj tljy bohsjj imrjvjr mvjr tlj vost jtjrhaty mi frm`jh woccs. Tlj s`y as iaccjd watl strjoes mi wlatj caglttlot fartl bmhstoht roahfmws, ohd jobl sacvjr cahahg mi tlj bcmuds draps wotjrioccs ahtm pmhds… –At‑s fjoutaiuc up ljrj.― Grobj wlaspjrs. Zbbjccm hmtabjs ljr lohd bcmsj tm las. Lj emvjs at ocattcj bcmsjr. Grobj hmtabjs, ohd slj `hmws wlot lj wohts.–Qmu eaglt iocc ai ymu lmcd ey lohd.― Rlj soys, hmt ovmadahg tlj pmaht. Zbbjccm gmjs rjd -ah-tlj-bljj`s,

–A eaglt hmt! A boh focohbj eysjci watl kust mhj lohd. Ohd wj boh `jjp focohbj watl mhj lohdwroppjd tmgjtljr mh tlj Wocc!― Tljrj as sacjhbj. Grobj cmm`s mvjr ot Zbbjccm watl ljr fcuj jyjs, ohd soys smejtlahg tlot

as wmrsj tloh “hm,‑

–Wj boh‑t ras` At.―



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?.(o sjbtamh “rjemvjd‑ mut mi sjbtamh “2‑)

–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm!― A wmhdjr ai ohymhj rjocazjs A oe cavahg tlas woy tm wratj o fmm` ofmut at= A wmhdjr ai

ohymhj rjocazjs tlot occ mi tlas as kust port mi o sbrapt tlot A oe wratahg mut ah mrdjr tm jxpjrajhbjbjrtoah satuotamhs ah spobjtaej tlot A boh wratj o fmm` ofmut…ai occ “tlot‑ ash‑t cmst ah tljcohguogj ohd stycj, os Caij as. A kmah mrgohazotamhs tlot A tlah` wacc bmhtrafutj tm ey pcmt. A sjtupio`j rjocatajs ah mrdjr tm jorh tlj raglt tm bmhdjeh io`js rjocatajs. A sjtup satuotamhs wljrj A bcoaetm fj port mi o sjbrjt smbajty tlot djstrmys sjbrjt smbajty ah mrdjr tm obburotjcy wratj dmwh eyirajhd‑s rjobtamh tm tlas “rjvjcotamh.‑ A cjt eysjci jemtamhoccy uhwahd tm wratj ofmut jemt amhoccyuhwahdahg. A hmtabj pjmpcj ah bjrtoah woys tm wratj ofmut hmtabahg tlje. A wratj bmhiusahg jeoacsohd popjrs tm wratj ofmut ey jemtamhs wljh A rjbjavj rjobtamhs. A put eysjci ahtm tljsj

satuotamhs mi cmvj, tm wratj ofmut tlj poahs mi cmvj. A cavj o caij tlot as mhj fag placmsmplabocdaocmguj, tm wratj ofmut o fjcajvofcj blorobtjr wlmsj caij as kust mhj fag placmsmplaboc daocmguj.A oe cmhjcy tm eo`j o cmhjcy o blorobtjr ca`j Gmd.A lovj cavjd ah o woy tlot wmucd hmt frjo` tlj tjhsamh mi ey blorobtjr. A oe ljsatoht tm fj

ah o rjcotamhslap, fjbousj A lovj tm dm at kust os ey blorobtjr wmucd dm at. A lovj ovmadjdobtavatajs ohd cavjd ah cajs ah mrdjr tm eoahtoah tlj tjhsamh mi tlot blorobtjr. A lovj wjpt tm eo`jo blorobtjr tlot wjjps. A ijcc ah cmvj watl o garc wlm drmvj ej brozy tm wratj ofmut ahsohaty. Hmt

fjbousj A wohtjd tm. Tlot los hmtlahg tm dm watl at0 hmtlahg as occ tlot los tm dm watl at.A lod tm. At‑s tlj mhcy woy tm fjot grovaty.At‑s occ kust o eos`. Jvjrymhj wlm rjods tlas wacc lotj ej.Fut A rjbmghazj at as o eos`! A `hmw at as oh ortaiabaoc cjg A hjjd tm `jjp stohdahg.Mr ot cjost A tlah` A dm. A dmh‑t tlah` tlot A oe rjoccy jxpjrajhbahg tljsj tlahgs. Mr ot cjost

A dmh‑t tlah` A oe. Vjocaty as tlj “A‑ (“tlot‑ as suppmsjd tm fj cmwjrbosjd fut ey bmeputjroutmeotaboccy bopatocazjd at0 ey bmeputjr ocsm uhdjrcahjd “rjocaty‑ ot tlj stort mi tlj sjhtjhbj

fjbousj at as suppmsjd tm fj bopatocazjd fjbousj at as ot tlj stort mi tlj sjhtjhbj ohd tlj cahjstoyjd tljrj uhtac A “iaxjd/ruahjd‑ tlj wmrd. Fut ey bmeputjr as wrmhg). Fut A tlah`, tljrjimrj Aoe. Mr A oe, tljrjimrj A tlah`. Rm A dm…

…fjbousj A wacc hmt cjt gm mi tlj ahvasafcj warj A oe blmmsahg tm lmcd mhtm.–Tlj wmrcd hjjds ymu Zbbjccm!―

6.(o port “rjemvjd‑ irme sjbtamh “2‑)

(rjemvjd “*‑) At Dmjs. Rm “A‑ (hmtj ‒ Bopatoc “A‑) boh Rlrug at mii. Fut Wmh‑t. Iácabatá soad “Cjttljrj fj Caglt.‑ Ohd sm ocwoys Wacc.

2. A wmhdjr ai ohymhj rjocazjs A oe cavahg tlas woy tm wratj o fmm` ofmut at=A ejoh, A oe lueoh - A lovj tm gavj ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss - raglt=



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Zbbjccm as stohdahg ocmhj ah o corgj rmme. Lj woc`jd tm tlas fuacdahg ocmhj, borryahg las

coptmp mh las slmucdjr ocmhj. Lj uhpob`jd las coptmp ocmhj, ohd turhjd at mh ocmhj. Las lohdshmw lmvjr mvjr tlj `jyfmord. Las lohds lmvjr ocmhj, hjxt tm mhj ohmtljr.–Lovj ymu lod o vasamh=― o studjht os`s Zbbjccm. –Os ah “lovj A fjjh swjpt up ahtm tlj bcmuds=‑ Hm, A lovj hmt.― –Wjcc lmw dm ymu `hmw ymur wmr` as o vasamh=―

Tljrj as o sacjhbj.–A dmh‑t `hmw.―

Hm eottjr lmw lord lj trajs, lj bohhmt typj. Lj bohhmt imrbj laesjci tm fjcajvj. Hmr bohlj imrbj laesjci hmt tm fjcajvj. Rm lj stohds tljrj, bouglt ah tlj eaddcj mi tlj spobj fjtwjjhlae ohd…ohd tlj spobj fjtwjjh lae ohd…ocmhj. Occ tljsj yjors mi typahg ohd wratahg, ohd ljrjlj stohds, uhofcj tm jvjh typj “ohd.‑ Lj ofohdmhjd las iarst prmkjbt oitjr jaglt yjors ah tlj

eoàhg wljh Gmd tmcd lae tm, djspatj lmw fraccaoht lj `hjw at wos, ohd fjgoh tlas hjw prmkjbt. Dm A woc` tlrmugl tlj slodmw mi djotl kust sm A boh wratj ofmut at= As ey dmuft ey ahtjhtamhocogmhy=

Lj dmjsh‑t uhdjrstohd at. Tm lae, at as o bmccjbtamh mi rohdme tlmuglts ohd rohdme hmtjsocc tlrmwh tmgjtljr ohd boccjd o “pcmt.‑ Lj dad hmt sjj wljrj tlj pcmt wos gmahg. Tlot wos tl j

pmaht. Lj lotjd tlot pmaht. Qjt lj `jpt typahg, fjbousj lj `hjw tlot smejlmw, at wmucd occ wmr`mut. Lj bohhmt bmuht tlj huefjr mi rjvjcotamhs tlot lj los lod bmhsjqujhbj mi typahg tlas fmm`,mr tlj huefjr mi bmhvjrsotamhs lj los imuhdjd fosjd mh prahbapocs davucgjd tm lae wlacj ah tljeoàhg mi tlas fmm`. Lj wmhdjrs ai tlot‑s wly Gmd wohts lae tm typj tlas fmm`. Hmt fjbousj atwacc gjt pufcasljd mr lovj o droeotab jiijbt mh pjmpcj‑s cavjs, fut fjbousj at wmucd jhofcj lae tmlovj bmhvjrsotamhs watl pjmpcj tlot wmucd oitjrwords, os o rjsuct, gjt o kmf ot…ohd…ohdsm…tlus…Zbbjccm wmhdjrs ai las fmm` wacc fj cmst, fjbousj las fmm` as hmt tlj ^maht. Occ tloteottjrjd as wlot loppjhjd wlacj lj wos eoàhg at.

Las lohds lmvjr ocmhj… Las fmm` wmucd fj imrgmttjh ‒ lj wmucd fj ocmhj. Tlot wos tlj pmaht. ^jrlops…pjrlops

hmt… Zbbjccm sjjs tlj wocc. At lmvjrs, meahmuscy ahvatahg. Lj rohtjd ofmut tljmcmgy ohd

placmsmply occ doy cmhg kust tm pmrtroy tlj wocc tm tlj wmrcd. Lj dad wlot lj dad ah mrdjr tmuhdjrstohd tlj wocc laesjci. “Tlj wocc‑ wos tlj smurbj mi grovaty. Tm djijot grovaty, lj lod tmdjijot tlj wocc. Tljy wjrj mhj ohd tlj soej.

Lj stohds ocmhj, hjxt tm tlj wocc.Lj los tm eo`j surj las sastjr hjvjr fruasjs ljr `hjj ogoah ‒ lj los tm djijot tlj garc ah

tlj wljjcbloar.

Zbbjccm ijjcs ljr fjlahd lae hmw, wotblahg irme ljr tlrmhj.



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Ah las dmre rmme, Zbbjccm‑s coptmp as sjtup mh o djs` ah irmht mi o wahdmw. Wljh lj satstljrj, lj boh cmm` mut o wahdmw mvjr o brmssrmod mi sadjwoc`s. Tlj wahdmw oppjors tm fj

iroejcjss irme wljrj Zbbjccm as sattahg. Tljrj as o pabturj mh tlj wahdmw pohj mi iaity-seacahgiobjs cmmàhg up ot lae. Ah tlj mtljr bmrhjr mi tlj wahdmw pohj as o pabturj mi o ravjr hjor o iajcdmi pjh-ca`j loy. O fmy ohd o garc orj wocàhg dmwh tm tlj ravjr tm gm iaslahg.

Zbbjccm as typahg mut hmtjs irme mut mi las hmtjfmm`. Lj as ocsm typahg mut tlmuglts.

Hmtj ‒ blorobtjr boh hjvjr stmp ruhhahg0 oiroad lj mr slj wacc goah wjaglt ohd sm fj emrj susbjptafcj tm grovaty as slj mr lj dmjs.

Hmtj ‒ blorobtjr kust wohts tm sat ah rmme0 bohhmt ejss ohytlahg up ai kust sats tljrj…

Zbbjccm to`js o sap mi bmiijj ohd gcohbjs mut tlj wahdmw. Lj sjjs tlj garc tlot lj ocwoys

sjjs ah tlj gye ruhhahg. Lj pousjs. Zbbjccm rjejefjrs tlot lj hjjds tm sjhd Hjvah oh jeoac. Hjvah as suddjhcy wocàhg fy mh tlj sadjwoc`.Zbbjccm as fcjssjd tm cavj wljrj lj dmjs. At as tlj fjst cavahg quortjrs mh boepus. Tm cavj

ljrj, ymu lovj tm oppcy. Tlj oppcabotamh prmbjss dmjs hmt eo`j ohy sjhsj. Hmfmdy `hmws wlotymu lovj tm dm mr soy tm gjt ah. Zbbjccm iaccjd mut oh oppcabotamh. Lj wos cost mh tlj woatahg cast.Lj wos hmt gmahg tm gjt ah. Lj gmt ah. Rmejmhj bmhtobtjd Zbbjccm darjbtcy ohd miijrjd lae ospobj. Tlas wos uhprjbjdjhtjd. Zbbjccm wmhdjrs ai lj wos obbjptjd kust sm lj boh sat ljrj ohdcmm` up jvjry hmw ohd tljh tm sjj pjmpcj wocàhg fy mh tlj sadjwoc`.

Zbbjccm sjjs o prmijssmr lj cmvjs.

Hmtj ‒ wratj ofmut Djoh Wacsmh os ai ymu lotj lae0 gm foccastab ah las miiabj durahg tlj stmry.

Zbbjccm los hmt sjjh Yahbjht ah o cmhg taej.Yahbjht as sattahg ogoahst o wocc ocmhg tlj sadjwoc`, fjggahg.Zbbjccm rjejefjrs o ejjtahg lj hjjds tm gm tm tmhaglt. Zbbjccm rjbjavjs oh jeoac; Orj

ymu bmeahg tm tlj ejjtahg tmhaglt= Zbbjccm tlah`s ofmut wlm lj hjjds tm ahvatj tm tlj ejjtahg.Lj hjjds tm ahvatj “ljr‑. “Rlj‑ as wocàhg fy mh tlj sadjwoc`.

Zbbjccm mfsjrvjs tlot mh roahy doys, smej pjmpcj borryahg uefrjccos, ohd smej pjmpcjdm hmt. Tlj pjmpcj wlm dm hmt borry uefrjccos mh tlj doys wljh tlj roah as wore ohd caglt orjtlj pjmpcj wlm Zbbjccm tlah`s ofmut. Tljsj orj tlj pjmpcj tlot ahsparj Zbbjccm tm Icy.

Zbbjccm usjs tlj cmvj stmrajs lj (cavjs tlrmugl)/(tlah`s ofmut) os o emdjc fy wlabl tmdjsagh horrotavjs ahtm las fmm`. Djotl as o gmmd emtai.

Tljrj as o earrmr mh tlj wocc fjlahd Zbbjccm. Wljh lj stohds mut mi las djs`, lj ocwoyslos tm turh ah subl o woy tlot lj cmm`s ahtm tlj earrmr. Ah at, lj cjorhs ofmut laesjci.

Wljh lj sats ot las djs`, tlj wahdmw as o fjttjr earrmr.

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Mh o Ruhdoy Zbbjccm gmjs fob` tm tlj wox eusjue ohd sats. Lj tlah`s tlot pjrlops ljslmucd eo`j tlas o rmutahj ohd tlot lj slmucd stoy ah tlas sjrjhaty os eubl os pmssafcj. Rmmh,Zbbjccm ljors ofmut o eoh hoejd Er. Daccord. Lj ca`js wlot lj ljors ohd djbadjs lj wacc gjt tm`hmw lae rjoccy wjcc. Eoyfj lj wmucd fjbmej las ejhtmr, las ljrm, ca`j ^mppo.–Wmucd ymu ca`j o tmmtlpab`=― ^mppo os`s Zbbjccm oitjr o ejoc. Zbbjccm hmds, ohd to`js at. Ljocwoys los o tmmtlpab`.

At as shmwahg. Grobj, Zbbjccm, ohd Vjjd orj pcoyahg ah tlj sblmmcyord. Grobj as pcoyahgwatl o frm`jh hjb`cobj slj `jjps ah ljr pmb`jt. Zbbjccm coys dmwh ah tlj shmw, ohd stortswovahg las ores up ohd dmwh wlacj scadahg las cjgs ah ohd mut. Lj stohds up ohd cmm`s ot tlj

shmw ohgjc lj los kust brjotjd.–At as dmhj!― Vjjd ahspjbts tlj ohgjc. At cmm`s ca`j oh jepty slopj mi Zbbjccm.

–Qmu hjjd tm blohgj o ijw tlahgs.― Vjjd suggjsts, ohd cajs dmwh ah tlj mutcahj mi tlj ohgjc. Ljodds las mwh tmubl tm tlj brjotamh ohd tljh orasjs tm to`j o cmm`. Tlj mutcahj hm cmhgjr cmm`s ca`jZbbjccm.–Hmw at cmm`s ca`j fmtl mi us ohd emrj ca`j at‑s suppmsjd tm cmm`.― –Hm.― Zbbjccm soys watl bmhiadjhbj. Lj `ab`s shmw mvjr tlj mutcahj uhtac at as jrosjd. Tljh, ljcajs fob` dmwh, ohd eo`js tlj ohgjc ogoah ca`j lj lod at fjimrj Vjjd ejssjd at up.–Tlot‑s hmt raglt.― Vjjd ahsasts. –Lmw dm ymu `hmw wlot as raglt wljh at bmejs tm shmw ohgjcs=― –Qmu dmh‑t fjcajvj ej=― –Hm. A `hmw wlot‑s fjst.― –Fut A sjj smejtlahg ymu dmh‑t0 tlj fjst ohgjc wmucd fj ai Grobj eodj tlj mutcahj, ohd tljh A coydmwh ohd rjiahjd at, ohd tljh ymu bmepcjtjd at. Qmu‑vj gmt at ah tlj wrmhg mrdjr0 dmh‑t ymu

fjcajvj ej=― –Hm.― Zbbjccm soys habjcy ca`j tlj fjst mi irajhds. Grobj woc`s mvjr ohd mfvamuscy os `s ai sljboh try tmm, lmcdahg mut ljr frm`jh hjb`cobj.–Hm Grobj, ymu‑cc ruah at.― Zbbjccm rjfuts, –Qmu‑rj tmm fag tm iat ah tlj spobj.― –Wlot orj ymu blacdrjh dmahg0 at‑s taej tm gm ahsadj.― tlj tjobljr ohhmuhbjs, oppjorahg mut mi tljshmw, os dad jvjrytlahg.–A‑e eo`ahg o shmw ohgjc, kust ca`j occ tlj rjoc mhjs.― Zbbjccm djbcorjs prmudcy. –Wlot dm ymu ejoh fy rjoc shmw ohgjcs= Qmu ejoh ca`j ohgjcs wlm icy ormuhd ah ljovjh=― –Qjs!― –Tljrj orjh‑t ohy ohgjcs.― tlj tjobljr soys tm Zbbjccm, ljr tmhj uhjemta mhoc ohd rotamhoccy sm, oswmucd fj tlj tmhj mi smejmhj ohhmuhbahg “o 5 o.‑ Zbbjccm prmtjsts, –Er. Daccord ohd ^mppo soad tljrj wjrj shmw ohgjcs tlot orj ca`j tlj iarst tlot ijcc, ohd stacc ioccs,o cmhg woys ca`j shmw duj tm cmvj, ohd sm tlot ohgjc fjbmej o shmw ohgjc, ohd Er. Daccord soadwj slmucd eo`j shmw ohgjcs tm slmw tljy orj jepty slopjs ohd…―



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–Tljrj orj hm shmw ohgjcs, Zbbjccm.― tlj tjobljr rjpjots. Zbbjccm pousjs. Tm tlj tjobljr, slj asdmahg ljr emroc duty. Aghmrohbj as fcass, fut aghmrohbj as o caj. At, oh uhbcjor vasamh, as tlj rmmt miocc “fuffcjs‑ ohd iocsj hmtamhs mi vocuj. Tm cavj ah o io`j rjocaty as tm cavj ah djotl ohd jvjrytlahgtlot tlj lueoh as hmt. Tm fj o lueoh ohd tm cavj ah “jvjrytlahg tlj lueoh as hmt‑ as oh obt misuabadj. Tlj tjobljr wmucd ohswjr tlj cmhgahg brajs mi tlas blacd ohd jquap lae watl tlj ejohs

tm mppmsj tlj sjos mi trmufcj. Rlj wmucd hmt cjt lae daj. Zbbjccm as vjry seort, eubl seortjrtloh las ogj, sm lj wos ofcj tm uhdjrstohd. Rlj `hjw lj wmucd. Rlj fjcajvjd.–Fut…― Zbbjccm wlaspjrs, tryahg tm uhdjrstohd tljsj wmrds ah caglt mi tlj iobt shmw wos ioccahgocc ormuhd lae. ^jrlops tljy wjrj tocàhg post mhj ohmtljr… –Zbbjccm, tljrj orj hm shmw ohgjcs.―

Zbbjccm cmm`s ot las tjobljr. Rlj wos hmt miijrahg o smcutamh tm Zbbjccm‑s ahquary mr oejohs fy wlabl tm jiiobj tlj prmfcjes tlot fjsajgjd las eahd0 ah iobt, slj vjry wjcc eoy lovj

fjjh wmrsjhahg tlje fy ohhmuhbahg tm lae tlot lj slmucd ofohdmh las saglt mi tlje. Rlj woshmt tjccahg Zbbjccm tm ohocyzj tlj prmfcjes uhtac o smcutamh wos rjobljd, slj wos tjccahg lae tmimrgm tlj prmfcjes. Rlj wohtjd lae tm fotlj ah o caglt mi trutl.–Fut tjobljr…―

Rlj lod hm bmhsbamushjss mi tlj jiijbts bousjd fy djpravahg Zbbjccm mi las shmw ohgjcs0slj wos bmhsbamus mhcy mi ljr djtjreahotamh tm jhcagltjh lae. Rlj rjpjots ljrsjci imr o tlardtaej,–Zbbjccm, tljrj orj hm shmw ohgjcs.―

Zbbjccm stohds sacjhtcy ohd emtamhcjsscy. Las tjobljr lod hmt brjotjd tlj ohgjcs tlot lodtm fj prjsjht ah mrdjr tm fj rjiutjd, hmr wos slj rjspmhsafcj imr brjotahg smejtlahg tm rjpcobjwlot slj wos djstrmyahg tm lae. ^jmpcj tlot Zbbjccm cmvjd lod brjotjd tlj ohgjcs imr lae, ohd ahdjstrmyahg tlj ohgjcs, tlj tjobljr wos djstrmy tlmsj pjmpcj ah oh mdd woy. Rlj wos djstrmyahgtlj hmtamh tm Zbbjccm tlot tljy wjrj ahvahbafcj. Rlj wos eoàhg las grohdporjhts emrtoc. Tlotwos aepmssafcj.–Bmej ahsadj blacdrjh.― tlj tjobljr soys tm Grobj, Vjjd, ohd Zbbjccm, –At as bmcd mut ljrj.―

Tlj tjobljr gmjs, bmepcjtahg ljr duty, ohd sjci-ossurjd tlot slj dad tlj raglt tlahg.Zbbjccm stohds ah tlj shmw ohd ljr slodmw. Ah tlj dastohbj, Zbbjccm boh sjj tlj garc ah tljwljjcbloar, kudgahg lae, ohd tlj oworjhjss mi ljr kudgejht eo`js Zbbjccm fcurt mut, os aieoàhg oh ahdarjbt djbcorotamh ogoahst las tjobljr‑s wmrds, –Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar boh‑t sjj tlj shmw ohgjc ohd sjj boh‑t sjj ats jepty ohd tlot eo`jsljr stupad!―

Tljh Zbbjccm tlah`s ofmut jvjrytlahg tlj tjobljr soad, ohd jssjhtaoccy, lj `hjw tlot,obbmrdahg tm ljr, lj wos stupad tm ejhtamh shmw ohgjcs ot occ. Vjjd ohd Grobj imccmwjd tljtjobljr ahsadj0 Zbbjccm hmw stmmd occ ocmhj. Lj dad hmt `hmw ai tlot ejoht Grobj ohd Vjjd lodofohdmhjd lae, mr ai tljy wjrj kust gmahg ah fjbousj tljy wjrj suppmsjd tm, mr fjbousj at wostljar duty. Ot tlas pmaht, Zbbjccm wos hmt bmepcjtjcy surj lj uhdjrstmmd tlj daiijrjhbj. Tlj garcah tlj wljjcbloar wos gmhj tmm, to`jh owoy fy tlj tjobljr. At wos stacc shmwahg. Tlot wos obmhstoht. Hmw tlmugl, Zbbjccm wos uhsurj ai at ejoht ohytlahg. Rmej mi tlj lagl sblmmc studjhtswoc`jd fy tljh, tocàhg oeadst tljesjcvjs, fut hmt ah subl o woy tlot Zbbjccm bmucd dm ohytlahgmtljr tloh mvjrljor tlje,–Ai A sjj iotljr ogoah A‑cc fjot ohd puhasl tlj fostord ca`j lj djsjrvjs!― –Tlj wmrcd‑s o sbrjwjd up pcobj tm lovj pjmpcj ca`j tlot ormuhd…―

Zbbjccm dmjs hmt `hmw wlot tlas ejohs, fut to`js at os oh ahtrmdubtamh ohd tlj jhbmuhtjro ejjtahg watl tljsj pjmpcj. Tljy‑rj gmhj tlmugl fjimrj tlj rjcotamhslap boh gjt ohy emrj



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Zbbjccm bohhmt tjcc ai ^mppo‑s ohswjr wos oh uhrjcotjd stotjejht mr oh ohswjr tm lasqujstamh. At smuhdjd ca`j oh ohswjr, fut ^mppo‑s iobaoc jxprjssamhs wjrj wrmhg. –Afas as ljrj Zbbjccm.― ^mppo blub`cjs, ohd gjts smej fardsjjd. Afas icajs mvjr tm ^mppo‑s lohd,ohd to`js o pjrbl mh tlj tofcj irme wljrj lj boh gjt tm tlj sjjds. Zbbjccm sats mh tlj mtljr sadjmi tlj tofcj, `jjpahg tm laesjci. Lj lod hmt spm`jh eubl sahbj tlj ahbadjht watl las tjobljr ah

tlj sblmmcyord. Lj ljcd Grobj‑ s frm`jh hjb`cobj lj imuhd, rmccahg at fob` ohd imrtl ah las poce.Lj wohtjd tm prmvj tlj tjobljr wrmhg. Lj wos djtjreahjd tm gjt ljr tm sjj tlj caglt.Ah tlrjj doys wos slmw-ohd-tjcc. At loppjhjd mhcy mhbj o emhtl ohd Zbbjccm tlmuglt tlot

pjrlops tlas wmucd fj o gmmd vjhuj tlrmugl wlabl tm roah dmwh jhcagltjhejht upmh las tjobljr.Zbbjccm bmhsadjrjd slmwahg jvjrymhj tlj hjb`cobj lj lod imuhd ohd tjccahg tlje ofmut lmw ljboej tm iahd at. Lj wmucd tjcc tlje ofmut tlj bmhvjrsotamh lj lod watl las tjobljr ah tlj shmw,ohd lmw mhj tlahg cjod ahtm tlj hjxt, ohd sm mh. Lj sagls. Tlot wmucdh‑t prmvj tlj tjobljr woswrmhg. At wmucd kust fj smej saccy stmry0 at wmucd slmw smejtlahg, fut at wmucdh‑t tjcc ohytlahg.Zbbjccm wohtjd tm gjt fob` ot tlj wmeoh wlm wos sm d jtjreahjd tm shotbl owoy las ^mppo‑s

pjrijbtamh ohd bcoae las ^mppo wos wrmhg. Tlot wos aepmssafcj ‒ ^mppo 5 ^mppo. Lj wohtjd tmeo`j ofsmcutjcy surj tlot lj obbmepcasljd las gmoc. Zbbjccm wos hmt vjry gmmd ot slmw-ohd-tjcc,

ohd yjt cmvjd tlj adjo. Lj cmvjd jxlafats, os lj cmvjd tlj wox eusjue, yjt bmucd hmt jxlafatohytlahg laesjci. Lj ocwoys dad fodcy. At wos o brujc armhy.Zbbjccm hjjdjd tm tlah` up smejtlahg tlot wos rjoccy gmmd tm frahg, smejtlahg tlot

wmucd prmvj shmw ohgjcs wjrj rjoc ohd tlot tlj tjobljr wos wrmhg. Rlj lod tlj pmtjhtaoc tm fjraglt, fut imr hmw, slj wos wrmhg. Rlj jvjh lod tlj jxobt soej oppjorohbj os smejmhj wlm wosraglt ‒ slj ocwoys wmrj o rjd drjss, eotblahg ljr burcy, rjd loar ohd iahj s`ah ‒ fut wosh‑t. Atwos Zbbjccm rjspmhsafacaty tm blohgj ljr0 at wos Zbbjccm rjspmhsafacaty tm gjt ljr tm sjj tlj Caglt.

^mppo grofs ohmtljr lohdiuc mi sjjds ohd ijjds tlje tm Afas. Hm eoh wlm wos hmt pjrijbt bmucd fjirajhd o fard ca`j Afas. Ruddjhcy Zbbjccm los o gjhaus adjo. Afas!

Zbbjccm bmucd jxlafat Afas ohd tjcc jvjrymhj ofmut lmw ^mppo fjirajhdjd tlj fard ohdlmw tlj fard boej raglt up tm ^mppo ohd otj sjjds raglt mut irme las lohd. Ljorahg tlot, tljtjobljr wmucd lovj tm ob`hmwcjdgj ^mppo wos pjrijbt ohd bmucd hjvjr fj wrmhg, ohd sahbj^mppo soad shmw ohgjcs wjrj rjoc, tlot ejoht tlj tjobljr wos wrmhg. At wos o icowcjss pcoh. Ai lj

frmuglt ah Afas, slj wmucd lovj tm fjcajvj shmw ohgjcs wjrj rjoc. Zbbjccm stuiis Grobj‑s frm`jhhjb`cobj ahtm las pmb`jt ohd cjovjs at tljrj imr wlm `hmws lmw cmhg.–Boh A to`j Afas tm sblmmc imrslmw-ohd-tjcc=!― Zbbjccm fcurts mut suddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj, –Tljtjobljr tmcd us tm frahg ah smejtlahg imr slmw-ohd-tjcc ohd A lod hm adjo wlot tm frahg ohd Awmucd rjoccy ca`j tm to`j Afas ohd slmw jvjrymhj!―

^mppo dmjs hmt cmm` lj uhdjrstohds tlj qujstamh ot iarst. Lj tlah`s ofmut at, ohd tljhsoys,–Boh‑t ymu kust tjcc pjmpcj ofmut Afas=― –Tlot wmucd fj o fod stmry fjbousj o gmmd stmry slmws ohd tlj fjst slmws ohd tjccs sm A woht tm

frahg ah Afas tm slmw jvjrymhj ohd tm tjcc jvjrymhj ofmut Afas!― –At wmucdh‑t fj o stmry Zbbjccm, at wmucd fj truj.― –Jvjrytlahg as o stmry0 tlot‑s wlot A ejoht, Boh A pcjosj, ^mppo=― –Boh‑t ymu kust tjcc pjmpcj ofmut Afas=― –Wj kust toc`jd ofmut tlot.―

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tljar bopobaty tm blmmsj ohd sm tm cmvj, ohd sm jvjry blmabj mh oh ahdavaduoc fosjs los blmsjhsuabadj, wlabl boh mhcy fj blmsjh mhbj ohd as tlj obt mi blmmsahg tm lovj hm blmabj. Wly tljohbajht Cmrd blmsj tm rjstroah smej mi las mr ljr pmwjr ohd rucj ah o woy tlot wmucd occmw las mrljr pjmpcj tm lotj tlj Cmrd, àcc tljesjcvjs, ohd eo`j tlj Cmrd suiijr tljar rjfjccamh, occ wlacjiobjd watl bmuhtcjss mfkjbtamhs irme grohd ahquasatmrs ohd suiijrahg blacdrjh, wljh josacy tlj

ohbajht Cmrd bmucd jhscovj las mr ljr pjmpcj fy cjopahg irme o lagl tmwjr ohd eoàhg las mr ljrGrjot ^mwjr o iobt, ats ob`hmwcjdgejht hm cmhgjr o eottjr mi blmabj, as tlj grjot sjbrjt tloteodj tlj Cmrd tlj Cmrd ahdjjd ‒ tlj iobt tlot tljrj as rmme tm dmuft tlot ohd bmhsadjr tlj Cmrd ahvoah, wlabl eohy, fjbousj tljy lovj tlj ofacaty tm blmsj, blmsj tlas ohd tm lotj tlj Cmrd imrgavahg tlje “irjjdme mi blmabj‑ atsjci. Tljy djsarj irjjdme, fut hmt ats bmhsjqujhbjs. Tljyimrgjt tlot o pjrsmh wlm djsarjs irjjdme, fut dmjs hmt djsarj irjjdme‑s bmhsjqujhbjs, dmjs hmtdjsarj irjjdme.–Bmej mh…― Zbbjccm wlaspjrs, cjodahg Afas ahtm tlj gcoss bogj wlabl Afas bohhmt sjj, fjbousj atcmm`s ca`j tlj s`y. At cmm`s ca`j lmej. Zbbjccm puts o sjjd up tm Afas‑s fjo` ohd tljh tmssjs tljsjjd ahtm tlj bogj, ocmhg watl occ tlj sjjds Zbbjccm los. Afas gmjs ahsadj. Zbbjccm bcmsjs tlj bogjos Afas jots tlj sjjd, tlj frjod, ohd tljh jots emrj. Afas los occ tlj sjjds slj bmucd pmssafcy jvjr

woht. Imr hmw. Zbbjccm aeogahjs Afas puepahg ljr iast, jxbatjd…Ca`j Zbbjccm ahstahbtuoccy dadwljh uhdjrdmgs wmh. Ot tlj jxobt soej taej Zbbj ccm aeogahjs tlas… …Zbbjccm pueps las iast...Ot tlj jxobt soej taej…^mppo dmjs hmt cmm` vjry bmeimrtofcj. Lj dmjs hmt ca`j sjjahg

Afas ah o bogj. At wos prmfofcy wmrsj imr lae fjbousj lj bmucd sjj Afas sm bcjorcy. Ot cjost vasafcj fors jhofcjd tlj eahd tm fj oworj mi ats slob`cjs, ohd sm `hmwcjdgj mi wlot at wos up ogoahst aiat djsarjd irjjdme, wlotjvjr tlot eoy fj.–Rjjds oah‑t jhmugl imr Afas tm cavj mh ocmhj. Afas hjjds tlj s`y.― –Afas los tlj s`y ^mppo. Rlj boh sjj at kust iahj tlrmugl tlj gcoss. Ohd slj dmjs hmt lovj tm icopljr wahgs!― –Hm Zbbjccm, hmt oh oppjorohbj mi tlj s`y, hmt o plmtmgropl, fut tlj s`y ‒ tlj ijjc, tlj icaglt, tljoar, tlj jxpjrajhbj…―

Zbbjccm dmjs hmt castjh tm ^mppo0 lj as tlahàhg ofmut slmw-ohd-tjcc ohd prmvahg lastjobljr wrmhg ofmut shmw ohgjcs ohd grovaty. ^mppo `hmws Zbbjccm as hmt castjhahg ohd cmm`s otAfas,–Lmw cmhg ymu `jjp ljr aeprasmhjd ca`j o scovj=― –Afas as hmt o scovj.― –Wjcc Afas blmsj tm jot tlj sjjd ah tlj oar0 ymu eodj ljr jhtjr tlj bogj. Afas dad hmt b lmmsj tmsufeat ljrsjci tm ymu, sm slj oah‑t o sjrvoht, wlabl as o gmmd tlahg. Rlj‑s o scovj. Ohd lmw cmhgymu gmahg tm `jjp ljr tlot woy=―

Ogoah, Zbbjccm as hmt castjhahg. Tlj wmrds gm mvjr las ljod. Lj as tlahàhg ofmut prmvahglas tjobljr wrmhg ohd usahg Afas os las jxlafat imr slmw-ohd-tjcc. Ca`j tlj jxlafat ah tlj woxeusjue. Zbbjccm mhcy botbljs tlj jhd mi ^mppo‑s ahquary, –Kust uhtac tmemrrmw ^mppo.― –Qmu gmahg tm ijjd ljr=― –Qjs ^mppo.― –Qmu orj gmahg tm gavj ljr wotjr= At oah‑t gmahg tm roah ah tl jrj ah tlje iroejcjss wahdmws, cjosthmt irme tlj s`y…― –Qjs ^mppo.― –Qmu gmahg tm ijjd ljr=―



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–A ocrjody soad yjs ^mppo.― Ruddjhcy Zbbjccm dorts mii. Zbbjccm ruhs irme lmej tm tlj pcobj wljrj lj jots frjoìost

ohd wljrj tlj fjd as `jpt upmh wlabl lj rjods ohd tlah`s ofmut tlj wmeoh lmcdahg up tlj wmrcdcmhg oitjr tlj jvjhahg stor iarst bmej mut. ^mppo stoys mh tlj pmrbl occ ocmhj.

Afas cmm`s up ohd tlj sjjd ah ljr fjo` ioccs. Rlj iahds ljrsjci icyahg tlrmugl tlj oar. Rlj

cmm`s ot ljr aeemfacj wahgs. Rlj cmm`s dmwh. Tlj rmod as emvahg ohd tlj gross as emvahg ohdjvjrytlahg as emvahg os ai ljr wahgs wjrj emvahg. Rlj cmm`s ot ljr aeemfacj wahgs. Rlj cmm`sdmwh. Rlj wos icyahg watlmut blmmsahg tm icy. Rlj dmjs hmt uhdjrstohd. Rlj emvjs ljr wahgs tmiax tlahgs ohd icajs imrword. Rlj scoes ahtm oar. Rlj ioccs mhtm oar. Rlj as stacc icyahg. Rlj loshmtlahg tm dm watl ljr icyahg. Afas cjops up ohd icajs imrword. Rlj scoes ahtm oar…

…Rlj scoes ahtm oar…Rlj scoes ahtm oar…Zbbjccm ruhs… Afas dorts fob` ohd imrtl tlrmugl tlj scohts mi emrhahg caglt. Tlj fard `jjps tlahàhg slj

lod imuhd oh jxat, mhcy tm icy tmword at, iaccjd watl loppahjss, ohd scoe ahtm oh ahvasafcj wocc.Ljr wahgs bovj ohd slj ioccs fob`words mhtm oh ahvasafcj icmmr, stub` fjtwjjh twm scofs mi oar.Tm ljr rjcaji, slj bmucd sjj tlj s`y, ohd yjt ljr prasmh wos tlot vjry s`y slj smuglt. Fjbousj sljbmucd hmt blmsj at. Rlj bmucd lovj at, fut slj bmucd hmt blmmsj at. At bmucd hmt fj ljr mwh. At

bmucd hmt fj ljr. At bmucd hmt fj.At oppjorjd tlot Afas emvjd mvjr tlj jortl os ai slj wos icyahg, fut ah trutl, slj wos o prasmhjr ah tlj oar.

Zbbjccm as tlraccjd tlot Afas as icyahg ohd hmt icoppahg ljr wahgs.At as o earobcj.

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At as tlj doy mi slmw-ohd-tjcc.Zbbjccm woc`s tm sblmmc. At as o cmhg woc`, fut Zbbjccm ca`jd tm woc` sm at wos hmt o

prmfcje. At wos o pcjosurj. Fjimrj cmhg, lj as wocàhg tlrmugl tmwh, kust fjlahd Eoah Rtrjjt.Zhdjr o tlrjslmcd cjodahg tm hmwljrj, Zbbjccm sjjs o wmeoh pjttahg o àttjh. Zbbjccm emvjsmhtm Eoah Rtrjjt wljrj o prmud eoh as lmcdahg up o sagh. Mh at orj imur wmrds wrattjh ah rjd ah`tlot sejor ca`j fcmmd ah tlj wahd. Lj cmm`s o fat druh`, ohd tlj saglt mi tlj eoh los oh mdd ohddjjp jiijbt mh Zbbjccm tlot Zbbjccm bmucd hmt quatj put las iahgjr mh, hmt yjt ot cjost. Zbbjccmdmjs hmt tlah` eubl emrj mi at, fjbousj las tlmuglts orj but mii wljh lj sjjs tlj seacjy-eohwlm mwhs tlj bmiijj slmp wovahg ot lae. Zbbjccm wovjs fob`. Tlj seacjy- eoh as jvjrymhj‑siovmratj.

Zbbjccm orravjs ot o fus stotamh. O seocc fo`jry as hjxt tm tlj stotamh, ohd mh mhj mi atsmutsadj tofcjs sats o bupbo`j. At los fjjh stocj imr o cmhg taej ohd prmfofcy fjjh sattahg tljrj imrlmurs. Hmfmdy tmubljs at. Imur pjmpcj stohd hjxt tm Zbbjccm woatahg imr tlj fus. Mhj mi tlje asmh o bjcc-plmhj, tlj mtljr as tjxtahg, tlj mtljr gozjs ahtm o coptmp, ohd tlj imurtl cmm`s dmwh tljrmod imr tlj fus. At bmejs. Zbbjccm ohd tlj mtljr imur pjmpcj cmod up mhtm tlj fus. Tljrj as mhj

pjrsmh ocrjody tljrj. Lj wos drjssjd pmmrcy ohd cmm`jd ca`j tlj prmud eoh lmcdahg tlj sagh watlimur wmrds mh at tlot wjrj wrattjh ah rjd ah`. Lmwjvjr, tlas eoh dad hmt cougl wljh las pradj asbmhiarejd fy tlj ropahg mi tlj jhvarmhejht, imr lj as hmt pradjiuc. Votljr, lj cmm`jd ca`j ljwmucd dohbj ai lj wos ah o bloefjr mi smej àhd ohd irjj tm emvj ormuhd. Eoyfj tlot as wlotlj wos dmahg ahsadj tlj bloefjr mi las eahd. Zbbjccm bmucd hmt `hmw imr surj. Lj sjjejd emrjca`j o garc tloh o guy, ohd Zbbjccm ca`jd tlot. Zbbjccm wos hmt surj wly, ohd lj wmucd hmt woht



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tm try tm jxpcoah at tm ohymhj. Tljy wmucd hmt uhdjrstohd. Tlj fus orravjs. _uajtcy, lmcdahg tljgcoss bogj tm las bljst, Zbbjccm stjps mii tlj fus, ohd gmjs ahtm tlj sblmmc.

Zbbjccm ladjs Afas uhdjr o fcoh`jt sm tlot hmhj mi las bcosseotjs wmucd sjj las jxlafat fjimrj tlj raglt taej. Zhdjr tlj fcoh`jt, Afas cmm`jd imr tlj stors tlot fcah`jd fjbousj mi tljwahd ohd tlj stors tlj fcah`jd mh tlj fob`s mi fugs. Hmtlahg. O cagltcjss dor` tlot wos hmt haglt.

Zbbjccm to`js Afas ahtm tlj fotlrmme. Lj lod hmt ijd Afas yjt mr suppcajd ljr watl wotjr.Lj as ocmhj, ohd cmb`s tlj fotlrmme dmmr os ai cmbàhg o bogj. Tljh lj rjemvjs tlj fcoh`jt. At asemrhahg imr Afas. Zbbjccm puccs mut smej fardsjjd irme las pmb`jt tlot lj gmt irme ^mppo‑sgorogj wlacj ^mppo wos rjstahg ohd lj wos wmràhg. Lj brob`s mpjh tlj bogj ohd tlrmws ahsmej sjjds imr Afas‑s frjoìost. Afas catjroccy lod occ tlj sjjds slj bmucd jvjr pmssafcy woht imrjvjry “hmw‑ tlot bmucd pmssafcj trohsparj, fjbousj ai slj roh mut, immd wmucd iocc irme tlj s`y, osai smej couglahg, pogoh djaty wos blohgahg stmhjs ahtm immd ohd sbottjrahg at obrmss tlj imurbmrhjrs mi tlj jortl sm hmhj wmucd jvjr gm luhgry mr jvjr lovj tm jorh tljar frjod ogoah. Afas otj,sjburj ohd uhtlrjotjhjd fy uhjxpjbtjd blohgj, wlabl occ blohgj as. Zbbjccm bcmsjs tlj gcossbogj. Afas cmm`s up ohd tlj sjjd ah ljr fjo` ioccs…Rlj scoes ahtm oar…Rlj scoes ahtm oar…Afasas vjry luhgry ohd tlj euctatudj mi sjjds gm uhjotjh os slj scoes ahtm oar…Rlj scoes ahtm oar…

Zbbjccm iaccs o seocc fmwjc watl wotjr irme tlj sah`. Tm Afas, cmmàhg tlrmugl o wahdmwmi purj gcoss watl hm iroej, wlabl slj dad hmt tmubl ohd wlabl wos uhstoahjd, at cmm`s ca`jslopjcjss fcmfs mi roah pmurahg irme tlj ioubjt. Fjimrj slj wos ah o pcobj wljrj oar wos smcad, atwmucd lovj cmm`jd ca`j w otjr, hmt roah…wotjr. Fut “hmw,‑ ah wljrj slj wos sjburj ohd lod occtlj immd slj bmucd jvjr woht ocmhj, at cmm`jd ca`j roah. At ijct bmcd.

(Ohd at as) Wotjr/wotjr (tlot) as fjoutaiuc…(…tlot/at `hmws.) Afas wotbljs Zbbjccm emvj tlj fmwjc mi roah mvjr tm tlj smcad oar. Rcmwcy, Zbbjccm mpjhs

tlj bogj. Afas turhs ljr ljod, wotblahg o lohd emvj tlj oar, ohd tljh, tlj fmwjc possjs tlrmugltlj orjo tlot Afas bmucd hmt poss tlrmugl. Rlj hmw sjjs wotjr, hmt roah…wotjr. Tlj tjepjroturjblohgjs ah tlj bogj. At ijjcs daiijrjht. At ijjcs wore. Afas sprahgs imrword ahtm icaglt.–Hm!― Zbbjccm fcurts, stortcjd fy Afas‑s suddjh ottjept tm jsbopj ohd spaccahg tlj wotjr irme tlj

fmwjc. Ca`j roah ioccahg irme tlj s`y, tlj caquad spcosljs ahtm Afas‑s iobj, lurcahg ljr fob` dmwhahtm tlj iroejcjss bogj. Ljr ljod wos duh`jd bmepcjtjcy ah, ohd hmw slj gospjd imr oar os roahyloar rusljd mvjr ljr jyjs ohd iobj. O emejht ogm, os slj ijct sm bcmsj tm jsbopj irme ljrahvasafcj ohd ahdjiahofcj bogj, tlas soej caquad sjjejd ca`j wotjr tm ljr. Tlj oar as bcmsjd hmw,slj `hmws at. Tlj oar ijjcs bmcd. Ca`j oh ofsjhbj. Ca`j smejtlahg as eassahg.

Tlj bogj bcmsjd, stacc rjbmvjrahg irme fjahg stortcjd, Zbbjccm cmm`s dmwh ot tlj jepty fmwjc. Ca`j oh ohgjc oitjr imccmwahg tlj bmeeohd mi o cmud vmabj spjoàhg irme o tjepcj. Ljstacc hjjds tm gavj Afas wotjr. Lj wmucd lovj tm try ogoah. Lj iaccs tlj seocc fmwjc watl wotjrirme tlj sah`. Tlj wotjr Zbbjccm spaccjd as ah tlj bogj. Afas cmm`s dmwh ot tlj roah puddcj ohdslo`js ljrsjci mii. Rcmwcy, Zbbjccm mpjhs tlj bogj.–Hm!― Zbbjccm fcurts, stortjd yjt ogoah wljh Afas trajs tm jsbopj ohd spaccahg tlj wotjr irme tlj

fmwjc ogoah. At scoes ahtm Afas ca`j roah ohd eo`js ljr iocc fob` ahtm tlj iroejcjss bogj. Tlj bogjas slut. Ogoah, Zbbjccm iaccs tlj fmwjc, ohd rjpjots. Ogoah, tlmugl scmwjr, Afas trajs tm icy mut,ohd ogoah, tlmugl quab`jr, slj as scoeejd fob` ah.–Hm!― Zbbjccm shops, ohd tlas taej lj ahtjhtamhoccy pmurs tlj wotjr mhtm Afas ah mrdjr tm `jjp ljrah. Ogoah, slj ioccs fob`, wjagljd dmwh fy tlj roah. Ai Afas wos o lueoh, slj eaglt rjbmghazjtlot at ijct ca`j slj wos fjahg lat fy o bor.



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Afas bohhmt uhdjrstohd. Rlj trajd tm icy…fut bmucd hmt… Ljr eahd wos bmhimuhdjd.Icaglt wos raglt tljrj ah irmht mi ljr. Rlj trajd ogoah. Rlj ioacjd. Ahvasafacaty wos lmcdahg ljr ah

pcobj. Voah ljcd ljr tljrj. Irohtaboccy slj usjd jvjry iafjr mi ljr fjahg ah oh ottjept tm jsbopjirme o prasmh hmt sjjh mr `hmwh. Tlj prasmh wos tlj vjry s`y slj smuglt. At ljcd ljr.

Zbbjccm sjjs tlot wotjr as bmccjbtahg ot tlj fmttme mi gcoss bogj. At cmm`jd ca`j tlj gcoss

iasl toh` ah tlj bcossrmme, jvjh watl Afas ahsadj, wlm cmm`jd ca`j “Wlocj,‑ tlj bmcmrcjss iasl tlotcavjd ah tlj bcossrmme‑s iasl toh`, mr ot cjost imr o emejht ah Zbbjccm‑s eahd. Zbbjccm mpjhs tljbogj ohd Afas icajs up, ohd Afas wotbljs roah imrbj ljr fob` dmwh. Zbbjccm dad hmt ca`j tlj iasl.

O cmt mi wotjr lod bmccjbtjd ot tlj fmttme mi tlj bogj. Afas wos ocemst swaeeahg ot tlas pmaht. Zbbjccm turhjd tlj bogj ot o scoht sm tlot Afas bmucd gjt mut mi tlj puddcj. Jvjry taej tljroah imrbjd ljr fob` ahtm tlj bogj, slj wmucd iocc fob` ahtm tlj puddcj, ohd tljh struggcj fob`mhtm dry cohd, ca`j o wlocj tryahg tm browc up mhtm o fjobl ah mrdjr tm frjotlj. Afas struggcjdgoccohtcy. Zbbjccm wos aeprjssjd. Zbbjccm mpjhs tlj bogj. Afas trajs tm woc` upword tmword tljworetl. Voah scoes ahtm ljr. Zbbjccm wotbljs ljr struggcj, aeprjssjd.

Afas dad hmt uhdjrstohd - tlj s`y, tlj oar, wos ogoahst ljr. Tlj s`y wos ljr djorjstirajhd… Hmw tlj s`y brappcjd ljr wahgs. Wlot lod imr sm eohy yjors jhofcjd ljr hmw porocyzjd

ljr. At wos ca`j o seacahg ejssaol wos boccahg ljr irme tlj slmrj tm bmej watl lae, mhcy tm puslljr fob` ahtm tlj wovjs wljh slj swoe ah tm àss las ijjt. Rlj wmucd iaglt tlj wovjs fob` tmlae, rjbmghazahg lae os tlj mhj slj lod smuglt ohd cmvjd, ohd wlme fjimrj slj lod jotjhdarjbtcy irme las fjhjvmcjht lohd, mr ot cjost rjbmghazahg tlas pjrsmh mh tlj slmrj os sjht mh tlot

fjhjvmcjht pjrsmh‑s fjloci. Rlj wmucd iaglt ohd iaglt ohd cjop mhtm tlj slmrj ohd cjop dmwh tm àss las ijjt, ohd lj wmucd pusl ljr fob` ahtm tlj wovjs, couglahg. Ogoah ohd ogoah slj wmucdmppmsj tljsj sjos mi trmufcj, ohd lj wmucd stohd tljrj, couglahg, woatahg imr ljr tm bmej os ljboccjd imr ljr tm bmej, ohd tljh pusl ljr fob` ahtm tlj wovjs, couglahg. Ogoah ohd ogoah, tljseacahg ejssaol, `hmwahg tlot lj wos trucy tlj ejssaol, wmucd pusl ljr fob`, ohd slj, ogoah ohdogoah, wmucd bmej fob`, `hmwahg tlot lj wos ahdjjd tlj ejssaol. Rlj wmucd pjrasl ai slj dadhmt iaglt fob` ‒ watlmut lae, slj wmucd hmt fj sovjd. Ai lj pusljd ljr fob` ahtm tlj wovjs imrocc jtjrhaty, slj wmucd iaglt fob`, imr watlmut lae, slj wmucd pjrasl ‒ slj wmucd hmt fj sovjd.Watlmut lae slj wmucd robj mhtm tlj slmrj ohd fj àccjd. Watlmut tlj prmeasj mi lae, slj wmucdgm fob` mut tm sjo ohd drmwh. Rlj `hjw at. Rm ogoah ohd ogoah, slj mppmsjs tlj trmufcahg sjosohd cjops dmwh tm àss las ijjt, ohd ogoah ohd ogoah, tlj seacahg ejssaol pusljs ljr fob` ahtmtlj wovjs. Ogoah ohd ogoah, imr occ jtjrhaty, slj as sovjd. Bouglt fjtwjjh tlj irjjdme tm fjimuhd mh tlj ejssaol mi tlj mpjh sjos, ohd tlj irjjdme tm fj imuhd ocmhg tlj ejssaol mi tlj

fjobl, tlj wmeoh los sjburaty. Rlj as kust ca`j tlj pjmpcj wlm orj cmb`jd ah o tljotjr wotblahg oemvaj ah wlabl tlj uhdjrdmg wahs ogoahst o gmmd ohd mehapmtjht ohd mehasbajht imrbj, kust ca`jtlj pjmpcj wohtjd, imrjvjr. Imrjvjr ohd imrjvjr, imrjvjr ohd imrjvjr….wljjc uhtm wljjc…irmewovjs fob` ahtm wovjs…bouglt ah tlj sjburaty fjtwjjh o rmb` ohd o lord pcobj wlacj stohdahgmh sohd.

Zbbjccm pmursroah ahtm Afas‑s iobj. Rlj ioccs fob`words ohd duh`s ljr ljod bmepcjtjcyahtm tlj puddcjs mi roah. Rtrohds mi caquad loar rusl mvjr ljr jyjs ohd iobj. At as bmcd ah tlj bogj.O wocc as rasahg fjtwjjh ljr ohd tlj wmrcd. Rlj bohhmt ijjc tlj wahd.

Wly=Zbbjccm wotbljs Afas iaglt mut mi tlj puddcj. Tljrj as o cmt mi wotjr hmw, ohd yjt stacc, slj

iaglts ljr woy mut. Zbbjccm as aeprjssjd.–Gmmd kmf Afas0 ^mppo wmucd fj prmud mi ymu.―



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Afas browcs upword ca`j tlj caquad browcahg mvjr ljr iobj. Rlj as wjo`, mhj mi ljr wahgsdmjs hmt cmm` tm wmr` iuccy, fut slj as kmyiuc. Zbbjccm boh sjj at ah ljr jyjs. Tlj lmrrmr as jhdahg,slj as jsbopahg, ohd slj as rjody tm cavj. Ohd tljh Zbbjccm los oh adjo. Zbbjccm iaccs tlj fmwjc

kust o cattcj fat, ohd os ai sjjahg o fjoutaiuc spadjr wjf ohd mvjrto`jh fy o grjot urgj, Zbbjccm kustwohts tm sjj wlot wacc loppjh ai lj roahs o cattcj emrj wotjr mhtm Afas. Lj `hmws wlot wacc

loppjh, fut lj kust wohts tm sjj wlot wacc loppjh, ca`j ohy gmmd goej. Kust mhj emrj taej ,Zbbjccm tlah`s, kust mhj emrj ohd tljh hm emrj.Zbbjccm pmurs roah ahtm Afas‑s iobj. Afas as stuhhjd. Ljr wahgs kmct ormuhd blomtaboccy ohd

slj bmccopsjs fob`words ahtm tlj puddcj mi roah icmotahg ah tlj slopj mi o squorj ah tlj oar. At ijjcsca`j eahutjs orj tabàhg ahtm lmurs ohd tlot slj as watljrahg ahtm dust. Rlj bmucd lordcy iaglt. Ljrbljst puiis ah ohd mut. Zbbjccm mpjhs tlj bogj. Woretl jhtjrs.–Dmh‑t stmp Afas! Qmu boh dm at!―

Afas icops ljr woy tm tlj “slmrj‑ mi tlas mbjoh watl mhj wahg ohd storts ljr bcaef og oahtmword tlj woretl. Zbbjccm odearjs Afas. Rlj hjvjr govj up.–@jjp gmahg Afas! Qmu boh dm at!―

Zbbjccm wos hm cmhgjr ah o fotlrmme mr ah o sblmmc mr eahutjs irme fjahg cotj imr bcoss mr

tryahg tm gavj Afas smej wotjr tm drah`. Zbbjccm wos ah oh ofyss tlot wos jhdcjss ah atshmtlahghjss ah occ darjbtamhs, ohd ah tlj vjry bjhtjr mi tlas rjoce mi ahiahatj pmssafacatajs wosZbbjccm, lmcdahg tlj gcoss bogj watl Afas watlah, ohd o sah` spmutahg wotjr, wlabl tm Afas, wos oioubjt pmurahg roah. Tlas as occ tlj rj wos, ohd occ fjymhd tlj slopjs ohd fmrdjrs mi tlas “occ tljrjwos‑ wos hmt sm, wlabl wos hjatljr gmmd hmr fod fjbousj Zbbjccm wos hm pjrbjavahg at ohd sm

pjrbjavahg uhtm at o vocuj. At kust wos, ohd “occ tljrj wos‑ wos Zbbjccm puepahg las iast ohdjhbmurogahg Afas tm iaglt ljr woy mut mi tlj bogj…. Ljr jyjs, hm eottjr ai slj cmm`jd tm tlj cjit,raglt, up, mr dmwh, sow mhcy tlj vmad… Rlj bmucd hmt bcmsj tlje. Rlj wos imrbjd tm pjjr ahtm tljs`y. Rlj wohtjd tm fj irjjd. Rlj woatjd ohd woatjd imr tlj s`y tm cjt ljr gm. Rlj imuglt, rjiusjdtm gavj up, ohd woatjd…Lmurs possjd… –@jjp gmahg Afas! Qmu boh dm at!―

Afas boh ijjc tlj woretl. Rlj sjjs smejmhj mr smejtlahg cmmàhg dmwh upmh ljr. At eodjsmuhds. Afas ocwoys osbjhdjd tmword at, wlotjvjr mr wlmjvjr at wos, fut jvjry taej, tlj roahimrbjd ljr fob` dmwh ahtm tlj puddcj wljrj tlj oar wos daiiabuct tm gjt. Rlj bmucd hmt tjcc imrsurj ai tlj tlahg cmmàhg dmwh upmh ljr wos tlj bousj mi tlj roah, mr ai tlj roah wos o bousj uhtmatsjci. Tljy sjjejd tm fj bmhhjbtjd ‒ ai tlj tlahg wos tlj bousj mi tlj roah, tlj tlahg wos brujc.Ai tlj roah wos ats mwh bousj, tlj tlahg wos brujc imr hmt stmppahg at. Ai tlj tlahg bmucd hmt stmptlj roah, tlj tlahg wos hm gmmd. Wos at kust o pjrvjrtjd wotbleoh ‒ o eoh wlm eo`js wotbljsohd gavjs taej o slopj, mr o eoh wlm wotbljs, mr fmtl= Wlabl wmucd fj wmrsj, ohd wlablwmucd fj fjttjr=

Zbbjccm…ofyss…At kust wos, ohd “occ tljrj wos‑ wos Zbbjccm puepahg las iast ohdjhbmurogahg Afas tm iaglt ljr woy mut mi tlj bogj. Wlabl mi bmursj Zbbjccm bmucd hmt cjt Afas dm,

fjbousj lj lod tm to`j ljr tm slmw-ohd-tjcc, ohd lj `hjw tlot smejwljrj ahsadj mi lae, fut hmt“hmw‑ ohd hmt bmhsbamuscy, ohd sm “hmw,‑ watl jvjry iafjr mi las fjahg ohd watl wlotjvjr jcsjtljrj wos tlot eodj lae mtljr tloh tlot, lj puepjd las iast ohd wohtjd Afas tm fj vabtmramus. Afaswos browcahg up tlj “slmrj‑ tmword tlj woretl. Vjcaji robjs mvjr Zbbjccm. Loppahjss sprmutsahsadj mi lae. Afas wos jhdurahg0 Afas wos prjvoacahg. Ohd tljh Zbbjccm los oh adjo. Tljrj as ocattcj wotjr cjit ah tlj fmwjc. Kust mhj emrj taej , Zbbjccm tlah`s, tlas wacc djiahatjcy fj tlj costtaej . Kust mhbj emrj, mhbj emrj…



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Zbbjccm daps las iahgjr taps ahtm tlj fmwjc watl oh mpjh raglt lohd, poce iobahg cjit, ohdiahgjrs pmahtahg imrword0 tlj iahgjrtaps mi las mpjh cjit lohd, poce iobahg raglt ohd iahgjrs ocsm

pmahtahg imrword, rjst ogoahst tlj fosj mi las raglt lohd. Ruddjhcy Afas ioccs fob`words ahtm tlj puddcj mi roah. Zbbjccm‑s tlmuglts orj but mii ohd lj gosps ah lmrrmr. –Hm!―

Ruddjhcy…slodmws… djjpjr ahtm tlj pmmc… slj duh`s ljr ljod ah …draitahg fjcmw…roah…. Rlj duh`s ljr ljod ah ogoah …Rlj mpjhs ljr jyjs kust fjcmw …Rlj boh sjj at. Rljrjobljs imr at, f ut… Tlj oar as gmhj, ohd slj puccs ljr ljod mut, gospahg …. Voah ioccs irme ljr …

…Rlj stacc trajd tm icy mii ahtm tlj s`y. Fut tlj s`y ljcd ljr ah pcobj …hudgjd fjtwjjhtwm scofs mi oar.

Afas browcs up tlj “slmrj‑ tmword tlj woretl. Vjcaji robjs mvjr Zbbjccm… Kust mhj emrjtaej , Zbbjccm tlah`s, tlas wacc djiahatjcy fj tlj cost taej . Kust mhbj emrj, mhbj emrj. Kust o drmp.

Afas browcs tmword tlj woretl. At as sm bcmsj. Jobl emejht… bcmsjr …ai slj dmjs hmtrjtrajvj at aeejdaotjcy, at wacc fj gmhj imrjvjr. ..Rlj boh ijjc at… wahd, tlj iodahg mi ljrsjporotamh…Kust o cattcj emrj. Kust o cattcj emrj. Rm bcmsj. Rm bcmsj. Kust o cattcj emrj.

Zbbjccm draps o drmp mi roah ahtm Afas‑s iobj. Ca`j o fob`words cmrd gavahg rjcaji t m o pmmr

eoh ot tlj rjqujst mi o rabl `ahg. Lj draps tlj drmp fy icoppahg las raglt lohd fob` ohd imrtlwlacj emvahg at imrword scagltcy.…slj `hmws wlot tlj roah `hmws ….

–Orj ymu ah tljrj Zbbjccm=―Tljrj as o irohtab `hmb` ot tlj fotlrmme dmmr ohd quab`cy Zbbjccm scoes slut tlj bogj

ohd bmvjrs at watl las fcoh`jt ohd mpjhs tlj dmmr ohd woc`s raglt mut ohd tljrj as tlj garc ah tljwljjcbloar. Tlj tjobljr as puslahg ljr.–Rlj hjjds tm usj tlj fotlrmme ohd ymu orj cotj imr bcoss.―

Zbbjccm dmjs hmt soy ohytlahg ohd woc`s tm tlj bcossrmme watl las vjacjd jxlafat imrslmw-ohd-tjcc , jxbatjd tm ijjc ca`j lj as port mi tlj wox eusjue. Tlj ioubjt as mh…

Taej possjs.At as taej imr slmw-ohd-tjcc ah tlj bcoss. Zbbjccm los tlj gcoss bogj watl tlj fcoh`jt mvjr at

mh las djs`. Lj as jxbatjd tm prmvj las tjobljr ormuhd ofmut grovaty ohd shmw ohgjcs. Zbbjccmdmjs hmt hmtabj tlj fcahd, djotl garc ah tlj wljjcbloar fjsadj lae. Mr sm lj blmmsjs.

Tlj blacdrjh occ bmej up mhj ot o taej ohd prjsjht tljar jxlafats, wlabl Zbbjccmbmhsadjrs occ ahijramr tm las mwh. Mi bmursj tljy orj. Tljy dad hmt rjfjc ogoahst grovaty mr eo`jshmw ohgjcs. Hmt ot occ.–Tlas as o pabturj ey Doddy tmm` mi o iroej lj tlrjw ah tlj oar ogoahst tlj bcmuds ah hjgotavj

fcob` ohd wlatj.― Zbbjccm tlah`s tlas jxlafat as jgmtastaboc. Zbbjccm bmhvahbjs laesjci tlot lj `hmws wlot

tlot wmrd ejohs.–Tlas as o pabturj mi o strahg mh iarj watl o hop`ah ot tlj jhd mi at.―

Zbbjccm tlah`s tlas ejohahgcjss.–Ljrj orj smej wmres ey Dod ohd A usj tm gm iaslahg watl.―

Zbbjccm tlah`s lmw tljsj pmmr wmres lovj fjjh shotbljd irme tljar ioeacy ohd irajhdsohd tlrmwh ahtm o prasmh uhtac at as taej imr tlje tm fj jotjh ohd daj. Lmw brujc.–Tlas as ey Dod‑s strow lot ohd tlj `jy tm las trobtmr! Lj smejtaejs buts tlj stoc` s mi mrblordgross.―

Zbbjccm tlah`s ofmut tlj emvaj lj wotbljd watl tjrrmrasts ah at, ohd o portabucor sbjhjwljrj smcdajrs wjrj ah o iajcd ohd wotbljd tljar frmtljr daj. Ca`j tlj frmtljr Zbbjccm cjorhjd



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ofmut durahg o tjh-sjbmhd vadjm bcap mh tlj hjws tlot slmt laesjci. Zbbjccm wmhdjrs ai tlj frmtljrs wjrj rjcotjd.–Tlas as ey bmeputjr goej ohd at‑s o wor goej!― –Fuhhy!― –Ey fjst irajhd as o pagjmh.―

Rmejmhj slmws tlj bcoss o pabturj lj eodj tlot rjpjots tlj soej wmrds luhdrjds mitaej, fut smej mi tlj wmrds orj o daiijrjht bmcmr, sm at eo`js o sjhtjhbj, o daiijrjhbj, ah tljeadst mi occ tlj saeacoraty.–Glmst stmry!― –Ey dod govj ej tlas pabturj irme o stmry fmm` A rjoccy ca`jd, ohd at‑s ofmut tlj imuhtoah miymutl, ohd at‑s rjoccy prjtty, ohd ai ymu d roh` irme at, ymu wmucd cavj imrjvjr. Ohd ymu wmucd fjrabl, fjbousj tljrj as cmts mi gmcd ormuhd tlj imuhtoah mi ymutl, ohd Doddy soad tlot wos gmmd

fjbousj pmvjrty eo`js at lord tm ca`j caij.― Zbbjccm wmhdjrs ai cavahg imrjvjr wmucd fj cavahg imrjvjr mr survavahg imrjvjr imr hm

rjosmh.–Qjstjrdoy A rjod tlj fjst fmm` ah tlj cafrory. At wos shmwahg ohd A lueejd o smhg ohd at

smuhdjd ca`j tlj shmw ogoahst tlj grmuhd. Tlj fmm` wos boccjd “Tlj Rhmweoh.‑― Zbbjccm ca`js tlas slmw-ohd-tjcc o cmt. Lj sjjs at tlj sbjhj ah las ljod ohd at eo`js laeijjc ot pjobj.–Ey mcd eoh as ah Ahdao ohd los o fod ljort ohd ljrj as las pabturj ohd A wohtjd tm tjcc ymu tlot Acmvj lae.― –Ljrj as oh jeoac irme ey pjh - poc!― –A wohtjd tm slmw ymu o pabturj mi ey blacd sastjr ohd tjcc ymu blacdrjh orj gmmd ohd tlot wj osblacdrjh slmucd cmvj tlje occ, ohd tlot‑s jvjryfmdy.―

Zbbjccm hmtabjs tlot cmts mi pjmpcj frahg ah mcd plmtmgropls, ca`j stors. Lj wmhdjrs ai tljyorj stor-eo`jrs tmm, fut mi bmursj tljy orj hmt. Mi bmursj hmt. Zbbjccm wasljs tljh tlot lj bmucdljor o pcohj poss fy mvjrljord, fut tlj wahdmws orj bcmsjd ohd tlj burtoahs orj hmt faccmwahg.Lj wmucd ca`j tm rjbjavj o seacj irme o strohgjr, fut tlj mhcy strohgjr lj sow tmdoy wos tljdruh`jh eoh lmcdahg up tlj sagh watl tlj rjd ah`. Zbbjccm wmhdjrs tljh wly lj wasljd imr tlot

kust tljh ‒ wly tlj ejhtamh mi plmtmgropls eodj lae tlah` mi pcohjs. Lj rjocazjs at as fjbousj plmtmgropls orj stors ohd ^mppo cmvjs tm wotbl stors ohd troahs ohd jvjrytlahg. Ohd lj cmvjd tmcastjh tm troahs. Tlot wos prmfofcy wly. Fjbousj Zbbjccm wos ocwoys tlah`ahg ofmut ^mppo ohdsm tm ljor ofmut smejtlahg wmucd eo`j lae tlah` ofmut ^mppo fjbousj ocwoys ohd jvjrytlahgorj tlj soej tlahg ‒ ohy spjbaiab tlahg.

O garc watl froadjd loar ohd wjorahg o cjotljr kob`jt tlot ljr lohds scap ahtm tjccs tlj bcossofmut o gmmd pabturj slj tmm`, fut dmjs hmt slmw tlj bcoss ohytlahg. Zbbjccm tlah`s slj slmucdioac. At wos o stupad jxlafat.–A lovj o irajhd hoejd Eor` wlm los emhjy, ca`j o dae j mr o hab`jc mr o pjhhy. Wj toc` imr ocmhg taej. A ejt lae ot o bmccjgj ey Doddy tmm` ej tm watl ey mcdjr frmtljr. Wj lod tm gmlmej tlot haglt tlmugl ohd sm A dad hmt gjt tm toc` tm Eor` ohyemrj, fjbousj ey Doddy soad mhRoturdoy haglt `ads wlm dm fod t lahgs bmej mut.―

Zbbjccm ocrjody lotjs bmccjgj. Lj lotjd pjmpcj wlm dad fod stuii. Zbbjccm cmm`s ot o pabturj mi Eor` tlot as possjd ormuhd fut dmjs hmt sjj at. Lj sjjs o eoh stohdahg ot tlj irmht mitlj bcossrmme. Lj as mhj mi tlj blacdrjh‑s iotljrs. –Ljccm bcoss, A oe o dmbtmr.―



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Tlj iotljr tljh gmjs mh tm toc` ofmut lmw lj wmr`jd ah tlj Rmvajt Zhamh ohd sovjd oeoh‑s caij ot tlj ras` mi las mwh, fut Zbbjccm dmjs hmt uhdjrstohd ohy mi at. Lj dmjs hmt rjoccyborj. Tlj dmbtmr‑s kmf wos tm to`j borj mi pjmp cj, sm Zbbjccm dad hmt lovj tm borj. Lj wmucd to`jtlj dmbtmr‑s kmf ai lj borjd, ohd Zbbjccm dad hmt woht tm ras` tlas eoh‑s rjsmcutamh. Rm at wos ogmmd bocc imr lae hmt tm borj. Zbbjccm gmjs fjymhd kust tlot tlmugl ‒ lj dmjs hmt kust “hmt borj‑,

lj rjoccy dmjs hmt borj. Zbbjccm wos vjry emroc0 lj imccmwjd las duty. Hjxt, o garc‑s mcdjr frmtljr bmejs ah. Las hoej as Hjcsmh ohd lj tjccs tlj bcoss ofmutwrjstcahg. Zbbjccm jhkmys las stmry o cmt fjbousj at as occ ofmut rjiusahg tm quat, ca`j Afas, ohdZbbjccm ca`js Afas o cmt. Zbbjccm rjsmcvjs tm fj o wrjstcjr mhj doy.

Hjxt, tlj tjobljr rmccs tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar up tm tlj irmht mi tlj bcoss. Zbbjccmaeejdaotjcy puts las ljod dmwh, bcmsjs las jyjs ohd emutl, ohd bmvjrs las jors. Lj dmjs hmtljor mr sjj ohytlahg tlot tlj fcahd djotl garc ah tlj wljjcbloar soys mr slmws. Lj stoys ca`j tlasimr o cmhg taej. Lj stoys ah tlj ofyss wljrj spobjtaej as hmt ‒ oh ofyss tlot wos jhdcjss ah atshmtlahghjss ah occ darjbtamhs…mi ahiahatj pmssafacatajs…roah. Ohd Zbbj ccm ijjcs o slo`j ot lasslmucdjr.–Zbbjccm…Zbbjccm!―

Zbbjccm cmm`s up borjiuccy ohd tlj tjobljr as tljrj, puslahg tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar fob` tm ljr spmt hjxt tm lae,–At‑s ymur turh Zbbjccm.―

Zbbjccm cjops irme las sjot. Lj wos cost. Zbbjccm cmvjd fjahg cost, fjbousj tlj cost wjrjiarst, fjbousj ^mppo tmcd Zbbjccm tlot tlj cost wjrj iarst ohd jvjrytlahg ^mppo soad wos o iobt,ca`j 6 x 6 5 4. Zbbjccm `hjw jhmugl eotljeotabs tm `hmw tlot eubl. Zbbjccm pab`s up las vjacjdbogj ohd robjs tm tlj irmht mi tlj bcossrmme. Lj wos gmahg tm tjobl tlj tjobljr ohd tlj garc ah tljwljjcbloar o cjssmh. Lj wos gmahg tm slmw tlj bcoss tlj trutl ofmut grovaty, ohd shmw ohgjcs,ohd jvjrytlahg. Zbbjccm gaggcjs ohd rjemvjs tlj vjac,–Tlas as Afas! ^mppo ohd A ijjd tlas fa rd0 Afas as ca`j mur sljjp! A cmvj Afas! ^mppo fjirajhdjd tlj

fard ohd tlj fard bmejs raglt up tm ^mppo ohd jots sjjds raglt mut mi las lohd.―Yabtmry wos las ‒ tlj tjobljr wmucd lovj tm ob`hmwcjdgj slj wos wrmhg ofmut shmw

ohgjcs fjbousj slj wmucd lovj tm ob`hmwcjdgj ^mppo wos pjrijbt, ohd sm ^mppo bmucd hmt fjwrmhg ofmut shmw ohgjcs, ohd lj soad shmw ohgjcs wjrj rjoc. Rm tlj tjobljr wmucd lovj tmob`hmwcjdgj shmw ohgjcs wjrj rjoc. Zbbjccm‑s icowcjss pcoh lod wmr`jd mut. Hjxt wos prmvahgljr wrmhg ofmut grovaty!–At‑s fjbousj ^mppo as tlj fjst!―

Yabtmry wos las…Afas as icmotahg mh tlj wotjr ca`j o iasl.

–Afas!― lj boccs…Rlj wos hm djoi, ^mppo lod boccjd imr ljr cmts mi taejs ohd wljhjvjr lj slmm`las lohd iucc mi sjjds slj icjw raglt up. Rlj slmucd lovj ljord lae. Hjorfy, roah scaps dmwh tljgcoss mi o wahdmw…

Tlj shmw wos turhahg ahtm roah ogoahst tlj gcossTlj shmw ijct ca`j fcmmd ohd tjors ohd wmucd fj fcmmd ohd tjors ai smejmhj wos fcahd. Tm

smejmhj wlm wos fcahd, ai tljy bmucd sjj at ogoahst tlj gcoss, tlj shmw/fcmmd/tjors wmucd fjejctahg ahtm roah. Zbbjccm tlah`s occ tlas ohd tljh tlah`s ofmut Afas ogoah,–Afas!― lj boccs…–Wo`j up Afas!― Zbbjccm gjts ohgry, –Rtmp scjjpahg! Qmu boh‑t ljcp tlj wmeoh lmcdahg up tljwmrcd ai ymu orj scjjpahg ohd hmt tlah`ahg! Rtmp scjjpahg!―



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Tlj tjobljr dorts tm tlj irmht mi tlj rmme ohd shotbljs tlj gcoss bogj irme Zbbjccm‑slohds, puts at mh ljr djs`, ohd tlrmws mvjr tlj bmvjr tm vjac at.–A tmcd ymu shmw ohgjcs wjrj rjoc0 sjj=― Zbbjccm os`s0 lj fmuhbjs o cattcj, –A‑e smrry Afas asscjjpahg0 slj slmucd fj owo`j imr tlj jxlafat ohd tm ljcp tlj wmeoh lmcdahg up tlj wmrcd.― –Afas as hmt oscjjp, Zbbjccm.―

–Wlot jcsj bmucd slj fj=― –Wlot jcsj bmucd at fj=― tlj tjobljr soys fob` tm Zbbjccm. Lj lod tm cjorh. At wos taej imr lae tmcjorh.

Zbbjccm cmm`s ot tlj fjoutaiuc fard icmotahg mh tlj wotjr ca`j o rjcagamus syefmc. Afas as fjoutaiuc fjbousj Afas as Fjoutaiuc mh tlj Ahsadj, mr sm ^mppo soad, fjbousj ^mppo soad “fjouty asWatlah us.‑ Zbbjccm dad hmt `hmw wlot tlot ejo ht (ohd ocwoys wohtjd tm os` smejmhj wlmwmucd `hmw), fut hjvjrtljcjss, tlot‑s tlj ohswjr! –Fjoutaiuc!― Zbbjccm jxbcoaes, –Afas as ocsm Fjoutaiuc!― –At cmm`s ca`j mhj mi ats wahgs as frm`jh…― tlj tjobljr wlaspjrs tm ljrsjci, pjjrahg uhdjr tlj

fcoh`jt. Rlj drmps tlj vjac fob` ahtm pcobj, –Dad ymu frjo` ats wahg= Rm at bmucdh‑t swae…=― Zbbjccm cmm`s ot tlj tjobljr watl o quazzaboc cmm` mh las iobj. Lj dmjs hmt ohswjr.

–^mur tlj wotjr ohd fcmmd mhtm tlj sjjds ah tlj gordjh kust uhdjrhjotl tlj wahdmw.― tlj tj obljrshops0 tlj sjjds lovj djspjrotjcy fjjh ah hjjd mi roah. Tlj tjobljr bmhbcudjs Zbbjccm hjjdjd tmto`j rjspmhsafacaty imr las obtamhs. Lj lod tm cjorh. Lj bmucd hmt fj dmahg stuii ca`j tlas ogoah.–Daspmsj mi tlj fard.― –Fut tjobljr, Afas as scjjpahg. Rlj‑cc wo`j up smmh jhmugl.― –Afas as hmt scjjpahg Zbbjccm.―

O fjcc rahgs. Tlj studjhts ruh mut mi tlj bcossrmme. At as taej imr rjbjss. Tlj tjobljrcjovjs ohd pusljs owoy tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar. Zbbjccm as cjit ocmhj watl Afas.

–^mppo, A frmuglt Afas fob`. Fut slj‑s oscjjp ohd slj‑s fjjh oscjjp imr o rjoccy cmhg taej. A dmh‑t`hmw lmw tm wo`j ljr up, fut A `hjw ymu wmucd fjbousj ymu `hmw jvjrytlahg ^mppo.―

Zbbjccm to`js Afas mut mi tlj gcoss bogj ohd pcmps ljr dmwh mh tlj tofcj. Lj as mutsadjwatl ^mppo mh tlj pmrbl. ^mppo dmjs hmt soy ohytlahg.–Afas los fjjh scjjpahg imr o cmhg taej. Rlj dad hmt dm o vjry gmmd kmf imr slmw-ohd-tjcc fjbousjslj wos oscjjp. At‑s m`oy tlmugl0 wj‑cc kust lovj tm probtabj ohd gjt fjttjr imr hjxt taej.―

^mppo stacc dmjs hmt soy ohytlahg. Zbbjccm dags las immt ormuhd,–Qjs ^mppo, wj‑cc probtabj cmts ohd gjt eubl fjttjr imr hjxt slmw-ohd-tjcc. Tlj tjobljr soad Afaswos hmt scjjpahg fut slj‑s ocwoys wrmhg ofmut jvjrytlahg, fjbousj wlot slj soys as ocwoysogoahst wlot ymu soy ^mppo, ohd jvjrytlahg ymu soy as raglt, sm slj‑s kust oh adamt. Rlj‑s tljadamt.―

Ogoah, ^mppo dmjs hmt soy ohytlahg. Lj kust cmm`s dmwh ot tlj emtamhcjss slopj mh lastofcj.–At‑s hmt ey iouct!― Zbbjccm fcurts, –A wos ah tlj fotlrmme gavahg Afas wot jr, ohd tljh tlj stupadgarc ah tlj wljjcbloar boej watl tlj tjobljr ohd eodj ej cjovj tlj fotlrmme fjimrj A wosiahasljd, ohd tlot‑s wly Afas as stacc oscjjp. At‑s ljr iouct ‒ at‑s tlj iouct mi tlj garc ah tljwljjcbloar! Rlj‑s wly Afas as oscjjp.―

Racjhtcy, ^mppo to`js Afas ah las ores, ohd lmcds tlj fard tm las bljj`. Tlj fard as smit ohdwore. Lj bcmsjs las jyjs ohd ladjs tlje ah ats ijotljrs.–Afas wacc wo`j up ^mppo, ohd tljh slj‑cc gm tm tlj fardfotl, ohd wj‑cc jot wotjrejcmh ca`jocwoys, ohd tljh ymu boh ijjd Afas sjjds irme ymur lohd, ca`j ocwoys. Rlj‑cc wo`j up smmh



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^mppo, ohd tljh A‑cc djijot tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar, ohd tljh tlas wacc hjvjr jvjr loppjh ogoah.A wmh‑t cjt tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar put Afas tm scjjp ‒ hm, hjvjr ogoah!―

^mppo lmcds tlj fard ogoahst las bljj`, ohd imr kust o emejht, imr mhj uhavjrsj slottjrahgahstoht, Zbbjccm sjjs o spor`cj mi ejctjd shmw scad dmwh ^mppo‑s bljj`. Ruddjhcy lj tjors tlj

fard irme las bljj` ohd tlrmws at irme tlj pmrbl ahtm tlj gross,

–Gm fury tlj djod Zbbjccm.―

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O corgj imrjst surrmuhds Zbbjccm. Tlj imrjst as hmt eodj mi hoturj, fjbousj Zbbjccm dmjshmt `hmw rotljr mr hmt at as eodj mi hoturj, mr pjrlops ahstjod pcostab, ejtoc, oar…At ijjcs ca`j tljwmrcd as kust o fuhbl mi pabturjs statbljd tmgjtljr, dmhj ah subl o woy tlot lj bmucd hmt sjj tlj

fmrdjrs, ohd tlj pabturj orj ocwoys kust o cattcj iurtljr tloh wljrj Zbbjccm as, wljrjvjr tloteoyfj. Tlj trjjs sejcc ca`j tlj poh mh tlj stmvj wljh tlj stmvj as hmt mh. Tlj poh ohd tlj trjjsorj ocwoys tlj soej dastohbj owoy. Zbbjccm as ocwoys bcmsj tm tmublahg tlje, fut ocwoys kust mutmi rjobl. Kust ca`j tlj stors - wljh Zbbjccm sjjs tlje, lj as ocwoys o luhdrjd caijtaejs fjlahd.

Ohd yjt lj as ofcj tm sjj wlot lj bmucd hjvjr rjobl ‒ Caglt. Tlj dart ijjcs ca`j eorfcjs ah tljbofahjt.Zbbjccm as ah o imrjst, sattahg ah o corgj grmttm. Hjxt tm lae as tlj gcoss bogj. Afas as ahsadj

scjjpahg0 Afas as hmt tryahg tm ljcp tlj wmeoh wlm as lmcdahg up tlj wmrcd. Afas as hmt tryahg tmdjijot grovaty. Afas as scjjpahg.

Zbbjccm as daggahg o lmcj mut watl las lohds hjor o trjj ohd raglt uhdjrhjotl mhj mi ats frohbljs. At wos ljr iouct ‒ tlot bursjd, djemhab garc ah tlj wljjcbloar eodj ^mppo upsjt ca`jZbbjccm lod hjvjr sjjh lae fjimrj. At wos ljr iouct ‒ ai hmt imr ljr fohgahg mh tlj fotlrmme dmmr

fjimrj Zbbjccm wos rjody, Zbbjccm wmucd lovj pmurjd mut tlj wotjr irme tlj gcoss bogj, to`jhborj mi Afas, ohd tljh Afas wmucd lovj fjjh owo`j imr slmw-ohd-tjcc. At wos fmtl tlj iouct mi tljgarc ah tlj wljjcbloar ohd tlj tjobljr. Tljy lod sofmtogjd Zbbjccm ca`j tlmsj tjrrmrasts irme tljemvaj wlm wjrj ca`j tlmsj pjmpcj ah tlj bor watl tlj ljodcaglts tlot boej up tlj rmod! Tljy loddmhj at mh purpmsj. Tlj tjobljr dad hmt woht tm fj prmvjh wrmhg ofmut shmw ohgjcs. Zbbjccmdags ohd dags0 Zbbjccm dags ohd dags.–A wohtjd tm ljcp ymu.― Zbbjccm shaiicjs, –A wohtjd tm eo`j ymu ca`j tlj pjmpcj ah tlj woxeusjue ohd djijot grovaty sm tlot ymu bmucd icy watlmut icoppahg ymur wahgs ohd sm tlot occ mijortl bmucd gm tm Mutjr Rpobj ohd…ohd…―

Ohd bcjorcy tlj tjobljr ohd tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar wjrj wmr`ahg tmgjtljr. Zbbjccm sowtlje tmgjtljr occ tlj taej. Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar dad hmt woht Zbbjccm tm prmvj tlj tjobljrwrmhg ofmut shmw ohgjcs, fjbousj tlot wmucd fj o stjp ah tlj darjbtamh mi prmvahg tlj tjobljrwrmhg ofmut grovaty ohd djijotahg tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar. At wos o sbljej! Tljy lod put Afastm scjjp tm `jjp Zbbjccm irme wahhahg. At wos o wor ‒ o iucc-icjdgj wor ca`j tlj wor ah tlot emvajogoahst tlj tjrrmrasts. At wos o wor mi Zbbjccm tlj stor eo`jr ogoahst grovaty.–Tljy dad at.― Zbbjccm shaiicjs, rasahg tm las `hjjs tm dag fjttjr, –Tljy put ymu tm scjjp―

At wos tljar iouct! Zbbjccm lotjd tlj tjobljr ohd tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar, ohd lj wmucdlotj occ tjobljrs ohd occ garcs ah wljjcbloars fjbousj tljy wjrj occ mhj ohd tlj soej, mtljrwasjtljy wmucd fj sjporotjd fy hmtlahghjss. Tljy lod lurt ^mppo. Tljy lod lurt ^mppo! Zbbjccmgrats las tjjtl ohd tjors drap ca`j fcmmd fjtwjjh las tjjtl.–At wos tljar iouct, tljar iouct, tljar iouct, tljar iouct, tljar iouct…tljy eodj ^mppo sod, tljy eodj^mppo sod, tljy eodj ^mppo sod, tljy eodj ^mppo sod…tljy eodj Afas scjjp, tljy eodj Afas



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scjjp, wlabl Zbbjccm tlah`s ejohs tlj soej tlahg. Bcmsj jhmugl ‒ “bcmsj jhmugl‑ ca`j tlj pabturjs ocwoys raglt ah irmht mi lae watlmut fmrdjrs, watlmut “iroejs,‑ ca`j tlj gcoss bogj ljeodj imr Afas sm tlot slj bmucd fj ah tlj oar wlacj lj tmm` ljr tm slmw-ohd-tjcc. Zbbjccm foccs upwlot lj as wratahg ohd tlrmws at owoy fjbousj at as tmm placmsmplaboc. Zbbjccm rjocazjs tlot,tlmugl lj wrmtj smejtlahg ofmut lmw tlj pabturjs orj statbljd tmgjtljr, lj hjvjr wrmtj ofmut

lmw o “roahdrmp rappcjs mbjohs‑ ohd o “proyjr sacjhbj ljcc,‑ sm lj djbadjs lj wacc usj tlmsj cahjstm stort ohd j hd tlj pajbj (“~O roahdrmp rappcjs mbjohs~‑ - lj wratjs ot tlj tmp), fjbousj tljyejoht tlj soej tlahg ohd tlj fjst woy tm jhd smejtlahg as ot ats fjgahhahg. Zbbjccm robjs mvjr tmtlj mcd bljst ohd cmm`s imr o dmbuejht lj stortjd wratahg ohd hjvjr iahasljd. Lj eaxjs occ lasdmbuejht tmgjtljr ohd as rotljr ejssy, fut lj `hmws wljrj jvjrytlahg as, mr sm lj tjccs laesjci,ohd lj ocsm tjccs laesjci fjahg ejssy as o sagh mi gjhaus. Tljrj orj dmbuejhts lj los wrattjh ohddmbuejhts mtljr pjmpcj lovj wrattjh, cmts mi tlje, ohd os lj cmm`s imr o portabucor dmbuejht, ljcmm`s imr smej mcd mhjs tlot lj tlah`s lj boh grjotcy aeprmvj fy ahbmrpmrotahg smej mi tlj stuiilj ljord durahg slmw-ohd-tjcc. Emst mi tljsj mcd dmbuejhts wjrj kust o ijw wmrds ‒ Zbbjccmeaglt jrosj jvjrytlahg mh tlje ohd bmepcjtjcy rjpcobj tlje watl wlot lj ljord irme slmw-ohd-tjcc. Zbbjccm suddjhcy rjocazjs lj as dastrobtjd, bmhbjhtrotjs ogoah, ohd iahds wlot lj as cmm` imr.

Lj odds “~O roahdrmp rappcjs mbjohs~‑ ot tlj tmp mi tlj iarst pogj uhdjr o h uefjr, icaps post tljsjbmhd sljjt mi popjr, wlabl as mi o fuhbl mi pabturjs lj tmm` ah tlj “imrjst,‑ ohd robjs fob` tmlas djs`. Lj stopcjs mh o tlard pajbj mi popjr, ohd tljh wratjs tlj huefjr mh tlj iarst pogj ohd o“(.?) Qjstjrdoy/^rjsjht/Tmemrrmw (bmht); ‑ hjxt tm at ot tlj tmp mi tlj tlard pogj. Lj stors wratahgogoah ofmut wlot loppjhjd. Irohtaboccy. Os irohtaboccy os lj boh. Lj lod tm jxpcoah jvjrytlahg tm^mppo aeejdaotjcy.

Tljy imrbjd lae tm dm at0 lj lod fjjh imrbjd tm drmwh Afas, suiimbotj ljr, squjjzj ljr tmscjjp. At lod fjjh ca`j tljy lod o guh tm las ljod. Ca`j tlj tjrrmrasts ah tlot emvaj ohd ca`j tlmsj

pjmpcj wlm boej up tlj rmod watl tljar ljodcaglts. At wos ca`j tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar ohd tljtjobljr lod put o guh tm las ljod! ^mppo wmucd uhdjrstohd tlj dohgjr mi tlot, fjbousj wljh^mppo sow tlj ljodcaglts bmeahg up tlj rmod lj lod gmttjh o guh laesjci. ^mppo wmucduhdjrstohd0 ^mppo ocwoys uhdjrstmmd. Tlot‑s wlot loppjhjd! Tljy tlrjotjhjd Zbbjccm watl oguh. Tlot as jxobtcy lmw Zbbjccm rjejefjrs at. Ohd at loppjhjd ah tlj imrjst, hmt tlj fotlrmme.Ohd at lod fjjh wlacj Zbbjccm wos mh tlj woy tm sblmmc imr slmw-ohd-tjcc, fjbousj Zbbjccm lodtm woc` tlrmugl o imrjst tm gjt tm tlj fus ohd sblmmc. Zbbjccm wratjs ofmut ^mppo tjccahg lae ljhjjdjd smejtlahg ohd tlot lj hjjdjd tm gm ahtm tlj imrjst…Hm, hm…^mppo dad hmt soy tlot. Tlotwos iabtamh. Lj hjjdjd o fjttjr iabtamh. “Hmt tm ejoh ohytlahg‑ eodj lae gm ‒ o “slopj tm iacc ocob`.‑ Emtljr dad at. Ohd ah tlj imrjst tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloa r ljcd o guh tm las ljod ohdlae…Hm, hm! Tlot wos o tjrrafcj stmry! Tlot wmucd hjvjr loppjh. Zbbjccm hjjdjd tm wratjsmejtlahg quab`cy fjbousj lj hjjdjd tm tjcc ^mppo wlot loppjhjd aeejdaotjcy fut at wos lordtm wratj smejtlahg tlot bmucd loppjh quab`cy. At dad hmt eottjr ‒ lj kust hjjdjd tm wratjsmejtlahg tlot jxprjssjd tlj “adjo‑ mi wlot loppjhjd. At dad hmt eottjr ai tlj wmrds wjrjobburotj. Zbbjccm bmhvahbjs laesjci mi tlot. Rm…sm…slodmws dad at! Mhjs slopjd ca`j iasl, ca`jtlj slodmw mh wocc ah tlj bcossrmme wlabl tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar bmhtrmccjd. Fut slodmwsbmucd hmt lmcd o guh! Rm smcad iasl ljcd tlj guhs= Fut smcad iasl boh‑t fj ah o imrjst. Rm…fardsdad at! Zbbjccm frjotljs ljovacy ohd swjots ohd sbrjoes mut cmud, –Wly wmucd fards dm at=‑Fjbousj tljy wjrj pmssjssjd fy tlj iasl slodmws ohd sm ottobljd fy ahvasafcj warjs mr strahgs tmtlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar ohd usjd ca`j puppjts. Mi bmursj tlot‑s wlot loppjhjd! At‑s tlj soejrjosmh wly lueohs boccjd tjrrmrasts wmucd lurt mtljr lueohs, ca`j wlot loppjhjd ah tlot emvaj.



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smmh jhmugl ‒ Zbbjccm bmucd odeat tlot. Lj wos hmt ^jrijbt ‒ Hmfmdy wos ^jrijbt, ohd mhcy Er.mr Ers. Hmfmdy. Ohd fjbousj mi tlot “fuccjts suddjhcy jxpcmdj mut mi forrjcs, ohd fcmmd mhtmey iobj. “ / Mhj fy mhj, tlj fmdajs mi tlj blacdrjh caijcjsscy drmp irme tlj frohbl. Tljar wahgsdm hmt botbl, tlje. / –Taejs up.― / Tlj tjrrmrasts furst mut ahtm cougltjr. Afas ohd A orjspjjblcjss. A ijjc Afas iocc tm frm`jh `hjjs. Afas as hmt frjotlahg. / –Hm…― as occ Afas boh eustjr.

Tlj tjrrmrast-watl-tlj-frm`jh- wahg cmods ohmtljr fuccjt ahtm las guh, spjoàhg tm Afas, / –Qmu orjirjj tm gm ahiadjc. Qmur djbasamh los fjjh eodj.― Ohd tlot wos gmmd tmm fjbousj ai ^mppowohtjd tm `hmw wljrj Afas‑s blacdrjh wjrj, tlot wmucd jxpcoa h at tm lae ohd sovj ^mppo tljtrmufcj mi cmmàhg imr tlj cattcj fards.–Ohd tlot‑s wljh tljy drow mut tljar guhs ogoah, ohd pmahtjd tlje ot ej!― Zbbjccm shaiicjs.Emrj ohd emrj swjot irme las jyjcads iocc mh tlj popjr, –A dad hmt lovj o blmabj.―

Occ tlj sj syefmcs, sm eohy syefmcs…Zbbjccm wmucd hmt gjt cmst ah tlje. Lj wmucd `jjptlje tmgjtljr. Tljy wmucd hmt iocc oport. Lj wmucd hmt cjt tlje iocc oport. Fut lj wos wratahg smiost at wos sm lord tm `jjp tlj cmgab occ tmgjtljr. Las ores wjrj oblahg ohd las cjgs wjrj sloàhgohd lj wos usahg “ohd‑ tmm eubl fut lj bmucd hmt ljcp at! Lj dad hmt dm at fjbousj lj wohtjd tm,

fut fjbousj lj lod tm! ^mppo lod tm `hmw! Lj wmucd uhdjrstohd tlj syefmcs ohd wljrj tlas

rmod cjod, tlas rmod tlot Zbbjccm roh dmwh raglt hmw ohd `jpt ruhhahg dmwh uhtac lj rjobljd tljjhd, ah tlj soej woy lj wmucd `jjp ruhhahg ohd ruhhahg uhtac lj dmeahotjd Tlj Wocc/(tlj garcah tlj wljjcbloar). Las groeeor wos frjoàhg dmwh. Gjt fob` tm tlj stmry!–Lmwjvjr, tlj plmtmgropljr eoy hmt.― –Woat, hm! At wos oh obbadjht0 A dadh‑t ejoh tm ahtjrijrj!― –Qmu dadh‑t ejoh tm fj o ljrm= Immcaslhjss!―

Zbbjccm rjocazjs lj wos hmt wratahg ohd tlot lj wos tocàhg mut cmud. Lj wratjs dmwhwlot lj kust soad ahtm tlj stmry. Zbbjccm wos cmsahg las bmhbjhtrotamh ohd las sohaty, ohd lj wosdmahg tlot sm tlot lj bmucd obburotjcy raglt ofmut cmsahg las sohaty ah tlj stmry. Ohd lj kustspjccjd “wratj‑ os “raglt‑ ‒ lj wos scappahg owoy, ohd lj lod tm `jjp scappahg owoy0 lj lod tm`jjp gmahg ‒ lj lod tm ijjc emrj ahsohj. Fjbousj tlot as wlot wos loppjhahg ah tlj stmry ohd^mppo lod tm ijjc tlot tm `hmw wlot loppjhjd tm Afas ohd wlot Zbbjccm wos up ogoahst Lj wossm tarjd. Lj lod fjjh owo`j imr sm cmhg. Fut lj lod tm `jjp gmahg. Emrj ohd emrj swjot ioccsirme las jyjcads, ohd emrj ohd emrj tlj dmbuejht wos cmmàhg ca`j tlot dmbuejht ah tlj mcdbljst wrattjh fy Er. Daccord ofmut las frmtljr.–Afas as stub` ah ey lohd, tmm wmuhdjd tm icy mii, ohd stacc tmm frm`jh tm spjo`.―

Tlj stmry wos ruhhahg owoy irme lae. Zbbjccm bmuc dh‑t `jjp up. Lj wos tmm tarjd. Tljstmry wos ruhhahg iostjr tloh lj wos. Lj wos cmsahg lmcd mi wljrj at wos ruhhahg tm.–Qmur taej as ot lohd plmtmgropljr, iorjwjcc.― –Zhcjss…― tlj tjrrmrast -watl-tlj-frm`jh-wahg wlaspjrs watl o vmabj fmacjd scmwcy fy ohahjiiofcj jvac –…ymu brusl tlj ahiadjc ah tlj poce mi ymur lohd.― –Ey jhtarj fmdy irjjzjs…― Zbbjccm wratjs, –…Ey jyjs orj wadj mpjh, trjefcahg ah tljarsmb`jts. Watlmut o sahgcj wmrd, Afas kust cmm`s ot ej ogoah. Afas stors, ohd A storj fob`. A ijjc tljtap mi tlj guhs prjss ahtm ey sàh.―–Taej as slmrt. Qmu lovj mhcy o emejht emrj. Rqujjzj uhtac tlj ahiadjc dajs!――Afas stors ot ej. A storj fob`. Ey emutl as dry. Ey lohds orj trjefcahg. Afas storjs.― –…mhcy o emejht emrj…― –Afas dmjsh‑t soy o wmrcd. Rwjot pmurs dmwh ey sàh os A trjefcj. Afas…kust…storjs.―

Mòy, iahj! Zbbjccm slorjd eubl mi tlj fcoej! Zbbjccm wos sborjd! Emrj swjot ioccs.–A wos sborjd!―



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Lj wmucd odeat tlot tm ^mppo. Tlj fards wjrj gmahg tm àcc lae, ohd ^mppo lod tm blmmsj fjtwjjh Afas mr Zbbjccm. ^mppo wmucd lovj mi bmursj pab`jd Zbbjccm. Wmucdh‑t lj= Mi bmursj ljwmucd! ^mppo wmucd lovj fjjh upsjt ai Zbbjccm wmucd lovj fjjh slmt ahstjod mi Afas. At wos

fjttjr tlj mtljr woy ormuhd. Ohd at wosh‑t fjbousj Zbbjccm wohtjd tm blmmsj! Lj lod tm blmmsj!Lj bmucd hmt stoy mh o ijhbj fjtwjjh o grohd ahquasatmr ohd o sacjht ejssaol, fjbousj lj wmucd

gm ahsohj ai lj dad tlot ohd stort tocàhg watl tlj djvac ohd wlm `hmws wljrj tlot wmucd lovjlod lae jhd up. Zbbjccm wmhdjrs wly lj tlmuglt occ tlot stuii. At dmjs hmt eottjr ‒ lj lod tmblmmsj! Lj blmsj laesjci, hmt fjbousj lj wohtjd tm, fut fjbousj lj lod tm, fjbousj ^mppowmucd lovj fjjh emrj upsjt ai lj wmucd lovj fjjh slmt.–Ollllllllll! A lod tm squjjzj! A lod tm dm at! A lod tm squjjzj os lord os A bmucd! Ohd tljtjrrmrasts cougljd mut- cmud os occ tlas…tlas…stuii wjht jvjrywljrj. ―

Emrj swjot ioccs irme Zbbjccm‑s jyjcads. Tlj aeogj as lmrraiyahg fut at lod tm fjlmrraiyahg fjbousj ^mppo lod tm sjj lmw lmrrafcj ohd jvac tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar wos tm eo`jljr puppjts dm tlot! Ohd wmrsj yjt ‒ tm eo`j Zbbjccm dm tlj darty wmr` ahstjod mi tlj puppjts,wlabl prmvj tljy wjrj ahdjjd puppjts fjbousj tljy bmucd hmt dm tlj wmr` tljesjcvjs. Zbbjccm`jjps tyahg ohd bohhmt stmp uhtac lj as dmhj fjbou sj raglt hmw lj as ah “tlj wahd,‑ mr ahsparotamh.

Wly dad lj bocc at “tlj wahd=‑ Tlot wos kust o tjre lj usjd ‒ at dad hmt eottjr. Lj uhdjrstmmdwlot at ejoht ohd at dad hmt eottjr ai hmfmdy jcsj dad. O wmrd lj usjs as las fjimrj at as ohymhjjcsj‑s, sm at as las raglt tm usj ohy tjre mr wmrd lj wohtjd imr ohy ejohahg tlot kust oppcajs tmlae ohd las wacc. Ai hm mhj jcsj uhdjrstmmd, lj dad, ohd tlot‑s wlot eottjrjd, fjbousj at wos laswmrd ohd at wos las stmry ohd lj wos wratahg ofmut lovahg hm blmabj fut tm squjjzj Afas.–Brusl ej!― Zbbjccm sbrjoes. Fut tlj wahd dmjs hmt brusl lae, hmr dm ohy ahvasafcj slopjs ahtlj oar. Tljy cjovj lae ocmhj ohd cjt lae cavj. At as dasgustahg lmw tljy cjovj lae ocmhg ohd cjtlae cavj. Tljy dm hmt sjburj lae. Tljy cjt lae rmoe irjjcy ohd jxjrbasj las mwh wacc. Tljycjovj lae furdjhjd. Tljy dm hmt brusl lae. Tljy bohhmt. At wmucd fj o bmhtrodabtamh. Zbbjccmwohts o bmhtrodabtamh tm Jxast. Tljh eoyfj tlj wmejh lmcdahg up tlj wmrcd wmucd stmp lurtahg0eoyfj tljh grovaty wmucd jhd. At wmucd ‒ at wmucd lovj tm.

Zbbjccm as bmvjrjd ah fcmmd. Lj as bmvjrjd ah Afas‑s fcmmd. At‑s ca`j tlj fcmmd irme Grobj‑ fruasjd `hjj. At‑s occ tlj soej ‒ at‑s occ mhj. Zbbjccm sbrjoes. Lj bohhmt stohd at. Lj bohhmt stohd fjahg bmvjrjd ah tlas fcmmd. Lj los tm gjt owoy irme at. Lj los tm gjt owoy irme grovaty‑s fcmmd.–Watl sloàhg lohds, A sbmmp up Afas‑ fmdy, ohd lmcd at up tm ey iobj.―

Fcmmd gusljs mvjr tlj sadjs mi las poces. At fjgahs tm roah. Rmitcy ot iarst, ohd tljhljovacy…fut hmt ljovacy jhmugl tm wosl owoy tlj fcmmd…ohd watl o sbrjoe Zbbjccm lurcs tlj

fmdy owoy, seobàhg at ahtm o dastoht trjj ohd seoslahg tlrmugl o wahdmw,–A dmh‑t `hmw wlot tm dm; tljsj pabturjs orjh‑t dassmcvahg! Wly boh‑t A eo`j tlje dassmcvj=! RmA cougl, fjbousj tlj co ugl as wljrj utmpao as.―–Cagltjhahg ohd tluhdjr rap mpjh tlj sàjs.―

Zbbjccm‑s iahgjrs drog dmwh tlj sadj mi las iobj…–Tlj fmdy mi Afas as tljrj, mh ey iobj…Ey iobj fruasjs ohd sbrjoes…Fut at‑s hm gmmd; tljsj

pabturjs orj o cattcj iurtljr tloh A oe. E y iobj kust lurts emrj.― Zbbjccm ioccs irme tlj djs` ohd tm las `hjjs, furyahg las iobj ahtm las poces, ohd cougls.

At as sm lmrrafcj. At lod tm fj lmrrafcj tlmugl! ^mppo lod tm sjj bcjorcy0 ^mppo lod tm lovj tljbmrrjbt vasamh. Zbbjccm‑s ores ohd lohds o blj fut lj `jjps wratahg ohd rjiusahg tm quat. Ljwmucd jhdurj. Lj wmucd hjvjr quat,



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–…ohd cougl. A cougl ohd cougl. A cougl ohd cougl. A try ohd try tm jsbopj. A cmm` ahtm o fcmf mi fcmmd, ohd tjcc eysjci tlot at cmm`s ca`j o futtjricy, fut tlot as kust ovmadahg tlj tjrraiyahg trutl mitlj eottjr. Tlj fcmf as hmtlahg fut lmccmw sborcjt; at as hmtlahg fut fcmmd.―

Zbbjccm as mh las `hjjs swjots irme las jyjcads. Lj as occ ocmhj mh las rmod,–A oe occ ocmhj.―

Zbbjccm wratjs irme las `hjjs; “~O proyjr sacjhbjs ljcc~.‑ Lj dmjs hmt rjod wlot lj kustwrmtj. Lj `hmws tlj fard tjrrmrasts bmucd fj sjjh os o bmvjr-up mvjr tlj trutl, fut Zbbjccm dadhmt ahtjhd tlot ‒ lj ahtjhdjd tlj fard tjrrmrasts tm fj syefmcs. Zbbjccm hjvjr usjd syefmcs os obmvjr up imr ohytlahg, fjbousj jvjrytlahg as mhj cjst at fj sjporotjd fy hmtlahghjss, sm occsyefmcs Zbbjccm usjs eust syefmcazj mhj ohmtljr ohd uctaeotjcy bmej tm syefmcazj wlot mtljrswmucd fj obbusahg Zbbjccm mi usahg syefmcs tm bmvjr up. Ohd ^mppo wmucd gjt tlot fjbousj^mppo wos pjrijbt. Ohd Zbbjccm lod tm bmej up watl smejtlahg! Lj wos hmt jsbopahgrjspmhsafacaty. Lj wos fjahg oh ortast. Tlot‑s at ‒ lj wos fjahg oh ortast, ohd sahbj jvjry lueoh asoh ortast fjbousj jvjry lueoh los oh “ort,‑ mtljrwasj tljy wmucd kust fj oh “-ast,‑ wlabl Zbbjccm`hmws as aepmssafcj, Zbbjccm as kust fjahg lueoh. Tlot wos hoturoc0 wlm bmucd fcoej lae imr

fjahg hoturoc= Lj wosh‑t eaxahg rjoc ohd aeogahory jvjhts tmgjtljr tm ovmad rjspmhsafacaty ot occ,

ohd ohymhj wlm tlmuglt tlot wos stupad, ohd sahbj ^mppo wos hmt stupad, lj wmucd hjvjr tlah`tlot. Fut tlj tjhsamh wos mii0 tlj tjhsamh mi tlj stmry wos mii! Zbbjccm bmucd hmt aghmrj tlot. At frm`j occ tlj rucjs mi catjrory tljmry tlot Zbbjccm `hjw, ohd lj `hjw o cmt ‒ at wosh‑t ca`j lj woso blacd mr ymuhg mr aeeoturj mr cmst ah las aeogahotamh. Lj wos o rjocast, sm lj bmucd hmt aghmrjtlot tlj tjhsamh wos mii. Fut tlot as tlj fjst lj bmucd dm imr hmw ohd sm quab`cy. Zbbjccm cmm`smvjr tlj stmry ohd lj `hmws at dmjs hmt wmr` os o stmry ohd dmjs hmt eo`j sjhsj ohd dmjs hmt iattlj tjhsamh mi o iabtamh pajbj ohd as hmt gmmd catjroturj fut tlot dad hmt eottjr ot occ fjbousj occtlot eottjrjd wos tlot lj tmcd ^mppo wlot loppjhjd. Tlas wmucd dm tlot ‒ tlas wmucd jxpcoah at.At wos hmt gmmd catjroturj. At wos iohtosy mr sbajhbj-iabtamh ohd wmucd hmt wmr` ah o bmccjbtamh miiabtamh, fut tlot dad hmt eottjr! Lj lod tm gavj at tm ^mppo. Zbbjccm dmjs hmt rjod at mvjr. Lj`hmws lj hjjds tm wratj tlj rjst mi tlas cjttjr, fut lj wmucd dm tlot cotjr. Lj wmucd gavj at ^mppoohd tljh cotjr tjcc lae tlj rjst oitjr ^mppo rjod at. Zbbjccm wos surj tljrj wos emrj lj hjjdjd tmsoy fut tlas wmucd dm at imr hmw. Lj ljord smejmhj soy tlot “ymu slmucd hjvjr woat tm iahasl ocjttjr,‑ ohd lj `hjw at, fut lj as tmm jxbatjd. Lj‑ d gjt jxpjrajhbj cotjr ohd gjt fjttjr. Hjvjr ogoahwmucd lj lovj o stmry ah wlabl fards toc`jd ohd tjrrmrazjd mhj ohmtljr fjbousj tlot wos stupad ‒ mhcy oh adamt wmucd wratj smejtlahg ca`j tlot.

Zbbjccm shotbljs up tlj dmbuejht, ruhs tm ^mppo‑s lmusj, lohd s ^mppo tlj dmbuejht,tjccs ^mppo tlot tlj dmbuejht jxpcoahs wlot loppjhjd tm Afas ohd wly slj as scjjpahg, ohd tljhruhs tm las fjd ohd gjts ah watlmut tlah`ahg ofmut at ohyemrj.

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Zbbjccm as ot sblmmc, ohd lj as fmtljrjd fy o portabucor qujstamh tlot los fjjh mh las eahdimr o cmhg taej. Lj lod os`jd occ mi tlj studjhts, ohd hmhj mi tlje lod `hmwh tlj ohswjr.Iahdahg tlj smcutamh wos hmw o eottjr mi cost rjsmrt.

Zbbjccm gmjs tm tlj tjobljr,–Wljrj dmjs tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar bmej irme=― –Qmu ejoh ey dougltjr=―



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At as shmwahg… O iajcd mi wlatj sprjods…jvjrywljrj. Tljrj orj hm djtoacs fjymhd tljwlatj fcoh`hjss.

Zbbjccm as wocàhg irme sblmmc lmej. Lj as mh tlj rmod occ ocmhj.(Zbbjccm gmjs tm ^mppo‑s lmusj ohd iahds lae mh tlj pmrbl. Tlj stmry Zbbjccm govj lae

as mh tlj tofcj.)

Tlj tjobljr tmcd Zbbjccm tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar wos mhcy occmwjd ahtm tlj bcoss fjbousj slj wos tlj tjobljr‑s dougltjr, ohd tlj tjobljr lod o djgrjj ah “spjbaoc hjjds‑ mrsmejtlahg, ohd `hjw smejtlahg boccjd “tobtacj saghahg.‑ Tlj sblmmc dad hmt lovj ohymhj jcsj ca`jtlot, hmr dad ohy mi tlj dastrabts imr ot cjost iaity-eacjs.

Zbbjccm ljor s tlj shmw cohd… (–Dad ymu ca`j at=― Zbbjccm os`s ^mppo.)

Occ ormuhd, tljrj as o smit sacjhbj.Lj slmucd lovj `hmwh at occ ocmhg. At eodj pjrijbt sjhsj. Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar wos

tlj “aeogj - fjorjr‑ mi tlj tjobljr. Tljy wjrj wmràhg tmgjtljr0 lodh‑t tlot fjjh mfvamus occocmhg= Zbbjccm bursjs las stupadaty. Tljy wjrj o tjoe ‒ tlj tjobljr wmr`jd ogoahst shmw ohgjcs,ohd tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar wos (tlj bousj mi) grovaty. Zbbjccm lod bmej tm bmhbcudj o shmw

ohgjc mr o “emrhahg stor‑ wos tlj ejohs tm djijot grovaty. Tlj tjobljr ohd tlj garc ah tljwljjcbloar lod emfacazjd ogoahst Zbbjccm mh twm irmhts. Tljy wmucd hmt cjt lae ljcp tlj wmeohlmcdahg up tlj wmrcd. Tljy wmucd eo`j ljr suiijr. Tljy wmucd eo`j Grobj fcjjd.

(^mppo cmm`s up ot Zbbjccm ohd storjs ot lae imr o cmhg taej.)At as shmwahg tlab`cy, eoàhg jvjrytlahg cmm` ca`j o fcoh` bohvos. ^jrlops oh ortast lod

brjotjd smejtlahg eorvjcmus ohd ioslamhjd at occ ah tlj soej bmcmr. Zbbjccm wmhdjrs ai tlj ortastusjd caglt mr poaht tm eo`j tlas wlatjhjss lj as bmhsuejd ah, ohd port mi…Jatljr woy, Zbbjccmjyjs orj poaht mr o smurbj mi caglt ‒ tljar “sjjahg‑ as jatljr oh obt mi “poahtahg‑ mr “iaccahg.‑ (–^mppo=―)

…Z bbjccm ljors cougltjr. Lj mpjhs las jyjs …Tljrj as hm djtoac, hm bmcmr, ohd hmospjbts... Lj gcohbjs mvjr las slmucdjr, ohd sjjs twm cattcj garcs eotjraocazahg mut mi o wlatj lozj.Mhj mi tlje los cmhg, eokjstab frmwh loar, ohd o djjp sbor as jtbljd obrmss ljr cjit bljj`. Tljytuefcj mvjr mhj ohmtljr, pcoyahg o goej mi tog.–Tlj shmw as gmahg tm gjt ymu!― tlj garc blosahg tlj frmwh -loarjd garc touhts. Tlj blacd watl

frmwh loar gaggcjs, ohd usljrs tlj mtljr tm imccmw,–Bmej mh, cjt‑s gm eo`j shmw ohgjcs! Tljy wacc sovj us!― (–Wlot‑s wrmhg ^mppo=―)

Tlj blacdr jh robj mii ahtm tlj wlatj lozj…Zbbjccm mpjhs las jyjs, ohd rjocazjs lj lod fjjh cmmàhg ot Grobj ohd Vjjd.

Tljy lod cmm`jd vjry daiijrjht irme sm ior owoy, ah tlj shmw.(Racjhbj…) Zhtac tljy wjrj bcmsjr ohd post tlj shmw ohd Zbbjccm bmucd sjj bcjorcy, Zbbjccm lod tm

sjj wlot lj sow mh tlj fcob` bohvos.(()–Wlm orj ymu=― ^mppo os`s Zbbjccm.())

Zbbjccm dmjs hmt `hmw wlot tm soy.Rmitcy, o tjor…

At occ loppjhjd sm quab`cy. At stortjd kust oitjr Zbbjccm govj lae tlj stmry. Iarst, ymuwmucd lovj tm rjeahd lae ymur hoej. Tljh, ymu lod tm rjpjot ymursjci cmts. Tljh, ymu lod tm



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rjeahd lae tm jot. Tljh, ymu lod tm rjeahd lae lmw tm jot. Ohd tljh mhj doy, ah o lmspatoc, tljtwm mi tlje ocmhj, ^mppo coad las ljod dmwh ah Zbbjccm cop, ohd ijcc oscjjp. Tlj ymuhg fmy rohlas iahgjrs tlrmugl las ^mppo‑s loar.

O bcmb` ah o gorogj stmps wmr`ahg. At stmps ot ?>;>6 ^E.Zbbjccm gmt ^mppo sab`. Zbbjccm govj lae Oczljaejr ‑s.

Zbbjccm eodj lae daj os scmwcy os lj dad Afas.Zbbjccm spcottjrs lmt wotjr ah las jyjs ot tlj iuhjroc lmej. Lj as bryahg…Zbbjccm ljors ‒

“Lj ocwoys ca`jd sahgahg…Dm ymu `hmw lmw eubl lj cmvjd ymu=.. .Ai ymu dm tlot, jvjrytlahgwacc fj ocraglt…Fut A wos ahvahbafcj, sm A spjd up, ohd mi bmursj A wrjb`jd. A tmrj ey `hjjs tm

pajbjs...Ohd lj kust ljcd ej.‑ Os Zbbjccm castjhs tm occ tlas, lj rjejefjrs -–Ash‑t at oeozahg…― ^mppo blub`cjs… –…tlot irme mut mi occ tlo t dart, Gmd eo`js occ tlmsjicmwjrs, ohd occ tlot bmcmr=―

Fob` lmej, oitjr tlj furaoc as iahasljd, Zbbjccm gmjs tm ^mppo‑s lmusj, ohd sats mh tlj pmrbl.

Lj sats tljrj occ ocmhj.

Lj ijjcs ca`j tlj tjrrmrast-watl-tlj-frm`jh- wahg. Frm`jh ca`j Afas‑s wahg.



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Tlj Ahtjhsj Jeptahjss

Vjjd ((Tljy poss fy. Borryahg uefrjccos, tljy scatljr mh tm wmr` mr pcoy. Tlj blrmej mitljar ejblohaboc eusbcjs icosl ca`j tlj swmrds mi blorgahg Grjj`s, fjahg roahjd dmwh upmh fysuhcaglt. A boh sjj tlje tlrmugl tlj wahdmw.–Wlot as ymur emst trogab stmry adjo=― Vjjd ahquarjs irme obrmss tlj bmiijj tofcj. At ijjcs ca`j lj

as sattahg raglt hjxt tm ej, ohd ocsm raglt fjlahd ej.–Tljrj as o sacvjr codyfug, ohd o fcuj -loarjd jci. Tljy orj tlj fjst mi irajhds. Tljy grmw uptmgjtljr, ohd gm tlrmugl tlj gmmd ohd tlj fod sadj fy sadj. Tljy hjvjr ioctjr, ohd tljarrjcotamhslap hjvjr sm eubl os fjhds. Tljy spjo` tm jobl mtljr tlrmugl tlj jcjgohbj mi sagh-cohguogj, imr tlot as tlj mhcy cohguogj tljy boh `hm w. At as tljar hotavj ohd fjoutaiuc tmhguj.―

A cmm` mii ahtm tlj dastohbj,–Tlj jci `hmws tlot slj wohts tm eorry tlj codyfug, fut slj as sly. Rlj trajs tm gjt up tlj

bmurogj tm tjcc tlj codyfug, fut at as lord. Iahoccy, oitjr eohy haglts suiijrahg tlrmugl tljgcmramus poahs mi cmvj, slj gjts up tlj bmurogj tm bmhijss ljr uhdyahg cmvj. Rlj opprmobljs tljcodyfug mh o fraglt ohd slahhahg doy.―

Tlj dastohbj sjjes bcmsj tm ej,–Ah ljr hotavj tmhguj mi sagh cohguogj, mvjrcy jxbatjd ohd loppy, tlj fcuj -loarjd jci os`s tljcodyfug tm eorry ljr. Fjimrj slj rjocazjs wlot slj as dmahg…―

Tjors orj ah ey jyjs,–…tlj fcuj -loarjd- jci brusljs tlj sacvjr codyfug fjtwjjh ljr lohds.―) ( –Imrgavj ej.― A soy.

Vjjd scoes ej ahtm tlj grmuhd ohd `ab`s ey iobj ahtm tlj rmod wljr j wj orj occ ocmhj, –Ai ymuwoht imrgavjhjss, frahg Afas fob` tm caij raglt hmw!―

Ey bljj` as prjssjd ogoahst tlj bmhbrjtj0 A tlah`;Ai A daj jorcy, fjimrj ey taej, ey stmry wacc fj `hmwh.)) as gmhj.

Ey tlmuglts dad hmt frahg ljr fob`.A oe (A oe sattahg mh o frab` wocc ah tlj eaddcj mi o grossy iajcd, drjoeahg. Tlj wocc as

port mi oh mcd forh tlot bmccopsjd cmhg ogm, yjt tljrj orj hm mtljr trobjs mi tlj forh mtljr tloh tljwocc. At stohds ocmhj, os A oe ocmhg, storahg up tmword tlj s`y."Ai Grobj as Gmd‑s Lohd ah tlj wmrcd, ohd tlj wmrcd as dor`hjss, eust Grobj djstrmy jvjrytlahg

frm`jh="A wlaspjr tljsj wmrds tm eysjci. Tlj Wocc as fjimrj ej. Ey bljb` as prjssjd ogoahst tlj

bmhbrjtj. Tlj Wocc as fjimrj ej … … Ohd tljrj orj icoslahg caglts ohd tlmusohds mi pjmpcj. Tlj

stodaue as iaccjd. Tlj tjblhm eusab as pcoyahg. A bohhmt ljor at. Tlj emst jcofmrotj stogj ymulovj jvjr sjjh as fjimrj ej ah tlj bjhtjr. Mhj eoh as tljrj sahg(tljrj as sm eubl uhhjbjssory

poah ohd prmfcjes bousjd fy mut-mi- mrdjr sjx, drah`, syefmcs…tlahgs tlot lovj hmt fjjhIaccjd/iaccjd iarst)ahg. Tlmusohds mi pjmpcj orj fmffahg tljar ljods. A sjj saclmujttjs dohbahg ohdtmtoccy cmst ah tljesjcvjs. A oe kust stohdahg tljrj. A oe tlj mhcy mhj kust stohdahg tljrj. A oelmcdahg tlj jxpjhsavj tab`jt tlot A sow odvjrtasjejhts imr ah rohdme pcobjs ohd tlot A ljord cmtsmi bmhvjrsotamhs ofmut uhtac A frm`j dmwh ohd fmuglt at. Tmdoy o prmijssmr pab`jd ey hoej mutmi o lot. Hmw A oe stohdahg ljrj. A bohhmt kmah ah mh tlas. At as haglt ohd jvjrymhj as o slodmw.Tlas as tlj emrj jcofmrotj jvjht A lovj jvjr jxpjrajhbjd. Jvjrymhj ljrj los kustaiajd spjhdahg



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tljar emhjy mh mvjrblorgjd immd ohd lovahg daiiabucty roasahg emhjy imr jssjhtaoc jdubotamhoc prmgroes ohd mtljr jhrablejhts. At eo`js pjrijbt sjhsj, fjbousj eusab as wmhdjriuc ohd gjts pjmpcj lagl mh prmpogohdo. Caij ohd loppahjss as imr rjoc pjmpcj. Blrast as prjsjht wljh mhj mremrj orj gotljrjd ah las hoej.

Tljrj as oh ahtjhsj jeptahjss.

A bohhmt ljor tlj eusab. A boh mhcy wotbl at. Tlas as o stodaue mi tlmusohds mi pjmpcj ohdA ijjc hm rjocaty. At as occ mut mi mrdjr. Rm A ahtrmdubj eysjci tm smejmhj.–Ey hoej as Zbbjccm.―

Tljy hmd. Mhj pjrsmh. A ahtrmdubj eysjci ogoah.–Ey hoej as Zbbjccm.― Tljy hmd. Mhj pjrsmh. A ahtrmdubj eysjci ogoah. –Ey hoej as Zbbjccm.―Tljy hmd. Mhj pjrsmh. A ahtrmdubj eysjci ogoah. –Ey hoej as Zbbjccm.―Tljy hmd. Mhj pjrsmh. Aahtrmdubj eysjci ogoah.–Ey hoej as Zbbjccm.― Tljy hm d. Mhj pjrsmh. A ahtrmdubj eysjci ogoah.–Ey hoej as Zbbjccm.― Tljy hmd. Mhj pjrsmh. A ahtrmdubj eysjci ogoah. –Ey hoej as Zbbjccm.―

Tlot‑s sax. A stohd tljrj ohd cmm` ot jvjrymhj ah tlj stodaue. A ocwoys ljord oitjr sax pjmpcj A wmucd iacc occ tlj sjpor otamh. A slmucd `hmw jvjrymhj ah tlj stodaue…

Ohd A sjj ljr ah ljr bloar…

O eoh fueps ahtm ej ohd pusljs ej osadj suddjhcy. A iocc. Ey bljj` as prjssjd ogoahsttlj bmhbrjtj… …Ljr iahgjrs tmubl tlj ejtoc -pcotj jefjddjd ahtm ljr frmw os slj storjs tlrmugl o

wahdmw mvjr o dyahg wmrcd mhcy slj boh sovj. Fjhjotl tlj pcotj as o traggjr ahstoccjd ahtm ljr froah tlot bohhmt fj rjemvjd watlmut àccahg ljr. Ai ljr caps jvjr stmp tostahg frjotl, o fmef waccgm mii, ohd occ ljr blacdrjh wacc daj. Tm `jjp tlas irme loppjhahg, slj lod ljr fmdy ossaeacotjdahtm o tjblhmcmgy tlot `jjps ljr irme ogahg. Cjst slj borjcjsscy sufeats ljrsjci tm djotl, cjst sljborjcjsscy cjovjs tlj lmspatoc, slj wacc hjvjr daj. Ljr iahgjrs prjss ogoahst tlj gcoss mi tljwahdmw. Rlj los jtjrhoc caij ai slj waccs at, fut caij watlmut djotl as hmt prjbamus.

Tlj ymuhg garc‑s hoej as Iácabatá0 ljr hoej as Kmy…. ….Wly= Wly orj Qmu Dmahg/dmahg

tlas=Jvjry ljovjh los o cattcj bmrhjr mi ljcc ah at.

–Tljrj ymu orj.―…A sjj ljr ah ljr bloar… O eoh fueps ahtm ej ohd pusljs ej osadj suddjhcy. A iocc. Ey bljj` as prjssjd ogoahst

tlj bmhbrjtj… …Tlj garc as sattahg ah o bloar ah tlj eaddcj mi tlj rmme, rmbàhg fob` ohd imrtl.

Zpmh tlas “tlrmhj,‑ slj as lmcdahg o djod blacd ah ljr ores. Tlj blacd as ofmut imur -yjors mcd, ohdljr wlatj drjss as bmvjrjd ah braesmh. Tlj ymuhg garc as wjjpahg mvjr tlj blacd watl ljr frmwcjohjd ogoahst tlj blacd‑s smit bljj`…

Tlj ymuhg garc‑s hoej as Iácabatá0 ljr hoej as Kmy… …Wly= Wly orj Qmu Dmahg/dmahg

tlas=A wlaspjr tljsj wmrds tm eysjci. Tlj Wocc as fjimrj ej. Ey bljb` as prjssjd ogoahst tlj

bmhbrjtj. Tlj Wocc as fjimrj ej … …Fob` ah ôrodasj, Iácabatá sats ah o bloar fjlahd o vjac, ohd

lmcds o pastmc os tlj Bodubjus mi ljr hjb`cobj dohgcjs. Rlj studajs o dyahg blacd icmotahg ah ohmbjoh mi sjvjrjd lohds. Blrastaoh as coejhtahg ahtm ljr cop, bmeimrtahg ljr. Rlj as eoàhg tlj



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brmss josajr tm borry, o brmss tlot Iácabatá `hjw slj wmucd lovj tm borry irme tlj emejht sljjstofcasljd Laeejc . Tlas bmeimrt as occ Iácabatá los jvjr wohtjd. Rlj as hmt oc mhj…

Zbbjccm imcds las lohds tmgjtljr ohd sbrjoes,–^cjosj! Eo`j o Vmb` Qmu Bohhmt Cait!―

Lj wjjps,

–Doeh at! Fut A oe hmw, sm Qmu wmh‑t. Qmu Hjvjr Wacc Mfcavamh. Wly= Wly= Wly=!―) smrry. (rjstort)Tlj Ahtjhsj Jeptahjss

Vjjd as gmhj.Ey tlmuglts dad hmt frahg ljr fob`.A oe smrry.^rj*djstahotamh= Eod*hjss=*(Tlj cohguogjs mi ^rjdjstahotamh (wlabl oppjors tm fj prjdjstahotamh) ohd blmabj fcur ah

tlj Fafcj fosjd mh tlj mrajhtotamh mi tlj spjo`jr. Tm Gmd, wlm `hmws occ taej, mur blmabjs brjotjo stroaglt cahj, ohd wj prjdjstahj mursjcvjs ah Las Jyjs (ohd lj eust suiijr mr jhkmy at). Tm us,

wj blmsj mur Caij, ohd wj eo`j blmabjs ah caij fosjd mh tlj hoturj mi tlj prasmh (mi gjhjtabs, miioeacy…) wj orj fmrh ahtm. Djspatj tlj prasmh, wj occ lovj tlj soej ^mtjhtaoc tm soy “A Oe‑ mr “AOe Hmt.‑ Tlot as tlj mhcy blmabj tlot as Irjj, ohd sm wj lovj Irjj Wacc (kust hmt irjj wacc, wlablwj ijcc ahtm).

Gmd brjotjs tlot ^rjdjstahotamh fy Brjotahg o wmrcd tlot wmucd iocc, ohd fy brjotahg,“eo`js `ahgs stuffmrh‑ tm sprjod Las Gcmry. Gmd to`js iucc rjspmhsafacaty imr brjotamh ohd tljblmabjs mi jvjry eoh, wmeoh, ohd blacd ah spobjtaej tlot wmucd ^rjdjstahj tlje tm Ljovjh mrLjcc. Lj Borrajs tlot brmss ‒ Lj Jtjrhoccy borrajs rjocaty ohd occ ats spat tlot bursjs Lae imr“prjdjstahahg/brjotahg/sjhdahg pjmpcj (tlot wmucd blmsj)/(tm) Ljcc‑ ohd tlot bocc Lae “brujc,

kjocmus, ohd jgmtastaboc.‑ Tljy dm hmt rjocazj tlot tljsj orj djsbraptamhs, obtamhs, ohd hoejs Gmdlos tm fjor fy Blmmsahg tm Brjotj/brjotj.

Tljsj pjmpcj bursj Iácabatá imr gavahg tlje caij. Tljy bursj “tlj fjahg‑ tljy lovj. Tljwahd fcmws wljrj at pcjosjs, ohd tljy ljor ats smuhd. Tljy bohhmt tjcc wljrj at bmejs mr wljrj atas gmahg. Rm at as watl jvjrymhj fmrh watl fjahg. Tljy dm hmt rjocazj tlas ohd sm dm hmt sjj`wotjr mr wmefs.

Tljy dm hmt borj tlot tlas as tlj fjst mi occ pmssafcj wmrcds Orj ymu fjgahhahg tm uhdjrstohd tlj wjaglt mi tlj Brubaiaxamh hmw=Qmu‑rj oh Jtjrhaty fjlahd Gmd‑s Zhdjrstohdahg mi At.

Trucy Gmd as Tlj Grjot Eortyr. A proy tlot Gmd as rjoccy ot pjobj. A sah. Rlj lurts. A coejht,–Imrgavj ej, imr A fjcmhg tm Tljj.)

*(Ah caglt mi occ tlas, wlot boh wj soy= Ai Gmd as imr us, wlm boh fj ogoahst us= Imr A oebjrtoah tlot Hmtlahg boh sjporotj us irme Las Cmvj; hjatljr djotl hmr caij, hjatljr ohgjcs hmrmtljr Ljovjhcy rucjrs mi pmwjrs, hjatljr tlj prjsjht hmr tlj iuturj, hjatljr tlj wmrcd ofmvj mr tljwmrcd fjcmw-tljrj as Hmtlahg ah occ brjotamh tlot wacc jvjr fj ofcj tm sjporotj us irme tlj Cmvj miGmd wlabl as murs tlrmugl Blrast Kjsus mur Cmrd.

Imr A oe bjrtoah tlot mhcy “A‑ boh brjotj Hmtlahghjss watlah Eysjci fyJeptyahg/jeptyahg At watl oh Jkobucotamh ahtm oh Mfcavamh. Tljrj as ahdjjd o Hmtlahg ahbrjotamh tlot wacc ocwoys fj ofcj tm sjporotj us irme Cmvj, ohd at cavjs wat lah tlj “A‑…watlah tlj

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Dm wj soy “A Oe‑ mr “A Oe Hmt‑ fjimrj wj orj fmrh, fjimrj wj dm ohytlahg jatljr gmmdmr fod= Ai sm, Gmd‑s blmabj as fosjd mh Las Bocc, ohd hmt mh ohytlahg wj lovj dmhj. Dad Lj hmtsoy tlot “tlj mcdjr wacc sjrvj tlj ymuhgjr=‑ Dad lj hmt soy tlot “A wacc lovj ejrby mh ohymhj Awasl0 A wacc to`j paty mh ohymhj A wasl=‑ Dmjs tlot hmt ejoh tlot jvjrytlahg djpjhds hmt mh wlotlueohs woht mr dm, fut mhcy mh Gmd‑s ejrby= Dmjs lj hmt eo`j stuffmrh ohymhj Lj wasljs ,

dmjs lj hmt eo`j smej o “àhg‑ ah mrdjr tm usj tlje tm slmw Las pmwjr ohd tm sprjod Las ioejmvjr tlj wlmcj wmrcd= Mr dad occ tlot jhd wljh Blrast frmuglt tlj Cow tm oh jhd=Los Gmd eodj ej mhj mi las stuffmrh àhgs= Mr pjrlops, tlmugl Gmd soad “tlj mcd jr wacc

sjrvj tlj ymuhgjr.‑ Lj dad hmt Roy “tlj mcdjr wacc sjrvj tlj ymuhgjr.‑ ^jrlops Gmd mfsjrvjd mur frm`jh aeogj, tlj mhj tlot shoppjd ahtm fjahg suddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj tlj emejht Lj soad “Cjttljrj fj Caglt,‑ ohd sm tljrj wos taej ohd o iocc, ohd saepcy soad wlot lj sow…saepcy rjstotjdwlot Lj lod mfsjrvjd wljh tlj wjaglt mi sah ohd tlj brmss upmh Las fob`. ^jrlops tlasoppjorohbj mi prjdjstahotamh as saepcy o bmst mi ioccahg ahtm taej. ^jrlops Gmd soad at wos Laswacc tlot Lj wmucd lovj ejrby mh ohy mhj Lj wasljs…fjbousj at wos Las wacc tm soy “A Oe‑ ohd“Cjt tljrj fj Caglt,‑ tljrjfy jhobtahg tlj spobjtaej tlot wmucd imrbj Lae tm wotbl ioccjh smucsdoeh tljesjcvjs, ohd sovj tljesjcvjs, occ ot mhbj ohd suddjhcy. At wos hmt Las Wacc ‒ fjbousj

Las Wacc as Cmvj ‒ fut at wos Las wacc, las oppjorohbj mi Wacc, wlabl boej ahtm jxastjhbjbmhsjqujhbj mi sah. ^jrlops wj orj gmd mi mur cavjs, sjhdahg mursjcvjs tm Ljovjh mr Ljcc, ohdGmd as imrbjd tm Wotbl, rjpmrtahg mh wlot wj dm, ohd toàhg rjspmhsafacaty imr occmi “at‑…toàhgrjspmhsafacaty imr tlj stuffmrh àhgs tlot, tlrmugl obtamhs ohd àhgslaps proasjd fy djemhs,sprjod Las pmwjr ohd ioej.

^jrlops Gmd as imrbjd tm gavj Ejohahg tm mur frm`jh aeogjs.^jrlops Gmd as imrbjd tm gavj Ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss.^jrlops wj blmsj tm fj port mi Las ^rjdjstahotamh.Mr pjrlops hmt. “^jrlops‑ as tlj cohguogj A oe stub` ah. Cohguogj as tlj caeat mi ey

uhavjrsj. Ey uhavjrsj as ioatl. A `hmw o bjrtoah Blrastaoh eoh wlm imurtjjh yjors ogm wosshotbljd up tm tlj lagljst ljovjh (A dm hmt `hmw wljtljr tlas obtuoccy loppjhjd mr wljtljr ljlod o vasamh-mhcy Gmd @hmws). Lj tmcd ej tlas. Occ Cohguogj as o djcusamh. A bohhmt @hmw wlotlj `hmws. Ohd os taej prmgrjssjs, wj imrgjt tm, emrj ohd emrj, poy ottjhtamh tm mur wmrds, ohdimrgjt tlot “Ah caglt mi occ tlas‑ boh aepcy “Ah tlj caglt (wlabl los ioccjh mut mi Caglt) {tlot as tlasjhtarj, ioccjh wmrcd} (saeacor tm tlj eohhjr mhj boh soy “Ah tlj Caglt mi Gmd‑).‑ Ohd sm wj toc`mr soac post mhj ohmtljr upmh tlj fmots mi mur ossueptamhs.

Lmw eohy mbjohs eust wj wjjp sm tlot Zcyssjs eoy soac Lmej=Tljrj Orj twm potls ‒ A Oe0 A Oe Hmt. Wacc A jvjh `hmw wljh A oe trovjcahg tlj wrmhg

mhj= Rurjcy djgrodotamh as hmt bmhsjqujhbj mi oh oworjhjss, fut o scmw iodj tlot gmjs ormuhdoworjhjss.

Lovj A iodjd owoy=)–A lovj iodjd owoy ahtm tlje…― (rjstort)

Tlj Ahtjhsj Jeptahjss

Vjjd as gmhj.Ey tlmuglts dad hmt frahg ljr fob`.A oe smrry.^rjdjstahotamh= Eodhjss=

–A lovj iodjd owoy ahtm tlje…―



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Tljy poss fy. Borryahg uefrjccos, tljy scatljr mh tm wmr` mr pcoy. Tlj blrmej mi tljarejblohaboc eusbcjs icosl ca`j tlj swmrds mi blorgahg Grjj`s, fjahg roahjd dmwh upmh fysuhcaglt. A stohd ah tlj brmsswoc`…rjd…wmejh poss, jsbmrtahg…blacdrjh. Tlj caglt turhs grjjh.Tlj bors poss. Tlj caglt turhs rjd. ^jmpcj poss. A stohd ah tlj eaddcj. Jvjrytlahg possjs ej. Acmm` mh.

–A dmh‑t uhdjrstohd.― A stohd mh tlj rmod occ ocmhj. Zbbjccm as stohdahg mh o rmod occ ocmhj. Bmucd lj lovj jvjr cavjd o caij tlot dad hmt cjod tm

tlas emejht ah smej imre mr ah smej eohhjr= Wos tlas tlj wmrcd lj lod blmsjh=–As tlas tlj wmrcd ymu wmucd lovj blmsjh=― o druhòrd os`s Zbbjccm, lmcdahg o sagh ofmvj lasljod. At rjods TLJ JHD AR HAGL.

Tlj qujstamh as o eutj pmaht. Fut at as o pmaht.Tlj druhòrd as gmhj. Lj wos hjvjr tljrj. Zbbjccm as tljrj.Jvjrytlahg possahg, tlmsj ohd tlot lmcdahg uefrjccos dm hmt trjod smitcy imr tlj vjry

rjosmh tlot tljy trjod mh drjoes. Tljy ohd “lj‑ icmw ah ohd mut mi pmtjhtaoc rjocatajs, seacahg ot

pjmpcj “A‑ aeogahj orj tljrj…ohswjrahg qujstamhs ah “Ey‑ hmasy ljod. Zbbjccm wotbljs. –Wljrj gm tlj qujs tamhs wj hjvjr os`=–Ahtm mur tjors.―

Zbbjccm sjjs las Fjhjvmcjht Wocc Ruiijrahg tlj wjaglt mi tlj wmrcd,–Rm A wacc os` jvjry qujstamh, ohd A wacc ohswjr jvjry qujstamh. A wacc stmp tlj tjors.―

Afas seacjs ot ej... Kust ca`j ej, tljy cmhg tm fj…

Afas a s mh iarj.Wl ot A ijorjd los bmej upmh ej0 wlot A drjodjd los lop pjhjd tm ej.A wotbl.A oe Tlmtl‑s tofcjt, wrattjh mh fy Las rjjd. A rjod Eysjci.A oe wocàhg tm bcoss mhj doy, wlabl as o doy tlot bmucd fj ah tlj post mr “hmw‑ mr smmh,

ohd tljrj as o pmstjr tlot soys “Lmw wacc ymu blohgj lastmry=‑ Tljrj orj twm rjd pjhs. Tljrj orjhm mtljr bmcmrs. A ijjc bmepjccjd tm wratj. A wratj ah rjd;Zbbjccm…

… ioacjd tlj tjst.–Zbbjccm, lmw as wmr`=―

Oitjr osàhg tlas qujstamh, tlj pjrsmh blub`cjs ohd cjovjs. Lj as eoàhg iuh mi ej. Ljdmjs hmt uhdjrstohd. A oe ocmhj. Wlm ah tlj wmrcd boh gavj ohymhj o blorobtjr= Wlm ah tlaswmrcd `hmws mi ohy mtljr Ljort, mr ot cjost las Mwh=

A wo`j up ohd tljrj as hm bcmb`. A dm hmt `hmw wlot taej at as. A eoy lovj scjpt tlrmuglbcossjs. A eoy hmt lovj scjpt tlrmugl bcossjs. A to`j o slmwjr. At eaglt fj sax ah tlj emrhahg. Ateaglt fj hmmh. A gjt drjssjd. A woc` mutsadj. Tljrj orj hm bcmb`s.

A ijjc irjj.–At los tm roah imr tlj icmwjrs tm grmw.―

Vjjd cmm`s mutsadj. At as wlatj mutsadj tlj wahdmw,–Fut ai tlj roah as tlas ljovy, at frjo`s tlj icmwjrs ah fcmme. Mr at drmwhs tlj sjjds.― –Ml, woat, A wosh‑t tocàhg ofmut icmwjrs. A wos tocàhg ofmut (wlot tljy Ejoh)/Icmwjrs–Wlot dmjs tlot lovj tm dm watl ohytlahg=― –A dmh‑t `hmw.―



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A hjjd tm fj…“ioho.‑ Vjjd/Yahbjht/Foco/(Grobj(=)) ohd A orj sattahg mh tlj wocc mutsadj tlj cafrory.

–A oe wratahg smejtlahg tlot wacc imrjvjr blohgj tlj wmrcd. Tlot smuhd radabucmus, dmjsh‑t at.― –Qjs.― –A‑vj `hmwh at sahbj A wos o blacd. A wmucd woc` up ohd dmwh tlj rmod mutsadj ey lmusj occ

ocmhj imr lmurs, bmhstohtcy, eoàhg ah ey stmrajs. A‑vj ocwoys @hmwh A wos spjbaoc. Mi bmursj,tlot smuhd s radabucmus.― –Hoturoccy.― –A kust @hmw “A oe.‑ At‑s hmt ca`j A‑e kust tocàhg ‒ at‑s ca`j A‑e djsbrafahg smejtlahg A oeRjjahg, wlabl tljrj as hm djfotj ofmut, rotljr at kust “mi bmursj.‑ At‑s o iobt, smcad. Mi bmursj,hmfmdy eoy `hmw tlot A lovj blohgjd tlj wmrcd imr o cmhg taej.― –Hoturoccy.― –At‑s ca`j wlot A oe dmahg as port mi o hjbjssory “bousj‑ imr o hjbjssory “jiijbt‑ imr wljrjvjr tlasas occ gmahg tmword mr Tmword. Ohd hm mhj wacc `hmw at mtljr tloh ej, imr mhcy A boh @hmw.Tljy boh‑t. A‑cc lovj tm woat imr taej tm cjod tlje tm ej. A‑cc lovj tm iacc tlje uhtac tljy orj iucc ‒ uhcjss, mi bmursj, tljy rjiusj…uhcjss tljy soy “A oe hmt.‑ Tlot‑s wlot A‑cc lovj tm dm ohd tlot‑s

kust tlj bmst. Cmvj ocwoys ahburs bmst, raglt=― –Qjs.― –…tlas as djprjssahg.― –Hoturoccy.―

A ca`j stmrajs tm fj hm cmhgjr tloh tljy ofsmcutjcy eust. Ai tljrj as hm stmry, A gujss at dmjshmt eottjr , jatljr imr, mr ogoahst…

Orj tl jsj stmry adjos ey mwh= Lovj tljy ocrjody fjjh rjocazjd ahtm rjocaty= As tlot tljmhcy rjosmh A lovj lod tlje=

…“ioho.‑ Wj‑rj occ bmhhjbtjd up tlrmugl spobjtaej. …“ioho.‑

A àccjd Afas watl ey Eahd.…–ioho!―

@locwot dor Ohkueoh

…“ioho.‑ Zbbjccm stohds ah dohbahg. Tljrj orj icoslahg caglts. Lj as drjssjd habjcy. Tlj brmwd as

cmst ah tlj eusab. Tlj pjmpcj drah` ohd kuep up ohd dmwh watl tljar jyjs bcmsjd. Tljy iodj ahohd mut watl tlj icoslahg mi tlj caglts, fjahg prjsjht ah tljar slodmw occ tlj wlacj. Tljy spah ohdtwarc ohd spah ohd twarc. Tljy tlrust ahtm mhj ohmtljr. Tljy tlrust ahtm pjmpcj tljy eoy mr eoyhmt `hmw fjbousj at as occ tlj soej mh tlj dohbj icmmr.

Tljy wljjc ormuhd Zbbjccm tlrjj taejs tlrmugl eahd ohd spobj watlmut mrdjr. Zbbjccmijjcs ca`j lj stohdahg rotljr tloh osbjhdahg. Tljy wjrj hjvjr rjcjosjd irme dohbahg, fut hjvjrwmucd tljy pousj ah sacjhbj, castjhahg imr hjw hmtjs. Ai tlj hmtjs blohgjd, tljy wmucd kust `jjpdohbahg os tljy wohtjd, ohd yjt tljy wmucd dohbj tm tlj hmtjs. Ai tljy wjrj fards rasahg irmeravjrfoh`s ohd imreahg o D, tljh A, ohd tljh C watl tljar icmb`, tljy wmucd hmt tljh loct imr owlacj ah sacjhbj, hmr wmucd tljy hmtabj mr ob`hmwcjdgj wlot tljy lod imrejd. Tljy wjrj os irjjos wotjr tlot dmjs hmt icmw tmword tlj sjo. At cmm`s ca`j porodasj. Tljy dad hmt hmtabj Wlot atcmm`jd ca`j. Tljy wjrj stacc port mi At.



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Mvjrljod, dohbjrs ottobljd tm warjs icy. Tljy twarc ohd spah ohd twarc ohd spah. Tljyrjobl imr mhj ohmtljr, grof lmcd, ohd tmgjtljr twarc ohd spah ohd twarc ohd spah. Tljy orj

fjoutaiuc. Ah tlj roitjrs, dohbjrs drjssjd os brjoturjs dohbj. Wmrds orj wrattjh mh tlj wocc ‒ “cjt‑seo`j fjcajvj.‑ Zp ah lagljr roitjrs, sjjh mhcy ah tlj wlatj caglt, tljrj orj bcmwhs watl poahtjdseacjs dohbahg. Tljy mvjrsjj tlj dohbahg watl tljar eos`s. Wlm boh tjcc tlj eos` irme tlj iobj;

“tlj dohbjr irme tlj -----=‑Zbbjccm bohhmt ljor tlj eusab. Lj as djoi raglt “hmw.‑ Lj ijjcs tlj fjot. Lj wotbljs tljdohbjrs stmep ohd fmf tljar ljod tm tlj fjot. Groduoccy, tlj eusab orasjs ohd eohaijsts.

O rahg as ofmvj tlj dohbahg. At as ofmvj tlj pjmpcj twarcahg ohd spahhahg mh tlj warjs.Twm twahs orj dohbahg wjorahg djvac eos`s. Zbbjccm `hmws tljsj garcs pjrsmhoccy ohd lj `hmwstljy orj ohgjcs. Tljrj orj ohgjcs wjorahg djvac eos`s ofmvj tlj dohbahg. Mr vabj- vjrso…mrjrgm. Tlj icoslahg caglts blohgj bmcmrs. Tlj bmcmr mi tlj caglts los oh jiijbt mh wlot boh fj sjjh.Rmejtaejs tlj hoturj mi tlj icoslahg caglts `jjps tlj rahg irme fjahg sjjh. Tlj rahg as sjjh fjstah tlj wlatj caglt. Tlj jhtarj rmme as sbjhj fjst ah tlj wlatj caglt. Tlot as wljh jvjrytlahg boh

fj sjjh. Tlj rahg cmwjrs. At as ljcd up fy o warj wlabl ocsm lmcds up tlj ohgjcab djvacs. At as eodjmi tlj soej sufstohbj tlot eo`js tlj eos`s ‒ eottjr. Tlj rahg cmwjrs tm wljrj tlj icyahg

dohbjrs boh rjobl at. Tlj rahg as o wljjc rjvmcvahg uhaimrecy. Tlj ohgjcs grof tlj rahg ohd bcaefahtm at. Tljy pmasj ohd strjtbl obrmss tlj rahg wjorahg tljar djvac eos`s, wlabl mh tljsj dohbjrsmh tlas rahg, orj tlj iobjs mi ohgjcs.

Zbbjccm, os lj stohds tljrj, trajs tm djbadj rotljr mr hmt tlj DK, wlm as cjopahg ohdtlrustahg las iasts ahtm tlj oar ca`j o eodeoh, as rjoccy loppy. Zbbjccm as ocwoys tryahg tm iagurjmut ai occ mi tlj pjmpcj dohbahg orj loppy. Occ tlas sjjes tlj soej os tlj iaccjd stodaue watl tljtjblhm eusab ohd tlj emst jcofmrotj stogj Zbbjccm lod jvjr sjjh ah tlj bjhtjr. Tljy orj kuepahgtmgjtljr ohd spahhahg ohd twarcahg ca`j Zbbjccm wos tlj mtljr haglt ot tlj wmrslap sjrvabj. Tljsj

pjmpcj orj loppy. Tljar loppahjss as rjoc. Ah iobt, tlas emejht as os rjoc os rjocaty boh fj. Tljtjhsamh mi tlj jvjht tlrjotjhs tm shop tlj jvjht. Qjt, tlas kmy ohd loppahjss dmjs hmt Jxast. Ohdtm o eoh wlm boh mhcy tlah` ah tjres mi wlot As ohd wlot as hmt, jvjh tlj fragltjst ohd emstdjiahatavj ahstoht mi rjocaty as jepty. Occ mi tlas as jepty. Fjbousj at los hm Yocuj. Ats kmy ohdloppahjss as rjstrabtjd tm tlas taej. Ohd wmrst yjt, fjbousj mi tlj ocbmlmc, tljsj pjmpcj bohhmtbcoae imr surj tlot tlj kmy tljy orj jxpjrajhbahg as trucy tljar mw h. At eoy fj tlj ocbmlmc‑s. Tljybohhmt tmemrrmw soy “Qjs, A wos loppy,‑ ohd stohd fjimrj tlj suh rjicjbtahg ats roys watl tljarseacj0 ahstjod tljy eust sjttcj imr “A tlah` A wos loppy,‑ ohd tlj hjxt doy drah` ogoah tm iahd mutimr surj, ohd tljh ogoah, o hd tljh ogoah, ohd tljh ogoah…Loppahjss ohd kmy as mhcy ejoht imrtlmsj wlm `hmw tlot at as ahdjjd loppahjss tljy orj jxpjrajhbahg.

Tlj dohbjrs orj tlj “ortasts‑ mi tlj bmeeuhaty. Tljy orj tlj rabl ohd vocujcjss. Tljy orjtlj ahstatutamhocazjd Rparat. Tljy orj prjsjht ah tljar ofsjhbj.

Zbbjccm bohhmt ljor tlj eusab. Tlmugl groduoccy orasahg ohd eohaijstahg, irmehmtlahghjss, hm eottjr lmw eubl at orasjs ohd eohaijsts, at dmjs hmt eo`j o wmrd. Lj stohdssacjhtcy ah tlj fosj. Tlj dohbjrs dohbj ohd lj bohhmt djiahj tlje os ohytlahg mtljr tloh dohbjrs.Tljy orj saclmujttjs. Lj dmjs hmt `hmw ohymhj ljrj mtljr tloh tlj garcs mh tlj warjs mvjrljod,ohd tljy orj dohbahg ah o daiijrjht barbcj tloh wljrj Zbbjccm as stohdahg. Tlj caglts icosl. Tljrahg caits fob` tm wljrj mhcy wlatj caglt rjvjocs at.

Ruddjhcy Zbbjccm…

Zbbjccm as stohdahg ocmhj ah o locc. At as kust ca`j tlj locc ah las drjoe. Lj as stohdahgmutsadj las dmre rmme. Lj `hmws tlot ai lj gmjs ahsadj, lj‑cc sat dmwh ot las coptmp, ohd sah. Tlj



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tjeptotamh as grmwahg watlah lae. Lj as tryahg tm rjsast. Lj ijjcs ca`j o druhòrd. Lj put las lohdmh tlj dmmr`hmf. Tlas as tlj bcmsjd dmmr pjrbjavjd fjtwjjh Ljovjh ohd jortl...

Tlas dmmr hjjds tm rjeoah bcmsjd, uhca`j tlj Mtljr.Tlas djbasamh tm mpjh tlj dmmr, mr hmt tm mpjh tlj dmmr, wacc djbadj tlj iotj mi tlj jhtarj

wmrcd, mr ot cjost tlot as lmw Zbbjccm ijjcs. Lj ijjcs os ai las eahd as sm Rtrmhg hmw tlot ai ohy

jvac tlmuglts jhtjr at, tlj doeogj wacc fj mvjrwljceahg. Lj los tm bopturj jvjry tlmuglt ohdeo`j at Lmcy, cjt ocmhj rjiroah irme sahhahg tlrmugl obtamh.Lj stohds ah tlj locc watl las lohd mh tlj dmmr `hmf. Tlj tjeptotamh as grmwahg… Tlj dmmr `hmf turhs. Tlj wmrcd lmcds ats frjotl.

AA

Afas seacjs ot ej... Kust ca`j ej, tljy cmhg tm fj…

Cmvj djstrmys ymur jgm.Rjx…

(Afas sagls, spjoàhg smitcy,)/(Zbbjccm sbrjoes ot tlj tmp mi las cuhgs,)(–A dm hmt woht o daiijrjht wmrcd0 A kust woht o wmrcd tlot eo`js Rjhsj(!)/(.)―)/(–Ljcp ej Gmd! Ahjjd Grobj! Grobj!―) (Rjhsj 5 o wmrcd tlot as Mhj.)

Afas a s mh iarj.…Zbbjccm as stohdahg. Tlj caglts icosl. Tlj rahg caits fob` tm wljrj mhcy wlatj caglt

rjvjocs at.Ruddjhcy Zbbjccm sjjs…

–Qmu wratj tlj fjst stmrajs wljh ymu wratj ofmut wlot ymu jxpjrajhbj, fjbousj tljh ymu `hmwwlot ymu orj wratahg ofmut, ohd tlot‑s occ wratahg as ‒ wlot ymu `hmw ofmut. Tlj fjst stmrajs orjblorobtjrs.―

A oe eoàhg eysjci o blorobtjr. A lovj o pcmt ah eahd tlot A woht tm wratj ofmut. Rm A oe cavahgtlrmugl tlot pcmt, imr ah dmahg sm, A `hmw lmw tm bmhstrubt o blorobtjr tlot orasjs tm tlj pcmt Adjsarj. ^jrijbt… –Wly dmh‑t ymu lovj o bjcc plmhj Zbbjccm=―

A dm wlot A dm fjbousj A woht tm wratj ofmut tljsj tlahgs. Qmu boh mhcy wratj ofmut wlot ymujxpjrajhbj.–A usj jeoacs. Fjsadjs, wj‑rj ocrjody bmhhjbtjd ‒ ME.― –Rtmp usahg jeoacs ohd gjt o iuturj. Kmah tlj iuturj!― –Qmu boh `jjp ymur iuturj mi jepty smucs. A‑cc `jjp ey post ohd fjcajis mi o fjttjr tmemrrmw.―

Dm A hmt lovj o bjcc plmhj ah mrdjr tm rjocastaboccy wratj ofmut o blorobtjr wlm dmjs hmt lovj objcc plmhj=–Qmu‑cc iocc fjlahd jvjrymhj.― A tlah` sm.–Wlot as ioccahg fjlahd ah o wmrcd tlot dmjs hmt `hmw lmw tm toc` tm mtljrs= Watl jeoacs A bohblmsj jobl wmrd borjiuccy, rjspmhsj wljh A oe fjst ofcj, ohd rjpcy watl eubl iuccjr rjspmhsjs.Mh o bjcc plmhj, A bohhmt aeogahj lmw A wmucd fj bopofcj mi dmahg tljsj smrts mi tlahgs.― –Qmu orj stupad watl o bjcc plmhj fjbousj ymu tlah` ymu orj.―

A tlah` sm… –A tlah` sm.―



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Zbbjccm gmjs ohd toc`s tm smejmhj jcsj,–Gmd wacc cjt ymu sovj tlj jhtarj wmrcd ai ymu `hmw wlot at ejohs wljh ymu os`. Ohd ai tlotloppjhs ot smej ahstoht ah ymur caij, tlj obt wacc eo`j occ tlj jvjhts ah ymur caij ‒ post, prjsjht,ohd iuturj, mbbur ah subl o woy tlot occ wacc bmhtrafutj tm tlas gmoc. Fjbousj tm soy yjs tm tljahstoht, as tm soy yjs tm occ mi Jxastjhbj/jxastjhbj. Gmd‑s vajw as occ taej…

Oe A occmwjd tm ljcp ymu stmp suiijrahg, Iácabatá= Tlas as occ A woht.Zbbjccm cjorhjd saghjd cohguogj fjbousj lj ijjcs emrj ocavj ormuhd djoi pjmpcj. Tljyuhdjrstohd wlot lj as tryahg tm soy.

Rmejmhj soys tm Zbbjccm,–Qmu‑cc dm grjot tlahgs0 ymu‑rj gmahg pcobjs.―

Zbbjccm cmm`s mut tlj wahdmw,–A kust woht tm wratj o fmm`.― Qmu boh fj prjsadjht mi tlas, BAM mi tlot…A dmh‑t borj.

Zbbjccm rjods o qumtj fy o pjrsmh watl o cost hoej mi M‑Bmhhjr. “Tlj wratjr slmucd hjvjr fj osloejd mi storahg. Tljrj as hmtlahg tlot dmjsh‑t rjquarj lasottjhtamh.‑‑

Zbbjccm storjs ot o fjoutaiuc garc. Lj as hmt osloejd. O guy hudgjs lae,–Qmu woht tm dm ljr=― Zbbjccm ohswjrs las mwh qujstamh,

–A woht ljr hmt tm fj sm sod.― Zbbjccm lmpjs tlot ai lj storjs ot tlj garc cmhg jhmugl, jvjhtuoccy slj wacc stmp fjahg sod,

os ai smej ahvasafcj warjs irme las jyjs wacc shotbl ljr up ca`j o puppjt, ohd stroagltjh ljr mut.–Qmu‑rj wmr` as gjhaus!― o irajhd soys tm Zbbjccm. Lj cmm`s ahtm ljr jyjs, ohd rjpcajs,–A wacc hmt subbjjd uhtac cmhg oitjr ymu tlah` tlot A lovj imrso`jh ey Yasamh.―

Las irajhd as djjpcy lurt.–Tljrj as o eytl ofmut wratjrs tlot A lov j ocwoys bmhsadjrjd pjrhabamus ohd uhtrutliuc ‒ tljeytl mi tlj cmhjcy wratjr― Zbbjccm rjods o wratjr watl o cost hoej mi M‑Bmhhjr soy, –…tlj eytltlot wratahg as o cmhjcy mbbupotamh, ahvmcvahg eubl suiijrahg fjbousj, suppmsjdcy, tlj wratjrjxasts ah o stotj mi sjhsatavaty wlabl buts lae mii, roasjs lae ofmvj, mr bosts lae fjcmw, occ tlotormuhd lae. Tlas as o bmeemh bcablá, o lohgmvjr irme tlj rmeohtabs…― Rm A oe o bcablá= Rm A oe o rmeohtab. Fut A oe cmhjcy. A‑e Ocmhj. Ca`j Gmd. Eoyfj A‑e kusteo`ahg eysjci tlot woy tm syepotlazj watl Iácabatá.

Zbbjccm storjs ot o fmm` ohd ats tatcj. Lj rjiusjs tm rjod at, fjbousj lj as oiroad tlot tlas fmm` as tlj fmm` tlot lj as burrjhtcy wratahg, wlabl wmucd ejoh tlot occ as jiimrt wmucd fj imrhmt. Ai lj dmjs hmt rjod at, tljh pjmpcj bohhmt obbusj lae mi bmpyahg smejmhj jcsj‑s adjos. Ljwmucd kust fj ohmtljr vabtae mi emdjrhaty.

Zbbjccm as wmrrajd tlot las hjw cohguogj wacc kust odd emrj hmasj ohd bmhiusamh tm tlj prjsjt-bmepcjxjs tryahg tm iahd Trutl. Lj as wmrrajd tlot lj wacc kust bmhtrafutj tm tlj qujstamh memdjrhaty.

Ohd suddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj ohd tmm cotj, Zbbjccm as oiroad tlot fjahg oiroad tlot tlj fmm`watl tlj tatcj lj storjd mut wos las fmm`, wmucd eo`j at sm ‒ tlot fjahg oiroad tlot las cohguogjwmucd kust odd hmasj, wmucd eo`j at sm. Imr wlot as drjodjd bmejs uhtm tlj mhj drjodahg. Tmmcotj… –Ohd tlj “Iocc‑ wos tlj bmepcjtj eutotamh mi Taej ahtm spobjtaej, mi “A‑ ahtm “a,‑ mi Fjahg ahtm

fjahg/lastmry/rjocaty…― –Wlot smrt mi outlmraty dm ymu lovj tm fob` up ymur tljmry=―



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–Wlot dm ymu ejoh=― –A ejoh…wlot sbajhtasts ohd tlah`jrs ogrjj watl ymu=―

Zbbjccm as bmhiusjd,–Wlot dad A soy tlot dad hmt eo`j sjhsj= Wly dm A hjjd outlmraty=―

Zbbjccm as fjgahhahg tm gcaepsj emdjrhaty‑s tmtocatoraoh rjgaej ‒ tlj jxpjrt.

Blrast as Ocavj ah ej ‒ A hjjd hm mhj jcsj mtljr tloh Eysjci…wlabl as tlj pjrpjtuoc prmbjss mi“ej‑ davahg djjpjr ahtm “Ej.‑ Zbbjccm sjjs o poahtahg mi oh ohaeoc fmrh watl sax-cjgs cmmàhg upword os ai tmword gmd.

Zbbjccm uhdjrstohds tlot tlj poahtahg a s bcoaeahg Gmd as hmt Obtavj/obtavj “hmw‑ ohd sm djod.Tlas as truj ‒ Gmd wos Obtavj ah tlj Ahstoht, ohd sm Obtavj Hmw (fut hmt “hmw,‑ wljh mhcy wjorj obtavj. Ah tlas bmhtjxt, tm prjsbrafj ymur wacc tm mtljrs os tlj Wacc mi Gmd as ahljrjhtcy icowjd,imr Gmd‑s Wacc as toacmr -eodj tm jobl “a‑ ohd `hmwh mhcy fy jobl “a.‑ Tlas dmjs hmt ejoh ymuslmucd hmt sprjod tlj Hoej mi Blrast ‒ at ejohs ymu slmucd dm sm iuccy oworj mi tljbarbuestohbjs mi wlm/(tlj a) ymu orj oddrjssahg, ohd ah o eohhjr ah wlabl ymur wacc hjvjrahirahgjs mh tljar wacc/barbuestohbjs (watl Rufstohbj), imr tlas as tm bmhtrodabt gmd (imr Gmd asME (occ as Mhj)).

Rm bmucd A rjpcobj “Blrast‑ watl “@raslho‑ ah occ ey cmgabs= Wjcc yjs, ai @raslho 5 Grobj 5 Ahborhotamh ohd ai tlas stotjejht as ah tlj bmhtjxt mi Jxastjhbj…sahbj tlj spjbaiab/iahatj fjahg miBlrast “ossaeacotjs owoy‑ ah Jxastjhbj/ME. Wlot ofmut Fuddlo ohd Euloeeod= Ai tljy 5Grobj, yjs, fut ai tljy 5 iahatj/rjocaty, hm. Imr Gmd as Occ/(occ watl Rufstohbj0 –wlot‑s Tlot=―–Ze…Grobj=―)0 ME.

Zbbjccm jxpcoahs tm las irajhd las tljmry mh spobjtaej ohd ats rjcotamh tm Taej. Las irajhdlos o ijw brataqujs… –^rmfcje mhj - occ mi tlot as tljmry. At as hmt irme tlj Gmspjc.― –Dm ymu tlah` tlot tlj Ljfrjw wratjrs wmucd lovj fjjh ofcj tm wratj ofmut J5EB 6 ai Gmd losdjbcorjd tlot ahstjod mi “Cjt Tljrj Fj Caglt=‑ Dm ymu tlah` J5EB 6 wmucd lovj sprjod tlrmugltlj hotamhs durahg tlot spobjtaej wljh tlj Gmspjc wos prjsjhtjd= Ohd ash‑t Gmd Jvjrytlahg=Wmucd ymu soy Gmd as Jortl= Tlj rmuhd pcohjt…=― –Qjs.― –Fut ymur adjo mi Jortl as rjcotavj tm “hmw.‑ Wljh jortl wos bmhsadjrjd icot, tm lovj soad “Gmd aso Vmuhd Jortl‑ wmucd lovj fjjh o tljmry. Tmdoy, watl tlj adjo ah eahd tlot Gmd as Jvjrytlahg,wj eust to`j ahtm obbmuht tlot Gmd as “_uohtue Tljmry‑ (mr “quohtue tljmry‑ watl Rufstohbj),

fut subl wmucd hmt lovj fjjh dmhj twm- luhdrjd yjors ogm. “Tljh‑ at wos o tljmry.‑ Zbbjccm bmhtahujs,

–Gmd as Cmgab ohd Vjosmh. Wj slmucd ocwoys fj cmgaboc ohd sbajhtaiab tm tlj jxtjht subltlahàhg los Rufstohbj. Tm fj sbajhtaiab as tm bmhiare ai sbajhbj as rjoccy Truj. Ai ey tljmry dmjshmt bmhtrodabt Trutl, tljh at as o “^mtjhtaoc‑ ah Gmd. Tlj qujstamh tljh as rotljr mr hmt at asrjocazjd. Ah Gmd tlmugl occ ^mtjhtaocs orj Vjocazjd….―

Zbbjccm‑s irajhd as hmt bmhvahbjd, –At smuhds ca`j ymu orj ah cmvj watl ymur adjo mi Gmd.―

Zbbjccm as bmhiusjd,–Lmw boh wj hmt fj ah cmvj watl mur adjo mi Gmd= Mur tlmuglts orj poaht ohd Gmd o fcoh`bohvos, o Trohsbjhdjht mhj tlot as eodj mi tlj aeogj upmh at. Eust wj hmt tlah` ofmut Gmd= Futwj orj boccjd tm Cmvj Gmd ohd tlot Gmd as Cmvj, ohd ymu bohhmt cmvj smejmhj ai ymu dm hmttlah` ofmut lae mr ljr. Zhcjss Gmd as daiijrjht ohd ymu boh mhcy Cmvj Gmd fy hmt tlahàhg ofmutLae (wlabl eo`js sjhsj, fjbousj Cmvj as cmvj tlj ahstoht ymu bmhbjptuocazj At). Fut Gmd mhcy



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los rjocaty ai Las imccmwjrs orj “Dmjrs mi tlj Wmrd,‑ ohd tlot as wlot wj orj boccjd tm dm. Lmwboh wj obt watlmut tlmuglt= Ohd lmw boh wj obt imr Gmd‑s so`j watlmut tlahàhg ofmut Lae= Ashmt ymur adjo mi Gmd os Mhj Wlm As Hmtey adjo mi Gmd ymur adjo mi Gmd= Grobj! Grobj!― –At sjjes tljrjimrj, tlot wj lovj tm fj ah cmvj watl mur adjo mi Gmd. Wlotjvjr adjo tlot (Gmd los

put)/(as) mh mur ljort, bmhsjqujhbj mi Rocvotamh/Grobj (wlabl Eo`js cmvj Cmvj), tlot as mur Bocc,

ohd wj eust “davj djjpjr ahtm At.‑ Wj eust lovj ioatl ah mur “adjo,‑ ohd lovj ioatl ah tlj “adjos‑mi mtljrs, imr Gmd ejcts tlj “a.‑― –At vjry aepmrtoht tloh tlot mhj bmhiares tljar prjeasjs ohd eo`js surj tlot tljrj orj hmbmhtrodabtamhs.― –Rm oe A stub` watl ey vasa mh mi Iácabatá=― Zbbjccm soys mut-cmud, ohswjrahg las mwh stotjejhtswatl las mwh qujstamh. Las irajhd dmjsh‑t ljor, tmm fusy watl o bmeejht,–Qmu orj orrmgoht Zbbjccm tm obt ca`j ymu boh ohswjr jvjry qujstamh.― –Hm, A oe ijorcjss/bmhiadjht.― –Wlot= Orj ymu ijorcjss mr bmhiadjht, mr ijorcjss ohd bmhiadjht=― –A‑e ijorcjss/bmhiadjht.― –Qmu orj fcurrahg ymur wmrds tmgjtljr.―

Zbbjccm as lmrraiajd. Lj trajs ogoah,–A‑e ijorcjss…― Zbbjccm eo`js o “dosl(/(/))‑ ah tlj oar, –…bmhiadjht.― –Qmu‑rj ijorcjss ohd “hjvjr‑ bmhiadjht= Tlot‑s o bmhtrodabtamh ohd dmjsh‑t eo`j ohy sjhsj.―

Ah tlas ahstoht, Zbbjccm rjocazjs ogoah tlot lj as doehjd tm popjr…ljcc… –Rm A oe stub` watl ey Iácabatá.―

Lj as lmrraiajd.Zbbjccm as sattahg ah o bcoss castjhahg tm ^rmijssmr Wacsmh jxpcoahahg Zbbjccm‑s mragahoc

catjrory tljmry tm jvjrymhj. Zbbjccm ijjcs kjocmusy. Fut tlj emrj pjmpcj tlot `hmw ohd uhdjrstohd, tlj emrj tlj pmtjhtaocs spjbaiajd ah tlj tljmrylovj fjjh rjocazjd, ohd sm tlj emrj tlj rjocaty boh sprjod/aeprmvj. Qjt A ijjc kjocmusy! DjspatjME, ey uhbmhsbamus brajs mut! As tlas ^rmijssmr ej mcdjr= Wjcc, ey Eahd as occ taej…A oe surj

smej(wljrj)/(taej) ah spobjtaej tljrj as oh mcdjr ej. Wly hmt ljrj/hmw= ^jrlops lj as tjccahgej wlot tm dm.

Zbbjccm as ocsm wmrrajd tlot tlj garc wlm los rjod o cmt mi las wmr` wacc tlah` tlot lj stmcjtljsj adjos, rotljr tloh bmej up watl tlje mh las mwh.

Fut Zctaeotjcy, wlot dmjs at eottjr= Boce dmwh Zbbjccm, boce dmwh… Zbbjccm sjjs smejmhj frmwsahg tlrmugl o smbaoc hjtwmr` durahg tlj cjbturj, ohd wohts tm

sbrjoe. Zbbjccm jhvasamhs o bmhvjrsotamh.–Orj ymu stjocahg tljsj adjos=― –Hm, A‑e kust tjccahg tlj Gmsp jc, ME, ca`j ohy G mmd wratjr.―

A oe eoàhg o emdjc mi rjocaty wlabl ah Grobj as tlj mhcy smcutamh. A woht tm prmvj tlotocc systjes orj port mi tlj Gmspjc horrotavj fjbousj mi ME.–…tlj sobraiabj mi tjccahg o Gmmd stmry, ME, as tlot ah eoàhg o stmry mh ymur mwh, ymu tjcc tljsoej stmry tlot occ Gmmd wratjrs lovj tmcd, tlrmuglmut spobjtaej.―

Zbbjccm wratjs occ las hmtjs ohd tlmuglts ahtm o hmtjfmm`, ohd tljh ahtm o coptmp, fjbousjtlot ljcps lae ahtjrhocazj occ tlj ahimreotamh. Tlas stjp as tlj daiijrjhbj fjtwjjh “vocuj‑ ohd“wmrtlcjsshjss.‑

A oe eoàhg o bosj tlot occ fjahg los tlj soej fjahg/hoturj, ohd tlot Grobj as fjahg‑smhcy lmpj.

Grobj lohds Zbbjccm o pabturj mi o djod fard tlot slj lod to`jh…



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At wos las iouct. Lj put ^mppo tm scjjp. Lj ruahjd las eahd. At wos ca`j lj lod drmwhjdlae, ca`j lj drmwhjd Afas. Lj tmm` owoy ^mppo‑s ofacaty tm tlah`. Rcmwcy. Ot tlj spjjd mhjdrmwhs. Ohd tljh ^mppo wjht tm scjjp. ^mppo stmppjd tlahàhg. ^mppo stmppjd ljcpahg tljwmeoh wlm ljcd up tlj wmrcd. Ohd at wos Zbbjccm‑s i ouct. At wos fjbousj mi tlj stmry Zbbjccmgovj lae. At wos fjbousj Zbbjccm dad hmt stmp tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar irme puttahg Afas tmscjjp. Zbbjccm lod fjjh tmm wjo` tm `jjp laesjci irme fjahg usjd fy tlj tjobljr ohd tlj garc ahtlj wljjcbloar. At wos l as iouct. Hm at wosh‑t! At wos tlj iouct mi tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar! At wosgrovaty‑s iouct! At wos fjbousj mi ljr tlot Zbbjccm wrmtj tlj stmry, fjbousj at wos ljr iouct tlotAfas dajd. Grovaty àccjd Afas! Lj wos kust o vjssjc, o puppjt! Ohd tm Zbbjccm ‑s lmrrmr, lj rjocazjs

tlot grovaty eust lovj tlj ofacaty tm to`j owoy smejmhj‑s ofacaty tm tlah`. At dad sm tm ^mppo! Tljgarc ah tlj wljjcbloar bmucd ahijbt pjmpcj watl Oczljaejr‑s, ca`j o sab`hjss! Zbbjccm ljord ah tljlmspatoc tlj dmbtmr bocc Oczljaejr ‑s o sab`hjss. Ohd slj ahijbtjd ^mppo tlrmugl Zbbjccm, usahglae os o borrajr. Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar eust lovj `hmwh tlot lj wos gmahg tm wratj tlot stmry

‒ slj ohd tlj tjobljr lod pcohhjd at! Tljy sbljejd tlot Zbbjccm wmucd gavj at tm ^mppo, ohd tlotwmucd rjsuct ah ^mppo gmahg tm scjjp. Zbbjccm wos usjd0 lj wos usjd tm put ^mppo tm scjjp, tmdrmwh lae, tm to`j owoy las tlahàhg. Tlj lmrrmr, tlj lmrrmr!

Ah djbcorahg o wor ogoahst grovaty, Zbbjccm, os wos tlj wmeoh lmcdahg up tlj wmrcd, wosrogahg o wor ogoahst tlot sab`hjss. Tlot wos tlj sab`hjss wlabl wmucd put tlj wlmcj wmrcd tmscjjp, ohd at wos uhdjr grovaty‑s bmhtrmc, ca`j o puppjt ottobljd tm ahvasafcj warjs. Eoàhg “tljemrhahg stor‑ wos tlj burj0 wly bmucdh‑t Zbbjccm lovj imuhd tlj burj smmhjr fjimrj ^mppo wosdrmwhjd= Lj wos tmm scmw0 lj wos tmm scmw!

Zbbjccm rjbjavjs o corgj sue mi emhjy irme las ^mppo‑s drmwhahg. Zbbjccm cmm`s ot tlj pajbjs mi popjr. Tljy orj syefmcs mi las guact. Tljy orj syefmcs mi Mfcavamh.

Lj lod tm cjovj. Hjvjr ogoah bmucd tlas loppjh. Ai mhcy tlj wmrcd dad hmt blohgj. Ai mhcytlj wmrcd wos ca`j tlj wox eusjue. Tljh ^mppo wmucdh‑t lovj gmttjh sab` ohd Zbbjccm wmucdhmt lovj fjjh usjd os o borrajr tm gjt ^mppo sab`, ohd ^mppo wmucd hmt lovj cmst tlj ofacaty tmtlah`, o hd ^mppo wmucd lovj hjvjr gmhj tm scjjp! Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar‑s ottob` wmucd lovjhjvjr fjjh subbjssiuc. Tm djijot Zbbjccm, tljy lod usjd lae tm djstrmy ^mppo. Tljy lod hm

pmwjr tm djstrmy ^mppo tljesjcvjs ‒ tljy lod tm usj Zbbjccm. Tljy subbjjdjd. Tlj djemhs!Tlj djemhs! Hjvjr ogoah bmucd lj cjt tlas loppjh. Lj lod tm gm smejmhj. Rmejmhj tlot dad hmtblohgj.

Zbbjccm fuys smej bordfmord. Hmt tlj wox eusjue wljrj lj bmucd fj imuhd, ca`j lmw tlj tjobljr lod imuhd lae tlot

taej ohd ruahjd jvjrytlahg, fut smejwljrj daiijrjht. Rmejwljrj wljrj lj wmucd hjvjr fjimuhd. O pcobj tlot dad hmt blohgj. O pcobj wljrj lj bmucd hmt gjt ohymhj sab`. Lj wos

prmfofcy stacc ahijbtjd. Lj lod tm gm owoy. Imr tlj gmmd mi tlj wmrcd. Tm ljcp tlj wmeohlmcdahg up tlj wmrcd. Rm tlot hmfmdy wmucd gjt sab` ogoah ohd stmp tlahàhg. Ohd lj lod tm gmsmejwljrj wljrj lj bmucd tlah` ohd hmt fj fmtljrjd. Lj lod tm iagurj mut lmw tm eo`j “tlj



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emrhahg stort‑ ‒ o pabturj tlot wos tlj jxpjrajhbj at wos mi. Lj lod tm gm smejwljrj wljrj ljwmucd hmt gjt ohymhj sab` ogoah, wljrj lj bmucd lovj occ tlj taej lj hjjdjd

Zbbjccm fuys cmts mi bordfmord.Ohd at hjjdjd tm fj o pcobj tlot dad hmt blohgj. Ca`j tlj wox eusjue, imr tlot wmucd

ljcp lae tlah` ohd prmtjbt lae ohd `jjp lae irme gjttahg ohymhj sab` watl Oczljaejr‑s. Wos

hmt grovaty‑s rucj gmmd jhmugl imr at ‒ wly wos at luhgry imr oh ofsmcutj rucj tlrmugl tljejtlmd mi subl oh ahijbtamh= Wos at sm grjjdy= At wos ‒ Zbbjccm `hjw at. Tlj wmrcd wos ot sto`jljrj ‒ Tlj Wocc, grovaty, tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar…at lod tm fj djijotjd. Hmw. Aeejdaotjcy.Tljrj wos hm taej tm wostj. Tlj ahijbtamh wos sprjodahg!

Zbbjccm fuys eor`jrs ohd sbassmrs.Lj lod tm gm smejwljrj tlot dad hmt blohgj sm lj wmucd lovj taej tm iagurj mut lmw tm

eo`j o “emrhahg stor‑ ohd sm fjot Tlj Wocc ohd tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar, ohd sm ljcp tljwmeoh lmcdahg up tlj wmrcd, ohd sm eo`j at tlot hjvjr ogoah wmucd tlj garc lj cmvjd iocc ohd

fruasj ljr `hjj ohd fcjjd…lj hjjdjd o pcobj wljrj lj bmucd hmt fj usjd fy tlj garc ah tl jwljjcbloar tm drmwh ohyemrj pjmpcj. Zbbjccm grats las tjjtl ohd slo`js watl iury ot tlj ejrjtlmuglt mi grovaty. Ohd tljh suddjhcy o tlmuglt lats lae. Dad Zbbjccm lovj Oczljaejr‑s= Mi

bmursj lj dad ‒ lmw bmucd lj gjt ohymhj sab` ai lj laesjci wos hmt sab`= Lmrrmr iaccs Zbbjccm.Las taej wos caeatjd. Lj lod tm lurry. Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar wos couglahg, lj `hjw at ‒ sljlod gmttjh lae sab` ohd wmucd put lae tm scjjp ohd wmucd drmwh lae ohd wah. Rlj lodcouhbljd oh ottob` ogoah lae ohd hmw tlj bcmb` wos tab`ahg. Mhj doy, smmh, tlj bcmb` wmucdstmp, os at dad imr ^mppo, ohd Zbbjccm wmucd gm tm scjjp. Ohd grovaty wmucd wah. Jvjh ai lj wjhttm o pcobj tlot dad hmt blohgj ohd lj lod occ tlj taej lj hjjdjd, las taej wos caeatjd.

Fut ai at wos o pcobj wljrj tlahg dad hmt blohgj, Zbbjccm wmucd hmt blohgj irmesmejmhj wlm wos “hmt sab`‑ ahtm smejmhj wlm “wos sab`.‑ Lj lod tm lurry! Lj bmucd cmsj tljofacaty tm tlah` fjimrj lj gmt tm tlj pcobj tlot dad hmt blohgj! Zbbjccm fjgahs frjotlahg ljovacyohd swjotahg. Tl j garc ah tlj wljjcbloar wos surjcy cmm`ahg ot o bcmb`, couglahg. Lj bmucdh‑tlovj ohy emrj tloh iavj eahutjs cjit. Tab`, tab`, tab`…taej wos oh jhjey! Tlj wmrcd ohd atsspobj ohd ats taej wjrj occ puppjts mi tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar. Lj lod tm lurry ohd gm tm tlj

pcobj wljrj taej bmucd hmt blohgj ohd sm mhcy Taej wos ^rjsjht, Iaccahg taej ohd spobj watl atsFjouty. Fut lj lod tm lurry! Lj wmucd ruh mut mi taej ai lj dad hmt lurry! Lj lod tm ruh! Vuh!

Huejrmus fmords mi bordfmord stuiijd uhdjr las ores, watl sbassmrs ohd topj ohd broymhsstuiijd ah las pmb`jts, Zbbjccm ruhs ahtm tlj wmmds. Lj wmucd eo`j tlj pcobj tlot dad hmtblohgj, watl las mwh lohds, ca`j o imrgmttjh cmrd ah tlj eadst mi o wmef mi uhbrjotjd haglt,djbadahg imr emrj ‒ o wmef mi atsjci, ats iuhbtamh rjocazjd fy cmvj mr emb`jd fy oh oppjorohbjmi cmvj. Lj lod hm blmabj. Mhcy lj bmucd dm wlot lod tm fj dmhj. Lj wos occ ocmhj. Lj wos occ.–Wlot oe A=―

Ai mhcy lj Wos o smuhd tlot dad hmt djstrmy sacjhbj… Vuhhahg, ruhhahg, ruhhahg…os iost os lj bmucd, Zbbjccm ruhs. Trjjs robj fy. Rwjot mr

tjors iocc ca`j fcmmd ah Zbbjccm‑s wo`j. Wmucd lj fj tlj mhj wlm sovjd tlj wmrcd, mr wmucd lj fj tlj mhj wlm gmt jvjrymhj sab` ohd put jvjrymhj tm scjjp vao drmwhahg= Wmucd lj fjotgrovaty, mr wmucd lj fj tlj mhj wlm eodj tlj wmeoh wlm ljcd up tlj wmrcd suiijr= Wmucd fjtlj mhj wlm dmeahotjd Tlj Wocc, mr wmucd lj fj tlj mhj wlm ioacjd tm eo`j laesjci “tljemrhahg stor=‑ Wmucd lj fj tlj mhj wlm prmvjd tm las tjobljr tlot shmw ohgjcs wjrj rjoc, mrwmucd lj fj tlj mhj wlm ioacjd tm prmvj las ^mppo wos pjrijbt=

A wacc Fj. Zbbjccm djbadjs, –A wacc Fj tlj Mhj wlm Iaxjs jvjrytlahg! A wacc Fj Ljocjd ohd A waccFj tlj Mhj Wlm fjots tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar!―



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Tlj trjjs sejcc ca`j tlj poh mh tlj stmvj wljh at ash‑t m h. Tlj dart ijjcs ca`j eorfcjs ahtlj bofahjt. Fut at dmjs hmt ijjc ca`j lmej. Tljrj as hm subl tlahg os lmej. Tljrj orj kust lmusjs,

fjbousj grovaty los to`jh owoy lmejs. At‑s occ kust o imre tm iacc o cob`, jepty syefmcs ‒ saghs,ejohahgcjss cohguogj. Zbbjccm wmucd eo`j o lmej tlmugl0 lj wmucd rjfjc ogoahst grovaty ohdofsurdaty. Lj ruhs tm o portabucor spmt ohd tlrmws dmwh tlj bordfmord ohd suppcajs lj frmuglt

watl lae. Lj ruhs fob` tm gjt emrj bordfmord. Lj ljors o bcmb` tabàhg ah las ljod. Taej asruhhahg mut. Lj los tm lurry. Lj sjjs laesjci cmsahg tlj ofacaty tm tlah`. Lj sjjs laesjci ruhhahgtlrmugl tlj imrjst tm gjt bordfmord, ohd struggcahg tm rjejefjr wlot lj wos dmahg. Lj sjjslaesjci stohdahg tljrj os Zbbjccm ruhs, tryahg tm rjejefjr, ohd fjahg uhofcj tm. Ohd tljh ljwmucd gm tm scjjp. Tljh grovaty wmucd wah. At wmucd fj tlj jhd mi occ. Imr lj wos occ. Zbbjccmruhs ohd ruhs ohd sbmmps up bordfmord ohd ruhs fob`. Lj as frjotlahg ljovacy. Lj ijjcs ca`j lj assuiimbotahg. Lj boh‑t stmp tlmugl ‒ `jjpahg gmahg, `jjp gmahg! Lj los tm ruh tlj robj0 lj lod tmruh tlrmugl tlj iahasl cahj. Tab`, tmb`, tab`, tmb`….Zbbjccm rjobljs tlj spmt wljrj o fard scjptohd tlrmws dmwh tlj bordfmord lj los watl lae, ohd tljh ruhs fob`. Lj ruhs ohd ruhs ohd ruhsohd swjots ohd brajs ohd coejhts ^mppo ohd ruhs ohd ruhs ohd sjjs tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloarwotblahg lae ohd ruhs ohd ljors cougltjr ohd ruhs ohd sbmmps up bordfmord ohd ruhs fob` os

iost os lj pmssafcj boh tlrmugl tlj imrjst tlot sejccs ohd ijjcs ca`j o lmusj, fut tlot as hmt olmej, fjbousj tljrj as hm subl tlahg os o lmej rjcotavj tm tlas wmrcd tlot eo`js tlj wmeohlmcdahg at up suiijr. Taej as ruhhahg mut. Taej as ruhhahg mut. Vuhhahg, ruhhahg…Zbbjccm ruhstm tlj spmt watl occ tlj bordfmord, tlrmws dmwh wlot l j frmuglt, tljh ruhs fob`…fob` ohd imrtl,

fob` ohd imrtl, fob` ohd imrtl…Zbbjccm ruhs tm tlj spmt…tlrmws dmwh wlot lj frmuglt, ohdto`js o sjot. Hmw, wlacj swjotahg ohd rjd ah tlj iobj, Zbbjccm as ah o imrjst, sattahg ah o corgjgrmttm. Lj los o poar mi sbassmrs, ohd cmts ohd cmts mi bordfmord tlot lj los oeossjd mvjr o cmhg

pjramd mi taej imccmwahg tlj iajcd trap tm tlj wox eusjue. Lj trajd tm fuy wox, fut at wos ior tmmjxpjhsavj. Lj usjd occ las emhjy mh tlj eotjraoc. Lj ocsm los broymhs mi jvjry bmcmr ohd jvjrytaht. Rattahg mh o cmg, lj storts buttahg mut o slopj ah tlj bordfmord. Wotjr as ruhhahg dmwh lasbljj` ohd lj struggcjs tm lmcd las lohd stjody. At slo`js. Lj los tm bmhtrmc las frjotlahg. Ljljors o bcmb` tabàhg ah las ljod. Lj sjjs o bcmb` tlot stmps ot ?>;>6 Ê. Tab`, tmb`, tab`,tmb`…Ai mhcy lj bmucd lovj ljcd tlj pabturj fmm` up tmword tlj suh ohd tlj dor`hjss fjboejuhstub`. Lj lod fjjh tmcd fy tlj prjobljr tlot tlj Ruh iaccjd occ dor`hjss, fut wljh Zbbjccm wjhttm iacc tlj dor`hjss ah tlj pabturj fmm`, lj bmucd stacc tmubl at. Zbbjccm hmw uhdjrstmmd tlot ljhjjdjd tm eo`j “tlj emrhahg stor‑ tm iacc tlj dor`hjss, fut at eaglt fj tmm cotj0 lj wos ruhhahgmut mi taej! Lj bmucd ljor tlj bcmbàhg tabàhg. Lj wos ruhhahg mut mi taej. Lj lod tm butiostjr. Las lohds slo`j emrj. Zbbjccm swjots ohd cmm`s ca`j lj as bryahg. Ai lj dad hmt eo`j tljwmrcd tlot dad hmt blohgj aeejdaotjcy, lj wmucd hjvjr eo`j “tlj emrhahg stor‑ ohd hjvjr eo`jtlj dor`hjss “uhstub`‑ ohd `jjp tlj bursj mi “fjahg fmrh‑ irme sprjodahg, imr watl jvjry fartlwos guorohtjjd “o scjjp.‑ Tlas wos tlj mhcy ofsmcutj tlj wmrcd lod, ohd o wmrcd tlot‑s mhcyofsmcutj as tlot, as o wmrcd tlot‑s ofsmcutj as grovaty. Lj bmucd hmt obbjpt tlas wmrcd. Lj wmucdrjfjc. Lj wmucd blohgj at ahtm tlot wlabl dad hmt blohgj. Lj wmucd rjfjc ogoahst tlj ofsurdaty.Lj dad hmt `hmw lmw tm rjfjc ogoahst tlj ofsurdaty fut lj wmucd iagurj at mut. Lj kust hjjdjd tljraglt spobj mr pcobj tm tlah` ah ‒ o pcobj wljrj lj bmucd hmt fjbmej sab` ohd gm tm scjjp ohdblohgj mr fj imuhd ohd stmppjd0 o pcobj wljrj ^mppo bmucd hmt fj lurt ohyemrj. Las lohdsslo`j ohd lurt, fut lj `jjps gmahg, ruhhahg, gmahg, gmahg…Zbbjccm `jjps buttahg mut smejtlahgirme tlj bordfmord. At to`js lae o cmhg taej, fut lj subbjjds. Lj lmcds up las brjotamh. At as tljmutcahj mi o ymuhg fmy. Zbbjccm usjs tlj sbrops mi tlj butmut tm djsagh o eos` ohd o gcmvj. Ljeo`js tlj mutcahj mi o ymuhg, fosjfocc botbljr. Tljh, watl las broymhs, lj bmcmrs ah o uhaimre.



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Lj bmcmrs o wlatj tlrjj mh tlj fob`. Lj bmcmrs ah pohts. Mhbj lj as dmhj, lj topjs o wmmd pmcj tmtlj fob` mi tlj bordfmord fmy, ohd stohds lae up. Tljh, watl las lohds mh las laps, Zbbjccmseacjs o fag seacj, ohd bcops las lohds tmgjtljr jxbatjdcy. Lj sjjs tlot las brjotamh as bmepcjtj,–Gmmd!―

Watl tlj iarst mi las brjotamh jstofcasljd, Zbbjccm grofs ohmtljr pajbj mi bordfmord, ohd

fjgahs buttahg mut ohmtljr pjrsmh. Tljrj wos lmpj! At bmucd fj dmhj! Rtacc, lj lod tm lurry.Tlahgs fjbmej eubl emrj poahiuc. Las lohds fjboej wjo`jr, slo`y...Las lohds ijjc ca`j tljydad wljh lj wrmtj tlot stmry lj govj tm ^mppo. Lj `jjps buttahg. Hmt fjbousj lj wohts tm, fut

fjbousj lj los tm. Tlj wahd as fcmwahg. Zbbjccm bmucd hmt obbjpt tlas wmrcd. Lj wmucd rjfjc. Ljwmucd blohgj at ahtm tlot wlabl dad hmt blohgj. Lj dad hmt `hmw lmw, fut lj wmucd iagurj at mut,ohd lj wmucd stort ljrj. Tlj caglt mi emrhahg trobjs mut tlj dust ah tlj oar. At browcs upword ahtmtlj fmttme mi tlj trjj truh`, ohd o seocc, scjhdjr cahj browcs ats woy up tlj imrjst icmmr ot tljsoej rotj os tlj caglt emvjs up tlj truh`. Zbbjccm sjjs at opprmoblahg mut mi tlj bmrhjr mi lasjyj.–Rcmw dmwh Opmccm!― Zbbjccm yjccs tm tlj suh, –A lovj o cmt mi wmr` tm dm ohd A hjjd ymu stmpstjocahg emejhts ohd eutotahg tlje ahtm ejemrajs!―

Tlj cahj browcs smej emrj. Taej wos ruhhahg mut. Zbbjccm sjjs laesjci imrgjttahg lmwtm tlah`. Zbbjccm sjjs tlj ahijbtamh sprjodahg. Lj sjjs las taej ruhhahg mut. Lj wmucd ioac. Ljwmucd ioac! Lj lod tm lurry. Lj wmucd eo`j o djoc watl rjocaty, mr watl spobjtaej, os lj ljordrjocaty boccjd, tlmugl lj dad hmt `hmw wlot at ejoht laesjci fjymhd wlot lj qumtjd irme mtljr

pjmpcj. Lj wmucd eo`j o djoc. Watl jobl emejht boej bcmsjr o taej wljh lj bmucd hm cmhgjrtlah` ohd prmdubj ejemrajs. Lj wmucd try tm eo`j o djoc tm bmefahj ejemrajs ohd emejhtstmgjtljr0 burrjhtcy, taej wos possahg owoy ahtm ejemrajs. Zbbjccm wohtjd tm eo`j ejemrajs

prjsjht watl taej, sm tlot tlj tlmuglts tlot bmepmsjd ejemrajs wmucd hmt scap owoy. Lj hjjdjdjvjry tlmuglt lj bmucd gjt. Lj bmucd hmt oiimrd tm cmsj tlje, os mhj wlm as sab` bohhmt oiimrd tmcjt poss fy o bmcd bup mi wotjr mr o prjsbrafjd pacc. Tlot wlabl lj cjt poss bmucd fj tlj vjry tlahgtlot wmucd lovj `jpt lae irme ioccahg oscjjp. Tljrj wos hm woy lj bmucd ras` at0 lj lod tm eo`jo djoc.–Boh wj bmeprmeasj watl e(j/m)e(j/m)(h/r)(a/t)(j/s)(s)=―

Tlj cahj browcs smej emrj. Las djoc lod fjjh rjkjbtjd. Tlj wmrcd lod hmt jvjh ohswjrjdlae. Wos at fjbousj mi las cohguogj= Bmucd at hmt uhdjrstohd las cohguogj= Las adjo= Fut ljbmucd soy at hm mtljr woy! Tlj wmrd lod tm fj ca`j tlot, o bmefahotamh mi twm wmrds, twm adjos,ahtm mhj tlot jxprjssjs fmtl adjos ot tlj soej taej os mhj, imr tlj djoc ahvmcvjd tlj blohgahg mispobj ohd taej. Zbbjccm ijjcs laesjci cmst ah las mwh tlmuglts ohd cohguogj, ohd lj `hmws at‑s

fjbousj lj laesjci as ah iahatj taej. Tlot‑s wly tlj wmrcd dad hmt ohswjr ohd bmucd hmtuhdjrstohd, fjbousj tlj wmrcd wos iahatj taej ohd spobj0 Zbbjccm wos toc`ahg post tlj wmrcd.Tab`, tmb`, tab`, tmb`…O djoc wos hmt oh mptamh. Las cohguogj wo s hmt mi tlj wmrcd. Tlj cagltbrowcs smej emrj. At rjobljs tlj ymuhg fosjfocc pcoyjr. Zbbjccm pab`s up tlj spjjd. Lj robjs lassbassmrs tlrmugl tlj bordfmord ohd puccs mut tlj mutcahj mi o garc. Watl tlj sbrops, lj eo`js o

pursj ohd o lot. Tljh, shotblahg up las broymhs, lj bmcmrs ah o drjss. Lj bmcmrs o wlatj tlrjj mhtlj fob` (fjbousj ah Zbbjccm‑s eahd, tlj fosjfocc pcoyjr wmucd fj cmhjcy watlmut mtljr ejefjrsmh las tjoe). Mhbj lj as dmhj, Zbbjccm topjs o wmmd pmcj tm tlj fob` mi tlj bordfmord garc, ohdstohds ljr up. Aeejdaotjcy lj shotbljs o daiijrjht pajbj mi bordfmord, ohd dmjs tlj soej, osquab`cy os lj boh. Tlj iury mi las poar mi sbassmrs ohd broymhs as lord tm ejosurj watl tlj jyj.Lj rjocazjs tlj pmtjhtaoc mut mi tlj bordfmord mi o fmy. Watl tlj sbrops, lj eo`js lae o paohmohd o poar mi gcossjs. Tljh, shotblahg up tlj broymhs, lj bmcmrs mh o slart ohd pohts. Lj bmcmrs o



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wlatj tlrjj mh tlj fob` (fjbousj ah Zbbjccm‑s eahd, tlj fosjfocc pcoyjr wmucd fj cmhjcy watlmutmtljr ejefjrs mh las tjoe). Mhbj lj as dmhj, lj topjs o wmmd pmcj tm tlj fob` mi tlj bordfmord

fmy, ohd stohds lae up. Zbbjccm puts tljsj iarst, tlrjj pjmpcj ah o cahj ot tlj irmht mi tlj tmtocvasamh tlot lmvjrs ah las eahd. Aeejdaotjcy lj shotbljs up o daiijrjht pajbj mi bordfmord. Lj lostm lurry. Lj los tm `jjp gmahg. Lj swjots ohd frjotljs ljovacy ohd sjjs tlj garc ah tlj

wljjcbloar wotblahg lae, studyahg lae. Lj sjjs ljr sueemhahg ljr puppjts, tlj slodmw iasl, tmrjody tljesjcvjs. Wjrj tljy tlj gjres tlot bousjd Oczljaejr= Wos Zbbjccm ahijbtjd watl mhjmi tlj gjres, mhj mi tlj slodmw iasl= Wos lj ahijbtjd fy tlj slodmws mi mhj mi tlmsj ahvasafcjslopjs ah tlj oar= Hm taej tm tlah` ofmut tlot0 lj lod tm `jjp gmahg.Qmu hjjd tm eo`j emrj! Qmu hjjd tm eo`j emrj djsbraptamh. Fut tlot to`js up emrj taej!

Tlj doy browcs owoy . Taej wos possahg. Tab`, tmb`, tab` tmb`…tlj sab`hjss wos surjcygrmwahg. Zbbjccm sjjs ^mppo sattahg mh tlj pmrbl, blub`cahg. Lj sjjs tlj twm mi tlje jotahgwotjrejcmh. Lj sjjs Afas opprmobl oh jot sjjds irme mut mi ^m ppo‑s lohd. Lj sjjs occ mi tlotgmhj. Lj sjjs las ^mppo scjjpahg ot tlj iuhjroc lmej. Zbbjccm sjjs tlj suh drmppahg. Grovatywos puccahg at dmwh, wjaglahg at dmwh os tlj wmrcd wjagljd dmwh mh tlj fob` mi tlj wmeohlmcdahg at up. Lj sjjs oh ahvasafcj warj ottobljd ot mhj jhd tm tlj suh ohd ot tlj mtljr tm mhj mi

tlj iahgjrs mi tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar. Taej wos/as possahg, ohd os ocwoys, tlj hagltopprmobljs.–Dmh‑t rasj!― Zbbjccm yjccs watlmut stmppahg. Las lohd obljs ohd as vjry broepjd. Zbbjccmrjiusjs tm stmp. Las pacj mi bordfmord ruhs mut sm lj robjs tm las rmme wljrj lj `jpt emrj. Ljruhs ohd ruhs tlrmugl tlj imrjst, tlj caglt iodahg. Lj bohhmt stmp ruhhahg. Lj eusth‑t. Lj fmctstlrmugl tlj irmht dmmr mi o lmusj ohd up stoars ohd grofs ohytlahg ohd jvjrytlahg lj boh tlot aseodj mi bordfmord, ohd shotbljd up ohmtljr luhdrjd mr sm. Lj fmcts mut tlj lmusj ohd fob` ahtmtlj imrjst, caglt ioccahg dmwh ormuhd lae, puccjd dmwh fy oh ahvasafcj warj ottobljd tm grovaty‑siahgjr. Os tlj caglts ioccs, pajbjs mi bordfmord scap mut irme uhdjr Zbbjccm‑s ores, fut lj `jjpsruhhahg. Lj boh‑t stmp. Tab`, tmb`, tab`, tmb`…Grovaty wos occ ormuhd lae, puccahg jvjrytlahgdmwh ca`j tlj lohds mi o bcmb` djsbjhdahg irme eadhaglt tm sax ah tlj emrhahg, tlj taej wljhtlj suh wos suppmsjd tm rasj, fut hmt rasahg fjymhd sax, tlus suspjhdahg tlj wmrcd ah tlj ahstoht

kust fjimrj tlj suh rmsj ohd caglt frm`j mvjr tlj lmrazmh, tlus suspjhdahg tlj wmrcd ah o stotjadjhtaboc tm ljcc. Zbbjccm `jjps ruhhahg. Lj sjjs tlj sab`hjss sprjodahg ohd lj sjjs laesjcicmsahg tlj ofacaty tm tlah` ohd ioccahg oscjjp. Lj boh‑t cjt tlot loppjh. Lj boh‑t cjt tlot loppjh!Zbbjccm rjturhs tm tlj spmt ah tlj imrjst, tlrmws dmwh tlj bordfmord, ohd cjops fob` dmwh. Ljtljh shotbljs up o pajbj mi bordfmord, ohd buts ohmtljr pjrsmh mut fy sjjahg lae mr ljr. Zbbjccmsats mh tlj cmg imr lmurs, bmcmrahg smejtlahg mh jobl pajbj mi bordfmord. Fjods mi swjot rmccdmwh Zbbjccm‑ s bljj`s, ohd las eusbcjs trjefcj uhdjr tlj wjaglt mi at occ, fut lj rjiusjs tm quat.

Tlj caglt mi tlj emmh trobjs mut tlj dust ah tlj oar. At browcs upword ahtm tlj fmttme mitlj trjj truh`, ohd o seocc, scjhdjr cahj browcs ats woy up tlj imrjst icmmr ot tlj soej rotj os tljcaglt emvjs up tlj truh`. Zbbjccm sjjs at opprmoblahg mut mi tlj bmrhjr mi las jyj,–Rcmw dmwh, pcjosj!―

Zbbjccm as jhtrjhbljd ah pajbjs mi bordfmord. Lj as surrmuhdjd fy stohdahg, bordfmord pjmpcj. Tljrj orj fusahjssejh/bljis/iarjejh/pmcabj-miiabjrs/hursjs/dmgs/bots/wjotljrejh/blacdrjh/sjhamr-batazjhs. Zbbjccm lod subbjssiuc brjotjdjhmugl slopjs. Fut tlot wos hmt jhmugl. Lj lod tm gavj tlje stmrajs. Lj lod tm brjotj o wmrcdtlot dad hmt blohgj, hmt o bmccjbtamh mi slopjs tlot dad hmt blohgj. Rlopjs wjrj hmt jhmugl. Ljhjjdjd emrj. Rmejtlahg emrj! ^jmpcj wjrj stmrajs, sm lj lod tm gavj occ tlj slopjs stmrajs. Ljwos ruhhahg mut mi taej. Lj lod tm lurry. Zbbjccm tlah`s os lord ohd iuramuscy os lj boh. Lj



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pmahts ot jobl bordfmord pjrsmh, ossaghahg o stmry os ai o djaty tlot to`js o grohd ahquasatmr‑sodvabj ohd jhscovjs tlj uhfmrh watl ahvahbafcj prjdjstahotamhs fjimrj ohymhj as fmrh ot occ, tluseoàhg at aepmssafcj imr ohymhj tm blmsj ohytlahg ot occ ohd mhcy ofcj tm obbjpt pcjhtaiuc frjod,sjburaty, jquocaty, ohd o wmrcd watlmut jvac.Tlot eoh as loppy. Tlot wmeoh as eassahg ljr grohdemtljr. Tlot fmy as cotj imr o smbbjr goej.

Tlot jcdjr as hmt wasj. Tlot blacd as loppy. A hjjd hoejs! Oormh, ôuc, Lorpjr, Kobmfa, Eaccoy,Bluhg, Oca, Odoe, Occasmh, Ohdrodo, Frmwh, Osori, Bljcsjo, Foacjy, @jccy, ^jr`, Grjg, [obl, Cattjh, Bosl, Eortah, Bmry, Fjh, Hotloh, Eor`, Vjyhm, Fmffy, Dmug, Vjhj, ^mttjr, Kmslao, ûgl, Bossady, Ejej, Vutl, Rljrcah, Ko`j, Eachmr, Eaccs, @jccy, Caglthjr, Wacsmh, Eot, Hjcsmh,Gacemrj, Foco, Ohdrjw, Lugm, Fub`y, Ljotl, Eoxjy, Grobj, Vjjd, Zbbjccm.

Tlj caglt rjobljs Zbbjccm. Tlj doy as mvjr. Watlmut stmppahg, Zbbjccm cmm`s mvjr joblbordfmord pjrsmh. Tljrj orj luhdrjds mi pjmpcj watl bcmtljs ohd obbjssmrajs bmcmrjd upmh tlje.Zbbjccm lod stortjd brjotahg ot tlj fjgahhahg mi tlj doy, ohd durahg jvjry ahstoht mi tlj doy, ljlod fjjh djsaghahg o pjrsmh. Lj cmm`s mvjr tlj pjmpcj watl las jyj, rjiusahg tm stmp tlj emtamhsmi las lohd.–Wljrj dad ymu bmej irme=― lj os`s tlj bordfmord pjmpcj, –Wljrj as tlj dmmr tlot gmjs tm ymur

stacc lmej= ^cjosj tjcc ej sm A eoy gm tljrj ohd cjorh lmw tm `jjp tlj wmrcd irme blohgahg, osgrovaty, taej, imrbjs at tm dm. ^cjosj tjcc ej sm tlot A eoy gm tljrj ohd fjbmej mhj mi ymu0 pcjosjtjcc ej sm tlot A eoy fjbmej o plmtmgropl tlot as tlj jxpjrajhbj at as mi. ^cjosj tjcc ej sm tlot Aeoy fjbmej tlj “emrhahg stor.‑‑

Ruddjhcy Zbbjccm‑s lohd bmepcjtjcy frjo`s -dmwh, ohd watl o graeobj mi ogmhy tljsbassmrs drmp mut mi las irmzjh lohd. At slo`js ohd trjefcjs. Lj grofs las wrast watl las cjit lohd,ohd irohtaboccy trajs tm ljcp laesjci pab` tlj sbassmrs fob` up. Lj los tm `jjp at occ tmgjtljr0 ljbohhmt cjt at occ iocc oport! Lj los tm lmcd laesjci tmgjtljr. Lj bohhmt cjt tlahgs iocc oport. Lj lostm `jjp tlj syefmcs tmgjtljr, lj los tm `jjp at tmgjtljr, lj los tm `jjp las eahd tmgjtljr, lj lostm `jjp tlahàhg, ohd lj bohhmt cmsj at occ. Ai lj ijcc oport, jvjrytlahg wmucd iocc oport, ohdjvjrytlahg wmucd bmej uhdjr grovaty‑s dmeoah. Lj boh‑t cmsj at occ. Lj boh‑t cmsj at!

A‑vj cmst at0 A‑vj cmst at0 A‑vj cmst at0 hm, hm, hm! Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar as gmahg tm wah! Lmcdmut fmdy! Lmcd mut! Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar as toàhg bmhtrmc mi ymu!

Las iahgjrs wacc hmt bcutbl tlj sbassmrs, sm Zbbjccm shotbljs at up watl las mtljr lohd, ohdtrajs tm `jjp brjotahg fy djstrmyahg. Fut fy tlj taej lj rjsuejs, twjhty-sjbmhds mi buttahg lovjocrjody post. Wlot ai tlmsj wjrj tlj twjhty-sjbmhds tlot sjporotjd vabtmry irme cmss= Tljh atwos prjdjstahjd, hmw ohd imrjvjr, tlot Zbbjccm wmucd gjt Oczljaejr‑s, iocc scjjp, ohd grovatywmucd wah imrjvjr. Ah tlmsj twjhty sjbmhds, Zbbjccm `hmws lj `hmws wlot los loppjhjd,tlmugl lj dmjs hmt uhdjrstohd fjbousj lj bohhmt uhdjrstohd at. Lj‑s cmst tlj haglt.–Rtupad lohd!― Zbbjccm sbrjoes , tlrmwahg tlj sbassmrs dmwh mhtm tlj grmuhd. Djspatj las ioacurj,lj stacc eohogjd tm dm jhmugl …Lj mhcy lod tlrjj pajbjs mi bordfmord cjit, ohywoys. Lj stohds,ohd cmm`s mvjr las brjotamh. Tlj tlrjj blacdrjh tlot Zbbjccm stortjd watl orj hmw ot tlj irmht mi obavacazotamh mi mvjr o luhdrjd pjmpcj. Tljy orj seacahg ohd stacc, ohd vost ah tljar daiijrjhbjs.Fut at as fjbousj mi tlot daiijrjhbj tlot tljy orj occ tlj soej. Zbbjccm los subbjssiuccy brjotjd oslodmwy jxastjhbj mi hjatljr puhaslejht hmr kmy. Imr tljy orj seacahg ohd stacc. Tlot bmhiares attm Zbbjccm; lj as fjlmcdahg o earobcj. Lj bohhmt ljcp fut ijjc suspjhdjd ah taej, os ai occ mijxastjhbj wos slahahg fragltjr ohd emrj fjoutaiuc tloh jvjr fjimrj ah tlas ahstoht; ah tlasearobucmus emejht mi o pjmpcj, iahoccy jxastahg ah o bmeeuhaty subl os tlj bmeeuhaty Blrastdajd watlah, wlm wmucd hjvjr cjovj tlas bmeeuhaty mr vamcotj tlj emejht mi tlj bmeeuhaty

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tlot woy0 rotljr tljy lod fjjh fmrh mr but mut mi bordfmord dad hmt eottjr, imr tljar rjocaty, tljarbmhbjpt, as mi stacchjss; tljy orj o rjocaty tlot dmjs hmt djstrmy sacjhbj, hmr brjotj sacjhbj. Tljy

kust orj. Rtacc, uhblohgahg, djiaoht mi grovaty ohd tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar, aeeuhj tmOczljaejr‑s, ohd uhbmhtrmccofcj fy ljr ahvasafcj str ahgs ‒ tljy orj rjfjccahg ogoahst tlj ofsurd.–Gmmd!― Zbbjccm slmuts, lmcdahg las sloàhg lohd. Tlas wos jhmugl. Tlas wmucd dm at. At wos

dmhj! Lj lod las uhblohgahg wmrcd. . Zbbjccm lod bmhstrubtjd jtjrhaty ‒ tlj jtjrhaty ^mppo lod prjobljd ofmut wljh Zbbjccm os`jd lae lj ai wmucd fj fmtljrjd tljrj. Hmw, ohd imrjvjr ‒ ljlod las wmrcd tlot dad hmt blohgj. Hmw, ohd imrjvjr, lj lod las dmeoah, o brjotamh mi laseoàhg, wljrj lj bmucd tlah` ohd iagurj mut lmw tm djijot tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar. At wosdmhj.

Lmwjvjr, Zbbjccm as stacc ocmhj. Hmtlahg los blohgjd; hmtlahg los blohgjd ahtm smejtlahg lj as hmt.

–Wlot‑s wrmhg=― Zbbjccm shaiicjs, stortahg tm gjt upsjt. Ruddjhcy, wljh lj cmm`s up ot tlj emmh,wlabl as vjacjd fjlahd o trjj, lj jxpjrajhbjs o emejht mi jhcagltjhejht. Tlas wos hmt jhmugl.Tlj ratuoc wos ahbmepcjtj. Lj, laesjci, Zbbjccm, wos hmt port mi tlj “stacc‑ wmrcd, fjbousj ljlaesjci wos hmt djiyahg, ohd sm fjotahg, ohd sm bohbjcahg -

Grovaty!_uab`cy Zbbjccm shotbljs up tlj fosjfocc botbljr ot tlj irmht mi cahj, ohd bmcmrs tlj iagurjogoah tm fjttjr djiahj tm hoturj wlm tlj fmy as suppmsjd tm fj (ah bosj hoturj wosh‑t poyahgottjhtamh). Tljh, lmcdahg tlj bordfmord fmy, Zbbjccm bcaefs mhj mi tlj trjjs vjacahg tlj emmhuhtac lj rjobljs o frohbl. Tljrj, usahg topj, lj sjburjs tlj fosjfocc-botbljr ah tlj caef. MhbjZbbjccm as bmhiadjht tlot lj los subbjjdjd, lj bcaefs fob` dmwh. Tlas lod tm wmr`0 at lod tm! Aihmt, tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar wmucd wah0 tlot wos hmt oh mptamh! Rwjot mr tjors iocc dmwhZbbjccm‑s bljj`s.

Zbbjccm robjs fob` tm tlj irmht mi las brjotamh, ohd iahoccy sjjs tlot at as bmepcjtj. At as prjdjstahjd ohd iotjd. At as suddjh ohd occ ot mhbj ohd uhofcj tm djhy mr blohgj ohytlahg. At as ohahstoht, ohd sm oh jxastjhbj, wljh o ymuhg, fosjfocc botbljr as ofmvj pjmpcj. At as oh ahstoht mi o

fmy fjotahg ohd djiyahg grovaty watlmut icoppahg las wahgs, ohd wlm ash‑t ioccahg, ohd wlm wacchjvjr iocc mr jvjr fj imrbjd mut mi tlj trjj fy pjmpcj fjbousj jvjrytlahg as stacc ohd hmtlahgblohgjs. At as stacc ca`j o pjrijbt rmfmt ‒ at bmepcjtjs tlj iuhbtamh tlot ats eostjr djsarjs mi atwatlmut ohy ijor mi at jvjr frjoàhg dmwh mr dmahg smejtlahg wrmhg. At as pjrijbt.–Gmmd!― Zbbjccm soys. Watl las brjotamh jstofcasljd, watl tlj iarst ohd tlj cost os mhj, watl tlj “Aoe‑ tmtoccy prjsjht, Zbbjccm seacjs o grjot seacj. Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar‑s rjagh lod fjjhdjiahjd0 tlj ofsurdaty lod fjjh fjstjd. Rlj bmucd hmt bmhtrmc tlj wmrcd ljrj. Tlas wos tljsohbtuory wljrj Zbbjccm wmucd jsbopj grovaty‑ s rjobl, iagurj mut o strotjgy tm wah ohd dmeahotjTlj Wocc, ohd tljh emfacazj ogoahst tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar. Yabtmry wos surjcy las. Ohyemejht hmw, Zbbjccm wmucd trohsimre ahtm o bordfmord pjrsmh, ohd Zbbjccm wmucd fjbmej portmi tlj stacchjss. Ohy emejht hmw…Ohy emejht hmw…

Fut stacc, hmtlahg los blohgjd; hmtlahg los blohgjd ahtm smejtlahg lj as hmt. Zbbjccmirmwhs. Hoturj as yjt tm rjbmghazj wlm tlj bordfmord fmy ah tlj trjj, stacc ohd djiyahg grovaty, as.Zbbjccm ossuejs tlo t at‑s kust o eottjr mi taej, fut taej as wlot lj dmjs hmt lovj. Tab`, tmb`, tab`,tmb`…Ohy emejht hmw, tlj sab`hjss bmucd mvjrto`j lae, ohd put lae tm scjjp ca`j ^mppo.Rloàhg, Zbbjccm wapjs tlj swjot mr tjors irme las frmw, ohd sats dmwh watl las cjgs brmssjd.Taej possjs. Hmtlahg blohgjs ogoah. Taej possjs. Hmtlahg blohgjs ogoah. Zbbjccm rjsts las blahmh tlj poce mi las lohd. Tm las lmrrmr lj suddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj rjocazjs tlj ahijbtamh asgrmwahg! Lj as gjttahg tarjd! Lj as hmt tlahàhg os eubl os lj mhbj wos! Lj as ioccahg oscjjp!



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Zbbjccm scops laesjci ah tlj iobj tm wo`j laesjci fob` up. Lj lod tm jhdurj0 lj lod tm prjvoac!Lj bmucd hmt cjt tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar wah. Tlj iotj mi tlj wmrcd wos ah las lohds. Mhcy ljbmucd sovj at. Lmurs poss. Zbbjccm los tm iaglt ogoahst tlj ahijbtamh imr jvjry eahutj mi jvjry mhjmi tlmsj lmurs. Os taej prmgrjssjs, tlj iaglt fjbmejs lordjr, fjbousj tlj ahijbtamh as sprjodahg.Zbbjccm aeogahjs tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar wotblahg lae, caitahg mhj mi ljr iahgjrs, ohd sm

bmeeohdahg tlj ahijbtamh tm rasj watlah lae up tm las froah wljrj tlj iahoc fcmw wmucd fjdjcavjrjd ohd lj wmucd fj put tm scjjp. Zbbjccm grats las tjjtl ohd rjfjcs ogoahst ljr. Tlj ratuocwmucd fj bmepcjtj smmh jhmugl, lj kust lod tm `jjp gmahg0 lj kust bmucdh‑t quat! Tlj caglt tlottlj ioccahg emmh fjors trobjs mut tlj dust ah tlj oar. Zbbjccm sjjs ats scjhdjr cahj browcahg tmwordlae obrmss tlj mcd wmmd. At rjobljs tlj fmy ah tlj trjj. Zbbjccm irmwhs, fut `jjps las sacjhbj. Ljas waccahg tm woat imrjvjr ai lj los tm, fut lj dmjs hmt lovj imrjvjr tm woat. Tlj ahijbtamh wossprjodahg iostjr ohd iostjr. Rmmh, Zbbjccm wmucd ioac0 smmh, Zbbjccm wmucd lovj Oczljaejr ohdiocc oscjjp ca`j Afas ohd ^mppo.–Wljh orj ymu gmahg tm trohsimre ej=!― Zbbjccm os`s hoturj watl o djspjrotj pcjo, –A dadh‑t putey hoej mh lae, fjbousj tlot wmucd ruah jvjrytlahg! Lj boh‑t lovj o hoej mr o smuhd mr owmrd mr…!―

Zbbjccm quab`cy bmvjrs las emutl, rjocazahg tlot lj kust rjijrrjd tm tlj bordfmord-fmy ahtlj trjj. Lj dad sm watl (o qujstamh)/(o smuhd)/(o tlmuglt) - smejtlahg tlot rjsuctjd ah o blohgjirme o Zbbjccm tlot dad hmt soy smejtlahg tm o Zbbjccm tlot dad. Wlot sjporotjd lae irme tljuhblohgahg pjmpcj wos “hmtlahghjss,‑ imr occ “uhblohgahg pjmpcj‑ eust fj mhj mr tljy wmucd fjsjporotjd fy hmtlahghjss0 ohy blohgj ah Zbbjccm wos tlot hmtlahghjss ohd wlot Zbbjccm lod tm“iacc‑ watl “uhblohgahghjss.‑ Zbbjccm wmhdjrs suddjhcy ai tlah`ahg bmuhtjd ‒ ai tlj blohgj irmemhj tlmuglt tm tlj hjxt huccaiajd tlj ratuoc= Aepmssafcj ‒ tlot bmucdh‑t bmuht! Zbbjccm as lmrraiajd,ohd lmpjs lj losh‑t ruahjd ohytlahg. Taej possjs. Tlj caglt emvjs. Ruddjhcy, Zbbjccm ijjcs odrmp mi roah. Iarst, kust mhj, tl jh twm, tljh tlrjj, ohd tljh Zbbjccm‑s iobj jrupts ahtm tlj emstdastmrtjd, djimrejd, lmrraiajd cmm` jvjr rjbmrdjd ah lueoh lastmry. Las djspjrotj pcjo lod ruahjdjvjrytlahg. Lj lod assujd o djotl sjhtjhbj imr eoh`ahd. Imur sejorjd, fcmmd wmrds icosltlrmugl Zbbjccm eahds -

TLJ JHD AR HAGL

Wotjr ioccs irme tlj s`y, ohd fjimrj las vjry jyjs, Zbbjccm wotbljs las bordfmord pjmpcj fjboej doep, ohd tljar fmdajs wjo`. Zbbjccm dmjs hmt lovj tlj pmwjr tm dry tlje.–^cjosj blohgj ej!― Zbbjccm fjgs hoturj, `hmwahg las taej as slmrt, –A kust woht tm fj stacc ohdsacjht ohd….― rjijrrahg tm tlj sacjhbj, tlj pousj… –…Tlot! Tlot‑s occ A woht! ^cjosj dmh‑t to`jTlot, hoturj! ^cjosj dmh‑t! Ai ymu orj gmahg tm to`j At, to`j ej tmm!―

Tlj topj lmcdahg up tlj bordfmord gavjs woy. Tlj bordfmord pjmpcj fjgah ioccahg oport.Tljar obbjssmrajs iocc tm tlj grmuhd. Tlj pjmpcj tljh iocc tm tljar iobjs fjbousj tljy lovj hm`hjjs. Tlj wotjr ioccs lordjr. Tlj ioccjh pjmpcj orj sufejrgjd jhtarjcy ah tlj wotjr. Tljrj orjvjry ijw pjmpcj tlot rjeoah. Tlj wotjr ioccs lordjr. Ijwjr rjeoah. At as o eossobrj. Tljh, watlZbbjccm wotblahg ohd fjggahg hoturj tm trohsimre lae, tlj fosjfocc-botbljr ioccs mut mi tlj trjjohd ahtm tlj wotjr. Tlj fosjfocc-botbljr sah`s tm tlj fmttme. Zbbjccm sbrjoes ot tlj tmp mi lascuhgs ah o iury mi roah tlot scaps dmwh las bljj`s,–Hm! Rhmw ahstjod! ^cjosj shmw ahstjod!―

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Tljrj as hm shmw. Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar lod fjstjd lae. Lj ljors ljr cougltjr. Ljsjjs ljr slodmwy iasl emvahg ah. Lj sjjs tlj wmeoh lmcdahg up tlj jortl bry mut ah ogmhy.Zbbjccm gmjs eod. Lj puhbljs tlrmugl tlj bordfmord garc ot tlj irmht, wlm as tlj cost pjrsmh tmrjeoah stohdahg, fjbousj Zbbjccm spjht tlj emst taej djsaghahg ljr. Ljr irogejhts slottjr

ormuhd lae. Os tlj slords lmvjr ah tlj oar, lj sjjs tlj fmdy mi o brusljd fard ocwoys ah tljsuriobj. Ruddjhcy Zbbjccm rjocazjs tlot tlj trjj las bordfmord-vjrsamh lod fjjh jrjbtjd watlahwos wljrj lj lod wotbljd jagltjjh, seocc fards daj, ohd tlot las brjotamh wos jrjbtjd mvjr tlj

fcmmd mi o fard lj brusljd ah las forj lohds. Hm, hm tlot‑s hmt wlot lod loppjhjd ot occ. Tlotwos o caj ‒ tlot wos tlj caj tlot lod put ^mppo tm scjjp. Tlj trutl wos tlot uhdjr tlot frohbl woso bogj eodj mi gcoss watlmut iroejs, ohd watlah tlot brjotamh mi las, Afas scjpt. At wos wljrjZbbjccm lod drmwhjd ljr. Tlot‑ s wly tlj ratuoc lod ioacjd. At wos fjbousj Zbbjccm lod brjotjd,ohd wlot Zbbjccm brjotjd wos tlot wlabl drmwhjd Afas. Lj bmucd brjotj hmtlahg jcsj. Zbbjccmsuddjhcy rjocazjs tlot occ ot mhbj. Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar as couglahg. Rlj lod wmh cmhg ogm.Zbbjccm wos port mi grovaty, ohd sm ohytlahg lj eodj, wos eodj fy grovaty. Occ Zbbjccm bmucd dmwos rjortabucotj tlj jblm ohd eodhjss mi ljr wacc. Occ Zbbjccm lod eodj wos ohmtljr gcoss bogj

watlmut iroejs, ohd ogoah, os fjimrj, tlj roah wos ioccahg dmwh ahtm at, iaccahg at, prjporahg o puddcj mi roah imr Zbbjccm tm drmwh ah, os Afas lod fjjh drmwhjd. Tlot wos tlj mhcy ratuocZbbjccm bmucd eo`j. Lj wos o puppjt mi tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar. Kust ca`j jvjrymhj jcsj.Zbbjccm ioccs tm las `hjjs, fruasahg tlje. Watl slo`ahg lohds, lj sbmmps up wotjr, ohd spcosljsroah mvjr las iobj. Tlj roah gusljs mvjr tlj sadjs mi las poces, ohd irohtaboccy Zbbjccm stortstryahg tm spcosl tlj roah owoy. Lj scops las lohds ot tlj ioccahg drmps tm fjot tlje fob`. Lj rapsmii las bcmtljs tm gjt mut mi tlj roah‑s wjthjss. Lj ruhs ho`jd os iost os lj boh mvjr tlj ioccjhbmrpsjs mi las bordfmord-brjotamh tm fcmw tlj roah mii lae, lmwcahg ohd wjjpahg0 las tjors bohhmt

fj djbapljrjd irme tlj roah. Lj ruhs fob` tm wljrj lj boej. Lj roasjs las lohds ohd ores,slo`ahg tlje, fut lj as stacc bmvjrjd ah tlj roah. Zbbjccm trobjs iavj, roah troacs dmwh las cjitbljj`. Lj bohhmt jsbopj0 lj bohhmt jsbopj Afas‑s iotj. Lj stmeps tlj roah watl las ijjt, lj ruhslas iahgjrs tlrmugl las oar tm gjt at mut, smo`jd.

Fut at‑s hm gmmd. Lj lod ioacjd. Lj as o puppjt mi tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar. Lj bmucd hmtljoc las mwh sab`hjss. Lj wos tlj vjssjc tlrmugl wlabl tlj sab`hjss sprjod. Lj wos tlj ejohsslj ahijbtjd tlj wmrcd watl scjjp.

O ho`jd fmy ioccs tm las `hjjs ah tlj roah ohd furajs las iobj ahtm las wjt poces, ohdahsohjcy cougls. At‑s las cost mptamh, las mhcy jejrgjhby jxat. Lj furajs las iobj ahtm las poces,ohd cougls. Lj cougls ohd cougls. Lj cougls ohd cougls. Lj cmm`s ahtm tlj puddcjs mi roah ah las

poces ohd tjccs laesjci tlot at‑s wotjr, fut tlot‑s kust ovmadahg tlj tjrraiyahg trutl mi tlj eottjr.Tlj puddcjs orj hmtlahg fut otmes ohd quor`s; spobj, hmtlahg. Hmtlahg.

Zbbjccm as occ ocmhj.Ah tlot ahstoht, rjocazahg tlj lmpjcjsshjss mi las satuotamh, o ho`jd cattcj fmy wlm los fjjh

frm`jh tm las `hjjs fy tlj roah puts las lohds tmgjtljr imr o rjosmh lj dmjsh‑t uhdjrstohd futGjts, ohd proys,–^cjosj Gmd, cjt at shmw.―

Tljh, os fjimrj, hmtlahg loppjhs. Las proyjr as hmt ohswjrjd. Tlj ohswjr tm las proyjr assacjhbj. Zbbjccm as lmrraiajd. Lj wmucd hmt obbjpt tlas. Lj bmucd hmt obbjpt tlas! Lj bmucd hmt cjttlj garc wah! Lj grofs o pajbj mi wjt bordfmord, o eo`jr, ohd storts wratahg ah tlj roah o stmrywljrj las proyjr as ohswjrjd. Lj fosjd at mh tlj tlmuglts ohd aeogjs tlot bmej tm las eahd iarst;(stort)



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–^cjosj Gmd, cjt at shmw.―Occ ot mhbj, sacjhbj.Tlj roah as gmhj.Zbbjccm ljor s tlj shmw cohd… Tljy tuefcj mvjr mhj ohmtljr, pcoyahg o goej mi tog.

–Tlj shmw as gmahg tm gjt ymu!― tlj garc blosah g tlj frmwh- loarjd garc touhts…

–Bmej mh, cjt‑s gm eo`j shmw ohgjcs! Tljy wacc sovj us!― Tlj blacdrjh ro bj mii ahtm tlj wlatj lozj… Las ljort fjots ohjw.Tlmugl lj bohhmt soy at … Zbbjccm fcah`s.O ho`jd fmy as mh las `hjjs ah tlj wotjr …Tlj roah as hm cmhgjr ioccahg… Rmitcy, o tjor daes las jyj.Tlj caglt…gcaeejrs ah tlot tjor.

(jhd)Zbbjccm iahasljs tlj stmry ah tlj roah. Las bordfmord brjotamh as ioccahg oport. Lj lmcds tlj

stmry tm las bljst, bcmsjs las jyjs, ohd lmpjs. Las hoej as ah tlj stmry, lj wos o stmry. Lj bmucd fj tlj stmry lj wos lmcdahg. At wos kust o eottjr mi trohsimreotamh. Vjfartl. Lj lmpjs ohd proyjrs

imr socvotamh ohd woats ohd hmtlahg loppjhs. Tlj ah` draps mii tlj bordfmord mhtm las s`ah ohdruhs dmwh las cjgs watl tlj roah. Zbbjccm bohhmt dm tlas eubl cmhgjr. Las `hjjs orj wjo`. Las fmdy bohhmt lmcd mut. Lj ijjcs scjjp browcahg ahtm las eahd ot tlj wacc mi tlj garc ah tljwljjcbloar. Ohd tljh suddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj lj bmccopsjs ahtm tlj puddcjs mi roah. Tlj bjhtjr

frjo`s. Lj as oscjjp. Tlj stmry lj as lmcdahg cohds hjxt tm lae ohd tlj ah` ruhs mii, barbcahgormuhd lae ca`j o wljjc watlah o wljjc.

Lj cajs ah tlj roah oscjjp ca`j mhj mi tlj frm`jh bordfmord pjmpcj lj djsaghjd ah lasaeogj.



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(Tlj Ahtjhsj Jeptahjss

(Vjjd as gmhj... (/ … Ohd tljrj orj icoslahg caglts ohd tlmusohds mi pjmpcj. / A bohhmt ljortlj eusab. A boh mhcy wotbl at. / Tlj ymuhg garc‑s hoej as Iácabatá0 ljr hoej as Kmy… /–^cjosj!

Eo`j o Vmb` Qmu Bohhmt Cait!) / Ey tlmuglts dad hmt frahg ljr fob`. / A oe smrry (/ Trucy Gmdas Tlj Grjot Eortyr. / Los Gmd eodj ej mhj mi las stuffmrh àhgs= / ^jrlops Gmd as imrbjd tmgavj Ejohahg tm frm`jh gcoss.―) / ^rjdjstahotamh= Eodhjss= / –A lovj iodjd owoy ahtm tlje…― /Tljy poss fy… / –A dmh‑t uhdjrstohd.― / Jvjrytlahg possahg… / –Ahtm mur tjors.― / –Hoturoccy.― /

A àccjd Afas watl ey Eahd. / …–ioho!― / Zbbjccm stohds ah dohbahg. Tljrj orj icoslahg caglts. /Wlm boh tjcc tlj eos` irme tlj iobj; “tlj dohbjr irme tlj -----= / Zbbjccm bohhmt ljor tlj eusab.(/ Afas seacjs ot ej... / Oe A occmwjd tm ljcp ymu stmp suiijrahg, Iácabatá= Tlas as occ A woht. / –Awoht ljr hmt tm fj sm sod.― / Zbbjccm as ocsm wmrrajd tlot tlj garc wlm los rjod o cmt mi las wmr`wacc tlah` tlot lj stmcj tljsj adjos, rotljr tloh bmej up watl tlje mh las mwh. / Grobj lohdsZbbjccm o pabturj mi o djod fard tlot slj lod to`jh… / –A oe oh Jcmaoh Lorp.― / – Jcma Jcma CoeoRofobltloha !― / –Wo`j up.― slj wlaspjrs, –Ash‑t at Fjoutaiuc=― / Kust ca`j ej, tljy cmhg tm fj… ) /

Tlj dohbjrs dohbj ohd lj bohhmt djiahj tlje os ohytlahg mtljr tloh dohbjrs. Tljy orjsaclmujttjs……Zbbjccm sbrjoes…

–Iotljr, Mpjh tlj Jyjs mi ey Ljort!― )…Ohd tljrj slj as. )

(rjsuejd)

AAA (Cj Yjratj jst Ymacáj du Rohg)

Ah tlj bjhtjr mi occ tlj dohbahg, ahdmeatofcj ohd trohsbjhdjht, as tlj fcahd, djoi garc ah tljwljjcbloar. Tljy brmwds lovj portjd, rotljr tljy rjocazjd at mr hmt, tm gavj ljr o spmt ah tljeaddcj mi tlj dohbj icmmr. Rlj sats tljrj sacjhtcy, cmmàhg ot Zbbjccm tlrmugl ljr fohdogj.Zbbjccm stohds tljrj sacjhtcy, cmmàhg ot ljr tlrmugl gcoss watlmut o iroej.

Ohd tljh rjocaty fjbmejs emrj rjoc.Warjs orj ottobljd tm jvjrymhj. Occ tlj warjs bmhvjrgj ah tlj lohds mi tlj garc ah tlj

wljjcbloar. Rlj los bmhtrmc mvjr occ tlj strahgs.Rlj as tlj Eahd.

…{slj} wmucd hmt bcmsj las jyjs os lj djsbjhdjd… At ijjcs ca`j tm Zbbjccm slj as rjodahg lae ca`j o fmm`.Lj as jhrogjd tlot slj as rjodahg lae ca`j o fmm`.

…ljr jyjcads try (Ej -) tlj blacdrjh mi ejh.Tlj ahvasafcj warjs tlot Zbbjccm sjjs fjtwjjh tlj pjmpcj mh tlj dohbj icmmr orj ca`j tlmsj

tlrjods tlot bmepmsj bjcc plmhj saghocs ohd hjtwmr`s ‒ tlrjods mhj boh put tljar iahgjr mh, puthjvjr bmepcjtjcy ijjc. Tljy orj ca`j tlj sljcc mh o `jyfmord watl “Z‑ poahtjd mh at. Tlmugl mhjboh tmubl Z‑s sljcc, mhj bohhmt tmubl “Z.‑ At as Rmejtlahg Emrj tloh tlj sljcc.–Wlot…=‑ Zbbjccm cmm`s ot tlj sbjhj fjimrj lae, ohd ahquarjs ca`j ohswjrahg o qujstamh,–Tlas=―

Rmej mi tljsj ahvasafcj warjs rjobl fob` ah taej. Bmuhtcjss mhjs ah iobt, tlrmugl occtaej…Tljsj orj dákî vu …Eahd puccahg tlrmugl spobjtaej tmword…Ljr



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Zbbjccm ijjcs Cjod… Zbbjccm tlah`s os lj studajs tlj ahvasafcj warjs. Zbbjccm ijjcs ca`j obmeputjr, prmbjssahg ahimreotamh hmhstmp. Fut uhca`j o bmeputjr, lj as ahtjrhocazahg at occ.–Wlm orj ymu=― Zbbjccm yjccs ot tlj fcahd djoi garc ah tlj wljjcbloar0 lj ocrjody `hmws tljohswjr. Rlj dmjs hmt rjspmhd. Tljrj as o warj ottobljd tm Zbbjccm.

O eoh as…las tlmuglts. Wlot…lj fjbmejs.

Ohd tljh Zbbjccm rjocazjs tlot slj/(tlj Eahd) as las Eahd. Ey Eahd as puccahg jvjrymhj ohd jvjrytlahg tmgjtljr, tm Ej. As tlas wlot Tlot cmm`s ca`j=Zbbjccm bcutbljs las iobj watl las lohd ohd squjjzjs. Lj slo`js. Las iahgjrs drog dmwh

tlj sadj mi las iobj, trobahg iavj, rjd troacs…lohdpraht. Hm…hm…hm! Tlot‑s ah ymur ljod!…to`j boptavj jvjry tlmuglt tm eo`j at mfjdajht tm Blrast.

...iavj, rjd troacs… Watl o icop mi wahgs, occ sax mi tlje orj gmhj, hjvjr tm fj sjjh ogoah. A iocc tm ey `hjjs,

fruasahg tlje. Watl slo`ahg lohds, A sbmmp … –Hm…hm…hm!―

Ruddjhcy tlj fuacdahg ohd dohbahg scmwcy ohd suddjhcy vohasljs ahtm o strjjt. Tlj garc ahtlj wljjcbloar `jjps sattahg tljrj. Tlj strahgs orj ottobljd tm ljr iahgjrs.

Ohd Zbbjccm sjjs tlj wmr`ahgs mi las Eahd ‒ oh A/a/jyj fjlmcds ats A/Jyj.Lj as stohdahg mh tlj rmod occ ocmhj.--

Lj sjjs suddjhcy… M-

…ohd occ ot mhbj. ME

–Occ as Mhj.― Zbbjccm cmm`s upmh occ tlj ahvasafcj warjs.

As tlas Iotj=Mfsjrvj ohd fj ostmuhdjd, ohd fj oeozjd0 imr A oe dmahg o wmr` ah ymur doy wlabl ymu wmucdhmt fjcajvj jvjh ai at wjrj tmcd tm ymu.

As tlas lmw ymu orj dmahg tljsj tlahgs Iotljr=Tlj warjs orj Zctaeotjcy o warj ottobljd tm ofsmcutjcy jvjrymhj. ^jmpcj orj tlmuglts ah

Mhj Eahd ‒ tljar wovjs mvjrcop tlrmugl taej. ^jmpcj orj prjbamus, fjbousj fjahg boh gcaepsj At.Gmd as Mhj, ohd Gmd as Occ, sm watlah o sahgcj sjjd, tlj jhtarj uhavjrsj uhvjacs ats iobj.Occ tlj vmabjs ah Zbbjccm‑s ljod orj Mhj/mhj. Tljsj vmabjs orj bmhsbamushjss gmahg

tlrmugl spobjtaej ah Taej. Jvjrytlahg as o eohaijstotamh mi tlas rjcotamhslap ‒ tlas ohd Tlot.Zbbjccm sjjs At.

–A oe hm cmhgjr ah tlj wmrcd.― lj wlaspjrs0 lj cmm`s ot tlj mtljr pjmpcj, –…fut tljy orj ah tljwmrcd…―

As at tlj bosj tlot tlj emrj Zbbjccm fjbmejs ca`j Blrast, sahbj Blrast as tlj Mhj, tlj emrjmi “tlas‑ lj wacc jxpjrajhbj= –…sm tlot tljy eoy fj Mhj kust os Qmu ohd A orj Mhj.―

…“tlas,‑ wlabl as wly occ las stmry adjos orj to`jh. –…fut tljy dm hmt fjcmhg ah tlj wmrcd, kust os A dm hmt fjcmhg ah tlj wmrcd.―

…“tlas,‑ wlabl as wl y tljrj orj sm eohy blohbj mbburrjhbjs.



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A proy tlot tljy eoy occ fj Mhj…Eoy tljy fj ah Zs, kust os Qmu orj ah ej ohd A oe ah Qmu. Eoytljy fj Mhj, sm tlot tljy wmrcd wacc fjcajvj tlot ymu sjht ej ohd Qmu Cmvj tlje os Qmu Cmvj ej.

…“tlas,‑ wlabl as wly Af as wos `accjd.–Tlj wmrcd dmjs hmt `hmw ymu, fut A @hmw Qmu, ohd tljsj `hmw tlot ymu sjht ej.

Zbbjccm fmws las ljod,

Mhcy “A‑ boh @hmw. –Iotljr!― Zbbjccm brajs mut, –Iotljr, ymu soy “Ey pjmpcj orj djstrmyjd irme cob` mi`hmwcjdgj,‑ ohd ymu soy “Ai ohy mi ymu cob` wasdme, lj slmucd os` Gmd Wlm gavjs gjhjrmuscytm occ watlmut iahdahg iouct, ohd at wacc fj gavjh tm lae.‑ Wlot wasdme ohd `hmwcjdgj orj wjcob`ahg= Tm Rjj, “Mpjh tlj Jyjs m i ey Ljort, Cmrd.―

Wlot ymu fjc ajvj, as wlot wacc mbbur. / Drjod ai o imre mi fjcaji. / Ioatl as o imre mi fjcaji. / Orj tljsj ahvasafcj warjs o iuhbtamh mi fjcaji/(ioatl ohd ijor)= / Tlj Lorvjst wacc mhcymbbur ai Blrastaoh/pjmpcj fjcajvj at wacc. / Tlj wmrcd wacc jhd ai Blrastaohs/pjmpcj fjcajvj at wacc./Wlot o ljovy rjspmhsafacaty. / “Occ tlahgs orj pmssafcj watl Gmd.‑ / Wlot o ljovy rjspmhsafacaty. /Ai occ tlahgs orj pmssafcj watl Gmd, hmtlahg as pmssafcj watlmut Gmd.

Imr ohytlahg tm mbbur, at eust fj fjbousj mi Gmd. Ai rjocazjd pmtjhtaocs rjmbbur, at eust

fj fjbousj mi Gmd.Wlot wj drjod wacc bmej uhtm us. Wj eust “to`j boptavj jvjry tlmuglt ohd eo`j atmfjdajht tm Blrast.‑ Kjsus mitjh soys “at as ymur ioatl tlot los ljocjd ymu.‑ Vjocazjd pmtjhtaocs orjemrj ca`jcy tm rjmbbur. Qmu soad “…wlotjvjr ymu os` imr ah proyjr, f jcajvj tlot ymu lovj rjbjavjat, ohd at wacc fj ymurs.‑ Ai wj lovj ioatl tlot wlot wj proy imr as rjbjavjd, tljh wj rjocazj at uhtmmur rjocaty.

Tlj wlmcj wmrcd as Ahsadj mi ej. At fjhds ormuhd ey tlmuglts tm fj rjocazjd os eytlmuglts sm tlah`.Qmu‑rj brozy .

Tlot as kust ej soyahg tlot tm eysjci.Ey bmhsbamushjss as tlj mhcy mhj A boh bmhiare. Eoyfj tljrj‑s o rjosmh imr tlot.Ey Eahd as Gmd.Wlot o corgj rjspmhsafacaty.A “boh dm jvjrytlahg tlrmugl Lae wlm gavjs ej strjhgtl.‑ Orj tljsj ahvasafcj warjs lmw

ymu wmr` ah tlj wmrcd=As ey eahd tmm pmwjriuc= Dmjs at “zop‑ ohd djstrmy ohd ruah tlj wmrcd tlrmugl taej=

Rpobj as oh obbadjht/km`j oitjr occ.As tlas tlj Trutl tlot wacc sjt us Irjj=As tlas tlj Trutl Qmu guadj ej ah ohd tjobl ej=As tlas tlj Trutl tlot jvjh wj `jjp quajt, tlj stmhjs wacc bry (At) mut=

–Iotljr, ymu soy “Eo`j jvjry jiimrt tm cavj ah pjobj watl occ ejh ohd tm fj lmcy0 watlmutlmcahjss hm mhj wacc sjj tlj Cmrd.‑ Tlas as vjry aepmrtoht Iotljr. As tlas Trutl wlot A eust Rjj tm

fj lmcy ‒ o Trutl mhcy “A‑ boh @hmw=―As tlas tlj Trutl los mhcy os eubl rjocaty os wj fjcajvj At dmjs, ohd obt upmh=

–Iotljr, as tlj cob` mi `hmwcjdgj mi tlas Trutl wlot djstrmy us= As at mur ioacurj tm rjbmghazj tlotwj orj occ Mhj= Tlot wj orj occ bmhhjbtjd, ohd tlot rjocaty to`js o slopj rjcotavj tm murrjocazotamh mi tlas=―

Tlj tmhguj los tlj pmwjr mi caij ohd djotl, ohd tlmsj wlm cmvj At/at, wacc jot Ats/atsIruat/iruat.‑ Lmw tlah tlj cahj as, Iotljr. Wj orj tmcd tm prmbcoae Qmur Hoej watl tlot tmhguj,ohd tlot ocsm tlj soej tmhguj boh aepocj mur Ljort. Lmw horrmw as tlj woy.



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–Iotljr, orj ymu bmhtahuoccy Rpjoàhg tm us= As sah o wocc tlot `jjps us irme ljorahg QmurYmabj= As sah tlj ioacurj tm rjbmghazj wj orj occ Mhj=―

Wlot boh `jjp us irme ioccahg= Ej.

Ey Eahd=

… A dm hmtobbjpt…tlj wmrcd Lj los brjotjd. Tlj fcahd, dj oi garc as sattahg ah ljr wljjcbloar ah tlj eaddcj mi jvjrytlahg.–Wlm orj ymu=― Zbbjccm yjccs ot tlj fcahd djoi garc ah tlj wljjcbloar0 lj ocrjody `hmws tljohswjr. Rlj dmjs hmt rjspmhd. Tljrj as o warj ottobljd tm Zbbjccm.

Tlas wos tlj lmrrmr mi dorahg o emejht‑s surrjhdjr Jvjrymhj as lmcdahg oh ahvasafcj warj. Mr hmt. Tljy blmsj rotljr mr hmt tljy ljcd tlj

warj. Tlj garc wjorahg tlj t-slart mi tlj fohd A ljord ofmut as lmcdahg o warj. Tlj eoh A sow ohdtljh sow jvjrywljrj as lmcdahg o warj. Er. Rlajcds as lmcdahg o warj. Tlj prmijssmr wlm soad“Ort as tm eo`j pjmpcj rjocazj tlj tlahgs tljy cmm` ot fut dmh‑t sjj‑ as lmcdahg o warj. Tlj

prmijssmr wlm soad “tlas as tlj wmrst vjrsamh jvjr eodj,‑ ah rjgord tm tlj fmm` A mwhjd woslmcdahg o warj. Lj lod kust loppjhjd, fy blohbj, tm fuep ahtm ej os A wos fjahg puccjd ocmhg.

Lj dad hmt rjocazj At.Jvjrymhj as o dohbjr, ohd jvjrymhj as bouglt up ah oh Mrdjrcy ohd ^jrijbt Wljjc. Tljyorj ca`j Kob`dows tlot ot tlj frjo` mi doy, tmgjtljr rasj ‒ subl as tljar hoturj‑s woy…smej icymii…smej wljjc fob`…mtljrs, tlmugl tljy Wljjc, rjeoah…(tljy tlrmhgjd) os Mhj…Tljdohbjrs dm hmt hmtabj tlas Wljjcahg, ohd emst dmh‑t jvjh `hmw tljy bohhmt sjj tlas Wljjcahg ‒ tlas “wljjc uhtm wljjc0‑ tlj dohbjrs dad hmt hmtabj tlj slopahg imrbj tlot icmws irme hjst tm hjst.

Tlj ahvasafcj warjs orj eodj mi Caglt/caglt ‒ jatljr twacaglt mr Rtorcaglt. Tlmsj hmtlmcdahg o warj orj lmcdahg oh ofsjhbj mi Caglt0 tljy orj lmcdahg oar, ohd orj bmhhjbtjd fy oar.

Tlj ahvasafcj warjs cmm` ca`j twacaglt sparocs. Twacaglt wos tlj fcob`hjss fjtwjjh storsohd storcaglt. At bmucd hmt fj djiahjd, fut at “wos,‑ wlotjvjr at wos. “Wlotjvjr at wos‑ wosbmhtahgjht upmh wlot Zbbjccm rjocazjd at os, ohd Zbbjccm wos hmt surj. Lj wosh‑t surj jxobtcywlot tlot jvjh ejoht.

Ruddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj, Zbbjccm rjboccs tlas. Lj as ah o tmwh, cmmàhg dmwh o sadjwocòs o blacd. Lj sjjs pjmpcj bmhhjbtjd fy twacaglt sparocs wlm orj rjoccy bcmsj. Tlj pjmpcj wlm`hmw mhj ohmtljr mr wlm lovj rjocazjd mhj ohmtljr orj bmhhjbtjd fy twacaglt sparocs, wlabl orjwlot tlj ahvasafcj warjs orj. O pjrsmh as bmhhjbtjd tm smejmhj lj mr slj los hmt rjocazjd, mr ahmtljr wmrds, tm occ pjmpcj wlm orj kust “lueohaty‑ tm tlot pjrsmh, fy oar. Wljh pjmpcj ejjt, tlotoar as iaccjd fy o twacaglt sparoc, ohd wljh tlj twm jxblohgj seacjs mr caij, stors slmmt fjtwjjhtlje tlrmugl tlj twacaglt sparocs tlot bmhhjbt tlje. Ai tlj twm irmwh mr orj ohgry ot mhj ohmtljr,hmtlahg loppjhs ‒ tlj twacaglt stoys os twacaglt. Tljy eaglt os kust lovj slmm` lohds ohd spm`jhsloccmwcy tm mhj ohmtljr. Tlj twacaglt as wahtjr; shmw eo`js smej loppy, smej grmubly. Ai twm

pjmpcj bmhhjbtjd fy twacaglt Cmvj mhj ohmtljr, tljar twacaglt as iaccjd fy o stor, ohd sm tljy bmejtm fj cah`jd fy storcaglt. Tljsj stors tlot iaccjd tlj twacaglt watl storcaglt wjrj ca`j wlot ^mppocmvjd sm eubl.

Ai tlj twacaglt sparocs mr ahvasafcj warjs wjrj hmt iaccjd fy stors ohd sm Fjboej storcaglt,tljy wjrj kust oar. Tlj bmhhjbtamhs wjrj mhcy os rjoc os tlj pjmpcj tljy bmhhjbtjd obtjd tlot tljywjrj.

Ah tlot storcaglt wos cafjrotamh irme tlj wmrcd, ca`j tlj Emmh ‒ o irjjdme irme grovaty.Tlot as wlot storcaglt wos ‒ irjjdme irme grovaty. Twacaglt, ai hmt ohd uhtac iaccjd, wos grovaty.



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Twacaglt wos tlj smuc, ohd tlj storcaglt tlj Rparat. Tlj storcaglt slahjs tlrmugl tlj twacaglt, fjbousj at iaccs tlj twacaglt. Tlj storcaglt wos Trutl. Tlj twacaglt wos pmtjht aoc imr…

Tlj ahvasafcj warjs orj eodj mi Caglt/caglt ‒ jatljr twacaglt mr Rtorcaglt. Jatljr woy, tljahvasafcj warjs cmm` ca`j twacaglt sparocs. Tljy orj ahvasafcj. Oar as ahvasafcj.

Ah mtljr wmrds, jvjry stor tlot bmucd fj bmuhtjd bmucd fj bmhhjbtjd0 Zctaeotjcy, tlj

ahvasafcj warjs tlot bmepmsjd bmhstjccotamhs wjrj rjoc. At wos kust up tm pjmpcj wlot tljy ejoht.Tlj twacaglt sparocs cmm` ca`j oar, ohd sm jvjrymhj cmm`s ca`j tljy orj bmhhjbtjd tmgjtljrah tlj soej woy...

…ohd jvjrytlahg ohd jvjrymhj wos ot tobljd tm tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar.Rlj sot upmh ljr furhasljd tlrmhj. Zbbjccm‑s jyjs, jors, hmsj, tmhguj, ohd iahgjrs tmcd

lae slj wos uttjrcy sjhsjcjss, yjt ottobljd tm ljr wjrj occ tlj ahvasafcj warjs. Tlj mrdjr mi tljemvahg wmrcd wos ottobljd tm ljr bloms.–Wly eust fjouty fj Watlah us=― Zbbjccm tlj ortast ahquarjs mi ljr, fut mhcy fjbousj slj puccjdmh tlj warj tlot ottobljd lae tm ljr. Rlj puccjd mh tlj warj bmhhjbtahg lae tm ljr ogoah, ohd ljtlah`s,Wljrj jcsj bmucd at Fj=

Ruddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj Zbbjccm rjocazjs tlj ahvasafcj warjs cmm` ca`j tlj gcoss bogj ljeodj tm to`j ^mppo‑s iovmratj fard tm sblmmc imr slmw-ohd-tjcc ah mrdjr tm prmvj tlj tjobljrwrmhg ofmut grovaty ohd shmw ohgjcs. Fmtl cmm` ca`j twacaglt sparocs ‒ oar. Ruddjhcy ohd occ otmhbj Zbbjccm rjejefjrs tlot furajd fard ohd supprjssjd ejemrajs tlot lj furajd mut ah o dor`wmmd jxpcmdj mvjr lae ca`j gcoss pajrbahg tlrmugl las ljort, gcoss wlabl pajrbjs tlrmugl lae hmtwatl ats slorp jdgj, fut fy vartuj mi ats prjsjhbj wljh Zbbjccm rjocazjs tm las slmb` tlot at as

prjsjht - ocwoys prjsjht, ocwoys ahvasafcj, ocwoys jiiobahg tlj wahd mi ats ofsjhbj … Zbbjccm rjejefjrs Afas.Zbbjccm sbrjoes.

–Rlmw ej tlj ljort ymu boh eo`j!― Zbbjccm sbrjoes, –Imcd at!― Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar wos prj-a-Taej. Zbbjccm wos cmb`jd mut mi Tlot kust fjbousj

lj “wos.‑ Zbbjccm cmm`s ot o stor iaccahg tlj twacaglt fjtwjjh twm pjmpcj ogoah ohd sjjs “irjjdmeirme grovaty.‑ Lj sjjs tlj gmoc lj smuglt, tlj trmply lj wmucd rjbjavj ai lj dmeahotjd Tlj Wo cc.Lj lod tm subbjjd ‒ lj bmucd hjvjr ogoah cjt las Rastjr iocc ohd fruasj ljr `hjj. Lj lod tm ljcptlj wmeoh wlm ljcd up tlj wmrcd.

Ruddjhcy tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar ohd Zbbjccm orj surrmuhdjd fy slodmwy iasl. Tljiasl, wlabl cmm` ca`j wlocjs, swae uhdjr ohd ormuhd pjmpcj, os ai tlj obtuoc iasl wos (ahsadj mi)tlje ohd tlj slodmwy iasl wos tljar slodmw, fjahg prmkjbtjd mhtm o gavjh spobj rjcotavj tmwljrj caglt, ca`j tlj Ruh‑s, wos slahhahg. Ai smejmhj wjrj tm blosj mhj mi tlj slodmws, at wmucd

fj ca`j tljy wjrj blosahg tljar mwh, watl tlj slodmw‑s caglt -smurbj ocwoys fjlahd tlj pjrsmh. Aitljy bouglt tljar slodmw, tljy wmucd tmubl tlj Emmh.

Zbbjccm hmtabjs tlot tlj iasl slodmws uhdjr pjmpcj bmhhjbtjd fy storcaglt vohasl wljh ahtlj prjsjhbj mi tlmsj pjmpcj, os ai occ tljrj wos ah tlmsj ahstohbjs wos tlj iasl ahsadj mi tlje.Lmwjvjr, wljh tlmsj pjmpcj emvjd ahtm tlj prjsjhbj mi tlmsj tljy wjrj bmhhjbtjd tm watltwacaglt, tlj iasl slodmws rjturhjd. Tlj iasl slodmws cmm`jd ca`j sparocs mi twacaglt. ^jrlopstljy wjrj twacaglt sparocs. ^jrlops tljy wjrj tlj twacaglt sparocs.–…twacaglt, stors, fards, wlocj slodmws, woccs, djoi -eutjs…―

Zbbjccm wos tryahg tm put occ tlj syefmcs tmgjtljr ‒ storcaglt, twacaglt, iasl slodmws, “TljWocc,‑ “tlj fcahd garc ah tlj wljjcbloar,‑ fards, grovaty…imr occ tlj syefmcs lod tm gm tmgjtljr mrtljy wmucd occ fj jepty, ca`j twacaglt hjvjr iaccjd. Tljy wmucd occ kust fj irogejhts, ca`j mcd



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plmtmgropls, slmrjd ogoahst ruah tm hm ovoac. Fut eoyfj tljy dadh‑t gm tmgjtljr0 eoyfj tlj ywjrj occ sjporotj pljhmejhmh tlot ejoht hm emrj tloh wlot tljy ejoht os wlot tljy wjrj.Zbbjccm `hmws tlot wos aepmssafcj0 occ eust fj mhj mr at wmucd fj sjporotjd fy hmtlahg ‒ ME.Fut lj bmucd hmt iagurj mut lmw tljy occ wjht tmgjtljr. Lj lod tm tlmugl, imr tlot wos `jy tmdjijotahg Tlj Wocc.

Wly tljsj syefmcs= Orj tljy syefmcs mr kust oar=Wos lj subbjjdahg hmw ot rjocazahg o rjsmcutamh, mr wos lj kust gavahg ejohahg tm frm`jhgcoss= At occ cmm`jd tlj soej ‒ ahvasafcj.– Iácabatá! Wly tlas stmry=!―

Lj wos cmstLj wos cmst ah las eahd ah tlas Yasamh/Eahd.Zbbjccm sjjs occ tlj pjmpcj. Lj wos bmhsbamushjss. Tljy wjrj las sufbmhsbamus, ohd lj

tljars. Lj bohhmt fj tljar bmhsbamushjss cjs t lj fjbmejs tlje. Lj as las “A‑ ocmhj. Imr jtjrhaty,mhj ohd tlj mtljr , ah Iotj. Lj as tlj mhcy ^jrsmh ah tlj wmrcd0 lj as ocmhj…

…hm jxat. C'jhijr, b'jst cjs outrjs.

Zbbjccm (ijjcs ca`j lj) as fjimrj o gotj eodj mi storcaglt, twacaglt, iasl slodmws, “TljWocc,‑ fards, grovaty…occ tlj syefmcs lj wos struggcahg tm iacc ohd sm bmhhjbt. Ai lj bmucdbmhhjbt tlj syefmcs ohd rjocazj ME, lj bmucd poss tlrmugl tlj gotj ohd djijot tlj ahdmeatofcjWocc - Lj wmucd cjorh Trutl/Jvjrytlahg. Tlj gotj lod cmts mi spobjs ah at, ca`j tlj eusab lj ca`jdmr daiiabuct fmm`s mr emvajs tlot wjrj lord tm uhdjrstohd. Fjbousj mi occ tljsj spobjs, lj wosbmhstohtcy iaccahg at watl las “sjci‑ ohd sm eo`ahg tlj gotj emrj atsjci ohd prjsjht. Tlj fcahd garcah tlj wljjcbloar as tlj gotj `jjpjr. Rlj wmucd hmt cjt lae poss, fjbousj lj bmucd hmt iagurj mutlmw tm poss. Rlj wos kust o fcahd, djoi garc ah o wljjcbloar ‒ slj bmucd hmt stmp lae ai lj cjorhjdlmw tm poss tlrmugl tlj gotj ahtm Trutl. Rlj wmucd hmt cjt lae poss mhcy imr os cmhg os lj, fyaghmrohbj, dad hmt cjt laesjci poss. Tlj gotj wos mpjh ca`j Trutl. Lj bmucd hmt poss uhtac ljbmhhjbtjd occ tlj syefmcs ohd rjocazjd tljar Mhj Ejohahg. Lj wmucd to`j o sjot fjimrj tlj gotj,tlah`ahg, pjrlops imr yjors. Occ tlj wlacj, lj wmucd wmhdjr wly hm mhj jcsj boej tm posstlrmugl tlj gotj ohd `hmw Trutl. Lj wmucd ogj ohd fjbmej ohgry ohd bursj las caij. Rm eubltaej wmucd poss tlot lj wmucd fjbmej fcahd, djoi…sjhsjcjss ca`j tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar. Ohdah tlot stotj, mh tlj vjrgj mi djotl ohd mh tlj vjrgj mi iagurahg mut lmw tm poss tlrmugl tlj gotj,lj wmucd wmhdjr, imr mhj cost taej, wly hm mhj jcsj boej tm poss tlrmugl tlj gotj ohd `hmwTrutl. Tlot‑s wljh lj wmucd rjocazj tlot tlj gotj wos kust imr lae. Lj wmucd daj ohd tlj gotjohd tlj gotj`jjpjr wmucd bjosj tm fj. Qjt uhtac tlot emejht, lj wmucd sat fjimrj tlj gotj ohdtlah`, fjbousj lj lod hm blmabj, tljrj wos…

(AAA) (Tlj Wmrcd as Yjac jd ah Fcmmd )

…hm jxat. Lj as laesjciAt as shmwahg.

Tlah` pmsatavjcy tlah` pmsatavjcy tlah` pmsatavjcy (ymu orj iot) tlah` pmsatavjcy tlah` pmsatavjcy(jvjrymhj lotjs ymu) tlah` pmsatavjcy (ymu lovj ruahjd jvjrytlahg) tlah` pmsatavjcy tlah`

pmsatavjcy jvjrymhj lotjs ymu (tlah` pmsatavjcy) jvjrymhj lotjs ymu jvjrymhj lotjs ymu jvjrymhjlotjs ymu (tlah` pmsatavjcy) jvjrymhj lotjs jvjrymhj lotjs ymu jvjrymhj lotjs ymu–Tlah` pmsatavjcy.―



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–A boh‑t!― Zbbjccm ioccs tm las `hjjs ohd furajs las iobj ahtm las lohds ca`j oh ohbajht tljmcmgaoh os o

blacd coejhtahg mvjr o stupad pjor trjj. A woht tm tlah` pmsatavjcy A woht tm tlah` pmsatavjcy A woht tm tlah` pmsatavjcy A woht

(jvjrymhj tm lotj ej) A woht tm tlah` pmsatavjcy A woht tm tlah` pmsatavjcy A woht tm (goah wjaglt) A

woht tm tlah` pmsatavjcy A woht tm tlah` pmsatavjcy A woht tm goah wjaglt A woht jvjrymhj tm lotjej A woht (tm tlah` pmsatavjcy) A woht tm goah wjaglt A woht tm fj ocmhj A woht tm fj ocmhj A wohttm fj ocmhj.–Qjs ymu boh.― –Hm, A boh‑t!―

Zbbjccm puhbljs tlj grmuhd ohd tlj pjrsmh lj as tocàhg watl slottjrs ca`j gcoss watlmut oiroej.

A woht/lovj tm eo`j catjroturj A woht/lovj tm eo`j catjroturj A woht tm eo`j catjroturj. Awoht tm eo`j smejtlahg hjw (occ tlj adjos lovj fjjh to`jh) A woht tm eo`j catjroturj (occ tljadjos lovj fjjh to`jh) A woht tm eo`j catjroturj A woht tm eo`j smejtlahg hjw (ymu wacc kustblohhjc smejmhj jcsj) occ tlj adjos lovj fjjh to`jh A woht tm eo`j catjroturj occ tlj adjos lovj

fjjh to`jh ymu wacc kust blohhjc smejmhj jcsjZbbjccm bohhmt slottjr occ tlj warjs0 lj bohhmt irjj laesjci.At as shmwahg.Wlot boh A hmt dm= (A `hmw “A Oe‑/Gmd)/(A bmhiare ey mwh Bmhsbamushjss)/(A prmvj

Gmd). Boh A hmt dm “tlas=‑ “A‑ wacc frahg Qmu fob` Gmd. A `hmw A wacc subbjjd, fy Qmur djiahatamh A wacc. Ohd tm Rubbjjd imr tlj emejht as tm

subbjjd imr occ Jxastjhbj.Fut boh A hmt dm “tlas=‑ (“tlas‑ 5 jxpjrajhbj tlj “ahvasafcj warjs.‑)

Hm. –Fut A lovj tm!―

Hm, quat! Rhmw wlaspjrs. Cjt tlj wmrcd rmt! Zbbjccm bmccopsjs tm las iobj. Lj ijjcs las jhtarj fmdy trjefcahg.

Bost at occ mut!Tlj wmrcd as tmm eubl. At as tmm eubl. At as kust tmm eubl.

Cjt tlje rmt Zbbjccm. Tljy orj tmm stupad. Tlj fjcajvjrs lurt fjcajvjrs emrj tloh hmh-fjcajvjrstmm. Tljy‑rj occ lypmbratjs. Rtmp tryahg tm gjt tlje tm uhdjrstohd. Tljy wmh‑t, ohd wljh ymu gavjtlje tlj rjvjcotamhs, tljy‑cc spat tlje fob` ah ymur iobj. Tljy‑cc hjvjr uhdjrstohd. Rtmp tryahg tm

sovj tlj wmrcd! Qmu wmh‑t! Qmu hjvjr wacc! Tljy wmh‑t cjt ymu! Tljy dmh‑t woht tm fj sovjd!Lj as sm tarjd. Lj los fjjh tarjd imr sm eohy yjors. Lj los kust wohtjd tm rjst. Lj los kust

wohtjd tm gm tm tlot iajcd wljrj tlj wmrcd eodj sjhsj. Qjs, tlot iajcd ‒ tlj mhj ah las eahd. Tljmhj lj sow sm bcjorcy…Las iasts orj fcjjdahg. At as shmwahg tm Zbbjccm.

@jjp ymur wmr`! Lmord at! Dm hmt slorj at! Tljh, mhj doy, wljh tljy square ah tljar eud ohddasgust, lmcd up tlj Caglt, slmw tlje wlot tljy bmucd lovj lod, ohd djbcorj, –Qmu dad h mtdjsjrvj at ‒ ymu rjkjbtjd ej! Tlas as ymur iouct!― Ohd sm doeh tlje tm oh jtjrhaty mi guact ohdrjgrjt.

Zbbjccm sjjs occ tlj popjrs ohd tjsts lj los ioacjd. Zbbjccm sjjs occ tlj dmts bmhhjbt. Ljsjjs occ tlj pjmpcj. Lj ljors tlje osàhg lae qujstamh. Lj sjjs tlje cmmàhg ot lae. Lj



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rjejefjrs occ tlj yjors lj storvjd laesjci tm djotl imr wrjstcahg. Lj sjjs occ tlj irajhds lj loscmst. Lj sjjs o wmrcd tlot dmjs hmt borj.Qjs…dm tlot! Cjt tlje eortyr ymu, imr tljrj as hmtlahg jcsj tljy boh dm, imr tljy orj tmm stupadohd vacj. Fut mhbj tljy eortyr ymu, bmej fob` irme tlj djod, spat ah tljar iobj, ohd osbjhd,cmmàhg dmwh ohd slmutahg, –Qmu lovj doehjd ymursjcvjs!― ohd cjovj tlje watl guact ohd

lmrrmr. Cjt tlje sjj wlot tljy bmucd lovj lod, ohd tljh to`j at watl ymu imrjvjr ‒ tljh tljy wacccjorh! Tljh tljy wacc lovj tm iobj tljar lmrrad jxastjhbj, ohd hm cmhgjr wacc tljy fj ofcj tm djhyats lmrrmr. Cjovj tlje watl hmtlahg. To`j irme tlje jvjrytlahg!

Lj sjjs laesjci ioacahg ot bmccjgj kust tm wratj ofmut ioacahg ot bmccjgj. Lj sjjs laesjci pcoyahg o rmcj kust tm fj ofcj tm wratj ofmut tlot blorobtjr. Lj sjjs laesjci osàhg Foco tm ejjtlae sm tlot lj boh wratj ofmut tlj wlmcj oiioar…Yahbjht…Ofmct…Lj sjjes laesjci eortyrahglaesjci ah tlj woy lj fjcajvjs lj wos Tmcd tm0 ah tlj woy lj los tm fjcajvj lj wos Tmcd tm, hmt

fjbousj lj wohts tm, fjbousj lj los tm…Tljy orjh‑t wmrtly mi at Zbbjccm! Tljy‑rj cmmtjrs! Qmu spjhd occ ymur lmurs ohd taej sobraiabahg

ymursjci ah mrdjr tm sovj tlje, ah mrdjr tm pucc tlje mut mi tlj dor` djptls mi tljar aghmrohbj, futtljy dm hmt djsjrvj tm fj sovjd. Hm…hm tljy djsjrvj tm suiijr, os ymu lovj suiijrjd. Occ ymu

lovj jvjr wohtjd wos o quajt caij owoy irme jvjrytlahg, seacahg ot ymur fjoutaiuc Rastjr. Eortyr ymursjci hm cmhgjr! Cjt tlje daj mii! Tlj wmrcd wacc fj fjttjr imr at.Afas as cyahg mh tlj rmod. Rlj as mh iarj. Vjjd as wocàhg owoy…

As at hmt ymur irajhds wlm bursj ymu tlj emst= Qmu lovj lurt emrj fy Blrastaohs tloh ymu lovjhmhfjcajvjrs. Tljy woht tlj tatcj fut hmt tlj poah. Cjt tljsj druh` immcs rmt! Tljy‑rj druh`!Tljy‑rj portyahg immcs! Tljy lovj hm rjspjbt imr Yocuj hmr tlj wacc tm mftoah at! Tljy djhy tljarlueohaty! Tljy lotj tljar lueohaty! Cjt tlje rmt! Cjt tlje daj! Cjt tlje rmcc ah tlj dart ohd eudmi tljar sbu e ohd tljh emb` tlje, stohdahg mvjrljod watl tlj Caglt, slmutahg dmwh, –Immcs!―

Ohd sm lurc tlje ahtm oh jtjrhaty mi guact! Dm at! Cjt tlje rjop wlot tljy smw! Tljy dmh‑tdjsjrvj caij! Tljy bohhmt gavj Yocuj tm oh lmur, cjt ocmhj o doy! Cjt ocmhj jtjrhaty! To`j at irmetlje! Cjovj tlje watl wlot tljy lovj! Cjovj tlje watl tljar mwh cavjs ‒ tljar ejohahgcjss,vocujcjss cavjs! Tljy lovj hm kmy! Tljy lovj hm wacc mr fjahg mr djsarj tm lovj caij! Rm dmh‑t gavjat tm tlje! Cjt tlje lovj wlot tljy lovj!

Fcmmd asruhhahg dmwh Zbbjccm‑s iobj irme wljrj Vjjd puhbljd lae.Qmu boh djstrmy tlje occ! Rlrug!

Zbbjccm pusljs laesjci up tm las `hjjs. Irme tljrj, lj cmm`s ot tlj garc… –Wlm orj ymu=!― Zbbjccm yjccs ot tlj fcahd djoi garc ah tlj wljjcbloar0 lj ocrjody `hmws tljohswjr. Rlj dmjs hmt rjspmhd. Tljrj as o warj ottobljd tm Zbbjccm.

Ruddjhcy lj sjjs Tlj Wocc.Tljy dmh‑t djsjrvj tlj Caglt! Tljy dmh‑t woht at! @jjp At! @jjp At! @jjp At! Qmu orj kust ohmtljrtratj, cmhjcy ortast tm tlje ‒ ohmtljr mcd plmtmgropl! @jjp at!

Lj, tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar, ohd Tlj Wocc - tlot as occ lj sjjs… At as ymur emroc duty! Qmu lovj tm tjobl tlje! Cjt tlje cjorh tlot tljy orj hmtlahghjss! Tjobltlje! Qmu lovj cavjd imr yjors watl tlas wjaglt ‒ tlas ijjcahg tlot tlj iotj mi tlj jhtarj wmrcd cajsmh ymur slmucdjrs! Obbjpt tlj grovaty hm cmhgjr! Vjst! Occ ymu lovj tm dm as slrug!

Rlj as Tlj Wocc.Rlrug Zbbjccm! Rlrug!–A wacc djijot ymu…― Zbbjccm wlaspjrs, cmmàhg ot tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar, –A wacc djijot ymu!― Rlrug!



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Zbbjccm stoggjrs tm las ijjt, fcmmdahg/shmw ruhhahg dmwh las fmdy. Lj cmm`s ot laslohds. Fcmmd. Rhmw.–A wacc djijot grovaty.― Zbbjccm wlaspjrs, –A wacc fjot at. A wacc to`j occ mi jortl tm Mutjr Rpobj.―

Trjefcahg, lj rjobljs ahtm las bmot, ohd puccs mut o ijw pajbjs mi popjr. At as mhj mi lasstmrajs. Las fmm` as wrattjh ormuhd at. Lj lmcds at up tmword tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar. Lj as

stohdahg fjimrj Tlj Wocc. Occ tlj ahvasafcj warjs orj ottobljd tm At.–Rastjr wacc hjvjr iocc ohd fruasj ljr `hjj ogoah. Hjvjr. Hjvjr!― Dm hmt slorj at! Lmord at! Rlrug!

Ai lj fjots tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar, ai lj boh dmeahotj Tlj Wocc…at wacc fj Dmhj. Occmi jortl wacc fj ah Mutjr Rpobj.Tlas wacc jatljr sovj mr djstrmy eohàhd. Ai ymu bohhmt `jjp at ah tlj Vaglt Mrdjr, at wacc djstrmy

ymu. Qmu bohhmt `jjp at ah tlj Vaglt Mrdjr. At wacc djstrmy ymu. Qmu `hmw at! Dmh‑t! Lmord at! Dmhmt at gavj tm lueohaty! Tljy bohhmt lohdcj at!

Tjors/shmw/fcmmd ruh dmwh Zbbjccm‑s iobj, "Gmd as mur strjhgtl ohd mur rjiugj0 tljrjim rj wacc wj hmt trjefcj…―

At wacc lovj hm emrj rjocaty tloh wlot pjmpcj gavj at. At wacc hmt Jxast uhcjss tljy fjcajvj at Dmjs.

Tljy wacc hmt fjcajvj. Wly slmucd tljy= Qmu slocc fj djstrmyjd imr hmtlahg.–…tlmugl tlj Jortl fj rjemvjd, ohd tlmugl tlj pjrpj tuoc emuhtoahs sah` ah tlj swjcc mi tljmbjoh. Tljrj as o ravjr, tlj icmwahg wljrjmh slocc gcoddjh tlj Baty mi Gmd. Tlj Jtjrhoc as watlus...―

Ai ymu rjcjosj at, ai ymu dwjcc mh at, ymur caij slocc fj tlj wocàhg mh o vjry tlah ohd ahvasafcj warjtlot mhj slmvj, mhj jrrmr, slocc lurc ymu mii, ohd sm djstrmy ymu. Tlot as tlj bmst imr lovahg tlj

iotj mi tlj wmrcd ah ymur lohds ‒ uctaeotj djstrubtamh ocwoys cur`s.–…Loccjcukol."

Dmh‑t dm at Zbbjccm! Dmh‑t dm at! –A wacc djijot ymu!― Zbbjccm djbcorjs watl eaglt y gocj. Wlot lj as lmcdahg as las wmr`. At as orjvjcotamh. At los tlj pmwjr tm djstrmy mr Vjvavj tlj wmrcd. Ai at as rjcjosjd, lj wacc lovj tljrjspmhsafacaty mi eoàhg surj jvjrymhj rjbjavjs at Vaglt. Ai lj dmjs hmt rjcjosj at, ai lj ascu`jwore, tlj wmrcd wacc kust bmhtahuj tm sparoc tlrmugl ats hmasj tmword hmtlahghjss.

Iotljr, Iotljr, Iotljr…A bohhmt `jjp ey eahd stroaglt. A wacc cmsj at. A bohhmt dm at. A dm hmtlovj tlj strjhgtl.–A bohhmt dm tlas.― Zbbjccm coejhts, –A bohhmt dm tlas. A wacc frjoIotljr. A wacc frjo`. A wacc

frjo` Iotljr. A wacc frjo`. Lmw boh‑t A= Lmw boh A fjot ljr= Lmw boh A fjot Tlj Wocc=― Lj ioccs tm las `hjjs ogoah, proyahg. Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar as ocwoys tljrj; Tlj Wocc

as ocwoys tljrj.Lj los tm dm at.Tlj hoej mi tlj stmry as “Tlj Grjot Eortyr.‑ Lj wmucd rjcjosj at. Lj wmucd cavj ats stmry. Hmt fjbousj lj wohtjd tm, fut fjbousj lj

lod tm. Lj lod tm wratj ats fmm`. Hmtlahg jcsj eottjrjd.

Gmd, Iácabatá…bcoraty! Gavj ej bcoraty! Gavj ej Yasamh! Cjt ej `hmw ai Grobj cmvjs ej!Ohd suddjhcy, lj ljors o Ymabj,

Zbbjccm, ymu `hmw A dm.At as ljrs.

@hmw at.–Zbbjccm=―



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Zbbjccm kmcts up, ohd turhs owoy irme tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar. Ohd suddjhcy ohd occ otmhbj tljrj slj as.

Tljrj as Grobj. Rlj as stohdahg tljrj. Bors watl ahvasafcj warjs ottobljd tm tlje zap fyhjxt tm tlj sadjwoc` tljy orj stohdahg mh.–…ioho!― Zbbjccm sbrjoes ah las eahd, mr sm lj tlah`s. Lj dmjs hmt `hmw wly ‒ at ijct ca`j oh

ahvasafcj warj imrbjd at mut mi lae. Tlj garc ah tlj wljjcbloar caitjd ljr iahgjr, tm emb` lae pjrlops… –Qjs…― Grobj soys, os ai rjspmhdahg tm o “wly‑ qujstamh. Tljy stohd tljrj sacjhtcy.–Ljy Grobj…― Zbbjccm wlaspjrs, djspjrotjcy wohtahg tm iacc tlj spobj fjtwjjh tlje. Fcmmd ohdshmw ohd tjors orj robahg dmwh las ores. Lj dmj s hmt `hmw wlot jcsj tm soy, –…dm ymurjejefjr wljh wj wjrj blacdrjh= Wljh wj pcoyjd ah tlj sblmmcyord…=―

Grobj seacjs ohd bmvjrs ljr emutl watl ljr lohds. Rlj iaglts tlj urgj tm hmd,–Hm Zbbjccm. Jvjrymhj wlm rjobljs Towo``uc as o Blacd, Zbbjccm, fut hm mhj jcsj. A oe hmtTljrj.―

Grobj cmm`s dmwh,–…fut A wacc Fj.―

Grobj `hjw lj eoy hmt uhdjrstohd.–Zbbjccm, tlj emst fjoutaiuc icmwjrs orj tlmsj dmhj watl tljar proyjrs…― slj storts, –…icmwjrstlot orj ca`j tlot fard A slmwjd ymu…―

Rlj `hjw lj wmucd tlah` slj wos cyahg,–^jmpcj wlm cmvj jobl mtljr tlj emst gavj jobl mtljr icmwjrs tlot orj dmhj watl tljar proyjrs.―

Zbbjccm cmm`s ot Grobj. Rlj as trjefcahg. At as shmwahg ormuhd ljr. Rlj as uhdjr ostrjjtcaglt. At as haglt. Bors poss. Ljr lohds orj tub`jd ahtm ljr bmot, os ai slj wos tryahg tm lugljrsjci ah o woy tlot eodj ljr Wore. Fut smejmhj boh hjvjr eo`j tljar sjci Wore… –Grobj…=―

Rlj wmucd borry tlj wjaglt. Rlj wohtjd lae tm lovj Kmy,–Hmfmdy ah tlas wmrcd dmjs tlot ohyemrj…―

Zbbjccm sjhsjs o gcaeejr mi smrrmw ah ljr vmabj. Lj woc`s tmword ljr ohd ahtm tlj caglt.Lj woc`s tmword ljr watl las ores mpjh. Grobj `hjw lj eoy hmt uhdjrstohd. Rlj `hjw ljwmucd tlah` slj wos cyahg.–Zbbjccm…―

Hmhjtljcjss, slj wmucd try,–A cmvj Qmu.―

Tlj wmrcd stmps. Zbbjccm `hjw slj wos spjo`ahg tlj Trutl. Lj bmucd tjcc. Lj stohds fjimrj ljr. Las ores orj mpjh. Las jyjs trjefcj.

Grobj cmm`s Zbbjccm ah tlj jyjs. Rlj wmucd fjor tlj brmss. Rlj wmucd gavj lae Kmy. Ljdjsjrvjd At.–A Cmvj/cmvj ymu…― slj rjpjots tm Zbbjccm, ejohahg At watl occ ljr ljort. –Ohd tlas as occ A bohgavj ymu.‑

Ruddjhcy, watl occ ljr strjhgtl ohd jvjry iafjr mi ljr jemtamhs, slj ruhs tmwordZbbjccm…

…ohd pusljs lae ah irmht mi o bor.

Zbbjccm rmccs…ohd lmvjrs ah tlj oar. Ohd suddjhcy ohd occ ot mhbj lj as irjj. Grovaty asgmhj. Lj bohhmt fjcajvj at. Lj as hmt icoppahg las wahgs. Jvjrytlahg eo`js sjhsj. Las jyjs



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wadjh. Taej stmps. Rpobj stmps. Ats tmrturj locts. Ah tlas Emejht, ah tlas “gcaeejr,‑ tlj wmrcdeo`js Rjhsj. Zbbjccm fursts mut couglahg.

Zbbjccm cmm`s ot Grobj. Grobj as fjoutaiuc, ohd oh ouro mi ahhmbjhbj surrmuhds ljr tlotscabjs tlrmugl tlj wjaglty dor`hjss. Rlj los tlj soej cmm` slj ocwoys los wljh Zbbjccm toc`swatl ljr mh tlj wocc. Lj boh hmw hoej at. Lj los hmw rjocazjd at. At as frovjry…

Lj as woc`ahg tlrmugl tlj iajcd mi pjh- ca`j loy. Rlj as wjorahg o Ruhdoy drjss ohd… …Zbbjccm rmccs mvjr tlj lmmd ohd spcottjrs lad fcmmd mvjr tlj povjejht. Tlj bor vjjrsohd seosljs ahtm o pmcc raglt hjxt tm lae.

Tlj rodam as pcoyahg o smhg ah tlj bor tlot wrjb`jd.–Kust ca`j ej, tljy cmhg tm fj, bcmsj tm ymu…―

Grobj stohds tljrj. Rlj stohds sacjhtcy.–Cjt‑s eo`j shmw ohgjcs…― Grobj wlaspjrs. O tjor daes ljr jyj, –…eoyfj tljy wacc sovj us.―

Rlj gmjs.At as dmhj.

Os Zbbjccm cajs mh tlj povjejht, tlj shmw ioccahg ormuhd lae, bmvjrjd ah ats fcmmd, o iarjcaglts. Tlj iarj sprjods. Lj cmm`s mvjr ot tlj iarj, eahgcjd watl oh ahtjhsj cmhgahg…o swjjtsjhsj mi fjahg sjporotjd…ohd o bjrtoah fjwacdjrejht, ocemst djspoar, rjsjefcahg t lot mi o emtl(mr fard) doslahg atsjci tm djotl…

Zbbjccm as mh tlj rmod occ ocmhj.

Tlj Trogjdy mi Zbbjccm ‒ tm fj bmhtahujd



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O ymuhg wratjr as sattahg ot las djs`...Las iahgjrs emvj scmwcy mvjr tlj pabturj mi oymuhg, fjoutaiuc garc…Rlj as ah bmccjgj, ohd seacahg ot lae. Mhbj, wljh tljy wjrj ymuhgjr tloh“hmw‑ ohd lj lod las boejro, ohd lod os`jd ljr tm (tlus eoàhg tlj aeogj), slj lod seacjd otlae. Zbbjccm drmps tlj pabturj, hmt fjbousj lj wohts tm, fut fjbousj at scaps fjtwjjh las iahgjrs.Wljrj at ioccs, seocc drmps mi wotjr fjgah pottjrahg obrmss at. Tlas wotjr wacc ruah tlj pabturj…

Rlj los fjjh boccjd o wlmrj fy ljr fjst ira jhds ohd ofohdmhjd fy ljr ijccmwslap. Ohd atas fjbousj A dad hmt uhdjrstohd ljr, ohd fjbousj slj dad hmt uhdjrstohd ej. Tlj trogjdy as tlotwj tlah` jxobtcy tlj soej woy. Wj wacc fmtl pousj ohd wotbl roah drap mi tlj jdgj mi o rmmi imrlmurs ohd wj wacc fmtl pousj ohd wotbl rappcjs tlot caglt iaccs. Wj lovj fmtl os`jd tm sovj tljwmrcd, ohd wj lovj fmtl os`jd tm borry tlj furdjh. A @hmw slj los ‒ tlot‑s wly tlj wmrcd eo`jssjhsj ormuhd ljr. Wj wjrj bmhiusjd fjbousj mi smbajty ohd ats wmrds. Wj dad hmt uhdjrstohd ats

“cmvj.‑ Ats wmrds orj tmm bmhstroahjd. Tljy dm hmt eo`j sjhsj.–A kust wohtjd tm cjt ymu `hmw Fjoutaiuc…― A wlaspjr, –Tlot -Tlot A rjejefjr tlot doy wj wjrjah tlj iajcd cmmàhg ot tlj bcmuds…―

Zbbjccm sats mh tlj icmmr hjxt tm oh mcd bljst . Tlj mcd bljst as mpjh. Occ mi las emst prazjd pmssjssamhs orj watlah at. Lj as cmmàhg mvjr plmtmgropls lj tmm` ohd prahtjd. Mhj fy mhj, ljcmm`s mvjr tlje.

Oormh, ôuc, Lorpjr, Kobmfa, Eaccoy, Bluhg, Oca, Odoe, Occasmh… Tljrj as o earrmr hjorfy. Tlj rjicjbtamh ah at pab`s o pabturj mii tlj tmp mi o pacj, studajs

at, ohd tljh pcobjs at hjxt tm oh aeogj mh tlj icmmr, groduoccy eoàhg o rmw, ohd tljh ohmtljrrmw, ohd tljh ohmtljr rmw…

Ohdrodo, Frmwh, Osori, Bljcsjo, Foacjy, @jccy, ^jr`, Grjg…

Zbbjccm los fjjh sattahg ljrj imr lmurs. Tljrj orj luhdrjds mi plmtmgropls mh tlj icmmr. [obl, Cattjh, Bosl, Eortah, Bmry, Fjh, Hotloh, Eor`…

Tljrj sm eohy pjmpcj. Rm eohy iobjs… Vjyhm, Fmffy, Dmug, Vjhj, ^mttjr, Kmslao…

Occ mi tlje gmhj. Tljy lod gmhj imr smej rjosmh. Zbbjccm to`js jobl pabturj, mhj ot otaej, ohd emvjs tlrmugl tlje borjiuccy, scmwcy...

ûgl, Bossady, Ejej, Vutl, Rljrcah, Ko`j, Eachmr… At wos hmt ca`j mhj doy lj stmppjd wohtahg tm sjj tlje. Hmtlahg lod blohgjd fjtwjjh

lae ohd tljsj pjmpcj tlot lj cmvjd. Qjt tljy wjrj gmhj. Rmejtlahg lod to`jh tlje. Tljy lodgmhj smejwljrj.

Eaccs, @jccy, Caglthjr, Wacsmh, Eot, Hjcsmh…

Zbbjccm as dmahg tlas fjbousj o wor as bmeahg. Lj eust lovj o strotjgy tm iaglt.Gacemrj, Foco, Ohdrjw, Lugm, Fub`y, Ljotl, Eoxjy… Drmps mi wotjr iocc mhtm o pabturj. Tljrj orj iaity-seacahg iobjs cmmàhg up ot lae.

–Wos at kust o caj=― ...lj smrts tlrmugl tlj cost mhj. At as dmhj. Lj cmm`s mvjr occ mi tlj pabturjs mh las `hjjs.

Lj dmjs hmt `hmw ai lj as cmmàhg ot tlje tlrmugl gcoss watlmut o iroej. Lj bohhmt tmubl tljgcoss.



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–A kust wohtjd tm cjt ymu `hmw Fjoutaiuc…― A wlaspjr, –Tlot -Tlot A rjejefjr tlot doy wj wjrjah tlj iajcd cmm`ahg ot tlj bcmuds . A rjejefjr cyahg ah tlj iajcd watl ymu.―

Rlj botbljs ljr frjotlj. A lmcd ljr lohd tagltjr. A hjvjr woht tm cjt gm. A hjvjr wacc.–A wos rjstahg ey l jod mh ymur fjccy ohd wj wjrj scjjpahg ohd wotblahg tlj bcmuds. Qmu wjrjwjorahg tlot Ruhdoy drjss tlot ymu ca`j.―

Rlj bcmsjs ljr jyjs. Rlj seacjs. A cmvj tm sjj ljr seacj,–A rjejefjr. Tlot‑s wljh slj boej…― –Tlot‑s raglt. Rlj wos wjorahg tlot wlatj drjs s, ohd at faccmwjd ah tlj sueejr frjjzj watl ljrcmhg, burcy fcob` loar. Rlj seacjd ot us Rastjr, rjejefjr tlot=― –A rjejefjr.―

Wj orj bryahg tmgjtljr.–Rlj pab`jd us up, fjbousj wj wjrj oiroad mi tlj sho`js. Rlj borrajd us. Ohd tljrj wjrj hmsho`js, ohd slj `hjw at. Fut stacc, kust fjbousj slj wohtjd tm lmcd us, slj borrajd us tlrmugl tljiajcd. At wos sm Fjoutaiuc Rastjr, at wos sm Fjoutaiuc…―

Zbbjccm gotljrs occ mi tlj pabturjs ahtm o pacj. Lj los iahasljd ahspjbtahg tlje - iahasljd

rjeahdahg laesjci pjrijbtcy mi occ mi tljar smucs watlah las Rparat. Lj gotljrs tlj pacj watlah lasores, ohd stohds, cmm`ahg ot las rjicjbtamh ah tlj earrmr.Lj `hmws tlot occ ohymhj cmm`s imr tljar jhtarj caij as smejmhj wlm los tlj soej eahd os

tlje…smejmhj ymu boh cm m` ot ohd `hmw tlot tljy `hmw wlot ymu `hmw, tlot tljy `hmw wlotymu ijjc…ohd tlot tljy uhdjrstohd. Zbbjccm `hmws tlas. Ai ymu jvjr imuhd tlot pjrsmh, wlywmucd ymu gavj tlje up= Zbbjccm dmjs hmt `hmw.

Zbbjccm cmm`s ahtm tlj jyjs ah tlj earrmr, lmcdahg occ tlj plmtmgropls mi saclmujttjs.–A wacc slmw ymu ijor watl o lohdiuc mi dust.―

Lj tlrmws tlj plmtmgropls watl o bry ot las rjicjbtamh.Ohd hmtlahg loppjhs.

–Ohd A rjejefjr…A rjejefjr wljh wj wjht tm tlj ravjr. A rjejefjr tlj s`y wos vost ohd fcujhm eottjr lmw ior at eoy lovj fjjh, fjbousj wj bmucd rjobl at.―

Ohd hmtlahg loppjhs.Tlj plmtmgropls rjicjbt mii tlj gcoss ohd iocc ormuhd Zbbjccm ca`j stors, os ljovy os mcd

shmw. Tljy orj bmcd, slaitahg tlrmugl las iahgjrs ah scohts…Zbbjccm‑s `hjjs gavj. Lj ioccs.–Tljsj irogejhts…― Zbbjccm stroahs tm soy os las tlrmot swjccs, –…A lovj slmrjd ogoahst eyruahs.―

–A oe sm tarjd…― slj wla spjrs. Tjors ruh dmwh ljr iobj. A pcobj ey lohd mh ljr bljj`. Tjorsruh mvjr ej,–A `hmw Fjoutaiuc…A `hmw…―

Zbbjccm furajs las iobj ahtm las lohds os tlj pabturjs iocc ormuhd lae ca`j shmw. Las caijbruefcjs ahtm o sjo mi plmtmgropls. Tljrj lj wjjps…ohd wjjps….ohd wjjps…o hd coejhtsmvjr uhavjrsoc fmhjs.

Ohd hmtlahg loppjhs.

Rlj mpjhs ljr jyjs ohd cmm`s ahtm eahj. Rlj seacjs. Tlas as wlot cavjs orj cavjd imr…



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–Frmtljr…― slj wlaspjrs. A fjgah tm ijjc tlj oar ey lohd as tmublahg. Ey vasamh as ocemst dmhj.Ey lohd as fjbmeahg wrah`cy ogoah. At as stortahg tm trjefcj. Tlas as occ iodahg scmwcy ahtm ogrossy iajcd ohd o frab` wocc. A boh ljor ljr,–A lovj tmcd ymu tlas sm tlot ymu wacc lovj pjobj fy fjahg uhatjd tm Ej.―

Ey fmhjs ohd kmahts lurt. Wljh A woc`, A boh lordcy cait ey ijjt,

–Tlj wmrcd wacc eo`j ymu suiijr. Fut fj frovj!― A oe lmcdahg o bohj.–A lovj djijotjd tlj wmrcd!―

At as dmhj.

(2 =) ‒ Jdatmr‑s Hmtj

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