volume 6: wisdom
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7/30/2019 Volume 6: Wisdom
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Wisdom
By
Abby Humphries
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7/30/2019 Volume 6: Wisdom
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Table of Contents
Our Separate Ways
Photo by:miggslives
Comfort and Caution
Photo by: alice313
Like a WomanPhoto by:Alaskan Dude
AstrangedPhoto by:Amanda Autumn
Restless Thoughts
Photo by:Alyssa L. Miller
Stranded
Photo by: ronsaunders47
This is the Truth
Photo by:Rhys A.
Coffee Pot
Photo by:Richard Masoner / Cyclelicious
Era Lost
Photo by:jinterwas
Expressiveness
Photo by:DBerry2006
Gave it Up
Photo by:delicategenius
Grasped
Photo by:sydney g
Delusional
Photo by:steph-uh-nini
Overdrawn
Photo by: lfhams_vkingur
Shock Waves
Photo by:NASA Goddard Photo and Video
Ambitious
Photo by: marc falardeau
Going to the MoonPhoto by:NSHabsfan4life
For the BetterPhoto by: the Italian voice
Hearts Heal
Photo by:Neal.
My Dreams
Photo by: Sweet Asian
Someone
Photoby:Diana TrifilFly Away
Photo by: celine nadeau
Second Chances
Photo by:Alyssa L. Miller
About Time
Photo by: SurrealisticSoother
It Hurts to Know
Photo by:Tom (hmm a rosa tint)
Guilty
Photo by: Cpt
You Only See Your Own Side
Photo by:Ed Yourdon
Cultivation
Photo by:D H Wright
Fan the FlamePhoto by:Easa Shamih (iZZo) P.h.o.t.o.g.r.a.p.h.y
ConcentrationPhoto by:Jnos Balzs
Making Progress
Photo by:Bryn Pinzgauer
Denying Respect
Photo by:shutterhacks
Looking Back
Photo by:brdonovan
Commitment
Photo by: hectorir
The More We Know
Photo by:Monica Arellano-Ongpin
No Boundary
Photo by:Alexis Fam Photography
Various Degrees
Photo by:renaissancechambara
Fearing the Worst
Photo by:Jimee, Jackie, Tom & Asha
Pushing it Down
Photo by:JenavieveMarie
Silver Sliver
Photo by: mindfulness
Impulsive
Photo by:Life Mental Health
The Real Me
Photo by: laudu
My Reserve
Photo by:Steve Snodgrass
Patience
Photo by:Jeffrey
FlatteryPhoto by:cliff1066TM
How I FeelPhoto by:Ellipsis-Imagery
Astray
Photo by:eioua
Wisdom
Photo by:zigazou76
TemptationPhoto by:~Ealasaid~
Title PagePhoto by:Rob Young
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Our Seperate Ways
I still don't know
What I should think
What do you want me
To think?
Are we only friends?
Now that we have done
What we have done?Now that there are
Things left undone?
Now that we have said
All that we have said
Now that there are
Things left unsaid?
What is there to think?
I've told you what I think
What I've thought about
And there's still moreWaiting to be said
Waiting to be heard
Waiting to be felt
As though maybe
If I am lucky
You might tell me how you feel
As though maybe
This was the deal
That we'd goOur seperate ways
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Like A Woman
I'm trying to remember
What it was
That made me remember
How sweet it was
In September
How cool
The nights wereDays still like summer
Sticky and humid
Hot and dry
I couldn't squeeze
A tear drop
From my eye
Maybe it was
The white dress
I wore to bed that night
Still in my bagStill wish I had
Some reason
To wear it again
It's just another
White dress
That makes me feel
Like a woman
Just like how you
Made me feelLike a woman
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Restless Thoughts
My mind is elsewhere
Drifting from this place
Leaving on short notice
Taking a vaccation
Destination unknown
Departing on a whim
Catch your breath
Dive and swimSomething in the air
At a certain time of year
Your heart calling you
To somewhere
You never imagined yourself
To go; to be
Allowing yourself
To float
In a dream stateWhere you're free
Cautiously
And slowly
Merging from unconciousness
To wakefulness
Involuntarily
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This is the Truth
I don't know
How you manage
To make it seem
Like I wanted
Something more
When I could have
Had something elseAnd I chose this
Because it is
What it is
The way you want it
Whatever you decide
I ask you to call the shots
And make the calls
Because nobody
Really falls
In love at first sight
Not overnight
And the only way
To do this right
Is to make up
For that fight
The one that made you
Want to rethink this
And I said I
Wouldn't blame youIf you wanted to
Rethink this
Because I wanted
To make sure
That you were sure
That it was something
That you wanted
I know it was somethingThat I wanted
And the truth is
That I still want this
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Era Lost
Originality
On a thin thread
As though the spool
Has dropped into the pool
Half loaded
On Jack Daniels
Southern Comfort
Southkeys Key Lime
Lemonade and Vodka
Unable to think
Of a witty remark
Saved from a shark
Deep end diving
Marco Polo
No running on the deck
Time to take a head count
Buddy system never fails
Splitting sundaes and gingerailsChocolate popsicles
Dripping down our fingers
Sticky fingers
Touching everything
On the way to the sink
It really makes me think
Of the first time I ever
Drank Dr.Pepper pop
The summer I never wanted
To see the end of
Another era lost
Like a faded sunburn
When I thought
That sting
Would last
Like everything
That kept changing
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Gave it Up
I gave it up
To give you a chance
Because you gave me
A purpose
A reason to be
Happy
You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
And you are my blue skyAfter the grey
Has gone away
You give me sails
To sail away
Only with you
The only love
My heart has known
You are my very own
Skin and boneMy bloodline
You'll never be alone
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Delusional
I hope you feel betterBy making me feel worse
I hope it makes you happy
I hope you feel good
And that it was all worth it
Because you are the center
Of your own universe
You are the king
Of your world
A world I wouldn't wantTo live in
To visit
To be or to have
Any part of
You live with delusions
In your head
You forget
That other people
Might have needs, too
But in the endThe only one you think of
Is you
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Shock Waves
If you had only
Made it clear to me
From the start
I would have been
More at ease
Now I cannot
Be at easeWith the way things are
Between us now
I keep thinking back
To when it started
Too fast
For both of us
We didnt give each other
A fair chance
You hardly know me
But you dont likeHow you think I am
We havent talked
For quite a while
And this shock
Is what I read
How you really feel
About me now
You wouldnt tell me
That it was getting this badAnd I really wish you had
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Going to the Moon
Most of your friends
Didnt even knowYou were dating
When you were dating
I think you were ashamed
To admit it
From the very start
I still want to be a part
Of your life
I know
I will never get married
And you asked me
What would happen
If you asked me
Two years down the road
I was hoping that wed last
Two years down the road
I told you
That Id think about it
Your daughter told me
That she hopedThat wed get married
I didnt know what to say
I knew it was too soonTo think about that
Id have the same chance
Of going to the moon
Than I have of getting married
Of finding romance
Of a man
Asking me to dance
A slow dance
I have the same chance
Of this
Than I will ever have
Of even another kiss
Of bliss
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Hearts Heal
After next
All I know
Is that this pain
Wont last forever
Wont last the rest
Of my life
Because something will
Come up for me
ProbablyWill come up for you
Before it does for me
I know I am not perfect
I wanted to be
Good enough for you
This hurts me
More than it hurts you
I gave you the choice
And you made your choice
I saved your messagesOn my answering machine
To hear your voice
To hear you tell me
That you love me
Even though
You dont love me
Anymore
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Someone
I used to have
Something important
Something that made me
Feel important
I used to have
Someone to love
Someone I wantedTo love
Whom I wanted
Love from
I used to have
Someone to talk to
Someone to listen
Someone to care
About what went on
In my life
I used to have
Something special
I wanted to make him
Feel special
And I wanted
To feel special, too
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Second Chances
I know it was my fault
I have admitted it
All this time
I have felt guiltyI still feel guilty
And there is nothing
I can doTo get you back
You dont want me back
Even if I make up for
What I lack
Even if I cut you slack
You cannot find it
In your heart
To forgive me
To give me
A second chanceEven though
Id forgive you
If I were you
And Id give you
A second chance
It hurt to read those words
Because I thought
That you felt the same
About meAs I did about you
I thought that there
Was still hope
Of getting back together
And I know that you
Have lost hope
Because youGave up hope
And now
I can only hope
That one day
You will be happy
With someone
Even if that someone
Isnt me
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It Hurts to Know
It hurts to know how you really
Feel About me
You make it seem as though it was
All my fault
I cannot and I will notTake all the blame; All the guilt
You may as well have spit in my
face
Torn out my heart
And shoved it down my throat
Sans Rootbeer float
All I can do to keep myself afloat
As you push me out of your boat
Under icy waves
Retribution being
The only thing that saves
My final breath
For you alone
So you can walk away
And tell everyone
How I cannot comprehend
When you are the one
Who does not comprehend
What I was fighting to keep aliveNow I'm fighting to stay alive
My heart is breaking all over
Again!
Except this time I will not cry
Because I cannot cry over this
I will not cry over thisYou hurt me this time
And I won't forget how much it
Hurts; Even now; Especially now
But I'll show you
Just how strong I can be
When I learn to be strong
I don't care if you ever
Figure out where you went wrong
I don't care if you ever
Say you're sorry
It won't mean much to me
Just like when
You told me you loved me
How can I believe you
When you told me
That you'd always be there for me
And now you just add insults
To injury
I hope you're happyNow that you've hurt me
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You Only See Your Own Side
I wanted to work it out
You couldn't wait
To get me outOf your heart, of your head
Of your bed, of your life
You said that you'd always be there
You shouldn't have said that
It wasn't fair
Knowing that you don't care
Now I don't care
And I don't want to be there
But I said that I'd go
And now I have to goWhy couldn't you get it over with
So much earlier
Why'd you have to wait
Until I fell for you?
To pull the carpet
Out from under my feet?
Why'd you have to be so sweet?
I think it was a trick and the only treat
This pain and deceit
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Fan the Flame
Why should I
Even want to talk to you?
After what you said about me?
I still thought you cared about me
I know you don't love meI was too blind
Out of love for you
To see clearly
At the beginning
Because I felt like I was winning
I felt the best I had in years
Until the doubt
Dug up my fears
Now these fears
Have been confirmed
Another lesson has been learned
Even hearts that have yearned and yearned
Get tossed into enfernos
Where they burned
Why don't you just light the match
Fan the flame
Because I know
You have no shame
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Making Progress
In life we learn
We yearn
For a certain stimulation
Through experience
We are taughtWhat we ought
To do
What we ought
Not to do
And we can learn
From example
From our own example
And from the example
Others set for us
Because they learnSome lessons before us
We can learn
Many lessons
Before we have to experience
These for ourselves
But these lessons we all learn
Are designed to teach each other
And ourselves
So that we can continueTo make progress
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Looking Back
I am trying
To find
My center calm
I realize
That the answers
Won't be before my eyes
Won't fit in the palmOf my hand
I won't be able to see
As clearly
Because these answers
Are hard to look for
Because I didn't know
What to look for
I didn't know where to look
There is no book
Of instructionsTo get back on track
To get onto the right track
But once I do
There won't be any
Looking back
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The More We Know
The more we know
The more we grow
The more we learn
To go with the flow
I don't believe
In a pot of gold
At the end of a rainbowBut I do believe
That we receive
The rewards
Of contant effort
Of commitment to change
Of commitment to growth
We shall reap
What we sew
The seeds that grow
In our soulsBut it's not enough
To plant these seeds
Without nurture
Without deep contemplation
Deep consideration
You must contemplate
Your reason for doing
Anything
If you want to seriouslyConsider anything
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Various Degrees
There are various degrees of nature
Disposition and dispondancy
Achievement and accuracy
Now that I'm in
A better frame of mind
I can look at things differently
ObjectivelyRather than subjectively
I don't have to be
So sensitive to criticism
Because they are
Just opinions
They are opportunities
For growth
For development
For change
And I have to look at themThat way
Rather than
A personal attack
A judgement
Of what I lack
That I always have
Chances to make up for
And I'm glad
That I can now realizeWhat I hadn't before
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Pushing it Down
My mind wanders
Lack of sleep
I cannot keep my mind off
Recent events
It's almost as if I asked for it to
happenIt would not have happened
If I did not let it happen
I have to learn how to value myself
As a woman should
Only if I could
Maybe I would
If I felt like I was worth it I won't
Cry, but my eyes are dry
That night slipped by; over tooquick and I was sick
This morning
In front of a building
I don't even live in
I couldn't keep it all in
I had to sit for a while
Think about things
About where my life is going
Soon it will be snowing
How we can do these thingswithout knowing
How we can do these things
Without showing
An ounce of regret
Because it's a secret
Pushing it down
DenialAs deep in the heart
As it will get
But I haven't forgotten yet
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Impulsive
My desire
Stronger than
What I aspire
To achieve
I had longed
To receive
A reasonTo believe
That I was the one
You wanted
Now I will be haunted
By memories
For centuries
If my soul lives
Longer than I will
Because I have no
Free will
I wake up
To swallow
Another pill
Sit up on the window sill
Because if this doesn't
Numb me
Stupid, dumb me
Nothing
Ever will
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My Reserve
How can two friends?
Make amends?
And still be friends?
After coming
To odd ends?
My reserve
Should have doneIts job
It defends
Protection
Without projection
Why did I have to
Be there?
Beside you?
Why'd I have to
Let you?
I know I'm not strongAs strong
As I should be
I know it was wrong
But it's just another
Break-your-heart
Song
Maybe I stayed
Too long
But I'm not readyTo say So long
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Flattery
He told me not to think
Of it as more than it was
Because
It was nothing more than what it was
Loneliness
Comes at different times
To everyone
What was said was said
What was done has been doneI just have to chalk it up
To genuine stupidity
Because I knew
From the get-go
He didn't want me
And even if he could see
Why I did what I have done
It wouldn't matter
It was nothing but flatteryAnd it should not matter to me
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Astray
I should be feeling good
Instead of this feeling of
Disbelief
Angst and grief
I have to take some time
To get over my crimeI can't punish myself
Not this time
Because it could have been worse
A million times worse
And I could feel worse
Than I already do
Maybe he does
And he has a lot to think about
I have a lot to think about
And figure out
Even when I want to make out
I have to stake out my heart
So that it doesn't tear me apart
I lead myself astray
Each and ever day
Because I don't have the guts to
say that I'm done for the day
And find my own way
Now I will have to payThe price I always pay
When I lead myself astray
Living in my filthy ashtray
I can only hope and pray
That I don't become the prey
I'm safer at home anyway
A lot safer alone; Safer that wayThen I could really say
That at least I stayed away
From leading myself astray
Just like the other day
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Temptation
Mustard maniac
Ketchup on eggs
Onions and pickles
Round holes
And square pegs
So much pain
That I never want
To do it againTemptation a tease
Nobody sees
The insecurities
When they have
Their own priorities
Their own vulnerabilities
I used to cry
Hugging my knees
My back up against the wallNothing ever mattered at all
Or maybe it mattered
Just too much
It was all just too much
And I used to pray
For that touch
Because I used to want
To be worth
That much
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Comfort and Caution
It was the warmth
I was after
That I sought
Comfort
Was all I wanted
A peace of mind
I wasn't hoping to findAnother way to escape
There should have been
Red tape
There should have been
Some cautionary measure
I should have put the wall up
Used it as a shield
A barrier
On the other side of the line
I should have had my limits
The guilt isn't yours
It is mine
And when I think
About these things
I think
I will loose my mind
Because I know I will never find
A reasonable excuse
I could have putThese thoughts to better use
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Astranged
How did a friendly
Suggestion
Become
Regression?
After I had startedTo make some
Progress?
And I was finally
Starting to see
My strengths
And weaknesses?
And every
Part of me
That needs
To be changedAnd carefully
Rearranged
So that I don't become
Astranged
To my life
To myself
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Stranded
Why do I cause myself
Such stress?
Put myself
Under duress?
How'd I get myselfInto this mess?
I have to get
It off my chest
And keep hoping
For the best
Give it all a rest
Before I put myself
Up to another test
A test that I will fail
I want to jump
Over that rail
Grab the tiger
By the tail
Learn to fly
At full sail
Get a million dollars
In the mail
Or just feel
Like a million dollarsRunaway
On the lam
I want to be better
Than this letter
Scarlet letter
On my foreheadStamped and branded
My heart broke
When I landed
When I discovered
That I was stranded
Judgement day
Has been remanded
Nobody handed
Me this opportunity
I created my own
Design
I need to resign
Because
I have received a sign
That all my decisions
Are mine
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Coffee Pot
You look hot
Coffee pot
Hamburger for breakfast
I can smell
That breakfast smellAs far as I can tell
It will do you very well
I won't tell
If you don't tell
We may as well
Just forget
I wish I could forget
I already regret
Not following through
On the goals I had set
Coffee too hot
In my stomach
Walking home
Early morning rain
Now I'm going insane
When it was really plain
To see
That I'm the one
Who causes meMy anxiety
And secretly
I wanted it to be
More of my fantasy
Even though
It will never beAnything
Healthy
For me
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Expressiveness
One more for the road
Because I'm in that mode
When I start this expressiveness
Creativity
It's hard for me; To stop
I go over the top
I am too open
Like a flower always in bloomInviting my doom
Scared of the gloom
Of winter arriving
Silver on white
Bare trees
The things nobody sees
A particular spot
Lost from my thought
Whatever caught
My eyeAs I was passing by
I always gave
That game a try
Pointless as it is
Nobody will miss
What they don't know
What they don't see
What they don't care
Enough about To think aboutOne day
That will be a game
Someone will play
Passing by my grave
One day after I am old
And grey
And there won't be
Anything left to say
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Grasped
What are promises
If they are not worth
Keeping for yourself?
When you go to sleepWhen you should be
Waking up?
When you have
Coffee in your cup
And beer in your gut?
I don't have the guts
To avoid
Even paper cuts
Because I am a stupid clutz
And I stumbleIn my own ruts
There are no ifs or buts
Astray full of cigarette butts
When will I say
That I will walk away?
When will I know
When to say no?
When to put on
My shoesMy jacket?
Out the door
I must go
When will I know
The proper wayTo grow?
So that I can grow
And grasp something
Without letting go?
And be grasped
Without being let go?
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Overdrawn
Periodic Persistance
Rambling Resistance
Associated Assistance
Listening to the soundRaindrops
Splashing onto glass
Ducks swimming
In muddy puddles
Fighting the seagulls
For french fries
One of them flies
Into darkening skies
They have no need
For alibis
They have no need
For apple pies
I wonder what it'd be like
To see the world
From their eyes
I think I'd be in for
A surprise
Suitcases and suit ties
A knot at the neckAn affectionate peck
Crashing like the wreck
That I am
Overdrawn
And emptyI go back to sleep
As soon as you leave
I close my eyes
And drift
Into a dream
Where you seem
To enjoy
Hot sauce
And icecream
A dream
Is just a dream
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Ambitious
I think it's funny
How you told me
About your girlfriend
After being so friendlyTowards me
She must be some girl
Lucky
To have a guy
So seemingly
Perfect
And ambitious
Caramel
Delicious
One of my wishesLike a dream
That will never come true
And I can't stop
Thinking of you
What should I do?
To get you
Out of my head?
Off my mind
I know I must findSomeone else
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For the Better
Something tells me
That this is just a start
That I am growing
With or without
My knowing
That I will discover
My true place
In life
In my own worldMy distorted views
Will somehow
Make sense
If not to others
Then to myself
My sense or reality
Is unrealistic
My expectations
Had always beenToo high
I've always wondered why
But things are starting
To make sense
A little at a time
Peeling away that film
That had distorted
My perceptions
That caused my mind
To be comfortable
With the way things were
With the way I was
With the way I am
But I will change
The more I understand
The more I can stand
That things
Must change
For the better
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My Dreams
I am in charge of myself
Of my actions, of my inactions
Of my infractions
Socially or otherwise
I am putting the pieces together
Hoping to have something
That will last forever
If only this thingIs just enabling myself
To be a better person
Because
I want to be a better person
I want a better life
Because I'm the one
Who has to live this life
And hopefully
I will achieve my goalsSo that I can achieve
My dreams
I really have to believe
That I can achieve
My dreams
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Fly Away
Open your tinfoil
Covered window
Open your eyes
And look to the skies
Ask yourself:
"Where would I go? If I could fly?"
Sometimes IThink I should try
From eight floors high
But I
Know that only birds can fly
Airplanes
Helicopters
Balloons
Hot-air or blown up
Like the balloons
I blew upFor my Grandmother
On her eighty-first
Birthday
She put them out
On her balcony
Let them fly away
Into the sky
On that January day
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About Time
My goals
Are like pieces
Of a bigger picture
Each section
A smaller picture
That I have to focus
My energy on
Instead of looking
At a million things
At the same time
Focus
On one thing
At a time
Instead of wasting
My time
I have to makeThe best of
My time
Because it is
My time
And it is about time
That I get my life
Together
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Guilty
Guilt is a hard thing
To let go of
It permeates my soul
Self-control
Is a goal
One of the only thingsThat can save me
From constantly
Feeling guilty
I allowed people to take
Advantage of me
I cannot manipulate
Myself
As well as they manipulate
My mind
Me, generallyI have to learn
How to manipulate
So I can concentrate
On goals
Like self-control
So that I don't
Give myself
Any more reasons
To feel guilty
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Cultivation
Secretly
I long to be
Something of a beauty
Something of popularity
Something of a personality
But what would
Any of that
Really do for me?Distractions, delusions
None of that matters
I just want to know
How to cultivate
My spirituality
Culturally, socially
Appropriately
I don't want to
Be afraidOf accepting myself
But how can I?
Even have respect
For myself?
When I can't seem
To control myself
To take responsibility
For my mistakes
Thus making
The same mistakesTime and time again
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Concentration
I'm wondering why I
Try as hard as I try
For someone else
Instead of
Focussing on turning my
Passion and devotionIn another direction
I know I can concentrate
If I try hard enough
To let it all soak through my skin
You don't have to rub it in
Pride is a sin
I'm okay today
And every day is an opportunity
To get something
AccomplishedYou have to have
Determination
And point yourself
Towards the best
Direction
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Denying Respect
Funny how
We figure out
We find some answers
When we ask
Specific questions
Detailed explanations
Clarify and unify
Together on the same pageWhat book is it?
What is this title?
A romance theme?
A tragedy?
Mysterious mastery
Analitical Anology
Theoretical Anthology
Appropriate Appology
You want to denyWhat you must accept
You would
If you had any respect
And you should
If you had any respect
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Commitment
I have hope after the way
This day has turned out for me
Unusually satisified
With how I've tried
Feeling good inside
And I cannot hide; This smile
It's been a whileYou say that we need to talk
And I hope you won't hurt me again
Because I can't bear the pain
Because I'm trying
To start again
Maybe we can
Start again
But neither of us
Are ready
For a seriousCommitment
Even though
I'd be honoured
To have
A serious
Commitment
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No Boundary
I have a strong sense
That I'm missing out
On something
That I may never
Have for myself
But maybe I
Shouldn't thinkOf myself
When everyone
Has their own lives
To live
What could I give?
To any man?
Except for my heart?
Devotion?
Love without limits
Even thoughEverything has a boundary
My love
Knows no boundary
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Fearing the Worst
Rapidly approaching
This time; A time
When we can
Talk to each other
About some issuesAnd get things cleared up
Once and for all
And I am scared
That you want to tell me
That you don't want me
In your life any longer
I am scared
That I won't get
My second chance
Even thoughI am starting
To make changes
I am scared
But I can't assume
The worst
Because it will
Make me fear the worst
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Silver Sliver
Sometimes
You get a blessing
In disguise
A chance
You don't recognize
Potential
ProbabilityPossibility
When it looks
Straight at you
Direct eye contact
Blink
And you could miss it
Flashed before your eyes
A sliver of silver
A slight sight
A limp glimpseTossed a crumb
Out the window
And it becomes
A loaf of bread
Even if it's in your head
Your heart
Wants to believe
What it is lead
To believe
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The Real Me
I have to learn
That hope isn't everything
That optimism has to be met
With realism
The truth can really hurt
If we let it hurt
If we let ourselvesHurt each other
I don't know what to say
You know the way
The way; That I feel
You know that I still want
To be with you
And you
Had a change of heart
That's all part
Of learning to forgiveAnd hopefully
You will learn
To forgive me for
What I take responsibility for
It takes a lot of courage
To take responsibility
It is a form of integrity
Hopefully
When I get to see the trueThe real me
You will see the true
The real me
And maybe
You will fall in love with me
All over again
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Patience
By giving me
A second chance
You say that
Once bitten
Twice shy
I understand why
But you don't realizeThat I have been bitten too
Bitten by you
And the things that you do
Like getting angry
So easily
I know you are frustrated
And frustration
Is just one aggrevation
That neither of us need
HopefullyIt will teach us
That patience
Is more of a virtue
Than we thought
I know that I have
To have
Patience with you
But please
Be patient with me, too
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How I Feel
I don't want to
Argue
With you
I just want to tell you
What I think
How I feel
Without you telling meThat I'm being dramatic
Because I don't feel
As though that helps
It makes me mad
When you tell me
That I'm putting words
In your mouth
Because you should know
That I'd never do that
I want you to tell me
What you are thinking
What you are feeling
And you tell me that
You are not sure
There is no cure
For how I feel
And you know
How I feel
Because I told you
How I feel
And I shouldn't have to
Tell you how I feel
Because if you knew me
Truly knew meYou'd know
How I feel
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7/30/2019 Volume 6: Wisdom
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Wisdom
I have to keep
Moving ahead
No matter how I feel
No matter what I think
No matter
How much stronger
The urge is
To relapse
No matterHow much stronger
The urge is
Than I am
Because I do have
Strength and potential
Of spirit and of change
It just takes time
Commitment and courage
EverythingThat I never had before
That I never sought before
That I never fought for before
B t thi i h
To get even further
Than I have already come
And by getting there
I will hope to have
Gained some
Wisdom