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GuHelloGuest - 1:56 PM
hi how are you? (:picturedays - 1:56 PM
GuMy name is minwooGuest - 1:57 PM
GuNot very goodGuest - 1:57 PM
Gui came onto this website to talk about my problemsGuest - 1:57 PM
would you like to tell me about it?picturedays - 1:57 PM
GuI grew up in a very religious household in texas
Guest - 1:57 PM
Guand currently facing agression from my familyGuest - 1:57 PM
GuThey don't like to question things and have gotten very angryGuest - 1:57 PM
Guthat i question things or speak out about my opinionGuest - 1:58 PM
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GuEvery time i say anythingGuest - 1:58 PM
Gueven if its not related to an important topicGuest - 1:58 PM
Gusomething as simple as when will you pick me upGuest - 1:58 PM
Guthey tell me to be quietGuest - 1:58 PM
Guand that a real man doesnt talkGuest - 1:58 PM
GuI want to consider being on my ownGuest - 1:58 PM
GuBut i'm scaredGuest - 1:58 PM
GuI was above average in school but always felt afraid to talk to authoritesGuest - 1:59 PM
Gusuch as talk to a counselor and do college application progressesGuest - 1:59 PM
Guprocesses*Guest - 1:59 PM
GuSo i messed up my college application somewhatGuest - 1:59 PM
Guand am currently attendingGuest - 1:59 PM
Gucomunity college post high schoolGuest - 1:59 PM
GuI know that i haven't messed up my career track yetGuest - 1:59 PM
Gubut i feel like i'm unable to stop myselfGuest - 1:59 PM
Gufrom continually messing upGuest - 1:59 PM
Gui feel like im afraid to be successful in lifeGuest - 2:00 PM
GuI feel like i should settle who i amGuest - 2:00 PM
Guand deserve lessGuest - 2:00 PM
GuI know that i should try harderGuest - 2:00 PM
GuAnd go after lifeGuest - 2:00 PM
GuBut i feel like my life is arleady predeterminedGuest - 2:00 PM
Guand the only consolation i have is that i "can" change itGuest - 2:00 PM
Guand its not cemented yetGuest - 2:00 PM
Guwhat should i doGuest - 2:01 PM
has your home life ever felt abusive in any way?picturedays - 2:01 PM
Guno i can tell my parents sincerely love meGuest - 2:01 PM
Gubut they grew up in a asia and their culture is very different then mineGuest - 2:01 PM
Gui don't want to say it but i almost feel like they are less educated then meGuest - 2:02 PM
Gui'm able to see the flaws that they have and it really bums me outGuest - 2:02 PM
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Guto see people i love around me not reach their full potentialGuest - 2:02 PM
Gui feel like everyone around me is living behind a veil and i can see throuhg itGuest - 2:02 PM
Gubut im to scared to go throughGuest - 2:02 PM
GuIm to scared to try harder in lifeGuest - 2:02 PM
GuIm to scared to talk to authority figuresGuest - 2:02 PM
do you think this is whats holding you back?picturedays - 2:03 PM
Guyes i do but i dont know what to do about itGuest - 2:03 PM
Gui dont do drugs or alcoholGuest - 2:03 PM
Gu
but i know myself well enough that if i ever didGuest - 2:03 PM
Gui'd be addicted just from my personalityGuest - 2:03 PM
GuI distract myself with video games and suchGuest - 2:03 PM
Guand try to seek other peoples approvalGuest - 2:04 PM
Guthat since i cant love myselfGuest - 2:04 PM
Gui should make othersGuest - 2:04 PM
GuI am extremely caring to other peoples problems and always want to help themGuest - 2:04 PM
Gu
Im fine with not being in the spotlightGuest - 2:04 PM
Guif i can be praised in the backgroundGuest - 2:04 PM
Gubut i'm actually not okGuest - 2:04 PM
Gui want to follow my dreamsGuest - 2:04 PM
Gui want to succeed in life i want to do thingsGuest - 2:04 PM
GuI'm tired of just going through the motionsGuest - 2:05 PM
I am kind of in the same situationpicturedays - 2:05 PM
I am a first generation from an asian immigrated familypicturedays - 2:05 PM
I'm in the process of moving outpicturedays - 2:06 PM
and I know life is scary and unpredictablepicturedays - 2:06 PM
I'm sure you feel the same waypicturedays - 2:06 PM
Gui feel scared that its to predictableGuest - 2:07 PM
Gui know what i need to do to be happyGuest - 2:07 PM
Gui hate myself for not doing itGuest - 2:07 PM
Gui know what i need to do to succeedGuest - 2:07 PM
Gubut i'm not doing itGuest - 2:07 PM
Guits not that im scared of the unknownGuest - 2:07 PM
Guim scared that im not going into the knownGuest - 2:07 PM
Gui call myself a coward for not doing something to make myself happier when i know what it is i need to doGuest - 2:07 PM
don't be afraid to at least try. life is about risks and putting yourself out therepicturedays - 2:08 PM
everyone wants to see you succeedpicturedays - 2:09 PM
your friends, familypicturedays - 2:09 PM
especially your familypicturedays - 2:09 PM
they would never want to hold you backpicturedays - 2:09 PM
they want to see you grow, succeed in the way you see fitpicturedays - 2:10 PM
Gui just wish i had someone to give a pushGuest - 2:10 PM
Gui feel like if i want to get outGuest - 2:10 PM
Guof this role that im acting outGuest - 2:10 PM
Gui need someone to help meGuest - 2:10 PM
Gui don't have anyone to talk to that i can actually reveal myself toGuest - 2:11 PM
GuI don't want to generalize but i felt that my high school life was superficialGuest - 2:11 PM
Guand nobody actually cared about anythingGuest - 2:11 PM
Gui know my family loves me but i find it hard to talk with them about difficult issues like thisGuest - 2:11 PM
do you think that superficial high school experience influenced your motivation today?picturedays - 2:11 PM
Guyes i doGuest - 2:12 PM
Gumaybe i grew up in a rare environmentGuest - 2:12 PM
Gubut i felt like everyone around meGuest - 2:12 PM
Guincluding family friendsGuest - 2:12 PM
Guwere shallowGuest - 2:12 PM
Gui could see their beliefs motivationGuest - 2:12 PM
Guand it all felt so shallow to meGuest - 2:12 PM
Gumaybe it's wrong of me to think thatGuest - 2:12 PM
Gulike when my fatherGuest - 2:13 PM
Gutells me to stop talkingGuest - 2:13 PM
Gucause a real man doesnt talkGuest - 2:13 PM
Gui know its cause he grew up in that environmentGuest - 2:13 PM
Gui knew my fathers father and he was very abusiveGuest - 2:13 PM
Gubut everyone around me i feel acts like thatGuest - 2:13 PM
Gui never had anyone to look up toGuest - 2:13 PM
Gunobody around me really triedGuest - 2:13 PM
Gu"dumb" students gave up because people told them they were dumbGuest - 2:14 PM
Gu"smart" kids only studied for good grades and were helped out non-stop by their parentsGuest - 2:14 PM
Gui initially started feeling this way during high schoolGuest - 2:14 PM
Gueveryone was playing the gameGuest - 2:14 PM
Guteachers were pretending to teachGuest - 2:14 PM
Gustudents pretending to learnGuest - 2:14 PM
Guall just for good gradesGuest - 2:14 PM
Gunobody actually caredGuest - 2:14 PM
Guthere was no one to talk toGuest - 2:14 PM
Guand when i talked to the school counselor about my problemsGuest - 2:15 PM
Gushe said i was overthinking itGuest - 2:15 PM
Guand went to the next student to talk about college applicationsGuest - 2:15 PM
Guthats all people talked aboutGuest - 2:15 PM
Gucollege application this or thatGuest - 2:15 PM
Gui care about college on a deep levelGuest - 2:15 PM
Gui want to get educated and even know what i want to beGuest - 2:15 PM
Gubut the process just reminds me of chigh schoolGuest - 2:15 PM
what do you want to be?picturedays - 2:15 PM
Gui want to be an actuaryGuest - 2:16 PM
Gua risk manager for insurance companiesGuest - 2:16 PM
Guive always loved mathGuest - 2:16 PM
GueconomicsGuest - 2:16 PM
Guand public speakingGuest - 2:16 PM
Gubut the reason that i'm scared to succeedGuest - 2:16 PM
Gu
is that since i grew up so isolatedGuest - 2:16 PM
Guin such a non-questioning uncritical environmentGuest - 2:16 PM
Guhow can i really succeed in the real worldGuest - 2:16 PM
Gui know that people are sometimes as niceGuest - 2:16 PM
Gui konw that sometimes people are mean but in the top arenaGuest - 2:17 PM
Guthe place where i'm aimingGuest - 2:17 PM
Guto be top of my class in collegeGuest - 2:17 PM
Gu
best at my jobGuest - 2:17 PM
Gua person has to be motivated and efficientGuest - 2:17 PM
Guhow can i succeed in that environment when i grew up so shelteredGuest - 2:17 PM
Gui'm more content to stay 2nd bestGuest - 2:17 PM
Guand keep being scaredGuest - 2:18 PM
Guand im scared that i cant love othersGuest - 2:18 PM
Gui never had a girl friend during high school even tho i couldveGuest - 2:18 PM
Gu
but now everywhere i seeGuest - 2:18 PM
Gui find it hard to relate to people around meGuest - 2:18 PM
Gumy father who grew up uneducatedGuest - 2:18 PM
Gufriends who only went to school to get good gradesGuest - 2:18 PM
Gui don't want to grow up to hate peopleGuest - 2:19 PM
Gui want to understand themGuest - 2:19 PM
Gubut i feel like i understand them to muchGuest - 2:19 PM
Gu
and im the only person around with emotions and genuine feelingsGuest - 2:19 PM
Gui know thats not trueGuest - 2:19 PM
Gutheres people out there that are deep and thoughtfulGuest - 2:19 PM
Gui want to share a close relationship with someoneGuest - 2:19 PM
Guwhehter that be family or friendGuest - 2:19 PM
Guand i cant find itGuest - 2:19 PM
Gueverywhere i look i see immature peopleGuest - 2:20 PM
Gu
and maybe its cause im looking for them onlyGuest - 2:20 PM
Gumaybe i'm ignoring people i can connect toGuest - 2:20 PM
Guall because i'm scared to find themGuest - 2:20 PM
Guif i find these immature people i can point my finger and say haGuest - 2:20 PM
Gu"thats why i cant deeply connect to people"Guest - 2:20 PM
Gumaybe its cause in high school i was very well likedGuest - 2:20 PM
Gui kinda knew what was humorous and appropriateGuest - 2:21 PM
Gu
how to talk to people how to make them happyGuest - 2:21 PM
Gui was "friends" with pretty much everyoneGuest - 2:21 PM
Gui got invited to a lot of gatherings and clubsGuest - 2:21 PM
GuPeople liked talking to me and i was always smilingGuest - 2:21 PM
Gui tried telling myself that i am happyGuest - 2:21 PM
Gubut i really wasn'tGuest - 2:21 PM
Gui was always sadGuest - 2:21 PM
maybe you need a change of environment
picturedays - 2:22 PM
you need o access what you think is best for youpicturedays - 2:22 PM
*need to accesspicturedays - 2:22 PM
Guhow can i do thatGuest - 2:23 PM
well to me it sounds like you know what you wantpicturedays - 2:23 PM
now its time to figure out how to get therepicturedays - 2:23 PM
its a process and its not gonna easypicturedays - 2:24 PM
Gui'm not afraid of failureGuest - 2:25 PM
Gui know that on my way to successGuest - 2:25 PM
Gu
im going to stumble and fallGuest - 2:25 PM
Guand im ok with thatGuest - 2:25 PM
Gui was just scared to tryGuest - 2:25 PM
Guthank you so much for listening to meGuest - 2:25 PM
Gui feel a lot better after talking about what i am feeling for the first timeGuest - 2:25 PM
Gui dont know if ill be able to go on that path yetGuest - 2:25 PM
Gubut i do know that i feel a lot better and can at least startGuest - 2:26 PM
it's frustrating and there are challenges
picturedays - 2:26 PM
but you'll only grow and learn more from itpicturedays - 2:26 PM
Guthank youGuest - 2:26 PM
mhmm. of course (:picturedays - 2:27 PM
Gui'm going to save this conversationGuest - 2:27 PM
Guand whenver i feel sadGuest - 2:27 PM
Guim going to read it to motivate meGuest - 2:27 PM
Guthanks for listeningGuest - 2:28 PM