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BREAKING DAWN BOOK 2, EDWARDS POV

I do not own twilight, all characters and rights etc belong to Stephenie

Meyer.

Chapter 9

I ushered Bella through the crowds of Sea-Tac airport, one arm wound

around her waist, the other grasping the cases. It registered dimly that I

should have used a luggage trolley, but I was passed caring about the

human façade now.

We had spent the flights home in uncomfortable silence as I tried to read

her face for any signs as to how she felt, but she had determinedly

avoided my gaze. I assumed she was beyond fear for her life and beyond

fury at me for endangering her in this way. I was stuck in a pit of despair;

angry at my ignorance, angry at my selfishness and worst of all, utterly

terrified for the woman I loved beyond all else in this world.

I heard them before I saw them; our family waiting anxiously for our

arrival. My father was running over his plan for immediate action in hishead, my mothers nerves were stretched taut. Poor, poor dears. They

must be so afraid, she worried. Alice was screaming internally . I just cant

see!! However, it was Rosalies thoughts which were the loudest. There

was both a flavour of excitement and anxiety to them as we came into

view, and an image swam before her eyes of her cooing over a cherubic

baby in her arms. Even then, nothing clicked into place. Bella turned to me

and finally met my gaze. I had become so used to reading her expressions,

but I could still not believe what I saw. In her soft, chocolate eyes there

was fear but there something else; a look that seemed to plead with me

for understanding. With a squeeze of my hand she released herself from

my grasp and ran straight into Rosalies outstretched arms. Rosalies. We

all stood like statues. In that second I realized I had been totally and

utterly wrong. Bella wasnt scared for her life; she was scared for whatever



was growing inside of her, and she had turned to the one person who

would be guaranteed to support her.

Driving home from the airport was like déjà vu from last spring after our

perilous visit to Volterra. Except there were two key differences. Last

spring I had held a sleeping Bella in my arms in the backseat; now it was

Rosalies arms around my wife. And last spring we had just escaped our

encounter with death; now we were heading towards it.

We all sat in silence; Rosalies eyes boring into the back of my head and

thinking menacing thoughts. Emmetts face was serious for once, as he

recited the stats of every baseball team he knew in his head. My mood

swung from agony to anger. Not angry with Bella. Never with Bella. But at

my... my sister. If you could still call her that, what with her trying to

destroy my reason for existing just so she could fulfil her dreams of

motherhood.

When we got home, Emmett took the cases out of the trunk of Carlisles

Mercedes. I walked, in a stupor, behind Rosalie who was cradling Bella like

a child in her arms, gazing down at her affectionately. She took Bella

immediately upstairs to change from her pastel blue cotton dress that was

taut from her expanding torso, into a baggy sweatshirt and sweatpants.

When we were all inside, sat and stood around Bella who lay on the

couch, Rosalie hovering defensively, Carlisle finally broke the tense

silence. He knew what Bella was doing but he had to try.

Bella, we need to get the...fetus out of you. Im sorry, its far, far too

dangerous... he attempted to reason with her.

She clutched her bloated, mottled stomach as if protecting it from hearing

such words. No! I wont let you! she gasped, glancing desperately for

Rose...

Rosalie growled loudly, her lips pulling back to reveal her glea ming, razor-

sharp teeth. You dare come anywhere near us, Carlisle! she hissed at

him. He raised his hands like a negotiator saying he wasnt armed. Rosalie

turned to Bella and her features transformed into a severe but



affectionate visage. Dont listen to them, Bella, she whispered, urging

her with her eyes. Everything will be fine.

Bella, you cant survive this! I cried, my voice breaking.

I can! She gritted her teeth, eyes flitting from me to Carlisle. Of course,I dont expect to survive human...But Im strong enough to tough it out

until hes ready, she added in a low murmur.

Of course you are, Bella, Rosalie said warmly, but her thoughts gave her

away. It didnt really matter one way or another to her if Bella was strong

enough, as long as the fetus was.

Weve got to get it out!

No! she tried to shout, still protecting her stomach.

Esme put her arms around my shoulders as I slumped forward. I felt truly

weak for once, like I was about to crumble into pieces. A whimper of pain

escaped my lips as Carlisles further attempts to persuade her fell on stony

ground.

***

The next week passed in a blur, sky oscillating between dreary gray and

midnight indigo. Bella remained firm in her mindset , but her condition was

accelerating fast and I knew time was running out. Carlisle couldnt get an

ultrasound so the only way to possibly know when the fetus was fully

grown was by measuring her stomach down the middle. Today shed beentwenty six centimetres; that meant just six days...

My senses seemed numb as the grief and pain sunk in deeper and deeper.

My usually sharp eyes became hazy and unfocused, my acute hearing

muffled. When I smelt or tasted the air the flavours were insipid and

indistinguishable. My sensitive touch was deadened to the point that even



Bellas warm skin felt alien. I was watching my true love die and, piece by

piece, it was killing me too.

I didnt register conversations, or even thoughts; though I was sure there

was an abundance of both somewhere in the background. I tried to block

everything I saw and heard, sitting on the spiral staircase with my head

resting in my hands. Rosalie sat protectively with Bella, who still lay on the

pale-coloured sofa in the centre of the open lounge drifting in and out of

sleep between being violently sick, and attempting to comfort me. Its

going to be okay, Edward, shed whispered. But the stress was making

her sicker by the day, especially my pain and the lie we told Charlie to

keep him away; he believed she was sick with a South American disease

and there was to be strictly no access.

I had always tried to give Bella exactly what she wanted. Anytime.

Anything. But now I was lost. How could I let her have what she wanted?

Id lose her. I knew what it was like to live without her; my wife, my soul

mate, my whole world. And now that crushing grief, that unendurable

agony, seemed to hover on the horizon mockingly once again.

Edward? Son? My fathers hand touched my shoulder and my head

snapped up. Edward, I need to talk to you. In my study. Son, Im doing all I

can, I promise. I nodded and followed, pausing only to kiss Bellasforehead; Rosalie snarled at my proximity. Carlisle, we have to do

something, I said urgently as I shut the door behind me, Weve got to

get it out of her.

You know Rosalie would never- he started, but I interrupted.

I dont care what we have to do to Rosalie first! I snarled, my hands

curling into fists. Lets take care of her then anaesthetise Bella. My

Bella...

Carlisle looked at me with his golden eyes full of sympathy. I would have

done... He winced at the thought of using such tactics . But your mothers

siding with Rosalie and Bella, and you know Emmett would never allow us

to hurt Rose. Besides, dont you think we have to respect Bellas view on

this?



Shes wrong though... My voice started to break at the blasphemy I felt

in saying my wife was mistaken. Its not a baby in there... Its a monster.

Like me.

Son, youre not a monster. You could never have anticipated such a thing...

But I didnt want to be comforted. The self-loathing that ripped through

me was excruciating and all I could think of was escaping. The uncertainty

and anxiety that hung around the house like dense fog suffocated and

choked me. I spun on my heel, flung the door open and flew down the

stairs.

Rosalies thoughts came at me incessantly. Youre not getting anywhere

near this baby, do you understand me? A growl built up in her chest.

Suddenly her mind became clouded, which made me pause. Rosalie had

never been able to hide her thoughts from me as well as the others and

this time was no different. Despite her best efforts, her focus slipped and

the image of her cooing over an angelic baby came into my mind again.

But this time there was a difference. This time, Bellas lifeless body lay in

the background. I moaned in agony as my knees buckled beneath me.

Bella, oblivious to my entrance to the room, lifted her head. Rosalie s

mental image swam before me, branding itself like a searing hot iron into

my accursed, infallible mind. I shut my eyes and envisaged a healthy,radiant Bella staring back at me; her creamy skin blushing rose, her deep,

chocolate eyes set off by her lustrous brown tresses.

I opened my eyes and stared at my wife. Bellas face was in stark contrast

to the one Id seen behind my eyelids. Her skin was even paler than usual,

her heart-shaped face covered in a light sheen of sweat, and her bones

protruding from her cheeks. Bella, love please- I begged.

Rosalie hovered over the back of the sofa, eyeing me warily. Dont you

dare come any closer, Edward Cullen, or youll be reattaching your own

arms, she thought menacingly. I went back to the stair I had occupied and

sank down. Alice came to sit next to me, her pixie-like face full of concern,

and tried desperately to see something, but the lines were hazy and

covered in crackly grey mist. Jasper was trying to emit feelings of calm

over the anxious room, but for once, it had no effect on me. The tense



atmosphere was taking its toll on Jasper and he paced up and down

nervously.

Bellas eyes flickered shut once again. Emmett turned the TV down until it

was barely audible, determined to keep quiet as to not wake Bella. How

is she, really? I began in a hushed voice, wondering just how much Id

missed in my week-long trance, but I stopped myself short. It was a stupid

question.

Shes not keeping anything down, Edward , you know that, Carlisle thought

apologetically as he appeared at the top of the stairs. I nodded curtly; her

protruding cheekbones were testament to that.

Watching my Bella sleep from a distance, I detested myself and the

creation growing inside her for causing her pain, and I was furious with

Rosalie for her one track mind. The baby, the baby, the baby. She didnt

care about my Bella; she wouldnt care if she died... I wasnt the only one

who felt ready to literally rip Rosalies head off; Alice was fast running out

of patience with her least favourite sister.

All the time, a conflict was raging inside of me; I couldnt reconcile my

feelings of anger with my feelings of helplessness. Id always sworn Id be

her protector; now her life was endangered by something Id created, and

there was nothing I could do about it. I couldnt sit back and do nothing; I

felt utterly useless. There must be a way to save her...

Id sworn to always put her needs first. What if a baby was what she

needed? My angel, my midnight sun, the one to wake me from my

slumber in the depths of inhumanity and bring me to life again. She should

be able to have everything she wanted and needed. It was a mistake for

her to have chosen me; she should have chosen Jacob instead.

...Considering all the things I could do with her that you cant. At least,

not without killing her, that is. His words rang through my head at a

deafening volume and with crystal clear clarity. Maybe Jacob was the

answer... maybe Bella would accept something less drastic than this to

have a baby...



After an hour or so, Bella started to stir. Bella, love- I began, but Rosalie

growled to cut me off.

How do you feel, sweetie? She asked in a sugar-coated voice. It made

me want to retch.

Before Bella could answer, she tried to pull herself upright, with a hand

over her mouth. Rosalie swiftly passed her the bowl into which Bella

vomited. Im fine, she said weakly, slumping back. I groaned in agony at

seeing my Bella suffer. My frozen heart felt like it was shattering into a

million pieces, the shards being crushed into powder.

Bella, Carlisle began softly, I need you to tell me exactly how you feel.

Dont downplay anything; it doesnt help me treat you.

Well, I feel nauseous... but you probably all gathered that, she grinned

weakly, her cheeks turning slightly pink in her blush, curling up in a loose

fetal position, arms around her knees. Dark circles had formed under her

eyes, her cheekbones jutted out from her heart-shaped face, her wedding

band was loose, and her stomach was expansive. I was speared to the spot

in pain. I couldnt lose her again. I wouldnt. There must be a way to save

her...

I got up and turned to stare out the window. The figure staring back at mewas a stranger; his features were contorted in grief and sheer agony, his

mouth open as if he were about to scream. His onyx eyes were burning

furiously with dark, purple shadows beneath them. The thirst didnt

register; no physical urge was strong enough for me to leave Bellas side.

I suddenly heard a motorcycle pulling off the freeway and a loud, internal

monologue that emanated from no-one in the room, and yet I was familiar

with the voice. Bloodsucker can probably hear me now. Hell want to fight

me alone. Ill challenge him to a duel; hed probably get a kick out of the

theatrics. Jacobs on his way in, everyone, I stated, half-relieved hed

come to find me. If anyone could make Bella see sense, it was Jacob. Of

course, I knew he was coming with the intention of killing me. Part of me

jumped at the idea; but I wouldnt leave my Bella here alone. The already



stressed atmosphere in the room increased as we all gathered around the

sofa where Bella lay, and heard the engine stop abruptly.

Filthy mutt, what does he want? Rosalie muttered angrily. I pointedly

ignored her.

Shall we pretend were not in? Carlisle asked me.

Too late, he knows were here. I replied swiftly.

Carlisle nodded and proceeded to open the door, standing in the frame as

Jacob reached him. Hello, Jacob, he greeted him calmly, How are you?

Jacob paused to take a deep breath. I heard Bella made it back alive, he

stated sceptically.

Carlisle paused. Er, Jacob, its not really the best time...Could we do this

later?

Jacob stared at him, taken aback. He wants to postpone the death match

for a more convenient time? Rosalie was glaring daggers in Jacobs

direction. We should not tell that dog anything!

Bella tried to straighten up, but she was too weak. Why not? she asked

in a hoarse, cracked voice. Are we keeping secrets from Jacob, too?

Whats the point? I sighed, half relieved, half exasperated. Come in,

please, Jacob, Bella invited more loudly.

Jacob looked in the direction of Bellas voice. Excuse me, he said,

stepping around Carlisle and moving with his back to the wall, casting a

cautious glance over the room. I didnt bother looking up at him. I kept my

eyes firmly on Bellas weak form, the immense pain searing through me

worse than a white hot poker, my hands curled into tight claws.

I felt Jacobs eyes move from me to Bella. What the-? She really is sick! As

Rosalie hovered protectively over Bella, Jacob s face turned from shock to

confusion as he slowly processed this. But she doesnt like Rosalie... No,

more than that, shes afraid of Rosalie...Or she was. Bella turned a light

shade green and Rosalie grabbed the bowl for Bella to throw up in. I fell to

my knees at her side, Rosalie pushing her hand out to hold me back. Dont



you dare, she warned. I was beyond furious with Rosalie; Bella was my

wife. Bella smiled weakly at Jacob and whispered, Sorry about that.

Always apologising for things that werent her fault. I moaned in pain,

slumping my head to Bellas knees, and she placed a hand gently against

my cheek in comfort.

Jacob moved towards Bella in a stupor. A hiss escaped Rosalies teeth and

she moved between him and Bella. Rose, dont, Bella whispered

pleadingly. Its fine. Rosalie was reluctant, but moved to Bellas head,

coiled ready to pounce should the need arise.

Bella, whats wrong? Jacob asked softly, kneeling opposite me and

seizing Bellas other hand in both of his. I kept my eyes locked on Bella.

Are you all right? he asked, but she didnt answer.

Im so glad you came to see me today, Jacob, she said lightly. I didnt

need to hear her thoughts to finish that sentence off... because I wont be

here for much longer. I groaned into the blanket covering her body.

What is it, Bella? Jacob asked. She was silent, and then glanced around

the room until her eyes found Rosalie.

Help me up, Rose?

Rosalies lips pulled back in a snarl. I want to kill that mutt. If he does

anything, Ill tear his throat out.

Please, Rose, Bella pleaded. I was as still as a statue as Rosalie moved

her arm behind my Bellas shoulders, preparing to lift her up.

No. Dont get up... Jacob whispered, scared for the frail form before

him.

Im answering your question, she retorted with a snap. Rosalie pulled

Bella off the sofa, the blanket falling down to reveal her swollen torso

contrasting with her painfully thin limbs. Bella placed a tender hand on

top and below her ballooning stomach maternally.

Jacobs internal monologue was one of utter horror. No. She cant be

pregnant. Not that pregnant... But she is. I dont want to see this... Him



inside her... Ugh no! This is sick. Whatevers inside her is feeding from

Bella... Because its a monster. Just like its father. I always knew hed kill

her.

My head snapped up. He was right, completely right, of course. It was all

my fault. Self-loathing raged inside me with such a force it threatened to

crush me completely. I stood up and snarled at him, Outside, Jacob.

He rose to his feet. Excellent. This is why Im here. Lets do this, he

agreed. Emmett and Jasper immediately flanked me. Yes! Lets take him,

Emmett thought eagerly. Got your back, bro.

No, Bella gasped, falling forward to clutch my arm, Rosalie moving with

her in synchronisation.

I just need to talk to him Bella, I explained to her, reaching to stroke her

worried face. Damn, Emmetts mood sank, but he didnt move. Jacobs

anger rose, but I ignored it all. I focused solely on my wife. Dont strain

yourself, I pleaded. Please rest. Well both be back in just a few

minutes. Bella stared at me, carefully reading my face as I stroked hers.

Finally she nodded, and sank back down on the sofa with Rosalies aid.

Bella turned her face to Jacob. Behave, she ordered, And then come

back. He stayed silent. Im promising nothing.

I walked out the front door, sensing Jacob following me. I knew distantly

that I shouldnt turn my back on my enemy, but I didnt react to the

instinct. Well, separating him from his coven was easy , Jacob thought. Ill

have to decide very quickly when to attack.

Im not ready for you to kill me yet, Jacob Black, I whispered as I strode

away from the house. Youll have to have a little patience.

Like I care about your schedule, bloodsucker . Patience isnt my speciality,

he growled. I could sense Jacob tremble and the waves of heat roll off

him; he was preparing to phase at a seconds notice. I stopped abruptly

and turned to face him. I could see myself through his eyes; he froze at

the apparent agony contorting my features, my eyes out of focus. In that

instant I wished I could pull my own thick, icy skin away, tear myself to



pieces; anything to escape this torture. Its killing her, right? Shes

dying? Jacobs face became a mask of horror that weakly resembled my

own and I vaguely picked up the train of his thoughts. This isnt happening.

I cant get my head around it. Not again...Ive already lost her so many

times in my head... But shes never been mine to lose. And this isnt my fault.

My fault, I murmured, and I sank to my knees. I stared at the dirt

beneath me as the torturing words escaped my lips. Yes, yes its killing

her.

Damn, hes the easiest target. I want a fight not an execution. Wheres his

smug superiority now? So why hasnt Carlisle done anything? Jacob

growled. Hes a doctor, right? Get it out of her.

So Jacob shared my sentiments. She wont let us, I explained wearily.

Jeez, shes running true to form. Of course, die for the monster spawn. Its

so Bella.

You know her well, I observed. How quickly you see... I didn t see. Not

in time. She wouldnt talk to me on the way home. Not really. I thought

she was frightened, that would be natural. I thought she was angry with

me for putting her through this, for endangering her life. Again. I neverimagined what she was really thinking, what she was resolving. Not until

my family met us at the airport and she ran right into Rosalies arms.

Rosalies! And then I heard what Rosalie was thinking. I didnt understand

until I heard that. Yet you understand after one second... I sighed.

Just back up a second. She wont let you, he spat sarcastically. Did you

ever notice that shes exactly as strong as a normal hundred -and-ten-

pound human girl? How stupid are you vamps? Hold her down and knock

her out with drugs.

I wanted to, I replied. Carlisle would have...

Too noble?

No. Not noble. Her bodyguard complicated things. I stated bitterly.



Oh. The blonde. Whats in it for her? Does the beauty queen want Bella to

die so badly?

Maybe, I said, pain tearing through me at the thought. Rosalie doesnt

look at it quite that way. I suppose that was one way of putting it.

So take the blonde out first. Your kind can be put back together, right?

Turn her into a jigsaw then take care of Bella.

Emmett and Esme are backing her up. Emmett would never let us...and

Carlisle wont help me with Esme against it... My voice disappeared.

You should have left Bella with me, Jacob stated.

Yes, I agreed, confirming my earlier thoughts.

Bit late. Should have thought of that before you knocked her up with the

life-sucking monster. I couldnt disagree with him. I just stared as his

words ran through me like sharp blades. We didnt know, I tried to

explain in a hushed tone. I never dreamed. Theres never been anything

like Bella and I before. How could we know that a human was able to

conceive a child with one of us-

When the human should get ripped to shreds in the process? Jacob

snapped.

Yes. Theyre out there, the sadistic ones, the incubus, the succubus. They

exist. But the seduction is merely a prelude to the feast. No-one survives,

I shook my head, disgusted.

Like youre any different. I didnt realize they had a special name for what

you are, he spat.

I simply stared back out of my unfocused, burning eyes full of self-hatred.

Even you, Jacob Black, cannot hate me as much as I hate myself. Wrong,

he thought in his rage. Killing me now doesnt save her, I whispered.

So what does?

Jacob, you have to do something for me, I pleaded.

The hell I do, parasite!



For her? I begged again.

He clenched his teeth together. I did everything I could to keep her away

from you. Every single thing. Its too late.

You know her, Jacob. You connect with her on a level that I dont evenunderstand. You are part of her, and she is part of you. She wont listen to

me, because she thinks Im underestimating her. She thinks shes strong

enough for this... I choked. She might listen to you.

Why would she?

I staggered to my feet. I saw my eyes through Jacobs mind; they were

wild now. Can vampires lose their minds? He thought rhetorically.

Maybe, I answered. I dont know. It feels like it. I have to try to hide thisin front of her because stress makes her more ill. She cant keep anything

down as it is. I have to be composed; I cant make it harder. But that

doesnt matter now. She has to listen to you!

I cant tell her anything you havent. What do you want me to do? Tell

her shes stupid? She probably already knows that. Tell her that shes

going to die? I bet she knows that, too.

You can offer her what she wants. I replied, voicing my earlier idea.

What?! Part of the crazy? He asked himself. I focused, knowing exactly

what I wanted more than anything else in the world. I dont care about

anything but keeping her alive. If its a child she wants, she can have it.

She can have half a dozen babies. Anything she wants, I paused getting

ready to say the next words, knowing the agony they would cause me but

prepared to do anything to keep Bella alive. She can have puppies, if

thats what it takes. I stared at him watching as my words dawned on

him. His jaw dropped in shock. But not this way! I hissed, Not this thing

thats sucking the life from her while I stand there helpless! Watching her

sicken and waste away. Seeing it hurting her. I felt like Id been punched

in the stomach. You have to make her see reason, Jacob. She wont listen

to me anymore. Rosalies always there, feeding her insanity- encouraging

her. Protecting her. No, protecting it . Bellas life means nothing to her. I

felt another surge of hatred towards my sister.



What?! Bella should have a baby? With me? Is he giving her up? Or does

he think she wouldnt mind being shared?

Whichever. Whatever keeps her alive, I stated honestly.

Thats the craziest thing youve said yet.

She loves you, I said, feeling the tear in my heart.

Not enough.

Shes ready to die to have a child. Maybe shed accept something less

extreme.

Dont you know her at all?

I know, I know. Its going to take a lot of convincing. Thats why I need

you. You know how she thinks. Make her see sense. I caught flickers of

Jacobs thoughts. Wrong. Sick . Mental images of him and Bella flowed... I

flinched. Bella in his arms, sighing his name...Bella round with his child, not

distorted like she was with mine. The self-disgust roared loudly inside me

as he cut off his thoughts.

Make Bella see sense? What universe do you live in?

At least try, I pleaded.

He shook his head, but I heard the conflict raging inside. Where is this

psycho crap coming from? Are you making this up as you go?

I sighed. Ive been thinking of nothing but ways to save her since I

realized what I was planning to do. What she would die to do. But I didnt

know how to contact you. I knew you wouldnt listen if I called. I would

have come to find you soon, if you hadnt come today. But its hard to

leave her, even for a few minutes. Her condition...it changes so fast. Thething is...growing. Swiftly. I cant be away from her now.

What is it?

None of us have any idea. But it is stronger than she is. Already. Help me

stop it, I whispered. Help me stop this from happening.



How? By offering my stud services? He flinched at his words, but I was

past caring. Youre really sick. Shell never listen to this.

Try. Theres nothing to lose now. How will it hurt?

Itll hurt me. Havent I taken enough rejection from Bella without this? ,Jacob thought.

A little pain to save her? Is it such a high cost?

But it wont work, he sighed.

Maybe not. Maybe it will confuse her, though. Maybe shell falter in her

resolve. One moment of doubt is all I need. Yes, just a moment... I had to

believe that.

And then you pull the rug out from under the offer? Just kidding Bella?

If she wants a child, thats what she gets. I wont rescind, I said honestly.

Just as long as shes alive...

I should just kill him now.

Not now, I whispered. Not yet. Right or wrong, it would destroy her,

and you know it. No need to be hasty. If she wont listen to you, youll get

your chance. The moment Bellas heart stops beating, I will be begging foryou to kill me.

You wont have to beg long, he retorted.

My mouth twitched into the hint of a tired smile. Im very much counting

on that.

Then we have a deal, I said, stretching my cold , white hand out in offer.

His russet-coloured fingers closed around mine. We have a deal.



Chapter 10

I strolled back to the white house, Jacob following close behind. I wont do

it. Ill just talk to her thats all...His conflicted mind was racing, but I didnt

comment on his thoughts. I wanted to get back to Bella. Id made sure we

were out of earshot from my family, and their eyes were wary and

confused as we walked through the front door, casting furtive glances

across us both as if checking for signs of a fight. I walked to the middle of

the group, Bellas eyes anxiously on my face. They flickered to Jacob then

back to me; I watched in angst as her face grew grayish pale with the

stress. Were going to let Jacob and Bella speak privately, I state d

robotically.

Over my pile of ashes, Rosalie hissed at me.

Now that would be a delight , Alice thought scathingly, shooting her sister

a murderous glare.

I paid Rosalie no attention, and looked into Bellas eyes. Bella, Jacob

wants to talk to you. Are you afraid to be alone with him? I asked flatly.

She looked at Jacob, confused, and then turned to Rosalie. Rose, its fine.

Jakes not going to hurt us. Go with Edward.

It might be a trick, Rosalie said warily, eyes flicking from side to side as

she leaned in to Bella conspiratorially.

I dont see how.

I turned to face Rosalie. Carlisle and I will always be in your sight,

Rosalie, my voice cracking with my fury. Were the ones shes afraid of.

No, Bella murmured, her eyes swimming with tears, glistening on the

ends of her long lashes. No, Edward. Im not...

I shook my head, turning the corners of my mouth up ever so slightly for

Bellas sake. It was painful. I didnt mean it that way, Bella. Im fine. Dont

worry about me. I gestured toward the door. Everyone, please. I could

see the pity in their eyes as the cracks in my façade started to appear.

Esme rubbed my arm as they departed; only Rosalie hesitated.



Rose, I want you to go, Bella whispered.

Rosalie glowered at me, gesturing for me to leave first. I sighed at her

obstinacy, and exited the house with Rosalie at my heels. We joined the

rest of our family in the shadows of the forest, where we would be unable

to hear Jacob and Bellas conversation. It needed to be private.

I dont like this. I dont like this one bit! Rosalie snarled at me, her

fingers twitching into claws.

Alice hissed in her direction.

Carlisle tried to redirect the conversation. Rose, Im going to suggest an

IV drip and monitors to Bella. Whats your view?

Youre not sticking any needles in that girl!

Rose, the baby and Bella are lacking sustenance. They wont survive

much longer if I cant get some fluids into her.

We all stood in silence for several minutes; Esme muffling sobs with her

hands. She was terrified at the prospect of losing her daughter and her

grandchild. Rosalie pursed her lips like she would very much like to argue,

but said nothing. If it helps the baby...she thought. A growl ripped out of

my chest.

Im going back in, Rosalie announced. He might hurt the - he might hurt

Bella, she amended, but she was fooling no one.

Oh give it a rest, Rose! Alice snapped, throwing her arms up in the air.

We all know why youre doing this! Give it up!

Hey, dont get at her- Emmett started moving forward; Jasper growled

at him, curling protectively around Alices tiny form.

Ill say whatever I like to that- that murderer, Alice spat; it sounded odd

in her chirpy voice. She was voicing my thoughts so exactly it was as if she

could read my mind, and Id never seen her so irate. In her eyes, and mine,

that was exactly what Rosalie was; Bellas life counted for nothing to her

as long as the baby survived.



Rosalie and Emmett growled, squaring off against Alice, Jasper and I, all of

us tensed ready to pounce, air hissing through our gritted teeth and eyes

narrowed as tensions soared. Esme whimpered as she saw her beloved

family falling apart around her. How had we come to this?

Thats enough! Carlisle shouted and everyone relaxed their positions

slightly, Alice folding her arms across her chest, eyes flaming. Jasper stood

in front of her still, eyeing Emmett and reading the mood around us. The

only sound was Esmes hitched breathing. Carlisle shook his head; he

hated raising his voice. Now this is a very tough time for everyone, but

weve got to focus on Bella, and not start tearing into each other. He

sighed and rubbed his temple. Everyone nodded in agreement with that,

but averted their eyes from each other.

Sorry about that, Edward. You know how much we love Bella, I just had to

defend Rose...you know...

Just then we saw Jacob storm out of the house and take off into the

woods in the opposite direction. I knew that his attempt to reason with

Bella had been fruitless, as I had expected, but I had still hoped. I ran back

at full speed. Rosalie was trying to beat me there but she stood no chance;

I was the fastest in our family. I found Bella lying ashen-faced on the sofa,

silent tears trickling down her cheek. I knelt down and wiped them awaywith my cold fingertips.

Rosalie wasnt far behind. What the hell did that dog say?! She asked,

outraged to see Bella crying, worrying what damage the stress could do to

the baby. She tried to push me out the way but I didnt move.

Bella, love, please dont stress yourself- I pleaded.

Edward, Im so sorry! she cried. I was shocked. I should have stopped

trying to predict her reactions long ago. She wasnt even mad at me for

my suggestion to Jacob; she was scared for what this was doing to me. My

heart was plunging that my last hope had failed, but I wouldnt show her.

What would I do now? Sit around and watch her die?

Shh, I soothed, and she nestled her thin face into my palm.



What did you tell that mutt to say, Edward?! Rosalie glared at me

murderously. As was fast becoming a habit, I ignored her.

Its not about a baby, Bella continued, Its this baby. I love him. I cant

hurt him.

When would she realise this wasnt a sweet child worth cooing over and

protecting? That it was a monster, just like me?

I didnt want to argue and stress her more; so I just stayed silent. I listened

to her heartbeat, the most vital, unique sound in the world to me; it was

definitely growing weaker. Carlisle seemed to have noticed as well.

Bella, I need to monitor you more carefully. Youre getting dangerously

dehydrated and malnourished. Am I allowed to attach some tubes and anIV to you? I wont do anything youre not happy with.

She looked to Rosalie, who still didnt seem impressed with the idea, but

gave Bella a weak smile of approval. Finally, Bella nodded.

The close stand-off in the forest was long buried between Emmett and

Jasper that afternoon, though Alice and I still harboured animosity toward

Rosalie, and her likewise.

Jasper, Emmett, Esme and Alice dragged the furniture out of the way tomake room for the equipment that Carlisle acquired from the hospital,

including a vast blood supply, should she need a transfusion. I stayed next

to Bella, holding her hand and staring at the pale lavender of her closed,

delicate eyelids, brushing her limp hair from her face. Rosalie refused to

relax her protective stance. When Carlisle returned, he set up the

equipment quickly and he attached an IV full of viscous, white liquid into

Bellas arm.

I couldnt believe that less than a month ago we had celebrated our

fairytale wedding in this very room, and now my brid e lay dying in front of

me. Bella always looked stunning to me but that day... she was an

absolute vision as she came down the aisle dressed in white lace and satin,

her mahogany hair braided and gathered up in a crown with sapphire

encrusted hair slides. Her skin was cream and roses, her chocolate eyes



wide with excitement, framed by thick, long lashes. And now... she lay on

a hospital bed, her pallor chalky, and her skin almost waxy. The only

sounds were the beeping monitors, the dripping of the IV as fluid flowed

into her system, her shallow breaths and her irregular heartbeat.

When Carlisle had done all he could for the time being, he and Esme left

to hunt; and I was left to my misery.



Chapter 11

I was leaning over the rail on Bellas left, watching her in an uneasy sleep,

when I heard two minds that didnt belong to anyone in the house; yet

were, again, familiar to me.

Edward? Edward, you there? Okay, now I feel kinda stupid .

You sound stupid, too.

Think he can hear us?

I think so. Hey, Edward. If you can hear me- circle the wagons,

bloodsucker. Youve got a problem.

I instantly jumped up and dashed out onto the porch, with Jasper andEmmett flanking me. Looking out into the darkness , I saw two wolves, one

russet, the other sandy, break through the trees onto the lawn. Jacob?

Seth? Whats going on?

They let their minds run over the confrontation with Sam... Bellas dappled

stomach... my face twisted in agony... Rosalie hovering protectively... Not

safe. Not right. Dangerous. Unnatural. Monstrous. An abomination. I

hissed in fury and jumped off the porch. They want to kill Bella? I

snarled. Jasper and Emmett, having missed the first part of the

conversation leapt down next to me, moving on Jacob and Seth with their

lips pulled back over their teeth. Seth backed away. Em, Jazz- not them!

The others. The pack is coming.

Jasper didnt move his eyes from the two wolves. Emmett turned to me.

Whats their problem? he demanded.

The same one as mine, I hissed. But they have their own plan to handle

it. Get the others. Call Carlisle! He and Esme have to get back here now.Emmett pulled his cell from his pocket and dialled.

Damn, they are separated , Jacob whined.

They arent far, I assured him.

Im going to take a look , Seth thought. Run the western perimeter .



Will you be in danger, Seth?

Dont think so...

But maybe I should go. Just in case... Jacob thought.

Theyll be less likely to challenge me, Seth pointed out, Im just a kid to

them.

Youre just a kid to me, kid.

Im outta here. You need to coordinate with the Cullens.

Seth darted into the trees. I stood facing Jacob, Emmett speaking rapidly

to Carlisle on the phone. Alice came out to the porch. Is everything okay,

Edward? I shook my head infinitesimally but gave no further explanation.This isnt the first time Ive owed you my gratitude, Jacob, I whispered.

I would never have asked for this from you.

Yeah, you would.

I thought about what Id asked of him earlier, and then nodded. I suppose

youre right about that.

Jacob sighed. Well, this isnt the first time that I didnt do it for you.

Right.

Sorry I didnt do any good today. Told you she wouldnt listen to me.

I know. I never really believed she would. But...

You had to try. I get it. She any better?

I shut my eyes and took a breath through the pain. Worse.

Alice, irked now by the one-sided conversation, stepped in. Jacob, wouldyou mind switching forms? I want to know whats going on.

I shook my head. He needs to stay linked to Seth.

Then would you be so kind as to tell me whats happening? She asked,

hands on her hips.



The pack thinks Bellas become a problem, I started in an empty voice.

They foresee potential danger from the...from what shes carrying. They

feel its their duty to remove the danger. Jacob and Seth disbanded from

the pack to warn us. The rest are planning on attacking tonight.

Alice hissed furiously as Emmett and Jasper cast furtive glances into the

trees. Emmett pressed the end button on his cell, and said, Carlisle and

Esme are on their way. Twenty minutes, tops.

We should take up a defensive position, said Jasper, ever the strategist.

Lets get inside, I agreed.

Ill run perimeter with Seth. If I get too far for you to hear my head, listen

for my howl, Jacob said.

I will, I nodded. Alice, Jasper, Emmett and I backed into the house

casting furtive glances all around us. Jasper began pacing up and down

between the window and the spiral stair case, and Emmett went to tell

Rosalie the news; she hissed so loudly she almost woke Bella up. Alice,

while grateful for Jacob and Seths warning, sported a slight pout on her

elfin features as our future mingled with that of the wolves and promptly

disappeared, which disconcerted her momentarily.

I sat holding Bellas hand, which no longer radiated its usual warmth. I was

watching her slipping away before my very eyes. I was able to keep the

grief from crushing me completely when I was doing something proactive,

so I rubbed my temple and concentrated on Jacob and Seths thoughts.

Whyre you so down, Jake? Seth asked. Ill bet Sam wont bring the pack

tonight. Hes not going to launch a suicide mission. Oh. This isnt so much

about Sam, is it? You think Bellas going to die anyway.

Yeah, she is. I drew in a sharp intake of breath. It was different from me

thinking it, to hearing the words in anothers thoughts. Suddenly, Carlisle

and Esme came bursting through the door, my father resting a reassuring

hand on my shoulder.

We saw Seth. He said he and Jacob were running patrols? Carlisle asked.

I nodded in confirmation, and proceeded to explain the situation



thoroughly to him. Carlisle detested violence more than anyone, so it was

with a resigned sigh and a grimace that he turned to Jasper and said,

What do we do?

The bad news, Jasper began, still pacing, is that the wolves know our

fighting tactics. He cracked his knuckles against his palm in frustration.

Fortunately, however, we now outweigh them in numbers. Just. A

delighted grin lit up Emmetts face at the thought of an imminent fight

with werewolves.

We cant ask Jacob and Seth to fight against their brothers, Jasper!

Carlisle said exasperatedly.

Excellent, thought Emmett, all the more for us. Grizzlies are getting pretty

predictable. His grin grew wider, excitement leaping in his eyes.

Well, we still have a great deal more skill and experience, Jasper

continued, But I dont like it, Carlisle. He walked over to put his arms

protectively on Alices shoulders, looking into her eyes. I wont have Alice

in danger like that...

Reading his expression she spoke out, looking him seriously in the eyes.

Jazz, Ill be fine. She was right; even without her vision, Alice was as

dangerous as the rest of us.

Can we run? Jasper asked, torn; it wasnt his nature to back down from

a fight, but he didnt want Alice in peril.

No, Carlisle shook his head. Bella is far too delicate. Besides, I need the

medical access I have here.

Jasper nodded and went back to pacing, head resting on the tips of his

fingers.

A deafening howl suddenly pierced the air. I darted back to the window.

False alarm, false alarm, Jacob thought. Sorry. Seth is young. He forgets

things. No ones attacking. False alarm. He emerged out of the thick trees

onto the lawn. Theres nothing out there-you got that? I nodded once and

turned to look over my shoulder at Bella. Her heart faltered for a beat; I

shuddered. I waved Jacob away absentmindedly and returned to her side.



The others looked up at me, their faces tense and questioning, eyes raking

the forest through the window. It was a false alarm, I explained. Seth

was upset about something else, and he forgot we were listening for a

signal. Hes very young.

Nice to have toddlers guarding the fort, Emmett grumbled.

Theyve done us a great service tonight, Emmett, Carlisle said, At great

personal sacrifice.

Yeah, I know, Im just jealous. Wish I was out there. He punched a fist

into his palm.

Seth doesnt think Sam will attack now, I interjected robotically. Not

with us forewarned, and lacking two members of the pack.

What does Jacob think? Carlisle asked.

Hes not as optimistic, I replied. Carlisle nodded and walked over to us

to observe Bella more closely. He tapped the IV with his finger. Shes just

not absorbing anything... He reached down to feel her forehead.

Dont touch her! Rosalie whispered. Youll wake her up!

He sighed. How do they expect me to help if I cant get near her ?

Rosalie, he murmured.

Dont start with me, Carlisle, she snarled. We let you have your way

earlier, but thats all were allowing.

Bella choked in her sleep and Rosalie and I rose to hover over her. Rosalie

stroked her hand across Bellas forehead. I stiffened as I watched. I was

incensed, and my face contorted with all the grief, agony and pure anger

coursing through my dried-up veins. Emmett jumped between Rosalie and

me, holding his hands up. Not tonight, Edward. Weve got other things to

worry about.

I turned away and met Jacobs wide eyes peering through the glass at the

scene of horror before him. Yes, I thought, we certainly do.



Chapter 12

Dawn soon came bringing with it wispy, pale clouds of violet. No attack

materialised, but none of us relaxed either. After discussing it with

Carlisle, I had managed to find a softer, more tactful way to explain to

Bella that a pack of murderous wolves were intent on killing her and the

new life growing in her womb. I had explained about Jacob and Seth

disbanding from the pack, and promised her that we would keep her safe.

From the wolves, at least, I thought, wishing I could promise more.

She was deteriorating. Fast. I watched her pant for breath, listened to her

increasingly uneven heart, and saw her stomach turn an increasingly

mottled black with bruising from the forceful kicks of the creation inside

her. I forced myself not to scream, just like I had done in Volterra underJanes fiery glare, because I knew it would cause Bella pain. Id gladly take

that agony for all eternity just so Bella wouldnt suffer.

Jasper, Emmett and I had gathered in Carlisles study; dusty, thick tomes

were piled high on his desk with titles such as South American Tribes and

Myths and Legends. Boys, I need your help, he began. They nodded.

Edward, understandably, needs to be with Bella, but I need some help

with research, and quickly. Anything we can find out could be vital in

keeping Bella alive. The more we know, the better I can treat them both.Well start with the Libishomen and the Ticuna Indians-

He was interrupted by another howl piercing the air. I flew down the stairs

with my father and brothers behind me, to see Seth waiting outside the

window. Another false alarm. Sorry guys. Its just Leah. Shes come to help.

I nodded. Wow, you look bad, man. I didnt acknowledge the thought; I

just stared back without seeing, and returned to sit beside Bella, opposite

Rosalie. Alice, Jasper and Emmett started discussing the research task in

serious, hushed tones while Esme hummed tunelessly to herself upstairs,

trying to keep busy. I heard Jacob phase into his human form and walk

towards the house; Carlisle went to greet him. Whispers of their

conversation started to trickle through my trance-like state from the

porch steps where they both sat.



I didnt get a chance to thank you last night, Jacob. You dont know how

much I appreciate your... compassion. I know your goal was to protect

Bella, but I owe you the safety of the rest of my family as well. Edward

told me what you had to do...

Dont mention it, Jacob muttered.

If you prefer.

After several minutes of silence, Jacob spoke again. Shes family to you?

Yes. Bella is already a daughter to me. A beloved daughter.

But youre going to let her die.

Carlisle was quiet for a long moment. I can imagine what you think of mefor that. But i cant ignore her will. It wouldnt be right to make such a

choice for her, to force her. I knew he was right; but it didnt make the

pill any easier to swallow.

Do you think theres any chance shell make it? Jacob asked. I mean as

a vampire and all that. She told me about...about Esme.

Id say theres an even chance at this point. I've seen vampire venom

work miracles, but there are conditions that even venom cannot

overcome. Her heart is working too hard now; if it should fail...there wont

be anything for me to do. Carlisle told Jacob. My hands clenched into

tight fists. ...Im watching her- and not just her, but the fetus as well-

starve to death by the hour. I cant stop it and I cant slow it down. I cant

figure out what it wants.

Probably just looking for something to sink its teeth into- a throat to suck

dry. I can tell them exactly what it wants: death and blood, blood and

death, Jacob thought painfully.

Of course, I thought as I took in Jacobs words. Its thirsty... Why has this

not occurred to me before? It seemed so obvious now. I felt the tiniest

flicker of hope inside me, which felt alien in my despair.

The rest of their conversation faded as I considered the idea, the

possibilities and the implications. I smoothed Bellas hair that clung to her



Rosalie hissed under her breath, her face lighting up like a childs on

Christmas morning. Of course, she murmured. Carlisle, we have all that

type O negative laid aside for Bella. Its a good idea.

Hmm. Carlisle raised his hand to his chin, his thoughts racing. I

wonder... And then what would be the best way to administer...

We dont have time to be creative, Rosalie snapped. Id say we should

start with the traditional way.

Wait a minute, Jacob interrupted. Just hold on. Are you- are you talking

about making Bella drink blood ?

It was your idea, dog. Rosalie scowled at him.

I watched Carlisles face. I could see the faint flicker of hope that had been

lit inside me, appear in his eyes. He pursed his lips.

Thats just... Jacob trailed off.

Monstrous? I offered. Repulsive?

Pretty much.

But what if it helps her? I whispered.

What are you gonna do, shove a tube down her throat? he said angrily.

I plan to ask her what she thinks. I just wanted to run it past Carlisle

first.

Rosalie nodded with excitement. If you tell her it might help the baby,

shell be willing to do anything. Even if we do have to feed them through a

tube.

Blondie would be in line with anything that helped the little life-suckingmonster. Is that whats going on? Is she after the kid? Jacob questioned.

I nodded infinitesimally, answering Jacobs thoughts. Fury swelled within

me towards my sister.



Huh. Wouldnt have thought ice-cold Barbie had a maternal side. So much

for protecting Bella- Rosalied probably jam the tube down Bellas throat

herself.

I pressed my lips into a hard line, again answering the affirmative.

Well, we dont have time to sit around discussing thi s, Rosalie said

impatiently. What do you think Carlisle? Can we try?

Carlisle took a deep breath and stood up. Well ask Bella. Rosalies face

was plastered with a smug smile, convinced she was about to get her way.

We went back into the house, Bella eyeing us suspiciously as we flitted to

her side.

Whats going on? she whispered in a painfully frail voice. She tried toplace her hand over her expansive stomach.

Jacob had an idea that might help you, Carlisle said. Leave me out of it,

Jacob thought. Give the credit to her blood-sucking husband, where it

belongs. It wont be...pleasant, but-

But it will help the baby, Rose interrupted fervently, her eyes lit up and

head bobbing. Weve thought of a better way to feed him. Maybe.

Bellas eyes fluttered gently and she gave a faint chortle. Not pleasant?she murmured, glancing at the tube in her arm. Gosh, thatll be such a

change. Rosalie laughed with her sycophantically.

I had no inclination to laugh. I moved around Rosalie, taking Bellas free

hand in mine and looking her deep in the eyes. Bella, love, were going to

ask you to do something monstrous, I started. Repulsive.

How bad? she asked warily.

We think the fetus might have an appetite closer to ours than to yours,

Carlisle explained. We think its thirsty.

She blinked for a second, and then understood. Oh. Oh.



Your condition-both your conditions- are deteriorating rapidly. We dont

have time to waste, to come up with more palatable ways to do this. The

fastest way to test the theory-

Ive got to drink it, she murmured, bobbing her head slightly in

agreement. I can do that. Practice for the future, right? She looked at

me, her pallid lips pulling up at the corners into a slight grin, but no

humour touched me. Rosalie was growing impatient, tapping her designer

shoe against the pale wooden floor rhythmically.

I wonder what shed do if I threw her against a wall, thought Jacob angrily.

Id be only too delighted to help him.

So, whos going to catch me a grizzly bear? Bella whispered with as

much enthusiasm as she could. Carlisle and I glanced at each other

conspiratorially. What? Bella asked, noticing our quick exchange.

It will be a more effective test if we dont cut corners, Bella, Carlisle said.

I explained further; If the fetus is craving blood, its not craving animal

blood.

It wont make a difference to you Bella. Dont think about it, Rosalie

enthused.

As she took in what we were saying, Bellas eyes grew wide with fear.

Who? she breathed, her eyes flashing to Jacob.

Im not here as a donor, Bells, Jacob said, raising his hands out in front

of him. Sides its human blood that things after, and I dont think mine

applies-

We have blood on hand, Rosalie spoke over Jacob. For you- just in case.

Dont worry about anything at all. Its going to be fine. I have a good

feeling about this, Bella. I think the baby will be so much better.

Bella stroked her stomach delicately. Well, she started; her voice

scratchy and low. Im starving, so Ill bet he is too. Lets go for it. My first

vampire act.



Chapter 13

At Bellas words, Carlisle and Rosalie flew upstairs, wondering whether or

not the blood should be warmed up first. I stayed by Bellas side, holding

her hand and gazing into her exhausted eyes conveying my love for her . I

love you so much. I could tell she was thinking the same. As I stared at my

wifes painfully frail form, the flicker of hope I had felt was extinguished

inside me as Kaures last word echoed endlessly through my head;

morte .

Rosalie darted down the stairs into the kitchen, opening a cupboard door

on the right, reaching for a transparent cup. Not clear , Rosalie, I

whispered, rolling my eyes. I didnt want Bella to have to think about what

she was doing any more than was necessary. Bella looked at me curiously,but I just shook my head as Rosalie flitted back upstairs.

Bella turned her gaze to Jacob. This was your idea?

Dont blame me for this one. Your vampire was just picking snide

comments out of my head.

She managed a faint smile. I didnt expect to see you again.

Yeah, me, either. How have I got drawn back into this?

Edward told me what you had to do. Im sorry.

Sokay. It was probably only a matter of time till I snapped over

something Sam wanted me to do, he lied.

And Seth, she murmured.

Hes actually happy to help.

I hate causing you trouble.

Jacob barked a chuckle. Bella sighed. I guess thats nothing new, is it?

No, not really.

You dont have to stay and watch this, she offered.



I dont really have anywhere else to go. The whole wolf thing is a lot less

appealing since Leah joined up.

Leah? she breathed in surprise.

You didnt tell her? he asked of me. I shrugged, keeping my eyes onBellas face. I hadnt thought, in the scheme of things, that it was

altogether important at the moment.

Why? she gasped.

To keep an eye on Seth, Jacob explained, keeping to the simplest

version.

But Leah hates us, Bella croaked.

Leahs not going to bug anyone. But me, he amended. Shes in my pack,

so she follows my lead. He grimaced at the words; Jacob was

uncomfortable with his new role as Alpha. Bella still looked at him

sceptically. Youre scared of Leah, he continued, but your best buds

with the psychopath blonde? Rosalie hissed from upstairs. Ill gladly show

him a psychopath if he wants one , Rose thought.

Dont. Bella frowned. Rose...understands.

Yeah, Jacob grumbled. She understands that youre gonna die and she

doesnt care, slong as she gets her mutant spawn out of the deal.

Stop being a jerk, Jacob, she muttered.

You say that like its possible.

I could see Bella fighting back a smile, but her colourless lips twitched.

Rosalie and Carlisle came back down the stairs, Carlisle clutching a white

plastic cup with a lid and bendy straw. Carlisle started to reach towardsBella, and then paused. She was eyeing the cup warily.

We could try another method, Carlisle said softly.

No, Bella rasped. No, Ill try this first. We dont have time... She

reached for the cup and took it in her hand, shaking a little. She tried to

haul herself up and rest on her elbow, but it was too much effort for her in



her frail condition. Rosalie put her arm beneath Bellas shoulders and

supported her head. Thanks, Bella whispered. Her eyes cast glances at

all of us, feeling self-conscious about what she was about to do. Her

cheeks remained ashen, though they would normally have been bright

scarlet with the attention.

Dont mind them, Rosalie said. I could sense a tenor of awkwardness

from Jacobs thoughts. This must have been incredibly difficult to watch

and it was a sign of the love he felt for Bella that he stayed.

Bella raised the cup to her nose and inhaled. She flinched at the smell and

winced. Bella, sweetheart, we can find an easier way, I said, holding my

hand up to remove the cup.

Plug your nose, Rosalie advised, staring at my outstretched hand like she

would snap it off.

No, thats not it. Its just that it- Bella breathed in deeply. It smells

good, she confessed.

Thats a good thing, Rosalie encouraged. That means were on the right

track. Give it a try. Her face was the definition of excitement itself. She

looked like she was about to jump u p and down and clap with glee.

Bella placed her mouth over the straw; her eyes shut tight and wrinkling

her nose. She took a tentative sip and moaned. Bella, love-

Im okay, she insisted, opening her eyes to stare up at me, a pleading

tone in her voice. It tastes good, too.

Thats good, Rosalie enthused again. A good sign. I pressed my hand

to her now hollow cheek, curving my fingers gently around the protruding

bones. She nestled into my touch and sucked in a deep sip of blood.

Hows your stomach? Do you feel nauseated? Carlisle enquired.

No, I dont feel sick, Bella murmured, shaking her head. Thats a first,

eh?

Excellent, Rosalie smiled, revealing her gleaming white teeth.

I think its a bit early for that, Rose, Carlisle cautioned.



Bella was swigging the blood down now. Suddenly she looked up at me.

Does this screw my total? she asked. Or do we start counting after Im

a vampire?

No one is counting, Bella. In any case, no one died for this. Your record is

still clean.

Huh? Thought Jacob.

Ill explain later, I said under my breath.

What?Bella murmured.

Just talking to myself, I lied.

Seriously, if Bella lives, hes not gonna get away with so much when her

senses are as sharp as his. Hell definitely have to work on the honesty

thing.

My lips tugged up at the corners. Bella turned her attention to stare

absentmindedly out the window.

Probably pretending Im not here. No one else is disgusted. Just t he

opposite- theyre probably having a hard time not ripping the cup away

from her.

I rolled my eyes.

Jeez, how does anyone stand living with him? Its too bad he cant hear Bellas thoughts. Then hed annoy the crap out of her, too, and shed get

tired of him.

I chuckled once. It felt strange, alien and painful on my face. Bellas eyes

fell on me and managed a weak smile at what she saw. After all, I hadnt

felt or shown any humour since Isle Esme...

Something funny? Bella asked.

Jacob, I replied.

She turned her gaze to him. Jakes a crack-up, she agreed.

Bada bing, he muttered. Great, now Im the court jester.

Bella took the final gulp from the cup until she was sucking at air. I did it,

she said. Everyone could hear the slight difference in her voice; it was



stronger, still cracked, but louder. If I keep this down, Carlisle, will you

take the needles out of me?

As soon as possible, he swore. Honestly, they arent doing that much

good where they are.

Rosalie stroked Bellas forehead while they glanced at each other

hopefully. The first effects of the blood were immediate; her otherwise

sallow cheeks had just a hint of pink returning to them, her breathing less

laboured and her heartbeat more even. She wasnt relying on Rosalies

support as much as before; she was ever so slightly stronger. The flicker of

hope that had been extinguished in me reignited into a full-blown flame.

Would you like more? Rosalie asked.

Bellas shoulders fell, and I shot a furious glare at Rose for pushing Bella on

this. You dont have to drink more right away, I told her.

Yeah, I know. But...I want to, she declared.

Rosalie combed her perfect fingers through Bellas flaccid hair. You dont

need to be embarrassed about that, Bella. Your body has cravings. We all

understand that, she soothed. Anyone who doesnt understand

shouldnt be here, she amended severely, obviously aimed at Jacob. He

didnt care.

She really does look better, Edward , thought Carlisle. He reached for

Bellas cup. Ill be right back.

Bella stared at Jacob, taking in his exhausted appearance. Jake, you look

awful, she observed.

Look whos talking.

Seriously- whens the last time you slept?

Huh. Im not actually sure.

Aw, Jake. Now Im messing with your heath too. Dont be stupi d.

I heard him clench his teeth together. Shes allowed to kill herself for a

monster, but Im not allowed to miss a few nights sleep to watch her do it?

Get some rest, please, she pleaded. Therere a few beds upstairs-

youre welcome to any of them.



No, you most certainly are not, thought Rosalie, but she didnt say

anything; she didnt want to upset Bella.

Thanks, Bells, but Id rather sleep on the ground. Away from the stench,

you know.

Right.

Carlisle came flying down the stairs, a fresh cup of blood in his hand. Bella

reached out for it, seemingly unconsciously, and started gulping it down.

She was improving in front of our eyes. She moved into a sitting position,

her legs crossed and continued to stare out the window. Rosalie kept her

hands in place should Bella slump but it was unnecessary. Soon, Bella had

finished the second cup.

How do you feel now? Carlisle asked.

Not sick. Sort of hungry...only Im not sure if Im hungry or thirsty , you

know?

Carlisle, just look at her, Rosalie glowed. This is obviously what her

body wants. She should drink more.

Shes still human, Rosalie. She needs food, too. Lets give her a little while

to see how this affects her, and then maybe we can try some food again.Does anything sound particularly good to you, Bella?

Eggs, she said without hesitation. We exchanged a knowing smile.

I noticed Jacobs eyes growing heavier. Jacob, you really should sleep. As

Bella said, youre certainly welcome to the accommodations here, though

youd probably be more comfortable outside. Dont worry about anything-

I promise Ill find you if theres a need.

Sure, sure, he muttered whilst stifling a yawn.

Now she looks a bit better, I can escape. Go curl up under a tree

somewhere...Far enough away that the smell cant reach me. The

bloodsucker will wake me if something goes wrong. He owes me.

I do, I concurred.



He put his hand on Bellas. Feel better, he wished her.

Thanks, Jacob.

Get her a blanket or something, he said as he turned for the door. Two

howls suddenly cut the air. Dammit, Jacob growled, pulling the dooropen and throwing himself off the porch, phasing in midair and destroying

his shorts in the process. I made a mental note to get him some more;

Emmetts would probably fit around him.

What is it?

Incoming, at least three , Seth answered.

Em, Jazz! I called softly so as not to alarm Bella. Theyd hear me. I heard

the door of Carlisles study open upstairs and they appeared beside me.

Bella looked up at me with anxious eyes. Whats happening, Ed ward?

Nothing you need to worry about, sweetheart. I reassured.

While Emmett and Jasper stayed on alert, I tried to hear as much of the

wolves conversation as possible. It transpired it was a peaceful visit by

Jared, Quil, Paul and Collin to try and get Jacob, Seth and Leah to go home

to La Push; something they werent prepared to do. I relayed the majority

of the conversation to my family, surprised at how much I picked up. Esme

was particularly upset when I relayed the wolves saying Homeless at the

moment .

When it was evident the blood was staying down, Bella pleaded with

Carlisle to remove the tubes once again.

Please, Carlisle? This has made me feel so much better. Can I move back

to the couch?

He checked the monitors one more time and rubbed his chin. Pulse is

more even. Breathing improved... Okay, Bella. Ill take out the tubes, take

you off the monitors, and you can go back to the sofa as long as you keep

the IV in for now. You still need more fluids. And if you start to feel even

the slightest bit worse, I need to know right away. Do we have a deal?



She bobbed her head, a grin on her face; she hated the hospital set-up.

Alice appeared from upstairs to help put the furniture back into position.

She was delighted that Bella looked better, but her face was puckered, her

lips mashed together in a hard line. I cocked an eyebrow at the unusual

expression. Headache, was all she thought in response.

Esme approached me as I refilled Bellas cup, her face full of sadness.

Son, would you tell Jacob theyre welcome to any facilities here? You said

Leah doesnt like to eat in her wolf form... And I just cant bear to think of

them as...homeless, she choked. Here are some clothes for Jacob. She

passed me a white-button down shirt and tan pants which I dutifully put

on the porch. Thank you, Edward, she thought as I pecked her cheek.

Once it was clear the danger of an attack had passed for now, Jasper,

Emmett and Alice disappeared back upstairs and I went to sit on the end

of the white sofa with Bellas feet, wrapped in a blanket, in my lap. For the

first time, I felt the crushing burden upon me decrease fractionally and I

exhaled in slight relief.



Chapter 14

Everythings cool , thought Jacob as he approached, exhausted. He

disappeared into the trees holding the change of clothes tentatively

between his teeth. I felt a twinge of sympathy; I could imagine the sheer

discomfort if I were forced to wear garments that exuded werewolf

stench.

As Jacob returned and entered the house, he took in the changes from the

hospital scene of just twenty minutes ago. To anyone none the wiser to

the ticking time-bomb in the room, I supposed the situation did, at least,

look better. The obvious improvement in Bellas condition had dissipated

a tiny portion of the tension hanging over the house like a dark thunder

cloud. She held another cup of blood in her hands, with Rosalie sittingcross-legged by her head, switching the TV to a chick-flick, though nobody

was really watching or listening. It was just one of the many aspects of the

human façade we had perfected and now did automatically. Carlisle and

Esme stood at the back windows, with the doors open to the river which I

could hear flowing soothingly. The corners of my mouth pulled up slightly

into the trace of a smile as Jacob walked in; whether because I knew Bella

would be happy, or because of the gratitude I felt, inexplicably I was

pleased to see him.

Bella looked up when she saw my half-smile and she beamed at Jacob, the

way I knew she would. I couldnt help but frown. Despite myself, despite

the fact I knew she loved me irrevocably and had given herself to me

heart, mind, body and soul, I couldnt help the pang of jealousy I felt.

Jacob seemed to be in line with my thinking. To him it was clear she was,

to use his silent words, in love with me past the bounds of sanity . To him

it would be so much easier if she didnt care or really not want him

around. I knew though, that they shared a special connection and thatthey always would. Besides, I had more important things to worry about;

like keeping my beloved alive.

They just wanted to talk, Jacob explained, breaking me from my reverie,

his voice now heavy with fatigue and shoulders slumping.



Yes, I replied. I heard most of it.

How? he asked, slightly incredulous.

Im hearing you more clearly- its a matter of familiarity and

concentration. Also, your thoughts are slightly easier to pick up whenyoure in your human form. So I caught most of what passed out there.

This seemed to bother Jacob for a second, but he let it go. Good. I hate

repeating myself.

His eyes closed; his lids were now so heavy it took him a second to work

out how to reopen them. The circles under his eyes were nearly as dark as

mine. It didnt escape Bellas notice. Id tell you to get some sleep, she

said, but my guess is that youre going to pass out on the floor in aboutsix seconds, so theres probably no point. The clarity in her voice

registered with Jacob; he was pleased with how much better she sounded,

even if the means of achieving such an end did disgust him.

Jacob turned and walked to the door counting the seconds that Bella had

predicted he would last. One Mississippi...two Mississippi...

Wheres the flood, mutt? Rosalie grumbled. Seriously, Edward, do we

have to put up with him in the house?

You know how to drown a blonde, Rosalie? Jacob retorted sleepily.

Glue a mirror to the bottom of a pool. Shame vampires dont need air...

I couldnt help chuckling, knowing all too well how spot-on Jacob was in

regards to her vanity; Rosalie couldnt resist admiring her reflection in

anything remotely shiny. Personally, I didnt know how Emmett could

stand it.

Ive already heard that one, Rosalie shouted after him.

That relationship was certainly going to be interesting; I couldnt see

anything developing other than their mutual antagonism. Jacob resented

Rosalie for her protection of the life-sucking monster as he had named it,

and Rosalie resented Jacob for... well, being Jacob. It hit me how much my

previous prejudice against the wolves had fast evaporated over the



summer, and had now been replaced by empathy and understanding. I

quickly remembered the promise Id made Esme regarding the wolves

homeless situation and found I shared the same sentiment. I carefully

lifted Bellas feet off my lap and stood up, to find Jacob before he fell

asleep.

Where are you going? Bella asked, a little crease between her brows

appearing.

There was something I forgot to say to him.

Let Jacob sleep- it can wait.

Yes, please let Jacob sleep, he thought. Despite myself I left the house,

feeling guilty for keeping him from his much needed slumber.

I descended the porch steps and followed Jacobs scent across the lawn

into the emerald-strewn shadows where Jacob was waiting on the fringes

of the vibrant forest. Im sorry, I started, then paused. I didnt know how

best to present the offer; I knew Esme desperately wanted them to accept

and I felt it was my duty to pass it on in such a way that they would

consider it.

Whats on your mind, mind reader?

When you were speaking to Sams delegates earlier, I was giving a play -

by-play for Carlisle and Esme and the rest. They were concerned-

Look, were not dropping our guard. You dont have to believe Sam like

we do. Were keeping our eyes open regardless.

No, no, Jacob. Not about that. We trust your judgement. Rather, Esme

was troubled by the hardships this is putting your pack through. She asked

me to speak to you privately about it. He seemed taken aback. I couldnt

help but smile as I thought of my mothers tender devotion.

Hardships? He repeated, his shaggy, black brows pulling together.

The homeless part, particularly. Shes very upset that you are all

so...bereft. Yes, that was the correct word.



He snorted. V ampire mother hen- bizarre. Were tough. Tell her not to

worry.

I felt the need to press my point further. Shed still like to do what she

can. I got the impression that Leah doesnt like to eat in her wolf form?

And? he asked.

Well, we do have normal human food here, Jacob. Keeping up

appearances, and, of course, for Bella. Leah is welcome to anything shed

like. All of you are.

Ill pass that along.

Leah hates us. I stated.

So?

So try to pass it along in such a way as to make her consider it, if you

dont mind. The chances of Leah entering our house in her human form

to eat were very remote indeed. It was hard to believe Seth and her were

siblings; their attitudes and outlooks were polar opposites on all things

vampire.

Ill do what I can.

And then theres the matter of clothes.

He looked down at the clothes he was now wearing. Oh yeah. Thanks.

They reek but probably not good manners to mention it.

The corners of mouth twitched into a tiny smile. Well, were easily able

to help out with any needs there. Alice rarely allows us to wear the same

thing twice. Weve got piles of brand new clothes that are destined for

Goodwill, and Id imagine that Leah is fairly close to Esmes size...

Not sure how shell feel about bloodsucker cast offs. Shes not as

practical as I am, he said, gesturing to the rolled up cuffs.

I trust that you can present the offer in the best possible light. As well as

the offer of any other physical object you might need, or transportation,

or anything else at all. And showers, too, since you prefer to sleep



outdoors. Please... dont consider yourselves without the benefits of a

home.

I felt an emotion I couldnt quite lay my finger on as I said the last

sentence. I was surprised to find that the wolves seemed to belong

somehow in our home. Well, Jacob and Seth certainly. Perhaps because

theyd chosen to help protect us over supporting their previous pack,

turning their backs on their homes and their families. I would be eternally

grateful.

Jacob stared at me. Thats, er, nice of you. Tell Esme we appreciate the,

uh, thought. But the perimeter cuts through the river in a few places, so

we stay pretty clean, thanks.

If you would pass the offer on, regardless.

Sure, sure.

Thank you, I said sincerely.

Suddenly a low, agonised cry coming from the house pierced straight

through me. I spun on my heel and fled back inside so fast it would have

been invisible to human eyes. Bella was panting; her eyes shut tight, her

face bone white, and curled over her severely swollen stomach. The sight

of her in so much pain froze me to the spot. Rosalie was holding her,

supporting her from behind, while Carlisle and Esme stood over her, worry

etched into their faces.

Give me a second, Carlisle, Bella gasped.

Bella, he said fretfully, I heard something crack. I need to take a look.

Pretty sure...it was a rib, she panted. Ow. Yep. Right here. She

carefully pointed to her side.

Id seen Bella in physical pain before, the worst being in Phoenix in the

ballet studio, her leg snapped, head bleeding, and her hand bitten by

James. That had been... excruciating. But knowing that something that I

had created was breaking her bones was as if I was standing there



crushing her with my bare hands, and there was nothing I could do to stop

it. It was the worst torture possible.

I need to take an X-ray. There might be splinters. We dont want it to

puncture anything, Carlisle continued.

Before I could scoop Bella up into my arms, Rosalie lifted her. She pulled

her lips back over her teeth, growling, Ive already got her. I didnt have

time or the strength to argue with Rosalie now; Bella was far more

important, but there was no way I was letting this go. As Alice had said, we

all knew why Rosalie was doing this, and her possessiveness of Bella was

as superficial as Rose herself. I flew up the stairs after them into Carlisles

study that now conveniently doubled as a hospital for Bella, c omplete

with a blood supply and X-ray equipment. The normally subdued lamps

had been replaced with brilliant spotlights. An entire shelf of books had

been completely cleared leaving an edge of dust. I stared in agonised

silence as Carlisle examined Bella, feeling a wave of relief as he announced

nothing had been punctured. I held her hand gently, tracing small circles

on the back of it, as he taped up the rib, with her squeezing my cold, stone

fingers intermittently with all the strength she could muster to cope with

the pain.

I barged Rosalie out the way when Carlisle had finished so I could carryBella back downstairs; as much as I tried not to jostle her, she still winced,

but remained silent. Always so brave. When Rose went to fetch Bella

some more blood, I couldnt even find the words to tell her how sorry I

was for what the fetus was doing to her. What, effectively, I was doing to

her. I tried to convey it with my eyes, and she just gazed back with the

same depth of love, affection and devotion that stunned me. Not only did

she still regard herself as the winner rather than the prize, a completely

ridiculous notion in every way, she regarded the life inside her as a gift

from me rather than an abomination, as Sam had called it. She loved it

and would be happy for it to break her apart piece by piece as long as it

was safe and well.

Jacob had now fallen asleep with his head resting against the doorjamb,

snoring heavily, much to Rosalies intense annoyance. One look at him had



Esme flitting upstairs and coming back down with a wide feather pillow in

her hands, which she placed tenderly under his head. I was going to

protest as I knew he would not appreciate the smell, but I couldnt bring

myself to hurt Esmes feelings. Besides, it didnt wake him up so it must

have been bearable. To my surprise, Alice was sitting next to him, lookingthe most at peace she had since Bella had disappeared from her sight back

on Isle Esme. When I raised an eyebrow in question, she silently explained,

takes the headache away- Bellas so blurry in my vision, Jacob makes me

go totally blind. She smiled her pixie-like grin. It was the first time shed

ever been happy that she couldnt see.

Carlisle had come to unhook the IV from Bellas arm as it was proving

pointless when I suddenly noticed her cheeks growing flushed. Not the

natural, rose blush I was used to. They were a fiery red and her face was

covered in a light sheen of sweat again.

Bella, love, are you okay? I asked frantically.

Im... Im a bit hot actually, she said timidly.

I pressed my icy fingers lightly to her forehead and she exhaled in relief.

The temperature of her skin was scorching. I took the blankets off her and

moved to sit behind her, gathering her as gently and carefully as possible

to my cold chest.

Thank you, she sighed. I kissed the crown of her head and inhaled her

luscious scent. Despite the fact I hadnt hunted in well over a week, the

barely felt the burn. The overwhelming need to protect my mate was all

encompassing.

After a few hours of sitting in companionable silence, punctuated by

Jacobs heaving snores, Bellas breathing grew more rhythmical as she too

drifted off to sleep. I wished I could join them in their escape, just for a

few hours and forget the living nightmare I was in. The evening soon

turned the sky from a dreary gray into a deep inky purple, as I sat lost in

thought. What if transformation didnt save her? I already knew I couldnt

live without her. That much was certain. Although I didnt yet know what

the birth would entail (Jasper and Emmett were on that), I was sure it



wouldnt be simple. What if I could only save one of them? Bella would

want me to save the baby. I would want to save her. Could I be that selfish

and deny her what she wanted? What would the cost be? A wife but no

baby...Surely she would hate me forever? But what if I had a baby but no

wife? Shed want me to stay and be a father... But how could I not hatethe child if it killed my Bella? So many questions. And I truly did not know

what to do.

In my peripheral vision, I noticed Rosalie slyly tapping away on her laptop.

I twisted infinitesimally to glance at the screen. She was looking at baby

equipment, baby furniture, toys; the list was endless. I was almost unable

to contain the fury I felt and a growl was building up in my chest, when I

heard an oddly cheerful internal whistling. I looked up to see Seth

Clearwater walking up to the door, his hair black hair dishevelled and his

sweats covered in dust and dirt. He carefully stepped over the sleeping

Jacob. Hey, guys!

Hey, Seth, we greeted in unison, bar Rosalie, whose mouth turned down

in distaste. One werewolf in the house was more than enough, in her

opinion. Seth beamed back at us, nonetheless.

Just came to check on Jake. Leah was going frantic. Ill let him sleep a bit

more; he must be whacked.

Esme offered him some new clothes of mine which he promptly went to

change into without even complaining in his thoughts about the smell.

Please, sit down, Seth, Carlisle invited.

He sagged into an armchair, linking his hands together and stretching

forward, his knuckles cracking like he was trying to iron out the kinks in his

body.

Edward, can I ask you something?

Sure. Everyone looked up, trying to guess whose silent question I had

just answered.



Why havent you guys taken off? You know, gone up to see Tanya or

something. Not that I want you to leave, but wouldnt it be safer with no

angry pack of wolves after you? He chortled.

I chuckled with him, and then my tone turned serious. Its not really an

option. It takes time to build up the kind of medical access that Carlisle has

here, and he can get more if need be. Blood, for example. Bellas using up

our supply quickly and he doesnt like to deplete the stockpile. Hes going

to buy more. Besides, I dont think Bella would...cope with being moved.

Shes too delicate...

He nodded and, sensing I couldnt carry on speaking, went back to

whistling in his head. Bella began to stir then, her complexion no longer

flaming but ghostly pale. She shivered, so I moved awa y gently and tucked

the blankets tightly around her and her mountainous belly. How do you

feel, Bella, love?

I feel okay. A bit cold. She shivered again.

Carlisle wandered over to us. Im not really sure what to make of these

sweats and chills, Bella, he said anxiously. Ill monitor you both closely.

He rested a calming hand on her shoulder before taking his seat.

Seth, I started, would you mind sitting with Bella to warm her up?

No probs, he said, smiling, and went to sit down on the floor ne xt to her.

Rosalie glared at him out of the corner of her eyes and promptly snapped

her laptop shut, flipped her golden hair over her shoulder and moved to a

free armchair, purposely avoiding the one Seth had just vacated. But

nothing fazed Seth. Alice danced over from Jacob and sat next to her

latest painkiller, not even wrinkling her nose at the smell.

Bella was lying there, absentmindedly caressing her bulging stomach,

when a loud crack broke the silence and she let out another low cry of

pain, screwing her eyes up tight and curving over.

Bella?! I asked anxiously.

Rib, she said simply, her face still contorted in pain, mine with her.



Carlisle, Rosalie and I flew up the stairs with Bella in my arms. Right side,

second rib from the bottom this time, Carlisle said, pointing to the X-ray

on the light box. When he had made sure there were no splinters and had

taped it up, Rosalie carried Bella back down and put her on the sofa,

sitting upright this time. Seth moved to sit beside her, with Rose on thefloor resting her head on Bellas knees.

You know, Rosalie said casually, its not uncommon in normal

pregnancies for babies to break ribs. I wanted to rip her head off right

there and then for her complete indifference to the fetus breaking apart

my Bella bone by bone. She saw as much in my glare. Just saying, she

shrugged.

Rosalie and I had never gotten along as such; we were very diffe rent

beings and annoyed each other much more than we cared for one

another. That said, Id never personally wished her any misfortune. Until

now.

Guys, Alice trilled in her wind-chime voice, Charlie will call in... she

screwed her eyes up tight, four hours, eleven minutes.

Bella looked up at me with pleading eyes that betrayed a hint of guilt. Ive

been thinking... she began. I really think Im going to get through this,

and when Im changed Id like to...to see Charlie again.

I was about to protest, when she cut in, I know I wont be able to see him

for a while, well come up with some excuse- like having to go round the

world to a special treatment centre. I can phone him, he can phone me...

Bella, love, I started gently, youll be too different.

I know; thats the second part of my plan. See, when Jake went through

his transformation he couldnt tell me; so he made me guess. I reckon if

Charlie saw me, hed come up with some idea, and hell probably get it

wrong- remember like I did with my radioactive spider theory? She

grinned and I smiled back weakly. What dyou think?

I couldnt tell her what I really thought; that it was wrong and that it was

too dangerous. I just nodded. I knew we should have been preparing



Charlie for the worst even if Bella survived; this plan was fraught with

peril for him and for us. But how could I deny Bella of this when she was

potentially dying from carrying my child? Anything that made her happy, I

would do. If these were the last few days of her life, I would make her as

happy as possible and deal with the consequences later.

Seth stood up after an hour or so, stretching, thinking it was time to get

some more work done. He was getting ready to leave when Esme spoke.

Seth, would you like to stay for breakfast?

I dont want to put you out, Esme, he said, his stomach growling.

Its no trouble. Please, stay. Such a sweet boy, his mother must be

frantic, she added.

In that case, thank you, that would be great! he said enthusiastically,

grinning his brilliant white smile.

I flew to the kitchen, anxious for every second I was away from Bella, with

Seth following me. I quickly cooked up some cinnamon rolls and some

omelettes, trying to ignore the unappetizing odour that permeated the

room, but hoping childishly that it would spread far enough to irk Rosalie. I

flitted upstairs to Carlisles study and also refilled Bellas cup. We were

fast running out of blood and Carlisle planned on travelling to acquiremore soon, the only problem being the Quileutes, as our previous truce

was no longer in effect.

Bella beamed up at me in thanks as I sat down, wedging the cup of blood

between our legs and taking her hand in mine. Seth went to take some of

the food to Leah before eating. Somehow, I didnt see her accepting his

offer. When he returned he sank down next to Bella, threw his hot arm

around her shoulders and began eating in earnest. His cheery attitude was

infectious; he seemed to emit a warm glow from his very core. Only

fifteen yet so grounded, so balanced, and with a strong moral fibre. I was

fiercely proud to call him my friend.

Dawn was breaking now, and the rising sun was visible through the gaps in

the clouds, bathing us in rays of glorious gold and vivid pink, casting

prisms off our skin as we sparkled; the vampires, that is. The forest was



now teeming with sounds of the waking wildlife and the river trickled and

flowed calmly. It was a morning when I should have felt truly blessed to be

surrounded by my loving wife, family and friends. Instead, I felt life was

playing a huge practical joke on me, threatening the very core of my

existence just when the pieces had fallen so perfectly into place.

The racking snores that emanated from the sleeping Jacob suddenly

stopped.

About time, Rosalie muttered, shooting him a murderous glare. The

chainsaw impersonation was getting a little tired.

Hey, Jakes coming round! Seth called.

What the hell? Jacob thought, taking in the sight of Seth with his armaround Bella.

He came to find you, I explained. And Esme convinced him to stay for

breakfast.

Yeah, Jake, Seth said hurriedly, I was just checking to see if you were

okay cause you didnt phase back. Leah got worried. I told her you

probably just crashed human, but you know how she is. Anyway, they had

all this food and dang,- he turned to face me- man, you can cook.

Thank you, I whispered. Food network was obviously paying off. I could

feel Jacobs anger at the way Seth touched Bella, the heat rolling off him in

waves. Bella got cold, I murmured by mea ns of explanation.

Right. Breathe. She doesnt belong to me, he thought.

Seth took in my comment and Jacobs expression and swiftly removed his

arm from Bella.

Leah running patrol? Jacob asked, walking closer to the sofa, trying to

shake off his sleepiness by stretching his russet arms high above him.

Yeah. Shes on it. No worries. Shell howl if theres anything. We traded

off around midnight. I ran twelve hours, Seth said proudly. It

momentarily stunned me, realizing just how hard the wolves were

working to protect Bella. She unknowingly weaved a certain magic around



people. She had both vampires and werewolves, mortal enemies by all

accounts, working together, prepared to fight and, perhaps with the

exception of Leah, to die to protect her. Bella truly was remarkable.

Midnight? Jacob asked, confused, as he ran his hand through his shaggy,

black hair. Wait a minute- what time is it now?

Seth looked out the window at the sky, clouds of pale lavender now

building over the rising pink orb. Bout dawn.

Well, damn. Really dropped the ball . Crap. Sorry about that, Seth. Really.

You shoulda kicked me awake.

Naw, man, you needed some serious sleep. You havent taken a break

since when? Night before your last patrol for Sam? Like forty hours? Fifty?Youre not a machine, Jake. Sides, you didnt miss anything at all.

Jacob took in Bellas much improved appearance. Nothing at all? Hows

the rib?

Taped up nice and tight. I dont even feel it. Bella grinned.

I gritted my teeth, vexed by Bellas nonchalance to being smashed apart

like glass.

Whats for breakfast? Jacob asked sarcastically. O negative or AB

positive?

Bella poked her tongue out. Omelets.

Go get some breakfast, Jake, Seth said. Theres a bunch in the kitchen.

Youve got to be empty.

Jacob raised his black brows. Whats Leah having for breakfast?

Hey, I took food to her before I ate anything, Seth said defensively. She

said shed rather eat roadkill, but I bet she caves. These cinnamon rolls...

He trailed off, lost for words.

Ill go hunt with her, then.

Seth sighed at Jacobs obstinacy.



No, I didnt mean that you would be...incapable, Carlisle replied

fretfully. But that it would be very wrong. I cant have that on my

conscience. He shook his head.

It wouldnt be on yours, Doc. It would be on mine. And I can take it.

No, Jacob. We will make sure that our actions dont make that a

necessity. Carlisle paused to consider the optimum plan. Well go three

at a time. Thats probably the best we can do.

I dont know, Doc. Dividing down the middle isnt the best strategy.

Weve got some extra abilities that will even it up. If Edward is one of the

three, hell be able to give us a few miles radius of safet y.

I shot him a ferocious glare. There was no way I was ferrying hunting

parties while my wife clung to the last few days of her life.

Im sure there are other ways, too, Carlisle said after witnessing my

expression. Alice, I would imagine you could see which routes would be a

mistake?

The ones that disappear, Alice chirped, bobbing her head. Easy.

I relaxed my set shoulders. Bella was staring at Alice uneasily, most

probably worrying about the danger posed by potential rogue

werewolves. I brushed my fingers in a feather soft touch across the crease

in her brow to smooth away her worried expression.

Okay, then, Jacob said. Thats settled. Ill just be on my way. Seth, Ill

expect you back on at dusk, so get a nap in there somewhere, all right ?

Sure, Jake. Ill phase back soon as Im done. Unless... he paused and

looked at Bella. Do you need me?

Shes got blankets, Jacob snapped.

Im fine, Seth, thanks, Bella hurried.

Esme appeared timidly from the kitchen holding out a dish in front o f her.

Jacob, she spoke softly. I know its unappetizing to you, the idea of

eating here, where it smells so unpleasant. But I would feel so much



better if you would take some food with you when you go. I know you

cant go home and thats because of us. Please- ease some of my remorse.

Take something to eat. She extended the dish a little further, a tentative

smile on her stone-like features.

Uh, sure, sure. I guess. Maybe Leahs still hungry or something. He took

the food gingerly and held it as far away as possible. Ill go dump in under

a tree or something. Dont want her to feel bad... Damn, I forgot about

Edward. Dont you say anything to her! Let her think I ate it.

I gave an imperceptive nod, but he didnt notice. Of course, I would never

hurt my mothers feelings by telling her that, but I was not expecting Jacob

to be so thoughtful.

Thank you, Jacob, Esme said, smiling warmly at him. Theyve given so

much to us, its the least I can do.

Um, thank you, Jacob replied, embarrassed.

Will you come back later, Jake? Bella asked in between sips of blood.

Uh, I dont know.

Please? I might get cold.

Maybe.

Jacob? Esme asked. I left a basket of clothes on the porch. Theyre for

Leah. Theyre freshly washed- I tried to touch them as little as possible. Do

you mind taking them to her?

On it, he said backing out of the house as quickly as possible. Before

they can guilt me into anything else, hed thought.

Seth stayed with us during the morning, talking, laughing and generallymaking the atmosphere perceptively lighter, as if he possessed Jaspers

gift for influencing the emotional climate. We traded off several times

accordingly with Bellas frequently changing temperature. When Charlie

rang, dead on the dot, I passed the phone to Bella as usual and played

with her hair, wincing when she told him she was on the mend, smiling

when she laughed. It was nice to hear the sound; I so desperately wanted



her to me happy. Charlie was much happier now that Bella was getting

better, and agreed easily enough when she told him it was still too soon

for him to see her. He had his customary chat with Carlisle to check on her

progress, said a brief hello to me, and then hung up. Bella grinned up at

me and I lost myself in the deep, chocolate pools of her eyes. I delicatelystroked her cheekbone with my icy finger, eliciting a shiver that wasnt

due to temperature this time.

At about midday Seth got up with a long yawn, the whites of his eyes now

slightly bloodshot from lack of sleep. Right, guys, Id better go crash.

Gotta be back up at dusk. Thanks so much for the food and the clothes.

Seth, Bella murmured, could you ask Jacob to stop by, please?

Yeah, I need him too, Alice trilled, a pout on her elfin face again; a result

of the reappearing headache, no doubt. Im tired of hanging out in the

attic like a vampire bat in the belfry.

Sure, Bella, Alice, hell be here, he said chuckling. See ya! He punched

my shoulder and walked out the door humming under his breath,

bouncing on the balls of his feet despite his exhaustion.

Bella stared up at me. Dyou think Jacob will come? she asked timidly,

knowing I wouldnt appreciate the question but feeling compelled to askit. I sighed under my breath, but reminded myself there was no point in

such an irrational jealousy. Bella had pledged herself to me for eternity.

She was my soul mate and my wife; that was what mattered.

Yes, love, of course he will.

I smiled down at her and she nestled her head onto my shoulder, closing

her eyes as I enveloped her into my arms.



Chapter 15

Soon, too soon in fact, day turned once more to night. I could see

perfectly, of course, but something about the darkness touched me in a

way it never had before. It was sinister and oppressive, and it felt like it

was saturating my very being. All the hope Id harboured seemed to seep

out of me, replaced by fear, agony, and anger at the monster turning my

life into the black hole where the stars escaped me.

Suddenly a hand was on my shoulder.

Edward, can we go talk in my study? Carlisle called me silently.

I gave a minute nod and told Bella Id be right back. Where normally I flew,

this time I trudged up the stairs. Id been a living stone for ninety yearsand this was the first time Id felt truly heavy. Weighed down by a pain so

acute I felt I was being crushed into powder and ash. I wasnt sure exactly

what Carlisle had to tell me, but I could tell it wouldnt be good news.

When I followed Carlisle in, Emmett was poring over a thick volume,

Jasper leaning over the laptop on Carlisles desk. They stopped what they

were doing as I entered. Emmett didnt try to make a joke; it was

testament to the severity of the situation we found ourselves in. I sank

into a leather chair.

Edward, its not all bad news, Carlisle started.

I sighed, looking from my brothers to my father. Lets start with the bad

then. My voice was a lifeless monotone as I put my head in my hands,

rubbing my eyes with my palms.

Its about the birth, Jasper began, trying to emit a sense of calm, but the

depth of my pain seemed too strong a force to be influenced. From what

weve been able to gather... He paused, glancing at Carlisle, who noddedfor him to continue. I reminded myself to keep calm; I couldnt have Bella

know how upset I was. The creatures...use their teeth to escape the

womb.

The words took a minute to fully sink into my usually fast mind. I felt

physically and mentally sick. I was disgusted. This creature was



When Rosalie took Bella to the bathroom and I sank down onto the sofa ,

head in hands again. Esme sat next to me and placed her arms tightly

around my shoulders.

Son, I hate to see you in so much pain. I didnt respond; what could I say?

What did she expect? Death was stealing my true love, slowly and

tortuously snuffing out the light from within her. Esme seemed to sense

where my thoughts were taking me and gave my shoulders a squeeze, but

made no further comments.

Jacob came through the front door and I heard his heart quicken at the

sight of Bella missing from the scene.

Shes all right, I murmured without looking up. Or the same, I should

say. I couldnt shake the mental image of my Bella being viciously

mangled from the inside out by the... thing. She would be left broken, bled

out and torn apart. And I would be left here all alone, in my eternal

midnight.

Hello, Jacob. Esme smiled up at him. Im so glad you came back.

Me, too, Alice sighed in relief, gliding down the stairs to take a seat

behind the sofa.

Uh, hey, he said, slightly awkward at the enthusiastic welcome.

Wheres Bella?

Bathroom, Alice sang. Mostly fluid diet, you know. Plus, the whole

pregnancy thing does that to you, I hear.

Ah.

Rosalie emerged from the hall behind the stairs cradling Bella in her arms.

Oh, wonderful, she sneered. I knew I smelled something nasty.

Bella beamed as she saw Jacob. Jacob, you came.

Hi, Bells.

Esme and I stood up to make room for Bella on the sofa. Her face turned

bone white and she inhaled sharply through the pain as Rosalie gently laid



her down, remaining silent to try to shield us all from it. Rose plumped the

cushion behind Bellas head to prop her up. I swept my hand across her

forehead and down her neck. Are you cold? I whispered.

Im fine.

Bella, you know what Carlisle told you, Rosalie reminded her. Dont

downplay anything. It doesnt help us take care of either of you.

Okay, Im a little cold. Edward, can you hand me that blank et? She

asked, gesturing to the cover hanging over the arm of the armchair

nearest me.

Isnt that the point of me being here? Jacob asked, rolling his eyes.

You just walked in, Bella countered. After running all day, Id bet. Put

your feet up for a minute. Ill probably warm up again in no time. Jacob

took no notice and went to sit on the floor stretching his arm along her

side and holding her hand. Thanks, Jake.

I sat on the arm of the sofa by her feet, never taking my eyes from Bellas

face. The silence was broken by Jacobs stomach growling.

Youll like this Edward, Alice thought, laughing in her head. Rosalie, why

dont you get Jacob something from the kitchen? she piped up, killingtwo birds with one stone; being polite to Jacob and annoying the hell out

of Rose, which she seemed to enjoy tremendously. Rosalie stared at the

spot from which Alices voice emanated with incredulity.

Thanks, anyway Alice, but I dont want to eat something Blondies spit in.

Id bet my system wouldnt take too kin dly to venom, Jacob replied.

Rosalie would never embarrass Esme by displaying such a lack of

hospitality, Alice trilled.

Of course not, Rose said, her golden wind chime voice sickly sweet, as

she went to the kitchen. He wants a dogs dinner, thats what hes

getting...

I sighed at her childish plan.



Youd tell me if she poisoned it, right? Jacob asked me.

Yes, I promised. I sighed again at the sound of metal being bent into a

dog dish. It was a good job Rosalie had been in the room when Id being

watching cooking programmes, averse as she was to the raw ingredients. I

wondered how she would try and pay Alice back for this. Not that it would

matter; Alice would see her decision as soon as she made it.

Rosalie was back in no time with a steak and baked potato in her hand-

crafted dog dish, inscribed with the word Fido. Enjoy, mongrel, she said,

placing it on the floor in front of Jacob.

Thanks, Blondie. Jacob seemed impressed at her quick handiwork and

attention to detail. Hey, do you know what they call a blonde with a

brain? A golden retriever.

Ive heard that one, too, Rosalie sneered.

Ill keep trying, Jacob said and he tucked in to his meal.

Rosalie sank into one of the armchairs with a disgusted look on her face,

flicked on the TV and started channel hopping at the speed of light,

venting some of her frustration with Jacob. Stupid mutt, comes into my

home and I have to make him food...

I tuned out Rosalies internal rant, sure that she would be at it for a long

time. Bella pulled her fingers through Jacobs unkempt hair, flattening it

down on the back of his neck. Time for a haircut, huh? he asked.

Youre getting a little shaggy, she replied. Maybe-

Let me guess, someone around here used to cut hair in salon in Paris?

Probably, she laughed.

No thanks, Im good for a few more weeks. He paused. So...um...whats

the, er, date? You know the due date for the little monster. My insides

froze; hearing the words made everything so much more real. Bella hit the

back of his head, but said nothing. Im serious, Jacob pressed. I want to

know how long Im gonna have to be here. How long youre gonna be

here, he amended mentally. I flinched.



I dont know, she muttered, idly rubbing tiny circles over her bump.

Not exactly. Obviously were not going with the nine-month model here,

and we cant get an ultrasound, so Carlisle is guesstimating from how big I

am. Normal people are supposed to be forty centimetres here- she ran

her finger down the centre of her stomach- when the baby is fully grown.One centimetre for every week. I was thirty this morning, and Ive been

gaining about two centimetres a day, sometimes more...

I turned my head away sharply, staring out of window so Bella couldnt

see the pain in my onyx eyes. My insides were burning as if drenched in

acid. We were down to four days now. Did I have just four days left with

the most amazing creature in the universe?

Jacob did the math. Four days?!

You okay? Bella asked.

He nodded, but his eyes shined with tears that spilt over onto his cheek.

Bella wiped them away with her fingertips. Its going to be okay, she

soothed, just like shed told me. But neither of us believed it.

Right, Jacob mumbled sceptically.

I didnt think you would come. Seth said you would, and so did Edward,

but I didnt believe them, Bella murmured softly, not looking at him.

Why not? he asked, his voice still rough from the tears.

Youre not happy here. But you came anyway, she explained.

You wanted me here. And whatever you want, Ill do.

I know. But you didnt have to come, because its not fair for me to want

you here. I would have understood. I tried to focus on the TV, but to no

avail; this conversation was stirring the jealousy within me. Thank you for

coming.

Can I ask you something? Jacob asked. I groaned mentally at his

impending question. Did I really want to know the answer? Maybe not,

but I had to.



Of course.

Why do you want me here? Seth could keep you warm, and hes probably

easier to be around, happy little punk. But when I walk in the door, you

smile like Im your favourite person in the world.

Youre one of them.

That sucks, you know.

Yeah. She sighed. Sorry.

Why, though? You didnt answer that. I stared out of the windows,

watching Bella through Jacobs eyes. I was as curious as he was, but tried

to appear to give them privacy.

It feels... complete when youre here, Jacob. Like all my family is together.

I mean, I guess thats what its like. Ive never had a big family before now.

Its nice. She smiled. But its just not whole unless youre here.

To my surprise, my jealousy subsided somewhat. Her words painted a nice

image; there were so many people she loved. How cruel that Bella would

get what she wanted only for it to be promptly swept from beneath her.

Ill never be part of your family, Bella, Jacob said slightly bitterly. I could

have been. I would have been good there.

Youve always been part of my family, Bella opposed.

Thats a crap answer, Jacob said, grinding his teeth as he drew patterns

on the wooden floor with his free hand.

Whats a good one?

How about Jacob, I get a kick out of your pain.

Bella flinched. Youd like that better?

Its easier, at least. I could wrap my head around it. I could deal with it.

Bella frowned and closed her eyes. We got off track, Jake. Out of balance.

Youre supposed to be part of my life- I can feel that, and so can you. She

patted his arm. But not like this. We did something wrong. No. I did. I did



something wrong and we got off track... She trailed off, her breathing

growing rhythmical until she was softly snoring.

Shes exhausted, I said. Its been a long day. A hard day. That didnt

even begin to cover it. I think she would have gone to sleep earlier, but

she was waiting for you.

Seth said it broke another of her ribs. He didnt look at me, or I him.

Somehow it was easier that way to sit here talking about the torturous

death sentence seemingly hanging over the woman we both loved.

Yes. Its making it hard for her to breathe. How much more would my

Bella suffer? First starved of sustenance, now starved of oxygen; it was as

if someone was very slowly cutting each string that tied her to this life.

Great, he muttered sarcastically.

Let me know when she gets hot again.

Yeah. She needs a blanket... he thought. I reached out and softly draped

it over my wifes sleeping form.

Okay, sometimes the mind reading thing saves time. Oh, like that whole

mess with Charlie-

Yes. Its not a good idea, I agreed.

Then, why?

She cant bear his anxiety, I stated.

So its better-

No. Its not better. But Im not going to do anything that makes her

unhappy now. Whatever happens, this makes her feel better. Ill deal with

the rest afterward. How? I thought. How could I deal with anything if

Bella didnt survive?

Doesnt sound right... Bella wouldnt shuffle off Charlies pain to some later

date for someone else to have to face... she must have a plan.



Shes very sure shes going to live, I said. If only I could harbour the same

certainty...

But not human.

No, not human. But she hopes to see Charlie again anyway.

Oh this just gets better and better. See. Charlie, he emphasised.

Afterwards. See Charlie when shes all sparkly white with the bright red

eyes. Im not a bloodsucker, so maybe Im missing something, but Charlie

seems like kind of a strange choice for her first meal.

She knows she wont be able to be near him for at least a year. She thinks

she can stall. Tell Charlie she has to go to a special hospital on the other

side of the world. Keep in contact through phone calls...

Thats insane.

Yes. I agreed.

Charlies not stupid. Even if she doesnt kill him, hes going to notice a

difference.

Shes sort of banking on that. Jacob stared at me for the first time in our

conversation, looking for more explanation. She wouldnt be aging of

course, so that would set a time limit, even if Charlie accepted whatever

excuse she come up with for the changes. I smiled weakly. This plan had

so many pitfalls. Do you remember when you tried to tell her about your

transformation? How you made her guess?

She told you about that? Jacob asked, clenching his free hand into a

tight fist.

Yes. She was explaining her...idea. You see, shes not allowed to tell

Charlie the truth- it would be very dangerous for him. But hes a smart,

practical man. She thinks hell come up with his own explanation. She

assumes hell get it wrong. After all, we hardly adhere to vampire canon.

Hell make some wrong assumption about us, like she did in the beginning,

and well go along with it. She thinks shell be able to see him...from time

to time.



There was a woman we encountered in South America. Shed been raised

in the traditions of her people. Shed heard warnings about such

creatures, old stories that had been passed down.

What were the warnings? Jacob asked.

That the creature must be killed immediately. Before it could gain too

much strength.

Was Sam right?

Of course, their legends say the same of us. That we must be destroyed.

That we are soulless murderers.

Two for two.

I gave a low chortle.

What did their stories say about the...mothers?

Agony tore through me like a raging inferno, a rampant storm ripping up

everything in its path. I could not speak to answer Jacobs question, but he

knew. Morte.

Of course there were no survivors, Rosalie chimed in casually. Giving

birth in the middle of a disease -infested swamp with a medicine mansmearing sloth spit across your face to drive out the evil spirits was never

the safest method. Even the normal births went badly half the time. None

of them had what this baby has- caregivers with an idea of what the baby

needs, who try to meet those needs. A doctor with a totally unique

knowledge of vampire nature. A plan to deliver the baby as safely as

possible. Venom that will repair anything that goes wrong. The baby will

be fine. And those mothers would have probably survived if theyd had

that- if they even existed in the first place. Something I am not convinced

of, she said scornfully.

All the anger that had been bubbling up inside me suddenly came racing

to the surface. I was incensed and outraged at her casual indifference, her

lack of concern for Bellas life. In that moment she was no longer my

sister; she was the enemy. So egocentric and self-assured, she had made



the mistake of turning her back on me. I wanted to tear her limb from

limb, painfully. My hands were rigid claws and I tensed into a low crouch.

Allow me...suggested Jacob, who was as irate as I was.

I cocked an eyebrow questioningly. He lifted his dog dish and flicked itacross the room into Rosalies stone head so hard it flattened out of its

shape with a deafening clatter, rebounding off her and snapping off the

top of the newel post at the bottom of the stairs.

Dumb blonde, he muttered disdainfully.

Rosalie slowly turned her head, her dark gold eyes dancing with flames of

fury. You. Got. Food. In. My. Hair.

Jacob burst out laughing so hard he was shaking and had tears running

down his face. Alice joined in with her pealing giggle. I couldnt resist

chuckling along; Roses face was priceless. I was still incredulous and

furious with her callousness, but at least I was no longer murderous. Rose

was probably more upset about her hair than if I had attacked her. Id

have to remember that for next time. And I was certain there would be a

next time.

Whats so funny? Bella mumbled sleepily; the laughter had woken her

up.

I got food in her hair, Jacob explained, chortling again as he relived it.

Im not going to forget this, dog, Rosalie hissed.

Snot so hard to erase a blondes memory. Just blow in her ear.

Get some new jokes, she retorted.

Cmon, Jake, leave Rose alo- Bella started, but couldnt finish hersentence. She went white as snow and her back arched off the sofa while

she panted for breath through the pain. Hes just, she gasped,

stretching.

Carlisle? I murmured.

Right here, he said, appearing at my side.



Okay, Bella breathed. Think its over. Poor kid doesnt have enough

room, thats all. Hes getting so big. Her tone was so tender, as if the

fetus kicking her apart meant nothing. She simply felt sympathy for it.

You know, he reminds me of you, Jake, she said softl y.

Do not compare me to that thing, he spat.

I just meant your growth spurt, she explained, hurt by his scathing tone.

You shot right up. I could watch you getting taller by the minute. Hes like

that, too. Growing so fast. Her body finally relaxed.

Hmm, Carlisle murmured.

What? Jacob asked.

I wonder if the similarities are due to the chromosomal count... Carlisle

thought. I cocked my head to one side as I considered the possibility.

You know that I was wondering about the fetuss genetic makeup, Jacob.

About his chromosomes, Carlisle continued.

What of it?

Well, taking your similarities into consideration-

Similarities? Jacob said, emphasising the plural.

The accelerated growth, the fact that Alice cannot see either of you,

Carlisle explained. Jacob seemed stunned for a second. Damn, I forgot

about that, he thought.

Well, I wonder if that means we have an answer. If the similarities are

gene-deep.

Twenty-four pairs, I muttered.

You dont know that.

No. But its interesting to speculate, Carlisle murmured.

Yeah. Just fascinating, Jacob said sarcastically, as Bella drifted back off

to sleep.



Now we know that Edward can produce gametes, we know meiosis

occurs in vampires.

Meiosis? Rosalie asked.

When chromosomal crossover takes place, I answered.

Would that make the baby more vampire than human? If venom is

present rather than blood in the fetus... Carlisle trailed off.

Then theres a huge danger. And all the more reason to deliver as soon as

possible. I finished, the words cutting like jagged metal in my throat.

But what are the extra pair for? If Jacobs make him transform... Alice

mused.

Thats only because that gene was present in his father. If we assume

twenty four pairs means a half-breed, that means the genetic split

between Bella and Edward will be fairly even, so the traits... Carlisle said.

Of course, Rosalie said, eyes lit up. The thirst, the strength, the

impenetrable amniotic sac...

Yes, thats why Bellas body is struggling; too much vampire for her

system to be compatible, but enough human to stop her rejecting it...

Everyone except Jacob, who was lost in contemplation, sat and continued

the genetics conversation for well over an hour, considering the possible

implications if Carlisles theory was correct. As the night went on the

discussion broke up. Carlisle went back to join Jasper and Emmett upstairs

with the new speculations fresh in his mind to focus his research. Jacob

began dozing next to Bella.

As they slept, I started musing. I wanted to do everything I could to make

Bella happy. She was surrounded by family and friends, but I missed our

private time. I wanted to give her something to show my love, the depth

of my devotion. I suddenly came up with the perfect idea. Something that

everyone had forgotten about during the chaos of me bringing my dying

pregnant wife home; the photographs from our perfect wedding and



Chapter 16

The sky was still an inky midnight blue when I noticed Bellas face growing

flushed. I woke Jacob up to trade off and took his place by her side. She

smiled faintly in her sleep as I stroked a lock of her chestnut hair away

from her face.

Jacob got up and stretched. Guess Im ready to do some work, do some

scouting to check if its safe for the vamps to hunt, he thought.

Thank you. If the route is clear theyll go today, I said.

Ill let you know, he told me and strolled out the door.

It was less than an hour later when Alice appeared again carrying her

creation in the crook of her arm. She passed it to me and I gasped. It was a

beautiful, soft, white leather bound album, with the words Memories of

Edward and Bella Cullen inscribed in silver italic calligraphy. It was packed

full of photos that exuded happiness. Our friends and family smiling and

laughing at the wedding. Bella and I exchanging vows under the arch of

white gossamer and blossom. Dancing under a canopy of white flowers

illuminated by glittering twinkle lights. The amber and pink orb of the

sunset on Isle Esme. The turquoise water lapping at the white sand as

Bella swam with the porpoises. Colourful, vivid photos of the jungle and its

wildlife. Self-portraits of Bella and I giggling, wrapped tightly in each

others arms. Each photo had a title in the same beautiful calligraphy, t he

pages separated by delicate, rose-scented translucent paper. It was simply

exquisite. If I had been able to cry, tears would have been glistening in my

eyes, from happiness, but also desolation at my stolen future. How could

so much have changed so quickly?

Alice... I began, but was lost for words.

Its nothing, Edward. I may have made the book, but you made the

memories, she thought as she pecked my cheek. Rosalie looked

inquisitively but said nothing, which made a change.

Bella woke up just before dawn, smiling up at me lazily. Rosalie went to

fetch her a fresh cup of blood; Bella had a voracious appetite now. While



she was out the room, I took my chance. This was something I wanted to

share with Bella alone.

Bella, love, am I still correct in thinking homemade presents are

acceptable? I asked.

Presents? She questioned, frowning.

Ive got something I want you to have. Its from Alice too, I said as I

passed her the album I had placed down by the side of the couch. Her

expression turned from one of confusion into amazement as she flipped it

open, the pages fluttering. Soon, silent tears were flowing down her face. I

hoped they were tears of joy. Do you like it? I asked, curiosity getting

the better of me as it usually did with Bellas mind.

Oh, Edward! she cried. Its so beautiful! She reached up to stroke my

face and I nestled into her caress. Alice, its so perfect, thank you! she

exclaimed as Alice came over to kiss her cheek.

Bella sat poring through the photos, her face lit up, as I pu t my arms

around her and ran my fingers through her hair, inhaling her floral scent,

committing every moment to memory. It is going to be okay, Edward,

she insisted as I held her. I wanted so badly to believe her, but the fear

gnawed away at my insides incessantly.

Bella was curled loosely on the sofa, the photo album still in her hands as

she cherished it, when suddenly, with a crack, she drew a sharp intake of

breath and convulsed in agony, her teeth gritted to stop herself

screaming.

Bella?! Sweetheart, is it another rib?

Nope,- gasp- here, she panted, pointing to her pelvis.

Its broken her pelvis, now?! Alice thought in disbelief, eyes flaming.

Carlisle?! I called frantically, and he appeared swiftly from upstairs. Its

her pelvis. I heard a crack.

Well, I didnt hear anything, Rosalie said dismissively.



You should hunt, Carlisle advised.

Ill hunt when he does, Rosalie growled, gesturing to me and flicking her

hair. One thing was for certain; I didnt want a thirsty Rose anywhere near

Bella when the time came for the delivery; she didnt have the same

control as Carlisle or I. Carlisle sighed at her tenacity.

I heard a book fall closed with a thud and Jasper and Emmett raced down

the stairs. About time, bet those grizzlies are getting a bit over-populated

without me, eh, Edward? Emmett thought as he punched my shoulder.

Esme and Alice flew to the glass doors which opened out onto the river as

Emmett kissed Rose goodbye. Jasper took Alices hand as they flitted out.

Carlisle put his icy hand on Jacobs arm; he didnt flinch. Thank you, he

repeated, then followed the others out. They leapt across the river and

were out of sight in a flash.

Must have been more desperate than I thought, Jacob said internally. A

smirk appeared on his face as he noticed Rosalies murderous glare on

him. He slouched into the chair next to her, draping his bare feet over the

edge near her face. Ew. Someone put the dog out, she said wrinkling her

nose. For Gods sake, Edward, you dont even like him, she added shooting

me a sharp look.

I ignored her. Besides she was wrong; so wrapped up in her own world, as

per usual, Rosalie had failed to notice the bond developing between Jacob

and I. Having her as a mutual dislike had helped somewhat, I thought

wryly.

Have you heard this one, Psycho? How do a blondes brain cells die?

She ignored him, staring straight at the TV.

Well? Do you know the punch line or not? Jacob asked.

No, but Im not telling you that, filthy mutt.

I could sense her hands twitch into claws, her teeth grinding, but she

continued ignoring him. I wondered what would happen if Bella werent in

the room.



Has she heard it? he asked me.

I didnt remove my eyes from Bellas frowning face. No, I replied.

Awesome. So youll enjoy this, bloodsucker- a blondes brain cells die

alone.

I have killed a hundred times more than you have, you disgusting beast,

Rosalie snarled. Dont forget that.

Someday, Beauty Queen, youre going to get tired of threatening me. Im

really looking forward to that.

So will Emmett, Rose thought.

Enough, Jacob, Bella said, scowling.

Well, fine then. You want me to take off? he asked.

No! Of course not.

I sighed. What was it that kept Bella needing Jacob around? Not that it

mattered, if it made her happy; that was what counted.

You look tired, Bella observed, looking at Jacob.

Dead beat.

Id like to beat you dead, Rosalie murmured, so low it was barely

audible.

Jacob sank lower into the armchair, dangling his feet closer to Rosalie. She

bristled, her face set into one of disgust.

Rose, can I have a refill, please? Bella asked, holding out her empty cup.

Of course, sweetie, she said as she darted upstairs, glad for the chanceto escape the wet dog smell emanating from Jacob.

It was then that I heard the tenor of somebodys thoughts. A sense of

contentment? It certainly wasnt Rosalie or Jacob; I was far too familiar

with their internal voices. For a split second I panicked; I thought Charlie



may have turned up unexpectedly. But no, I hadnt heard any tyres or

footsteps. Could I be hearing Bella?

Did you say something? I asked her, confused.

Me? I didnt say anything.

I knelt and leant forward over her. What are you thinking of right now?

Nothing. Whats going on?

What were you thinking about a minute ago?

Just...Esmes island. And feathers, she said blushing. The tenor of the

voice was getting stronger. Definitely contentment. Could I be breaking

through Bellas mental defence? No, it wasnt her voice.

Say something else, I murmured.

Like what? Edward whats going on?

I like that sound, came the voice, the thoughts clearer now. I couldnt

believe what I was hearing, but there was no mistaking it. It was the baby.

Our baby. Carefully, I put both my hands around her ballooning stomach.

Rosalie came back in the room and gasped.

The f- I swallowed. It...the baby likes the sound of your voice. I said,

utterly incredulous.

There was silence for a second. Holy crow, you can hear him! Bella cried

out, then winced. I gently rubbed the spot where he had just kicked.

Shh, I whispered. You startled it...him.

Bellas eyes widened, marvelling. Sorry, baby, she sai d rubbing her

stomach.

I listened harder, leaning my head to the side.

Happy, the voice said simply. I was in shock. It...he or she, is...Hes

happy, I said, my voice full of wonder, eyes widening so much they must

have resembled Bellas.



She drew in a sharp breath, and tears started flowing silently down her

face with all the love she possessed within. We were both in awe, and a

rush of contentment flooded through me warming my icy insides.

Of course youre happy, pretty baby, of course you are, she co oed.

How could you not be, all safe and warm and loved? I love you so much,

little EJ, of course youre happy.

What did you call him?

I sort of named him, she murmured, blushing. I didnt think you would

want... well, you know.

EJ?

You fathers name was Edward, too.

Yes, it was. What-? I paused as the voice said; I like that voice, too.

Hmm.

What?

He likes my voice, too, I said, joy racing through me like a shot of

adrenaline.

Of course he does, she said with a gloating tone, You have the mostbeautiful voice in the universe. Who wouldnt love it?

Do you have a backup plan? Rosalie asked, leaning her head over so it

was near Bellas; Id forgotten Rose was there. Her expression was

wondrous, too, at her impending vicarious motherhood. What if hes a

she?

Bella wiped her tears from her cheeks. I kicked a few things around.

Playing with Renée and Esme. I was thinking... Ruh-nez-may.

Ruhnezmay?

R-e-n-e-s-m-e-e. Too weird?

No, I like it, Rosalie assured. Its beautiful. And one of a kind, so that

fits.



I still think hes an Edward.

Their conversation trickled through my trance-like state. I was listening

intently to hear more from the baby. I love her, came the beautiful new

voice. I was dazed.

What? Whats he thinking now? Bella asked.

Slowly, I laid my ear softly against her belly, and they all gasped. I love her

so much, came the voice again. He loves you, I whispered. He

absolutely adores you.

From that moment, everything changed; my surroundings turned from

drab monotones into sparkling, dizzying multi -hues. My empty, lifeless

voice had turned into one of wonder and awe. Though I was still terrifiedfor Bellas life, I knew I had been wrong; I could never hurt this baby.

Moreover, I didnt want to hurt this baby. I loved him. By convincing me of

its benevolent intentions, he had transformed my world from one of sheer

despair and grief into one of dazzling hope. I felt my heart swell with love

and pride; for my brave wife, and also for the new life growing inside her. I

couldnt believe something Id helped create was so good, so pure and

loving. Could I really be the monster I believed myself to be?

I sat there staring up incredulously at my amazing Bella, te ars of joypouring down her face, with my head and hands tenderly over her

ballooned stomach.

Suddenly Jacob stood up and I started receiving the tenor of his

thoughts...Betrayal, anger, and absolute agony. Ahh, I choked, darting to

the end table, pulling the drawer open and grabbing the first set of car

keys I found. I threw them to him, and he caught them deftly. Go, Jacob.

Get away from here. I didnt say the words callously; I was giving him the

escape he so desperately sought.



Chapter 17

Bella stared up at me; her expression torn between sheer joy at me

hearing the baby, and absolute horror at Jacobs pain. He just needs

some space, I said and stroked her cheek. Happiness was our overriding

emotion, driving all else to the fringes, but the gui lt was undeniable.

Good, Im glad hes gone, Rosalie said disdainfully.

Rose, I chided.

What? Are you honestly saying you like the wet dog smell? She wrinkled

her nose, extending her arm out to inspect her perfectly manicured steel

nails. I rolled my eyes at her. Something in my peripheral vision caught my

attention. I looked around to see Leah in her human form, stompingtowards the house, clothes dirtied and her hair sticking up in tufts. She

was being very careful with her thoughts, but bearing in mind what she

must have witnessed I had an idea of why she was here. I got up and

darted to block her at the door, but she was already in. I stood in her way,

our eyes blazing. Leah, I started, but she cut me off.

Dont start with me, leech, its her Im here to speak to, she jerked her

chin towards Bella, who was looking at her with trepidation.

Bella is not to be upset, Leah. Now I appreciate all youre doing for us,

but I want you to leave.

Bella is not to be upset? What about Jacob?! What the hell happened?

I paused. I needed to explain quickly to get her out the house. I simply

started hearing the babys thoughts, Leah, hes happy and Jacob is

understandably hurt-

Oh, so now everything is perfect for you?! She interrupted, lookingdirectly at Bella whose eyes were now glistening. Rosalie was on her feet

with me, leaning forward in a crouch, a growl building in her chest. Jacob

gave up everything to protect you and now youre playing happy families.

Do you realise how badly you hurt him time and time again? Ive seen it

through his eyes. God knows why, but he loves you, and all you do is



throw it back at him! You want to marry your leech here but you want to

keep Jacob in your life! God you are so selfish!

Thats enough, Leah! I shouted. You do not come into my home and

intimidate my wife, now, please, leave!

She shrugged. I was done anyway, she said and with one last glare at

Bella, strolled out casually. Bella burst into tears and I knelt down beside

her, stroking her forehead and trying to wipe her fast-flowing tears away

with my cold fingers. Shh, I murmured.

No...but...shes right! she wailed.

No, Bella, love, she isnt, I soothed. Jacob wont mind, I promise. You

know that. She nodded, but continued to cry into my shirt, staining itwith her salty tears.

Edward, she needs to keep calm, this cant be good for the baby...

I shot her a sharp glare but gave a tiny nod of my head. I kissed the top of

Bellas head, tracing my fingers gently across the contours of her back,

which seemed to relax her and stifle the sobs. I kissed her tear-stained

cheeks and brushed the residue off with a feather-light touch.

She and Rosalie eventually began talking about the baby again; Rose wasplanning a trip to the shopping mall once the baby was born. I was certain

Alice would be going with her; shed want her niece or nephew to have

excellent fashion sense from day one. It brought a smile back to Bellas

face, and to mine, though I was still livid with Leah.

I spent hours just listening to the baby, marvelling at this little miracle. I

was going to be a father and I would carry Bella into immortality and

preserve her life. We were going to be a family. I allowed myself to dream.

I thought of the cottage in the woods that Esme had started renovating

before our wedding. I knew it well because Id seen it so often in her

thoughts. The climbing roses and honeysuckle, the hidden garden with the

glass-smooth pond, the quaint little living room lined with books, the

eclectic furniture, the Isle Esme-esque bedroom... It would be perfect for



Bella. And our child. How had my world changed so dramatically, and so

quickly?

I was sitting on the floor leaning back on the sofa, my head next to Bellas

baby bump, when Alice and Jasper came leaping across the sparkling jade

river; Alice with a graceful fouetté jeté that even the best ballerina would

be in awe of, Jasper a somewhat understated long-jump. They bounded

through the glass doors, their eyes now brilliant amber. Hey, guys, Alice

trilled.

Hey Alice, Jazz, I called, Alice, could you put some more creativity into

your jumps, please? Youre just not trying anymore, I said sarcastically.

Just because you cant do it, she replied, poking her tongue out at me.

I laughed. Where are the others?

Emmett wasnt quite finished with the grizzlies, she laughed and Bella

giggled with her. Carlisle and Esme stayed on to find more blood. He sent

this,- she gestured to a rucksack over Jaspers shoulder- but he said it

wasnt enough. Whats going on? You seem more cheerful, she added

mentally. Jasper could feel the shift in the emotional climate; excitement,

happiness and hope making a drastic change to pain, anger and anguish.

As I explained that I could now hear the babys thoughts, raising their

eyebrows as I lovingly said baby, their jaws dropped and eyes widened in

wonder. They then sped upstairs, depositing the blood and throwing

themselves back into research with fervour. Somehow, hearing the babys

thoughts had made it more real and more pressing to find answers. We

needed to know what to expect when he arrived.

Uncomfortable...too big... the baby suddenly thought.

I gasped.

Edward, what is it? Is he okay?! Bella asked frantically.

I paused to listen again, then turned to her. Hes uncomfortable, hes

getting too big, Bella... We cant wait much longer. We need to deliver him

as soon as possible.



Is it safe?

Yes, I said honestly. Its more dangerous for him to stay in there, he

doesnt have enough space.

I had started to really believe that I could keep both my wife and my childalive. Now I could hear the childs thoughts and see how developed he

really was, I knew there was no time to waste. It was dangerous for both

mother and child to just sit around and wait for something to happen. We

needed Carlisle to deliver the baby as soon as he returned. Bella stunned

me again with the faith she had in me; she trusted me implicitly when I

said the baby was ready to be born. Rose took slightly more convincing,

but ultimately she trusted Bella so she agreed.

There was just one more thing I needed now and only Jacob could give it

to me.



Chapter 18

Bella was sleeping when I heard my Vanquish pulling off the freeway. I left

Rose with her and went to wait in the garage, leaning against Emmetts

Jeep. Jacob pulled up alongside me, eyeing me carefully. As soon as he

shut off the ignition, I spoke. A few things, Jacob.

He slowly got out the car and tossed me the keys. Thanks for the loan,

he said bitterly. What do you want now ?

Firstly... I know how averse you are to using your authority with your

pack, but...

What? he asked, taken aback that I would interfere with such things.

If you cant or wont control Leah, then I-

Leah? What happened?

She came up to see why you left so abruptly. I tried to explain. I suppose

it might not have come out right.

What did she do?

She phased into her human form and-

Really? he interrupted. Into the vamps lair...Impressive.

She wanted to...speak to Bella.

To Bella? He repeated in disbelief.

I wont let Bella be upset like that again. I dont care how justified Leah

thinks she is. I didnt hurt her- of course I wouldnt- but Ill throw her out

of the house if it happens again. Ill launch her right across the river -

Hold on. What did she say ? Jacob asked, raising his hands to stop me.

I took a deep breath as I relived Leahs tirade. Leah was unnecessarily

harsh. Im not going to pretend that I understand why Bella cant let go of

you, but I do know she does not behave this way to hurt you. She suffers a



great deal over the pain shes inflicting on you, and on me, by asking you

to stay. What Leah said was uncalled for. Bellas been crying-

Wait- Leah was yelling at Bella about me?

I nodded curtly. You were quite vehemently championed.

Whoa... I didnt ask her to do that.

I know.

He rolled his eyes. Of course he knows; bloodsucker knows everything.

Really something about Leah. Who would have believed it? Leah walking

into the bloodsuckers place human to complain about how Im being

treated... I cant promise to control Leah, he said. I wont do that. But

Ill talk to her, okay? And I dont think therell be a repeat. Leahs not one

to hold back, so she probably got it all off her chest today.

I would say so.

Anyway, Ill talk to Bella about it, too. She doesnt need to feel bad. This

ones on me.

I already told her that.

Of course you did. Is she okay?

Shes sleeping. Rose is with her.

So the psychos Rose now is she? Hes truly gone over to the dark side.

I ignored that and continued, Shes... better in some ways. Aside from

Leahs tirade and the resulting guilt.

Better. Because hes hearing the little monster and everythings lovey -

dovey. Fantastic.

Its a bit more than that, I said softly. Now that I can hear the childs

thoughts, its apparent that he or she has remarkably developed mental

facilities. He can understand us, to an extent.

Jacobs jaw dropped. Are you serious?



Yes. He seems to have a vague sense of what hurts her now. Hes trying

to avoid that, as much as possible. He loves her. Already.

So, thats why hes changed. The monsters convinced him of this love.

Jacob thought, his eyes on stalks.

I ignored his inner monologue. The progress, I believe, is more than wed

judged. When Carlisle returns-

Theyre not back? Jacob asked, worrying what could have gone wrong.

Alice and Jasper are. Carlisle sent all the blood he was able to acquire,

but it wasnt as much as hed hoped for- Bella will use up this supply in

another day the way her appetite has grown. Carlisle stayed to try another

source. I dont think thats necessary now, but he wants to be covered forevery eventuality.

Why isnt it necessary? If she needs more?

I hesitated, worrying about how Jacob would take the news. Im trying to

persuade Carlisle to deliver the baby as soon as he is back.

What?

The child seems to be attempting to avoid rough movements, but its

difficult. Hes become too big. Its madness to wait, when hes clearly

developed beyond what Carlisle had guessed. Bellas too fragile to delay.

This seemed to knock the wind from his sails. I waited and watched as he

stared at me, noticing my change in attitude. You think shes going to

make it, he stated.

Yes. Waiting as we have been for the child to be ready, that was insanely

dangerous. At any moment it could have been too late, I said, repressing

a shudder. But if were proactive about this, if we act quickly, I see no

reason why it should not go well. Knowing the childs mind is unbelievably

helpful. Thankfully, Bella and Rose agree with me. Now that Ive convinced

them its safe for the child if we proceed, theres nothing to keep this from

working.

When will Carlisle be back?



By noon tomorrow, I told him. Jacobs legs buckled beneath him, and he

steadied himself on the car. I started to reach out a hand in support but

stopped myself. Im sorry, I murmured. I am truly sorry for the pain this

causes you, Jacob. Though you hate me, I must admit that I dont feel the

same about you. I think of you as a... a brother in many ways. A comradein arms, at the very least. I regret your suffering more than you realize.

But Bella is going to survive and I know thats what really matter to you.

Jacob seemed too dazed to say anything, so I continued. So I hate to do

this now, while youre already dealing with too much, but, clearly, there is

little time. I have to ask you for something- to beg, if I must.

He shook his head. I dont have anything left.

I raised my hand to put it on Jacobs shoulder but thought better of it; I

didnt think he would appreciate the gesture. I know how much you have

given, I murmured. But this is something you do have, and only you. Im

asking you as the true Alpha, Jacob. Im asking this of Ephraims heir.

Jacob waited, unable to respond. I want your permission to deviate from

what we agreed to in our treaty with Ephraim. I want you to grant us an

exception. I want your permission to save her life. You know Ill do it

anyway, but I dont want to break faith with you if there is any way to

avoid it. We never intended to go back on our word, and we dont do itlightly now. I want your understanding, Jacob, because you know exactly

why we do this. I want the alliance between our families to survive when

this is over.

Sam, its Sam you want.

No. Sams authority is assumed. It belongs to you. Youll never take it

from him, but no one can rightfully agree to what Im asking except for

you.

Its not my decision.

It is, Jacob, and you know it. Your word on this will condemn us or

absolve us. Only you can give this to me.

I cant think. I dont know.



We dont have much time, I said glancing up at the house.

I dont know. Let me think. Just give me a minute here, okay?

Yes.

Jacob started moving toward the house, deep in thought. I followed and

we walked in comfortable silence. There was a rustling in the bushes that

edged the lawn, and Seth padded towards us, letting out a low whimper.

Hey, kid, Jacob muttered, patting his shoulder. Sall cool. Ill tell you

about it later. Sorry to take off on you like that.

He grinned.

Hey, tell your sister to back off now, okay? Enough.

Seth nodded. Really sorry about Leah, Edward.

Get back to work. Ill spell you in a bit, Jacob said, and Seth loped off

into the forest.

He has one of the purest, sincerest, kindest minds Ive ever heard, I

whispered. Youre lucky to have his thoughts to share.

I know that.

We continued towards the house, raising our heads when we heard the

sound of sucking though a straw. I flew up the porch steps and into the

house in a hurry. Bella was awake, lying on the sofa, cup in her hands.

Alice sat by her feet, Rosalie in an armchair. Bella, love, I thought you

were sleeping, I murmured, leaning down to kiss her forehead and tuck a

lock of her mahogany hair behind her ear. Im sorry, I wouldnt have left.

I sat down on the floor by her head.

Dont worry. I just got so thirsty- it woke me up. Its a good thing Carlisle

is bringing more. This kid is going to need it when he gets out of me.

True. Thats a good point.

I wonder if hell want anything else.



I suppose well find out. We grinned at each other at the thought of our

imminent parenthood.

Jacob walked through the door. Finally, Alice sang, her pixie-like face

lighting up. Bellas eyes flickered to him and she beamed. Then her mouth

twitched and her face crumpled, tears glistening in her eyes as she

remembered Leahs words.

Hey, Bells. Jacob greeted. How ya doing?

Im fine.

Big day today, huh? Lots of new stuff. I was filled with admiration for

Jacob; I knew what it would be costing him to be so supportive.

You dont have to do that, Jacob, Bella murmured.

I dont know what youre talking about, he replied, taking a seat on the

arm of the sofa.

Im so s-

He pinched her lips together so she couldnt speak.

Jake, she mumbled, making a feeble attempt to pull his hand away.

Fine, I wont say it. He released his grip. Sorry! she said, grinning.

Tomorrow, shell be someone else, Jacob thought. But alive and thats

what counts right? Shell look at me with the same eyes, sort of. Smile with

the same lips, almost. Still know me better than anyone without full access

to my head.

I smiled at the pointed aside as he continued his inner monolog ue.

Tomorrow, shell be my enemy. Or shell be my ally. Apparently its up tome. Jacob sighed. Fine! Go ahead. Save her. As Ephraims heir you have my

permission, my word, that this will not violate the treaty. The others will

just have to blame me. You were right- they cant deny that its my right to

agree to this.



Thank you, I murmured, low enough so that Bella wouldnt hear. Alice

and Rosalie looked at me inquisitively, but they were used to me having

conversations seemingly with myself.

Bella turned to Jacob. So, she asked, attempting nonchalance, how was

your day?

Great. Went for a drive. Hung out in the park.

Sounds nice.

Sure, sure, he muttered, looking away.

Bella grimaced. Rose?

Again? Rosalie laughed.

I think Ive drunk two gallons in the last hour.

I moved out the way so Rosalie could carry Bella to the bathroom.

Can I walk? Bella asked. My legs are so stiff.

Are you sure? I asked anxiously; days and days of lack of use could not

help Bellas already dubious balance.

Rosell catch me if I trip over my feet. Which could happen pretty easily,since I cant see them.

Rosalie put Bella down on her feet, holding tightly onto her shoulders as

Bella stretched her arms out. That feels good. Ugh, but Im huge, she

sighed. One more day, she said, caressing her bump. All righty, then.

Whoops- oh, no!

The cup left sitting on the sofa suddenly fell to the side, dark crimson

blood spilling over the white material.

Alice, Rosalie and I all beat her to it, our hands a blur, bu t Bella still moved

instinctively to catch it. There was a strange, muted tearing sound from

Bellas stomach.

Oh! she gasped. Her body turned lifeless and sagged towards the floor,

Rosalie catching her from falling as I held my arms out, too.



Bella? I asked frantically, panic freezing my still heart.

She was silent for half a second then let out a high -pitched, spine-chilling

screech of sheer agony. The horrific noise was cut off with a gurgle, her

eyes rolling back in her head. Her body convulsed and arched, and then a

fountain of blood erupted from Bellas mouth.



Chapter 19

Bellas body, now a macabre crimson, twitched and thrashed in Rosalies

arms as if she had an electric current running through her. Bella remained

unconscious while the brutal spasms, emanating from inside the centre of

her body, brought with them vicious snaps and cracks as bones shattered.

Rose and I remained frozen for a fraction of a second, and then broke into

action. Rosalie gathered Bellas jolting form into her arms and we flew up

the stairs into Carlisles study with Alice and Jacob at our heels.

Morphine! I shouted.

Alice- get Carlisle on the phone! Rosalie called.

Rose placed Bella on a table beneath the bright white spotlights, tearing

off her clothes, while I filled a syringe full of morphine and injected it into

Bellas arm.

The baby thrashed, his mood grew panicked and desperate; he couldnt

breathe.

Whats happening, Edward? Rosalie screeched at me.

Hes suffocating!

The placenta must have detached!

This seemed to break Bella from her unconscious state. Get him OUT!

she screamed. He cant BREATHE! Do it NOW!

The morphine-

NO! NOW-! Another wave of blood choked her. I held her head up,

frantically trying to clear her airways.

Alice flitted back into the room attaching a little blue earpiece under

Roses golden hair. Then she backed away, her amber eyes wide and

blazing.

Carlisle! The placentas detached! Rosalie started screeching. Tell me

what to do!



Youve got to get the baby out, now or theyll both die! Edward knows

the theory of a C-Section! Pass me to him! Quickly! But Rosalie ignored

him, all that registered in her mind was that the baby was dying. She

picked up a scalpel and raised it over Bellas bulging, jolting s tomach. Deep

crimson was seeping beneath the skin.

Let the morphine spread! I yelled at her.

Theres no time, Rosalie hissed. Hes dying!

With a sharp movement she plunged the scalpel down and sliced through

the layers of tissue; vivid scarlet gushed from the wound incessantly like a

dam breaking, blood pouring out in a torrent, while Bella continued to

choke.

The deluge of blood shifted Rosalies focus. It scorched her dry throat. Her

onyx eyes widened and gleamed with bloodlust, lips pulling back t o reveal

her teeth.

Blood...Must drink...Blood, was her single train of thought. She was no

longer a protector; she was a predator and her prey lay helpless and dying

in front of her.

No, Rose! I shouted, but I was stuck holding Bellas head up; there was

nothing I could do.

Jacob suddenly leapt over the table and launched himself at her, his right

palm locking her jaw. Using his leverage under her chin he swung her out

and kicked her in the abdomen. She fell back and hit the doorframe, which

buckled with the force and the earpiece smashed into pieces.

Alice appeared and pulled Rose back tightly by the throat to get her out

into the hall.

Alice, get her out of here! I yelled. Take her to Jasper and keep her

there! Jacob, I need you!

Bella was turning blue now as she choked, eyes bulging.

CPR? I growled.



Yes! Jacob shouted.

The burn didnt register in my throat; all I could think of was my wife and

baby, dying before my very eyes. Get her breathing! I shouted at Jacob.

Ive got to get him out before-

My words were interrupted by a shattering crack. Jacob and I were like

statues with identical masks of horror as Bellas legs went limp and

sprawled out on the table.

Her spine, I choked in shock and sheer terror.

Get it out of her! Jacob snarled, throwing me the scalpel. She wont feel

anything now!

Never in my worst imaginings could I have envisioned the horror scene

before me. My wifes heart being forced to pump as she lay, cut open,

covered in and gushing bright scarlet blood. I looked at the incision Rose

had made and sliced the blade through the last layer of tissue around the

amniotic sac.

You stay with me now, Bella! Jacob yelled. Do you hear me? Stay!

Youre not leaving me. Keep your heart beating!

I placed my mouth into Bellas gaping flesh and used my razor sharp teethto cut carefully through the thick vampire-like skin, the sound like

shredding metal. I could hear Bella coughing and spluttering in the

background. I reached in and pulled the gasping baby out.

Renesmee. My voice was a soft murmur; I was in awe of the perfect

creature in my arms. She had a mass of ringlets matted with blood, her

rosebud mouth open in an O shape of surprise at her sudden entrance

into the world. Her eyes were the same melted chocolate as her mothe rs,

her skin cream beneath the coating of crimson. She was utterly

breathtaking. Such exquisite beauty could only have come from my angel,

my Bella.

Bella tried to lift her hands. Let me... she croaked. Give her to me.



I supported Renesmee as her mother tried to cradle her in her limp arms.

Renes...mee. So...beautiful, she cooed.

Renesmees pink lips opened into a wide, adoring smile at her mother

before sinking her milk teeth into the soft skin above Bellas left breast.

She gasped as blood flowed out of the crescent shape bite, and I whipped

Renesmee out of her arms. No, Renesmee, I whispered.

With a last thud Bellas heart faltered a beat, then Jacobs hands were

frantically but rhythmically compressing her chest, breathing lungful after

lungful of air down her throat.

What are you waiting for? He choked.

I was frozen in horror and shock for a fraction of a second. Take thebaby, I urged Jacob.

Throw it out the window.

Give her to me, came a golden wind chime voice. Jacob and I both

snarled as Rosalie came into view. Ive got it under control, Rose swore.

Give me the baby, Edward. Ill take care of her until Bella... I promise Ill

keep her safe. You can do this, Edward.

I checked her eyes, but there was no bloodlust now. I didnt have anyother option; I needed to get my venom into Bellas system now, so I

passed Renesmee to Rose. I didnt know if I could get enough venom into

Bella fast enough. Suddenly a metal syringe lying on a tray off to my side

caught my attention. In a flash of i nspiration I started draining venom

from my mouth into the syringe. The tray of instruments fell to the floor

with a clatter as I jumped to Bellas side.

Move your hands, Jacob, I ordered, hitting them out of the way.

Whats that?

My venom. I said and leant forward over Bella, injecting the poison

straight into Bellas heart, her body jolting like shed just been shocked.

Keep it moving, I ordered. I will keep you alive; you are not going to die,

Bella! Throwing the empty syringe down, I moved to her neck, and sank



my teeth into her soft skin, refusing to feel the burn in my throat; the

instinct to keep my Bella alive was stronger than any other. As the venom

flowed into her bloodstream, I ran my tongue over the bleeding puncture,

sealing the wound close. I did the same on both her wrists, the inside

crease of her elbows, anywhere there were arteries.

Its too late. Shes dead. The pulls gone; shes not here anymore, Ive got

to get away, Jacob thought.

Go, then, I snapped bashing his hands out the way and compressing her

heart quickly, rhythmically. I knew how her heart was supposed to sound

and I would beat it for her until she was strong enough. Bella would not

stop fighting, she would not leave me; and I would not leave her. Shes

not dead, I growled. Shes going to be fine. I was reassuring myself as

much as I was him, but I knew the words were true. They had to be.

Nothing would take me from Bella now. Come on, Bella, I urged, pushing

the now-viscous blood around her body. Renesmee needs you. I need

you. Nothing existed for me except Bella and my single minded ferocity.

Wed always been star-crossed lovers, the odds stacked against us. Would

fate take her from me now in the cruellest way? A bloody, macabre death

after giving birth to our miraculous daughter? The next instant, I saw the

gaping wound over her womb seal itself shut and I knew then that thevenom was working, so I worked harder.

Jacobs thoughts suddenly screamed at me from the stairs. Jacob and his

hatred for Renesmee, hatching a murderous plot for my daughter. The

instinct to protect both my wife and my daughter pulled me in opposite

directions. I could not leave Bella and I could not let him hurt Renesmee. I

opened my mouth to shout a warning to Rosalie when the mood of his

thoughts changed. It went from the heat of anger to a glowing as he saw

Renesmees face. Everything that he was, everything he would be,

changed. His ties, his life, his loves all transformed to be replaced by one

person.

Jacob had imprinted. On my daughter.



Chapter 20

I continued forcing the venom through Bellas system, panicked, terrified

and seething.

I was livid. First, Jacob had tried to steal Bella from me, now he was

staking a claim on my daughter. My love for Renesmee was already

strong, fervent, and devotional. Protectiveness swept through me. She

was only a few hours old, for goodness sake.

Suddenly Bellas heartbeat picked up underneath my pumping hands,

pulsating faster than usual as it pounded the venom around her veins of

its own accord. I exhaled in relief and stopped my compressions.

The scene in front of me was horrific. Blood covered almost every inch of Bellas skin; it matted and tangled her hair. Her limbs lay sprawled like a

beaten rag-dolls. Crimson splattered the panelled walls, it pooled on the

floor as it dripped from the table steadily. My T-shirt, hands and arms

were dyed a vivid scarlet. Instruments were scattered on the floor, the

broken metal syringe at my feet. The doorframe was broken, and books

were strewn around the room from Jacobs encounter with the thirsty

Rosalie.

I stood frozen by Bellas side, my hands ready to take over should her

heart falter but it was strong and urgent as it spread the poison, burning

up the blood in her veins. I knew on a level that meant it was working, but

I couldnt seem to believe it. Broken sobs escaped my lips which I tried to

muffle with my own bloodied hand.

I sat down, listening to Bellas heart. It was the only sound that made

sense in this hellish, chaotic nightmare. There was an argument going on

downstairs and a sense of possessiveness, mixed with frustration. Jacob.

I heard the swish of material as Carlisle flew upstairs and a gasp in the

doorway, as he took in the horror scene, his eyes wide.

He stepped forward quickly, medical training kicking in, his brow

furrowing as he checked Bellas pulse, the feel of the thick lethal

concoction racing through her veins. Heartbeats strong... incisions



dress with silver satin stilettos. She was enjoying playing dress up with her

life-size doll far too much, in my opinion. I rolled my eyes at her.

Shes unconscious, Edward. I have to take these opportunities when they

arise...shed thought.

All traces of Bellas nightmare birth had been scrubbed away with bleach.

The room was back to its usual pristine condition, the emergency room

set-up put away, but for the lifeless body in the middle of it. Finally, I had a

proper chance to meet my daughter. Rosalie brought her to me when all

the mess had been cleaned up, Renesmee peeking out from behind Roses

golden hair. She was even more beautiful than I remembered. She had

grown an alarming amount. Now that she was clean of all the blood, I

could see the bronze colour, my bronze, in her ringlets that now hung

almost to her shoulders. Her heart fluttered like bird wings. Her skin was

ivory with rose flushed cheeks, and her chocolate eyes melted my heart. I

reached out instinctively to hold her and she nestled into my arms, smiling

up at me and placing her warm palm on my throat. I had known she was

intelligent from the first time I heard her, but her gift dumbfounded me.

Not that I would have noticed it if I were the only one to know her.

Everyone absolutely adored her and I felt my heart swell with

overwhelming love. Now we just needed her mother to wake up to make

our family complete.

I heard footsteps ascending the staircase, along with thoughts full of panic

and apologies. I supposed I would have to face Jacob at some point; it

might as well be now.

Um, hey, he said, clearing his throat and rocking back on his heels

nervously in the doorway. I didnt look up. Im sorry I bailed... that

was...inexcusable.

I nodded. Yes, it was. But I accepted his apology.

Edward, about... Ness- Renesmee. You must hate me. I get that. But I

didnt have a choice. I know youve seen it in the packs thoughts before.

You know theres nothing romantic about this. He shuddered. I just want

her to be happy, safe and healthy.



I nodded again. On a certain level, buried far down, I did understand. I

remembered my words to Bella in the summer. "The imprinting

compulsion is one of the strangest things I've ever witnessed in my life, and

I've seen some strange things... It reminds me of A Midsummer Night's

Dream with all the chaos caused by the fairies' love spells...like magic."

Im going to see Sam in a minute...he needs to know. Its against werewolf

law to kill the object of a brothers imprinting. They cant hurt her.

Relief at that flooded through me, though I was still irked by the means of

achieving such an end.

Can I ask a favour? I know you think I dont deserve any but... Can you

promise that when Bella wakes up, youll let me tell her?

I considered it for a moment, and then spoke quietly, still not looking at

him; the petty part of me glad at the thought of setting a newborn on him.

Yes. I promise.

Thanks. He turned and walked softly back down the stairs, exhaling as he

went.

I was terrified for the agony Bella must have been suffering, and more

than a little worried that she wasnt moving. I hoped she was numb, that

she couldnt feel the venom racing to combust her organs, the poison

consuming her blood. I wanted her to know I was here, that I never left

her side, that she wasnt alone. I prayed with fervour that she would

forgive me for inflicting this excruciating pain on her.

I heard my fathers gentle footsteps approaching.

Still no change? Carlisle asked me, resting his hand on my shoulder as he

came into the room.

None. I shook my head. The empty word echoed through my head with

a deafening clatter.

He furrowed his brow and lowered his head to sniff Bellas wrist. Theres

no scent of the morphine left.



I know. Id spent hours, nay days, breathing in Bellas scent as the

morphine slowly disappeared from her veins, surprisingly leaving behind

her floral, freesia-like aroma, only this time without the burn.

Bella? Carlisle asked her softly. Can you hear me?

Bella? Bella, love? Can you open your eyes? I placed my hand around

hers. Can you squeeze my hand? I applied slight pressure. Nothing. This

wasnt normal as transformations went. I felt compelled to voice my

deepest fear, something I could only say to my father. Maybe...Carlisle,

maybe I was too late. I murmured, my voice breaking on the last word,

my mind starting to consider the heartbreaking implications if it were to

prove true.

Listen to her heart, Edward. Its stronger than even Emmetts was. Ive

never heard anything so vital . Shell be perfect, he said with a reassuring

smile.

And her- her spine? I flinched at the memory of the deafening crack, her

legs going limp and sprawling out on the table.

Her injuries werent that much worse than Esmes. The venom will heal

her as it did Esme.

But shes so still. I must have done something wrong.

Or right, Edward. Son, you did everything you could have and more. Im

not sure I would have had the persistence, the faith it took to save her.

His voice was bursting with pride. Stop berating yourself. Bella is going to

be fine. Im so proud of you, son.

She must be in agony, I whispered, remembering back ninety years to

the unspeakable inferno burning its way through me, the pain seared

forever into the tissues of my infallible mind.

We dont know that. She had so much morphine in her system. We dont

know the effect that will have on her experience. Im incredibly curious...

I caressed the smooth skin inside her elbow with my fingertips. Bella, I

love you. Bella, Im sorry.



Will you go and talk to Rose and Jacob, Edward? I cant stop them fighting

over her...

No, Im staying right here, I whispered. Theyll sort it out.

An interesting situation. And I thought Id seen just about everything.

Ill deal with it later. Well deal with it later, I emphasised, pressing my

fingers gently into Bellas palm.

Im sure, between the five of us, we can keep it from turning into

bloodshed. He chortled internally.

I sighed. I dont know which side to take. Id love to flog them both. Well,

later. Rose and Jacob were fast getting on my nerves with their constant

quarrels over Renesmee; whose turn it was to feed her, to hold her, to

rock her to sleep...

I wonder what Bella will think- whose side shell take.

A hard chuckle escaped me. Im sure shell surprise me. She always

does. Bella had surprised me in every way since the first moment I met

her; her silent mind, her innate goodness, her unusual reactions...

With another pat on my shoulder as I sat lost in memory, Carlisle turned

and flitted back downstairs where Renesmee was entertaining a captive

audience as she sipped through her metal cup; blood, not baby formula.

Hours later, I heard Alice dancing her way down the hall and into the

room.

How much longer? I asked her, my voice still hollow with fear.

Not long now. See how clear shes becoming? I can see her so much

better, she said, relieved that her sight of Bella was almost back tonormal. And she was right. The grey haze that had clouded Alices vision

had almost completely disappeared, the blurred images no longer warped.

I smiled; it hurt the muscles in my face, which had been contorted with

horror and agony for days on end. Still feeling a little bitter?



Yes, thanks so much for bringing it up. She scowled at me. You would

be mortified, too, if you realized you were handcuffed by your own

nature. I see vampires best, because I am one; I see humans okay, because

I was one. But I cant see these odd half-breeds at all because theyre

nothing Ive experience. Bah! She thre w her hand up in the air inexasperation.

Focus, Alice, I reminded.

Right. Bellas almost too easy to see now. Look...

An image swam before me of Bella and I sometime in the future; we were

lying down in the wildflowers of our meadow with rays of sun trickling

through the trees, casting glittering rainbows off of both of us. Her skin

was sparkling white, matching mine, her eyes still expressive though now

orangey amber, her long, mahogany hair fanning out around her with

strands of copper glistening in the sunlight.

Shes really going to be fine, I breathed in relief.

Of course she is.

You werent so sanguine two days ago, I said, remembering Alices

puckered up expression and blazing eyes.

I couldnt see right two days ago. But now that shes free of all the blind

spots, its a piece of cake. She gave a triumphant nod and flashed her

gleaming teeth at me.

Could you concentrate for me? On the clock- give me an estimate.

Alice sighed. So impatient. Fine. Give me a sec- She shut her eyes tight

and wrinkled her nose as images swirled. The clock face from this very

room appeared in her vision showing a time a little over six hours from

now.

Thank you, Alice. My voice exuded happiness as I reached up to caress

Bellas smooth, porcelain cheek, sweeping a lock of chestnut hair from her

face.

Shes going to be dazzling, Alice murmured.



She always has been, I growled.

Jeez, Edward, relax. You know what I mean. Look at her. That ice blue

really sets off her new skin, dont you think? I cant wait till she sees her

closet; I wonder what shell wear first...she thought as she pranced out of

the room.

Another row was breaking out between Rosalie and Jacob downstairs, like

children fighting over a new toy. Emmett was playing the role of referee

while watching a baseball game on the Plasma TV.

I waited six hours, and then the sound that had got me through the last

two days suddenly changed; Bellas heartbeat accelerated. Carlisle, I

called. I knew this meant the wait was nearly over, the venom burning its

way through the final organ. Carlisle darted into the room with Alice

behind him, her grin and golden eyes wide with excitement, hands moving

together in silent, expectant applause.

We all listened as Bellas heart beat in a frenzy. Ah, Carlisle said with a

grin. Its almost over.

Soon, Alice said, bouncing up and down on the balls of her designer-

shod feet. Ill get the others. Should I have Rosalie...?

Yes, I began. Keep the baby away. I hated keeping Renesmee away

from Bella, and guilt flooded me. But the fact remained that blood flowed

through Renesmees veins. I was a father and I had to protect my

daughter; I was sure Bella would understand that.

The slender, white fingers lying in my palm twitched. Everyone held their

breath as we heard Bellas heart gallop on to yet a new speed. I leant

forward and squeezed her hand. Bella? Bella, love?

Ill bring them right up, Alice said eagerly and flew down the stairs

bringing Jasper, Emmett and Esme back with her. Emmett wore an exci ted

grin, Esme smiled tenderly and Jaspers brow was furrowed warily. He

went to stand in front of the others, folding his arms. Emmett followed

suit. Alice was peeking around Jaspers body, her perfect teeth gleaming

as she mentally counted the last few seconds.



Suddenly Bellas back arched off the table, as if she were a puppet being

raised by a string attached to her racing heart. Then, as if the string was

cut, she collapsed back down with a clatter. It was the only sign of pain

shed shown, which made me wonder. Had she been suffering the inferno

all this time? It wouldnt be the first time shed refused to show perceivedweakness. My heart felt like it was shattering from that torture, jagged

shards ripping right through me. A ga-lump of Bellas heart broke me from

my anguish. It stuttered twice and then with a final, muted thud, fell

silent.

It was over.

Bellas lids fluttered, her long, thick black lashes caressing her smooth

snowy cheek.

And then she opened her eyes and gazed in wonder at the brand new

world around her.

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