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BEYOND WORDS / WHEN ‘NOTHING’ MAKES POETRY HAPPEN Axon: Creative Explorations, Vol 11, No 1, July 2021 Visual writing, negative capability, and the un/thinkable Amelia Walker Charles Bukowski called poetry ‘what happens when nothing else can’. But what happens when poetry can’t? Through autoethnography and poetic inquiry, this article considers visual writing and alogia, which in psychiatric discourses represents paucity of speech and language indicative of thought disorder. I write as a poet who experiences mild alogia during bipolar depressive phases. While generally manageable, depression for me often forecloses my usual word-based writing practices. Visual poetry, however, remains possible; it becomes the poetry that ‘nothing’ (depression’s void) makes happen. Connecting this phenomenon with research into writing-as-thinking, where poetry facilitates various specialist thought practices, alogia and related negative psychiatric symptoms feasibly reflect thought processes exceeding word- based communication. Such ‘disordered’ thinking may thus be recognised as activating what Keats termed negative capability: poetic reaching through uncertainty towards the un/thinkable (the not-yet-thought, but thinkable). My article supports this argument through analysis of my own and other writers’ visual poems. Keywords: visual poetry; assemblage; agencement; negative capability; writing as thinking; the un/thinkable beyond words / when ‘nothing’ makes poetry happen | Axon: Crea... 1 of 21 https://www.axonjournal.com.au/issue-vol-11-no-1-jul-2021/beyond-words-when-‘nothing%u2019-makes-poetry-happen

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BEYOND WORDS / WHEN ‘NOTHING’ MAKESPOETRY HAPPEN

Axon: Creative Explorations, Vol 11, No 1, July 2021

Visual writing, negative capability, and the un/thinkable

Amelia Walker

Charles Bukowski called poetry ‘what happens when nothing else can’. But what happenswhen poetry can’t? Through autoethnography and poetic inquiry, this article considers visualwriting and alogia, which in psychiatric discourses represents paucity of speech and languageindicative of thought disorder. I write as a poet who experiences mild alogia during bipolardepressive phases. While generally manageable, depression for me often forecloses my usualword-based writing practices. Visual poetry, however, remains possible; it becomes the poetrythat ‘nothing’ (depression’s void) makes happen. Connecting this phenomenon with researchinto writing-as-thinking, where poetry facilitates various specialist thought practices, alogia andrelated negative psychiatric symptoms feasibly reflect thought processes exceeding word-based communication. Such ‘disordered’ thinking may thus be recognised as activating whatKeats termed negative capability: poetic reaching through uncertainty towards the un/thinkable(the not-yet-thought, but thinkable). My article supports this argument through analysis of myown and other writers’ visual poems.

Keywords: visual poetry; assemblage; agencement; negative capability; writing as thinking; theun/thinkable

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Figure One: Mapping Limits

 

beyond words…

What I remember: the lightbulb blew, seconds after he hung up, me mid-sentence. A coincidence.But Fuck. What a coincidence. I remember shaking. My body shaking. Was I shaking? I wasn’t inmy body. Because. I was out of my mind. Where was I? I don’t know. Maybe I was dead.Temporarily. Gone. I wasn’t me. It couldn’t be my life. That body, shaking, was somebody else’s.That somebody’s hands found a pen. Paper. They were writing. No. Scrawling. Screaming. Withink. Pressing hard. Tearing holes. In silence. No sentences. No lines. Nothing nameable asgrammar. The words raced up, down, left, right, in circles, spirals and sharp-angled turns. Wordsscratched over words amid zig-zagging scribbles, exclamations, shapes. A mind-map of blastedterrains, lost bearings. The body of the somebody scrawled, scrawled, scrawled. They shook.They sobbed: breathy, pathetic sobs both animal and beyond-animal. Until—

The memory shared above depicts a turning point: my first experience of being overcome, at sixteen, bypoetry that ‘happens when nothing else can’, as Charles Bukowski phrased it (in Orphan 2020) — apoetry of nothingness. This article discusses, first, how poetry of nothingness can transform poets byevoking something like that which  John Keats termed ‘negative capability’: poetic reaching throughuncertainty towards the un/thinkable (the not-yet-thought, but thinkable) (Keats in Simpson & French2006). Poetry of nothingness can thereby paradoxically facilitate knowledge-making that helps poetsactivate previously foreclosed possibilities of agency: considered choice about actions to take and resist.I depict being-written as transformative ‘becoming’ (Zourabichvili 2003: 29-31) via which a poet shiftsbeyond believing nothing can happen, towards recognition of how to make things happen once more.

To illustrate the above, I discuss how my first experience of writing in response to traumatic newsshowed me poetry’s problem-solving capacities, leading me to incorporate writing among the suite ofnon-psychotropic therapies I use to manage my diagnosed mental health condition (bipolar). That writingcan benefit mental health is argued across mainstream as well as ‘anti-’ psychiatric literatures (Laing1967; 1969; Esterling et al 1999; Krpan et al 2013; Winston, Mogrelia & Maher 2016). However, in casesof bipolar and schizophrenia, among other conditions, a complicating factor is that acute phases (e.g.mania, depression, and psychosis) frequently alter language processing, affecting both speech andwriting. Mainstream psychiatry deems these changes symptomatic of ‘formal thought disorder’ (Trepacz& Baker 1993: 114; Docherty, Berenbaum & Kerns 2011: 1352).

Although the pathological implications of the word disorder disappoint me, I find the literature aroundformal thought disorder fascinating, since poetry uses many similar devices. That poetry can be ‘goodfor thinking’ (Webb 2010) thus enables re-thinking of disorder as this-order  — a different mode ofthinking neither superior nor inferior to the dominant ones, but instead complementary and capable ofraising perspectives and possibilities not easily imaginable in other ways. As Judith Butler in her earlierwritings noted, ‘neither grammar nor style are politically neutral’, implying that alternative modes oflanguage can open alternative ways to live, think, be and become (1999: xviii).

A second, trickier problem is alogia — ‘poverty of speech’ (Trepacz & Baker 1993: 117) or ‘decreasedverbal productivity, increased latency of verbal response, and decreased syntactic complexity’ (Docherty,

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Berenbaum & Kerns 2011: 1352). Alongside ‘amotivation, apathy, [and] avolition’, alogia is considered a‘negative’ mental health symptom, as opposed to ‘positive’ symptoms including ‘delusions,hallucinations, and disorganized behavior’ (Strous et al 2009: 585; see also Toomey et al 1998: 470;Miyoshi 2001: 279; Rossell 2005: 135). Mainstream psychiatrists typically assume alogia indicates‘diminished mental activity’, and ‘retardation in thinking’ (Miyoshi 2001: 279), but I argue for alogia’spositive re-conception as knowledge-making via negative capability. Towards re-conceiving alogia, Isurvey writers’ accounts of linguistic challenges accompanying physical illness, depression, trauma, andmelancholia. Although these situations differ from one another, and from bipolar (which differs for everyindividual, as do all diagnosed conditions), common to the accounts I consider is that positivepossibilities arise in situations of loss and im/possibility. The other writers’ accounts foreground mydescription of experiencing mild alogia during bipolar lows, and turning to collage-based visual poetry atsuch times.

Throughout the article, I intersperse my visual poems with personal reflections, combining poetic inquiry(Prendergast, Leggo & Sameshima 2009) with autoethnography (Rambo & Ellis 2021) to sustaincreatively-critical explorations. Recognising everybody’s situation as different, I avoid pitching mypersonal realisations as “findings”. Rather, I suggest that my coming-to-realisation process reflectsalogia as involving cognition beyond words.

 

Figure Two: Spewing Teeline

 

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on being… written

As earlier noted, Bukowski claimed that poetry ‘happens when nothing else can’ (in Orphan 2020). Asimilar suggestion is that there are some poems we write, and some that write us — poems of being-written. Being-written happens intuitively, bodily, and affectively. It feels beyond control andincomprehensible in terms of conscious meaning or intent, like the ‘spontaneous overflow of powerfulfeelings’ William Wordsworth described (Wordsworth and Coleridge 1976: 22).

Crucially, the ‘spontaneous overflow’ becomes poetry when ‘recollected in tranquillity’ (Wordsworth andColeridge 1976: 42). As contemporary creative writer Kathryn Hamilton Warren notes, ‘it isn’t justsensitivity that’s required, but thought, the ability to connect feelings to subjects that matter’ in ways that,if pursued ‘deliberately and repeatedly’ can generate ‘new “habits of mind”’ (2021: n.p.). The mentaltransformation Hamilton Warren signals connects with poetry’s ‘negative capabilities’: capabilities forexploring possibilities at the fringes of thought, and expanding these fringes to progressively know morethan before (Keats in Simpson & French 2006). For psychoanalytic theorist William Bion, negativecapability arouses ‘patience and the ability to tolerate frustration and anxiety’ so as to ‘think in thepresent moment, even in the face of uncertainty’ (in Simpson & French 2006: 245).

The notion of poetry’s negative capabilities also resonates with arguments from creative writingresearchers for poetry as a means of knowledge-generation (Webb 2010; Gibbons 2015), includingGrant Caldwell’s (2018) work on un/intention and Dominique Hecq’s (2015) on ‘deferred action’(nachträglichkeit). Hecq   and Caldwell separately observe that poetic composition processes arefrequently mysterious to poets. One frequently doesn’t know what one is doing until afterwards (Hecq2015: 183). ‘Un/intention’ concept describes how poets don’t necessarily know why they write, yet stillcome to know (more than before) through writing (Caldwell 2018). For Hecq, poetic knowledge-consolidation involves nachträglichkeit: discovery ‘after the fact’ of previously unrecognisablemotivations recognised through self-reading, re-reading, revision and/or reflection (Hecq 2015: 8).

To illustrate the above, I return to the memory earlier relayed of my first time succumbing to being-writtenin response to traumatic news. Previously, I described a disembodied self-detachment — a sense mybody and life were no longer mine but that of a beyond-animal somebody else who sobbed and shookas they breathlessly scrawled. What happened next was this:

                                                                                                                                                           —they stilled.

The breathing calmed. Some days passed. (How many?) Somewhere in that space, I became meagain. No, anew. I found the paper defaced by the panicked body I’d left behind — a testimony ofshocks my gone self had failed to bear with. It made no sense. Nonsense. But I made sense of it.With, from, and through it. Extracting words and phrases from the random, odd-angled mess, Istructured them into lines, and then the lines into tidy boxes — stanzas: a poem, albeit free-verseand surrealist-influenced, laden thick with symbols, imagery and allusions. Eventually it becametwo poems, both of which, though juvenile, remain meaningful for me now as then (Walker 2001;2002).

The second composition phase was, like the first, a being-written, but of a kind different from the first,where being-written meant being driven by forces exceeded my conscious comprehension — that is, by

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un/intent (Caldwell 2018). In the second phase, nachträglichkeit) was key (Hecq 2015). As earlier noted,I’d received traumatic news and responded instinctively via poetry — initially, a bodily compulsion toscrawl; then, later, a calmer process of transforming my written head-dump into something meaningfulfor me and shareable with others.

Creating poetic order from poetic chaos, I cognitively processed the traumatic news and consolidated anew sense of self capable of confronting a shifted reality. Writing rewrote my being. I underwent‘becoming’ — self-transformation (Zourabichvili 2013) — and came to comprehend things I previouslycouldn’t. Becoming increased my ability to activate agency via considered choices about meanings tomake from what had happened and actions to pursue (or refrain from).

 

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Figure Three: Fuite

 

poetry, thought, language, affect, and disorder this-order

So far, I have described two phases of poetic composition as being-written through poetry that helpedme comprehend things that seemed incomprehensible, and to navigate distressing emotions: the firstdraft, and revision. The first draft mimicked my world and self: in pieces, chaotic. Reworking it broughtorder through (re)construction of a new, stronger self. It was survival. It was learning. It got me through.

Writing poetry subsequently became a practice I maintained, and still maintain, for navigating life’schallenges and uncertainties. The knowledges poetry offers are in my view neither superior nor inferiorto those of other discourses. But they’re different, because they exceed standard language’s commonconstraints (Butler 1999: xviii), which enables different, complementary approaches to problems.Paradoxically, poetry often exceeds common language constraints by introducing new ones — forinstance, line and syllable counts, and patterns of metre, rhyme, repetition, and more — that provokeinnovative solutions to formal problems (Finberg 2015). Not all, or even many of my poems involvedramatic emotional triggers (thank goodness). But the experience awakened me to potentials alsoaccessible in calmer, more deliberate ways through ‘cultivation’ of un/intent using prompts, automaticwriting, and aleatory (chance-based) devices (Caldwell & Brophy 2012). Reading and reflecting on otherpoets’ works also helps (Magee 2009). 

At eighteen, I was diagnosed with bipolar. My psychiatrist prescribed lithium, which I initially tookbelieving it best. By twenty, my liver and kidneys were straining. I sought other means. Poetry becameincorporated into a suite of non-psychotropic therapies I still engage. I have not had any psychiatrichospitalisations while using these therapies (compared with three within two years medicated). I write tokeep track of my cycles, identify triggers, and confront problems that could otherwise undo me. ThoughI’m wary of certain avenues he pursued, RD Laing’s ‘anti-psychiatry’ informs my approach to so-calledmental illness states as meaningful responses to crises of a person’s milieu, including socio-politicalproblems (Laing 1967; 1969). For Laing, poetry provided strategies for working with, rather than against,‘breakdown’ towards ‘breakthrough’ (1967: 10), which reflects how writing a poem, for me, often involvespressing deeper into some hurt or dilemma to better understand it and the possible responses.

Mainstream psychiatric research similarly touts writing’s wellbeing benefits (Esterling et al 1999; Krpanet al 2013; Winston, Mogrelia & Maher 2016). But where bipolar, schizophrenia, and a number of otherconditions are concerned, the use of writing as therapy raises two significant challenges. The first, whichI shall address within this section, is formal thought disorder. The second is alogia, to which I will laterreturn.  

Formal thought disorder indicates ‘disturbance of the structure or form of thought as opposed to adisorder of thought content’ (Trepacz & Baker 1993: 114) identified via ‘difficult to understand’ or‘disorganized’ speech (Docherty, Berenbaum  & Kerns 2011: 1352) and sometimes writing (Strous etal  2009: 585). Formal thought disorder problematises writing’s therapeutic potentials because poeticdevices of rhyme, repetition, and general sense-bending frequently veer close to certain linguistic habitsvia which mainstream western psychiatrists diagnose disordered thought. For example, ‘clangassociation’ describes punning, rhyming, or other devices via which sound similarity ‘substitutes for logic’

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(Shives 2008: 111-112). Clang association’s similarities to poetry are evident in the account literary criticReginald Gibbons offers in How Poems Think: Gibbons proposes poetic thought is ‘created by’ rhyme,which ‘may give us supplementary meanings and even phantom statements that the poem does notpresent explicitly’ (Gibbons 2015: 63).

Echolalia — a formal thought disorder symptom involving ‘parrot-like repetition of overheard words orphrases’ (Shives 2008: 112) — is meanwhile recognisable in poetry through intertextual citations,refrains, and other nods to tradition. Another example is ‘flight of ideas’ — ‘skipping from one idea toanother’ via ‘fragmentary’ connections established often via ‘chance associations’ (Shives 2008: 112). Inpoetic contexts, tangential connections generate originality via novel associations of previouslyunconnected things to cast fresh perspective on both. Incorporation of neologisms in poetry and formalthought disorder is yet another way in which much poetic thought deploys linguistic pathways thatpsychiatrists pathologise as disordered.

Poetry’s resonances with formal thought disorder could be part of why poetry has historically beensegregated from serious thought and language (Austin 1962). Yet, given arguments for poetry’sknowledge-making capacities (Webb 2010; Gibbons 2015; Hecq 2015; Caldwell 2018), I prefer to arguethat poetry can offer inroads towards enhanced empathy with and understanding of supposedlydisordered elucidations as meaningful and valuable, and that this forms part of poetry’s therapeuticvalue: poetry may be what happens sometimes for some people when regular language provesinsufficient for thoughts and feelings that push the limits of common experience. Reconceived poetically,formal thought disorder might simply mean this-order — a range of bespoke orders or logic systemsneither superior nor inferior to the mainstream ones, merely different, able to operate alongside and indialogue with dominant thought and language use. Thinking in this-order may enrich both collective andindividual knowledges about managing problems, surpassing impasses, and breaking through (via)seeming breakdown (Walker 2019).    

Obviously, I bear personal investments in the above argument. Appreciating poetry-as-thinking mattersto me. Poetry is how I struggle with and through dilemmas where — even if other things can still happen— I need to think beyond the standard, most obvious pathways towards in/conceivable, im/possibleways through.

Hence, it guts me when poetry itself refuses to happen — for instance, when alogia takes hold.

 

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Figure Four: Puzzling Pieces

 

negative space(s): depression, silence, and capacities

If poetry happens when nothing else can, what happens when even poetry can’t? Alogia is among manyfactors that can compromise or foreclose language. This section considers accounts from writers whohave grappled with linguistic blockages relating to physical illness, depression, and trauma, ultimatelyidentifying positives in seemingly negative experiences. Crucial to recall is the distinctness of all thesescenarios, which I wish neither to conflate nor reduce, but to articulate — connect — in a dialogue ofrelated-yet-distinct perspectives and learnings.

The distress involved in compromise of language burns in American essayist BK Loren’s account ofillness-induced aphasia. Aphasia differs from alogia in that language is not necessarily reduced but re-routed: one intends to write or say one word, but finds oneself producing another. As Loren relays, ‘fish’might become ‘bagel’, ‘lion’ ‘table’, and ‘pelican’ ‘funicular’, resulting in ‘gibberish’ (Loren 2013: 205).Loren’s aphasia ‘crashed in overnight’, ‘lasted ten years’ and triggered deep depression (206).

That Loren’s aphasia invoked depression mirrors creative writing researcher Elizabeth Pattinson’saccount of depression itself interrupting speech and writing. Discussing lived experiences of cyclical lowmoods, Pattinson links depression with ‘silence of self’ (2014: 1), ‘quieting’ (4), and reduced capacity towrite:

My words, normally quick across the page, clot under the skin. The space between the body, themind, and the page, thickens and scars. The quietness envelops. I turn off my screens ...Depression might, for the purposes of this paper, be conceived as an interruption. A crack in thepassage of consciousness: something that breeds hopelessness. Inertia. (Pattinson 2014: 4)

Pattinson’s account connects with trauma theorists’ descriptions of how trauma interrupts memory andlanguage, riddling narratives of trauma with gaps, silences, and uncertainties (Caruth 1995; Atkinson2014; Alford 2016). Importantly, I here note that the depression Pattinson discusses is, like my lows,closer to what psychiatrists call the ‘endogenous’ kinds — seemingly genetic, as diabetes, asthma, andother physical conditions can be — whereas trauma is better describable as ‘reactive’ to certain eventsor situations (as Loren’s depression reacted to illness and language loss). Nonetheless, a commonalityis of experience that ‘escapes language’ (Alford 2016), for instance, via a complex ‘dilemma thatunderlies many survivors’ reluctance to translate their experience into speech’ (Caruth 1995: 154).

Punctuated with ‘gaps’ in memory, trauma ‘exceeds simple understanding’ (156) and is associated with‘disappearance’, ‘loss’, ‘essential incomprehensibility’, ‘affront to understanding’ (154) and double-bindscenarios where ‘[t]o speak is impossible, and not to speak is impossible’ (Schreiber Weitz in Caruth1995: 154). Creative writing researcher Meera Atkinson similarly observes how trauma renders the onetraumatised ‘speechless by delay, by a lack of psychic registration and the seemingly incoherentreverberations of belatedness’ (2014: n.p.). Atkinson here also evokes psychoanalytic theories regarding

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how shame plays on memory by inhibiting certain recollections. Trauma theorist Cathy Caruth (1995)deploys psychoanalytic theories to conceptualise how trauma affects memory, problematising(re)construction of liveable self-narratives to sustain self-identity. It therefore seems worth brieflycontemplating the psychoanalytic concept of ‘melancholia’.

Melancholia indicates sadness driven by inability to mourn some loss because that loss itself isunrecognised or repressed from consciousness (Butler 1997: 173; Muñoz 1999: 57-76; Ahmed 2010:141). Potentially stemming from un/recognised or un/knowable trauma, but also associated with otherforms of grief, loss, rejection and/or disappointment, melancholia inhibits subjects from explaining theirfeelings, even to themselves (Butler 1997: 173). Melancholia isn’t necessarily personal: like trauma, itcan be intergenerational (Atkinson 2014), cultural and/or shared, as in cases of cultural groups impactedby invasion, slavery, oppression, racism and related modes of abuse (Muñoz 1999; Ahmed 2010). Givenits suite of possible causes, melancholia is thus relevant to mnemonic and linguistic lacunae of trauma,pain, sadness, depression, low mood, illness, and more.

So far, I have focused on how aphasia, depressive silence of self, traumatic interruption to memory, andmelancholia in different ways, reflect connections between language, thought and affect, evident throughthe challenges of writing in and/or about such experiences. But the key point is that they all ultimatelyidentify positive valences and possibilities for knowledge-making through such challenges.

For Loren, coming back ‘into existence’ through language recuperation brought ‘learning’ and intensifiedawe for language that shines bright through the award-winning writings she has subsequently produced.Pattinson meanwhile poses that depression ‘might be more productively considered as products of thecoursing, flashing, blinking and ever-moving systems of capitalism’ and revisioned as ‘interruption of theeveryday, a fissure in the performance of capitalist life’ (2014: 4). Pattinson describes writing throughdepressive fissures via assemblage — a Deleuzo-Guattarian mode of ‘writing experiences as a collation’towards ‘a more holistic and reparative approach to understanding non-linear and traumatic experiencesof ‘silence’, or departure from the self’ (in Pattinson 2014: 1). Atkinson, although maintaining that trauma‘can never be fully knowable or theorised’, asserts, ‘even in the face of this impossibility’, that ‘trauma,affect and the body demand voice and require witness’ (2014: n.p.). The late Jose Esteban Muñozproposed ‘depathologising’ melancholia as something people of colour and/as queer people frequentlyfind ‘necessary’ — ‘an integral part of everyday lives’ that radically ‘helps us (re)construct identity andtake our dead with us to the various battles we must wage in their names — and in our name’ (1999:74).

The positive re-visionings this section has surveyed of linguistic, mneumonic, and related phenomenatypically assumed to be ‘negative’ inform the directions this article’s remaining sections pursue towardsmy main goal: reconsidering alogia in similarly positive terms.  

 

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Figure Five: Becoming (what the bird said)

 

beyond words / into alogia

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The previous section considered, via other writers’ accounts, how reduced language can positivelyenable different ways of writing and knowing. This section relays my experiences of alogia, focusing fornow on its challenges in order to foreground the next section, where, inspired by Loren (2013), Pattinson(2014), Atkinson (2014) and Caruth (1995), I discuss how visual poetry frequently becomes, for me, thepoetry that happens when even poetry can’t happen.

To frame my account of alogia, I present a disclaimer: I’ve never been diagnosed with alogia — at least,no doctor has ever told me I have it. I’ve recognised it in myself via reading and self-monitoring. It comesand goes together with my lows. It’s mild, never interfering with my work or social function. I just becomeless outspoken than usual. (But ‘usual’ for me is quite raucous; I suspect many friends and family sighwith relief when I quieten down for a while). I still speak, just not more than needed. I take longer to replyin conversations, and think harder about what to say. These aren’t necessarily bad things. They’re muchpreferable to when my mouth moves faster than my mind, generating prolific foot-in-mouth scenarios.Other positives are I listen more, demand less, and take more time to reflect on things others say. Asidefrom becoming somewhat boring, I’m probably a better, more considerate person than in other, moreexcitable states.

Alogia’s main problem, for me, is writing poetry. Book reviews, articles, emails, and workplacecorrespondences all remain possible, albeit more slowly, with increased effort. What alogia saps fromme is creative wordplay. Sometimes, this doesn’t bother me. All writers have non-writing phases, right?(Some might suggest that I am being melodramatic, applying a fancy label to what could equally becalled commonplace creative blockage). Analogous to social situations, I’m sometimes content to justexpress less and listen more — as in, listening on paper: reading, learning, and reflecting on what otherpoets write. Sometimes, a low can be pleasant and restful, like drawing breath between one sentenceand the next or resting sore muscles during a break between phases of intense physical training. Inthese cases, speechlessness and silence can bear curious pleasures.

Then, there are other times.

Twentieth-century British playwright Sarah Kane wrote of ‘a night in which everything was revealed tome. / How can I speak again?’ (2001: 205). This perfectly describes the frustrations that swarm duringcertain low phases when I sense a problem requiring working out through the poetry alogia forecloses.It’s a heavy feeling, a pressure, something undeniably t/here, yet invisible, intangible, inexplicable… Wellno. Not inexplicable, rather in/explicable. Potentially explicable, but not via the means I most ordinarilypursue.

This is where visual poetry comes in — where alogia, too, becomes invested with positive valences ofnegative capacities towards un/knowings.

 

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Figure Six: Map 252 Adjoins

 

alogia’s productive constraints, visual poetry, and assemblage/agencement

If poetry happens when nothing else can, visual poetry is what happens, for me, when even poetry can’t— what I write when alogia takes hold. That I do so resonates with mental health research indicatingasemic writing — ‘written expression in which the written material has no discernible semantic content;the letters appear to be illegible and are open to varied interpretations’ — frequently appeals to peoplewith alexithymia, a condition involving alogia (Winston et al 2016: 142-144). While my lows differ majorlyfrom alexithymic being, and while my visual poetry practices differ from asemic writing via inclusion ofrecognisable signifiers (such as maps and music scores), the commonality is that images come in wherewords fail, affirming a point visual artists know well: visual expression involves cognition exceeding thatof word-based languages (Witton et al 2016: 153-154).

That alogia pushes me towards visual poetry reflects how alogia, though assumed negative, canbecome positive, much as constraint-based poetics unlock un/conscious un/intention: when habitualprocesses are unavailable, one pursues alternative pathways, exploring possibilities one otherwise

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probably wouldn’t explore (Finberg 2015). Alogia introduces constraints that force negative capacities.Music, movement, sculpture and a plethora of other media could also provide similarly effective placesfor poets to go when words won’t come, but for me, visual poetry feels accessible during phases ofalogia because I also write it at other times. I foreground, however, that all my forays into visual poeticsare playful and exploratory: I lay no claim to critical expertise, and flag the literature around ‘VisPo’(Vassilakis & Hill 2012) as far exceeding what this article relays.

I began playing with visual poetry following a workshop with Australian poet, performance artist  andpublisher, ∏O.  ∏O’s Numbers Poems (2000) — wordless poems fully based on spatial arrangements ofnumbers and mathematical symbols — revolutionised my conceptions of what poetry is and can do.Regarding possible questions of how visual poetry differs from visual art, I personally class my work asvisual poetry, not art, basically because I have no training or skill in artistic creation, and because myinterest is, as with word-based poems, in formal arrangements of symbols and signifiers in unusual waysthat provoke new connections and possibilities (although I also recognise that equivalent tendencies arerecognisable among artists, and that distinctions might after all be pedantic and redundant).

The visual poetry practices I mostly explore when experiencing alogia are collage-based. Perhaps this isbecause collage doesn’t require generating original content; in the spirit of the bricoleur, I go to whatevermaterials are at hand (Aagard 2019). My processes resonate with Pattinson’s ‘writing experiences as acollation or assemblage of practices’ as a means to ‘gain a more holistic and reparative approach tounderstanding non-linear and traumatic experiences of “silence”, or departure from the self’ (2014: 1).Pattinson deploys the Deleuzo-Guattarian concept of assemblage/agencement. To avoid problematicconflation of Deleuzo-Guattarian assemblage with common senses of intentional artistic acts ofassembling disparate parts to form a new whole, I am emphasising the French term, agencement(Zourabichvilo 2003: 6-10). Collage practices, including my own, can entail agencement, but for otherreasons; agencement occurs through, and offers thought much more beyond mere combinations ofmaterials (Hanley 2018).

Deleuze and Guattari gave agencement at least ‘half a dozen different definitions’ (Hanley 2018: 4).Hanley treats it as ‘internal dynamic through the co-functioning of parts’ (2018: 2), while Zourabichviloemphasises two axes and segments: content and expression (2003: 6). Axis one concerns, on onehand, bodies, actions and passions, and on the other, collective acts of enunciation and immaterialtransformations attributed to the material. Axis two involves territorialisation and deterritorialisation—territorialising factors being those that control and potentially oppress, and deterritorialising ones beingthose that undo such controls, seeking liberation and pursuing desires down lines of flight (fuite: fleeingfrom and running towards, in a taking flight sense) (Zourabichvilo 2003: 6-7). Relevant to visual poetryand alogia, agencement opens potentialities for new knowing, negative capacity, and un/intention.Agencement problematises assumptions about agency: the subject is never fully in control, norcontrolled; freedom, choice, and action are always contingent; we are always driven by more than weknow, which drives desire for knowing more (Zourabichvilo 2003: 7).

Agencement, by complicating agency, reflects the un/intentional processes my visual poetry involves. It’smessily driven by trial and error, accidents and chance (Finberg 2015). Making visual poetry reminds meof those first poems I wrote, at sixteen, when it seemed my body was no longer mine and that somebodyelse was writing. Making visual poetry, I rarely think about what I’m doing; things land on paper; later, Ireturn to ask how and why things landed as they did. That’s how Figures One to Seven were created,

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using out-of-date road maps, teeline shorthand manuals, music scores, national geographics, and a self-help manual. They are part of a series, other pieces from which were published in Unusual Work issue#28 (∏o 2019).

Creating Figures One to Seven, I was guided by un/intent (Caldwell 2018). Reviewing them,nachträglichkeit (Hecq 2015) through self-reading brought me to reconceive them as ecopoems aboutenvironmental destruction. While I recognise meaning in poetry to be slippery — an author’sinterpretation of meaning bears no privilege over interpretations other readers might produce — the actof self-reading nonetheless helped me consider contemporary ecological problems in ways beyond howI had previously done, thereby expanding my scope for thought and knowing. To illustrate someecological readings of the poems, Figures One and Seven, juxtaposing water and maps, can be read asallusions to rising tides and climate change. The splicing of old against new maps in Figure Six andblank puzzles in Figure Four conceivably reflect overdevelopment, unsustainable farming, and fast-changing landscapes. Silhouetted birds in Figures Two, Three, and Five are meanwhile interpretable assignifying species extinction — Figure Three with emphasis on air travel’s carbon emissions.

The ecological themes readable in the poems perhaps partially stem from the source materials — textssalvaged from library throw-away piles and hard rubbish. Otherwise destined for landfill, they begged forone last hurrah. My desire to make poems of them reflects an agencement arising through connectionsbetween multiple contingent factors, including but exceeding myself and ecopoetry’s existingintersections with visual poetry via ecopoetic use of typeless spaces signifying ecological destruction(Walker 2020). Similar deployments of typeless space are notable in Ava Hoffman’s poetic critique ofneoliberal violences, where space activates silence as protest. Hoffman explains:

My writing process operates primarily through the creation of textual rot–fragments, lacunae, andrevisions — and through this incompleteness directly interact with the reader and challenge themwhen it comes to queerness/transness, our neoliberal-capitalist moment, and the yawning void ofhistory (Hoffman 2019: n.p.).

Hoffman’s account helps me recognise speechlessness — alogia — speaking itself through the visualpoems I made while in alogia’s negative space (of potentialities). In Figure Two, the music symboltrailing from the bird’s mouth to the teeline shorthand for ‘few words’ can simultaneously suggest speechand vomiting — emesis symbolising ineffable disgust at ‘fast food’, ‘financial statements’, and theecological recklessness of capitalist greed. The red speech bubble in Figure Six may similarly be readas evoking love, emergencies, danger and/or mourning im/possible communication with beyond-humanbeings whose utterances I would like to understand, but can’t. I here note Tom Hawkins’s depiction ofanimal narrators in classic Greek literature as figures of ‘eloquent alogia’ (2017: 37) and Mark Roper’scase for reconsidering anthropocentric assumptions that animals don’t speak: evidence exists thatanimals communicate with one another, and that animal languages influenced human languagedevelopment; in earlier times, we learned from our co-species, and we could yet open ourselves to suchlearning towards possibilities of inter-species mutual aid (Roper 2020).    

 

opening space/s

 

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Figure Seven: Ground/Water

 

This essay’s objective has been to reconceive alogia in positive terms. I have pursued my objective by

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describing how review of visual poems produced while experiencing alogia helped me articulatepreviously un/known knowledges. Importantly, the knowledges I constructed through self-reading werenot intended as research ‘findings’ or recommendations to inform others. Everybody’s experience isdifferent. My aim has been to demonstrate how, by producing visual poems in a state of alogia and laterre-reading them, I was able to activate poetry’s negative capabilities for broaching the un/thinkable andthereby coming to know more than before. By describing my coming-to-know process, I have sought toillustrate that alogia does not necessarily indicate lack of thought, but can in some instances facilitatethinking that exceeds and complements the insights both standard and non-standard modes of languageoffer.

 

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Amelia Walker

Amelia Walker completed her PhD in 2016 for a thesis on creative writing’s value in contemporaryuniversities. She is the author of four poetry collections and three books on teaching poetry inschool settings (in Macmillan’s All You Need to Teach series). From 2018-2019, she served on theboard of the Australasian Association of Writing Programs (AAWP) as secretary. Amelia currentlylectures at the University of South Australia, where she also supervises Honours and PhDresearch projects in the field of Creative Writing.

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