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TURN OF MIND
Alice LaPlante
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Wh I g u, I y . I bk h. I k w hu g hugh g Tribune, h y g
hugh TheNew York Times.Nw, I h b, I pk up pp
, p. I w h g I . These are
Band-Aid solutions. The violent fare-ups continue. They have reaped what they
sowed and should repent.
Aw, I k h bu wh hg bu
u, u. A hvy bu hvg, h h h
wy y upp . Ry gb. R.
Do you understand the rights I have just read to you? With these rights in mind,
do you wish to speak to me?
I w g h. I w g h. A I Phph. Th w
h hu Wu L. W py kkb h .
No, this is Chicago. Ward Forty-three, Precinct Twenty-one. We have called your
son and daughter. You can decide at any time rom this moment on to terminate
the interview and exercise these rights.
I wh . Y.
A g g p h kh w. Th w, w hk bk
k uu h, p h p b:My name is Dr. Jen-
nier White. I am sixty-our years old. I have dementia. My son, Mark, is twenty-
nine. My daughter, Fiona, twenty-our. A caregiver, Magdalena, lives with me.
I . S wh h h pp y hu? Pp,
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g, vywh. A b w I gz y khkg . A gp v h . Th I u h
h vg y h . I k, S wh yu? Wh
h h? D yu kw her? I p h kh, hy ugh.
I am h, hy y. I w h, w I h. I h y h
hu h h yu. Thy k I w . Thy k I w g
wk. A I bby? I y. I h qu. You know me,
dont you? Dont you remember? Magdalena. Your riend.
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v v h I , I hugh h
pg. S wh h. S .
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qu, wh b h v hvy y pp. Eh
y h . A y w .
Sh w,January 20, 2009.Jenniers notes. Sh h h p .
Sh y, Write what happened today. Write about your childhood. Write what-
ever you remember.
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v h h w g wh ppy bw.
I y w hu, y h ww, Mg
hvg. I ju h wv- v w . Thy
w p, pp g. A h g , h
up bh , h gh .
Its Amanda, Mg .Amandas uneral. Wh A? I k.
Mg h, h y, Your best riend. Your daughters godmother.
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bk h pg. Sh p wpp ppg:
Elderly Chicago Woman Found Dead, Mutilated
CHICAGO TRIBUNEFebruary 23, 2009
CHICAGO, ILThe mutilated body of a seventy-five-
year-old Chicago woman was discovered yesterday
in a house in the 2100 block of Sheffield Avenue.
Amanda OToole was found dead in her home
after a neighbor noticed she had failed to take
in her newspapers for almost a week, accord-
ing to sources close to the investigation. Four
fingers on her right hand had been severed. The
exact time of death is unknown, but cause of
death is attributed to head trauma, sources say.
Nothing was reported missing from her house.
No one has been charged, but police briefly took
into custody and then released a person of in-
terest in the case.
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wvy gy k h u u h, u.
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This is you, Mg y, pg h yug w.And this
here, this is Amanda. I uy h phgph.
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php p h h jw. Th w w
gh, uhg, bu h y h.
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hvy y hu. Sh w hg . Wh? Bu I
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y b.
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bh k, puh h k.
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h hg Iv b bg h g h: w bv.
Th y w y bk. Sh g h : Mg.
Today, Friday, March 11, was another bad day. You kicked the step and broke
your toe. At the emergency room you escaped into the parking lot. An orderly
brought you back. You spat on him.
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p I kw pz . Thy hug . Thy p h y
h. Thy ppub k:Jen. Jenny. I by p
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A g y w .
My bk y h b u wg. Mark very angry today.
He hung up on me. Magdalena says do not speak to anyone who calls. Do not
answer the door when shes doing laundry or in the bathroom.
Th, hwg, Mom, you are not sae with Mark. Give
the medical power o attorney to me, Fiona. It is best to have medical and
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nancial powers o attorney in the same hands anyway. S hg u, , b, wh hk bk p. By wh?
My bk g:
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h h w u k p .
Th: Mom, I sold $50,000 worth o IBM stock or the lawyers retainer. She
comes highly recommended or cases where mental competency is an issue. They
have no evidence, only theories. Dr. Tsien has put you on 150 mg o Seroquel
to curb the episodes. I will come again tomorrow, Saturday. Your daughter, Fiona.
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My-name-is-I-orgot-and-I-am-an-I-dont-know-what. H whw h Tw Cu Sp. Step One is admitting you have a problem.
Step Two is orgetting you have the problem.
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yu wh up yu. B pv! Hvg Azh b k
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Evy b h b yu ! Evy v h -
hg yuv v ! Have a sense o humor, h y. You are a visitor
rom another planet, and you are observing the local customs.
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by gu. Hz u vy . S yu
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ugh, k u wh hy . Wh pp k do you remember
yu . O w , h yu gh up
g.
A h y uvv. I am a visitor rom another planet, and the
natives are not riendly.
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H u : It is not as bad as it could have been due to your conserva-
tive investment choices and a broad portolio diversication strategy.
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pg u hy bu. AAPL, IBM, CVR, ASF, SFR. Th gug
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wg gh ju w hu y wy h p bk phu uv p pv , k wh h pp
wh , u p u by h v h bk h
gu. Pk uu hugh h b h
uh g. J gu. Poisonous, h . A h pk, b
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y v h gy wy w pp u.
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u, wh J pp. H p. A h ,
yw g , hg gw ghy wh. A w, g
w g wh k. J u bh. Were lucky, h .
Sometimes you can search or days and not nd one.
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v w g u , by h g.
A ghost plant, J . Mp u.H p w
upp h w h h, bg u gg
k. Its one o the ew plants that doesnt need light. It actually grows in
the dark.
Hw h pb? I k.
Its a parasiteit doesnt photosynthesize but eeds o the ungus and the trees
around it, lets others do the hard work. Ive always elt a kinship to it. Admira-
tion, even. Because its not easythats why they dont propagate widely. The
plant has to nd the right host, and conditions must be exactly right or it to
fourish. But when it does fourish, it is truly spectacular. H g h
w up.
Y, I h, I .
Can you?J k. Can you really?
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Y, I p, h w hug h hvy bw u,k p. A vw.
Shy h p, w quy g h Ev u-
hu. W v y, wu hv k u. Th
k w w, w v v u. O h wh,
g . Bu y k y, wh I J b k
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u puk h w, p J wh h bk. A
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u gh b. A bv . W ppy
kw h h w.
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y I hu b pu. Th I hv h uvy h hp
vub gy. I hk y h. I p, hvg
h b gh. A pg gh. Bk h, bk h,
bh b bh bk g. Cug p,
bg y hyh g h , h hw g. Pg
u h y h.
Bu h k y y. Ahugh I kw h -
, hw I wh h p. A hu
ku h k. S h p pk by x
ppx p, u b uh py, mad car-
lotta. I kw h ku. I kw h hwg. H kg.
Your jokes were always a little obscure, h y.
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O h w bv h k, vg kg p p Chamonix
bgh . Des conditions de neige excellentes, des terrasses ensoleil-
les, des hors-pistes mythiques.A w, h vu-
u hg h y 1900, p k bv p
wh h wh p . A u wg, phgph,
hugh h phgph, , hgg h gh
h p. Bk--wh. T h gh, yug g, ,
qug p hk. T h , b
wh h u ju vb bv h hz w, k,
yg h by wh h h pppg up h h. Sh k -
y h . I u wy.
Th ugh p h . You never did approve o my
artistic vision, h y.You called it precious. Ansel Adams meets the Discovery
Channel. I hug. I h h g y h gu
h.
I am going to ask you some questions, h y.Just answer to the best o your
ability.
I v bh p.
What day is it?
Gg--h- y.
Clever reply. What month is it?
W.
Can you be more specic?
Mh?
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Close. Late February.
What is this?
A p.
What is this?
A wh.
What is your name?
D u .
What are your childrens names?
F Mk.
What was your husbands name?
J.
Where is your husband?
H . H k.
What do you remember about that?
H w vg h .
Did he die o the heart attack or the car accident?
Cy w pb . H y hv yphy
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u by ky vv h u. I w . Th w wh . I wu hv g h h wy, y.
You must have been devastated.
N, y hugh w, h J: ppu b bw h h
h h h .
Youre making light o it. But I remember that time. What you went through.
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h! I didugh, uy. I ugh I h . Suh
, bgh p. Th gu. I h b
h, I wy h h. Th hh gh. Th b . Th gh
h h uubb- h qukg k
hugy g . Th wh I b: J bh
ugvg gh wh v u.
Now youre the one patronizing me. As i I couldnt see past that.
Th w hg h. H w h .
You scored a nineteen, h y. Youre doing well today. I dont see any agita-
tion and Magdalena says the aggression has subsided. Well continue the same
drug therapy.
H gv k. Do you have a problem with that?
I hk y h. Okay, then. Well do everything we can to keep you in your
home. I know thats what you want.
H pu. I must tell you, Mark has been urging me to make a statement
that he can use to declare you mentally incompetent to make medical decisions,
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h y. I have reused. Th w. I would recommend that
you not let yoursel be examined by another doctor. Not without a court order.
H k p pp u h . SeeI have written it all down
or you. Everything I just said. I will give it to Magdalena and tell her to keep
it sae. I have made two copies. Magdalena will give one to your lawyer. You can
trust Magdalena, I believe. I believe she is trustworthy.
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w. Th ub up h y. Sh kg h
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hp, , hp y h. Php
pp, h pu k.
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g h upk pk u h pup hk -
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u v h.
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h w b h. I w y, I D. J Wh
I g y pu hy w y h u h y
I w y h ju hk h.
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hgh wugh- g gy -u
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Dr. White? Is that you?
A k-k bu u, vg wh uk wh
g . H w h ww, w w kp p.
Y? I kp wkg.
Not the nicest day to be out and about. Nasty.
Ju wk, I y. I k p kg h. I yu k,
hy y v yu . I yu k, hy g.
How about a ride? Look at you, completely soaked. No coat. And my goodness.
No shoes. Come on. Get in.
N. I k h wh. I k h y b g .
C. Wkg u y .
You know, that nice lady you live with wont like this.
S wh.
Come quietly now. H pk hgy wh pug h uk v
h ub. H h u bh h, p up, bk wh h.
Gy.
I b g.
No, youre not. Indeed you arent. But I cant stand by and do nothing. You
know I cant, Dr. White.
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g. H k u h ph. I h puh v ub,
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ky. I h puh h ub, b. I kw h. I p w.Owh. H p. H bg h ph h .
W, I y. N. I u u h h uk. I yk h p
b b h. Ayhg p h ph. Sp wh w
hpp. B hg w hpp. Pu h ph w, I y. Pu h
ph w. H h. I h v h h . H k
h ph p hu. H gv wh upp b -
ug . I .
Okay! Lets get you home beore you catch your death.
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w gug hugh h hwy. Th hk -
k u h ww h. I p
p k Tbz u w bugh Bgh hy y g,
w uu-quy. J h pp y, w
b uu. Mg h g. A ukw up
h b, h uk.
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bu b gg w h. S y wv
bu h hv pv u. A u gv pb, v,
u p, hh, k , xy. A,
u, .
A x or whatever ails you!Mg h x wh I h
h. N y, I . N vyhg.
W g St. Matthews Passion. I 1988. S h pu
Oh H, h u h pv u h
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v. Th h vh h h ubg u.Th up by b. I h wh J g
w wh , h bh w g y hk.
Th uy w y. I y kh. I
y h b y h g h. D I k y
p h g? Hw y I k? Hw y wu k?
I h p. I hv h h p. A h
h Bh: Ich bins, ich sollte ben. I I wh hu u b
bu h.
Bu y. N. N qu y. I w.
A h wk y hu whu kkg. H y h y
. Mg bk h up, I qu. Bu I k h
. I ug u h pby h hy g h
uhbu I w py . N .
Wh I : g, vy buu g. Dk. Dk h, k
y, k u, I y b u. H h u,
wy- y , wy. Lk yu h! I y, ugy. H
k v, h gwh h w .
Not at all, h y. Not in the slightest. I cannot hope to ll those mighty
McLennan shoes. Give counsel to the mighty and count the golden coin o
the realm. A h gv k h bw h p h ,
k h hg h vg . Why didnt you give me your
name, Mom? The shoes would have been just as large but o a dierent shape
altogether.
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Eugh! I y hpy I b y w. H v y. H h ju u h , h h uhg h hgh,
gu k h . W pg vywh. I v h
pk u h gh. Thy wggg. H
h y g.
W v h, bu p b b uh w
h . H pu , h h h
g g uk u gh. Ev wh h v h
h up. N. M h h. Pu. Pp z
y ugh hw qu Tuy .
Th--wh-hy-y--y- h h bu h
h ww h vg . H h , h u h
g, k h h.
Magdalena tells me youve been well, h y.
Vy, I y, y. A w p y b.
Tell me about that, h y.
Abu wh? I k.
About how aware you are o whats happening to you.
Evy k h, I y. Thy h h I b w,
vy . . .
Clinical, h y.
Y.
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You always were, h y. H h wy , uppg. When I
broke my arm, you were more interested in my bone density than in getting me
to the hospital.
I b bkg h , I y. Mk. I w Mk. Mk
u h p h Jk.
Im Mark.
Yu? Mk?
Yes. Your son.
I hv ?
Yes. Mark. Me.
I hv ! I uk ub. I hv ! I wh y. Jy!
Mom, please, dont. . .
Bu I vwh. A h y! I h v kw !
Th w kg y , hg .
Its okay, Mom. Im here.
I h h ghy. A yug , wu , -
v by . Th hg qu gh bu h , w
h buy. Bu y y, h k h v bv.
Mom, h y . H u , h pu bk.
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I h wh y bu uy g bk y h.
Mom, I had something really important to say. Its about Fiona. H g
w, h bk h k, whu k h w wh h
. I kw h k.
Wh bu h? I k. My wg.
Mom, I know you dont want to hear this, but shes gone o again. You know
how she gets.
I kw, bu I w. I hv v ug h g
.
This time its bad. Really bad. She wont talk to me. You used to be able to talk
her down. Dad, sometimes. But she listened to you. Do you think you could
speak to her? H pu. Do you understand what Im saying?
Wh hv yu b, yu b? I k.
What?
A h y, yu h y h hg?
Shhh, Mom. Its okay. Im right here. I never let.
Wh yu ? Iv b . A h hu. Eg -
, gg b . S .
Thats just not true, Mom. Until just last year there was Dad. And what about
Magdalena?
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Wh?
Magdalena. Your riend. The woman who lives with you.
Oh. H. Sh y . Sh g p. I py h.
That doesnt mean shes not your riend.
Y, y . Suy I gy. Fuu! Yu b! I y.
Yu b !
Th wy g h gh hvy. Magdalena!h .
D yu h ? B!
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y. Have you seen my coat?
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