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I can’t help it
Why did you have to go Johnny?
I know it wasn’t easy for any of us when your mother died.
It happened so quick, none of us knew what to do.
It was a normal day whenever I got that fatal phone call,
They told me it was an accident.
But the hardest part, was telling you.
You couldn’t believe me,
You didn’t want to.
I had to support us both
I’m sorry I couldn’t be home all the time.
I’m sorry that you had to come home from school some nights,
Wondering when I would be home.
I’m sorry that I couldn’t come to the baseball games, school plays, or field trips.
I had to work to put food on the table
I had to work to make a better future for you,
But now, you’re gone now too.
Your final note clenched in my hand.
All of the dark feelings surrounded you,
Until finally you had enough.
I lay awake at night,
Asking god why he had to take you and your mother away from me.
The pictures around the house are the last bit of sanity that I get.
Memories fill my head
Tears fill my eyes
Her lovely smile,
Your dark brown eyes;
They haunt me.
This quiet empty house is all I have left.
Friends check up on me.
I put on my fake smile.
I say I’m okay
But the minute they leave
I slip into my quiet darkness.
I try to keep a steady mind,
But even that is slowly slipping away.
I wonder why I even try to stay awake anymore.
I close my eyes
I pull the trigger