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Page 1: PARADOX Staff · I wish that I was the kind of writer who could Write Write without thinking Write without even trying I wish that I was the kind of writer who could See poetry in
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Page 5: PARADOX Staff · I wish that I was the kind of writer who could Write Write without thinking Write without even trying I wish that I was the kind of writer who could See poetry in

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phor

In m

y dr

eam

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had

a la

rge

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with

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ttoo

of a

but

terfl

y.W

hen

I wok

e, I

won

dere

d ho

w y

ou’d

Cha

nged

.If

life

is a

s per

fect

as a

yol

k co

ntai

ned

in

An

eggs

hell,

why

is it

con

stan

tly b

roke

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ur h

ouse

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ade

of b

rick,

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r tha

t her

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us f

rom

the

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re, a

ndR

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ake

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tatio

ns o

f an

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l life

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ur b

rick

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e w

ill o

ne d

ay c

rush

us,

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Page 6: PARADOX Staff · I wish that I was the kind of writer who could Write Write without thinking Write without even trying I wish that I was the kind of writer who could See poetry in

6

That

Type

of

Write

rI w

ish

that

I w

as th

e ki

nd o

f writ

er w

ho c

ould

With

the

slig

htes

t mov

emen

t of t

he w

rist

Writ

e w

ords

that

cha

nged

circ

umst

ance

s,W

ords

that

cou

ld c

hang

e liv

es,

Cha

nge

the

wor

ld.

I wis

h th

at I

was

the

kind

of w

riter

who

cou

ld

Writ

e W

rite

with

out t

hink

ing

Writ

e w

ithou

t eve

n try

ing

I wis

h th

at I

was

the

kind

of w

riter

who

cou

ldSe

e po

etry

in w

hat’s

aro

und

them

See

wor

ds w

here

ther

e is

not

hing

I wis

h th

at I

was

a w

riter

.

Simon

e St

ewar

t

51

A Co

ld W

inter

’s Nig

htA

col

d w

inte

r’s n

ight

A sh

adow

pas

ses t

hrou

gh th

e m

ist

Dou

sed

by sn

ow a

nd c

over

ed w

ith c

oats

His

iden

tity

hidd

enTh

e tru

th u

nkno

wn

But

in th

e di

stan

ce

A st

rang

er c

an se

e th

roug

h al

l his

cov

erin

gsH

e ca

n se

e th

e m

an’s

face

The

sorr

ow h

e fe

els

The

pain

of d

espe

ratio

nTh

e de

sire

for r

edem

ptio

n

The

snow

con

tinue

s to

fall

As b

oth

men

trek

Thei

r jou

rney

the

sam

eTh

eir h

ope

no d

iffer

ent

They

take

one

step

Th

en a

noth

erSe

para

ted

by m

iles b

utW

alki

ng in

uni

son

Tow

ards

thei

r des

tiny

Tow

ards

thei

r fal

l

Diann

a Ba

utist

a

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50

Afte

rTh

e m

isty

road

was

dis

turb

ed o

nly

by th

e fo

otst

eps o

f tw

o gh

osts

. Th

eir f

eet p

adde

d so

ftly

on th

e ra

in sp

eckl

ed c

oncr

ete.

Thei

r silh

ouet

te w

as a

lmos

t vis

ible

in th

e th

ick

soup

of f

og.

No

one

both

ers t

o fo

llow

them

any

mor

e.Ic

y ra

in fe

ll in

shee

ts, b

ut it

was

unf

elt b

y th

e ap

parit

ions

.A

dim

, fl ic

kerin

g st

reet

light

mar

ked

the

end

of th

e ro

ad a

nd th

e be

ginn

ing

of th

e w

oods

: coo

l, m

ajes

tic, u

nkno

wn,

forb

idde

n.Th

e ne

arer

the

end

was

, the

fast

er th

ey w

alke

d.Th

ey d

idn’

t hes

itate

at t

he e

nd, b

ut g

lided

Con

fi den

tly o

ver t

he tr

ansi

tion

from

Har

d ro

ck to

soft

soil.

A sh

arp

win

d w

hipp

ed a

cros

s the

road

, and

They

wer

e go

ne.

Magg

ie B

ucha

nan

7

The

Trip

we

pack

ed o

ur b

ags

you

boug

ht th

e tic

kets

and

wai

ted

for m

e to

com

eI d

oubt

ed a

nd h

esita

ted

until

the

mom

ent t

he je

ts ru

mbl

edm

y ea

r dru

ms p

oppe

dan

d th

ere

was

no

goin

g ba

ck

it w

as a

love

ly tr

ip bu

t our

dep

artu

re w

as d

elay

ed

and

ever

y im

patie

nt, i

tchi

ng m

inut

e sp

ent w

aitin

g le

ft th

e bi

ttere

st st

ain

on

the

swee

test

trip

and

still

we

wai

ted

at th

e ga

teun

til th

e bi

ttern

ess c

onsu

med

the

swee

tan

d w

e pa

rted

way

s scr

eam

ing

and

spitt

ing

wor

ds th

at fl

owed

from

our

mou

ths

like

a po

ison

we

neve

r kne

w w

e ha

d le

t in

and

then

it w

as o

ver

but s

till

we

brea

thed

this

toge

ther

we

foug

ht th

is to

geth

erw

e br

oke

this

toge

ther

so h

ow c

an y

ou m

ove

so fr

eely

whe

n I’

m th

e on

e le

ft he

relu

ggin

g ou

r bag

gage

from

pla

ce to

pla

ce

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8

I gue

ss y

ou tr

avel

ed li

ghtly

Celsa

e Va

nden

berg

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48

The

Fact

So m

any

clic

hés r

unni

ng th

roug

h m

y he

adTh

e ne

ed to

writ

e it

all d

own

is p

lagu

ing

me

So:

No

ink

in m

y pe

n,N

o w

ater

in m

y si

nk,

My

wel

l is t

appe

d dr

y,A

nd I

can

hard

ly th

ink.

No

song

in m

y he

ad,

No

wor

ds le

ft to

sing

. M

y he

art c

ontin

ues t

o ac

he, a

nd I

can

bare

ly b

reat

he.

With

all

of th

at sa

id,

The

fact

still

rem

ains

, I s

impl

y ha

te y

ou.

Ther

e’s n

othi

ng le

ft to

say.

Simon

e St

ewar

t

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10

Paint

ing

The

fadi

ng, p

ale

past

els o

f ela

psed

tim

e cl

ash

roug

hly

with

the

hars

h hu

es o

f tod

ay.

The

urge

to re

turn

rem

ains

, but

goi

ng b

ack

is a

s im

poss

ible

as s

eein

g w

hat i

s co

min

g.

Som

eday

they

will

ble

nd,

the

colo

rs o

f all

times

runn

ing

toge

ther

lik

e a

child

’s w

ater

colo

r pai

ntin

g.

Magg

ie B

ucha

nan

47

Just

as

I Am

I am

so p

retty

and

so su

re,

only

whe

re m

y cl

ever

stop

s.

You

shou

ld re

mem

ber m

e;w

hat I

gav

e w

as y

ours

to k

eep.

I won

’t st

op m

ovin

gun

til lo

ve h

as re

inve

nted

me.

New

and

unb

lem

ishe

d,I w

ill b

e cl

ean

and

beau

tiful

.

I’ll

turn

mys

elf o

ver a

gain

to c

ome

undo

ne a

t all

your

new

wor

ds.

I hav

e al

way

s die

dto

trus

t you

r sw

eet e

yes.

It’s a

lrigh

t;I a

m w

here

I ha

ve a

lway

s bee

n.

Can

the

wor

ld,

and

can

that

blin

d m

an, s

ee h

ow m

uch

I lov

e yo

u?

Sara

h Ab

rams

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11

Insom

niaW

hen

I fi n

ally

pre

ss m

y he

ad in

to m

y pi

llow

sque

ezin

g m

y ey

es c

lose

dat

two

a.m

., th

ree

a.m

., fo

ur a

.m.

I can

nev

er sl

eep

my

min

d co

ntin

ues t

o w

hir a

nd h

um a

ndbu

zz a

nd w

onde

rse

nsel

essl

y ru

nnin

g in

circ

les c

hasi

ng it

s ow

n ta

ilan

d I t

oss a

nd tu

rn, l

ay o

n m

y st

omac

han

d m

y ba

ck, c

url m

y bo

dy in

to a

littl

e ba

ll an

dda

ngle

my

toes

off

the

edge

but I

fi nd

mys

elf w

onde

ring,

still

won

derin

g w

hen

my

little

sist

er w

ill g

row

up

and

if I’

m g

oing

to b

e he

re o

r eve

n no

tice.

Won

derin

g w

hy I

live

my

life

as if

I’m

clin

ging

des

pera

tely

to e

ach

mom

ent,

chew

ing

it a

thou

sand

tim

es b

efor

e I s

wal

low

, loo

king

dire

ctly

into

the

sun

inst

ead

of sh

adin

g m

y ey

es a

nd lo

okin

g be

yond

it, t

owar

ds a

dulth

ood

and

secu

rity

and

resp

onsi

bilit

ies.

Won

derin

g w

hy I

seem

to c

lum

sily

fall

into

mis

take

s, an

d th

en ju

st si

t the

re

insi

de o

f the

m, k

nees

pul

led

up to

my

ches

t, ab

sorb

ing

and

abso

rbin

g un

til

my

ches

t hea

ves a

nd h

ot te

ars r

ain

dow

n.La

tely

I w

onde

r abo

ut m

y bo

dy, a

bout

the

soft,

solid

bea

ting

of m

y he

art,

and

the

swis

hing

of m

y lu

ngs l

ike

an a

utom

atic

doo

ras

I la

y in

bed

, mak

ing

an im

prin

t in

my

mat

tress

, the

out

side

of m

y bo

dy so

st

ill a

nd c

alm

, the

insi

de b

ustli

ng a

nd h

umm

ing

like

a m

etro

polis

, lig

htin

g up

lik

e th

e sk

ylin

e at

nig

httim

e, a

nd it

all

seem

s so

frag

ile a

nd b

reak

able

, and

I ha

ve n

o w

ay o

f kno

win

g.I w

onde

r why

I do

this

and

that

, why

I w

as so

muc

h ha

ppie

r whe

n I w

asso

muc

h st

upid

eran

d w

hy it

’s w

arm

in Ja

nuar

y an

d fr

eezi

ng in

June

.

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I won

der,

cons

tant

ly, c

onsc

ious

ly, a

bout

nex

t yea

r, ab

out b

eing

by

mys

elf

but s

acrifi

cin

g th

e si

lent

sens

e of

solit

ude

I hav

e gr

own

so a

ttach

ed to

and

then

I w

onde

r abo

ut a

ttach

men

ts. D

o th

ey re

ally

brin

g no

thin

gbu

t suf

ferin

g? B

uddh

ists

nod

thei

r wis

e he

ads a

nd a

t thi

s poi

nt, I

am

incl

ined

to a

gree

. I h

ave

grow

n st

icki

ly, m

essi

ly a

ttach

ed to

so m

any

thin

gs in

my

life:

gold

fi sh,

hou

ses,

phon

e ca

lls fr

om y

ou a

t ten

pm

, bab

ysitt

ers,

spot

light

s, lo

ve

swel

ling

and

risin

g an

d cr

ashi

ng li

ke w

aves

and

whe

n th

ey a

re g

one,

whe

n th

ey a

re ta

ken

away

or f

ade

away

or j

ust

leav

e qu

ietly

on

thei

r bic

ycle

s with

out l

ooki

ng b

ack,

I wal

k ar

ound

with

the

wei

ght o

f bei

ng a

ttach

ed to

som

ethi

ng th

at is

n’t t

here

an

ymor

eth

at d

oesn

’t ju

stify

or h

old

up th

eir e

ndan

d su

fferin

g cr

awls

thro

ugh

the

win

dow

and

cur

ls u

p ne

xt to

me

in b

edas

I pr

ess m

y he

ad in

to th

e pi

llow

sq

ueez

e m

y ey

es sh

utan

d try

to sl

eep.

Aliso

n Gr

een

45

Wort

hless

She

was

bor

n fr

om a

fl ow

er,

Forlo

rn a

nd p

uzzl

ed,

Mea

nt to

show

er th

em w

ith fo

rtune

and

val

ue.

But

the

hue

of h

er sk

in,

Des

pite

the

tune

that

she

sang

, did

not

Mea

n m

uch,

for s

he w

as b

roke

n.So

she

sang

thro

ugh

the

sorr

ows

Whi

ch ra

ng w

ordl

ess,

thou

gh h

er h

eart

Had

hov

ered

as a

par

t of t

hem

.A

nd w

ith so

me

pitil

ess l

ies,

They

wer

e so

ld fr

om h

er m

ess.

As s

he h

eld

to th

e m

emor

ies m

ade,

She

laid

on

birc

h br

anch

esTr

ying

to se

arch

for t

he a

nsw

ers,

beco

min

g th

eA

shes

and

dus

t.H

er p

ulle

d pe

tals

wer

e to

ssed

A

nd sc

atte

red

at se

a,W

hile

the

mas

ses t

hat m

atte

red

had

com

e to

see

The

last

of a

chi

ldW

orth

less

in m

iser

y, a

nd in

love

,

Wor

thw

hile

.

Alej

andr

a Ma

nalili

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Gree

tings

from

Fift

h Pe

riod

“¡Si

lenc

io, p

or fa

vor!

”Sh

e ca

lls li

ke a

gen

eral

to h

er tr

oops

,B

ut n

one

snap

to a

ttent

ion.

Her

e, o

ne si

ts,

Bem

used

ly re

gard

ing

the

joyf

ul c

haos

.In

the

back

ther

e,

Ano

ther

recl

ines

as i

f on

vaca

tion.

He

is sm

ooth

, and

he

know

s it.

In a

clu

ster

of b

right

col

ors a

nd g

loss

, the

fros

hR

ock

the

room

with

thei

r cha

tter

And

her

fl us

tere

d co

mm

and

Doe

sn’t

mat

ter.

Gre

etin

gs. W

ish

you

wer

e he

re.

Kasie

Udo

-oko

ye

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Febr

uary

13, 2

009

A w

idow

who

se h

usba

ndC

rash

ed in

to a

twin

tow

er

Die

dO

n a

plan

e to

day.

The

scen

e w

asA

blaz

eW

ith fl

ash

phot

ogra

phy

And

fi re

, but

did

A

nyon

e se

e he

rB

urn?

Is th

is

Kar

ma

or n

ews o

rJu

st a

noth

er sa

d st

ory

On

the

radi

o?

Tell

me

This

Is ir

ony.

Cath

erine

Kim

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The

Attic

I hea

r not

hing

, I sm

ell n

othi

ng,

I see

not

hing

, I fe

el n

othi

ng.

I’m

just

han

ging

aro

und

like

a du

st p

artic

le in

a w

oody

atti

c,C

olle

ctin

g on

an

antiq

ue sh

elf

Whe

re li

fe u

sed

to th

rive.

But

now

, sto

wed

aw

ay d

ead,

wai

ting

for t

he m

omen

tW

hen

som

eone

will

clim

b up

the

stai

rsIn

to m

y st

agna

nt a

bode

And

rest

ore

the

love

they

onc

e ha

d fo

r me.

That

’s w

hen

I’ll

be a

ble

to in

hale

dee

ply

And

exh

ale

the

pain

s of t

he p

ast.

It w

ill b

e th

e tim

e w

hen

I will

be

able

to h

ear,

to sm

ell,

to se

e,To

feel

.

Jess

ica W

hite

15

In th

e Ga

rden

of

My M

emor

ies

In th

e ga

rden

of m

y m

emor

ies

The

rose

s fl o

uris

h th

en fa

ll gr

acef

ully

A

s if t

heir

life’

s goa

l was

to c

reat

e su

ch b

eaut

y

Som

e fa

ll in

the

pond

Add

ing

to th

e m

ajes

tic g

lory

A

s we

see

them

fl oa

t mag

ical

ly to

war

ds

An

unkn

own

Or m

aybe

a n

ew b

egin

ning

Or e

ven

an a

ttem

pt a

t esc

ape

Som

e fa

ll on

the

budd

ing

rose

sA

s if o

n pu

rpos

eTo

pre

vent

thei

r gro

wth

And

as i

f by

reve

nge

to d

efer

thei

r pro

gres

sA

nd st

unt t

heir

futu

re

The

grou

nd to

o is

abu

ndan

t with

thes

e fa

llen

grac

esFa

iling

to c

ontin

ue o

n th

eir p

ath

as t

he ro

ses i

n th

e po

nd

And

thos

e un

luck

y ro

ses t

hat h

ave

mis

sed

the

rose

buds

And

falle

n on

the

thor

ns

Rem

ain

brok

en b

ut n

ot fo

rgot

ten

Thei

r fai

led

mis

deed

s for

ever

hel

d in

my

min

d by

thei

r sca

rs

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And

thro

ugho

ut m

y ga

rden

The

rose

s con

tinue

to fa

llA

s the

tim

e pa

sses

by

and

the

gard

en g

row

s

Diann

a Ba

utist

a

41

Fear

Dar

k, w

hite

, fea

rSo

unds

like

A w

hisp

er,

Then

a c

ryFo

llow

ed b

y so

me

Filth

y st

ench

Of d

eath

And

a m

etal

licTa

ste,

Fo

reve

r lin

gerin

gO

n yo

ur to

ngue

.C

oldn

ess;

You

are

slee

ping

.

Mica

h Br

umfie

ld

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To y

ou in

a m

onth

. You

hav

e no

t spo

ken

to m

e.

Is th

is h

ow e

very

thin

g en

ds?

The

reas

on I’

m a

ngry

is b

ecau

seI c

are

abou

t you

, stil

l. D

on’t

you

see?

If I

didn

’t, I

wou

ld h

ave

plac

ed th

is o

n th

e gr

ound

and

wal

ked

away

a lo

ng ti

me

ago.

You

thin

k I’

ve w

alke

d aw

ay. T

he th

ird st

ep is

the

hard

est.

That

’s w

hen

you

real

ize

Wha

t you

’re

doin

g. T

hat’s

whe

n th

e vo

ices

in

you

r hea

d be

gin

scre

amin

g at

eac

h ot

her.

That

’s w

hen

I tur

nan

d se

e yo

ur fa

ce. T

hat’s

whe

n I l

et m

y fo

ot fa

ll ba

ckon

to th

e co

ncre

te, g

ently

, fi rm

ly, t

he la

st le

affa

lling

from

an

empt

y tre

e.

Aliso

n Gr

een

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Musin

gs o

f a

Guillo

tine

(1793

) Wha

t a d

ay I’

ve h

ad. B

ut I

supp

ose

that

whe

n on

e is

as p

opul

ar a

s I

am, o

ne m

ust b

ecom

e us

ed to

mee

ting

with

doz

ens o

f peo

ple

ever

y da

y. A

nd

I am

ver

y po

pula

r, re

ader

. Why

, I h

ave

mad

e th

e ac

quai

ntan

ce o

f peo

ple

all

over

Fra

nce.

I as

sum

e th

at it

is m

y ex

quis

ite c

rafts

man

ship

. The

car

pent

er

who

wor

ked

on m

e –

Han

s, I b

elie

ve h

is n

ame

was

, a v

ery

indu

strio

us li

ttle

Aus

trian

fello

w –

alw

ays s

aid

that

my

woo

d w

as o

f the

fi ne

st o

ak (a

ll th

e w

ay fr

om A

mer

ica,

no

less

). A

nd th

e sm

ith th

at fo

rged

my

blad

e us

ed to

bra

g th

at m

y m

etal

mus

t hav

e co

me

from

the

forg

es o

f Hep

haes

tus h

imse

lf (b

ut

he a

lway

s was

a fl

atte

rer,

was

old

Coc

lé).

You

know

just

the

othe

r day

I ch

ance

d to

mee

t an

old

frie

nd o

f min

e fr

om th

e m

ill, a

nd d

o yo

u kn

ow h

ow h

e ha

s tur

ned

out?

A st

ool!

Can

you

im

agin

e re

ader

? Th

e ve

ry id

ea! I

mys

elf w

ould

nev

er d

eign

to b

e m

ade

into

so

met

hing

so lo

wly

as a

stoo

l! I d

on’t

mea

n to

look

dow

n on

any

one

but,

wel

l, I a

m o

ver f

ourte

en fe

et ta

ll. B

ut I

digr

ess.

Whe

re w

as I?

Oh

yes.

All

kind

s of p

eopl

e co

me

to se

e m

e. B

utch

ers,

bake

rs, c

andl

estic

k m

aker

s… I

n fa

ct, y

este

rday

a v

ery

gran

d la

dy c

ame

to se

e m

e. A

nd w

hat a

lady

she

was

! Yo

u sh

ould

hav

e se

en h

er! H

er g

own

was

exq

uisi

te, i

n po

wde

r blu

e w

ith

silv

er b

roca

de a

nd la

ce tr

imm

ing,

cut

in th

e Sp

anis

h fa

shio

n, a

nd sh

e w

ore

a fr

eshl

y po

wde

red

and

curle

d w

ig. H

er m

anne

rs w

ere

impe

ccab

le, t

houg

h sh

e di

dn’t

have

muc

h to

say.

Man

y of

them

don

’t. I

wis

h sh

e w

ould

hav

e st

ayed

lo

nger

, but

she

rem

aine

d fo

r onl

y a

few

min

utes

bef

ore

our m

eetin

g w

as c

ut

shor

t. H

uman

s don

’t se

em to

be

muc

h fo

r con

vers

atio

n.

M

any

of th

em a

re q

uite

rude

. The

mos

t unc

outh

am

ong

them

com

e cu

rsin

g an

d sw

earin

g, w

hile

oth

ers s

tand

sile

nt b

efor

e m

e an

d st

are

sulle

nly

at th

eir f

eet.

Is th

at a

ny w

ay to

beh

ave

whe

n yo

u vi

sit s

omeo

ne?

I thi

nk

not!

But

eve

n th

ese

are

bette

r tha

n th

e ot

hers

, the

one

s who

just

star

e rig

ht

thro

ugh

me.

I do

n’t l

ike

the

look

thos

e pe

ople

hav

e in

thei

r eye

s, re

ader

. Th

ey se

em d

evoi

d of

any

sens

e or

em

otio

n, a

nd th

ey g

aze

up a

t me

in a

m

anne

r mos

t…un

nerv

ing.

And

I am

surp

rised

by

the

fear

that

som

e of

them

39

Simpl

icity

I am

tire

d of

writ

ing

com

plic

ated

poem

s abo

ut y

ou, o

des t

o hu

mili

atio

nan

d pa

in th

at tw

ist a

nd w

rithe

an

d be

nd u

nder

car

eful

ly c

rafte

d m

etap

hor.

I wan

t to

wrin

g th

e pi

ty o

ut o

f my

poem

s, ha

ng th

em o

ut to

dry

.

So m

uch

depe

nds o

n so

littl

e. T

here

is so

muc

h m

ore

pow

erin

sile

nce

than

in c

latte

ring,

cha

tterin

g, c

ryin

g. Y

ou sa

y ev

eryt

hing

yo

u w

ant t

o sa

y

Thro

ugh

your

sile

nce,

but

it’s

just

not

goo

d en

ough

for m

e. I’

m ti

red

of b

eing

fanc

y. T

his i

sn’t

com

plex

.It’

s the

sim

ple

stor

y of

a fe

elin

g

That

snow

balle

d, la

rger

and

larg

er, l

eavi

ng y

ou

with

col

d ha

nds,

feet

, hea

rt. A

nd n

ow w

e ar

en’t

thaw

ing,

neith

er o

ne o

f us h

as st

eppe

d up

With

the

ice

pick

and

beg

un to

chi

p aw

ay. N

ow w

e’re

just

mel

ting.

My

ange

r is c

hipp

ing

away

at m

y pa

tienc

e.

I can

’t th

ink

of a

nyth

ing

to a

polo

gize

for.

Sim

ply,

qui

etly

, cle

anly

,

I hav

e do

ne n

othi

ng w

rong

. I’m

tryi

ng to

let g

oof

bitt

erne

ss b

ecau

se it

rots

you

r tee

th. Y

ou, c

ombi

ned

with

too

muc

h ca

ffein

e, a

re e

atin

g aw

ay a

t my

insi

des.

I’ve

forg

otte

nw

hat w

e ar

e fi g

htin

g ab

out.

You

repl

y

With

sile

nce,

and

I re

mem

ber h

eavi

ly, t

he w

ay o

ne re

mem

bers

a fa

ce p

ress

ed in

to c

oncr

ete.

Too

muc

h de

pend

son

wha

t has

n’t b

een

said

. I h

ave

not s

poke

n

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Rand

om U

ntitl

ed S

onne

tM

y he

ad is

hea

vy, m

y ha

nd is

num

bA

nd o

nto

the

pape

r my

thou

ghts

ble

ed,

For i

t is i

n m

y po

etry

that

I co

me

undo

neA

nd w

here

I sp

ill m

y em

otio

ns fo

r all

to re

ad;

Thro

ugh

certa

in e

vent

s my

soul

’s b

een

unlo

cked

, Fo

r I a

m su

re th

at so

met

hing

has

cha

nged

And

if th

e ch

ange

is n

ot w

hat I

hav

e so

ught

, Th

en u

pon

my

fi eld

it a

lway

s rai

ns.

But

from

this

rain

, a m

ud sh

all g

row

;Th

ick

and

brow

n it

keep

s me

lock

ed in

side

By

cove

ring

the

path

out

side

the

hous

e I k

now

And

mak

ing

sure

that

, fro

m th

e w

orld

, I h

ide.

Yet i

t is m

y po

etry

whi

ch k

eeps

my

min

d at

bay

,A

nd le

ts m

e w

rite

this

four

teen

-line

clic

hé.

Mich

ael S

amma

rtino

19

exhi

bit u

pon

mee

ting

me.

Why

, by

the

expr

essi

on o

n th

e fa

ce o

f the

you

ng

sold

ier t

hat c

ame

to m

e th

is m

orni

ng, y

ou w

ould

thin

k he

was

look

ing

at th

e G

rim R

eape

r him

self

inst

ead

of th

e fr

iend

ly p

iece

of w

oodw

ork

that

I am

. I

supp

ose

it is

just

the

natu

re o

f peo

ple,

thou

gh, i

n tru

th I

wou

ld n

ot w

ish

to g

o ab

out a

s the

y do

, sta

ying

in p

lace

s for

onl

y a

few

min

utes

and

then

leav

ing

one

part

at a

tim

e. S

trang

e w

ay to

con

duct

one

’s a

ffairs

, but

my

gran

d-m

ère

alw

ays s

aid

that

hum

ans a

re a

ll ov

er th

e pl

ace.

(She

was

an

arm

oire

in a

no

blem

an’s

cha

teau

.) In

spite

of t

heir

scat

ter-b

rain

ed st

rang

enes

s, I d

o so

en

joy

mee

ting

new

peo

ple

ever

yday

, and

so a

s lon

g as

they

wan

t to

com

e an

d se

e m

e, I’

ll be

hap

py to

hav

e an

aud

ienc

e w

ith th

em. I

nev

er tu

rn a

nyon

e aw

ay.

Kasie

Udo

-oko

ye

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Witho

ut a

Lig

ht I’m

Loo

king

for O

ne

Feel

ing

the

dark

ness

, I fi

nd I’

m b

lind,

Y

ield

ing

to a

n im

agin

ary

obst

acle

, I’m

blin

d

As i

f tra

pped

in a

box

with

ope

n-en

ded

wal

ls, I

’m b

lind

A

nd w

hen

I can

’t se

e, I

wid

en m

y ey

es, f

orge

tting

ther

e is

no

light

.U

nder

the

star

s, w

here

I se

ek,

With

hea

rt, m

ind,

and

eye

s, I s

eek

It is

n’t h

idde

n, y

et I

still

seek

Bec

ause

in th

e ni

ght I

’m c

urio

us.

Whe

n I d

on’t

feel

sure

, but

I m

ust d

o so

met

hing

, I c

all o

n fa

ith

Then

I’ll

shut

my

eyes

, hol

d th

em ti

ght,

and

fall

on fa

ith.

I’

m u

nsur

e of

wha

t I w

ant t

o fi n

d, b

ut I

will

kno

w,

Fo

r I’m

blin

dly

seek

ing

faith

.

Elise

Can

delar

ia

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Insi

de I

am sc

ream

ing,

Sc

ream

ing

so y

ou’ll

fi na

lly se

e ho

w c

razy

I am

for y

ou.

Melan

ie J

acob

s-Ro

mero

3621

Blue

Riot

She

wan

ts to

spea

k,Ye

t she

can

not t

alk.

She

cann

ot fe

el;

Her

em

otio

ns h

ave

been

Was

hed

out.

Car

ried

away

with

that

sea,

Of s

ome

calm

blu

e rio

t.Sw

ish

goes

the

ocea

n of

blu

e .

Mica

h Br

umfie

ld

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Facad

esD

on’t

mis

take

my

quie

t dem

eano

r for

indi

ffere

nce.

Insi

de I

am sh

akin

g,

Tugg

ing

at m

y sk

in,

Cla

win

g fo

r a c

leve

r and

witt

y re

spon

se,

Sear

chin

g fo

r som

ethi

ng.

May

be th

e sm

oke

sign

al fr

om th

e fi r

eW

ill h

elp

trans

late

sile

nce

to d

esire

.

Ever

y da

y du

ring

thos

e fo

rty-fi

ve m

inut

es, I

try

to b

reak

the

sile

nce.

With

a sh

ift o

f my

body

,M

y fo

ot p

oint

ed to

war

ds y

ou,

Anyt

hing

to g

et y

ou to

talk

to m

e.So

met

imes

you

take

the

bait

– Yo

u pl

ay w

ith m

y bo

ot, I

pla

y w

ith y

our h

air –

B

ut so

met

imes

I th

ink

I sho

uldn

’t ev

en c

are.

It’s a

con

stan

t tug

of w

ar.

Why

can

’t I j

ust l

et g

o of

the

rope

and

fall

into

you

?I w

ish

I cou

ld q

uell

thos

e ne

rves

.I w

ish

I cou

ld b

e ba

d, b

e br

illia

nt,

Mor

ph in

to th

e sm

art,

eloq

uent

girl

that

I kn

ew I

coul

d be

.B

ut so

met

imes

it c

an b

e di

ffi cu

lt to

bel

ieve

in th

at a

lone

;To

bel

ieve

in m

e.

For n

ow, I

will

settl

e fo

r the

shy,

shee

pish

smile

of m

ine.

I’ll

pray

for t

hat b

reak

thro

ugh

– Th

at y

ou w

ill se

e m

e –

That

you

will

wan

t me

– Th

at y

ou w

ill n

otic

e m

e.

Don

’t m

ista

ke m

y qu

iet d

emea

nor f

or in

diffe

renc

e.

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Mise

ryI o

nce

knew

a la

dy n

amed

Mis

ery

she

lived

in a

dam

aged

wor

ldsh

e ca

lls to

me

in tr

ansp

aren

t dre

ams

a lo

nely

star

outs

ide

the

clos

ed u

nive

rse

she

was

my

twis

ted

soul

long

ago

she

expe

rienc

edth

e da

rkes

t of

pain

beau

ty w

as so

met

hing

she

coul

d no

tbe

lieve

I onc

e kn

ew a

n an

gel n

amed

Evil

she

trave

led

like

agh

ost i

nto

the

shad

ows

her h

eart

was

dyi

ng fo

r som

e fo

rm o

flif

eal

l see

ms b

alan

ced

now

the

ange

l bur

ns to

di

e Nadi

ne Ye

h

23

The

Spee

d of

Lig

ht

the

nigh

t was

lost

to m

eon

e gi

ant e

lect

ric b

lur o

f lig

hts

and

colo

rs a

nd so

unds

doze

ns o

f fac

es ru

shed

by

laug

hing

, loo

king

, for

getti

ngea

ch o

ne a

snap

shot

with

in th

is fu

zzy,

rapi

d pi

ctur

ebu

t am

id th

e in

cred

ible

ecc

entri

c ch

aos o

f the

nig

htI w

as p

ulle

d fr

om m

y di

zzyi

ngw

hirlw

ind

of d

eliri

um b

y th

e sh

arp

sudd

en

sigh

tof

you

.yo

u sm

iling

, lau

ghin

g, ta

lkin

gyo

u st

andi

ng th

ere,

com

plet

ely

unaw

are

that

you

had

just

shoc

ked

the

air o

ut o

f my

lung

san

d cr

ashe

d th

roug

h m

y pe

acef

ul st

ate

of m

ind

and

now

you

stan

d th

ere

givi

ng m

e th

at fa

mili

ar, b

ashf

ul sm

ilepa

infu

lly o

bliv

ious

that

you

’ve

just

cha

nged

eve

ryth

ing.

Celsa

e Va

nden

berg

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Melti

ng S

eaW

e’re

dro

wni

ng in

a se

a of

snow

, B

ut it

’s o

kay,

cau

se w

e’re

in lo

ve.

Blu

e an

d bl

ack

and

silv

er w

inds

Whi

sper

that

I’ll

see

you

agai

n.

Lips

goi

ng c

old

now

, and

my

toes

. Th

e su

n is

gon

e; w

e w

atch

ed h

im g

o.B

ut ly

ing

in th

is si

nkin

g sh

ip,

Ther

e’s s

omet

hing

that

can

cou

nter

it.

Our

teet

h ar

e ch

atte

ring

thro

ugh

our s

mile

s;

Our

con

tent

men

t cou

ld g

o on

for m

iles.

I hav

e yo

u, m

y da

rling

, my

love

,A

nd e

ven

if w

e do

not

stay

abo

ve,

The

futu

re d

oesn

’t ex

ist,

nor t

he p

ast.

This

is th

e m

omen

t, th

ough

the

last

.

Sara

h Ka

hl

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The

Fabric

of

Time

She

wov

e th

e cl

oth

artic

ulat

ely

Her

han

ds m

ovin

g sw

iftly

acr

oss t

he c

hain

; Tr

ying

to m

aint

ain

both

acc

urac

y an

d pr

ecis

ion

She

was

atte

mpt

ing

perf

ectio

n w

ith e

ach

chai

n,

Each

stitc

h,Ea

ch li

ttle

mov

emen

t, K

now

ing

and

fear

ing

the

cons

eque

nces

of a

ny m

ista

ke

Stuc

k in

mon

oton

y,H

er c

once

ntra

tion

lost

for j

ust a

mom

ent

And

her

focu

s sud

denl

y ch

ange

d,

She

drop

ped

a st

itch

And

dis

aste

r onl

y fo

llow

ed;

The

chai

n br

oke

apar

tTh

e re

perc

ussi

ons t

oo g

rave

.

Diann

a Ba

utist

a

25

Marin

ara

You

and

I are

wal

king

toge

ther

this

mor

ning

, not

hol

ding

han

ds a

nd

very

tire

d. I

t’s c

old

and

gray

the

way

it te

nds t

o be

her

e in

Ber

kele

y du

ring

the

sum

mer

. W

e’re

goi

ng to

The

Che

eseb

oard

for b

reak

fast

. Yo

u ke

ep y

our

hand

s in

your

poc

kets

whi

le m

ine

free

ze.

You’

re w

earin

g th

e ol

d gr

een

ther

mal

that

I lo

ve, a

nd sh

orts

. I’

m

wea

ring

swea

tpan

ts a

nd th

e sa

me

shirt

I w

ore

yest

erda

y. T

here

are

stai

ns o

n th

e fr

ont f

rom

the

past

a sa

uce

I was

mak

ing.

“Will

you

toss

me

that

woo

den

spoo

n?”

I say

.“Y

ou a

lread

y ha

ve a

spoo

n,”

you

rem

ark

from

the

kitc

hen

tabl

e,

whe

re y

ou a

re re

adin

g th

is m

orni

ng’s

pap

er th

ough

it is

no

long

er m

orni

ng.

“I w

ant t

he w

oode

n on

e.”

“Are

you

goi

ng to

was

h it,

then

?”“O

f cou

rse

I am

. W

hat t

he h

ell i

s tha

t sup

pose

d to

mea

n?”

“Not

hing

. H

ere.

” Y

ou li

tera

lly to

ss th

e sp

oon,

whi

ch is

not

wha

t I m

eant

by

“tos

s” th

e sp

oon.

It b

ounc

es o

ut o

f my

hand

s and

land

s with

a

plop

in m

y po

t of h

omem

ade

tom

ato

sauc

e. M

arin

ara

spla

tters

all

over

my

shirt

and

the

coun

ter.

“Jes

us!”

I ye

ll.“S

orry

,” y

ou sa

y. I

just

look

at y

ou, a

nd I

feel

like

I ha

ve n

ever

bee

n an

grie

r in

my

life,

whi

ch I

know

I’ll

real

ize

late

r is j

ust a

hyp

erbo

le.

“Why

,” I

ask

slow

ly, “

did

you

ask

me

if I’

d w

ash

the

spoo

n?”

You

paus

e, a

nd I

know

you

’re

cont

empl

atin

g ho

w u

pset

I’ll

be if

you

say

wha

teve

r you

’re

abou

t to.

You

take

the

plun

ge.

“I

alw

ays h

ave

to w

ash

the

dish

es.”

I ca

n’t b

elie

ve y

ou.

“Rea

lly?”

I sp

it ba

ck. “

Rea

lly. A

nd y

ou v

acuu

m? A

nd y

ou d

o th

e la

undr

y? A

nd y

ou d

ust a

nd m

op, a

nd y

ou m

ake

our b

ed in

the

mor

ning

?”“Y

es, I

--”

“Don

’t yo

u da

re,”

I w

arn.

I th

ink

you

are

so st

upid

right

now

. I pul

l the

spoo

n ou

t of t

he sa

uce

and

was

h it

in th

e si

nk. Y

ou h

aven

’t

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mov

ed fr

om y

our s

eat a

t the

tabl

e--y

ou m

ay e

ven

be re

adin

g yo

ur p

aper

ag

ain.

I le

ave

the

kitc

hen.

An

hour

late

r I a

m st

ill si

tting

on

the

couc

h in

the

livin

g ro

om.

I hea

r you

mov

ing

abou

t in

the

kitc

hen

and

fi gur

e yo

u’re

recy

clin

g yo

ur

new

spap

er a

nd d

rinki

ng a

gla

ss o

f wat

er a

nd th

en w

ashi

ng th

at g

lass

whe

n yo

u’re

fi ni

shed

. I fa

ll as

leep

thin

king

abo

ut h

ow I

got o

ff w

ork

early

toda

y so

I co

uld

mak

e th

at sa

uce

for u

s.

We’

re si

tting

on

the

grou

nd in

fron

t of T

he C

hees

eboa

rd’s

piz

zeria

, le

anin

g ag

ains

t its

fron

t doo

r bec

ause

the

pizz

eria

is c

lose

d in

the

mor

ning

. M

y le

gs a

re c

old

from

the

cem

ent.

You’

re h

avin

g a

corn

che

rry

scon

e an

d I’

m e

atin

g a

bran

muf

fi n. W

e w

atch

the

cars

and

peo

ple

go p

ast.

“Tha

nks f

or c

lean

ing

up th

e sa

uce,

” I s

ay. Y

ou h

ad, i

n fa

ct, w

iped

th

e co

unte

r dow

n an

d fi n

ishe

d m

akin

g th

e sa

uce

and

put i

t in

jars

to b

e st

ored

. “N

o pr

oble

m,”

you

resp

ond,

but

it so

unds

so d

ista

nt--

like

we’

d on

ly ju

st m

et a

nd y

ou w

ere

help

ing

me

carr

y m

y gr

ocer

ies t

o th

e ca

r or

som

ethi

ng.

I loo

k at

you

, and

I kn

ow y

ou se

e m

e, b

ut y

ou k

eep

look

ing

out t

o th

e st

reet

. You

squi

nt y

our e

yes l

ike

it’s t

oo b

right

out

side

and

I se

e th

at y

ou

need

to sh

ave.

“Com

e on

,” y

ou sa

y, st

andi

ng u

p. “

We’

re g

oing

to b

e la

te fo

r wor

k.”

You

offe

r me

your

han

d to

hel

p m

e up

from

the

grou

nd, a

nd y

ou d

on’t

let g

o w

hen

I’m

stan

ding

or w

hen

we

star

t to

wal

k ba

ck h

ome.

I re

mem

ber t

hat y

ou

left

the

offi c

e ea

rly to

get

the

jars

.

Cath

erine

Kim

31

And

you

are

my

drea

mLe

t me

be y

ours

in th

is fr

ee w

orld

of d

ream

s

Briah

na A

raujo

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I Am

a Dre

amer

and

You

Are

Not

I am

a d

ream

er a

nd y

ou a

re n

otI f

eel t

he p

rese

nce

of d

eath

You

laug

h in

its f

ace

I em

brac

e lo

veYo

u pu

sh it

aw

ay a

frai

dI a

m a

dre

amer

and

you

are

not

Your

trut

h is

my

lieM

y fe

elin

gs a

re a

par

ody

in y

our p

lay

Igno

rant

of m

y fe

elin

gs y

ou so

arI’

m th

e bi

rd fl

ying

into

a d

oor

Tim

e an

d tim

e ag

ain

Hop

ing

you’

ll fi n

ally

ope

nI a

m a

dre

amer

and

you

are

not

.A

clo

ud so

ft to

touc

h bu

t not

solid

to h

old

A fl

ower

pre

tty to

wat

ch b

loom

but

not

mea

nt to

last

Your

lack

of d

ream

ing

leav

es m

e he

artb

roke

nI a

m a

dre

amer

and

you

are

not

I see

thin

gs y

ou c

ould

n’t f

atho

mI f

eel w

ays y

ou c

ould

n’t u

nder

stan

dYo

u’re

trap

ped

in a

dre

amle

ss w

orld

Fact

ual

Con

trolle

dFi

ne-tu

ned

Way

s I d

on’t

unde

rsta

ndJo

in m

e an

d dr

eam

, for

onc

e a

drea

mer

you

’ll n

ever

be

drea

mle

ssA

dre

am w

ithhe

ld is

a d

eep

depr

essi

onR

elea

se m

eI a

m a

dre

amer

27

Runn

ing f

rom R

ainM

iser

y of

win

d an

d w

ater

com

bine

d,Ti

ny d

rops

bea

ting

upon

sallo

w sk

inA

re tr

anqu

il bl

ows o

f har

shne

ss, i

f alig

ned,

Blin

ding

the

sigh

t whi

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nalili

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