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TUIOMGI \N \AI TUIWI@\ XWTM@BWA[ ILB\BN@

\sifvi rimuw mo|iu ilb|b`c Xb` Wtm`bwa[\AI WTBUB\YMFLBMUR NO \AI OFMKI NO FN_I+ b` n`i vnfyki n`fr si tyefbwa sb|a cuim| tfimwyui |abw `is XWtm`bwa[ilb|bn`& |nkmhi |abw yuci`| kiwwmci no |ai Knw| Anfr _bucb` uimga mff tintfi no |ai Mkiubgm no wtm`bwa fm`cymci.

B` |ai rimu 5445& si sbff kmuh |ai

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Om|aiu Cmeubif Un`m& W.J. !b` |ai gi`|ui" b` Eylmtiw|& Ay`cmur. Ai bwsb|a wnki kikeiuw no abw omkbfr m`l Wbw|iuw& san uigibvil |aignnulb`m|nuw no |ai Knviki`| no \ai Ofmki no Fnvi no |ai Mugablbngiwino Aiuknwbffn m`l \bjym`m& Kiqbgn.

Om|aiu Cmeubif Un`m&W.J.&amw abw uiwbli`gi b` Eylmtiw|&Ay`cmur. Ai fbvil 74 rimuw b` Igymlnu. B| bw m| |abw |bki|am| ai tunvbli`|bmffr uigibvil |ai sub||i` snuhw no Kuw

Ifbzmei|a Wzm`| Hb`lifkm`` : M aimvi`fr kiwwmci |am|wtimhw no |ai Ofmki no Fnvi no |ai Bkkmgyfm|i Aimu| no Kmur.Om|aiu Un`m livn|il abw i`iucbiw |n |ai |um`wfm|bn` no |aiwisub||i` lngyki`|w ounk Ay`cmubm` |n Wtm`bwa. @ns& |am`hw|n Cnl m`l |n abw tiuwivium`gi m`l lilbgm|bn`& b| bw tnwwbefib` km`r gny`|ubiw no wtm`bwa fm`cymci |n ei mg}ymb`|il sb|a|ai kiwwmci no |ai Knw| Anfr _bucb`. San y`lny|ilfrkmli wn kyga cnnl |n wnyfw no nyu |bki.B` Jyfr no =222& Om|aiu Un`m m||i`lil |ai Obuw| B`|iu`m|bn`mfGn`cuiww b` Kiqbgn. Om|aiu Cmeubif Un`m gn`|b`yiw ounk abwgny`|ur& Ay`cmur& i`gnyumcb`c& mlvbwb`c m`l wtbub|ymffrm||i`lb`c |n |ai `is kikeiuw no |ai Knviki`|. \abw wmkiknviki`| bw tuiwi`| b` km`r gny`|ubiw no Fm|b` Mkiubgm&m`l b` |ai Y`b|il W|m|iw& Gm`mlm& Iyunti& Moubgm m`l Mwbm.

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TUIOMGI\N \AI OBUW\ WTM@BWA ILB\BN@

FI\\IU NO \AI MUGAEBWANT NO CYMRM]YBF& IGYMLNU

Sb|a cuim| livn|bn` m`l ikn|bn`& si amvi uiml |abw ennh&OFMKI NO FN_I& |um`wfm|il Xounk Ay`cmubm` |n Wtm`bwa[er Om|aiu Un`m W.J.& m`l wyekb||il |n ne|mb` tiukbwwbn` tuivbnyw |n tyefbwab`c. Si kyw| gn`oiww& sb|a lyi wb`giub|r& |am| si amviony`l& b` |ai tmciw no |abw ennh& |ai knw| eimy|boyf m`l tunony`lfiwwn`w no wtbub|ymf fboi& m| wyga m tnb`| |am| si eifbivi b| tuntiu

`n| n`fr |n cbvi |ai mttunvmf mwhil onu& ey| mfwn |n uignkki`l|abw ennh sabga sbff wiuvi |n mlvm`gi liitfr b` |ai ui}ybuiki`|wno |ai Gaubw|bm` fboi.

Ofmki no Fnvi bw m `is `mki cbvi` |n |am| bkki`wi m`li|iu`mf Fnvi |am| Kmur tunoiwwiw |n mff aykm` eib`cw& onu sankGaubw| nooiuil abw Fboi m`l wail abw Efnnl. Fbhisbwi& Ofmki no Fnvi bw |ai wsii| `mki no Kmur |n aiu gabflui`. Ofmki |am|i`fbca|i`w& ofmki |am| smu`w yt& ofmki |am| eyu`w& ofmki |am|& eyu`b`c b` |ai Aimu| no Kmur& sm`|w |n eyu` b` |ai aimu| no aiu gabflui` |nn& iwtigbmffr lyub`c |aiwi lmrw wi| onu |ai tumriu no m|n`iki`| |am| mui \ayuwlmrw m`l Oublmrw siihfr.

Er |abw Ofmki no Fnvi& sabga bw |ai Bkkmgyfm|i Aimu| no

Kmur& si sbff ob`l |ai b``ykiumefi |uimwyuiw no |ai obvi Sny`lwno Gaubw|& sabga mui `n| n`fr |ai uioyci no |ai wnyf ey| mfwn |aifiwwn` n` |ai Gunww si `iil |n y`liuw|m`l sai` si wbc` nyuwifviwsb|a |ai wbc` no |ai Gunww wmrb`c mcmb` n`i no |ai knw| wbktfi m`l tunony`l tumriuw. Er abw Anfr Gunww& Ai lifbviuw yw ounk nyu i`ikbiw. \ai Gunww bw |ai knw| tnsiuoyf simtn` |n lioim| |ailivbf& |abw wtbub| no ivbf& san bw lnkb`m|b`c iviur lmr knui m`lknui b` |ai snufl.

\am| bw sar |ai Ofmki no Fnvi kyw| ei bc`b|il b` nuliu |nwmvi mff Gaubw|bm`w8 |n wmvi |ai omkbfbiw& wmvb`c |ai om|aiu m`l |aikn|aiu no iviur gaubw|bm` omkbfr8 |n aift |n |ai wm`g|bobgm|bn` no tubiw|w san& mw |air mui knui fbhi Gaubw|& sbff iqiugbwi m kb`bw|ur

mff |ai knui ioobgbi`| gfnwi eiwbli mff |aibu eun|aiuw8 |abw Ofmki no Fnvi kyw| i`fbca|i` mff |ai knki`|w no |ai fboi no |ai Gaubw|bm`&mff abw knki`|w no bff`iww& no mcn`r m`l no lim|a. Ivi` mo|iu

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lim|a& |abw Ofmki no Fnvi kyw| hiit n` |n i`fbca|i` |ai anti no mff |anwi san mui b` |ai tyucm|nur.

M| |ai wmki |bki |am| si cbvi |ai fbgi`gi |n tyefbwa |abw eimy|boyf ennh no Fnvi& si iqtuiww |ai knw| oiuvi`| sbwaiw |am| b|sbff uimga `ykiunyw am`lw m`l |yu` b|wifo b`|n |ai b`w|uyki`| ersabga mff no yw gm` gnki |nci|aiu sb|a Cnl& y`gimwb`cfri`fbca|i`il er |abw i|iu`mf Ofmki no Fnvi& |ai Bkkmgyfm|i Aimu|no Kmur.

Ebwant Eiu`mulb`n Igaiviuum Uybz& Mugaebwant no Cymrm}ybf.

Jy`i =212

@n|i no Om|aiu Cmeubif Un`m& W.J:Abw Cumgi Ebwant Eiu`mulb`n Igaiviuubm& mo|iu amvb`c

tiuwn``mffr w|ylbil |ai km`ywgubt| no |aiLBMUR& cbvb`c b| emgh |nki& uiml ki |ai tuigilb`c fi||iu& y`liu lm|i no Jy`i =212.

N` @nvikeiu 5?& =22

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B@\UNLYG\BN@\abw Lbmur amw eii` sub||i` er m` aykefi snkm` gmffil

Ifbzmei|a Hb`lifkm``& san fbvil b` Ay`cmur ounk =2=7 |n=219. N`i h`nsw |am| |ai Gm|anfbg Gayuga iqtiubi`gil b`|abw gny`|ur m uicbki no tiuwigy|bn` lyub`c |aiwi km`rrimuw.

\ai Lbmur ivi`|ymffr ti`i|um|il b`|n Siw|iu` Iyunti&b`|n |ai am`lw no m ay`cmubm` `y`& gmffil Wbw|iu M`m Un|a.Kmhb`c aiuwifo mg}ymb`|il sb|a |ai tuiwwb`c kiwwmci no |aiKnw| Anfr _bucb`& |am| onukw |ai kmb` gn`|i`|w no |abwLbmur& Wbw|iu Un|a tyefbwail |ai knw| bktnu|m`| |iq|w mw ennhfi|w no =? tmciw m`l& mo|iu |am|& ?4 tmciw& |um`wfm|il b`km`r fm`cymciw m`l fmucifr wtuiml.

\ai oyff Lbmur smw ilb|il b` ay`cmubm` b` =219& b`Ciukm`r. Kr liwbui bw |am| |ai kiwwmci no |ai Knw| Anfr_bucb` gnki mw wnn` mw tnwwbefi b`|n |ai am`lw no `ykiunywWtm`bwa wtimhb`c omb|aoyfw.

\AI MY\ANU NO \AILBMUR

IFBZMEI\A HB@LIFKM@@Ifbzmei|a Hb`lifkm`` smw

enu` b` Eylmtiw|& |ai |abu|ii`|agabfl no m aykefi omkbfr& `mkilWzm`|. Sai` wai smw ifivi`rimuw nfl& wai eigmki m`nutam`. \ai lboobgyf|biw no fboikm|yuil aiu tiuwn`mfb|r. Wai

gnyfl w|ylr n`fr yt |n |ai onyu|a rimu no ifiki`|mur wgannf& ey| ivi` |am| smw b` |ai tfm`w no Cnl& |n kmhi yw mlkb| |am|b| bw `n| Ifbzmei|a san wtimhw |n yw& ey| Cnl Abkwifo er |aib`|iukilbmur no abw %Aykm` B`w|uyki`|%. \auii |bkiwIfbzmei|a h`nghil m| |ai lnnu no gn`vi`|w |n eignki m `y`...

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ey| wai |ubil b` vmb`. B` =274& wai kmuubil m` an`iw| snuhb`ckm`& Hmunfr Hb`lifkm``& sb|a sank wai fbvil =? rimuw no amukn`bnyw km|ubkn`bmf fboi. B` =2

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aimu|w& ivi` |ai aimu|w no |anwi san ln `n| eifn`c |n |aigm|anfbg Gayuga. Wai |iffw yw sam| si kyw| ln |ngnffmenum|i sb|a aiu b` |abw snuh. \ai Knw| Anfr _bucb`

Kmur gubiw& eicw& iqanu|w& mwhw no yw tumriuw& wmgubobgiw& Anfr Anyuw b` omkbfr& omw|w& |n aift aiu b` |am| obca| mcmb`w| ivbf.

N`i gnyfl mwh : Sam| bw |aiui b` |abw snuh> Lniw b| mllwnki|ab`c |n sam| |ai Gayuga eifbiviw nu lniw |n vi`ium|i|ai Knw| Anfr _bucb`> Si snyfl m`wsiu |am| |anwi sub||i`wgubt|w kmhi yw wii sam| |ai _bucb` Kmur oiifw& m`l ans waimg|w b` |ai tuiwi`| gnyuwi no nyu abw|nur |abw eny`lfiww

wtbub|ymf kn|aiuannl& |abw b`guilbefi tuinggytm|bn` onu |aiwmfvm|bn` no |ai wnyfw no aiu gabflui`. Fi| yw fbw|i` |n aiu snulw :%\MHI \ABW OFMKI& B\W \AI OFMKI NO FN_I NO KRAIMU\. BC@B\I RNYU NS@ AIMU\ SB\A B\ M@L TMWW B\N@ \N N\AIUW-% %SB\A \ABW OFMKI OYFF NO CUMGI\AM\ B MK CB_B@C RNY OUNK KR AIMU\& BC@B\I MFFAIMU\W B@ \AI SANFI GNY@\UR& KMHB@C B\ TMWWOUNK AIMU\ \N AIMU\. B\ SBFF EI \AI KBUMGFI\AM\& GAM@CB@C B@\N OBUI& ER B\W OFMWAB@C FBCA\SBFF EFB@L WM\M@. B\ BW \AI OBUI NO FN_I B NE\MB@ILOUNK \AI AIM_I@FR OM\AIU ER _BU\YI NO \AISNY@LW NO KR KNW\ ANFR WN@ %.! Mtubf =7|a& =2?5".

\am`hw |n Cnl& |ai ennhfi|w no |aiOFMKI NO FN_Iuigibvil m kmuviffnyw uigit|bn` b` |ai Uityefbg no Kiqbgn&gny`|ur |am| |ai Knw| Anfr _bucb` fnviw wn kyga m`l saiuiwai bw wn fnvil. Wyui wbc` no aiu tuilbfig|bn` onu |abw tintfi.Si anti |ai fnvi |nsmulw AIU sbff cn mfsmrw b`guimwb`cknui m`l knui sb|a |ai uimlb`c m`l |ai kilb|m|bn` no |abwWTBUB\YMF LBMUR.

B snyfl fbhi |n w|m|i& limu uimliu& |am| |aiLBMURrny muianflb`c b` rnyu am`lw liwiuvil |ai mttunem|bn` no |aiIggfiwbmf Cnviu`ki`| no |ai Mugablbngiwi no Cymrm}ybf&Igymlnu. Rny mfwn amvi |ai omvnyumefi ntb`bn` no kr Nuliu&|ai Gnktm`r no Jiwyw. B amvi |ai tfimwyui |n |um`wgubei b|aiui b` oyff :

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f+ \ai wyejig| |uim|il bw ywioyf.5+ \ai Wtbub|ymf Lbmur wyutmwwiw |ai kilbyk }ymfb|r no

km`r my|nebncumtabiw m`l |iw|bkn`biw.7+ B| mcuiiw sb|a |ai lng|ub`i no |ai Omb|a m`l |ai

|umlb|bn`& mw |imgail er |ai Iggfiwbmf Kmcbw|iubyk& |aiwtbub|ymf my|anuw m`l er |ai vbisw no |ai tintfi.

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\AI OFMKI NO FN_I WTBUB\YMF LBMUR =2?5+=21=

KR WTBUB\YMF OBCA\W : NEWGYUI @BCA\\ai smr no |ai Fnul& er sabga Ai fimlw yw& `iviu i`lw8

b| bw yw san |yu` mwbli ounk Abk. B mfwn |yu`il msmr. \ai`ykiunyw tuinggytm|bn`w& |ai lbwwbtm|b`c snuhb`c& |nci|aiu sb|a kr wb|ym|bn` no sblnsil snkm`& eunhi lns` krwtbub|ymf kilb|m|bn`. M`l eb| er eb|& B livbm|il ounk Cnl.\ai y`gimwb`c w|uyccfi onu fboi cmvi nggytm|bn` |n kr kb`l.

M| |ai i`l no m fn`c obca|& kr wtbub|ymf fboi aml eignki wnlmuhi`il |am| ivi` |ai vbcnyu no kr omb|a smw y`wi||fil.\am| y`gimwb`c w|uyccfi onu fboi kmli ki mwh krwifo :%Rnywii& B mfsmrw |nfl rny. Sar amvi m ebc omkbfr>%Sabfi Bsmw onu iviu gnkb`c emgh nviu |aiwi blimw& mff |am| smwwmguil onu ki b` |ai tmw|& m`l lbl cbvi m wi`wi |n kr fboi&wiikil |n ki wbffr |ab`cw& ikt|r snulw.

N`i wmghil ki ounk m jne& m`l B aml |n cn wimugab`c onu m`n|aiu jne ifwisaiui. \ai`& kbwiur lbl gnki ivi` knuiwiviui& m`l knui ny|umcinyw |ai |ikt|m|bn`.

\ai Ivbf N`i knfiw|il ki y`gimwb`cfr:

Wm|m`:+ %Sar ln rny |iff w|nubiw |n rnyuwifo> Rnyh`ns viur siff |am| rny wanyfl amvi mfuimlr cbvi yt |aiobca| m fn`c |bki mcn& ey| rny ln`| h`ns sam| |n wmr |nrnyu gabflui`. Rny ln`| h`ns ans |n |iff |aik |am| ivi`rny ln`| eifbivi m`rknui b` mff |am|. Gnki n`- \aunsnoo rnyu kmwh& m| fmw|. Rny sbff wii ans kyga ei||iu rnysbff oiif. Mo|iu mff& rnyu gabflui` sbff wyggiil |n ob`l ny|sam| rny mui |urb`c |n hiit emgh ounk |aik m| |abw viurknki`|... %.

\ai`& B w|nttil wanu|& m`l onu m knki`| mttimuil |n ki|ai omgi no Cnl& b` m viur wiviui km``iu. B| bw b` wyga mkm``iu |am| eicm` b` ki m cuim| obca|. B bktfnuil Cnl.Wnki|ab`c eirn`l liwgubt|bn` 8 B ln`| ob`l snulw |n iqtuiww|ai wtbub|ymf obca| |am| eicm` b` ki. \ai em||fi smw fn`c&oubca|oyf 8 b| cn| n` kr `iuviw.

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B m||i`lil |ai anfr kmww mcmb`& ey| onu ki b| smw wnikt|r - M`l B cn| |buil no b|. M| |ai |bki& B smw snuhb`c |snwabo|w m lmr m| |ai kbff& m`l B si`| wn omu mw |n km`mci |nsnuh n` Wy`lmrw. Kr gabflui` m||i`lil |ai lnkb`bgmf kmwwn` |ai knu`b`c& saiuimw B m||i`lil b| b` |ai ivi`b`c. B| smw ei||iu |am| b| wanyfl ei wn& eigmywi |ayw |air lbl `n| wii krfmgh no wifo+gnkky`bn`. M| |ai knki`| no |ai anfr kmww&b`w|iml no tumrb`c& B cmvi rms`w ny| no enuilnk. N`i lmr& B|nnh |ai ligbwbn` `n| |n cn m`rknui& + B sbff `n| cn |n rms` B wmbl |n krwifo. Fb||fi er fb||fi& b| wiikil |n ki |am| kr

viur gn`wgbi`gi smw uiwbc`il |n |am|.N`i Wy`lmr& B eicm` |n smwa |ai lbu|r fb`i` no |ai siih.B` |ai knu`b`c& B wi`| kr gabflui` |n |ai anfr kmww& sabfi Bsmwail |ai sanfi lmr. \ai ivi`b`c gmki m`l kr gabflui``n|bobil ki: %Knk& b| bw mfuimlr obvi |abu|r-% B oif| lbw|yueil er |am|& m`l hit| lnb`c kr snuh. Ob`mffr& m ois kb`y|iw eionui wbq ngfngh& n`i no kr gabflui` |nfl ki: %Na& ln- tfimwi- Ayuur yt-%. B| wannh ki yt m`l B si`|.

B si`| ey|& b` |abw w|m|i& B lbl `n| h`ns ans |n wtimh |nCnl. B smw wyutmwwb`c krwifo b` wgm||iuil |anyca|w :Answbffr no ki- Sar mk B hiitb`c mcmb` |ai omw|b`c no |ai

|abul nuliu no |ai Gmukif> B| bw wn onnfbwa- ... Gnki n`-Cbvi yt mff |am| -... B ligblil |n li`r krwifo `n knui |n im|kim| wb`gi kr `nyubwaki`| bw wn b`wyoobgbi`| m`l no eml}ymfb|r. \abw omw|b`c& B mfsmrw hit| b| sb|any| m`r lboobgyf|r& ey| n`fr er uyfi no |ayke.

Gnkb`c emgh anki& B ln`| h`ns krwifo ans |ai fb||fiTwmfk+ennh no |ai Knw| Anfr _bucb` oiff b` kr am`lw. Bnti`il b| m`l eicm` |n tumr. \abw tumriu |am|& b` |ai tmw|&mfsmrw gmki yt ounk kr aimu| |n Cnl& `ns fnnhil |n ki moy|bfi emeefi... B |nnh b` kr am`lw kr nfl ennh no kilb|m|bn`& ey| vmb`fr B smw w|ubvb`c : m` newgyui wbfi`gi&gnfl m`l lyke& sumttil ki n` mff wbliw. B eyuw| b`|n |imuw :%Cnl sm`|w |n h`ns `n|ab`c no ki%.

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N`i siih& sai` kr wabo| m| |ai kbff eicm` n` |aiknu`b`c& m`l |ai `iq| siih& sai` b| eicm` b` |ai mo|iu`nn`m`l i`lil viur fm|i b` |ai ivi`b`c& B eigmki obffil sb|a m`iq|uiki b``iu m`cybwa. Wyga |anyca|w munwi b` ki |am| |nlbwgfnwi |aik snyfl ei |n efmwtaiki mcmb`w| Cnl.

B` |ai kbllfi no |abw cuim| obca|& |ai Ivbf N`i kmli kiaimu b` kr aimu| wnki anuubefi snulw :

Wm|m`:+%\am|w sar B mffnsil |am|& |n ci| b| b`|n rnyuaiml |am| b| bw ywifiww |n obca| w|bff knui%.

\ai |iuubefi w|uyccfi si`| n` onu meny| |auii rimuw y`|bf

n`i lmr kr lmyca|iu G. |nfl ki. %Knk& ayuur yt& |nlmr& m||sn ngfngh |abw mo|iu`nn`& b| sbff ei |ai oy`iumf no Lu E.% B|smw mfuimlr n`i ngfngh b` |ai mo|iu`nn`.

B| cmvi ki wyga m wangh b` kr aimu|. Sb|any| |ab`hb`cm`r knui& B ty| kr |ab`cw n` wn mw `n| |n ei fm|i. I`|iub`c|ai unnk no |ai knu|ymur vbcbf& B eyuw| b`|n |imuw. B smw|ab`hb`c: %Ai bw siff ns. Ai amw eii` m |uyi gmukifb|i oubmu Xno |ai |abul nuliu[& no m anfr m`l iqiktfmur fboi... Ey|ki>....Sbff B kmhi kr smr |aiui>

%Ln`| gur% B| smw abw vnbgi& tfimwm`| m`l wno| mw n`fr|ai efiwwil wnyfw gm` y||iu +. %Cn emgh |n |ai Gmukif-%.

\ai lmr mo|iu smw Wy`lmr& Jyfr =?|a& oimw| no Nyu Fmlrno |ai Gmukif& tm|un` wmb`| no nyu gayuga. B gmki wnn` b` |aiknu`b`c m`l w|mril |bff `bca|omff. B aml }yb|i m fn| no lboobgyf|biw b` ubwb`c ounk kr wim| |n cn |n gn`oiww kr wb`w. M|iuubefi y`oiifb`c`iww smw im|b`c kr aimu| ny|. B lbl`| oiifm`r uicui| b` kr aimu|. \ai ti`m`gi& B wmbl b| }yb|ikigam`bgmffr saiuimw B |anyca| : mff |aiwi tintfi mui tumbwb`c nyu Knw| Anfr Kn|aiu 8 ey| |ai blim lbl `n| gnki|n kr kb`l |am| B smw mfwn tumbwb`c aiu. B smw n`fr |ab`hb`cno eun|aiu E& eigmywi b| cmvi wnki gnkonu| |n kr wnyf.

Ai b`lygil ki |n cn |n |ai Knw| Anfr _bucb` : %Cn m`l ens eionui Aiu -% \am| bw sam| B lbl ey| B lbl`| ob`l timgi.

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B| smw tui||r lmuh mfuimlr sai` B gmki anki. \aiui& mviur w|um`ci wi`wm|bn` cubttil ki& mw bo B aml fio| kr wnyfumvmcil m`l ywil m| |ai Gmukif. Ivi` bo |am| lmr B aml `n||mhi` ivi` n`fr n`i kny|aoyf& sb|a m fn| no lboobgyf|biw B eicm` |n kmhi msmr sb|a kr ay`ciu. \ai Ivbf N`i mcmb`|nnh yt m tnwb|bn` gfnwi |n ki:+%Rny wbffr mww- Sam| bw |aicnnl no mff |am| |n rny> Ln |mhi m uiw|- Ln`| m||mgabktnu|m`gi |n |aiwi |ab`cw%.

Eunhi` aimu|il& B si`| ny| b`|n |ai cmuli` saiui& b` |aiwbfi`gi no |ai `bca|& B eicm` |n wail |imuw gntbnywfr. Er

w|mufbca|& eionui |ai w|m|yi no Nyu Fmlr no Fnyuliw B aml b`nyu cmuli`& B eicm` |n tumr sb|a cuim| oiuvnyu.\ai `iq| knu`b`c& B si`| amw|bfr |n |ai fb||fi gamtif B

m||i`lil b` |bkiw tmw|& sai` B smw ri| krwifo m rny`ckn|aiu& m`l saiui B ony`l krwifo wn no|i` m| |ai |mefi no |aiFnul sb|a Eun|aiu E. Mcmb` |nlmr& b| smw |ai fbhb`c B aml|mhi` onu Abk |am| fil ki |aiui. N` |ai smr& B ony`l krwifo sb|a m ois nfl mg}ymb`|m`giw san uikikeiuil ki mw m`iqmktfmur rny`c kn|aiu. B| kmli ki y`imwr eigmywi B eifbivil |am| |ai Ivbf N`i `ns sm`|il |n |ikt| ki ervmb`cfnur. B bktfnuil sb|a mff kr aimu| : %Aimvi`fr Kn|aiu&`iviu `iviu B sm`| |n ei y`omb|aoyf |n rny - Ln`| mem`ln`ki- Anfl ki |bca| - B mk moumbl no krwifo - Kr onn|w|itwmui wn y`w|imlr%.Lyub`c |ai anfr kmww& B tumril y`gimwb`cfr |ai FnulJiwyw: Fnul& onucbvi ki kr wb`w. B lbl`| lmui |n gnki `imu |ai Fnulw \mefi& ivi` bo |ai tiuwn` wb||b`c er kr wbli |nnh kr muk knui |am` n`i |bki: %Ln fi|w cn-%

\AI FNUL H@NGHW M\ \AI LNNU Lyub`c |anwi lmrw& B uigibvil |aiwi iq|umnulb`mur cumgiw

|ai Fnul cbviw n`fr |n |anwi san mui simh m`l gn`vmfiwgi`|.M `y` |am| smw h`iifb`c er kr wbli wmbl |n ki : %B mk cnb`clns` n` kr h`iiw er rnyu wbli b` nuliu |n eignki m wmb`|

|nn%. Na& B h`is wai smw wiib`c m`l oiifb`c |ai Fnul Jiwywb` ki.

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Wnki |bkiw B smfhil y`gimwb`cfr& sb|a kr iriwwyooywil sb|a |imuw. \ai fnvi B oif| onu |ai Fnul Jiwywwyooywil kr iriw sb|a |imuw no uiti`|m`gi. B sm`|il `n| |nwii tintfi m`rknui& B smw n`fr fnnhb`c onu wnki wbfi`gi |n ei mefi |n aimu y`gimwb`cfr |ai vnbgi no |ai Fnul. Eigmywiounk |am| knki`|& Ai wtnhi |n ki... Na& |aiwi }ybi|gn`viuwm|bn`w mui wn wbktfi...-ONU WN M FN@C \BKI B SMW SMB\B@C ONU RNY

B bktfnuil Abk |n fi| ki bkkiuwi krwifo b` |ai wim no abw cumgiw. B oiuvi`|fr mwhil onu |aiwi cumgiw onu kr limu gabflui` |nn& onu Abk |n m||umg| |aik |n Abk. Ai tunkbwilki |am|& bo B mwhil onu b| w|imlomw|fr m`l sb|a lnccil`iww no tyutnwi& Ai wanyfl cum`| b| |n ki.

Sai` B smw mlnub`c Abk& wyekiucil b` m tunony`llivn|bn`& |ai Ivbf N`i |mfhil |n ki b` |abw smr :+% Rnyeifbivi |am| Ai gm` ln |am| > Bo Ai aml |am| tnsiu& Aisnyfl ln b| eigmywi Ai snyfl ob`l b| viur mkywb`c. %

Sam| m |iuubefi wfmt- B eigmki wml m| aimu|...\ai` eigmki vbwbefi |ai Anfr Omgi no |ai Fnul& eionui

kr wtbub|ymf iriw& m`l Ai wtnhi b` |abw smr :JG.+%Fnnh m| kr Omgi lbw|nu|il m`l kr Wmguil Enlr

|nu|yuil- Amvi B `n| wyooiuil |n wmvi wnyfw> Eifbivi b`Ki m`l mlnui Ki-%M| |abw knki`|& B kmli mg|w no omb|a& anti m`l gamub|r& m`l B

bktfnuil Abk `iviu |n mffns ki |n witmum|i ounk Abk& |n gamb`ki yt wnfblfr |n abw wmguil Oii|& wn |am| B wanyfl uikmb` b` |abwkm``iu mfsmrw y`b|il |n Abk. Wn B snyfl oiif krwifo wigyui. Ai&onu abw tmu|& mwhil ki |n li`r krwifo& wiib`c |am| B mk viurb`m||i`|bvi m`l m wngbi|r snkm`.

JG.+ %B ln`| onugi rny& rnyu sbff bw ouii. N`fr bo rny sm`|b| -%Sb|a m kbca|r ioonu|& B mttfbil krwifo |n ln b|.Mo|iusmulw& iviur|ab`c muny`l ki fb`il yt b` nuliu b`wyga m km``iu |am| B smw fil mfsmrw `imuiu Abk& eigmywi Ai hit| yucb`c ki.

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JG.+ %B snyfl fbhi |n cbvi rny cuim| cumgiw8 |am| bw sar&li`r rnyuwifo gnktfi|ifr-%\air siui bktnu|m`|& |aiwi snulw& onu kr

y`liuw|m`lb`c. \am| bw sar B mwhil Abk : Wamff B ei mefi |nln |am| >

JG.+ %Rny& rny amvi n`fr |n sbff8 sam| uikmb`w& i`|uyw|Ki sb|a |am|.%B| gnw| ki n|aiu w|uyccfiw& m`l n|aiuw mcmb`& ey| |ai Fnul

fbca|il yt kr y`liuw|m`lb`c m`l cyblil ki w|it er w|it.\aiwi wifo+li`bmfw& B aml |n fbvi |aik b` m tumg|bgmf smrb`wbli kr omkbfr.

B`mwkyga mw kr rny`ciw| gabfl smw fbvb`c sb|a ki& b|smw `n| nevbnyw |n ki |ai kim`b`c m`l bktnu|m`gi no |aiwifo+li`bmfw. M| anki& B aml |n w}yiizi yt mfsmrw knui |nkmhi wnki tfmgi onu kr gabflui` san siui ony`lb`c |aibu omkbfbiw. B| gnw| ki m fn|. B aml m onyu unnk anywi sb|aknliu` gnkonu|. \ai vmw| lb`b`c unnk smw ri| uikmb`b`c m|kr lbwtnwmf. Ivi` |n |am| mfwn B ui`ny`gil& mf|anyca b| gnw|ki m fn|.

Fimvb`c |ai lb`b`c unnk& |ai kbu|aoyf m`l tmb`oyfwnyvi`buw no |ai tmw| mwwmbfil kr |anyca|w. ]yb|i m fn| no omkbfr ivi`|w liobfil eionui ki& |ai wn b`|bkm|i `bca|w no Gaubw|kmw |bkiw& sillb`c oimw|w& gifieum|bn`w no cum`l+gabflui`w emt|bwkw& |ai |mefi tnnufr tunvblil b` rimuw no b`lbci`gi& sai` onu km`r rimuw |aiui smw onu euimhoimw| `nknui |am` m wfbgi no euiml m`l ey||iu. Onu rimuw& |ai tnnu vici|mefi lbwa uikmb`il sb|any| oyff kimf& ey| B |nnh gmui |nwans noo `iq| |n imga lb``iu tfm|i n`i ob`i+fnnhb`c m`l eimkb`c mttfi. B wi| |ai |mefi gmuioyffr wn |am| |ai gabflui`lbl `n| oiif |am| si siui fbvb`c rimuw no b`lbci`gi.

M| |abw |bki& B hit| knvb`c eubwhfr mkn`c |aik& m`l Bhit| onu krwifo |ai y`gimwb`c gmui no |aibu `nyubwaki`|.Sam| B sm`| |n wmr bw |am| |abw lb`b`c unnk smw m tmu| no kraimu| m`l b| kmli |ai ui`y`gbm|bn` lboobgyf|.

B knvil b` m`n|aiu unnk |ab`hb`c |am| B smw cnb`c |n`iw| |aiui sb|a kr uikikeum`giw. B| smw |ai gabflui`w

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unnk. B |anyca| : Aiui kr wnyf sbff ci| timgi& }ybi|`iww8 Bsbff `n knui ei nefbcil |n gam`ci kr unnk mcmb` -....

@n| fn`c eionui& kr rny`ciu wn` cn| kmuubil. B aml |naift abk wn |am| ai |nn gnyfl amvi abw unnk. B ui`ny`gil |am|unnk |nn. B oif| |am| |ai Fnul smw mwhb`c ki |abw wmgubobgi& wn|am| B eignki uimffr tnnu... Y`liu kr iriw tmumlil |ai`bca|w wti`| fnnhb`c mo|iu n`i wbgh gabfl w|mrb`c eiwbli abw eil& |aibu jnrnyw `nbwiw& ivi`b`c tumriuw& b`|bkm|i omkbfruimlb`cw. \ab`hb`c no |aiwi uikikeum`giw& B oif| wnuuns+w|ubghi` b` kr aimu| jyw| mw n`i fnnwiw wnki|ab`c viur tuigbnyw. M`l |ai Fnul eicm` yucb`c ki...

LI@R RNYUWIFO GNKTFI\IFRJG.+ %Li`r rnyuwifo gnktfi|ifr -%\ai`& B lbw|ubey|il mff sam| B aml ei|sii` kr gabflui`

wn |am| `n|ab`c wanyfl kmhi ki gfb`c |n |abw snufl. Fm|iu n`& B aml |ai oiifb`c |n amvi ln`i sam| smw `igiwwmur. B amlivi` `n| m gambu fio| saiui B gnyfl uiw| kr aiml b` gnktfi|i timgi no kb`l. \ai vnbgi no |ai Fnul hit| yucb`c ki :

JG.+ %Li`r rnyuwifo -%Mff eigmki lmuh m`l wml mff muny`l ki. @ns& sam| gm` B

ln sb|a kr fboi> M`l |ai Ivbf N`i gmki sb|a m fmuci wkbfi:Wm|m` :%Ln`| fnwi aimu|& rny mui `n| wn nfl ri|& |mhi muiw|& wkmu|i` rnyuwifo yt& amvi m cnnl |bki& m`l bo rnyamvi |ai nggmwbn`& ci| kmuubil -....|abw bw `n| m| mffwamkioyf. \ai`& rny sbff amvi mcmb` rnyu anki m`l rnysbff eifn`c |n wnkienlr. Rny kmr hiit rnyu gn`wgbi`gi}ybi|& rny amvi ln`i rnyu ly|r mw m kn|aiu%.

\ai efnnl uywail |n kr omgi& eigmywi b| bw |uyi |am| B oif|mff mfn`i \ai `iq| knu`b`c& B ensil eionui |ai Fnulwmf|mu : %Fnul& Rny h`ns& ln`| Rny& |am| B gamb`il krwifo yt |n rnyu Wmguil Oii| m`l B ln`| sm`| Rny |n |mhi kimsmr ounk |aiui>%. B mwhil Abk : Fnul& sar lbl Rny fi| kimfn`i >

JG.+ %Onu |ai cnnl no rnyu wnyf. B |nn& onu fn`c anyuw Bw|uyccfil mfn`i b` kr mcn`r. M`l |n rny& ivi` |abw fb||fiwmgubobgi fnnhw lboobgyf|> Mggit| mff sam| sbff amtti` |nrny mcmb`.%

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\ai` B wtnhi |n kr lmyca|iu G.& |n sank B am`lil nviu |ai km`mciki`| no |ai anywi. Ounk |abw lmr onusmul m`l b`|ai oy|yui& rny sbff ei |ai fb||fi anywihiitiu& B sbff gnnh `nknui. Wai fnnhil m| ki sb|a cuim| wyutubwi& mw bo mwhb`c kisam| B snyfl ei lnb`c. + %Sam| mff no rny sbff mwh ki |n ln B wmbl+ m`l B sbff im| sam| rny sbff cbvi ki%. G. uitfbil :%Limu Knk& rny mui mg|b`c mw bo rny siui m aiukb|%.

M| |abw knki`|& K. kr rny`ciw| lmyca|iu& i`|iuil8 waismw |ai kn|aiu no |sn rny`cw|iuw. B amvi |n fnnh onu m jne&wai wmrw& eigmywi sb|a n`fr n`i b`gnki& n`i lniw`| kmhi en|a i`lw kii| !aiu aywem`l bw m |imgaiu". \ai` B cmvi yt b`aiu omvnyu |ai tunlyg| no kr siff tmbl snuh m| |aignntium|bvi !snuh sabga gn`wbw|il b` tmb`|b`c wnki tfmw|bg"&wn |am| wai snyfl`| amvi |n fi| aiu |sn fb||fi gabflui` mfn`im| anki. B| smw kr fmw| ui`y`gbm|bn`. Mff |am| amtti`il b` mois lmrw. B aml |n ln umtblfr |am| wmgubobgi eigmywi |ai Fnulsmw yucb`c ki :

JG.+ %Rnyu sbff eifn`cw |n rny& B ln`| tuiwgubei b| |n rny&B mggit| n`fr bo rny |nn sm`| b|. \ai n`fr |ab`c |am| bwsnu|a kyga eionui kr iriw bw |am| rny gnkkb| rnyuwifo i`|buifr |n Ki gn`obli`|fr. Ln rny eifbivi |am| B gm``n|uismul rny onu mff |am| > Sam| ubgaiw mui smb|b`c onurny- %

M\ \AI WGANNF NO \AI LB_B@I KMW\IU Sai` |aiwi likm`lb`c wifo+li`bmfw km|iubmfbwil b` ki&

b| smw n` Oieuymur =4& =2?5& n`i Wm|yulmr. \ai `iq| lmr&Wy`lmr& oimw| no Nyu Fmlr no Fnyuliw& b` |ai mo|iu`nn`& Bwnn` um` msmr |ai `nbwi no |ai omkbfr fboi. Kr wnyf sm`|ilwbfi`gi. Mw B aml `n knui anki& |ai Fnul Jiwyw sm`|il b| |n ei b` wyga m smr.

B@ \AI GAYUGAN` |abw sn`liuoyf Wy`lmr& m fmuci gunsl no tintfi

ikt|bil |ai Wm`g|ymur Kmubmuiki|i !Aiukb|mci no Kmur"m`l |ai livny| omb|aoyf vbwb|il nyu gayuga lilbgm|il |n |aiAnfr Wtbub|.

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B smw h`iifb`c mkn`c |ai gunsl. M`l mo|iu m eubio snuwabt& B wmbl |n |ai Fnul : Kr Jiwyw& aiui B mk. B cn||n|mffr ouii ounk |ai snufl mw Rny sbwail. Wn |am| mewnfy|ifr`n|ab`c gm` b`|iutnwi ei|sii` en|a no yw. Mk B mcuiimefi |nRny |ayw> Na& kr Cnl& sam| m tnnu sui|ga B mk- Ans b|gnw|w ki |n kmhi |am| ui`y`gbm|bn`- Rny h`ns ansaykbfbm|b`c b| bw |n fbvi |ayw> \ai vnbgi no |ai Fnul munwi b`ki :

JG.+ %Rny amvi |n fbvi b` |abw km``iu ounk |abw lmronusmul& b` |ai cuim|iw| aykbfbm|bn`- %Fbw|i`b`c |aiwi snulw& kr wnyf gmki liit b` abw i|iu`mf

|anyca|. B mwhil Abk : @ns& |am|w b|& Rny mggit| ki> \aiFnul lbl `n| m`wsiu ki. \aiui smw n`fr m liit wbfi`gi b`kr wnyf.

Sb|a ensil aiml& B lbl fnnh n`fr |n Abk : Sam| sbffAi |iff ki > B oif| |am| |abw ui`y`gbm|bn` |n iviur|ab`c aml eunyca| ki `imuiu |n |ai Fnul. @n|ab`c lbw|yueil m`rknui|ai wbfi`gi no kr wnyf. Sabfi B smw h`iifil |ayw& kr wnyfobffil m tunoy`l uiti`|m`gi m`l cum|b|yli |nsmulw Abk. B smwsmb|b`c onu abw snulw knui |am` iviu- Mo|iu m fn`c knki`|&m| fmw| B eunhi |ai wbfi`gi : Rny mui cfml& na kr Jiwyw& no mff|aiwi livny| wnyfw san gmki |n Rny >

JG.+ %Riw&Ai wmlfr m`wsiuil& ey| mw |air mui wn b` mayuur& b| lniw`| cbvi Ki i`nyca |bki |n cbvi |aik krcumgiw%.B y`liuw|nnl Abk& m`l ans B snyfl amvi sm`|il |n

gn`wnfi Abk- %Na& ci`|fi Jiwyw& B fbvi onu Rny& B lbi onu Rny. B mk rnyuw onu |ai sanfi i|iu`b|r%. B` |ai kim`|bki& Bsmw fnnhb`c onu m smr |n ei mefi |n gn`wnfi Abk b` abw tunony`l wml`iww. B uikikeiuil |abw fb||fi ebul sabga&mggnulb`c |n |ai fici`l& sm`|il |n sb|alums |ai |anu`w ounk|ai Wmguil Aiml no Gaubw|. Sabfi b| lbl b|w y|knw| |n wyggiilb` lnb`c b|& b|w gaiw| |nnh n` |ai |b`ci no |ai uil TuigbnywEfnnl no |ai Fnul.

B w|mril |aiui m fn`c |bki. B eicm` |n ei gnfl. B sm`|il|n |mhi fimvi no Abk |n cn anki. \ai`& b` |ai en||nk no kraimu| B aimul abw bktfnub`c vnbgi :

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JG.+ %Ln`| cn msmr bkkilbm|ifr -B uikmb`il b` kr tfmgi. Mo|iu m wanu| knki`|& B aimul m

wsii| vnbgi b` |ai wbfi`gi no kr wnyf :

KIWWMCI NO \AI KN\AIU NO CNLE._.+%Kr limu fb||fi gmukifb|i-%Aimub`c b|& m tunony`l uiti`|m`gi gmki nviu kr wnyf.

Fm|iu n`& B aimul |sbgi mcmb` |abw wsii| vnbgi& m`l b` |aikim`|bki& gmki |n kr iriw wnki |imuw no moofbg|bn` m`lwnuuns onu kr wb`w.

@n| fn`c mo|iu& |ai Knw| Anfr _bucb` eicm` |n wtimh mcmb` b` kr aimu| mw bo wai uioumb`il ounk gurb`c& |ai` waiwmbl :

E._.+ %Mlnui m`l m|n`i onu kr Anfr Wn` wn no|i`nooi`lil-%B uikmb`il ti`wbvi : \abw gm``n| gnki ounk |ai Ivbf

N`i& eigmywi ai lniw`| wmr : mlnui m`l m|n`i... Fm|iu n`& mfb||fi ikemuumwwki`| amtti`il b` kr wnyf : ans gm` B ln |am|> B uikmb`il m fb||fi knui b` |ai gayuga. B smw`| tumrb`c& B jyw| sm`|il |n ty| kr |anyca|w b` nuliu. Ey| m w|um`ci amfo+fbca| gfnylil kr kb`l. N` kr smr anki& B mwhil |ai Knw|Anfr _bucb` : Aimvi`fr Kn|aiu& bo Rny mui mwhb`c ki |am|&|ai` lbuig| kr smrw |n rnyu Knw| Anfr Wn`.

Ivi` |ai `iq| lmr& B gnyfl `n| ouii krwifo ounk |am||anyca|. Lyub`c |ai anfr kmww B bktfnuil oiuvi`|fr :%Aimvi`fr Kn|aiu& ans m`l sam| ln B amvi |n ln> Rny sbff ei m| kr wbli& sbff rny `n|> B mk wn fb||fi m`l wn simh sb|any| Rny-

\ai anfr kmww i`lil& B oif| m w|un`c liwbui |n mwh onu |aihir no |ai anywi no |ai Fnul |n ei mefi |n ci| b` ouiifr.

B gmffil n` |ai `y` wmgubw|m` sb|a kr ui}yiw|. Bliwgubeil |ai wb|ym|bn` m| anki.

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Sb|a wyga lifbca| |am| wai smw wyutubwil... Wai m`wsiuil|am| b| smw `n| sb|ab` aiu tnsiu |n i`|uyw| ki sb|a |ai hir.Wai aml |n mwh onu tiukbwwbn` |n |ai tubiw|. \sn lmrw fm|iu&viur wnn`& |ai `y` cmvi ki |ai cnnl `isw. B cn| |ai hir Baml mwhil onu. \ai wmki lmr& B gmki sb|a |ai tuigbnyw hir8 jyw| mw B nti`il |ai lnnu& kr aimu| smw cnb`c tb|+m+tm|. B oif||am| |ai Fnul smw wamub`c sb|a ki abw Anywi b` m tigyfbmu smr : b`w|iml no m anki& Ai smw cbvb`c ki m`n|aiu. \am| bwsar |abw gayuga bw wn tuigbnyw |n ki.

I`|iub`c er |ai fm|iumf lnnu& B w|nttil eionui |ai mf|mu no |ai Knw| Anfr _bucb`& tm|un` wmb`| no |ai Ay`cmubm` tintfi.B ensil eionui Aiu: Ambf Kmur& ci`|fi Kn|aiu- B eic rnyaykefr& hiit ki y`liu rnyu wtigbmf tun|ig|bn`& gnkki`lki |n rnyu Knw| Anfr Wn`- B mk rnyu y`omb|aoyf fb||figmukifb|i& Kn|aiu& B mk ywb`c |ai viur snulw rny ywil |nwtimh |n ki. B h`ns |am| B mk `n| snu|ar |n ei gmffil b` mfbhi km``iu. Ivi` bo B fbvil onu gi`|yubiw& B gnyfl `n| liwiuvib|& `n| ivi` omu ounk b|. Gnki& Kn|aiu& `ns cybli ki |nrnyu Knw| Anfr Wn`-%

\AI OBUW\ ANFR ANYU& WII \N B\\AM\ SI EIGNKI KM@R

Mw B smw mfn`i b` |ai bkki`wi gayuga& B ensil krwifo m| |ai oii| no |ai Fnul mw iviu eionui& m`l B mwhil Abk : Simui n`fr en|a no yw >

JG. + %Mfmw -%B aimul abw wml vnbgi b` |ai en||nk no kraimu|.JG.+ %Wii |n b| |am| si eignki km`r%\aiui smw `n snulw |n iqtuiww |ai cum|b|yli m`l

wimugab`cw no |ai aimu| |am| lunttil ny| no kr wnyf |nsmulw|ai Fnul.

Na& ci`|fi Wmvbnyu- @nenlr h`nsw ei||iu |am` Rny anskyga B si`| onusmul smubfr y`|bf& er rnyu cumgiw& uimgab`c |n Rny. Fnul& `ns |am| Rny amvi |mhi` msmr |ai iq|iu`mf gmumtmgi no kr wnyf& B mk oiifb`c |am| |ai mey`lm`gi no rnyu Cumgi bw wyooywb`c ki.

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Na& kr Jiwyw- \mhi ny| |ai fmuci omyf|w no kr wnyf sb|a m w`bt no |ai wgbwwnuw. B ln`| kb`l |am| b| ayu|w ki& wn fn`c mw|ai lmr sai` B sbff amvi |n tuiwi`| krwifo eionui Rny m| |aianyu no kr lim|a& Rny gm` uignc`bzi b` ki |ai snuh no rnyu anfr Am`lw.

Eifnvil Jiwyw& B sm`| wn kyga |n uicui| kr wb`w& mw`iviu lbl m`r uiti`|m`| wb``iu& m`l |n fnvi Rny mw `ngn`viu|il wb``iu iviu fnvil Rny.

Eifnvil Jiwyw& sb|a tunoy`l aykbfb|r B bktfnui Rny|am| b` |ai oy|yui `n| m wb`cfi lmr no kr fboi ei wti`| sb|any|

|imuw no uiti`|m`gi wail ounk kr iriw eigmywi no kr cum|b|yli m`l fnvi onu Rny. Aykefi ki& Fnul Jiwyw& m| imga knki`| no kr fboi& wn

|am| B oiif y`gimwb`cfr |n sam| iq|i`| B mk tnnu m`l sui|gail.

Na& Fnul Jiwyw& kr aimu| cmvi m jykt sai` |ai |anyca| nggyuuil |n ki |am| mfuimlr aiui b` |ai snufl& B gm` fbvi sb|aRny& ey| |am| mo|iu kr lim|a& onu m wanu| |bki B sbff amvi |n

witmum|i ki ounk Rny eigmywi no kr wb`w. \iff ki& eifnvil Jiwyw& sam| sbff amtti` sb|a kr gny`|fiww wb`w>

M` y`|ab`hmefi m`qbi|r cubttil ki. Ans B bktfnuil |ai

Fnul- \ai` Ai kmli ki oiif |am| kr wb`w wanyfl ei fnw| b`abw kiugboyf fnvi.San h`nsw y`|bf sai` B wanyfl amvi w|mril |aiui&

sb|any| tmrb`c m||i`|bn` |n ki m`l ensil m| |ai oii| no |aiFnul& bo |ai `y` wmgubw|m` aml `n| cbvi` ki `n|bgi |am| |ailnnu bw gfnwil m| wivi` |abu|r. M| |abw viur knki`|& B lbl `n|amvi |ai hir. B gnyfl `n| witmum|i krwifo ounk |ai FnulJiwyw& m`l B mwhil Abk |n gnki sb|a ki. B si`| anki er mfn`ciu unml& er |ai wbfi`| w|uii|w. B oif| |am| |ai Fnul smwgnkb`c sb|a ki. Si wmbl `n| m wb`cfi snul. B snyfl amvifbhil |n ens krwifo b` |ai lyw| no |ai w|uii|& wn kyga B oif|abw tuiwi`gi.

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Ounk |ai |bki Ai cmvi ki wyga m fmuci anki& B vbwb|ilAbk iviur `bca| sb|a aykefil m`l uiti`|m`| aimu|& + knvil er cum|b|yli m`l b` mggnulm`gi sb|a |ai liwbui no |ai Knw|Anfr _bucb`& B snuwabtil Abk m`l kmli mki`lw |n Abk.

Sam| cfml`iww B oiif sai` cnb`c |nsmulw Abk - Ai bwmfsmrw |aiui& smb|b`c onu ki. B ln`| |ur |n liwgubei |aiwib`|bkm|i anyuw& eigmywi b| wanyfl ei bktnwwbefi |n ln b|.

\ai rimu =2?= si`| er b` |ai viur kbllfi no |aiwign`viuwm|bn`w& |am| m| |abw viur knki`| B lbl `n| wi| lns` b`sub|b`c. B eicm` |n sub|i n`fr sai` |ai Fnul cmvi ki |ainuliu. Sai` |ai eifnvil Wmvbnyu ci|w b`|n m eubio gn`viuwm|bn` sb|a ki& B sub|i b| snul onu snul. Lyub`c AnfrAnyuw& b| no|i` amtti`w |am| |ai blimw gnki lbuig|fr b` krwyegn`wgbi`gi& m`l mo|iu B oiif y`mefi |n iqtuiww b|. B` n`inggmwbn`& B |am`hil Abk |n amvi mwwyuil ki no m` i|iu`mfuioyci.

JG.+%Mwwyui ki& rny |nn& kr fb||fi gmukifb|i& m` i|iu`mfuioyci - Rny oiif& ln`| rny& ans kyga en|a no yw eifn`cn`i m`n|aiu> Kmr rnyu fnvi `iviu cuns fiww -%N`i |bki& Ai mwhil ki |n ln imga Kn`lmr m` ivi`b`c

no tumriuw b` omvnyu no wmgiuln|mf wnyfw san mui b` Tyucm|nur.

M`n|aiu lmr& B si`| |n vbwb| |ai anywi no m ois tintfi Bh`ns& saiui |air aml m gamtif. Kr vbwb| i`lil& B lbl `n|i`|iu b` |ai gamtif |n cbvi Abk kr cuii|b`cw. Wtimhb`c b` mci`|fi |n`i& Ai uitunmgail ki sb|a kr b``ykiumefiy`|mg|oyf mg|w |nsmulw Abk. B wmbl |n Abk: %B eic rnyu tmuln`& eifnvil Jiwyw. Lbl B `n| mwh Rny |n gyui kr wnyf no kr eml |umb|w>%Ai m`wsiuil |n ki sb|a m timgioyf vnbgi:

JG.+ %Kr fb||fi n`i& rny amvi |n fnvi Ki lmr m`l `bca|-%N`i giu|mb` knki`|& B mwhil Abk |n fi| ki oiif abw

tuiwi`gi oyff no Kmjiw|r m`l Cnnl`iww.JG.+ %Ln`| mwh Ki |am| onu rnyuwifo& kr fb||fi n`i. B cbvib| |n |ai n`i onu sank rny kmli m wmgubobgi nu |n |anwi onusank rny nooiuil rnyu tumriuw %.

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B eic rnyu tmuln`& kr Jiwyw&...Rny wii sam| m wifobwa tiuwn`B mk -

JG.+ %B h`ns rnyu bktiuoig|bn` m`l liw|b|y|bn`&Lmyca|iu. Ey| |am| lniw`| amvi |n lbkb`bwa rnyutiuwivium`gi b` |ai oy|yui& eigmywi b| bw n`i uimwn` knuionu rny |n gny`| n` kr fnvi sb|a m cuim|iu gn`obli`gi%.

GN@\UBEY\I \N \AI GN@_IUWBN@ NO WB@@IUWEi|sii` Kmuga

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Lmyca|iu& rny amvi |n wyooiu viur kyga. B sbff `n| cbvirny m`r gn`wnfm|bn` |am| kmhi rny gfb`c |n |ai imu|a.

B sbff mfsmrw wail n` rny kr onu|borb`c cumgi& m`l |aionugi no |ai Anfr Wtbub| sbff ei sb|a rny.

Rny amvi |n uifbivi rnyuwifo no mff b` rny |am| b`gfb`iw |namuk& m`l fbvi b` mff mggnulb`c |n kr gn`vi`bi`gi. B aiftrny |n cn n` |ai ubca| unml. Wyekiuci rnyuwifo n`fr b`kr |imgab`c -%

B` wtb|i no mff kr ioonu|w& Fnul& B `n|i `n| m`r tuncuiwwb` ki.JG.+%Meny| |am|& ln`| snuur- Ln b| mcmb` iviur lmr-Nyu Kn|aiu sbff aift rny. Mwh onu iviur|ab`c |n Aiu -Wai h`nsw ans rny gm` nefbci Ki%.

M| |abw |bki& |ai Fnul Jiwyw mwhil ki km`r |bkiw :JG.+ %Kr lmyca|iu& li`r rnyuwifo - B mwh |am| no rnysb|a wyga b`wbw|i`gi eigmywi rny gm``n| tmu|bgbtm|i b`kr Snuh no Uilikt|bn` iqgit| bo |n|mffr& sb|any| m`rb`|iuuyt|bn`& rny fbvi y`b|il |n Ki m| iviur knki`|...Nooiu |am| |n kr Om|aiu m| mff |bkiw& sb|any| m`rb`|iuuyt|bn`& mfwn onu |anwi san cmvi Ki |aibu fboi m`l`iviu|aifiww fbvi knui onu |ai snufl |am` onu kr Snuh no Uilikt|bn`. \air ln`| |ab`h no |aibu vngm|bn`. Lnti`m`gi onu rnyu wb`w m`l n` |ai wmki nggmwbn` onu |aik|nn. Ans B snyfl fbhi |n smwa |aik no |aibu wb`w - Kmr|air gnki |n Ki - Ln`| wtmui rnyuwifo m`r om|bcyi& krfb||fi n`i.Mggit| `n fbkb| m| mff- @iviu witmum|i rnyuwifo& ivi onun`fr n`i b`w|m`|& ounk kr Snuh no Wmfvm|bn`& eigmywi& bo rny ln& B wanyfl oiif |am| rnyu fnvi onu Ki cunsw fiww.Sb|a wyga imciu`iww B sm`| rnyu fnvi - Kmr Rny mfsmrwoiif sam| B oiif -.... %

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\ai Fnul kmli ki gnki b`|n gn`|mg| sb|a m tiuwn` Baml `n| wii` onu obo|ii` rimuw& m`l |am| knuinviu B aml ki|n`fr |auii |bkiw b` kr sanfi fboi. \ai Fnul Jiwyw b`w|bfilb`|n ki m cuim| |uyw| b` aiu !onu B mk er `m|yui viur gnr". Bwtnhi |n aiu no |ai w|m|i no kr wnyf& m`l ans B ony`l krwifo n`gi mcmb` b` m lmuh newgyub|r. Mo|iu |ai gn`viuwm|bn` |am||nnh tfmgi b` |ai gamtif& |ai Wbw|iu !onu wai smw m `y`" |nflki : %B| gm` ei wnki my|nwycciw|bn`-% B| ayu|il ki emlfr.Wnki |iuubefi |anyca|w mwwmbffil ki. \ai fmgh no omb|agn`oywil mff kr fygblb|r. B| wiikil |n ki |am| mff |am| smw

|mhb`c tfmgi b` ki smw tyui ikt|r luimkw 8 nu kmrei |aiIvbf N`i& cn| yt mw m` m`cif no fbca|& sm`|il |n lbw|yue krwnyfw timgi wn limufr sn`.

I_IUR EICB@@B@C BW AMULB tmwwil m sanfi lmr b` |anwi m`qbi|biw. Sai` B si`|

er `bca| |n snuwabt mcmb` |ai Fnul& B |anyca| b` |ai kbllfino mff kr tiutfiqb|r : Kr Cnl- Sam| bw b| uimffr cnb`c n` b`ki> Saiui lbl B mffns krwifo |n ei fil> Sam| bw |uyi :sam| |aiui bw `ns b` ki& nu sam| |aiui smw eionui >

\ai n`i san `iviu wyooiuil wyga m |ikt|m|bn` gm`amulfr y`liuw|m`l sam| B oif| eionui wyga m` y`giu|m`|r. Buikmb`il m fn`c |bki b` wbfi`gi. Fb||fi er fb||fi& |abw |iuubefinewgyub|r vm`bwail. B eicm` |n oiif |am| |ai Ivbf N`i lbl `n|lbw|yue ki wn kyga. Kr aimu| eicm` |n oiif wnki uifbio.

\ai `iq| lmr& sai` B h`iifil lns` |n uigibvi |ai Fnulb` |ai anfr Gnkky`bn`& B aml mfuimlr ui|ubivil i`|buifr |ai timgi no kr wnyf. M| anki mfwn& wyekiucil b` Abk& Bgmuubil ny| kr |mwhw... Sabfi B smw smwab`c |ai anywi fb`i`&B snuwabtil Abk y`gimwb`cfr& |ab`hb`c ny| onu krwifo :%Sam| m kbwiumefi tiuwn` B mk - Ans bw b| |am| B mk wn tnsiufiww |n aift Abk-% Bkkiuwb`c ki |ayw b` abw i|iu`mf|anyca|w& |ai Fnul eicm` |n wtimh b` |ai en||nk no kraimu|:

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OMW\ SB\A EUIML M@L SM\IU ONU \SIF_I TUBIW\W

JG.+%Mem`ln` rnyuwifo gnktfi|ifr |n Ki& kr fb||figmukifb|i Xno |ai \abul nuliu[& b| bw n`fr b` m fbhi km``iu|am| rny gm` kmhi wmgubobgiw onu Ki. B mk mwhb`c rnywnki|ab`c cuim|. Fbw|i` - Amvi `n oimu - Ei viur aykefim`l y`bktnu|m`|& b| bw n`fr |ayw rny sbff ei b` m tnwb|bn`|n gmuur ny| kr kbwwbn`. Iviur \ayuwlmr m`l Oublmr& lnomw| n` euiml m`l sm|iu8 nooiu b| onu |sifvi tubiw|w. B`imga no |aiwi lmrw& wti`l onyu anyuw b` kr lbvb`iTuiwi`gi& m`l m|n`i onu |ai `ykiunyw nooi`wiw B uigibvil.N` Oublmr& ounk `nn` y`|bf |auii ngfngh b` |ai mo|iu`nn`&mlnui kr Wmguil Enlr m`l kr Tuigbnyw Efnnl |am| B wailonu |ai wb`w no |ai sanfi snufl. \ai omw| n` Oublmr& hiitb| y`|bf |ai anyu sai` kr Wmguil Enlr smw liwgi`lilounk |ai Gunww. \ai mggit|m`gi no |abw wmgubobgi eub`cw n`wnki iq|umnulb`mur cumgiw.

Ln sam| B mk mwhb`c rny& kr fb||fi n`i-%Ai eiccil ki wn kyga-JG.+ %Eb`l rnyuwifo |n |am| lyub`c |sifvi siihw onu |ai|sifvi tubiw|w& |ai knw| cbo|il |n gmuur ny| kr tfm`w. Bsm`| |n kmhi |aik snu|ar no b| er wtigbmf cumgiw. Ln|am|& kr fb||fi n`i- B` wn lnb`c& rny |nn sbff ei |aiomvnyub|i no kr Aimu|. Rny sbff h`ns san sbff ei |aitiuwn` |n onusmul kr ui}yiw| |n |ai |sifvi tubiw|w. \aiwisbff amvi |n ln |ai wmki |ab`c |am| B amvi mwhil rny& |am|bw |n wmr : m|n`iki`| m`l |n wyekiuci |aikwifviw b` krWmguil Tmwwbn`. Kr fb||fi n`i& |aiwi |sifvi wmgiuln|mfwnyfw mui |ai eiw| b` |ai gny`|ur%.Ai mwhil ki |n ln |am| onu |sifvi siihw& ki m`l |aiwi

|sifvi tubiw|w |n sank sbff gnki abw kiwwmci.JG.+%B sbff fi| rny wyooiu& lmyca|iu& b` m w|m|i no cuim|wtbub|ymf y`oiifb`c`iww.

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_mubnyw |ikt|m|bn`w mui cnb`c |n |nuki`| rny& ey| amvi`n oimu& kr Cumgi sbff ei y`gimwb`cfr sb|a rny.Amvi mewnfy|i gn`obli`gi b` Ki. \am| bw |ai hir no krAimu| -Fimvi rnyu lnye|w - \ai Anfr Wtbub| rny b`vnhi wn no|i`sbff |mhi tnwwiwwbn` no rnyu wnyf |aunyca| Nyu Kn|aiu& abwomvnyub|i.B h`ns |am|& sb|a Ki& rny mui |abuw|r onu |ai wnyfw. KrAimu| bw wn lifbca|il sai` rny bktfnui Ki m`l |iff Ki|am| rny mui |abuw|r onu Ki sb|a m` y`}yi`gamefi |abuw|. Bmk oiifb`c |ai wmki |ab`c onu rny m`l mff |ai wnyfw |am| B

cum|bobil sb|a kr Cumgiw. Kmr rny oiif |ai gn`wykb`c|abuw| b` kr Wnyf- B |uyfr eic rnyu fnvi. Tfimwi&Lmyca|iu& m| fimw| rny& ln`| fimvi Ki - Sb|a imga aimu|+eim|& uiti`| rnyu wb`w& nooiu Ki m|n`iki`| m`l gn`wnfiKi. Bo rnyu fnvi wanyfl lbkb`bwa& |yu` |nsmulw nyuAimvi`fr Kn|aiu& wai sbff obff rnyu aimu| sb|a m`nviuofnsb`c fnvi onu Ki. B mk nefbcil |n rny eigmywirnyu aimu| bw wyooiub`c sb|a Ki& eim|b`c b` Ki. Ln`|wyggyke |n |buil`iww b` |ai gnk|iktfm|bn` no kr AnfrSny`lw& ounk sabga rny sbff mfsmrw liubvi m cuim| onugi.Gnkki`l rnyuwifo |n |ai I|iu`mf Om|aiu m`l fbvi sb|a |aiAnfr \ub`b|r - !Fi| yw `n| onuci| |am| ivi` bo |aiwi snulw mui

sub||i` b` |ai wb`cyfmu& |air mui kim`| onu mff no yw"B` |aikbllfi no |ikt|m|bn`w& |mhi uioyci y`liu |ai km`|fi no nyu Kn|aiu. Wai sbff w|m`l yt onu rny mcmb`w| |ai IvbfN`i san sbff y`gimwb`cfr kmhi |unyefi onu rny. Onu krtmu|& B sbff ei sb|a rny bo rny tiuwiviui er kr wbli. Rny&`n|ab`c nu `nenlr sbff `iviu ei mefi |n witmum|i rny ounkKi...Ln`| ei moumbl& kr fb||fi n`i8 rny& fbvi n`fr ablli` b`cuim| aykbfb|r. @nenlr amw |n h`ns m`r|ab`c meny| rny&iqgit| m ois tintfi. Rny sbff sb` kiub|w er rnyuwyooiub`c& nooiu b| b` y`bn` sb|a Ki |n |ai I|iu`mf Om|aiuonu |ai wnyfw gn`wigum|il |n Ki. Kmr rnyu aykbfb|r ei wn

cuim| |am| b| buumlbm|iw cnnl`iww m`l fnvi n` mff |anwi rnyhiit gnktm`r sb|a.

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Si sbff mfsmrw ei |nci|aiu& kr fb||fi n`i. Hiit mwhb`cNyu Kn|aiu |n hiit rny ablli` b` aykbfb|r. Fimu` |nwtimh sb|a imga no rnyu `imu uifm|bn`w b` wyga m km``iu|am|& er rnyu snulw& rny wanyfl fiml |aik |n Ki. \n Ki&rny amvi |n mwh onu fnvi& ounk Ki rny amvi |n lums fnvi -\ai wmgubobgiw& rny amvi |n ln |aik sb|any| ofb`gab`ceigmywi |air mui `igiwwmur |n m||mb` |ai i`l. \ai I|iu`mfOm|aiu h`nsw sb|a sam| gamumg|iu Ai guim|il rny. Aih`nsw |am| rny mui vbnfi`|& buub|mefi& ey| rny amvi |ngam`ci mggnulb`c |n kr Aimu|... B` |ai oy|yui& rny gm``n|ywi vbnfi`gi iqgit| mcmb`w| |ai eml& ey| ln `n| fnnwi

aimu|- Fnnh m| Aimvi` sb|a gn`obli`gi& |nsmulw Ki& m`lmwh onu cumgiw b` mey`lm`gi. Mkn`c rnyu omkbfr& ei mfbvb`c wmgubobgi. Wtigbmffr |ai b`wbc`bobgm`| fb||fi wmgubobgiw&rny amvi |n ln |aik. Gnki |n Ki eigmywi B mk b` tmb`sai` onuwmhi` - Ln`| snuur bo rny gm` n`fr ln wkmff|ab`cw8 b| bw `n| viur wyb|mefi onu rny. Uikmb` viur fb||fi.Lbooywi rnyuwifo b` Ki fbhi |ai lunt no sm|iu b` |ai sb`i%.

LN LI@R RNYUWIFO B@WBW\I@GI NO JIWYW

Mtubf 1|a& =2?5.\ai Fnul mwhil ki `n| |n kbq |ai anfr anyuw sb|a abw

guim|yuiw:JG.+ %Ln`| wimuga onu rnyuwifo - B amvi ri| uitim|ilkm`r |bkiw |am| B sm`| rny i`|buifr onu Ki- Ln li`rrnyuwifo- @n|ab`c sbff b`|iutnwi ei|sii` rny m`l Ki-%B m`wsiuil |n Abk : %Fnul Jiwyw& B mk n`fr m eicb``iu%.JG.+ %\am| bw sar rny ln`| amvi |n fnnwi aimu|& lmyca|iu&n`gi rny eicb`. Uikikeiu ans& sai` rny siui rny`c&rnyu y`wamhi` tuinggytm|bn` smw |n w|ylr& ey| rny `iviuaml |ai nttnu|y`b|r |n ln b|. B| bw Ki san lbl `n| mffns b|m`l ty| mff new|mgfiw b` rnyu smr.

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B tuioiuil rny b` m fbhi km``iu& gnktfi|ifr y`b`w|uyg|il&eigmywi mfuimlr |ai`& B aml kr tfm`w onu rny 8 B sm`|il |nkmhi rny gnki |n km|yub|r onu Ki.%Fnul& ans km`r |bkiw Rny lbuig|il |n ki |ai

b`vbcnum|b`c umrw no rnyu cumgiw- Onu kr tmu|& B mvnblilRny& B onffnsil n|aiu tm|aw.

JG.+ %Wyuifr rny uikikeiu ans& n`fr m ois kn`|aw mcn&rny sm`|il |n amvi rnyuwifo uicbw|iuil |n |ai Wytiubnutntyfmu wgannf > Ey| B smw nttnwil |n |am| |nn. B gmffilytn` rny b` nuliu |n mlkb| rny |n kr wgannf. @ns

uijnbgi cuim|fr m`l ei m lbfbci`| w|yli`|. B mk |ai Kmw|iu.Fimu` ounk Ki. B ln`| wtmui Krwifo m`r om|bcyi 8 B sbfflilbgm|i Krwifo |n rny ounk |ai knu`b`c |n |ai ivi`b`c.%.Riw& Fnul + B m`wsiuil Abk+ |ai tunefik bw |am| B tmr

viur fb||fi m||i`|bn` |n Rny.JG.+ %\am|w ubca|& Lmyca|iu%.\ai` Ai wansil ki m fn| no nggmwbn`w saiui B aml

nooi`lil Abk. Onu iqmktfi& sai` B si`| b` m tfmgi saiui|aiui smw m gamtif& B |nnh fimvi no iviurenlr iqgit| Abk.Knuinviu& sai` B ci`yofig|& B amvi mfwn |n |ab`h no Abk sb|akyga fnvi...

JG.+%Eigmywi bo rny ln`| ln |aiwi fb||fi |ab`cw... b| ayu|wKi wn kyga-%B aml kyga tmb` eigmywi no |aiwi omyf|w& m`l kr iriw

obffil no |imuw no uiti`|m`gi.CN \N KR KN\AIU& WAI SBFF AIFT RNYJG.+ %Mcmb` m`l mfsmrw B |iff rny& kr fb||fi n`i& rny kyw|gam`ci m`l eignki mw B sm`| rny |n ei. B aift rny |nonffns |ai ubca| smr& ey| rny amvi |n mwwbkbfm|i kr|imgab`c siff& m`l rny amvi |n gmuur ny|& sb|a mff rnyukbca|& |ai |mwhw B cbvi rny. Cn |n kr Kn|aiu& Wai sbffaift rny -%

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B fnvi Aiu viur kyga& Fnul. Wai bw |ai n`i san umbwilsb|ab` ki |ai liwbui |n mlnui aiu Knw| Anfr Wn` m`l |nkmhi m|n`iki`| |n Abk. Na& ans ensfil nviu kr aimu| smwsai` B aimul aiu vnbgi- Na& sam| m liit uiti`|m`gi aiu vnbgi& w|boofil sb|a |imuw& munywil b`wbli no ki -

JG.+ %Riw& kr fb||fi n`i& b| smw |ai obuw| i`gny`|iu& |aicuim| w|it& sai` kr Kn|aiu uignkki`lil rny wtigbmffr|n Ki. Wb`gi |ai`& kr fb||fi n`i& rny mui ofrb`c |nsmulwKi fbhi m` muuns. B` rnyu ofbca|& ln`| ui|yu` m`l fnnh m||ai imu|a& |n mvnbl eib`c lbw|yueil er |ai `nbwi no |aisnufl.

B AM_I EII@ SMB\B@C WN FN@C ONU RNYJG.+ %Iviu wb`gi B guim|il rny& B mk smb|b`c onu rny& m`lonu mff wnyfw -%Kr Fnul& `ns ln`| fi| ki cn m`rknui -JG.+ %B| bw rny san |nui rnyuwifo msmr ounk Ki 8 B `iviufi| rny lns`. %Na& kr Jiwyw& |am| bw |ai uimwn` sar B uikmb`il wn

y`onu|y`m|i m`l sb|any| ilygm|bn`. Ilygm|i ki& Kmw|iu.JG.+ %Li`r rnyu ns` sbff& kr lmyca|iu. B mwh rny |am| wnno|i` eigmywi rny gm` tmu|bgbtm|i |n kr snuh no

Uilikt|bn` n`fr bo& |n|mffr m`l sb|any| m euimh& rny fbviy`b|il |n Ki m| iviur knki`|.Uikikeiu& kr fb||fi gmukifb|i& sai` rny eigmki m sblnsm`l rnyu gabflui` siui wfnsfr cunsb`c yt& ans rnyeiccil |aik |n aift rny& m| fimw| onu n`i anyu imga-...Sam| m uifbio b| wanyfl amvi eii` onu rny- Ans wml rnysiui sai` |air iqgywil |aikwifviw er mff hb`lw no tui|iq|w... Rny aml |n eyw|fi mfn`i m`l onuwmhi`.\ab`h no |ai `ykiunyw gabflui` B amvi |nn& kr lmyca|iu.M`l bo iviurn`i no |aik wanyfl aift Ki ey| onu n`i anyu&ans lifbca|il B snyfl ei eigmywi no rny- B` |aiwiknki`|w& B mk wtigbmffr |ab`hb`c meny| kr gn`wigum|ilwnyfw& |ai n`iw B gn`wbliu mw |ai ifig| no kr Aimu|- \abweib`c& |aiwi wnyfw ln `n| sm`| |n jnb` |aikwifviwb`|bkm|ifr |n Ki.

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\air mui lbw|umg|il er |ai |anyca|w no |ai snufl.Wyekiuci rnyuwifo b` Ki- Aift b`w|iml no |aik& `n| onum` anyu ey| y`gimwb`cfr- Ln`| mwh Ki ans rny amvi |nsnuh. Ei bkmcb`m|bvi- Wibzi iviur nttnu|y`b|r mffnsb`crny& |aunyca rnyu liwbui onu |ai Wmfvm|bn` no wnyfw& |n}yi`ga kr |abuw|. %Fnul& sb|a m` y`}yi`gamefi |abuw| B fn`c onu Rny. B

sm`| |n fnvi Rny sb|a mff kr kbca|& m`l mfwn b`w|iml no |anwi san ln`| gnki |n Rny. Lyub`c |am| gn`viuwm|bn`& Buigibvil wnki viur cuim| cumgiw ounk |ai Fnul.

Kr Cnl& sam| amvi Rny ln`i sb|a ki> @ns B h`ns

`n knui ob`mffr bo b| bw ki san bw fbvb`c. Mw bo `ns B mk `n|smfhb`c n` |ai imu|a& B mk wiib`c `n|ab`c sb|a kr iriw& krimu gm``n| lbwgiu` |ai vnbgi no |ai snufl& kr aimu| bw n`fr eim|b`c b` Rny m`l onu Rny& kr fbtw ln`| h`ns m`rknuians |n tumbwi Rny. B snyfl fbhi |n efiww Rny ey| B mkob`lb`c `n snul snu|ar no Rny. B mk fnnhb`c m| Rny sb|agfnwil iriw m`l ky|i fbtw. B gn`wbliu b` wtbub| |aib`gnktuiai`wbefi wyooiub`c Rny amvi i`lyuil onu ki& tnnu wb``iu. B mk y`mefi |n y`liuw|m`l sam| Rny amvi ln`i onu ki... Sar amvi Rny ganwi` ki tuigbwifr> sai` |aiui muiwn km`r tyui wnyfw san mui snu|ar no Rny -

JG.+ %Kr lmyca|iu& mkn`c |ai cuim|iw| wb``iuw& B gannwi

wnyfw onu Ki& |n uimfbzi |aunyca |aik kr Snuh no Uilikt|bn`. \aiwi wnyfw& Bo |air mggit|& B cum|bor |aiksb|a wtigbmf cumgiw. \ai n`i san wyooiuw sb|a Ki m`lfbviw onu ki& |aunyca kr y`fbkb|il fnvi B witmum|i abkounk |ai snufl mw B lbl sb|a rny. B mk wyooiub`c wny`wtimhmefr& kr fb||fi gmukifb|i. B| bw wn cnnl |n oiif |am|rny mui sb|a Ki m`l& y`b|il sb|a ki& rny |nn mui oiifb`ckr fnvi%.Fnul& rnyu sbff bw kb`i. Mg| b` ki-LN RNYU Y\KNW\ \N FIML WB@@IUW \N KIJG.+ %Lmyca|iu& ln rnyu y|knw| sb|a mff rnyu kbca| |nfiml wb``iuw |n Ki. \am| mtmu|& ln`| cbvi tfmgi |n m`rn|aiu gn`giu`. Fnnh y`gimwb`cfr b` kr iriw |n wii krwml`iww onu wnyfw.

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Sb|a mff |ai kbca| no rnyu aimu|& sbwa |am| krgn`wigum|il wnyfw wanyfl `n| fnnh msmr ounk Ki m`l `n||n lbw|umg| |aikwifviw b` |ai |ab`cw no |ai snufl ey| |nfnnh n`fr ytn` Ki. Sbwa |am| |air sifgnki |ai fnnh b`kr iriw m`l bkkiuwi |aikwifviw b` Ki. Bo |air fnnh Ki b`|ai iriw sb|a uiti`|m`| aimu|& |aunyca |ai umr no krcumgi B sbff kmhi |aik cuns ei||iu. Bkkiuwb`c |aik b`|ai fnvi no kr Aimu|& B sbff kmhi |aik |n ei enu` mcmb`&wn fn`c mw |air ty| mewnfy|i |uyw| b` Ki.

B buumlbm|i kr fnvi |nsmulw rny& Lmyca|iu& eigmywi rny

cmvi uioyci |n Ki& m`l B kmr uiw| b` rnyu aimu|. Mggit||am| mw m cuim| an`nyu onu rny& gn`wbliub`c |am| er |abwkim`w& rny ln an`nyu |n Ki. @iviu litubvi Ki no |abwuioyci- B| fbiw n`fr ytn` rny. Kr Fnvi amw cn`i |n |aiiq|uiki 8 rny h`ns mff sam| B |mhi cuim| tfimwyui |n aimusai` rny wmr& ensil lns` eionui Ki& |am| rny sm`| |nuiti`| onu rnyu wb`w& fbhi `n n|aiu wb``iu amw iviuuiti`|il& m`l |n fnvi Ki knui |am` mff n|aiu uiti`|ilwb``iuw. \aunyca |aiwi eyu`b`c liwbuiw& sabga mui rnyuw&kr fb||fi gmukifb|i& rny cn| i`|buifr b` kr Aimu|. Rnyuwbktfi snulw amvi tunkt|il kr kiugboyf Aimu| |n meny`lfiww gnkkbwium|bn`. Rny wii& `n wtigbmf |umb`b`c bw

`igiwwmur onu |am|- Sam| jnr mfwn rnyu tunony`l m`lwb`giui uiti`|m`gi amw cbvi` |n |ai Aimvi`fr Om|aiu- Mg||abw smr iviur knki`| no rnyu fboi. Ln mff |am| fbiw ytn`rny& Lmyca|iu& sb|a m` y`|bub`c w|yeenu``iww |n wmviwnyfw- Kmr |abw w|yeenu``iww ei rnyu wgannf. \ai AnfrWtbub| sbff ei m| snuh sb|ab` rny |n gnkem| rnyu `m|yuib`gfb`il |n ivbf& onu rnyu wmfvm|bn`. Rny ln h`ns& ln`|rny& |am| kr hb`clnk wyooiuw vbnfi`gi> Kmr rnyugn`w|m`| omffw `n| lbwgnyumci rny. \air sbff tuiwiuvi rnyuaykbfb|r... |ab`h no |am| no|i` y`|bf rny amvi kmli b|i`|buifr rnyuw& eigmywi |nlmr bw |ai viur lmr no nyuwtigbmf y`bn`& sai` B cum|bor rny sb|a cumgiw& |n uib`onugi

rny b` m wtigbmf km``iu.

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M cuim| w|uyccfi bw iqtig|b`c rny& ey| er |ai wbc` no |aiGunww rny sbff vm`}ybwa. Sai` lnb`c |ai wbc` no |aiGunww& ln`| ei mewi`|+kb`lil. Mfsmrw |ab`h meny| |ai\auii Tiuwn`w no |ai Efiwwil \ub`b|r. Lbvyfci sam| B mk|iffb`c rny `ns : Ln obvi |bkiw b` m uns |ai wbc` no |aiGunww sabfi |ab`hb`c no Kr Anfr Sny`lw - Mfsmrw fnnh b`|n kr Iriw& obffil sb|a Efnnl eigmywi no |ai km`rsny`lw B uigibvil ounk rny |nn%.Na& Fnul Jiwyw& ln`| hiit wmrb`c |am|& onu b| bw euimhb`c

kr aimu|.JG.+ %Amvi kiugr n` Ki -%

TIUWI_IUI SB\A KI

Mtubf =4|a& =2?5JG.+ %Ln`| ei cubivil& kr limu fb||fi gmukifb|i& |ab`hb`cans B sbff i`onugi kr gmywi. B gnffmenum|i sb|a |aiwifig|il wnyfw. Ei wm|bwobil sb|a eib`c cnnl - Rny h`ns&ln`| rny& ans m` my|ai`|bg gmukifb|i bw> Fbvi aykefrablli`& m`l b` y`bn` sb|a Ki& |ai gn`|iktfm|bvi fboi.\ur |n fbvi b` m fbhi km``iu. Gn`|unf rnyu |n`cyi& mvnblmff wytiuofynyw gam||iu-...

Kr fnvi onu rny& kr fb||fi gmukifb|i& h`nsw `n fbkb|w. Rnyh`ns |am| B mk amttr sai` rny mggit| |ai wmgubobgiw Bnooiu |n rny. !Ai wmbl b| sb|a cuim| wyooiub`c"Tiuwiviuisb|a Ki- Ans rny kmhi Ki amttr er |am| -... Liwbui onuKi km`r wnyfw& wn |am| B gm` lbw|ubey|i kr cumgiw -%

N` n`i nggmwbn`& sai` B smw ensb`c krwifo eionuiAbk& Ai |nfl ki :

JG.+ %Ln rny h`ns B smw smb|b`c onu rny& eib`c wml m|aimu|> Rny wii& ans mfn`i B mk fio|- Bo rny lbl `n|gnki& B wanyfl ei fio| |n|mffr nutam`.Rny |nn& kr fb||fi n`i& rny mui m` nutam` m`l rny h`nsans eb||iu b| bw |n oiif onuwmhi` b` fn`ifb`iww%.

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Fm|iu n`& Ai hit| |mfhb`c m`l |imgab`c ki.JG.+ %B mwh rny mfsmrw : Ln`| ei tmb`il `n| |n ei mefi |nln m`r|ab`c ey| wkmff |ab`cw. B |iff rny n`gi knui : hiiti`|buifr wkmff - Rny h`ns sam| si mui cnb`c |n ln > Rnysbff cbvi Ki |ai fb||fi w|n`iw no |ai knwmbg |am| rny cm|aiu|nci|aiu |ai sanfi lmr& B sbff cm|aiu |aik mggnulb`c |n|aibu gnfnu m`l |aibu onuk& m`l sai` mff sbff ei i`lil&ans mkmzil rny sbff ei m| wiib`c |ai snuh no mu| B amviguim|il sb|a |aik- Ey| rny wii& b` vmb` B mk mu|bw| bo rnyln`| cm|aiu |aik |nci|aiu onu Ki& B gm``n| uimfbzi |aisnuh no mu|%. !\ai b`|n`m|bn` no abw vnbgi smw m uimf ti|b|bn`".

MCI@LMN`i lmr& Ai |nfl ki :

JG.+ %Lmyca|iu& B sbff `ns cbvi rny |ai mwwbc`ki`| no rnyu lmrw. B eicm` |n wtimh no |am| |n rny n`gi& rny sbffuikikeiu8 ey| B sm`|il |n mll knui b|ikw b` rnyutuncumk& |am| bw sar B tnw|tn`il b| y`|bf |nlmr.Gnki& bo rny amvi wnki |bki. Bo rny amvi tfi`|r no b|& |iffKi& |ai sbff bw rnyuw. B uiwtig| i`|buifr rnyu sbff8 rnytumbwi Ki sai` rny mem`ln` b| |n Ki wtn`|m`inywfr%.

KN@LMR : lmr no |ai wnyfw b` Tyucm|nur.Fi| imga no rnyu mg|bn`w ei ln`i sb|a |ai tyutnwi no aiftb`c |ai wnyfw b` Tyucm|nur.Y`b|il |n Ki& mwh onu |ai wnyfw b` Tyucm|nur |n ei mefi |nwii kr Omgi mw wnn` mw tnwwbefi. \ai wiviui omw| m`l |aitumriu lyub`c m tmu| no |ai `bca|& nooiu |aik onu |aiwiwnyfw-\ai wiviui omw| B mk `ns mwhb`c rny& m`l |ai tumriu er`bca|& B ln`| kmhi |am| ui}yiw| |n rny mfn`i. Rny sbffkmhi tyefbg |aiwi likm`lw sb|a |aiwi n|aiu kiwwmciw no kr Aimu| : Saniviu sbff omw| n` Kn`lmr sb|a euiml m`lsm|iu sbff iviur |bki lifbviu |ai wnyf no m tubiw| ounk |aitfmgi no wyooiub`c.

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\ai n`i san onffnsw |am| tuiwgubt|bn`& ai |nn sbff uigibvi|ai cumgi |n ei lifbviuil ounk |ai Tyucm|nur lyub`c |aing|mvi onffnsb`c abw lim|a.Nyu Kn|aiu aiuwifo bw mwhb`c onu |am|. Mttimfb`c |n aiuOfmki no Fnvi& wai nefbciw Ki |n |am|.

\YIWLMR : Fi| b| ei |ai lmr rny nooiu onu rnyu omkbfrKmhi wtbub|ymf gnkky`bn`w onu imga kikeiu no rnyuomkbfr& uignkki`l |aik n`i er n`i |n nyu limu Kn|aiu.Wai sbff |mhi |aik y`liu aiu tun|ig|bn`. \ai tumriu vbcbfno |n`bca|& rny sbff nooiu b| mfwn onu |aik.Fnul& B amvi |ai ameb| |n wfiit liitfr. Sam| sbff amtti`

bo B gm``n| smhi yt |n ln |ai tumriu vbcbf>JG. +%B sbff aift rny b` |am| mfwn. Bo wnki|ab`c bw lboobgyf||n rny& |uyw|b`cfr wmr b| |n nyu Kn|aiu. Wai mfwn wti`|`ykiunyw fm|i `bca|w tumrb`c. Rny h`ns& Lmyca|iu& rnyamvi |n ei viur uiwtn`wbefi |n rnyu omkbfr. Rny amvi |nfiml |aik |n Ki& imga mggnulb`c |n abw tmu|bgyfmu km``iuno eib`c. Mwh y`gimwb`cfr kr Cumgiw onu |aik. Si muicnb`c |n snuh |nci|aiu. !b.i. |n wyooiu |nci|aiu"B gm``n| lnsb|any| rnyu aift. Rnyu Knw| snu|ar Tm|un` bw Wmb`|Jnwita. Ln`| onuci| abk- B`vn}yi abk |nn& iviur lmr -

Ai sbff aift rny sb|a lifbca|. M`l b` |abw km``iu nyugmywi sbff ei sn`%. @n|i ounk |ai ilb|nu : Mwwykb`c |am| ai bw liml b` |ai cumgi no Cnl. !B` m gn`viuwm|bn`& Ifbzmei|a wmbl |abw : %B` |ai Lbmur& b`lbooiui`| tmwwmciw saiui n`i wtimhw no |ai fbeium|bn` no wnyfw&imga |bki b| snyfl amvi eii` `igiwwmur |n sub|i : bo |air lbil b`|ai cumgi no Cnl. Mw B |ai` gn`wbliuil |am| gfimufr ivbli`|& b|wiikil |n ki y``igiwwmur |n iqtuiww b|%".SIL@IWLMR : lmr no tubiw|fr vngm|bn`w

Mwh Ki km`r rny`c ki`& muli`| m| aimu|. Rny sbffne|mb` wm|bwomg|bn` b`mwkyga mw rny mwh& onu |aiui bw |abwliwbui b` km`r rny`c aimu|w& b| bw n`fr |am| |air ln`|kii| wnkienlr |n aift |aik |n uimfbzi b|.

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Ei `n| omb`|aimu|il- \aunyca| `bca|fr tumriuw& rny gm`mfwn ne|mb` onu |aik cumgiw b` mey`lm`gi.

\AYUWLMR : Livn|i |am| lmr& b` iqtbm|bn`& |n |ai Knw| AnfrWmgumki`| no |ai Mf|mu.

N` |abw lmr& rny sbff wti`l anyuw eionui kr Anfrtuiwi`gi. Mlnui Ki sb|a m tmu|bgyfmufr cuim| uiviui`gi&m`l m|n`i Ki onu `ykiunyw nooi`wiw |am| siui b`ofbg|iln` Ki.\ai wiviui omw|& nooiu b| onu |ai |sifvi wmgiuln|mf wnyfw.\ai `bca|fr tumriu |nn& nooiu b| onu |aik. \auns rnyuwifo b` kr tmb`oyf mcn`r& b` kr wyooiub`cw mw B smw wsim|b`cefnnl- Rny sbff lums cuim| wtbub|ymf onu|b|yli ounk b|.

OUBLMR : lmr no kr Tmwwbn`.Sb|a mff |ai fnvi no rnyu aimu|& |auns rnyuwifo b` krtmb`oyf wyooiub`c- Smhb`c yt b` |ai knu`b`c& uikikeiusam| smw smb|b`c onu Ki |ai sanfi lmr& mo|iu |ai |iuubefi|nu|yuiw no |ai `bca|. Sabfi rny mui snuhb`c& kilb|m|i |n|ai i`l n` kr smr no |ai Gunww& saiui B gnyfl `n| ob`ln`i knki`| no uiwtb|i. Iqamyw|il b` |ai iq|uiki& |air

gnktifil Ki |n gfbke |ai Kny`| Gmfvmur. Rny amvi m fn||n kilb|m|i. B uimffr cn| |n |ai euimhb`c tnb`|. \am| bwsar B |iff rny : rny gm``n| omff b` iqgiwwiw sai` rny muilnb`c wnki|ab`c onu Ki. Ounk `nn` y`|bf |auii& mlnuikr Anfr Sny`lw. Omw| bo tnwwbefi y`|bf kr litnwb|bn`&sai` kr Wmguil Enlr smw liwgi`lil ounk |ai Gunww. N`|am| lmr& nooiu |ai tumriu vbcbf onu |ai |sifvi tubiw|w. Bo rny mggit| |n wmgubobgi rnyuwifo& Lmyca|iu& rny sbffuigibvi m oyff`iww no efiwwb`cw fmuciu mcmb`.

WM\YULMR : lmr no nyu Kn|aiuN` |am| lmr& vi`ium|i nyu kn|aiu b` m wtigbmf km``iu&sb|a m viur tmu|bgyfmu |i`liu`iww.

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Rny h`ns siff wai bw |ai Kn|aiu no mff cumgiw. Sbwa |am|wai siui vi`ium|il n` imu|a mw wai bw b` Aimvi` er |aikyf|b|yli no wmb`|w m`l m`cifw. Tumr |am| |ai lrb`c tubiw|wkmr ei cum`|il |ai cumgi no m cnnl lim|a. Nooiu iviurb`w|m`| no |ai lmr |n |abw b`|i`|bn`. Rny h`ns sam| cuim|uismul rny sbff uigibvi onu |am|- B` Aimvi`& |ai wnyfw no |aiwi tubiw|w sbff b`|iugili onu rny& m`l |ai Knw| Anfr_bucb` mfwn sbff ei smb|b`c onu rnyu wnyf m| |ai anyu no rnyu lim|a. \ai `bca| vbcbf no tumriuw& nooiu b| onu |am|b`|i`|bn`.

WY@LMR :Onu |am| lmr& |ai eifnvil Wmvbnyu lbl `n| iw|mefbwa m`r

tuncumk.!\aiwi gn`viuwm|bn`w |nnh tfmgi unycafr b` |ai kn`|a no Jyfr&

ey| B ln `n| uikikeiu iqmg|fr sam| lmr".

Giuikn`r no |ai _bcbf no |ai Ofmki no Fnvi

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OBUW\ GNKKY@BGM\BN@ NO \AI EFIWWIL _BUCB@

B` =2?5& Cnnl Oublmr nggyuuil n` Mtubf =7|a.\abw Oublmr mw siff& mggnulb`c |n |ai sbwa no |ai Fnul

Jiwyw& B mlnuil Abk m`l m|n`il& ounk `nn` |bff |auii. B mwhil|ai Knw| Anfr _bucb` |n i`cumvi b` kr aimu| |ai AnfrSny`lw no aiu Lbvb`i Wn`8 m`l B i`|uim|il aiu |n mfsmrwamvi knui gnktmwwbn` n` yw. Kr |imuw eicm` |n gnki b`mey`lm`gi. Sabfi mff |am| amtti`il |n ki& B oif| b` |ai en||nk no kr aimu| |ai y`wtimhmefi cubio m`l wnew no |aiKn|aiu no Wnuunsw. Sb|a aiu wnew& wai |nygail kr aimu|.

KIWWMCI NO \AI KN\AIU NO CNL:\AI OFMKI NO FN_I NO KR AIMU\&

M @IS B@W\UYKI@\ \N TYWA ONUSMUL\AI SNUH NO WMF_M\BN@

Wai |nfl ki wneeb`c: E._.+ %\aiui mui wn km`r wb`w b` |ai gny`|ur& kr fb||figmukifb|i. Aift Ki& fi|w wmvi b|- B gnkkb| m eyuw| no umrw b`|n rnyu am`lw& b| bw |ai Ofmki no Fnvi no kr

Aimu|. \n |ai Ofmki no Fnvi no kr Aimu|& mll rnyu fnvi m`l tmww b| |n n|aiuw& kr fb||fi n`i-%Na Kn|aiu& sar ln`| rny ln kbumgfiw |n kmhi tintfi

eifbivi b` Rny& mw rny lbl m| Om|bkm > E._.+ %Kr fb||fi n`i& |ai knui |ai kbumgfiw siui cuim|&|ai fiww |air eifbivil b` Ki. Fbw|i`& B mwhil onu |ai

obuw| Wm|yulmrw& m`l iviurenlr bc`nuil b|. B mk rnyu ci`|fi m`l gnktuiai`wbvi Kn|aiu& m`l y`b|il |n rny& B mk cnb`c |n wmvi rny. \ai hb`c wmb`|

W|itai` gn`wigum|il abw gny`|ur |n ki& m`l B tunkbwil abk |n sifgnki b` kr Aimu| abw b`|iugiwwbn` m`l |am| no |ai wmb`|w no Ay`cmur.

B snyfl fbhi |n gnkkb| b` rnyu am`lw m `is b`w|uyki`|. B mk mwhb`c rny yuci`|fr |n mggit| b|&lbwgiu`b`c b|w bktnu|m`gi& onu kr aimu| bw viur moo8bg|il mw B gn`|iktfm|i kr gny`|ur.

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\ai |sifvi tubiw|w& |am| kr Lbvb`i Wn` ifig|il& sbff ei|ai snu|abiw| |n gmuur ny| kr ti|b|bn`.\mhi |abw Ofmki& kr lmyca|iu& rny mui |ai obuw| |nsank B gnkkb| b|. \abw bw |ai Ofmki no Fnvi no kr

Aimu|. Fbca| rnyu aimu| sb|a b| m`l tmww b| |n n|aiuw-%

\ai Efiwwil _bucb` wneeil wn kyga |am| B amulfr aimulsam| wai smw wmrb`c. B mwhil aiu sam| B aml |n ln. B` |ai`mki no |ai sanfi gny`|ur& B tunkbwil aiu iviur|ab`c& n`fr|n mffivbm|i aiu wnuuns& eigmywi kr aimu| mfwn gmki `imu eyuw|b`c ny|.

LN \ABW ANFR ANYU NO M\N@IKI@\ B@ OMKBFR E._.+ %Lmyca|iu& B mk mwhb`c rny |n nooiu |n kr Lbvb`i Wn` m viur wtigbmf m|n`iki`| n` \ayuwlmrw m`l Oublmrw. Fi| |abw m|n`iki`| ei aifl b` omkbfr. \abwanyu rny sbff wti`l anki lnb`c m|n`iki`|& eicb` b| erm wtbub|ymf uimlb`c& m`l hiit n` uigb|b`c |ai Anfr

Unwmur nu n|aiu tumriuw& b` m` m|knwtaiui oyff no gn`gi`|um|bn` m`l oiuvnu. Uigb|i b| m| fimw| |sn nu |auii|nci|aiu& onu saiui |sn nu |auii kii| |nci|aiu& |aiui bwkr Lbvb`i Wn`. B` |ai eicb``b`c& gunww rnyuwifviw obvi|bkiw& m`l b` lnb`c b|& nooiu b| |n |ai Aimvi`fr Om|aiu

|aunyca |ai Sny`lw no kr Lbvb`i Wn`. Ln |ai wmkimcmb` m| |ai i`l. Wbc` rnyuwifviw b` |ai wmki km``iu mfwn sai` w|m`lb`c yt nu cnb`c |n eil m`l ivi` lyub`c |ai lmr& eigmywi |am| sbff eub`c rny `imu |ai Aimvi`frOm|aiu |aunyca kr Lbvb`i Wn`& m`l rnyu aimu| sbff ei

oyff no cumgiw%.

\AI KBUMGFI NO \AI OFMKI NO FN_I E._.+ %Sb|a |abw Ofmki oyff no cumgiw |am| B cbvi rny ounk kr Aimu|& fbca| mff aimu|w b` |ai sanfi Ay`cmur& tmwwb`c b| ounk n`i aimu| |n m`n|aiu. \am| bw |aikbumgfi sabga& |yu`b`c b`|n obui& er b|w ofmwab`c fbca|

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y`bn` |am| B ne|mb`il ounk |ai Aimvi`fr Om|aiu |aunyca |ai kiub|w no |ai Sny`lw no kr Lbvb`i Wn`.Aimub`c |am|& B eicm` |n kmhi yt iqgywiw& b`wbw|b`c : B

mk `n| snu|ar no b|... Rny mui gnkkb||b`c |n ki rnyu gmywi& ey| ans gnyfl B tmww b| n`> M`l B kmli yt iqgywiw mcmb`...Mo|iu m ois lmrw& |ai Efiwwil _bucb` tunkbwil |n aift kiioobgmgbnywfr sb|a aiu km|iu`mf fnvi |n ln |ai wmgubobgiwmwhil onu er aiu Wn`.

E._.+ %B sbff ei sb|a rny& kr fb||fi gmukifb|i. B ayc rny%.Aimvi`fr Kn|aiu& Efiwwil _bucb` Kmur& B sm`|il |n mwh

rny wnki|ab`c. Wai mfuimlr h`is kr }yiw|bn` m`lm`wsiuil ki :

E._.+ %Eub`c |n Om|aiu I. |ai likm`l no kr Lbvb`i Wn`.%\ai Efiwwil _bucb` `mkil abk aiu eifnvil wn` b` kr

tuiwi`gi Sabfi wai smw wtimhb`c& B y`liuw|nnl& |aunyca mkmuvifnyw cumgi ounk aiu tmu|& |n sam| tnb`| |ai sbff no |aiKnw| Anfr _bucb` bw y`b|il |n |am| no |ai I|iu`mf Om|aiu& aiu Lbvb`i Wn`& m`l |ai Anfr Wtbub|. \ai Knw| Anfr _bucb` tunkbwil |n ei sb|a yw wn |am| |ai wkmff Ofmki sbff ei tuntmcm|il fbhi sbflobui.

WYEFBKI KBWWBN@ :\N TUNTMCM\I \AI OFMKI NO FN_IMtubf =9|a& =2?5.

E._.+ %Kr fb||fi gmukifb|i& B b`vb|i |anwi san fbvi b` |aianywi no |ai Gmukifb|i om|aiuw... Mff no |aik gmuur ny| sb|a cuim| lilbgm|bn` m`l fnvi m kbwwbn`mur snuh n`|ai wgmfi no |ai sanfi gny`|ur. Fi| |air ei |ai obuw| |nuigibvi |ai Ofmki no Fnvi |n tuntmcm|i b|. \aibu kbwwbn` bw wyefbki m`l knvb`c. Ln `n| eiikemuumwwil& kr fb||fi n`i& w|mu| n` rnyu smr mw}ybghfr mw tnwwbefi- Kr Ofmki no Fnvi bw cnb`c |n

bc`b|i b` |ai Gmukif. \air mui |anwi san ln an`nyu |n

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+ Gnki wnn`iub`|n kr tuiwi`gi m`l gn`wnfi Ki w|bff knui- Wyutmww rnyuns` fbkb|w- Fi| rnyu fnvi onu Ki ei obiur m`l oyff no livn|bn` - Wyooiu sb|a fnvi& m`l tmr m||i`|bn` |n kr vnbgi

sb|a knui fnvi. \n ei mefi |n tiugibvi kr vnbgi& ei viurw|bff8 eigmywi kr wno| m`l lbwguii| vnbgi& n`fr |ai wnyfwwyekiucil b` kr fnvi mui mt| |n tiugibvi b|. Hiiteyu`b`c b` rnyu liwbui onu Ki& eib`c m fbvb`c vbg|bk sb|afnvi. Fnvi bw obui& |am| n`fr m gn`w|m`| uimlb`iww onuwmgubobgi gm` hiit eyu`b`c%.

WANS ZIMF B@ AM@LB@C \AI OFMKI NO FN_I\N WM_I RNYU GNY@\UR

Mtubf 54|a& =2?5J.G.+ %\mhi tmu| y`gimwb`cfr b` kr Snuh no Wmfvm|bn`.Mwh `n| ans. Sbwa muli`|fr onu |ai gnkb`c no krHb`clnk& onu rnyuwifo m`l onu mff wnyfw.

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+ %\ai `iq| lmr& Ai wyooywil kr wnyf sb|a m wiviui wnuuns&

|am| nttuiwwil kr aimu| m`l |uyfr eyu`il : Rny h`ns |am|&kr Jiwyw& eigmywi Rny |nfl ki& Rny amvi tunkbwil |n cbviki mff hb`lw no wyooiub`cw. B| bw wn tmb`oyf |n ki& m`l`iviu|aifiww& ans mcuiimefi b| bw onu ki |n wyooiu- B ln`|h`ns |n sam| gnktmui |am| cubio.

JG.+ %Rny gnyfl h`ns b| Ai m`wsiuil }ybi|fr.Uikikeiu sai` rny siui m gabfl mcmb`& omu ounk rnyukn|aiu m`l ounk rnyu limu ankifm`l. B| smw |abw wnuuns|am| onu m fn`c |bki |nu|yuil rny%.B| smw |ai `nw|mfcbm no |ai ankifm`l& kr eifnvil Jiwyw.JG.+ %Siff rny wii& rny amvi cyiwwil b|. \abw wiviuiwnuuns B wi`| |n rny bw |ai `nw|mfcbm no |ai aimvi`frankifm`l. Wyttnu| b| onu |anwi san ln`| oiif |ai liwbuino |ai i|iu`mf ankifm`l%.\nlmr |ai Fnul Jiwyw mwhil ki :JG.+ %Ayuur yt |n am`l |ai Ofmki no Fnvi no kr Kn|aiu&wn |am| b` |abw km``iu ei mviu|il ounk |ai gny`|ur |aiAm`l no Jyw|bgi no kr Om|aiu %.B| gnw| ki wn kyga |n fimvi8 |ai Fnul aimu|i`il ki:JG.+ %Ln`| aiwb|m|i m`r knui& kr fb||fi n`i- \ai Knw|Anfr _bucb`& y`liu |ai b`vngm|bn` no |ai Cuim| Fmlr no Ay`cmur& sbff mgguilb| rny. Fi| nyu Snulw& |am| Si cmvirny& ei rnyu tumriuw%.N` |aiwi lmrw& giu|mb`fr B oif| fbhi |um`wkb||b`c |n Om|aiu

I. |ai kiwwmciw uigibvil.\ai onffnsb`c lmrw& B si`| imufr eionui |ai Fnul Jiwyw.

Mo|iu amvb`c uikmb`il en|a no yw m fn`c |bki b` wbfi`gi& b| bwAbk san eicm` |n wtimh |n ki b` kr aimu|. Sb|a m wno|

vnbgi& wn wbfi`| |am| B amulfr aimul Abk& Ai |nfl ki m fn| no |ab`cw ey| mff no b| si`| b` kr wyegn`wgbnyw.

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+ M`l sai` rny oiif b|& m| n`gi rny ony`l uiw| >\ai fnvi no gnktmwwbn` eim|w y`gimwb`cfr ei|sii` |anwisan fnvi imga n|aiu. Uikmb` b` kr Fnvi m`l i`|bgi |ain|aiuw |n Ki mfwn- Rny h`ns& si mui wn ois& n`i wb`cficfm`gi |mhiw imwbfr m` nviumff vbis no nyu sanfi gmkt.Kr iri sm|gaiw nviu rny y`gimwb`cfr. Kr Aimu| wyooiuwviur kyga eigmywi no |anwi san mui mewi`|. Tiuwiviuigfnwi |n Ki& wn |am| B wanyfl `n| amvi |n iqtiubi`gi meb||iu lbwmttnb`|ki`| -%Abw vnbgi smw wn bktfnub`c |am| kr aimu| smw eyu`b`c

muli`|fr onu Abk... \ai lmr mo|iu& B oif| wyga m` m`qbi|r |am|

ivi` kr tarwbgmf onugiw oif| fmucifr |ai iooig|w no b|. \aiFnul |nfl ki :

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+ Ln `n| ei wyutubwil m| |am|& imga no rnyu fb||fi wmgubobgiw }yi`gaiw kr b`ob`b|i m`l aimu|+ui`lb`c |abuw|. Fbvi `n| ivi` n`i knki`| sb|any|wmgubobgi -

WMGUBOBGI + TUMRIU JG.+ %B amvi |n |iff rny |am| uigi`|fr B gmffil km`r wnyfwwtigbmffr |n onffns Ki& ey| n`fr viur ois y`liuw|m`lsam| b| bw |am| B msmb| ounk |aik. Mll |aik y`gimwb`cfrb` rnyu tumriuw& m`l wmgubogi rnyuwifo onu |aik& wn |am||ai mukr no m|n`b`c wnyfw& B |ur |n umbwi |ayw& sbffgny`|iuemfm`gi kr jyw| m`ciu.Kr eifnvil Kn|aiu bktfnuiw Ki. Wai bw |ai n`i san yt|n `ns amw uiw|umb`il kr jyw| m`ciu. Aiu Ofmki no Fnvinefbciw Ki mfwn - %

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JG.+ %N`i n`fr Tm|iu @nw|iu nu n`i n`fr Mvi Kmubm&uigb|il b` |ai kbllfi no m cuim| wtbub|ymf b`wi`wb|bvb|r& bwkyga knui tunob|mefi |am` |ai i`|aywbmw|bg tumriu no |ain`i san bw uigibvb`c cumgiw b` wyumey`lm`gi%.

GNKKY@B\R TUMRIU Uikikeiub`c |aiwi snulw no |ai Fnul b` |ai kbllfi no m

wtbub|ymf b`wi`wb|bvb|r& B oif| m cuim| timgi b` kr wnyf. Sabfi Bsmw h`iifb`c |ayw sb|any| wmrb`c n`i wb`cfi snul& b` |abwmo|iu`nn` no Kmr& |ai kifnlr no fb|m`biw no |ai Knw| Anfr_bucb` wny`lil. B aml `iviu oif|& fbhi |am| |bki& ans kyga|ai gnkky`b|r tumriu gm` umbwi |ai wnyf |n m` mlkbumefioiuvnyu.

\IKT\M\BN@ NO \AI LI_BFB uikmb`il b` m livny| wbfi`gi. B vmb`fr |ubil |n tumr& B smwy`mefi |n ln b|.\ai Livbf eicm` b`w|iml |n |nu|yui kr wnyf. Blbl mewnfy|ifr `n| wyggiil |n ouii kr kb`l no abw b`ofyi`gi.Obuw| ai munywil b` ki m cuim| oimu. B| smw wyga m |iuubefioiifb`c& mw bo ai snyfl amvi sm`|il |n |mhi tnwwiwwbn` no ki& ey| wnki|ab`c tuivi`|il abk ounk lnb`c |am|.

Onu n`i knki`|& B uikmb`il h`iifb`c |aiui& sb|a krkb`l gn`oywil. B |anyca| |am|& eionui |ai Ivbf N`i |mhiw tnwwiwwbn` no ki& B wanyfl uy` b`|n |ai tuiwi`gi no |ai tubiw|mwhb`c abk |n tumr onu ki. B wms Om|aiu I san smw gunwwb`c|ai gayuga m`l cnb`c ny|& ey| B smw |nn iqamyw|il |n onffnsabk. Mo|iu Om|aiuw fimvb`c& B gnyfl `n| ln |ai fimw|knviki`|8 |ai |anyca| B smw tnwwiwwil y`gimwb`cfr suy`cki& m`l |aiuionui B aml `n|ab`c |n ln b` |ai gayuga. \ai IvbfN`i nuliuil ki ny| |ai gayuga& ey| B uikmb`il |aiui m fn`c|bki mcmb`. B` |abw b`gbli`|& B lbl`| h`ns ans B gnyfl ouiikrwifo no |ai Ivbf N`i.

Cnb`c ny| no |ai gayuga& |ai Ivbf N`i gmki sb|a ki&m`l b` m` i`|buifr aykm` wamti ai eicm` |n wtimh |n ki :Cn emgh b` rnyu omkbfr- Ln `n| m||ikt| |n lbw|b`cybwarnyuwifo ounk n|aiuw - Ln`| rny wii |am| sam| rny muilnb`c bw iqamyw|b`c rny& m`l rny mui smw|b`c rnyu fboi>

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Rnyu sanfi fboi amw eii` m w|uyccfi& b| bw |bki `ns onurny |n |mhi b| imwr - Fboi bw wn wanu| - Sar |n nviuw|umb`rnyuwifo b` |abw km``iu > Rnyu wbffr |anyca|w& sar lnrny sm`| |n tmww |aik |n n|aiuw> Ln`| eifbivi |am| rnysbff m||umg| |ai iriw no |ai tintfi n` rny- Rny snyfloiif ofm||iuil er |am|& snyfl rny `n|> \mhi rnyu |bki |nuiofig|& m`l rny sbff wii |am| B mk ubca|. M`l sai` rnyuimfbzi b|& b| bw rny san sbff |am`h ki onu amvb`c wi| rnyouii ounk wyga m gmfmkb|r.

B smw cfml& sai` uimgab`c |ai lnnu no kr anki& krcum`lgabflui` siui smb|b`c onu ki m`l |air aml m cnnl |bki tmrb`c ki fb||fi gnktfbki`|w. \am| ty| m` i`l |n |ai|unyefiw no |ai Ivbf N`i.

Mo|iu amvb`c m w`mgh& B si`| |n kr `is anki. Ivi`|aiui |ai Ivbf N`i lbl `n| fi| ki cn& m`l ai hit| n` en|aiub`c ki. Ai ayufil abkwifo m| ki mcmb`. B |ubil |n wtyu`abk sb|a mff kr kbca|. B eicm` |n kilb|m|i sb|a cuim|oiuvnyu. Ey| wyga m` mcb|m|bn` no kb`l b`lygil ki |nsn`liu m`l }yiw|bn` krwifo. B vmb`fr kmli m gmuioyf wifo+iqmkb`m|bn`. B ony`l `n| n`i iqtfm`m|bn`... B |anyca| |am| eionui kmhb`c |ai wkmffiw| ciw|yui b` omvnyu no |abw Gmywi&b| snyfl ei ei||iu onu ki |n |ab`h no b| |sbgi. \abwvmb`cfnubnyw`iww b` ki& |am| |ai Ivbf N`i aml lbwtfmrily`liu kr iriw& kmli ki w|nt wanu|... B| bw b` |ai kbllfi no

cuim| m`qbi|biw |am| B si`| |n uiw|. Mff aift ounk Aimvi`w|nttil& m`l n`fr |ai lmuh m`qbi|r no |ai `bca| oiff ytn` ki.Ans cnnl b| snyfl ei |n aimu |ai timgioyf vnbgi no |ai Fnul- Sam| snyfl Ai wmr no mff |am|>... N` |aiwiw lmrw& B amlkm`r wiubnyw |ikt|m|bn`w... \ai Ivbf N`i& sb|a mff abw |ubghw&sm`|il |n litubvi ki no kr }ymfb|r mw m aykm` eib`c.

\N UIGIB_I CUIM\ CUMGIW& \AI FNULTUITMUIW NYU WNYF SB\A WYOOIUB@CW

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\am| bw sar kr Lbvb`i Wn` mffnsil Wm|m` |n gnki `imu rny wn kyga. \ayw& rny kmli rnyuwifo knui }ymfbobil |n tuntmcm|i |ai Ofmki no Fnvi. Rny h`ns& |n uigibvi

cuim| cumgiw& b| bw `igiwwmur |n tuitmui rnyu wnyf sb|a cuim|iu wyooiub`cw. B| bw n`fr b` |abw km``iu |am| |ai cumgi gm` cn n` b`guimwb`c b` rnyu wnyf. @ns& mo|iu rnyu vbg|nur& B ayc rny. M`l sai` B wtimh |n rny& rnysbff sifgnki kr Anfr Gmywi sb|a m cuim|iu |uyw|. B| smw |ai nggmwbn` onu rny |n sb` wnki kiub|w b` omvnyu no n|aiu wnyfw mfwn. Kmhi y`gimwb`cfr wmgubobgiw onu |ai |sifvi tubiw|w. \air |nn sbff wyooiu& m`l rny& ei

lifbca|il |n ei mefi |n wyooiu sb|a |aik. Rnyu kiub|& wnfb||fi b| kmr mttimu& b`guimwiw b` rny |ai cumgiw. B mki`|uyw|b`c kr Gmywi |n m ois no rny& wn |am|& n`gi|anwi ois mui sn`& |ai `ykiunyw n|aiu sbff gnkieiab`l. Ei amttr |n ei n`i no |aiwi ois-Y`onu|y`m|ifr& ivi` ei|sii` |aiwi ois& |aiui mui wnkisan wtyu` ki& m`l ans b| ayu|w kr km|iu`mf Aimu| -

M`l `ns& rny amvi |n wtuiml kr Gmywi. Fi| |anwi B ganwi amvi oyff gn`obli`gi b` Ki. Mw m gmuioyf

Kn|aiu& B cybli mff |aibu w|itw. B n`fr mwh |aik |n kmhi|aibu wnyfw }ymfbobil m`l sb|a cuim| oiuvnyu kmhi|aikwifviw uimlr |n tmu|bgbtm|i |n |ai snuh no m|n`iki`|. B fnnh sb|a wml`iww n` |ai mfmuk munywil b` rny er kr Ofmki no Fnvi.Sar mui rny moumbl b` rnyu aimu|> Ans gnyfl B fi| rnyb` lnye|& B san mk rnyu viur fnvb`c Kn|aiu> Y`b|im`l jnb` mff rnyu onugiw m`l ci| rnyu wnyfw uimlr |nuigibvi |ai Wmguil Ofmki. B` |ai wm`g|ymubiw& |ai

tbfcub`w sbff tunvi siff lbwtnwil |n sifgnki b|. B& |ai Kn|aiu no Cumgi& bktfnui y`gimwb`cfr kr Lbvb`i Wn`|n sifgnki |ai wfbca|iw| ioonu| m`l mwwngbm|i b| |n rnyu kiub|w. Amvi `n oimu no |ai Ofmki sabga bw cnb`c |nfbca| wylli`fr& timgioyf mw m wno| fbca|8 b| sbff munywi`n uiwbw|m`gi b` m`renlr. \aiui bw |ai kbumgfi |am| bw

cnb`c |n amtti` b` rnyu aimu|w.

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OIMW\ NO \AI GM@LFIKMW E._.+ %B` |ai oimw| no |ai Gm`lfikmw& kr eifnvil gabflui` sbff b`|unlygi b` m tungiwwbn` |ai Ofmki no

Fnvi no kr Aimu|& wn |am| b` |abw km``iu b| sbff eignkieyu`b`c obui b` |ai aimu|w m`l wnyfw. Fi| mff ei uimlr b`

wyga m smr |am| b| wanyfl cn wtuimlb`c fbhi sbflobui. Fi| |anwi wnyfw B amvi ganwi` kmhi iviur|ab`c uimlr onu |ai cuim| kbwwbn`%.Kn|aiu& Nyu Fnul Jiwyw+Gaubw| tunkbwil |am| rny siui

cnb`c |n mgguilb| ki. + B` |ai en||nk no kr aimu|& B aimul |ai

wno| m`wsiu no |ai Efiwwil _bucb` san oyffr umwwyuil ki: E._.+ %Cn m`l wii kr knw| eifnvil wn` ! Om|aiu Q ". Aibw cnb`c |n ln iviur|ab`c mw bo ai siui krwifo& eigmywib| bw ai san sbff ei kr mci`| b` kr wm`g|ymubiw |nmgguilb| kr Ofmki no Fnvi. Amvi `n oimu& ai bw `n|

cnb`c |n ei nttnwil `nu uioywi. Mw onu rny& fbvi n`fr b`ui|buiki`| m`l aykbfb|r& m`l gn`wyki rnyuwifo b`

wyooiub`c- B& Kn|aiu no Wnuunsw& mk oiifb`c mw bo& erimga no rnyu wyooiub`cw& rny tnyu m aimfb`c emfk n`|ai Sny`lw no kr Lbvb`i Wn`-Rny& ei n`i no |aiwi wnyfw san gm``n| fbvi sb|any|

wyooiub`c& onu |aiwi wnyfw& er |aibu y`bn` |n |ai

wyooiub`cw no kr Lbvb`i Wn`& oiif knui m`l knui abw tuiwi`gi `imu m| am`l. Sbwa sb|a mff |ai kbca| no rnyu aimu| |am| kr Ofmki no Fnvi |mhi obui mw wnn` mw

tnwwbefi m`l efb`l Wm|m`%.Ei|sii` kmr 7|a m`l ==|a& =2?5& |ai Efiwwil _bucb`

mwhil ki onyu |bkiw `n| |n `icfig| aiu kbwwbn`.M@@NY@GI KR KIUGR& WMGUBOBGI RNYUWIFO

Snulw no |ai Fnul :JG.+ %B mk gannwb`c rny& kr fb||fi n`i& wn |am| rny wanyflei eimuiu no kr Lbvb`i Kiugr. Obff rnyuwifo sb|a |aimey`lm`gi no kr Lbvb`i Kiugr. M`l sai` rny nti`rnyu kny|a |n wtimh& m``ny`gi |ai Kiugr no kr Aimu|&sabga bw mfknw| eyu`b`c msmr b` b|w liwbui no wb``iuw.

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Fi| mff rnyu fboi ei n`fr n`i liwbui& er kim`w no tumriuwm`l wmgubobgiw& |ai liwbui |n |mhi tmu| b` kr Snuh no Wmfvm|bn`%.

Ans km`r |bkiw B amvi mfuimlr sub||i`& kr cnnl Jiwyw&rnyu wml fmki`|w& ey| b| wiikw mfknw| `n|ab`c sam| B gm` ln|n aift Rny -

JG.+ %Fi| rnyu aimu| eyu` sb|a liwbui& kr fb||fi n`i.Mfuimlr& sb|a |am| n`fr& rny uifbivi |ai muli`| wyooiub`cno kr Aimu| - Bo mff |ai wnyfw gn`wigum|il |n kr Aimu|wbcail fbhi Ki& |ai gmkt no |anwi san m|n`i onu Ki snyflei cunsb`c. Rny h`ns ans fmuci bw rnyu `ykeiu. Bo mff|nnh tmu| |n kr snuh no Wmfvm|bn`& sb|a mff |aibu wnyf m`l|aibu aimu|& sb|a |aibu tumriuw m`l wmgubobgiw& B wanyfl `n|amvi |n gnktfmb` wn kyga. Fnvi Ki w|bff knui& kr fb||fin`i& wiuvi Ki sb|a w|bff cuim|iu mem`ln`. Ln`| fi| |aisibca| no |ai uny|b`i lnkb`m|i rny-

Fi| rnyu wmgubobgiw ei mfsmrw oiuvi`| m`l muli`|. B snyflfbhi |n mycki`| kr Cumgiw b` rny& kr fb||fi n`i& ey| |n eimefi |n ln b|& B amvi |n ob`l m cuim|iu mggit|m`gi no wmgubobgiw b` rny. Tfimwi& mggit| kr likm`l& ei viur

knliw|& li`r rnyuwifo mff jnr& mff tfimwyui sb|a sabga rnyln `n| wiuvi Ki. Li`r rnyuwifo |n uiml i`|iu|mb`b`cennhw& |n fbw|i` |n rnyu omvnyub|i kywbg& |n wiih mo|iugnktm`r b` wngbi|r. Sai` eib`c ny| smfhb`c& |ab`h n`frno kr Anfr Tmwwbn`. B snyfl fbhi rny |n mycki`| w|bffmcmb` rnyu omw|w& bo rny mfwn sm`| b|. Ln `n| cbvi rnyuwifo |n m`r fibwyui. Fi| rnyu euimhomw| m`l fy`ga ei knliw|frno euiml m`l sm|iu. Rny kmr im| n|aiu onnlw n`fr m|kmb` kimfw& ey| B mwh rny |n |ur |n kmhi |aik |mw|ifiww.Im| |aik `n| onu |aibu cnnl |mw|i& ey| n`fr |n oiil rnyuenlr. \ai enlr m`rans sbff gmff onu sam| b| `iilw. Rnyamvi |n ui`ny`gi ivi` knui rnyu `bca| uiw|.

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B mwh rny m |sn anyuw vbcbf& wn |am| rny wanyfl ci| yt |sbgiiviur `bca| lyub`c n`i anyu. Kr fb||fi eifnvil& kmr Bgny`| n` rny> B mk mwhb`c b| |n rny& B |ai Km`+Cnl.%Na kr Fnul m`l kr Cnl- Rny h`ns |am| sb|any| Rny&

B mk `n|ab`c. Kb`l bw uimlr ey| |ai enlr& Rny h`ns b|Fnul& bw simh. Rny h`ns |ai |sn %Icnw% |am| aiui n` imu|aiqbw| b` ki mw |sn i|iu`mf m`l b`witmumefi i`ikbiw. Kr wnyfm`l kr aimu| mggit| |am|& ey| |air eignki buub|m|il mcmb`w||ai lmuh wbli no kr simh sbff m`l kb`l. B mk ui`isb`c krnooiub`c& kr ci`|fi Jiwyw: B eifn`c |n Rny& B mk m| rnyu

wiuvbgi- B sm`| b` `n smr |n ei mcmb`w| Rny& onu B fnvi Rnywn kyga- Ty| b` ki rnyu w|ui`c|a& wn |am| B wanyfl ei mefi |nln rnyu sbff.

\ai `bca|fr vbcbf smw viur lboobgyf| onu ki 8 b| gnw| kiviur kyga |n smhi yt. B mwhil |n |ai Efiwwil _bucb` : Bbktfnui Rny& N Kn|aiu& smhi ki yt- Sai` b| bw krCymulbm` M`cif san smhiw ki yt& ai lniw`| um||fi kii`nyca.

\ai onffnsb`c `bca|& b| smw |ai Efiwwil _bucb` sansnhi ki yt. B sm`|il |n ci| yt m`l ty| n` kr gfn|aiw&

eifbivb`c |am| b| smw |ai |bki onu |ai vbcbf m`l b| wiikil |nki |n ei lbwuiwtig|oyf |n |ai Efiwwil _bucb` |n wtimh sb|aaiu sabfi eib`c fmbl lns`. Ey| b| smw `n| ri| |ai |bki |n eicb` |ai vbcbf m| |sn b` |ai `bca|& b| smw n`fr kbl`bca|. \aiEfiwwil _bucb` wtnhi |n ki b` wyga m smr :

NOOIU RNYU @BCA\FR _BCBFONU RNY\A M@L GABFLANNL

E._.+ W|mr b` |ai tnwb|bn` saiui rny mui& kr fb||fi n`i& rny sbff `n| ei lbwuiwtig|oyf |n ki. M kn|aiu gm` wtimh |n aiu lmyca|iu m| m`r |bki& b` m`r tfmgi. Fbw|i` |n ki&

tfimwi& ln `n| uifmq b` |ai |bki no |ai vbcbf...

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\aiui bw m` iqiugbgi viur ywioyf |n |ai wnyf& b| bw b|wabca+kb`lil`iww |n Cnl. Kmhi mff |ai `igiwwmur

tarwbgmf ioonu|. B mfwn w|nnl er viur kyga. B` |ai omkbfr& b| smw B san hit| msmhi lyub`c |ai `bca|w sai` B`om`| Jiwyw smw ri| m fb||fi emer& onu Jnwita snuhil wnkyga& lnb`c sam| ai gnyfl onu yw |n ei mefi |n fbvi

tnnufr. Ln b|& rny |nn. Ivi` b` rnyu anfblmr sabga bwn` Wy`lmr& rny sbff ln vbcbfw m`l m||i`l mw kyga anfrkmwwiw mw b| sbff ei tnwwbefi onu rny - Nooiu |aik onu |ai rny|a- \ab`h no mff |aiwi gabflui` |am| mui fil imga

rimu |n kr Lbvb`i Wn`- Ans km`r wnyfw mui fnw| eigmywi |air gm``n| |mhi unn|& saiuimw `nenlr cbviwm||i`|bn` |n |aibu wtbub|ymf tuncuiww. Fi| rnyu wnyf ei

oyff no tumriuw no wmgubobgi mfwn n` rnyu anfblmrw.\aiwi lmrw& nooiu |aik wtigbmffr onu |aiwi gabflui`. Kr

Wn` Knw| Anfr& ivi` |buil& fi| gabflui` gnki |n Abk. \am| bw sar rny |nn amvi |n ei `iviu |buil - Rnyh`ns& b| bw Ai san mwhil rny |n tmu|bgbtm|ign`|b`ynywfr |n abw Snuh no Wmfvm|bn`.%

\nlmr& b| bw mcmb` |ai Fnul Jiwyw san wtimhw |n ki:JG.+ %Kr fb||fi gmukifb|i : |ai wmgubobgiw B tuntnwil |n rnyfm|ifr& rny mggit|il |aik. Kmrei rny sbff ei wyutubwil&ey| B amvi |n |am`h rny onu |am|. Ln rny wii |n sam| rnyuKmw|iu bw gn`liwgi`lb`c> Ey| B mk cnb`c omu|aiu mcmb` :y`b|i rnyu wyooiub`cw |n kmhi n`i n`fr sb|a kb`i. Rnyukiub|w mycki`| cuim|fr eigmywi no |am|& m`l cuim|fr kmhikr Snuh no Wmfvm|bn` tuncuiww. Hiit b` |ai en||nk no rnyu aimu| |abw bkki`wi cumgi |am| rny uigibvil ounk Ki.B| bw m wtigbmf cbo| no Cnl. B| bw Ai san an`nyuw rny& tnnufb||fi wnyf. Gm` wnki|ab`c ei knui wyefbki onu rny>Fimu` ounk Ki- Eigmywi rnyu mui fb||fi m`l kbwiumefi : b|bw onu |am| uimwn` B amvi ganwi` rny. Kr lmyca|iu& `iviuei |buil sai` b| bw mff meny| wyooiub`c onu Ki. Mttfrrnyuwifo knui mcmb`& sb|a |ai aift no kr cumgi-%

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M`l |ai ci`|fi Uiliikiu bktfnuil ki |n uigb|i sb|aAbk |abw tumriu |am| iqtuiwwiw abw knw| muli`| liwbuiw:

Jiwyw+%Fi| nyu oii| smfh |nci|aiu&Fi| nyu am`lw cm|aiu yt y`b|il&Fi| nyu aimu|w eim| b` amukn`r&Fi| nyu b`|iubnu oiif |ai wmki |ab`c&Fi| |ai |anyca| no nyu kb`lw ei n`i&Fi| nyu imuw fbw|i` |n |ai wbfi`gi |nci|aiu&Fi| nyu cfm`giw tnwwiww n`i m`n|aiu tunony`lfrefi`lb`c b` n`i m`n|aiu&m`l fi| nyu fbtw bktfnui |nci|aiu|ai I\IU@MF OM\AIU |n ne|mb` kiugr.%\abw tumriu& B kmli b| |n|mffr kb`i. Ai kilb|m|il b| wn

km`r |bkiw sb|a ki& m||iw|b`c |am| |aiwi mui abw i|iu`mfliwbuiw. Ai |myca| ki |abw tumriu b` nuliu |am| B wanyfl |imgab| |n n|aiuw. Kmhi nyuw abw i|iu`mf |anyca|w& abw eyu`b`cliwbuiw& sb|a mff nyu kbca| m`l kb`l.

\ai Wmvbnyu& mo|iu amvb`c mwhil |am|& mllil mcmb` :JG.+ %\abw tumriu bw m` b`w|uyki`| b` rnyu am`lw& sabfirnyu gnffmenum|bn` sb|a Ki |ayw sbff efb`l Wm|m` b` |abw

smr mfwn& m`l eigmywi no abw efb`l`iww |ai wnyfw sbff `n| eib`lygil |n wb`%.

AIFT--- B @IIL RNYU I@IUCBIWKmr = Wm|m` bw cm|aiub`c wnyfw sb|aeuim|a|mhb`c wtiil.

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Sar ln`| rny ln rnyu y|knw| |n ty| m w|nt |n |am| sb|amff rnyu kbca| m`l mw wnn` mw tnwwbefi> B `iil rnyu gnffmenum|bn`. Kr aimu| bw eyu`b`c msmr no wnuuns eigmywi B amvi |n wii ans km`r wnyfw mui b`gyub`c lmk`m|bn`. Km`r no |aik& b` wtb|i no |aibu cnnlsbff&mui fyuil n`. !=". Sb|a liubwbvi fmyca|iu& |ai Ivbf N`i

w|ui|gaiw ny| abw mukw& m`l sb|a m |iuubefi kmfbgi&lumcw |aik noo |n Aiff& |air onu sank kr Lbvb`i Wn`

wyooiuil b`liwgubemefi |nuki`|w m`l lim|a. Aift---

!=" @N\I : \air eicb` sb|a cnnlsbff ey| |ai ofns wsiitw|aik eigmywi |air lbwgiu` |nn fm|i |ai |umt wi| er Wm|m`.

WTIMH \N KR GABFLUI@& \AIR SBFF EI KRMKEMWWMLNUW. LI@R RNYUWIFO

Kmr =3|a& =2?5Lyub`c kr knu`b`c tumriu& |ai Efiwwil _bucb` wtnhi |n

ki 8 m`l mfwn lyub`c |ai Anfr Kmww& wai gnktfmb`ily`gimwb`cfr& sb|a m viur wml b`|n`m|bn`. Wai wyooiuil& mw bo wai sub`cil aiu am`lw& m`l bktfnuil:

E._.+ %\ai wmvmci umci no Wm|m` bw b`guimwb`c b` nuliu |n fmr am`lw ivi` n` tiuwiviub`c wnyfw. Ln`| fi| abk

|n ln |am|- Aift-%Eiwiigab`c& wai lbl`| w|nt |n bktfnui. \ai wnuuns no aiu aimu| smw wtuimlb`c |n kb`i. B krwifo w|uyccfil tnsiufiww& kr tumriu ganhil lns` sb|a wnew. @ns& sub|b`c|aiwi fb`iw& |ai wnuuns sub`cw kr aimu| mcmb`. B amvi |n w|ntsub|b`c eigmywi no |imuw. N Kn|aiu& sam| gm` B ln>

E._.+ %Cn m`l wtimh |n kr wn`w 8 |air sbff ei krkiwwi`ciuw%.Wtimh& Rny& Kn|aiu& b` kr omvnyu- B mk wn kbwiumefi& B

mk `n|ab`c& n`i wansw ki `n m||i`|bn` m| mff& m`l`iviu|aifiww B amvi mfuimlr tmwwil rnyu snulw. M`l

`ns& sam| gm` B ln > N Kn|aiu& n`gi knui B mwh rny |abw& fi|b| ei rny san wtimh.

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Rnyu Lbvb`i Wn` tunkbwil |am| b| snyfl ei rny sanwanyfl mgguilb| ki. B eic rny& Knw| Anfr Kn|aiu& |nb`|unlygi ki b` nuliu |am| n`i |mhiw rnyu b`wbw|i`| likm`lwb`|n gn`wblium|bn`. M`l knuinviu& Kn|aiu& B mk eyu`b`cmsmr m`l wyooiub`c eigmywi rnyu ui}yiw| amw `n| eii` siffuigibvil y`|bf `ns er |ai n`i sank rny wi`| ki |n.

\ai wmki lmr& |ai Fnul Jiwyw mfwn wtnhi |n ki b` |ai en||nk no kr aimu|& b` |ai cuim| wbfi`gi no kr wnyf. Abw vnbgismw mfknw| bktiugit|befi& fbhi m wbca :

JG.+ %Ei gmuioyf& kr fb||fi n`i- Li`r rnyuwifo i`|buifr.Mem`ln` rnyuwifo i`|buifr |n Ki. Rny h`ns ans kygakr n`fr gmui amw eii` |n i`wyui |am| `n|ab`c eml wanyflamtti` |n rny. B tmril m cuim| tubgi onu rny& onu rnyuwnyf& sb|a kr wyooiub`cw. Fi| `n|ab`c ei fnw| no |aiwimey`lm`| cumgiw B cum|bor rny |n |ai oyff y`gimwb`cfr.\mhi gmui no rnyuwifo- \ai Ivbf N`i sm`|w |n b`wiu|abkwifo b` rny er w|imf|a m`l& fbhi m` m`bkmf no tuir& cyftlns` |ai kbca| no rnyu wnyf%.Ans& eifnvil Jiwyw> B& ounk |ai knki`| sai` B smhi

yt& b` |ai obuw| bktyfwi no kr aimu|& onuci||b`c m`l liwtbwb`ckrwifo& B nooiu krwifo |n Rny& oubca|i`il |am| |ai livbf ob`lw

m tfmgi b` kr wnyf n` smhb`c : Uigibvi ki& kr Fnul m`lcnnl Cnl -JG.+%\iff Ki |am| |ai sanfi lmr fn`c& m`l `n| n`fr n`smhb`c-%M`l sb|a m wno| wbca& Ai |nfl ki n`fr:JG.+%Kr fb||fi n`i- %

LUIMKKmr 57|a& =2?5

Wnn` b` |ai knu`b`c& B smw b` m ayuur |n gnki `imu |aiFnul |n |am`h Abk onu |ai w|ui`ca| Ai aml cum|bobil kilyub`c |ai `bca|fr vbcbf. Ai smw viur |nygail& m`l B gnyflamulfr wyttnu| abw aimu|eim|. B| wny`l b` kr aimu| sb|a mwno|`iww B aml `iviu oif| eionui.

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Fnul& B mk `n| snu|ar no sam| rny mui lnb`c b` ki. Ey|B sbff |ur& sb|a mff kr kbca|& |n wans kr cum|b|yli |n rny&n`i smr nu m`n|aiu& onu rnyu hb`l`iww. Ai hit| kmhb`c kioiif abw iq|umnulb`mur gamub|r.

B amvi `n| sub||i` |ai luimk B aml& B lbl`| sm`| |nliwgubei b|& ey| Ai gmki eiwbli ki m`l wmbl :

JG.+ %Sub|i |am| mfwn& kr fb||fi n`i%.N` Kmr =?|a m`l =3|a& B aml |abw luimk. B ln `n| amvi

|ai ameb| no luimkb`c& m`l bo b| amtti`w& n` smhb`c& B onuci|mff sam| B amvi luimkil no. Ey| |abw luimk& `n| n`fr B

lbl`| onuci| b|& ey| B aml b| tuiwi`| sb|a m cuim|iu mgy|i`iwwmo|iu smhb`c : B wms m cuim| efmgh lb