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10/14/2014 Unforgiveable Sirius by Severus Draconis Potter

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Chapter 1 by Severus Draconis Potter

Author's Notes:

Ok given the Challenge Sirius is a bit OC as is Harry and by asocciation Severus,although I did try to keep them as in character as I could.

This was going to be a two shot, but someone convinced me otherwise.

Harry flooed into Number 12 Grimmauld Place with a flop to the ground, he hated traveling by floo. Hewas glad that the Headmaster had allowed him to spend this Christmas with Sirius because he wasntsure he could take much more of Umbridges cruelty, expecially during the holidays. Today he wasactually on a misson, his last Occulmency lesson with Snape ended in disaster because of his stupidcuriosity. He saw his teachers memory of a day in school, where his father and godfather were bullyingSnape. It was horrible to watch because his dads gang reminded him of his cousins gang, always

picking on the weaker ones. He shook his head, why didnt anyone tell him his father was a bully? Theyalways said he was a great man, is this why Snape hated him? If so then he could see the reasoning ofthat, but he really needed to speak to Sirius now. Speak of the devil, he smiled at his godfather came

stepped into the doorway.

Hey kiddo, are you ready for your best Christmas yet?

Yea I am, what kinds of things are we going to do?

Uh I dont know yet, but I know well think of something. Here lets go put your stuff away in yourroom.

Harry followed his godfather up the stairs and into a room, that was decorated in Gryffindor colors, itwas perfect. They started unpacking his trunk and Harry figured now would be the best time to talk about

that memory, so they would have the rest of the break to have fun.

Padfoot, can I talk to you about something?

Anything, whats on your mind kiddo?

My last Occulmency lesson with Snape, I accidently saw something I shouldnt have and he got reallyangry with me. I dont think Ill have any more of them anytime soon.

What happened Harry? Did that greasy git hurt you?

No he didnt hurt me, I looked into the bowl that had his memories in it. I dont know what it was but itshowed you and dad and him at Hogwarts.

Its called a pensieve Harry, what was the memory about?

You guys were picking on him, calling him names like Snivellous, and making fun of his secondhandclothes. Then you guys embarrassed him by levitating him in the air and taking off his trousers soeveryone could see his pants. How could you guys do something like that to him? How could you guys

be bullies? Why did you do that to him?

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Dudley did the same thing to him, only without magic. He didnt know how Sirius was going to explaintheir actions, but his answer shocked the hell out of him.

That greasy git deserved it, he hogged Lily all to himself when he knew James liked her. Besides he wasa slimy snake, I tell you Harry he deserved it, and anyway we were young and stupid. Kids makemistakes all the time so calm down, your 15 surely you know what I mean?

Yea Im 15 but Im not a bully I never have been and never will. Just because dad liked mum and she

was friends with Snape doesnt give you guys a reason to hurt him.

Harry why are you defending that git, that greasy bat had it coming. Snivellous wasnt hurt, he Siriuswas interruppted by Harry.

Stop making excuses for yourself Padfoot, you guys were in the wrong. I can see why he hates me, afterall my father and godfather was the cause of his misery in school.

Harry you dont know what your talking about, we didnt do anything to him that he didnt deserve.

Deserve, who are you to tell a 15 year old kid what he deserves? He had every right to be at school just

like you did, regardless of his blood status or wealth. Merlin, you sound just like Malfoy, he makes fun oRon for having less too.

Dont you EVER compare me to that little snot Harry, I am not like a Malfoy.

Harry stared at Sirius as he grabbed him by the arms and shook him like Uncle Vernon used to do whenhe was angry with him. He was in shock, but he could still feel how tight his godfather was squeezing hisarms and they were sure to leave bruises. It really hurt and he tried to get away but Sirius only squeezedharder.

Sirius stop, your really hurting me. Please let go of my arms, Harry cried.

You have to understand this Harry, we were kids and everyone knows kids do stupid things. Do youunderstand me? Sirius asked and then shook Harry again to get his point across.

Harry for his part was struggling to hold the tears that wanted to fall, why was his godfather treatinghim like this? He had promised to never hurt him, what do you call this then? He knew in his heart deepdown that Sirius was wrong to have treated Snape that way but he wasnt about to say that out loud, buthe had to know something else just as important.

Do you regret it, what you did to him?

No Snivellous got what he deserved, why should I feel bad about that. Besides bullies are importantparts of childhood.

Your proud of that, my godfather the bully? I dont believe this, let go of me, I dont want to talk aboutthis with you anymore. I dont think my dad would be proud of this, not the man everyone describes himas being.

James supported me 100% then and he would now if he were alive. You dont really act like a realPotter Harry, and if I didnt know any better I would think that you werent James son at all.

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on his way out. Harry rolled over on his stomach and let the tears fall and sobbed into his pillow. Wasthat really his godfather who just said that? He stayed in his room for the rest of the day not even comingout when he heard Ron come over with his mum for an order meeting. Ron came into his room andgrabbed his arm to bring him down for dinner, and he flinched and whimpered at the pain in his arms.Before he could do anything Ron had lifted the sleeves of his shirt and was gaping in horror at the darkhand shaped bruises on his arm.

What the bloody hell happened Harry? Who did this to you? Does Sirius know about this?

Yes, hes the one who did it to me, Harry replied too weary to even try to lie.

He didnt want to stay with Sirius anymore and if this is what it took to get away from his godfather hewas all for it. Besides he was only telling the truth and nothing more.

Why did he do this?

He got mad at me, are you going to tell anyone Ron?

No Im not, but you are. Lets go they probably havent started their meeting yet.

Harry let Ron lead him downstairs to the dining room where it was set up for the order meeting, hekept his head to the ground knowing that his eyes were puffy and red, and he had tear tracks down hisface. He could hear the room quiet as they entered but he still refused to look up.

Can I help you boys with something? The meeting is about to start and you know you arent allowed inhere, the Headmaster spoke,

We have to tell you something important Headmaster, it involves Harry.

Wow big surprise, of course it involves Potter. What not getting enough attention here Potter?

Leave him alone, this is serious, Ron replied fiercly.

Whats the matter Harry dear? Mrs. Weaseley asked.

Harry knew he supposed to explain what happened but he couldnt even look up let alone open hismouth. Sirius was in this room with him, what if he stood up to hurt him again? He shook his head, and

pulled against Rons grasp, he couldnt do this. But strangely Ron wouldnt let him go.

Well are you going to tell us what was so important, that you came barreling through here? Snapeasked.

Um..Its not my place but since he wont talk I guess I better. Ron replied before pushing up the sleeveon Harrys arm.

He heard the gasps around the room as they took in the severe bruising on his pale skin, and he feltrather then saw Sirius get up and start towards him. He couldnt stop himself from trembling and backingaway from his godfather and thankfully Ron saw him too.

Stay away from him Sirius, or Ill curse you good. You dont get to hurt Harry and then pretend that youcare when youre the one who did it.


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At Rons accusation everyone stopped and stared at Sirius who had a expression of anger and remorse,which Harry saw and flinched back when he looked up. That little movement cause everyone in the roomto turn towards Sirius with a glare.

Is this true Padfoot, did you hurt Harry? Remus asked unable to believe that Sirius hurt his cub.

It was an accident Moony, no big deal.

Harry shook his head again as the tears swam into his vision, this was going bad. Everyone was going tobelieve Sirius and then when he left he was going to hurt him worse, thats how it always was with UncleVernon. He couldnt handle being in here, he tugged against Ron again so he could let him go but he stillheld on tight. His breathing was getting erractic as he he got more an more scared about what he knewwas going to happen but no one noticed until Sirius grabbed him by the shoulder, how he got pass Ronwas anybodys guess. He couldnt help it he flinched back pulling Ron with him and he screamed asound that made Ron wince so he knew it was loud. Getting lost in one of his memories he slid to theground with his hands over his head, and trying to protect himself from the blows that he knew werecoming.Everyone else in the room was frozen in shock, mouths opened with disbelief and horror on theirfaces. What in the world had happened earlier? Whatever it was, it was more then what Sirius was tryingto pass it off as. Ron was trying to pull Harry out of his flashback but that only succeeded in making him

more scared, so he just held his hand.

Severus couldnt believe what he was seeing, what did that idiotic mutt do to the boy? Potter wascowering on the floor as if he was expecting to be hit, and why wasnt anyone doing anything for thechild? Morons the lot of them he thought, he walked over to the boy and crouched in front of him beingcareful not to touch him just yet.

Potter, your safe no one is going to hurt you here.

Severus watched as Harry tried to stop trembling but he responded to the sound of his voice.

He is, he hurt me earlier, I dont want him here, make him leave. Please Professor make him leave.

Its his house Harry, I cant make him leave, Severus replied softly.

Harry shook his head, since when did he ever feel safe with Snape. Now that he thought of it he was surethat Snape could defend himself against Sirius now that they werent kids in school. And since when didhis Professor call him Harry?

Then I want to leave, I dont wanna be here with him.

Harry come on kiddo, you know that I would never intentionally hurt you.

Harry hunched back into himself when he heard his godfather speak to him, and the hand who washolding his own tightened. He couldnt say anything to Sirius he just wanted to leave.

Im sorry for what I did Professor, I didnt mean to see what I saw. I didnt make fun and I didnt tellanyone, Im sorry. Please can you take me back to Hogwarts with you? I dont want to stay hereanymore.

Severus for his part was floored, and he swallowed the retort he had when he remembered thepensive incident. Something about Potters defensive positon wasnt sitting right with him, and he hadmade a vow; he couldnt leave the child here. Ignoring everyone else in the room at the moment he


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gently lifted up the boy, wondering at how light he was. He wasnt all that surprised to note that Weasleyhad yet to let go of Potters hand.

Headmaster, Ill be back in 15 minutes Im going to Hogwarts before you ask.

Thats fine Severus, take care of him my boys.

Snivellous put my godson down hes not going anywhere with you.

Sirius stop, your scaring him and making it worse, Remus replied.

Harry breathed in the scent of potions on his teachers robes, and a part of him wondered if this is what itwas like to be held by your dad? He could hear arguing and loud voices behind them but he didnt care,he only hoped Snape wouldnt be mad that he got tears on his robes.

To be continued...

End Notes:

I like Challenges I get it now why everyone does them there loads of fun lol

Always review please and thank you Ok I'm convinced, this is going to be a shortstory no more then 5-7 chapters, hope you guys like it.

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Harry quickly drank the pain potion and sighed in relief when he felt it immediately start working.He could see Snape gesturing to his arms, but he pretended not to see. He avoided all eye contact, and hemused that Ron was right for once. Why did everyone want to hurt him? He never did anything toanybody except maybe Snape, but he was treating Harry decently at least for now he was.

Severus scowled; the brat was ignoring him after he brought him to and Hogwarts and got him awayfrom Black. Not having much patience in the beginning, what he had was starting to wane.

Now Potter, your arms

Severus was rewarded with a flinch but the boy did lift up his sleeves. Severus hid a wince as he sawthe dark bruising on the pale skin up close. The boy would need a few more applications of the salve

before the bruising would disappear completely. He knew firsthand that Potter could be annoying butwhat did he say for Black to do this to him. He was startled from his thoughts when his floo flared andthey all visibly tensed until they realized it was only Albus. What was he doing here; surely the meetingwasnt over just yet, was it?

Is the meeting over already Albus?

We havent even started my boy; Im merely here to confirm what happened to Harry.

What is there to confirm? Black hurt him and if that wasnt enough you saw the way he reacted whenthe mutt touched him. Or are you really going to dismiss this all as an accident?

Harry had zoned out before he heard the Headmasters answer, he wasnt even surprised really thatno one believed him. No one ever believed him when he told them that someone was hurting him, andnow the Headmaster was practically calling him a liar. He wasnt aware that he was gasping on his sobs,or that all conversation ceased as they looked at him. In the distance he could hear Rons voice talking tohim, why was Ron so far away?

Harry mate, he didnt say that he didnt believe you. Anyone with eyes can see the proof on your arms,now calm down Harry before you make yourself sick.

Severus silently turned and stared at Weasely in disbelief as he calmly spoke to Potter. Spelling acalming draught into the boys stomach he waited for it to take effect, before grabbing Albus by the armand heading toward the fireplace.

Call a house elf if you guys get hungry, Weasely take care of him until I get back.

Shaking his head Severus couldnt believe he was leaving 2 Gryffindors alone in his quarters, never mindthat it was Potter and Weasely. He took the floo powder and flooed to Albuss office.

~*~*~*~Back at Grimmald Place~*~*~*~*

Remus was seething, and with the full moon only a few days away he looked more like a wolf thenhuman. His face and eyes were both feral as he bared his teeth at Sirius. He had watched bemused, whenSeverus picked Harry up and then took him to Hogwarts. That was supposed to be Siriuss job; he wasnot supposed to be the cause of his godsons pain. Remus didnt trust himself right now to talk to Siriusalone, so he just stayed in the meeting room shooting murderous glances at his friend.

Sirius for his part was sitting at the table with narrowed eyes. The way the order members were lookingat him made him feel like he was a schoolboy all over again. So he grabbed Harry and tried to shake a


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little sense into him big deal, his parents had done that to him and more and he came out all right. Whatwas really irking him was the fact that Snivellous of all people was allowed to pick Harry up. But heflinched back when his godfather barely touched his shoulder. He shook his head, how dare that greasy

bat brainwash Harry like that. Everyone knew that the hatred between Harry and Snape was mutualwasnt it? How could Harry choose Snivellous over him? He chanced a glance at Moony whose glarewas burning a hole through his skull. He was trying to come up with an explanation for Moony when ananguish sound from the werewolf made him stop short.

Why, Padfoot?

Why what Moony?

Why did you hurt Harry?

I didnt mean too, he just wasnt listening to me.

Oh and I supposed grabbing him like that made him listen to you? Right, Ill bet the boy couldnt evenmove because your grip was too tight, Moody gruffly replied.

You guys dont understand at all, Harry wasnt acting like James son.

How could he know how his father acted, he never even knew the man, Minerva answered.I hope toMerlin that you didnt tell him that, Moony angrily replied.

Of course I did, he needed to know that he wasnt acting like a Potter.

You idiot, how stupid can you be Padfoot?

Remus saw red at Siriuss answer, was he trying to break the child? Unconsciously he drew his left armback as his hand molded into a fist; as he walked toward Sirius. He felt a strange gleam of satisfaction as

he swiftly punched his best friend in the face. Ignoring the gasps behind him, he turned around withoutanother glance to see if his friend was ok and walked out of the now silent room.

Everyone in the room was gaping at the man on the floor, who was knocked out from the blow. Eachwondering if Remus was ok, the usually quiet and non-violent man has just punched one of his closestfriends in the face. Shaking their heads, they silently headed to the kitchen for refreshments.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~Hogwarts~*~*~*~*

Albus what is going on? What did you really want to talk to me about? Surely those bruises on Harrysarms were not accidental, is that what you truly believe?

No Severus, I am aware of what you have to do to achieve that kind of bruising. What I wish to talk toyou about is Harrys metal health at this point. He seems to semi-trust you to keep him safe, so Iwondering if you could help the child come to terms with Siriuss mistake?

Why would you ask me of all people Albus? Whats wrong with the wolf?

I dont think Remus could help him like you can Severus.

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Severus watched the old wizard sigh deeply before covering his face with one hand. The gesture wasso unlike Albus that it made him feel a bit guarded.

What is it Albus? Severus asked gently.

I made an error, where I placed Harry for the last 15 years.

What do you mean? Severus asked cautiously.

I placed him with Lilys sister Petunia, and I thought she would love him like her own son but I wasmistaken.

You placed Potter with her? But you told me he was with his grandparents, you lied to me. I told youhow Petunia was as a child, and yet you still put Lilys son with her? Are you mad old man?

Severus the blood wards were stronger with her and her son, and anyways his grandparents died 1month later.

They were probably heartbroken; they had just lost their daughter and son-in-law and then find out thattheir daughters will was ignored. How did she treat Lilys son?

Not liked I hoped at all.

How did she treat Lilys son?

She let her husband handle Harry; yes the same way your handled you.

And how long have you known about it? Because so help me if you knew and kept sending him backyear after year, Im resigning right now.

I only knew that he wasnt happy, Arabella informed me of this past summer. Trust me when I say that Ideeply regret not checking in on him, but back to the matter at hand. Will you help him Severus?

I cant just turn my back on the child now can I? So many people have already; I walked in on a bit oftheir conversation back in my quarters. They were trying to figure out why everyone wanted to hurtPotter, what child asks that Albus?

I know my dear boy, I know.

I should head back and see what theyre doing. I wasnt planning on staying here this year for winterbreak, so perhaps I could help him when I get back.

I dont think that would be the best plan Severus, this was the first year where no students were stayingand most of the teachers if not all are gone. The magic here wouldnt protect the boy very well, andanything could happen.

No Albus, Im not taking him. I agreed to help him but I never agreed to take care of him.

Severus you must or hes going to have to go back to Grimmald place.

Are you serious, you would send a child back to an abusive household?

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But he would still be able to see him you mean. Fine Ill take him, what am I to do with him when I goback to the meeting today?

Nothing, he will be fine in your quarters with Ron.

Alright, Ill see you in a little bit.

Severus flooed to his quarters to find the boys sitting at the kitchen table playing with their food; they

looked up at his arrival but didnt say anything.

I have an order meeting to go to, so you are both to stay here at Hogwarts in my quarters. Dont goanywhere and dont get into any trouble while Im gone.

Why do we have to stay here? Ron whined.

Did you really want Potter to go back to Grimmald place?

No way in hell is he going back, Ron replied angrily.

I didnt think so Mr. Weasley. When I come back Mr. Potter, the Headmaster and I wish to talk to youabout where you are to stay for the rest of the Christmas holidays.

Wait, could you please bring my stuff back Professor? Harry quietly asked.

I will Potter, Severus replied.

Harry watched as Snape flooed away, and he turned to Ron and grinned. He figured they had at least 2hours to kill, and he really wanted some chocolate to cheer him up.

Are we really going to stay here Harry? Ron giving up on his dinner, for once he wasn't hungry.

Hey Ron, do you fancy a trip to Honeydukes? Harry asked with a sly smile.

To be continued...

End Notes:

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Author's Notes:

And I really wanted this to be a Two-shot lol..enjoy guys let me know if you haveideas on what you want to happen and I'll add it into the story somehow

Severus arrived at the Orders quarters a few minutes after Albus, and he headed straight for thewolf who was glaring daggers into the unconcious man on the floor. Wait what? Why was Blackknocked out and who did it? Severus shook his head, and his lips twitched he wanted to be the one to dothat, after all the man deserved it for how he hurt Harry. When did Potter become Harry anyway? Heinterrupted his musings by touching the wolfs shoulder and tilting his head to the left before he walkedout the room. He waited in the sitting room for about a half a minute before Lupin appeared.

How is he Severus? How is Harry?

As well as anyone can be I guess, hes still scared if thats what your asking. He wanted me to retrievehis things, but seeing as I dont know which room was his I need your help.

He doesnt want to stay here anymore?

Open your eyes wolf, of course he doesnt want to stay here. Can you blame him?

No I cant, sorry Severus that was a stupid question. Ill get his things now.

Thank you Lupin, Severus sighed like it pained him to admit such a thing.

No problem, anything for Harry, he replied before walking out the room.

He headed back into the meeting room, with his trademark scowl on his face. So many people had thingsthey needed to answer for, himself included. He disliked the child immensely but he would never hurthim or any other child no matter how annoying they could get. What the hell provoked Black to the pointwhere he resulted to physical violence? Maybe he could ask Harry when he got back to Hogwarts, sothey could get to the bottom of this. He noticed that no one seemed to care about the man on the floor,they just stepped over him if they needed to pass by. He watched as Albus finally took pity on the manand enervated him, and the meeting finally started.

~*~*~*~*~*Hogwarts~*~*~*~*

Harry I know I didnt want to stay locked up in Snapes quarters either, but maybe we shouldnt go to

Hogsmeade. I mean think of what hell do to us if we get caught, and what if he comes back to Hogwartsearly? Ron asked, as they entered the secret passage way to Honeydukes.

He wont Ron, jeez you really are starting to sound just like Hermione.

I am not, I only wanted to point out that we dont have the cloak, and anything could happen Harry bereasonable. We could always have some fun in the Room of Requirment.

I am Ron, I just wanted some chocolate and to feel happy is all. But we can go back if you really dontwant to do this, Harry replied warily.


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Theres no point mate, were already here, lets just get the stuff and get back ok? Ron replied sighingin defeat.

Cool, thanks mate youre the best, Harry replied as he scampered out the passage way.

As soon as they entered the shop Ron forgot all about Snape, especially when Harry grabbed his handand gave him 10 galleons before running off to get his own treats. Not feeling bad or ashamed in theslightest he started picking out his treats. They lost track of the time, due to the amounts of candy that

grabbed their attention. As they were finally leaving Ron took a look at his wristwatch and and groanedthey had wasted an 1 hour and a half in the shop, Snape could be back now or any minute. He was goingto kill them if he got back and they werent in his quarters. Pulling Harry by the hand they ran throughthe passage way back to the castle, and back down to the dungeons. They stood gasping from their run infront of Snapes door and looked at one another in horror, how in the heck were they supposed to get

back in when they didnt even know the password? They were so screwed, oh well that couldnt behelped now. Sitting down in front of the door, they opened their candy bags and tasted a few. Hoping thatthe man wouldnt kill them at least.

~*~*~*~Grimmauld Place~*~*~*~

Severus frowned at the poor excuse for the man across the table, how dare he lay a hand on Lilys childand then try to pretend it was nothing? He was no worse then those muggles, at least he accepted that hewas deliberatly mean to the child because of who his father was. It doesnt excuse either of them, norAlbus for placing him with Petunia for the last 15 years. He couldnt even imagine the amount of damageshe had done to the boy, it was a wonder the boy was still functioning after all their abuse. The meetingwas over after he had given his report and was just about to floo when the mutt grabbed his shoulder. Hewas already not in the mood, just having found out about Potters home life, if Black didnt remove hishand from his person he would not and could not be responsible for his actions.

What did you do to Harry you greasy git?

I took him away like he asked, because unlike you I dont harm children. No matter who their fathersare or how much they annoy me.

Right so you say that now, I know and everyone else knows how much you hate my godson.

Oh yes I bet they do. But I bet none of them will ever accuse me of laying my hand on him now willthey? Why did you hurt Potter? What could he have possibly done to annoy you so much to the pointwhere you resulted to physical violence?

As if you didnt know, this is all your fault.

I fail to see how I am at fault here. Severus calmly replied, he was confused if anything.

He was defending you, of all people you. Not James or me like he should have. Why would he do thatunless you did something to him?

What are you insinuating Black? Why would Potter defend me?

He did though, about how we treated you in school. He called us bullies, that he could see why youtreated him like you do. He sympathized with you, why would he turn on his father and godfather for agit like you? I know you brainwashed him, you did something for him to think that.


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Is that what you really believe? Then you really are just as hopeless like I thought. If you must knowyour godson was a victim of bullying, and Im pretty sure he was ashamed to notice how similar hisfather was to his cousin. I suggest you remove your arm from my shoulder if you wish to retain the use ofit.

I dont believe that, Harry wasnt bullied. And I know for a fact that you did something to him, I justcant prove it. Youre a deatheater, hes probably being imperioed.

You sound like a fool Black, do you not hear yourself? Listen to the nonsense spouting from yourmouth for once.

Severus tried to shrug his shoulders to remove the mans arm but he refused to let go. He never like beingtouched, years of living with an abusive father could do that to a person. He took his hand and pushed thearm away from him and turned to walk away from the man but he really couldnt take a hint. He couldsee Harrys trunk waiting by the floo, and he headed for it. He was grabbed again and this time hereacted without thinking, but then again the man was warned. It was reflex really, his left hand shot outand twisted the man's arm. But before Black could think of reacting Severus's right fist landed smack in

beetween in the mans eyes and down he went. There was gasps from around the room and he could seeAlbus looking at him in disappointment but he didnt care for once. He did not like his personal space

invaded, everyone in this room including the man on the floor knew it. He looked around for the wolf,wanting to avoid a confrontation with him, when he saw him smirking at him from his post in thedoorway.

Dont let Albus make you feel bad Severus, guess who knocked him out the first time?

Severus nodded and hurriedly turned around, it wouldnt do for them to see the wide grin that seem totake over his entire face. Taking the trunk and shrinking it he flooed back to Hogwarts.

~*~*~*~*~*Hogwarts outside Snapes Quarters~*~*~*~*

Do you think hes back yet? Ron asked as he shoved his remaining treats into his robe pockets.

I dont know, can you hear anything inside? Harry asked swallowing a chocolate frog.

I dont know, maybe we should knock on the door? Ron asked finally.

You do it, you dont really think hell kill us do you? Harry asked a bit worried.

Hide your sweets Harry, this is Snape were talking about. I think I just heard the floo. Oh man, getready, Ron replied already cringing away.

~*~*~*~Severuss Quarters~*~*~*~

He knew the minute he landed in his quarters that something wasnt right, and one glance around provedit. They were gone, trying to hold in his temper before he did anything rash he looked around at least fora note. Of course there wasnt one, resisting the urge to curse he took out his wand and did a point mespell. It led him to the front door, he opened it to find the two boys scrambling back on their feet fromwhere they were sitting on the floor. They looked fine, but what were they doing outside when hespecifically told them to stay inside.

Get inside, your very lucky that Umbridge doesnt come down to the dungeons often. What were youdoing, I thought I told you to stay inside?


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Its not your fault I startled you, Severus answered calmly.

When am I going back sir?

Excuse me?

When do I have to go back with Sirius I mean?

You dont, unless Im mistaken and you want too?

No I dont, but you didnt bring my trunk back. So I thought I had to stay there.

The Headmaster would never allow you to stay somewhere where someone was hurting you.

Of course not sir, Harry replied sarcastically and in disbelief, then why did he have to stay with theDurselys?

Fine, I would never allow it then. You wont be going back, be it Blacks or the Durselys.

Harry was now gaping slack jawed at the man across from him, how did he find out about that? He was

able to hide most of his memories from his childhood but who told him about the Durselys? Was it Ron?No, one look at his face and he could tell that he was just as surprised as Harry was.

I dont know what your talking about sir, Harry whispered.

I think you do Potter, but I still meant what I said. You will not be going back to either. Now comealong, were about to have dinner.

Harry headed to the table with Ron in beetween Snape and himself and they sat down. He wasntabout to touch anything until both his mate and Professor served themselves first, that was how he wastaught. But they both stared at him, when he made no move to grab the food.

Not here Harry, you dont wait and get the leftovers. If you wont do it, Ill serve you myself, Ronreplied knowingly said and grabbed his plate.

Thanks Ron but I can do it, Harry answered head down.

Dont worry about it, just eat for once.

Severus watched them quietly interact while he served himself. Those muggles had a lot to pay for,Albus was right this child was inches away from a breakdown. He didnt know if he was the adequate

person to care for him at the moment. Damn Albus for putting this on his shoulders.

50 points from Gryffindor each for your reckless behavior and 2 weeks worth of detention when classesresume, for not listening to your Professor when you were told to stay put.

The twin glares he received as he finished his dinner was well worth it, their behavior was not to berewarded no matter what Albus said.

Hurry up and eat, because we will be leaving in 30 minutes.

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You Mr. Weasely is going back to Grimmauld Place.

What about Harry?

Mr. Potter will be staying with me at my home.

No, he cant Ron trailed off in horror.

Harry tuned the conversation out, once again he was getting foisted off onto a person who resented hisvery existent. Was the Headmaster trying to kill him before he reached majority? Why did he have tostay with Snape of all people? He couldnt help but feel like he was getting punished for something else.He was going to be alone with Snape for the next 2 and half weeks and who knows what the man may doto him. Harry kept his head down, he knew from the tone of voice that no amount of arguing was goingto help. He wished Ron could come along too, he didnt want to be alone with Snape. What if he gotreally angry at Harry and decided to hurt him too? He did not like Adult males for a reason, they always

prove him right.

Are you sure I cant stay with anyone else sir?

No Mr. Potter, there isnt anyone else.

Not even the Weaseleys?

No, the Burrow doesnt have the protective wards like my Manor does.

Can I just go back to the Durselys then? Harry asked dejectedly.

Are you mad Harry? You would rather go back to the muggles then Snape? What the bloody hellmate?

Yes Mr. Potter please enlighten me on that one. Why in the world would you want to go back into anabusive house, when Im offering you a safe alternative?

Because you can always hurt me too, at least with the Durselys I wont be walking on eggshells on whatto expect he thought. The panic feeling came back, and he wondered if anyone else felt like they had nocontrol over their own lives. Harry shook his head, the corners of his eyes were getting dark spots inthem, and he could see Ron talking to him but he couldnt hear him. Who turned off the sound? He wasgetting dizzy what was going on?

Breathe Potter, you foolish boy. Severus yelled.

Harry calm down, Merlin what the hell is wrong with him? Ron asked.

Panic attack Weasley, surely you can see whats in front of you.

I knew that, but why is he having one now? What set this one off?

I do not know, maybe if he calms down we can ask. Severus replied finally get up from the table tohelp Harry.

Harry, calm down your safe. No one here is going to hurt you I promise.

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arms. This boy needed nutritive potions at the very least he was as light as a 2nd year. He cradled himlike he did earlier and spoke soothing words in his ears to calm him down.

Harry was feeling like a baby, so embarrassed that this was the 2nd time in 24 hours that he panickedand was once again in Snapes arms. What was wrong with him? Why did this keep happening? He wasgiving the man plenty of things to use against him, and when he did that who was going to save Harrythen?

Ron looked on in amazement, potion in his hand but he wasnt going to move from his position. Theway his Professor handled Harrys attack was so reminicent of his parents care for him, he didnt wantto disturb this precious moment. This was good Harry needed Snape, and from the looks of it Snapeneeded Harry too.

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Harry came back around the minute he felt someone elses heartbeating in his ear, the roaring in his earsdulled to background noise as he took a shaky breath. It was the familiar smell of potions that broughthim back down to earth. Why was he in Snapes arms again? Oh shoot, stupid panic attack again, hehated these things. Was it wrong that he relished in the protective arms around him? He didnt want tomove, he didnt want this safety to diminish when he left his Professors arms. Oh well, hed better move

before the man remembered who he was holding and dropped him like a sack of potatoes. But just thethought of moving was starting to make him panic all over again, and the arms around him tightened.

Youre fine Harry, you dont have to move just yet. Severus murmured quietly when he felt Harry shifthis weight.

Where was Weasely with that calming draught? Blasted boy, was he being deliberately obtuse? A partof him didnt actually seem to mind that he was still holding the 15 year old. The rational part of hisbrain tried to excuse his behavior and convince himself that he continued holding him only so he couldhelp ward off incoming panic attacks. Even then he couldnt ignore the warm strange feeling in his chestat that thought.

Heres the potion sir, will Harry be allowed to owl me? Ron asked quietly.

Thank you, and yes he will Mr. Weasley, why do you ask?

Because I think its time I leave now sir, Ron replied.

Dont you wish to say goodbye?

Ill see you in a few weeks time mate, or sooner if Im allowed to visit you. Harry and I cant believeIm saying this but just listen to Snape for once ok? Ron replied rubbing Harrys back gently beforeflooing to the Burrow.

Severus maneuvered the boy in his arms and lifted the vial to his lips for him to drink. Whether it befrom the potion or exhaustion Harry was out like a light. He set the boy down and cleaned up his quarters

before picking him up and flooing to Snape Manor. He had never want to bring Potter to his house and heknew that if he hadnt found out about the childs home life he would have given him the worst room and

treated him awful. But now he knew the truth, and with his shatter perceptions he couldnt do that now,not without breaking the already fragile child. Setting the boy in one of the guest rooms he couldnt

believe what he was about to do. Changing the rooms colors to that of a Gryffindor, he laid the boydown and transfigured his clothes to pajamas before he put him to bed. Not ready to go to bed himselfSeverus went to work on some of his potions that needed to be done.

Harry woke up the next morning, refreshed for some reason. He couldnt remember the last time he sleptthat good with no nightmares. He sat up and glanced around the room and gasped in horror. Why was he

back at Grimmauld Place? Snape promised that he would never go back there, then why was he therenow? What was he going to do, what if Sirius came in here and wanted to talk? Shaking his head, heopened his trunk and quickly got dressed before grabbing his wand and invisibility cloak. As he was


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opening the door he heard footsteps coming up the hall, he covered himself with the cloak and hid on theother side of the bed, opposite the window. Tears were coming into his eyes as he tried to stop the sobsfrom the stab of hurt betrayal he felt for being left here with Sirius, when Snape opened the door. Waitwhat was Snape doing here?

Potter, are you in here? Severus asked looking around the room for the boy.

Im here sir, Harry whispered sniffling.

I dont see you Potter, Severus replied getting annoyed.

Oh sorry sir, Harry answered before taking off the cloak.

Why were you hiding under your cloak? And why are you crying?

I thought I was back in Grimmauld Place, Sirius had decorated my room there just like this.

Did I not tell you that you wouldnt be returning there? Severus asked frowning.

Words dont mean a thing to me, they can always change. Harry responded wearily.

You have my word Potter that you will not be returning back there. I promise, and I do not take mypromises lightly.

Yes sir

Are you hungry?

Yes sir

Come downstairs to the kitchen. After breakfast we need to go over the rules that I expect you to

follow.

Yes sir

Harry waited until Snape had left the room to hide his cloak and wand in his trunk. There really was nopoint for him to carry it around if he couldnt even use it, he headed downstairs not wanting to make histeacher angry if he arrived late. Sitting down for breakfast was a very quiet affair. His plate was alreadyserved, but he waited for Snape to start before he took a bite which caused his Professor to turn his darkeyes on Harry. It was unnerving to have those eyes look at you, especially since he knew his teacher wasvery proficient in Legilimency so he kept his eyes down. He didnt notice his teacher had even gotten upuntil he saw something dark out the corner of his eye. Why was the man standing so close to him?

Sir, can you please back up? Harry softly asked.

Excuse me Mr. Potter, could you repeat that?

Trying to prevent the panic attack he knew was coming, Harry got up from the table himself andwalked to the furthest wall away from his teacher. He was trying to put as much distance between themas possible so he could feel comfortable. The man was watching him intently again, and his eyesimmediately met the floor. He could feel the mans gaze on him but no contact was never allowed at theDursely house, and Snape always got mad when Harry did it at school. It just seemed this was the safest


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way to stay on his good side.Severus just stared at the child, what happened to the fearless Gryffindor,the defiant child. The meek and scared child in front of him was not Potter, or was this the real him thathe has just been hiding all these years?

Come into the sitting room Potter, like I said before we are going over the rules.

Harry dragged his feet and followed Snape; he really didnt want to have this talk. He didnt plan ondoing anything to make the man angry like Sirius; he was going to just be. Whether he was by himself

the entire break he didnt care, just as long as he didnt get hit. Snape went over the usual rules thateveryones houses have and he wasnt about to go exploring in this mans house not if he wanted to seethe new year.

Am I allowed to fly sir?

You can, just pay attention to the wards around the property. If you ignore them the warning signalswill not be pleasant for you.

Thinking that the man was leaving the room Harry allowed himself to relax for a moment. He droppedhis face into his hands and sighed, what was going to happen to him this coming summer? As much as he

disliked the man he hoped he would be able to stay here then as well, but would Snape even want himaround? He grabbed his broom from his room and headed outside to clear his head with a good fly. Harryhad been flying for an hour when Snape called him in, he shook his head it was getting way to dark to seeanyway. Walking in the house he didnt know what he was supposed to do so he went to his room. It wasalways a good idea to stay out of sight at the Durselys and he was giving Snape that same consideration.He changed into his pajamas and got into bed, despite his nap a few hours before he fell asleepinstantly.

Severus was drinking tea in the sitting room; he didnt know where the boy was after he had called himto come. He assumed the child would want to have some tea but he guess he was wrong. Here he wastrying to do a good thing and he ended up making it worse, maybe tomorrow he could ask Potter what

color he wanted him room to be. Shaking his head at that thought he got back to his reading.

Harry woke up the next morning to darkness and one look at his clock showed that he was up way toearly. It was another night without nightmares for which he was grateful he knew that they were going toreturn, he just hoped they would when he was back at Hogwarts and not here. He got his things and tooka quick shower, careful not to use a lot of hot water and he got dressed. Eating breakfast with theProfessor was silent and awkward and he found himself eating quickly and escusing himself to hide inhis room.

Tired of staring at the ceiling he looked at the clock and saw that lunch would probably be in an hour. Hewent to the kitchen and found the necessary items he needed to make lunch and he got to work.

Maybe if he showed the man how helpful he could be, he would think about taking Harry next summer.He stopped for a second as he contemplated that thought, since when did he want to stay with Snape. Bythe time his Professor came downstairs lunch was ready and Harry was sitting down at the table waitingfor him. He saw shock register in his teachers face before his expression went back to unreadable,resisting the urge to smile Harry bit the inside of his cheek.

Good Morning Professor

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Oh, I learned at an early age sir.

What age was that?

I was 4 sir, Harry softly said.

I see, Severus replied before sitting down and filling his plate.

He took a good look at the boy across from him, if he was being honest with himself he honestlydidnt know the child across from him, never mind the fact that hes been teaching him for almost 5 yearsnow. What kind of people makes a 4 year old cook, they arent even supposed to be near the stove at thatage. He didnt like the way the boy refused to touch his food before he touched his, it unnerved him.

Potter, why do you that? He finally asked.

Do what sir?

You dont reach for your food, until after everyone has grabbed for theirs first. Why do you do that? Areyou deliberatly wanting to have the leftovers?

Harry was horrified, his fork halfway to his mouth stopped in mid air. How in the heck was hesupposed to answer this without making a fool of himself. The Durselys always served him last and if heever ate before them they would take away the food. The question was simple, would Snape do the samething once he found out?

I dont know what you mean sir, Harry softly said.

When we were in my quarters yesterday Mr. Weasley had to serve you because you wouldnt touch itunless we had first. Now Im watching you and you wouldnt even pick up your fork until I had tastedmy own food. Are you being intentionally obtuse?Harry sighed, the man just couldnt drop it could he?

Guess he would have to tell him a bit of the truth, it couldnt be that bad could it?

The Durselys didnt like it when I ate before them, so I had to wait until they got what they wanted, thenmaybe I could eat. Sometimes they would take it all so I couldnt eat, and then dump in the trash after,they didnt know I would take from the rubbish sometimes. Harry said the last part so softly he wasntsure Snape had heard him, but then again everyone knew that Snape was part bat.

Severus was livid, and he struggled to rein in his temper it would do no good for the child to misinterprethis anger especially since he knew how terrified he was of adult males. It didnt take a genius to figurethat one out, the boy nearly crashed the table in an effort to get away from him yesterday. Occluding hisemotions away he settled for his blank mask before nodding to the child and returning to his own food.

He didnt miss the look of blatant relief in those green eyes and once again he found himself wonderingif anyone had really known the really Harry Potter.

He watched as the boy dug back into his food with gutso, as soon as he realized Severus wasnt askinghim anything else. The boy was so sensitive, he didnt want to put him off eating so he refrained fromcommenting on anything else. As the boy reached for his glass of pumpkin juice Severus saw a flash ofsomething on his hand that made his insides clench. He found himself involuntarily calling the boy by hisgiven name.

Harry what the hell is that on your hand?


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Author's Notes:

Sorry about that cliffhanger...I hope this makes it up to you...and if not then thenext one will. I know you guys were waiting for Severus to find out about the

blood quill and plot his revenge..I promise thats next chapter. I dont know whathappen but Harry and Sev had a mind of their own lol.

Harry instantly froze and followed his teachers dark gaze where he was staring murderously at his hand.He flinched horribly when his teachers harsh tone interrupted the silence. The scar from Umbridgesdetention was red and it stood out against his pale skin. He found himself unconsciously pulling his handto his lap so Snape wouldnt stare at it. But that only led the mans gaze to his own eyes, and he foundhimself unable to look away from the stare. His brow furrowed in confusion, Snape actually had a lookof concern on his face for once. Harry shook his head, trying to figure out what got into his teacher. Whyin the world did the man call him Harry?

This whole situation was baffling, and he no longer knew where he stood in regards to the man across

from him. Did the man really want to know what happen to his hand, or was he simply asking to taunthim? Surely he and Dumbledore knew what was happening, he had tried to tell his Head of House andher answer told him, that she at least knew what was going on. But she had yet to do a damn thing to savethem.

Are you going to answer me Harry? What is that on your hand? Severus finally asked again.

What are you talking about sir? Harry asked feigning confusion, but he should have known that lyingwas a lost cause.

The scar that you are trying to hide from me on your left hand. Severus stated matter factly.

Oh, I just got them from detention sir, Harry whispered trying to appear casual but failing terribly.

Whose detentions caused that? Snape hissed angrily, wondering which teacher would dare tophysically harm a child?

Harry was hunching into himself, wondering why the man was so angry. He was staring wide eyed at histeacher who was too caught up in his anger to see what kind of distress he was causing the boy. If he had

been paying attention he would have been able to see what was going to happen next.Show me yourhand Potter, Snape stated loudly and angrily through gritted teeth. Severus knew immediately when hefirst saw the scar, that a blood quill was responsible. The question was who dared to use such a dark

artifact on a student and at Hogwarts no less. They had to have known this wouldnt stay a secret forlong, and there would be hell to pay when Albus Dumbledore learned of yet another injustice to hisfavorite student. Hadnt the child suffered enough?

The minute Snape asked to see the scar Harry flinched nearly falling out of his chair. Before hisProfessor could say a word he had bolted from the table, he had no idea where he was running to but heneeded to get away from here. Was Snape going to blame him for this, and accuse him of wantingattention? Why did his teacher yell at him? He didnt care to hear anything the man might have to sayabout him being spoiled and therefore deserving this punishment so he kept running. He ended up in astrange corridor in a part of the Manor he had never been in, and he wished with all his heart that he wasat the Burrow with Ron and his family. Before he could do anything else he found himself being pulled


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at his naval similar to a portkey and he vanished from the Manor.

Severus groaned loudly at his blunder and berated himself for his own stupidity. Didnt he just remindhimself that the boy was wary of adult males, and he had gone and scared him off. He needed the child tounderstand that Snape wasnt mad at him but just the person who hurt him. How long could the childkeep getting hurt before his already fragile mind broke? He followed the boy, who seemed to just berunning to get away and had no clue where he was going. He stopped when the wards around his housesignaled to let him know someone had just apparated out from inside the Manor. He and Harry were the

only ones here, when did the child learn to apparate and where the hell did he go?

Harry landed in the middle of the kitchen where the Weasleys were eating lunch. They all stared wideeyed at each other, and for the first time ever the Burrow was so silent you could hear a pin drop. How inthe heck did he get here? He remembers wishing he was with Ron, and then suddenly he was here. Thesilence drudged on making Harry feel stupid for landing here in the first place. He shook his head; hedidnt know where to go. He didnt belong anywhere, and he never should have come here. He wished hewas at Hogwarts with Dobby at least the little elf would know how to make him smile if anything. But hedidnt go anywhere, why wasnt anyone talking. He could hear his breaths quickening and that seemed tosnap Ron out of the trance, because he got up and put an arm around his shoulder.

Calm down Harry, you just startled us. No dont you dare think that we didnt want you here it was justa strange surprise. How did you get here anyway?

I didnt mean too, I wasnt trying to ruin your family gathering. Ill just floo back to the Manor. Harryreplied already heading for the fireplace, this was horrible idea, and he struggled not to cry from all thehurt he was feeling.

He should have just stayed with Sirius and pretended that nothing ever happened. He knew that wouldhave worked, hes been doing it with the Durselys for the majority of his life. Deep down he knew it waswrong, but he ignored it, he knew in his heart that he really was an unwanted child. After all that wasonly the first time and it could have been an accident for all he knew. His godfather must hate him for

squealing on him. Maybe he should just go back and apologize to him that would work right? He reachedfor the canister on the mantle but it was accioed away before he could touch it. He turned around to glareat whoever took it and found himself, pressed into the chest of Mrs. Weasley. He stiffened at the touch,

but then he seemed to melt in it, and he found himself trying not to cry. Ron really didnt know howlucky he was, what he wouldnt give for someone who could love him like his mum did for him.

Harry dear, it was a lovely surprise. I didnt know you could apparate though, you should have told meyou were coming, and I would have set an extra plate. No one is angry with you dear; you do not have toleave.

Harry didnt answer, but he tried to remove himself from the embrace. The longer she held him theharder it was to hold in his tears, and he found himself trying to stifle his sobs. She seemed to know whathe was trying to prevent but she wouldnt let go, no matter how hard he pulled away. Finally the tearscame and he found himself weeping into her apron, all the while she rocked him. For a moment heallowed himself to pretend that this was his mum, and she loved him no matter what.

Severus was beside himself, on the verge of what his students refer to as freaking out. Where did thatblasted child go? He forced himself to calm down and think rationally. He wasnt at Grimmauld Place;he knew that for a fact, that only left Hogwarts and the Burrow. You couldnt apparate into Hogwarts sohe had a hunch he was with the Weasleys. He grabbed the floo powder and landed in the sitting room.The only ones in the room was Ron, his mum and Harry. He stopped short when he saw Harry sobbing


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into Mollys arms as she rocked him.

His heart throb painfully in his chest as the boys cries threatened to overwhelm him. He found himselfwalking towards them, without a second thought. Soon he was directly behind the boy who still had noidea he was even there. He didnt know what had compelled him to come over to them but he couldnthelp but wish that was him who was comforting Harry. Before he could say a thing Molly had turnedPotter around and maneuvered the boy into his arms. It was instinct and he grabbed the boy firmly, andfelt Harrys tears soak his outer robe. He never noticed Weasely and his mum leaving them alone, nor did

he hear them put a silencing charm around the room. He was so focused on the broken boy in his arms,why was he crying so hard? What else must this child go through? Did Harry even realize who washolding him now? When he found out would he stay or pull away? Severus was surprised to find that hewould be hurt if the boy jerked away from him.

Harry felt himself getting yanked away from the warmth of Mrs. Weasley and the first thing that camethrough his head, was that she had gotten tired of him hugging her. He was so stupid he never shouldhave let her have her way. But that wasnt it; he knew when he smelled the calming scent of dreamlesssleep on the robes in front of him that his Professor had come for him. How did he know where he was?Why did he come after him if he was angry with him? Was this all just for show? He couldnt stophimself from gripping the man tighter, and didnt care what happened later but he needed this now. He

couldnt process his thoughts quick enough, and for the moment it didnt matter. When the Professorhugged him like this, it almost made him feel cherished that somebody wanted him.

But he knew that it wasnt true, he was the boy-who-lived nobody wanted him, they just wanted asavior. Severus picked the boy up; once again shocked at how light he was and how small he fit into hisarms. He walked into the kitchen to inform Molly of them leaving. He grabbed the floo powder andheaded back to his house. He was about to set the boy down when a quick look at the childs face,showed that he had cried himself to sleep. Oh well tomorrow was a new day, he would ask him about thequill, and why he ran then. Even thouh it was only after 3:00pm he knew that the child would probablysleep well into the night. He carried the boy to his room and dressed him for bed, before tucking thecovers around him. He spelled his room just in case the boy needed him in the night. Unconsciously hefound himself carding his hand through the messy mop of black hair. He stopped when he felt Harrymove his head, but he was only leaning into his touch. There was an unidentified sensation in his chest; ithad been a long time since he had felt this particular emotion. Not since Lily had he felt this for another

person, it was love. His heart swelled as he pondered that thought, before bent down and lightly brushedhis lips against the childs forehead before walking out of the room. But not before speaking softly to the

boy on the bed;

Goodnight my child.

Harry waited until the door was firmly closed before taking his fingers and softly brushing them across

his forehead where he was sure the man had kissed him. Did that really happen? He could still feel hisProfessors hand in his hair, the action was really soothing. Of course it happened he had even heard theman call him his child, did he really mean that? Harry wished it could be true, and he slowly closed hiseyes. He found himself replying back to the mans parting words; after all it was ok to pretend right?

Goodnight Dad.

He whispered in the darkness before rolling over and falling asleep. He fell asleep with a smile on hisface, imagining Snape once again carding his hands through his hair.

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Author's Notes:

Sorry for that bad timeline last Chapter..I went back and fixed it, this is longoverdue and really not the best Chapter but I needed to get something on here.

Happy New Year

Harry woke up the next morning in his room, with a goofy smile on his face. He remembered quiteclearly was Snape had whispered to him, and he was extremely pleased. His smile faded into inembarrassment as he remembered the rest of the day, running away from Snape to the Weasleys who heknew didnt appreciate him crashing their meal. He groaned in frustration, when would he stop makingsuch a fool of himself? He stilled when he heard knocking on his closed door.

Potter time to get up, breakfast is in 10 minutes and after that we need to talk.

Harry slowly got out of bed, he exactly what his teacher wanted to talk about but he did not want to

deal with this conversation. What could he say to the man? Well sir I ran away because I was afraidthat you were going to somehow blame the scar on my hand from me wanting attention? Oh yes thatwould go over smoothly with the Slytherin, he could see it now. Shaking his head he quickly got dressedin his best clothes which wasnt saying much, and headed downstairs.

Sitting across from the man at the table, Harry couldnt find a trace of the person who comfortedhim last night. He glared angrily at his food, of course he couldnt this was Snape and the man was a spyHow did he know that the man wasnt trying to trick him? Harry was confused and hurt; he hated thefeeling of helplessness that he felt in his situation. Trying to eat as slowly as possible wasnt an option,not unless he wanted the man angry at him this early in the morning. He sighed before walking towardsthe sitting room.

Trying to prevent his self from panicking over nothing he thought about what Hermione was doing at thisvery moment. He didnt have long to wonder, because Snape walked in and sat across from him in achair.

Severus could tell the child across from him, was tensed and frightened. Trying to talk to him yesterdaywas futile because he lost him temper and the boy ran away. If he couldnt get anything out of the boyfrom this talk, he would contact Weasley surely the boy and his brothers knew something about the scar.

Ok Potter, why did you run from me yesterday? Severus asked deliberately keeping his tone light andcalm.

Harry raised an eyebrow in confusion; this is what the man wants to talk about? He was sure he wasgoing to get question about Umbridges detentions.

You were yelling at me, Harry replied simply.

I was yelling yes, but not at you. I was angry that someone had used a dark artifact in Hogwarts and noone knew about it. Why havent you told one of your Professors?"

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I can assure that you are wrong Potter. If the Headmistress knew something like this was going on, shewould have stopped it by now.

Harry shook his head; there really was no reasoning or explaining to this man. Especially if your namewas Harry Potter, the man like his relatives assumed he was a liar. There really wasnt anything else tosay on this subject now was there? Time for him to move the conversation back to where it was itstarted.

Severus watched the boys face blank over, he never knew Potter could hide his emotions well,especially if Occulmency was anything to go by. Just thinking about the last lesson made his angerbubble, but fear would not help the boy at all. Yesterday was proof of that.

How long have you been able to apparate Potter?

Harry was getting confused, why was the man jumping over the topics like that? What the heck wasapparition was that what he did yesterday?

What is apparition sir?

When you went from my Manor to the Weasleys, was a form of wizard transportation. How long haveyou been able to do it? Usually you arent allowed to become licensed in it until you are age, but youPotter has once again surpassed the odds.

I dont know sir; I was just wishing that I was with Ron yesterday.

Oh I see accidental magic then that explains it all. Severus answered looking thoughtful.Besides mescaring you yesterday, why did you try to hide your hand from me? You said Minerva knows, but when Icountered that remark, you pulled a mask over your face. Would you care to explain what that wasabout?

Harry shook his head; no he didnt care to explain anything to the man in front of him. Maybe if Snapewas as gentle as he was last night then Harry could talk to him.

Severus sighed he knew that the boy wasnt going to explain anymore on that particular topic anytimesoon. His trusts in adults were fragile at best, what was Dumbledore thinking? Severus was inadequatefor this job; Potter was not like any of his snakes. No he was worse, Severus thought. He hid his abusefor the past 5 years with no one the wiser. How could he help the child when it didnt see like he wouldaccept it from the man who gave him hell for the last few years?

Forget my previous question; Ill talk to Minerva myself. The Headmaster thinks that you need to talk tosomeone about the Durselys. Severus stated switching topics once again.

And you think youre the right person for the job? Harry sneered very similar to Snape although hedidnt know it.

No, Albus volunteered me for the job. Severus asked willing his lips not to twitch at the expression onthe boys face.

Why did you say yes then? We both know you hate me, so why in the hell would you want to spendyour Christmas Holidays with me, the bane of your existent?

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Oh so Im here because you were forced to take me in? Because I dont have anyone else who couldtake me in? Well dont I just feel so special, unwanted and unloved at Christmas, but hey thats nothingnew. Harry replied bitterly.

Enough Potter that is not what I said, and that is not true in the slightest. No one can force me to doanything I dont want to do. You are here because you need to be here, and I want you here, Severussaid through gritted teeth.

Even if that sentence was only partly true at the time, he needed to establish a bit of connection withthe child or this would never work. How could they learn to get along if they were always fighting withone another?

Oh isnt it? Hogwarts has ears everywhere sir; you of all people should know that. But dont worry Imused to not being wanted, and after the holidays we can go back to our normal behavior if you wish.Harry responded dismissively, and rolling his eyes to the ceiling.

You insufferable brat, would you just shut up and listen to me for once? He yelled finally unable tohold his anger in.

Taking deep breaths to calm himself he looked down at the child to see that he was for once listening tohim, but he also had his arms covering his head like he was expecting a hit.

Im not going to hit you Potter, not now, not ever. I may be a greasy git but I dont hit children, nomatter how annoying they get. Severus said tiredly, running his hand through his hair.

Thats what Sirius said, and look how that turned out. Harry murmured softly.

I am not your godfather, have you ever known me not to keep my word? Severus quietly said.

No sir, Harry answered softly.

And I wont start now, you are not the first child to annoy me and I doubt youll be the last.

Then why do you teach, if kids annoy you so much? Harry asked curiously.

Thats complicated Potter, Severus answered vaguely.

Whats so complicated about it? Harry asked casually changing the subject.

That was a Slytherin move Mr. Potter, but do not attempt to change the tone of the conversation whenwe are in fact here to talk about you.

Harry flushed red, if it only had of been anyone else, he could have gotten away with it. Running hishand through his hair, he really did not want to have this conversation.

Sorry sir, he whispered.

Its fine Potter, why didnt you inform anyone of your home life?

I tried to tell the Headmaster, but he brushed it off.Why didnt you tell another Professor then?

Who would I have told, my Head of House is Dumbledores friend, and Im not really close withanyone else except Hagrid.


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Severus stopped himself from voicing his question, on why the boy didnt think to ask him. He knewexactly why Harry didnt come to him, he had made this childs life miserable his school days, and ofcourse he wouldnt allow himself to be vulnerable against and enemy.

How did you find out about the Durselys Professor?

Dumbledore got a floo call from Arabella.

Harry nodded to himself, wondering why the man didnt do that sooner, like back when he asked inhis first year. They lapsed into silence where Harry sat there feeling awkward about not saying anything.Something was on his mind though, and he couldnt help feeling like he was at fault here. He foundhimself wanting to ask Snape about a solution to that problem.

Professor, do you think I over-reacted? Harry finally whispered out.

About what Potter? Severus asked looking up at him from his book.

About Sirius, do you think maybe I should have just let it go? Harry asked genuinely wanting to knowwhat he thought. Since when did he care what Snape thought of something?

And why do you think you are at fault Potter? Severus asked tightly.

Because I think I over reacted sir, so he grabbed me sir. But Ive had a lot worse, and maybe he didnteven mean to do that. By the end of his explanation Harry was trying to justify his godfathers actions tohimself.

But you shouldnt have Harry, what he did even if it was an accident was inexcusable. If you dont thinkIm right, then for once listen to Mr. Weasley because he and I seemed to be in agreement for once.

Harry said nothing he just nodded that he did understand what the man was trying to say, but there was a

part of him of him that didnt truly believe what the man had said. If only he could talk to Sirius for just afew minutes and they could straighten everything out, and maybe they could go back to normal. But howwas he going to do that?

To be continued...

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Author's Notes:

I updated this...YAY! I had to get in a state of depression so I could write howHarry was feeling. RL is currently in the way at the moment, but I will try toupdate as soon as I can.

I was listening to My immortal by Evanesence when I wrote this so I couldcapture the sad mood.

Dream Sequence

Harry stood up silently as Snape returned to his book. He didnt wanna be in the man's companyanymore, especially if his Professor decided to ask some more questions he couldnt really answer.

"I'm gonna go lie down," he murmured, unsure if the man even heard him.

As short as that conversation was it seemed to have tired him out, then again it could be from him tryingto figure out what to do about his godfather.Though Snape had said he was staying with him because he wanted him there it still very hard to believe.Against his will Harry found himself convincing himself that Snape calling him his child last night wasall a dream. By the time he reached his room, he was borderline depressed. Falling on his beddramatically, he tried to think of a plan to visit Sirius.

He knew he should have agreed with his godfather, even if he didnt actually mean it. Sirius wasprobably feeling like Harry was betraying him or something. He really needed to speak with him; he justdidnt know how to go about it. Harry laid there on his bed, drifting off into an uneasy sleep. He woke upto Snape calling him for lunch, and he sighed softly before wiping his sweaty forehead. He had a pretty

nasty dream and was grateful that it didnt progress that far. What was putting him on edge was thepossibility a nightmare occurring that night.

He knew from the boys in his dorm that he could be pretty loud depending on how severe the dream was.He figured Snape wouldnt appreciate that in the slightest. After all who would enjoy getting woken upfrom a blood curdling scream. He frowned unconsciously as he made his way to the kitchen and taking aseat at the table. Out of habit he waited for Snape to serve himself, but he looked at the man in confusionwhen he didnt move to grab anything. 30 seconds went by before Harry finally spoke, confusion clear inhis tone.

"Um Professor, why arent you eating, Harry asked curiously"

"I dont think I'm hungry today," Severus replied neutrally.

Harry frowned as his stomach growled softly, what was he supposed to do now?

"By all means Harry, dont let me stop you from enjoying yourself," Severus replied, hoping Harrywould grab some food on his own. Though Harry explained to him, he still couldnt understand how norwhy the Durselys demanded he wasnt allowed to eat before them. So if they didnt eat one day, did thesame apply to Harry?

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he had been without meals before he could last until dinner. If anything this was nothing, sometimes hehad to go a whole day without food.

"Arent you going to eat Mr. Potter?" Severus asked casually."No sir, I guess I'm not too hungry either," Harry replied softly, before forcing his gaze away from thefood.

Severus inwardly moaned, this wasnt what he wanted to happen. The child had to know that he could

still eat, even if he didnt."Are you sure?" Severus asked skeptically.

Harry glanced up at the food, his eyes lingering on the mashed potatoes especially before shaking hishead and responding.

"No sir, May I be excused now?" Harry asked, knowing he still had quite a bit of treats from theirHoneydukes trip. Though it wasnt filling it would take the edge off his hunger.

Severus quirked an eyebrow, did the boy even realize what he had said?

"Youre not sure Mr. Potter?" He asked.

Harry blanched before shaking his head once.

"I meant I am sure sir; can I be excused?" He asked uneasily just wanting to get out of here.

Severus shook his head and groaned inwardly before getting up from his chair and deliberately coming tostand next to Harry. He felt the boy tense next to him, and not wanting to cause another panic attack hequickly served him.

"Professor what are you doing? I said I wasnt hungry remember?" Harry asked swallowing hard as helooked at the food on his now full plate.

"Just eat child," Severus murmured tiredly before going back to his place.

Harry stared at the man in shock, what was the catch? He could eat but what did the man want him to do?He nodded gratefully hoping it wouldn't be too hard, before grabbing his fork and scooping up somemashed potatoes. He noticed the man serve himself and Harry relaxed ever so slightly. Unconsciouslymoving his free arm in a defensive position; lest his plate get taken away, he slowly started eating.

Severus noticed the position but ignore it for the time being, not wanting to upset him.

Harry finished his lunch quietly before waiting to be excused. He was surprised that Snape wasnt givinghim any chores but he just assumed the man would eventually. He grabbed his broom and flew aroundfor a few hours. He came in about an hour before dinner exhausted. Walking to his room, he flopped onthe bed and was out like a light. He didnt even stir when Snape was calling him for dinner.

Severus growled silently to himself as the boy ignored his calls. If the child wasnt so skinny he wouldntcare if he skipped a meal. But seeing as the boy couldnt afford to skip a meal this was a problem.Trudging up the stairs he walked quickly to Harry's room and opened it. Walking into the room he couldsee the crooked glasses on the boys face, but his breathing was even.

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boy would sleep through the night he gently removed his glasses. Gently flicking his wand and hechanged him into pajamas before tucking him under the covers. By the end of the break he would

probably be good at this child caring thing. Unable to resist he brushed the soft hair from Harrysforehead, wishing that for once this child didnt have to suffer anymore. Lilys child didnt deserve this;he didnt deserve to carry such a heavy burden. Sighing softly he headed out the room closely the door

behind him, before going back downstairs.

Harry slept peacefully for awhile until a little bit after 1:30am, when he was suddenly tossing and turning

in his bed. Snape had already gone to his room and was in bed asleep. He groaned as he tossed as his theimages played out in his dream.

Harry was in a forest, he was lost and he couldnt get out. He heard something behind him and he tookoff running, glancing back he saw the giant spiders from his 2nd year. As he was running he couldnt seethrough all the brush and he tripped. When he tried to stand up he was shocked to find himself in a darkcramped space, which he recognized instantly as his cupboard. Allowing his heart to slow down, as hecontemplated what he was doing here until he heard the thundering footsteps above him. He swallowedhard as he heard his Uncles voice get closer and closer to him. He tensed up and froze when the door tohis cupboard finally opened and he was yanked out. He brought his hands up protectively knowing thatthey would do no good, as his Uncle prepared to teach him a lesson. He learned early on not to scream,

that only made it worse. He couldnt stop the silent tears that poured freely down his face as he

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