when the dam breaks: (tears of a weeping butterfly)

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When The Dam Breaks:Tears of a Weeping Butterfly

BYMoshia Pen


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Copyright 2013 Moshia Pen

All rights reserved

ISBN-13: 978-1482083835

ISBN-10: 1482083833


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...you know that a good, long session of

weeping can often make you feel better, even

if your circumstances have not changed one

bit.

Lemony Snicket,The Bad Beginning
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CONTENTSTEARS--------------------------------- vii

STOLEN COOKIES------------------------ viii

WHEN THE DAM BREAKS------------ ix

PEKA------------------------------------------------- x

INEVITABLE-------------------------------- xi

THE MIRROR------------------------------- xiii

TAKING SUGGESTIONS------------ xiv

GRATTITUDE FOR WATTER----- xvi

LOVE REVOLUTION---------------------- xvii

GET OFF----------------------------------- xx


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TEARSI am 50 shades of blue

The water keeps seeping through my windowsOut through the pains

It rainsIt rainsIt rains

In London and in Spain

It rains in BangladeshIt rains in VancouverI am 50 hues of black

Dark and destructiveMy thoughts

are obstructing my view

Whenever I think of youIt rains....


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STOLEN COOKIESHe stole my cookies,

My gift to my husband!He stole my identity

He stole from my children.He stole my strength,My will to fight!

He stole my hopes for the future,He stole my light.

When he stole my cookies

He stole my life....


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WHEN THE DAM BREAKSI have so much to say

But I shy-clam-upI start out great but get nervous

The day soon approaches when I'll dropthese crutches

When these insignificantInsufficiencies no longer hold sway

The dancing and merriment to be experienced

that dayYou can only hold water back so long

One day it will swell and break the damWhat a day that will be

Then you'll see me for who I am...


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PEKAI opened my arms and held youIn the realm you originated

When your spirit visited

I was so inquisitive to know youTo smell your fragranceAnd touch your soft skin

You breathed me inAnd I exhaled you

Now beautiful and free with brand new

garmentsThe moment I saw youMy heart fell softened

And I emptied my vesselTo see you grow

Then my heart was shattered as I watched

you go...


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INEVITABLEI am inevitable like growth and change

I'm the explosion that created us

Like the Phoenix crashed and burnedUnder the surface life was lurkingAnd pulled back the curtain

For cultivationLike a daisy breaking through the concrete to

greet the sun

The journey may be toughBut the rewards outweighs the sacrifice

After the battle we celebrate

But uncertainty is our posture

Through the pasturewe foster our dreams or fears

Breathe them in the air and manifestI am inevitable

I was called forthSo mother spit me out her mouth

And so I amInevitable

ImpenetrableUnbreakable


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Yet unstable like a volcanoYou just never know which one is gonna blow

first...


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THE MIRRORI can see the tears welling up in my eyes

They cry so oftenSoftening my resolve

Every obstacle an un-solved mysteryConstantly repeating history

Joy stealers lurkStudying contention

Holding hate conventionsSpreading dissension and lies

With transparent alibisAnd wicked eyes

They will destroy everything in their path andlaugh at you

Regardless of all the good you doTheir heart is black towards you

Is there a place I can run toWhere the wicked can't come to?

Not on this plane

Where light hides behind the darknessAnd watch as it flourishes

Mourning its demiseWith swollen bloodshot eyes


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TAKING SUGGESTIONSI am open to suggestions

Who has the solution?I am open to forgiveness

but my soul screams retributionWhats her excuse for prostituting her

children?What's yours?

Of course you are exempt

You exclude yourself from punishmentYet punish the compoundwith your crew and your whip

Circling the weak like vultures in a valley

following the stench...We are indignant with your treatment

We are mortified and enraged

Yet we rot from the insideInstead of setting the pace

We are weak and feeble and incapable at bestSo we act out our anger and puff out our

chestsTake it out on our neighbor


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and the children nearbySince we can't rebuke the source that's

making us cryI try to rise above itbut my feet get entangled

and I fall back to the groundThen they kick me because I'm down

but I'm open to suggestionsAnyone have a clue?

Enlighten meCause I'm so through...


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GRATITUDE FOR WATERI am water@least 70%

I am water

And it's no accidentAs above so belowIt's in the cloudsIt's in the snowIt's in the airIt's in the rain

Without water we wouldn't remainIt's the tears I cried

The lake, the riverThe plant, the flowerThe trees and fruits

And vegetationWater it would seem

is our salvationWe need it to cook

To batheTo breathe

And if you cut meI bleedWater...


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LOVE REVOLUTIONWhen will I let this thing go?

What's the purpose of holding on so strong tosomething for so long that doesn't serve me?

Expending negative thoughtsand wasting energyWhat is the meaning,

When my heart craves changeI stand here willingly

Complaining that its killing meWhile it's filling me with rage

Stranger than fiction

Too complex to decipher

I don't want to be herebut I can't leave here neither

I know I canSo what holds me hostage?

Whose prisoner am I supposed to be?

Could it be I am in positionFor loves retribution

Could it beThat I am obsessing


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Because I'm destinedTo start a revolution

Women against destroying virtueI know they disregard us as simple

Weak and futileBut I dare them to run one mile

Without womb-manRun as fast as you can

You'll get nowhere

Where would you be now

if I aborted youShirked my responsibilityTo bare and nurture your offsprings

These things happen too often

But have we ever stopped to ask why

When we spit in the sky it falls in our eyesThe truth is an offense

So we camouflage with false pretenseand ulterior motives

Instead of being devoted to each otherWe frustrate kindness

And act from blindnessSo, when will I let this thing go?

I won't let gountil you learn to love me


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I won't stop until you purify your thinkingI will not let go until you cease operating

from your baser instinctsYour lower chakra

I won't let go until the struggle is overNot until you understand

And transmute that negativeTo a positive

One...


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GET OFFEvery time you lie to me

You die to me a little moreI bend

And calmly retrieve my hearts piecesFrom the floor

Once you were my worldNow; just a dark corner

I respected you

Now; I scorn youWith all your dramaHow did you fall so far from graceWhen once you were a god to me?

Now fed up with all your fallacies

How could you get caught with your handsburning?

Yet still deny the fire?You're not learning

So you just keep at it

while I watch youburn to ashes

I don't know where you wentAnd I don't know who this is


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Perhaps while I was unawareYou snuck in your representative

I can only ascertain from your actionsYou haven't an ounce of remorse

When I find rest in loveYour decisions shame meI try to work it out

But I still can't change me

I despise your foul offering of halfheartedcommitment

I won't pretend I agree with your positionYou can do betterand I expect the best

Are you suggesting I dumb downAnd come down to where you want me?

I disdain that I must disappoint

But that's not what was taught to meIf you want me

Give your heart to meBe a part of me

Work with and not against me

Your empty promises leave me hallow andjaded

We would have made it if you were honestBut true love requires letting go of your heart


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To grab hold of mineYou kept yours in your palms fisted the whole

timeYou weren't open to receive me

Or you wouldn't deceive me so oftenDeception alienated the tender heartThe roller coaster rolled on endlessly

I had to get offEven though it was heart wrenching

My soul was parched and needed tendingSo I freed myself from bondageThen time healed all the damage

Once I got off...


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