yellow, a regular teenage story

8/13/2019 Yellow, A Regular Teenage Story

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#YELLOW[A REGULAR TEENAGE STORY TOLD IN NOTHING BUT BAD TEENAGE POEMS]

ENJOY IT


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This book is calledYELLOWbecause that was one of the

songs you told me to listen while we were in class, and I looked

for the lyrics just to sing it along with you.

And I loved how we sounded together.

And I also looked for a thousand more lyrics of songs you told

me to listen, but this one was special because it described what

was going on inside my head while I was staring at you.

[Yel low Coldplay]

You might not remember all of these, but I do. And its all crystal

clear in my head.

This book is all about you and everything that I recall of those

thirteen months. I hope that somehow youll find it and youll

remember me.

This is no fake story. This is how it all happened. This is how I

felt.

I really really really

really fuck ingloved you.


3/33

Watching the tide

Watching you come was the best part

And seeing you leave

The worst of all

But everyone talks about the middle

And I worry a lot

Because they remember

More than you do

New in class

Its kind of funny

The way we met

I was running to my class

And I bumped into you

And you tossed your backpack

And I thought

>

But then I noticed you were

H O T

And we both smiled

And that was the moment

I knew that in a while

It would be a goodbye


4/33

Fire

My eyes were on fire

The exact minute we saw

Each other for the first time

But it wasnt love

It was anger

Because I hated you

And you hated me

And we were going

To love each other

But it wasnt revealed yet

Nickname

We were playing in class

And I loved to call you names

Because I felt nothing but hate

So alongside my friend

We created the perfect nickname

And I recall it

Every single fucking day


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Other

And you talked about this girl

And how flawless she was

And what about me?

Oh !I forgot

I was too little at first

Then

Too much

Giulia

This was her name

No doubt how I cant forget

She was a vegan

And you were her lettuce

How stupid that sounds

But to me

You were all the food

Of the entire world

*(And God knows I love food)

I wont say it again

I cant say her last name

Im not allowed

Neither to say yours

But the people we knew

Knew that her last name was cool

But it didnt suit yours

Also her face

Was prettier than the sun


6/33

Truth

Truth is I was just jealous

And I didnt understand why

You were only becoming my friend

Maybe because you were hot

I knew Giulia was your girlfriend

Yet I was afraid to ask why

The found paper note

I used to keep

Paper notes in my pencil case

And by mistake

I kept a note that said

Oh! I think thisnew guy is great

And you found it

As soon as that we became friends

And you laughed

And I laughed too

The question

I remember asking you

If you still had a girlfriend

And you said Yes, I just dont want my family to found out

And my lonely heart broke again and again and again


7/33

School

And day by day

We became more than good friends

But I was afraid

That I might see you

Only as a friend

But thank God that was not the case

Because every day I was absent

You were lost without me

And I was lost without you

Every time you disappeared

Vanished

I was told why you disappeared

Because we were best friends

And you needed my help

And they knew I was the only one

Who was able to help

Because you were afraid

Not a normal fear

But a medicated problem

Finally I understood the reason

Why you liked to make fun of people

Reason

And it wasnt until then

When I discovered that you had flaws

That I truly realized

I loved my best friend

And I could not tell at all


8/33

Bracelet

Just before spring break

They told us to do

A gift to our mothers

On the mothers day

And we made a newspaper bracelet

Obviously recycled

As you slowly told me

I just broke up with my girlfriend

Start all over

But there was a thing with you

You were this cocky person

So cocky

And your main problem was

Getting used to new places

So

After spring break was over

You forgot all the things we shared

So

I had to start

All over again

To little by little

Make you fall for me


9/33

Story teller

We were chosen to be story tellers

In a presentation

And I was so thankful that we were damn good at it

And everything began there

The looks

The glances

The stares

The holding sight

The bright eyes

The trippy words

Coming from our mouths

Laughs

I couldnt resist laughing with you

And you couldnt help making me laugh

And we couldnt fight

The start of a teenage love story

Something

Everyone knew

Something was going on between us

But nothing was sure to them

Until the day

Our teacher caught us

Holding hands

Beneath the desks


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Friends

My friends started to ask

But I wouldnt tell

Because I was still afraid

You might go back to her

Because we were nothing

But best friends

Unheard Talk

And I heard you talking to him

About Giulia

About how she begged her apology

About how you wanted to forgive her

And you said she was hot

And that was the reason

They were pushing you to forgive her

And my tiny heart splatted

Down the middle

But I couldnt complain

FUCKING

That night I would hav e fucked her, we were so drunk you said.

You should have they said.

But you were not talking about me.


11/33

ASSHOLE

Asshole

Asshole

That week

I wrote a thousand songs

To put you into hell

Songs you might never hear

Songs I wrote with all my soul

Life Saver

The bell rang

It was the end of the school day

And Anna (a friend) ran to tell me

This is what I saw, a guy was going to dri nk from your bottle of water without

your permission and he (you) took your bottle and said that no on e could drink

from it but you, he defended you!

I thought

And then Anna said

Then he told to his friends What? Shes pretty

And I died on the inside

I loved you


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Second chance

My heart wanted to give you a second chance

So I did

And I have no regrets

Because the best time started

And you started to call

Every single night


13/33

Yellow

One day while we were doing nothing in class

And we were sitting on the floor

You approached to me

And said

Please listen to this song

And it started

Look at the stars look how they shine for you

It was a Coldplay song

And I fell even harder for you

Songs

Yellow - Coldplay

Ai seu te pego Michelle Telo

Worlds apart The Mostar Diving Club

Closer to the edge 30 Seconds to Mars

Donald Trump Mac Miller

She will be loved Maroon 5

Lose Yourself Eminem

You cant always get what you want The Rolling stones

This are some songs we used to sing together


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Phone call

That phone call when you called me Babe

And I pretended I didnt hear

Sure I heard

I just couldnt believe it wasnt a dream

Next day

You said it again

At loud

And I smiled because you also did

Lap

We saw a movie in class

It was really good

But you fell asleep

In my lap

And I touched you golden hair

While no one was watching

And you smiled in your sleep

And held my hand

And everyone noticed

But we didnt care

Lift

We liked to avoid classes

So you used the excuse of your anxiety

To said that you needed me there

And sure we lost a lot of hours

And swap them for infinite memories

In which you lift me from the ground

And kissed my face


15/33

Touch me not

As trust grew stronger

We sit next to each other in class

We played volleyball in recess

And it was not enough

You told my friends that you were in love with me

But it was hard

And then the touch started

And we couldnt resist

Not touching each other

Pencil

I remember that day

Like it was yesterday

You said you lost your pencil

So we went to ask for another

As we walked

You held my hips

Softly

Carefully

And with a touch of lust

Touch

The first time you touched my legs with lust I was scared

The second time I felt butterflies

And the third I was yours to make love forever


16/33

Finished test

I was exonerated from a test

And you finished yours

I was in the library

You asked to go to the bathroom

And met me

You sneaked in and sat next to me

Your fingers crossed mine

Until a teacher came by

Your face could not hide

That you were having fun

And as he left

You kissed my cheek

And asked to kiss you back

More

Teachers knew we were lovebirds

Despite your attempts to hide us

Your mother found out

I remember her telling my mother

She is the only girl he treats right

But I was smarter

And told my mother you were just a kid

Who was in love with me

And she believed me

But I did not

Believed myself


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Him

The last week of the school year

One of your friends said that

We should be together

And I denied it

And you said that maybe next year

Weekend

That weekend he said that you said

That the reason why we were not

An item yet

Was because your father was special

And he wanted a girl like Giulia

But I wasnt like Giulia

I was like me

Conversations

There was this border guy

Who once was my friend

And he hated us together

He was kind of jealous

And that time

He yelled to us get a room!

And you threw a bottle at his face

And you aimed it


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Afternoon conversations

We talked about the bottle incident

And you told me that you will never hurt me

And that you will protect me forever

And I believed you

That afternoon

Goodbye

It was the goodbye

The last day of school

And you gave me the longest hug

And the more passionate kiss on the cheek Ive ever felt

And when you lowed your hand a little bit too lower

I said respect please

But you knew I meant

Keep going

Not finished yet

But before going to my house

I bumped into you again

And this time you hugged me

Harder

Closer

Tightly

And placed your hands on my lower back saying

SoIs this spot okay?


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Care

And again it was not the end

I forgot the closing ceremony

Because I thought you were not coming

But you did

And I met your mom

And she congratulate me

Because I won a prize

For being smart

And she told me to keep taking care of you

A lonely heart summer

I knew it would be like that

We didnt speak the whole summer

And I used to look for you in crowds

But I never found you

And you said I would see you next year with long curly hair

But you cut it off

And you took pictures with other girls

So I took pictures with other guys

And I never had the courage to stark a small talk

So I waited

And waited

And waited

Until you talked to me

To ask for my notebooks

Because you had to take the summer school

And someone came to my house to pick them up

But it wasnt you


20/33

Spent

I spent the whole summer loving you

In my head

In my memory

But I will never know

If you spent yours

Thinking of me

Ball of fur

Back to school

Never happier

I saw your golden hair

And your smile

And the first time we saw each other

After that much

You smiled

With your eyes

And they gave us a ball of fur

To pass it on to tell our summer stories

OH! You were so tanned

And guess what

You passed it on to me

And everybody

Made fun of it


21/33

Clock

The time did not passed to us

We were still to kids in love

Well Im still a kid

But not in love

And as that week kept moving forward

You played basketball with my brother

And asked me to go out

For the first time

And I had to betray my best friend

To give you that chance

People

I met new people

New friends

But they did not know about us

Thats why when they kicked you out of the school

Only a few saw my wounds


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UNFLAWLESS MOMENT

They kicked you out

And I could not stop it

Though I tried

You tried to punch a guy

And he broke your nose

And I cried

And all the promises went away

Our first date

Gone

Our never given first kiss

Gone

Our night of love

Gone

We never had that

And I was afraid we will never

Ever see each other again


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Fear and fate

We never saw each other again

But we kept talking on the phone

And you said you missed me

And I cried while we were speaking

And you told me not to

Because it was your fault

And you made me listen

Closer to the edge

And I did

Though I still havent understood why

Final conversation

The last real conversation we had

Was perfect

And we never told each other

That we were in love

So its only in our hearts

And we never kissed

And we never touched again

And we have not meet again

Then

Then I tried to reach you

Months later

And when I asked for you

You only said that you were okay

And I finally thought

This is the last time


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Most nights

I spent the following eight months

Praying that you would talk to me

But you never did

So little by little

I tried to forget

And Im doing okay now

Okay

Its okay

I do not cry anymore

I just think about how perfect we were

And relive all the memories I can

I still reach for you in the crowds

I know I know Its sick

But thats me now

And then theres you

Having a bash without me

But I also noticed that you are still single

So do I

Maybe

Just maybe

You are also waiting for me

To call


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FINAL POEMS[This are some of the poems I wrote about you after we stopped seeing each other]


26/33

Fix you

You fixed me

In so many ways

I cant count them all

I fixed you

Just to feel brave

Because you were

The bravest man

The Earth has known

Even though

Youre not yet known

All around the globe

Not yet

Not yet

Because youre not theirs

Youre mine


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This next poem is the best one Ive ever written, and it is about you. Its originally written in

Spanish so Im including both versions.


28/33

Iridiscente

Te quiero

Perdn, ella te quiso

Y lo ms triste es, que jams sabrs

Lo hermoso que fuiste para ella

Te presentaste como un ser

iridiscente

Al que nadie se le comparaba

Al que ella le hubiera entregado todo

Incluso las cosas que no se

obsequian

Pues llegaste a tocar partes de ella

Que no pertenecan a su cuerpo

Y te am

Y lo hizo con locura

Y ella quera ser feliz

Aunque no fueses real del todo

Porque la queras

Ms aun de lo que ella a ti

Y estos das

Pese a que no hablen

Se pregunta cmo ests

Y por dnde andas

Pues recuerda claramente

La ltima vez que hablaron

Y fue todo tan perfecto

Como el nmero ureo

Y no comprendi

Si no, hasta ahora

Por qu cuando te dijo hasta luego

Le respondiste adis

Y busc tus fotos de pequeo

Y llor mientras las vea

Y como an te quera

Estaba paralizada por tus recuerdos

Pero ms tarde se acord

En la mitad de su risa

Que quera contarte todo esto

Y se entristeci de nuevo

Y aunque el sol brillaba para ti

Ella esperaba que la recordaras

Que recordaras que una vez quisiste

quedarte

Que aprendiste a amarla

Que la deseabas

Y sola extraarte tanto

Tanto que le dola

Pero jams sinti que t lo hicieras

As que luego de un tiempo

Tambin dej de hacerlo

Pero te quise,

Perdn, ella te quiso.


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Iridescent

I love you,

Sorry, she did

And the saddest part is, that you will never know

How beautiful you were to her

You introduced yourself as an iridescent being

One with no comparison

One that she would have given all to

Even the things you are no supposed to give

Because you got to touch parts of her

That did not belong to her body

And she loved you

With madness

And she wanted to be happy

Though you were not all real

Because you wanted her

Even more than how she wanted you

And these days

Although you do not speak

She wonders how you are doing

And where you are

Because she remembers clearly

The last time you spoke

And it all was perfect


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Like the Golden number

And she did not understood

Until now

The reason why when she said goodnight

You answered goodbye

And she looked for your childhood photographs

And cried while she stared at them

And because she still loved you

She was paralyzed by your memories

But later she recall

While she was laughing

That she wanted to tell you this

And she broke down again

And even though the sun was up

She was hoping you still remember her

That you would recall that once you wanted to stay

That you leant how to love her

That you wanted her

And she used to miss you so much

That it hurt her

But she never felt you missing her back

So after a while

She also stopped

But I loved you,

Sorry, She did.


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And it s you.

And it s st ill sad be cause I kn ew th is wo uld hap pe n

And it s a li ttl e bi t sa d that yo u knew I lov ed you

And Im sad be ca us e my me mo ry of you is still here

And Im try ing no t to be sad be cause yo u ar e no t yo u an ym or e

And it s st ill funny the butt er fl ie s I ge t when I rem em be r

And it s a li ttl e bi t funny I do no t laug h that muc h anym or e

And Im funny be cause I st il l smi le as much as be fo re

And Im trying not to be funny because I fake those smiles

And it s st ill bitt er sweet when I th ink of your eye s

And it s a li ttl e bi t bit ters we et that the y we re as pr ett y as car am el

And Im bi tter sweet be caus e I kno w I m ne it he r sw ee t nor bit te r

And Im trying not to be bittersweet because you liked coffee

And it s st ill sar cas tic that thi s is no sarcas m

And it s a li ttl e bi t sarcas ti c that yo u le ft me any ways

And Im sarcast ic be cau se I di d lo ve yo u and not, at the same tim e

And Im try ing no t to be sarcast ic bec aus e ma ybe yo u ll se e I st il l care

And it s st ill hila rious bec ause it s co ld

And it s a li ttl e bi t hil ar ious th os e thr ee wo rds

And Im hi lar ious bec ause I ne ve r to ld yo u wh at they me ant

And Im try ing no t to be hi la ri ou s so th at yo u wi ll be lieve all of these.


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Collide

I wonder

When was the first time

You found me pretty?

Or when did you first

Fell in love with me?

Was it me at all?

Or was I just an idea

Mixed up with dust?

Fate made it all

Did you know?

It made us collide

Fire to ashes

Water to smoke

With the strength of a tsunami

Right after a storm

We fell for each other

Just a little bit

Of a little too much

But not for long enough


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And thats the whole story

Sorry if I disappointed you

If you want to know something more

Please write [email protected]

And if you know the guy Im talking about

Please tell him to read this

This was written for him.

And if think you know me

Please do not ask me about this.

With love,

A girl who once was a lovebird.
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